O.k. I just got done bingeing again. I am soooo out of control, that I'm starting to feel like I did before I started losing weight again. I'm back to waking up in the morning and saying that I'm going to clean up my act today, and then by the evening, falling off again. No more! I am sick and tired of feeling like this. So here goes. I will start posting up everyday whether or not I stuck to my eating plan. I think I will be a lot more motivated to stick to it if I know that I have to post it up. If anyone else out there has the same problem with this, then I welcome you to post up with me daily......at least for a week. I'm not going to sell my dream for a piece of pizza! Today I blew it big time! Tomorrow is another day to succeed!

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Oh Marianne,
Is it something in the air or water that makes us binge? I wish there was a simple answer. I'm glad you decided to post here everyday and I'd like to join you.
I've had breakfast so far: 2 eggs, one slice of cheese and coffee and milk.
Just came from the dental hygienest - major yuck. I will do my best to not binge for today. Thinking of you... we can do it, others in bad situations have succeeded...
Regards,
Mer

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Marianne, I sure hope your day yesterday and your chat room experience last night didn't contribute to that binge. Try keeping things in the house that won't hurt that much if you feel a binge coming on. WW's pizza's are nice if you get crazy for pizza, too. I always keep one or two in the house if my hubby wants pizza and I don't want to indulge. Have you tried the 10 minute thing that Richard Simmons suggests? When you feel like bingeing, set a timer for 10 minutes and DON'T do it until that time passes..... most of the time the urge will pass and you'll be safe. Don't beat yourself up. Being accountable by posting every day should help big time. You have a lot going on right now. Be kind and gentle with yourself. Treat yourself no differently than you'd treat someone else in your shoes. You deserve it, too..... Take care and have a good day today.

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Here's to healthy and happy!

Dj

Dj is right (as ever!). Be nice to yourself. You deserve it. Unconsciously, or even consciously you hate yourself and you are trying to punish yourself (this is only my opinion.........). Don't. You've done nothing wrong. Slow yourself down a bit and take it a half day at a time. Getting out the cycle is the hardest part. I know you can.
Please post tomorrow and let us know how you are. You deserve success.

-Lucy

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I will join you.
I need to be honest with myself, and posting everything, seeing it in print, will help. I personally don't think of this as a way to force myself to eat better, but I just don't write it down. You know, "where's that pen? Oh, I'll do it at lunch. I don't need to wite it down, I know I ate it." I have never been able to keep an accurate food journal for even ONE DAY. But I always hit DT, so I will commit to a week long posting journal. ("Where'd I leave that computer?")

As of 10:40am
one SF shake (8oz. milk, one banana)
slice toast
8 oz glass milk
12 animal cookies w/ sprinkles ( http://www.diettalk.com/uub//rolleyes.gif )
large cup coffee cr. & sugar

I'll edit in the rest here later.
And looking at this I'm reminded, gotta go drink some water

Back later :)

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Ok, now it's 9:45
and why oh why do I always open my big mouth?
What a snack atttack day I have had.

2 peaches
2 apples
another SF shake
big piece of watermelon
10 lo-salt saltines
bowl of cereal
1 cup of lo-fat cottage cheese

3 20oz. glasses of water

Jeez Louise

I really hate days like this, where I just graze along from one thing to the next. I nickle and dime myself to death. No wonder I'm stuck.

(Deep breath) Tomorrow is another day.

Right?
Right!
:)
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Marianne: Late afternoon and evenings seem to be my worse time of the day. This is when I start feeling the craving for things I know I shouldn't have. The only thing that helps me during this rough time, is doing something to take my mind off of food. For example, find a hobby that you enjoy doing, take a walk, get on the computer to DT and chat. I find this helps me. I still break down occasionally and have something I know I should not be eating. We all are human and we are going to fall off the wagon. The main thing is to get back on the wagon and "start over". You are never a failure until you quit trying. Good luck sweetie.

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Everyone has given Marianne good advise especially about not beating yourself up however, when you have as much weight to loose as we do how do you do it with slip ups? Maybe I'm just too nice to myself but my slip-ups are what keep me from loosing weight. If I'm bad - I gain, OK with a few slips - status quo and I have to be perfect to loose weight.

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Diamondgail, There is no such thing as perfect... there's reasonable & healthy, but no perfect. Maybe if you haven't been successful with losing weight before that might be why. You set yourself up to fail when you give yourself an impossible task. Give yourself a break and realize that you can't be "bad" because you ate something. No food is worth labeling yourself with that very negative word. It takes a lot of energy to be guilty and beat yourself up all the time because you think you've been bad. Relax.... go with the flow...... and you'll get there and have energy to spare. Take care....

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Here's to healthy and happy!

Dj

Well, today has been the first day back on track, watching what I eat again. I am happy (so happy) to report that I have been a success today! I was running late this morning, so I forgot to eat breakfast,however, I did finally grab a breakfast bar at work. I ate chicken soup for lunch and half a cup of brown rice, and ate the same for dinner except I had a cup and a half of soup, and a cup of rice. I ate a salad with my dinner. What a difference it made to eat a salad again. I will finish drinking the rest of my water before I turn in in a couple of hours. The food thing was great, but most importantly it was the responses and words of encouragement I received that made the difference I think. Thanks guys. It has been a really rough spot for me. In difficult times, my eating always tends to suffer. I also was trying something to wear to my son's Back To School Night, and I was so depressed. I couldn't really find anything to wear. Then I went into my closet and saw a dress that I hadn't worn in years. It's a size 22. I remember last time trying to get it on, and I couldn't even get it over my stomach. It fit today!! It still is tight over my stomach, but It kind of fit everywhere else! Thanks everybody! Mer, I'm with you! DJ,thanks once again for helping me to not be so hard on myself. Kirbs, thanks for your kind words as well. Half a day at a time really helps to stay focused on the present moment and having success minute by minute. Dosflores- you can do it, I've never really kept a food journal either. I know we can make it.Weiner,and Diamondgail thanks for your concern and tips. Good luck and best wishes to everyone!

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I'm probably the worst person to give advice on bingeing. I gained weight by bingeing at meals but I never ate between meals. I was always stuffed I guess. lol. I'm the one who always wanted to hit the all you can eat places when out shopping (I love to shop!) so that was several times a week. I do keep a food and exercise journal. Being able to see what I'm eating and making myself go for that walk really helps me. That and reading the posts here on the bulletin board.BillieLeigh

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Billie Leigh, one thing I learned a couple years ago was NO buffets or all you can eat resturants. My husband and I eat out a lot and I think you can do it without blowing your diet but not at all you can eat places. In fact I do better eating out instead of cooking at home because I tend to eat as I cook and clean-up - and eat the meal too! At a resturant all I get is the food on my plate. Sounds like great rational for eating out to me!! :-)

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I did do well today, I swear. Everything was perfect. I didn't eat off my plan, and even got some exercise in........until about 10:30 this evening. Everything was downhill from there. There was some fast food in the house, and I ate it. McDonald's. I'm not even feeling really depressed about it, just really want to kick myself in the butt. I was soooo close. Just got home from running around doing last minute shopping. I am beat! I know I'll even be more tired trying to get up tomorrow morning. Well,tomorrow the sun will come out. I've got such a stressful day tomorrow.(much like everyone else I'm sure.) Well, Saturday is my weigh in. Not looking forward to it, but I've not totally thrown in the towel yet. Goodnight everyone. Good luck to you all.

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Hi Marianne,
I too am struggling with overeating-
you, however have managed to get thru almost all of the day without binging. Lots of people have posted the 80% / 20% thing... sounds to me as if you succeeded at 80% today, maybe tomorrow will get you to 85%...
Thinking of you,
Mer

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Well, I did do better today. No bingeing, and even though I didn't get much exercise in today, I feel better. Tomorrow is my weigh-in day, so I'll be posting up on the weight loss board....no matter what. Thanks Mer for thinking of me. I guess it is better to think of it as being 80% successful. Best wishes to you. Hope your day went well Mer.

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Mariann, it's good to know you had a great day yestesday. As far as the day before, you had a good day and a little more than you maybe wanted to at the end of it, but that's okay, too. It almost sounded like you were really tired and that's why you grabbed the McDonald's. I used to do that alot, that's why I'm asking you.... when I'm tired, I just go to bed most times otherwise I'll start eating whatever I can think of. I don't have a clue why I do that, but it's a very real pattern with me. Hope your Saturday is going well! I've been thinking about you! Take care and good going on weighing in and not skipping it. I think you're doing great!

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Here's to healthy and happy!

Dj

Thanks for your reply DJ. Yes, I was really tired that night, and even more tired thinking about the next day. It was hectic! I do that too. If I'm really tired, I will eat instead of just going to bed. Sometimes if I wake up in the middle of the night, I will just go and walk to the kitchen and start eating. It's kind of like a reflex. It usually happens when I'm stressed out. Maybe that has something to do with it. I weighed in today, and I lost 3 pounds in two weeks. I don't exactly know how it happened, but I think it was because I seem to have so many things to do in a day, I'm always on my feet. I will count myself lucky this time, but I will continue to strive to do better......and be more forgiving of myself. thanks for thinking of me DJ. You know, it's funny,but just knowing something out there is thinking about me (even someone I've never met in person before) it feels good. You have a great day DJ. Thanks.

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Three gigantic pounds gone! How fantastic.
I'm so proud of you Marianne. Keep up the good work,
Mer

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wow! 3 pounds that's great. I agree with the rest of them, you're being way too hard on yourself, you're obviously doing something right! Keep up the good work!

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