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Hi, Well here it goes I'm going to try to apply this book to my life and with that I've started a new journal. The book I'm reading is Life Makeovers By Cheryl Richardson.
Well this is week 1 The Journey Begins!...The quote for this week
Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. Lucille Ball
How true that statement is and how hard is it to do sometimes how do we always love ourself first when we have to many irons in the fire. How do we find the time to do that along with the list of 100 other things to do?
I'm soppose to start off with the things I've done accomplished this past year. Well as far as weightloss I've lost 24 pounds and for the most part I do eat healther and drink more water I was exercising for about 3 months but that stopped and needs to start again. I have been more honest with myself and others about how I feel about life and other things...food. Honestly I love food to much and I need to find a place where my health and love of food meet and can get along. It ask if I've learned to set boundaries with people who drain me...well not really...what I have learned is to stay away from those who can't respect me as soon as they learn how to cact I will come back around. ( yes one person is dear old mom I'm thinking about ) And as far as becoming more sensitive to the needs of others I guess what I have learned is to accept people for who they are they may not be "like you" and thats ok just because your different does not make one person right and the next wrong. And I've shared myself in someway this year by teaching Sunday school class that has lead to now being in charge of V.B.S. so that is good. And I've started dabbling in my art again so that is something I've started doing and sharing more of myself via the internet ( like dietalk ) but it is I who have gained from this in many new friendships. I've been blessed in the fact that I have grown in so many ways over the last year. Thanks to all of you who had a part in that growth. I'll be back tomarrow with the next topic. Ruthieb

I think I'll just comment on a few things tonight I've been reading through some journals and it seems a lot of us are feeling down and out. I think I know why... it is the heat and the time of year the heat makes us all want to stay in and hide in the comfort of the air and it drains us all so bad. And this time of here is bad because everywhere you look there is FOOD it is the 4th of July with cookouts and all of that I feel by the middle of the month we will all be feeling better or after the 4th the least. Ruthieb

Hi Ruthie,
Glad I found you!! Sounds like you have found an excellent book. I haven't read the book but it sounds good. I like the idea "Loving yourself first and everything else fall into line." Sounds like something Lucille Ball would say. I agree sometimes we do have too many irons in the fire and don't accomplish anything.

I guess that is why one day at a time works for me. Can't do everything at once!!

You are right it is important to discover things about yourself and being more honest with yourself is a good start!! Wow you are doing great!! You just keep at it sweetie and you will do great!!
Good for you for teaching Sunday school and getting back into your art!! I think that is wonderful!! You go girl!!

This is so wonderful Ruthie!! You are a winner!!!
Love and hugs,
Lizzie

Rutie,

Stopping by to say hello ..... and to let you know YOU AREN'T FORGOTTEN BY ME.

We each have to march to our own tune; that is not to say that THERE IS A RIGHT WAY OR A WRONG WAY ..... what is right for you IS SOMETHING YOU HAVE TO MAKE AND MAINTAIN FOR YOURSELF. You are a unique and special person SO START THINKING OF YOURSELF IN THAT RESPECT .... that is the key word RESPECT . Respect who you are ...... when you walk down the street or anywhere LOOK FORWARD .... not DOWN AT YOUR FEET.

Ruthie the key to a happier life IS YOU ...whichever way you place it in the door of your life IS HOW IT IS GOING TO TURN.

YOU CAN AND WILL SUCCEED RUTHIE ...... BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. Make each day the best day .... Take care. As always, Monica

Ruthie, glad you have started your journal.. Sounds like you have found a great book as a guide..

I think it helps to write down some of my thoughts and dreams.. Not sure about having everybody read them.. but getting there.:) they may be helpful to someone as others are helpful to me.

Take care and keep up the good work.

Week 2...New You
The world rewards those who take responsibility for their own success.--Curt Gerrish
Does the world reward them or do they in a way reward themselves. And the world just likes to be around them more because they feel better about themselves and they are nicer to be around...something to think about anyway.
What quality would you like to develop more of over the next year? How do you need to grow?
Answer to number 1--I would like to become more disciplined in all areas of my life. I seem to focus on one thing and get wrapped up in it and let other things go. But I need to be more disciplined in my quest for eating healther and exercise. I guess I need to grow by letting go of fear in my life of a lot of things but driving is the first that comes to mind. I need to expaned my horizons so to speak...hard to explain it is like maybe take a class on campus or something like that.
After I pick out my quality I need to work on I'm suppose to write it in a present teanse that relates to the goal...here it goes.
I enjoy living a more disciplined life being more in control of the out come of things and not so much leaving it to fate.
I'm suppose to put it on paper and hang it somewhere that I can see it...so I'll leave it here.
Choose 3 actions I can take this coming week to begin developing this quality right away.
1. Make a plan of action points plan and exercise plan
2. Start doing some kind of exercise even if it is just baby steps at first.
3. Make myself start driving at least once a week...keeping progress reports on here.

Well I feel better than I did when I first come here oh one more thing make less empty point choices. Well I'm going to grab some water and get back to work on V.B.S. Ruthieb

Wow.....

I am impressed; ALL VERY REASONABLE AND ACHIEVABLE GOALS. And what's more ..... IT IS GOING TO HELP YOU.

I wanted to stop by and say hello; I just finished doing the dinner dishes ..... so strange I feel like the sink and I are attached ....one gigantic imbilical cord.

Thank you so much for your ecard ....... I appreciate your thinking of me. We each need to know we are appreciated ....... AND I APPRECIATE YOU.

So how has your week been? Have you stayed within your points? How about your water intake have you increased it ...?

YOU KNOW YOU ARE GOING TO SUCCEED ...... BE PATIENT WITH YOURSELF ..... AND MOST OF ALL TREAT YOURSELF KINDLY. NO BEATING UP ON YOURSELF ..... lol and THAT'S AN ORDER.

Make it a great weekend .... take care of yourself. Know I will be stopping by and checking on how well you are succeeding. As always, Monica

Hello and congrats on the 24 pounds gone. i am on ww also. i see you around here and wanted to see your journal . i am impressed to and enjoyed reading it. would like to know you better too. you sound very goal oriented and it will get you where you want to go on this destination.

HI Ruthie :)

Sounds like you have a great book that will and is being a help to you.

Your goals are also wonderful ones :)

You CAN do this!!!!!!!!!!!

Jade

Hi RuthieB,
Good to see you posting!! Been thinking about you and hoping you would pop up. I like the positive attitude you have and also like your book!! Has a lot of good information in it.

I know you will do this and succeed because you want to. Plus you are working on it!! I know some days are tough at least they are for me but I just keep plugging along learning from my mistakes. Each day offers so many possibilities don't you think??

You have so many fine qualities and they show up in your posts. What a sweetie you are!! I am lucky to have you for a friend!!

Hope you keep checking in on the Snow Angels since you are a founding member:lily: :lily:. I am looking forward to December 31 but only one day at a time!!

Hope you have a wonderful day full of surprises!!
Love and hugs,
Lizzie

Hi, Today's post is not going to be very uplifting it is like this...
This is me X-( this is my son 8-| this is what I'd like to do to him right now :tomato: enough said. I've got a killer migraine but I did want to post and let everyone know I'm alive and tomarrow my post will be better...I promise.
Wanderer 1--Thanks for stopping by my journal I think I talked to you on a chat one night I'm not sure.
Monica-- Thanks for checking in on me you are the one who first made me think this is something I could do and when I wanted to cop out you are the one who put me back in my place thanks for being a true friend.
Minnie--Thanks for stopping in I see you are on Weight Watcher also I've seen you post in different places I'm going to stop by your journal and read it and post.
Jade--You are also a friend of mine and I know you will achive your goals...cause you got spunk!!!
Lizzie B--You to are a very good friend of mine your faith in me amazes me...Thanks for havin faith in me sometimes it is just what I need to get me past a rough spot.
Well I'm going to get for now I'm going to rest my eyes again and post tomarrow when my head feels better. As for me being upset with my son it is because he lives like a pig a nasty pig what I seen today will be making me sick for sometime. ( explain later ) Ruthieb

Lol. I loved the way you used your icons to represent you, your son, and your feelings. Very creative! How old is your son? I feel like X-( 8-| :tomato: just about every day, with my 3-year-old daughter. We've had kittens for about a month, and it's been a daily struggle trying to teach her how to interact with them properly. She still hasn't figured out that they're not stuffed animals. Oh, and she's a slob, too, to boot!

Sorry to hear about your migraine. I hope you have some medicine for it.

Take care!

-Andrea-

Ruthie,
Sounds like we had a similar day. Except icons have different configurement. My sonX-( me8-| and what my son wanted to do to me:tomato: Yep they all fit.

Hope that darn migraine goes away fast. Do you have any super pain killers for it? Never worked on mine either. Just had to suffer through them. Hopefully yours will be gone tomorrow!!
Hang in there sweetie!!

Love and hugs,
Lizzie

Well my head is better but I wanted to drop in and tell you I've got GREAT NEWS!!! I have lost...one inch...in my stomach I'm so happy!!! I'm going to have to come back and post again tonight or in the morning. Ruthieb

Week 3 Finding Your Lost Self...
When you're in solitary confinement and you're six feet under without light, sound, or running water, there is no place to go but inside. And when you go inside, you discover that everything that exists in the Universe is also within you.---Rubin Carter, The Hurricane

I guess that is kind of the way it is when you go inside of yourself because of depression. There comes the day when you understand it is whats inside you that helps you come out and face the world.

Have you ever just felt so lost you did not know how to find your way back? That is what the weight made me feel like for a long time then one day I knew it was time to find my way back. ( Don't get me wrong I still have those days been just not as often. ) But I also had to admit to myself that finding my way back means to me...I had to admit it was not back to a body of a 21 year old I had to relize that day was gone. The truth is I'm 36 years old my body will never look like 21 again and that is okay. I will never have a flat stomach and my boobs will sag and my butt will be larger than most people and that to will sag. And yes I'm going to have wrinkles and dark circles under my eyes because that is who I am and that is okay. I think that is why a lot of people get overwhelmed because they want what they can not ever get back. I'm not saying weightloss is impossible I'm saying that being 21 again is impossible. For years I thought 21 was my glory days if I could ever get back to what I looked like then I would be living the glory days again. But even when I did lose weight and looked like I did at 21 I still was not living my glory days again...Why because things were different I was married now and had children when I was 21 I was single and did not have kids. And my "goodtimes " I thought had slipped away were not that great and the best days of my life has been with my family. I always loved being a mom but being a wife had to grow on me but as I grew ( as a person ) my love and trust grew in my love with my husband. And as we both "grew up so to speak " we found God and started living a different life a more loving one. So now being 36 years old is pretty cool my life is full and my love for others has grown also...so I can say I did find my way with God's help And love. Ruthieb

Hello and great post. I am glad where i am today too except id like toi change a few mistakes from the past.
my kids are sloppy too. my older girl isnt too bad. her room is picked up but you gotta tell her to pick things up and my ,middle girl is sloppy and unorganized. she throws things all over her dresser like clothes and whatever. so on a daily basis i make her organize it. do you think shed get tired of doing it over and over. obviously not. my son is a slob plain and simply put. he puts things wherever.
i remember years ago i was cleaning my girls room and i was kneeled on the floor and i smelled something terrible and it was a cup under the bed with a snap on lid. like a sippy cup and i opened it and it was a dead frog. my girl todl me it was her pet and had been there a few good weeks. it was so gross.
my son always has rocks in his pockets amongst sticks and dirt, leaves and have eaten gum etc....
my middle girls back pack was so bad it wouldnt sahut so she kept cramming things in and i made her clean it.
i can go on and on.... actuually im laughing for once today. that made me feel good so on that note i will say good night to you.

Okay here it goes...
I'm one 8-} crazy lady these days I have so much going on I'm working on the Vacation Bible School and I'm getting my hair cut tomarrow. It is long now because I've only had it cut once this year I wanted to let it grow. And the church homecoming is Sunday so I have to figure out what to take to eat. BUT THE GOOD NEWS IS...I weigh 251 pounds!!! Well it is bed time got to go...sleep tight tonight. Ruthieb

I feel so lonely right now I just got a bill from my insurance and I have to tell my husband about it. :( And found out today one of my best friends packed up stuff and left her husband...I can see why she did it but I just can't believe she went through with it. She did not even call me and tell me what she was up to so I just stunned. And now her husband is going around telling lies about her and trust me they are lies...why is it when something like this happens some men feel the need to run and tell lies...who knows. Ruthieb

X-( FLIP X-( FLIP X-( FLIP!!!
Now I feel a little better...:) On to another journal entry about my book...
Capture Your Dreams...
What are my dreams a question I ask myself and have a hard time finding the answer to. I have dreams like others dreams you know...I want to live and see my son grow up and become a man with a family of his own and go to college. Grow old with my husband watch our grandchildren some day. Have a comfortable life grow in my walk with the Lord become a productive person...like when I die I want people to have something to say about me except she was here. I also want to lose weight and get fit and it would be nice to have one night without ...HOT FLASHES... :D Be back tomarrow Ruthieb

Hi Ruthie,
Hot flashes!!! I am 57 years old and I think the hot flashes are finally on their way out. Had them since I was 20 years old!! Bye de bye hot flashes. Check with your doc next time you go and perhaps he can give you something for them. With the hot flashes and the migraines you sound like me.

Dreams!!! Wow what would life be like without our dreams???I never want to find out!!

Usually is a big shock when your friends have bad things happen to them. I feel sad for your friend that has to deal with a divorce and nasty lies. Truly is not fair.

Ruthie when you are feeling lonely send me a pm and we can always talk!! I am usually not to far from my computer!! No need for you to be lonely when there so many of us to talk to!!

I hope you are having a good day today without the hot flashes. How are you doing on your diet? Mine has been a little crazy lately but finally getting back on a solid track!!
You take care sweetie.

Love and hugs,
Lizzie

I thought I would stop by to see how are you doing; I have read your Journal over the past few days ........

The one thing I noticed is your concern over your friend who left her husband .....I think your friend was very courageous and maybe the reason she didn't call you is because it took courage for her to leave ..... and insofar as her husband going and telling lies about her ...... if someone knows your friend .... they will realize your friend's character is being assassinated. Just know if she calls you ..... be the friend you are.

Insofar as your son ........ if you look at your own relationship with your parents when you were his age ...... none of us were WONDERFUL CHILDREN all the time; growing up irregardless of the age is always hard. There are pressures today that my grandsons are facing ..... that my daughters didn't face; and the same will be true the day my grandsons have children. We can only do the best we know ...... take it one day at a time.

I would like to share a thought with you .... I was an only child; I realize there is a decided difference raising boys and girls ..... but I do know what it is like to be the only child ..... my parents expected many things from me and to compound it ...... my parents were from Europe. At home I was a European child, that was seen but not heard; expected to achieve and when I stepped outside my parent's home .... I was an American child. I thank my parents because it was their teachings that made me who I am today ......some day your son will THANK YOU AS WELL. It isn't easy being a parent; there are no rules to teach us the ins and outs of raising another human being. BUT YOU KNOW YOU LOVE YOUR SON so just remember HE HAS YOUR EXAMPLE TO FOLLOW.

I AM PLEASED AND PROUD OF YOUR FANTASTIC LOSS ..... you are proving to yourself SUCCESS CAN BE ACHIEVED BECAUSE YOU ARE COMMITTED TO ACHIEVING SUCCESS.

The fact that we post our feelings in our Journals helps us to reveal our feelings ....... and is far healthier and beneficial to success. Keep posting and as I have said to you I AM HERE WHENEVER YOU NEED ME. As always, Monica

Hello! just got done catching up on your journal. sorry i havent posted here in a bit but i have been so busy lately and then i was having trouble with moving my mouse and it was getting so frustrating but it is working ok again so here i am.
Men aklways make up lies if a woman leaves him kinda like hes embarressed so he blames her. i know i been through it.
and telling hubbies about any kinds of bils is rough cuz they hate to spend money. at least mine does whebn it comes to bills i handle them unless i need to tell him of something otherwise i just pay them.
well enjoy yhe day!

Hello, Well here is more of my work on the book the question are...
This morning I feel (or felt)...Really tired wondered what reason did I really have to get out and go shopping. I did not want to get ready because I've been having trouble fixing my hair since I got it cut. But I just started doing it anyway and before you knew it I was ready and we got 20 dollars and went to the Dollar Mart got a picture frame, name tags,key holder,hair clip & forgot what else. Then went to Wally World and got dog food and hot rollers and went to check out more books...well my son and hubby did anyway.
I'm always daydreaming about...Silly stuff...really silly stuff
My nagging inner voice keeps telling me to...Get my act together.
The thoughts that roll around in my head are...to weird and to many all the time it is endless what goes on in there.
My soul longs to...Well thats hard to answer because my soul and body longs to please God and do his work and will.
What I'm most afraid of is...FAILURE!!!
My inner critic tell me...I'm insane and a failure at everything I try that there is always so many things to do that I put off why am I that way. Because I'm crazy and looking someone to tell me I'm okay so I do that myself and go right on.
I'm most grateful for...EVERYTHING!!!

I know for me life is strange in a way but that is the way I make it I always have to be running around in total confusion to make everything work...go figure. Ruthieb

I wanted to check in today...I come here with a heavy heart I'm upset about the little girl in Cal. how are we to protect our children. I really don't know anymore your afraid to put them to bed anymore I'm so confussed. Ruthieb

Hey there silly girl, if your inner critic gives you anymore bad news tell it to shut up ok? you are doing great. BE PROUD OF YOURSELF. The journey we are taking is a tough one but if we can start fresh everyday and renew our commitment we can only move forward. YOU KNOW WHAT YOU GOTTA DO and if you don't just come here and post and we'll help each other out as much as we can. Make some goal for y ourself and decide that it is NOT OKAY to roll over in bed that you have to get up and do it, whatever IT is... for me it's getting up to go to the gym. When I wake up that is what I HAVE to do. IF I have an appt that day I get up earlier with my alarm and go earlier than I would have. if push comes to shove I will go after the appt. but those are decisions I make and I can control. You have a great recipe for success there you just GO GIRL! You can do it!:rose:

GOOD MORNING...I is nice to be able to post and not be wore out.
Thanks Go- for the pep talk I needed it I would love to tell you I'm back to my 100% but that would be a lie.
Anyway todays topic is about time...
Something I never seem to have enough of and seem to squander off like it is nothing. I spend so much of my time doing things that get me no where why is that.
Well I'm coming back later to be able to tell you the quote for the day and explore time more in detail. Ruthieb

Ruthie,

A big part of the reason I left CA in 1996 was because of the kids. I can't believe the sickos that are there! That poor baby. Her parents must be heartbroken. I don't miss living there at all!

Thanks for stopping by my journal. It meant a lot to me!

Ruthie -- Get rid of that inner critic!! You're NOT a failure! You're an awesome woman. Turn off the negative talk. NOW! Did you do it? Hurry up!! :) No room for negativity in your hectic life.

Have a great day!!

Ruthie as soon as I read about the little girl I thought of you.
I knew how rough this would be for you, as remember you and both had it rough about that little girl who is still missing that was in foster care?

Ruthie there are no words that will make any of us feel better about her and the many other children that this so very sadly happens to, so I won't even try to find them...

However as Citzens we do have the right as well as responablity to try to change our laws so that our children are better protected.

I am checking into some things online on what I can join to make crimes against children a MUCH harder sentence ( such as death), hoping that this will curt tail much of these type of crimes.

I too have trouble with time seeming to slip away from me and then filling like I wasted it. I have come up with a few ways to help me deal with this I want to share with you.

1. accept that many of us have a "to do" list that is wayyyyyy to long, so cut it way back....

2. accept that soem of the "wasted" time we spend is us time, and this is a postive thing in our lives, we all need us time :)
so it really is not wasted time - we just need to change the way we look at it...

3. make a responable "to do" list, and just work at it one item at a time. I even have to set time limits on myself for many things I do, or I get sidetracked. Like I say I am going into DT for 1 hr. and that is all I stay here , or going grocery shopping and will be back home by x time, so on and so forth.....

These work out pretty well for me, but I also have to realize that I have to enjoy the time I am spending and not feel super rushed all the time, or that really is wasted time :)

Hope this helps.....

Jade

Hello Everyone, I know the start of this journal was to make over my life. But right now I feel somewhat dissconnected from everything the fast pace of which I'm going is starting to take it's toll. Or maybe I'm blocking out everything who knows V.B.S. will be Saturday then our vacation so then I can destress mayself and get back to the task at hand.
Stacey--&--Jade---Thanks for stopping in here and checking on me this whole mess with kids disappering is sometimes more than I can deal with. It just I understand what it is like to suffer as a child and I never want any child to have to suffer. But I do what I can I pray and pray hard for God to intervene in these matters. Ruthieb

okay I really got lost. what is the VBS it sounds painful:(

Ruthie I think what you are trying to do is very courageous so please my dear take what I am about to say with love and understanding.

I tried to read a bunch of deep books and get understanding about my life and reflect on what I wanted and it led me to a dismal mass of black depression. I found that I had lost sight of where I was going and I really struggled with to much stuff from my "inner self" to fast and too soon.

That is why I took the road of sweat. I figured I could either afford therapy to help myself learn to like who I was ( an overweight almost 30 college student with a major she hated) or I could pay for a gym membership and get the body and life I wanted by sweating it off and good exercise.

Honestly I have tried very hard not to analyze anything these last 5 months too much and live today through sweat and drinking water. The one thing I discovered in doing this is that as I lost this weight I changed and so did my veiw point of my problems. As I become more athletic I was able to get up earlier and sleep better and handle stress better.

I am not saying this would work for you or for anyone. I am just saying that you are doing wonderful and making great strides in your weightloss goals. Don't get tooo bogged down. I also think it would be easier to handle the son if the family was more athletic as it fixed marriage problems in my relationship I didnt' even know were there.

I adore you gal and please do pm me anytime. I have gotten so wrapped up in my own crisis I have forgotten the needs of my friends lately and I really care about your success and dreams

If I can help in anyway please let me know

oh and sweetie Joyce Vedryl is 53. go have a look at the cover of her "beginners guide to weightlifting."
You can have a body you love and it doesn't require a ridiculous amount of effort just a consistant persistant one

Hi, I've been working on my Vacation Bible School today it is almost here got to see how much food we have for Saturday. People are going to bring stuff to church tomarrow then I'll shop till we get what else we need. I have another headache today but I'm on medication right now so if I do not make since just look over me. I feel like I'm floating right now but at least my head has let up some I had so much trouble going to sleep last night. Well I'd better go I think my words are just jumbled up. Ruthieb

Hi Ruthie,
I sure wish your headaches would go away!! Life is so much more pleasant without them!! I had them for so many years I thought that was all life was about --PAIN!! Now all these years later to be free of migraines is the best time of my life!! Now if I could get the back and tummy to settle down.

VBS is alot of work but also fun when the little ones get started. I always had fun with it.

Now try and rest so your medication can take effect and help you feel better. Come to think of it we all had a little trouble sleeping last night! Hope you get some good sleep tonight!!

Love and hugs,
Lizzie:rose: :rose: :rose:

Just a thought but that inner critic needs a swift kick in the behind. My dear you are doing tons of things you can be proud of. Sometimes we don't give ourselves the credit we deserve. Plus you know even if you did start your jurnal to remake you life doesn't mean you have to do it in a couple days or a couple years. Just take things as they come. I am 57 years old and still remaking my life but I have let go of so many things. Now I focus on one thing at a time. In the end that is all I can ever do. No use stressing over the things I didn't get done today. I did get the important thing done and that was to live and be glad I had today to do it! Just one day at a time one task at a time. Keep it simple!!!

Hello Ruth,

I wanted to post this in your Journal because it was sent to me and I really liked it .... and I wanted to share it with you.

It is a poem written by Audrey Hepburn when she was asked to share her "beauty tips." It was read at her funeral years later.

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness;
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.

People even more than things have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed and redeemed; never throw out anyone.

Remember if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms.

As you grow older you will discover that you have two hands; one for helping yourself, and the other for helping others.

IF YOU SHARE THIS WITH ANOTHER WOMAN .... YOU WILL BOOST HER SELF ESTEEM AND SHE WILL KNOW THAT YOU CARE ABOUT HER.

Ruthie .... I want you to know I CARE ....and candidly when you put yourself down .... YOU'RE HURTING ME. Because I know YOU ARE A SUCCESSFUL PERSON WHO WILL ACCOMPLISH AND SUCCEED IN ACHIEVING YOUR GOALS.

Each day you are here is SPECIAL ...... BECAUSE YOU ARE SPECIAL. Please believe ..... BE KIND TO YOURSELF , BE PATIENT WITH YOURSELF ...your goal is attainable.

(Jusducky sent me this poem ... and made me aware that I too must be patient .... because I am well worth the patience).

Make it a great evening . and tomorrow a fantastic day. As always, Monica

Well here is my story about Vacation Bible School the day started out unorganized and pretty sums up the whole day. I found out things about myself...to be as bossy as I am around the house you would have thought I could have handled the job good. But I didn't I kind of keep to the side lines letting others take charge I some how thought I was to stupid to pull this off. I kept telling people I was sorry for everything that was happening I totally let myself down. But their are people who have told me it went well for my first time...BUT I JUST WANT TO SCREAM!!! I just can not figure out why I felt I was not good enough to do this to make up my mind and take charge. All I can say is...WHY WHY WHY ???? Ruthieb

Hi Ruthie,

First of all I don't believe everything was awful or unorganized. I do believe that you felt that way because you are your own worse critic!! No way are you stupid!! You are a very brave and determined lady. Things might not have been 100% but my guess is nobody but you actually knew that.

I know with out even being there things went well!! You put your heart and soul into that VBS and you did a good job!! Be proud of your accomplishments!!!

Doesn't VBS last for 2 weeks or is it a week? Which ever it is you will do a super job. The first day of anything is always out of control. Remember the first day of school?? Even the teachers had trouble finding and organizing the classroom!! I know I have been there too!!

Do something nice for yourself!! You did a super job and everyone appreciated your work!! So put a smile on that face and be proud!!!!!!!! Just remember you are a special lady and very valuable to yourself and everyone else. Besides I think you are pretty special too!!!!

Hang in there my friend!! I am thinking of you and sending you a big hug!!!{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Ruthie}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Love and hugs,
Lizzie

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Ruthie,

You post such nice things in our journals, and then beat yourself up in your own. Silly woman!! Knock it off! You're a wonderful person, very caring, and that makes up for a lot of short-comings, even the imagined ones you seem to have! I'm sure the kids had a blast, and you did a fantastic job. Even if things weren't perfect, did the kids know? NO! And it is a valuable learning experience for you.

Enjoy your hard work, take time for Ruthie, and have a great day!

Love and :hug:

Hello, Just wanted to let everyone know I'm still around just on VACATION still be back next week as a regular again. Ruthieb

Hello~~ just wanted to stop by and wish a wonderful weekend to a wonderful woman. enjoy it!

Hi Ruthie :)

Just poping into to say "hi" and let you know I am thinking of you :)

Jade

Hi Ruthie :)

Just poping into to say "hi" and let you know I am thinking of you - hope your enjoying your vacation :)

Jade