Well, Day 1 of my online journal here at diettalk.

Today will be a good day, I can tell. Woke up and my FBS was 120, and I was very pleased with that. I’m feeling good about the food choices I’ve made this past week. I think there was only one day I went overboard big time, and ate my way thru the kitchen. Can’t remember all that I ate that day, think I’ve blocked it out. But I do remember finishing off the jar of Jif. Peanut butter is going to be the death of me! Friday night I did share a small 99 cent bag of salt and vinegar potato chips with hubby, but I don’t feel bad about it. I could have eaten my way thru a large bag of Doritos, like I have been known to do.

Went out last night to our regular week end hang out. At this point in time I’m not even going to tell myself I can’t have a Fri or Sat night out. I have too much fun to think about giving up the beer, just need to limit it to one night a week. I’m feeling a bit bloated right now, I think I had 6 of them last night. But that was between 7:30 pm – 1:00 am, so it’s not like I was falling down drunk or anything…

I was looking back thru an old journal this morning, and saw that last year on this date I weighed 183.25…I was in 14’s, and even had a pair of size 12 jeans that fit! Last time I weighed (Thursday) I was at 208.5. I’m going to the Y in a few hours, going to check myself again after I work out.

Breakfast was a multi-grain blueberry pancake I made with ww flour, a little all purpose flour, corn meal, wheat germ, held together with 2 egg whites and vanilla soy milk. For topping I mixed some sugar free syrup along with raspberry fruit spread. 2 cups of coffee, with vanilla soy creamer. It tasted great.

I’m feeling really good right now. I want it to last the rest of the day….I’ll check back in later, I’d like to post again and share how my work out goes, my weigh in, and the rest of today’s menu. Thanks for letting me ramble and share my thoughts!

Hi Vickie,

WELCOME TO DIETTALK .....I would like to invite you to join us at our 100 Plus Chats. We meet every Monday at 1 p.m. EST and Wednesday at 9 p.m. EST in Scheduled Chat.

I have been a member here at Diettalk since October of last year; I find this site to be of tremendous help in my achieving my weight loss goals. If I can be of any help, please let me know. AGAIN WELCOME TO DIETTALK AND TO ACHIEVING YOUR GOAL. Always, Monica

Hello Vikki, I had to stop in here before I got off line the title of your journal caught my eye. I always thought if I wrote a story of my life that would be the title. I have to get off here for now but I will check back in here look forward to having you as a new friend.
Ruthieb

Day One continued.

Thanks for the welcome, Monica and Ruthie. I appreciate the friendliness you showed. :)

Headed out to the Y at 1 pm today. Checked my blood sugar before I left...I was 160, that seemed good enough to not have to worry about eating lunch before I worked out, as I had had a late breakfast. Did 3 upper body machines, 2 leg machines, some free weight work on my arms. Then got on a bike for 20 minutes. I got off the bike intending to head for the pool, but the sweat I had going just wasn't right...instead of hot and sweaty I just felt cold and clammy, and I hadn't been working that hard on the bike, the back of my hair was soaked. I was getting a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach, something just wasn't right...so I headed for the locker room, and grabbed my glucometer. It read 48...:c( Luckily hubby was there, already in the pool waiting for me. I managed to get him, ate some glucose tabs and sat down to wait. He came out and bought cheese combos out of the neding machine. 240 cals with 12 grams of fat in that little package..but he insisted I eat them. It was a slow crawl back to normal range, and it left me exhausted, but I was at 155 before I ate dinner. I cut my insulin back 3 units at dinner...

Lesson learned today : no matter what my sugar is, I will from now on ALWAYS eat something before working out. I'm thinking maybe a smoothie, or something?

Lunch ended up being a bowl of fresh strawberries mixed with a carton of Dannon lt vanilla yogurt, and sprinkled with no fat added blueberry flavored granola. 1 baked vegetable egg roll.

Dinner was a bowl of low fat onion soup with 1/2 slice of low fat swiss chz. 2 small slices of onion rye bread toasted and then stirred into the soup. A salad made with field greens, ff chddr chz, onion sprouts, raisins, and a little Hormel bacon bits. Some of my home made dressing that I made with olive oil, balsamic vinegar, splenda, and some s & p. 1 more small slice of rye bread with a bit of orange marmalade on it, I was just craving something sweet.

I ended up at the Mall later this afternoon, went for a manicure. Everytime I walk thru there, I have to look at my reflection in the windows and mirrors...I hate the way I look. it always sends me home with a new sense of determination. I've come to accept I won't ever be what you could call slim, it's just not my body type. But I so much want to look of average weight...I wonder if I'll be content when I do? On the outside I weigh about 208...but on the inside I still feel like that 315 pound woman I used to be.....I wonder if that ever goes away?

One more blood sugar check before bed. As long as it's normal..no more food for me today. I just plan on a cup of mint green tea in a bit. :D No big cravings today, no wanting to just eat mindlessly! (helps that I have no peanut butter in the house!) Now I just have to make it for a few more hours.....

:) Day 2 , the adventure continues!

What a late night...sat up waiting on my son to get home. He's been on a week long trip to Mexico, his flight got in after midnight, he was finally home at 2:30 am. I missed that kid so much, and am so glad to have him back home.

The weird hours have made my eating times a little off today. FBS was 145 this morning at 10, when I finally crawled out of bed! Ate at 11:30, had 3/4 c. of Kashi Heart to heart cereal. skim milk, a slice toast with olive oil spread and a little peach all fruit spread. Almost 2 pm, about ready to go find myself some lunch.

I'm feeling fairly good today. Not having any major cravings, or out of control feelings about food, and wanting to eat.

Dinner tonight is going to be a back yard cook out, as long as the weather cooperates. We need rain badly tho..and strong thunderstorms are forecast for later today. Hubby is going to make burgers, which just doesn't appeal to me right now. Funny thing is for the past week most meat just hasn't appealed to me. I think I'm going to make a big casserole with brown rice, cabbage, carrots, onions, tomatoes.....and throw some black beans in there for the added fiber. And fresh strawberries for dessert...maybe a low cal low fat strawberrycheesecake. :D

I've got approx 4 weeks of vacation time left....I work in a school, and we start Aug. 21st. I'm going to miss the free time, but I have to admit I miss my kids at school, too. I work in Special Ed, and will be working with a lot of the same students from last year, plus 2 new ones.

Ok, I'm off to see what the refrigerator holds for lunch. I've also got to work on the mountain of laundry my son brought home from Mexico! Not sure about exercise for today, I may get a Richard Simmons tape out and just sweat to some oldies. Also need to work on getting some more water in myself!

My main thought for the day is to remember how much better I feel, physically and emotionally when I am eating the proper food, as long as they are ones I enjoy.

Vickie,

So glad you joined in our 100 Plus Chat this morning .... I am sorry I couldn't stay any longer .. I usually keep the chat going for an hour ..... but I felt my blood sugar dropping ( I call it THE WAVE ...because I can feel it coming over me) and I thought I had better get something in my system.

I read the message you left in my Journal .... wow talk about deja vu; when I was first using insulin ... they had me on 50 NPH and 50 Regular -- morning and evening. It still was in the high 250 -- 350 range and they had me going to an endocrinologist .... and he is the one who really worked with me and helped me. I thought when I started I could never lose 167 pounds .. not in my wildest dreams ... but I PROVED MYSELF WRONG ... well almost lol still have a ways to go.

I will start looking for recipes ... and if you have some that you can share with me I would greatly appreciate it . I don't have beef meals ... because the endo suggested I stick with chicken, fish or turkey ..... I find it is easier for me; but like tonight I will have beef (skirt steak -- grilled) so it will be different.

Keep posting in your Journal ... I find it really helps me see what I am doing ... and you will find so much positive support. Make it a great day ..... and if you get the chance stop by on Wednesday at 9 p.m. EST in Scheduled Chat for the evening chat ... bye for now. As always, Monica

7/22

Monica, I'm glad you caught that bs drop as quickly as you did. I am all too familiar with 'the wave'. It's a terrible feeling.

I posted a recipe for Snack banana cake on the recipe forum. It's really good, haven't made it in a while but plan on doing so this week sometime.

Lunch - tomato soup made with skim milk, saltines, and a sandwich made with toasted ww bread, ff mayo, mustard, onion sprouts, sliced tomato, and ff swiss cheese. A few pretzel twists.

Later in the afternoon I got out the blender and I put a little tub of dry crystal light, 1 c. of skim milk, 2 cups of water, and a container of Blue Bunny lite yogurt in it . Added ice cubes and mixed till it was slushy. Makes a huge blenderful, next time I cut it back to only 2 cups of water. Hubby, daughter and I shared it. It was really good.

The problems came while fixing dinner. I really don't know what brought it all on....I feel like I've been binging. Here's what all I ended up eating : quite a few small crackers dipped in vegetable hummus, some baked tostitos dipped in salsa. A lot of baked potato wedges that hubby made....homemade ff cole slaw, 1 slice of bread, a grilled hamburger patty, and a large serving of my own concoction of cabbage, carrots, onions, tomatoes. barley, black beans, and brown rice, cooked in ff french onion soup. Then to top it all off I had a piece of that strawberry chzcake I made earlier. It was sugar free at least, and made with 1/3 less fat crm chz. Oh yeah..I smothered it in ff Cool Whip. I've filled my water bottle and escaped the kitchen. Too bad I have to pass thru it for the bathroom! I'm going to try and get two more bottles of water in me, and maybe a cup of mint green tea yet before the night is over. I may be up all night going to the bathroom, but I desperately feel the need to purge myself of all this excess food I have just eaten. I know water won't get it out of me, but I'll try and help it any way I can. I really wish I could get rid of it all, turn the clock back to 4 and start all over again. I'll test my bs before bed..but I know it won't be good.

and no exercise today...I feel pretty stupid right now. :(

Hello Vicki, Don't feel stupid just feel human we all make mistakes just try to do better next time you eat. Ruthieb

Vickie,

Please DON'T BEAT YOURSELF UP ...... only thing that really concerns me ... and I am being honest is your blood sugars ... do me a favor let me know the #'s .. also just a suggestion ... you might want to post your blood sugars .... I do that all the time (sometimes I wish I didn't because the #'s frustrate me .... lol but I frustrate easily.

It is okay Vickie .... I know BUT BELIEVE ME IT IS GOING TO BE OKAY. Keep me posted. Take care .... and KEEP DRINKING THAT WATER ..... really helps. As always, Monica

7/23

Thanks for your replies, Ruthie and Monica. It's really nice to have people who are concerned. :) I appreciate it. I'm learning how not to beat myself up so bad when I slip up so bad, and just move on. It's not always easy....but I know it's the right thing to do. I've been trying to use coping skills concerning binging that I got from somethingfishy.org, and that helps too.

I went to bed fairly early last night, was asleep by 9:30 or so. Didn't check my bs before bed, and drank a bottle of water. Was awake by 4:30 this morning...hubby was also up getting ready for work. We're finally getting some much needed rain. Checked my bs before I started on some coffee, and was very pleased to see it was 101. Insulin must be doing its work.

Going to spend some time this morning planning a menu for the day. Daughter is off work today, so she and I will go to the Y this morning. She's trying to lose some weight herself. She plans on getting married early next year, and would like to lose at least 20 pounds. At least I don't seem to have passed a lot of my own obsessions onto her. She's always been a larger girl, but much more confident and self assured than I ever was, or have been. Right now she's about 240 pounds, but since she is also 6'1" she carries it fairly well.

I'll be back later to do some more posting, and catch up on some reading here. Looks like some lightning may be starting along with the thunderstorm..so I think it's best for me to disconnect for a while. Thanks again ladies for your words.

Vicki

:( 7/23 continued

What a strange day this has turned out to be. Went to the Y this morning, had a fairly easy work out. My right leg has been bothering me a lot for the past 3 days, and for the life of me, I can't figure out why. It's like a muscle cramp when I'm standing. At the Y I just did 20 easy minutes on a bike trying to stretch it. Some upper body machines. Just a little free weight work, then swam. Guess I didn't hit it very hard...but I'm consoled by the fact that at least I went out.

Here's my menu for the day:

Breakfast - 1 piece of Blueberry Walnut coffee cake (Healthy Exchanges recipe) 2 coffees, 1 green tea , 3/4 c. of Kashi Heart to Heart, 1/2 c. SM. 20 oz of water. vitamins, meds.

Lunch - 1 low fat string cheese after work out, then 1/2 turkey sandwich after swimming. After I got home I had a salad with 1 oz of feta, 3 saltines, topped with some salsa. 1 small granny smith apple.

Mid afternoon snack - another piece of Blueberry Walnut coffee cake with green tea.

Dinner - 1 serving tuna casserole (another HE recipe) green beans, mandarin orange-cottage cheese salad.

I've used up all my exchanges for the day..I may take an extra SM exchange and have a cup of warm maple milk before bed. I'm at about 1300 cals for the day.

Just an odd day. One of those where tears can flow for no apparant reason. Hormones, I suppose. I just want to get thru the next few hours with out eating.

Oh yeah...I wanted to mention I drank 84 oz of water. :) Ok, something for me to smile about.

Hi VickiSue! I just wanted to visit you and to say thank you for the support and advice in my journal. You are a wise and helpful person. :rose:

I also wanted to wish you blessings on your journey. It sounds like you are well on your way to your goal- no it did NOT get past me that you have already lost 115 lbs! WOW. Congratulations! I am glad you decided to post here at DT!

I just wanted to mention that your post got me thinking so much that I actually called and made an appointment with a therapist for binge eating disorder. I have been in therapy before to overcome problems with my self-esteem from child abuse when I was tiny, but never thought to get help for my binging. Although, when I was in therapy before I was able to check the binging and lost 125 lbs...so I feel really good about my decision and you were my inspiration.

I also wanted to say that I am here for you! Big hugs! Love, Heather

Ok, the stop sign is to tell me it's time to stop eating. I was doing fine till about 8:30. Since then I've eaten pretzel twists, 4 or 5 turkey slices (30 cals a piece), the last of the vegetable hommus, some yogurt with no fat aded granola put in it, and a bowl of air popped popcorn. Feels like I am forgetting something, it feels like I ate so much more than that...

Heather, thanks for replying. Right now I am wondering why in the world I don't take my own advice??8-| I lost the 115 pounds a few years ago, and I keep wondering why I have this road block now? If I could do it then, why can't I just finish it up??And good job on making the appt to see the therapist. If I had insurance that would cover that...I'd go in a flash. I've checked, and nothing that is even close in my area anyway. And congrats on the 125 you've lost already! Just goes to show you we can do it. I just want to find that place I was at when I was losing a few years ago.

Guess that's it for the night.

Vicki

7/24 :)

Ok, starting the day out on a positive note. FBS not so good this morning, 169. Haven't decided on breakfast yet, or any kind of menu for the day. I do need to get out and do some shopping, I am out of fresh fruit, and veggies.

I think today I will try and just take it one hour at a time, and when that hour has passed, I will just check it off my list. My goals for the day:

1) drink 2 cups of green tea

2) at least 80 oz of water

3) keep track of my carbs

4) get to the Y and do 20 min on a bicycle, and my free weight
routine

Been thinking a lot about how I will be going back to work in 3 1/2 weeks. I was really hoping to go back about 30 pounds lighter than when school let out last May. But the truth of the matter is I will be going back pretty much the same as when it ended. My computer time will be definitely taken away, I'll have a few moments in the morning, and a little in the evenings. This site will definitely be my priority.

I'm worried about going back to school. I work in Special Ed...and sometimes the days get so stressful I find myself reaching for food without even thinking about it. We have a snack cupboard in our classroom, and it is just too easy. Nevermind the fact that the vending machine is located right next to the bath room in the teacher's lounge! The plus side of getting back to school is how my activity will increase tenfold. The attention span of our kids is very short, and we don't ever sit for very long at one time. Factor into that how we are out at every recess, all over the playground just keeping track of our youngsters, playing with them, etc. I've been on that equipment more than some of the typical kids have! lol But I love how it makes me feel to climb on the monkey bars with them, go down the slide...just generally act like a kid myself and have fun. Then we have a few who are mainstreamed into gym class with typical kids their own age, usually 1st and 2nd graders. I have to accompany them for the class, and always participate right alongside them. Also a lot of walking inside the school itself, up and down stairs, thru the halls...I'm realizing I miss it. What I don't really miss right now is getting up at 4:30 or 5 am each morning! lol But I'll adjust.

Ok, that's about it for the day. be back a little later.

Vicki :bow:

Vicki,

What a struggle you have! I've been reading Monica's journal as well, so I see how she struggles with the diabetes. I'm curious, what is a "good" bs level? I see numbers posted, but don't know how to interpret that.

Great job on losing all that weight! You need to work on your self-image. You've done an awesome job! And the job you have is very special. It takes a wonderful person to help the special kids you have. You must be a pretty terrific lady!

Keep up the good work!

Vicki,

I wanted you to know I visited your Journal ... I have those muscle cramps from time to time .... and it feels awful ... similar to a charley horse; I get it in my thighs, and sometimes my feet. You might try taking Vitamin E .. I take it in the evening and so far I haven't had any problems.

The fact that you are working with children ... wow the amount of exercise you will get will be fantastic. How about making a trail mix .. using Kashi Go Lean or Kashi Cinna-Raisin (which is now my all time favorite cereal) -- raw peanuts (and 1/4 cup of raisins if you use Kashi Go Lean); also if you have a refrigerator a fresh fruit bowl .... especially in the summer months is really great (use strawberries, blueberries, cantaloupe, honeydew melon -- all fantastic fruits for everyone but especially for those of us who have diabetes).

I hope to see you tonight at our 100 Plus Chat ... YOU ARE DOING FANTASTICALLY ... I AM PLEASED AND PROUD OF YOUR FOCUS AND COMMITMENT TO SUCCEED. As always, Monica

Hi VickiSue! I know what you mean when you say you need someone to hold a stop sign in front of your face to stop your eating, lol. I sometimes say, "Someone staple my lips shut,-stat!"

At least everything you ate was A+ healthy. And it sounds like you will be burning everything off when school starts! Can you stock the snack cabinet with the same kind of healthy foods? I have a big gripe with people who give little kids crappy food, lol. Not that I think you do!! But so many of my friends do, it just makes me have to stand on my lip not to say anything. Like, "You have a weight problem and health problems, why would you want to get your kids hooked on crap food that will clog their arteries and make them hyper?!" But it is hard because today's kids are little junk food junkies,lol.

I know what you mean about having a lot of momentum, dropping weight all over the place at first, and somehow losing it, that whatever was the magic ingredient that keeps you motivated...it is the most !@#$ frustrating thing in the world. One day, I was going along, strong in my program, determined, nothing could shake my resolve. Then I cheated, just a little. Then a little more. I still thought, oh well, its just a binge, I'll get back on the horse, it'll pass. But the truth is, I never could quite get it back like I had it before. I tried all the same things, but somehow they didn't work for me anymore. I fussed, fought, cried, got depressed, got mad...but I haven't been able to get it back, not the same way. I am hoping this therapy will help me get back there.

Big hugs, Heather

Well, I didn't get to diettalk at all yesterday, so this morning is my time to catch up. I did get to the Y yesterday morning with my daughter. My leg was feeling somewhat better. I did 20 minutes on a bike, some machines and some free weights. Then a swim...after that I had some errands to run, etc.

Heather, thanks for your suggestions with the snack cupboard, and I agree with you 100%. Problem is, I'm not the one in charge of stocking it. I'm the assistant in the classroom, the teacher is the one who does the buying out of the monthly stipend we are given for things like that. The kids have snack time every afternoon, part of learning social skills. We will have 9 in our class this year. And the funny thing is the teacher who does the buying is actually a vegetarian who eats healthy all the time herself, and is very much into organic and natural foods. She's also lost 70 pounds herself in the last few years. So for the life of me I can't figure out why she brings in things like Oreos, cheez-its, M and M's....and the thing is we will all eat the stuff. I have made gentle mention to her at times that I would like to see us getting healtier stuff. On one shopping trip she did bring in flavored mini rice cakes that were very good. We'll see how this year goes.

Monica, thanks for your advice on the vit E. I used to take 800 u a day, faithfully. But I ran out a month or so ago, and just haven't replenished it. Note to myself to do that this week end. Your trail mix also sounds good. And we do have a small dorm size refrigerator in our class room. But my main problem is the mindless eating. Feeling the craziness of a stressful day send me to the snacks, eating without really tasting. There are also days when it is just impossible to sit down and focus on your noon meal. More than once I have found myself out on the playground trying to wolf down a sandwich while I play with the kids. Or else staying in the class room with one who is having a major behavior problem, and trying to deal with that child while I try to eat. I have come to realize I need a better way to reduce stress after school each day, and my main thought is to head to the Y directly after school, and just peacefully float around in the pool for a while, and just focus on my thoughts.

I had a great day food wise yesterday. I woke up just feeling sick and tired of always thinking about food. Should I eat this or that, why can't I have whatever...choices choices choices. I don't want to continually think about food! (ie: the obsession) So, I reached for the GeniSoy Vaniila shake mix, added some cut up strawberries and water, a little crushed ice, and just drank my breakfast. FBS yesterday was 113. Went to the Y after that, and after a not too strenuous work out I ate a nutrition bar. At 3 pm my bs was 92, so I made a glass of vanilla soy milk, with crushed ice, and a little bit of dry raspberry crystal light. Now that was really good. Dinner was a salad made with field greens, raisins, red onions, ff shredded cheddar, and ff1000 dressing. I sprinkled on dry Kashi Good Friends as croutons. I added 1/2 c. of spicy ff refried beans, the last of the low fat cottage chz (1/3 c. maybe?) I ate a slice of ww bread, and felt quite satisfied. Later in the evening I had a small bowl of strawberries. About 10 pm I was feeling hungry, but I checked and my bs was 168....so I avoided eating anything. I also got in 64 oz of water and a big cup of decaf mint green tea. My day felt like a success.

My motivational thought yesterday was "Losing weight is a journey, not a destination, and I will enjoy the process!" I repeated it to myself several times thru out the day.

Well, on to today. FBS this am was 147. Haven't decided on a plan of action concerning food yet, or what type of exercise I plan to do. I do know I woke up feeling good knowing I had had such a successful feeling day yesterday.

I can't tell you how much it helps to correspond with you ladies. Thanks so much.

Vicki

Vicki,

Sounds like you had a great day yesterday! Your motivational thought is a very good one. We should all live by that! I had to give up my obsession with food, also. It's so hard every day to wake up and that's all you think about. Why is that? Why are we programmed that way? Do thin people think that way? I don't think so.

As far as your snacking problem for school, what about buying your own healthy snacks? I know it can get expensive, but there's nothing like leading by example to get the kids in the right mode. And then maybe the teacher will catch on. Kids LOVE apples! Grapes. All kinds of finger foods. We have raised a generation of junk food kids. I'm guilty! My youngest is a junk food-aholic. I have to constantly tell him no snacks until he eats a good meal. I don't buy him the junk any more. He loves fruit snacks, which do have a lot of sugar, but it's better for him than candy. I'm trying to lead by example now. If I don't eat it, they won't, right? That's my theory, anyway!

Have a great weekend! Don't worry about those workouts. They may not be high intensity, but moving is better than not doing anything. Talk to you later!

Sunday, 7/28 8:30 pm

Well, finally found myself back on the site. It's been a fairly good week end. Ok, so I didn't really watch what I ate real close. I did try and be mindful when I ate, and not just shove food at myself like I do sometimes.

I have been very faithful about my visits to the Y. Been biking, and doing my weight routines faithfully. I decided to give my muscles a rest, and just spent some time in the pool today. However, I did drink a few beers on Friday night....and a few white russians Saturday night. I know, not so good for my diabetes. But my bs has remained stable. Tomorrow I will get more back into a routine of posting stats, and menus.

I've also come to realize I am so much harder on myself than I need to be. I have so much trouble considering the day a success unless I have met 3 basic criteria.

1) drink at least 80 oz of water
2) work out
3) follow my food plan to the letter

From now on I am going to celebrate each of my small steps. if I don't eat exactly what I should, I will be very happy as long as what I have eaten is healthy, and wasn't done in a crazy state of mind. If I drink plenty of water, I will say hooray for me..and not just obsess over the fact I went off plan in my eating.

We went swimming about 3 today, then into town for dinner. No..I didn't eat quite right. I had a baked potato, with butter and sour cream...probably my fat allowance for the next week! I had a few bites of chicken, but just can't stomach much meat lately. I also ate a dinner roll. And a small dish of vanilla soft serve. Ok, way too many carbs, I realize. But I am celebrating in the fact I didn't walk out of there feeling like I had stuffed myself to the gills. Considering it was a buffet, that could have happened so easily...We'll see how it goes tomorrow. DD and I are meeting my sister for lunch, she has chosen a mexican restaurant we all love. Now, if I can just be mindful of how many chips I eat, and watch the fat in everything else, I'll be ok. I'll focus on my neice and nephew instead of the basket of tortilla chips. Maybe they'll have a low fat vegetarian type plate I can get? We will see.

Back to the weight room for me tomorrow. After DH gets off work, he and I will go to the Y together. I hope my leg has improved enough for me to get on the treadmill and work up a good, healthy sweat.

Well, it's off to the kitchen to prpare a few things for morning. Make myself a cup of green mint tea, and then settle down for an episode of Law and Order.

Vicki

7/29/02

I’ve decided to try keeping track of my day in Word. Then at the end of the day I can just copy and paste it into my journal. Well, I’m going to try it anyway, just to see how it works.

FBS- 169. Ok, a bit high, brought on from all the carbs I ate last night.

Breakfast – ½ c. of Egg beaters, 1 slice of toast, and 1 cup of cocoa flavored lite soy milk. 16 oz of water, 1 cup of coffee with soy vanilla creamer.

8 pm - Well, met my sister for lunch today at our favorite mexican restaurant. She was late, as usual….and I occupied my time by eating way too many tortilla chips. This place has the best salsa I’ve ever had. It’s heavy on the cilantro, and I just love that. For lunch I ordered a vegetarian burrito. It was good..but I definitely didn’t need the guac and sour cream I ate on it. I way overate, and felt too stuffed afterward. The good news is I drank 3 large glasses of water with lemon slices in it. Got home about 2, went to the Y at 3:30. Had a fairly decent work out, 20 min on a bike, but only went ½ mile on the treadmill. Did 3 of the machines, but the free weight area was kind of crowded with muscle building guys, and I just didn’t feel like pushing myself in there.
Wasn’t hungry yet when DH and DS ate at 6, checked my BS and it was 169..so I decided to just wait an hour and check again. At 7, it was a bit higher yet…177. My stomach was starting to rumble, so I just took my insulin and glucophage and sliced myself some strawberries. Mixed some plain low fat yogurt with splenda, a bit of coconut extract, and poured it over my strawberries. Then I sprinkled some no fat added granola on top of that. It was good. Also had a cup of mint green tea. I’ve definitely got my water in for the day! I’ll check my BS one more time before bed, and if it is still ok I will consider myself through with food for the day.
Been thinking a lot about what type of healthy things I want to take to school for my lunch when we start back in a few weeks. Think tomorrow I’ll work on a list for that. I also need to make a big effort to mop that kitchen floor of mine.
Till tomorrow.

Vicki

Vicki,

Ok, so now you've had your splurge for the weekend...time to get back to the basics! Did your bs ever come down? Do you feel bad when it gets that high? I haven't been to a good mexican restaurant since California! They just don't have them here in Syracuse. I know there a couple around, but I don't know where they are. Besides, they are way too fattening! But I love a good mexican taco! :(

It sounds like you had a good time this weekend. You've come so far! I'd really hate to see you go backwards. But on the other hand, you deserve a break now and then too! You HAVE lost over 100 pounds!

I'll check with you tomorrow. Goodnight!

Tuesday, 7/30/02

FBS – 166 @ 7:30 am Still trying to bring it back down a little lower after the carb fest of the past few days. Going to work on that today, and try to limit the amount of starchy carbs I eat.

Breakfast 9 am – 1 egg, 1 c. of frozen shredded hash browns fried in Pam spray. ½ c. grapefruit juice. 16 oz water, 2 large cups of coffee with vanilla soy creamer. Came to 1 meat, 1 fat, 1 bread, and 1 fruit.

Errand day, and going to get that kitchen floor clean, too. Also going to stop at the library and check out a good book. I spent some time today reading some reviews of books from Oprah’s book club, and I’ve got a short list of ones I want to look for. Need to pick out tonight’s dinner, make a menu, and stop for things I need for that, too. Back later! Just hoping to dodge a few rain drops of the much needed rain that appears to be coming.

Vicki

Hello vicki~~ I like mexican food or any spicy food. but my favorite is chinese? do you like chinese? i could eat that every day and never get tired of it.
well wanted to stop and say hi and have a good tuesday!

Hi Minnie! thanks for stopping by my journal. And yes, I LOVE chinese food. My favorite restaurant we go to has a health section on the menu, and I can order a platter of steamed veggies, such as snow peas, water chestnuts, baby corn, mushrooms, onion, bok choy, and broccoli. If I feel a protein craving I have steamed shrimp added to it. Wish they had brown nice..since they don't, I stick with just a little steamed white rice, and then they serve the sauce on the side. Sometimes I just have to have at least 1 crab rangoon, I love those things. They also have a great vegetarian soup, and a bowl of that is always yummy. Gotta watch that I don't over do the soy sauce tho. Ok...now look what happened! I'm ready to take off for lunch over there right now! lol But since I'm home alone...guess I can resist.

Trying to decide on lunch right now. It's 12:30, and so far I've had a cup of warm cocoa flavored lite soy milk. Noon bs was 156. I have no idea what I am hungry for (except chinese of course!) I'm going to surprise DH tonight. I've been on this meatless kick for the past few weeks, but I know the poor dear craves beef, so I stopped and bought a big beef roast, and just put it in with a lot of carrots, potatoes, and onions. The cooked carrots I can hardly wait to eat. But I need to decide what else I'll have, I want to avoid the potatoes tonight. And the beef roast....just sounds unappetizing to me. Not sure where this meat aversion is coming from. Even the thought of chicken kind of makes me turn up my nose. Maybe something made with tuna for me. We'll see how my stomach feels about that later.

Back later to post my post work-out bs, and to list what I finally decided to eat for lunch and dinner. I'm in a great mood so far today.....

Vicki :)

This has been an absolutely marvelous day. Lunch was a Lean Cuisine, Cheese Lasagna Casserole. I also had a cup of warm cocoa flavored soy milk. Went to the Y in the afternoon, had the best work out I’ve had in quite a while. Stayed on the treadmill 20 minutes, did 1.35 miles. Actually worked up a good healthy sweat! Then I hit 7 of the machines. No free weights today, I’m doing them tomorrow morning, along with the bicycle, and probably swim afterward. My post work-out bs was 101. Hooray!!

While DH ate his roast beef and potatoes for dinner, I had a veggie delight 6” sub, a single serving size bag of baked Lays, and ½ c. of low fat cottage cheese. Then, as a snack about 8 pm we went to McDonald’s and had a cone.

I don’t do WW, but sometimes I like to count points, as I did today. I ended the day with 26.25 points. I’ve got an online points calculator and figure them that way. I really felt it helped keep me in line today. I also got 80+ oz. of water in! I feel kind of hungry right now… but it’s kind of a good feeling, you know? So much better than feeling so stuffed, and overfull.

I’m still slowly working my way thru journals on here. It’s so interesting to learn about all of your lives! I love the honestly and realness I read in them.

As long as my bs remains ok, I’m done eating for the day. A cup of mint green tea later perhaps.

I love the way I feel right now. I just want it to continue……

Vicki
:cheers:

Glad to hear you had a wonderful day, VickySue! I am sure we could have fun going to restuarants together, me and you and Minnie could go get some Chinese. My favorite is Dim Sum, where they basically bring trays of appetizer looking things, maybe 3-4 pieces to a plate, and each plate costs $1 to $2. The lady rolls the cart by and you just buy another little plate of whatever looks good. The place I go is called House of Louie (its famous here in Portland) and they don't speak much English, so you can't really ask too many questions about what you're getting, and maybe its better that way, lol. But is always absolutely scrumptious. I can usually get a wonderful meal for $6. :)

Great job with keeping up at the Y. You rock, girlfriend!

I also tend to be more vegetarian, I do eat chicken and fish, but only about once a week, when I crave it. I know you have to be careful to balance your carbs with protein due to the diabetes. But I bet the exercise helps heaps with lowering the bs.

Keep up the great work, VickySue! I want to thank you so much for being so understanding and supportive and all your kindness in my journal. You're the best! Love, Heather

Still July 30th

Ok, I just realized I am a day ahead of myself. I dated my previous post 7/31..and it's still the 30th. :o

Heather, thank you so much for stopping by and for the encourgement. It means so much to me. You're pretty special. It means even more because I know you understand. Isn't it funny how our emotions swing from one extreme to the other, and how dependant our mood is on the way we have viewed food for the day? I'm having my tea now, wanting to eat....it's not overwhelming at the moment, but still....I'm glad it's late, and I don't have anything too horrible in the house. And your chinese place sounds wonderful. I've never been in one such as you described. And yes, the exercise helps tremendously in keeping the bs low, almost too much sometimes.

I've bought a copy of Geneen Roth's workbook called Why Weight? I'm thinking of answering the questions, and doing the exercises here in my journal. Yes, it's very personal. But I think getting feedback would be helpful.

Well, my tea is gone, I think I'll go to bed. It will be an early morning for me, as I have to have my son to the HS by 8 am for school physicals. He'll be a Sr this year, and he is a wrestler. I am looking so forward to this final year of his wrestling career. He's the HVWT on the team at 5'10" and 250 pounds. I absolutely love wrestling season. It's exciting, emotional....a real roller coaster ride from Nov - Feb. The school sponsors free sports physicals, and have to take advantage of that. Going to drop him off, then DD and I are going to the Y. BTW, her name is Heather as well.

Thanks again. :)

Vicki

Vicki I thought id stop by and read about you sounds like your doing great! I also notice your very close to "under 200" mark!!! great job!

Trisha

Looks like it's going to be a hot one! FBS this morning was 143. Ok, still working on better numbers for that.

I'm going to try and count points today, but balance them according to the exchanges I need. Breakfast was a cup of homemade cappucinno- coffee with some cocoa soy milk, and hazelnut soy creamer. 1 scoop of geniSoy XL vanilla powder, mixed with 1 cup of water, and 1 cup of plain lowfat yogurt.

Ok, it's off to the Y for me. back later today.

Thanks for the message, Trisha. I plan on getting back to you later.

Vicki

Hello Vicki~~ so glad you stopped by my journal. i just got done reading yours and your doing so wonderful. boy you lost alot. i am proud of you and it gives me more motivation too.
yes chinese is one of my favorites next to pizza. my favorite chinese is shrimp woth broccoli and i like steamed dumplings and egg rolls and pork rice. actually i like most of it.
as for pizza i love it but am picky i do not like pizza hut or dominos. i like the old fashioned greasy,cheesey triangle pizza.
but i get carried away with it. i also like white pizza and pizza with broccoli on it too.
it seems you have everything in order as eating and exercise are concerned. your doing so good. well have a good wednsday!

Hi VickySue! It is so funny how food can change moods, and be tangled up so much in emotions. Like today, I feel strong, I don't even want unhealthy food, no struggle involved, it just doesn't interest me. A week ago, I was obsessing and feeling horrible for giving in. Once Sooz told me the secret was "stringing the good days together." It made me think of one of those "add-a-pearl" necklace. So each good day is another pearl on the necklace. :)

I am so glad for you that you are doing soooo well. Do you feel like you have "it" back, that magical motivated feeling when you are in the "zone" and making big strides? It seems like you are there, and how wonderful for you.

Have a great workout! Love, Heather

hi vickisue... sorry it's taken me so long to get to your journal..still trying to find my way thru them all!!!

all this talk about chinese food is starting to make me hungry!! I bought a ton of veggies & will probably make a big stir fry which I adore...but it is weird about certain foods making us feel differently...I can't pinpoint them all, but for me cheese makes me feel very depressed...any other dairy I have no problems with! and I know for a fact eggs give me bad stomach cramps, so I can't eat those at all, but I still cook w/them & have no problem...it's probably just me cause I'm basically odd to begin with!!LOL!!

have a great day at the Y!!! buji

Hi Vickie,

I am curious about something .... is your bs effected by your sodium intake ... mine is. When I exceed the 2400 milligrams -- especially at night my bs go high ... which in my mind is always high at 140 (but doctor said that was okay ... but I think he told me that so I would stop fixating over the #'s -- which for me is very hard to do).

Went to the podiatrist today ..... he checked my feet ... lol he said they looked great .... at least now there is no swelling in fact when I push down ...I don't feel the fluid in my feet.

Still not feeling 100% ..... don't think it is the bs because they have been in the normal range ..... but my stomach feels queasy -- :D AND I AM NOT PREGNANT. Well I need to go and check some of the other Journals ... I hope you're feeling great. Take care and make it a great day. As always, Monica

Wednesday 7/31 ( I checked, it really is...)

I was so thrilled to find so many responses in my journal today! Let me tell you, it really made my day and inspired me.

7 pm, and all is well B-) I want to post my menu first.

Lunch was a soft chicken taco, and 1/2 c. of pineapple chunks, mixed with 1/2 low fat plain yogurt, Splenda, a bit of coconut extract, and then I added 1/4 c. of no fat added granola. It was a struggle to eat, and I'm not sure why.
Dinner was a salad made with field greens, green peppers, red onion, 1/4 c. of ff shredded chz, and 2 T. of Hendrickson's ff dressing. 1 lean Cuisine french bread pizza, and 1 c. of fresh sliced strawberries. I was hungry, and definitely full after I ate! Maybe a bit too full, to be honest.

Had a great work out this morning. I had the free weight virtually to myself, kind nice to beat the crowd! Spent a good 30 minutes with those, and then i did a couple of sets on the lat pull. After that it was 20 minutes on a bike, and worked up a good sweat! Then DD and I headed to the whirlpool for a few minutes, then swam about 20 minutes. It gives me such a feeling of accomplishment to peel off sweaty work out clothes.

Now, for a few replies.

Thanks for being so sweet and encouraging, Minnie. I've come across some vegetable egg rolls at Super WalMart that are so good baked in the oven, and about 130 cals a piece. Very low fat too.

Heather, I really like the pearl concept. I'm going to remember that one for sure. And yes, i do feel like I am in a good place right now. I know exactly what you mean. Every once in a while I fall into that place where the struggle to eat right, exercise, and drink my water seems almost effortless. I haven't felt like eating anything unhealthy, or to eat mindlessly...you're right, it feels very magical. I really hope it can continue. It's amazing how quickly things can seem to flip flop, isn't it?

Buji, your stir fry sounds wonderful. I am imagining snow peas, water chestnuts, green peppers, broccoli, carrots...

Monica, I have never thought about sodium and my bs. I do know I should monitor my sodium a bit more. Thanks for the idea. It's definitely something worth investigating. I know what you mean about feeling 140 is high. I know it's basically ok, but I want to be around 100-120. And I know about fixating over numbers. I do it with the glucose monitor, the scales, the calories, fat grams, etc etc etc. So glad your podiatrist appt went well. And you'll be back to 100% very soon. And realizing a pregnancy can't be a possibility is one of the perks of aging! lol I'm 44...and I can't IMAGINE a newborn to take care of! My class of kiddies at school for 7 hrs a day is plenty for me!

I did some figuring today. I decided to try and lose 4% a month as a realistic goal. That puts me at 8 lbs a month for a few, then it goes down to 7, and so on. My daily mantra from now on is going to be, "I am going to acheive my normal body weight of 150 by March 31."

I changed my stats. When I signed up, I was guesstimating where I was that day. I think I was actually 209.5 if I remember right from looking back in my journal earlier. I weighed myself after my work out this morning and I'm now 206. So that means 3.5 pounds lost! :hop: Doing the bunny hop over that one. I'm going to change it at the end of August again. My goal is 199 by August 31.

My upper body muscles are feeling really sore tonight. I think tomorrow is going to be treadmill time, and no upper body stuff.

Ok, that's it for now. And thanks again for being such a wonderful group of ladies. :rose:

Vicki

Hello vicki~~ just wanted to drop in to wish you a good day tommorow! you are doing a wonderful job so be proud you deserve it girlfriend!!!!

Well, it's almost noon, and all is still well. FBS this morning was 126, so I was very happy with that. Breakfast was cream of wheat, 1 slice of ww toast with 1 T. of orange marmalade. I woke up just craving orange marmalade! Also had 2 glasses of water, 1 large cup of coffee with vanilla soy creamer. I've decided on a Lean Cuisine Cheese Canneloni that I'm mixing some broccoli into, and a bowl of strawberries and watermelon. Having a diet dew now, just wanted one really bad.

Be back later. Thanks for the encouragement, Minnie!

Vicki

vicki, you are doing so well!!!! and yes, it's great when we get that motivation that just doesn't want to go away!! I think as we get older we realize what we want & what's important to us & worth fighting for...and maybe we finally realize that we are important enuff to start putting 1st instead of after everybody else's needs!!!

Vicki,

Sounds like you're doing great! Your lunch sounds yummy!! Keep up the good work.

8/1 continued, 8:30 pm

Thanks Stacey, I appreciate your words. :)

I'm not going to get around to posting in individual journals tonight, but hope to catch up tomorrow. I love reading how your days are going.

Dinner tonight was a soft flour tortilla, I spread 1/2 c. spicy ff refried beans on it, some taco sauce, 1/4. ff shredded chz, and choppee broccoli, then placed it on a flat ungreased griddle. I let it sit there on low still the shell was nice and crispy, and the cheese melted. A little salsa, ff sour cream on top after it was done...and there we go. It was really good. A salad much like last nights, and 2 glasses of crystal light. Filled me up completely.

No work out today, I decided to take the day off. But tomorrow morning I'll be back to the Y, bright and early. Did get 80+ oz of water in though, so I'm happy about that. BS before dinner was 133. :curtsey:

It was another good day. I've got plenty of choices left should I need a snack, but right now I just feel like waiting. I'll check my bs right before bed, and if it looks like I'll need something before morning, I'll have a small bowl of Good Friends or something. I do want to get my cup of mint green tea in though.

It's been a good food day. I'm thankful. But also tired...

Vicki :yawn:

Hello vicki~~ just wanted to say hello. your food choices were good too and glad you had a good day. another one is wished for you tommorow. good night!

Good morning all! Feeling great today. FBS was 103, I was very happy with that! Breakfast was 3/4 c. of Kashi with 1/2 c. of SM. I just finished Sweatin' with Richard, and let me tell you, I do mean SWEAT! :D I did Sweatin' 3, I think it was. About 45 minutes in length, i think? I managed to keep up with the whole thing!

I'm taking dinner to some friends tonight, and they requested old fashioned, full of fat lasagne. I'm also making garlic bread, and I made a pan of blonde brownies with chocolate chips, and peanut butter chips. I'm not tempted by the lasagne, the thought of all that meat and cheese fat makes me a little nauseous. I gotta say I did have a few problems making the brownies, but managed to survive! Now I think the key for me will be not to cut them till I arrive where I'm going. Then there will be no problem of me having a little bite here, a little bite there..and we all know where that leads!! Pretty soon the whole pan of them would be gone. Feeling strong over that situation at the moment.

Ok, I'm off to the shower! I need to wash this sweat off of me. Too bad I can't wash a little excess fat down the drain too.

:o Then DD and I are off for a little shopping, and manicures. We're stopping for lunch, and already decided Wendy's would be a safe choice. I'm going to have a small chili, and a side salad. I may end up picking the meat out of the chili....we'll see.

I'm smiling big time. Thanks to everyone for their support. You're awesome!

Vicki

:hug:

Vicki,

Great job on the video!! Stay out of those brownies...they're not worth it! NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS THIN FEELS. I want a magic shower too...wash that fat right off of my body!! Hmmm....

Have a great time!

I had the strangest thing happen to me today. DD and I went to the Mall, had our nails done, and then walked around a bit. Now remember how last week I was posting about having the pain in my right leg that got so bad at times? It's been much better the past few days. Well, today while we were walking in the mall, my right leg started feeling weak. I felt it give on me a little, and remarked to DD about it. About 5 steps later all of a sudden it just completely gave out on me, and when I stepped forward on it, I fell to the floor in a heap. There wasn't even the time to realize I was going to fall......all of a sudden I was on the floor, that leg had just completely collapsed on me. Had to hold onto DD for support to get out to the car. I evidently twisted it in the process, cause now I have a huge lump on my foot, and it's swollen and starting to bruise on the side. But really, not a lot of pain on the foot unless pressure is applied to it. Weird, huh? Just makes me kind of nervous.

I had that Wendy's small chili for lunch, but didn't feel like the salad. For dinner I used some Pam in a skillet and crisped up a chipotle flavored tortilla shell, and spread it with 4 T. of spinach hummus.

We're going out tonight, I'm going to drink a few beers. But I feel ok about it because I have allotted for them calorie wise. With this foot, you can bet I won't be drinking too many beers, though! lol I don't need to be any wobblier than I am right now.

And Stacey, I did it! Getting ready to get those brownies and things out of the house, and I haven't touched one! I feel really good for having resisted.

That's it for now.

Vicki

Vicki,

Go see your doctor! That's not a normal thing, you should have it checked out. PLEASE! It could be a nerve, circulation, lots of things, but don't put it off.

Good job on the brownies!! I get these new No Pudge brownies. Totally fat free! They're in the nature section of some of our stores, or you can order them online. If you log on to their site, they'll send you a coupon. WWW.nopudge.com. Great brownies!! Just like the real thing. You make them with yogurt -- that's it!

Have a great night...but watch that drinking!! Forget driving drunk, you'll be walking drunk! And just as dangerous!! :laugh:

Well, I can't believe it's actually day 5 of staying on track with my food. This WILL continue.

My foot and leg are some what achy today. The swelling has gone down quite a bit, only a small lump there now, and a little bruise.

FBS was 97 this morning. Breakfast was long cooking oatmeal, with 1/2 c. of fresh blueberries added. 1/2 c. of SM, and a large coffee with 2 T. of vanilla soy creamer.

The water is going down somewhat slower today. About 11:30 am and only had 16 oz so far. Not sure about exercising today. I'm taking it easy on my leg. Maybe I'll just get some stretching in, and I have some 10 lb weights I can use here at home. I know I need the aerobic for the weight loss, but just not sure how much to do right now. I loved the way the Richard video made me sweat yesterday. It really felt like I was accomplishing something.

Stacey, thanks so much for your concern. I know I do need to see a Dr, and very soon I'm going to try and do that. And I have tried No Pudge before, they really are good! Key for me is to make them in individual servings so I can't binge on them.

Well, time for me to get showered, and dressed for the day. I'll check in later.

Vicki

vicki, I'm glad to hear you're gonna see a doc about the leg...could be nothing more than the way you moved doing the video!!! but don't let it go too long!!!!

I'm so glad you resisted those brownies!!! beleive me, I know it musta been hard, and I'm so proud of you for being tuff!!!!!!

and definitely start working w/those weights!! they'll make you stronger & will kick up that metabolism we all love so much!!!

have a great weekend!!!

Hi Vicki!

CONGRATULATIONS on DAY 5 on track! That is wonderful, and I know how hard that is. It is a miracle that you are making happen in your own life :rose:

I know weekends are a hard time for you, also, because you like a cocktail now and again, right? So even more kudos on resisting that. And look at your blood sugar, so nice and low but not too low! It looks like everything is really working together for you. :D

I think that is a great idea, just making one serving of brownies or whatever. I used to make huge pots of things because I had a daycare and 8 hungry little mouths to feed, so I got used to having those huge portions sitting around tempting me. Now I am going to try making just one portion of lentils or whatever, even if it feels strange. I know I will be happier and the fridge won't have any science experiments growing in it, either.

For a long time I have practiced buying just single serving sizes of tempting foods when I am craving it, such as chips or snack cakes or whatever. I spell disaster "s-u-p-e-r-s-i-z-e" lol. When I see "super size" on fast food ads/signs I think, "and that's what it will make you--SUPER-SIZED!"

So here is a boquet for resisting temptation! :gflower: You are worth more than any brownie (even the really gooey fudgy ones with frosting!)

Big Hugs! :hug:
Love, Heather

Just wanted to post my lunch.

I sprayed my griddle pan with some Pam, and then got a chipotle tortilla nice and crisp on it. I cut it into wedges, and used salsa, and 4 T. of spinach hummus for it. Yummy! I also had a dish of broccoli which I sprinkled with a little butter buds, and then melted a piece of ff swiss on. 2 cups of cantelope. Plus 8 more oz of water. It's kind of a struggle getting that water in today. But I'm keeping at it. :water:

You know Buji, I have found when I miss a couple of days with the weights, my muscles really start feeling too tight. So I will DEFINITELY get on that today!

Not sure if we're doing anything tonight, or just staying home. It's so dog gone hot in the sun. I'm curious about the weather forecast for next week end. I'd love to get a week end of camping in before I start back to school.

Well, I'm off to cruise recipes...want to find something yummy to make for dinner tonight. I found a recipe for carrot ccake muffins online, I plan on making them in the morning. I love muffins....and these are supposed to only be 2 points a piece. I found it on the web site of a WW member.

Later all!

Vicki

Heather, we must have been posting at the same time! I just wanted to come back and thank you for the bouquet. It made my day! You are so very sweet. And you're a great cheerleader! :cheer:

Vicki

Vicki you lunch sounds soooo yummmmmmy think i might cook that for my supper! I hope your leg is doing better.

Trisha

In a very content mood tonight. Just finished a late dinner, and wanted to post my menu.

Like I have said before, although I'm not a WW member, I am using the point method at the moment to track my food. I was craving pizza, so I looked up the points on Pizza Hut pizza. We ordered a medium thin crust veggie lovers. 4 points per piece. I ate 2 slices, and had a nice salad with it. So far, my points are at 20.50 for the day. I'm allowing myself 30 pts on days I exercise, and 28 on days I don't. Once I get below 200, I'll alter that to less. My REAL challenge was after I ate 2 pieces, wanting a 3rd. But I made myself stop, wait a bit, because I was full. I didn't want to eat that 3rd one just because I was allowed to, you know? If I eat, it's going to be because I'm either hungry, or my blood sugar demands it. Oh yes...bs before dinner was 120.

I really want to get some kind of exercise tomorrow, even if it's just swimming. Maybe ride the bike if my leg can take it. We'll see.

It's 9 pm right now. I really don't think I'll need to eat anymore today. But, if I do, it will be 1 T. of rf peanut butter with 1/2 a banana. Looking back at my menu, I see I weas very low on protein today. I think I need to fit in a scoop of soy protein each day to prevent being low on that. And hooray! I think I got all my water in today.

If you made a tortilla with hummus for dinner Trisha, let me know how you liked it! Someone on here was talking about salmon patties...I may need to fit that in somewhere tomorrow!

Night....

Vicki

Vicki,

Just a thought here, but I weigh 259 and my point range is 28-33 for the day. With your weight, your range should be 24-29. I'd just hate to see your sabotage yourself when you're working so hard to lose! One point is roughly 50 calories, so that gives you an idea of calories for the day.

Have a great day!

Hi Stacey. Yes, according to the WW member web site I got my info from, weighing 200 - 224 should have you eating 24 - 29 points a day. I also read about 'exercise points'. allowing yourself an extra point for each 20 minutes of aerobic exercise. I also read where it was suggested that when you are exercising, you should eat at the high end of the point range. So basically, I just always start out with 28 points in my bank. If I do a long video, or at least 40 minutes of treadmill/biking at the Y, I allow for that. Usually I don't even get that many in, though. It's become fun to see how many I can have left at the end of the day. Yesterday my grand total was 23.5. And, if 1 point is approx 50 calories, 30 would be great, since that comes to 1500 cals, and I can lose on that. Thank you. :) I always appreciate info from WW members.


FBS was 128 this morning. I ended up with a cup of warm SM before bed last night, with 2 t. of sf Nestle Quick in it. Just taking the carrot cake muffins out of the oven, planning on a couple of them for breakfast, along with a cup of coffee with 2 T. of vanilla soy creamer. Water, pills, vitamins.....

back later.

Vicki

Yum! Carrot cake muffins! I will be over in 10 minutes! oh, darn you are in Ohio. I don't s'pose I could get you to FedEx me one? No? Dang, I will probably have to make one for myself. I have a really good recipe in my "Butter Busters" cookbook. Remember when we were all NO FAT at all? But the recipes are still good.

Maybe I will look into the points thing, so far I have resisted only because I think I already know the right way to eat, and already memorized all the fat and calorie counts of foods, already know the old WW exchange plan. Basically, I think we can sum up good nutrition this way: eat a lot of veggies and fruits, a moderate amount of lean meat and dairy, a small amount of the right kind of fats, and try to avoid sweets and anything handed to one through a window while still in one's car. :) At this point I am trying to keep it simple and just avoid binging and blowing it all.

Your doctor must be soooo happy with you for losing all this weight and exercising. Yesterday I spoke with this woman whose husbands blood pressure is so high, he is a stroke waiting to happen. He doesn't respond to most normal blood pressure medications like beta blockers and diuretics, and has to have IV's of strong meds in the ER periodically. But get this, when I commented, "Oh, diet and exercise didn't help, huh?" she told me he REFUSES to modify his diet or to exercise at all. That, I don't understand. He would rather have a stroke and have someone else change his "grampers" for the rest of his life. My point is, that is unfortunately the more common story. Someone gets diagnosed with heart disease or hypertension or diabetes, and they say, oh that is a huge bother, I don't want to change my life, the bad stuff won't happen to ME.

That is why you and Monicapink in particular make me so admire you. When faced with the hell that is diabetes, you took control, and you are literally saving your own life. I wish you knew how rare that is!! So enjoy your muffin and have a wonderful, healthy new week! Love, Heather

Lunch today was my own layered fruit parfait. I started with 1/2 c. of fresh blueberries , put 1/2 c. of lowfat cottage cheese on top of that, then 1/2 c. of plain low fat yogurt on top of that. Added some vanilla and splenda. Then I sprinkled 1/4 c. of no fat added granola on that. It was great!

We did some grocery shopping, I was terribly low on produce. We stopped for a McDonald's cone on the way home.

I made an oriental vegetarian soup at dinner. ff chicken broth, flavored with some chinese 5-spice, and soy sauce. I sliced up some snow peas, fresh mushrooms added some shredded carrots. Pretty tasty.....then I had a Lean Cuisine. Plenty of room left in my eating plan for a good snack later if I choose. Been craving peanut butter, I may have a little later.

Did drink all my water today.

Heather, the muffins were really good. I wish you did live closer so you could have come and shared one! I think you have the right attitude concerning food. If you can do this without having to track what you eat, go for it....I've tried and tried to just eat what I know is healthy. I'm TIRED of tracking every single morsel that goes in my mouth. But some how, some way....I just don't lose weight. I'm sick to death of worrying about food all the time. Oh my...now where did this rant come from??? I just wanted to say keep doing what is working for you. Yes, my Dr is very pleased with me. She says I am a sucess story even though I feel I'm not cause I'm so far from where I want to be. And I take care of my diabetes sporadically, I'm afraid. When I find myself in binge mode, I'm not taking too good of care. And there I go again...you gave me a wonderful nice compliment and I can't even accept that gracefully. Thank you Heather for the kind words. :o

Geesh, I better get off here.

Vicki

Hello vicki~~well first i must say your doing great and i hope you can accept that. secondly for me i have to ttrack the food(every morsel) or i go overboard. even when i think im eating good its still too much according to ww so i have to follow it to lose.
i know when i follow the plan i lose and when i stray from it i dont lose or i lose very little and it shows foir me on the scale at weigh in how i did all week.

i do have occasions where i use judgement and dont use points but thats only once in awhile. i wish i didnt have to coutn every food i ate but i do.
i go overboard very easily too so i have to always watch and plan.
i think its great your using ww to track what your eating. it helps to know the value of the foods your choosing.
well have a great sunday!

First off, I have to report that I am just home from the Y. Did 20 minutes on a bike, and 5 upper body machines. This is the start of Day 7 of eating back on track. I just couldn't resist the scales...and yahoo! I am down 2 pounds, weighed in at 204 today.

FBS was a little high this morning, 154. Breakfast was 3/4 c. of bran flakes, 1/2 c. of sm, 1/2 banana, and coffee with vanilla soy creamer. I always try to eat something after I've been working out and sweating, so I had a carrot cake muffin. It's 12:30, I've had 40 oz of water so far. Haven't decided on lunch yet. I did find a bean casserole online that uses soy crumbles in it. I think that is going to be dinner tonight.

Thank you Minnie. Compliment graciously accepted. :bow: Your encouragement means a lot to me. At the present time I am finding the point system a very good way to track what I'm eating.

Ok, I'm off to visit a few journals! Back later.

Vicki

Hello and good job at the Y and on the exercise.
following the points too is a sure way to lose weight if its followed especially with exercise added in there too.
i enjoy exercise now but when i first started it was hard cuz i wasnt used to it but its getting easier. well have a good day!

Monday continued

Just wanted to finish posting today's menu. Lunch turned out to be 1 slice of thin crust veggie pizza, along with 1/2 of a turkey sandwich. Ran some errands, came home had a cup of mint green tea. Dinner was 1 c. of Easy bean Casserole, a salad made with field greens, 2 T. of feta cheese, 2 saltines, and 2 T. of ff poppy seed dressing. 1/2 c. of cottage cheese. I couldn't even finish it.

Thanks Minnie. I really enjoy my time at the Y. :)

Nite!

Vicki

Day 8 and feeling great

Just wanted to post my day so far. FBS was 136 this morning. Breakfast was 1 c. of oatmeal (1/2 c. dry) with 1 T. of rf peanut butter stirred in. So good..it's one of my favorite breakfasts. 1 cup of coffee with creamer and sweetner. Then it was out to the Y, and I rode the bike for 20 minutes, and got my whole free weight routine in and did the lat pull as well. Then I swam for a bit, sat in the whirlpool. It all felt great. Lunch when I got home was 1 Banquet ff chicken patty between 2 slices of Wonder Light Italian bread, with 2 cups of watermelon. 48 oz of water so far.

Tried to make an appt for my son's Sr pictures, but couldn't reach the photographer. Hope to do that later.

I haven't figured out dinner yet, but I need to be sure and include lots of veggies in there as I haven't had any yet today. I've got some chitpotle flavored tortillas, maybe some pizzas made with them, and loads of veggies on them. I've also got some blueberries in the fridge I need to use today. I'm going to search out a new blueberry muffin recipe I think.

Vicki

I found a recipe for 3 point blueberry muffins which turned out quite well. I had one warm from the oven for an afternoon snack. I've got this huge thing for Doritos too, and have been wanting some, so DH got me a vending machine size bag and brought home to me. It was a little treat for 3.75 points....but I sure enjoyed it. I think the idea is out of my system now, and I'm happy I didn't buy a large bag and go nuts. My son and I were at the grocery earlier today, and he noticed a buy one, get one free sale on bags of Doritos, and actually thought we should get a couple bags! He was teasing me.

We made veggie pizzas with tortillas for dinner, ff mozerella cheese. Also had a serving of Easy Bean Casserole left over from last night, and made some fat free creamy coleslaw. I ate half my pizza and half the slaw..and was full.

Got all my water in, too. And had my mint green tea.

DH and I went for a short walk with doggie after dinner . The weather is so amazingly cool right now it's unreal.

That's it for the night.

Vicki

Things are still going extremely well here, which I am very thankful for. FBS this morning was 133. Breakfast was ff shredded hash browns, egg beaters, 1 slice of light Italian bread toasted, with 1 T. of orange marmalade. 1 large cup of coffee with hazelnut soy creamer. 16 oz of water so far, pills, vitamins...

I'm not working out today, my upper body especially is screaming for a rest. Hopefully at some point today I'll get out for a walk. When my leg feels stronger I'm wanting to get back into my Richard Simmon's work out tapes. The weather is absolutely gorgeous. Not real sure about taking off alone, somewhat leery of my leg giving out again. DH has school tonight, kids will both be gone..so if I go it will be just me and my doggy.

More later.

Vicki