Hey people

I've decided to start a new journal, because it's the end of my treatment (that was on Monday actually) and therefore the end of that phase of my life. Wahey!!!

I was going to write in my old journal that I was starting a new one, but it was back on like page 7 or 8 so I decided not to bother.

Anyway, it's feeling a little weird that the treatment's all over, although not as weird as I thought it would. My friends were going to take me out for dinner, but one of them wasn't feeling so great so a couple of us went round to his house, which was excellent.

My boob's a lot better than it was, and I've finally taken the dressing off, and washed that area for the first time in about a month - which is good 'cos it was getting smelly, especially with the high temperatures we've been getting recently.

So now, I'm trying to start to gradually do some exercise again - just walking at the moment - I'm not comfortable even walking just the mile into town at the moment. I'll get back there soon though.

I'm going on holiday in a week and 3 days - so I've got something to look forward to, and also something to plan for - first off, I have to tidy my bedroom so I can actually find what I want to take with me. And we're going to have a private pool, so I'll be able to swim every day, which should make it easier to get back into the exercise thang!

Food's been good the last couple of days, and I'm getting the weight back down, nice and slowly - am down to very nearly 10 pounds gone again, which I'm pretty chuffed with. (weigh in still on Wednesdays)

Hope everyone's keeping well.

Chuckles

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Yay!!! It's over!! Oh, Chuckles, I am so happy for you! :rose:
Now you can concentrate on enjoying your holiday and the rest of summer. Will you be starting back at the Uni in the fall? Or will you take a bit more time to heal and enjoy life?

I bet that shower felt wonderful :)

Down 10 lbs! Woo-hoo!!! This is foryou:
:gflower: :balloons: :up: :hug:

Be gentle with yourself until you are all healed. Exercise is great but it will wait until you are 100%.

Enjoy your new start. I want to hear all about your vacation! Love, Heather

wooohoooooo

:balloons: You made it through :balloons:


I am so proud of you , my friend


you are true inspiration !!!!


I can't imagine the courage it takes to face what you did.... and always here for all of us through it too

the respect I have for you and your ways is amazing !!!!!


you are so deserving of a great holiday!!!!

hope to talk with you lots before you go !!!



have a great day, you amazing woman


:hug: Pengi

Good morning people.

I hope you all had a lovely weekend. I had a pretty good weekend, and my eating and drinking were especially good. And I managed to walk to the postbox and back (1/2 mile each way), which was a pretty big achievement. And walked up the stairs to the attic, which was well hard!! But then that always has been.

I've been a bit worried recently. My 2 best friends have always fancied each other (for about 7 years) but have never got together, mostly because the bloke has absolutely no confidence, and has never believed that she likes him. I always thought that it would be great if they got together. But the other day, she sent a letter to him, telling him how she feels, and now I'm kind of worried. That our relationships will change (obviously they will anyway), that they won't have so much time for me, that they won't need me so much any more. I guess that's just something I'll have to cope with if it does happen, although we're all such good friends that I'm sure it will only be a little bit anyway.

My boob is beginning to look like a normal part of my body again, and hardly hurts anymore, which is great. It's healed much quicker than they said it would, which is definitely a good thing (well, obviously), but especially because I was worried about the weather in Spain making any problems I had even worse. Now it looks like I won't really have a problem, except with having to apply factor 60 sunscreen all the time.

Heather - thanks for the support. I am going to go back to uni in October, and I can't wait. I'm so bored of not really having anything to do, and while I'm nervous, the positives definitely outweigh the negatives. Don't worry too much about the exercising. The dr told me to start exercising again, just to take it slowly and to listen to my body, which is exactly what I am doing - and I've learnt how to listen to my body a lot better in the last year. But it's good to know you care.

Pengii - Aww, you're making me blush. I suppose I'm pretty proud of myself too. But, you know, it's often much easier to worry about other people's problems than it is about your own - especially when your own seem so enormous. I'm certainly planning to talk loads too (she says, having not come here at the weekend)

Hope you all have a lovely day.

Chuckles

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you are such a courageous and inspiring person Chuckles. you have been through so much yet still have a wonderful outlook on life, and find time to support others.
i think you are awesome! so happy to hear that you are healing well.
hugs bell :)

Good morning (or at least, there's still 12 minutes to go til afternoon here).

I don't really have much to say today, or much time to say it. I've got quite a lot of stuff to do if I want to go on holiday on Monday - wow, less than a week to go!!

So I'll just say that yesterday wasn't a great day, but was still pretty good. And I did find time to walk up to the attic again, for no other reason than to try and make that possible without a struggle eventually.

bell - nice of you to drop by, its nice to know that I can inspire other people here, as well as being inspired - I have been by you, and a lot of other people too.

Hope you are all doing well.

Chuckles

Miss Chuckles:

Wow girl I am so happy for you that the treatments are all over. How exciting to be going on another holiday.:)
Also I am sure your friends will still have time for you even if their relationship changes. They sound like a great bunch of friends. Keep up the great work and have a wonderfull holiday. By the way where are you going this time?

Judy2

hey Chuckles !!!

woohooo one week to go !!!

do you know any spanish? omg you are gonna have a great time...any thing on the do to list other than have a ton of fun??


Things will prob be good if your friends get together...it is when close friends break up that is a tough one ! lol and hopefully you dont have to deal with that ever!

I think it nice you helped push them together too !

ohhhh only seven sleeps till holidays !! or only 6??

WHAT FUN !!!

tell us all about it !!

have a great day chuckles !!

:hug: Pengi

Good morning.

I'm in a really good mood this morning. Not sure why. And I haven't even taken my anti-depressants yet. Which reminds me......

Ok, I've done that now. It was my weekly weigh in today, and I've lost 2 pounds since last week. Wahey! 11 pounds gone!! Hmm, maybe that's got something to do with the good mood.

It's odd, I was really surprised when I got on the scales this morning - "I'm really losing" - because I don't feel like I'm having to put a lot of effort in. But then, the last few months, when I've been gaining or staying the same, I've either been binging, or cooking like a whole extra meal. Now I'm not doing that, so it's bound to make a difference. And apart from the extra meal and the binging, my eating patterns are pretty healthy and sensible anyway. I know what to do, after all, I just have to put it into practise. And now I am.

I talked with my male friend, and he said that they went out yesterday (after exchanging letters with each other, cos they were both too shy to say anything. awww) and have decided to take it further. Oh, this is ridiculous. I don't want to call them by their real names. So I'll just call them .... Romeo and Juliet!! Hopefully it won't end like that though - what an awful thought.

Now that it's happened, and also that I thought it through and talked it over with mum (and you guys), I feel nothing but pleasure for them. Frankly, it's about time. They met when they were 14, 7 years ago, and have liked each other the whole time. Anyway, it's Juliet I'm going on holiday with (and mum and dad), so lots of time to spend with each other. She's going to Togo for 4 months in September anyway, as part of her degree course.#

Judy - we're going to Spain, to the Costa Blanca - yes, where there was a car bomb the other day. Oh well, could happen anywhere. It's odd, because that's 2 holidays abroad in the last couple of months, but before that I hadn't been abroad for about 3 years. Can't complain. :D Oh, and, by the way, it's lovely to see you again. Will pop by your journal in a minute - when I've finished writing this novel.

Pengii - I used to be able to speak Spanish pretty fluently - I did Spanish A level (what we study from 16-18) and to be honest I was a bit of a boff and did extra work, and also found it pretty easy - I'm good at foreign languages. I've forgotten a lot of it, but it should come back pretty quickly - stuff like that normally does. And Juliet studied Spanish in her first year at uni, as well as doing an A level in it. So we'll be fine while I'm chatting up the Spanish blokes - looks like she won't be now. Oh well, more for me!! And it's only 5 sleeps to go! Hurrah!!!

It's my mum's birthday while we're on holiday too (15th August) which is kind of fun. The only plans we have are to make the most of our private pool (just had to mention it for like the millionth time), go to the beach, look at the culture, and get very hot. We've also just bought loads of books to read (we all love reading), so we plan to have lots of fun, and do lots of relaxing. My ideal holiday, basically.

Hope you all have a wonderful day.

Chuckles

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:rose: Congratulation 4 ur sucess , I'm so glad 4 u , wish all the good luck of the world :o

Miss Chuckles:

Wow Spain this time huh. Should be one great vacation. And your Mum's birthday to top it off. I hope you have a most wonderfull time there. Take lots of pictures and tell us all about it when you get back. I hope you and your friend have a blast while your there. Since she will be gone for 4 months after that. Also I am happy we were able to help you see that your 2 friends will always be there for you even if they get together for good. Oh what a blast that would be. I can just see you at their wedding as the maid of honor. What a cool memory that would be.
Have a great day.

Judy2

Good evening.

I carried on having an excellent day yesterday. Except (and this is kind of embarrassing) I fell asleep on the sofa watching TV. I had a counsellor's appt at 2 (it takes about 45 mins to get there) and woke up at 2:50 - which isn't quite right!! And I only woke up because a friend (Romeo, actually) called me. And then I fell asleep again about an hour later, and only woke up when Romeo called again. It might sound like he was calling me a lot, but we were trying to arrange a night out for a few of us, and there were loads of complications - times of trains, people getting home from work etc.

So anyway, I had to phone and do a bit of grovelling. Which unfortunately meant that I won't be seeing her until after my holiday, but I'll cope. I didn't feel I had that much to say to her anyway.

In case you didn't get it from that bit above, I went out last night - with Romeo, Juiliet, and a mutual friend, who I'll call ...... Mercutio!! Gosh, I sound very cultured don't I? Maybe I should have gone for Harry and Sally?? Anway, it was a bit awkward at first - because we haven' seen Romeo and Juliet since they got together, and I was worried that Romeo had told Mercutio that I fancy him (although getting together would seem mildly incestuous - the 4 of us have been a really close group of friends for ages). But we had an excellent night (even if I did get a little tipsy - but then I hardly ever drink anything, so it doesn't take much to do that).

The food was reasonable while I was out - I went for a chicken and salad wrap, but it was served with chips (sorry, fries). But they were twister fries!! Which makes it all alright.

And the food today has been really good. I'm really proud of myself on that front. Not entirely sure I've had enough to drink though, should keep more of an eye open. Or maybe I should try and drink with my mouth - I could probably drink more that way.

And when I walked into town yesterday evening, to catch the train, it wasn't very hard work at all - my fitness is coming back pretty quickly. Which is, I think, because my fitness was reasonable (although not great) before this all started.

Anyway, I'm still looking forward to the holiday - only 3 sleeps to go now (I should probably say 2.5, because we have to get up at some undecent hour of the night on Monday morning.

Thanks vouvaa, nice to see you popping by.

Judy - looks like your imagination is running away with you on the friends' wedding front (says the girl who's nicknamed them Romeo and Juliet lol), as they got together nearly a week away. But you're right - that would be amazing.

Hope you're all alright.

Chuckles

Miss Chuckles:

Geez ya think I have an imagination............:rofl:
I am a true romantic at heart. I loved Romeo and Julliet except it should have had a different ending.
Hope your trip is wonderfull and you will have to tell us all about it. I am sure you will get plenty of exercising in with all the sight seeing you will be doing.

Judy2

miss chuckles, just wanted to pop in & say hi!! sounds like you'll have a great time in spain!!
so you have a thing for Mercutio...I'll assume he's cute!!!LOL!! they say good friends make the best lovers so I hope it works out for you both!!!!

almost no sleeps now !!!!


SPAIN !!!


how I envy you my dear friend


please take a deep breath of the spanish air and enjoy a special view for your ol friend pengii


you deserve the best...and hope you have a happy, heathy, safe trip


you are dear to my heart


have a blast !!!!!!


:hug: :hug: :hug: Pengii !!!


oh what the heck...one more :hug: lol

Hi

Well, just a short one really, to say that I'm going on holiday tomorrow morning (at 5am! ARGH!), so I won't be here for a while. I'll probably pop in on 29th August. So don't worry that I'm not here!

Thanks for popping by, Judy, buji and pengi, I'll answer when I get back. I should go to bed - it's 10pm here.

Have a good couple of weeks.

Chuckles

chuckles, have a wonderful & safe trip!!!! tell us all about it when you return!!!
we'll miss you!!!!:c(

WOOOHOOO--SO GLAD TO HEAR YOU ARE THROUGH WITH YOUR TREATMENTS!!! :balloons: :tongue:arty: :gflower: :cheer:
also--congrats on your recent 2lb loss!!! YOU ARE LOOKING MARVELOUS!!
Have a good vacation!!!
You certainly deserve it!!!!
Otto
:rose:

Well, I'm back from my holiday (got back last night actually) and it was amazing. One of my favourite holidays. The villa was lovely (and I swam 13 out of 14 days in our swimming pool - even swam a mile one day), the food was great (tee hee) and it was wonderful to be able to spend so much time with Juliet, my bestest friend ever.

And I lost 1 pound while I was there as well - losing weight on holiday - gotta be a first. I lost a lot of inches as well, I reckon, loads of my clothes fit me so much better than they did - that all be all the swimming then, and the walking. It makes a big difference when you've done pretty much no exercise for the last few months.

And I've got a nice tan going - don't worry I was very careful, and didn't burn and always wore sunscreen. Mostly because I knew the doctors wouldn't be too pleased with me when I went in for my check-up if I was sunburnt - especially as my consultant is a specialist in breast cancer and skin cancer!

That's pretty much all I've got time for at the moment, I'll let you know some of the stories from my holiday over the next few days, or weeks, or whatever.

Hope you are all well.

Chuckles

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Good to find your new journal! I'm glad that you had a wonderful holiday!!!! :) I look forward to hearing more about it! How fabulous... Spain!!!!:D And losing weight on your holiday I am so proud of you!!! You are doing just awesome, you're an inspiration to us all! Thanks for sharing with us!:lily:

Miss Chuckles:


Welcome back. So happy to hear you had an excellent time in Spain. I can't wait to hear all about your adventures there. A big congrats on losing a pound while away. That is a plus enjoying yourself and then losing a pound while gone. Have a great day and I will be checking back to read about your trip.


Judy2 :rose:

SO GLAD YOU ARE HOME

happy healthy and always wise !!!! :)

and way to go !! :balloons: lost weight on holiday!!!!!!

wow


you must feel absolutely wonderful !!!!

you deserve it so !!!!


I cant wait to hear the details


sounds awesome

you are awesome



:hug:


catch up with you later


xoxox

Pengi

Welcome back, Chuckles!

I happy to hear you had a wonderful trip. Tell us all about it, please!!!

Details. Details. What did you eat, what did you do, who did you meet, where all did you go?

Hi again.

Well, we stayed in a villa just outside Javea, a town on the Costa Blanca, about half way between Alicante and Valencia. We went to both of them, and to Elche, and to lots of little hillside villages, and to the beach (but just the once).

Where do I start with the stories. Maybe with the most funny ones? Ok, me and Juliet were wandering around Javea, and were standing on the pavement, minding our own business, when I got run over by an enormous motorbike!!! Ok, so maybe it wasn't that enormous, and maybe it was actually a scooter, but still. No permanent damage, just a shock and something to laugh about later. It ran over my little toe, and whacked into my behind - fortunately I have a lot of padding there :D . But that obviously led to a lot of comments about meeting men with enormous ................. motorbikes. Hahaha. Ok, so I have an immature sense of humour. But it's fun.

We went to Elche. The main attraction there is a date palm grove. The whole town is surrounded by date palms, and they are the only ones which actually have fruit in the whole of Europe. There's one tree there thats 150 years old, and is pretty unique because it's the only palm tree that has branches off the main trunk - most palm trees do have daughters, but they tend to grow later, and look like different trees from above ground, if you see what I mean. Anyway, it sounds better than it looks, because it has to be supported by lots of metal work so that it doesn't fall over. But it was a nice place to go, cool, shady, quieter than the town. But the real highlight of that day has to be the fact that we saw this bloke while we were walking to the park where these trees were. And he followed us all the way there. He did overtake us once or twice, but always waited at junctions and pretended to look at his map, tie his shoelaces, etc. And he came right into the park. And proceeded to follow me around all day. ME, not my amazingly attractive friend. ME. I probably would have smiled and said hi, but I was too embarrassed with my parents there - they were already taking the mickey about my admirer - it would have been worse if I'd spoken to him. Anyway, he was French, and my French consists of about 3 words. Mum took a photo of him. He looks pretty sexy. Even if it was a bit weird the lengths he went to.

Anyway, yesterday was ok. I didn't really do much exercise, because I was absolutely knackered. I think I need another holiday to get over my last one. That would be the life!! But I did do some unpacking, so I didn't just sit around on my butt all day. My eating was great, but to be honest, that was mostly because my stomach's feeling fragile. Still is, actually. I'll just have to look after it, and hope it disappears soon. And the tummy bug. Tee hee.

Kari - it really is great to see you again. Thanks for the praise, it makes me feel so much better.

Judy - lovely to see you again too (well of course!!) I'm coming to pop round your journal any minute now, when I finish this novel here, of course.

Pengii - I am pretty chuffed at losing weight on holiday. Mum gained 6 pounds. But all this praise from all these people. You better watch out, or I won't be able to get this big head of mine through the door!

Kilogo - hi again. See above for some details lol. More to come over the next few days, weeks. If I do too much at once, my hands might fall off or something, from all the typing (that's my excuse anyway, I might just be lazy. I'll let you decide).

Hope everyone has a lovely day.

Chuckles

Good morning (at least it probably is for most of you, it's afternoon here, but never mind) people.

I've found some free time, before settling down to watch the US Open (tennis). I've been pretty good today, sorting out my room (think this might be a long process). I've got 3 dustbin liners full of rubbish in my room, and I already chucked out 3 before we went on holiday. I'm such a hoarder, find it so hard to throw stuff away. But my room is ridiculous. Gives me something to work towards I suppose.

I've made a decision - unusual, I know, but it has to happen sometime. Tomorrow morning I am going to start on a gentle stretching/toning type exercise program, which I will do some of every day (you know, don't want to work the whole body every day), and I will add in aerobic stuff as and when I feel up to it. It's tomorrow I'm starting because I feel so much better when I do it in the mornings. Although I did run up to the attic again today, just to see if I could. And it's definitely easier than it was before we went on holiday. But, to be frank, that's not really hard. Still an achievement, though.

Food was pretty good again yesterday, although tummy's still dicky, and is going even better today. Must remember to drink more. It's harder to remember when it's not so hot like it was in Spain.

Anyway, kilogo asked me what we ate. Umm, lots of paella (both fish and meat), lots of fish - like trout, that I cooked for mum's birthday, and swordfish (one of my favourite), and hake, and sole, and tuna (steaks, not tinned) and probably a few others though I can't remember. It's weird, because I used to love fish when I was younger, and then I kind of choked on a fish bone and wouldn't have any for years. This summer was the first time I ate it in ages. It was scrummy. Can still do without the bones, though. The odd steak, lots of salad, went to a few tapas bars to sample some proper spanish food. Had salad and bread at least one meal a day (breakfast) and often 2. And only had the yummy scrummy ice-cream/other puds when there was something interesting on the menu (so most of the times when we went out). And the odd ice-cream walking around. Not many though. I liked the Spanish food.

Anyway, hope you're all having a good day/weekend.

Chuckles

paella yum lol


i drooled at your food finds lol


dreamed of the pool


the buildings


the atmosphere



lol... too nice chuckles !!!!!



the stretching toning thing is an awesome idea


really will wake up your muscles


i find myself stretching all the time...even when i slacked off my exercise


guess i was just so dam glad to know what a muscle felt like again


i wake up quickly when i stretch

i usually let the dogs out and stretch on the deck as they do their biz in the morn

and thank god i have a six foot fence around my yard hahahahhaha



so i feel good and dont scare the neighbors hahahhaha


i hoard stuff too... my house would be full except i tell myself now that if i havent used something in so long that someone else can prob use it more than me and drop it off at the center that gives stuff to the womens crisis center



then i still feel ok knowing someone else is happy to be using it


i remeber when i volunteered at the womens shelter...i used to help women move into new homes after they had left abusive homes


my luxury of life hit home the first time i moved a FAMILY and all they owned fit into the back of my 4runner


and they were so happy to just have that


so now i give what i can


anyhow

i have two days off work



hope to catch up with you soon


hope you are having a marvelous weekend



:hug: Pengi

Miss Chuckles:

Ooooooh how I love reading your journal. It always brings a smile to my face when I read things like knackered.......lol
Such a cute way of saying I am bushed, dead tired, to pooped to pop etc. And what a hoot that must have been for you when that scooter ran over your toe. :D And then you have a fella follow you into a park. Sounds to me like you have no problems meeting guys in foreign places.
Have a terrific day.

Judy2

Hiya, morning, etc.

Hey, look, I've gone orange, and I'm a senior diettalker now. Does that mean I can babble more nonsense now? I hope so, because I'm good at that.

I did my stretches this morning, and am feeling a lot better for it now. And my eating was good the rest of yesterday, and is fine so far today. Another thing I've been doing is moisturising all over every day. My skin's getting so soft, it's lovely. It's something I kind of do sometimes, but can never be bothered to keep up with it, because it's kind of knackering (sorry Judy, english expression, very common, I'll try and think of another one later) and takes a while with my big body! But I was doing it while I was on holiday, with suntan lotion and aftersun, and it reminded me what a difference it made. It's all about caring about myself.

Another way the holiday was good for me, is that Juliet and I made a lot of effort to think of ourselves as beautiful every day. Which really works (not quite so well on those pmt type days, but you can't have everything). So I'm trying to keep up with that too.

Pengii - I drooled a lot too. hmm, maybe that's why I got a few weird looks at the restaurants lol. It's nice trying different foods. Quite often I didn't know what something was on the menu, but thought I'd try it anyway. Which worked pretty well, on the whole.

We often take stuff to the charity shops (there are at least 15 in our town). At least, we put lots of stuff into binliners to take it there, and then a year later realise it's still there, so we chuck it out. Although we normally give some of it to the people who collect door to door.

It took me ages to work out why you wouldn't want your neighbours to see your dogs stretching on the deck, but I got it in the end. I find the bedroom, behind closed curtains, is a good place to do it. Especially since we still have a big hole in our fence. And my dad is prone to early morning gardening sessions.

Judy - I'm glad you enjoy it. Knackered is obviously a British word then. Umm, you could try whacked? Which is the only other one I can think of that I probably didn't get off American TV programmes.

Yeap, I can meet guys in foreign places. Just unusual ones. Should suit me, I suppose. But, the scooter, it was one of those that looks about as big as a motorbike, and it did hurt a lot - wasn't funny til afterwards. But is now. And it means I have a story to tell. But he was about 50, which is probably a bit too old for me - only 8 years younger than dad. Unfortunately I'm not so good at meeting guys in English places. Never mind, I'm fine being single. It's pretty fun, you know.

Hope you're all having a good weekend, I definitely am.

Chuckles

Hello, MissChuckles!

Paella, how wonderful. And tapas. Tapas bars are kind of becoming a thing around here, but I haven't been to one that I think is good yet. I love the idea and I bet the real thing is wonderful.

Knackered is a good word. I picked up "lovely" when I was in Cornwall for a month and still use it all the time. Do you say "brilliant", too? Something about how you guys pronounce it is so cute.

And I fell in love with clotted cream. We don't have that here. Just thought you needed to know that :laugh: .

Have a great day.

Hi

Today started really well. I was in a brilliant mood (so, kilogo, yes I do). And I ate a nice brekkie, and then did my stretches and a little bit of jumping up and down, jogging on the spot, walking up and down stairs. And had a nice shower. Umm, it's strange, because I always used to have a shower every day - it makes you feel so much better. And then while I was ill, what with not being able to get my arm wet, I stopped doing that. Then I'd kind of forgotten that I was worth it. And I was thinking this morning that it's so great that I've finally realised that I am worth it, I'm worth looking after and taking care of.

And so I went to the supermarket to pick up some much needed veggies and some chicken, and while I was there, picked up some pizza, and some ice cream, and some scotch eggs, and some crisps. And I got home and ate loads. So much for thinking that I'm worth it. I know, I know, no use in feeling bad about it now, just go on and do well from now on. So that's what I'm going to do. But still, it's a little depressing that I couldn't go shopping without picking up a load of unhealthy food. Especially since I'm going to be going back to uni soon, and doing all my own shopping. Although then I won't have the money to buy too much food.

Fortunately, I'm still feeling determined to do well, and get on with eating healthy and exercising well, and looking after myself for the rest of my life. Although I might start off with an hour at a time - easier to cope with! And I was wrong, it's not fortunate, it's because of my own personal strength, or inner strength, or whatever you want to call it. And I should be proud that I'm not going to let it undo all the good work I've done in the last few weeks.

Kilogo - the real thing is wonderful, you're right. But loads of the ones in Spain aren't real either, because they're done for tourists, not for locals. Generally, the darker a place is, and the noisier it is (with Spanish voices) the more authentic (and tastier) the food is. In case you're ever trying to choose between tapas bars.

I can't stand clotted cream - I'll send you my portion. In an envelope lol.

You have a great day too.

Chuckles (new, improved, persistant Chuckles)

I'm off now, I'm going to go and watch some tennis (that's if it's not raining over there).

Miss Chuckles:

I was going to say Good Afternoon but over there it's now evening. So Good evening. Just wanted to pop in and tell you Laural is sporting another trophy and guess what. Naw never mind guessing I will tell you. She maybe going to England next year to play soccer. She has been chosen here to be trained by a coach from England next year at a soccer camp and from there will get the chance to play on a Canadian All Star team :)
By the way what are you going to study in University?


Judy2

you sound absolutely wonderful !!

those dam scots and thier fried eggs huh lol

someone had to develope a way to deep fry an egg I guess 8-|


like ya said...it is done and move on


i find i do that too... but less and less as i feel stronger


same as the persoanl care treats


it seems when i feel better everything around me shines...including me

when on a low...well the dust piles and the skin drys lol


working on that today


just wanted to send ya a quick :wave:

enjoy the tennis and the rest of your eve


:hug: Pengii

Morning

Well, last night, because of the rain, there wasn't much tennis on, just matches I'd already seen. So instead I watched "I'm a celebrity get me out of here!" which is really amusing. It's a load of D list celebrities left in a jungle, a la Survivor, but only for 2 weeks. And they have to do really awful tasks to earn food, like stand in a tankful of snakes and rumage through them to find gold stars. That's not why I watch it. They're just all really amusing. And it's nice to see a bit more about what they're really like.

Things are going very well this morning. Well, they have ever since my last post, because I stuck to my guns and just got on with the healthiness and the exercise, without wasting time beating myself up over my lapse. Although I did tell my mum about it. Which is in itself a big improvement. Normally I can't tell her about things like that until a few weeks afterwards.

So, it's now 3 days in a row that I've done my exercises, so I'm very chuffed with that. And apart from that one slip, my eating's been pretty good since I got home. And I never really find it hard to drink enough. I used to get really bad problems with being dehydrated when I was growing up, so I'm really attuned to whether my body needs more fluid. So all in all I'm pretty proud, and ready to face tomorrow's weigh-in head on. Maybe, actually I should rethink that, and stand on the scales feet first, not head first :)

I'm going out tonight with a couple of friends, because one of them is going to be 21 on Friday, but isn't going to be here, so we're celebrating today. I bought her some perfume - John Paul Gaultier Classique. What do you think? I hope she likes it.

Judy - wow again for Laural's achievements. That's so great. I'm going to do the last year of my 3 year law degree. Then who knows. I might do a Masters, or maybe a Phd (a doctorate, I mean - at least, I think they're the same).

Pengii - why thanks, I feel pretty wonderful actually. Fortunately, the cleaner came today, for the first time in 2 months - she had an operation - so it's only my room that's dusty, not the whole house. It's me that looks after the house in between times, since mum and dad are too busy to do much cleaning and tidying. Don't know how they cope when I'm not here!!! Well, um, maybe they don't produce as much mess as I do.

Feeling great today - hope you all are too.

Chuckles.

Miss Chuckles:

That's so cool your doing a law degree. That's what Laural wants to do when she leaves for University. Thankfully it's still 3 years off but with the way time flies by it will get here so soon.
Congrats on keeping up with your exercises. Never look back just keep on looking forward just like your doing. :)
Have a most wonderfull day.

Judy2:rose: :rose:

good for you on sticking to your exercise!!! that's soooo impotant!!!!! have a terrific day...:D

Morning

Feeling pretty good again this morning (well, actually it's afternoon here, but don't tell anyone).

Last night was so much fun. We just talked and laughed for hours. And because we were talking so much, we only needed one drink to last the evening, because we didn't have time to pour our drinks into our mouths! So just one glass of wine for me. And she really liked the perfume, so that's good (no, really?)

I nearly didn't do my exercise today. But then I decided that I'd done 3 days in a row, so I could do another. So that's 4 days. That's pretty chuffing (hmm, maybe that's not really a word, but never mind).

Eating was quite good yesterday. Not perfect, but good nonetheless. And today's is going to be good too. And I'm going to get some walking in today as well. I've decided to go to the Citizens Advice Bureau, because I've been getting benefits (you probably call it welfare) while I've been ill, but I think they've been shortchanging me (I think they owe me about £200-250). So I'm going to find out where I stand. Mum will be really proud of me as well, because she keeps going on (and then on a bit more lol) about how it's important to get out of the habit of other people doing things for me, and get on with doing them myself.

So that sounds like a good plan to me. Although I'll probably have to sit around and wait for ages. But it should be worth it.

Judy - yeah, I noticed that Laural wants to do law. It's a good choice - hard, but really interesting. At least, that's how I find it. And I am planning to have a wonderful day (what's left of it at least)

buji - thanks for dropping by again. Exercise is important, it's just that sometimes I seem to be quite good at convincing myself that it's as important as all that.

Anyway, got to go (the ladies' room is calling my name).

Hope you all have a truly great day.

Chuckles

PS weigh in today - stayed the same.

Hello, MissChuckles,

Congratulations on 4 days of exercise! Good for you. It gets to be a habit pretty quickly.

Sounds like a fun time with your friends. It's always great when you can tell that someone really likes your gift.

Hmm, clotted cream by post. THAT sounds yummy.

Good luck on getting more bucks (oops, I mean quid) out of the system. Hope they do owe you more :) .

Hello people.

Feeling good again today (getting to be a habit - can't be a bad thing).

Well, I sat around in the waiting room yesterday for about an hour. Then I went in, and all that the bloke did was call the DSS for me and asked them to send me a letter either saying that they'd be giving me incapacity benefit, and backdating the payment, or a letter detailing why they wouldn't be giving me the benefit. And then I could go and see them again if I wanted to contest the decision. Well, I could have done that myself!! A whole hour in the waiting room. At least mum was proud of me. But still .... an hour.

Eating was even better yesterday, things are going well here. It's a hard slog, but worth it. I feel so much better about myself when I'm putting the effort into being healthy.

I did my exercise again this morning - that's 5 days now - I'm really chuffed with that. And I cooked myself a really nice healthy lunch today - roast vegetable kebabs served on a bed of brown rice and sweetcorn, seasoned with thyme and cayenne pepper - yummy. But I did have to rush, so I could get to my counsellor's appointment on time. I managed not to sleep through that this time! Which meant that I got more exercise in today, because I reckon I walked about 2 miles today, all told, and I really tried to work hard. Feel a bit smelly now though - might shower again before I go out (in case you were wondering!)

And tonight I'm going to the cinema, to see either The Guru, or The Sweetest Thing - I haven't quite decided yet. Might leave it til we get there. Or try and convince my friend to make the decision.

Kilogo - thanks for being here to cheer me on! Yay me!! I thought you might like me to send you the clotted cream - that's me - thoughtful. By the way, I like the new avatar - goes well with your eyes!

Hope everyone has a great day.

Chuckles

... and was scanning some journals looking for a little encouragement. You know, five days of exercise seems impossible to me. But, you have given me the inspiration......

Keep up the amazing trend....

Tonight is day one for me......


How was the movie?

Liz

chuckles, you keep up the good work now!!!! you can make it a daily habit, some days easy & some a little harder...as long as you get that heart pumping!!!!

those offices & paperwork....too frustrating!!! but you handled it well!!!! good for you!!!!

Now how did you know I have green eyes?

They do match the green water in that avatar. Wasn't that sweet of tmayder to send it to me?

I hate sitting in the Dr's office. Complete waste of time. Why can't they get you in the door when they say they will?

Good morning people

Feeling great again this morning (this exercise and liking myself thing must be pretty good for me).

My eating went really well yesterday. There was nearly a setback at the cinema - my friend decided to buy pick n mix. I decided to share hers - but only had like 3 sweets - so I'm pretty proud of myself. Then she gave me the bag of leftover sweets after, and told me to have them. But I thought, I don't want to do that, so I gave them back to her. I was so chuffed!!

I've done my exercise this morning (that's 6 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!! YAY ME!!!!!!!!!). It was quite hard this morning though. It's a program that increases the intensity as you go along, and I had to put a lot more effort in today. Not so much that I felt it wasn't possible, or that it was too much strain. Just right really.

And it's doing some good! Not much on the weight front, but definitely on the shape front. I noticed yesterday that my bras were getting too big - you know, wrinkles on the cup - and was moaning to my mum about how I was losing my boobs faster than everything else (I'm very proud of my boobs!!). And she pointed out that I've gone down a clothes size (since before I went on holiday - so that's a combination of the exercise I've done since I got back and the swimming I did while I was there). So I'm really, really proud of myself, and excited to see the results. She's right though - I've got loads more clothes I can wear again. And I've only got to go down abut 1.5 clothes sizes before I can start pinching from mum's wardrobe (hee hee).

Lizbeth - thanks so much for dropping by, it's so nice to feel that I'm doing something that helps other people as well as myself (I find being selfish quite hard). The movie was really funny - we went for The Sweetest Thing, and it was just my kind of humour - ridiculous!! I hope the first day of exercise went well.

Buji - I'm planning on keeping this up. I enjoy exercise, so it's not so hard, it's more making the time for it, and getting started. Once I've started, I get into it. It's when I'm sitting on the sofa watching some boring daytime tv that it all seems like too much hard work. It's worth it.

Kilogo - the eyes thing - I must be psychic!! (or maybe that's psycho - or just plain lucky). I suppose one thing I've gained from sitting around waiting for someone to give me my chemo is how short the waiting time at the dr normally is. I'm much more relaxed about it now - have been known to fall asleep actually. Apparently I'm a very patient patient.

Now, everyone, make sure you smile at least once today (even if you don't feel like it - it will make you feel better). That's one of my philosophies.

Make it a good one.

Chuckles

Nice to hear you feeling so up. I'm happy for you!

A patient patient is a good thing, no doubt. :laugh:

hey chuckles...you still exercising??? I hope so!! I'm watching you...you're inspiring all those around you, ya know!!!!

Hello Chuckles,

You don't know me. This is my first time posting to your Journal, but I've been reading your posts for some time. I think you are a truely amazing, and a delightfully giving person. And I just adore your "accent" that comes thru loud and clear in your writing.

I have an internet friend from Middlesborough, UK that I chat with often on msn. I remember the first time she used the word chuffed. I thought she was angry about something.......hahahha. We have made it a bit of a game teaching each other common slang of our respective countries. It's been quit a bit of fun, and definitely a learning experience.

It's great to hear you so up and positive about life. What a wonderful outlook you have. You must carry the sunshine in your pocket every where you go.

Just wanted to say hello and introduce myself. It's not really polite to "lurk" and never say hey! Good luck in your weigh loss. From the look of things, I'm sure you're going to get exactly where you want to go. Have a great weekend.

Enjoy!~Enjoy!
Sandie :)

Keep up the good work Chuckles. Thank you for your support.

Crysie

ok....are you just daring this ol' girl to keep up w you???



keep chuffing away, my dearest friend



you are adding fuel to my fire daily



love waking up and reading your posts



makes me feel like i could make that toss (of whatever needs tossing lol) across the pond at 6 AM my time



luv ya buddy



hope you woke up smiling



:hug: :hug: :hug:

Pengii

Hello people

I didn't quite make it here over the weekend did I. But I can explain.

On Saturday, I had a really chilled, relaxing morning (although I did do my exercise then as well). Then in the afternoon I went on a mammoth shopping trip with my mum to buy something to wear to my friend's wedding at the end of September. I found a really lovely dress (eventually - after 4 hours!!!!). And I tried so, so many outfits on. And where we went shopping is quite a steep town, so I had to walk up and down the hills. And after that I was absolutely knackered (I don't get tired quite so easily as I did about a month ago, but I'm definitely not back to normal yet), so I just crashed in front of the tv for the evening.

And then I slept really badly Sat night, because I was too tired (I hate it when that happenend) so I was tired as well as knackered (if you see what I mean). So, really I did nothing all day, except watch lots of tv, read a lot, phone a couple of friends, and chat to mum while she did the ironing - I normally offer to help, but she never lets me, which is weird - if someone offered to do the ironing when I was doing it, I'd jump at the chance.

Anyway, I'm here now.

The eating was great on Saturday - didn't have much time for it not to be - snacking is really one of my biggest problems, most of my meals are pretty healthy. And I got loads of exercise, what with the shopping trip too.

Sunday the eating wasn't so good. I ate too much, although mostly healthy stuff. So I'm not too disappointed with that. And I decided not to do my exercise - after all, I have to listen to my body, and remember that it's not that long since I finished radiotherapy.

But today, I did my exercise again - I really enjoy it now. It makes me feel really great when I start off my day with some exercise. I think I've got the timing quite well too. Because this progressive daily programme lasts for 28 days, which takes me up to when I go back to uni. And then there's exercises to do after that, but they recommend that you only do them 3 times a week and do something different if you want to do more exercise than that. And then, I'll be back at uni and about 3 mins walk away from a sports centre with a gym, swimming pool, and a choice of at least 2 different aerobics classes a day (5 diff ones some day). Sorted!

And the eating's been good today as well. For lunch, I boiled some brown rice. And dry-fried some chicken breast, peppers, onion and celery. And chucked in some soy sauce at the end. It was scrummy.

Going to carry on in another post now.

Kilogo - I think you're right about the patient thing - some people there got so stressed, and I felt really sorry for them, because it just makes the whole experience so much worse. In fact, even mum got more stressed than me - but I think that was because she wasn't allowed any cigarrettes while she was inside, and she didn't want to leave me on my own too long - although to be honest I wouldn't have minded.

buji - thanks *blushes*. I think you do a pretty good inspirational job too.

Sandie - I've noticed you posting as well. Thanks for posting here. It can get so confusing with all the different slang words, can't it. You say one thing, and a load of people think you mean something completely different. Oh well, never mind. I need to carry the sunshine round with me, living here - it rains a lot. Seriously though, I do find that I think positively about things. Like, my friend dropped a glass bottle off a shelf onto her sink, and the sink broke really badly - there was a big hole in it. And I said, at least the bottle didn't break. And then realised that that maybe wasn't quite the point. Never mind, it's good fun being generally positive about things (most of the time, anyway).

Crysie - that's ok, I'm just glad to hear that you're still around, haven't disappeared for good.

Pengii - your post definitely cheered me up. I'll have to think of what I'd like - don't think a parasol would be much good at the moment.

It sure is great to have so many lovely friends here - makes everything so much easier.

Have a great day, everyone.

Chuckles

Miss Chuckles:

You are becoming the exercise Queen girl. Way to go:)
That's great you found a dress for the wedding. I bought some new jeans this weekend and finally got underwear that won't fall down becasue they are too big............lol
Hope you have a great day.

Judy2

Good Afternoon

I'm feeling pretty good today. I did my exercise again this morning. There was a new exercise in there this morning, so that was exciting - stops me getting bored and all that. And then I cooked lunch for me and mum (aren't I just the nicest). Cos she was going to a meeting this afternoon, and decided it wasn't worth going into the office first, so she worked at home this morning. I cooked the stir fry thingy I did yesterday. She seemed to like it. And so did I, which was good. Unfortunately, the dishes are still sitting in the sink, and I don't think I'm going to have time to do them before I go out to meet a friend for a meal and then maybe the odd drink. Oh well, I'll just have to write an apologetic note. In fact, no I'm not going to have time - my friend just rang me to let me know she's ready to meet me, so I'm going to have to rush now.

I'll finish this tomorrow.

Hope everyone's well.

Chuckles

Hello, Chuckles!

Congratulations on finding the pretty dress. That's such an ordeal for me. I hate it. But when I finally find one I like it makes me very happy.

I have a wedding to go to next weekend so I'd better get moving on finding that dress!

Sounds like you are doing really well. You sound happy. Hope you had a good time with your friend today.

Congrats on all the exercise, too. te gusta ejercicio!

Well, I know I said that I was going to finish tomorrow, but I got back earlier than I thought I would (my friend felt tired, it's not like we had a big argument or anything) so I thought I'd pop in now. Actually we had a lovely time. Lots of laughter, lots of hugs (I'm very tactile with people I care about. I'd hug practically all my friends if I didn't think that they might find it odd), and lots of heart to heart. And she brought my copy of our holiday pictures with us (we shared a camera) which were really good, and brought back loads of lovely memories. A great way to spend an evening. So, we went and sat in a pub, but outside, by the river, which was nice. But then we got cold because we were in the shade, so we went to a different pub, where we had tea. I had a chicken wrap (chicken, veg, salsa, in tortilla). It did come with chips, but I figured it wouldn't harm me to treat myself. And I didn't have any alcohol, so I hope that kind of makes up for it.

So, my eating today's been pretty good. Perfect, before I had the chips in fact, so that's why I'm not too worried. And, in going out to meet my friend, I walked 1 mile in just under 20 mins, because I had to walk to the station pretty quickly, or else I would have missed my train, and had to wait 30 mins for the next one. So I got some more exercise in today as well.

I left the note for dad, saying sorry, and that I'd do the dishes when I got back, and that he wasn't to do them. But he did them anyway. Oh well, that was very nice of him, but I did kind of want to do them myself. More to feel that I'm useful than anything else, if you know what I mean. I don't really do that much of the housework, because mum and dad have split it pretty well between themselves. They kind of have set things that they do: dad does the shopping, mum does the ironing, but dad does the laundry. Etc. So it is always a disruption to their timetable when I do something, they often ask me not to. I bet you wish your kids would be more like me, hey. I'm sure if they got me to do everything I'd still be moaning, so I might stop moaning now.

Judy - as always, it's lovely to see you, always there with a friendly word and smile (although obviously I have to imagine that bit!). Good job about the underwear - you don't want to be displaying yourself now, do you??

kilogo - Si, es verdad. Good job, isn't it, because it's pretty important. Now if I could just like not eating chocolate ........
I know what you mean about the pretty dress finding thing. I'm the same. Fortunately the fashion at the moment seems to be quite feminine and pretty, so most of the things in the shops were suitable to wear to a wedding, it was just a matter of finding one in my size that fitted well and was flattering. And I think I found it. You're right, I am happy. It's so wonderful to wake up every morning and consistently be happy. I sometimes get down in the evenings because I still get tired pretty easily, but most of the time I'm happy. I still find it hard to believe, really.

Anyway, I hope all of you are having a great day.

Chuckles

sounds like you had yourself a fun time...good for you!!!!

and I sure do wish I had a kid like you around ha ha!!!!!:D

Good evening Chuckles,

Wow, sounds like you and your friend had a very nice get together. That's great. And isn't it so much fun going thru photos and bringing back fond memories of a really fun time or beautiful place of of someone you care about? I have so many photo albums of my children when they were all young and up thru the years and I just love going thru them every now and them and remembering.

I'm glad to see you are doing so well and still so cheerful and gay. Doesn't it make you feel better when you see another person is also happy and enjoying their life. It sure helps me feel better.

I got a chuckle myself reading about your hugging habit. I'm much the same myself. And I've been known to turn a curmudgeon into a hugger in my time too. With my good friends, I'm very much like you, but of late I've become more withdrawn with strangers. Then last week I met a couple that are friends of my DH and was taken thoroughly aback when the woman came running up to meet me and gave me the biggest hug. Usually that's me doing the hugging, and I was totally surprised. But she is a dear lady and the next time I will know what to expect. At least it finally put the shoe on the other foot. Now I know how I must have affected some people in the past when I would do that to them. Especially the curmudgeony type........LOL.

Take it easy and keep up the good work kiddo. Sounds like you are doing real well.

Enjoy!~Enjoy!
:hug::hug:
Sandie :)

Well, somehow I didn't get round to writing my journal here yesterday. Not sure how that happened. Ho hum.

My mind's gone completely blank. I can't remember what I did yesterday. Must be an old age thing (!???)

Umm, I know I did my exercise, and I did that this morning too, so that's 11 times in the last 12 days, which is pretty good, if you ask me.

And my eating was pretty good. I was going to put some chilli powder in my lunch (just a splodge of what was in the fridge really) but then I noticed that the Best Before date was Feb 1995!! So I went through mum's spice and herb cupboard, and there were some things that were 10 years out of date!!! So it's looking a bit empty now. Oh well. The standard stuff's all fine.

I went out last night and saw some friends that I haven't seen for ages, which was lovely. We just talked and talked, and then when we'd done that we talked some more.

Oh yeah, weigh in was yesterday. I went up a pound. Which is annoying. But I have got a lot thinner very quickly. So hopefully it's just a muscle weighing more than fat kind of thing. I am definitely less flabby. And you can see that I do have some muscles somewhere.

Besides, I know that the weight will come off if I keep plugging away.

I've got a counselling appointment today. I don't like going. I think they help me, but it always gets me very confused. And it's about 1 hour's travel each way. So it takes a huge chunk out of my day. So I'm quite looking forward to going back to uni, where the counselling service is on campus, where I'm living. And campus is maybe 1.5 miles long at the most, so I won't have to get the train there. But the more I see her, the more I think that she doesn't get what I'm saying, and that I don't get what she's saying. There's no point in changing now though - I'm going to uni in 3 weeks!!

buji - I'm definitely having a lot of fun at the moment. Which is good.......

sandie - At a social type club that I go to sometimes, they're having an evening where everyone brings in a baby photo, and then we have to guess who's who. So I had to look through my baby photos to find one. Which was odd. And it was odd seeing how much the house has changed. We've lived here since I was 8 months old, and I feel that it hasn't changed a bit, but looking at the photos I found out how wrong I was.

Anyway, I'll see you all around, I expect.

Have a great day.

Chuckles

Miss Chuckles:

Wow your really doing awesome in the exercise department. Keep up the great work. That sounds like fun taking in your baby photo and then every guessing who it is. Hope you have a wonderfull say.

Judy2

good morning my little ray of sunshine !!


awesome on the exercise chuckles !!!!


sometimes the scale moves dif from our bodies

I'll take inches off anyday too !!



loved the idea of the baby photo get together


will have to do that one eve with friends... a nice winter plan


and those pics of your holiday will keep you warm this winter too


so you are moving to campus soon huh?

full time or only through classes?



you have grown leaps and bounds this past year... uni will be wonderful for you



hope you have a great day my dear friend



catch ya later


:hug: :hug: :hug:


Pengii

Just a quick one today, cos I'm in a rush.

I'm going to be away until Sunday or Monday (staying with friends).

Will see you when I get back.

Have a great weekend.

Chuckles

Have fun with the friends, Chuckles!

Hi Chuckles, just thought I'd drop by and say hello fellow Brit!

I've just been reading your journal and you certainly have a very interesting life. You sound a little bit like you're from up north somewhere, but I might be wrong?

Anyway, hope you have a great time away with your friends. By the way are you watching the new Pop Stars - The Rivals???

Michaela

my god, Michaela can hear accents in here!!! what next!!????

chuckles, how are ya....stopped off on my to Step class......have a good nite!!!!

so how was your visit??


hope you are smiling my dear young buddy !!

you need a few more years before you can start using the old age excuse hahahahah but good try lol


hope to catch up with you soon !!

:hug: pengii

Hi everyone

My time away was great, although it completely knackered me out! Too much talking and not enough sleeping, or something like that. Anyway, it was lovely, I really enjoyed myself.

I spent quite a lot of time chatting to someone who's going to be at uni when I go back, and I realised that I can talk to her about pretty much anything, and so I'm feeling a lot more confident now about being able to cope with stuff.

I'm kind of in a hurry right now (tea is cooking at the mo), so I'll fill you in on how things are going tomorrow (or later).

Except that it was weigh in today, and I've gone back down the pound that I gained last week. So wahey for me!!

Thanks for visiting, kilogo, michaela, buji and pengii.

I'm from Surrey actually. But I'm studying in Lancaster, so've picked up lots of northern slang, which might be what you're getting (maybe??). Where are you from michaela? I've watched the first pop stars, but I won't be able to when I'm at uni - I won't have a tv there, which will be weird.

Anyway, hope you're all alright.

Chuckles

Welcome back, MissChuckles!

No TV at uni? How is that possible?

Congrats on the one lb gone. Yay for you :cheer:

:wave: Hey Chuckles!

Glad to hear you had such a good time while you were away. And, besides that CONGRATULATIONS on the 1 lb loss!! Yea for you!!

Take care now and have a great week.
Enjoy!~Enjoy!
Sandie :D

Chuck, just gotta tell you that you are a terrific writer. I looooved reading your journals (I found two, but think there are probably more around somewhere). Anyone can have an interesting life (though few of us do), but it's a real treasure to meet someone who can write about it well.

Hope you don't mind, but I plan to check in here often...I am getting up to speed with Brit speak these days w/Mickey tutoring me. haha

Have a wonderful day!

wtg on kicking that pound back to the curb buddy !!!!


I was reading my old journal the other day chuckles and realized it has almost been 6 months that we have been yapping across the pond together


so much has happened for you and me during that time


so nice to have that connection



i am so glad you brought your wonderful self into my life all those months ago


the old messages of months ago sure made me smile


as do your ones today



and knackered is one of my fav words now too hahahahhaha



I luv ya dearly buddy...watch out for chummers.... her wit is deadly hahahah (luv ya too chummers)



have a great eve Chuckles !!!


:hug: Pengii

Hi all,

well, good news and bad news. The good news is that I'm (slowly) getting through the (very) long list of things I have to do before I go back to uni. The bad news is my knee's playing up and so I haven't been able to do much exercise (although walking is fine). And my eating could have been better. Although I haven't had a full on binge in ages. I'm very chuffed with that. And also I've managed to curb the habit I used to have of eating just before bedtime (which is very hard because mum always does it and offers me the food - I can pretty much resist though - she tends to go for the smelly cheese and the rollmops which aren't really my thing!).

I'm still plodding on, trying hard. Trying to eat lots of fruit and veg, and not too many crisps (chips) or too much chocolate, and to up the activity level. Although I still get tired a lot more easily than I used to before all of this.

Today is the last time I see my friend (the one I call Juliet) before she goes to Togo for 4 months. Which is getting me down a bit (well, a lot really). She's going to be gone for Xmas, and for her birthday, and I can't visit because that's just way out of my price range. I'm so glad someone invented email, let's just put it that way. We're going round to Romeo's house. And probably having a takeaway. She's staying over there (well she would, wouldn't she) and I'm getting the last train home (I think it's important for them to have some time alone before she goes). But it should be a good evening, even though it's going to be really hard and I'm not sure how I'm going to cope with it. If you hear about some girl crying on the train, it's probably me!!

And Tuesday night I went out with one of my old school friends for the last time before she goes back to uni (she's going tomorrow). But we're only about 1 1/2 hours train journey away, so we're going to visit each other. So that's not so bad. Although I will miss her.

But there are a lot of people leaving at the moment. I suppose I'm going to be one of them soon (2 weeks today actually). That's if I ever manage to finish packing and sorting and letter writing and - I could go on for a long long time. But I won't.

I had an optician's appointment today. And I need new glasses (which I'd already worked out actually). My eyesight is so bad. But anyway, hurray for glasses. Although they're so expensive. I got Calvin Klein titanium frames (ok, so I know they could have been cheaper, but they were half price) at £86 - maybe that's $100-$125 (not sure of the exchange rate?) and the lenses were an extra £125 - I got them so they go darker in the sunlight - I hate having to change between glasses and sunglasses - it gets really annoying. But they're pretty cool, although I bet no one will notice.

kilogo - thanks. About the TV - I can't be bothered to pay for the TV license (they're about £125) and I don't want to resist being done for it - although that never happens at uni - they can't tell which TV it is because there's so many of them in a confined area. Although a lot of people do have them. I'm sure I can find a friend who'll let me watch theirs. And there's probably a TV room, but I can't be doing with the arguments about what to have on. And they have TVs in the bars and stuff for sports events and the like. But if I had one in my room I'd probably get nothing done. It's good for me really. Bet you didn't think 1 innocent little comment would get that much rambling did you???

Sandie - thanks for the support, I'm proud of myself.

chumlette - good to see you. Not sure about the interesting life bit. I guess I must be a really really good writer if I can make this lot sound interesting. I think I just leave out the long hours spent in front of the TV and the PC (ahem, sorry, the long hours exercising and planning healthy meals :D ) And it'll be great to have you visiting. I'll pop round yours soon. You're right though, there's about 1 million journals of mine - or at least that's how it seems sometimes.

pengii - I'm definitely glad to have you in my life too. Is it really that long?? Wow.

Anyway, I'm going to finish up here, so I can catch up on a couple of journals before going out and getting knackered.

So, I hope everyone's well.

Chuckles

Miss Chukles:

Wow only 2 weeks and your off to Uni. You must be getting excited. I remember when I went off to school it was both exciting and tiresome as there is always so much to do.
Sorry to hear about your knee acting up. Hope that it settles down for you as your exercising has been so awesome.
Way to go on not eating before bedtime. I found that too be one hard habit to break when I first started this journey of mine. I had a bad habit of having ice cream right at bedtime.

Have a wonderfull day.

Judy2:rose: :rose:

Hello Again!

I have to agree with Chum, you are an excellent writer. I think that's perhaps why I thought you were from up north, because you write like you're sat next to me, speaking to me. Also the use of the words "chuffed" and "tea" are quite northern words. I'm from Lincolnshire myself, I live fairly near Lincoln (about 25 minutes drive).

I can't believe you won't have a television at Uni! Mind you, you're probably right, at least you'll get some work done.

I hope you have a good evening tonight, although I know it will be sad for you.

Hi people!

I had an excellent night last night - lots of silly conversation, bad jokes, sexy waiters (yummy) and lots and lots of laughter (which may have been helped some by the wine - it went straight to my head cos I'm so not used to it). So it was definitely a good choice. But going home on the train, on my own, at about 11:15, was really depressing. I was right, I did cry on the train. And when I got home I just wanted to talk to my mum, but she wasn't home yet - she'd gone to a meeting a little way away (Cambridgeshire). So I just moped about a little bit and went to bed. I'm still moping actually. I think I should do something to stop it. Cos it's made worse by me being really, really tired.

Anyway, considering we went to a pizza place yesterday, I did ok ish on my eating. I chose a pizza with spinach on (to get some iron!) and asked for less cheese. And had a salad too. And didn't finish my meal. But then, I did have the wine. And shared a dessert. So not great. But could have been a lot worse. And would have been not so long ago. So there you go.

Today's going ok so far. Had breakfast, have drunk a lot so far. Have done some exercise (about 1/2 my normal, but it's a start).

Judy - it's lovely to see you again.

Mickey - aww, I'm getting embarrassed now, with everyone saying I'm a good writer. I've never really thought that myself. Suppose I'll have to start believing it now. Do you find yourself saying everything more american?? I keep saying I guess this and I guess that. Which isn't how I normally talk at all.

Anyway, today's Friday isn't it? I keep telling everyone to have a happy weekend. I think it's Saturday. Oh well, I'm easily confused, me.

So have a happy Friday.

Chuckles

hi chuckles!!!!

I guess you'll be sad for awhile...it's hard having to miss our friends...but you'll have plenty to keep your mind occupied getting ready for school & hopefully a whole bunch of new friends!!
and you had fun & hopefully some new memories last night!! doesn't sound like you did bad at all, considering you were out partying...I woulda been so much worse!!!!
I have a hard time eating before bed..always have my popcorn then, but I shouldn't!! wish I could stop that, so good for you for being able to!
you have a great weekend!!!

Chuckles

I'm glad you had a lovely evening (although sad). You will have some very happy memories for you to think about when you are back at Uni. You did very well with the pizza too! I love pizza, it's got to be one of my favourite foods, but I always end up having to have a snooze after I've eaten it. I think it's the white bread dough or something.

I so totally agree (!) with you about speaking "American" when on diettalk. It's strange isn't it. As I said, I think that's why I thought you were from up north because you sounded just like me.

You have a great weekend too!

HEY! What's wrong with sounding like an American??? hahahaha

I think I know the answer to that....you guys are a laugh riot. I watched Monty Python again last night and understand it better having met you two. I used "chuffed" this morning w/DLIP and he thought that you were making it up so dumb Americans like me would walk around using it, pretending to be hip, young British cool cats, when really we sound like big morons. hahaha

I'm sorry you are sad. It is always so sad to leave people (or when they leave you). I always cry when I leave my folks to return home here to NY. But then again, I am a big sap. But soon you will get great letters with a wonderful new postmark on them...

Have a good weekend, Chuck!:D

When I was in Cornwall I learned that most Brits don't like Monty Python that much. They think it's ok, but they don't understand why we Americans love it so.

I believe we Americans think it's hilarious because of the language. A skit that would be just ordinarily funny with American actors becomes screamingly hilarious when done with an English accent and with all those cute expressions. Too funny! Fawlty Towers is one of my favo[u]rite shows ever.

Sounds like a wonderful farewell party, Chuckles.

I have no idea why the French love Jerry Lewis, though.

In my experience, most of my friends think Monty Python is hilarious, but I do come across people who don't. However, I do think that Americans find it funnier than Brits. I think most Brits love Fawlty Towers though. Bassiiiiilll....

Hi people

I'm not feeling too great today. I'm really, really, really tired. A combination of over-exerting myself while I was staying at my friend's (climbing on monkey bars, running around fields, generally being childish - much fun) and not sleeping too well, and staying up too late, and also I think I've got a cold, and maybe an ear infection (I'm very prone to them :( )

It has really cheered me up though, to see all these messages.

I think Monty Python's ok, but not that great (there's the odd really funny sketch, but apart from that .......) and it's the same will Fawlty Towers. My mum reckons it might be a generational thing in Brits. Not really sure about that though, lots of my friends love it.

But I have no idea why the French love Jerry Lewis either, as I have no idea who (S?)he is. Sorry for that, I obviously have some serious gaps in my knowledge.

I really like the idea of the letters with a different postmark on them, doesn't quite make up for it (!) but it's something interesting anyway. Talking about letters ..........

I got a letter this morning about some changes to the courses I'm doing at uni this year, which is annoying. I have to go through them all now and try and find something else that I want to do. I think I'm pretty much there, but I'm not sure, maybe I should have a chat with my tutor ...........

Anyway, I hope you all have a good day.

Chuckles

Hi Chuckles. I was going to say morning but it's afternoon now (12.20 pm!).

I'm sorry to hear that you're not feeling so good, but it sounds like you had a pretty fun weekend. I always think it would be fun to play on the monkey bars, but after about 5 minutes I'm worn out!

What a mess the Universities are making of things at the moment - well I suppose they don't have a lot of choice with the debarcle of the examining boards and the A level scandals! I hope you do manage to sort your course out - is it next week you start? They don't give you a lot of time do they if that's the case. I think a chat with the tutor just might help to clear up andy questions you might have.

Did you ever see the film The Nutty Professor, with Eddie Murphy? I think that was a remake of an old Jerry Lewis film. Jerry Lewis is like a manic, goofy-teethed bloke that used to make "madcap" films. He wasn't that funny (to me) and I, too, am at a loss to know why the French love him.

Take care Chuckles. Hope you are feeling better soon.

Miss Chuckles:

Whew I got tired from just reading all you did. Sounds like you had an excellent time though. And it's great to act like a child climbing on monkey bars etc. Makes us all feel like a kid when we do that.:)
Hope you have a wonderfull day.

Judy2:rose: :rose:

Howdy ho, Chuck. (You don't mind me calling you "Chuck" do you?) I hope you are feeling a little more sprightly today. Ear infections are horrible. I used to get them all the time when I was younger.

OK, I'll admit it. I didn't quite think Monte Python was as hilarious as my mate did. I do love Fawlty Towers, though. I've been to France several times and have inquired of the French people I met about their love for Jerry Lewis, and I'll admit, I am still baffled. But maybe I am still resentful that they just don't carry my bra size there. haha

I hope you are taking a bit of time to pamper yourself, Chuck. And for some reason, I thought you were in law school? Are there many choices in your classes?

Bye for now....:D

Oh what a beautiful morning, oh what a beautiful day. Well, I'm still feeling low, but it's a lovely day - the sun is shining, the sky is blue, not a cloud in sight. A perfect autumn day (she says, as the sun goes behind a cloud - it must have heard me and decided to do something about it).

My motivation is gone to pot. I want to lose the weight, but I don't want to put in the work (the sun just came back! yay!). Which obviously isn't going to work. So I'll have to do the work anyway, and hope it gets a bit easier again soon. I think a lot of the problem is that I really don't have the energy to do much. I keep thinking that I'm not exercising at all, but that's not completely true. I just got back from walking about 2 miles (to the doctor and back) which I should be proud of, but because it's just the only way I have to get there (short of paying for a taxi, and I am a student!) it doesn't feel like exercise. I should just keep telling myself it is. Ok then, today, I have done my exercise - I walked 2 miles. Yay me!!

But I am too knackered to prepare any nice food. Good job we've still got leftover turkey in the fridge from Sunday lunch. Only trouble is, I had that yesterday too (and, obviously, on Sunday). Oh well, that's what you get when you're lazy, like me.

Lets just say I'm not too confident about my weigh in tomorrow (don't the weeks fly by).

I've got so much to do. I'm seriously thinking about not going to the wedding. It's a little way away (birmingham) and I'm getting a lift off some friends. Going up on Friday lunchtime, coming back on Sunday evening. Takes a lot of time out. That I'd rather be using to pack, and spend some time with my family before deserting them (tee hee). I'm just so tired. And I've got so much stuff to do. I'll figure it out - don't need to make a decision right now anyway. But I have bought a dress already - am going to post a picture of it (with me in it!) when I can figure out what I'm doing.

Judy - you can't get tired from that - that's more like just 1/2 day's work to you. I suppose you get used to what you do, so it doesn't seem so tiring.

Chum - of course I don't mind you calling me chuck. Makes me feel Liverpudlian, or makes you sound like Cilla Black, but that's another matter. (ok, so you probably don't know who she is - I'll let you know if you want) I'm doing a law degree at university. This year, I have to choose 8 courses out of about 25. You can do business type ones, or family type ones, or European and International type ones, or philosophy type ones, or kind of mix and match (which is what I've gone for, mostly choosing the ones that my friends said they found interesting and not too hard).

Anyway, I hope everyone has a lovely day.

Chuckles

Sorry Mickey, I missed you, you were on the page before :o
So now you get a post all to yourself:D

I go back to uni next week, but don't start til the Monday after (7 October). I rang up, and the secretary said that actually they've swapped one of the others round to make up for it, so I didn't have to worry anyway. But it was a little annoying, because by then I'd kind of convinced myself that what I was going to change to would be better (did you get that? not sure it made sense).

Cheers for the Jerry info. I didn't like the Eddie Murphy version much myself. I think I'll pass on the Jerry thing. Not my kind of humour, I reckon.

Anyway, big hugs to you.

Chuckles (again!)

Morning Chuckles!

My sister is a lawyer, she works in London - are you hoping to become a lawyer or are you going to use your degree as a stepping stone to something else?

Please don't give up on the diet/exercise thing. I know it's hard, and sometimes you feel like it's not worth the effort when all you want to do is just relax. Perhaps you are feeling a little sad at the moment because so many of your close friends are going away, and you aren't feeling too good at the moment? We are all here to listen to you and help you when you need it, and you can do this. It is hard, but the pay off is worth it in the end. I used to think that I would never have any energy, I would picture myself in my mind as this person who couldn't be bothered to do anything, and I didn't like that person. I feel so much better nowadays, I have more energy, I know what foods suit me and what foods make me feel tired and energyless, and I know that eating healthy and being active makes me feel healthy and more active (if that makes any sense!).

Anyway, big hugs to you as well!

Have a great day today.

Hi mickey (you can tell I've got lots to do can't you, that's why I'm spending so much time on DT today).

I don't think I want to be a lawyer, not sure what I do want to do yet though.

I'm not actually going to give up. I know that eating healthily and exercising gives you more energy, so you can do more, its kind of the opposite to a vicious circle, whatever that may be. But it's nice to be reminded. Thanks.

Miss Chuckles:

Your going post a picture? Wooooooooo Hoooooooooo Can't wait to see the lovely girl I have been posting back and forth with:)
Hope your feeling a bit better today. You can do this girl. Look how far you have come already.

Judy2:rose:

Hi all.

First off, here's the picture I promised. I was going to do it last night, but we lost our internet connection.

Now, if only I could get rid of that double chin ...........

Hi again.

You'll be pleased to know that I'm feeling much better about things today. I decided last night that it was about time I put more effort into this, instead of thinking I can just 'wing it' which is what I seem to do a lot of the time.

So, this morning, I had a healthy breakfast, did my exercise (started again on day 1 because I've been so tired). I walked home from the dentist (nasty lady scraped and polished - but it was ok in the end) and had a low fat microwave chicken and lemon risotto. And I'm planning to have a jacket potato with baked beans and salad for tea. Which is something I'm trying to work on - planning my meals. Everyone seems to think it's a good idea, so I'm trying it out - keeping an open mind.

So that's good.

I've decided not to go to the wedding because it's really stressing me out. So, although I was planning to wear the dress above, I'm not going to have anywhere to wear it to. So I suppose I'll have to take it in for a Christmas do or something (I'm determined that it will be too big by then).

So now I've got less to do and did some exercise this morning, I am feeling a lot better about life, and a lot less stressed (having got through the dentist appointment and getting a decent night's sleep helped too).

I'm going out tonight to see one of the people I was going to go to the wedding with, so I'll have to let her know what I've decided. And I'll phone the lovely couple tomorrow, after I've let my friend know.

I decided not to weigh myself today, I don't want to know the damage last week's caused. So I'll just wait til next week.

Anyway, I hope you all have a lovely day.

Anna

Hey Chuckles,

Just wanted to say you look GREAT in that dress! The shoes and everything, the whole outfit just works:) Too bad you won't be able to wear it, since you aren't going to the wedding:( Oh well, you'll just have to go find it in a smaller size for the future, right?

Take care:rose:

Anna, that's a lovely dress & you look beautiful in it!!!! I must have missed the post saying why you decided not to go to the wedding?! since I moved & gained a ton of weight, I was feeling scared of going to a wedding in october, with people I haven't seen since I was "thinner"!!!! but then I decided I would have fun at the wedding no matter what so why let my fears keep me from enjoying myself!!?? I am losing the weight & if they don't like it, well tuff!! it takes alot for me to just leave my house some of the time so if I can this, and make a 5 hr drive at the same time, I'll be so proud of me & that will motivate me even more!! I hope, anyway!!! ha ha!!!

Hello, Chuckles! At last, a face to associate with the name. You look great! That's a pretty dress. But if makes you feel better to not go to that wedding, then by all means don't go.

And congratulations on the exercise and the eating plan. Sounds like a good, healthy food day to me. And you have clean teeth, to boot. You sound great.

Onward!

Hi Anna!

Congratulations on pulling it together and being positive, when we are feeling low that takes a lot of effort but you did it! Hurray!!!

You look fabulous in the dress, you really do. It is a shame that you won't be wearing it probably before christmas when, let's face it, it is going to be miles too big for you.

I think you made the right decision about the wedding. Why stress yourself out about going when there's really no need?

Take care Anna,
Have a great evening.

a beautiful name and a beautiful woman


always wondered what my chuckles name was.... anna ... sure fits


thanks for posting your pic... and you do look lovely in that dress


suits you well


there will be a time for the dress... if the wedding gives you grief...def pass it by


it is important to live what has us feel stronger



your instincts must have a reason to feel as they do



anyhow my girl... i am off



it is so very nice to have a face to put to the name



thanks chuckles



:hug: pengii

Good morning. I haven't actually got up yet, so I haven't done much except for eat breakfast (so obviously what I mean is I'm sitting here in my dressing gown waiting for my brekkie to digest a bit so I can go and do my exercise).

I had a bit of a bump in the middle of the afternoon when I started on a binge. I managed to stop myself before it went too far though, and am still as determined as ever.

I stuck to the food plan apart from the bump, though and am pretty chuffed with that. Not sure what I'm going to eat today though, will work on that when I've actually exercised, showered and dressed.

But I do know that today I'm going to make a concerted effort in my bedroom. So that I can pack my stuff when I need to.

I've told all my friends about not going to the wedding now. Oh, except for the one's getting married!! But I can't ring them til tonight. But I promise I'll do it then.

Yatravn - thanks for the compliments. I love those shoes, they're like my only comfy smart sandals. They look good at the moment (cos they're still clean) but they'll probably be going to a lot of clubs with me this year, so they'll look mucky soon.

buji - decided not to go because I'm too tired, and it will be a wearing weekend. Have to learn to accept my limitations. And don't want to be totally exhausted when I get back to uni - it's hard enough to cope with when I'm fully fit and raring to go. That attitude seems pretty healthy to me. You are losing it, and if people can't accept who you are, then that really is their problem, not yours.

kilogo - thanks. I do have clean teeth. But also slightly sore gums. Mean lady. Actually, she's been really nice about it. And I got it cheap because they overcharged mum when she went not so long ago. Yay!!

mickey - you're right, that dress will be miles too big for me by then, but it might be able to be taken in. Because I don't feel good buying clothes that I don't wear. But it's the kind of dress that I really won't have a need for at uni. Might take it with me anyway - you never know what might happen!

Pengii - Thanks - all these compliments from everyone :o Even for my name - it's not like I chose it - it was my mum's idea. Or maybe dad's actually, not really sure. And I definitely feel better now I'm not worrying about fitting in the wedding.

Anyway, I hope you all have a fabulous day. I have to go, or I'm never going to get round to doing the exercise.

Anna

Morning, Chuck, you gorgeous thing you! I am so delighted that you only had a BUMP. Sometimes bumps turn into something ugly and horrible and incredibly HUGE. Yours was tiny and you got right back with it. Cool. You rock, girl!

Hello people

Well, another bump yesterday. A bit smaller than the one the day before. I'm really working on it. Although I'm still concentrating on the exercise first and foremost, because I know how much more positive things seem when I'm exercising regularly. I really can't wait to get back to uni, when there's cheap, fun exercise equipment and classes just a few minutes walk away. Relying on my bedroom (and a few videos that I'm not fit enough for at the moment) makes it a lot harder to get excited about it. But I did do my exercise yesterday (2 days in a row), and I'm going to go and do some today when I've finished off here.

I had a nice pasta-y thing for tea yesterday, and for lunch today I'm thinking maybe vegetable kebabs with rice (brown). (Although I might have to check the veggie situation - weekly shop is tomorrow, so we're getting low on stuff.

I got the letter today, telling me that my glasses are in, so I'm going to go and get them later today. Which will mean more exercise too - about a mile each way! yay.

Went out with an old school friend to say goodbye to her before I go back to uni. She was quite upset, because today is the 4th anniversary of her brother's death (from cancer). But we did have a nice long chat (not quite as long as we would have liked because both of us were knackered and needed an early night). About that, I'm sleeping a lot better, mostly because I'm not so worried about how much stuff I have to do, and because I'm making an effort to go to bed a bit earlier, which is helping.

The problem is that I'm so used to being tired all the time, that it's my usual state now, so I don't realise I'm tired until I'm drop-dead tired, when it's normally much harder to sleep. But I'm working on it.

Thanks for the support chum, that's so sweet that you still made it here to cheer me on even when you're feeling yucky and icky and sicky (and some other words ending in cky too, probably - like, ummm, lovely-cky).

Hope everyone is well.

blecky?

Oh funny Chuckles. A two mile walk sounds pleasant and relaxing. Is it raining there yet?

Do you like brown rice? I can't seem to gag the stuff down. Too chewy. But they say it is so good for you.

Clean teeth, new glasses, you are getting all set for school.

Take care --

Good to hear you leaving the bumps behind


Chummers is so right in that if we really look at it...the bumps get smaller and smaller... and we should feel good about that


esp since you are off to uni soon


still holding it together girl, and that is grand !!!


do you come home during school? or do you move everything there?


it will be lovely to give the ol brain a workout huh


in a dif sense i guess as I know working through your cancer required more brain work than most are capable of

i never forget that Anna... THAT is courage


you have it and will do so well at school too

dont feel bad about not knowing canadian history...most americans know even less and we border each other lol


i guess cause our canadian history is s much shorter, american and your history was a priority for us canucks lol

and i found Sid & Nancys story much more interesting than stuffy old politicians too lol


an interesting story



anyhow

just wanted to touch base



i am working weird shifts this weekend


off monday then back at it


catching up when i can



hope you have a great weekend


:hug: Pengii

Morning!

I'm feeling pretty good this morning, although I slept awfully. Kept having really vivid dreams, and waking up all the time.

Well, I couldn't do the kebab thing, because we didn't really have the stuff for it, so I made a splodge instead (chuck in whatever's in the fridge and see what happens). My preferred way of cooking. Less hassle.

I did my exercise yesterday, and really enjoyed it too. Which is good (obviously). And, once again, I'm going to go and do it when I've finished here, and have digested a bit more of my brekkie.

I'm going to go and see some more friends this afternoon. We're going to do dinner. I might stay over, depending how late I decide I want to go home - I don't really like getting the last train home. It's scary! Or maybe it's just that by that time I'm too knackered to really think straight. I think I'd rather stay there if that happened so I could get a bit more sleep.

I didn't get my glasses yesterday, because, although it didn't rain, it looked like it was going too all day. And maybe because I'm a little bit lazy?? (sh, don't tell anyone). So I'm going to get them today. The optician's is right by the station, so I'll do it before I get the train. Quite excited about it really. They'd better be good - they cost enough.

I don't mind the differences in Us and Uk talk normally, but I do wish you'd stop calling it school. I know that's what you call it, but as far as I'm concerned, school ends at 16. (Don't worry, not having a real go - suddenly realised that sounded rude, didn't mean it to be, sorry). Uni, or, at a push, college.

Kilogo - yeah, I really like brown rice, prefer it in fact. I like the fact that it's more chewy - it means it doesn't matter so much if I get the timing wrong (which happens a lot, I admit) because it won't go stodgy like white rice does if you leave it cooking too long.

Pengii - I am feeling pretty good about it. I'm definitely looking forward to stretching my brain in some directions that don't concern me, if you see what I mean??
I basically move there (I have a study bedroom and bathroom to myself, and a shared kitchen). I normally come home for the holidays (4 weeks at Christmas, 4 weeks at Easter) although that depends how much work I have to do, and whether I need the library or can cope with taking 10 books home with me (or however many I'm allowed). I'll probably stay up at Easter, to revise, cos I seem to get much more done up there than down here. Although if all my friends go home, then I will too - you can do too much work.
Thanks for the praise, I think I've been pretty courageous, and it's nice to be reminded of it (and to know it's not just me being big-headed :D ).
It's good to see you again - try not to work too hard, k?

Hope everyone's well.

Chuckles

must be so exciting getting all ready for uni (college!!!!)!!!!! I'm glad they have stuff there for you to work out on!!!!

Brown rice is 1 of my favorites too...also like to add barley, flaxseed, oats...just about any good fiber I can get my hands on & throw it all in!! add lots of garlic & onions & a little veggie broth & I'm set to go!!! I just made myself hungry!!

well, I'll see you when I get my glasses. oh whoops...that's YOU getting your glasses isn't it?! yes, that was a joke. 1 of my better ones, actually....give it time...it'll sink in!

Hi Miss Chuckles:

Well your almost off to Uni now. Not much longer:)
I see your exercising is coming along great. Keep up the good work. Have a wonderfull Sunday evening.

Judy2

Hi Chuck! You've been a wonderful visitor in my sickbed journal -- thanks. Hey. You leave this week? Will you still come here to post? How do your new glasses look? BTW, Americans rarely even know about US history, let alone British or Canadian history. My guess is that some Americans don't even know where Canada is....

Hey Chucklette! Have you left for SCHOOL? Ha! I mean UNI! Just teasing with that irascible wit of mine. Hope you are having a wonderful day...

Hey people.

No, I haven't left for uni yet, and yes, I'll still be able to post when I get there (internet connection in my room (with one off payment for the year - so I can use it as much as I like - except for when I'm working of course). Although it might not be set up when I first get there - have to make sure I configure the pc right and all that (tries very hard to sound like she knows what she's talking about!).

I'm leaving tomorrow, which means I have all my packing to do. So far, I've sorted out my paperwork, and have one box packed, with the papers I need, plus files, old work, and the postcards I'm going to put on my room. So that only leaves clothes, books, kitchen equipment, bedclothes, towels, computer, etc, etc, etc. So today's going to be fun! Fortunately mum's taking the day off work to help me out (although she's still in bed at the moment - it's not 8 o'clock yet, and she's relishing her lie-in - she normally leaves at about 7:15).

My eating and exercising aren't doing great. Just about managing to keep up with the exercising, but the food, well, that's another story. I'm seriously thinking about joining something like WW or Slimmer's World when I go back to uni. Not sure - although WW has a special offer on at the mo, so I'll think about it. Hopefully the change of routine will enable me to set up a healthy routine - especially as there will only be my food in the house not my parent's. And I really don't have the money to buy loads of junk food.

Anyway, you may not believe this, because of my record of weighing in so regularly, but I completely forgot to weigh myself before breakfast today (and I refuse to do it afterwards). So I'm going to weigh myself on Friday (first morning at uni) and start again from there. Because I'm pretty certain it will be up quite a lot.

I got my new glasses, and they're pretty nice. Not as nice as I imagined, but then I always do that to myself. While I'm waiting for my glasses, I always imagine they're going to make me look totally beautiful, and, of course, much thinner, and then I'm always a bit disappointed when the reality gets here. (because I can't see them when I'm trying them on, as I'm pretty much blind without my glasses).

I'm pretty down at the moment. I finally heard from my sister, and it looks like she'll be staying in Egypt a lot longer than she originally told us. I don't really mind that (although I miss her a lot), but I was expecting to be able to see her again soon, so it's a disappointment. I didn't even realise how much it upset me that she wasn't here until a little while ago - maybe I finally had time to worry about it, now that I'm not worrying about my treatment and my cancer in the same all-consuming way as I was. Anyway, I think a long, truthful email is in order.

buji - thanks for dropping by, and I'm glad I'm not the only one with a thing for brown rice.

Judy - great to see you. I'm definitely looking forward to it. A few nerves though (don't think I'd be me if that wasn't the case).

Chumchum - it was nice visiting, seeing how things are. Am I to take it you're feeling better now? I certainly hope so. Maybe I should pop by again and check it out.

Hope everyone has a good day.

Will try to get here again in the next couple of days, but can't promise anything.

Chuckles

Sorry if I didn't get to your journal. I'm in a rush. Will make sure I get to them a.s.a.p.

Good luck sweetie! It is going to be a busy day for you, but I'm glad you have some help...Looking forward to hearing from you later in the week! Thanks for dropping by my journal, especially when you are so pressed for time. Why is your sis in Egypt? Sorry about the glasses. Always happens to me too, since I can't really see when trying them on, unless I take a really honest friend. ha Well, have a good trip back to uni and see ya later in the week!!!:D

Miss Chuckles:

Your day will be busy and rushed with packing. With trying to remember if you need this or that. Your off to uni and the wonderfull world of knowledge. Have a wonderfull trip and I hope you have no problem getting connected back to us. I'm sure you'll configure everything right.:)
Talk to you soon.

Judy2:rose: :rose:

I know, I know. You aren't even logged on here. Just wanted to say hi and WELCOME TO SCHOOL. I mean, UNI. (oops, dumb Americans)

My gosh Chuckles, I had a hard time finding your Journal, it was back so far. But I finally made it, and I was so chuffed to have done so.........hahaha

So, what you been up to? I see, off to UNI again eh? Well that should be interesting. Give you somthing else to chat about for a while eh?

It's getting late here, and I do have to run, but I hadn't said hey for a few days, and didn't want to leave you out and let you start thinking I totally forgot all about you, because I haven't.

Have a good time. Hope your weekend was super.

but know you are busy getting ready !!!


and that makes me so happy... I hope you are happy too !!

it takes a very special person to face cancer, not back down, and then get on to more !!!


Chuckles, I am so happy and proud

i feel like old mother penguin and my little fledgling is off to swim in the ocean lol



you will do well...you have a knack for making people feel good about themselves...even when bliss is far away


thanks anna !!!


will you have a full class load ??


all day??


or certain courses?


I hope you and mum had a nice day getting things in order


sad and happy all in one huh?


sad you are going...happy you are working towards a better independant life




I will send ya a :hug: and :x and hope you can fit all your stuff in your new room at uni hahhahaha


it is hard to compact our lives into boxes huh



luv and miss ya chuckles




and I am sure you look lovely in your new glasses



behind those frames are your eyes full of life



that is gorgeous



:hug: Claire

Hi Chuckles!

Hope everything went well with the move up to Uni - I think you said you are going to be up in Lancashire? I hope you get settled in okay and get connected soon (although by the time you read your thread you will of course be connected!).

I'm sure the glasses do look great on you anyway - I agree we always think we are going to look "different" but of course the reality is that we don't! It's like when you get a hair cut, which you yourself feel is drastic, and that nobody else notices! Then somebody asks (a couple of days later) if you've had your hair cut!

I hope that you are having a great weekend and look forward to reading about your adventures at Uni very soon!