Day 1

Well I'm not waiting until New Years as usual this year. And so far I have lost my first 14 pounds this year.

So today December 24, 2002 I weighed 274 down from 288.

Bust 52.5
Waist 48.5
Abs 60.
Hips 56.
Thigh 31.5
calf 17.5
upper arm 15.
forearm 11.
neck 15.5
head 22.

Total inches = 329.5 Every time I weigh and measure and see I have lost weight or inches, I will record it here. The reason I am adding up all the inches is because I figure if I lose any inches anywhere it will show up big time in the final number you know? so I can say I have lost a total of 2 inches.. I'm thinking I should do this weekly or there abouts. I don't really know how often I need to do it.. how often to expect a change.

Today I did my leglifts, walked .21miles in 6:05minutes my back started hurting so bad I had to quit. Pathetic. I figure what I'm going to have to do is take lots of breaks. Go as long as I can without hurting so much I don't ever want to get back on again then when I'm feeling back to normal get back on the horse. That's my goal anyway. I guess My first goal will be to walk a quarter mile today. I'm almost there. I'm really hesitant to set huge goals for myself because when I can't attain them I feel even more like a failure than I already do and I'm already pretty bummed right now.

I just had a hershey bar and coffee all day.

I was shocked when I went to buy a pair of jeans with my christmas money from my folks and instead of buying a size 26 I had to buy a 22. I felt guilty when my friend was saying "way to go" on the weight loss because I had not done anything to deserve it. In fact I half expected that not even the 26 would fit me at this point.

Why do people always tell me I look as if I have lost weight? It's so phony! No I don't .. why don't you tell me that when I really do look it? When I have lost weight and I'm down in jeans and I know I'm looking better nobody says a thing to me.
Seems like I never run into people then in fact. They only see me when I have a great huge pimple on my nose or I've gained another 20 pounds. :SIGH:. I guess it's better than saying "getting ready for hibernation?"

I'm bummed. I feel fat fat. Not just fat. I'm tired of not being able to go skiing like I used to or ride a bike. I want to rock climb and go swimming. I want to meet a nice guy. I want to cross my legs and wear a mini skirt! I want to wear heels again! I want to go dancing. Heck I want to wear a bikini. I want to tie my shoes even without a prob.

Tell me why do we eat more than we need? I wish that just wasn't possible. I know it tastes good but the truth is when you eat too much of it no matter how good it is it just makes you feel BAD so why don't I ever learn?

I am disgusted with myself for letting this weight problem get so out of hand. I am so tired of being so sick and tired and overweight.

Welcome to anybody that reads my journal I'm just a girl in search of answers.. in search of solutions.. trying to get off this roller coaster there's a skinny me inside of this fat suit that is just aching to get out and see what life has to offer but it seems that my zipper has been stuck for the longest time.

One last thing: A little prayer for all of us over this holiday tomorrow.

Dear Lord, we are all asking that you give us the strength to focus tomorrow on the people in our lives who mean so much to us and not the wonderful food that will be available. Please help us to stay strong when temptation is offered to us. And, lastly Thank you Lord, for helping me to find Diettalk and I hope that this new year is the year that I finally learn how to take care of my body, with your help lord. Amen

Merry Christmas everybody. Peace.


:cheers: PS: about the enclosed picture.. don't you wish you always felt like that?

Hi Bettyboop , welcome to DT and Merry Christmas !!!
I know you'll find tons of support here . I'm a little bummed myself , I do low carb and have been over doing sweets and carbs which are a big no no . Missing my family and just not feeling like Christmas .I am the mother of a beautiful 2yrs of girl , currently asleep , so I'm trying to get into the spirit for her , hubby is also trying . Anyway welcome again from another skinny girl trapped in a fat suit .

Hello Bettyboop :wave:

Welcome to DietTalk!

You have a lot of questions, yes. But you also know most of the answers. It's just easier to know the answers than it is to put them into daily practice.

I feel the same way you do, about most things. I don't care if I never wear high heeled shoes again. They only cause more trouble, and not worth any of the effort really. But other than the heels, I too would like to wear at least one mini-skirt before I am dead and gone. Of course, at my age, I am probably way to old now, so I guess this one is lost on me too. I know I'll never wear the bikini.

Just the same, I sometimes would love to find the perfect solution to controlling my eating. When I do overeat, I literally become ill. And yet I do it way more than I should. So you are among friends here, and together we will all see results.

Good for you on the loss you have already acheived. Have a Happy Holiday and a great New Year.

Sandie

Totally "feeling" you there BB! I think doing the total inches thing is a great idea, many times on the journey down the inches lost were more motivating than the pounds lost.

But you have to celebrate each victory as it comes. Going from a size 26 jeans to a 22 is fabulous and you should be saying, "WOOOO-HOOOO!" That is a wonderful accomplishment!

Also, you will increase your level of fitness faster than you think, so be proud of the .21 miles and know that you will grow from there. Nobody runs a marathon the first day out! Be patient with yourself and your fitness, afterall, it's a journey, not a race! :)

I'm very proud of you FOR you, and I'll be checking in on you and your progress. :)

Happy Holidays and remember, celebrate EACH pound lost and inch lost and be proud of yourself for accomplishing it!

Donna

Hello to my new buddies! And thank you for visiting my journal I will take time to visit your journals too and hope to keep following each others success. God bless you for being there! Some days you just gotta know that someone else is out there and giving you a thumbs up when nobody else notices what you are going through and or you are too embarrased to talk about it because you are afraid to fail once again. I've done that before.. tell everybody I was going to lose the weight and be on my back then asking them to back off I just want a little chocolate already!:tomato: so anyway ! LOL

GOOD NEWS here!!!!! The scale was nice to me today!!!! 269!!! WOO HOOO that makes a total of 19 (I can count!) So I took myself out to the movies (Lord of the Rings) and I colored my hair.. just a few red highlights.. looks very subtle.. really I just covered my gray...with the color being my dark brown but with a hint of redness to it. You can't tell unless you really look but there is just something different about me now heheheh my secret.
It was fun.. I had a girlfriend come over and I cut her hair and she colored mine.

Boy did I miss not being able to go online.. see I must have deleted the wrong file or done something but my computer wouldn't go online and no matter what I did .. uninstalling and reinstalling my modem didn't help.. I did a disk defrag and that didn't help then I tried to do a scandisk and it wouldn't so then I tried to call and wait on the help line and after 10 min I gave up... I decided to restore it back to the 24th because I know it was working fine then cuz that's when I found diettalk.. and walla my computer is working like a charm again. SWEET! So anyway here goes.. I'm going to take my measurements now and compare them with the 24ths

Well on the excercise front, yesterday I did the leglifts again and added lots of crunches and buttocks excercises to my workout and I vacuumed and basically got the apartment clean. Today I worked out with weights and did lots of lunges and curls and you know just about every excercise you could think of with free 5 pound weights. I was sweating. I also got in plenty of the ab work. So I'm proud of myself and already I feel so much better. Today I am not bloated at all!!!! IN fact today in the shower I was able to squeeze a ring on my finger off which had been there for a YEAR! :o Since I had to buy it because I had put it on and was unable to take it off!!!!!! talk about embarrassing!:o could have been worse.. it oculd have been a homely ring! :D but thankfully it was very nice and within my budget.... wonder what they would have done if I couldn't afford it!!!! Lock me up for having fat fingers??? LOL that's a scary thought! so I'm very VERY careful now... I learned the hard way.

Here are my stats then: December 26, 2002 269

Bust 51. *down 1 1/2 inches figures!*
Waist 49.5 *up 1 inch* prob measured wrong first try
Abs 60.
Hips 54. *down 2 inches!!*
Thigh 30.5 *down 1 inch!*
Calf 17.5
Upperarm 14.
Forearm 11.
Neck 16. *up an inch..* prob measured wrong first try
head 22.

Overall 325. down a total of 4.5 inches! WOO HOO~! Well off to your journals now I hope you are having great days out there!:wave:

:D
That was funny locked you up for having fat fingers...lol
You sound like you got this weightloss thing under control I understand what you mean about friends who nag on you every time you put a peice of candy in your mouth. My best friend is like that it just makes me eat more what is sad is there is a little girl at church that is about 8 years old and her family does that to her. I sure they think they are helping but their not it just hurts she acts like it does not but you can tell. Well wanted to stop in and say Welcome to Diettalk hope to get to know you better. Ruthieb

Thanks Ruthie, Nice to see a new face here. I will get to your journal asap but first I am on Sandielynnes and only on page 8 hard to catch up! LOL but fun!!!!! No complaints here. Well for now I have control in the food dept...I just hope in a week or two I have this same control! That's the hard part! Sticking with it.. I'm a great starter of things.. but not the best at finishing.:( sorry to say.
Well today it is storming out something awful. We just got our power back on after being without for a loooooooooong time TOO LONG.. it's an ice box in here I have a scarf wrapped around my head and a blanket around my lower body and another around my upper body and I'm wearing a flannel shirt and long johns and I'm still cold:( ugh!
To top that off I am getting :sick: I woke up with an earache and a sore throat and a stuffed up nose. SIGH.. i just got over the antibiotic Z pack whatever that is. I called my doc to give me a script renewal and she said since it didn't work she wouldn't do it and I'd have to be seen up in the hosp because she just can't squeeze me in today and she's going on vacation for a week. I went to the pharmacy and got myself some sudafed. I've resolved that if I don't feel better after a few more days I will go in.. I just hate to go into the urgent care unless it's my only option. I know they have life or death situations in there and I just feel as if I am wasting thier time. You know? I'm not bleeding from a gunshot wound so it's not really an emergency. I just don't know what to do.
And then there is the fact that it's storming out .. big time. scary weather to be driving in.. I mean trees are coming down the screens came off the windows it's pouring down rain out there and very very windy. I think I should just stay warm and inside and drink plenty of fluids.
I don't think I will do the video I had planned to do today I just don't feel spunky enough. I found it at a garage sale yesterday for 50cents! It's Esquire Dance Away Get fit with the hits Low impact aerobics. The 50s
Rock around the clock, Good golly Miss Molly, Teenager in Love, Great balls of fire, Splish Splash, Rockin Robin, Venus, At the Hop, Blue Suede Shoe, and That'll be the day.. hey if nothing else I'll love the music! hehe.. Figured it couldn't hurt for a switch from the walking.
Someday I'd like to try yoga I've heard so many good things about it but I'm not very coordinated or limber at all. Heck I groan just bending over to tie my shoes!
I saw a friend yesterday I hadn't seen in a while and she wants to take me to a TOPS meeting with her on Wednesday so I'm going to go. She said just going and checking it out would be fine and I wouldn't have to pay a thing until I was ready to join and there was no pressure. I'm nervous to go. But I'm also excited too. I just hope they are a good group of people.
Lord give me the courage to go and not wimp out on this one. I think this might be a good thing for me. I might make some new friends. Let this be a positive new light in my life. Amen.

Well, Time to go read some more about the days in the life of Sandielynne :)hehe and then to all you other nice people who have said hello to me THANKS!:D

Bettyboop, Sorry to hear your are feeling bad I hate getting colds or the flu and I hope the weather outside gets better soon also. Just wanted to let you know Sandielynne is one of the sweetest people I know there are a lot of sweet people hear who care about you. You will fit right in here...Bye Ruthieb

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Bettyboop,
I LOVE reading your journal! You make me laugh:laugh: Locking you up for having a fat finger??? That was cute! Unreal, but cute! I can just see you with all those blankets from head to toe:D
Put that video in and dance away, it might warm you up abit. I love the dancing exercises, like jazzersize(did I spell that right?) Well, I know who to call when my computer goes bad,hehe...
Girl, you are doing the right thing on your weight loss journey! You jumped from a 26 to a 22? WOW!!! Way to go! Your doing great! A 19 pound lost? You got it going girl,,,good for you!!! Here's rooting you on:cheer:

Well ok Linda.. I think you are right. Besides now I do feel somewhat better after staying warm all day and I can't stand to not do anything excercise wise for a whole day.. I mean if I don't I'd be wasting the day now wouldn't I??? And I can't have that.. I mean business here.. WOW jazzercise sounds like a blast.. I wish I had the energy for that.. maybe someday! Thanks for being in my corner too! I plan to visit everybodies journals too but I like to catch up on them before I post.. so bear with me and :hug:

working up a sweat over here but now I have to take a break YOU WERE SOOOOOO right.. from now on when I'm sick unless I just cant I'm going to try doing low impact aerobics or walking on my treadmill anything to get the blood flowing.. I feel tons warmer and better already! I love to sweat! I feel like I'm making it happen! These pounds are gonna come off!:D

I have some good news to report! I did my first low impact aerobic video! WOO HOO! Yes I could only do a few minutes and stop for breathing hard (asthma) and sweating.. but I just finished the video and all in all it was 30 minutes! Yay me! I wasn't sure if I could do it at all before I tried. I'm so glad I tried. Now I feel proud of myself!
I feel as if I'm off to a great start here! This week my focus will be on journalling daily and drinking at least 64oz of water daily and getting some form of excercise in daily enough to sweat and do me some good. Say a minimum of 15 minutes. I think thats enough for my first week don't you think?

Hi BB
remember not to overdo it if you're not feeling too good,You won't be able to do any exercise for a while if you knock yourself out.
My sister told me when I complained no-one noticed the weight loss If they say have you lost weight and you haven't then you'll feel like they were saying you needed to.
You sound really motivated, I am going to have to check out your journal more often to motivate myself.
and remember when your wearing your mini skirt keep your legs crossed then lol
Ellie

Betty, I just wanted to say thanks for stopping by my journal next year we will look better at Christmas weightloss is hard sometimes but we will be here to help each other out it takes time to learn new habits but it can be done. It like becoming a movie star you start at the bottom then you work odd jobs but you keep on trying the next thing you know your a #1 box office draw. You did not get there over night but you got there the same with weightloss we did not get over weight over night but with hard work we will get to be the bell of the ball soon enough. You and I weigh about the same I think I weigh more right now and we are about the same height and we would like to lose close to the same amoubnt of weight. I'll add you to my buddy list and keep on checking your journal also. Ruthieb

Hi Betty , thanks for stopping by , congrats on doing your first video ! woe stands for way of eating , and pilates is sort of like yoga with a breathing pattern to it , I have the beginners and anyone can do it , I have not been exercising lately but I think I'll do some pilates or yoga today , thanks for motivating me. I also enjoy Leslie Sansones Walk Away the Pounds videos , she has a 1 mile , a 2 mile and a 3 mile , gonna start doing hers faithfully starting on the 1st . Happy New Year !!! Don't you just love new starts , thats what a new year reminds me of . And you are doing awesome , just don't overdo it like Ellie said . Have a wonderful weekend !

Saturday, December 28 2002

HI again everybody and thanks for visiting my journal and thanks for clearing that up for me Summering :) nice of you... well I hopped on the scale for my bi-weekly check up and I maintained the 269 so I decided to measure because something must have changed because I feel so much firmer already! I mean I don't feel as if I was hit by a truck anymore and in fact I think I've lost a roll in my back!!!!:D and sure enough here they are:

Bust 50.25 *down another .75 inch!
Waist 48.25 *down 1 1/4 inches!
Abs 59. *down 1 inch!
Hips 54.
Thigh 30.25 *down 1 1/4 inches!
Calf 17. *down 1 inch!
Upperarm 14.
Forearm 11.
Neck 15.5 *down 1/2 inch! Swelling must be residing!
Head 22.

Well that makes for a total of another 5.75 inches GONE! altogether I've lost 10.25 inches!
Inches now are 319.25

Well today is going to be another fabulous day I just had the best shower I ever had.. I didn't HURT anywhere! ahhh! how refreshing!!!! (well except my ear and my throat but that's not due to overweight).. anyway time to get dressed I'm having my parents over for coffee in about 15 min. gotta go. Have a great day I'll be back later!:)

Oh and Ellie, don't worry I wont overdo.. I'm so out of shape right now my body makes me take breaks. In fact I feel better today than I did yesterday even though I still have a sore throat and an earache! I feel hope! Thanks for the friendly reminder though :)

And Ruthie, you are right girlie! Together we're gonna kick some butt this year... right now.. and our pictures.. our guilt .. our bad feelings will soon be a thing of the past!!! We can do this! We will stay strong for each other! God bless us all!:dn

Sorry I forgot about fitday.com , it is a great site , I highly recommend checking it out . Have a great day . Just finished a hour of yoga ( beginners for dummies ) great tape , she really explains the poses for you . I use to go to yoga classes but have not done so for a few years , great tape to get back into it or for beginners , nice and gentle poses .

Hi everyone I just joined diettalk and I am so excited. I am looking for a diet that I can stick with. Please tell me how you are all doing it. Thanks, Deirdre

Sounds good Summering.. what is the name of the yoga tape? hehe I think you ment to share it with me :D Hi there Dcarlin, I'm new too. so far I'm just trying to only eat when I am hungry, drink plenty of water 64oz minimum and excercise a fair amount everyday .. like 30 min if I can. But at this point I still have to take breaks.. I'm also going to try going to my first TOPS meeting on Wednesday with a friend and today I plan to go to the library to check out the Weigh Down books.. someone recommended them to me. I've also given a thought to Weight Watchers but I'm not sure that I can afford that. But I kind of like the idea of the point system....although I've never tried it first hand. I'm learning a lot here on this website. I'm also enjoying it .. getting to know people too :)
I will take your advice Summering and check out what Fitday has to offer. Thanks for taking the time to tell me about it!:hop:

Hi Betty, Just wanted to check in on you see how you were doing how's your cold? Better I hope I'm gearing up for the new year it is all about new beginnings and new hope and progress. Ruthieb

Thanks Ruthie! I appreciate that! I am feeling about the same.. the sore throat and earache are still with me.. at least I'm not alone LOL heheh ;) but hey it's not stopping me I am going to lift weights now while I watch this tv show. Thanks for asking though (puffs out chest) makes me feel important!

Ok here is my food intake so far today straight from my new food diary on www.fitday.com:

Calories Eaten Today
source grams cals %total
Total: 1751
Fat: 54 482 28%
Sat: 16 141 8%
Poly: 10 91 5%
Mono: 22 199 12%
Carbs: 195 749 43%
Fiber: 8 0 0%
Protein: 64 255 15%
Alcohol: 35 244 14%
Calorie Breakdown

Fat Carbs
Protein Alcohol



Today's Foods

Food Name Servings Serving Size Cals Fat Carb Prot
Honey Nut Cheerios cup 115 1 24 3
Tomato soup, NFS 2 cups 207 6 36 6
Milk, nonfat, 2 cups 171 1 24 17
Coffee 2 cups 9 0 2 0
Sugar 6 tsp 92 0 24 0
Non dairy creamer 4 tsp 40 2 4 0
Ham, 5 oz 325 24 0 24
Macaroni mix cup 397 19 45 11
Beer small pitcher (32 fl oz) 394 0 36 3

Totals 1751 54 195 64

I don't plan to but I may have one more beer since I'm allotted 2000 calories and I don't drink often.. it's my extra for the day.

Well any suggestions? Gonna go lift weights now... do my routine.. have a great night everybody! Bettyboop


:lily:

Hello Bettyboop ~

I see you just flying through the day, eating good, exercising, drinking that water. Yep, you are doing super!

I understand that the Tops groups is a great bunch of people and I'm sure they can help you a lot. If you want to try out the WW group, we have a group right here on DT that would be happy to help you with counting points, and there are other websites out there where you can get the points for things. You don't actually have to be a paying member of WW to lose weight using their program.

I'm glad to see you found Fitday.com. It's been very helpful to many members here for keeping track of their calories and their fat and carbs and such. It helps you a lot when you can see where the calories are coming from. It helps you to make wiser choices too.

I received your pm about meeting in the chat room, and I'm sitting in there right at this moment, waiting for you. Maybe you didn't get my return message yet?

Anyway, you can also check out my profile, and there you will find my yahoo, msn, icq, and aim buddy names. If you have any of those instant messenger programs, just buzz me and I'll sign you through. Ok?

Take care now.
Sandie

Hello and welcome. i see your doing quite well on your plan. i follow ww and it works well. i dont go to meetings(cant afford to) i have been slacking since all the hoildays but am ready to get back on track here. i really miss my exercise too. im sure it will be hard at first to do it but then will get easier like before.

i think 2003 will be a good year for all of us.
hope to get to know you better and if you need anything give a yell my way.

Sunday December 29, 2003

I'm disgusted with my computer!!!!!! Aaaagh!.. it kept locking up in my pm's and then it showed them as missing.. they just weren't there. I rebooted three times. Finally I figured that my computer just had too many programs running and shut what I knew I could shut down safely down.. and now things seem to work alright.

We've had very very stormy weather out here.. 60mph winds. Very cold and my little space heater died on me so it's back to the multi layers.. if you came over right now you probably would be laughing a good five minutes.. just looking at me! hehe:D I'm wearing flannel pjs, slipper socks, slippers, a sweatshirt, those zip up pajamas without feet and a hooded sweatshirt.. I"m so layered my arms won't go to my sides.. I look like the Pillsbury dough boys mom in color! and on top of all that I have a blanket on me and I'm still cold. :(

I should probably eat something.. I haven't. I just haven't been hungry and I feel fine... I know if I fwere to cook something the smell would probably jar my hunger.. what's your take people should I eat because it's 8pm and I haven't and I'm not sure if I am hungry.. it's probably because of my sore throat that I'm not wanting to eat.. I dunno... sitting here talking about it is starting to make me hungry though.. hmmmmm

What I do know is that I have a lot to learn. I really want to make the changes I need to make. I'm really trying hard here to get in my excercise, and only eat when I'm hungry and when I do eat to eat a healthy meal not junk food.

Well I am going to go and do my video I borrowed from the library I think it's called the lean routine with Jane fonda.. and weights... I just have to do something to get warm! I have already worked out today so I will try not to overdo it but I'm so cold!

*Sandielynne, I am sorry that I didn't get your pm last night. I was really hoping to chat with you too. I am glad however that you had a nice chat with this other person. Hopefully we will get our chance soon. If I wanted to find out more about WW then, without spending money I could here on diettalk? Or would I have to go first to WW and get all the info I need? Money is very tight right now for me, but my health is very important to me. Yes I agree about Fitday. I think I will eventually learn a lot from keeping a food diary there. I don't use an instant message program at this point. Thanks for visiting my journal :)

*Summering, Thank you so much for telling me about Fitday.com. What a wonderful site. So much to learn! SO much help. I think this will help me a lot! I was surprised how much things were adding up yesterday I guess that is why I've not eaten very much today (partly). Have a great day!

*Minnie Mouse, Yes I believe you are right we will have a great year! Thanks for dropping in on me! What do you do for excercise? I hope it's not as hard as you think! Well I think you are setting a great example.. it's time for me to get off my buns and sweat a little more... if nothing else I know I will feel warmer! That's a plus bigtime because right now I am coooooold and I cannot possibly layer anymore than I am already.. In fact I am ready to start peeling off the layers.. hehe that's my reward while I excercise.. I get warm so I have to peel off another layer.. I get out of breath so I can go read a post or post a post on diettalk .. I've never been happier about losing weight!

Thank you thank you thank you to everyone who reads and posts in my journal I am so grateful to have friends here. So grateful to get advice.. and to just have a place to vent.. (((((((((((DIETTALKERS))))))))))) Feel the Love!:gflower:

Hi Betty , I love getting new videos at the libraby to try out , saves me a ton of money . I also have a sore throat and don't feel like eating unless of course it's comfort food , which is just not allowed . Hope you feel better and eat something !

Hello and i was so glad to hear from you in my journal.

I feel so bad for you being cold as i know cuz we had our gas run out twice already and i hate to be cold.
is the space heater your only heat?
when our gas ran out, till the guy came to fill it we used a kerosene heater and it does work well too. better than nothing.

as far as exercise for me i ride an exercise bike i have, do crunches for abs, use light arm weights for toning and when the weather is good i walk.
i want a treadmill and hubby says when we move(were looking too) i can have one cuz right now there simply isnt room.
i do have workout videos but rarely use them. i dont have time.
I have 3 children ages 13,10 and 9 and one 11 yr old step child.
i work part time and there simply isnt enough hours in the day.

I never have troubel drinking all the water cuz i love it anyways.
the food part is the hard part for me.
i love to binge and have been really trying to figure things out and let go of it.
i am re-starting on Jan 2 and starting a new journal then too.
i lost quite a bit on ww and gained a few during holidays but i forgive myself now and can move on.

we will have a good year.

I need to get back in shape and i miss the exercise. usually i have to force myself to do it but after i do it im always glad i did.
its worth the effort.

well talk to you later. take care too. By the way i try not to eat after 8 the latest but if your hungry eat, but have something good for you. if you have a sore throat try hot tea with honey, or soup. it will help your throat and warm you up too.

good night my new friend I-)

Hello Bettyboop ~

I'm sure you can find out most if not all of what you need to know about Weight Watcher's right here on DT. A friend, Lizzieb, who is the Moderator for WW forum, is a great help and has a lot of information. She also knows other websites that give you the points for the different food items and such. You can post there in the WW forum any questions you have to ask, and I'm sure Lizzie or someone else will be happy to give you the proper answer. I understand about money being tight. Same here since DH and I are both retired.

I hope you continue to enjoy yourself dieting and being here at DT. I, for one, enjoy having you too. So glad you found DietTalk. I have always been thankfull that I did.

Take care now. I wish you all the very best in all things for the new year.

HAPPY NEW YEAR :balloons:
Sandie

Hi Betty, Happy New Year!!! So hows it going? GREAT I hope tomarrow is a exercise day for me even if it is just a little. My eating has been good today I'm a little hungery now but no big thing though. Oh by the way how is the cold? Ruthieb

~Happy New Year, Betty!!!~
I finally started a journal here. I started out with one New Year's Day. So it's still new;)
Hey, is everything okay with you? I noticed, maybe I just overlooked some posts, but it looks like you haven't posted since Dec. 29th. I hope you are okay!:-/
Or have you started a new journal for this year??? Let me know if you have!!!
Come for a visit to mine when you get the chance:wave:

Hello Betttyboop ~

I hope you are doing alright. Miss having you posting, but if you're not able to get on line, I guess that would explain it too.

Take care now. I'll be watching for your return.

Sandie

Hello Betty, Miss you my new found friend hope you get back soon girlfriend. Ruthieb

Hi everybody and BOY have I missed everybody and then some. I was so on track here and in fitday.... I feel like I'm starting over because of my darn computer. UGH! X-( I have had some serious SERIOUS computer problems! Glad to be back.. sheesh I had to reformat my hard drive and restore the thing completely! :c( I lost all my mp3's all my games...so so much it's not even funny..... the files were just too big to back up.

I could kick myself for not waiting to get the money to get some sort of back up but I just couldn't wait to get back online... you know how it is.. and I wouldn't have that kind of money for another month at least. I'm lucky I'm not in debt.. you know?

Well I had a semi good New Years and I hope you all had terrific ones, can't wait to get caught up with ya'll. :)

I got together with a couple of buddies and I won 21 dollars at the local casino.. took them back to my apt and we drank rum -n- cokes and made umpteen toasts to each other and the New Year...it was fun. We all watched a movie together too.

Then the shocker, my best friend told me that I had kissed her on the mouth and stuck my tongue in her mouth.. A VERY BIG LIE... never happened I swear it. She must have been dreaming.. so I took her home and I haven't talked to her since.. she's whacked out of her head.. I'm so upset with her I could just scream! I can't believe it. I'm in shock. devastated! HURT. Disgusted!UGH.. I just can't believe it and I'm not going to sweep this under the carpet.. either she apologises and admits that she could be mistaken or I don't see how I can trust her to be my friend any longer. After 6 years of building this relationship.. out of the blue wham. jeez. Sometimes you come to a real big fork in the road dontcha. :tomato:

Well Since I've been with my son this past week and haven't kept up my routine of walking, aerobics and weight lifting, diettalking or fitday. no weight loss.But no weight gain either woo hoo!

I did try to go to the darn TOPS meeting only to find that the group had disbanded due to lack of interest. :( UGH

I have found out that the nearest Weight Watchers group meet's about 19 miles away from me and I'm thinking of going. I mean it wouldn't be every day I'd drive in .. I could handle it once a week if it was a good bunch of supportive people it would be worth it!

So I'm praying! It's about time something goes right and easy in my life.

I'm so frustrated right now about my relationship with my best friend. I just can't believe it. I am going to pray to God that he helps us work things through and not just having us go our separate ways because I feel like I would be losing a sister if that happened. I'm very sad this has happened so I'm fighting the urge to go back to my old habits... buy candy, ice cream, popcorn, chips...pizza.. all my comfort foods and gorge until I'm sleepy and sleep... and repeat the process so I can be numb and not have to feel anything... oh and immerse myself in books and movies and games anything but focussing on my life and my unhappiness..

Well that's enough journalling for tonight .. no food stats to report today because this late in the day I just don't trust the accuracy of my reporting if I were to try to update fitday with everything I ate today but I will come back tomorrow and report it God willing.

XOX have a GREAT day tomorrow! Hope to read all about it and Linda, Congrats! Glad to hear it (Smile)

You know I just got to thinking about it.. and I'm convinced this has to do with my losing 2 dress sizes. :( It seems we always get into a fight whenever something good happens to me. I hate to believe this but I really think she is jealous of me for having lost 20 pounds almost and she doesn't want me to continue to lose weight because then she would feel like she had to and I'm not like that! I don't care what she weighs I just want her to be happy. And I'd appreciate it if she could be happy for me while I am trying to accomplish my goals I am setting for myself. It's called support! Ugh.. well maybe I'm just in a horrible mood. sorry :(

Betty,
S-o-o-o-o-o glad you are back! I have missed you:c( I found a new found friend and you disappeared!!! But glad to see you are up and running again..Looks like you had excited, wacko holidays:bubbles: What a trip!!! Were you drunk???? I have never laughed so hard girl...Thanks for the good laugh!!!!!!! Looking forward to more great days laughing with you......
I DID IT, Betty! I started my journal this year & I've been faithful in posting in it..Come check it out and post to let me know you've been there, "On A Weight Loss Journey!"
Welcome Back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~Double Hugs,~
:hug: :hug:

I have had a serious falling out with my best friend Anne recently and I have been very anti-social because of it.
I'm feeling really resentful of the way I have been treated by everybody and myself.
I have to learn and grow and right now I'm stuck. I'm just feeling judged by everybody and that stinks.
I also feel like my son likes to make fun of me and that hurts me a lot. I try to act like it's all good and fun but inside it kills me a little bit more until eventually I crack.
People can't just say whatever they want and not expect me to put up a few walls. I have been brooding.
On top of that my computer crashed and I had to reformat the hard drive and restore it completely and I lost my book. 60 pages typed up.. just gone .. wham. No saved onto disk. I'm devastated.
It was too big to save onto a disk. I would have had to buy disks and so I didn't bother... I thought if anything happened there would be time to put it on a disk then.. Nope. Take it from me if you don't save it onto a disk you are nuts.
I feel like my parent's are dissapointed with me again. as always. I haven't lived up to thiers, mine or my son's expectations.. you know what???
Why do I have to feel this way? Like I'm not good enough.. like I suck... like being me isn't good enough. I should have my families love and his love unconditionally and I just don't feel it.
Why is weight always such a big issue.. yes I would like to lose some but I don't even talk about it to Sheri (another very good friend) and I ask her what she thinks my new years resolution is and she goes to that... lose weight. She says.. just lose weight.
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Someone gives me a compliment and my son feels like he has to correct them for example Sheri had me typing up one of her school papers and she says "Wow you must type 65 words a minute!" and my son says oh no she doesn't I've heard 65 wpm.. Michaels sister types that fast and she's way faster than my mom.. asdfjkasdfkasdfksldfsddafjkasdfklj
What is his point? Should i give her a medal? Why can't he let me get a compliment?

Then they find the drawer with my hearing aides and they say wow is this a mass gravesite for lost hearing aides??? hahaha very funny.. I've had a lot of them over the years.. I got my first one when I was a few years older than you. no laughing matter To me.
I'm tired of being the object of ridicule in my own family. I don't feel I have my own sons respect. but then again why should I.

I'm soft. I say I wont let him have friends over and I let him have one. I say I'm not going to let him destroy my house again and he does .. and it's partly my fault becuase I didn't stop it.

I've lowered myself to bribing him to come back.. promising him the only chore he'd have to do is take out the garbage and instead of 20 dollars allowance every two weeks I'd give him 25 just come back home.
I feel so abandoned almost like he's died when he's gone. I feel like the first 12 years of his life dont matter to him. dont mean beans.
I feel like he thinks he's had a hard life growing up when I've done my best to be the best parent I know how to be.

I asked him and I put my foot down on one thing while he was here and that was to help me get the christmas tree out to the dumpster and to get him to help me I had to beg him.. then yell at him because I was phisically having a hard time on my own and he screams at me. and I say fine dont help me I'll do the best I can by myself but at least when I ask you to help me I don't scream at you and act like a bi**CH and on the ride to town he listened to his walkman the whole way in and told me I had treated him badly and called him names that morning and I said WHAT???? and he said I called him the B word and I said I didn't .. I said I wasn't acting like one that is not the same as calling him one. SEE?? we just can't communicate at all.

I think it's me.. I just don't know how to communicate with anybody at all. Not even my own flesh and blood.

It's very very depressing. I'm wondering if I matter. Clearly my son has decided that his father is more important than I am after 12 years of hardly being there.. that more than makes up for anything I have done for him. He can do no wrong. He can part the seas and walk on water. In his own words "I'm my father's son mom".

I've said enough for now. I just need time to figure out what the hell I'm going to do now.

I tell my parents I love you both very much. I wish you would believe that. I wish we could have a more relaxed relationship .. without everything always having to be perfect and you could come over for coffee without my worrying if my floors were clean enough for you. Why cant you come over to see me not my apt?????

and then I say I am sorry if I have hurt you in any way that is not my intention I am just trying to be REAL.. and get my feelings out. I'm hurt, depressed, dejected, unimportant and stuck right now and basically I need from you right now is your love and understanding. If you need to express your feelings to me please do.

just checking in so you know that I'm alive and wont worry, but I see that I have not been missed. Well except for Linda.. thanks linda I'm glad you missed me.. sorry I am not here much but when I am this down and out I'm NOT moving forward. I haven't been journalling, keeping a food journal, I haven't been excercising and I haven't been losing any weight.

I'm very disappointed with myself. I don't know why I keep eating. Eat, sleep, tv, and movies... and the computer.. that's been my whole life for about a week now.. and have stayed away from here because I couldnt face you all. You are all so cheery and motivated and wonderful and I have been so blue.

UGH I am having the worst gas. Diarrhea even. :( I know I need to get a grip but right now .. I'm still trying to decide what to do about Anne. I know you meant well LindaH but I didn't exactly mean to give you a belly laugh. This is my life.:c(

Hello Betty, You have been missed I missed you sorry I did not get here sooner. There has been somethings in my life right now that has kept me from getting to all I want to do. Your son is 12 years old they start getting a little bosy at that age. He thinks his father is wonderful now but give it a few years and he will know he is human to. As for people who bring up your weight tell them that your weight is their problem not yours that you are doing the best you can. As for the friend tell her she is out of her flippin mind that it did not happen and if she can't get a grip them it is bye bye to her. And remember tomarrow is another day a new start to everything...now let's get this party started!!! Ruthieb

Thanks Ruthie, (((((hugs))))) I am feeling better today. It took me forever though didn't it. I guess I need to stop wearing my heart on my sleeve. Today some friends came by and pounded on my window to wake me up... I was asleep during the day.. trying to shut out my problems.. well we talked. It was very good for me to have a friend around you know? She just listened I cried and talked.. wow I needed that. I tried to convince her to spend the night but she promised her boyfriend they'd spend the weekend together so I invited them both out here tomorrow to have some fun together maybe catch a movie. I feel so much better having written a letter to my parents telling them how I feel and I plan to do the same with Anne.. As for my book it's all still here in my head and I can get it back on paper again but this time around I'm saving onto disk.. I don't care how many it takes. I think starting tomorrow I will be able to get back to my goals.. of excercising and keeping a food journal and losing weight. I really do think I will try Weight Watchers for the moral support.. but I do know that it makes me feel terrible to try talking that problem out with friends and family members that just don't understand what a process .. journey .. whatever you want to call it .. losing weight is. It's not just the physical fat loss.. it's the mental relearning how to live... how to think about food and how to stop old habits. I'm still eating like I always have I'm just eating smarter.. instead of cake and cookies I've been eating chicken soup.. bowlful after bowlful. and carrots and dip instead of chips and dip.. I don't know how to stop eating at this point. I'm still wondering if I can stop. I'm wondering if I'm strong enough and motivated enough and mentally aware enough.. I know my self esteem is virtually non existant and I'm far too sensitive ... I'm tired of being depressed. I want to change I just don't know how. I do have another apointment with my doctor on the 16th and I plan to share with her my anxieties.. and hopefully she will up my antidepressant medication that's all I know to do. I've tried councelling and I felt even more insecure after 6 weeks of that. I guess I will go read some other journals and hope for some help from God through this dark period in my life.

Thanks for visiting my journal RuthieB.. I think I know why I don't get many visitors.. it's because I'm so down and out and depressed.. people don't want to read that. But I have to get it out of my system this is my journal and I'm hoping it will help me.

Well, take care and if anyone has any advice for me please pass it on. I need it. I'm a lost puppy.

Bettyboop

Why do I feel like I'm on a one way street going the wrong way in my weight loss efforts? The more I want to stop eating the more I find myself thinking about food. WHy is it such a big deal to me? Why do I continue to feel hopeless? I want to stop being so negative all the time. I feel like it's impossible to do the right things. What is so stupid is that I know what I need to do to lose weight and it shouldn't be this hard.. what is stopping me????

Why don't I just workout already??? I know I will feel better once I get to it and do it but I don't.. I just eat and sleep and watch TV and cry and play on the computer and brood about my life and my situation. I feel sorry for myself but I'm not doing one damn thing to pick myself up and dust myself off.

I have invited two of my best friends to come out and visit tomorrow and my house is a complete wreck and I'm sitting here complaining about everything. I think I need a swift kick in the rear end instead of sitting here complaining that none of my dang clothes fit and that my ***** hurts because I'm sitting here. What is my problem am I mental??? I always feel better after I do the right things. I'm sitting here thirsty and I love the taste of my filtered water but do I get up and pour me a glass no I just sit here and type out ten pages about how I only have water and coffee and tea to drink GKLSDKLdfjklsdjfskl when Am I going to grow up, take charge and make things happen if I really want them b ad enough that would inspire me to change things wouldn't it? I"m so exasperated about my life and myself. I'm disgusted with myself actually. It is almost too embarrasing to admit all this here even in my diary but here I am.. If I can't be honest with myself How can I hope to communicate better with anybody else???? well I'm off to get something done around here because at least writing this has inspired me to do that. THANK GOD.

Well I got a glass of water and put the clean dishes away... Think my inspiration is waning already. :tomato: jeez. Well I'll try.. lets see I'll make a list of everything I need to do here and maybe I can come back and say ok I've done this .. done that..

1. Take out the Garbage
2. clean the icky garbage cans
3. line the damn cans
4. get the trash out of the car
5. put a new trash bag in the car
6. get the junk out of the car
7. put the dirty laundry in the car
8. put the clean laundry away
9. make my bed
10. wash the dishes
11. vacuum the house
12. mop the kitchen, bathroom and hallway
13. organize my desk
14. organize my vanity
15. organize my kitchen
16. organize my mail, bills
17. organize my dresser
18. dust
19. replace light bulbs
20. fix answering machine
21. fix lamps in living room
22. get movies back
23. get tape to library
24. mail off bills
25. go to the bank
26. call Sherie
27. write to Anne
28. exercise
29. lift weights
30. weigh and measure and record it
31. start a food diary again
32. find out body fat
33. grocery shopping
34. clean out microwave oven
35. clean out fridge
36. clean mirrors
37. wash and vacuum car
38. do the laundry
39. call my son
40. send present to brother


well wow.. that is enough for now. Heck I can't believe I have that much to do. Maybe it's just the way I put it out there. Where do I begin???
Told you my house was a wreck.. just like me.
Well .. nough said for now.. off to try to get something done. 8-|

:cheers: I got the GARBAGE out .. 39 to go! woo hoo!:D Ok I got the laundry all rounded up next to the door to take to the car once I clean it out tomorrow. I don't feel safe cleaning the car at 2:14 in the morning.. besides it's too hard to see at night.. so this will suffice. OFF to make my bed now.. will report in later! :)Feels so good to actually be DOING SOMETHING! woo hoo!:hop: I think this journalling is helping me out after all.. even if it is mostly just talking to myself!hehe

Hello and i am sorry your under such stress. but your hanging in there.

as far as your friend goes i would have a serious talk with her and if its jealousy than i would tell her she needs to be supportive of something that means alot to you or she really isnt a true friend then.

when i left my first husband(i had 3 very small children) i moved into a housing development cuz thats all i could afford and i met a woman with kids who became my best friend for several years. me and her and the kids did everything together. then i met someone. she was jealous and wanted to split us up. she would ignore me or say bad things about him. he turned into the love of my life and we moved and got married. weve been topgether 5 yrs now. me and her havent spoken in almost 3.i wrote to her, she never wrote back, i visited her and she never visited so i gave up. i guess she wasnt a true friend.

and as far as your son, first of all how old is he? i have girls and 1 boy. my son is 9 and lived with me till he was 5 and then with his dad till this past may and now with me again. he gives me lots of trouble and is always punished for talking back or yelling at me.
it is terrible to love and raise a kid and be treated badly. i refuse to let myself be treated bad anymore for people i care for and am good too cuz i deserve more than that and so do you.

i hope you feel better soon. get selfish and put your own needs first. that is what i finally did.

take care and have a good weekend.

Hi Minnie, thanks. My son is 13 now. Well I am going to go to the Crisis clinic and stay for a few days I think. Or at least see someone and if I can't stay there I'm going to find somewhere I can stay because I am convinced I need my medication upped I am and have been depressed seriously depressed for far too long. It seems I'm either really down or really up even on mood stabalizers and anti depressants so it's time to seek some help so I don't know how long I'll be gone but when I get back I'll come on asap. I'll miss you all here at dt. Please pray for me. I need all the help I can get. Thank you. Bettyboop

Hello Bettyboop,

I'm so sorry that you are having such a difficult time right now. I do know that you are not alone. I have wanted to visit sooner, but I've been having terrible trouble just staying awake long enough to post in my own journal. But I did manage to get there today.

You know, when kids hit that age from 12-14, they start to change and become more independant. It's not always nice or fun, but it's a necessary part of their maturing I guess. So try to be a little more pateint with your son, and a bit more understanding. He is bound to step on some toes and hurt some feelings right now. That doesn't make it right or acceptable. And you have every right to let him know when he is being rude and/or disrespectful. Otherwise he will never learn either.

I don't know if it will help you or not, but if you could just take one aspect of your life, and try to focus on that, it might help you to make the necessary adjustments in the other aspects that need help. Focusing on one thing at a time can be very helpful in stressful times.

It can also be very helpful to have a little hobby to take your mind off other things. I like to knit and crochet, and I find that very relaxing and helpful in many ways. It keeps my hands busy, and so away from my mouth most of the time. It was a great help when I quit smoking 2 years back, and now I am using it to help me lose weight also. It is something to keep me busy and my mind off of eating as well. Maybe you would like to give it a try. I do know one thing, it can't hurt.

I will stop back again as soon as I caN. Until then, I hope you don't give up on yourself. It's very important that you take good care of yourself. Be kind to you, and do something nice for you. Maybe that will go a little way to make you feel a little better.

One thing you should never think is that you are not good enough. You are a good woman, and you have every right to be proud of yourself in every way. You need answer to no one but yourself. So hold your head high and walk tall. Think positive, act positive, and in the end your life will be positive. That's a fact!

Take care now. Enjoy your weekend.
Sandie

Hi everybody, glad to be back! I did go to the crisis center and I stayed all of last weekend and came home Sunday. I had Sherie spend the night and we had a clean up party and I got my floors cleaned up some and the counters too. So that made me feel better. Then we went shopping on Monday come to find out I could fit into 20's woo hoo! So I bought the jeans and a top and got myself some flowers to celebrate. I did make the mistake of having one of her starburst candies.. they are chewy candies and a tooth broke in half on it :c( UGH! So I called my dentist and boy was I lucky he could fit me in the next day! So yesterday I got my tooth fixed in less than an hour and it didn't even hurt so I decided to surprise my son and go visit him.. I picked him up from school and took him shopping and he noticed that I was looking fitter :) took him to Thai food and I had two steamed spring rolls made with rice spinach and tofu wrapped in rice paper .. very good. He loved his noodles.. then I got him some Disney sheet music for a solo .. he's doing a competition for a solo on his Alto saxophone. I hope we got the right music. In my opinion I think the music ought to be assigned otherwise how do we know what is right and what isn't for our kids???
Anyway he was excited about that so then I had to take him back home.. he still had some math homework and I wanted him to have plenty of time for that and to practice the music we got.. besides I am going to see him this weekend when he comes down for a visit. If he comes down because something is wrong with my car now and I can't go pick him up so I'm counting on my ex to come through for me and he never has so far so I am doubtful it will happen now... we'll see I'll call right after I finish this journal entry to let them know. That would be disappointing if Brandon couldn't come.
Anyway, the crisis clinic did a world of good for me I was able to see a councellor who put my head back on straight and I got my sleep schedule back on track and now I feel full of hope and I have a game plan for the future.
Wow today I got so much done! Don't you just love days like that? I went to my intake appointment at the councelling center I signed up to get into and I got a letter mailed off and went to my councelling appointment and I went to Social Security and got my paperwork filled out.. the only thing that didn't work out was a girlfirend I was supposed to meet for lunch decided she'd rather go see her boy friend instead and I waited for her for an hour and a half because it is a 44 mile trip round trip that is. She came walking up to my car with her boyfriend and remembered that we were supposed to have lunch and invited me to stay for dinner but I had a doctor appointment I had to make so I had to decline only to find out that my doctor appointment was supposed to be in my hometown and not the city office.. so that is too bad tomorrow I'll have to reschedule. I told my friend that I understood that she wanted to spend more time with her honey but if you make plans with me at least call first to let me know things have changed, she just said she had changed her mind instead of having lunch with me she wanted to have lunch with him and I thought she was having dinner with him and she said she was but she could cook for me too. I was miffed. Well whatever. I just don't feel very important to her right now is all.

Well gotta go call my son.. peace to everyone. Bettyboop:wave:

:wave:
Betty,
Sorry things have been going so bad for you! I know I haven't been seeing you around in diettalk much and wanted to come in to check and see how your doing..Know you have friends in here that's cheering you on! I finally started me a journal the first of the year and it's been alot of fun and I've met alot of friends that cheers me on to keep going on my weight loss journey. Hope you have brighter days ahead! YOU GO GIRL, on dropping those pants size!!!!:dn Isn't that s-o-o-o encouraging?????

~Come on over for a vist my friend!

Hello Bettyboob, I'm sorry you are having such a rough time but just hang in there and look to God he is the only one who can see us through. Depression is such a hard thing to deal with and teenagers they can both make ya nuts. I know I've have both but there are some very good medications out there now to help you hope everything gets better soon. Ruthieb

:hug: I am doing way better now! Today my son comes home for the three day weekend so I can't wait to see him! WOO HOO! :) I just went to fitday.com to enter in everything I've eaten today and I like what I see.. it's only 3 but I still have half of my calories left for the day so I know I'll be ok. The only thing I wonder about is where they are coming from.... whether I should be eating carbs or protein.. I'm still educating myself on nutrition and what is working for other people.

I'm planning on going in to a Weight Watchers meeting with my friend Anne this coming Wednesday and I'm really looking forward to it. I hope that will be my answer. The points system looks to be interesting.. I do try to use fitday as much as I can but I know I haven't been religious about it because sometimes I just can't remember everything and I'm bad about bringing a pad of paper with me everywhere I go and writing down every morsel.. and arent those morsels hard to figure out calorie and nutrition wise? I just do my best but I know it's not the best I could be doing. It's just too damn complicated!

Calories Eaten Today
source grams cals %total
Total: 1121
Fat: 32 287 26%
Sat: 12 112 10%
Poly: 0 3 0%
Mono: 1 13 1%
Carbs: 191 686 63%
Fiber: 20 0 0%
Protein: 29 115 11%
Alcohol: 0 0 0%
Calorie Breakdown

Fat Carbs
Protein Alcohol



Today's Foods
Food Name Servings Serving Size Cals Fat Carb Prot
Weight Loss Shake-Safeway Brand serving 230 2 46 10
Banana, raw cup, NFScup, mashedcup, slicedoz yieldsslicesmall (6" to 6-7/8" long)extra small (less than 6" long)medium (7" to 7-7/8" long)extra large (9" or longer)large (8" to 8-7/8" long)linear inchQuantity not specified 138 1 35 2
Milk, cow's, fluid, 2% fat cupfl ozschool milk carton (1/2 pint)Guideline amount per fl oz of beverageGuideline amount per cup of hot cerealGuideline amount per cup of cold cerealQuantity not specified 121 5 12 8
Light Microwave popcorn butter flavor-Safeway Brand serving 300 13 45 5
Coffee, Cuban fl oz 52 0 13 0
Mud Pie icecream-Safeway Brand serving 280 12 40 4
Totals 1121 32 191 29









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Here's what I've had so far and it's almost 4 pm now.. I'll have some homemade chicken soup for dinner and hopefully get the calories close to what they really are.. but I gotta tell you guestimating scares me because I could be way off and not even realize it. especially in the spice dept. when I cook I just add some of this and some of that I don't measure and I need to but even if I did measure it wouldn't be right because when I make my soups I make enough to freeze some and then have several servings so there's no telling how much is in each individual serving unless you wait to spice individual bowls and I don't want to do that because then it wouldn't be ready to eat for my teenager when he's hungry he'll heat things up but forget about spicing if it doesn't taste good he wont eat it... you know how that goes.

Well off to see how you gals are doing I am sure I have a lot to catch up on ... glad to be here and glad to be part of this network of friends. God bless you all and let us all meet our goals for ourselves and have some fun along the way!!!!!:cheers:

Hi Betty,

I thought I'd get around and meet some new people. I'm Darlene. Nice to meet you.

I read some of your journal and much of it sounds painfully familiar. Those are some terrible feelings you were dealing with.

Sounds to me like the crisis center was the ideal thing for you. Way to go on having the courage to go.

I'm so glad you're feeling better.
I take it things are now better with Anne? I hope all is well.

I hope everything goes well with your son. You never know, he may just miss you. Bu of course he'll never let on. Oh no, that might make it seem like he cares, can't have that now can we ;)

I found that children of devorce start rebelling against the custodial parent at that age, but after a short time, up to about two years, they come back with a new respect for their parent. (usually the mom) So, son't worry to much about him, he'll come around, just give him some time.

Well, have a great night and way to go on dopping pants sizes.

Darlene :hippy:

Thank you Darlene, You got me smiling! Nice to meet you. Think I'll go see whats going on in your neck of the woods if you have a journal that is. :wave:

So how ya'll doing? Good I hope. Yesterday I took a long walk to the pharmacy and my friend Annes house 45 minutes! I was sweating everywhere and my feet hurt.. so that's a good start... planning on walking to the beach soon as I'm done online and get dressed and stuff. :) Walking is good.
My son is having fun playing with his friends.. playstation stuff.
Well :D off to Fitday now.. gotta catch up. Peace everyone!

Woo hoo! I'm down another pound for a total of 20 pounds guess it's time to take my measurments again I will right after I find my measuring tape... ack.. I need to get more organized around here!:tomato: But anyway yesterday I walked to the pharmacy and to my friend Annes and it took about 45 min. and today I walked to the Library and the Post Office and that took at least 1 hour and 15 min but I could kick myself because I didn't really pay attention to what time it was exactly when I left home.. oh darn. :o so it may have taken longer.. I wish I had a pedometer that would really be nice. Some day. Well I'll be back when I know the stats. Can't wait to find out!!!!!! Happy day everyone! :curtsey: :bow: :dn

Well I'm completely baffled by my stats.. so I am thinking I better wait until after my period is over. the only stat that went down was my hips by 1/2 an inch... and some of them even looked a bit high~!:tomato: how can that be if I lost a pound??? strange. Well I'm off to Family night.. Peace out all :)

Hoo-ray Betty on that pound lost!!!!!:cheer: You go girl!!! You are going make it, girlfriend! I see you found your measuring tape.LOL!! You lost the pound in that hip, girl, down by 1/2 inch...Great!!! :dn

~hugs,

Thanks Linda! Here's my food intake today :

Calories Eaten Today
source grams cals %total
Total: 1007
Fat: 22 201 21%
Sat: 10 93 9%
Poly: 3 26 3%
Mono: 6 54 5%
Carbs: 167 602 61%
Fiber: 17 0 0%
Protein: 45 179 18%

Calorie Breakdown

Today's Foods
Food Name Servings Serving Size Cals Fat Carb Prot
Coffee(6 fl oz)mug 4 0 1 0
Banana, medium (7" to 7-7/8" long) 109 1 28 1
Diet Cola serving 0 0 0 0
Weight Loss Shake-Safeway Brand 230 2 46 10
Lasagna with meat .5 cup 380 16 39 24
Peas and carrots .5 cup 37 0 8 2
2 Roll, white, soft ...medium (2-1/2" dia) 206 4 36 6
.5 Grapefruit, raw 41 0 10 1
Totals 1007 22 167 45

well sorry if that is hard to read it was basically what I got off of Fitday but I can't make them all line up.. anyway you get the gist. I wonder how I am doing nutritionally.

I've been trying to educate myself on nutrition and at this point I cannot decide whether a low cal, low fat diet is better or a low carb is.. I guess the proof will be in the pudding. For now I'm eating what I want and recording and if I get to a certain amount of calories I'll stop. that's the plan. The only prob with this plan is maybe it's not healthy. I sort of believe that the body craves what it needs. Therefore if I want something salty my body must need sodium... maybe there is no merit to this philosophy.. I've heard too that you can be dehydrated and not feel thirsty but I don't know if that is true either. I think the best thing I can do right now is to keep on reading up as much as possible and draw my own conclusions.

Well peace to all. Have a great night!:wave:

Hi Betty,
Finally got myself out of the funk I was in and now out visiting new folks. I read some of your journal and sounds kind of familiar since I raised 3 sons. They do go through their changes and difficulties. Seemed like my sons at some time during their teenage years decided that dad was brilliant and mother was well just mother. Funny how much smarter I got as they got older. Now that they are adults I seem to be losing some intelliegence again but expect that to change in a couple of years. My oldest son seems to think I have recovered my intelligence once again. Now have to wait on the other two.

I am sorry youare having problems but good for you for the crisis clinic. Little help never hurt any of us. Also good for you on your wonderful weight loss. I know you are proud of every pound!!!!!

Well just wanted to stop and say hi and welcome to DT and the journals. Sounds like you have made yourself at home.

Have a great Sunday!!!!!!!!!!

Love and hugs,
Lizzie:) :) :)

Hi Bettyboop, Jano here. I thought I'd read some of your journal since you were kind enough to read mine. I use to work in dietetics so I know a little about nutrition...just not how to apply it to myself.
:(
Your intake looks good. How are you figuring it? I love running mine through a nutritional program to check the nutrient levels. It can be so insightful.
I congratulate you on your walking. You go girl!

Hi Lizzie and Jano thanks for stopping in! Jano I found a free site on the web thanks to Diettalk it's www.fitday.com and there I can enter in every morsel that passes these lips and also the excercise I do and walla it computes it all for me. What it doesn't do is advise me as to what I should be eating and how many calories and all...... that is mega confusing to me at this point so I'm trying to get in some reading every night until I "get it" if I ever do. LOL but I am determined to enjoy the process regardless. Well I'm off to check your journals and say hello to you because if there is one thing that I know that helps it's a few nice people in your corner cheering you on! :) Have a great day!

Hi Betty, :wave:

I noticed you had posted in Jano's Journal so I thought I would come over and say hello and WELCOME TO DIETTALK AND TO ACHIEVING YOUR WEIGHT LOSS GOALS.

Congratulations on your marvelous success ...... you have been here at Diettalk (as I see from your stats) for less than a month and you have SUCCESSFULLY LOST TWENTY GLORIOUS POUNDS ....:cheer: TIMES 20.

Each one of us uses a different weight loss plan but we all share the same goals TO LOSE WEIGHT IN A HEALTHY AND PERMANENT WAY.

Congratulations again .... and keep proving SUCCESS IS AND CAN BE ACHIEVED. Always, Monica

Hello again Bettyboop,

CONGRATULATIONS on that latest pound.........gone forever!
One pound at a time, but eventually they will all add up just as pennies do. It looks like you've pretty much got yourself together and off to a wonderful beginning.

Have another successful week my friend.
keep smiling............. :)
Sandie

Thank you so much Monica and Sandie :) That means a lot to me to have someone check in on me. Well today was supposed to be a wonderful day and it just flopped again. Ack. I ate well. I got plenty of excercise by cleaning my house but once again I counted on one of my friends who said she wanted to help me out with the housecleaning and we were going to shampoo my carpets together and I was going to help her do hers on another day because it is a rather large job for just one person.. (one out of shape person that is)8-| but you know.. I am still in shock. She ate dinner here and then said she was going on a walk and she'd be back in an hour (the min I went to do the dishes..start cleaning) so when she comes back and I'm getting the vacuuming done she sits down to read the newspaper and put her feet up!... I'd had it and I finally said something.......I said I thought you came over to help me with the cleaning and she was like I came to help you shampoo your carpet not clean your whole apt. whatever we were supposed to have a cleaning party is what I understood and when I got out of the crisis clinic same thing she came home with me saying we would clean up my messy apt together and all she did was sit on my couch and tell me what to do. some friend. I told her you know what? It's fine if you don't want to help.. it was her idea in the first place but she leaves she gets up and says she thinks I'm grumpy and she is going home.. whatever! I got a little miffed because she made juice in my brita filter container.. yes it ruined the filter what do you expect she could have asked me where my juice containers were. She's so super sensitive and it's frustrating.. heck every relationship is going to have thier ups and downs and you gotta be able to talk things out.

Well I also got a virus on my computer today :( so I have it quarantined because McAffees couldn't clean or delete it. I guess that is ok.


Calories Eaten Today
source grams cals %total
Total: 1208
Fat: 38 345 30%
Sat: 9 82 7%
Poly: 5 49 4%
Mono: 10 89 8%
Carbs: 142 503 43%
Fiber: 16 0 0%
Protein: 32 127 11%
Alcohol: 26 183 16%
Calorie Breakdown

Today's Foods
Food Name Servings Serving Size Cals Fat Carb Prot
Light Microwave popcorn butter flavor-Safeway Brand serving 300 13 45 5
2 Beers 12 fl oz 295 0 27 2
Vegetable beef soup, home recipe 231 12 15 16
2 Biscuits, plain biscuit (3" dia) 382 14 55 8
Diet Cola serving 0 0 0 0
Totals 1208 38 142 32

Here's every thing I ate today plus water. Going to try to get in a better mood.

Hello,

sorry about the spat with your friend. sometimes you could just scream when they act that way. she was wrong and should have kept her end of the deal so until she does i wouldnt help clean hers.

maybe if you dont call her and let her make the next move and an apoplogy she will get the message loud and clear of what friendship and teamwork are about.

hope you have a good day and take care.

Hi everybody. Well I've been in a funk today .. as usual.. when things go bad in my relationships I get depressed... the difference this time is that instead of eating I've used my anger and upset to clean up my house on my own and excercise. She did call and apologise to my answering machine today but I haven't been in a good enough mood to call her back yet.. going to wait until I'm a bit more relaxed about the whole thing. :(

Well I'm down 21 pounds now. Sorry if I don't sound very enthusiastic. Going to go read your journals. :wave:

Hi BettyBoop. Thought I'd stop by and say 'hi.'

As to your question about how many calories to consume? We all debate that issue here often. A former doctor of mine (and his nutritionist) suggested to me that a good guideline is to multiply your weight by 10. That is how much you can eat to maintain your weight. To lose weight, decrease the calories you eat by 500 each day and try to increase the calories you spend (exercising) to 2000 calories a week.

It is so hard losing weight. We've all banged our heads on the walls a million times. But you will find support and good advice here on DT. We've all been really low, or have binged like crazy, or have cried in our writings about our ungrateful families! Don't worry, you are not alone.

You are doing well, BB. Keep your chin up. You can do it!

Hiya, my PC at home is also getting cleaned ... DH brought the PC to the office and got one of the IT guys to look into it. Apparently, the virus ate the virus scanner so they had to wipe out the hard disk and reload everything in again. Hope yours is not as bad as mine.

Your friend doesn't sound too helpful. So what if she was to come over and help shampoo the carpet ... as a friend, doesn't she feel weird that she's relaxing while you are busy working away?

Sounds like you're doing great! From size 26 to 20 is amazing work! Good job!

Thank you Chumlette and Chinadoll! Thanks for the advice both of you. And the encouragement. I surely have been beating myself up because I feel like I have been supersensitive about things. I don't know why I expect other people to know how I am feeling. I know none of us can read minds.. but it helps once in a while if a friend at least will stop and give me a hug you know? I feel like I am the one who always has to apologize and it stinks. Well .. Thank God for diettalk.. keep talking some sense to me people! Whether people notice or not... I know I'm feeling better with 21 pounds gone.

Here's my intake today:

Calories Eaten Today
source grams cals %total
Total: 1303
Fat: 83 744 58%
Sat: 24 215 17%
Poly: 0 3 0%
Mono: 2 15 1%
Carbs: 87 297 23%
Fiber: 13 0 0%
Protein: 58 233 18%
Alcohol: 0 0 0%
Calorie Breakdown

Fat Carbs
Protein Alcohol



Today's Foods
Food Name Servings Serving Size Cals Fat Carb Prot
Chili beef soup, chunky style cupcan (19 oz), ready-to-serveQuantity not specified 96 4 8 8
Light Microwave popcorn butter flavor-Safeway Brand serving 300 13 45 5
Milk, calcium fortified, cow's, fluid, skim or nonfat cupfl ozGuideline amount per fl oz of beverageGuideline amount per cup of hot cerealGuideline amount per cup of cold cerealQuantity not specified 86 0 12 8
Coffee, NS as to type fl ozcoffee cup (6 fl oz)mug (8 fl oz)Quantity not specified 9 0 2 0
Super Luncheon Loaf ozlbgramkg 780 66 12 36
Tomato catsup cuptablespoonpacketQuantity not specified 31 0 8 0
Totals 1303 83 87 58

I don't know why but today I just wanted meat.... I did have some vegetables in the soup but mainly I wanted the meat. I didn't even want to look at a fruit.. strange. Usually I have one in the mornings.

I can't get my calories up.. what's up with that? Ever since I've been using fitday and recording I've not gotten them to 2000 I hope that doesn't stagnate my weight loss but I don't believe stuffing my face is the answer either.

I am working on getting my thirst for water up.. working on my 6th glass now at 2:12am. :c( my sleep is off again. I guess I've been way too worried about this whole cleaning incident. I have to learn how to let bygones be bygones... but I also agree with you Chinadoll.. I would have felt very uncomfortable if our situations were reversed.:(

Oh well tomorrow is a new day. I'm going to go make a list of things I need to get done tomorrow and then try to get some ZZZ's.

Here's to hoping our days tomorrow are filled with love and happiness.

21 pounds gone!!!!!!! Betty, my friend, you go GIRL!!!! Gee, if that anger keeps you that motivated, Stay angry! LOL (no just kidding, that's not healthy advice) But you did get that exercise in didn't you???
Sorry, I've been out a day or two. Grandson has been visiting and took over my computer (sigh)
Stay motivated and encouraged, my friend!!!

~We are going to succeed!:dn :dn

:D Hello Miss Traveling Journals...... Boy you get around. :lily: You must have flying fingers... Thank You so much for coming by my journal.

And 21 pounds gone .......Thats got to feel good!

Be seeing you....:hug:

:dn WOW 21 POUNDS :dn :cheer:
I'm so proud of you you are doing so well I've missed you I've had computer problems I hope they are gone for good now. Well good luck with everything and have a nice day. Ruthieb

Hello,

you sound like me and im usually the one to apologize even if im right and i hate that but i hate to be mad too.

21 pounds gone is fantastic. :ribbon:

your doing so good.

take care and enjoy your evening.

Hi there!

I'm sorry I was in a funk of my own yesterday and couldn't tell you hello and thanks for stopping by my journal. I sure hope you get to feeling better soon.

I know what you mean about the calories - I entered my food tonight at fitday and I barely hit 1000. And I felt like I ate!!! Too much even... who knows. Good luck to both of us, I too am not really willing to eat more just to bring those numbers up.

Congratulations on 21 pounds gone forever!!

:wave:

:wave: I enjoyed reading your journal and getting to know a bit about you !



.. sorry I am not here much but when I am this down and out I'm NOT moving forward. I haven't been journalling, keeping a food journal, I haven't been excercising and I haven't been losing any weight.




That was how I was feeling too

It sure meant a lot to have you stop by my journal and encourage me to keep the faith

Thanks to you all I am feeling better and grabbing onto the reins


thats what friends are for huh


I hope I can give you support too... it is easier with honest compassion and unconditional caring

I hope you have a great thursday !

I am short staffed at work but am going to make sure I take time for my friends and for me

take care till we meet again


:hug:


Peng

and congrats on the 21 pounds !!!!

:balloons:


one day at a time


together


:flower:

HI BETTY...
THANKS FOR STOPPING BY MY JOURNAL..NICE TO SEE NEW FACES.
YOU ARE DOING WONDERFUL..KEEP IT UP.
AS FOR YOUR FRIEND,I WOULD OF SAID YOU CAME HERE TO HELP ME AND IF YOUR NOT GOING TO THEN PLEASE LEAVE SO I CAN GET MY STUFF DONE THAT I HAD PLANNED TO GET DONE FOR THE DAY. MAYBE SHE WOULD OF GOT THE HINT...
I KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO HAVE TO BE THE ONE TO BUCKLE DOWN AND ALWAYS SAY SORRY..I GUESS SOME PEOPLE CAN DO THAT AND SOME CAN NOT..THATS WHAT MAKES THE WORLD GO AROUND I SUPPOSE.
GOOD LUCK IN EVERYTHING.
HOPE TO SEE YA AROUND.
LAURA.

Hi Betty,
Way to go......21 lbs gone forever and ever!!!!! You are doing great!
Sorry about that spat with your friend. She should have kept her word and helped out so don't be blaming yourself.

See ya later


Vickie:coach: :dn

WOWOWW! I had visitors galore!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!! I feel so important all of a sudden.. heheh miss traveling journals.. I like that :D well I needed inspiration! I've been trying to educate myself this week and boy.. I tell you what.. Now I understand why people have dedicated thier careers to this stuff.. because it takes a while to understand and learn it!

I've added a multivitamin in the morning with calcium and iron because after journalling consistently with Fitday I've come to the conclusion that I'm not getting all my vitamins and minerals as God intended so I better make do! You know what they say an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure!

Ok.. I also read that during the winter months the sun may not be strong enough to give us our daily dose of vitamin c even if we are out in the sun for 20 minutes which is normally enough. So they recommend that we be sure to get our fair share by choosing a calcium supplement that contains vitamin D or by consuming vitamin D-fortified foods, such as milk or fortified cereals.

Well I ate that luncheon meat again today which caused my fat to be so high yesterday even though my calories were low... that can't be good.. but at least it's all gone now. I just had an overwhelming craving for it...Next time I wont get that stuff.. I'll get something leaner like ham...turkey.. or something.:tomato: Here is my intake for today:


Calories Eaten Today
source grams cals %total
Total: 1724
Fat: 85 761 45%
Sat: 24 217 13%
Poly: 1 12 1%
Mono: 2 20 1%
Carbs: 174 628 37%
Fiber: 17 0 0%
Protein: 80 320 19%
Today's Foods
Food Name Servings Serving Size Cals Fat Carb Prot
Super Luncheon Loaf 12 oz. 780 66 12 36
Light Microwave popcorn 1 bag 300 13 45 5
Coffee, mug (8 fl oz) 5 0 1 0
Nectarine, raw (2-1/2" dia) 67 1 16 1
Tomato juice 3 cups 124 0 31 6
Milk, nonfat 3 cups 259 1 36 25
Chicken soup 1 cup 75 2 9 4
Honey Nut Cheerios 1 cupg 115 1 24 3
Totals 1724 85 174 80

Hi Betty -

Hope you're having a good evening. I need to remember to take my vitamins but I have such a hard time with it for some reason. Maybe if I put them with my BCP's, I might remember.

Stay warm!

:wave:

Hey Betty,
Those multivitamins while dieting, I feel is very important to be taking. The ones I take have calcium, iron and zinc in them also.
Girl, you have did some studying, haven't you????
You are doing so good with everything! Keep it up!!!!!

~friends,:cheer:

Hi Betty!!

I found you!! :D Thanks for stopping by my journal. Love to meet new people.

Your doing great and 21# gone forever!! :tongue:arty: You can do it and glad your learning a lot. Took me awhile to learn everything and it definitely isn't easy to get started but after awhile you just cruise along!

Take care and hope things between you and your friend get worked out!

Hello Bettyboop, Well sounds like you are doing a great job I'm so happy for you. You are getting things done maybe it won't be long before I can tell you about my 21 pound loss. Well wanted to drop in while my computer is working hope you have a good weekend. So stay healthy and eat healthy and drink water to be healthy. Ruthieb

Thought I might try a color today because I'm feeling happy and excited! I'm down another pound! 22 pounds GONE FOREVER!:dn Diettalk is starting to become a way of life for me! That and Fitday. Oh you people just bring me up! I love all of you! I hope you are having success on your journeys too! I am going to go do another video and then come back to post some more because with all this energy I better not waist it posting.. I mean it wouldn't be a waste of time to post but I do need my excercise.. you know what I mean :)eheh Here's my intake for yesterday I forgot to post yesterday I was just too tired from walking and collapsed on the couch.. ouch got a kink in my shoulder today from that!:tomato: I have to remember to take it easy because I know myself it's easy to overdo it and then do nothing for 2 weeks... and then start back at square one or worse!.....
:tomato: so anyway! I'll be back, and I'll visit all the journals I possibly can today because you are worth it. I am so happy to be part of diettalk .. the warmest spot on the internet. Thanks a lot for being my friends I need you guys! We can do this! You know this week I've averaged a 2 pound loss according to Fitday and that's healthy! I hope I can keep this up!


Calories Eaten Today
source grams cals %total
Total: 1242
Fat: 38 340 29%
Sat: 7 66 6%
Poly: 1 7 1%
Mono: 5 46 4%
Carbs: 208 738 62%
Fiber: 23 0 0%
Protein: 28 111 9%

Today's Foods
Food Name Servings Serving Size Cals Fat Carb Prot
Light Microwave popcorn 2 bags 600 25 90 10
Vegetable beef soup, 1 cup 231 12 15 16
Cranberry-grape 3 glasses (8 fl oz) 412 1 103 1
Totals 1242 38 208 2


k that's it for now.. Peace everyone!
:wave:

Intake for yesterday the intake I posted earlier was for the day before.. :tomato: all mixed up. My sleep is WAY off .. didn't wake up till 9PM so I've been up since then now.. here's what I had before it turned today:

Calories Eaten Today
source grams cals %total
Total: 159
Fat: 5 44 29%
Sat: 1 12 8%
Poly: 1 10 6%
Mono: 2 20 13%
Carbs: 21 77 49%
Fiber: 1 0 0%
Protein: 9 34 22%
Alcohol: 0 0 0%
Calorie Breakdown

Fat Carbs
Protein Alcohol



Today's Foods
Food Name Servings Serving Size Cals Fat Carb Prot
Chicken soup 2 cups 149 5 19 8
Coffee, 1 mug (8 fl oz) 9 0 2 0
Totals 159 5 21 9

way to go Betty you wouldn't think that 22 lbs would make that big a difference wow 3 sizes down. How long did it take you? Keep it up you will get there.

See you lighter
Linda

Hello Bettyboop :wave:

:coach: CONGRATULATIONS on the 22 lbs gone forever! That's quite the accomplishment! You must be so proud of yourself, and justly so too.

I must apologize for taking so long in getting here, but eventually I made it.

I posted a link in my journal where you can go and read about how important water is to your system, and where you can find out how much water you actually should be consuming each day. But since I'm here, I will give you the link now and you can go and check out the information. I am certain it is going to be a real eye opener. The link is .........http://www.brita.com/003i.html

Check it out kiddo.

Have a good weekend now.
keep smiling ................... :)
Sandie

Hey Betty,
Just stopping in to say howdy. You are going strong.......congratulations!!!!
My sleep is all messed up too. Wish I could work dayshift so I could get up with normal folks and go to sleep with normal folks.....lol
Have a great Sunday!!!!


Vickie:coach: :dn

Hi again everybody and thanks for the website Sandielynne I will check it out after posting. I am about to go to bed now. I have managed to not only stay awake for 24 hours but I have vacuumed my house done the dishes mopped the floors done alllllllllll the laundry mega loads.. and shampooed my carpets. I also got to spend most of the day with my folks where we played Mexican Train.. so much fun..and had lunch and dinner together. They are leaving tomorrow for a 10 day ski trip to Canada. Mission Ridge. Sounds like such a blast.. were that I was in shape and had the money I'd go in a heartbeat! Supposed to have gotten a lot of snow up there. Anyway I'm sure they will tell me all about it. Well I went overboard on the calories today:tomato: but at least I ate healthy and got PLENTY of excercise.. I did not one but 2 aerobic videos as well.. Sweating to the Oldies and Sweating to the oldies part II.. 2 hours of sweating! Boy did my shower feel good!:D So I'm sure I burned them off.. I find that I am sweating a lot more these days I guess it means that I am burning off some calories but it sure is annoying. Oh I did take an hour long nap at one.. I just collapsed after the shampooing so my dad finished the job for me. NICE DAD! GOOD DAD.... :) I'm very lucky to have such caring parents.

Here's my intake for today and Now I must go see that water site and hit the hay. I'm setting the alarm for 8am every morning no matter what time I go to bed in the morning.. NO MORE LOST DAYS!

God bless us all!

Calories Eaten Today
source grams cals %total
Total: 2037
Fat: 77 695 34%
Sat: 18 162 8%
Poly: 29 262 13%
Mono: 25 222 11%
Carbs: 271 999 50%
Fiber: 21 0 0%
Protein: 81 324 16%

Food Name Servings Serving Size Cals Fat Carb Prot
Peanut butter and jelly sandwich 331 15 42 11
Milk, nonfat cup 173 1 24 17
Cranberry-grape cup (8 fl oz)fl oz 274 0 69 1
Coffee, 3 mug (8 fl oz) 14 0 3 1
Women's One Daily multivitamin 0 0 0 0
Oatmeal, made with milk 236 6 33 12
Raisins 44 0 11 0
Clams, raw 42 1 1 7
Pasta, 75 1 14 3
Tomatoes, sun dried 160 11 17 4
Walnuts (14 halves) 185 18 4 4
Cheese, Feta crumbled 40 3 1 2
Mixed salad greens, 9 0 2 1
vinegar and oil 2 tablespoon 140 16 1 0
Peas, green 55 0 10 4
Bread, sour dough 2 small slice 82 1 16 3
Orange juice, 4 oz. 56 0 14 1
Mushrooms, raw 2 0 0 0
Cheese, cheddar 45 4 0 3
Onions, young green, chopped 3 0 1 0
Cheese, cottage, lowfat (1-2% fat) 41 1 2 7
Pears, canned 29 0 8 0
Totals 2037 77 271 81

Hi Betty Boop
Congratualtions on your doing so well. I didn't get to read all your postings i just got to far behind in the two months i was away. Nice to see so many new faces but i have my work cut out i've been trying but man it's hard i've spent about four hours a day here the last few days trying to catch up. I love chat so anytime someone is there i'm there or try and be.
Don't worry about the boy better days to come he's in the love hate years The love years come back to stay. they learn to respect you and you them. It only gets better. Believe me i raised three boys. And a nephew that his mother couldn't handle. Funny i found if you respect them they respect you. Anyway good luck in all aspects of life.

See you lighter
Linda

LOL I like your signature Linda, See you lighter. That's good.

Hey there Nanny. Two sweatin video? Wow, you go girl.

You'r doing great. This year is going to see so many of us succeed.

Keep it up, but first, get some sleep. Holy cow! 24 hours???
How do you do it?

Have a good one.

Darlene :hippy:

Hi Ms. Boop!
Just wanted to stop by and say hi 'cause you're so sweet for stopping by my journal so often.

You are such an inspiration! I need to ge with the getting up early thang and get my sweat on!

Hope you're having a nice weekend.

Tracy

Hey hey I'm a monkey...heheh:D I'm having a great day today!!!!! YAY!.. hehe.. anyway ...(can't help it) todays just a rhyming kinda day, eh? ok well ...hmm where to start.. I woke up at 5:30 am and got up.. made coffee and was hungry so I made a bag of popcorn and went into fitday to record it then I found myself in diettalk chat... that was fun.. chatted for a while and met Judy2, boblin, and reva... it was my first chat.. that was fun. And informative, got some tips on how to cook with less fat so that was very helpful!!!!!:dn So then I was motivated to get off my duff.. so far I've done 46 min of aerobics and about to start another date with Richard (simmons that is) LOL;) So far I've done the Stretching to the Classics and the Sweating to the oldies Tape one today now I'm going to try Sweating to the oldies Part III. So far II is my fave but I haven't tried this III one yet. I'm excited!:cheer: I have SOOOOOOO much more energy than I had a week back.
Using fitday has helped me in so many regards... not just in counting calories.. but in seeing where they are coming from and getting educated nutritionally.. now I have set goals for myself nutritional goals not just weight loss goals. And if I see that my diet is low in calcium I'll go have a glass of nonfat milk. Or if my body needs magnesium I will be sure to have some Oatmeal ... etc etc. I am going to start eating a much wider variety of foods now because that is a main goal of mine to get healthy!!!!!!!! I feel sooooooooo much better. This morning Oh I forgot to tell you this morning when I woke up at 5:30 I had set my alarm for 8am .. I couldn't stay in bed!!!!! I had gone to bed after 10pm would you believe it? I had been awake 25+ hours!!!!!!! And not just awake.. kicking butt awake... getting things done awake... not lying around awake.

Anyhow.. I feel as though I'm just rambling, walking on air but I have been visiting journals today on my breaks from eating, trips to the girls room because I've already drunk 120oz of water.. I know prob too much but I have been so thirsty with all this sweating and I figure it's good for me and it fills me up.. no worries though I have been eating decently as well I just don't want to report my intake until the end of the day.. what I would like to do now is include quotes from people that I have seen here on diettalk that have moved me so that I have it all here in my diary to refer to when I need the inspiration I hope you don't mind I do this with the upmost respect for you all and I hope you feel flattered if you find yourself quoted herein:

BE GOOD TO YOURSELF ... EACH ONE OF US HAS THE ABILITY TO SUCCEED. LOSING WEIGHT IS SOMETHING WE CAN ACHIEVE ONE DAY AT A TIME ... ONE MEAL AT A TIME

SUCCESS IS AN ACHIEVEMENT THAT IS NOT ACHIEVED IN ONE DAY OR ONE WAY .... BUT IN MULTIPLE DAYS AND MULTIPLE WAYS .... YOU CAN AND WILL SUCCEED ... BELIEVE IN YOURSELF

IN ORDER TO SUCCEED YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE -- AND I BELIEVE I WILL SUCCEED IN ACHIEVING MY WEIGHT LOSS GOALS

SUCCESS IS OURS FOR THE MAKING ...... WE WILL ALL SUCCEED .... I know it AND YOU KNOW IT AS WELL

I kept waiting for someone to do something; then I realized that I am someone.

each day on this earth is a gift ..... TO BE ENJOYED ..... TO BE THANKFUL ..... AND MINE TO BENEFIT FROM

THERE IS NOTHING YOU AND I CAN'T DO .... WE HAVE TO MAKE OUR COMMITMENTS, OURSELVES A PRIORITY AND WE HAVE TO BELIEVE IN OURSELVES ... because we ARE IMPORTANT, WE COUNT

Be good to yourself and BE GOOD TO THOSE YOU LOVE

NOTHING IN LIFE IS EASY ... AND IF IT IS .. BE WARY

EACH DAY IS LIKE A PAGE IN THE BOOK OF OUR LIFE ... how we fill that page ONLY WE CAN DETERMINE the positives or negatives we make for that day Be good to yourself, stop and smell the roses and treat yourself like royalty.

WE HAVE THE ABILITY TO MAKE EACH WAKING HOUR OF EACH DAY WHAT WE WANT IT TO BE

Our future successes CAN AND WILL BE OBTAINED BECAUSE WE ARE FOCUSED AND COMMITTED TO OBTAINING THEM.

My resolutions are,

1- I will eat healthy food choises and portion sizes.
2- I will exercise everyday if possible
3- I will be kind and gentle with myself.
4- I will think possitive thoughts to replace the old negative ones.
5- I will be more patient
6- I will use fitday and diettalk to journal my food/feelings.
7- I will educate myself in Nutrition so that I will eat healthy.
8- I will go to councelling and learn how to face my fears. Deal with my depression.

My goal is to be healthy, fit and more visually attractive (to me as well as others)

IF YOU WANT TO LOSE IT!!! YOU'VE GOT TO MOVE IT!!!!!!

"If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call 'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down."
-- Mary Pickford

I'm walking on sunshine!

"Let us endeavor to live that when we come to die even the undertaker will be sorry." Mark Twain

Treat yourself as if you are already what you want to become...


It does not matter how slowly you go, so long as you do not stop.
Confucius

I have to do this. I need to do this. I have many reasons for doing this.
I want to be slim. For once in my life, I want to feel sexy. I want men to look at me with interest, even if I'm not interested. I want to feel attractive. I want to be noticed for something other then the rolls of fat.
That is why I'm going this. I deserve it too. i think I have a great personality, I should have a great body to match.

ok, I'm ready to go face my day.

I hope you all have a healthy, fun and happy day. Make this day count. We are all worth it.

The difference between winners and losers...Is winners do what losers don't want to do. Dr. Phil

I will be a good girl and do what I need to do to rid myself of this bondage. The fat shakels.

each minute is a new start if you look at it......

So you don't have to wait until a actual new day to get back on track

"What's important is not necessarily where you are, but in what direction you are going." Oliver Wendel Holmes

" When it comes to eating, you can help yourself more by helping yourself less" Richard Armour

The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one." Elbert Hubbard

The biggest factor in your success is you.
"We are all beginners, starting fresh each day." Shelly Lucan

Eleanor Roosevelt said: "Nobody can make you feel inferior without your permission."

*It is fatal to enter any war without the will to win it.
Every morning prepare your mind for battle and know you CAN win because YOU are in charge of who wins the war.

I will drink my water FOR ME

I feel strong.
I am strong
I will succeed
Nothings gonna stand in my way
I will do what I need to do to make this work.
I will purge myself of negativity
I will over come my lack of self esteem and replace it with a power that I know does exist deep within me.
I will reach out to others in my time of need.
I will be here for others in there time of need
I will be free of the bondage of food.

I will be slim
I will feel sexy
I will feel attractive
I will build my confidence
I will feel the power that these success will bring.

I'll make it to the moon if I have to crawl

Well take care everybody and hope to meet some more of you Awesome people right now in the excercise chat.. I'm going to go in for my second chat today.. it was really fun this morning.. I'm looking forward to it! Peace everybody! Have a fabulous day and evening!

Hi there Bettyboop ~

That was a very motivational read. You sound so full of joy and excitment about your weight loss journey, and that's wonderful.

It was great chatting with you. In case you didn't realize it, I host a chat at 1:30 pm EST every weekday. You are more than welcome to come and join us. We would love to have you.

hugz,
Sandie

Ok Sandielynne I'll try to be there Tomorrow!:D Thanks for the invite!

Hey Betty...congratulations on losing 6 pant sizes, 22 pounds and perspiring more in your workouts, which is a sign of fitness. Your body knows you are working and it is responding properly. Remember when you started out exercising...I bet you didn't perspire the first few times until you got used to it. Go girl!

Hi Betty boop

Isn't it nice to be high on life. I get like that to when i lose weight if only i could stay there longer than i do. anyhow congrats your doing great. Keep up the great work. See you in chat.

see you lighter
Linda

Had a fantastic, tubular, wonderful, fabulous (you get the picture) kind of day yesterday and woke up with a great dream that I didn't want to wake up out of... I was 17 and in love and sexy.. ahhh well.. I'll get there again.. maybe not quite the same but similar :o God willing! Well yesterday I bounced around the house to the Richard Simmons videos and all in all got in 61 minutes. And here's my intake for yesterday and I was focussed primarily on eating healthy .. but alas according to fitday no matter what I couldn't get enough Magnesium even with taking a vitamin suppliment and researching the web anyone got any bright ideas for me today?? They would be much appreciated!

Calories Eaten Today
source grams cals %total
Total: 1758
Fat: 40 363 22%
Sat: 7 62 4%
Poly: 6 57 4%
Mono: 4 40 2%
Carbs: 258 889 54%
Fiber: 36 0 0%
Protein: 95 382 23%

Today's Foods
Food Name Servings Serving Size Cals Fat Carb Prot
Light Microwave popcorn 1 bag 300 13 45 5
Cranberry-grape juice (8 fl oz) 137 0 34 0
Coffee mug (8 fl oz) 9 0 2 0
Women's One Daily multivitamin 0 0 0 0
Vegetable beef soup, home recipe 58 3 4 4
Tuna, fresh, raw 6 oz. 181 2 0 39
MIRACLE WHIP LIGHT 2 tbsp 74 6 5 0
Cucumber pickles, dill 2 slices 2 0 0 0
5 seed bread 2 pieces 220 2 40 8
Milk, nonfat 1 cup 87 0 12 8
Grapefruit, raw 1/2 41 0 10 1
Raisins 25 39 0 10 0
Oatmeal, cooked, 1 cup, cooked 145 2 25 6
Mixed salad greens, raw 1 cup 9 0 2 1
Cucumber, raw 1 small 24 0 5 1
Carrots, raw 1 small baby 4 0 1 0
Bacon Ranch dressing 1 tbsp 80 9 1 0
Tea, green unsweetened 24 fl oz 7 0 1 0
Split Pea with Ham soup 1 can 340 3 60 20
Totals 1758 40 258 95

Well everybody I hope you have fantastic days and if I haven't made it to your journal in a while or ever I'm thinking about you and I will soon! It's hard to keep up with you flying finger folks! ehhe but it's fun to try! Here's to making it count! :cheers:

Hello~~

glad your doing so well. i have been having weird dreams. my dream last night was i was shooting crocodiles on the street.
Maybe im watching too much animal planets crocodile hunter. LOL

heres too making today count. :cheers:

hope your day is great.

Hey BOOPS...

Looking good Girly Girl... How can you not win at losing with a FanTab Attitude like that..... Rub cheeks they hurt from smiling:D

Hey there Betty -

I don't have to ask how you're doing, my goodness girl you make me smile. Can I borrow or share some of your enthusiasm? By the way, just wanted you to know I've started (again) keeping track of my food intake at fitday because of your posts. I need a good reminder myself.

Have a great day!

:wave:

Hi Betty,
Boy oh Boy.....your enthusiasm makes me tired...LOL!!! Keep up the good work. You are doing GREAT!!!!!


Vickie:coach: :dn

Hi BettyBoop..

Thank you for visiting my journal. I have been kinda busy and not visiting the journals as I should.. but.. Soon I will be able to visit more often.

You will achieve your personal weight loss goals as long as you keep in mind it is YOUR DECISION.. and you are doing it for YOU.. I have been on my weight loss journey for quite some time.. and had some medical difficulties that increased my weight.. due to prednisone.. but I am now back on track again.. and starting to lose.. again..

You take care and keep your goals in mind.. and keep working you will be successful..

Hugs,