Hello everyone,
Some of you will remember me......some will not. My name is Vickie but a few will remember my nickname of Babycakes.
This is the third time I have come to diettalk to get healthy. It is my fault for my failures in the past.....I could not let go and let good things happen for me. I have always found incredible support and encouragement here.
This time is gonna be different though. I have spent the last year working things out in my mind and learning exactly what makes me be me. My depression is finally under control, as is my anger. And I am doing it without medication. :)
Now I feel like I am ready to work on my weight control issues and my diabetes. So I am back once again.
I have spent the afternoon reading up on the forum board. Sounds like so many of you are doing so well. Congrats to all. I hope I can be successful as well. I am sure gonna try.
I am gonna take the next few days to plan my goals and the strategies I will use to get there, then I will be back. I am just saying hello today.

Hope all of you are having a wonderful holiday season.


Love,

Vickie:D

Hi Vickie and Welcome back..
This is a wonderful place for support from people who know how we are feeling because at one time or the other we have all been there..huh? :(
Make a plan and jump on with both feet and we will help you ride along..:D
Take care and Good luck in your journay.
Laura

Hi Vicki aka Babycakes!!!

You bet we missed you!! I am so glad you are back. Didn't feel just quite right with you not here. I am so happy for you that you have been able to come to terms with happenings in your life. Getting anger and depression under control. Wow!! Those are most likely the toughest to deal with. Then you do it!! I think that is reallly wonderful.

You know it doesn't matter how many times you start the point is you do start again and that says tons about you and your willingness to change what you need to. Yipeeeeeeeeee for you!!

Welcome back!!!!!
Love and big huggers,
Lizzie

I am so happy to see you. Welcome home. :hug:I am glad you are back. Sounds like you are ready to run with this. Hope to see you alot. :x

Vickie!!! :hug:

I was so excited to see your reply in my walking thread! I've missed you tons. Are you still interested in walking the Mackinac Bridge with me?? We've got 8 or 9 months to get ready this time! I didn't go last year -- couldn't find anyone who would do it although I asked a zillion people. Think on it! Would be fun!

Looking forward to hearing about all your successes in 2003!

Lisrey :spring:

Hi Vickie;
Glad to see you back! You have done well in that your weight is still below what it was when you started.
You are the nurse right??
How is your sister doing? I think she had been quite ill when you were last here.

Pat

hi everyone,
thanks to all who took the time to respond to my journal. just a few hours after my initial post, i had a ugly old migraine and was more or less confined to my bed for about 12 hours. then i finally got back on line and typed out a nice reply and just as i clicked on "submit reply" my cable went down. i was beginning to think that someone was trying to get my attention. lol.
i feel much better now. i made a doctors appointment to go get a complete physical. i want to do this right this time. i plan on setting small goals.....no more than 10 lbs per month and i will watch my measurements closer this time too. the waist to hip ratio has begun to be very important to me lately. i am still working out the details for now.
thanks for the amazing support that i knew would be here all along.

love,

vickie:D

patricians,
yes i am the nurse. its nice to have someone remember small details....thank u so much.
my sis is anna a. she used to visit here quite often. last winter she spent some time in the hospital with CHF and was really quite ill. today, she is still well over 400 lbs and continues to struggle daily with weight related health problems. :(
she has decided to attempt the gastric bypass surgery after all and is just beginning to get her information packets, i hope everyone will pray for her and continue to support her.

love,

Vickie:D

Hi......
I am back. I hope all of you had a wonderful Christmas. One more holiday to get through for this year.........then Valentines Day will be on the way. The chances to eat never end. LOL!!
I did my waist to hip ratio a few days ago and YIKES!!!!!! Its 94%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This has got to change!!!!! :c(
I will be joining the Y this week and beginning my walking program again. I can't wait to start feeling those exercise sweats again. I will be checking back in to let anyone interested know how I am doing. I have to be accountable to someone and I know someone here will care how things are going with me.
I haven't weighed myself in awhile so I truly don't know if my stats are right are not. They will probably be changed as soon as I start exercising. For now.....I will post my waist to hip measurements.

Waist: 48 inches
Hips: 51 inches

I will also start keeping a food journal again and will continue to follow my diabetic diet.....only more closely.
I still have to set my goals too......but I plan on just doing one long term goal, and break that one long term goal into monthly goals. I am hoping to meet these monthly goals by doing personal monthly challenges to myself.

I will be back soon to post my goals and my new stats. Thanks for listening.


Love,

Vickie :coach:

Hi Vickie
Glad to see your plan is getting under way. My the holidays were hard on me.. Well more like the SCALES...:( but back on track.
My cousin and sister are also here in DT they are Mini Me Mary and MadMarnDZ we also have a thread in General Discussion called Little-Mini-Mad chitchat, we would love to see ya in there if your interested.. We all joke and have a great time in there..Sometimes we have to :D when we want to:c( ..ya know?
This battle is the hardest thing I have ever done and this is NOT my FIRST time at it as I have been heavy all my life.. I never use to let no one take pictures of me, well one day I seen one of me that made me want to be sick and I said to myself this is ENOUGH!! I was down -52# till Christmas hit and POWW back up about 6 so I will not let that get me down. I will not have to start over again some day..I HOPE!! :)

Hope you had a very nice Christmas and thanks for visiting my journal..Love to meet new people..
You are doing great and cant wait to hear of your losses.
Laura

Hi Laura,
Thanks for the visit. :D

I visited the Little-Mini-Mad thread and laughed til my sides hurt. You girls are outrageous. I will definitely visit again if you don't mind.

I posted my long term goals in the Pub/Resolution threads.....I still have a bit of planning to do to post them here. I want to break them down and make my first monthly goal for January and come up with my first personal challenge to get me moving.

My sweetheart bought me two very sexy and beautiful negligees for Christmas. I can wear them but I really feel very self conscious in them.....like a whale on the beach. I am anxious to get busy and start losing.


Friends Always,


Vickie:coach:

Howdy
Sorry I haven't been around the last few days. I am a new Aunt..:D We had a new addition to the family yesterday at 1:27 pm..Little girl..She had some troubles and was life flighted to a children's hospital.Doing ok now,THANK GOD!! She sure scared us..She is beautiful!!:D
Oh don't worry about your nighties..Hubby will have to go get smaller ones in NO time and I'm sure you look fine in them..He thought so or he wouldn't have bought them,NOW would he? He is the only one that has to like them, isn't that right.....:D
Sure come to chitchat anytime we usually have something to laugh about in there most all the time..:) We are crazy!!
Have a great weekend, don't know if I'll be on much or not with going to be with my brother at the hospital.
Take care

Laura

Hi Laurie,
Thanks for visiting my journal again. I am finally starting to get organized here and I will be flying soon.
I am glad the baby is doing good now. I hope you post pictures soon. I love babies!!!!

I went to a friends house for dinner last night and I did great with not overeating.
Small salad
Small baked steak
Steamed Brocoli
Small baked Potato
Water

my only weakness was that she had pecan pie for dessert but I had a very small piece.......maybe 5 bites. I was so proud of myself.

I can't wait to start working out again....the Y has asked me to get a physical before I start working out due to my health problems....I see my doctor on January 7th. Until then I am trying to find ways to be active here at home.
And I am working on menus more closely now. Planning ahead is very important to me. If I don't plan ahead...I hit the drive-thrus cause it is EASY.

Well, I am off to the mall......my sweetie is shopping but I am just going along to get the free walk.
Have a wonderful Sunday.


Friends,

Vickie:coach:

Hi Vicki!! I've been soooo busy over the holidays, but I did want to drop in and let you know that I am very happy to see you again!!! I hope to be back to snuff within a few weeks and I look forward to 'chatting' with you again!

Have a wonderful and Happy New year!!

Cheers!
Linda

Hi Tmayder,
This is a very busy time of year for all of us. Things will calm down eventually. :D But I am looking forward to chatting with you again too. Thanks for the visit to my journal.

I just stopped in to post my goals for tomorrow.

1) I will get at least 30 minutes of exercise somehow.....maybe a Richard Simmons tape. :ex:

2) I will drink at least 4 bottles of bottled water :water:

3) I will check my blood sugar at least twice:nurse:


Have a great day!!!


Vickie :coach:

Yay for you with the workout plans! :up: I was sure excited to read your reply in my journal about the bridge walk. I wanna DO IT! We have a date, okay? You & me, Labor Day, 2003!!

I'm so happy to hear you mention a Sweetie a couple of times here... I know you had a bit of a broken heart when you left before, and it sounds like things are bright and cheery again. That's great! Is your Sweetie giving you lots of support for this effort? Is he going to be working out beside you and/or counting calories with you? As great as DT and online buddies are, support at home sure does help!

Have a great week, Vickie! I have to say again, it is fabulous having you back!

Lisrey :x

Hey
The baby is doing ok,might get to come home tomorrow..Can't wait to get my hands on her..We haven't got to hold her yet.
Mini took some pic of her with her digital, I'll have to see if she can post one. Try my best to get on in the picture forum. I'll let ya know if we get one on here.
Don't over do your work outs till you make sure your ready..Hate to see you laid up.
Have you lost any yet? Do you post in weigh in? Mad-Mini and I do every Monday and tomorrow for me is not going to be good. I will get back to it full force after New Years once I get back to work. Being home for 2 weeks makes it so hard.
Do you have kids? I have three, 2 girls and a boy. ages 18-15-12. Teenage years..:( Makes you old fast...:(

Did you buy yourself something when you went shopping? I would have..:D
Did you read in chitchat about my sister and I's troubles at the under ground parking at the Children's hospital? Lordy I was embarrassed..:o

Well getting late better get to bed as I'm taking down Christmas stuff tomorrow as I have to go back to work Jan 2 and IT will be done before then.

Night Bud.
Laura

Happy 2003 to all my Diettalk Buddies....thanks for all the support...in the past...the present...and the FUTURE!!!!
You guys are sooooo important to me.




Love.

Vickie:coach:

:coach: HAPPY NEW YEARS VICKIE!!


:hug: Laura

Hi Everyone,
I am finally back. The late loon returns :D I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season. I did even if I did have to work alot.
I weighed myself on the hospital scale yesterday morning....251. I was so pleased that I had only gained about 6 pounds that I practically did the snoopy dance all the way back to the nurses station. Now I have joined a Valentines Day Challenge on the MINI, LITTLE, & MAD CHIT CHAT thread. I am going to lose 11 pounds by February 14th...which will put me at 240 again.
My personal mini goals for January are as follows....

1) Walk 20-30 minutes 4 days a week every week

2) Drink 64 ounces of water at least 5 out of 7 days/week

3) Get my hair done this month.....it has been AGES!!!!!!!!!!!

4) My pamper Vickie day for this week will be SUNDAY the 5th.


I am so happy to be back trying again.....I will succeed this time. A word to the wise to all the new ppl just starting out here. Don't ever give up and stop trying. It makes me sad and angry that I could be ever so close to my goal RIGHT NOW if I had kept trudging forward instead of letting trivial things divert me from my goals. Not gonna happen again!
Oh, by the way...I have a new personal motto. heeheehee
Did anyone see Oprah yesterday with fitness trainer BOB GREENE as the guest. I love the man. He said something that I have adopted as my motto and its this:

ARE YOU GONNA KEEP YOUR WORD TO YOURSELF OR NOT????

I promised myself that I would do it this time and by golly, I WILL

See ya all soon...love ya:D


Vickie:coach:

Those mini-goals look excellent, Vickie. Good luck on your challenge! It sounds very do-able -- and I know you'll do it! :up:

Your post made me think of something that I'm not sure how to put into words. We all talk about how "this time" we're going to do it. For me, ever since I found the motivation two years ago to try, it's all one attempt. Even though I might go for 6 months without losing more than a pound or two, I'm not starting over, I'm still going. I think that you leaving DT but coming back is sort of the same thing. You know you can do it... it's still there. You got a little distracted, but now your focus is back and you're "active" with it again. Not sure if I'm making any sense, but what I'm trying to say is I'm proud of you, and I don't think you "broke your word" to yourself -- you just haven't accomplished it YET.

Go, Vickie!! * Looking forward to hearing about your exercise & each of those 11 pounds coming off!

Lisrey :)

Hi Lisrey,
Thanks for the kind words and for visiting my journal again. You are so sweet.
I am doing great today!!!!! I am eating well and I have kept moving with all kinds of housework. My muscles feel better when I move them. :ex:
I started stretching and toning again today too. I figured that as soon as my doctor says ok I will be heading straight for the gym and I want to be ready......it felt wonderful to feel my back and legs stretch. :D
Still working on my fasting blood sugar. It is a struggle but I can't give up. I am doing a lot of research of low glycemic index foods so I can plan my dinners and evening snacks better. I forgot how hard it is to stay on program when you work night shift 3 nights a week.....It messes the menu planning up BIG TIME cause I eat at different times than the rest of the world.
My goals for tomorrow:

1) Stretch and Tone

2) Walk

3) Eat on program and post my menu....maybe planned tonight and posted first thing in the morning.....more pressure to follow it that way. :chef:

Gotta go get busy right now.


Friends Always,:coach:

Hi
Sounds like your going strong on your goals and that is wonderful. My trouble is finding the time in my day FOR me..ya know. 3 kids and a hubby and a job then all the extras too. I have been doing some exercises each night before bed. not killing myself but I say you cant go to bed till you do some..:) some is better than none..Right?
You will make v-day challenge, no doubt..We all in Chit Chat will see to it.
:ribbon: we will ALL be winners!!
We are having a Christmas dinner at my Granny's tomorrow and I'm sure there is going to be alot of goodies I will want to try..
:( but maybe with weigh in on Monday that will help..

See ya Monday in chit chat..
Have a great week end
Laura

Hi again!

Those goals sound great. Now that I've been "serious" again for three whole days, I'm remembering how helpful it is to me to enter my daily food into FitDay before I eat it! I can see how do-able an on-target plan is, and it's extra incentive to stick to it. I think planning the night before sounds great. Wish my husband would like that idea... he's the chef around here & he's pretty spur of the moment most of the time. :(

I know what you mean about working different shifts, too. I work 8-5 some days and 12-9 other days. Are your night shifts more actual nighttime hours? That would be hard.

After reading your post in my journal (thanks!), I was wondering -- how tall are you? Have a great Sunday!

Lisrey :gflower:

Hey Vickilyn!

I finally found your journal, I'm a little slow sometimes. I'm with Laura, the V-Day challenge should help all of us remain on the plan. Usually as I'm struggling to make it through my exercises I try to think of one of us, and that helps me get through the routine.

Have a great evening!

:wave:

Hi Lisrey, Laura and Julie,
Whew, has it been a busy busy day today. It was supposed to be a pamper me day but Kenny (my sweetie) woke up in a "lets clean house and move furniture" mood. It needed to be done and he is lots of fun to work with so I moved my pamper day to Tuesday. I got lots and lots of exercise from the day anyway. :D And the house looks GREAT!!!

I stayed on program with my food today. I am journaling my food in FitDay. I also got my stretching in before we started moving the furniture.

My fasting blood sugar is still hanging just a little bit above what it is supposed to be.....I am afraid that when I go to the doctor this week he will want to put me on insulin :c( I know if he gives me a chance to get back into walking, my blood sugar will go right back where it is supposed to be.

See ya all tomorrow......


Vickie:coach:

P.S. Lisrey, I saw you ask somewhere about how tall I am......I am 5'7" tall. And my night shift hours consist of 7 p.m to 7 a.m. 3 nights a week and every third weekend. It is really hard to keep a handle on diabetes when you have dinner at 6 pm some nights and 2 am other nights. But I keep trying. I will hit on the right combination eventually.

Maybe you need to accept the insulin for the time being, and get your blood sugars monitored closely so the moment you can stop you do?? My boss was insulin dependant for years, and about 150 pounds overweight, too. She had gastric bypass surgery and lost it all, as well as the diabetes. Surgery is too drastic for me, and she still thinks she's heavy though she can't weigh more than 120. Make your doc take the time to talk with you about it, not just at you. Maybe he can give you some time to get yourself adjusted, there can't be a better motivator in the world than knowing you can keep off of it if you exercise regularly.

:wave:

hey Julie,
Thanks for the visit. :D I have had a totally wonderful day and I am ready to get some sleep. I feel great now that i have started exercising again. I have all kinds of energy.
After dinner tonight my sweetie was downloading music from the internet onto a cd and we danced all over the house. It was so much fun. Before I would have just sat on the couch and watched the news and felt bad!!!
Tomorrow is the big doctor appointment. If I have to go on insulin I guess I will accept it graciously but I am not gonna be on it long. Just a couple of refills. LOL!!!!!
I'll let you in on all the details tomorrow. Wish me luck!!!



Love,


Vickie:coach:

Hi Vikcie.
i have been meaning to get here to welcome you back to DT since i got home from vacation...i cant even remember if i did so forgive my insanity lol...
i am so happy to see you back posting though. i have missed you. still doing the dreaded night shift i see. me too...but it suits me with the kids for the time being so i am sticking with it.
Good luck for the docs visit. i will check in tomorrow to see how you went.
hugs bell :)

Hi Bell,
It SO GOOD to see you again. Thanks for visiting me.....I think i have been to your journal lately.....
I am doing really good this past few weeks. I am eating better, drinking my water, exercising regularly and walking every day. I just went to the doctor this afternoon and it was a good visit. My fasting blood sugar has been up consistantly lately and I was so afraid that I would be put on insulin but he decided to try oral medications in the evening too first. I am finally free to go back to the gym now so I am sure I will be fine in a few weeks. :dn
I have to go back to checking my blood sugar 4 times a day for the time being.....until I see the doctor in a few weeks to make sure I don't go too low. I lost 3 lbs this week. YIPPEE!!!!!
And I love being back at diettalk. I find so much support and encouragement here. I will be successful this time.......but then, I was a success last time cause I consider it a short detour...not giving up last time.


Friends,


Vickie:coach:

Just a quick note before I go take my nap. I have to work night shift tonight after having the last 5 off and I DO NOT WANT TO GO!!
I got a short walk in today and I will finish my 30 minutes of aerobics before I hit the shower then on to nap town.
I have all but 16 oz of my water in already...I will take a bottle of water to work with me and finish it up.
My food intake has been good so far. For once, I planned ahead and fixed a good dinner to take along. If I don't slip up anywhere, I will be within the desired range with calories.
I had to fast 12 hours last night so I could get all my labs done this morning......I was STARVED before they finished with me, LOL!!
It is sunny and mild here today and I long to go out and walk....but if I don't take my nap I will regret it about 2 or 3 am. Will I ever like working night shift????


Vickie:coach: :dn

Hey diet buddies,
I have a quick question for all of you. I have been doing a lot of reading about nutrition and I am finding conflicting numbers for the recommended daily amounts of carbs, proteins and fats needed to lose weight. HELP!!!!! What numbers are you guys using?

Thanks for your input


Vickie:coach: :dn

Hey Vickie,

Not sure of the answer to that question, I'll let others more knowledgeable get that one. I'd just be guessing myself.

Congratulations on 3 pounds, a great doctors visit and hopefully a wonderful nap! I'm drowsy so a nap sounds like heaven right now.

:wave:

Hey Vicki!

I think the reason you are getting conficting info about carbs is because it depends on your diet of choice. I personally do a lot better on a low carb high protein diet. If you are doing a low fat diet, then they add a lot of carbs to make low fat convenience foods taste better. That one didn't work for me, but others seem to believe in it.

What I did was just start paying attention to how each different diet (and I've done just about all of them) made me feel and how my weight loss was effected. I try to stay between 35% and 50% carbs, but Atkins dieters try to stay around 20 grams total in carbs.

Cheers!
Linda

Hi Julie and Linda,
Thanks for visiting my journal again.....I haven't been here much myself. I appreciate the visits.
I asked the carb question earlier because I thought perhaps I was getting too many but I really have no desire to go on a low carb diet. I love my carbs too much and I know that my blood sugar would be directly impacted if I cut too many. I will continue to follow my healthy diabetic diet until otherwise instructed by my doctor or my dietician.
All my lab tests came back good. I got a note from my doctor yesterday telling me he was very pleased with my results. I still have to go back and see him next month though 8-|
Last night, my sweetie and I were both very tired and neither wanted to cook. So we opted to order a pizza. :c( I ate an extra peice but that was doing good for me cause I would have normally eaten half the pizza by myself. I know we can't do that often but it was nice to have it last night. LOL!!
Going shopping again this morning so I better get moving. Walk, walk, walk.......best part of the trip.
Have a good weekend. I work 12 hours ahifts again this weekend so I don't expect I will see much of the computer after this afternoon until Monday. :D


Vickie:coach: :dn

Oops,
I forgot to post that I lost another 3 pounds......down 6 since New Years Day. YIPPEE!!!!!!



Vickie:coach: :dn

Good job, Vickie! I lauged when you said you did the happy dance because you had only gained six pounds over the holidays. So now you got them off right away!
You still haven't spilled the beans on your sweetie! When did you meet him? He sounds very supportive.
Pat

Yay Vicky!!!

Congrats on three more pounds! I'm 2.5 away from having lost 30 and it seems like it will never get here. I'm very proud of you though, I know how hard it is. And as for the pizza thing, I will give my usual statement that it's very hard to say no to foods you love. Pizza would be one of those things for me. I would eat a half of a pizza and be wishing for more. Now on Saturday nights I make pizza for Rick and I and we each get a quarter of it. No more than that, because I half the pizza before I bake it. I do pile on all kinds of the toppings we like, it's got no redeeming qualities whatsoever. I'm just proud of us for only eating a quarter of it, and I'm contemplating cutting it again too. ;) Good for you!

:wave:

Hi Patricians and Julie,
Thanks for the visits again. I really do appreciate them.
I worked 12 hours again last night. They had candy all over the place. :c( Apparently the boss thinks she is doing us a favor by doling out 3 boxes at a time. I have to be STRONG!!!!! I will take fruit tonight and I will not eat anything else til morning. If I get hungry I can drink tea or have cereal (early breakfast)!!!!

At work, I usually have a slow time around 4 am when I have caught up with all my regular duties and am just sitting around the nurses station waiting for a patient to wake up and need something. This is the time I am really tempted to eat the junk. So I have started using this time to turn the halls into my "unofficial" walking track. At first, my coworkers thought that I was crazy but now they just accept that I am exercising. They know that I will stop my walk if they need help and that I will answer call lights as I go. It makes the early morning hours go faster and I sleep very good when I get home. The last few days I have gotten at least 30 uninterupted minutes to walk.

Patricians, my sweetie is named Kenny and believe it or not, we met on the internet. We talked online and the phone for 4 months before we met in person and then we dated in person for 5 more months before I moved to his city. Whew!!!! Long distance romances can wear you out, lol!!! He is the best thing that ever happened to me and is my greatest supporter in everything I want to try.

Well, better get ready to head back to work....wish me luck and STRENGTH with all the candy tonight.


Vickie:coach: :dn

Howdy..:wave: Looks like your doing great on eating and cising..
Glad you got a good report from your Dr. that has to make you feel good too..
Your going to have a loss to report tomorrow in Chit Chat getting that much closer to that goal...
Good Luck this week.
Laura

Hi Laura,
Thanks for the visit to my journal. I really am trying to stay on program. Visits from my diettalk friends really help.

Worked the weekend....12 hour shifts. Its always hard to not eat during the night shift and I don't know why. This weekend has been especially hard cause TOM is right around the corner and I am fighting the urge to binge big time. I want CHOCOLATE!!!!

I am off tonight though so I am looking forward to getting a good nights sleep and then a good workout tomorrow before I go back to work tomorrow evening.

Have a good Tuesday



Vickie:coach: :dn

Fight that chocolate urge, woman!! You can do it!! Just think about all the things you'll do when you've reached your goal. Think about the clothes, the activities, the healthy feeling you'll maintain... ANYTHING that you can keep in the forefront to remind you of the long term. The chocolate is fine if you weigh your options (short-term pleasure vs. a longer trek to goal), but you have to be SURE you want it.

That's my little lecture for today! :) All done! I am sure those 12-hour night shifts have to be so long and hard. I know my body would never adjust to that. I have a hard enough time with my own 8-5 and 12-9 rotation. You will get past this TOM and stay strong... and you will see another loss this week... and you will love it when you can get to the Y! I am cheering for you!!

Lisrey :ex:

Today is not a good day! I let my cravings and my emotions get the best of me and I am STUFFED. I was upset last night when I went to bed.....cried myself to sleep. Still upset this morning and decided not to eat breakfast. What a mistake!!!!!!
Lunch was a disaster. Roasted chicken breast. Pizza. Corn Chips.
Pepsi. Candy. Did it make me feel better? NO!! Did it soothe my emotions? No. I am still crying. Only now I have this failure to deal with too. I'm tired and scared.


Vickie

HI Vicki,
Nope you do not have to deal with failure. Just a lesser degree of success!! You can not work your self into such a state. You deserve more than that. Be nice to yourself and love yourself after all God only made one and you are it!!!!

Hey look at the bright side you are not hungry!!! We both know food never makes you feel any better or sooths any emotions. The trouble is we don't remember it until after we eat!!!YIKES!!! I do the exact same thing!!

So my dear I am sending you a big hug and hoping you will give yourself a break and start over tomorrow!! Learn from today but start over and feel good about deciding to start again.

Hang in there the day is almost over!!!!!!!!
Love and hugs,
Lizzie

Vickie:
It is ONLY one DAY!! You didn't gain all your weight in ONE day..It has taken years to get where we all are now. So Tomorrow is a new day so jump back on...You will be fine..One day at a time..You did not fail...If you had failed ,you wouldnt of came here to post!!!Get your head up and lets GO!! We all will do this together...:D

:hug: to you..
Laura

Hey Lizzie and Laura,

Thank you for visiting my journal and for the pep talks. I KNOW you are both right. I am doing so much better with the emotional garbage but I am still very much an emotional eater. Its something I will have to struggle with everyday.....as with my depression and my diabetes. Day to day I will make it with hopefully not too many problems along the way.

Working the 12 hour shifts and messing my sleep pattern up is hard for me to deal with sometimes. I get tired and cranky and I haven't slept right or eaten right in 48 hours.....I am ashamed to admit it but I let my emotions take over sometimes. This episode was made worse by a unwelcome visit from TOM too. I am still cramping so bad that all I want to do is lie in bed with a heating pad on my tummy. Menopause...........where are YOU??????????

Well, I am almost back on track today. I walked 30 minutes this morning.....brrrrrrr...it was cold out there. No aerobics or strength training today. I came home and fell right into bed. Now, I just have time to shower, eat and head back to work. I will be good the rest of the day and after today, another 5 days off for me. YIPPEE!!!!!!!

Thanks for the good thoughts my friends.....I LOVE YA!!!



Vickie:coach: :dn

Vickie,

You and I are so much alike. I get those cravings too, and also pray for menopause. ;) At least it's good to know that we're not the only ones to do that.
I'm glad to hear you're feeling better, and I have a little tiny tidbit for you to help with those cravings, maybe. I have as I type to you a box of Smart Ones chocolate eclairs and Healthy Choice ice cream sandwiches in the freezer. These are my emergency back up tools. The eclairs in particular. Not quite as good as a rich and fattening eclair but so close that you really can't tell. I keep them for those days that you wrote about, because I will binge like crazy if I don't. They are good, very low in fat and calories and if you can limit yourself to just one - one - you have nothing to feel guilty about and satisfy that itch. The eclairs are frozen solid and you really have to want one, just can't walk over and eat it on a whim.
I am finding as time goes by that my sugar cravings are decreasing, but my chocolate ones are still raging when it's time for TOM to visit. And imagine, he came three times last month! Drink a mug of hot chocolate, don't bother with the low-fat stuff, get a good one. Add marshmallows. I'm sorry, but to me, in order to stay "safe and good", you have to help yourself too. Stick to one, not multiples. Drink lots of water. You can and will do this, because you know as you've told me, we're all here to help you.
I hope I've given you good suggestions, they really are a help to me. Sometimes even just knowing they are there makes all the difference in the world.

:hug:

Welcome back. I am new to DT and I hope we can motivate each other!

Yay for the walking!! :balloons: That's a great start, Vickie! You will have to start a destination challenge in the Walking Forum. It's so much fun to pick a place & then add up all your miles until you've gone the distance.... and then reward yourself by visiting that place. The first time I did it, I walked to a huge outlet mall 79 miles from my house. When I drove that distance I was flabbergasted that I actually walked that far! The drive takes over an hour and a half... and I drive fast! ;)

So glad you are feeling positive again. You're doing it!

Lisrey :up:

Hello Lisrey, Tess and Julie,
Thanks for the visit to my journal. Like always, it is much appreciated.
It is so cold here........I long to feel sunshine on my face again. It is sunny here today but cold and windy. Oh well, I will take whatever sun I can get :)
Well, I have been a busy little bee the past few days. I am finally starting my own web site where I am gonna post pictures of myself as I lose my weight. I am also gonna have a weight loss journal there and some other cool surprises. When I get the rough edges taken care of, I will give you all the web address so those that want to can go take a look. I am really quite excited about it.
Life is treating me quite well right now. I am learning to choose to be happy!!!!!!
I continue to put exercise in wherever I can.....I walked 30 minutes today. I am gonna do my aerobics in just a few minutes and I even bought some free weights today.
The exercise is paying off. My blood sugars have been WONDERFUL the past 3 days. I knew if I started exercising I would get better and I was right. Yippee!!!!!
Challenge for the week: DANCE just for the sheer joy of it. Don't even think about the aerobic benefits of it.

Have a wonderful Friday and I will post again soon. I will also be visiting other journals real soon again.



Vickie:coach: :dn

Hi Vickie;
What a good point- I choose to be happy. Often we as females just get in the habit of worrying and obsessing. So even when things are going well we think we should be worrying about something.
My daughter is a nurse too. She just can't deal with the changes in shifts. She is thinking of looking into going back to school to do something else. It is really tough on the body to have to constantly readjust to time changes.
Enjoy you days off!
Pat

Hey Vicky!

Good for you for exercising today! Isn't it great when you get it done and you feel so good about what you've accomplished? Very good news about your blood sugars, even more motivation to work hard and succeed.

Good for you!!

:wave:

Hey there now Ms. Vicky..

Don't you be getting down now... I may have misunderstood your post in my journal, but you have nothing to worry about getting "kicked into gear" for. You are doing WONDERFUL!!! I'm proud of you, it's amazing how well your blood sugars are responding.

I'm proud of YOU Vicky, so keep your chin up and have no worries. You're just fine.

:hug:

Howdy Lady...Looks like with all the cising your doing you better be thinking about swimsuit shopping...:D Wanta GO with Red and I? ...LOL..
So glad to hear your sugar is doing good. Keep it up. BE Happy!! You deserve it..:D

See you floating around in Chit Chat...:water:
Take care
Laura

Hi Vickie,

Just wanted to stop by and check on you ..... I had to go back several posts but it was well worth the time ......

When you are in a chocolate mood had you thought of trying Nestle Sugar Free Hot Cocoa ....with Schilling Vanilla Extract .... and a heaping tablespoon of Cool Whip Light ... that way your sugars won't be spiked and it gives you the taste of chocolate ...just a thought.

Keep working towards that goal ..... it takes us time BUT WE ARE WELL WORTH THE TIME IT TAKES. Have and make it a fantastic weekend. Take care. As always, Monica

WOW!!!!!
Look at all the KEWL people visiting my journal. Thanks so much. Today was a wonderful, WONDERFUL day. It was so wonderful, I hate to see it end. But the weekend is not over yet. :D

I only walked today for my exercise....30 minutes. No aerobics or strength training. I drank my water....96 ounces and I did very well with my food. My fasting blood sugar was 128...very good for me.

MONICA: Thank you so much for the visit and the wonderful words of advice. I do have Nestle Sugar Free Hot Chocolate and I love it. I never thought about the Lite Cool Whip or the Shilling Vanilla Extract. I will have to go shopping tomorrow. YUM!!!

LAURA: I have every confidence that I will be in a bathing suit again by my birthday.....August 29th. Let me know when you and Red are going shopping.....I might make the trip to go with ya...LOL!!!

JULIE: I am not feeling down at all. Thanks for the concern though. I am happy, happy, happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I truly do feel better after the exercise....and when I see my blood sugars responding, it is better than seeing the numbers go down on the scale for me. I want to be healthy again way more than I want to lose the weight but I know that losing the weight means healthy. So here I go.......................................:D

PATRICIANS: Thanks for visiting again. I must go in search of your journal and see what you are up to :) Being a nurse does have many drawbacks but I truly love it. I would die being at a desk all day...or working in a factory. I have often told people though that I didn't think things out clearly enough when I decided to be a nurse cause I never considered the odd shifts, the weekends, the holidays that must be worked. And the fact that many doctors treat nurses like dirt even though they could not do their job without us. I am considering though, what do I want to do when I cannot do the hard work on the units.....maybe I will get a bachelors degree and teach. That sounds like fun!!!

Keep warm everyone!!!!!! Its cold out there!!!!!



Vickie:coach: :dn

Vickie, it is so wonderful to hear you sounding so happy! Great job with the blood sugars. That must feel wonderful! :)

I know where you're coming from about work. I love being a librarian -- it's the perfect job for me. But no one realizes that you need a Masters degree to do this, and I work evenings and weekends regularly too. We don't get a lot of respect, even though we're professionals and know how to use the Internet better than anybody.... and the pay is lower than that for jobs that require a similar level of education. Traditionally female-dominated occupations, both, and that's the bottom line for the pay factor... Grrrr... But the upside is that we both love what we do AND we're both good at it, right?! :up:

Hope your Sunday is as terrific as today was!

Lisrey :snow:

Hi Vicki its me Marn!! I found your journal but haven't had a chance to go looking due to c/p problems but here I am. Did you get your water down today??? I managed 108 oz's but I had a head start due to working last night and drinking early morning hours so that is how I did that.

I can totally relate on the nurse thing you take the words right out of my mouth and probably everyone else's that is a nurse or in medical field also. I worked last night (FULL MOON) and my it was a horrible night and I'm so glad its over. I work on a medical-surgical floor. What field do you work in???

Well, I'm off to browse around just wanted to pop in and say "hi". I think your working this weekend if I can remember so I hope your weekend goes better then my night last night.

Take care!! :D

:wave: Hi Vicki, I too found your journal. My cp works OK but my threads that I subcribe to won't stay subscribed so I have to search for journals and that takes up so much time. I usually go to my own and chit chat mostly. But I saw your jouranl up there on the first page and thought I better check it out while I can find it.
I am so glad your happy today. I love seeing happy people. It makes me happy too.
You are doing a great job with the walking and everything. Keep up the good work and it will pay off in the end. I promise.


I have come to the conclusion that I am finally ready to enjoy my life and by golly what ever it takes to get happier about myself I am gonna do.
Just like Little had her moles removed after so many years. That makes her feel better about her looks. Like a treat to herself for loosing so much weight. I am gonna work hard this spring tanning so that I can wear shorts and look good in my swimming suit. So what if the dishes aren't done up or the laundry is piled up. I'm gonna lay out. B-) Not too much to be dangerous but enough to look decent. I put myself first these days and if people don't like it, tough cookies. Humm cookies sound good right now don't they? A skinny body with a tan sounds even better so I'll pass thank you. :D

Glad you are joining us in chit chat. I sure do hope we are helping you along your journey to skinny hood. I can't wait to see this weeks totals. Last week was a biggie huh?
Way to go on the blood sugar count too. You are doing super de duper. Now on V-day we should all go to our closet and pull out some article of clothing that was too small for us and give r' a try. I bet we will all :D from ear to ear. Well, I plan on doing that anyway.
Good luck with everything. See ya in chat. Mini:sweety:

Hi Vicky!

Good good good, glad you're okay. I was worried there but am so glad to see you happy. Wow!! 128 on your blood sugars are wonderfu!! You have lots to be proud of, don't worry!

Good for you on 96oz yesterday. Think you can do it again? :coach: I know, I'm mean, but I'll bet it will make you even happier in the long run.

Have a good day!

:wave:

Hi Vicky, I'm an inch shorter than you, but the same weight. Let's lick this together, girl. I'll be checking in on you regularly.


Jano:D

Hi Everyone,
How is everyone doing? I had a wonderful day today. I am just a little bit achy right now and I have a headache so I am going to bed real soon.

MY BLOOD SUGARS:

FBS: 125
EVENING: 135

(YIPPEE!!!!!!)

MY EXERCISE:

10 MIN. STRETCHING
30 MINUTES WALKING
30 MINUTES AEROBICS
60 MINUTES HOUSEWORK

NUTRITION TODAY:

CALORIES: 1241
FATS: 50 g
CARBS: 166 g
PROTEINS: 43 g
WATER: 96 oz.

JANO: Thanks for the visit. I am happy to see you again. Keep up the great work!!

JULIE: Drinking water has always been something I knew was good for me.....not just for my metabolism...but my skin and hair too.

MINI: Thanks for the visit. I appreciate it so much. Visitors keep me in line. I really enjoy the Chit Chat. I tried a few times to get into a chat room here but I can never seem to figure the time changes right so I gave up. You can tell that math and me are not friends, lol!

MARN: Welcome to my journal. I really love maternity nursing which is what I did til I moved here. Now I work Med-Surg. Its ok but not the same. I am adjusting though. Its a struggle to figure out this diet though. Just keep trying, I guess. :)

LISREY: I am so much happier when my blood sugars are within a normal range. I would give up this drive to lose weight if I could just be sure that my blood sugar would stay within normal limits. That way I would not be worried about blindness, kidney failure, loss of limbs. But losing weight is the only way to control this diabetes...so on I go...trying to conquer this food addiction of mine. I am so glad that I have the support of friends like you. Thank you!!


Hopefully, all of us will have a successful week and be able to post BIG losses again. Keep on moving!!!!


Vickie:coach: :dn

Looks like you are doing really good! WOO HOO!:dn Oh hi there.. I guess I should introduce myself :o hehe I'm Bettyboop.. new to the journals and trying to get to know ya'll ... learn what is clicking for ya'll... make things work for me.... this weight loss endeavor! It's hard to do isn't it? But it's a journey! Not all bad. Have a great day tomorrow!:wave:

hiya friend.
i hope your headache is well and truly gone :o
look at all that exercise thats awesome...you should come log your exercise with us over at the exercise forum...
you are doing great my friend, i appreciate your friendship.
hugs bell :)

Hi Everyone,
I am feeling MUCH better. Headache all gone. I had a great day but I have no time to tell ya about it now. :( I am on my way out the door to go to work so I will be back in the morning and talk to all of ya.

Thanks for all the visits and well-wishes.


Vickie:coach: :dn

Dear Journal,
Oh, I am so tired!!!! I am ready to just go to bed for awhile. I worked last night....it was HORRIBLE! So busy. I think I walked 5 miles in the first few hours of the shift. And that doesn't count the scheduled walking I did as my exercise.

I came home and slept about 5 hours and got up so I could go to the YMCA today. It was my first day there. I was not horribly impressed with the facility as a whole but I WILL GO BACK at least 4 days/week until I get my home exercise room and treadmill. That will probably be at least late summer cause we are either gonna completely remodel this house and add more room, or we will be buying another house with more room. I am so excited about that.

MY BLOOD SUGARS:

didn't check today

MY EXERCISE:

WALK 1 HR in A.M.
WALK 30 MIN in P.M.

MY NUTRITION:

CALORIES: 1587
FATS: 68 g
CARBS: 156 g
PROTEINS: 81 g
WATER: 112 oz.

BELL: Always happy to see you wherever my friend. Thanks for visiting. The headache is gone. I am feeling great.

BETTYBOOP: Welcome to Diettalk and to my journal. I try to be really honest here so that I will feel accountable somewhere. It helps a lot to journal. And this is the most compassionate community. Visit again as often as you want and I will look your journal up too.

OH, I almost forgot!!!!! I lost more weight!!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! I am now at 243 lbs so that leaves me with 3 lbs before I reach my Valentines day goal. WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO!!!


Starting Weight: 251 lbs
Current Weight: 243 lbs
V-Day Goal: 240 lbs



Vickie:coach: :dn

Vickie you are doing an awesome job! You are going to blow right past that 240 goal... and be down even more by Valentine's Day. :x Hope you got some rest! ...so you can get back on the treadmill, right?! Go for it & have a great Thursday!

Lisrey *

Hi Lisrey,
I got up this morning with a bad sore throat and sore ears, stuffed sinuses and a temp of 103 so maybe thats why I felt so bad last night. I will be going back to bed pretty soon. Its so cold here I just want to stay in bed.
I am sure I won't be getting much exercise in today.....if I feel better later I might try the stretching and maybe some very light weights but with a temp this high, I will probably just rest.
My sweetie bought me a digital camera yesterday.....it is sooooo KEWL! As soon as I can figure it out and get to feeling better, I will try to get a good enough picture to post my picture here.

I'll check back in later. Thanks for visiting. You are soooo sweet!



Vickie:coach: :dn

I love sweeties! Mine is great too!

Now you stay in bed and rest, skip exerise tonight. No use in making yourself even sicker.

Stay warm!

:wave:

HOPE YOU GET TO FEELING BETTER SOON..I THINK YOU BETTER JUST REST AND TAKE IT EASY OR IT WILL HANG ON ALOT LONGER.
TAKING A NIGHT OFF WONT KILL YA.

TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!!
LAURA

Hey Vicki-

Sorry to hear your under the weather but rest up and let your sweetie wait on you hand & foot! :D

Congrats on the weight loss and no doubt you will make and surpass your V-day goal! That is terrific.

Take care!

Brrrrr... It was SO COLD today! I think it's a good thing you could just stay in bed & recuperate. I hope you get well quick!

I love my digital camera. It makes me 200% better photographer than I ever could be otherwise. Can't wait to see your pics!

Lisrey :snow:

AWWWWWWWWWWWWW, you guys are sooooo sweet!!!!! Its nice to come back and find lots of visitors here.
I planned to come back and post my info from yesterday but I just didn't make it. I went to bed and although I didn't sleep well, I just couldn't make myself get back up. Its hard to sleep when you can't breathe, lol!!!

This info is for yesterday......todays info will come later:

MY BLOOD SUGARS:

FBS: 145
NOON: 132
EVENING: 109
BEDTIME: 121


MY EXERCISE:

SLEEP
COUGHING
SNEEZING


MY NUTRITION:

CALORIES: 1384
FATS: 60
CARBS: 141
PROTEINS: 70
WATER: 64 oz (drank extra orange juice and hot tea)

LISREY: Thanks for the visit my friend. It was good to be able to stay home and rest but I missed my exercise. I can only stay in bed so long and my muscles start hurting. I hope I get better soon too......on top of everything else...I think I broke my little toe yesterday. LOL! Up running around while I was still asleep!!!!

MARN: Thank you for the visit too. My sweetie is very good at pampering me.....I think I picked a good one.

LAURA: Thanks for visiting me again. I always look forward to having you visit. I want to get rid of this bug as fast as I can. I hate being housebound.

JULIE: Thank you for the kind thoughts and for visiting. You are so kind. It is very hard to stay warm these days.....but I have my hot tea and an occasional cup of sugar free hot chocolate....I will be fine in a day or so.


I will try to make it to everyone elses journals sometime today but for now, my head is pounding and I can't stop coughing so its back to bed for awhile. Love ya all!!!!!



Vickie:coach: :dn

Hi Vickie :wave:

Sorry to hear you are feeling :sick:; and :cheer: congratulations on your marvelous loss.

I will check back and hopefully you will be on the mend .... take care of yourself and make it a great day and have a wonderful weekend. As always, Monica

Hey Monica,
Thanks for the visit!!! You are so kind!
I am starting to feel better today. Finally, no temperature....just one side of my throat sore and some sinus discomfort. I think I will now live.
I did so well during my sick days..watching my water and food intake. Today I totally blew it!!!!! It was all my fault though. I didn't start my day right and it put me off kelter all day. Tomorrow I will do better. I know where I made my mistakes and I will not repeat them.
I will be heading for bed real soon so I can get up all refreshed and renewed for a great sunday!!!!!

Have a wonderful day Monica!!!!!


Vickie:coach: :dn

So much for getting up early! LOL!!! It was 11:30 (my time) before I finally got up...and Kenny threw fresh snow on me to make me get up then. OK, I'm up...I'm up!!!
Checked my blood sugar and it was 133. A bit high but not surprising after yesterdays debacle. Breakfast (or brunch) was a nice bowl of Rice Chex and some 2% milk and 1 cup of OJ. I am ready to face the day.
I did my stretching already. That felt pretty good. Will go walking pretty soon. Then I have some errands to run. I will report in again in a while.


Vickie:coach: :dn

Here it is....early monday morning. Sub-zero temps again. I am tempted to run to the bank and hop a flight to some south seas tropical island........

Kenny is asleep...where I should be. I am not really sleepy at all.

I am planning to go to the YMCA tomorrow. I will walk at least 2 miles on the walking track. I was supposed to go to an orientation seminar to learn how to use their machines but it was cancelled due to cold weather. I have used weight machines before but these are ever so slightly different so I need to be retrained!!!

Then its weight day again. I need to lose 3 pounds to meet my Valentines Day challenge. I doubt if that happens this week but I will get it done before the deadline!!!!!!!

Spent most of the day working on my personal web-site. I finally posted a picture of myself there. I am trying to decide if I want to post a link to it here so you guys can see what I am doing and see my picture as I am now. I am pretty plain and all but I plan to be changing that as I lose this weight.

OKKKKKK!!!!!!!! Gotta get to bed whether I want to or not. Maybe I will get warm...LOL!!!!!


Vickie:coach: :dn

Weight this morning is 240...down 3 more pounds. That makes a total of 11 pounds lost since I made my Valentines Day goal (which I just met, yippee!!!) and a total of 15 lbs lost since I came back to Diettalk.
I am extraordinarily happy this afternoon. It motivates me to keep going. I can do this with or without the support of anyone.
I support myself and that is enough. Kennys support is just icing on the (diabetic) cake. LOL
I had a wonderful workout this morning. I love the feeling, the rush, that exercise gives me. And the way it makes my muscles feel!!!!
I will be back later to post details of my day!!!


Keep warm,


Vickie:coach: :dn

Ever faithful to my own journal.....I am back.

It is still very cold here but we are supposed to have a warm up starting tomorrow......and with the warmup, might come some snow or a wintry mix. But I don't care about that. Lets just get rid of this artic blast of air for a while.

Today was a wonderful day. I already posted my weight so I won't go there again. I will say that I am adding a new Valentines Day goal and I will call it "Valentines Day Goal 2" :D I have 18 days left til Valentines Day and I think I will make a goal to lose an additional 5 lbs. Goal weight 235.

My Blood Sugars

FBS: 114
Evening BS: 93


My Exercise

15 minutes/indoor track
45 min (2 miles)/treadmill
3 min (1.5 miles)/exercise bike
ab/back machine: wt: 50 lbs/15 reps:2 sets abs...
15 reps:2 sets back
hip abductor machine: wt: 60 lbs 12 reps:2 sets
hip adductor machine: wt: 60 lbs 12 reps:2 sets

My Nutrition

Calories: 2296
Fats: 82 g
Carbs: 305 g
Proteins: 91
Water: 64 oz.

Didn't do too good staying on program food wise today but tomorrow is another day. I had wayyyyyy too many carbs. My calorie range is 1800-2200 so I was over that too but not terribly high. I will have to exercise hard again tomorrow.:ex:
And I will have to be especially diligent on my calorie AND CARB
counts tomorrow. And probably for Wednesday too. LOL!!!!

No one has visited for awhile so I have no personal messages for anyone. :c( Hope someone comes by soon. I am getting lonely.


Vickie:coach: :dn

Bell comes in banging the door loudly behind her******
Just finished my night shift stretch and wanted to check in on my very successful friend...(that would be YOU).
i am so proud of how well you are doing...15 pounds lost already since coming back to DT thats awesome.... :)
you are right you can do this without support but always know that you have mine anyway!
hugs bell :)
p.s hope you are feeling 100& better now..

Sorry Vicky!!!

Here I come, late as usual, but bell didn't hold the door open for me and I was wearing gloves and it's hard to turn a doorknob with gloves on. ;)

Did I ever mention that I'm the world's best pouter and when I pout I can pout for DAYS and DAYS?? No, oh.. sorry. Hopefully I'm on the tail end of a good pout session and I'll be around every day, either here or in the chit chat.

Congratulations on hitting your V-Day goal, that is amazing. I'll bet Kenny is very proud of you too, even more than all of us here combined. :D I'm very proud of you.

Have a good evening!

:wave: :hug:

Congratulations on reaching your Valentine's goal!! And I am SO impressed by that list of exercise achievements! Wow! :tongue:arty:

You are doing great, Vickie. It is so good to hear you sounding happy and I know I said it before, but I am simply glad you are back. I missed you a lot. :hug:

Lisrey *

Hi Lisrey, Julie and Bell,
Thanks for visiting my journal. I appreciate it. I have only a few minutes before I have to go to work but I will post details about my day tomorrow morning.
I did great so far. Hit 2 miles on the treadmill again this morning.:D
I am so happy that it is warming up a bit...I know, its still winter but its warmer...LOL!!!! At least for now.
Hope all of you had a wonderful Tuesday and will have a even better Wednesday!!!


Vickie:coach: :dn

Hi vickie
I see your still all peppy and ready to go . good for you take off the weight and when your done i'll send you mine and you can take it off for me. LOL. Oh well i tried guess i'll have to do it for myself.

See you lighter
Linda

Hi Vicky -

Good for you, now send some inspiration my way. My friend Renita at work told me today that I can beat a bad mood to death and then some. I can't seem to get over my computer funk, HELP!!!!

:help:

Sorry everyone but I have had a hard day so I am not gonna post again tonight. I just stopped to say hi and I appreciate the support.
Tomorrow will be a better day. I am already planning ahead so it has to be.
Its time to sleep.


Vickie:coach: :dn

Today is starting out pretty good food wise and all but I am still an emotional wreck. I am not sure why I am getting so depressed the last few days. But I don't like it!!! I feel like I have some supressed anger lying below the surface and I don't know why or what to do about it.

My FBS this morning was 126...pretty good

Breakfast:

Cheerios
2% milk
Orange Juice
FF Hot Chocolate

Maybe I just need to get out of this house (which is beginning to look like an electricians workshop) and away from these cats for a while. Kenny is an electrician by trade and he works on tvs for a living. I am having a hard time dealing with all his electrical equipment all over the house. Computer parts all over, cords, wires, switches....it goes on and on. Boxes of the stuff is sitting everywhere. I don't live in a house anymore....I live in a workshop.

Uh oh......better get off this tirade or I'll have the potato chips out pretty soon. Think I will go for a walk and maybe go to Subway for lunch. That should help in some way...while staying within my allotted calorie count.

Be back later


Vickie:coach: :dn

Good Morning Vicki, :)

Just stopping by to say hello .... lol actually I am checking up on you ... whatever feelings you are having and I say this with love DON'T SUPPRESS IT ... that is the worst thing you can do ... and as we both know it doesn't help our blood sugars. If you are concerned about anything .... put it down on paper (or if you want put it here in your Journal) ... you are entitled to your feelings, fears etc..

You know I am here for you .... and if you want to email me (I hope you still have my email address) .... I have a listening ear so you can vent ... and if you want an opinion I can offer that as well; just don't feel you are alone and having to struggle.

You have made wonderful successes since returning to DT .... OUR SUCCESSES COME GRADUALLY .... BUT THEY WILL BE PERMANENT SUCCESSES. . Make it a great day. As always, Monica

Good Afternoon MONICA,
You can check up on me anytime you like.....I could use a good guardian angel.
I think what I am experiencing here is sheer fatigue and the winter blues.....I am feeling better now. How long this light, airy feeling will last is anybodys guess but I am trying to hang onto it.
I stopped crying earlier and went to Walmarts......walked for awhile and bought some flower seeds for spring. All the talk about Bells garden in her journal is making me want a garden myself....I also bought some fingernail polish for me. A little pampering doesn't hurt when you are sad :o I walked to Subways and got my lunch, then walked to Krogers and bought some fresh flowers. Then I walked back to Walmarts and picked up my car to come home. I now have fresh flowers on my Kitchen counter and on the dresser in the bedroom. At least it looks like a woman lives here now. And the walking in the fresh air and sunshine was wonderful!!!

Noon BS: 134

My lunch:

6 in. Subway Turkey Sub on wheat
Baked Chips
Ice Tea

Its almost time for me to take a nap.......gotta work tonight.
Monica, thank you so much for stopping by. Just your presence is a inspiration for me. You are AWESOME!!!!!!!

Be back later!!!!


Vickie:coach: :dn

Hi Vickie,

YOU DID GOOD ... and I am so pleased :D for you; we all need to get out of our rut ... You have and make it a terrific day at work .....

Put a :) on that face and enjoy :spring: the day THE WORLD IS A BETTER PLACE BECAUSE YOU ARE IN IT .... ; I will be back again ... lol I was named for a saint but that is where it begins and ends .... but I AM YOUR FRIEND. As always, Monica

Hey Monica,
You underestimate your "angelness"!!! You have been one of my best supporters here. I am so indebted to you!

I am getting ready to go to work in just a fe minutes but wanted to take a few minutes to post about my afternoon. I took a nice warm shower and a nap and that relieved quite a bit of stress. i woke up feeling pretty good.

Evening BS: 82

Dinner:

4 oz. Baked Cod Fish
Medium Baked Potato
Water

I am taking some fresh fruit to work with me for my "bedtime" snack.

Work has been such a stressful area with me for the past few weeks that I really don't want to go but I can't avoid it. I am gonna go with a good attitude and hope I can stay cheerful for the whole shift.

I'll post again in the morning.


Have a wonderful night and a wonderful Friday.


Vickie:coach: :dn

Vickie,

YOU HAVE THE RIGHT ATTITUDE I hope everything at work went well ... excellent blood sugars ....

Have and make it a fantastic weekend. As always, Monica

Hey Vicky,

I'm right there with you concerning unusual depression. I don't understand it either but I'm dealing with it myself. Hope you're feeling better this evening, it sounded like you had a great day out and I'm glad for you. Maybe I just need Rick to spoil me this weekend, he doesn't normally have to be prompted so hopefully I'll be feeling better by Monday.

:(

Hi Journal Buddies,
Its been a few days since I posted. I worked ALOT of hours the last few days.....trying to make up for the time I missed being sick.
So my hours at home were mostly spent sleeping. I am off tonight and I am really tired.

I stayed on plan pretty good but I think I can do better. My blood sugars have been good. My water intake has suffered though. I am going to have to talk to a dietician about planning menus for working night shift. I did it before but I am having so much trouble trying to stretch my carbs out when some days I am up 24 hours.

Yesterday, I measured my waist and hips to calculate my waist/hip ratio again. Last month I was:

waist: 48 inches
hips: 51 inches
waist to hip ratio: 94%

Sunday measurements:

waist: 43 inches....loss of 5 inches
hips: 48 inches.....loss of 3 inches
waist to hip ratio: 89%

I was so happy!!!! My body is changing!!

My weight this morning remains unchanged.....I was a bit upset but I am guessing it is because TOM is on the way yet again....next week....and I spent a lot of time in bed the past 3 days.

Persistance...not perfection..
I will not give up!!!


Vickie:coach: :dn

Dear Vicki

:coach: WHAT A WONDERFUL LOSS OF INCHES ..... PROVES YOU ARE SUCCEEDING IN ATTAINING YOUR WEIGHT LOSS GOALS

Don't negate THE IMPORTANCE OF THOSE INCHES LOST; those numbers are just as important as the numbers on the scale. :cheer:

I am so pleased with your success ..... YOU CAN DO THIS VICKIE AND YOU ARE PROVING YOUR FOCUS IS ACHIEVING YOUR SUCCESS

Take care of yourself, make tomorrow a great day. As always, Monica

Wow, Vicki!!! I MUST read your journal tomorrow and see what you have been doing to lose so many inches. HOLY TONER!! I am VERY impressed!!

Thank you for visiting me! I am trying to regain some focus.

Hugs!!
Linda

Congrats on all the inches, Vickie!! * That is excellent progress! You should be very proud of yourself.

How is the Y going? I hope you are enjoying your exercise time & that you are feeling back up to speed after being sick. Have a great week!

Lisrey :flower:

WOW VICKIE!!!!
SOUNDS LIKE YOU ARE GETTING A NEW BODY!! :D
I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU...KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK..

SEE YA IN CHIT CHAT.
HAVE A GREAT WEEK.
LAURA

Hi Journal Buddies,
Wow, its great to come back and find visitors have been here. This is such an awesome community!!!!!!

I have been so busy lately...working and sleeping.....and working on my web site.....and researching diabetes!!!! So much information on the web about diabetes. And I find it all FASCINATING!!!! :D

I worked alot the last few days to plan out a few diabetic menus for the next few weeks. Tomorrow, I plan to go to FitDay and plug it all in and see if it plans out. If all the calculations work out, I will be heading to the grocery store with my master plan in hand. If not, I will be spending the majority of the day reworking some menus. I hope I will be able to post a sample menu here tomorrow evening.

I just bought Leslie Sansones walking program so I am gonna use that a few times a week and I am still going to the YMCA. I truly feel better since I have been walking so much.

Lastly, I went for my follow up doctors appointment today and he made me SO HAPPY!!!!! He was extremely pleased with all my lab results from last month. He said he was expecting my cholesterol to be up and my Hemoglobin A1C to be elevated. But EVERYTHING was perfect!!!!! And he is pleased with my weight loss so far.

LAURA, LISREY, LINDA and MONICA,
Thanks for being my diettalk buddies.......YOU really are the cream of the crop!!!!


Vickie:coach: :dn

Vickie, that is so great about the doctor's! I know how great it makes you feel since I just had a good visit too, as you know. Wahooooo!!!!! :up:

I am really curious about your web site. I do hope you'll let us know when it's ready. I'd love to see your picture. Hey, I changed my destination walk in the walking forum & now I am walking to the Mackinac Bridge. So we'd better have a Labor Day date, okay?? B-)

Lisrey :ex:

Hi Vickie :wave:

I AM SO THRILLED FOR YOU ........:cheer: I too got lol good grades from my doctor. I have a question for you. In your Fitday Nutrition Goals what have you given yourself for Total Fat, Saturated Fat, Carbohydrates, Fiber, Sodium and Cholesterol?

I keep working on lowering my carbs and sodium intake to lesser amounts .... some days I do so great it amazes me ... and then there are times I am high (especially in the sodium) in grams/milligrams. I have to keep working at it ..... if you see information you find helpful to you ... PLEASE POST IT IN THE DIABETIC FORUM. The more we learn the better we can take care of our needs. Make it a great evening. Take care of yourself. As always, Monica

hiya Vickie,
sounds like you have it all planned out....i like th saying fail to plan, plan to fail...its very true, when i work out in advance my menus and routine it helps me stay on track so much better than winging it.
i am so pleased that the doctor was happy with your progress.
i have heard only good things about the Sansone WAP tapes. loads of awesome people here use them i see.
keep up the wonderful work.
hugs bell :)

Good Morning Vickie,

I hope you had a great weekend .... I have a lab appt for have my liver function test (since the doctor put me on Avandia .... I have to go every month for a fasting blood sugar ....) such a drag :(.

I haven't seen a recent post ..... but I am going to assume you are doing okay .... YOU ARE DOING OKAY AREN'T YOU? Well I better go and get my rear in gear. Make it a great day .... and I will be back. As always, Monica :hug:

Hi Journal Buddies,
Sorry I have been gone so long......Saturday morning I got up and my computer was down....my sweeties computer crashed and it took mine down too :c( They are linked together so if one has trouble...both goes down.
It was late Sunday afternoon before he got it fixed.......and by then PMS was in full swing and I was grumpy and just wanted to sit in the corner and feel sorry for myself. I wish I could get this peri-menopausal crap over with. I feel so bad for Kenny...who bears the brunt of my bad moods and keeps smiling and loving me anyway.
Monday and Tuesday I worked back to back 12 hour shifts and slept the rest of the time......a breather for my sweeter who could work on his computer in peace for a few hours.....
Today it dawned on me that I hadn't visited here for awhile so I sped in to update everyone.....
I am still alive and kicking......
I am still watching my food intake but I didn't visit FitDay either so I can't say how I did nutritionally. I lost another pound so I must have done ok. *
I need to be more consistent in visiting and journaling.
I need to get my menus to FitDay and finish my big diabetic menu planning project......I am so far behind in that again.
This weekend, we are supposed to get huge amounts of ice, rain and snow so I will be snowbound.....hopefully, that will force me to stay home and get caught up.
MONICA, BELL, and LISREY,
Thanks for the visits....I do appreciate your concern...
I will try to get to your journals later tonight and check up on each of you. Hope you all are doing great....and I KNOW YOU ARE!!!

Love YA!!!!


Vickie:coach: :dn

i have missed you my friend, and was so happy to see a post from you this morning.
hope that all is fixed up with your computers, dont want to lose touch with you. :)
i have a cold at the moment so am just concentrating on my eating as the exercise will have to take a back seat til i am over it.
great job on that extra pound gone forever!
hugs bell :)

Dear Vickie

:coach: WAY TO GO ON YOUR FANTASTIC, MARVELOUS ONE POUND LOSS :cheer:

Not only did you lose that one pound .... but if I am reading your post correctly you didn't let the day's events lead you to sabotage your efforts.

I have to keep reminding myself (many times over and over again) that I shouldn't :tomato: when things go wrong in my life .... and sabotage my efforts to stay on my weight loss plan. You know the old adage TWO WRONGS DON'T MAKE A RIGHT .... lol that can be applied to our allowing circumstances to ruin our weight loss plan..

Hopefully I will see you this evening at our 100 Plus Chat so that you can share your success ....:) with our fellow 100 Plus Chatterers.

How have your blood sugars been? Just to appease this nosey old lady ..... how often do you check your blood sugars?

Again CONGRATS ON YOUR MARVELOUS SUCCESS ... I am so pleased and proud of you for your loss :cheers:. As always, Monica

HI VICKIE
LONG TIME NO SEE...SO GLAD YOU ARE DOING OK AND WAY TO GO ON ANOTHER POUND GONE THAT IS :super:
I DID REALLY WELL THIS WEEK AND LOST 4 BUT AGAIN AT A STANDSTILL BUT I HAVE GOT USE TO THEM THEY LAST ABOUT 2 WEEKS SEEMS LIKE.
MISS YOU IN CHIT CHAT.. CANT WAIT TO SEE US ALL MAKE V-DAY GOAL.
HAVE A GREAT DAY AND DONT WORK TO HARD..OK?
LAURA

Hi Journal Buddies,
I am having such a hard time these last few days...trying to stay on program and get back in the swing of things.

Valentines Day was a good day though. I was good....Kenny was gonna go buy me some diabetic chocolate at a speciality store in Bloomington but he was 10 minutes late getting there and they closed the store. So he had to come home empty handed on Valentines Day!!
Today, we both went and he was gonna let me choose whatever I wanted...the store was closed AGAIN!!! I personally take this as divine intervention!! But he felt bad. We went shopping at some other stores and I got a new red satin journal with a heart on the front, some new books to read and a BUNCH of bunny statues.....I LOVE BUNNIES!!!! So, I really got everything I wanted for Valentines Day. :D

LAURA, I need to get back to Chit Chat and get a new goal posted. Thanks for the reminder!

MONICA, You are so right!!! Do you supposed I will ever be as gracious and wise as you are when it comes to my diabetes????

BELL, Hope you are feeling better now. Don't worry about me disappearing again. I may be gone for short spurts but I know I need your support to reach my goals so I will always be around somewhere.

I'll try to spend more time here in Diettalk tomorrow. Its been a long time and I am bone tired. Time to hug my pillow for awhile.
8-}


Vickie:coach: :dn

Vickie ...

Are you still sleeping? I hope you're okay.

I'm glad you had a good late Valentine's Day, it doesn't really matter the day, just the fun that goes with it. I didn't get any chocolate either and Rick tried to make it up in other ways. I'm actually avoiding the diabetic chocolate that one of my fellow dieters at work was pushing today. I don't even want it in my mouth, I'm afraid I'll never stop if I start!

Have a great evening!

:wave:

IT IS MORE DESIRABLE TO HAVE PASSION THAN TO DESIRE SUCCESS. IT IS THE PASSION DURING THE JOURNEY THAT PROVIDES SUCCESS. PASSION PROVIDES JOY DURING THE JOURNEY!

-author unknown-

I am struggling to find the passion I once had to lose this weight and get healthy again. I get a good run started and then I tend to "fizzle out" in my determination to do it!!!

I know that I can never be successful this way. I have to keep moving forward. Working towards the goal for a few weeks then going backwards is getting me nowhere except to increase my frustration and anxiety and contempt for myself.

I WILL NOT allow myself to fail at this.....
It is much to important to succeed.


Vickie:coach: :dn

You can do it Vickie!!

Each step forward, even if it's a small step, adds up. I can attest to the truth of this. You don't always need to be "full steam ahead," but keep plugging away little by little and you can do great things. The persistence is the biggest thing.

Keep it in your sights & go for it!

Lisrey :up:

Good Morning Vickie :wave:

Sorry I haven't been able to stop by to see how you are doing; but don't think I am not thinking about you .... I CARE VERY MUCH ABOUT ALL OF MY DT FAMILY.

Make it a great day and enjoy the :spring:AND HAVE AND MAKE IT A FANTASTIC WEEKEND . Many :hug:'s from me to you. As always, Monica

Wow!!!! I am amazed......I don't know how I did it but I lost another pound. I now weigh 238 and I am setting my St. Patricks day goal at 230 pounds.
We are supposed to get some more snow this weekend :( and I am so tired of the weather being like this.....where is spring?????


Vickie

:coach: WAY TO GO VICKIE .... CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR MARVELOUS SUCCESSFUL ONE POUND LOSS:cheer:

Each step you are making is a STEP THAT MAKES YOU CLOSER TO YOUR WEIGHT LOSS GOALS. Have and make it a great weekend. As always, Monica

CONGRATS on losing some more weight !!! Woo hoo!!!!!:dc Your stats still say 240.... have fun changing them!!!!

Miss you, Vickie!! Hope you had a good weekend and are hanging in there. We got another foot of snow the last few days, but it's sunny and beautiful today. Are you enjoying it? Spring is right around the corner! :spring:

Lisrey :)

Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!! Its cold outside!!!! I spent the day cleaning house and watching the snow blow around!!!

I hope the warmth comes back this way soon!!!!! Athough, maybe all this shivering is helping me burn a few calories:D

I tried to work on my website today but the computer says no way!!!! :c( Oh well, I worked on other things so I kept busy and away from the refrigerator.

LISREY: Thanks for the visit. You are so sweet!!!

BETTYBOOP: It was great to see you visit here too. I continue to try to lose weight. I have good days and bad days though. I appreciate your support :D

MONICA: Thank you...Thank you....Thank you for visiting me. I know life is not easy for you right now and you still take time to visit others and be concerned for our success too.

Bless each of you!!!!!!!!!!!!



Vickie

YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FORGOT TO SEND 2 VERY IMPORTANT MESSAGES TO 2 OF MY FAVORITE DIETTALK BUDDIES!!!!!!


:balloons: Happy Birthday dear MONICA

:balloons: Congrats LISREY for your diettalker of the week designation

YOU BOTH ARE WONDERFUL IN MY OPINION......


Vickie :coach: :dn


I fixed my problem with the smilies....heeheeheehee

Hi Vickie,

:laugh: You are succeeding in losing weight ... you are losing your insulation. That is one of the things I noticed when I started losing weight ..... I never complained about the cold before .... and I always complained about the heat (anytime the weather would go past 70 degrees I WAS VERY UNCOMFORTABLE.

Now I have to sleep with double blankets (since being a diabetic my endocrinologist said not to use electric blankets) in the fall and winter time and I can now live when the temps go above 95 degrees in the summer.

I hope you are taking care of yourself .... I am going to host the Diabetic Chats on Wednesday afternoon at 1 p.m. EST (it will be every other week) starting March 5th. Hopefully you will be able to participate .. but I will post exercpts in the Diabetes Forum in case there is info you will need to help you with your diabetes. Make it a great evening .... I hope you will be able to visit tomorrow night at our 100 Plus Chat ...... As always, Monica :hug:

March 1, 2003

The beginning of a new month. Another chance to do it right!!
I am hoping that with spring right around the corner I will be able to fight off this ongoing "bad mood" of mine and get busy.
I feel like February was spent on a big ole roller coaster....with being incredibly up one day and wayyyyyyy down the next.
Maybe I need to talk to the doctor about something to even out my emotional status. Its been a few months since I have been off my Zoloft. I truly don't want to get back on it again....but I don't want to risk the deep depression I was in before I started taking it either. I will keep a close watch on this situation.

One of the things that I think made me crazy the past few weeks is the "perfection" mode I get myself into. If I can't do it "perfectly" I don't want to do it. Deep in my heart I know that its "persistance, not perfection" that will deliver me to my goal. So why can't I put that into practice? Why can't I just decide that....ok.....today wasn't perfect but I did ok!!!! Its something to work on I guess.

Tomorrow will be a busy day for me so I better scram to bed. Thanks to everyone who takes the time to visit my little journal here. You all mean so much to me.

MONICA, a special thanks to you, my friend. Thank you for never giving up on me...even when I give up on myself. Everyone needs a friend like you!!!


Vickie :coach::dn

Well, this is my final post here and I don't know what to say! I have decided that I am spinning my wheels and this is getting me nowhere. Diettalk is helpful for most of you but not for me....no one here really cares if I am successful or not and today I do not care either.
I have decided that if I do this....which I do not think I can.....I have to do it myself....not relying on any of you to keep me excited about it.


Vickie

Check your PM's sweetie. i am thinking of you and i do care about you.
hugs bell :)

Vickie... lots of us care about you. I am sorry you are feeling this way, but I hope you'll reconsider. I don't know what happened in your day to make you feel like this... Please don't give up.

Lisrey :hug:

Dear Vickie,

What happened? Why would you feel that we don't care about you ......?

I read your March 1st entry ...... each of us wants to be perfect or as close as we can get to it .... BUT NONE OF US BEING THE PERFECT HUMAN BEINGS WE ARE .....IS PERFECT.

Vickie, I can't make you do anything you don't want to do ...... BUT I AM ASKING YOU AS YOUR FRIEND ........ PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP ON YOURSELF. I grant you we all have days when we say WHAT'S THE USE ...... I AM SO TIRED OF THIS MERRY GO ROUND . But Vickie are the alternatives better. We both have to deal with the reality of the disease we have KILLS. You are so young ...... you have many more years to enjoy your life. DON'T THROW YOUR LIFE AWAY ...... because of your frustration with what you deem your imperfection.

We each have different roads to travel ..... and things don't go the way we want them to go ...... but Vickie I was taught that GIVING UP ..... DOESN'T MAKE IT BETTER ...... IF ANYTHING IT JUST ADDS ONE MORE PROBLEM TO YOUR CONCERNS. You are in a caring profession ...... what would you say to a person who is in your care? .....

If you're tired of the routine ...... then CHANGE THE ROUTINE ...... life is only as mundane as we make it. I for example have decided I need to join a gym .... walking is great -- but since I have lost the weight but I feel I am dragging my stomach around ..... and quite honestly it makes me feel as THOUGH I HAVEN'T ACCOMPLISHED ANYTHING.

When I started on this journey (almost 3 years ago), I said I could never do this ...... and if my father would have been alive he would have told me (in no uncertain terms) THAT THE WORD CAN'T IS LIKE QUITTING BEFORE STARTING.

You have made a wonderful start ...... AND YOU SHOULD BE SO PROUD OF WHAT YOU HAVE ACCOMPLISHED. As I said, I don't know what happened BUT PLEASE DON'T FEEL I DON'T CARE ....BECAUSE I CARE VERY MUCH.

You have my email address or you can send me a private message ..... I assure you you can write to me at any time ..... you can pour your feelings out (and if you want an opinion .....I can offer you my opinion) .....

I leave you with this one thought ..... LOSING WEIGHT IS ONLY AS HARD AS WE MAKE IT ON OURSELVES ...... You have proven YOU CAN SUCCEED WHEN YOU HAVE FOCUSED ON YOUR GOAL I love you Vicki. As always, Monica

Hi Vicki!

A few days ago I posted in my journal about being frustrated that this site has gotten so slow that I eventually give up in trying to get into everybody's journals. I had that problem again today and almost gave up again. I had to try 3 times before I finally got in here, and I am ever so glad I did. Please do not give up on yourself, I know that I for one care about how you are doing, and I truly appreciate the encouragement you are always so willing to give to me.

Please don't leave!

Hugs!
Linda

Hi everyone,
Here I am.........apologizing to all of you once again!!! I am not sure why I let myself get all worked up and bogged down in feeling badly about myself. Its almost a self-loathing. And I can't seem to fight it off.
I am sorry I dragged all of you into this. I KNOW you all care about me and I should not have said you didn't. Its just that when I get into these I don't care about myself periods I wonder how anyone else could care about me either.
I know that I cannot give up....whether I want to live this way or not is not my choice....I AM A DIABETIC....and if I want to survive I have to eat right and exercise. I am so tired of counting calories and carbs and fats. It never ends and sometimes I just want a vacation from it all.
I need to work out a new way of doing this...take a fresh approach to this diabetes stuff. I just wanted to stop today and say I'm sorry and I love you all and appreciate your concern and friendship.
I will keep going......I will not give up.....I will be back....again and again!!!!!!

BELL: Thanks for the PM.....I sent a PM back to you.

LISREY: Thanks for the visit and for the kind words. You are such a sweetie.

MONICA: Thanks for your wisdom.....you have helped so much. Now, more than ever, I need your diabetic chats....I need to learn new ways of dealing with this. I will be there tomorrow.

TMAYDER: Thanks for coming to visit me. I miss talking to u and will try to visit your journal soon.

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!


Vickie:coach: :dn

Vickie,

YOU HAVE MADE ME FEEL SO MUCH BETTER :) (:laugh: or it could have been that hot shower I just got out of).

I am going to get some stuff together for you personally ..... I need to look up some info my endocrinologist gave me ...

Some thing I need to tell you DEPRESSION DOES OCCUR FOR DIABETICS .... . You have made this old lady (all right this older lady -- and lol with emphasis on the LADY)very happy.

Make it a great evening .... As always, Monica :hug:

i was relieved to see your PM Vickie.
we all love you and want you to love you too...
Dont apologise for your feelings, we all have those times..this isnt an easy journey but the rewards for persevering are endless.
hugs bell :)

So happy to see you're back & that you're alright. You come through as a wonderful, wonderful person here. You're special! You're a great addition to our group! Don't need to apologize, just need to get feeling better about yourself. Let us know how we can help you do that -- that's what we're here for! When I used to help Monica with the 100+ chats at DietWatch, I discovered that helping others with the issues that I was dealing with helped ME, too. It helps me focus and gives me positive vibes about our my progress, while hopefully helping others make progress at the same time! Don't hesitate to ask. Helping is fun and definitely works both ways.

:hug:

Lisrey

Long time no see...sorry that you were having troubles...We all feel the way you was feeling at one time or the other, so we all understand..You got to do this for #1 and thats you and we are the ones cheering you on to be #1...We are all #1 when it comes to ourselves here..This is a battle we all have to take and no one told me it would be a easy one. I have wanted to give up SOOO many times but then I look back and think do I REALLY want to give up on what I have worked so hard on..

You can do it...We all care about you and dont ya forget it OK??
Love ya
Little

hey Vickie....
just stopping in to say hi, but you havent been here since i posted last. Hope you are just working your butt off as usual.
Check in so i know you are ok.
hugs bell :)

Hello Journal Buddies,
Its been about a week since I was here last and I cannot believe how much different I feel today. Of course I am dead tired....I had a long drive yesterday and then had to come all the way back home today. My dear older brother had a heart attack Saturday morning and I went to be with him over night in the hospital. He is doing much better now but will eventually have to have quadruple bypass surgery. His blood sugar on admission to the hospital was 552 :c( so he was one sick guy. He gave me a lot to think about on the drive home this morning.......about not giving up!!! I have to do this. So I came home with a fresh resolve and a new outlook on my diabetes and what I need to do to get healthy and stay healthy.
I have decided that I need to find a new job....this one is literally killing me. I hate it and the stress it adds to my life. How can I control my blood sugar when I purposely add this much misery and stress to my life every day???
I hope all of you had a great weekend. It is finally warming up some...although today is not very nice. The sunshine is great.
I feel happier everyday.
I need to rest a bit before I go to work today......But tomorrow I will post more and visit YOUR journal!!!! I promise.
Thanks for being my friends...LOVE YA!!!


Vickie:coach: :dn

i am really sorry to hear about your brother Vickie, but glad that he is doing better, i am sure it gave him a scare also.
I hope you are able to find another job thats less stressful. i am thinking along those lines myself. well finding one with more normal hours, the nights are catching up with me.
i am glad that you are feeling positive though sweetie. i believe in you.
hugs bell :)

Dear Vickie,

I was so sorry to read your post about your brother ..... and I will keep him in my prayers and ask God to see that the surgery is successful.

It always takes a wake up call of one kind or another ..... in a way it's a shame that we have to learn by such a drastic experience .... but in the positive it gives us an alert that we can create our own destiny of health.

Your job is so very stressful ...... and I am sure with your skills you will be able to find something just as rewarding and will enable you to meet your own physical and personal needs.

You have to remember to be good to yourself Vickie; so many times we put other things and other people ahead of ourselves. It is nice to be good to others BUT WE HAVE TO MAKE SURE WE TOO ARE ON OUR PRIORITY LIST.

Know that I am thinking about you ..... and that I am here whenever you need me. A very special :hug: to you my friend. As always, Monica :rose:

Vickie, I am glad to hear that you have newfound resolve. Sometimes it does take something really dramatic to find it, but once you have it, don't let go! You can do this & we will be here along with you. The job change sounds like it might help. I had to change to a situation where I wasn't commuting 2 hours a day before I could seriously consider this. I still work nights and weekends, but not the long, long hours you do... You will find something that works. I hope you love it, too!

Have a great week!

Lisrey :hug:

Hi Vickie,
Its good to see you here doing good!! I haven't been around for awhile... you look GREAT! Sorry to hear about your older brother, I will pray for him.
Good luck on finding a new job... you need to take care of yourself!!
Have a great Tuesday!
Otto
:)

Hi everyone,
I'm back again.....I was sooooo tired after working Monday night that I spent all of Tuesday lying around sleeping. Thats what happens when you drive 4 hours and then stay up all night, lol!!!!

It was GREAT to see all of you here to visit me!!!!! I was so surprised. I am doing good watching my food intake. One of my goals for this week is to avoid the fast food drive thru's. That is my weakness. And I am back on track with my water intake finally. I had forgotten how good water is and how much better it quenches thirst than any other fluid.

It is getting warmer here at long last........just in the nick of time. If I had to live through one more artic blast....I am not sure I would survive. I want to sit in the sun and drink ice tea. I want to walk all over town in short sleeves. I want to feel the sun on my face and smell my own garden.

My older brother is doing better and they hope to release him from the hospital early next week. He has a lot of stuff to learn about taking care of his heart and his diabetes.
My older sister, Jenny, is scheduled to have surgery next Tuesday. She has several masses in her colon that could be cancerous. They are hoping that it is just benign masses that have gotten infected. Please pray for my family. It seems that we are all getting sick all of a sudden.

OTTO: What a JOY to see you here......I have missed you so much. I am spending time looking for a new job but I am also considering the possibility of opening my own business as a childbirth educator/doula. This is what I truly enjoy doing.

LISREY: I hope you are having a great vacation. As I said above, I am exploring the idea of opening my own business. Of course, I will need to keep another job until I get established so hopefully I will find a job as a OB nurse somewhere. Thanks for your concern for me. It is so much appreciated!!!!

MONICA: I have been told by many, many people that nurses are very "needy" people. We need to be needed. I have always taken care of others before myself but I am starting to learn that unless I start taking care of myself pretty soon, I will not be able to take care of anyone else. Thank you for always being here to share your wisdom with me.

BELL: Working night shift is so stressful......no matter what it is because it messes with the sleep pattern and then nothing works right. I firmly believe that it plays havoc with my depression and my diabetes. I have to get off before it destroys me. Some people might be able to do it but not me. THANK YOU for believing in me.......that means so much to me.


Love to all............


Vickie::coach: :dn

Just a quick entry tonight cause I am on my way to work soon...ughhhhhh
I had a good day so far......

waffles with diabetic syrup and milk for breakfast

baked fish, veggies and fresh fruit for lunch

I was able to take a good nap this afternoon then a long relaxing shower. I am planning to stop at Subway and get a Turkey Sub for dinner on my way to work.

I have had a few bottles of water but I haven't really paid attention to how much. And I have not checked by blood sugar today. I will check at least twice tomorrow.



Its warmer here but cloudy and rainy. But spring can't be far off.

Have a wonderful evening and I will be back in the morning.



Vickie:coach: :dn

Hi Vicki, :wave:

I just got back myself from a lunch and shopping excursion with a girlfriend.

I am curious have you ever tried Smucker's Sugar Free Syrup; I have seen it advertised in the Diabetes Forecast and finally I spotted it at Ralphs (the supermarket I shop at) .... I found it very interesting that it has 30 calories per tbspn as compared to Log Cabin Sugar Free Syrup .... which was 35 calories per tbspn.

I spend more time reading labels now in the grocery store ... also if you are looking for a low sugar treat ... try Weight Watcher's Smart Ones Low Fat Chocolate Ice Cream Sandwich ..... very good 130 calories per serving .... I had a coupon before and I saw it in the ice cream section ... well I had better get going and enter my caloric and nutritional info in my own Journal. You were missed last night at our 100 Plus Chat .. but I had to let you know I think it is great that you are planning ahead for your meals. (Depending on what water bottle you drink the average size ... is 16 oz. ). Make it a great day, and have a fantastic evening. As always, Monica

:hug: especially for you.

hiya Vickie.
just checking in to say gday before the weekend as i am going away with the kids and Jason up the coast...
i love the chicken teriyaki sub with sweet onion sauce. in fact i may get Jason to get me one on the way home from work...
I agree that night shift does effect the body clock...i have been doing it three years now and cant wait til Riley starts school and i can get on to days again.
Have a great weekend..that nap and long shower sounds awesome.
hugs bell :)

Hey, Vickie!

Thanks for stopping in my journal. I hope you had a great night... it's really good to see you here more regularly again! Your idea about opening a business sounds exciting!

It's wonderfully warm and beautiful here, but I guess it's a little warmer back home, too. I'd love to go back and find the snow all gone for this year. We'll see!

Lisrey :spring:

Hey Vicki!

Well, it looks like you are doing quite well in spite of all the stress in your life!! Great Job!!

You remind me that I have to get my act together about water. I have truly been slacking off in that department... ack!

Cheers!
Linda