Well this is day two...I have had some time to wander around in here and found that something I wrote yesterday would have been much better suited here. Sorry, I'm new here bare with me. 8-|

Anyway, my new life started yesterday Tuesday, May 22, 2001. I think if I make sure that I come in here everyday and read some of these very inspirational words from everybody here I know that I can do it! It's only food...I can't let it control me! It has to get better / easier!

Age - 29 (almost) I want to be thin before I'm thirty (how's that for a goal) I have been pudgy/chunky/fat/obese all of my life. I just went from one stage to the next! Right now I am 185 lbs. I want to be under 130 lbs. (it's not all that unrealistic) Preferably 125 lbs (but we will see). I remember planning a trip to Mexico when I was a teenager and stepping on the scales before I left. I was almost 140 lbs!!!! - GASP! I thought to myself ... if I ever hit 140 lbs., I'll just die! ha ha! (140 is alot when everybody else is 110!)
Anyway my life altering event happened when I recently went to a party and ran into my old childhood sweetheart he was talking about my children and asked me if I already had my baby "You're not still pregnant are you?" AHHHH!!! CRUSH! That's it for me...I have to get my life back together! It's my life and I have to get control!
So this is it!
May 22, 2001 (yesterday - I didn't weigh in today)
185lbs
5'-4"
size 14
185/185/129
56 pounds to go (no problem)
I do need some help with rewards though if anybody reads this and has any ideas! They would be much appreciated!
Stay strong!
:peace:

After I read your post in my journal I came to read yours. It was like reading my own!
I remember being in 8th grade and thinking I will NEVER weigh more than 170lbs. I used to think that I was so fat then and now I look at the pictures and wish I was back there. People find it hard to believe I weigh as much as I say I do. I am 5'6" and 247/240/150. I wear a size 20 which I find amazing since in 8th grade at 170 I wore a size 22 pants. I think as society gets bigger they pacify us by making the sizes bigger too :eek: ! Maybe that's how it has snuck up on some of us.
I wish you good luck and am always here to lend an ear!(kbufford@juno.com)

Take Care,
1luckystar

Where are you buddy?
Just wondering how you are doing.

1luckystar *

Sorry for the delay LuckyStar, I usually do my posting at the office when I get some time through the day or when I need a break (when I feel hungry..ha ha). I was out of the office some of last week and haven't really had a chance to post. But Thank you for responding. I am still doing okay. I will have to send you an email to keep in touch (it's easier faster than going through the posts).
I guess while I am in here I should do a journal entry too. Well almost a week now and I think I am doing okay...not depriving myself, just making better choices. I was actually quite proud of myself, I went to the video store on the weekend and went up to the candy display....no chocolate bars (good girl - didn't feel like it -even better) ...., no pop (good girl - we have water at home - much better), ....hmmmmm honey roasted peanuts!~ oh oh!!! Yup I bought them!!! It's not that bad, it was a choice, a well thought out choice that I made! I took them home, opened them up, had one....NOT WORTH IT!!! They weren't that good! So in the cupboard they went. They would have gone in the garbage but I didn't want to waste the money (I'll put them out for guests).
Anyway that is the kind of choices I want to make and they really are getting easier...and it's only been one week!!! Imagine if I keep this up...I just may be able to turn down ice cream one day...lol - maybe that's pushing it! I think it's more about changing your tastes (what tastes good and what doesn't) than changes your choices! Eventually you just don't want them any more...it's not a hard choice to make if you don't really want it!!
Anyway, I'm still on track and hope everybody else is doing well. I think this was an extra long post...but it's been a few days...lol!! Talk to you all later! ;)

Hi Buddy,
Just keep on making those good choices & you'll do well.Keeping a journal & reading the other journals is such a big help too.
Keep up the good work. Baylee

Thanks Baylee. Yeah think it helps even to go back and remember what you wrote in your own journal, especially on my low days. I feel it helps me get back on track.

Well while I'm here I may as well post my entry. It's been one week now, and I'm still alive....who knew! lol! Well I didn't do as well as I thought I would but that's okay, I'm on track! I stepped on the scales this morning and I was thinking to myself please 183....183......it read 181 (I'm usually 185) - I didn't believe it!! So I reset the scale and got back on.........185! Damn! Reset.....185! Damn!....Reset....185! Damn!.....Dumb scale! It's never right!!! <IMG SRC="smilies/stop.gif" border="0"> The scale is right.....even if it doesn't read the same as the Doctor's scale it's all relative.....and I didn't lose any weight! But that's okay! no biggie! I made it through the week and didn't kill myself doing it!

I joined the teams on the support board so I am on Team A and I will weigh in again on Thursday. Hopefully I will be down.

At least I didn't gain!

I now have to go back to the challenges page and figure out the rest of my reward challenges, I think that will definitely help. Oh well hope everybody had a good week and I will post again soon.

Thanks for all of the support. <IMG SRC="smilies/cool.gif" border="0">

hello buddy-
just hang in there. i'm sure that your body is just getting use to the changes. are you drinking lots of water? that's mainly all i drink (if i'm in the mood i'll allow myself one or two sodas a day but no more than that)and this past week and a half i dropped 5 pounds even with my fat and calorie intake being a little higher than they should have been. keep up the good work and it won't be long before you're losing the weight. keep us posted! *
flutterby76

Thanks Flutterby...I need to hear that! I think that is exactly the reason why I didn't lose anything and I didn't think of it until I read your posting. On the weekend (Sunday primarily) I was working around the house and forgot that first of all I haven't been getting my proper rest over the past few days because the kids have not been sleeping well and I have been trying to get my painting done and then on top of it I wasn't drinking as much water because I was so busy....actually I had a couple of pops (non-diet)and I think that did me in. Anyway I am going to start weighing in on Thursdays starting this week so I an going to load up on the water and hopefully that will help to flush everything out.

Thanks for your input Flutterby, it definitly helped.

Well while I am in here again today I am going to post my rewards for everyone to help me supass my milestones and reap the rewards...lol...I sound like an infomercial!

I figure that I have spent a lot of money over the years trying to lose weight. Weight Watchers $12-15 /wk for I don't know how long - the weight came right back, plus some; Jenny Craig - +/- $300 for membership and $60-100 /wk on food, don't know how long that lasted either (I got pregnant and had to stop - ha ha!); Protein Power Plant $150 and I haven't even used it - took all of the tapes and books out, listened to a few and put them all back in my closet - and that's where they stayed (I got pregnant again - what an excuse that it - lol!) So needless to say I have spent more than my fair share on all this crap and gotten no where ecept fatter!!! and Poorer!!

So now I am going to spend some money on my program!! On ME!! Hey - have I got to lose - except weight! So here's my rewards....

Start date May 22, 2001
Current Weight 185
Desired Weight 129
Weight to lose 56lbs
losing 1 lb./wk brings me to June 18, 2002
losing 2 lbs./wk brings me to Dec 4,2001
So somewhere between Dec 01 and June 02 I should be at me goal and have all of these greats things...I just hope that my cheque book can handle it!! lol!
'D'-day is June 23, 2002....that's the day that I turn 30 and I will have this weight gone forever!!!

REWARD LIST

185 lbs - your reward is you're still alive!
180 lbs - new hair cut
175 lbs - new hair colour (I need these now - so hopefully this will help me to work harder for that first 10)
170 lbs - manicure / pedicure
165 lbs - facial (I love these!)
160 lbs - tanning sessions <IMG SRC="smilies/cool.gif" border="0"> (so superficial but what else is being skinny all about? jk!)
155 lbs - full body massage ha ha! has to be full body!
150 lbs - don't have one yet....will let you know (any ideas?) :-/
145 lbs - kinky sex book (since Mr.Buddy won't be able to keep his hands off me!! I need some new moves) ;)
140 lbs - maybe some toys to go with my new book - LMAO!!!! :laugh:
135 lbs - new bras and underwear (the sexy kind - maybe even a thonge!) :eek: - I sense a theme here......?!?
130 lbs - NEW CLOTHES! (gonna need these for sure!)
129 lbs - sexy black spaghetti strap summer dress! - I just hope it's not the middle of winter - on second though Yeah I do hope that - it will just be hard to find....and even harder to wear!!! 8-}

Well that's it! I hope you girls can help me with this and help me stay on track....I want these things soooooooo bad!!!! I need you to remind me of all these great things on my list and how great it will be to get them!! lol! especially the book! :o lol!

Anyway there it is...that's it. Talk to you all later!!!
By the way let me know what you think....any suggestions/modifications/ideas....also I still need my 150lb reward....help! <IMG SRC="smilies/help.gif" border="0">

Thanks again!

Hey buddy!

My suggestion for your 150lb goal is some new makeup. You can usually go to a large department store that has a makeup counter and have them help you with some new makeup techniques and maybe some new colors. They may even offer a mini-makeover. I think that that would be really cool and fit in with your beauty theme.

Like you said it is better to stay the same than to gain. Water has been really important for me also. I have hit the same point where I have stayed the same and with even just one day of really focusing on my water intake, food choices, and maybe an extra bit of exercise it pushed me over that bump.

Also it will feel so much better to reinvest your money in yourself rather than where it has gone in the past.

Best of luck,
1luckystar *

Thanks luckystar for you input...and for taking the time to read my babble!! I will definitly add that to my list...it it now complete! Well I'm still not too sure about the 140lbs...sex toys.....may change that one???

Anyway here is my revised list ....

185 - no reward
180 - hair cut
175 - hair colour
170 - manicure / pedicure
165 - facial
160 - tanning
155 - massage
150 - MAKEOVER (thanks luckystar)
145 - sex book
140 - sex toys...?????
135 - underwear
130 - clothes
129 - summer dress

I have to keep these in my mind so I remember what great things are in store for me....skinny me!

:)

Buddy,

I did have one other idea. There are books that can teach you how to do sensual massage for you and your partner. That way both you and your hubby would win!

1luckystar

Thanks luckystar....I think I will include that in my sex books... :laugh: sex massages....what's the difference??... :laugh:

The art of sensual massage is more about relaxation and connecting intimately with your partner than it is about sex.

Take Care,
*

Gees ....I miss a day or two and I'm already on page two....wow! Have to keep on top of this journal or I can't find it on the forum.

Anyway I haven't really had much to write I guess because I have been writing it all elsewhere!

I'm having a party next week so I would like to be down below 180...XXXXX crossing my fingers....drinking lots of water and eating right. I have only lost a few lbs but I feel better already...I'm on the right track! And I feel good about it! ;)

I guess I should really put this in my goals section...oh well at least it's here! I haven't really been doing too much exercise, I always find that I start gaining weight when I work out and then I get completely discouraged! and stop working out....gain more weight....blah blah blah! But I think I will start this week...see how that goes!

Wish me luck!
:)

Hi buddy!

Hope you are having a wonderful weekend! How you feel is one of the best indications of how you are doing. That is what this is all about! Feeling great! <IMG SRC="smilies/cool.gif" border="0">

Keep it up!

Take Care,
*

Thanks for checking up on me luckystar. :)

I had a great weekend. Finally finished my work around the house!! Whew! And I put on a pair of pants that I haven't worn in a while and Mr.Buddy made a big deal.... :o Only a few lbs. but every little bit counts...I think it's all the water!

I actually started dieting about a week before I checked in here for the first time and I started at about 190 lbs +/-....so I really pushing about 10 lbs lost ;) So I'm feelin good!

My daughter baked some 'giant' cookies on Friday and I only had a few little bites....he he.....and there is actually a lot left over! Now that would have never happened before...it probably would have been gone by Friday night! :eek:

But now I am under control! I shouldn't have even had any past the first bite because it really wasn't worth it! (No offense to my daughter...I think the cookies were great...everybody else loved them....I think I am just changing) But it was one of those mind over matter tricks that my brain was playing, the cookie looked a lot better than it actually tasted...so of course I had to keep on trying it....and yup each it wasn't worth it. Until I finally remembered when I went to take a bite that it wasn't worth it!! That worked!

Anyway I will check in later this week I hope this weight stays down!!! XXXXX (crossing my fingers!)

Keep in touch :peace:

Hey Buddy!

I completely understand about it being worth the calories. In the old days, which is probably about a month ago, ;) I would have eaten it anyway. Now if I try something and it is not better that great I don't bother with it. It is not worth it to me anymore. If I am going to have something it better be GREAT! And the good things is the healthy stuff is what tastes best to me now and makes me feel better too! :x

Glad that MrBuddy is paying attention! MrLucky is contemplating joining me on my crusade. My MotherInLaw told me this weekend that I have inspired her and wants to start walking together. Who knew good health could be contagious!

Take Care!

Sorry I haven't been in here lately...thanks again Lucky for checking in...I think it actually makes it easier for me to lose when I'm so busy...not thinking about food!

Well I'm down another 4 lbs....yeah me! I was so happy this morning...I cheated a few times this week I had to sneak a peak at the scales....this is a bad habit that I have to stop...I'm working on it!

I actually accomplished my goal for this week I wanted to be under 180...did it! Just in time!

Now I get my first reward! yeah! Gonna book my hair cut for next week I guess...probably won't get an appointment now!

Thank you to everybody for checking up on me...this is definately because I come in here, every time I think about cheating I think again because I have to come in here on Thursday and weigh in! 8-| So you girls keep me on track!

Thanks again, I promise to try to be a more active diettalker...just been a crazy couple of weeks!
:)

Hey Buddy!

Never apologize for being busy, especially if that helps keep you on track!

4lbs! That is amazing! YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE for Buddy! I bet that made mr. buddy really take notice! That is great that you reached your goal and in time for your party! Also that you get to go get your first reward!

Keep up the great work!
*

I don't think I am doing so well this week...so far. :( After I did so well in meeting my goal for my party and now it has been all down hill from there! X-(

I over did it at the party (drinking and stuff) and then once you do bad like that you think what's the point...I may as well really over do it! <IMG SRC="smilies/question.gif" border="0"> What a way to screw up all that hard work! I think I am back on track again though, although I know its going to be a bad week though TOM time again! 8-| BLAH!

I'm going to have to keep up the water more so than usual!

Minor set back, but I'm back on board - it's Monday!

:peace:

Hey girl!

Well the party is over and it is a new day! You can do this! Sorry to see that TOM came your way after it left my house! :eek:

Thank you for posting in my journal when I was so down. It helped so much! Just know that I am keeping my eye on you too! We can do this together! You can do this!

Take Care,
lucky *

Thanks luckystar...I just left you a message in your journal. Thanks again for checking up on me!
;)

Take care!

I just realized while I was in here that I want to change my rewards....New list!

NEW REWARDS LIST

185 - nothing
180 - hair cut....earned this one last Thursday but I still haven't collected it yet (maybe I can get a two for one this week ;) )
175 - hair colour
170 - Tanning sessions
165 - manicure / pedicure
160 - facial
155 - massage
150 - makeover
145 - sex book
140 - toys ha ha! :laugh:
135 - underwear
130 - clothes
129 - dress

well that's it...for now anyway...I have to keep on reminding myself of this list and what I can get if I try real hard!
:)

Buddy, it sounds like your "reward" list will be reward for someone else too!!! What a wild night you'll have once you make goal! Dont lose sight of your goals. Don't EVER give up! remember, failure is not in the falling down, its in the staying down!! Come on girl, back on the wagon!! *

You hit the nail on the head Discomama! I think I might allow myself one wild night when I hit goal! I just hope it's sooner than later! ;)

I think I did okay this week...I just have to make up for the weekend..... :( don't know if I did, I guess we'll find out tomorrow! xxxx (crossing my fingers)

:laugh:

Well I did it, I made it through another week with no gain....and actually a little loss!! :) Yeah me!

One more pound gone for good!! and only 2 more to go til my next reward!!! :laugh:

I think I'm obsessed! 8-} I just wish that I didn't jump track last weekend, I would have been much closer right now (probably even there)???? Oh well, life goes on! I'm just glad that I lost something this week *

Well nothing really new to report, just keeping on keeping on.....Will touch base later!

Stay strong everyone!

I have to say that weekends are definitely my weekest time!!! The entire weekend! Right from Friday evening, when I leave work to Sunday night, when I go to bed!

I have to come up with some way of over coming this. I think it might have something to do with my Thursday weigh-in's! Maybe I have to change it to Monday mornings....??? I find that I spend all week trying to make up for all of my screw ups on the weekend!

I think I am still on track though, just one more hurdle to over come. I found of box of clothes in my closet this weekend that I went through to see if any fit....I can get into some (not far off) but they just either don't do up or look terribly tight...so it's not too bad. I should have a whole new wardrobe with another 10 lbs!! Well not exactly new...just new to me now!

I have to start some kind of work out now that I have lost some weight, I had to wait until I got started because I always get completely discouraged when I start working out and gain weight while I am trying so hard to lose. I think I will just do some extra cardio and some floor stuff at home for now though.

That's it for now, just wanted to touch base.

:)

Well it's one more pound gone...for good! I hoped for more (like 2 lbs) so that I could get a two for one on the rewards this week...but that didn't happen. Oh well just have to get my hair cut and do the colour next week! My birthday is this weekend so maybe I will have the money to get it done next week...and the time! 8-}

I am starting to see results in my clothes and on the scales but I can't actually see it on me yet. I can't see my shape changing yet. <IMG SRC="smilies/question.gif" border="0">

Oh well I only just begun, in time.

I have committed to start jogging with the dog in the mornings now. Hopefully I will be able to walk/jog for a half hour 4 times a week. I will work my way up to every day running for 45 mins. So that should help the scales next week! ;)

I will also try to check in here everyday...to record my progress. I think I am doing okay in the food department. As usual it is just the weekends that need help, but I am trying. I do well during the weeks though, so it's working.

Well that's it for now, I am away tomorrow so I probably won't check in until Monday probably....we'll see. Wish me luck with the morning jogs....first day is tomorrow! 8-|

Wow...look at this, two posts in one day! This is new! :laugh:

I actually just sat down to my calendar and started to figure out how long this is going to take me to get to goal....I need a deadline! This one or two lbs a week thing just isn't going to cut it....too arbitrary! 8-|

So like I posted before....I started on May 22, 2001 and I want to lose 56 lbs.....so based on a 1 lb. / week loss....I will reach goal by June 20, 2002...just in time for my 30th birthday! But as I lose weight this has to be adjusted....oh yeah and if I was to lose max. 2 lbs. / week I would reach goal by.....December 6, 2001....wooohooo this year!!!

Anyway, as I was saying, as I lose weight this has to be adjusted or I will end up slacking off some weeks because I know that I lost the week before.....pathetic! So, since I have started ...May 22, 2001 I have lost 9lbs. so now if I was to lose 1 lb./week I would reach goal by....May 2, 2002 or 2 lbs. / week ....I would reach goal by .....December 6, 2001....????... :eek: Oh I see because I have been doing this for 4 weeks and I have only lost 9 lbs..... ah ha! Not doing as well as I thought I was! :( Oh well it is still good!

I think that is part of my problem, I think I am too positive sometimes....???... 8-} is that possible....I just don't think that I see how bad it really is! With everything....I don't see myself as being as fat as I really am....oh it's not that bad...I look okay.....until I see a picture of myself.... :eek: AHHHH....I LOOK LIKE THAT!!! I see people and think to myself...I'm not THAT fat....am I???? Even now, I have lost a few pounds and all of a sudden it's lazy daisy time! GET A GRIP!!! Maybe I should start wearing a bathing suit all of the time (under my clothes of course) and then I would see how bad it really is!! <IMG SRC="smilies/question.gif" border="0"> Maybe I should just take a picture of myself in one...that otta do it! And take a look at that baby when I feel myself slipping! Yup ....gonna put that on my to do list!

Anyway ...that's just about enough rambling for one day...have to get some work done!

Catch ya'all later!
;)

Just wanted to test my new profile....

A friend of mine put a full length mirror in her bathroom, that way everytime she got out of the shower she was motivated!! Scary, but it might just work!!

Thanks Sarah. I have huge mirror in my bathroom already, it doesn't seem to work...I think the mirror is warped or maybe I have just stopped paying attention! :laugh:

I think I just look that much worse, for some reason, in the retail store change room trying on a bathing suit....or any clothing for that matter! I think its the oh so flattering fluorescent lighting!!! YUK!!! :eek:

Thanks for the tip though, maybe I should try another mirror somewhere new....maybe on the door to my closet...???

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Hi Buddy,
Just stopped in and read your journal. You are doing a great job and I love your reward list!! Keep up that positive attitude and you will be going for the black speghetti dress before you know it!!!
:rose:

Buddy, you are hysterical! I love all the calculations and self-talk!! 9 pounds is GREAT, EXCELLENT! Dont' discount that. Just keep moving forward. You have given yourself plenty of time and you will make that goal if you just DONT STOP! Good for you for this great attitude and work! *

YooHoo! Where are you? <IMG SRC="smilies/question.gif" border="0">

Just stopping in to say hello! I don't want to lose one of my best cheerleaders! So how are ya doin? Hope all is well. Let us know how you are!

Take Care!

Absolutely terrible week!!!! X-(

Thanks for checking in Karen.

I didn't do any posts here this week and that is probably part of the reason why I did so poorly! I gained 2 lbs. this week.

Back up to 178lbs

I hate that. I said that it was not coming back and i only had one lb. to go for my next reward. I finally made the appointment to get my hair cut tomorrow night and now I can't get reward #2 at the same time! :c(

Oh well I have no one to blame but myself! X-( I took Friday off work and stayed home, I was in the house most of the day because the weather was terrible and it was just all down hill from there! I let my birthday celebration(s) get the best of me and I said that I was not going to let that happen! X-( Yup...I'm mad...mad mad mad! Now I have even more weight to lose for next week! And it's a long weekend this weekend so that means I am going to have to work even harder. I didn't do anything right last week - my eating was horrible, I had everything from chocolate chip cookies to ice cream cake to Bailey's Irish cream! :eek: How do you expect to lose any weight like that?!? I only went for my walk twice (although the first one was a really good one!) lol! Not good enough!

Oh well....one minor set back! I have to get back on track this week. I am going to try to post every day and I have to get my walks and water in!

I start seeing some results and then I start screwing up???? What's up with that? most people see results and try harder!

I'll be back tomorrow!

Okay I'm here again, like I said I would be. This is like pulling teeth these past fews days to get myself back on track and nothing seems to be working! X-( I think I need to spend some more time in here posting and reading maybe that will get me motivated again...???? <IMG SRC="smilies/question.gif" border="0"> I was so pumped those last few weeks I was even surprising myself with some of the choices I was making! I was such a good girl :o and now.....well ....I have been terribly weak! and I don't know why???? Maybe I wasn't eating properly...?? I should try to watch more closely to make sure that I am getting all of my nutrition in instead of just worrying about calories and amounts. Well I am going to spend some more time in here and hopefully get back on track.

See you all later! :peace:

I'm so happy my buddy is back! Sorry you lost your motivation...did you check under your bed, thats where I found mine the last time I lost it! LOL! But seriously, I am glad that you are recommiting yourself. I know that you can do this. Just take it one day at a time or sometimes even one hour at a time. We will do this together.

One thing that has really helped me is posting my food in my journal. It makes me feel a lot more accountable for what I am eating. Plus I have really kicked up the exercise. I just started adding some toning too. Just let us know what we can do to help.

You can do this! I have faith in you!

I know I said that I would post every day but it was a holiday up here in CA and my computer at home is annoyingly slow so I usually wait until I come into work to post! :laugh: If only my boss could read this! JK...I don't usually take a lunch so this gives me a bit of a break.... ;) Just incase he is reading this... :laugh:

Anyway back to business. I found a diet that I am going to try to stick to and get accustomed to over the next 3 weeks. I hope it works (am I setting myself up for failure by saying that???) Anyway I started it on Sunday...July 1 and I'll be honest I have been anything but perfect so far. But I am trying and at least this gives me some structure, not the loosey goosey 'no diet' I was doing before. This should help.

So here is the idea...incase I forget....(I got it out of some women's mag.)

1. Eliminate all sugar - the less sugar you consume the less you will desire (so they say)

2. Minimize starch - no explanation needed

3. Eat 3 balanced meals per day - half veggies, quarter protein, quarter 'safe' starch

4. Fit in some fat

5. Balance equation - carb to protein ratio should be no greater than 2 grams of carbs to 1 gram protein

6. Enjoy 3 snacks per day

7. Steer clear of caffeine - I don't drink coffee so it shouldn't be a problem

8. Drink water - lots of it! - we all know that one

9. NO FRIED FOODS

10. Exercise - My goal is 40 mins of cardio 5 times / week

11. Sip green tea - hey I'm willing to try just about anything!

They don't sound too hard do they??? Oh yeah and I was supposed to be posting my journal every day! Which I have already slacked on but I have it written down at home.

I will start to post that next...I'll see what I can remember.

Anyway that's all for now...and oh yeah I am supposed to be only weighing in once a week...that is going to kill me!! :laugh: I'll let you know how it all goes!Another hard thing is going to be the balanced meals one....I am terrible at eating right (obviously - or I wouldn't be here)! :laugh:

Talk to you all later! :peace: Wish me luck!

I said I was going to post in my journal every day - so here I am. I wrote down Monday and Tuesday too so I will post them today too....here goes!

Boy when I write things down I realize that I haven't been as good as I thought I have been....I guess that's the whole point! :laugh:

Monday July 1
1 slice multi grain bread
2 egg whites
1 slice low fat cheese
16 oz. water
2 tbsp cottage cheese
julian salad (lt.dressing)
hamburger w/ low fat cheese
julian salad
3 tbsp cole slaw :(
1 beer :( :( (hey it's Canada Day)

+/- 20min walking (small hills)

not enough water and not enough exercise and bad beer!

Will have to work on that!


Tuesday July 2
bowl Special K w/ 1%milk
1/2 grapefruit
2 tbsp 1% cottage cheese
2 slices of salami.... <IMG SRC="smilies/question.gif" border="0"> don't ask me it looked good at the time
16oz water
2 arrowroot cookies
multigain bun w/ marg
turkey breast mayo & cheese
root beer :(
2 slices of pizza - I got caught
16 oz water
popcorn

floor exercises on abs and +/- 20 min walking

Root beer is definitely my down fall and as for the pizza....I couldn't say no!

I will start a new post for yesterday and today.

I think I screwed up on my days in that last post it was for July 1 and 2 but I think I put Monday and Tuesday....it should be Sunday and Monday! OOps!

Anyway that last post was getting too long so here is yesterday's - I will post today's tonight or tomorrow because I don't have much to post right now....

Tuesday, July 3

Breakfast: 1/2 small grapefruit w/ 1 tsp of sugar (I have to replace that with sweetener)
Lunch: power bar meal replacement
Dinner: lean cuisine +/- 275 cal
Snack: popcorn
64 oz of water - yeah me! :laugh:
ooops I almost forgot .... 2 tbsp of cole slaw (I was getting it for my daughter - I couldn't help myself :( well actually I did help myself)

no cardio exercise but I did my ab work again - boy can I feel it! Ouch! :eek:

I am feeling alot better now - I think I might be back on track! Or getting there anyway!

Hi Buddy,I've been reading your journal,and I've got to say I really enjoy your sense of humor.
You seem to be very determined,so I'm convinced you're going to be a success at this getting healthy thing we're all at.
Keep posting and don't let go of that determination. Baylee

Okay I'm here again - this is 3 times in one day - definitely a record!

I decided to post my day so far and give you my dinner and night tomorrow! or maybe later!

Breakfast: 1/2 grapefruit and 1tsp. sugar (still haven't bought the sweetener)
snack: ff yogurt
lunch: power bar meal replacement (real busy today I almost forgot to eat all together)

48 oz of water so far and no exercise yet!

Hope everybody's having a great day! Oh yeah and happy independence day to all you yanks out there! :D :laugh:

See you all tomorrow!

Buddy...Your journal is wonderful. I especially love the reward list you have made. <smile> I may have to do that once I get a honey. You have some wonderful ideas. Keep up the good work.

Debbi

Thanks Halfpint and Baylee for dropping by. I need all of the support I can get and if I know that people are reading this stuff it helps to keep me more accountable!

Let's see where did I leave off.....oh yeah yesterday afternoon....

Anyway I went out for dinner to Pizza Hut and I actually didn't do as bad as I could have. I had a pop.... :( and one slice of pizza ....which isn't that bad. I didn't have any pasta and I had lots of salad...two helpings! yeah me! I drank a lot of water and I got my ab crunches in last night. My abs aren't feeling as bad as they were - I hope that means its working! :)

As for this morning 32 oz of water so far (i've been busy) and a yogurt... :( as I said I've been busy! I have to pay better attention to eating right not just eating less calories and no junk. I think it will make it easier if I eat better. Actually I know it will!

I have to work on my cardio too - just extremely busy these days!

Anyway I lost this week 3 lbs total but that only gives me a 1 lb. loss after my minor set back last week! :( Oh well I think I am back on track now! I hope I stay there! I'll keep you posted!

Hi my friend..congrats on your weight loss this week. That is wonderful. I stayed the same but I was happy about that since it is almost the TOM for me. I know I normally hold a little fluid around that time LOL....take care and have a wonderful night

Buddy,
I think that 3 lb loss this week is wonderful.Even if you did have a gain last week,it could have been the same this week,but you got on it & here you are with a 3 lb. loss.That's great!You're in control again.Keep it up. Baylee

Thanks girls for dropping by and offering me support on my momentary lasp last week and my bit of a recovery this week. ;)

Well I wasn't an angel last night that's for sure! :laugh: :o

The kids were away ...... for the WHOLE NIGHT!!!! Woohoo! So the hubby and I went out for dinner - Greek I didn't do as bad as I could have, or normally would have but I wasn't an angel as I said!

Let's see I think I posted everything yesterday up until lunch so for dinner I had a Chicken souvlaki dinner (no roasted potatoes! yeah me! - thanks to the sugaree and halfpint challenge - thanks again girls!) I stayed away from those! but I did have a lot of rice! and Greek salad - which I am sure did not have low cal dressing! And I had 2 pops - not diet! and 1/2 a bag of popcorn with the hubby! :( And no ab crunches! :eek: I missed a day! I said that I wasn't going to do that! If nothing else I should at least be able to do a few sit ups! Sheesh! Anyway as I said it could have been a lot worse!

All you youngin's out there close your eyes......The hubby and I got a little busy later! :eek: So that kinda makes up for the lack of exercise right...???....! :laugh:

Anyway as for today...

Breakfast: 3 tbsp 1% cottage cheese
handle full of baby carrots! lol! Breakfast on the run! No kids to feed to I'm lucky I ate anything at all!

Lunch: cheese bagel (with butter!) :eek: and a granola bar! Ghees I'm just being really bad! See what happens - I get back on track - see a little loss and I slack off again! Maybe I should try hiding the scale for the rest of the month! (Don't know if I could do that?) Think that would work?

No exercise yet - still have to make up for missing last nights abs
only 16 oz of water so far - that's ok lots of time for that!

Will check in tomorrow!

I don't know what is going on here....but I am definitely doing something wrong! I still haven't figured out what it is yet....??? <IMG SRC="smilies/question.gif" border="0"> I thought I was back on track but then the weekend hit and oh oh! Here we go again! Another roller coaster ride! I thought I was through with rides! and yo-yo's and everything else that sabotages my "dieting" efforts! I don't know what happens to me on the weekend - I just fall apart! I thought to myself ok I won't weigh in everyday I will try to do it just once a week on Thursday's. Well on Thursday morning I was 175 lbs. I know that I made some bad choices on the weekend and I definitely didn't stick to my new plan BAD GIRL - but I didn't think that I did that bad! Well I got dressed and my pants felt tight....sooooooo I stepped on the scales....182!????What? I knew that I did bad but 7 lbs!???? :eek: X-(

I have to do something to keep me on track! I thought that I was doing better after last week but I guess not - will have to think about this one! 8-} :c(

I'll be back later - I'm sure!

Buddy! Sorry you are having such a hard time. Is there anything I can do to help? Have you thought about how you are feeling when you are eating like this? Is it close to TOM so you could be retaining water? Let us know how you are doing. We are all here to help!

I read a few entries in your journal. Very inspirational. Especially since it hasn't all been easy or a success every single day. Congrats on sticking with it. (I sent you a private message yesterday under a different name. Decided to change my 'displayed name' since I have recommended this site to several business associates and I want to start a jounal without worrying about my personal issues being broadcast.) Keep it up...You are a great role model. d.

Buddy...hang in there my friend..you are going to make it through this little bump in the road...I know it is hard at times..(a lot of times) but you can do it..I have such faith in you...your challenge buddies are all behind you 100% of the way

Debbi

I am in this for good....or at least until I get this weight off!!! All of these little bumps in the road, are just that little bumps in a very long road! And I am not going to let them throw me off track. I may come across a few obstacles and they may set me back a bit - but not for good! Hey - nobody said this was going to be easy! I am just glad that I didn't have a gain this week - I just stayed the same - whew! I think I would have been in big trouble if I had have gained! But I am here.....(planting my but on the DT website) .....and I am not going anywhere! I CAN DO THIS!!!!IT'S ONLY FOOD!!!!!!

If I can quit smoking - surely I can do this! I am going to use this weekend to map out my plan - my long term plan! and I am going to stick to it, or at least work up to this lifestyle change. After all I can't expect to change what took 29 years to make! But I will do this! I CAN DO THIS!

With of the help and support that I get here from you girls (and guys) sorry - have to be more PC - it is impossible to FAIL! I MUST SUCCEED! I WILL SUCCEED! I can do this!

I just have to stay focused - that is my problem - I can't forget about my goal - every minute of everyday I have to remember what I am striving for! Nothing happens by itself (nothing that you want to happen anyway). You have to work at it!

That's all for my chanting for today!

Stay strong! :rose:

Hi Buddy,

Where was I when you needed me? Bad Noenoe!
You're absolutely right. It is for life.
Gepetto pointed me to an awesome site: www.dottisweightlosszone.com (http://www.dottisweightlosszone.com)
On the front page it has the same saying that Dr. Phil always uses:
If you always do what you always did,
you'll always get what you always got.
And another:
One day at a time, no guilt & move on!!
Thought I'd share those with you.
I'm happy for you that this week was a
no-gain week.
Now re-focus like you're planning to do this weekend and start anew. You can DO IT! :rose:

Noenoe

Buddy,
You will master this...we all will. At least you started. I'm having trouble with even that step. Good luck and hang in there. I'll be interested to see what you decide over the weekend.

Hi buddy!

Glad to see you are posting. I think sitting down and writing out your plan is a fab idea. Have you printed out of list of your rewards? Maybe stick a copy on the fridge for some motivation. You can do this! Noe had some great quotes. Just take it one day at a time. Sometimes I have to take it one hour at a time. Keep your chin up and keep posting. We can do this together!

Take Care,
Karen

Stopping by to say hey! Wondering how your weekend is going. Did you get a chance to sit down and write out your goals? Let us know how you are doing!

Take Care,
Karen