Hi everyone,
I am new to this site but I thought I would take the bull by the horns and start posting a journal to keep me accountable. I have gotten such a lot of motivation from reading other people's journals, I am hoping that by keeping my own I will be strengthened in my journey to drop my extra 115.5lbs of unnecessary body!!
I have just started the Jenny Craig plan, which after a lot of careful thinking I decided was the right approach for me. I really need the structure to my day, and if I have to think too much initially about what I am doing food-wise, it tends to drive me nuts and I get derailed very easily 8-| . My biggest challenge is to start moving my butt! I am a classic couch potato and was probably a cat in another life - happiest curled up in a warm spot with a good book or movie, or some handcraft work LOL. However, I am starting to change that and will be adding in actual real movement to my day *shock* *horror* - so if you see a lack of exercise creeping into my journal, feel free to give me a poke :laugh: :laugh: .
So, here is my day today;
Sunday, June 3rd
Breakfast: Jenny Craig Milk Drink
2 english muffins
2tsp low fat margarine
1 tomato
1 kiwifruit

Snack: 1 kiwifruit

Lunch; Jenny Craig baked Potato (yummmm!!!)
2 slices bread
1tsp margarine
20g reduced fat cheese
1 serve salad
4 slices beetroot

Snack: Jenny Craig Savory bites
1 apple

Dinner: Jenny Craig Roast Beef with Pepper Sauce
1 serve salad
2 slices bread
1 tsp margarine

Snack: 11/2 cups friut salad
2/3C skim milk yoghurt

I know it looks like I get tons of food - that's probably cause I do!! The more weight you have to lose, the more food you start out on. However, it is clearly still less calorie-wise than I was eating before because after my first week (which ended yesterday) I had lost 5.9lbs!!!

I also plan to go for a walk today of about 25 mins. I am newly getting back into exercise and this is as much as I can do for now, but I am following a walking programme that I got from Asimba.com and am building up over a month to 45 mins.

Ok, better stop now before people fall asleep!
8-}
265.5/259.6/150

[ 06-02-2001: Message edited by: Clozzie ]

[ 07-29-2001: Message edited by: Clozzie ]

Hi clozzie, sounds like you are doing really good so far. I'm a couch potato myself and know how hard it is to get up and moving. I always feel better when I do. Glad you found DT.

Arrrggghhhh!! Day 2 of my journal and I have been taken out by the flu (it is Winter here in New Zealand). I have been taking so many vitamins as protection it's a wonder I don't rattle when I walk!! And now I have gotten sick anyway #$%&*!! The most frustrating thing is that I have actually started wanting to go for a walk (bizarre I know lol) and I am no fit state to do it. However, I am trying to remain positive and hope that my new improved eating and fitness habits will see me blow this flu off pretty smartly :laugh: :laugh: . Today's food has been on target, although it has been a bit of a struggle as I don't really feel like eating. But I am conscious of not under-eating as i don't want to send my body into famine mode. It's hard enough to shift the pounds as it is lol.
Monday 4 June
Breakfast: JC Fruit Flakes and Fibre Cereal
5 dried apricots
2 pieces toast with tomato

snack; JC Mixed Berry Bar
1 kiwifruit

Lunch: JC Chicken Noodle Soup
2 pieces toast and tomato
1 C orange juice

snack: Low fat yoghurt
1 kiwifruit

Dinner: JC Turkey & Cranberry Sauce
lots of veggies

snack: fruit salad
1 C Trim milk

Anyways, the old head is pounding now, but I just wanted to get this done...can't be falling over on the second day of posting 8-} 8-} 8-}
Back tomorrow

Hi Clozzie, I hope you will be feeling better soon I know how bad the flu can be. Your diet sounds like it's going great. Keep up the good work.
Gina :x

Thanks Gina, unfortunately I am still feeling lousy today, so I am at home having a sick day. I have dragged myself out of the warmth of my bed to check out how everyone is going today - I am a complete comfort eater and although I don't actually feel like eating at the moment I am having all these THOUGHTS about eating!!! Still so far today I am on track and have eaten nearly everything I suppose to so far (except for my cereal this morning...urrggghhh, just couldn't face it, needed panadol (like Midol) and more sleep *sob* *whimper* LOL. Plus I have a cold sore the size of Africa on my top lip (I am not exaggerating - even my normally unflappable partner was heard to utter "God lord, that's quite astonishing" - shortly before I hit him hehehe). I am just praying that this bizzare and very new urge to walk doesn't fade away before I get well!! 8-} 8-}
Tuesday 5 June
Mid-morning: 2 English Muffins with tomato
1C Trim milk
6 dried apricots

Lunch: JC Spicy Asian Noodles
6 whole wheat cracckers with tomato
2 mandarins

Snack: JC Muesli bar
cup of tea

Dinner: JC Macaroni Cheese
large salad
1 english muffin
1 kiwifruit

Snack: JC Milk Drink (Chocolate)
1 orange
2 Litres of water

Hopefully I'll be back at work tomorrow and will be able to get in a 2km walk.

Hi Clozzie, I'm sorry you're feeling bad. Hopefully you will feel better tomorrow. Your diet really sounds yummy and healthy. Isn't it nice to actually WANT to walk. :) I went for a walk this evening and didn't have to force myself. Don't start back to exercise too fast. You don't want to have a relapse. Take care of yourself.

Hi Clozzie,
Looks like you have a good plan going! Sorry to hear you have the flu, I hope you feel better tomorrow! ((hugs))
:rose:

Oops, forgot, I want to CONGRATULATE YOU ON YOUR 5.9 # LOSS-- <IMG SRC="smilies/cool.gif" border="0">

[ 06-05-2001: Message edited by: Otto ]

hi clozzie!
we on the other side of the world need to stick together so welcome to diettalk :)
so sorry that you have the flu. seeing as its winter here too there is so many people getting around with colds etc, its so hard not to get sick too.
5.9 pounds your first week is awesome! look forward to getting to know you better.
hugs bell :)

Thanks April, Otto and Bell for stopping by and much appreciated support. Boy, back at work today and only feeling a little seedy still (apart from the gargantuan cold sore), but actually having trouble ating all my food. Just no real appetite at the moment, partly due to illness and partly due to work stress (I have a project overdue arrggghhhh!!). This is a strange new experience for me - normally the same circumstances would have me eating everything in sight :eek: :eek: Don't know if no appetite at all is an improvement or not! Anyway, I am sure that things will even out soon. Got a kilometre walk in and will aim for 2km tomorrow.
Wednesday 6 June
Breakfast: JC Fruity Soy Bar
2 mandarins
1C Trim milk

Snack: 2 kiwifruit

Lunch: JC Pasta Salad
6 wholemeal crackers
1 carrot

snack: JC Apricot bar

dinner: JC Pizza
salad
40gms low fat cheese

Drank 4 cups of coffee today (which I never do!!) and was pretty poor with the water, so will work on those tomorrow.

hi kellie,
the menu for today looks good. hope that the work stress eases up for you soon.
4 cups of coffee is normal for me so dont worry about one day. you are doing great!
hugs bell :)

Clozzie- Thanks for stopping by my journal I agree, there is alot of genuine and caring support here at DT. I am thankful that I found it. You sound very upbeat and you seem to have a plan going that works for you. That is fantastic. Hard for me to think it is winter somewhere. Stay warm and cozy.
Linda

Hi Clozzie!

Thanks for stopping by my journal and for your kind words! I am a big teddy bear at heart!

I am so glad that you have found something that works for you! 5.9 lbs is amazing!

It is so hot here in Texas, maybe we could share some weather and even out the temperature! LOL!

Hope you are having a wonderful day and I will come and visit your journal often!

Take Care *

Hi Clozzie,
I hope you feel better this evening. I know the flu is hard to kick sometimes and also draining. Thanks for stopping by my journal--all advice is welcome. Thanks too for the belated wish--time goes by so fast.
Your menu for today looks great!!
:rose:

Thanks guys - reading all your posts tonght made me feel all warm and fuzzy :o It is so nice to have all this support and encouragement. I really feel like people are watching out for me and willing me to lose the weight I need to lose. What a bunch of sweeties, I really appreciate it. Well today was much better health-wise, feeling more energised and the cold-sore is now only the size of Japan. Walked 1.5km, so a little bit short of goal, but OK. I mean, moving the old butt in any direction except 'couch' is good right?? LOL :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
Thursday 7 June
Breakfast: JC Crispy Cereal
1C Trim milk
5 dried apricots

Snack: 2 kiwifruit

Lunch: JC Chicken All-round
1 Carrot
2 Mandarins

Snack: 2/3C Low-fat raspberry yogurt
1 orange

Dinner: JC Pasta and Fish Bake
Salad
JC Chocolate cake (mmmmmmmm!!)

Anyway, after feeling grotty for a while I am currently feeling really jazzed that I am making it through a pretty stressful time work-wise without hitting the chippies and chocolate. Go me, go me, go me (to the tune of Ricki Lake lol). I am off to the mall to buy myself an inspirational fitness magazine * *
See you all tomorrow,

Yayyyyyyy!! Weigh-in this morning and I am down another 3.5lbs, for a grand total of 9.4lbs in my first two weeks on JC. I am stoked. I know that this will slow down but it is a real boost to get off to such a good start. My flu is heading on out and I am JAZZED!! First big challenge tonight: it is my partner's 30th birthday and we are going to our favourite Mexican Restaurant. I have planned to walk for an hour today and have chosen an Eating Out day from my JC menus so I feel pretty positive it will be ok. I'll drink lots of water before dinner and during dinner!!! And I have already planned in my celebratory glass of wine. I shall report back tomorrow on how things went.
Saturday 9 June
Breakfast: JC Crispy Cereal
1C Skim Milk
6 dried apricots
Snack: 6 crispbread and tomato
Lunch: JC Vegetable parcel
large salad
Snack: JC Bean and Cheese Burrito
2 kiwifruit
Dinner: Mexican restaurant
1 gl wine

Exercise: 1 hour walk

265.5/256.1/150

Hi Clozzie,

I was so honoured with your visit to my journal. All the way from NZ, isn't it amazing?!
Thumbs up for your weight-loss. That's a fantastic start.
I've tried a lot of diets but never JC. It sounds pretty good.
Boy I'm having problems typing this. Roly climbed on the back of my chair and is now trying to climb up my head. In the meanwhile drooling all over my back. Yuck!
Talk to you later. First have to get rid of this kid.

Noenoe

Hey Noenoe, thanks for stopping by. I admire anyone with children - I know how much trouble I have just thinking about myself, let alone being responsible for kids! Roly is such a cute name ;)
Well last night wasn't too bad. Shared an entree and a main with my partner (Not 'cause we're cheap, but cause the servings are so big!!), had 2 glasses of wine and the lime & Chilli sorbet, with one small scoop of hazelnut icecream for dessert. Felt preety full at the end, my poor stomach has clearly begun to shrink and it wasn't too happy about the size of this meal. I guess it now prefers 5-6 small meals a day. A good lesson for me was just how much I enjoyed the meal. I think my eating had gotten so out of hand that most of the time I was barely tasting what I was eating. Now that I am more focused on food as a fuel, when I have the occasional treat like last night, it tastes absolutely heavenly :o :o However, it hasn't made me want to go out and splurge today, probably because I can recognise now that it tastes so good precisely because I am only having it infrequently. This is a huge revelation for me, and i think it means I have turned a bit of a corner. * * *
I think I was overly optimistic with the walking though!! From basically nothing to an hour was a tad on the keen side LOL. However, i went out with a friend today to our local park and walked briskly for 36mins (then it absolutely bucketed down!!) and that felt like a really good time to stop. I was breathless but able to talk to her and I could certainly feel it in my hamstrings and calves. She is going to come out with me every Sunday and our first goal is to build up to an hour.
One more challenge for this weekend - dinner at my partner's parent's house this evening. A roast for his birthday (roast pork too). I am doing another JC eating out day. This one is for a roast dinner so I can't really go wrong. I have already told MIL that I won't be having any dessert (as she is easily offended lol), so now I just have to watch my portion size for the actual dinner part. My JC counsellor said that up to 3-4 glasses of wine a week is ok, so I'll probably have a glass with dinner.
:rose: :rose: I have to say that it felt really great during my walk to be using my body again, and i was really proud of myself for not using the incoming bad weather as an excuse for not going out. Yay me!!
Sunday 10 June
Breakfast: JC Cereal
5 dried apricots
1C Trim milk

Snack: JC muesli cookie

Lunch: JC Cajun Chicken
salad
2 kiwifruit
Snack: 6 crispbread
& tomato, 1C Trim milk
Dinner: Roast pork
1 roast potato
1 pc roast kumura
broccolli
1pc roast pumpkin
green beans
1-2 glasses of wine

[ 06-10-2001: Message edited by: Clozzie ]

Hey Clozzie!

You big loser! That is amazing, there is 9.4 lbs less of you! I am doing a little happy dance here for you!

I also wanted to tell you that you have the greatest sense of humor! I hope your cold sore is smaller than Japan by now, maybe only as big as New Jersey now!

Take Care! *

Thanks Karen, I feel pretty pleased with myself too LOL.
Yesterday got away on me time-wise, but food and walking went well. For the next two days I am working from home trying to get a research project finished - Danger Will Robinson!!!The combination of being at home and being anxious and on a deadline has proven to be fatal in the past. A major binge trigger. However, I have planned my food for the day, there is nothing 'tempting' in the house to binge on, and I have therapy at 4pm - so I'm hoping I'm pretty well covered for today! Tomorrow will be the decider - deadline city uggghhh!!! Any suggestions/coping strategies gratefully recieved :eek: :eek: :eek:

Phew, one day down, two to go. Had to make sure my partner had hidden his chocolate biscuits this morning!! Just danger-proofing the environment, just in case ;) ;) My goal for today is to get in a half hour walk this evening, and for once the weather looks promising. Anyway, better get back on track with this research report - got to email an update to my boss this afternoon :eek: :eek: :eek: .
Catch you all tomorrow.

Yay me!!!!! Went for my half hour walk which was my goal for the day. However, the best part was that I felt anxious all day while working on my research report and I didn't want to eat, I wanted to get outside and go for a walk!!!!! * * * * That is so bizarre for me, I am absolutely stoked. And the real bonus is that I feel calmer than when I left the house and I have done something good for my body. I am kicking some butt here, and the best part is that it's my hiney that's gonna halve because of it ;) ;) ;)
Hope you all had a great day :) .

Hi Kellie,
Just caught up with your journal and it's a BIG THUMBS UP for you. You handled it so well! You should be very proud of yourself.
And isn't it great to have good friends that will help you reach your goal?
Keep up the good work and there will be hardly any hiny left!

Noenoe

Kellie,

You are doing so Great! * That whole stressed out, working at home and not turning to food is a fantastic milestone! You are building a lot of success in your life!! Keep up the good work.

Karolyn

Thanks heaps guys - I am feeling pretty pleases with myself :o . Last day of working at home today, and after my success yesterday I'm not even thinking about comfort food - I'm hanging out for my walk instead :laugh: :laugh: . The other bizarre thing is that I'm looking forward to my weigh-ins now! I know that I'll have weeks where the scales don't move or I have slight gains, but for once I feel like I'm at peace with the idea that as long as I am faithfully following my program, the weight will eventually have to go. This kind of thinking has been a long time coming, so I'm not going to take it for granted now that it's here (somebody remind me of this post when I first freak out about a gain LOL). Having you guys at DT along for the ride with me, makes this whole thing feel so much easier and less lonely - thanks to everyone for sharing themselves and their struggles, I know it really helps me :rose: :rose:

Hi Kellie. I just read your journal. You are doing great! Your motivation helps. I've been doing good but with that time of the month upon me right now, it's hard. Reading successes helps a lot. I've never thought I could work at home with all the food right there in the house. It didn't matter if it was good for me or junk. If it was there, it could be gone in a second! That's one reason why I like working outside of the house. So I am impressed with your self control. I think having a plan helps us stay on course.

Keep up the good work!
*

[ 06-13-2001: Message edited by: Debbi ]

Thanks Debbi, I really appreciate you stopping by and your kind comments. I was beginning to feel like a bit of a braggart, but dang it, I feel really good right now I'm gonna make the most of it LOL!! Having you say that reading successes helps you out, makes me feel good about having some success to post :o Well I got through my last day at home with no huge drama * . I have even been out for my walk (on my own!!) and drunk my body weight in water LOL. Actually going for a walk on my own is a big thing for me. In the past my head would have been full of "oh look at that sad fat chick out for a walk - as if that will make a difference"-type thoughts, but I am pleased to report that today there was only a flicker of that kind of thinking and even then it really only in terms of remembering how I used to be. This time I just mentally focused on how awesome i am going to look and feel in a years time, when my hard work now will be truly visible.

Yay for us at DT. We can do this!!!!!
* :rose: *

Good work and many congrats to you Clozzie for your explosive start. Posts like this are great to read back on when you have a low day. Great for others (like me) to read too because it reminds us all that it is do-able...lol! :) Especially when we all help each other out. Just have to keep in mind...I got myself into this state, without even thinking it, surely I can get myself out....hopefully with little effort! ;)

Good luck! Stay Strong! :peace:

Thanks Buddy, your kind words are really helpful to me right now. I am going through a really stressful, difficult time at work at the moment and I am determined not to cave in to my old coping strategy of eating everything in sight. But, boy is it a challenge :eek: :eek: . One day at a time at the moment, and as much positive thinking and looking to the future as I can manage!
I am working all weekend but I will make sure I fit in my two longish walks (up to 45mins is long for me right now :o ) and stick to my food plan.
Weigh-in this morning and I am down another 2.2lbs for a grand total of 11.7lbs in 3 weeks. If I didn't feel so stressed and anxious I would be doing a happy dance right now :c( . Still, two more weeks of hell and then things should even out - the end is in sight:I can get through this * *
265.5/253.8/150

Okay, I will do that happy dance for you.
2.2 lbs, you can't let that go by unnoticed!
Congratulations! It's a great result! :)
If you can do this, you can also get through those 2 weeks. Don't let it get to you!
Go for that walk, take a bath by candlelight,
let your partner give you a massage.
Do something relaxing!
Keep in touch!

Noenoe

Ah Noe, what would i do without my DT support!! All dancing gratefully received :rose: . I guess I sounded a tad bleak this morning - note to self: mornings not good at the moment LOL. It is now 3.30pm and I am doing well today. Have stuck to my meal plan, 1/2 my water is gone and I am about to plan out a walking route using the map (so I can measure how far it is). Decided to be proactive with regard to my mood this morning and went and bought myself some reinforcing treats of the non-edible kind: a new fitness magazine for inspiration, and a small size dinner plate and salad bowl, with a lovely new placemat to encourage me to sit at the table and to eat my meals slowly and respectfully (if that makes any sense!). I felt quite perky after that. Now, if only I could get back into my research today :eek: :eek: . Still, after my walk I'm sure I will feel less anxious and more energised. Plus I have cunningly planned my food today to make sure that I have a couple of my favourite Jenny Craig foods this evening - Macaroni cheese and chocolate cake (spot the comfort theme there anyone? LOL).Better my treats are planned and part of my meal plan than binges that leave me feeling crappy ;) ;) .
Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Hi kellie,
you are doing awesome still i see :)
2.2 more pounds gone forever. i think you have had a real breakthrough with the exercise and the weigh ins. i can see alot of my own journey in yours. its wonderful to be able to read back and see where you were struggling with exercise, and now you are looking forward to the walks...
i know what you mean about the stress at work. i made myself go to water aerobics last night just so i could destress before facing more stress at work.
we will beat this..
hang in there.
hugs bell :)

Hey Kellie,

You are doing so great. Your weight loss is amazing and wanting to go for a walk instead of eat is a giant step. I'd like my planning to be organized as yours. You are really on the way. You are helping yourself and everyone who reads your journal. Keep up that positive attitude!

Karolyn

Now that's my girl. Feels bleak, goes shopping! The all-time cure for everything!

Hope you enjoyed eating all the yummy food of your new plate. It looks like lots, doesn't it, once you start using a smaller size plate.
Do you also use a small fork & knife?

Now something totally different. Explain to me the time difference between NZ and Canada.
Are you ahead of us? So when you wrote the post at 3.30PM was that on the 15th or the 16th? Just curious!
Have a GREAT weekend! :)

Noenoe

Hi ya...

Let me introduce myself!!! I am the rambler!! I go on and on and on...haven't figured out why yet...because I want to see how fast my fingers fly across the keyboard??? my way of getting finger exercise??? or just plain that I have a big mouth!!! and like to talk/type???

Anyway...I read THE WHOLE JOURNAL!!! LOL You are doing FANTASTIC!!! Sure does seem like you get to eat lots!!! Must be the difference in the good choice of food as opposed to the bad choices we usually make! I remember when I first started walking at 327lbs!!! LOL. I hadn't did anything more exciting then pick up kids toys and clean for years! (had 3 little ones and a hubby who didn't like me going out!)
When I first started walking, I couldn't go anymore then 5 min. from home! But I persevered..did that 5 min. away..5 min. back for a few weeks..then gradually I upped it more and more. Within a few months I was walking up to 2 hours a day!!! Even now..when I have stopped then started again...I have never gotten into such bad shape that I was in!!! I am walking about an hour a day now...unless its a working day/night???? that's another story..but my body is almost broken when I get home from work!!!

Anyway...keep on going! You are doing so good! and even when you do peter off and have a bad weigh in...it will happen!!! GGGRRR...remember...that exercise is going to build muscle which weighs more then fat...so you should take measurements to watch the inches fade away as well as the fat!!! Good Luck...you are on the road to success!!!! You CAN do this!!!

Bell, Karolyn, Noenoe, EclipseB - You guys rock!!! Thank you so much for your wonderful support and encouragement. I felt all warm and fuzzy this morning when I logged in and saw that you had all stopped by :o . I am absolutely certain that the awesome support and encouragement we get at DT is making a difference in this journey of mine. Big ((((((hug)))))) to you all * :rose: * . Noe, it was 3.30pm on Saturday when i wrote that entry...it is now 11am on Sunday - kinda weird to think that i have already had the day you guys are just starting!! Bell, it is getting cold here (how's minus 4 in the morning for you!!!), but I really enjoy walking when it's cooler. I struggle in the heat at this weight, but come Summer this year (December for you North Americans lol), I will be 66lbs lighter and i say, bring it on hehehe.

Well, I went for an awesome walk yesterday evening. I grabbed my partner, told him I had a 3.5km route mapped out, and we went for it!! I felt so powerful and in control on that walk - Kellie the Machine LOL ;) ;) . Not so long ago I couldn't walk around our block without my butt absolutely killing me; I am stoked to be enjoying moving myself around so much. Today I go for my weekly long walk in the park with my girlfriend Deb, and we have now roped in my friend Carol, who is doing JC with me. 3 fat chicks on a walk, and guess what??? We don't care what anyone thinks!! We only know how good we are starting to feel. ;)

Anyway guys, back to the research :eek: . Will catch up again soon.
Have a great day.

[ 06-16-2001: Message edited by: Clozzie ]

3 Fat chicks in the park?! Before you know it you have started a trend.
How was the walk? Did you lasted a bit longer than last sunday?
Great to read that you did so well on the walk with your partner. I hope it was also fun.

So tell me, I've read somewhere that you wanted to lose 50 kg.; how much time did you give yourself and where are you on this journey?
If you don't want to free this information just tell me to mind my own business.
I'm the old snoop; like to know everything that's going around.

Noenoe

Hey Noenoe, hope you are having a great day. I had another greeeeeat walk yesterday in the park. Went for 45 mins and at times I could really feel my inner athlete wanting to get out and get free LOL ;) ;) . I did two little jogs along the way I was feeling so good LOL. However, I have to be careful with that 'cause my mind may want to run but my poor over-burdened body is the one who will suffer for it later!! I have a walking plan that increases in intensity as I lose significant amounts of weight. So every 5kgs (or 11lbs) I add either more time, or another session etc. When I have lost about 25kg (55lbs) i add in walk/jogging. This time around I am trying to be sensible and reasonable with myself and not set myself up to fail :o . I have 50kg to lose and I would like to have lost the bulk of it by late June next year. So I have given myself a bit over a year, plus I do a 9-week initial maintenance program with Jenny Craig and then further monitoring for a year. If I am within 2kg of my goal weight (which you pick for yourself) after 12 months of maintenance, I get half my joining fee back! I think this is a reasonable time-frame, given that I am making changes for life, but I am not so inflexible that if something were to occur that meant I could only hope to maintain any losses that I had already achieved for a period of time (i.e. an illness, some kind of family trauma etc), i would re-evaluate my timeframe at that stage ;). I think we have given ourselves a very similar timeframe so rest assurred, I will be following you very closely hehehehe.

Today has gone ok food and water-wise. I am a bit hungry at the moment so i will just have my dinner a bit earlier than usual. Must have been all that exercise on the weekend ;) . Am still feeling pretty stressed, having spent the day confusing myself completely with this ^&$#!*^!! research project X-( X-(. However, my determination remains to get through without bingeing - it solves nothing and would just leave me feeling defeated.

Hope you all have a great Monday.

Hi Kellie,

Just love your positive attitude. That on it
self will get you to the end of the journey!
I can just see you sprinting through the park. :)
And I will be close behind you, I'm riding on your shirt tail. :eek:
When will that you-know-what X-( project be finished?

Noenoe

Forgot to wish you a TERRIFIC day.
If I calculated it right it is 8.30 AM at your side of the world.
So here's to a TERRIFIC day!
(Is Australia 2 hrs ahead or behind NZ?)

Noenoe

Hey Kellie, where are you?
Did that project gobble you up?
I miss you!

Noenoe

Awwwww you so sweet Noenoe!!! &%$#@* project is gobbling me up, but only for one more day - final copy has to go to big boss tomorrow (Thursday) night. Then I'll be back in full force hehehehe. Hope all is well with you, I'm looking forward to catching up with everyone's journals and feeling human again ;) ;) . I'll be thinking about ya though!! No slacking my Canadian friend :eek: . Catch up with you properly soon,

If I'm correct it is now Friday 5PM at your side and there is still no sign of life.
What is happening? Are you taking a holiday?
Is the X-( project not finished yet?
Let me know. Keep in touch!
I'm doing great but it feels better when you are around.

Noenoe

I've got the sleepy guy today 'cause that's how I'm feeling!! Finally finished the research project (heaves huge sigh of relief lol) and am now feeling utterly exhausted :c( . Plus, I am now getting another %$#@&* cold sore!! Seems ironic to me that I am eating the healthiest I have in years and exercising to boot, and now my body is falling apart 8-} 8-} . Still, it is onwards and upwards from here. A mere cold sore will not throw me off my journey :laugh: I laugh at cold sores - ha!
Thank you so much Noenoe for keeping an eye on me and making sure I came back when I was finished!!! You are a real treasure and I am really enjoying being a loser with you! By the way, my massage chair hasn't arrived yet - I was kinda hoping you would send it express mail ;) .
I have weigh-in at JC in the morning and I'll post my results and check in on some journals when I get back.
Have a great weekend everyone,

cant wait for the good results from the weigh in kellie!
cant help but be a good result with all that walking. you are right in that you are feeling great and people can think what they like...when i see people out walking and exercising i admire them!
by the way noenoe australia is 2 hours behind NZ. what part of new zealand do you live kellie? i have a great friend that is from dunedin.
hugs bell :)

Hey girlfriend, I'm glad you're back.
What did your friend Jenny have to say? Positive news I hope!
Did you catch up with your sleep already?
Sorry about the chair but hey, I even haven't had an opportunity to try it out yet. 8-}
It's that silly move. I will be so glad when that is behind me. And I don't think about moving for the next 10 years.
House moving that is, not body moving. Body moving...aarrgghh..I'm slowly starting. Very slowly! :(
Well, have yourself a restful saturday and because I'm not sure if I can post tomorrow, good luck with the run through the park on sunday.
Now get yourself in gear. It's business as usual!

Noenoe

Boy is this a crappy time of year of what?? Not only is it freezing cold here but it is the end of the financial year at work, which means lots of deadlines and things needing finishing off. I spent all day Sunday at work (ewwwwww) and most nights this week will be spent doing what I can't get done during the day AND I've got another $#%^&*@!! cold sore. *sob* *moan* *whine*. Phew, sorry guys just feeling very stressy today. Just got home and needed to vent :o . I will do my best to keep up my journal this week, but will probably be a very poor visitor to other people's. My apologies in advance.
Weigh-in at JC on Saturday and had lost 1.5lbs which I thought was better than a poke in the eye with a stick (just hehehehe). I think my weight-loss has slowed a bit because ironically I am probably not eating enough at the moment!! So my goal for this week is to eat everything on my JC food plan and to get a couple of walks in somewhere - it's a challenge at the moment cause it's dark when I leave for work and dark when I get home blah blah blah. I think I might have a coule of exercise videos gathering dust somewhere, so I should probably give one of those a try (it'll give the cats a good laugh if nothing else ;) ).
Righto, off to make dinner and work on some positive thinking :o ,
265.5/252.3/150

Just missing you and wondering how you are doing. Work must be keeping you really busy! Congrats on the 1.5 pound loss. Much better than a poke in the eye! LOL! That really cracked me up! I always say better than a kick in the mouth with a golf shoe! LOL!

Hope all is well. Let us know how you are doing when you get a chance!

Take Care,
Karen

Hey you, what's happening?
I'm away for a few days and you go AWOL!
Is work that busy that you have no more time for your friends? I MISS YOU! WE MISS YOU!
COME BACK!

Noenoe

Wow, Clozzie, I just read through your whole journal and I am so impressed with how well you have done! And I could soooo very much relate to the comment about having worried in the past about people looking at you while you were walking having terrible thoughts about you. I used to feel that way, too. But, one day I was walking around a track at a park and two very athletic people (one man, one woman) were coming from the other direction. I was thinking of all the terrible things they must be thinking about me -this fat walking woman - when they got to me and both said, "Wow, you're doing a great job! Good for you!" I suddenly realized that only the nastiest, lest worthy of my time, kind of people would think anything different. I'm sure they never knew how the changed the way I felt.

Keep up the great job you are doing and I hope your project isn't getting you down!
Kerri

Okay, your week is over, now where are you?
This isn't funny anymore....
Come back!

Noenoe :c(

Boy, bad Kellie!!! I've got the embarrassed face up 'cause I've been away for sooooo long!!! Work has just been totally full-on, but I have been largely ok with my JC plan. My walking has sufferred - just not enough daylight at the moment with these dumb hours I've been working. But, at last I am back ;). I am optimistic that Saturday's weigh-in will show some movement down, and I will be able to do my two longish walks this weekend as well.

I have really missed the support and motivation I get from checking in here daily and I will make sure I check in at least every other day during really busy times.

My big news for this week is that I got engaged on Monday :x :x :x . My lovely man asked me to marry him and I really liked the ring so I said yes hehehehe (just kidding!!!!!! I love him dearly) Now I really gotta lose this weight 'cause I'm not going to be a fat bride :eek: :eek: . Still, nothing like a bit of extra motivation hey?? ;)
Take care everyone,

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Wow, you really know how to flabbergast a person.
Here I am crying for you to come back, now I am crying because of the SPLENDID news.
Let me be the first to congratulate you, give you a peck on the right, the left and the right cheek again (it's a Dutch thing) and a big (((((hug)))))!
Was it a romantic proposal?
Keep the info coming girl!
Have a great day further and talk to you soon.

Noenoe :laugh: :c( :laugh:

Boy I really have lost the plot!!Noe, Karen, & Kerri, thank you so much guys for checking in and sharing a bit of me through my journal. I know I have said it before but I'll say it again 'cause it's true...I really appreciate your comments and support. It really does make a difference to my journey :rose: :rose: .
Cheers,

I'm crying again. Where art thou?
Do I really have to round up the hounds for the search party?
Miss you, blushing bride to be!
Now don't let this wedding stuff get to your head, we still have a lot of work to do!!
How was JC, what did she say?
Get down from that silver-lined cloud in 7th heaven and get back to earth.
Talk to you soon. And I mean SOON! :rose:

Noenoe

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Another day gone and still no you....

Noenoe

Hi Clozzie,
I've been reading your journal and just laughing out loud at a couple of your sayings.
Congratulations on the proposal.Tell us more!!
You seem to do well on your weight loss,even under the stress of the job.Good going. Baylee

Did you elope? :o :x

Noenoe

Hey, something has happened to the icons and now my journal is marked by the mad face!! Not exactly inspiring!!

Thank you Noe for your gentle kicks in the butt!! I need to keep up my journal and I do appreciate your checking up on me. Don't mean to make you cry ;) ;) . Thanks Baylee for dropping by - I'm gonna go check you out when I'm done here * .

Went to Jenny on Saturday and she said another 1.3lbs of yuccky fat gone FOREVER. Not bad considering how frantic life is at the moment (not to mention that lush dinner out with the bottle of champagne when my beloved proposed - he proposed at home and then took me out to the place where we had gone on our first date *sigh*). So that makes 14.5lbs so far. Woohoo. My goal for this week is to get under 250lbs - gotta get some walks in though! Didn't get my long walk on Sunday as I thought I was coming down with the flu; woke up feeling like I'd been run over by a truck :eek: . AAAND i had to spend the day finishing reports for work <IMG SRC="smilies/sigh.gif" border="0"> . However, I better get used to that as from 30 July I am going to be the big boss for 4 months, whilst the real boss is on secondment. :eek: :eek: .

Anyway - walking, water, watchfulness; my catchcry for the week.

Check in again soon.

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Well, I just read your WHOLE journal, and I'm well impressed. And congratulations on the engagement - your man sounds adorably romantic - the place where you went on your first date - how sweet - can I have him??? LOL - just kidding.
You're doing so well - 14.5 pounds is a lot. Keep up the good work.
Love, Chuckles

Hi Kellie,

I'm so glad you're back to the land of the living! Are you feeling better?
Your fiance sounds like a romantic man. Bell also has one of those. In my next life I'm going downunder. :laugh:
Congrats with the weight loss. That is certainly an accomplishment with the life you're leading now-a-days.
Question: what is secondment? I looked it up in the dictionary but no luck there. So please explain.
Have a great day today and talk to you soon! :rose:

Noenoe

Hi Kellie,

I just finished your journal up to now. You've been doing great! Congrats on your engagement! I'm sorry to hear that you aren't feeling well...I hope that your flu lets up soon. Keep up the good work!

I go away on vacation and come back and your engaged! You have been busy! LOL! Congrats on the engagement and the removing of the pounds! I am so excited to see that JC is going so well for you. Sorry work is so hectic...it sounds like it keeps you on your toes!

I hope you are feeling better! Take care of you!

Hi there Chuckles, Noe, Karen, and Trefoil - many thanks for stopping by, boy do I need the accountability and encouragement right now!! I think I'm having the seven-week itch lol! Seven weeks on JC and some big time cravings have hit. Mind you, I think they are pretty well stress-related, not that I'm bad stressed (that yuckky research is finished after all!!), just very busy. A secondment Noe, is when someone goes off to another job within the same primary company. My boss is going off to be the manager of the Women's Prison in our region and she is initially going as a four-month secondment so she can try it out and see if she likes it. If she doesn't she can come back to her old job. If she keeps the new position then her old job will be advertised as vacant. So for four months I'm gonna be the Principal Psychologist of the Department of Corrections Psychological Service Christchurch office...bloody hell that sounds scary when i write it down (ohhhh I hope none of my bosses are members here lol). Anyway, how much damage can I do in four months??? hehehehehe. Must remember that I am only a glorified seat-warmer really lol. Still, I have to watch my urge to comfort eat at the moment and somehow find a safe way to go for walks amongst all this winter darkness and freezing cold (another -8 morning yesterday brrrrr). Will let you know how I get on ;) .

Take care everyone,

Kellie-dear, let me tell you, -8 is not winter; that is a cold summer day. Come to Canada in January/February and I will show you REAL winter!!! :laugh:
So when the position of your Boss becomes vacant, are you going to apply?
You are right with those cravings. Just keep busy. I hope you can stave them off.
Take care of yourself. :rose:

Noenoe

Hi Kellie,
Well!! You certainly can make me think! I guess I just was going along in my happy fog assuming it's hot summer all over the world!I could use some of those lower temps right now,but not quite that low.Actually,as scared as I am of wind,I almost wish we'd get some storms so we'd get some rain.My lawn looks like a field of shredded wheat.

You certainly have been doing great.keep up the good work.
I want to thank you for the well wishes for my surgery.I think that helps in the healing process to get encouragement,the same as in any endeavor we undertake.It was greatly appreciated. keep up your excellent work. Baylee

Oooops! JC gave me a kick in my complacent butt today! I lost 100gms (hey, it's still better than gaining, although that is what I deserved with the amount of nibbling and lack of exercise I have had!!!) at weigh-in today and my counsellor has challenged me to lift my rating and lose 1.3kgs next week, to make my weight loss 8 kgs in 8 weeks. I haven't got the calculater handy to convert to pounds for you North American girls, but that's around 3lbs. I can do that - I just have to stick to my eating plan and get some %$#@&*!! exercise. I like to walk, I like to walk, I like to walk...I have definitely hit a wee slump but I am determined to pull myself out of it this week before I start to slide backwards. I have a family dinneer with the in-laws-to-be tonight to celebrate our engagement and then the rest of the week should be fairly plain sailing. So hopefully next week when I update my stats there will be 17lbs of yuccky fat gone for good :eek: :eek: .

Thanks Baylee for stopping by; I am thrilled to hear that things are going well for you post-surgery. You remember to take care!! :rose:
Noe; please kick my butt if I fail to mention walking this week - you'll be doing me a huge favour ;) ;)
Cheers,

I was already wondering about you. I see posts of you all over the place except in your journal. But you remembered!
Hey I'm a super buttkicker. I'll gladly be of service. Walking eh?!
100 gr., it is nice that today's technology can measure that. And anything better than a gain. Next week it will be the 3 lbs. No problem! Right???
Hope you had a great dinner tonight!
And it's back to business as of tomorrow.
Remember: You like walking! You like walking! You like walking! :rose:

Noenoe

You are doing great with your losses! I'm aiming for only 700g lost a week, but I tend to lose a little less, like 1.5-2kg a month now. I want to take it slow, to minimize muscle loss and to give my stretch-mark prone skin time to adjust. My dermatologist said that, in terms of your skin (not metabolism or fat or whatever), you're better off losing just 1% of your body weight everyweek. Since I now weigh 69kg, that's 690g a week to be exact.

So, there are certain benefits to losing slowly too!

congratulations again, and I hope to read more about you here.

Love,

Lana

I agree, any loss is better than a gain! Congrats!

Did ya walk...did ya...huh...huh...did ya? LOL! You asked for it...now we will be all over ya. But gotta love all this positive attention. Hope you are having a fab weekend.

Take Care,
Karen

Hey Miss Principal Psychologist of the Department of Corrections Psychological Service Christchurch Office,
I am here to kick some behind but there is none in sight.
So where are you hiding?
How was your weekend? Did you do the walk through the park?
Don't be a stranger! :rose:

Noenoe

I'm crying the blues!!
You are still not posting. What is the matter Kellie?
Come back to us. We love you! :rose:

Noenoe

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Hello!!!! I return at last! My apologies Noe, i have been sick as a dog for the last week and developed bronchitis for my sins!! Have felt too crappy and tired to post, but today is my first day back at work and my return to logging on!! Ican't possibly get sick again can I??? I am a bit worried about what the scales might do tomorrow (languishing in bed does not many calories burn), but it's only a hiccup. Onward and downward I say. I'm gonna have a stern talk to myself tonight and regain my positive attitude. I can do this!!! Boy oh boy, lifetime changes can be a challenge hey girls? I think I'll go and visit the DDDD forum for some more inspiration. I think I'm just feeling a bit sorry for myself because I've been sick and tired and uncomfortable etc etc. But the time has come to refocus on my goals (I am NOT going to be a fat bride!!!!, I like to move my body in a forward motion!!!!), and kick my own butt too 8-} 8-} .

Lana: I really appreciate your comments, I am trying hard to go with the attitude that any loss is a good thing. It doesn't matter if it's big or small just as long as I keep them coming *
Cheers,

You don't have to apologize, silly.
When you're sick, you're sick. And I know brochitus, I've had my share of that and I know how you feel.
It's just that I missed you and I was starting to feel lonely!
Visiting DDDD=D sounds like a good start to me. Just to get the motivation up again.
It sounds though that you're still in good spirits. Keep it that way!
Hope Jenny will be nice to you.
Have a great motivated O/P day tomorrow and we'll talk soon.
I'm so happy that you didn't bail out! :rose:

Noenoe

Hi Kellie,
Just a quick visit to say keep on trying.you're doing a good job.
Sorry to hear that you've been sick.I guess I've been remiss in checking on others while I'm recuperating.Glad to see you're recovered enough to get back to work.Good luck on your weigh in. Baylee

Yayyyyy!!! JC was kind to me today and I lost 1.5lbs of fat forever ;) ;) . I am now under 250lbs for the first time in ages and have a smidge less than 100lbs to lose overall, so I am stoked and filled with renewed enthusiasm - 240lbs here I come 8-} 8-} .

Thanks Noe and Baylee for stopping by - this site is really keeping me on track. You guys rock!! :rose:

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Hi Kellie

Really well done on the 1.5lbs - you got it wrong though - no one else has done this except you! JC might help but you have done the hard work yourself.

You seem so focused that I am really sure the 240lb mark will come round much sooner than you thing. Congratulations and - again - really well done.
:rose:

YAHOOOOOO!!
CONGRATULATIONS GIRL!
I'm doing my interpretation of the HAPPY DANCE, it's a JIVE this time.
I'm so proud of you, wow, you've made my day!
Have a great weekend! Are you feeling up to your run in the park?
:x * :x * :x *
I'm in a decorative mood today! :rose:

Noenoe

Sarah & Noe, thanks guys for the cheering section! It is nice to feel properly back on track again * . Noe, I loved the jiving - you're very talented aren't you lol.

I was really keen to go for my walk in the park today but it is bitterly cold and drizzly today so I don't think it's the most cunning option, health-wise. Michael said he would come for a walk around the neighbourhood with me later this arvo when it is expected to clear up a bit so that's the plan for today. Food-wise it's going good so far. Tonight I have one of my favourite Jenny Meals - oven-baked Hoki fillet, with a cheesy herby crust and spicy potatoe wedges mmmmmmm and a glass of wine. But I have to do the walk to get the wine ;) .

Overall I'm feeling really positive and on track again...240lbs here i come 8-} 8-} .

Cheers,

That's the spirit girl. You're back to your old self again.
That JC food sounds really yummy.
And did you get the glass of wine?
That 240 better watch out....you're on a roll! :rose:

Noenoe

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You won't hear me complain, no you won't!
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Jeez...my hiney sure is sore these days lol. Thank you Noe, for I know you care :rose: . I am late in posting this evening cause I went for a walk when michael got home from work ;) Go me, go me, go me (doing a little Ricki Lake here lol). Plus I walked an extra kilometre at work today. See my little halo, isn't it shining bright ;) ;) . I feel good now naneh nah nah, knew that I would now, nah ne nah nah nahhhhh...this is an ad jingle in NZ (humour me people 8-} ).

Have a great Monday everyone,

cheers,

An extra kilometre! Excellent! Brilliant! And it will do Michael good as well... ;)

The JC meals sound SOOOOOOO nice... It just goes to show that diet meals don't have to be boring! 8-} :) 8-}

Your halo is the shiniest ever seen in the universe.
Okay, maybe I was a little premature but hey, next time you can kick mine. And I don't say this to everybody.
Nice walking lady, I'm impressed.
So for today you deserve * * * * .
Winking your way ;), have a great one tomorrow! :rose:

Noenoe

Kellie,
Congrats on the milestone! Your enthusiasm is catchy so whenever I feel myself down I am coming to your journal for a booster! keep up the fab work! *

poos...I had my first gain in 8 weeks on Saturday, although I wasn't surprised as i had been out for dinner the night before for my bosses farewell dinner. I had had about 2lts of water to drink to counter the effects of the 2 glasses of wine I had (cause I was driving) and I hold water like a desert camel, so I was up .8 of a pound on Saturday. Sunday I was back down by 2.2lbs but it's not my "official" weigh-in so I can't really count it - still, I am remainig optimistic that this bodes well for a good loss next Saturday ;) .

I am finding it quite hard to find the time to post every day at the moment, with taking on this new work role etc. But I am committed to posting at least 3-4 times per week to help keep myself on the straight and narrow.

Today's walk was prematurely shortened by a nasty wet turn in the weather. I will be soooooo glad when Winter is done 8-} .

Ahh well, off to prepare for first day as boss :eek: . Back in the next couple of days with more news from DownUnder.

cheers,

BBBBAAAANNNNGGGGG!!!
That is me, falling off my chair! You must have had a little tremor down there.
It's good that I have a strong heart 'cause boy, oh boy, you really know how to surprise someone!
Soooo, you're still around. And there was a little gain but from what I read nothing serious. GREAT! Then it is back to business!!
Posting only 2 -3 times per week sounds good to me, when you're too busy. But do it, because no posts is very scary, very, veeerrry SCARY!
Hope the first day on the job will be a good one! Good Luck!
When does summer start, 'cause like it sounds, you're ready for it. :rose:

Noenoe

Hello my friend!

I am totally understanding how busy you are with work. My new job is keeping me on my toes too! Like Noe said, we will be waiting for you to check in so that we can continue to cheer you on. Just don't disappear on us!

Looks like you and JC are having a wonderful relationship! I am so glad that it is working out so well for you.

It seems funny you talking about winter when it has been around 100F with no rain in sight for weeks now here. Sometimes I wonder why I love to live in Texas!

Just know we miss ya when you are not here!
Take Care!

Kellie-dearest, (ahum)

I'll push your journal to the top, so you won't have any trouble finding it when you are (hopefully) posting tonight.
How are you? :rose:

Noenoe

I think it has been a week now! And today was also JC day. So I'm waiting for the results!
I'll give you another push to the top. Don't worry, it won't hurt. :rose:

LUCY

Kellie is a bad Kellie! One week + with no posts!! I can only plead role transition fatigue (does that work for ya Noe lol). At JC this past Saturday I lost what I had gained the week before so I was pretty pleased with that. I went for a walk in the country on Sunday and mad cows and electrocution aside (dang electric fences - I could swear it was off!!!) I enjoyed myself and got the old body moving for a good 70 mins or so ;) .

I am really enjoying my new role at work, much more than I thought I would (I might not want to stop in four months :c( ). Am starting to get back into a better routine with my eating plan and have a mini-goal to lose 19lbs by the end of October, which is doable. Then I am away for a week for work followed by a week of holiday in Auckland (NZs biggest city) - if I have met my mini-goal I am going to reward myself with a new outfit.

Thanks Karen and Noe for stopping by and keeping an eye on me. I will still be looking at posting 2-3 times per week but will make sure that I do. I am not getting off completely scott free however, as I have a wonderful DT email diet buddy, Sarah from England, and I am checking in regularly with her - so I am keeping my bases covered (boy, could I get any more cliches in one post!!) ;) .

Am now going to have a cruise around and see how everyone is going. Back again in a few days.
Cheers,

:o <Blush> Aw Shucks.... you're not so bad yourself!!!! :o

You didn't mention that you have dropped a dress size!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!!
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Yikes Clozzie! Where did ya disappear to? All your DT friends are missing you! Hope all is well with you, the job, and JC.

Take Care!