I decided to keep a record of what i am going threw in my journey to find happiness or lose weight which ever comes first. I have been struggling for 6 months i have been away from goal by 10 pounds it was 15 is i have lost 5 pounds. I have lost the same 5 pounds at least 3 times since christmas. I was doing weight watcher but i am not sure if i am going back. i am struggling right now to find my niche and where i want to go. I am so close to goal but i feel like i don't want to give up my food to get there....such a delemia. Thank you for the support. My goal was to be at 135 by my birthday 4-30 i am startin to think this plan is not going to fly.....i would have to really crack down....i just don't have the mind set right now. Have a great day all Dina

Ahhh, Dina, dina, dina.. You'll get there.. You ROCK! I've never tried a spinning class, but they scare me (I don'thave access to any). You keep doing your best and you'll get to where you want to be! Remember: You are a success!

Corinna
(yay! Dina came home! :) )

I never left you quack! but you made me feel guilty so i came to post here! and cory you rock too love dina

well good day and bad good news was tried on a bathing suit if that doen't jump start your action plan on losing weight nothing will it looked ok but the abs was it bit scary..i have been tanning so it could of been worse nothing worse than a scary white flabby stomach...tried on on two pieces and i just feel like if i would be given in i need to concour this thing i have to stick with it and do it or stop complaining about it after the swim suits i went to the ice cream section bought a gallon on sugat free fat free ice cream...ate 1/4 of it yesterday..then i got so gasy i was sick it was ugly..sorry for the details there.....anyways i need to get my act together pms does not help....i need to decide what i am going to do ww, eating healthy or what! life is short to plan this game either be happy at 145 or lose the weight but stop complaining about the 10 pounds...i feel like if i give in 10 will become 15. 15 will be 20 before i know it i will be back where i started at 175! not looking for sympathy or even compassion just looking to vent the situation and move on! love to dina

new day new attitude today i take back my life...hahahaha yah sure...i have gone with out sugar all day yesterday that is a huge plus.....i am glad it is a new day...still have pms but hopefully today i will make it back on track going to a friends for dinner...hope i can do ok going to keep points low so i can enjoy dinner and not feel deprieved...love to all dina

feel pretty good today could be the 8 plus housrs sleep and the fact i cleaned my house till almost 10pm last night my kitchen was one big crumb factory...oh so gross it is nice to wake up to a clean clean house and then be able to relax and mantain it today!anyways did good did a great workout yesterday did walking with sprints they were not longer than 30 seconds but hey it was 40 degree's and my but is carring an extra 10 pounds ok i know no excuses just do it so i did then i did crunches my sides ache today...this is a good thing i have not felt in a long time....as for life it is good should be having my friend come visit any day....thank the lord the pms is so bad this month....that is my update hope you all have a great week dina

what a great day my friend is here hooray only 3 more days of blaoting....and i am going to drop some water weight as for me went too bed at 930 again last night wow was it great to get more than 8 hours sleep....felt good made the beds power cleaned the house went to spinning got earns to run when jordan is in school....have a great day the sun is shinning and i feel greeeat! seize the day Dina

i was not depressed stressed or mad...i just ate and ate and ate...hum did i get it out of my system dear lord i hope so i did not even feel sick now that is sad...for dinner i had 3 dounuts for dinner(have not had them in year) can't have them in the morning or i sleep all day long (hypoglycemic) had ice cream french fries and mozzarella sticks and onion rings you know it is lent i can't have meat....geez.....so with that the day is over....you know what i don't care well i do but i don't sometimes i think we just need to eat what we want....then move on so tommorow is a new day love to all love dina

have a nasty cold...it is spring break here for the kids it is 12pm and i am still in my jammies...what a bum have not exercised since sat....due to raggin cold (that my excuse) did go rollerblading with the kids yesterday so i did get some cardio in. as for life it is ok my husbands grandmother passed away on tuesday so hubby will be leaving for the funeral on sunday....i am sad she was an incredible woman so in control and so wise and hip....and she had great catholic faith...i hope someday to have her faith adn courage she is a role model to me...i loved her god bless you kay! heaven is lucky to have you...we will miss you!
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WOW Dina I can sure identify with trying to lose those last 10 pounds.. I've been mucking around with at least 5 off and on since Xmas as well.. What's it gonna take??? UGH 8-| 8-|

I not sure what my next plan is...i just need some inspiration something to go click and boom i am on track i tend to move from item to item until i get what i want or feel energized to move on....i have lost the same darn 5 pounds for 4 months....never dropping below 144......goal is 135....i am now 149 as of this morning...that was after a not so great day.....i feel like a failure a waste of space and my time...the exercise has been off since this cold struck me not sure where to turn just feel lost...i know i am the only one who can make this work the only one who can stop stufffing my face the only one who can exercise the only one who wants to be 135.........................things to ponder things to figure out things to ask my self.....i feel bloated and fat and just gross will i ever be happy????on other whinny news hubby has left for the funeral in california..saw he packed shorts one nice part of going out to see family i just wish it was for better a better situation...love to all dina

You will be a lot happier once you are healthy again. And hopefully your hubby will help you feel better when he gets back. Sometimes you just gotta hang in there.

i feel somewhat better today...i have been in line with eating for the last 2 days...i even did tae bo yesterday...i am hoping to get my lifeunder control i took a new med last night for my allergies i am kind of drowsie today...gotta go serve the midgets...thanks for the support dream!


dina

it has been a good week so far....i started doing the food diary and it is working for me it has had 2 green days and 2 yellow...so for me that is good did tae bo yesterday and i feel really good......kind ticked off at my hubby but i will get over it...he can be so immature at times..men. so with that a bid everyone a wonderful weekend

I do that food diary too Dina. I really love it. It is so helpful in seeing where you go wrong (or right) on a daily basis! Sounds like you're getting back on track! :x

Hi dina! I've just been reading your trials, lol. But it sounds like you're on the right track. You know from going to WW that a food journal is essential. I think that is one of the best tools. I know you can do this and will be looking forward to your updates here.

I don't get a chance to post on the boards as much as I would like, so I feel very out of touch with you. We really miss you on the challenge. Love to you. Good luck!

Even thought i feel like i got hit by a truck i am going to make this a postive day...we did yard work yesterday i raked and raked and raked,,,,yuk got my cardo in so hey what can i say not sure if i will do treadmill or tae bo with achy muscles tae bo sounds yukky life is good feel tired had an ok food weekend it was not as bad as it could of been so with that hey.....did not do the food diary the whole weekend...not because i was so bad just lack of time....starting today i will get back on track love dina
nice to have vistors bev and mel thanks somedays it helps to have the extra push!

I have a sense of peace today...i am hoping it is not peace before the storm...i know such a optimist.....what can i say always looking over my shoulder. Have not weighted but i did dip into the easter candy yesterday....it doesn't even temp me now so that is good only ate 3-4 pieces...so hey one candy bar...ate good yesterday...and feel good going to do food journal today did tae bo basic...i have lost a basic tape hum ticken me off a new one too ...off to have lunch and go shopping my list (mall) shopping is so long yikes it frieghtens me...love to all

I just found your journal and I wanted to give you a hug! ((hug)) You are doing so well! Keep it up!!!! I love ya!

ok here is the deal i am less than 8 week away from going to visit the family in california,arizona , nevada....i feel fat and i am going to be sitting in a car for 10+ hours per day...hum that leaves reading and eating and yelling at my kids for entertainment...now i will feel much better if i lose 15 pounds before i go.....if i don't i will gain 15 while gone and be up 30.....now that is scary don't you think????

ok so here is my plan
1.weight train tue,thurs, sat with hubby
2.eat right do diet journal everyday i am think 1500 calories 30 grams of fat....we reevaluate if i need to
3.cardio big big cardio at least 20 mins per day mon,fri.....sunday off day this will be reward day
4.start to like my self for who i am
5.abs everyday do them till i can't do tham anymore(alicia on survivor said this) we have all seen her 6 pak right
6.do push ups on cardio day 10-20 per day
ok i think that is all oh water...just hate it but it is so good for you 6-8 glasses...can you hear me slush....

feel free to join me or cheer me or sneer me.....i love competion and i hate to lose???? get it lose....(.love me dina

well today is the day to get my act together it is going good so far i knew i would do what i wanted on sunday but it was not pretty darn bunny...as for me went to gym did 30 mins heavy cardio and lifted for 30 so total of 60 mins....have ate well so far today...and the candy thing is not even bothering me detoxing my body so far...drinking water with lemon....so that is the story ladies have a good one dina

Sounds like you're off to a great Post-Easter start Dina! Good for you! :x

life is like a box of chocholates you never know what you are going to get! it just sums up my mood did treadmill today for 30 mins...then did weights and crude for 30 more mins did it at home before the family awoke....that was a nice suprise...what can i say.....they slept till 9 and 930......wow huh is that nice....any how as for me life is good and i have exercise for 5 days op 5 days.....i feel great...i have not stepped on the scale and i will not until next week....i can see the difference already but i am not going to step on and be disappointed....as for life it is good rainy today.....but it will not get me down as for me got great news a good friend who just had her 4th child in hong kong is coming to visit....i am so excited she has been gone for one year but i have not seen her in 3 years so i am so so excited...she is so cool i can't wait for them to come back to the states....for good she is such a great friend even now we email each other all the time she is such an awesome person...ok enough rambling....love to all dina

as for life it is good today is one week op i have had a couple rocky moments but seems to pull my self up and not let it get out of control did 7 days exercise and i will not stop today...as for my house clean as a whistle all bills paid getting all the ducks in order....mazing huh....life seems to be good this week....you know me waiting for the other shoe to fall.....off to go for a nice morning walk it has been so nice last few days lawns turning green and flowers coming up we are having sring unsual in michigan we normally down get spring until june....love to all

DINA>>>> I just saw your journal here..So glad you are still around.. I like you am strugging with the last few pounds and almost gave up but thought..HECK NO WAY>>> I'm further away from my original starting weight and closer to my goal.. I don't want to look back.. You keep up the good work my friend and I will most definitely be following you ...HUGS TO YA>>

happy but sleepy...all i want to do is go back to bed with three children doubt if that is going to happen....greeew......my son got me up with the birds at 6am....good lord that is way to early..anyways still doing good not sure if i have lost my the rear end is looking much better still saw some cellulite (yuk) now that is just gross but working hard on it....bye for now...dina

ok good day so far but i have only been up for 30 minutes....busy day ahead...what else is new i have almost hit may and when i do i am so sick of the kids schedule i could scream....still have not weighted my self i am afraid if the number is too high i will be disappointed and get on a binge...so i am waiting until my clothes get lose then i will weigh in i would love to be under 144 that seems to be a stuck number where i can't drop below....so we shall see i just want to look great in may for daugter first communion.....so with that i am off to drive daughter to school hope you all have a great day...i have been exercisng for 9 days straight and op for 9 days dina

i think it is going to be one of those days...i was so tired yesterday had a ragin head ache i had to take a nap so then i slept till 7pm got up of course i was up till after 12am greeeew i just hate that now i feel tired and grumpy did not weigh in that could of set the whole day for a major binge with my attitude still do not feel like i have dropped that much so i will stay off i would love love to be under 144 so trying to get to a point where i know i have lost before i step on wainting for ring to get loose or loose clothes did where my new capri's all day with out having to unzip even after dinner now that is good...ok love to all dina

hi dina :) ive just read through your journal and i can't believe what determination you have! sheesh, with that motivation you are sure to have success, which of course you deserve.

i have been so frigin busy...good lord i am normally not such a freak that i forget stuff but this past week i have been late so many times i never am and i keep forgeting stuff...daughter #2 had stomach flu so far no more victims but we will see my gym went out of business so i am happy about this....i won't have to pay 20.oo per month to not go....life is good weight is still up 150 this am had a salad for lunch so far so good we shall see how the day goes....thanks for checking on me dina

one week until daughters first communion...have a belly so big i could pass for a 6 month preg person....just kidding...but i do feel a tad blated so the rush is on the week to kick some booty and tummy and tone it up for sunday...also only 23 days until vacation so i am going to do a 21 day challenge for me to eat healthy with exception of communion day how can i not celebrate my daughters big day...and also exercise 21 days.....until i leave so here we go....1-2-3 googoogogoogogogo

she returns from a long over due fat feast i am now get ready ladies a big 163 or more in weight oh how sad...from goal to this but good news i s i made veggie soup and did tae bo today and i am going to start doing this journal again to keep me on track....what can i say i am a lump so that is how i am right now not much else to say bye dina

Dina,
just want to remind you of a couple of things. you are not a lump, you are a strong beautiful person who is going to get back to goal! :)
hope you dont forget that you were the person that inspired me enough to believe that i too could make it to goal. i want to return the favor. anything i can do let me know.
so far so good today, hang in there..you will succeed.
i will be making sure you keep posting here and lets have some positive self talk here. believing in ourselves is the most important thing
hugs bell :)