Starting Date: 05/15/01 - (Goal Wght: 135)
Today's Date: 05/15/01 - Time On Program:
Starting Weight: 208.5 - Today's Wght: 208.5
Total Loss: 0 - Average Weekly Loss: 0
Lbs. To Reach Goal Weight: 73.5

Well I did pretty good today. I experienced a great deal of hunger, but that's to be expected after about 6 weeks of binge eating. I prepared ahead of time with several healthy snacks, and I allowed myself to eat when I got overwhelmingly hungry.

I managed to get down 6-8 oz. glasses of water which resulted in about 42 trips to the bathroom I believe. 8-| I'm hoping that problem gets better with time.

And I walked on my treadmill 1/4 of a mile twice.

Cindy

hey cindy, im so glad you are going to be posting a journal here. that way it will be so easy for me to keep tabs on you. :P im serious, look up that article i said, it's great. :)

glad to see you posting here cindy!
just take it one step at a time. you are doing great and will continue to do so.
we are here to support you.
hugs bell :)

Hi Cindy. You are wise to plan ahead with your snacks and stuff. You've got a good chart to keep track of where you are going and where you came from! Have a great day and probably all that peeing will get better as your body gets used to you eating less and drinking more water. But I'd expect it to keep up like that for a couple of days. Just think of it as a cleansing. *

Starting Date: 05/15/01 - (Goal Weight: 135)
Today's Date: 05/16/01 - (Day #2)
Starting Weight: 208.5 - Today's Weight: 207.75
Total Loss: .75 - Average Weekly Loss: .75
Pounds To Reach Goal Weight: 72.75

I did really well today even though I thought it was going to be a real difficult day. I had a lot of hunger, but it wasn't quite as overwhelming as yesterday. I think it really helped getting out of the house to do some errends during my "trigger" time.

I drank my 6-8oz. glasses of water today. Thanks for the vote of confidence on the peeing Terry. 8-} I guess there is a good side to this problem - I'm getting extra mileage in for my daily exercise. Can I count that too? That must be worth at least 3.5 miles, don't you think? :laugh:

My exercise for today was again, 2 - 1/4 mile sessions. Not much I know, but my main goal to start out with is mainly to get myself into the habbit of doing my workouts every day.

Cindy

You are doing great Cindy! :) Keep up the good work!

Yup, I'd say you can count those trips to the bathroom as extra mileage. I've had a bladder disease for the last 10 years that causes me to pee up to 60 times a day and night! There are actually times when I say my exercize for the day is to go up the steps to the upstairs bathroom instead of using the one down here. And some times I will even say, ok, when I have to pee I will go upstairs, and then I will go up and down 3 times as well! That will really add up over the course of a day. Of course at night, I wish I had a bedpan! LOL! But, here is the good news. When I lose weight, there will be a couple of days when I notice I'm peeing more, and then I'll see a drop on the scale! I think we might pee out some of that fat! What do you think? Sorry to mess up your journal with this crazy response. If you want me to delet it, or if you can, just go right ahead. 8-}

Good for you Cindy...you made it through the second day on your plan. You are on your way and people here are so pleased for you. Have a great day today.

Starting Date: 05/15/01 - (Goal Weight: 135)
Today's Date: 05/18/01 - (Day #4)
Starting Weight: 208.5 - Today's Weight: 205.25
Total Loss: 3.25 - Average Weekly Loss: 3.25
Pounds To Reach Goal Weight: 70.25 (Started w/73.5)

I'm so excited and surprised at the progress I'm making. Boy, I was in such an awful mess when I made that first post just 3 days ago. I never thought I'd do this well. In fact, I was scared to death that I was going to fail again. I guess it goes to show what we are capable of when we really set our minds to it.

Yesterday was an awaful day for me. It wasn't my program at all. I got angry when I couldn't set up my VCR to record my favorite soap while I was at work. Then I started to get overwhelmed when I began to think of all the stuff I have to get done around the house. I was right on top of everything until I started spending a little time here on DT.

Looking back on it, I see that I was angry, frustrated, overwhelmed and to top it off I was tired all day. But guess what? I managed not to turn to food to deal with it. I just told myself I was NOT going to do that. I was doing too well to let a crappy day spoil my progress. Hey! That's a really BIG step for me. And this morning it payed off because I showed another loss when I weighed myself. As you can see, I've lost 3.25 lbs. in my first 3 days.

I know that you usually lose more the first couple of weeks, and much of it is water. And you shouldn't lose more than 2 lbs. a week thereafter. I'm just glad to be rid of that 3.25 lbs. That's just that much pressure off my poor feet and knees.

Well I've got to go for now!
Cindy

Cindy,

You are so right!!! You were frustrated and DIDN'T use food to handle it! That IS a really a big deal!!! Now you are building on success. Remember that feeling.

Congratulations,

Karolyn

[ 05-18-2001: Message edited by: karolync1 ]

That's a great jump start, just right to get you motivated and encouraged to continue on. And you kept going even though you had a rough day! Good for you! Just keep right on going, coming here and posting, eating less and exercizing more. You're right, it's probably a lot of water, but so what! It's still 3 pounds gone. I lost very quickly at first too, but it's really gotten slow now. But just that initial big drop was enough to really show me that I COULD do it, and if I can lose the first 40, I can lose the last 40. I can't believe all these ten years I really believed I couldn't lose weight because of my meds. Last year when I was in the hospital they added a new drug and told me I would guaranteed gain a large amount of weight, and I proved them right by gaining 20 pounds in the first month! Well, now I'm proving them wrong. Pills can make me hungrier and slow my metabolism, but that doesn't mean I have to eat more and vegetate on the couch the rest of my life. I recently got copies of some medical records, and last year before my first psychiatric hospitalization, my doctor wrote on my chart, "she states she basically plans to sit on the couch the rest of her life". Well, I'm fighting the depression now, getting out there and walking every day, coming here and posting, giving and getting help, and eating less. I might not be able to change my medical conditions, but I can change my size! *

Good for you Cindy. Who cares if the 3 pounds is just water for now? It like not having to carry around a 3 pound weight all day long, and you are quite right...your knees will appreciate you. You are a strong, in control woman. Go girl!

Starting Date: 05/15/01 - (Goal Weight: 135)
Today's Date: 05/20/01 - (Day #6)
Starting Weight: 208.5 - Today's Weight: 205
Total Loss: 3.5 - Average Weekly Loss: 3.5
Pounds To Reach Goal Weight: 70 (Started w/73.5)

Yesterday was another bad day for me. I was just sloppy with my program and pretty much feeling sorry for myself I think, because I felt a little down. I know I need to get motivated on the exercise part of my weight loss plan, and I just didn't feel that motivation that yesterday.

BIG NEWS FLASH!!!
I'm so excited to report that I found an answer to my exercise delima. Hubby and I went for a ride this morning and found the most beautiful little park only 3.5 miles - 5 min. from our house. And guess what? It has a one mile paved walkway there. Does the Lord Bless or what??? :)

After finding the park we came home and ate breakfast, and then went back for a walk. It's absolutely beautiful! I'm going to set myself up with a blank calendar and start going there as often as I can to walk. I only work part time and I'm home by 1:30, so I can even go after I eat my lunch. Hubby said he'd go with me every night that he doesn't have a softball game. This is so cool!!! Needless to say, I'm feeling much better about my program today.

Cindy

Cindy...it is great you found the park to walk in...that is going to make a big difference to your overall mood. It is especially beneficial to walk after a meal (like lunch) because it gives your metabolism a boost. Have a great day today.

Pat yourself on the back, here you are doing all the right things, its inspiring.. so much that I'm going right now to put on my shoes and socks and get outside for a walk.. dunno how far or where yet but I'm going!!! :)so thanks Have a great day!

Starting Date: 05/15/01 - (Goal Weight: 135)
Taday's Date: 05/21/01 - (Day #7)
Starting Weight: 208.50 - Today's Weight: 204.75
Total Loss: 3.75 - Average Weekly Loss: 3.75
Pounds To Reach Goal Weight: 69.75 (Started w/73.5)

I'm so excited! The weight is coming off. My first big goal is to get out of the 200's. That gives me 5 more lbs. to lose to reach that goal.

As bad as I was binging, I said I would never, ever give up totally. I would keep trying different things until I found something that worked. I know what works for me now, so the next battle is being able to stick with it. I should be able to since I'm not on a real restrictive diet. Just eating healthy. I've just got to take it one day at a time.

About 3 years ago I reached my maximum weight of 211. Since then I have at least managed to keep it below that with my periodical dieting. What I'd like to do once I get out of the 200's is set the same goal. Not let myself get into the 200's ever again. And then work my way down from there in 10 lb. increments.

Well, got to start getting ready for work. I plan on going to the walkway when I get home from work today. Am real anxious to see how that works for me. I think it is going to be great. Hubby talked yesterday that we should get some tennis rackets and go play there sometimes. Great idea!

Cindy

Starting Date: 05/15/01 - (Goal Weight: 135)
Today's Date: 05/22/01 - (Week #2)-(Day #8)
Starting Weight: 208.5 - Today's Weight: 204.75
Total Loss: 3.75 - Average Weekly Loss: 3.75
Pounds To Reach Goal Weight: 69.75 (Started w/73.5)

I did very well yesterday! They are predicting rain for every day this week. Just my luck as I planned to go to the park to walk. Yesterday it was warm and sunny right up until I left for work. It turned dark and started sprinkling. But that didn't stop me. When I got home I ran in, changed my clothes and ran right back out the door. I went to the park and walked 2 miles. It felt so good accomplishing that.

Today I have my New Focus meeting after work, so don't know if I'll be able to make it to the park. If not, I may just walk a bit on my treadmill and watch my soap on the downstairs TV. I'm looking forward to another great day.

Cindy

Oh, Cindy, you are getting near that 200 mark! You must be so excited! I know I am excited for you. You're doing a GREAT job! I know you will do this! *

Starting Date: 05/15/01 - (Goal Weight: 135)
Today's Date: 05/23/01 - (Week #2) - (Day #9)
Starting Weight: 208.50 - Today's Weight: 203.50
Total Loss: 5 - Average Weekly Loss: 3.75
Pounds To Reach Goal Weight: 68.50 (Started w/73.50)
Program - No Diet Approach

Needless to say, I was extremely excited when I stepped on the scale this morning! I've lost a total of 5 lbs. now, and I worked for every ounce of it! I haven't done any binging since I started, thank God! I eat 3 meals and at least 3 snacks every day. And I try to drink 6-8oz. glasses of water every day. I've had a rocky start on the exercise part, but I've walked 5 miles since I found the park with the paved walking trail 3 days ago.

I'm so motivated and I wish I could stay this way every day till I reach goal. But unfortunately, the truth of the matter, is that the motivation is something that will come and go. I'm really scared about losing the motivation that I feel right now, that it might send me into another binge. I guess that's the purpose of being a member of DT, and doing all the other stuff I need to do to stay motivated so that won't happen.

Cindy

Starting Date: 05/15/01 - (Goal Weight: 135)
Today's Date: 05/29/01 - (Week #3) - (Day #15)
Starting Weight: 208.50 - Today's Weight: 203
Total Loss: 5.50 - Average Weekly Loss: 2.75
Pounds To Reach Goal Weight: 68 (Started w/73.50)
Program: No Diet Approach

I've got only 7 more days left to complete my first 21 days on program. As I've mentioned before, the first 3 weeks are the most difficult. And I believe if anyone can get through those you're on your way to success.

I did real well with the holiday weekend. We spent 2 days with my folks. My mom is also on a program and we both stuck to our programs pretty good. Normally we would have eaten our way through that time together. It actually felt a little strange being together and eating healthy.

I'm due to start my period probably today. So I'm a little curious to see how I feel. I don't really get specific cravings, like chocolate, but I'm more hungry. I'm going to be prepared with those healthy snacks. And just as I have since the start, if I get real hungry I'll eat.

Cindy

Youre getting very close to your first goal! Good for you and it's great that you come here and also you have your mom to support you. Keep up the good work!

Yeaahh Cindy. You are doing so well and you are so positive and motivated. You will probably be a great source of inspiration for your mother. Keep going!

OOPSIE!
I'm up a pound and a half this morning. But I'm not concerned at all. I started my period yesterday, and my weight always jumps up for a couple of days during that dreadful time of the month. 8-} I Just have to stay positive and remember that it's temporary water weight.

What I do need to concern myself with is my eating yesterday. I knew from past experience that I would be a little more hungry during the first couple of days on my period, so I was prepared with extra (healthy) snacks. However, I didn't do very well. I ate the extra snacks and when I got home from work I went into a binge, eating things that I know I shouldn't have eaten. (I should mention that I wasn't feeling well at all. I was bloated, crampy and tired, and I didn't want to be at work.)

So now what? The first step is to evaluate my actions and decide why I chose to participate in the distructive behavior. I did that, and I believe that I was both comforting myself with food, and because I knew I'd be more hungry I was using that to allow myself to endulge in the binge eating.

Next, I need to accept what I did - take responsibility for my actions, let it go completely, and move on with my program. It's simple; I chose to eat to deal with having my period. But I also know that we aren't expected to be perfect all the time. So today is another new day, and I'm choosing to do the best I can to stick to my pre-planned program.

How can I be better prepared next month when I get my period. I think I need to remind myself that I can have a snack if I feel physically hungry, but I'm not allowed to eat just to deal with having my period. And I need to ask myself if binge eating will help me feel any better.

Cindy

Starting Date: 05/15/01 - (Goal Weight: 135)
Today's Date: 06/01/01 - (Week #3) - (Day #17)
Starting Weight: 208.50 - Today's Weight: 203.75
Total Loss: 5.50 (gained back: .75)
Average Weekly Loss: 2.75
Pounds to Reach Goal Weight: 68.75
Program: No Diet Approach

As you can see I managed to gain some of my weight back. I just didn't handle my period well at all. Yes, I suppose I ate to deal with it. It wasn't an easy one, I had a lot of heavy cramping.

I know I have to do 2 things now. First, I need to get back on my program NOW!. And next, I need to find a better way to get through my next period without blowing my program.

Cindy

Cindy, you have my sympathies with the cramps and the cravings and the general feeling of ...yuck! Just put it behind you and start tomorrow off on a good note. You really are doing well and a bad day now and again won't make any difference at all. Last month I had chocolate before my period, and you know what...the chocolate tasted kind of weird. I have been following a no sugar, no dairy products diet and I think my taste buds might be changing or something. Anyways, I decided I am not going to stress about something which only happens once in awhile (like once a month). I bet you will have a good weight loss this week now that the monthly is hehind you.

Starting Date: 05/15/01 - (Goal Weight: 135)
Today's Date: 06/03/01 - (Week #3) - (Day #20)
Starting Weight: 208.50 - Today's Weight: 202.75
Total Loss: 5.75 - Average Weekly Loss: 2.75
Pounds To Reach Goal Weight: 67.75 (Started w/73.50)
Program: No Diet Approach

Cool! Another 1/4 lb. off for good!! After I get through tomorrow I'll have my first 21 days in. As I said before, the first 3 weeks are the most difficult.

I am SO motivated again!

Cindy

[ 06-03-2001: Message edited by: mertz ]

Cindy you're doing fantastic! WEIGH to go! I'm impressed!!! :o

Starting Date: 05/15/01 - (Goal Weight: 135)
Today's Date: 06/03/01 - (Week #3) = (Day 21)
Starting Weight: 208.50 - Today's Weight: 201.25
Total Loss: 7.25 - Average Weekly Loss: 2.75
Pounds To Reach Goal Weight: 66.25 (Started w/73.50)

Oh my Gosh!! :eek:
I could hardly believe my eyes when I stepped on that scale this morning! I've lost 7.25 lbs. now, and I'm so excited! And I've only got another 1.5 lbs. to lose to be out of the 200's. Oh, I can't wait! I am so happy, I just know I'm going to have a fantastic day.

Cindy

Cindy...you are doing so well, making your 21 day goal and losing 7.25 pounds along the way. I have my fingers crossed that you will be under that 200 pound mark by next week. Well done!

Starting Date: 05/15/01 - (Goal Weight: 135)
Today's Date: 06/03/01 - (Week #4) = (Day #22)
Starting Weight: 208.50 - Today's Weight: 201.25
Total Loss: 7.25 - Average Weekly Loss: 2.41
Pounds To Reach Goal Weight: 66.25 (Started w/73.50)
Program: No Diet Approach

Thanks Artsy for the kind, encouraging words. Boy, this is a far cry from my desperate plea for help just 3 weeks ago. Keep those fingers crossed for me and I won't let you down. I am so looking forward to getting out of the 200's. It's been a long, long time since I was down that far, at least a year.

I missed 6 days of walking because of my period and bad weather. But yesterday I went to my little park and walked 2 miles. It felt good knowing that the walking would be doing so much good for my progress and for my health.

Cindy