OK, I am kinda following in Massie's footsteps here cause I think she had a great idea to post her progress. I think it will help me out alot.

Well, I have been doing well since I re-started on Jan 2. I have lost 8 lbs. I am currently at 170. I have about 40 lbs to go!

I had a little bit of trouble today. Felt like I wanted to eat everything in sight. Fortunately our cupboards are a little bare at the moment (shopping time). So lunch time was tough. I was feeding my son before heading to the store, but I wanted to eat before going so that I wouldn't be hungry there. But I found nothing healthy, got frustrated and decided on a can of Spaghettios with bread and butter. Not too great but not too bad either I guess. Except that while I was eating it all I could think of was how I would love to stop at Burger King on the way home from the store to get a Whopper and fries. How bad is that! I was eating and all I could think about was wanting to eat more! Thank God that I was full after or I probably would have stopped at BK. Instead, I indulged in a couple of choc/peanut butter hearts (like reese's cups)at the store. I was in binge mode today really bad. Think I'm ok now but how in the world do I control it?

All in all, I guess the day is not a total loss, I could've done worse. But now I am drinking lots of water and plan to have a very small dinner. Hopefully there will have been no harm done when I weigh tomorrow.

Bekka

Bekka..the good/bad part about a journal here is we all can jump in anywhere and comment on you..LMAO..btw did you exercise today???? I am your exercise gaurdian ya know..heehee

You are doing so well weight loss wise I know how ya feel about the BK craving..fast food is my down fall...unfortunately I have to drive 35 miles Interstate Highway to school 4 days a week...YA KNOW HOW MANY FAST FOOD PLACES THERE ARE???...Geez...I try to eat just prior to leaving so the temptation isn't so bad for me...back in my old BINGE days it was not uncommon for me to stop in MORE than one drive through on a trip..Once I ate an entire Large Pepperoni Pizza on the trip home...I am lots better now..once I stopped dieting altogether the bingeing was almost completely cured...now I don't deprive myself like i used to I try to work the food into my plan for the day..like a lite bfast and lunch if I choose to eat at McD's for supper...

Also I have found that for quick on the go and also when the cubbards get bare I can keep some slim fast drink or carnation instant breakfast in the pantry NO ONE in the house will touch that stuff and it fills me up at around 220 calories...hehee

Well just wanted to say how proud I am of you...sorry to ramble on...
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I know what you mean Bekka, Burker King is a big temptation for me! Ahhhggg! I hate feeling so out of control when it comes to obsessing about fast food LOL...

Don't worry too much about the chocolates, they too will melt away.

Pamela, that is the point! We want feedback, kicks in the #$$ and so forth, LOL

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Hi Bekka!

I feel posting about your progress is a great idea. You'll feel better knowing that there are "eyes" out there watching you!

I also had a bad day today. My fiance and I went out to lunch today and I ordered a Corned Beef Sandwich on whole wheat bread with potato salad - ahhh! We then proceeded to order icecream - I did order frozen yogurt though . . . But, to top it all off, my mother cooked lasagna tonight for the whole family. My brother was home from Boston with his new wife. I took half (a total of 5 bites) for myself, but needless to say..... Now, I'm heading out to the bar where calories will be consumed due to drinking. And I've been doing so well!!!!

Well, tomorrow is another day! Much exercise is needed! You go girl!

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Hi Bekka, Welcome to Diet Talk. You guys are making me hungry. I want a whopper and a large order of fries! :D The Burger King here on Sundays have their whoppers on sale for 99 cents. Don't help at all. I get something on my mind and it's hard to get over it. I wish all the good stuff was low-cal and fat-free :) Wishful thinking! You can do it. Actually in the past I would get me a Happy meal from McDonald when I wanted to treat myself. You can do it! Your at the right place for encouragement and support! :D

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Hi Bekka,

We'll be reading and watching! :)

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Hi there,
Dieting can really get crazy when everyone in the house is eating something different. My husband works second shift and often eats out, I'm trying to eat healthy and my son wouldn't be caught dead eating anything green or wholesome (where did I go wrong?). Anyway, I can relate to your temptations to eat all that lovely stuff everyone else is eating (footnote: neither husband or son have a weight problem but can eat what they want!!!...bummer!!!!)

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Wow, thanks to all of you for "keeping a watch on me"!!

Well, I am doing well. Slipped up a little yesterday, but no harm was done, thank God! So here is what I've eaten so far today:
B- bowl of bran cereal
S- 1 cup Dunkin Donuts coffee/1 sugar&cream (I can't drink it any other way!)
L- large salad with tuna & FF dressing
And lots and lots of water!!!!
Trying to think of what to have for dinner. And I will be going to the gym tonight!

I am strong, I will do this, I have to!!!

Bekka

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Bekka count me in for keeping my eyes on you. (I have 4, I wear glasses, so nothing is slipping by me...lol). I will keep track of you and see how you are doing so please keep posting. Love your sense of humor. You keep me chuckling. Hang in there.
Susan

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You are doing great Bekka! :P Keep up the good work... :D

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I replied to you on the Daily Weigh-Ins post but I know exactly what you mean, it is starting to #%$$ me off too! I don't know what it will take for us to lose it, not even starvation does it! I just don't know, I just keep doing what I know is right and wait and see... It is very frustrating but I do want to lose it even if it takes me forever to get there! So let's keep trying!!

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Thanks for the peptalk, Massie! I know that I want to lose this more than anything, so I just refuse to give up.

It's still early so I've only had breakfast, a bowl of bran cereal. I'm going to continue to drink plenty of water and eat some fruit and carrots with dip today when I am hungry. I am going to the gym again tonight too. Don't know what ELSE I have to do! I really hope to see the #'s dropping soon. Oh, just reminded me, I'm going to buy a tape meausure today. I haven't measured yet.

Oh and Susan40, thanks. I guess I have to have a sense of humor about this or I'd probably GO INSANE!!! It really helps to know you are all out there cheering me on. Love you guys!!

Bekka

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So I discovered that I can NEVER EVER eat pears again!! I had one a few days ago and also ate one yesterday and both times after a few hours had the most incredible gas pains in my life! Wasn't sure the 1st time if it was the pear, but now I know. It hit me while I was on the elliptical machine at the gym last night. Gas pains all up in my chest and upper stomach, absolutely horrible. I had to leave the gym (still got in 20 mins, though) Came home and took some relief pills, but it took a long time to work. Then I had (there's just no nice way to say it) the runs!! Wow, who knew all this from 1 measley pear. Anyone else ever have this problem? It's kind of a bummer since pears are 1 of the fruits I really like. Oh well.

So I'm down to 170 today. Really hoping to see the 160's very soon.

Bekka

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BEKKA..It is me..your conscious...just wanted to say how proud I am of you and your continued quest for health...you are doing great an looking fab..even if you do not see it when you look in the mirror...

Just kidding..hope you have cheered up buddy..and sorry ya had a bad Pear Episode..hehee Baanana's do that to me..hehee

Tomorrow is our last day on the MAke Me Challenge...and our 2 down weigh in hope you get good results..looking forward to seeing you in the 160's too..

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Who would of thought pears could do that to a person? No more pears for you! Hey Bekka, where do you get your energy to exercise at night? I find that by 7:30, I'm ready to sleep. My husband sometimes doesn't get home until 7pm. Hate it when he's that late!

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To tell you the truth, Neek I have no idea! My hubby gets home late too, usually between 6 and 7pm. But I force myself to get up and go because this is the only time I get to exercise, not to mention that we pay $30 a month for the gym so I'd better go! I'm usually ok afterward cause it pumps me up. I'm thinking about volunteering in the gym's daycare center because you get your membership for free. I just don't know if I could handle watching other people's children. And I would have to bring my son along too. It's only for 2 1/2 hours 1 day a week. Sound like a good deal to you? I think I'll call and inquire tomorrow.

Bekka

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Doesn't sound too bad at all. Especially if you get free membership. Heck, I'd do it. I'd try it and see if you like it. Since it is on a voluteer basis, you don't have to stay. =)

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Well, I am still doing pretty good. Down a pound to 169 now. Hope to continue moving those #'s down. Cannot wait to finally see the 150's again. Whoa, haven't been there since before my son. Well, look out here I come!!!

Bekka

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Good for you Bekka! I have no doubts that you will succeed.

By the way, I wanted to ask you how tall you are? :)

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Massie, I am 5'5" tall.

I have a BIG CONFESSION to make!! I had Burger King for dinner tonight, YIKES! I just knew that I couldn't make it through today without screwing up. Wanted to eat everything bad all day long. I also ate 2 peanut butter cups. Oh man do I feel guilty now. And madder than hell at myself. I had just reached 169, finally below 170 and I decide to do this now. What the hell was I thinking?!! All I can do is forget and move on and pray that it doesn't hurt me too bad on the scales. AAAARRGGGG!

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Weighed in at 170 this morning. So not too bad but I also ate some macaroni and cheese for lunch today!! Why you ask? Because it was there and I wanted it, LOL! And then of course afterward I feel guilty, full, mad, etc..... It's soooooo not even worth the 5 minutes of great taste in your mouth. I have to start thinking of that every time I want something "bad". Is this really worth it to me, for just the few moments of taste? I betcha that just about every time I would not eat whatever it is. Hope I can remember this next time.

Bekka

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Hey Bekka...
I just thought I would check in see if ya made it to the 160's yet se ya did...well sorta..hehee
One thought..(take it or leave it..like all the other advice thrown at ya here..hehe) As for me I have learned those bad foods like burger king and Mac&Cheese will always CALL OUT to you..hehee the best way I have found to FIX this is by eating them..sounds crazy I know but take it from a recovering BINGE EATER..the best plan is a good defense..If you have been CRAVING something then plan around it and make it work for you...say you have been craving that Burger King meal..decide that you will have it and plan out your breakfast to be extra healthy and low fat low calorie as well as your snacks and supper then the damage is minimized and therefore NO QUILT..also maybe say okay I willl have it but I MUST exercise 15 extra minutes to pay for it...OF COURSE if it hits you SPUR of the momemt and you haven't banked for it earlier that is fixable too..just plan your next 3 future meals to be low fat and low cal. I think you really can have to foods you call bad just gotta work em in...well of course there are some things NONE of us can control like I can't buy a box of 12 donuts unless I take out one and send the box to work with hubby..hehee so know what ya can and can't be around helps too..hehee
Okay take my advice or de..del..delete..hehee
Hugs hon...you are doing great!!
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Pamela- I like your advice, thank you!

Well, after doing very bad yesterday (I didn't stop at the mac&cheese) I am ready to stop the insanity!!!! For some reason, when hubby is home on the weekends I just lose all my willpower. He cooks himself a great smelling breakfast and innocently asks if I want any. And of course I just can't say NO! And etc.... through the day. He's been really good most of the time, he'll ask quickly and if I say NO, he says OK and doesn't ask again. But by then it's already planted in my head (or in my nose, LOL)so I give in. AARRGG, I hate not being stronger than that!

Well, it's Monday, hubby is back to work and so am I!! I will do better, I swear!

Bekka

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Bekka,
Just just made me realize that my terrible sinus and allergy problems may be a gift as I can smell next to nothing the smell doesn't call me..hehee
Hugs,
I know today will be better for u..
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Filling the void with control not food!

Ok, don't know why I've been eating bad lately. Seems like I don't even think about it, just eat. Getting me very perturbed!! Today I had cereal for breakfast, then mid morning had coffee and a bran muffin. Afternoon, like 2pm, I had 2 chicken salad sandwiches!! TWO!!! Why did I have to have two? One would have been plenty but NOOOOOOO, I have to go and stuff my face because it tasted good. Yeah, for a whole 5 mins! Ok, anyone see my pattern here? I'm very good at catching my mistakes and feeling guilty about them...........AFTER THE FACT!!! I need to stop them, BEFORE I make them.

So, I am now drinking lots of water, and I'm going to try not to eat anything else except fruit (hope I have some) today.

I will get back on track, I WILL!!

Bekka

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Just don't give up!! Just because you've messed up a few days here, don't use it as a reason to say, "Oh well I've screwed up now, I'll start again on Monday!" Just say ENOUGH, and get back on program NOW! You want to stay in those 160's!

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I am fessing up right here and now. I have been eating horribly for days now! I have had it! Why can't I seem to do this? I always try to keep a positive attitude but I'm just so damn frustrated with myself. Made my son's Bday cake today and had lots of leftover batter, and I of course had to eat some. Right now I feel a little nauseus from all the junk I've had today and it's only 4:50pm. Hopefully I can get a grip on this now. I've got to remember that I want this more than anything right now.

Well, just wanted to check in and get my punishments, LOL!

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Bekka,

I've done what you've described so many times. But I'm proud to say that I haven't binged for about 3 weeks, a true record for me. I don't know what diet plan you are following, but I have one tip that has worked for me. I allow myself to have the things I love. If I want a cookie, I have one but I don't take more than one or two. If I want a hamburger from McDonalds, I'll buy the happy meal. The point being, it is important to enjoy the foods you like rather than forbidding yourself from it. I don't know if you allow yourself the foods you like or not. Every once in a while I will eat a little more than I should, but I never lose it like I have in the past. I don't count calories or fat grams, not yet anyway because I've been able to lose weight with what I've been doing thus far. I do keep foods out of my pantry that I know I won't be able to stop munching on. What ever you do, don't give up. Just try something a little different. Before long, you won't feel the need to crave the foods you love. You won't lose it over the weekends, even though they are still a hard one for me. Good Luck! You can do it!

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Thanks Neek. I am feeling better today. Going to do my best to eat healthy, and drink lots of water. Tomorrow is my son's Bday party and there will be lots of goodies. My plan is to concentrate on the guests, chasing my son around, and of course opening all of his presents for him. I probably won't have time to munch away on the bad stuff, LOL! I am also going to have a veggie platter which will help alot. Wish me luck.

Bekka

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Hi Bekka,
Read your posts and other posts to catch up again. So much to read, so little time. I am so happy that you are keeping your self on the track to be a healthy person. Having days where we eat things we know we shouldn't happens to all of us. We just get right back up and start again like it never happened. Just keep your self with that attitude that you want to win this battle. It kept me going, and will you too.
Take care,
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Bekka,

Since you visited my journal, thought I'd peek at yours. I'm having a busy weekend too, with FIL's BD and the Superbowl. I'm planning a controlled weekend of non-dieting. I'm just gonna eat a little of the bad stuff and load up on as much of the good stuff as I can hold!

Happy BD to your little guy! (and happy half BD to my Becky Mae)

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I don't know why I am even posting but I thought it would help me to get back on track.

I have been doing horrible. Pretty much not even caring about what I put in my mouth lately. We just had my son's Bday party on Sat. and then a big Superbowl party on Sun. Talk about FOOD, FOOD, FOOD!! I just couldn't, nor did I want to resist. I can't seem to get back into the "groove". Once I'm there, I do great, but I just gotta get there! And now I look forward to my T.O.M. this week, just wonderful.

Just feeling pretty BLAHHHHH about this lately. Not giving up, though, no matter how long it takes.

Bekka

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Great attitude Bekka.
Keep going and don't give up. You will find your road again, and hop right on it. Don't let the weekend get your down. It's Monday now. The start of the week. You can do wonderful this week.
Take care and keep that wonderful attitude.
It will get you to your goal.
Stacey

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Hey, ya know, we all get that way. Don't feel bad that you were craving all those foods. Don't feel bad that you gave in either. Saying you'll never eat another piece of cake or cookie is not realistic. We have to learn to enjoy those foods in a healthy way. One of the hardest things that I'm still trying to learn to do is eat the foods I want only in moderation. There is nothing wrong with a piece of cake or some chips. We just have to learn to take a serving and be done with it. Hard thing to do, but we'll get there!

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Bekka--I know what you mean about the weekend...superbowl party at our house and I ate o.k. but consumed too many martinis..it would've probably been better had I spent those calories on some food! The fact that this makes you angry is a good sign...You'll jump back on the wagon. I can tell from the times we've chatted what a sweetheart you are--you're a good mom to cameron and a good wife to the hubby..You have many, many reasons to win this fight..and you will.
In your corner...

GOOOOOO JACKETS!!! STING 'EM!!!!

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Thanks for saying that Yellow, right back atcha!! I have to admit I didn't eat very well today, but I think I'm getting angry enough at myself now that I am ready!! I am going to the gym tonight when hubby gets home, no if, ands, or buts!!

Bekka

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Hi Bekka!

I feel like we have a lot in common--kids, struggles! I am proud of you that you are not giving up. I am incredibly frustrated right now. I know what to do, but I keep screwing up! Just wondering if you feel like you are back on track now...

Here's to a good week! We can absolutely do this! We have both done it before. I am going back to what worked when I started. Let me know what you are doing and if its working for you to stay motivated.

Love, Heather

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Bekka, you are doing great! You know when you will not be doing great? When you give up! As long as you are still trying and struggling you are still playing the game. You are a winner so come back and stop eating all that non sense, LOL, and so will I !!!! ROFLMAO!

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Here I am Massie! Hanging in there by the skin of my teeth. LOL! Well, I haven't been so good, but not terrible I guess. This is the longest slump I've had in a while. Don't know why I can't seem to pull myself out of it. Guess it's the reason I haven't posted in my journal. I don't want everyone to be disappointed in me like I am with myself. I really will try harder. I just have to.

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We are so alike Bekka! Hahahahhaaaaaaaaaa!!! Amazing...

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Bekka don't ever think that we at DT would be disappointed in you. We all have gone through our slumps. Keep trying your best and soon things will be back on track. Just take one day at time or even one hour at a time on those bad days. You can do it, we all can and we all will!!

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Thanks Sandy, needed to hear that after just eating 4 slices of pizza. 2 of them were small but it doesn't matter! I'm just feeling really %#^$#&$#&$&$&#$ lately! I need to be able to have that 1 day that I do well all day and then I will be back, but everyday I keep slipping again. I'm just so sick of it I could scream. And it's nobody's fault but my own. AARRGGG!

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Bekka I could never feel disappointed of you because you give in! On the contrary, I know and we all know how hard it is to fight the old habits and we are here to support you and help you get back on track! So I am giving you a huge KICK in the behind so you can get back to it!

Look at it this way, all the fat you are eating is getting clogged in your arteries, is that worth it to you? NOOOOOO!!!! So let's keep that in mind and stop this non sense eating RIGHT NOW, and that goes for me too and anyone else out there who is messing up! We can do it and we will succeed! Bekka, say to to pizza, say no to all junk! You can do it my friend, let's believe a little more in ourselves, shall we?
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Bekka,

Each time we resist the temptation to go loopy and eat things we know are not going to help us reach our goal, we grow a little stronger. You're in a slump, but you will be back stronger than ever! You can do it!

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Thanks you guys! You are awesome! I am going to dinner at my Dad's house tonight so I am starting over fresh tomorrow, no if, ands, or buts! I just have to do this. Not only am I not losing weight but I have been eating so bad that it is very unhealthy. I have to get control. So here's to new beginnings!

Bekka

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cheers to new beginnings!!! I'm starting again too Bekka. No way we could be disappointed in you. Here I got to goal, and had surgery, and now I have to start again, and especailly on the tummy. They cut into me a few times, and really did a number on the muscles I had going for me. Little as they were, they were there somewhere. LOL Take care Bekka, and everyone else. We are all strong, and we can do it. If we wasn't, we wouldn't be here or trying at all.
~Stacey~

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Bekka,

Don't beat yourself up! You have been through a very stressful time in the past couple weeks with Cameron being sick and his birthday party and all. It is easier to change our daily habits than it is for us to change the way we respond to stress. It sounds like you are back on the right track now, but I wanted to post that point.

You can do it/we can do it!

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Well, started over today. Had to hurry this morning to a doctor's appt for Cam so no time to eat. By the time I got outta there it was almost 11am and I was starved and dying for a coffee. Stopped at Dunkins for a cup and a muffin. They were out of lowfat ones so I settled for a regular. Oh well. But so far that's all I've had. Cam has kept me VERY busy today that I'm still not even thinking about food. Yipppeeee! I planned on going to the gym tonight (haven't been in like 2 weeks!) but we are getting a Nor'easter this afternoon!! Just great! Don't think I'm driving in that. Well, I'll dance around the living room with Cam later. He loves that!!

I'm feeling better about this guys, I'll make it through this day and that is the hardest part!!

Bekka

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Good job Bekka!! Keep going :D

-Melissa

So glad you had a better day Bekka.
How was the appointment? Keep up the great attitude.

~Stacey~ :)

I am so glad we all got to talk today, it was nice. I hope you are fine, you left without saying good bye, hehe... :D

LOL, Massie! I am fine. Computer just went wacky last night!

Well, I am off to a good start this morning. Shared a bowl of cereal with Cameron. (think he ate more than I did, he he) My goal for today is to just stay on track, drink lots of water, and not let myself give in to those sudden, terrible urges to eat EVERYTHING!! Wish me luck!!

Bekka

Confuscious says, "Good things are coming your way!" We can do it! X-( AARGH! Watch out!

So, I have figured out (with the help of Dr. Phil) when is my hardest time of the day, when I get the urge to binge. And so now, with this information, my goal today is to stop this before it happens. It is usually between 6-8pm, especially when I am feeding Cameron, and before hubby gets home (closet eater, I guess). Last night the urge came over me and I ended up eating.........vegetable soup, a fat free bologna sandwich, AND a weight watcher pizza. Now all of these things would've been just fine BY THEMSELVES! But I didn't allow my mind to THINK about what I was doing. I just ate it. So that is my goal today, to STOP, THINK, AND then get busy doing something else and wait for the urge to pass. I read in a muscle fitness magazine (at the gym last night) that most urges to binge go away in less than 20-30 mins. I CAN DO THIS!!

Bekka

Bekka I'm sure you've had this advice before, but what I find really works for me is to drink a large amount of water, and then chew a piece of sugar-free gum. Seems to get my jaws moving, and makes me think I'm eating! :D

Well, hmmmm, let's see. Today so far I am doing great. Of course I haven't reached the bingeing time yet. But I promise myself to be completely aware of it and stop it BEFORE it starts.

I have been kinda stressed out lately because of my in-laws. They are completely nutty, wacko, strange, irrational people! So hubby and I have been arguing alot about them. Don't know if this is why I was bingeing, but it could be. Well, we emailed them last night and told them how we felt and we got a very nasty email back this morning. They pretty much said they don't want to hear from us again, which is absolutely fine by me, but hurts my hubby alot. He knows how they are, and that they are wrong, but they are the only parents he has.

Anyway, I shouldn't ramble on about that. Just feeling pretty bummed out and upset at them and sad for my hubby.

Bekka

Bekka,

I feel for you and your husband. I'm sure that is putting some strain on your relationship right now. More than likely that may very well be the reason you feel a need to binge. That is something I have a lot of experience with. It is good to recognize the times you're most tempted to binge. Now, another hard part is finding something to help you walk through those times without giving in to the cravings. Let me know if you figure something out. :)

Well, I did not binge yesterday. Halleluiah! We did, however, go out to dinner last night. Hubby thought it would be good for us to get out. We haven't been out in so long. We took Cam with us and it was nice. I ordered the chicken parm, just cause I usually love that and I was starved! Well, it was pretty lousy. The chicken was really dry. Oh well, I look at it this way, I only ate maybe half of it, if that. So, I did well. I'm just happy that I didn't binge at all.

Bekka

Bekka,

Good Job! That is so hard to do and you really should feel proud of yourself! Just take it one day at a time!

Well, it has been a very lazy Sunday so far. And sitting in the house doing nothing is not a good thing for me. I start thinking of eating things that I shouldn't. Hubby and I polished off the last of some cheese nip crackers. Not too many, but I shouldn't have. Then I ate a can Chunky Soup, not a low fat soup! Arrrggg! But I have stopped right there and I will do much better for the rest of the day. Going to get my water right now.

Bekka

Man I hate weekends, LOL!
Husbands just don't get it hahahhaa!
Well, I am back, :D

Bekka,

Keep your chin up! And keep busy! That seems to be the only way I can keep my head out of the fridge! Sad, isn't it? Can't sit and relax because I want to eat! Someday, though!

Bekka I hope all is going great for you. I am worried about how you left yesterday, I have been thinking about you, let me know you are fine. :) Take care buddy!

Hi Bekka:

Sounds to me like you are eating pretty sensible things even when you are binging. Just out of curiousity, what kind of a work out are you doing at the gym? Years ago my husband and I did powerlifting training together, and it was very difficult to walk past the refrigerator without eating. We were doing lots of sets of lots of exercises at the gym. I always find that weightlifting increases my appetite. I need to eat more protein when I am working out. You may be losing fat but gaining muscle right now (which is good in the long run). Have you taken your measurements lately?

Oh Artsy, I wish that was the case, but unfortunately it's not. I haven't even started with weights yet. I plan to soon, but wanted to get back into my cardio routine first since I haven't even been to the gym in weeks. Started back last night though, and it felt good. I am feeling good about today (of course it is only 8:45 am) but I think I can handle this today.

Oh yeah, and Happy Valentine's Day everyone!

Bekka

Happy Valentine's Day to you too! Boy, doesn't one of those chocolate candy hearts sound good!? Ahhh! Well, actually maybe one piece wouldn't hurt. Hope you are doing well! Missed ya at chat Monday night!

Well, I did so good today, of all days on Valentine's Day. I had:

B- bran cereal w/ skim milk
S- md coffee from Dunkins
L- 1 chicken breast & applesauce
S- ff choc. pudding
D- WW entree/ cheddar broccoli baked potato.
and lots of water!!

So excuse me everyone while I pat myself on the back! *pat pat* I haven't had such a good day in quite a while.

Bekka

Good work Bekka. Eat well and hit the gym...you feel better in body and spirit. Have a great day tomorrow, too!

Ok, well just had a bit of a slip-up for lunch and am feeling pretty peeved at myself. But on the bright side, I stopped it before I did any more damage. I had 2 ff bologna sandwiches, when I know I should've only had 1, but I was ready to have some soup and crackers too. Didn't though, thank God. Arrgggg, I've got to get out of the house! This is soooooo hard to do when I HAVE TO be at home cause Cameron is napping. I feel like I have more control when I am busy, not thinking about eating. Geez, *DING, DING, DING* lightbulb moment (for you Oprah fans, LOL) I MUST STAY BUSY!! OOh, there's a load of laundry callling my name. Gotta go!

Bekka

Please don't feel like all is lost because you ate 1 to many sandwiches. Yesterday I ate a whole box of candy. But we all have the next day. The next time you will do better. And the next even better.... It takes practice to push food away. We are so programmed to just over eat. I know its hard but stick with it.

Bekka,

I know what you mean about staying busy! I usually have tons of things to do but I choose not to do them! UGH! As many times as I get the munchies, if I would clean or something, my house would be spotless! hee,hee. Keep trying!

Oh Bekka I hear ya! Have you tried planning your menu and sticking to it? It works well for me. I also don't buy anything I don't want to eat. :D

We will get there buddy, it won't be easy but there is a light at the end of the tunnel!

Ok, all I am gonna say is chocolate blizzard from Dairy Queen and Chinese food!

Bekka

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Say no more, sistah! We've all been there! Take a deep breath, stop cursing yourself, stand tall, and we're back on the road again! You can do it!

OK, brushing the chicken finger crumbs off my mouth and movin' on!

Bekka

LOL @ Bekka,
~Stacey~

Okay so I figure anything you put in your mouth , god gave us the means to WORK IT OFF!! LOL :D

Ok, terrible weekend, bad hubby!! Although I can't blame him, he didn't shove the food down my throat! LOL! But today, so far so good.

I'm getting extremely frustrated with myself. I am wearing the same size 16 jeans almost everyday. They are the only ones that fit. All the rest of my clothes are 14's. I gave in right after the baby and bought 1 pair of 16's just UNTIL......!! And the bad part is I should be in a 9/10!! But right about now, I would just love to squeeze my butt into those 14's again. I am getting scared for the warmer weather to come. I know that means less clothing, harder for me to wear long things to cover up. I must do this NOW, before summer! I want to wear cute little shorts and all of my sexy tops that I have, that haven't seen the light of day in quite awhile! Geez, think I gave myself a little peptalk there, huh? C'mon Bekka, move your arse!!

Bekka

Hey Bekka!

I can totally relate to you! I have been on an eating frenzy. I'll do so good for 3 or 4 days and then for 2 days after, I'll eat without thinking. It seems the way I reward myself is by eating those foods I shouldn't. I've read over and over on other threads about rewarding yourself with other things, but it gets too hard! I've firmly resolved today that I will NEVER go off track again! WHat truly motivated me was the warmer weather (and my wedding). We girls want to wear those cute outfits! You will get there! I challenge you to a 10 pound weight loss by April 1! tee-hee! I have faith in you! Keep up the good work!

JellyBean

You're on, Jellybean!! LOL! But I'm hoping for more like 15 lbs by then, LOL! But I'll take what I can get, considering how I've been doing lately! Thanks for the support. I'm gonna hold you to this now. We will check up on each other, right? LOL!

Bekka

Bekka,
Have you abandoned the mommies? come back, we miss you! I have had a bad week too, but it's time to get back on track! I'm right with ya, every step.

Ok, I've realized that I NEED to write down EVERYTHING I put in my mouth. Because just telling you all about my numerous slipups and binges isn't gonna solve anything! So here goes, Today so far:

B- bowl of cheerios with skim milk (shared with Cameron, lol)

I know it seems I share everything I eat with Haley. LOL But good for you. I know this will help you a lot!!!. Really missed you in chat last night. Take care and have great day.
~Stacey~

Bekka, where are you? Haven't seen you on the boards lately. You still with us?

Yes Neek, I am here! LOL! I haven't been coming to DT as often. Actually skipped a few days, I've been kinda stressed out and depressed. The whole inlaw thing is really getting to me! But I had to come back and see what everyone is up to. So I must go read, I have lots of catching up to do! LOL!


Bekka

Yay! Bekka's here! I've missed talking with you! I hope things get better.

Here I go again, it's Monday and I am attempting to start fresh once more! My birthday is coming in about 2 1/2 weeks and I would like to lose at least 10 lbs by then. We are going out and I want to feel good (or at least a bit better) about myself.

Bekka

Bekka,

Just take it easy and don't starve yourself to lose those 10 pounds. It may not be a realistic goal as I know that 1-3 pounds is usually considered a healthy weekly weight loss. If you don't make the 10 pound loss, so what! Go out and enjoy yourself. You deserve it! I hope you went out to buy you a new pair of pants and a shirt. You deserve that too! Buy something for you! Treat yourself to a new perfume or makeup or sweater!

Neek, the funny thing is I went out and bought myself a few new things last week! And I still feel like crap! Probably cause the couple shirts I bought will only look good if I lose weight! They fit, but I just don't think they look very good right now. There is 1 sweater that looks good on me now. A very pretty emerald green one (my fav color!)I just had to buy these things though cause they were all on clearance! I paid like $4.00 for each. I just love when I find bargains, LOL!!
And don't you worry, I won't starve! LOL! I don't think that is possible for me! I said that I would LIKE to lose 10 lbs by my bday. Key word being "like"! LOL! Any loss that I have will be wonderful! Thanks for checking in here on me.

Bekka

Tuesday morning here and I am pretty happy with how I did yesterday! Not too bad. I had:

B-bowl of cereal w/skim milk
S-cup of coffee w/cream
L-ww meal w/bread & butter
S-ff choc. pudding
D-ff bologna sandwich & carrots w/ ff dip
S-ff rocky road pudding

I drank some water, but not enough! I have to work on this today. So far today I've had a bowl of cereal w/ skim milk.

Bekka

Looks Good!

You did great Bekka.
~Stacey~