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wannabebarbie
08-01-02, 05:30 PM
Hey everyone Im new but im sure you've seen alot of my posts here and there b/c I absolutely LOVE DT!! Anyway- When you hear or read that a girl is 5'4 135 with muscular legs, wears a size 2 and has a large chest what comes to mind? FAT? or thin? The more and more I think about my weight the more it disgusts me..I have no idea if I weigh alot b/c of my chest and legs or if Im truely overweight.. and even if i knew that I wasn't overweight Im not sure Id stop being so obsessed with losing weight.Sometimes looking in the mirror really gets me down.. other times I look in the mirror and wonder howI only look good 1 out of the 365 days of the year.. I truely make myself believe that I am fat sometimes, and other times Im so happy that I am what I am..I know I never want to be back at my original weight b/c I was misrable and I can picture myself 15 pounds lighter its just the matter of staying stong and getting there. Everyone says not to compare yourself to hollywood starts like sarah michelle gellar, jennifer aniston or skinny minnies like them but that alone is so hard NOT to do when you see them in magazine pictures with the most itty bitty waist that you wonder what size they are.. cant be a size 2 b/c im a size 2 and they dont look ne thing like me. I do like alot fo things about myself and I luv myself but the 15 pounds hanging on is SUCH A STRUGGLE!!!!!!

bell
08-01-02, 06:00 PM
When i read your stats i dont think fat thats for sure. But no matter what our size i think its still easy to be unhappy. i understand fully what you are saying.
i am nearing my ultimate goal yet i still pick at myself and have trouble believing compliments.
i think its all about mindset. it working on our inner selves as well as the outside.
we need to love ourselves i guess is what i'm saying.....we can do this!
hugs bell :)

wannabebarbie
08-02-02, 10:14 AM
thanx for the reply bell :) your definately right, and congrats on almost being at your goal!!! I just started this past monday and its not hard anymore or as hard as I thought- its jsut now that I have that # 120 as a goal its hard not to get dissapointed. I have done really good this week though! DT helps me so much to actually stay with it and not fall off the wagon!

Jenny540
08-02-02, 11:36 PM
If you are honest-to-god a size 2, then you must look really good. Are you seriously a size 2? I'm jealous. I'm 5'5, about 128 now, and I can squeeze into size 4 jeans, just barely. They're tight. You must have a really compact, muscular build. Plus if you're chesty, that can add on pounds that don't make you look fat but just add to the number on the scale. When I hear your height and weight, I don't think "fat," that's just a normal sort of height and weight for a young woman. It's not "hollywood thin" like you're talking about with all those movie actresses, but it's nowhere near having a weight problem that "needs" to be addressed, either. If you're seriously wearing all size 2 clothes, there's just no way you look the least bit chunky.

wannabebarbie
08-05-02, 12:27 PM
well i do really wear a 1/2 in clothes- I just have a muscular build so no big butt no big legs, no hips and a very narrow waist. Im fine from the waist down. the only thing is I gain weight in the tummy. It doenst stick out but its a lil flabby. btw lucky you on being 128! thats awesome on your weight loss my goal is also 125 or 120. It's like- b/c I used to be chunky or fat I have this never ending fear that im fat and I feel I always have to be on a diet and always need to lose "10 more pounds" but it turns in to 15 . and then more and so on. My boyfriend is works at 24hr fitness and is always telling me that Im not the least bit chunky and Im the right size and its all in my head that im fat b/c of what the scale says but MOST girls dont have all the muscle in their legs like me. Its just so hard for me to believe him b/c im so SET on what the scale says that its sad. Its mostly a fear from remembering how I used to be and I never want to go back.

Jenny540
08-11-02, 01:21 PM
Thanks, but I'd rather be 135 and a size 2 than 128 and a size 4/6! You probably look smaller than I do, I'm almost sure of it. The number on the scale isn't EVERYTHING.

wannabebarbie
08-12-02, 12:20 PM
Hey jenny how are you? Hows the weight loss goin? well I finally am sticking to it and losin the Pounds... YAY!!! Im counting my calories and planning what I can eat out AS I GO which helps trememdously! :) how are things with you?

Jenny540
08-12-02, 01:47 PM
Hi,
I've still been working out as much as before, but I increased my daily calorie count to about 1800/day. I go back to college in two weeks, and I need to get used to eating in a more normal way. Back at school I have less control over what I eat (having to eat lunch every day in a dining-hall type situation) and I like to drink with friends a few times a week. I haven't been drinking socially all summer, so I haven't had to deal with that obstacle.

I'm pretty much done with losing weight. I'm at 127.5 right now. I'd like to lose 2 more lbs, max, before I go back to school, then maintain my weight in the range of 125-127 this fall. This is a big deal for me. I'm sure that weight doesn't sound small for my height (5'5) but I'm almost 22 and I haven't been this low since I was sixteen years old! I've been right around 140 for the past several years.

I'm really excited to go back to school and see if my college friends see the difference. I know it is there, my body is quite different after losing 13-15 lbs and working out constantly, but it will be great if people notice after not having seen me all summer.

Good luck and I hope you can get a body you'll be happy with! Don't get too tiny or else you'll have nowhere to shop for cute clothes!

Yatravn
09-04-02, 04:21 AM
Wow, a size 2? I am 5'3" 117lbs, and I wear a size 7/8. I can barely squeeze into (a major accomplishment mind you) a pair of size 5 jeans. My sister used to be really thin, underweight actually at 5'4" 103 lbs and she couldn't even wear a size 2! I guess we are all shaped very differently!

perfectparanoia
09-04-02, 10:25 AM
I thinkg what these people are trying to get at is that your b/f is probably right. Yeah so you have some flab on your tummy. Do abdominal exercises to get them to be firmer. If you are already a size 2, chances are that you are not overweight. Go see your doctor and get him or her to make a better assessment than we here can. They really do know what they are talking about as they deal with this every day.

I'm only about 5 4 and 135 is an ideal weight for me. In fact, when I was 135 (it seems so long ago) my parents and friends (and b/f) all tried to get me to GAIN weight. Every one is different. Throw out your scale. It's causing you more grief than you need.

Raven McCoy
09-04-02, 01:24 PM
I can wear a size 2 from Old Navy of American Eagle, (I am 5'5) and 120 right now (about 35,23,36). At 110 a 2 from these places was pretty big. The thing is these stores market to middle class and lower class people, (no offence they are MY fav's), and these people tend to be chubbier. But.... models and attresses wear desiger clothes. I take a 7/8 or 9/10 in high end stuff. And each year even reputable designers lower their sizes so the customers can fit a smaller size.That's why it seems odd that a 6'0 and 110 pound model would wear the same size. Sorry, but the truth is it's just a marketing gimmick to make us all feel better about ourselves. Also I think in europe and austrillia the sizes are still more accurate. I'm from Canada, and depending where I shop I can take from a 2 to a 12. I think when I get close to 100 pounds I will be a real 2, (I hope).
Good lucking to everyone in trying for their goals.
Another thing I get soooo mad when people make the comment that Marilyn Monroe was a 16...trying to say that the ideal has changed so much. When she made most famous films she was 5'5 and 117, c'mom would that be a freaking 16???