View Full Version : Looking through new eyes.


ThinLynn
08-17-02, 04:38 PM
Like so many others, I have tended over the years to "forget" things that happened in my past that shaped who I am today, because remembering was too painful.

But I sat and read Fleureange's Journal this afternoon, and memories flooded back that I've spent a lifetime covering up.

The one that reduced me to tears was the memory of a brief conversation I was never supposed to hear. I was about 17 years old. Way too tall. Way too thin. Face full of horrible acne.

My mother walked past my bedroom as I sat in front of the mirror trying my hardest to learn to put on some make-up, which I thought may make me more presentable. A short while later, I descended the stairs in time to hear my Dad ask where I was. To which my mother replied, "She's up in her room, trying to make a silk purse out of a sow's ear."

I want to thank Fleueange for giving me the courage to look into my past. My parents are both deceased now, but I wish I could tell my Mom that I forgive her for causing me such hurt by an off-hand comment that stayed with me for life.

Lynn

Lindasue
08-18-02, 09:10 AM
You are a beautiful woman Lynn. Thank you for sharing that part of your life with us. Love ya sweetie. :x

joanne
08-18-02, 09:49 AM
If I had things to say that happened about my past I could most definitely fill this page.. But I am stronger than that and refuse to let them get to me..I read fleureanges journal as well and some things could only TRY and make their way back to me but I fought the battle and won.. I can not change the past no matter what I do...So I'm not wasting my time and energy to even think about it.. I live for the present now.. and Thinlynn I"m sooooooooooo sorry this happened to you.. HUGS to you buddy... And something else.. You can forgive your mother .. Forgive her through prayer I'm sure she's close by.. If you ever watch the show Crossing Over with John Edward.. all our deceased loved ones are around.. I know my father is here...I feel his presence...Especially when I dream about him for no particular reason.. But I guess it's his way of coming through..