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Hello, I'm Ruthieb most of you know me I have had journals here before I was not going to start this one untill the first day of the year. Then last night as I was trying to go to sleep I relizied how much my weight has effected me in the last few days. First there was Christmas day got up took my shower started to put on my clothes...my pants were tight not overly tight just enough to bug you untill they got loosened up some. Then went to my mom's when we started to have dinner I got in the line only to find out I was to fat to get around a chair to get to the plates. So I had to go to the other end of the line wait till most of the people got done and have my husband hand me a plate so I could get dinner. Only he and I knew what had just happened but it was still so awful because I knew why then we had family that had not seen me in years there and of course here I sit with my porked up self. And the worse thing is I had to go into the living room to eat so I sat in a chair that looked like it was big enough but when I went to get up I was stuck I took me about 5 min. to get out of that chair and everyone in there seen what happened but tryed to act like they did not. I'm starting my new journal now because I want to remember how bad it felt to be in that place at that time and remind myself I deserve better. I know the main thing I need to work on is making better use of my time to make sure I exercise and have my snack attacks and lunch planned out. I know I need help but now I'm figuring out what to do. Ruthieb
The FoodMover Weightloss Team--2003

I wanted to come back here while I was thinking about how to work out my time for exercise and other stuff.
I got to get this thing down so here I go...
Monday-Go to bed at 10:00
Tuesday-Get up at 8:45 ( I get up earlier than that everyday but sometimes lay back down. ) 9:00 exercise 10:00 Wayne Brady Show 11:00 The View 12:00 Lunch 1:00-3:00 free time to clean make phone calls take my shower. 3:00-4:00 spend some time with husband 4:00 Tradeing Spaces 5:00-6:00 Read my Bible get my lessons ready 6:00-7:00 have dinner 7:00-10:00 free time for computer and etc...
Weds- The same time frame as Tuesday from 8:45 till 5:00 get ready for church then from 8:30-10:00 have dinner and computer time ( but will stay up till 10:30 because at 10:00 40 dollars a day comes on )
Thursday-Same as Tuesday but work in a chat for the foodmover team sometime that night.
Friday-Same
Sat. & Sunday---???This is when I see my son the most so I spend time with him on those days. Through the week he has school and homework I see him but he is usually busy.
Ruthieb

Hi there Ruthie :wave:

I gather during one of those time frames for yourself is when you will fit in your exercise? I hope things work out for you as planned. It would make it much easier for you if they did.

I'm so sorry about the incident during dinner at Xmas day. It was probably a situation that your mind put more significance to what happened than anyone else did, but one of those things we find hard to shake off too.

I have no doubt that you can and will succeed. Stay focused and remember that you can do anything you want to if you are determined enough to fight to the finish.

I wish you well and total success.
Sandie

Hi Ruthie,

I'm so sorry about what happened on Christmas Day. I have had those types of moments too and they hurt so much. You said you want to remember it. Well remember it is the first entry into your journal so if you ever need to look back, it'll be there as a reminder as to why your doing this.

The next family gathering, you'll wow them at all the weight you've lost.

We can do this Ruthie. Really we can.

Together.

One day at a time

One pound at a time.

Darlene :hop:

Ruthie, I can so relate to how you felt at Christmas because I felt that way myself this Christmas. As hard as it was I posed for a picture and had it framed and gave that to everybody this year because I seldom get pictures taken and I was afraid if my brother came out to visit he wouldn't recognise me anymore :( And it's high time..it was so hard for me to do. I stood next to my christmas tree wearing a bright purple sweater with sparkles in it and I felt and looked like a big giant christmas ball.:( I hope that this time next year this is all a distant memory and next year we can both celebrate Christmas with love and happiness and no more worries! If we can keep on trying, stay focused on our goals we'll get there. I've added you to my buddy list and hope you will add me to yours and if you see me online and would like to chat I would love that! I hope we get to know and support each other better here on diettalk. I'm glad I found this site! I'm learning a lot and getting inspired! I don't know when all the scheduled chats are on but I'm sure I'll figure it out soon. I haven't tried the chat yet but I think it will be fun. Well you have a great day tomorrow and thanks for the warm welcome.. thanks for visiting my journal. Bettyboop :)

If it going to be it is up to me.
This is the year I lose 70 pounds learn to let it go and let God quit sweating the small stuff because the reward comes in Heaven see God's work everytime I open my eyes. I quit grinding my teeth let go of anger and depression live my life in a closer walk with God. This is going to be a GREAT year!!! Ruthieb

Oh yeah it is! I feel the same way..no more excuses. I'm like the Nike commercial.."just do it" ... I've had enough of the pain!
Enough of the reasons why.. everybody has reasons... I just want the solutions and I am going to do the work! I feel so good right now. I feel ten times better than I did on the 24th when I made this commitment... I'm amazed what a difference just 4 days has made to me.. I wonder what I'll feel like when a whole week goes by! I will know in three more days! I'll letcha know:D I hope you are having an excellent night. Bettyboop

Hello Ruthie,

I am so sorry about x-mas and how you felt but think of it as your wake up call. it happened to me in march when i went clothes shopping(finally had money to shop) and i wasnt dieting then or even thinking about it and i discovered all the clothes i wanted were too small and the ones i could get were ugly and with elastic bands. i was os upset. i had pictures developed and i looked like i was inflated with a tire pump. it was a turning point in my life.'
i have been slacking with the holidays and all but i think this will be a good yr and i vow to lose the 66 pounds i need to lose.
we can do this. i too need to let go of the guilt and stop making excuses. i need to lose this weight too. it hurts to feel this big. it is embaressing at times but you are a wonderful person insdie so always remember that.
you will do great.
take care and talk to you soon.

Hey Ruthie!:rose: How's it going? It's late Sunday night. I'm in the middle of a workout with weights.. but I have to take breaks or I'll overheat....I'm like an old Chevy LOL:tongue: Not for long tho!I hope you had a great day.. can't wait to hear about it!

Bettyboop

Well here it is 2003 I'm starting this year with a new out look on things. It is time for me to grow up accept what needs to be accepted. This last year has been a bear for me well the last few months I've battled depression it has been over family issues not with my husband and son, but mother and etc... But I've got to accept things for what they are not what I wish they were. But enough of that depressing stuff...LET'S GET ON WITH LIFE ALREADY!!!
What is it that I want to get done this year...
1.Get healthy
2.Help my family get healthy...Get my son ready for football.
3.Exercise
4.Be all that I can be...as a person, as a friend, as a parent, as a wife, and as a Christian.
Ruthieb
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Minnie, You are so right this is a wake up call...and this time I'm gonna listen. Happy New Year!!!
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Betty, Happy New Year!!! was it a great one for you? For me it was me, my dog and Dick Clark. My husband was with the youth at church untill 1:00 the dog did not seem to excited about any of it though. lol
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Ruthieb

I have to learn to put God first in everything I try to do in life and not try to take on everything myself. Because I have learned that when I try to take it all on myself I'm unable to make to get through it by myself. With God all things are possible...ALL THINGS!!! I need to remember this no matter what. Also I need to remember to listen to God more so I will know where he wants me to go in my life. Ruthieb

i've done really good today with my eating so I'm happy about that and exercise I did not get in today but I will tomarrow. Ruthieb

Ruthie...you can take control and lose the weight you want. Next year at Christmas time you will be whipping around the buffet, fitting in between all little cracks and spaces in the crowd. What kind of plan are you going to use to start? Are you going to count calories, exercise, what is your plan? As usual at this time of the year, I need to lose 15-20 pounds...I was close to goal at the end of October. GRRHHH...Time to get back to basics. I will be here to cheer you on as you reach your goal. Take care.

Ruthie,
I'm glad I found your journal and thank you for visiting mine and posting in my journal !
I've read about what happen to you at Christmas and I'm so sorry, you had to experience embarrassment.
I know you will WIN on your weight loss journey! Here you have friends to cheer you on and understand your struggles for we have those moments as well and we understand...You can do this, girl !!! Here's a few of us cheering you on!!!:cheer: :cheer: :cheer:

YOU GO GIRL!!!!!!

Ruthie,

Here's an oldie but goodie. It as gotten me out of many scarpes. I just need to remember it more often too.

The serenity prayer

God grant me the serenity to accept the thing I cannot change
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.

Huggs

Darlene :dn

Good for you Ruthie ~

Believe me, a positive attitude will take you farther than you would imagine. Keep up the good work with eating right and moving more, and you can't possibly NOT lose........LOL

Take care sweetie,
Sandie

Hello Ruthie,

well i wanted to tell you that you too are a good friend to me and i enjoy talking with you.
we can do this. this yr will be our yr of success. we just need the faith.
theres nothing we cannot do or control.
and you are right, putting God first makes life easier as he is always with us.
you always can count on me for support. i will be there for you.
take care and enjoy the weekend.

I have come to understand for me to get what I want out of life I need to realize I'm not losing this weight to prove to someone I can. I'm doing it because I need to get healthy so I can work on other issues in my life. I'm 37 years old I want to paint and do art I may never sell a peice of it but I enjoy iy and that all that matters. I want to lose 73 pouns this year so I will feel like taking part in my life more. I want to hike I want ot sing from the MT. tops I want to enjoy my own family I want Christmas next year about a celerbration of God and his love for us. I can not let my mom hurt me anymore if I want to stay healthy mentaly. I know this sound selfish but my life needs to be about me for once in my life. I love my mom but I can not let her distroy me in the process of her crazy things she does. ENOUGH OF THAT ALREADY!!!

Artsy--You are right I will look beeter next Christmas and I will enjoy it on my terms and if I weigh just 200 pounds by then at least I'll be 73 pounds lighter and will have 2004 to lose the rest. I know there will be some people who will still say I'm fat and they will be right but at least I won't be as fat as I was and that is good. Ruthieb

Sorry I hit the button before I was done

LindaH, Thanks for stopping by and cheering me on you are right this is the year of all good things for all of us...we will win.

Darlene--I've used that prayer more than you know for a lot of different reason and it is so true.

Sandielynne--You to are a cheerleader for me and someone who seems to always know what to say to me. I will do it this year!!!

Minnie--Your right we always have to put God first if we really want something to work. God has never let us down because everything good in my life God has given to me so he will stand beside me through this. Ruthieb

Welcome I come here today a little down but the eating is going good I always get freaked out the day before Church because I have to come up with ideals for Childrens Church most of the times.
My goal today is learning that all the little things in your life do help form who you are and your mood for the day. Ruthieb

Just stopped in to give you a big :hug:

Take care my friend

Darlene :dn

Hello Ruthie,

Im glad to see you are going to put yourself first. that is very important.
I for one always put everyone else and there needs first and let myself go in health and everything until finally i had enough. for a long time i felt guilty whenever i would do somethng for me but not anymore,. we all need to do things just for us. we deserve it too and its not selfish, its called loving ourselves for once.
so love yourself Ruthie and take care my friend. I am always with you too.

Ruthie your post about wanting to paint just for you really touched me :)

I LOVE to write and like you said I may never sell anything I write, but I still deserve to be able/allowed to create this way.

Just as I can now allow myself to lose this weight JUST for me and me only!

Thank you for sharing this :)

Jade

Thanks for the reminder Ruthie. Through God all things are possible. I know when Me and my Dh get in a fight I say " LORD I GIVE THIS TO YOU" I think when I get hungry or feel like I've lost control or the fight, I will also say GOD I GIVE THIS TO YOU!

You Paint your little heart out..... Maybe I'll take up sketching again. Thanks.....

Well today my eating is good my mental outlook could be better I went to church this morning and on the way home I was wondering what I should do about Childrens Church. We had 5 this morning ages 5-11 and it was okay but you have a battle trying to keep their attention. Their is one little boy who wants to talk all the time and when you try to get them to quite down he gets up and goes back up stairs. Then one little girl who just wants to come down for the snack and go back up stairs. When I told her to stay she got mad would not talk to me for a while and you can hardly keep them from talking to get their minds back on the lesson. I'm thinking about going to church tonight and talking to someone about just getting rid of Children's Church. We really don't have that many kids any more and the ones who do come I really think just want to eat and color and talk while you try to teach them a lesson. I like Sunday School it is rewarding but Children's Church lately has not been and also I think there is someone at Church who really wants me out of things. Well I can't say 100% but it sure does seem that way and I don't want to get in to a big mess that is not what going to church is about. We go to learn about God and worship him and when you leave you should feel good about things not downhearted. I know who it is at church and I'm just going to try to stay away from her as much as possible. I talked to someone over the church about it already and they did take steps to handle it at times though this person makes me so upset enough to make me think about leaving the church. I really hate to do that to because I've made good friends there and I like the preacher I really do not know what to do about things I guess I'll just have to pray about them. But the good thing is I DID NOT COME HOME AND PIG OUT!!! I handle things in a different way and for that I think I have a right to be happy. Ruthieb

Ruthie - I use to teach and know how frustrating this can be - however I was blessed and had the parents of the kids in my class on my side. They made their kids listen to me and the kids knew if they did not their parents would "step in".

Church lady who does not care for you situation - I suggest you keep going to this church since you like it and feel you can grow from it - don't let her control ( stop ) your growth :)

Just stay away from her - even in churches there is always someone like this........sigh

Jade

Ruthie,
I'm sorry about this problem you are having w/your "Childrens Church". I agree with Jade, she has offered you advice of wisdom. Don't let this lady get to you and make you feel down emotionally or in your spirit. Keep the faith, that God will guide you through this valley in time and that you are going to come out the "Winner" through this! You are in my prayers!!!

~Hugs:hug:

Thanks Jade & LindaH
I going to check in your jonurals tomarrow but thanks for the advice. Got some big news today my little sister is going to have another baby but that is not the shock. The shock is that her ex-husband is the father I can not believe she was that stupid to get pregrant by him. I'm in shock about this right now so I'll come back tomarrow and post more. Ruthieb Eating is still going good.

Hi Ruthieb,

DO NOT ALLOW someone to force you away from the church you love and have good friends there. Just go on about your buiness and don't give that person a minute of your time. I know it is hard to do but you can do it!!

A small suggestion for Children's Church. Have some pictures printed for them to color. A picture that tells a story and have a group discussion. A picture that shows something God made and have them color the picture and talk about what the pictures says. Then have them think about other things God has made. Have them draw a picture. I wouldn't let them see the refreshments until after all the teaching is finished. Working for a reward or refreshment is also teaching patience and completing task. Maybe have childrens books they may read a story out loud and take turns reading.

My friend you have to put your self before everyone else or you are no good for anyone. All of you comes first. Loving youself is the best gift you can give to anyone. Be selfish and get those paints and get started. I also have made a committment to myself to put my wishes before anyone else. I know it sounds awful but it isn't and I am a better person for it. You already are a sweet gentle person and now you need to love you!!

Take care and have a super night!!
Love and hugs,
Lizzie

Hello Ruthie,

that is terrible about whats going on at your church. dont give in to someone who obviously doesnt belong there.

I am proud of you for not giving in to overating when feeling stressed. i havent either and thats usually what i do too but trying hard to change that.

your doing very well. hang in there and you will see wonderful results for your efforts.

take care!

Hey Ruthie,

First of all the Childrens church is so small sounds more like day care. It would be hard to teach a 5 year old what you would like to teach a 11 year old. And I speak from actually owning a 5 year old and a 11 year old, and a 13 and a 9. LOL... They are all at differant paths in life.... Gee hope that didn't sound negative!

2nd- the lady at church.... four words... KILL HER WITH KINDNESS! Don't actually Kill her..... just her attitude.

3rd Your sister... Whats done is done. We all have one in the family where we scratch our head and think WHAT THE HECK?

And hey at least your still eating good... Just remember the wrong foods just make us feel worse even though its comforting, in the end it shows up... In the end as in rear end? LOL

Soon you'll be fit and trim and ready to conquer!

Take Care .........WARM HUGS YOUR WAY!

Hi Ya'll, ( Oh no it's the hillbilly in me coming out )

Lizzie B---Minnie---Maximum

Thanks for the support ...I'm not going to leave the church she is the one with the problem not me. Your right the children's Church is like a daycare sometimes. But I'll work it out I just have to ask for God's help and then let him help me. And my sister it is a long story I'll try to get into tomarrow my Hubby want to go to bed right now. Ruthieb

Wow, Maxim,, you had some super advice.. I just found Ruthie's journal, and as I was reading, I was thinking of some of the things you wrote.. but you put them so much more eloquently.. :)

I certainly agree about the kindness issue.. and after all church is for sinners or we wouldn't need them right? so smile and be nice.

What are you doing for exercise Ruthie? I didn't see if you were walking, using videos or what? sometimes I can do crunches and leg raises during a favorite tv show.. but prefer getting out to the gym or outside..
Take care lady, and hang in there.. This is going to be a great year.

Hi there Ruthie,

Just wanted to stop by and say hello, it's been a while since I stopped in last. I hope everything is going well for you.

I have pretty much picked up the banner again, and have started running with it. I sure hope I keep going all the way this time. Let me know if you need anything, ok? I am always up for a chat any time you want to.

Sandie

Your right.... We should always give it back to him. Gosh that keeps coming up..... Maybe the lord is trying to speak to me.:o

Through him all things are possible!

Hello All, Let me start with my weightloss I've lost 6 pounds in one week!!! I've had no soda pop since the 12-31-02 so I would say that has had a lot to do with the hugh loss so fast.
As for the thing with my sister she told us this week she is 3 months pregnant...by her ex-husband. So it has been wacky and my mom pulling her crap on everyone again. But it is going to be a great weekend one way or another. Ruthieb

wanderer1--Your right she did give great advice everyone did I just need to quit letting people push my buttons. My exercise is going to be the treadmill I'm going to work up to walking 2 hours a day. We are moving it in the living room tomarrow if all goes well. Ruthieb

Sandielynne--I've been in somewhat of a busy week this past week we had our fourm chat last night it was really enjoy...hope to able to chat with you soon. Ruthieb

maximum-- AMEN you are so right!!! Ruthieb

Wow 6 pounds. i am so proud of you Ruthie. I knew you would do it.

:cheers:

i too have cut out the soda and it does help. i drink water, and if i want something else i have iced tea or diet soda in limitation and i like soy milk too for a change.

your doing so well. i am so happy for you.
i did well this week too,.
i knew this would be our year to shine.

take care and enjoy the weekend.

Ruthie - wonderful about your 6 lbs gone forever!!!! :cheer:

I agree about the no pop thing I am sure has helped as well as everything else you are doing :)

I have not been able to give it up 100% but have cut WAY back on mine.......

Jade

Hi Ruthie ~

:coach:CONGRATULATIONS on 6 lb. loss!! That's great new lady. I'm really happy for you. Just goes to show you what a difference between sugar drinks and water, yes?

I'm really pleased that your chat group got off the ground and did so well. I would have loved staying the other night and chatting with you all, but I am already a bit obligated to attend the other chat because I have been a part of it for several months now. I know you understand, but it sure would be nice to get together sometime and have a live chat.

I hope all is going well with you besides the weight loss. Don't take no crap from anyone lady! You are just as good, if not better, than anyone else you know. Remember that!

Have a great week
Keep smiling............... :)
Sandie

6 Pounds gone! Thats awesome......!:gflower:

WOW,,Ruthie!!! Way to go! 6 pounds lost! You go, girlfriend!!! I'm s-o-o-o proud of you, girl!!!!! YESSSSSSS!!!:dn :dn :dn

~your friend,

stoping by to see how you are doing ruthie :)

Jade

Hello ruthie,

hope your doing well. stopped in to say hello and to wish you a wonderful day tommorow.

Hey Ruthie,
Just stopping by to check and see how you're doing. Hope all is well!!!

:rose: Take care,,,

Good work Ruthie...congratulations on losing 6 pounds this week...what a great start!

I AM HERE!!! Sorry for not getting to everyone journals lately my computer has been doing some crazy things.
Anyway GUESS WHAT...I lost 4 more pounds that makes 10 for the year...I'm so happy :D . Well I hope everyone has a great weekend and hope to get back here soon if my computer does not freak out on me again. Ruthieb

I am so proud of you Ruthie.

great job on 4 more pounds off and 10 total.

you got the groove my friend, me too.

keep strong.

This will be our year to shine(keep saying it)

take care. * *

Wow Ruthie you sure are doing awesome! Come sit next to me and let me rub up against you maybe I'll catch the motivation bug from ya hehe :D kidding I'm already motivated because of people like you but I just wanted to say WAY TO GO! :cheers:

Ok just one question.. the pop you gave up was it regular or diet pop? I drink diet a lot but never the regular so I'm wondering.... thanks for your help. I hope it keeps on dropping off ya but that I dont find it!:D Have a fantastic day!

GREAT about your weight loss RuthieB :cheer: this is wonderful!

You ARE going to reach your weight loss goals!!!!!!!!! :D

Jade

4-pounds gone!!!!!!!!!:cheer: You go Ruthie, girl!!!!!!!!! Super job! Hope you are having better luck with your computer now.....

~Hugs,:hug:

Thats awesome on the loss. BUT did you notice the date of this post its the 22nd. WHERE ARE YOU? Is the computer on the BLINK again

Hello All, My computer has been on the outs again it is driving me crazy. Still doing good on the eating my exercise could be better though. Ruthieb

Minnie--Your right it will be our year to shine!!!

Bettyboop--Here you go girlfriend...:hop: the closest thing I could find to the motivation bug to send you...lol Oh it was regular pop I gave up.

Jade--Hey girlfriend thanks for the stop by hope you are doing well.

LindaH--How are you doing? Thanks for stopping by

Maximum--Thanks for stopping by yes my computer is so messed up right now. Hope to be for good this time.
Ruthieb

Hello,

sorry about the puter. mine acts up now and then and i go nuts when it does cuz it takes time to fix problems.

hope your doing well.

take care and talk to you soon.

Glorybe Ruthie,
You have your computer up and running again! I was beginning to get worried about you. Glad to see you have been sticking to your diet plan and doing so well! You go girl!!! We are going to WIN this battle! We have to many friends pushing us on in here for us not to...G-o-o Ruthie, g-o-o!!!:cheer:

Ruthie so sorry to hear your PC is still acting up.........sigh

WONDERFUL to hear your sticking to your plan :cheer:

I need some prayers - details are at my journal if you get a chance to read it please:

http://diettalk.com/forums/showthread.php?s=&postid=251599#post251599


Jade

I'm so screwed up right now I'm so down in the dumps I just had 6 slices of pizza. I got my son's report card today needless to say I was not happy. I just feel so empty inside right now I know tomarrow will be better ( with the food ) but I'm working on some personal stuff also. I need to revamp my life so to speak it like I don't know where I'm going but I sure know where I've been. It is not my husband or anything like that it is sort of my son and his grades. But my walk with Christ I just don't know if I'm going where I need to go I work a lot with kids but I don't know if I should be doing that anymore. Sometimes I feel like I'm not the one who should be teaching the children when I'm so mixed up myself. I know I want to be with God so it is not that but sometimes I just don't feel good enough I know that is crazy. ( but it is the way I feel ) I have a temper and a big mouth that gets me in trouble sometimes I tend to tell you how I feel about things when I should be praying about them. I just want to cry right now. Oh I lost another pound I'm 262 pounds right now. Well see ya later, Ruthieb

Hey Ruthie. I know exactly how you feel. I teach Sunday School for the toddlers and I help in children's church. Sometimes I tell them to obey their parents and in the back of my mind I'm saying, "Listen at you telling them to obey and you can't even obey what God wants you to do. Who am I to tell them how to live or act." God knows we are human and it is ok to feel how we feel. I finally realized that God knows how I feel so go ahead and tell him and don't be afraid. He will still love us. Just hang in there! The devil is trying to discourage you. Don't give up anything that you do for God because if you do you are giving in to what the devil wants. When I feel like I am not where I am supposed to be and when I feel like I am losing it, I pray and read my Bible and get my focus back on Him. He loves us no matter what! How old is your son? I know when I was in high school, I brought home bad grades because I was goofing off. Now that I am older I wish my mom had punished me or something, because going back to school is hard. I have to relearn that hard stuff all over again. Maybe he needs some tutoring or something taken away for misbehaving or goofing off.

Hang in there! I'll be praying for you!

Hello ruthie,

first may i say congrats on the loss. that is so great. :cheers:

and i am sorry your stressed over the report card. i get stressed too over things like that but know tommorow is a new day and it gets better.
i will be thinking of you. your a good person so never forget it.

take care.

Hi again Ruthie, Sorry I haven't been to your journal in a while. I hope today was a better day than the other day. I'd like to give you a :hug:
Only you know what you need the most but here is my two cents for what it is worth. I know the feeling of insecurity all too well and one thing I have learned from my councellor is that if we give up doing the things we enjoy doing then we can't help but feel worse. So if teaching this Childrens Church is something you enjoy then those kids are lucky to have you, on the other hand if you just feel disappointed and unappreciated and worn out from it maybe it's not what you need in your life? It doesn't mean that you love God any less. It would simply mean you were taking care of your needs which is what God intended. We are no good to anybody if we don't take care of ourselves first.

I'd like to share with you a passage from my Simple Abundance book I've been reading everyday as I think it's appropriate for what you are going through. Here's what it says for today:

January 25th
Working with what you've got

If your everyday life seems poor, don't blame it; blame yourself; admit to yourself that you are not enough of a poet to call forth it's riches; because for the creator there is no poverty and no poor indifferent place. ~Rainer Maria Rilke

Up until now many of us have secretly believed that we had to wait until things calmed down a bit before we started to get our acts together. Tomorrow, we'll begin discovering authentic pleasures. Tomorrow we'll treat ourselves better. Tomorrow we'll take the time to enjoy ourselves. Tomorrow, when everything calms down. This I can report from the front lines: life never calms down long enough for us to wait until tomorrow to start living the lives we deserve. Life is always movement, always change, always unforseen circumstances. There will always be something trying to grab your attention: the phone call, the child, the fax, the car breaking down, the check that never arrives in the mail. Let's just acknowledge that as far as real life is concerned, we are only one step away from dealing with dysfunction.
So what are we going to do about it? We can stop waiting for life to become perfect and start working with what we've got to make it as satisfying as we can. We can accept, bless, give thanks, and get going. Today, we can beging to call forth riches from our everyday life. Today we can move from lack to abundance. Procrastination has robbed us of too many precious opportunities. Call a friend for lunch, begin to read or even write that novel, organize your papers, try a new recipe for dinner, smile at everyone you meet, sit and dream before a blazing fire, pick up your needlepoint again, act as if you're grateful to be alive, scatter joy. Think of one thing that would give you a genuine moment of pleasure today and do it. Great! The first steps in the journey are always the most difficult to take. "Life begets life. Energy creats energy," the famous French actress Sarah Bernhardt reminds us. "It is by spending oneself that we become rich." :hug: You hav

Hey Ruthie,
I just pray that you will let God heal your hurting heart! He is there waiting for you to talk to him about what is troubling your soul..Just by reading your posts, I feel your soul is very troubled. Sometimes problems in life can seem so big and impossible to fix, weighing heavily on our hearts until we get pressed down with the load of it all...But when trails become to heavy for us and we feel like we're about to fall under the load. God comes just in time! He then takes what we cannot carry and guides us through..Give those troubles to God, Ruthie! He loves and cares about it all and so do we!!!!!

~Take care friend,

Okay I'm going to fess up spill my guts so to speak...

Here it goes this is how I feel and what happened...Well I have a temper and a big mouth somethings are going on in my family that has made me really depressed. I've had a few blow ups and have cussed when I had them. I understand different people have different views about this some people think I'm bound for hell others think I'm human what do I think I do not really know. I feel I need to be more comitted to my life and walk with God as in why do I cuss why I do not understand why I did this. I love God I want to go to Heaven that is what I'm working for I have for a long time. Because there will be no more pain and heartache there I will be at peace and I'll be with God. I know in my life things could be better if I would put for a little more effort I need to read the Bible more because I do not read it everyday and I should. It just seems like if anyone can screw things up I can and I do enjoy working with the kids but am I the right woman for the job. How can I teach them when I have these problems what I'm saying is how can I tell them not to act one way and I turn around and act another. But I think of the things Peter did in the Bible and look how God used him for his works. Linda you are so right I need to walk up to the alter and give this to God and let him help me through this.
So in my disappointment with myself I also truned to food not sweets so that is a good thing but pizza so that is not a good thing. I need to sit down and make a list out of the things I want and need to do and stick to it. I will tell you at times I feel like I am my own worst ememy I get in the way of my own good intentions. I'm not crazy folks I just sound that way right now I think it is all a growth process and I am having growing pains. But I do feel better just telling someone what I did I guess I need to confess my sin to someone but it is hard because you do not want to be judged for your mistakes. But my mistakes are many and all I can do is ask for help and prayers. As for my weight this si something I can and am going to do I will lose 62 pounds before the end of the year if I lose more great but right now I'm shooting for 62 pounds. I need to be respondable for my actions and make plans on how to handle things with out getting so upset and losing my cool. Thanks for listening to me vent. Ruthieb

Hello All, I just wanted to stop in here before bedtime I've been so sick today with my stomach and migrain headache but I'm alive. I just feel like crap that is all. Ruthieb

Hello Ruthie,

hope you feel better soon. i have had a cold that is hanging on and stomach doestn feel so great either. alot of viruses and such going around.
get your rest and hang in there.
take care too.

sorry you are not feeling well - sending prayers your way right now :)

Jade
Jade's New Journal (http://diettalk.com/forums/showthread.php?s=&postid=255393#post255393)

Well wanted to check in this day has been a long on everything that happened today to the shuttle. But I'm just hoping tomarrow will be a better day. Hope everyone has a great weekend. Ruthieb

Ruthie
Hang in there I have been sick for almost a month now and have made zero progress. Just keep the faith and try to nurture yourself some.
Get sleep fluids and a good funny movie.
:D

:hug: :hug: :hug: You need a hug???? Here I am!:wave: I am sorry you've had a stressful time lately and I truly hope you are feeling better spiritually and physically. We are all so hard on ourselves and I believe that you are a good person at heart. We all expect more from ourselves and sometimes we need to try to see the greater picture. Sure you may not have time to read the bible everyday but you believe in God and I'm sure you do your best when you try!!!!! When you make a mistake you can ask for forgiveness and YES you are only human! It's not an excuse it's a fact. We will have slip ups but God knows what is in our hearts ...the truly evil person is one who knows the will of God and sets out to sin in my opinion. YOU have a great night and thanks for stopping by my journal! Peace to you!:peace:

Well last night at Church the sermon was about some of the things I've been faceing lately God truly wanted me to hear that message. So on that front I feel a whole lot better seems like once a month I let depression beat me down till I think I can not get up. I'm dealing with a lot of old baggage in my life I thought I had delt with but I guess I still had some things to unpack. Facing the some issues about my mother I always felt some kind of guilt and respondabilty when it comes to her. But the truth is what she put on me as a child was not mine to deal with I was a child she was the adult. She always made me feel like it was my job to keep her happy and you did so to keep from her wrath which at times was so very bad. I can remember wareing long sleeves and pants to cover the places...and the sad part is those places still hurt only in my heart this time. Because I want to be in her life and to be healthy mentaly I know it is next to impossible because being around her you never know what your getting sometimes it is a sweet person others it is a deranged person who is out to cut you down. I know to get healthy I have to learn how to live without her approvel and accept the fact that I can never make her happy no matter what. She truly does not care about me and has let me know that so many times and as adults do we ever reach the point where we accept things as an adults or do we always look at them with child's eyes. The search begins...
Ruthieb

Poor Ruthie - I am saying prayers you can put these issues to rest once and for all. I know how hard it is as I have been there too as you know. However I can tell you this - putting them to rest for good leaves you feeling much better about yourself and life in general. I no longer feel like a victime :)

Jade

Ruthie,

I'm sorry you have old wounds. I know how you feel, I too have old wounds that re-open at times. But when they do I call upon the lord.

I don't beleive God wants you to feel guilty. Somtimes I think our minds want to get the better of us. Its the same with food. I'm praying for you.

Hello, Thank each and everyone of you for your prayers they have really ment a lot to me. The last week has been really hard on me I've had numorous migraines and have had the stomach flu. It snowed today and that was about 3 and 1/2 inches the last time I checked. We voted in a new preacher Weds. night I really like him I think he is going to do a really good job. Well wanted to drop in and catch up on everything. Ruthieb

Hello RuthieB!

I just want to post and say that I enjoy reading about your walk with God. I hope you are inside keeping warm from the snow! I hope you have a great day tomorrow, I will be praying for you!

-Lindsey

Hello ruthie,

sorry to hear you havent felt well. my family has been sick with a virus and i have those headaches too.
hope you feel better soon and take care of yourself.

have a great weekend.

It is snowing again and I'm still feeling a little tired the virus is a little hard to kick. My eating this past weekend was no great but I got my haircut today I like it still long so that is good. I just wanted to stop in and post I'm going to try to catch up tomarrow with the journals. Ruthieb

so many DT people are down sick - I sure hope you get to feeling much better soon Ruthie :)

Jade

~o) Here's is ome hot tea

:gflower: Some flowers to brighten your day

:hug: And a hug

Gosh Ruthie I hope you feel better.. Take it easy

Hope you feel better. the virus is a real killer. i have it for awhile now and its hard to kick and takes awhile to go away.

hope you have a nice v day too!

Hello Girls, THANKS!!! for the well wishs I'm feeling better just been kind of depressed but it probley the cold weather. All the snow and cold is enough to make anyone crazy. Well yesterday I ordered me 3 outfits from JC Penny's that is quite pricey even for the cheap stuff but I need some clothes. I only have one outfit that is pants and shirt I need underwear and socks now. I also got my hair cut it takes more work than I'm used to but it does look good everyone seems to like it. I have not been eating the best in the world this past week and gained 2 pounds. But I got Walk Away The Pounds with Leslie Sansone in the mail today so starting Tuesday I'm starting that walking program. If my computer don't get freaky again I can come post about it. Well Better go still have other journals to get to. Happy V-Day, Ruthieb

P.S. THANKS AGAIN FOR THE WELL WISHES IT MEANS SO MUCH!!!

Hey Ruthie...I haven't checked in on you for awhile, and here you are down 15 pounds. That is AWESOME success already this year! You just keep doing what you are doing and the results will accumulate so that next Christmas you can shine at that family dinner. I see that in the cards for you. Take care.

Ruthie, I too do the walk away the pounds tapes and love them! I am still on the 1 mile - which one are you starting out with? We can do this together my friend! :)

Jade

:D i'm new here. i know some of you from other message boards that i post on here. sandielynne, you aren't that far from me. i live in mayville, new york so we're less than hour from each other.

Ruthie - just stoping by to see how you are doing.
Have you started the walk away the pounds tapes yet?

Jade

Hey there Ruthie!:) Glad to hear you are feeling better but i hope you are getting over the depression.. boy that can take a lot out of you. I've been there myself sooooo many times. Right now I'm taking anti depressant medication and going to see a councelor..today in fact! Trust me your doctor/councelor can help. I feel like a different person..I have more energy .. I am not crying all the time about every little thing..and I'm not ruled bymy emotions like I was for so long. So if you keep feeling this way please.. do yourself a favor and get some help.. there is no shame in asking for help because we all need help at some point in our lives!!! God made us this way ... we need each other!
Well :hug: you keep smiling and put on the music and dance those blues away... you can do it. And if you need someone to talk to you can message me i will always wb when I get it. Take care.

Bettyboop

:wave: hi Ruthie! Let me know how you like those tapes, I'm going to Wal-mart tonight so going to look for it.

Hello Ruthie,

hope you feeling better.

where are U?
i hope your ok my friend.

we all get periods of depression. i do from time to time.

i agree with Betty and if you ever need to talk or just for someone to listen you can count on me.

take care.

I'm getting worried now too....I hope you are ok. MISS YOU LOTS take care of yourself ok?:gflower: :hug: :x

Ruthie, you have a lot of friends here and we care about you and are worried, please come and let us know if you are ok :)

Jade

:coach: RUTHIE..............

My dear where are you...........?????

Ruthie come back! We miss you !!!!!

Jade

Ruthie,

you have us all worried about you. i hope you are ok.

Please come back. I miss you so much.

hope to hear from you.