Ive been here for a few months and im just now starting this. Its 5:37 am I cant sleep becouse im worrying about my "diet". If you can even call it that, I have bottles of pills(stacker2, yellowjackets,apple cider vinegar) some have helped me alot BUT once i stop seeing that scale move I slack or start a diffrent diet. Its so depressing im getting married in a year and i do not want to be a fat bride. Sometimes i just feel like giving up 2 times this week i have binged then felt bad and forced myself to get sick(The other night i ate 2 cupcakes in a row then drank 3 cups of water to throw it back up). I know i have a problem i cant seek medical help becouse i just moved to Maryland and just started a new job. I know throwing up will only hurt me in the long run but i just stop caring. I think im sinking into a depression im pushing Robert (fiance)away he tells me he loves me the way i am and that he thinks im beautiful but it still doesnt make me feel better. he knows i go on diets and tries to help me but doesnt know the other things i do. Alot of people on here just move on after getting lost in there diet but for some reason i cant. I just need to find something that works. I exercise every night but still cant see anything come off. Tonight Robert was looking thru his old computer and found pics i had on there from when i was younger and i just started crying. How could i have let myself get like this i wasnt perfect then! but look how bad ive gotten. Well going to try to go to sleep now that i have vented. Sorry if anyone reads this for being so long winded

Trisha

Trisha,

Good Morning and WELCOME TO DIETTALK.

Let me introduce myself, my name is Monica I am 59 years of age, in December I will have been married for 37 years; I have 3 adult daughters and 3 grandsons (so far).

When I started my weight loss Journey in March 2000, I weighed 307 pounds. I am a diabetic (insulin and oral meds). For me it really was a matter of life or death ....... the fact that you are here is YOUR FIRST STEP TOWARD SUCCESS.

I would like to offer some suggestions ...... FIRST OF ALL FIND A WEIGHT LOSS PROGRAM (I personally don't like or use the word diet ..... because it has negative connotations to me ...) that you can follow for the remainder of your life.

BE PATIENT WITH YOURSELF .... it takes time to achieve success; I notice you said you were getting married next year ..... YOU CAN ACCOMPLISH A LOT IN ONE YEAR ....

AFTER YOU HAVE SUCCESSFULLY LOST let's say 10 pounds (or less) gradually start an exercise regimen ... starting with 5 to 10 minutes 3 times a week ..... and adding 5 minutes each subsequent week ..

LAST BUT NOT LEAST DRINK :water: AT LEAST 64 OUNCES ..... daily.

Remember you didn't gain the weight in a day, week, month or year .... GIVE YOURSELF THE TIME TO SUCCEED ... it is going TO HAPPEN BECAUSE YOU WILL MAKE IT HAPPEN.

I host the 100 Plus Chat here at Diettalk; we meet on Monday at 1 p.m. EST and on Wednesday at 9 p.m. EST in Scheduled Chat Room. I hope you will consider joining us on our Journey to Success.

AGAIN WELCOME TO DIETTALK ..... AND TO ACHIEVING YOUR GOAL. Always, Monica

Monica, Im of work those times you mentioned i will do my best to be there sometime monday my friend jamie and i are opening up a YMCA membership.Cant really afford the 100 down but the 48 a month isnt to bad(rent use to be $379 in ohio but moved here about 2 months ago and now it is $1100..hehe) seeing i was going to join weight watches for $10 a week. But i think ill see faster results with the Y. I am very excited about it. Back in 98- 99 my mother got me a membership in the town i was in . it was only 2 miles away so i would walk there and stay anywhere from 1-4 hours a day. Very addicting. Greatly improved my self image. Alittle bit how my body is my legs are huge becouse i use to bike 62 miles a day and the muscle buildup has went to fat. One thing I have promised myself if i get back down to 178 i will get a breast reduction. Ive always been large chested at 178 i wore a 36 DD now 63 lbs over that i wear a 40 E. Once i get to my 200 mark i start looking for a good doctor. Right now i wear a 20. By august 29th ill be in a size 18.

As i reread what i wrote last night. I cant believe the mind frame I was in. I need to be positive about this!! Im kinda glad i started this lastnight to see how low i have gone.

Hello Ellectra, LOVE THE NAME...I was wondering how old you are if you said I've over looked it. Sometimes I think we get caught up with wanting to be or look like we once were but just let that go. Just try to work on becoming a healther person and picking up better habits. The more good habits you pick up you will become a more focused person and a better and wiser one. Ruthieb

Ruthieb Im 22 ill be 23 next month. I posted pics of what i looked like just 5 years ago. Ive done great today. nothing much to post. thanks for the helpful advice.

PS got the name Ellectra from the broadway CATS. I named my dog after a cat lol. But its just such a pretty name.

Im feeling pretty good today I havnt binged in a few days. Been very busy working. Was thinking about trying a low carb diet and seeing how that will work seeing how i havnt ate yet ill start today. Just need to find some good meal plans to follow. Im a very picky person when it comes to food. I can see why i got this way i only like a few veggies like green beans, corn, and i really like potatos ....but i wont beable to eat them on the carb diet.
I can do this im going to do it day by day instead of how i normaly would think about.(month by month)

I will do this!

Well I slept till 2pm today after working a long shift of 3pm yesterday till 7am this morning. While at work I made charts up for everything I put in my mouth. And really thought about how bad I wanted this. Checking into buying a Pedometer. think that will motivate me to take more steps while walking.

Cool. Pedometers are fun. Come and walk with us too, in the walking forum. It is a great group. Glad to see you journalling. Have an awesome day. :x

Trisha,

PROUD OF YOU .... your positive attitude WILL ENABLE YOUR SUCCESS. Keep being patient with yourself ... also if you are interested check out www.fitday.com ... perfect way to record your food intake .... and the reports help you determine if you are meeting your nutritional as well as caloric goals.

Looking forward to seeing you on Wednesday ... but don't stress it ... come and participate when you can. As always, Monica

Hi Ellectra, I wanted to stop in and see how you were doing today sounds like you are doing...GREAT...keep up the good work. Just believe in yourself and you will become the person you know you can be. Ruthieb

Hi Ellectra,

I think most of us have had days where we felt something like you did the day you began your journal.

I am 36 years old. Many years back I got desperate enough to experiment with vomiting. I guess it just didn't suit me, too gross and a lot harder to do than I had expected, which is a lucky thing because who knows what horrible shape I would be in if I had kept that up! Maybe even dead. So please, please don't do that.

I'm glad to see that you have been feeling a lot better. Whoops...time to go home (carpool and all).

Im feeling great today went out with my aunt bought a Pedometer and a health o meter digital scale and 2 big jars of crystal light (never had it before). okkie scale is reading 241.5 and its 6:20 in the evening. tonight for supper were having grilled lemon pepper chicken breast , Green beans and 1/4 (my limit before i could easly eat over a cup I love them )cup potatos. Been a great day did alot of walking in the malls.
I am shocked the scale wasnt higher becouse I stopped dieting for a month right before and after we moved. But now we are settled and its time to start! I was called into work tonight i leave at 8:45 and wont be home till 7:15 am. Really wanted to make the chat tonight but i wont sweat it becouse ive been such a positive mood today and i NEED that extra OT money.

hope you guys are having a great day

Trisha

Oh i have my Pedometer set on 1.8 does that sound about right i did 10 steps and it came to 217 or something close to that.

Well I just got home from the overnight didnt sleep to well, seeing one of the men went into a bad 4 min seizure. I feel pretty good besides being tired. Weighed myself soon as i got home and its at 240.5. Already have my meals planned out but think im going to get some sleep.

Congrats on another pound lost! I don't have the guts to weigh myself anytime besides first thing after I wake up in the morning, because it's always higher for me later in the day. So being down a pound after work is good!

Trisha,
Hi, just wanted to say hello. I see you have had some good responses and people introducing themselves.

You are donig terrific. Good for you. When you talked about your boyfriend I was thinking that maybe you could tell him what you would like him to do to support you. He sounds very nice and like he wants to be helpful. Sometimes our guys just aren't sure what to do.

You have come to a great place for support and success. Keep coming and posting, no matter how you feel. We all have ups and downs but are getting there together.

Glad you have joined us.:rose:

Lutha thanks for stopping by! I did weigh myself in the morning when i got home from work. I did not munch all night! normaly it would have been a easy time for my too.

Nancy thanks for stoppiong by e does support me alot and i am thankful but he also makes me eat becouse he says i dont eat enuff. some ways he isnt helpful like in walmart tonight i said man i want pizza ...lol he asked what i ate today i said a sandwish and when he found out i had nothing else he grabbed the pizza in the store.... lol so i guess ill be eating that . i have had no time to eat today i ate when i got up and ran out the door to work. oh i wore my pedometer all day and i walked 6.5 miles at work (i work in a group homes for MRDD clients)

didnt get my walk in tonight but i see i do walk alot thru the day i would have never guessed 6.5 miles! no wonder im so worn out mentaly and physicaly!!

today has been a good but FAST day i got up at 2pm becouse i worked till morning ate then left for work. at work they had my work 4 more hours one house to the other back to back so i didnt have time to do anything. I drank 2 qts of crystal light at work. ((Does anyone know of anything hidden in it?)) and kept on movin. got off at 9 pm then off to walmart then walked another .5 miles in there looking around.


Everyone have a good evening /morning

Trisha

Trisha,

CONGRATS ON YOUR FANTASTIC SUCCESS. One pound of blubber gone forever is a great accomplishment.

You ARE GOING TO SUCCEED ...... ONE DAY AT A TIME . As always, Monica

Monica thanks your words always make me feel better. :)

Well i got on the scale this morning expecting to see an it higher then yesterday becouse i had supper sooo leate (close to 12 am) but to my surprise it still reads 240.5. Oh another thing i am doing is i have a erase marker on the fridge that i write down my weight and date. that is hard seeing my fiances mother and brother moved in with us a month ago. but i figure if they can see it i have to keep it moving! (down of course :P) well i only go in for 2 hours at work today its my only day " off ". then i get to look forward to my 28 hour weekend lol. And in ohio i thought it was bad to work with mute and a deaf guy. sometimes i wish i could mute these girls i work with. hehe best of luck to everyone today.

sorry for the typos above i just got up lol

Trisha,

So if I understand correctly you have to work a full shift every day of the week but one? That is a substantial challenge! For your best chance of changing your eating habits and losing weight for good, I think you're going to need to find a way to have some food prepared ahead of time that you can take with you to work. Going without food for long stretches you tend to get too hungry and then it's so much harder to exert control over what you eat. I think the time and effort of preplanning meals will really pay off.

Lutha.
No, I work normal shifts But, this week has been bad. Ive been called in god knows how many times and did 2 overnight shifts . going from one house to the other back to back so i just havnt had time but did grab slimfast today for that reason. I did buy some Raw ACV and honey to see how that helps out. If it dont help with weightloss it will be worth gagging down for its other known reasons. well i gotta go out and walk, been a pretty good day just feels nice to be home! i hope everyone has had a good day,

Trisha

Was a great walk before dinner i walked a mile with my aunt and fiances mother then after supper my friend jamie showed up and we walked another 2.2 miles!

well oday was a bad day it started out great..... got up had 2 tsp of acv with honey then drank a slimfast shake took my girls to church at work then fixxed them lunch and i started from there........ i must have ate 3000 cal tonight But i did not force myself to get sick...... god now that i think about what i did i dont know why i did it!!! im so disappointed in myself. I know tomorrow id another day and ill have to start new again and try to forget what i did but i still dont understand what got into me!i did go for a mile walk tonight but thats becouse i have a headache turning into a migraine and made myself do at least a mile

hope i have a better day tomorrow hell i know i will have a better day!!!!!!

Trisha (hiding from the scale tonbight ill post tomorrw......

Hey! You didn't make yourself sick, that's great!

Listen, this is the Self-Talk Queen here -- you've got to be more forgiving of yourself. If this were a post from your daughter, would you be as hard on her as you are being on yourself? Some days are great, some days are not so great, but if you beat yoruself up over them, that just makes it worse. I know! I've been there, done that, and have the XXL T-shirt! ;)

Seriously, when I catch myself being hard on myself, I litterally have to stop and remind myself to be forgiving and supporting of myself. You need to be your own Number One Fan love, that's half the battle!

Keep at it!

Kim thanks i see where your coming from. I just fall into a moood after i do something like that. But today will be a better day im not woring a 14 hour day so the girls wont drive me nuts im mentaly worn out by 7 hours with them. well i got up tis morning and got on the scale it says 243...im sure some of it is waste (gross i know but i have to plant that in my mind to help me a little more) today will be a good day. I even moved the scale in front of the fridge i plan on weighing myself before i even open the fridge to judge if its worth it i have a pair of 14 jeans i wore just a few years ago that i hung on the wall by the computer that i will have to pass to go upstairs to the fridge to also remeind me.

well the weather here is HOT and humid so i wont be walking till tonight. ill post more later

Sorry I haven't visited for a while...I made it a 3-day weekend. Work is my best chance to get on DT! I admit that I abuse my employer terribly during slack times. I only feel guilty in comparison to you folks that really have to work all the time while you're on the job.

What is acv (with honey or otherwise)? What benefits is it supposed to have? Just curious...

I'm glad to hear that you were sounding more upbeat. That's very good that you didn't try to throw up the other day. It may help to think of it this way: if you need 2000 calories per day to maintain your current weight, then a 3000 calorie day is only 1000 over. You'll probably make up for that in just two days on plan! Definitely not the end of the world.

I had many days where I went completely overboard. And when I feel like I have strayed, I usually end up eating everything in sight! But I managed to keep the days relatively isolated, and I still reached my goal.

Putting the scale in front of the fridge sounds rather scary. I suppose it could be helpful as a deterrent, if you don't get stressed out by little fluctuations. Are you planning to let the scale dictate whether you eat, or just what you eat? Because hunger should be your biggest factor in determining whether you eat.

Hi Lutha, glad to hear from you, ACV is Apple cider vinegar I lost alot of weight taking it and energy pills and drinking alot of water. I was going to try it without taking the energy pills BUT i over ate. so I started taking my Yellow jackets and the acv (not at same time) ACV:
Helps Remove Body Toxins * Helps Promote a Youthful Body * Is a Natural Antibiotic and Germ Fighter * Helps Maintain Healthy Skin * Helps Control and Normalize Weight * Helps Prevent Dandruff, Itching Scalp and Baldness * Improves Digestion and Assimilation * Soothes Tight and Aching Joints and Sore Muscles * Relieves Arthritis and Stiffness * Soothes Shingles, Bites and Sunburns.

umm a link this came from is http://www.bragg.com/faq_acv.html
and you do not have to order online! i bought a bottle in a health food store for under 3 dollars so dont waste money on shipping cost. (and it is the same brand)
so if not just to help with weightloss it has many reasons to take it.
I use the scale if im not really hungry but do want something to eat (bored i think i dont know why...)but i end up not eating well have to run for now will post my day later

Trisha

My fiance is the best! He knows im having a hard time with this and tonight he took me out and we bought a Tony little Gazelle edge its just like the air-o-fit my mom had when i was in high school it helped me lose alot but of course i was going to the ymca alot at that time too but STILL i dont have to go out into the HEAT!!like when i get these huge energy burst during the day It counts cal burned, miles, time, mph. i could not find a airofit forever ive looked on ebay i would have paid 500 $ for one. Today starts a new life for me. from this day forward i will only get smaller!! oh My soon to be mother inlaw brought me a picture of when she was in Ohio i was about 255-260 there ill be posting tonight.

Trisha

I love it! im sitting here sweat rolling off me! one heck of a workout id say i didnt want to push it seeing it was my first night on it but in 19 mins i burned 198 cal and did 1.52 miles. kinda gross BUT when fiance went to bed i was on it he said stop for a min then kissed me and stepped away making his that grosses me out noises becouse i had sweat pouring down me and it was also on my lips lol but hey it shows its givin me a workout soooo lol I hope everyone has a great night

Trisha

Wow, good for you! I'm sorry I'm so totally naive about these things--what kind of exercise do you do in this Gazelle Edge? Does it require a lot of concentration? I hate things that require me to be coordinated :laugh:

For me it doesnt but when my fiances mom got on ohh... my... but i use to use one all the time in highschool but with time you dont feel so unsteady. okkie i found a site that explains it and has a pic i disagree with one thing tho... with my edge i got 2 books one "the first page" has a toll free number to Tony Little trainer consultations. the next book is there healthy eating book it has 1200 cal diet for 7 days up to 2000 cal diet. if anyone wants ill post the 7 day diets for the cal range if you need a set plan to me even the 1200 had to much food lol. http://brcsuperstore.com/listings/76.html I bought it at Kmart for $99 to avoid shipping cost. there $200. goes up to 300lbs i think and they have one for $400. for higher weight

well Im back to 141.5 this took a few days becouse of my little eat everything you see night. but im pumped and ready to start this and end this weight for good. my legs are aching a little from last night but its the nice ache. i found a pretty good solid meal its healthy choice pepperoni french bread pizza, they come as solos so u cant over eat 1 pizza = 360 cal 5 g fat but a whopping 600mg of sodium($1.50 at walmart for one pizza). Im a smoker and love salt so i bought sea salt its not to bad.well ill eat this then ill get on my edge and burn off some.

I admit it looks intimidating to me. I've had difficulty moving my arms and legs in tandem (other than walking--hehe). I had a bad experience several years ago with a Nordic Track (sp?) cross-country ski machine. A friend loaned me hers, and the "skis" kept falling off the back end! But it's great to have an indoor exercise option for hot days.

Lutha,
with this you can start out holding onto the stand and not the bars i had my fiances mother do this she said its alot better "safer feeling" for her. If you have a store around that has one set up you could always test it :)

I dont know what it is maybe having in the house in the room i normaly eat it. I got up ate healthy choice french bread pizza then did a mile 129 cal burned in 12 mins then i took off with my aunt and went to the store came home ate 1/4 of 3/4 steak i had left over from supper last night with 1/2 cup potatoes added pepper and sea salt then i leave for work but when i come back my plan is to do another mile maybe 2 if im not too sore. becouse im still from last night lol i plan on burning the cal i eat a day. then after supper dont know what we are having yet.... but my friend jamie is coming over and ill walk outside for 2.2 miles with her.
thats all for now


Trisha

Oh i also owned a fitness flyer.......... to restictive for me!!! i had it 6 months used it 3 times total time of maybe 15 mins. i thought it would be like my moms air o fit....... Nope......... needless to say i gave it away. you couldnt lean back and work your arms nor forward that much just stand there and do the same thing over and over i hated it

Hi Trisha! I'm finally caught up on your journal, and wanted to stop by and say hi. I'm really glad you've found a form of exercise you like. That's the most important thing, finding a form of exercise you enjoy so it isn't torture to you!

I can really relate to your food issues. I have so many of them myself....I know it's going to be a lifelong battle, and arming ourselves with ways to deal with it is key, I think. Your fiance sounds like a sweetie.

Looking forward to reading more, and getting to know you better. :) Keep up the awesome work!

Vicki

Vicki and lutha you guys really inspire me look how much you have achieved !!! Vicki where at in ohio are you? i grew up in Mt vernon ohio, but 2 years ago i moved to chillicothe and then moved here. I miss the ohio weather badly! it is way humid in Maryland. and there is a water watch some ppl are without water..... made the front page here. but the landscape! beautiful im in a mountain valley. well suppers done ill post more later

Trisha

Trisha, I'm in a small town called Wapakoneta. We're famous for being the home of astronaut Neil Armstrong, there is an air and space museum here dedicated to him. We've also been featured on a national magazine show dure to the fact we still have nickel pay phones here in town. And right now the Ohio weather is so hot it's terrible! Just going out in the heat for very long gives me a headache. From wht I have read about Maryland, it sounds gorgeous.

Vicki

well heres how my day went say i did great!!!!

when I got up
ate 1 healthy choice pizza

30 mins later did
1 mile on edge in 12 mins

ate lunch
3 oz steak with potatoes

went to work

didnt do glider when i got home like i said i was going to do

ate dinner

3/4 cup hamburger helper 1 slice bread and butter

walked 2 miles outside with friend

got home pumped up !!!!!!!!!!!!

did .5 on glider stopped a sec to cool down and write in this planning and will do another 1.5 miles soon as i get off here

total is (used diet power software)

cal budgeted 1563
cal eaten 1038
cal burned 828
water 128 oz

I know im below my budget but im not hungry one bit and im not going to force feed myself. this machine has changed me totaly. I know its new but i wont get tired of it becouse ive used one in the past and the change from walking outside and inside helps. I am sore in my calves and inner thighs but its a good sore ya know.

hope everyone had a great day!!

trisha

well instead of .5 i set it infront of the tv and did 4.5 in 61 mins but i got off (clock stops)every 1 mile to take a rest for 10 mins the cal counter said 490 something. I can do 8 miles a day and only 2 on weekends seeing i work 14 hour shifts alt weekends and it will be my rest day. I get very obsessed with something i love. and having my fiance come up and look at what ive done pushes me that extra mile well extra 3 hehe

total distance walked today 8 miles its 1292 burned off for good!

pretty sore this morning in my calves. I wish I could do that everyday and not be sore seems to be gettin better with just walking arounf the house. well scale said 241.0 that a .5 loss from yesterday!

Sounds like you're really motivated. :cheer: You've made some fantastic strides. I think it's particularly good that you've got a friend to walk with as well as your exercise equipment. Keep up the great work, but remember to have fun with it and not get burned out. This will take a little while.

Have you got any mini-goals set? Sometimes it helps to look forward to getting some (non-food) reward when you reach a predetermined milestone.

ellectra, that's wonderful!!! but don't forget to get those stretches in afterwards...really helps!!!

have a good one!!

Lutha thanks, i dont think ill get burned out with this machine becouse ive been on them in the past and used it for 2 years. hmm for a mini goal it is to get below 220 i got to 220-something and couldnt get the scale to move in forever and just stopped drinking water and went back to mt dew........and look at me now lol got back up there think it was 250 maybe 249. But not this time! ill keep going! not giving up

Buji thanks for the advice... i didnt do that last night maybe i wouldnt have been so sore today

will post my day later :)

Trisha

Ok i havnt got on the gazelle as of yet dont want to over due it but think ill do a mile when i get off here

morning
2 cups raisin bran
1/2 milk

evening
2 hot dogs


okkie need to hit the gazelle and go to bed been a long day. still feeling great !

okkie only did .5 on it but at least i got on it today.
Tomorrow im sure will be a better day for it my muscles should be ready by then :)

well today has been a good day. very good! I woke up ate my meal for the day

1 cup left over hamburger helper


slimfast shake


then for snack i had 8 oz orange low fat yogurt

1 cup peaches

walked 3 miles outside with friend tonight. was a tiny bit sore but not enuff to stop me! she weighs 202 and was 206 less then a week ago (maybe 5 days ago) and wears 16 - 18. well she told me I might not be loosing weight only inches with all the working out ive been doing and tried to talk me into trying a pair of her 18s on. all i could do is laugh last time i tried they went to my thighs and wouldnt budge. she said they are lee shorts and they "run small"? I was yeah right, you just dont want me to feel ok when i cant get them on...after about a hour i tried to put them on. well to all belief I got them on!!!!!!!!! I cried so hard you would thought someone died. they fit my waist fine but the legs only had about 3 inch room on the side of my legs. and thats just not baggy to me thats "omg my legs are pouring out of these" But OMG I got into them!!!!!!! I want to cry just thinking about it! but to think about it when i was 197 i wore 14s. Its just finding something to fit my legs in the smaller size well my thighs. I will be wearing 18s by the end of this month! I will i will i will!

well need to be up in 5 hours for work

ok had to hop on here just weighed myself 238.5 this morning i needed to post becouse ive been trying to get below the 241 mark that last week. weird a 1.5 drop in 24 hours?

off to work,
trisha

Well just got home from work then i go back, in 5 hours. So far its been a pretty good day i thought id post.

6:30a when i got up i ate a hamburger

9:30a yogurt and peach

1pm slimfast shake

not sure on what else ill eat I know ill eat yogurt and peach again tonight,

doing great on water today carrying it around with me. I did have a glass of tea as a reward for getting under 240. BUT i have Mt dew in the fridge and i passed it up! Seems since i stopped drinking it i am seeing a weight change. hmm 4 days? 5 days now? not sure but only thing i have been drinking is water or crystal light. oh i took my measurements the 30th the day i got the gazelle becouse it has a chart to fill in every 2 weeks I want sooo bad to measure myself again. But i wont, not for 2 weeks like the chart says.... maybe its just me but my legs are getting "some" tone to them my thighs look looser in my shorts and my waist is gettin smaller. ok heres the embarrasing stats........

7/30
was 245 that night (after eating)
waist 43
ab 53
hips 52
thighs 28 (cant beleive i posted this!)
calves 19
resting heart rate 90 (not taken in morning)

man that was hard to post......

very embarrassing ....guess that means im off to do the gazelle! will post tonight

Trisha...please don't feel embarassed about your measurements. You've got me wondering what mine are now....You are doing so well. You're a woman who is motivated! You're exercising, you're eating is under control...good work girl! :balloons: Your weight loss is living proof of that. Do you drink regular Mt Dew? I love the stuff too, but I stick to diet dew. I read that a regular Mt Dew contains 12 t. of sugar!

I'll look for your next post later. Let us know how the rest of your day went.

Vicki

Hello just here looking at before and after pics of everyone trying to stop a craving for wedding cake my aunt brought over to the house yesterday (she makes cakes and had a testing for a couple and brought slices of each over theres one slice of the one i want dbl fudge with raspberry filling. I told my fiances little brother to eat it! NOW! lol anyhow to answer your question I only drink reg soda. diet leaves a nasty taste in my mouth i also told him to drink the dew, theres 4 left becouse he has been drinking them. Im feeling alot better now tho, i got thru the craving!! and thats a first for me. oh i just remebered one diet soda i like diet squirt its orange and grapefruit kinda thing. Ill have to look for some around this town. will post after work


Trisha

well i didnt binge even tho i have reason too. I cant go into detail tonight just too long......

think i posted everything i ate have had nothing past 1pm to eat so lets see what the scales say tomorrow i know its not enuff for today but its better then over doing it and now i have all the reason to loose this........How come men cant see what girls are like? I know what they are like ......most of them....... hes calling me ill post more tomorrow..........


Trisha

Wow sorry about the last post. Was having some huge blowout with my Fiance, becouse I was at home yesterday waiting on him, he takes his lunch about 2p-3p and didnt show up......later he called me at work and told me he went to lunch with a girl that works there and it all started there. He says she has a boyfriend but i know how girls are..... anyhow i wont go into it to far. things are fine now i guess i went into a jealous fit


okiie i did eat again at 11pm....... I had rice with ground beef and butter with a little seasoning.


Well to start out for this morning I just got up. I went to the kitcken and hopped on the scale waiting for it to say i gained becouse i ate sooo late last night. It didnt! I do not understand how i lost a pound. lol but im not going to complain!

Trisha

Oh Trisha.....wedding cake?? You are truly amazing by managing to avoid that! I truly don't know if I could have. Realistically I know what it would do to me if I ate something like that, the way I'd feel physically after my bs would skyrocket is the starting point, then the feelings of shame, disappoint, etc. I am really impressed, and so proud of you!

And you lost weight! It's such a feeling of joy to see the numbers on the scale go down, it is truly motivation to keep going.

Not sure what to say on the issue with your fiance. Just talk it out with him. Don't let anything that you're feeling about the situation stay inside you and fester. But also remember he loves you, and even if he did have lunch with a woman friend it was probably an innocent thing. YOU are the one he wants to marry. But I understand how you felt that way if he had plans with you that got set aside because of it.

Have a great Sunday. :flower:

Vicki

Thanks Vicki, yeah the wedding cake was hard to pass up even when fiance said omg its so good (and he only likes yellow cake and choc frosting) he said If my aunt was making our cake he would take it any way (before he was like No the cake is going to be yellow and choc, i didnt want a choc covered cake!) but im sooo proud of myself the cake is gone and i didnt have any! Even when he tried to offer me a bite!

Yes the scale is moving down but im wondering if it is moving to fast? 3 lbs since 8-1. Im guesing its water?

with fiance we talked for 3 hours last night. Very emotional night, but basicly he told me I wouldnt have this ring on my finger if he didnt want to be with me, that he loves me, and only wants to be with me, So im doing much better today ....i have seen what this girl looks like shes a skinny blonde maybe thats another reason i was so upset. maybe it just wasnt him, maybe it was my weight issue.

You have a good sunday too :)

Trisha

Today went way to fast!
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2 pancakes
1 1/2 eggs

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peach

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Slimfast

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yogurt
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Slimfast

Got greay news from my walking buddy today. She weighed in at 200 this morning!!! I cried with her. Man I cant wait till the scale says that for me.....I just dont know how I will take it. Ive got more then enuff water in today weird didnt even drink my crystal light But i was feelin kinda blah so i drank a cup of OJ helped perk me up a little. we went on a 2.2 mile walk tonight I was so pumped up i said lets circle around again but she had to be up in the morning so we didnt. Think we walked the 2.2 faster tonight then we ever have and it felt great. My dog loved it too. Huskys are just soo hyper, bet thats the reason we went so fast and she had her dog with her too so they lead us. LOL. Did 3 miles inside after that.

Ellectra

Hi Trisha, I think you're doing an amazing job of losing all this weight! You'll definitely reach goal with this determination! Keep it up!

It's weird reading people eating rice with butter ... 'cos asians eat rice plain with dishes. The dishes are salty enough. I used to have a bf who ate rice with salt as well. I'm sure it tasted good 'cos dh used to eat rice with butter too.

Hope you're feeling more secure abt your relationship with your fiance. What if it's the other way around and you have lunch with your male colleague/friend ... once you reach goal, I bet it'll be the other way around! :)

Wow, you just keep progressing! Congrats on the weight loss. You're doing a great job on the exercise, too.

It's probably just as well that you don't like diet sodas. Mt. Dew has a lot of caffeine. Drinks with caffeine dehydrate you so they don't count towards your "water" intake. I like Crystal Light, but I can't take up that much space in the refrigerator (at home or work). So I drink a lot of instant decaf iced tea. I've also found a new product by Watkins which is a beverage concentrate. I have to add my own sweetener, but I can mix up just as much as I want at a time. This isn't in the stores but a lady I work with sells their products.

I can't blame you for getting upset about your fiance's lunch. His intentions may have been perfectly innocent but he should have given you some notice at least. As far as whether this woman is actually a threat, you are the best qualified to judge that based on your relationship with him. From what I have heard it sounds pretty good.

You must be quite tall-I'm jealous of that. I couldn't wear size 14 pants until I got down to at least 165! Then again, I tend to store my fat in the hip area.

Hi Trisha.

I am so glad you and your fiancee got everything talked out. I think when we have food issues it sometimes takes a while longer to become completely secure feeling in a relationship. At least I know it did for me.

Great job on the walking! I say don't worry that you're losing too fast. I have a tendancy to go a week and not show a loss at all, and then BAM, all of a sudden it shows up.

And you know what? You're gonna get to that 200 pound mark. And it will feel truly amazing. I'm getting close again. We'll all celebrate with you when you reach it!

Hope your Monday is fantastic. ;)

Vicki

No Im not that tall im only 5 foot 6. But my waist is 10 inches smaller then my ab, hips. area My trouble areas are THIGHS. I hate them. but they will only get better from here on out. okkie will post later fiance needs my help

Trisha

Well i didnt get a chance to post again last night, didnt eat to well yesterday. ate fruit and yogurt in the morning then had to rush to work, forgot my shake so i ended up eating a chicken sandwish (frozen chicken pattys you can buy) passed the fries they had at work. but thats all i ate. I know it wasnt enuff. Walked a mile on the machine was tooo rainy to walk outside last night. Also started T.O.M last night. good news is the scale is still at 237.5 this morning. So I doubt ill see any losses for a week. Im not going to complain tho after 4lbs this week so far and who knows what it will be in another week.

Had a huge scare this morning. I was in bed sleeping and i heard my fiance in bathroom getting sick. this is the first time in 2 years ive ever seen him sick. Thats not what worried me its when he started screaming in pain. i jumpped out of bed and hes doubled over. Pain in his center ab area...He cant even talk to me so i run upstairs and get his mother. she said somehing aboiut the ER and i ran to the phone and called my aunt who just lives across the street. She came over while i was letting her in he got to the bed and was laying on it. saying the pain was easing up.....so i dont know hes fine now just scared me.


well thats how my day has been so far lol.....off to work


trisha

Again!! I didnt eat well today, i only ate 1 cup potatoes 1 oz of beef........the day just got to busy with things going on with fiance then riding 2 miles to work on a bike lol. then taking off walking with friend lol........sooo therefor i know i didnt get enuff cals. I have the slimfast shakes but didnt have the time and its after 12 am so ill just eat extra healthy tomorrow! no no im just saving cals up for my birthday = joke :P

Trisha

Try to get some fruits and/or veggies in, and you can eat healthier and still save up for your birthday! I bank calories on a regular basis. Knowing I can indulge once in a while seems to keep me on track the rest of the time.

So your fiance is feeling okay? That sounded scary.

first thing i ate this morning was a peach, going to heat up what they had for supper last night. Today should be a good day i bought alot of fruit, just need to cut it up and put it in baggys for when i run out the door. Robert is doing much better today he said he didnt feel any more pain yesterday. You guys arnt going to believe this the scale said 235.5 this morning!!! I thought for sure it wouldnt move. Ill post tonight.

Trisha

Of course I believe it! You've been doing an excellent job.

You mentioned buying all of the fruit. It made me chuckle because yesterday when I got home from work I noticed that my husband had bought lots of fruit. This included a bag of red delicious apples, which I don't even like. I asked what prompted him to buy so much fruit, and he said "my mother." After a little more digging I learned that he was reacting to my mother-in-law's comment about his getting a little bit of a stomach. So now he's going to be eating healthier in his own way. His approach is different than mine, but it is easier for me if I don't have to watch him eating the junk and then want it myself. And the Ding Dongs are now out of the vegetable drawer! Sorry for so much about me in your journal...

No No I have a hard time getting to others journals You can come here and talk about anything your heart wants. I use it as a journal to look back on what i have ate and weighed. But also to let others give me input. It really helps to log on and see someone post on here for me, to know someones behind me even if i mess up :)

I did great today! well almost lol... ok what i had to eat today

Peach
Taco Salad

S_F shake

1 peach
15 grapes
1/4 Lite yogurt (wasnt to my liking was banna cream pie kind)

ok ok I did have a wine cooler when walking buddy and i went over to my aunts and watched christmas tape of me at 279. Jamie was sooo shocked. felt great!!!!

well didnt get our walk in but im going to do a mile on the gazelle when i get off here

have a great day!

Well i havnt been on this the last few days so heres a reveiw friday was my birthday. i didnt get all my water in but i weighed in at 235. we went to Golden corral Buffet I ate ok but got stuffed fast even had 2 rolls (my fav). this morning my weigh in was 235.5. I was expecting at least 238. Im not to worried about the .5 today becouse im still bloated and on T.O.M. I can take my measurments again on wed it will have been 2 weeks! so it makes 2 weeks i have been on a strick diet. without cravings!! without binging! thats a first. i feel like i could live the rest of my life on this and it not bother me. and that stuffed feeling i had yesterday really bothered me after a hour after eating. I dont want to feel that again.

hope you guys have a good day
trisha

hi ellectra!!! great news on the loss!!! that's terrific & you're doing so well!!!
how is your fiance doing?? is he still having pains?? mighta been just bad cramps from something he ate...or maybe even a bit of food poisoning...but I hope he's doing better!!!!
take care of yourself, and him & keep up the fantastic work!!!

It's great to hear that you have been experiencing a first for you--longest diet without cravings! To what do you attribute this success, compared to previous diets?

Well I spoke to soon i think, I fell off it ...It all started when my fiance was like dont worry about it for ur birthday lets go to a buffet...........then it all started........ I will weigh in in a few days i need to get it bak down... i cant beilieve this I will do better I have another yr till my birthday so i can do this... i started eating reg again friday till tonight i start again tomorrow!

I'm glad you came back! It's totally normal to slip...just get back on track as soon as you can. It can be hard to gauge whether a treat (buffet in this case) will pull you off plan beyond the treat itself. And the weight impacts of 2-3 days off-plan are probably not as bad as you think. I think the worst effect is if you let it get you down to the point where you feel hopeless. But I think you are avoiding that...good for you!

Thanks Lutha, I almost didnt come back ... was feeling weird about it, becouse i had done so well than BAM like nothing i fell.Also think it had to do with my exercise buddy being out of state and arriving back today and we start walking again tomorrow. I think i need to have that to keep going, Oh guess what else happened tonight. Ok about 3 months ago a friend in ohio gave my this sexy 2pc night gown I tried it on when i got home and i couldnt wear it, but it was so pretty i packed it when we moved to Maryland, i came across it tonight and tried it on and it fit! and its way lose. i couldnt get my top into this it was so tight against my chest! I ran to robert right away and showed him becouse i was in tears the first time i tried it on in ohio and it being tight.... he said i was thinking about your weight last night and you have really lost alot.....He doesnt normaly notice this stuff nor says it......so weird... and right when he said that i decided to log on say i was back and what had happen. well off for the night
have a great day!
trisha