10-23-07 03:00 PM

In this episode, learn about a force for change so strong that the Universe will bow down to your desire when you have it. If you've been listening, you already have a detailed idea of what you want to create in your life. This week you will go to the fitting room with your new body and try it on for size. Because if you want something that you don't already have, then chances are, something within you has been holding you back. Learn how to break through those inner blocks, the fears or concerns that have been getting in your way in this week's guided process. Plus, learn about the magic formula for weight loss, and a secret weapon against envy.

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Secret weapon against envy? I must have missed that nugget.. will have to re-listen.

This is a great episode.. it's about how you vision your ideal self.. REALLY envision every part about it and then imagine yourself stepping into that person and all that jazz..

then the next question: Don't you think that if you really wanted that you would be there now? The answer is YES! We all know that we are in our own way (well, we should all know it).. You have to dig in and figure out what you are getting out of being where you are right now. You should be able to feel that insecurity in you.. that physical sensation should be in your torso.. Find it.. and then imagine taking your hand s and you remove the feeling.. listen to it.. ask what it is trying to do for you? Protect you from what? Thank that part of you for letting you know its objection... You need to pay attention and you need to allow all parts of you to get involved.

I know that one of the big things for me is something that I have buried for a long long time. I hope I can figure out what to do with the knowledge.

A running mate asked me if I am always happy. I'm not! I think my weight proves that I just stuff it down. My smile says that, too.

I can envision myself at about 10 lbs. lighter.

As to how to get there, what is holding me back, I really don't think I have any hidden stresses in my life. I was never abused, I had a great relationship with my parents, I was raised in a loving home, my relationship with my husband is a good one, I am essentially a happy person, we have a good life, we have enough money to be content, etc., etc. and so forth.

So I guess I would have to rely on that old thought that I just like to eat, I like the 'party in my mouth.' That is a pretty simplistic answer, but I can't come up with a better one.

My limiting beliefs or objection are:
1. That my body likes it at this weight—my plateau. My body has been at this weight many times and often "lands" there. It is impossible for me to get below 180. This is crazy because I've just reached 177.
2. I can maintain this weight and eat whatever I want—with exercise.
3. I don’t want to waste anything or let the “good stuff” go to others—but when I overeat, it's waste anyway. This falls into that "party in my mouth" category.
4. I, like many others, am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse. I am not comfortable with alot of attention from men.

I have just joined Renee's IOWL and am only up to # 17 but I actually just want to keep re listening to the first 15..Particularly, episode 4 really got to me. One of the questions she asked is if any part of me objects to being what you want?
I realized that if I was REALLY honest with myself, that if I lose the weight and keep it off, what will I struggle with? I can't blame it on the weight anymore nor hide behind the work of "dieting". I will have to ask more of myself,and I am afraid to stretch my boundaries..I am still sitting with this because I have been yo yo dieting for years, going from size 16 to size 4. I can lose the weight but never maintain it..