Today I am down in the dumps. I had a good breakfast and Shelley came and took me shopping with her. We were at Kohls and something cracked really loud. It was my rib. It broke so I went to lunch with a major pain in my back and barely able to breath because I didn't want to spoil her day. She keeps saying Mom please let me take you home and I keep saying I am fine kid so shutup! Where does she take me? TGIFridays! I get the steamed vegetables and they forgot to steam them. I am now beyond caring so I order a french onion soup which is fat city USA! There is so much cheese on it that it grows bigger the more I chew it. Gross!
Tonight I ate a whole bag of buttered popcorn while lying on the couch watching a movie. I ate one of my sons' chocolate covered oreos. This day was the pits!
Babs X-(

Oh, Babs, a broken rib? OUCH! I'm so sorry, that is SO painful! Forget yesterday, your mind was busy dealing with pain! Babs, take care of yourself! Just get your rib taken care of and eat well today. You'll feel better soon. (very gentle HUG so as not to hurt your rib!)

[ 02-13-2001: Message edited by: discomama ]

Today is going so much better. My eating is better even though I am making chicken and dumplins' for dinner I am boiling myself a piece of chicken and will eat first so I don't drool over theirs. That letter I wrote to Dad the donor sure made me angry and sad at the same time but somehow I feel so relieved now. I hope this works because it is my last ditch effort to find myself and quit this never ending quest to be somebody!
Babs B-)

Hey Babs, glad you decided to post your progress here. I will be keeping an eye on you :D You can do it buddy!

Well I ate within reason today but with this broken rib who can exercise?? Then I finally get thet water bill from when the line broke and it's $548.00!! I swear will I ever get a break? Sometimes I just feel like screaming til I drop dead! How much can one person take in a lifetime anyway? Writing a letter to my Father(?) did take some load off my already overloaded life though. At least now I got to say how much he destroyed my life even though he is dead I hope he reads every word of it! I at least have some satisfaction to get from living! X-(

I think all that writing in the work book really threw me into a tantrum! Today I am back on track with new determination to lick this thing once and for all!
Breakfast: Oatmeal w/1%milk
Lunch: Healthy Choice
Snack: Mini pretzels
Dinner: Meatloaf, baked potatoe, green beans
Snack: Pears
If I always do what I've always done I will get what I've always got! Bottom line...I gotta' change!
:D

Today went pretty good even though I slept to late to eat breakfast. Dinner with Sheila was fine..had grilled chicken, baked potatoe and a salad. I would imagine since we shopped for seven hours I burnt off every calorie I took in even though this is one of my "I feel fat days." I bought a few things that were to small as an incentive to continue and I will be in them in two months!
The bookwork is going good and I think I am finally coming to some conclusions as to why I use food to swallow down a lot of issues that have nothing to do with hunger...at least stomach hunger anyway.

This weekend will be a good one! I had cottage cheese and fat free toast for breakfast and will have Lean Cuisine pizza bread for lunch. Might make up some veggie soup for dinner. I'm going to get active today..move more and sit less. My house will really love it though it may fall down in shock!
I can do it..I can do it! Think positive and positive results will follow! :D

how did your weekend go Babs???
i look forward to reading the good report. hows that rib?
hugs bell :D

The rib is good so I will be doing my exercises again in the morning hopefully Shelley wants me to go shopping with her and she has about five places to go so I have to plan my strategy for that one.
Today I missed breakfast again because I slept late. I think it's true that old people revert back to being babies because I think I have my days and nights mixed up for sure.
My eating went well today but I have found if I skip breakfast I crave food all evening. I know it's a mind thing. Skipped breakfast so I have calories to spare but I know food late at night can be a killer on the waistline!

Didn't do the tape today as Shelley woke me up beating on the bedroom window. I did manage to eat a bowl of oat cereal for breakfast because I knew what would happen if I skipped it knowing I was going shopping AGAIN! We went to LaRosa' for lunch and I had the house salad with dressing on the side and a cup of soup with two crackers and iced tea. Tonight it will be a Healthy Choice meal of chicken and mashed potatoes and a salad.
I can do this and i will!

Today will be good. I have made up my mind! I did the new tape and had cereal and 1/2 a banana for breakfast. Shelley canceled so I believe I will get some cleaning done this morning. Will have a Lean Cuisine pizza bread and a salad for lunch and maybe fish, baked potato and spinach for dinner.
Yesterday was such a good day. I'm back on track and ready to win!

Just as I thought! Exercise, water and sticking with it all pays off. :D This morning I weighed in at 196 again. That's a 2&1/2 pound loss this week. This time however, I will not start messing around again. I am on my way! My next mini goal is 189. I don't want it in a week or a month. I will just take it when I get it and I will get it!
Had cereal and 1/2 a banana for breakfast and Lean Cusine for lunch. Dinner? Not sure yet. Maybe a chef salad. Gotta' go do the exercise thing. I am one happy camper today.
I can do it and I will!

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am SOOOOOOO jealous! Babs, you are just doing such an incredible job! I love reading your post, it helps me see how others eat. You are such an inspiration! I can't wait til I get where you are at! Congratulations!

You will get there Joni. We will all get there if we just set our minds to it and do it! No more excuses, no more feeling sorry for ourselves= just going on to the finish line one step at a time. It's hard work but in the end this job will pay better benefits than any job we ever have! The harder you work at it the more confident you feel. The harder you work at it the better you get at it. The harder you work at it the more control you have. You gotta make yourself believe it will happen and it will! :)
Babs

Today I weigh 196. I have been thinking all day of how my weight loss battles have gone through the years. I remember when I was a teenager saying I would never be fat at 21. Then it was 30 and then Fat and 40..not me.
I once read a book by a circus fat woman named Dolly Dimples who at the age of fifty lost 700 pounds. I remember thinking- at fifty why did she care anymore? Now here I am at 55 and I care so at last I understand what I read at the age of 22 that feeling good about yourself and being healthy is for everyone not just the young.
My back hurts today but food will not make it better. I'm broke but food will not make it better. Food will not solve any of my problems because I have to do that myself.
I was up all night so I missed breakfast and had oatmeal and a banana for lunch. I will have rice, chicken and green beans for dinner. I will believe in myself and I will succeed each day that I take the power back from the food and give it to myself. I am in control of my own destiny!

Cheri is picking me up for the weekend. She says she stocked up so there would be food there that I could eat and no temptations. She is agood kid! Sunday we are going to the fleamarket so I imagine I will walk 4 or 5 hours. I'm going to take my cane so maybe it won't be so bad.
Had oat cereal this morning. For lunch I will have a salad and some cottage cheese and a banana and for dinner chicken, mashed potatoes and brocolli.
Keep walking and keep looking at the finish line. The reward will come! :tongue:

Well I'm back home and I made it! We went out to eat twice and I had salad and soup. Had my oatmeal for breakfast and Healthy Choice for dinner. Snacked on lite popcorn and bananas and loaded up on fruit and veggies today at the flea market. I bought my non-fat pudding just in case I got a sweet attack!
Between all the stores and shops I think I probably walked a good 30 miles too over the weekend so I feel pretty proud of myself. I will win this summer and I can do it one day at a time.
:) :D

Hi Babs, Do your friends notice any difference in your habits, behaviour, or attitute? What is there reaction? You sound almost to busy to eat. I guess that is why we need to plan and be prepared.

I think the difference in my behavior is that I don't run to the kitchen everytime there is a problem lately. I eat my meals and my snacks, rarely crave sugar and just feel better about myself in general.
Normally I'm not really to busy it was just a busy month for some reason.
Did good today. Oat cereal for breakfast, Healthy Choice for lunch, chicken and dumplings for dinner and non-fat pudding for a snack.
ON TO VICTORY! :D

Today has went very good. I decided the more time I spend on this computer the leass calories I burn so I painted the bathroom woodwork and tub suround, did the laundry and scrubbed the kitchen wall. My spring cleaning should be done early at this rate! Ya hoo!
Breakfast..oat cereal
Lunch......chicken and rice
Snack......banana
Supper.....Homemade veggie soup w/10 crackers
Snack......Fat free pudding w/ff whipped crm.
I even got most of my water in today. I hope to be in the 180s by the end of March.
Be committed, do what it takes and you will get what you want.-Dr.Phil

I stayed the same in weight this week but I know it's a water shift and not a weight gain. At one time this would have really discouraged my and drove me to the pantry but not now. I know if I'm doing all the right things for my body my reward will follow in time.
Breakfast...Oatmeal
Lunch....chefs salad
Supper...Chicken, mashed potatoes and green beans
Snack....Apple(huge apple!)
My back has been hurting me a lot but I think I may try to at least do the stretches everyday and the whole tape every other day. Donny will be here tonight. I haven't seen him since I lost this 20 lbs. I wonder if he will notice? Probably not since his calling card is to pinch the fat on the side of my waist and it's still there for him to pinch! Oh well...he'll notice in time that's for sure!
Patience is a virtue.

I haven't been here for a while but I am still on program. My weight is 195 now and I hope to be in the 80s by the end of the month. I know I can do it with hard work and determination. I want this more than I want the pleasire and misery of stuffing myself. I know I can do it and I will!

The weekend went so good. I even tried a veggie pizza..yuck..first and last! I think it was the cheese which I try and stay away from because of the water retention it causes. Today is going to be good. I am down another 1/2 lb. slow but sure.
Breakfast...banana, oatmeal
Lunch...Healthy Choice rice and chicken
Dinner...fish, salad and rice
Snack...apple and cottage cheese
Look out summer here I come!

You go girl. I am rite behind ya. Gwen ;)

Sounds like you are doing well. What does the doc say about your back problems? Hopefully the weight loss will help with that also. This health and fitness thing has a lot of components.