Well Here I go again another new journal hopefully this one who will work or I'll make it work I should say. Anyway tomarrow I'm...ONCE AGAIN...going to start on weight watchers if it does not work this time I'm calling it quits because I will know I'm not committed to it. I do not know why I let food get the best of me but it seems like I always do I seem to always be in the process of getting my act together and I still don't have it all together. I know what to do I just don't do it I just think of reasons why I can't or do not want to. ( go figure ) I feel like I run around like a sad sack with my heart on my sleeve wanting someone to make it all better but that is my job. If I do not look out for myself no one else is going to because no matter how much they care they can not force me to do the right things when it comes to weightloss. It is my call the ball is in my court yesterday as I watched myself on video I relized I looked like a beached whale I was so fat and ulgy I could not believe it. ( but it was all to true ) So I gues my question is where do I go from here??? Ruthieb

Here I am again I swear it took me 6 min. to get on here my computer is so slow I feel so popular no one has responded to my journal. lol Anyway it is now 6:12 in the morning and I had 2 packs of oatmeal for breakfast that is 6 points and one cup of coffee. It was dark outside when my husband went to work that is how you know fall is on it's way. My husband sometimes makes me crazy the things he says make no since what so ever he will be talking about something and just stop midway through it and come off with something that has nothing to do with what he was talking about in the first place. Well I'm going to get going for now I'm disturbing my dogs sleep I will report back later just wanted to get some posting in this morning. Ruthieb

good morning Ruthie~~ i can relate to you these days. for one week now i have been falling from grace with food. i have lost 39 pounds so far on ww. i know what to do too its just doing it. i also see pictures of me and i cant beleive thats me. i want to be thin so badly. but the food has been ruling me at night. cant seem to stop eating it.
i do good all day and in 6 days rode 47 miles on my indoor bike but at night i blow it. i am so ashamed of this behavior in myself. i even cried last night over it as i was stuffing my face.
Please dont quit. i know i will never give up. trying is all we can do. this is a long hard journey but together we can win this war on weight.
i will be here for you if you need me.
today is a new day and i am starting fresh. in the past once i would slip i would quit altogether and get even bigger but not this time. i will keep fighting. eventually i'll get it right. i come along way to blow it now. this is the most i ever lost. the program works its just me making excuses when i eat.
i am trying so hard to get back on my feet from falling down and i think im up again but so is the scale a bit too. i am not going to let it go up any further. all the hard work i put into this will not be lost cuz i want to eat too much.
please stay with me and we can do this! we need to be strong and have faith in ourselves and most of all willpower. are you with me??? well if you ever need to my e-mail address is KandyKiss31@aol.com or PM me or visit my journal. we can help one another through the tough times. have a good day and beleive in yourself as i am doing too today!

Hey Ruthie - Sorry you are having such a rough time of it. Just try and make one little step everyday i.e Monday I will have at least 4 glasses of water, Tuesday I will exercise for at least 5 minutes. Eventually this stuff adds up and you are DOING IT.

It is so hard to get going when you are stalled out. Boy do I know that. But, we are all here for you and all rooting for you. You can do it!!!

BTW - hardly anyone ever writes in my journal either. Don't let that get you down. Use your journal as a tool for YOU. Use it to keep track of where you've been, where you are and where you are going. One thing I have found along the way is that you have to find motivation within yourself. You have to be your own best cheerleader (even though we will be here for you too).

Keep at it and lots of luck!

Ruthie,

I went to bed last night early, or you KNOW I would have posted to you!!

Good for you on restarting WW. You CAN do it! I wasted the first 5 months that I was on WW. I joined last November, but kept eating the same foods, not doing the program correctly. In April, I woke up and got busy! Maybe this is that time for YOU! If you want it bad enough, you WILL succeed! When I was at 326, I felt completely hopeless, like there was NO WAY I'd ever be thin again, or thinner anyway. I had way to much to lose, so what was the point? Well, here I am, 68.5 pounds later (and lighter!), knowing that I still have 57.5 pounds to get to MY goal of 200 (WW says 160-167 for my height!). I will get there. I will exorcise these demons!! And you can too.

Is there something in your life that makes you want to lose this weight? Other than just thinking you look "fat", what is your motivation? Maybe that's the answer. If you have a specific goal in mind, that might help. I refuse to be "Fair, Fat & Forty"! I'll be 39 in October, so I have a year and 3 months to get this blubber off. I don't want the health problems associated with obesity. I watched my mom go through some horrible things: Lupus diagnosed in her 30's, hysterectomy, bladder surgery, gall bladder removed in 50's, fibromyalgia, heart attack at 47, and finally lung cancer at 59 that took her from me. The lupus was the internal kind, so it affected and weakened all of her internal organs. I know that Lupus is not hereditary, but I'm not taking any chances. My father has diabetes now, and so does my brother, both diagnosed a little over a year ago. I did get my dad's degenerative osteoarthritis, but that won't kill me.

Sorry to ramble, just saying that those are my motivators! Try to find that one motivator, or two, or three....they really help!

Hang in there Ruthie, we're all here for you!

:hug:

I just thought I'd drop in and let everyone know I did goood today I did max out my points 33 and drank 80 ozs. of water I'm sitting here about to go to the bathroom right now and it is almost bed time thats great. And did some exercise walked around the high school looking for my son's classrooms and it was a walk for sure. Well I'll update in the morning and check in on everyone because it is time for bed thanks to all of you for responding. Your Friend, Ruthieb

Well it is 6:10 am I just got through with my oatmeal I would like to have another cup of coffee. But if I do that and lay back down I tend to have weird dreams. I'm having a strange kind of feelings start to my day I wish sometimes I could just be normal whatever that is. I just wanted to come check in this morning I'm going to go for now because the computer room is next to where my dog likes to sleep and I'm keeping him awake and he does not like that. See you later----Ruthieb

Who wants to be normal? Normal's allright for the common man but in my opinion it is much better to be unique and extraordinary!!

You will have a great day and stay on plan. You will get some good exercise in. You will be strong and courageous. I just know it.

Have a wonderfull sunny day!!

hey there ruthie!!! well, looks like you completed day 1. now there's nothing to stop you from continuing right along, since day 2 is already off to a great start!!!
come on now...you can do it this time!!! you gotta stop thinking of it like a punishment & start thinking of it as a reward..a great reward you're giving yourself!!!!
the hardest part is just getting started & you're already past that so now there's no stopping you!!!! vroom vroom vroom!!!!!!!!

hooray for ruthie!!!!!!!! :D :D :D

HEY...:wazzup:...? Okay here is my game plan :coach:...
This week I'm eating the max on my points---33 points
Next week I'm doing 30 points
The week after that 28 points
I'm going to stay at 28 till my dotors visit as far as exercise I'm going to see what the P.T. says about my ankle then take it from there. My son will be going back to school soon it will be easer to exercise then. Well so far so good on my points and water and I'm feeling a little better my son has a killer headache and my dog is just laying around looking all cute and loveable...it is a good day just wish my son's head did not hurt. Ruthieb

Hi Ruthie,

You were thoughtful enough to stop by and say hello to me ..... I thought I would return the favor.

You know ...... each one of us has to find what works for us .... if WW works for you THAT IS TERRIFIC. Do they give you the total # of points you are allowed .... because if they do my question to you is if you lower them won't it hinder your success? I think it is great that you are drinking 80 ounces of water ...... now that is something I feel very positive about ..... I keep drinking at least 120 ounces ...... but sometimes I go for more but not in the evening ....... don't want to make those frequent bathroom visits at night.

:D I am reading your quote ...... :laugh: I really like it ... an honest statement made in a humorous way. Thanks for stopping by and leaving your encouraging words. Make it a great evening .... and have a fantastic Friday ..... As always, Monica

Yes Monica they give you your points mine is I think 29-33 I will check again and let you know . Ruthieb

Good Evening Ruthie,

Just wanted to thank you for visiting me and my journal. I see you are doing the WW plan also? Very good.

I guess losing weight is just like doing anything else. It really does depend on how badly you want to do something, and how important it is for you to finish what you start successfully.

I'm not a quitter. And yet a little over 19 months ago I wore that title proudly. That's because I had decided to Quit smoking. A bad habit that I had struggled with for 40 years. So far I have been fortunate not to suffer from any smoking related illness that I know of. I thought that if I wanted to continue living in this world, I better quit while I was ahead.

One of my biggest drawbacks was that every time I quit smoking, I would gain weight big time. So of course, I would go back to smoking. I didn't get thin after I started smoking again, but I didn't get any bigger. This battle had gone on for a long time. I discovered I could only fight one tiger at a time, so the first tiger tail I grabbed was the smoking one. I was determined, and totally committed, and I have now been smoke free for 19 months and I love it.

Well, of course I gained weight. I gained big time! It has cost me a small fortune in clothing, but most of all a huge price in self esteem and confidence when facing others outside the home. There is no way I'm going to sit down and let this happen to me. I might not go outside the home often, but when I do, I face the world and everyone in it eye to eye, and no one is going to look down their noses at me because I look a little bigger. Besides, I have osteoarthritis in both my knees, the left one really bad. Now I have a stupid hip that is giving me trouble, and don't you know, it too is on the left side. This will never do! Weight is making it worse, so the weight has to go.

I haven't lost huge amounts of weight yet. Only 22 lbs. But that is 22 lbs that wasn't gone in January of this year, and it will be another 22 lbs gone before next January gets here, or my name isn't Sandie..................LOL.

So jump in there lady, stand tall, stand straight and march into the LOSER'S CIRCLE. Before I was a QUITTER, and now I'm a LOSER, and I'm proud of both! And you will be too.

Take care
Sandie :)

Hello Ruthie~~ so glad your doing ww. i am too. the program really works if you follow it. (i should practice what i preach) you will do great on it.
have a good day tommorow too.

Well here it is at 6:17 in the morning I'm starting day 3 I've had my oatmeal and would really like a another cup of coffee. If I drink it and lay back down I have to keep on getting up 8-| you know what I mean well I'll be back later just wanted to check in with you. Ruthieb

morning ruthie...I musta got up right behind you!!! I hope your day goes well today. How's your son headache?? did it ever go away, I hope???
have a good day today!!

Hey Ruthie - I LOVE WW!! I was reluctant to get into anything structured at all because I just didn't want to have to write everything down and count everything. I resisted and resisted. I was losing weight because I was working out every day but VERY slowly.

I started WW in the middle of July and have already lost 8 pounds in 3 weeks. This stuff WORKS.

It sounds like you have a great plan and a great start. You have nothing but success to look forward to.

Ruthie,

At your weight, (which I take is around the 251 mark?) your range is 28-33. The way I was told is that if you don't exercise, eat at the 28 side, if you do exercise, eat at the 33 side. At 249 your range will drop to 26-31! I'm afraid of that. Eat less than I am already? That'll be tough, but I'll adjust. You will still lose weight if you eat your 33 points, it will just be slower. Nothing wrong with that!!

Keep up the good work!

Hello, I can't believe it it is 6:18 and went I got to the journal fourm no body was on here but me. "wild" I did not get to go to the WW chat last night and post in my journal I could not get diettalk to come up it was a bummer I wanted to chat well maybe next week. "I miss chatting with all of you" Well yesterday I did go over my points I ate 35 or 37 but that is not to bad and I drank tons of water I have empty water bottles all over the place. I've had my oatmeal this morning and a coffee and probley another cup in a min. I need to clean my bedroom today but I do not know if I will get to it. Well just wanted to check in with all of you hope I can get back on later to post some more.

buji-I hope you have a good Saturday yes my son got over his headache I think he is getting headaches because he is scared of going to high school he is a freshman this year. "you know the stories about that" lol

Luci-Your 100% right WW works I just have a hard time sticking to it sometimes. But we can do it all of us I know we can!!!

Stacey-I to get freaked out about going to lower points I trying to figure out how to get more food for less points I guess you have to eat a lot of 0 point foods.

Hope each and everyone of you have a nice day gab your water and head out to the mall and go mall walking or etc... just do something fun!!!
Ruthieb

Well it is now 1:36 EST I've had my luch cottage cheese with tomatoes and yogurt raisins, and a banana and more water. My dog is going crazy right now that is as exciting as it gets right now anyway. lol I've been working on children's church and Sunday school lesson I hope everything goes well this Sunday well I'm going to go for now check back later. Ruthieb

glad is son is doing ok...I feel for him...must be scary!!! if I remember correctly!! LOL!!! starting anything new is always hard...but I'm sure he'll do just fine & fit right in!!!!

you have a good day!!

Hi Ruthie,
Darn I just found your journal!! I am glad to see you are still doing a jounal no matter how times you start one. I think the journal is something that is so important for us to learn and grow from. I go back to the beginning of mine and often wonder if I am still the same person and of course I am but I see things differently than I did months ago.

I use to not deal with anger very well and when I got good and upset I could eat with the best ot them. Now I do everything but eat. Actually I don't do everything. Someone said to throw pillows or hit pillows and stuff like that. I can't do that because that is using anger in an agressive way and I do not want to be physically violent so I ride my bike or listen to music and just let the anger gooooo slowly but surely it goes. I do a lot of watering of my flowers too!!!!:)

I am so sorry to hear your son has headaches too. That is the worse. I had enough trouble dealing with mine but when my son started having them almost was worse than me having one!! I want to take his pain away. I never get use to having my sons hurt!!

I am glad you are giving ww another chance. You know I am here to help anyway I can. I have sent you recipes and articles and hope they help in some way. Some times I just come to the computer and log on and search the net for anthing that comes to my mind. I know I should be out walking or doing things but that is not where my mind or body is. So I come here and feed my brain. I think that is so necessary at times. Sometimes I find something and the first thing I know a couple of hours have gone by and I am not hungry and sure not stressed.

Sometimes I think my hubby causes me stress simply because we are so different. He is daytime and I am nighttime. Everything I love he doesn't. His interest bore me to death!! How we have stayed married for 39 years is a mystery to me. We have a few things in common but not to many.

Thank you so much for all your kinds words and thoughts and prayers for my mother and my family. I believe that all the prayers from DT helped my nother get well. She is off the ventilator and only using a mask to get oxygen. Today they are going to start her on food again and this time they will make sure it goes down her throat and not into her lungs. Poor thing as you get older you body wants to do its on thing. But my mother is a real fighter and I knew if she was suppose to get better she would. The nurse told me that mother told her agter they took the tube out that were treating an old lady kinda rough and then she smiled. So I know mother is back!!

Well my friend I have found you again so I'll be stopping here often. Don't you think twice about the pm I knew you would understand. I am sorry i didn't get back to you sooner. You just hang in there sweetie and remember you are worth the time it takes to become a new you!! You have lots of people who love you and care very much. Now have a wonderful day!!
Talk to you later!!
Love and hugs,
Lizzie

Ruthie...you are doing so well on your first week of WW and I will keep my fingers crossed that you get a big payoff at the weigh in. Have a great week.

Good Morning Ruthie!! Hope your day is goin great!! How's the WW going for you. I had a rough weekend myself, but I'm back on the wagon this morning 8-|

Hello Ruthie~~ just wanted to stop by and say hell to you and to wish you a great day. hope the ww plan is going good for you.

Hi Everyone, I just got to my journal today yesterday was church day and I did not have time to post had a big headache last night and yesterday evening. Got up today went to Physical Therapy and the therapist told me I had messed up my ankle he told me the name of the injury but it was really long. I don't know exactly how or when I hurt it but it is hurt and I have to go to therapy a couple times a week till we get it better I'm not to stay on it more than I have to. I can swim for exercise that is about it but as for the water and food it is really going good so I'm happy for that well I'm going to go for now I'll check in later. Ruthieb

Hi Ruthie :)

So sorry to hear about your ankle being hurt. I do hope you aren't suffering too much in the pain department. Injury is one thing. I can usually deal with that as long as there is no pain.........LOL.

Keep up watching your points. I'm sure you will eventually get into the groove and move along just fine. I haven't really done much for the past two weeks, but I've managed to lose just the same. For the most part, I just stay at the low end of my range, which is 26 to 31 pts.

Take care now and make sure to obey your doctor and let that ankle heal properly.

Hugz, :hug:
Sandie

Well I'm up and had my oats and coffee going to drink another cup in a minute and watch the news will be back later with my mini-goals. Ruthieb

Hello Ruthie~~ sorry about your ankle. take care of yourself. when you say oats do you mean oatmeal? I love oatmeal and cream of wheat.
well i hope you have a good day!

Hey Ruthie girl - Sorry about your ankle. Hoping you are healed in no time. In the meantime - swimming is AWESOME exercise and will do quite nicely until you are ship shape.

Great job on staying within your points. Keep up the good work!!

Love

Hey Ruthie,
Sorry about that ankle. Sounds like that hurts Ouch!! Hope it gets better quick. Do you have anything to take for those darn headaches? That is awful being that sick with those things!!!

You take care and rest that foot!!
Love and hugs,
lizzie

Well today woke up with a slight headache
Lizzie...The doctor has me on lots of different stuff to help them it just don't work all the time.:(
Well yesterday I went over my points by about 10 maybe but it is okay everything will work out.

Now here is my mini goals--
Stay on points till I weigh 249 ( I still intend to stay on points after that also )
Work my upper body with exercise
Rid myself of empty points
Well I hope this sounds ok and I'm not getting to crazy sounding. lol
Minnie--Yes it is oatmeal cim. roll flavor
Well GOTTA GO GOTTA GO GOTTA GO RIGHT NOW...GOTTA GO GOTTA GO GOTTA GO!!! LOL Ruthieb

You don't sound crazy. You just sound DETERMINED. Your goals sound great and I'm positive you will achieve them. Have a super day!

Hello, Just wanted to check in and tell everyone I'll post in journal tomarrow. This ankle thing is really bad I'm in a lot of pain tell you more later. Ruthieb

hello ruthie~~ i am so sorry about your ankle? i hope you feel better soon.
about 2 years ago i had bad pains in my hand and wrist. it hurt to even bend it back or anything. the pain went away on its own in a yr but i think i have some kind of arthritis but i never had it checked cuz i didnt have medical but sometimes it hurts but not as bad.
i can relate to pain and ankle must be worse cuz how are you walking?
well ill check in on you later and i will say a prayer for you too.
:rose: :rose: :rose:

Thank You Minnie...For the prayer it means a lot.
This here are crazy...here is the ankle story my ankle has been hurting for about 3 months really bad had trouble moving it up or down. So I go to the doctor and told her she told me to take pain pills so I did went back ankle still hurting. So she sends me to physical therapy so I go the man there is VERY nice so he checks things out told me what was wrong. ( long word ) Anyway he does stuff to my ankle and then he wants to see me back Thursday so I go. Get there and he ask more questions I told him I had turned my ankle 2 times in 2 days so now I have a ankle brace so I can not turn my foot. It seems this started about a year ago I feel off the porch truned my ankle bad enough that I thought I broke it but it did not swell so I thought I was fine. Well I was not fine I found out you can sprang your ankle really bad and your ankle may not swell up...( I hate to do this but I'm going to have to get off of here I will get back later ) Ruthieb

Ruthie,

You poor thing! You've been in pain all this time when you didn't have to be. Yikes! I hope that ankle feels better soon. Do the doctors know what cause your headaches? They sound very painful, and far too many of them. And you son gets them too? There's something wrong with that!!

I'll be back to see the rest of your story.

:hug:

hello ruthie~~ sorry your still hurting. i have very low tolerence for pain but am getting better about that.
i hope you heal soon and have no more pain.
enjoy your weekend too and ill check in on you later.

Hi All, Thanks for worring about me...Well here is a quick recap on the last few days the ankle brace has made a place on my ankle that hurts. But it does seem to be getting better I have an appt . with the P.T. tomarrow. Well this past weekend I was passing a whole lot of blood from my bowels could not go to the hospital because of the insurance. It started Friday night then did not stop till Sunday it was not just hemmroids I really do not know what it was I was going to go to the doctor today but my hubby had to go to work he got called out so I did not get to go but I do plan on going though. Well better go I have to do my ankle exercises hope you have a good day. May God Bless You All, Ruthieb

Hello ruthie~~ i am so sorry about all these problems your having. please have the bowel thing checked regardless.
i too in the past due to no insurance have let things slide but you need to have this checked out.
i will say a prayer for you sweetie and try not to worry.
God will watch over you and keep you safe and take care of yourself.:rose:

Thanks Minnie...:rose:...Well I weighed myself this morning could not believe my eyes I weighed 257 pounds so I gained 6 pounds...eek!!! I've had my packages of oatmeal and am pondering as always weather to have a 2nd cup of coffee I'm really tired and my dog is sleeping. I have to go to the P.T today so that means I have to do something with my hair...What I really do not know. My birthday is next month I will be 37 years old and lately when I look in the mirror I see age in my face it is unreal to me. I guess I'm just going to have to deal with this growing older more gracefully than I have. Well I had better go for now. Ruthieb

Ruthie!!

Get thee to the doctor! You can't mess around with that kind of bleeding. If you know it's not just hemmorhoids (sp?), then get it checked soon! Like I posted in my journal, don't worry about the weight, it will come off again as soon as you're able to get more active. I'm 38 and am aging very gracefully...you can too! I'll be 39 in October. It's hard to accept when we get older, and everybody has a different age that bothers them, but I hope you'll stop being so hard on yourself!!

Feel better soon, and good luck with that ankle!

Hello ruthie~~ well i agree with stacey we all will age but its how we feel about ourselves that make us age gracefully. and each person has a certain number they fear. mine was 30. i am now 31 yrs old and it doesnt bother me now but my hubby turned 40 this yr and he hated turning it. it was like the end of the world to him.
and please get the bleeding thing checked. ASAP. dont take any chances. and please take care sweetie:rose:

I will call this post
FAT CHICK CAUGHT IN A BAD MOVIE
This movie is my life were my shorts get tighter my butt gets bigger and I'm eating every flipping thing that is not tied down. What in the crap is wrong with me I know I should not eat it but I just keep doing it I'm freaking out. And yesterday I did not even do my ankle exercises and I have to do them if I want my ankle to feel better. I make up my mind to get my life in control and it is always the same things on my list has been for the last 14 years. WHY! WHY! WHY! can't I just do the things that has to be done I keep trying to figure out what my problem is and just can't seem to get it. There has to be a reason why I do well for a while then just go ape crap and get so so so out of control. I'm drinking my water and lots of it I'm so tired that I can not stand it my house is in need of a good cleaning and all I can think about is food...EEK!!! Ruthieb

Hello Ruthie~~ well you sound like your having trouble staying on track with the food. and your not alone. i try to break these bad habits but they resurface too. i know when im eating i shouldnt be when my points for the day are done but somedays i cant ehlp it. or should i say i have lack of willpower on some days and other days im strong.
im trying to have more strong days then weak ones cuz the food isnt worth it but we are worth it. i keep telling myself i can do this and i deserve it and so do you. keep strong and you will get your willpower back too.

Ruthie I was just stopping by to send a Hug and some thoughts your way. One of the things I learned from the changing for good book was that almost all successful changers recycle from time to time. I have caught up in eating and also caught up in not exercising for a week and wondering "What is wrong with me"8-| eventually I realized that was just the old me trying to flip the switch back to the way it was. No deep analysis no secret obsessions clearly what I had done before was a part of me that didn't want to change. I started practicing flipping the switch back. concentrating on why I wanted what I wanted and how far I had come. As I did this over the last 6 months I am getting better and better on keeping the new me switched on and bypassing my old ways.
I am confident that you are going to succeed at your weightloss goals. I have found first hand how hard this truly is and I admire your continuous commitment to try to find the strength within yourself to meet your goals and dreams

We are worth it... and we can do it... we will do it
CJ

Hi Ruthie,
Hello my friend. You sound like I have felt so many times. I would be great for a few days then whamo everything down the drain!!!! I did that for so long and then one day everything clicked!! Plus the fact that I finally got so sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.

Doctor had warned me for a long time to get myself under control but I didn't do it. The day finally came when I just started crying and said if I have to live like this I don't want to live. So I changed. Whenever I think I can't do this anymore I think of that day when i thought my life was over and I get all kinds of motivation to go forward. I can do this. I will do this. I am doing this!!!!

Yes I still have those days but not as often or as intense. I just have to be stronger on those days!!

I know you will do this because you don't give up. You keep trying and that is a sign of a true winner. The winner keeps trying all the time until they succeed!! Sweetie you are a winner!!!!

Keep hanging in there it does get better!!!!
Love and hugs,
Lizzie

Hello Ruthie~~ i wanted to drop by to say hello and hope your feeling better.
cheer up~~ we love you!
you will beat this thing and so will we all.
if we just stick together we can do it! one day at a time.
hope your having a good monday!

Hello, Well I'm feeling some better now my eating is still on the bad side though. I guess I was overeating last week because my husband went to Las Vagas the first time he was ever on a plane it was for work but I was so nervous though. But he is back safe and sound...THANK GOD...he loved flying on the plane but they did have a unruly passenger on the flight out the cops got on the plane and took him off. He got to stay in a nice hotel he called me 2 times and his coworker called his family 1 time and it was 80 dollars...we did not talk that long it is just pricey there. The hotel had a roller coster in it the name of it was the New Yorker I think but he had a good time did not gamble he does not do that I would have if I would have been there at least once. lol And then yesterday there was a big fuss at our church I feel like quiting but I am going to stick it out for now. That caused me to get a big flipping headache and I had P.T. this afternoon we are still working on my ankle. The Dr. told me I could ride the exercise bike but for no more than 5 mins. to start so I did not mess up my ankle more I still have the brace on and will for a while it seems like so that is what is going on here hope to get back tomarrow to post in every ones journals have a great day. Ruthieb

P.S. My son got a date to the Homecoming Dance one of the girls who turned him down came back and ask him out...I'm really execited about this!!!

Minnie- Thanks for stopping in here and posting it really means a lot to me. I guess this was your childrens first day of school I hope they like it my son seems to be doing really good this year. I guess he did not like being in trouble all summer no computer and lots of chores I'll keep you updated on this school thing.

CJ, I'm glad you stopped in I've missed your post but I know you have been having some down time but you are right we will get this weightloss thing going it just takes time and you are doing so good on your weightloss...I'm proud of you. P.S. Thanks for your friendship it has helped me more than you know.

Lizzie B, You to have been there for me and you have been dealing with some problems and for you to take time to e-mail me with the recipes...by the way THANKS...it really means a lot to me.

Well so far today I've had waffles I really did not enjoy them but it was all we had to eat. I'm drinking my water that is one good habit I've seem to be doing good with update more later. Ruthieb

Hello Ruthie~~

yes today was kids first day back to school. i am enjoying it alot too.
tommorow morning i go back to work on dayshift. i am glad but things will get hectic for me here too.
i am glad your hubby is home safe and sound and that your son got date for the dance.
its so hard to be a teen cuz you fear rejection but i guess we even do it as adults.
well in a little bit kids will be home and chaos will take over the house once again so im going for now. take care:rose:

hi ruthie!!!!

that's so great about your son!!! I'll bet he has a wonderful time!!! I hope she's a nice girl too!!!

those waffles sure do sound good; I'm getting into breakfast nowadays so I'll be checking out what everybody's eating!!! LOL!!!

how's that ankle doin? does it hurt when you try to ride the bike?? I give you alot of credit for making the effort!!!!!

you have a good one!!!!

[glow=Hello Everyone,]
[shadow=How are you all doing?]I just wanted to let everyone know I'm here I'm just a little behind right now will get caught up soon on journals. Ruthieb

Ruthie,
I just want to know if you had that bleeding checked out yet!!!!!! I am worried about you because that could be a serious problem and may explain why you don't feel 100%. Please get it checked out!!!!!

Don't worry about being behind in the journals we all are behind some times!! In fact I still catching up!!

You take care and have a peaceful night. When is the dance for your son ?? Take pictures!!!!

Okay now have a good night!!
Love and hugs,
Lizzie

Hello All, Guess what??? Tomarrow is my BIRTHDAY!!! Yes I know I act like a kid getting so excited but I just can not help it. My husband just came in and gave me a update on the air in the car it was just rotted out don't really know what that means but he does though. I've been lazy today just don't have my get up and go going on my son is busy doing chores he just kept putting them off untill he had a lot to do. Well just wanted to check in I hope to be able to set up a new time to check in on everyones journals. Ruthieb

Ruthie,

In case I miss it, have a wonderful birthday!! :bd I hope you get your air back, I wouldn't be able to stand it without mine.

I'll be thinking about you!

:hug:

Hello...THANKS STACEY :) :D Well this is the post were I tell you I've took a long look at my life and figured out how to solve all my problems...ya right. Anyway as I take a look back over the last year the mistakes I've made is many I need to confess that and tell you this year will be better.
I also need to tell you the things I've learned oner this past year..
1. Sometimes the people you love the most can break your heart
2. Sometimes you have to move away from people who really don't have your best intrest at heart no matter how much you love them.
3. That yes you can fall totally in love with a dog and they become part of your family ( I Love You Arnold )
4. Sometimes what you get is better than what you paid for.
5. No matter how many times you bath your dog you always think they smell a little.
6. Sometimes God leads you were you thought you could not go.
7. My blessings ave been far more than my tears.
8. Sometimes life is funny...and sometimes it is hard to laugh.
9. That when wounded the U.S.A. will ban together to heal.
10. Sometimes I need to be more commited and less involved.

Things I hope to learn this year...
1. A commitment is better than just passing through.
2. To take the high road because it will only make you a better person.
3. Keep my eyes on God that way I do not have time to look left or right.
4. That if your a mom of a teen you have to remember...That that don't kill you will only make you stronger.
5. It is not my job to make sure everyone is happy...it just my job to make sure I'm happy
6. Life is not always fair but it is workable.
7. That you can Live Love Laugh And Eat and still reach your weight goal.
8. Some friends are more needy than others..so you just have to get a grip on things.
9. Happiness is a state of mind
10. A good night rest, a good book or The Good Book, a hot shower... Are a few things that can give you a whole new out look on life.

So may your day be filled with Rainbows and Hugs a good cold glass of water and a postive outlook on life. And sometimes the best things in life are so simple...try to keep them that way. Ruthieb

Well I went to the big city today and did not get that much stuff but I did go out to eat. Ruthieb

Hi Ruthie,

Does that imply that your ankle is coming along rather nicely? I certainly hope that is the case. Now, about the beeding. Don't you think you've ignored everyone's concerns enough? Have you seen the doc, or what? I definitely hope that you did the right and wise thing, and saw your doctor. Forget about the insurance, and don't worry about the doctor bills either. If you need medical treatment, go and get it. Worry about the paying for it later. You can always make payment arrangements after the fact.

Now you take good care of yourself. Remember, no one else is going to do it for you, so you better do it for yourself.

Love n hugs,:hug:
Sandie

Hello ruthie~~

wonderful post too.
glad your doing good. did you see the doctor?
Ive been sick with tummy flu. it stinks too.
now hubby has it. hopefully kids will pass on it. thats all i need right now.
well you take care of yourself and have a good night!

Well today is September 5th it is my sister and grandfathers birthday my big sis is 46 years old she is in denial of the whole matter I think. lol My grandfather is 91 or 92 years old his mind comes and goes but he still takes care of himself well his wife does but he gets up and around. He is a preacher he still preaches but sometimes he just gets side tract he needs to retire but if you tell him that he just freaks out. My sister life has been a very strange one I'm glad she is doing better she needs God's help in her life. What was funny is the first grandchild my grandparents ever had was born on papaws birthday. My grandmother is been past away for years my papaw got remarried years ago to a nice woman. Well my husband has Strep Throat and I think I may have gotten it also my throat is hurting if it is not better tomarrow I'm going to call the doctor and see if I can come in for a strep test. I've been tired but I'm always tired tomarrow I guess I get the big brace for my foot/ankle when I went shopping the other day all that walking did not help it. My eating is just so for now till I get things back on track. Well I guess I'd better go hope to hear from you all miss getting here everyday. Ruthieb

Hi Ruthie,

Wanted to stop in and say hello.

I really wish I could help you feel a bit more positive about your weight loss program and help you to get a little bit more motivated. Maybe when I get to know you a bit better, I will think of something that might be of help.

I certainly hope you are all right and don't have the Strep. That's nasty stuff. Take it easy kiddo. Will be back again soon.

Love n hugs,
Sandie :)

Hi Ruthie my friend. I am sorry you aren't feeling well. Naturally if hubby has strep he gave it to you!! Hopefully your doc will get you started on antibiotics fast!!

I have been blaming my ortho doc for my painful leg but now it is in both legs so maybe something else happening here. Sure makes it hard to walk!! I do know if it doesn't get better I will definitely go see him again and soon!!!!!!

Yes I wish I could get you motivated with your program and make you sooooo thrilled to be on a diet!! But I do understand when we just aren't ready yet. Too many other things crowding for attention!

Well sweetie I have to get off the computer my legs are rewally hurting sitting here.

Hope you feel better soon.
Love ans hugs,
Lizzie

Ruthie,

Boy, oh boy!! Strep? That stinks! I'm so sorry you're having such a hard time. It sounds like it's all starting to get you down in the dumps, and nobody is blaming you for that! I wish I had a cure for your ailments! My heart goes out to you.

Please feel better soon!

:hug:

Hello Ruthie~~

well i can relate to strep. i used to get it often.
i also can relate to passing sickness in the house. i had tummy virus and gave it to hubby.
we always pass things around.
i hope your feeling better soon and have a good day today and try to rest up.
take care my friend:rose:

Hello All, I just wanted to check in and tell you I'm still hanging on for now see the doc tomarrow will stop back in here and tell you what happens. Ruthieb

Ruth,
Sorry to hear about the strep throat, that is so sore. You need to snuggle into a nice comfy blankie and relax.

I read in your posting to someone else that you are struggling with being focused with your weight loss efforts. I know the feeling. Last week was expecially hard for me. Not exactly sure why. A bunch of different things I think.

This weekend I just sat on my bed, prayed alot and thought about what I wanted to do this week. Exercise was a big thing so I made out a schedule and exercise was a high priority. So hubby left for work at 5:30 this morning and I had my alarm set for 6:45. Made it to the gym for 7am and had a nice workout. I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to do as much as usual because I hadn't been there for about a week, but it went really well. Felt great when I left.
Now I have started in the 100+ thread, the generation thing, and they are getting us to set specific goals for this week. So mine was to do the exercise as planned and to drink 4 tall glasses of water each day. And of course be careful of food consumption.

Ruth, you can do this. Give yourself time to really think about what you can do, practical things that will fit into your life. And if you need time off just to get focused again, take it, it will make a big difference.

Well, I will let off now. Just wanted to encourage you. HOpe it helped. Ignore whatever you want. 8-|

HOpe you are feeling better soon, and hubby too.:rose:

Hi there Ruthie :)

How ya doing lady? Still got that nasty old strep throat? I sure hope by now you have some medications and it is easing up some for ya.

Just stopped in to say hello. You take good care of yourself now, ok? Eat something like ice pops. That will help your throat a lot.

Hugs :hug:
Sandie