Ive been eating very healthy for a long time now and not worrying about portions too much and my weight has stayed the same. so now it's time to throw in exercise when i can find time. just in case other people read this, im a live in nanny in the seattle area so any thing i do at least half the week i have to do with a 5 and 1 year old.. so that doesn't work the greatest. so, let me set some goals for myself so i see where im going with this. for now, my goal is drinking lots of water, and making healthy food choices, and when possible 20 minutes of exercise a day. yep, that sums it up.

they sound like great goals theresa. adding in the exercise will definately move those pounds.
hugs bell :)

this morning i was able to do 20 minutes at a quick walking pace on the treadmill. i think previously ive pushed it and then felt yucky after working out.. anyway, so i like the idea of taking it easy til i get into it. did well on water and on healthy food choices.

Theresa that sounds great!! I agree about how important it is to build up slowly...you are on your way!! *

I've always had doubts about the "no pain, no gain" attitude. Doing what you can handle and build a little at a time.

I walk on a treadmill too and sometimes I get discouraged because I'm recovering from a back injury and can't walk very fast. But I just realized this morning that I am walking almost twice as fast as when I started.

Just keep going and it will come.

karolyn

Good to see you making a plan and sticking to it, Theresa. You will be able to modify what you are doing to reach your goal (kind of sounds like a fortune cookie message, doesn't it)? Best wishes for the days ahead.

a one year old makes a great weight, for curls and presses and dead lifts (of course I would feel better if you called it a live lift with a one year old). Romping with a five year old you can include as part of your active life, but probably need some exercise in addition to really challenge yourself. Have fun.

WOW, thanks everyone for all these great encouraging comments!!! i wasn't sure that anyone really read these things much... sooz, i seem to remember before when i was here you giving me what for for my bulimic tendencies, happy to say that is WAY in the past. so, glad you approve now. :) today has been super so far, getting ready to get my muscles movin. water: check exercise: soon to be check and eating choices: check

today was a pretty good day. i got my water, but food wasn't that grand on choices but not bad either so im ok with that. my goal has been to exercise 20 minutes a week, walking, adding 5 minutes a week.. nice gradual get into it thing. however, today i was dead tired and decided to exercise anyway, but i was so tired i just ached.. so didn't do that cause last time i checked exercise wasn't supposed to be physical torment. :P i was thinking about some kind of nutrition eating program, more concrete but still felxible cause if im ina good mood i might say my eating was great when possibly it wasn't. so im thinking on that, what's the best for me is what im interested in.

today wasn't the greatest. im addding to my other goals one being that i sleep eight hours. cause that jams me up bad to the point that i can't think nevermind make sound decisions! i noticed before when i wasn't dieting i ate healthy and my weight stayed the same. but now that im thiking that i should be careful i definitely am wanting things taht i didn't even think about before. so, for my eating plan im sticking with the food pyramid. guess that rules out eating ding dongs all day... ;)

yesterday when i was exercising on the treadmill i was thinking about how i used to run 3-4 miles a day, and the reason i stopped doing that was because my shortest mile was only like 9 1/2 min. i can't believe i thought that. but then i caught myself thinking how lame it was that i was just walking, until i realised how well i am doing, cause i used to be bulimic and be out to get my body. basically making myself miserable.. ooo man, we need no details of that. so, perspective makes me realise that i am doing well! and i should feel good about that now, and i do feel good about it!! :) also, a lot of times i get in this im a blob mode where i picture myself as having absolutely no facial features and being round cause im so huge... but ummm, if i look in the mirror that's not true! i do weight 180 something, but still! im no hippo! anyway, so attitude is important to me. i exercised last night and am going to go exercise now for today.

i got my exercise today! heaven forbid i think i have muscle underneath my outer layer. lol food choices today conissted of mcdonals and burger king, but still ok cause smaller portions and i was with friends so it was fun! i need to remember to get my water, and also, im going to try to get to bed by 9 today.

i just want the whole world to know how frustrated i am that i don't own a single pair of shorts that fit. but at least 10 that don't!

Theresa--
You'll get it girl!!! Just keep going. I've had a hard time lately and just today 3 pounds came off!!! That was major to me because it dropped me under the 90 pound mark!! Now I am actually 188! I was so happy and proud, but then my hubby calls me and says he just was grabbing himself some dinner in town and did I want anything...my first reaction was no, but then I thought of Arby's...curly fries. and although I knew they would be cold when they got to me I ordered them anyway...I felt bad but I will just kepp going tomorrow...right??

You seem to have such great goals! I think that you will get to them!! Hey what kind of weight goal do you have? Mine is 150.

keep up the good work!! Monday is the start of a new week!! Maybe next Sunday we will be on here talking about the next 3 pound loss we made!!
:) :D <IMG SRC="smilies/cool.gif" border="0"> :rose:

mini me thanks so much for your support, i really was needing someone to get my face out of the mud! my weight now is 184, so we are similar in weight. i am 5'3", btw. my goal that my heart is into is more of exercise. i want to run like the wind! right now im just starting out with 20 min. treadmill 5-6 days a week, adding 5 minutes each week, til im walking 45 minutes a week. than add in a littel jogging. than pretty soon i'll be wild and free running with the cheetahs, or something. :) i figure if i do that the weight has to come off. i really am frustrated about whethere or not i should do some kind of stricter diet. cause it seems like the thing to do but im also certain it would lead to binging.. the bulimic thing, so i kinda don't want to mess with that.so food pyramid i guess?? im thinking the weight will come off if i am sure to get enough exercise. myabe?? lol im undecided. sorry to be a downer but hey, let's make this journal accurate of my ups and downs. this is a new week who knows how much buffer i'll be at the end of it!

today i set my alarm a little earlier toget up at 4:50 and exercise. i gotta admit i tried to turn it off and sleep another 20 minutes or so but i pushed the wrong button and it got louder so i just got up! lol anyway, i increased my exercise 25 minutes. it feels so good to exercise. something i was thinkiing about is that it's important to me to live in today. not to think so long term that i don't start living for a year when ive lost the weight. but because im focusing on that im pretty sure it woun't happen. im just so happy to be feeling good now! i think it's important to have long term goals. they are 1) 60 min. walking a day. and 2) weight a 20 pound loss putting me at 164... hopefully i can join that 100 day challenge, if that's a happenin thing.

i knw this is my secopnd post today but this is my frustration dumping ground. iwent to the doctor today and was weighed being 14 pounds heavier than i thought i would be. now, today everything is going great.. but that wasn't exacly anything to motivate me. k, here is my frustration, left behind...

ive still not kept specific track of everything im eating and all, and for some reason my eating seems to have gotten worse but my exercising better. :) that's ok though, i need to keep postitive so im going to go for improving exercise! i think im going to bump my exercising up to 30 min. this week a bit early.

Teresa you're doing great with the exercise! You're probably hungry because you're burning more calories from exercise and your body needs more. One suggestion from me would be if you want to improve your eating start with more fruits and veggies. Then don't worry about the rest of your eating, unless it's really bad (like me, when I was eating ice cream almost every night 8-} ).

Keep up the good work. :) *

debbi, thanks for commenting. you are probably right about that's why im eating more. i think i will keep track more, but to be aware not obcessive. big difference for me and obcessive would be a downward spiral. i have upped to 30 minutes for this week on exercise. ive noticed that im really hard on myself because im not as fit as other people. ive raised my standards for myself, so now i compare myself to everyone, or get irritated with myself that im not running marathons. ive raised my standards and im shocked that after a month im not there! of course, it takes time. now, i realise that im doing this and im not going to let it be a nagging feeling. i know ive set lots of goals for this journal but i think i could focus more easily if i picked 2. so, im going for getting exercise, and getting water. thanks again debbie for commenting, gives me a little boost to go get em!

*****June 2002 ******
We will be in good enough shape that we will be able to think about running a race that summer...Kay! So slow and steady challenges till then...We have the Lakestride Marathon here so maybe I will aime to do that next year. Maybe I will do the fun run in it this year just to get a taste...I can walk that!! :)

Go Theresa!!Go!!

I am off on a road trip with my mom for the weekend so I will be gone and eating awful road food...oh well it will be so great to hang with mom now that we are finally friends...took awhile..haha

BAYLEE- thanks.. yeah everything will fall in to place as long as i don't fall ON my face first!! lol no but really, im determined.
MINI- when you get back from that road trip let me know how it was.... hey, you'll even be with your mom for mother's day. you can't get out of being nice to her for that whole day.. ha

today has been interesting. at work i notice that im always sooo tired. and of course, i can't sleep. so i eat, and nibble and graze. i knew id been nibbling but i guess it was to stay awake cause i sat down and fell asleep. woops. in 3 more weeks my schedule will allow for at least an hour or 2 more of sleep. anyway, today when exercising my 30 min. im at now i noticed that i didn't want to have anything to do with that treadmill til id been on it for 15 min., and then i was actually all into it. uaually i hate it til the 7 min. mark but that was probably just cause i was tired.. i almost added more time, but ummmm.. i pretty easily fought that urge. ;) oh, and i had a 3 pound weight gain, im for some reason not worried about that.

i got my 30 minutes in today.. but jeez, not exactly the most encouraging thing to be hanging out and be out of breath cause everyone else is fit and im not!! jeez. and especially all this heat that will be coming on i know will be a killer! i have no even glimmering thoguht to back off, but im really frustrated.

today was a pretty healthy food kind of day. it's sunday though and i don't exercise on sundays.

i got up and exercised today, but wimped out on the whole thing... it was like misery.. ive really lost my pizazz and im afraid if i don't somehow found where i lost my pizazz im going to be going downhill... AHHHHH i need to hurry up and get inspired before i let myself down!

boy i messed up today really bad i still feel sick. but, at least just one day and hopefully im going to shake this off.

today has been great so far. i found my lost enthusiasm. i did 40 minutes exercise which was 2 miles on the treadmill. i guess that's not a lot but i feel it doing something.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN GIRL!!!

40 MINUTES IS 40 MINUTES!!!

Remember we are in it for the long run and you are doing GREAT!!!

Mini

Oh yeah i guess I am back..hehe

I Love the Ozarks!!!

Good for you Theresa!Sounds like you're getting the old pizzazz back.
Doesn't it feel good to look back after having a rough go of it & be able to say "I did it!I held on & I won the battle!
You just keep right on going girl! We're all rooting for you.
Prayers for success. Baylee

MINI ME: welcome back!! i was going to see how your trip went but i couldn't find your journal topic, even when i put in to display from topics the last 30 days when i know it definitely wasn't that long. yeah i guess 40 min. is pretty great, you see, there are worse things i could have been doing with that 40 min. lol thanks for cheering for me!
BAYLEE: yes, it feels so good to have made it through. i think it must hve been hoemones.... cause my family was about ready to throw me to the lions. lol they didn't know whether to be nice to me or just to hide!!! but the part that made me sad was that i might quit not that exercsiing was misery. im scared of failure cause that's happened before. but a good quote that im going to steal... "feel the fear and do it anyway".

I've kept cal. under check ut the actual stuff im eating isn't the most nutricious.. oh well, you know maybe i have a bad attitude about the eating cause im not planning on making long term eating changes. im just trying to be fit and be a runner! my employer and my mom know about my plans to get into shape and i don't know how i feel about that. i mean if i messed up they wouldn't sayanyting or be mean at all, and they probably will never say a word about it. lol but my mom did ask me about the weird diet site on the computer all the time.. haha she commented to me whatever works cause she doesn't want me to be fat like her.. talk about self esteem! :/ anyway, im going to get my 40 min in today but won't have time to write later so im recording it now.

you are doing it Theresa!
maybe now that you have the cals in check you can start adding some more nutritious stuff. i dont post my food intake here either mainly because i know that should be eating more fruit and vegs. but some days its all i can do to stay within the calories.
keep going strong, you can do it!
hugs bell :)

thanks bell.. lol.. i guess my secret is out than im not a healthy eater. :P you know what the craziest thing happened today, i realised that i was going to be able to exercise today cause usually i don't have time on thurdays, and anyway, i was really excited!!! just can't believe that!! exercising really doesn't something for my self-esteem. i was thinking how if i wake up tomorrow and never exercise or if i were to eat the whole house, i would probably regret having failed another diet.. cause it would mes my metabolism for no good. but if i never exercised again, ive done nothing worse to my body. if anything ive benefited it. so, that's why i focus on exercise, because there is no negaative side to it. im not the best water drinker but i have a 45 min. drive eachway to work so ive been taking a bottle of water with me every day and that helps a lot!! maybe i'll put that on the diet tip page.. anyway, i don't have time to chevk in later but i'm writing in that i'll be doing my 40 min. of exercise tonight. :) :) woohoo!

dumping ground: i just had this incredible eat the whole house feeling... but at the same time an incredible you better not eat the whole house feeling. talk about inner turmoil. :/ wow, that's such a strong feeling to fight, and the worse thing about it is the deception of it that if you feel that that you HAVE to.. you know??? also, im kinda disappointed that ive only lost 2 pounds in 3 weeks, though.. hmmmm, oh well i guess. most of the time i feel perfectly great about what im doing. the thing is that fitness has always been a big deal to me and ive always struggled with it. it's one of the 2 biggiest challenges in my life. when this is in check than it frees me to work on other apsects of my life. anway, i'll post later tonight.

i didn't eat the whole house afterall. the root of that was being tired. UGH :/ i got 40 min exercise and a blister along with it!!! lol but, did eat greasy dinner tonight ummm, i guess to prove to myself and family i wasn't on a diet.. or just so they wouldn't ask questions mostly. check in later :)

theresa lost 2 POUNDS!! now how exciting is that that.....!!!! also, i upped my exercise cause 40 min at 3.o was getting boring. i did 60 min. at 3.4/3.5 ish and boy that is definitely bringing the life back into exercise..... wooooo

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cals. were good today. again though, no exercse cause it's sunday.

i tried to do the same exercise i did 2 days ago but it just wasn't going to happen. i got these awful shin splints. i think im going to take it back to 3.o for 60 min. cause i want it to be gradual. the reason i upped it was cause my skinny sister said i should be doing at lesat 12 min. miles. but, im doing 20 min. right now and am feeling pretty wimpy. also, ive only lost 3 pounds in 3 weeks. im feeling pretty discouraged.

i got all my pizazz mustered up and did 30 minutes at 3.1/3.2 but ive got this dang little blister on my toe that was hurtin so i quit early. :P

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Hi Theresa...

WOW!!! You're really getting that exercise thing going! I agree, you probably did get the shin splints from upping your routine too quickly. I did the same thing a week ago...trying the power walking too soon. Took me 4 days for the pain to go away. But then of course, I was 4 miles from home and couldn't just stop!!! LOL

Probably some of the reason that you aren't showing a loss is the muscle you are building weighs more then fat. I agree though that focussing on a few goals are better then changing everything at once. My big set back is WATER. How I have a hard time getting all I need to in. Actually I would say that in two months I have only gotten my quota in maybe twice. But still, I drink alot more then I did, so that has to count for something!

Keep going on the treadmill! You're doing great! It does feel so good to get it in each day. I dwell on it all day long if I don't get my morning walk in!
Will be rooting for you!

Remember...the LOSERS are the WINNERS here!!

Theresa...good work on those workouts...you are on the right track. I am a long-time exerciser, so do you mind if I give you a few tips?

1. Take a multivitamin every day, and take extra calcium if you wind up getting muscle cramps.

2. Measure yourself...around your waist, around your hips, bust and thighs and then record the measurements and do the same thing every month. You have probably lost more than 3 pounds of fat and gained a little muscle with your longer walks. You can really see the fat loss if you record your measurements.

3. Losing a pound a week is a great weight loss...I usually have to diet and exercise to achieve that. You will lose 52 pounds in a year if you keep that up.

4. Make sure you get enough protein to help your body build and repair muscle tissue.

5. Walking on the treadmill first thing in the morning and after meals are the best times for boosting your metabolism.

Have you read Oprah's book, "Make The Connection"? Even though Oprah has had her dieting ups and downs, this book has excellent advice for getting fit through exercise.

Have fun and keep up the good work!!

thanks artsy and eclsipse for writing. ive decided to change my eating thing here, cause, im impatient possibly is the reason. for a week, then re-evaluate. im going to 1200 cal. but also going to be sure to have lots of fruits and veg. that's only 400 less,but i hope it maeks a difference. this morning i was short on time, but i did 30 min. at 3.1/3.2ish. my exercise is kinda on back burner for now, cause im going throug ha stressful transtition now and i need to make sure i get enough slep and take care of other things. it's tstill there, just back burner.

Hi Theresa!!
I just wanted to chime in that Oprah's book is really great!!!
See ya later
mini

alright, im done with my little stress out time. i haven't had time to exercise and have been eating alright. i weighed myself a few days ago at 179 so that is super. i just don't want to weigh myself again in case it is bad. lol anyway, now ive got to try and find that focus i had.

Theresa...hooray for you...2 more pounds lost. Keep your focus and you will get to your goal.

i think today i finally am really kicking this terrible sickness ive had for aover a week now!! i went to the doctor to get another inhalor, and boy when the doctor listened to my lungs boy did she ever lecture me. but, im on so many drugs now i feel REALLY good. j/k anyway, today i was kinda thinking about getting back into things. and i was thinking.. oh i'll jsut start next week. but i know if i did that it would never start. so, im starting today again with exercise. im so happy to be aware of that, cause.. just cause, i want to do this.

Theresa, I also have to get going on my exercising. I'm with you, if I decide to wait for the beginning of the week or some other day it won't happy or something will come up. So I just have to do it. I think it's great that you're exercising. My weight hasn't done much until recently when I started again, sometimes we just need to get going, huh?

Keep up the good work, you'll get there!

thanks for the encouragement debbi.. though ummm, i did very bad last night and this morning! i was very upset, and actually the reason i didn't eat more was because i was too upset even to eat... but you know, food doesn't make me feel better. even while eating it, i felt bad. i have this false principle in my head that food makes me not stressed, makes me happy, makes everything better, but it doesn't not even in the moment anymore. im aware of what im doing. nevermind the physical consequences, like swelling!! anyway, next time i do that i just need to stop. cause if i want to feel better healthy is what will make me feel better and especialy when under a lot of stress.

today eating was BAD! ive been in the slumps ever since i got sick and haven't been able to get out!! but i did 60 min. walking on treadmill at 3.3. so that felt so good!

Congrats on the 60 minute treadmill workout Teresa. Best way out of a slump is to keep adding good habits like walking to your routine. Go back and read the first posts in your journal and you will see the improvements you have made. Have a great weekend.

hey artsy and baylee, thanks for writing!!! i really appreciate it. it's people like you that keep my hope alive and keep me trying. i had another bad eating day. tis stupid cake that wasn't even that good. not like i ate the whole thing but 2 pieces. not even that, but im not eating healthy. i started to exercise this morning but didn't make it moer than 15 min. i think my body is just like tired from not geting any good food. so, i need to eat healthy to feel good! i haven't gained weight, but i need to be healthy! so, im writing down today what im going to eat tomorrow. oh wait, the first sunday of every month is fast sunday so i guess i won't be eating tomorrow. i guess that makes that food choices thing easy. but for a few days i will be writing down first cause im getting on track.

yesterday for church i was supposed to fast.. boy did that not happen. a pretty bad binge is honestly what happened more like. today i did 30 min. on treadmill and i will do the other 30 this evening. (small chunks work better when im not as motivated to keep gonig) i wanted to work on other muscles so i did 5 grandma pushups and 20 situps. im not sure how many i could do without dying, so im starting out small. i did some good for my body today so im happy about that. i think what really is going to win this struggle is enduring to the end.

Theresa Hi. I was also suppose to fast yesterday for church. HOwever, by 2 when church got out, I was starving! I went home and ate! I didn't eat much Saturday and forgot about fasting until Sunday morning and usually I pig out on Saturday nights. 8-| Anyway, it's hard for me to fast, too. I'm usually much better, but probably because I eat more on Saturday night and my stomach is full.

Sometimes eating better does make it easier to exercise, I've found out. And taking it slower helps when you're not feeling up to it.

You did exercise this morning so I'm giving you a star for that. *

Keep up the good work.

Theresa...what works for me sometimes is to concentrate about what you will eat and don't sweat the extras so much. You made the comment that your body needs good food to feel energetic, and you are correct. How about trying to eat the recommended servings of fruit and vegetables in a day, and then whatever else doesn't matter. I bet you would eat less calories and feel better. Each piece of fruit absorbs 7 grams of fat as it travels through your digestive system. Try eating whole grain products for the extra nutrients and fibre. In the meantime, just keep up those workouts...you get full marks for your persistence with those workouts.

thanks debbi. yeah i think that fast sunday was particularly bad timing for me regardless. but that is a good idea to make sure you don't start it out hungry. i will do that next month. and also artsy that's what im doing. im focusing on eating good healthy things. so today has been healthy.

today i bought a bike with a child tow. it was pretty pricey but you know good investment. it is really fun cause the kids like it but oh my gosh, it screams at me "you are out of shape!" anyway, so i totally think this is fun and an awesome variation to my exercise and boy those muscles burn. lol eating is alright, could be better im just trying to focus on the positive for now.

k, i officially report that ive had bad eating these past couple days, like BAD! it was the worst days of pms. you know life isnt about eating this or that and sometimes i wish i would just stop fighting myself and enjoy life and not have any food issues!!

Wow theresa the bike sounds like great exercise and quality time for you and your kids too! dont worry about the bad eating days..today is MONDAY..the best day in the world to start over!! :)

Theresa...congratulations on buying the bike. That is a really good fitness move because the kids will probably bug you to use it! It will be kind of like my dog bugging me to go for a walk; he is kind of like a four legged fitness coach. PMS does awful things to everybody...just put it behind you and think about having a good time and being healthy. I have lots of food issues, too. I wish food was just food, but lots of times it serves more purposes than bodily nourishment. All you can do is try to gradually replace your negative habits with better ones. The bike is a great step in that direction.

yesterday i got in 60 min. on treadmill. tonight im going to the y with my sister, so that's kinda a bit funner. eating is ok, not going to lose weight, but heck i should be happy not gaining i suppse.

Sixty minutes on the treadmill is nothing to sneeze about, Theresa. Seems to me that that is alot more than you were doing when you first started posting here. That means that you have probably lost more fat than just your weight would indicate. Keep pedaling sister!

this morning i did 40 min. on the treadill. 3 5 min. increments at 4.2/4.3ish..... so that's actually aerobic!!! i feel so good about that.. im finally passed building muscle into jogging.!!!!!!!! wooooooooo

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Theresa you're doing good. I use to walk to loose weight and had a hard time going over 30 minutes! On saturday I would push myself to do 45. Even with aerobics, 30 minutes is all I can do. I'm impressed with your exercising.

* :rose: *

k, today i did 40 min on treadmill.. including 4 5min increments of 4.2-4.4.... i was going to do 60 min. but i literally couldn't do it, i was exhausted! gosh it felt good!!! when i first started though i did 20 min walking, and that was really hard though, and then i got to 60 min. walking.. so heck in a few months i'll be donig 4.2 for 60 min! than a marathon!! than wild and free with the cheetahs!!! but for now, back to reality, that was hard but super rewarding.

Theresa...well done with the workout!!! What an improvement in your stamina. I just love the process of getting into shape and improving my workouts. It is so nice to have objective feedback to how I am improving. I just know you are going to be posting under "Success Stories" one of these days.

you are doing great theresa.. so much improvement in your exercising..i remember being puffed and awful when i first started out. its amazing if you stick with something how quickly we can improve.
keep it up.
hugs bell :)

Theresa,

What a difference in your exercise since you started! If you haven't lately, you should go back and read your journal from the beginning just to remind ourself how far you have come. * *

Karolyn

oh my gosh, look at all these nice things you guys come here, group hug!!! lol well, no exercise on sunday.. but i was just realising that i keep munching on things, and the reason is because im tired. soooo, since im aware im going to knock it off.

Wow! Ive enjoyed reading through your journal. What an amazing distance youve come in your exercise routine. It makes you feel great doesn't it. I am proud of your accomplishments and hope things continue to excel for you.
Linda

thanks lindasue :D today i did 50 min on treadmill... 5 5min, incremetns at 4.2-4.4.... now just for records sake to keep track of improvement inbetween those increments i njotice that the first 2 min. is getting breathing again.. like normal... and then usually i put the speed back up to 3.3 again before jogging. it was HARD, like i literally couldn't do anymore. woohoo!! (i also did 10 granny pushups and 30 situps)
yesterday i set a jogging goal for myself, i figure it will take probably 2 months to get there. but the goal is *drum roll* to do 3 miles consecutively at 5.0.... :D i really think that is a perfect goal and attainable best of all!

Well done, again Theresa, and let me complement you on being 5 pounds down. I bet you will be running those 3 miles before the end of the summer. Go girl!

thanks artsy!! haah!! k, i wrote already today, but... ive been grazing like all day long, and if im doing all this exercise work to feel better than heck my eating better go right along with it. ive made a plan that i think will work for me, but not set in stone because it may not!!! plan: keeping calories for meals at 1000. and that would be like a set number. but than alloweing myself unlimited fruits and veggies. cal. would be kinda high but it would be healthy so i feel that's a positive change. i figure i'll be at about 1600 cal. than... or more..... actually, that's not even high. so that's what im going to try and of course i'll let whoever reads this know how it goes.

Theresa,

Plenty of fruits & vegetables is definitely a positive way to go. I'm at about 1600 calories a day, sometimes a little more, sometimes a little less. It balances out for the week. I think you will find this easy to stick to for the long haul.

Karolyn

karolyn.. yeah you are right. im really not wanting to be strict cause i can guarantee you id go on like a 2 week binging spree. :O AHHH!
this morning i got up and did 30 min. exercise, so 3 4.2-4.4 increments. i only got 4 hours last night so that's why it was not a good work out. i can testify right hee and now (for myself to read later) if i get not enough sleep you won't have the nergy to give it all you've got and you will fall alseep on the treadmill. hopefully i will heed my own advice. this morning i tried on the shorts that i did a few weeks ago. the darn things still don't fit. i bet it would take like another 10-15 lbs. like 3 inches? anyway.. ive got lots of shorts in that size. (16) this morning i did 30 situps and 10 granny pushups.
update: i didn't exactly stick to plan.. but that's alright it's mostly a guideline ..i'll keep tryin... today was kinda blah ive been soo tired. AHH

[ 06-20-2001: Message edited by: Theresa ]

Theresa...1600 calories sounds like a sensible limit for somebody doing your workouts. You may even find that you lose weight faster because you are giving your body the nutrients it needs while you are working out. Give it a whirl, girl!

i have not stuck to the plan i made up one bit. im not happy to stick to plan or not to1!!!! jeez!!! im afraid to have a plan and don't want to not have a plan! i weighed myself.. those evil numbers.. and shows only a 1 pound loss since ive started. my pants are tight, they actually feel tighter than when i started but i don't think that is possible..... im just so frustrated! im not about to stop or anyting.. i feel better.. but same size and practically no weight is gone. this is weirding me out. today i worked on my goal speed.. it was pretty hard (5.0) it lasted like 10 min. total.. and it made me too tired to do a full hour so i only did 30 min. AAAHHHHHHH
just had to add one more thing that frustrates me to make my veting complete!!! these small changes are supposed to pay off in the long run, but they haven't. GRR

[ 06-21-2001: Message edited by: Theresa ]

Hi Theresa!

I think you are doing a wonderful job! Right now I am walking 1.5 miles in 30 mins. Maybe some day soon I will be able to be where you are!

About your clothes still fitting the same, I don't really know what to say. Do you drink enough water? Do you have alot of salt intake that may be causing you retain water? Maybe you could post what you are eating and we could give you some tips. Hopefully someone else will have some other ideas and help us out here!

Take Care!
1luckystar

thanks luckystar for your thoughts :) k, today did not go well at all. i mean, i binged 2 times during the same day. than, after it wore off i did exercise for an hour. 3 5 min. increments at 5.0 and 45 min. at 3.3..... than when i was done with that, and while i waqs doing it i felt very good.. but then to the bathroom.. i was sick for a long time. and i still feel yucky. i have more thoughts, but it's like 2:30 am so i will post tomorrow.......

yesterday i did 40 min on treadmill, 3 5 min. incremetns at 5.0ish. (the rest 3.3 about) i almost died it was hard. today i won't be exercising because it's sunday and im sure my body could use the break. i did 10 granny pushups and 80 situps. (not at the same time) and im suprised im not sore today.

Good workouts, Theresa. You will get results with a program like that. Go girl!

yeah, i hope my workouts show some results!!! k, today i woke up and was going to exercise in like 20 min. and that sure as heck didn't work. this is what i did. 15 min. on treadmill.. 5.0 happened for like less than 2 min. i think i need to be up longer before i exercise so i can wake up??? i did 15 granny push-ups, and 50 situps. a actually think that my lower stomach is flatter. but ummm, we got a ways to go. anyway, im changing the way i exercise. im going to change it to 4.0, and do that the whole time. that way it is aerobic but it's not like im ight die if i do it too long. i kinda feel like im wimping out but that is what my level is. i will do that tomorrow morning and than re-evaluate if necessary. today i had grapes and a few different vegetables. so im trying to get the good things in there. also, try not to constantly graze. k, changing the exercise stuff i feel better about this. more hopeful. and hope is a powerful thing.

today i did 30 min. 3 5 min. incremetns at 4.1 .... this is a good idea not to do 5.0 til im in better shape. workouts were getting to be not enjoyable.. and that's a no-no. anyway, 50 situps and 15 granny pushups. *dreams of one day being ble to do a real push-up* hehe

note: i tried to do one and i held it for a few seconds with my nose touching the ground. but there was no way it was going back up. one day i'll look back on this and laugh. ?? hehe

[ 06-26-2001: Message edited by: Theresa ]

Theresa, when you are getting the most out of yourself that you can, you are having a good workout. Workouts should be pleasantly tiring and require focus, but not be something you want to avoid. You were smart to cut back a bit and make them more enjoyable. Work up gradually.

you're right artsy. i just have to find that place in the middle of killing me and sleepercise.... :D today i did 50 sit-ups and 15 granny pushups. i would add to that again but i don't want to risk injuring or pulling a muscle so i will wait on that. i also found some thigh workouts on the internet... there are 6 that i found. i did the first 3, 1 set?? each one. and when i got on the treadmill to workout my thighs were noodles. sooo, hmmm.. i really want to do all my exercising at the same time of the day so maybe i will just do that afterwards.. though i like that stuff for a warm-up.. hmmmmmm anyway, 60 min. on the treamill. 5 3 min intervals at 4.1.... and 30 min. at 3.3-3.4ish. good exercise day. :P *

Wow...60 minutes on the treadmill is great! Compare that to what you were doing a few months ago. You will be getting major health benefits with that type of a workout.

omg! i think im a little stiff.. owe!!! i thought i was taking it slow on the thigh exrcises i really did!! but i think i might die. i think i will still do my little joggy/walky exercise cause it's different muscles. but yowser. and push-ups and sit-ups would be ok. definitely let these thigh muscles recover. it's interesting cause they are so sore you'd think id never used those musces before. but it is very apparent that i do use those muscles cause now im a semi-vegetable. ARTSY! you mentioned that you liked my journal in another post, i was tickled pink!! really you made my day :D

later in day: i did 55 situps, 15 granny push-ups, and 30 min. walking at 3.4-3.5ish.

[ 06-28-2001: Message edited by: Theresa ]

Theresa, I do like your journal and I'm glad you noticed the "reference". I do know the pain of sore thigh muscles...the "quadriceps" muscle or "quads". I used to work mine really hard with squats. Hang in, because your body will get used to handling the lactic acid and after awhile you won't get so stiff and sore. One thing that helped me with muscle soreness was to take Vitamin E everyday when I worked out. Seems like you are really getting into this!

im really worried aobut my knee. im worried that i won't be able to jog cause my knees can't take it, and that' what ive been working up to. ive heard it's just as beneficial to walk but i would like to be able to jog. i hope it time this will all settle down but for now it seems to be gettign worse.

Theresa...what's this thing with your knees? How long has it been bothering you?

You need to make sure you have really good shoes. Don't worry about jogging yet. Have you ever read a copy of "Walking" magazine? Those women who race walk are really fit. There are a few women around town and I am always amazed at how fast they do walk. To me it is way easier to jog 5 mph than to walk it (in fact, I can't walk 5 mph...about 4.7 is all I can do). So...find out about your knee and just think about cranking those miles on the treadmill...at a walk.

artsy my knees have been bothering me since i did the lunges. i know the proper way to do it now.. i can't believe i did that much damage in like 5 minutes. i hope this is all temperary, that i can deal with even though it is pretty pianful. but nothing permanent i hope!!!!!!!!!! i got some new x-training shoes so i think that will help. i will stick to walking.. but still one day i want to be able to jog. im going to start focusing mroe on my food now. 1200-1400 cals. i'll keep a general count of calories and post it here but not everything specifically. i think getting weight off my knees is going to be a big help too. i am like 60 overweight, imagine all that being off my knees.

note: im not even walking now, it hurts too much. i am going to wait at least until monday.. for sure.. maybe wednesday. i don't want to aggrave it unnecesarilly

[ 06-30-2001: Message edited by: Theresa ]

i adimt that these past few days have been bad. not like binging. but close. ive like fallen off the wagon but ive got a hold of the bumper still... or whatever it is wagons have on the back. hehe i think my knee will not have any permanent damage like i was sooo concerened about. but still i won't be doing anything til later in the week so i can be sure and not aggravate it. one good thing that has comeo ut of this is ive decided to start a food journal. im realy ready i think. i will keep it in a spiral notebook, and write what i will eat a day in advance. that way i don't have to worry. i hope to keep cals at approx. 1200-1400. i guess in a way it's good that ive had this setback cause ive found the strength to focus more on my eating. not just exercise. so, wish me luck everyone.

Theresa, Hi. I've been catching up on your journal. Hope your knee gets better! Taking time off will help you focus on your food. I've found keeping a food journal very helpful. I actually write mine down after I eat, because I don't always plan my food or eating. But for a lot of people writing down what they're eating before is the best way to go. It might keep you from binging.

Good luck. *

Hi Theresa,
I ve been seeing that you are having a problem with your knee.Do you think that it might help if you wrapped it when you use the treadmill? I hope it's nothing serious.
Keep up the good work. Baylee

Theresa...sorry to hear about your knee. You are smart to give it a break. I think that keeping a food journal is an excellent idea and it makes something good come out of your sore knee. I'll look forward to reading about your success with the food journal.

thanks all 3 of you for your support. though, ive not done well at all and i feel like im letting everyone down that cheers me on. even in the act i thought of you guys.. but nooooo. most important though ive been letting myself down. ive been having some built up stress in my life so it's just hard now. see, ive got to stop this pity party! i want to much to remain positive about everything. ive had a lot of good days, so im trying not to let these bad ones get me down. just as a note: it's been downhill since i stopped exercising. today: binged.. oh yes. :( anyway, im not giving up on myself. sometimes i really have to remind myself that life isn't about "food and drink" but i recognise that this is something that is very important to me and to the way i feel physically and emotionally about myself.

Theresa..you are not letting anybody down when you have a bad day. We are here to give you understanding and support on your journey and not to judge you in any way. So, don't worry about me, think about yourself and what you have been able to learn and accomplish so far. Have a good day tomorrow!

Hi Theresa..Just stopping by to say hello. Been reading your journal. I hope your knee starts to feel better. Please don't worry about not being perfect today. We all have those days. Take care.. You are doing a great job.

Debbi

thanks you guys. well today i was reading about how to have a healthy pregnnacy and all. and boy you know you really need to be healthy. the statistics on how eating healthy really doeas a lot for your baby is amazing. so of course im like whoa when im pregnant im definitely going to do it all right. but.... i don't worry about myself that way. my spirit deserves a good healthy body to thrive in.. soo.. jeez... it is worth it even if it is hard. i din't do well today but im not givin up anytime soon.

I just read something someone.. i forgot who.. said.. that if you can't eat just a little bit than don't eat it. whoa. that hit me like a ton of bricks how my eating is so out of control. something is telling me i have to have it, but i sure don't.

[ 07-06-2001: Message edited by: Theresa ]

I think it's great that you keep coming here and posting...you're getting in touch with your feelings and keeping aware of your goal and what you really want. It will all click for you at the right moment as long as you never give up. Never give up and never give in.

Thanks Terry. The reason I'm posting even when im doing not the best (understatement) is so that i can see what goes wrong. cause im a food cycler of come kind. it's weird. i am doing well today. i seem to have found some new motivation shifting to my maternal thinking. realsing my kids will elarn there eating habits from me, and their attitude towards life and all. i don't plan on children soon, but hmmm, it will probably happen sooner than i realise. (in 5 yerars as opposed to when im 60)

today has been super!!!

[ 07-07-2001: Message edited by: Theresa ]

i don't think i wrote yesterday, but yesterday was pretty good.like day from night how i felt before. i don't know what it was that got me in that rut. i hate how i felt. i NEVER want to feel like that again.

Theresa...way to fight back into the groove. I have been feeling a little blah lately too, and it is a reflection of whether or not I am sticking to my plan. Today is going to be a good day.

today and yesterday has been healthy and good. no exercise though.

Teresa, hi. Sorry I've been away from your journal, I've been reading so many and have only so much time. Is that just another excuse?? 8-| Anyway, I'm glad you're feeling better. The exercise can wait until your knee heels and you're ready. I'm like you maybe I'll have kids in 5 years as opposed to when I'm 60! And that is a good reason to start eating healthy now.

Take care,
Debbi

today was alright. healthy eating and all. though my knee was really botheing me. it feels weak to walk on and if i turn it yowsers! it's nevber hurt that way before.

i went to the stupid doctor today about my knee. (cute young male doctor) and he said lose weight.. start watching food and exercise... and he said it's not broken. like i thought it was ! ugh and he said to take lots of ibeuprophen.. jee whiz. waste of time.

Hi Theresa!

I'm new and I just wanted to say I've been reading your journal, and I hope your knee heals really fast. Also, you've been doing great on the healthy eating.

Love,

Lana

Teresa,
I just wanted to say hi. I was reading your journal and I sorry that your having trouble with your knee. I have a wonderful doctor that told me to make sure I wear good shoes with a good arch support. Don't bend my knee more than a 90 degree angle. The thigh should never go lower than the knee. He had me do special exercises to help strengthen the knee. Just thought I'd throw the info your way. He also told me to ice it for 20 minutes after a workout. I don't know what your knee problem is but once I stopped over extending my knee I'm doing much better. Good Luck and keep up the good work.

Just stopping in to say hello. Glad to hear that you are in a much more positive place right now. Now if we can just get that knee of yours to cooperate. Sorry the doctor wasn't of more help. Sounds like skinny had some good pointers.

Take Care!

you know ever since the doctor told me i need to lose weight ive been upset. im not sure why cause i already know i need to.

I get upset like that too when I go to the doctor. They don't know everything and they are not God. Well, losing weight sure can't hurt your knee, I know I'm having less back pain since I got half my weight off (40 down and 40 to go!) No one ever said I should lose weight for my medical problems, but I always knew it would help. My family doctor did put in my records concern that I was becoming obese, but never said it to me. I just got copies made of my records and there's things in there I didn't even know about! Here's hugs and hoping you have a great day.

hello terry. im happy to say im feeling better since the pooy doctor. my weight has been staying approx. the same for the last couple of weeks. this may sound silly, but i thought i would try eating only when im hungry. and than good food choices. we will see how this works. oh, my mom mentioned to my grandma i had been exercising and my grandma wants to know how much weight ive lost. she also bugs me it's so annoying. she is coming to visit in 2 weeks. the thing is i haven't been exercising since i hurt my knee. blargh! hmm, even though im complaining i really do feel better, just venting i suppose.

Theresa...don't let the doctor get in your way. You already know what you want to do (lose weight) and you know that will help your knee. You can do this!!!

Have you tried a weight loss program like Weight Watchers or TOPS? You might find the group support there really motivating. You might meet some friends to walk with or go to the pool. Just an idea.

Well I decided that I don't want to do the journal for now. I may start a new one, cause I feel this one has turned blah blah and since i injured myself has lacked focus or any purpose. In fact, I for sure will start a new one. So buh-bye to this one. I'm leaving for a week so I will start it when i get back.