Ok I'm new to this so bare with me...I'm not even sure where to start.
I guess first off I will start with my goal..it is to lose atleast 60 pounds...I'd like to lose about 65 but if I lose the 60 I will be happy with that. I don't have a scale here at home so I usually weigh myself when I'm at my mom's house...maybe I should go buy one here in the next few days so I can keep better track of my weight loss.
I have lived with my boyfriend for 2 years now and ever since I moved here I have slowly gained about 50 pounds...I swore I'd never gain this much weight. However I am a long way from all of my family and friends and I haven't been as active as I was before moving here. We've gotton into a routine of sitting in front of the tv every night after supper instead of getting out and being active. Then we usually make a snack to eat while we're watching tv...usually nothing healthy either...pizza rolls or egg rolls, bagel bites, those type of things.
Last week when I was visiting wih my mother I weighed myself and I weighed 190....I just sat in her bathroom and cried...I couldn't believe that I weigh this much. When I saw that I made a promise to myself that I WILL lose this weight. I feel so down about myself...I won't even go buy new clothes...and with summer here it really gets me down seeing all of these skinnier women in cute little shorts and halter and tank tops. I don't feel attractive at all...my boy friend tells me how "hot" I am but I don't believe that's what he's really thinking. I know he's attracted to little petite looking woman...the way I looked when we first got together 4 years ago.
I'm only 24 and I know the saying that the older you get the harder it is to get the weight off, so I NEED to do it now before it gets any more out of hand.
I know I'm going to be working out and walking and doing some weight training....I'm just not sure about what diet to follow. I would love to find a workout buddy so that way I don't get bored of the my exercise routine.
I want to be the positive person I once was...I feel like such a negative person lately...I hate to be around people because I feel so huge.
So well I guess this is a start. I will try to come back here every day and keep track of what all I've ate...what exercise I've done...and when I get a scale I'll keep a weekly record of how much weight I've lost (or hopefully not gained). <IMG SRC="smilies/cool.gif" border="0">

Hi ya...

Well...you are not alone that is for sure!! Funny how that weight creeps up on us! Think your boyfriend would start going on walks with you after dinner? I know once I made my Fiance realize how serious I was, he has been much more supportive and is now walking with me after dinner and sometimes in the morning he'll come too! If there is a coffee shop, maybe you's can make that your goal point? We go for coffee after our walk. Its actually great time together, no phone, no kids(I have 3), no tv, no computer! I think that if you just cut back on the fatty foods, eat more fruit and veggies, and maybe have popcorn or fruit as your evening snack, with the workout you choose, you will be surprised how you can get back into shape. Posting here daily seems to help you stay on track too. Something about having to write it down in black and white really works!

Oh yeah...don't forget the WATER!!! Have to drink lots of it!

Good Luck, you CAN do this! Doing it for you is the best way to go!

Thank you Eclipseb...I talked to my boyfriend last night and we are going to start going for our walks as soon as he gets off in the evenings...tonight is suppose to be our first walk and it's so rainy...I don't mind it since I have a rain jacket but he doesn't have one...I wish we could have that as our "alone" time but I don't really have anyone to leave my son with while we take our walks so it will be like a family thing...I'm sure my son will have his scooter or bike though and be way ahead of us. I told my b-friend I wanted to start with 3 miles...he said no only 1 to start out, we should start out slow....I figure I'll maybe get a walk in during the afternoon on days that I get off early enough to do it. It's nice knowing I have his support...
Good luck to you and thanks again for your suggestions!!! :x

Ok yesterday and today I haven't done too hot...I had McDonalds for lunch yesterday and this morning for breakfat we went to Bob Evan's for breakfat...I didn't have a big supper last night though and I still have the rest of today to not eat anymore UNhealthy food. I'm doing good with drinking lots of water, but I usually do pretty well with that when it's so hot out anyway seeing as how it's really all that quinches my thrist.
I hate all of the negativity that I've been feeling. I feel like a failure and like I'm such a horrible person...I've always been irritated by people who wallow in self pity and here I am doing just that....I get tired of people telling me that I have such a pretty face and it's what's on the inside that counts....I know that I am a good person, but when you're a little over weight people won't even give you the chance to find out what's on the inside. I was thinking about my best friend...she looks like a super model...not only does she have the perfect body but she's got a great personality to go with it...every where we go guys notice her and are always asking for her number and things...of course she's married so she turns them down....It just gets aggravating when I'm standing right there with her and they don't even give me a second look or say hi or anything...
In 2 weeks we're going away for a couple of days...my boyfriend is so excited and talking about how he cannot wait to go swimming in the pool....I'm so not looking forward to it. I dread getting out my bathing suit...I'm not even sure if it still fits me- it's from 3 years ago when I was 120 pounds. Yet I cannot let him down either. I just have all of this crap rolling around inside of my head...I'm constantly thinking about this weight loss from the time I wake up till the time I go to bed...then a lot of nights I even dream about it.
I know I'm just beginning and I need to stay focused and strong and most importantly get thinking more POSITIVE...all of these things are so easy for me to say but to do it's a bit harder. So here's to a new day and getting positive and motivated!!!
Sorry for the ramblings...some times it feels good to just let it all out!!! 8-}

Flutterby, perk up, it will get easier! (I think!?!?!) The first week or two is definitely the hardest. It also gets more second nature as you start seeing results and getting used to it. But don't beat yourself up if you slip, either. There's no point to it, just pick up and move on with your plan.

I am glad for you that you have a supportive boyfriend. That really helps things along.

We are all here for you, just drop a line and one of us will bite and cheer you on!

J.

I haven't been on here too much this week. It's such a diference when you don't hear those encouraging words and chatting with others who are going the same things as you are.
I never started my walking routine yet. Brian and I were arguing most of this week and so us going for walks together weasn't even a question. It hasn't helped me to feel any more POSITIVE about any thing either. I worry about where our relationship is going and some times I wonder if I should just move back home. I hate that I even think those things. He's a very big part of my life. I just wish we wouldn't argue so much...it always starts out as something little and turns into something huge. I get so depressed over it and would be perfectly content with just crawling into bed and staying there for days when I get this down. I'm trying os hard to better myself and beat this weight loss....when other things come up I feel it always gets put on the back burner so other problems in my life can get put straight. I know I need to decide what important to ME and do those things. I like for others to be happy too though and will often sacrifice so much so they will be happy.
Anyway I've been keeping track of my calorie/fat intake on this other website I found. Yesterday was my best day. I'm trying to figure out how many calories I should be taking in...I think it's about 1200...I know my fat intake has been too high...it wasn't too bad yesterday..something like 25. Today my son andI went to McDOnalds for lunch. BOy after I logged that food in it went WAY up...SO new goal that I will hopefully stick too is ~~~Stay away from fast food- if something happens and I must have fast food I need to get a salad instead of a sandwich and a fries!!!~~~~
I was so pysched because I figured up that all I have to lose is 1.18 pounds a week to get to my goal weight by June 1st of next year. I don't think I've lost any of that this week. Well there's still 3 days left to go so maybe I'll lose it....gotta stay optimistic right? :)
I'm going to close for now. Will try to get back on here as soon as I can!!!! * :rose: :x

Hi...

Don't know much about your situation but I can relate to the arguments. The first year that my fiance and I moved in together...I swear we had a fight no less then once a month maybe more. And like you...it lasted a week or so. Until I was ready to call it quits. I don't do confrontations well. I am not a fighter, an arguer, or even like to say negative things to people in fear that I will hurt them...I guess being big most of your life..makes you ultra sensitive to knowing that words can hurt.

It has been a long haul and now we can go as long as 3 months without an argument!! You're right, sure is stressful, and funny how we blame ourselves, isn't it?? Like we are to blame for EVERYTHING! I have always had to be the fixer...

Now...I have started to think about ME a bit more. If we fight, well...that's the perfect excuse for me to walk longer!!! Out of the house and away from the tension...gives me lots of thinking time...and the walking relieves the stress for me.

You just keep working on your calorie intake and drinking your water the best you can. As long as you are retraining yourself for the most part, by the time you have the strength and energy(both physically and mentally) you will have half the battle beat! Don't disappear on us because you are not being as good as you "expect" youself to be! Reading, posting...will help you stay in the frame of mind..give you the motivation to keep going even when times are tough.

I wish I could help more...all I can do is send you big cyber hugs!!!

You take care...tell your b/f that it is time to mend the fence! compromise if that's what it takes...he's gotta give and take too!!! (Of course, I naturally shift the blame over to him!!! He's a man!!!)Takes two I know!! But us girls...we gotta stick together!!!

Good Luck!!! You CAN do this!!!

Thank you so much Eclipseb for sharing your own situation with me. I don't think there's much more you can do...it means a lot to me! I know that when you live with someone you will have ups and downs...it's just so hard when things are down. We had a wonderful evening together last night and I think it's behind us now. :rose:

Well I was at my mom's today and weighed myself and I'm at ~185~...5 pounds lost sinceI was there last is a big deal to me (been about a week and a half). It must be from the water I've been drinking...I've limited my soda intake to about one can a day...sometimes 2, but even that is MUCH better than what I was drinking. I've felt pretty positive today and getting on that scale only made me feel more positive.
I have decided that I am going to stick with eating chicken and fish and no other meats. We had pork chops the other night- I had a smaller one than everyone else and there was still about 31 grams of fat on it....I've been wanting to go vegetarian for a while anyhow and that just helped push me in the right direction...I guess I won't be a vegetarian really sinceI'll still be eating fish and chicken but those I just can't go without....the other meats I'll survive with out.
Well here's to a new week!!! :x :rose: *

I'm starting the week out feeling pretty positive about everything. I done well yesterday...we had a small cookout and I stuck with my new meat rule. Everyone else had steak and I had chicken....when I logged it on fitday.com it said it was only a little over 4 grams of fat....much better than that pork!!! I was very happy about that.
I'm positive that the goals I have set are goals that I can acheieve and stick too for the rest of my life. I think that's the most important thing in all of this. When people "diet" they end up getting to their goal weight and then once they're there they go back to their old eating habits again. I'm not only in this for the weight loss but also to be a more healthy person. It has to be a life style change and not just a change until the weight is lost. I know it will come right back on if this is only a "diet" for me...I've been there and was once down to 120 (about 3.5 years ago). Look what happend as soon as I went back to eating like I always had and how everyone else around me was eating (mainly because most of my friends have always been skinny no matter what they eat- however I can't do that). Yes losing the weight is important to me, but it CANNOT be my main focus.
So with that I think I will close. Hopefully I'll keep feeling as positive as I am feeling today. null