Hey all !

Gonna start my new journal with my horoscope for today lol

it seems fitting

:flower:

Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com)
It may feel like something has suddenly clicked into place for you today, dear Aquarius, in which you have found the missing piece of a puzzle you have been working on for a while. The answers may be subtle, but they are there. Fantasy and a playful attitude will lead you to them effortlessly. Spread your ideas out to the world today and adopt an attitude that encourages others to join in your daydreams as well. -


Lets make these dreams a reality !!



one day at a time


together


:hug:



Pengii

Fabulous attitude, Peng! Let me be the first to visit your new journal and wish you well in 2003!

Lisrey :up:

Your right it will be worth it...You will do this...Trust me I know things. Ruthieb

Yahoo! Peng is up and about again and ready to have a great 2003!

Ya know, Penglette? I think this is going to be YOUR year. You will get healthy, celebrate love, laugh a lot, and cry far less.

Hooray!

Hey Peng!!

I just started a new journal too. Let's make this year THE year!!

Stacey's New Journal (http://www.diettalk.com/forums/showthread.php?s=&postid=239124#post239124)

Love & :hug:

Great start on the new journal. i see alot of us started a new one.

This will be our year to shine my friend.

we will do this.

together,

one day at a time.

take care and talk to you soon. I hope you had a wonderful new year!

Great new journal Pengii. I love the title.

YOu go girl, you will continue to do great things this year.

Hi Pengii!

I brought you some flowers :gflower: ~o) oh..and coffee!

Glad you are feeling better...this will be your year!

mcmarto

I slept in !!

shesh

what a dummy

so... gonna rework my plan for the day since I wanted to be at work by 8...now i will stop at bank and be there for 1030

I better not ***** about a job where i can set my own hours

so!

gonna have a bowl of bran buds...I HAVE to start a regular food plan


breakie will be bran buds and an apple

gonna take a handful of mandarin oranges with me to work

will choose something good at work and post it here after

I have to record my food each day...I do much better if I do... the whole accountability thing


I dont need to reinvent the wheel..I just need to help keep mine from getting a flat !


Hope you all have a wonderful day, will check in on you later


I CAN DO THIS !!!


:hug: Peng

Have a great day Pengii. Hope the extra sleep helped you feel good today, after the initial fluster anyways.

I need to post my food in fitday. It always helps me. Just need to do it!!!!!!!

See you later.

you are so right nancy!

I was posting in your journal as you were here lol

I cant express how much the support I get from all of you means to me !!!

:hug:


its the difference between a bad day and the faith to make it a good one


today will be a good one


love you all !!


Peng

Hi peng,

I loved your horoscope. Very true. It fits you to a "T".

I also love the quote

I dont need to reinvent the wheel..I just need to help keep mine from getting a flat !

That is sooooo true.

I wish us all a fun journey on our successful weight loss.

I'm so pumped.
:D

Chat with ya soon,

Darlene :dn

Hi Pengii,

Nice new journal to fit the new year. It's going to be a good one!

So far so good Pen!

Hope you had a great day at work!

MC

Hi claire
Have thought about you a lot over the holidays. I am so excited that you decided to start a new years journal.... I started mine a bit early but it has been nice to have a place to reflect. Hope the doggies are doing well... Sounds like for you and me both..establishing a routine is what needs to happen... I am trying to find a way to get some things in everyday.... It is kindof frusterating to settle into something but with any luck before long I will get the hang of it....

HAPPY NEW YEARS

I hope your day was good too!

Today was one for the books lol

started with sleeping in and went from there

ate breaky and got a mouthful of something kinda moldy...yummy...first thing in the morn... must of been from the apple.... barfing at breakie is a great way to control ones appetite

get in my truck and start backing out of the garage and realize I never put any face on when i caught a glimpse in the mirror

lucky it takes all of 1 min lol...so went back into garage and into house

work...

least I got my office cleaned..spent 5 hrs doing puter work..hate that... inventory, labour blah blah blah


stupid things all day


BUT


going back over the day..there were good things


kept my food good

6 oz beef, bun, salad at lunch

just had a spinach and chicken wrap for supper and a plate of raw veggies with 2 oz dip

will have an orange later


veg was good...fruit was low..forgot to take my oranges...and ate only a bit of breakie apple before the bad part

water is pretty good


so...all in all

ok


I just have to remind myself that the day passes irregardless of what I eat...so might as well try to make good choices

thruthfully..with the crap I have consumed as of late... I could have 3 really nice meals a day and still be way under

I forget how fast the picking adds up...without picking or snacking... the days cals can be great


anyhow


I am just dam glad it is almost bedtime lol


I want to write some of my goals for the next few months... not just health wise...but also things that I know affect my mental health...house...clutter...papers...



I hope you all have a wonderful tomorrow


one day at a time


:hug:


Peng

Hello Pengii ~

Congratulations on your new Journal, and your new resolve to make this a good year all around. I see big things for many of us this year. I just have a feeling this is going to be a very successful year. I have strengthened my plans and renewed my goals as well. Time for us to MAKE it happen, and we will.

Thank you for being here and for being a friend as well. It has been such a pleasure knowing you. I can't wait to see what surprised we will be showing off during this year.

Love n hugz,
Sandie

Hey Penglette. I am delighted that you could find some good things to be proud of out of your day yesterday! I am curious, how do you make a spinach and chicken wrap? It sounds good (like maybe the chicken taste would be hidden or something). You are taking it day by day, girl, that is just what you need to do. I am so proud of you and I'm with Sandielynne...this is going to be a good year for all of us.

a good day today

each day is getting brighter

had fruit at breakie
turkey sandwich at lunch

bit of beef and veg after that

big salad w teritaki chix breast for dinner

drinking water... treating myself to a diet vanilla coke right now

I am slowly re-shrinking my stomach and my bad habits as minnie says


I think it will take a few more days to feel real good... but each day is better and better

Sandie :hug: I look forward to seeing what the year holds for us all too
It would be lovely to all still be in contact next january and share each others triumps for the year

I often think of my DT buddies that have gone..I always hope they are doing great and loving themselves

Chummers !
I am slowly getting moving girl!
wraps are easy
this one..I diced tomato, red onion, cucumber, nice feta, put some balsamic vinegar and bit of olive oil on it
seared some slivered chicken breast with a bit of basil, oregano, and lemon pepper
lay the wrap out.. cover with fresh spinach, spoon the veg in (the oil and vinegar marinade can stay behind) and arrange the chicken in
start the roll.... and dive in !!! lol they make some awesome tortillas for the wraps..the tortilla can be your carb then load it with veg..rice and veg...bits of meat or fish
yummy


anyhow


I cant seem to fall asleep early lately lol..prob from having weird days off with the holidays

i have to be up early tomorrow so gonna try and sleep tonight

hope you all have an awesome weekend


:hug: Peng

Hello Pengi,

Glad to see you back in action again. I am getting back in the swing of things too.
I too am trying to re-shrink my tummy and the bad habits. i have been exercsing and drinking the water.

i treated myself to pizza last night. well i should say with all the snow and not getting to the grocery store we ordered pizza.

but ive been doing fairly well. hanging in there.
each day does seem brighter and i look forward to losing again.

hope you get a good nights rest and enjoy the weekend.
i was off for awhile too on x-mas break and my sleep habits got bad. i was staying up till 1 am and now i cant fall asleep earlier either or if i do i wake up during the night.
its all routine and getting back in habit just like with our weight loss. It can be done. we are very strong women and we got the power to do this.

love ya!!!

Hi Pengii!!

I hope your having a good weekend. I had a great day today really focused on a healthier lifestyle. Got in 3 square meals
a couple of snacks nothing too overboard and dranks gallons it seems of water. I also made it to the gym -- it was really busy and couldn't get on the treadmill but I did 20 min on the exercise bike and another 10 on the rower. I really want to knock a few pounds off this year. One of snow angels have set a goal of one pound a week --- That sounds reasonable to me. I know some weeks will be better than others but if I can do it by the end of the year that would be 52 pounds. I wouldn't even recognize myself.....Love that idea. Hope everything is going well --- I think tomorrow I'll do a grilled chicken salad as well.

Hey Pen!

You sound greaaaaat!...Oh...and those wraps sound delicious!

I was reading in one of my magazines about a tortilla that is out that has 6 grams of fiber...check out latortillafactory.com!

Well...Have a great Sunday!

mc

too true lee ! I would be dam happy with 52 this year too!

why do we have to complicate things so?

I hope you are all doing great still!

I will catch up on your journals tomorrow

is supposed to be really warm tomorrow...so gonna enjoy all I can outside...when the freeze hits, it will hit hard

days have been allright

a personal goal of more control is coming along nicely


little bits


worked this am then stopped at sis' then groc on way home

decided I would make something nice

not the fat laden comfort food i craved the last while...but actually got excited about a lovely asian soup again


so

doing allright

I am feeling stronger and more confident each day


thank god


was looking pretty scary for a bit


dont expect much change from a couple days ago on the scale...but thats ok... if i keep these patterns up , the drop will come


i have faith


and all of you

have a great monday


:hug:


Peng

I am so happy you are back in the swing again! Taking care of yourself is really important, Peng. I'm glad you are on your way...

I am feeling good to Pengii!

Realize it takes time...their will be some setbacks...but as long as we do not give up!

How was the soup?

mcmarto

Good for you, Pengii. So nice to hear.

No snow :( .

Hello Penglette. Yes, what kind of soup did you make? I know a lot of people love miso soup, but I am not one of them. Seems salty, but in a strange way. How was your day? Your evening? Your hike with the gay green leather stud dogs? Have you sat in the sauna yet at leisureland? I think I would probably cough up a storm in there, but with a little Vic's Vaporub Cream, I could be smiling in the steam in no time...but unfortunately, not everyone loves that eucalyptis scent as much as I and I would probably empty the joint!

hope you are all smiling ! I am not sure if I am smiling or dementia has finally fully set in lol

what a day

but a day and i am glad to have it

got home and had some nice mail from friends..that made me smile !

my big dog is not limping after falling down the stairs this am... that made me smile !

still have soup leftover for supper lol... that made me smile

i made a chicken broth from the backs
added kecap manis, soya, fish sauce, and a plum chili sauce, maybe some ground chillie too

was a funky spicey flavor with the hint of the fruit

shredded a whole suey choy into it, baby bok choy, loads of tofu, and a little squid

was kinda like a hot & sour soup...really good



anyhow


just fed the mutts..better take them out


then feed me


it will be nice to see a loss monday

finally



it is time

and it is worth it


:hug:


Peng

Hi Pengii!! So glad to see you back here. I was thinking of you a lot this week. We can do this!!! I'm trying to make a real effort to stop in at the site everynight. I haven't been on a chat for months so I'm going to ccheck out the exercise chat with Nancy tonight. That's one area where I really need the motivation. Like you I'm working on maintaining a healthy lifestyle change.
Are you sitting down -- I've actually been cooking -- I know you fell off your chair. Hope you didn't break anything! I love my new kitchen and enjoy spending time in there.

Hey, Pengii!

Super :super: to see you back on top of things again. I am feeling confident and happy about my start for 2003 too. It is somehow easier for me to buckle down in January, and my momentum carries me into the spring/summer pretty well.

Your soup ingredients baffled me, lol. I'm glad your big dog is okay! How are those mutts? Have you been walking with them again, or is the weather too rotten for that? It has been very cold here with nasty wind chills. I have been wearing extra layers both in my house and at work... Brrrr!

We'll both be smiling when we weigh -- yay!

Lisrey :snow:

Hey Pengii!

Glad you are happy.....oh and that your doggie is ok!

mcmarto

Hey buddy!

I am so proud and happy for you getting back in the groove.

All in small steps my friend and the loss will follow.

that is what i have been up to also.

work is also busy for me this week and i dont know if im coming or going but im hanging on....

Little accomplishments will add up to big success for us.
Just keep remembering a day at a time and hang tough.
take care and talk to you soon.

Oh no! Your rottie fell down the stairs? Was he just going too fast?

I am proud of you for making that healthy-sounding soup (even though I am holding my nose at the squid). You are going to get healthy, girl. I just know it.

Have a good day!!!!

Wow Claire, i envy your imagination when it comes to cooking. Fish sauce? I remember my hubby sending the new guy to the market to get fish juice. LOL the guy couldn't find any. Gee, I wonder why. My hubby was a sous chef in a previous life. LOL Now he makes cars.

I'm glad your pooch is ok. That makes me smile too. One of my pooches has an ear infection. I can give him his meds, but I have to call the neighbore to clean it. They want me to stick my finger all the way in there! NO WAY, not me.

Keep up the good work Claire. I feel like rockin n rollen too.

This is our year. Lets shed this pounds.

Darlene :hippy:

Hellooooo there. Did you fall in the soup? Or was that the rottie?

Are you sitting in front of the leisure center selling your soup?

Hey Pengii

My little Olive has some stinky breath...she will not let me brush...is their anything else I can give her or have her do to get rid of it...I thought you might be able to help me out!

Hope you had a good day!

mcmarto

I'm so happy to see YOU so happy!!! I would be happy if only I could cook and make a variety of tasty healthy meals! Gawd, your soup sounds devine!!

Just a quick note today, trying to get caught up. Thank you so much for visiting my journal while I was away. It helps more than you know.... ummm... I take that back, you DO know... lol!

Love to you,
Linda

Hello claire,

just dropped in to say hello and thanks for the support in my journal.

i hope you have a good weekend and take care and talk to you soon.

Pengii,

Wow, when are you going to make your own cook book. Sounds like it would be unique and popular.

Keep those smiles comin'.

Hi Pengii! How's the pup doing?

I just wanted to take a minute to say hi. Your recipe for the spinach wrap sounds wonderful! I printed it out so I can try it. I'm not sure about the squid yet. I've never tried it, so I hesitate.

Well, keep up the good work! You're doing great!

Hey Pengii!...Where are you at?

I have seen you posting in other journals...what about your own?...I need help with the stinky doggie breath question!...hahahahaha!

Well I have one of those small pug calendars where you pull a page off everyday...well...at the bottom of each page their is a quote (dog related)...here is one I really liked...I think you will too....


He is your friend, your partner, your defender, your dog.
You are his life, his love, his leader.
He will be yours, faithful and true, to the last beat of his heart.
You owe it to him to be worthy of such devotion.
-anonymous


Hope you have a great weekend girl!

mcmarto

good to see ya!

and Howdy Badelle ! I have a couple other wraps that are yummy too if you would like !

I am fine, doggies are fine...just busy then mentally empty at end of day lol

i have been working online to get my menus done and come here every now and then to refresh during the process

I always read all your guys journals...always

maybe i will just send hugs while in em so you dont forget what you all mean

It has been a tough couple weeks....like i am in a battle
I have changed a couple habits that were killing me...and man it is tough..so I am *****y hahahah then overloaded with work (one of my girls had a car accident and is out till months end)... and so on

food is better..I am just still having some things that could be better

but the choices are still better than a while ago


so little steps


freaking chilly here...and dogs are wound up after me being gone 11 hrs today
so gonna go throw thier toy downstairs for a while so they can knock over furniture but be happy

it is gonna be -28 tonight BRRRRRRRRR

time to break out the flannel sheets hahahah

I love fresh flannel sheets lol dont mind the cold then lol

anyhow


have a wonderful sunday all

:hug: :hug:

Peng


ps Mc ! I buy some breath buster cookies for the boys..they are parsley and something..they are ok
but what i find best is using tarter control crunchies from the vet...(price isnt too bad and they really work) they clean up the dogs mouth really well and a bag would last olive forever
these ones are
HILL'S PRESCRIPTION DIET ~ CANINE t/d ~ when you think they get one cookie every couple days..it is a cheap way to dont get knocked over by doggie breath hahahah
xo

Hey Pengii :wave:

Hello there girlfriend. Long time, no see. I am either too busy for words, or asleep these days. Can't seem to stay awake long enough to say hello to everyone I want to. Today I fixed that. I took a couple Vivarin to stay awake, and now I'm wide awake when I should be asleep........hahahhaha. Can't win for trying, right?

I'm really glad to read you are doing so well these days, with your eating and your exercising, one way or another. I'd call working 11 hours putting in quite a bit of exercise........haha.

By the way, did you ever get a weiner wrap knitted for that hot dog of yours? You have to let me see it if you do.

I've been really busy knitting socks for the children of a friend of mine over in England. Then I crocheted the daughter a couple of hair kerchiefs and I want to make a little ski hat for the boy too. Getting there, just not quite done yet. But having a great time working on the things.

It's been super cold here too lately. Down in the teens and some day in the near future they are calling for a high of 15 degrees F. That will be a very cold day indeed!

You take care now. Glad I had a chance to pop in and say hello. I've missed you lady.

Keep smiling........... :)
Sandie

Glad to know you are doing well!

Thanks for the doggie breath info!

mcmarto

Hi Pengii!! I know what you mean about feeling swamped!!! I had a really busy week last week and let myself down -- didn't exercise at all. I'm hoping to change that this week!!!

Hey Pengii,

I'd love some other recipes. I'm always looking for something different and I love to cook...I guess that's why I'm in the predicament I'm in...lol. The girls at work got tired of me baking and bringing it in there (they're all on diets too), so now I bake and I'm the only one here. This could be a problem.

Congrats on changing bad habits. That's wonderful. It can be a bear to get through, but you're worth it!

Have a great week.

Hello claire~~

small steps buddy!!!

One day at a time and one pound at a time, together.....

Keep up the good work. all the small changes will add up to big success. you are doing good and stay strong.

Have a good day tommorow too and take care.

Hey Peng. I always agree with the small steps theory. And aren't changing habits a ******??? It is so hard. I am really proud of you for sticking to it.

My little Emma has bad breath too. Smells like fish. You would probably like it, huh?

Hi Claire,

Had to go looking for your journal.

I'm glad you're doing ok.

Hope to see you soon,

I miss ya.

Take care of yourself and those poochies.

Dar

nice to seeya all !


Dar... I have actually had a hard time writing... putting the words together...funny thing

been doing a lot of soul searching...and such...just a stage I guess

so..been here and reading though

my one day off flys by and long days...but thats ok...when my girl is back from her car accident i will take a couple 3 day weekends and that will be nice

gonna prime the old crappy panelling in basement and paint it...so will work out good.. can buy a gallon of paint each pay check and be ready

ready as it gets in this industry though...you never know what will happen with staff

my girl opened yesterday on my day off and got quite a surprise hahahah

guess the front manager (yes the one I had it out with before) invited a couple buddies to drink after hours with him... prob has done it lots before but never been stupid enough before to get caught hahahah
my girl comes in before 7 and finds the guy drunk and only wearing his undies..a male buddy is in the bar and employee of the hour has some girl(not his gfriend who also works there)and is trying to get lucky

guess it was pretty funny..he must of lost track of the time lol

so he is bye bye now lol


how can some people be so stupid..he was lucky to have the job he did as he is incompetent... what do you tell your future employer why you left your last job???

"well sir, i was fired after i got drunk and gave free booze to all my friends after hours and was caught in my undies with a girl other than my girlfriend "


loser



anyhow


still holding my own

a friend who is setting up a personal trainer biz talked with me for an hour before i came home

it was good sharing some of the things that are holding me back...sometimes it helps to get a new persepective


i had ok food

just need exercise


badly



i am still making improvements

there is hope



have a great humpday tomorrow


:hug:


Peng

Hello claire,

Yes there is always hope as long as we have faith to back it up.

all your small changes are great ones as they will lead to bigger achievements for you.

I am trying to put my mind in the frame it was in early on.
i am determined to get and keep this weight off and out of my life.
i am trying to look at food with different attitude.

i havent binged and am not running to food for comfort and it feels good not too.

Little steps my friend, one at a time and they do add up to many steps....

we will find success and make this happen. all the efforts will not be lost in vain.
we will be healthier and will be able to wear cute clothes in the reg, section(not the plus sizes) and we will feel proud of ourselves.

we can do it......

take care and enjoy your day tommorow.

Hi, Pengii!

I have missed your posts. I knew you were lurking... saw signs of you in other places. If you can't write that's okay, but you were missed. :)

Your story about the drunken fired guy is funny! Sort of like one of those "dumb criminals" stories! Ummm, ooops.

Have you been walking with the pooches? No? I think you should ask them if that's acceptable... I'll bet they want you out there hiking with them! If yes, then, great! I think you are getting some exercise, if not tons. That fresh air/canine companionship/outdoorsy thing is really good for ya!

Take care... you can do this and I know you will find the "click" of the right combination soon. It'll come!

Lisrey :flower:

Hope you have a great day!

Still getting a good laugh from the undies story!

hahahaha...mcmarto

Peng. You are eating better, by your own admission. You have to quit THINKING about working out and just do it. Trust me. This is a strategy that I practice myself. Just put on the leisure pants (don't think about it), get in the truck (don't think about it), drive to the leisure world (don't think about it), get out of the truck (don't think about it), walk into the leisure world (don't think about it), and WORK OUT. Promise yourself you will do at least FIVE MINUTES and then you'll be able to quit and go home. You won't stop at five minutes, I guarantee it.

Just a suggestion that works for me.

Chum is so right!...I have finally gotten my butt in gear and I have been back to Curves...back on my treadmill...and even went out and bought one of those 2 mile walking tapes...and I did it!

I schedule the exercise in...just like work...and dates...etc!

mcmarto

Pengii,

so glad to hear that you are hanging in there. It is really hard sometimes and we do seem to get lost in all the busy'ness. You are doing a good thing to give yourself time to think. Take what time you need, you have done so fantastic this past year and I know you will continue but yes there are times we don't do like we wish and need to sit back and take a good look.

Glad to hear the 'jerk' from work was given the boot, must have been frustrating working with him. Hopefully he learns 'something' from all of this. I also hope that his girlfriend heard all about it and has gotten rid of him too.

Take care.

Ha ha ha, Would have loved to have seen the expresion on Captain Underpant's face, when he got caught. :tomato:

I'm sorry the words just havent been flowing for you. I on the other hand, have been writing non stop. Mostly not making sense though, hehehe.

I hope you find a way to link your thoughts and to express them. That may be here in your journal, or just on a scrap paper at home. The important thing is getting the crap out.

I too agree with Chum. I myself can't wait till I can take her advice too. (stupid back!)

Anyway, I'm outta here.

Have a fab day tomorrow.

Darlene :hippy:

Wow Claire;
I'm glad i didn't drop in to your spot for breakfast! That was funny!
Are you out walking the dogs? I guess that they still need to get out, but it's cold out there! Hope you are bundled up.
Pat

I thought it was funny too... and indredibly stupid
every business has stories which would have you afraid to step out

but

I found out he was just stupid...he came back after hours.. without anyone knowing.. once anyone knew, locks were changed, he was banned and his rep toast so our place has nothing to do with his actions and is one of the best breakie places as it has been for 20 yrs


i just cant believe how stupid some people can be lol


anyhow


instead of signing with a :hug: it should be with an :sos:

i am being a dork... I have let reflex habits creep in which are not good


i am awake early today after 12 hrs yesterday so gonna go in soon and be back this aft so I can go for long walk this aft


i do just have to do it


the thinking part IS getting old

i hear ya


and i am so glad you guys are keeping on me


gonna try and make it a good day today



:hug:

Peng


hope you all have a good one too

Hello Claire,

I am here whenever you need me.(you know that anyways)

Dust yourself off and put one foot in front of the other and take baby steps if necessary.

It was so hard for me to get my groove back. i wasnt sure if i would but i did. i set my mind back in the timeframe of when i first started and i've been losing for 2 weeks in a row since i started back.

you will get your determination back. just hang in there buddy, i am right beside you.

some days i dont know if i can hang on. i feel hungry or stressed and i want to go right thru the drive thru for a nice old fashioned binge but i know it wont solve my problems only makes them worse by adding more weight.

you have done so well and you will rise up again and defeat the demons of weight.

you are a trooper Claire and i have total faith in you.
I am proud of you every day.

take care and if you need me, please yell in my direction so i can try to help. 9thats what friends are for)

and i know cuz i needed lots of help here in the past and thats what kept me going.

my little :super: mouse


:hug:


thanks

Hey Penglette!

GO MINNIE GO!!!

I could not have said it better. Minn, girl, sometimes you can be downright eloquent.

Peng, you know you can eat better and exercise on a consistent basis. You've done it in the past. You know what to do. Have a little faith in YOURSELF. We all have faith in you and that's great.

But.

YOU MUST ALSO HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELF.

You are a fantastic woman, strong, interesting, caring. You deserve to have a long and healthy life. I mean it. You deserve to feel good about yourself, feel good in your body, feel good every day of your life.

We all think so. Now, YOU must agree with us.

Baby steps, Peng, BABY STEPS.
:hug: :hug: :hug:

Hey Pen!

Hope you had a good walk!

and......have a great weekend girl!

How is the painting coming along?...How are the boys!

mcmarto

Hi Claire :wave:

I have missed getting my payments ....... and looking at your stats ... :coach: YOU HAVE DONE FANTASTICALLY .... so I am hoping that you will not :tomato: forget our agreement .... lol because I NEVER FORGET.

Well I did want to just stop by to say hello ... I will check back with you from time to time .... it looks like you are doing good .... and you know if you ever need me .... I AM HERE ! Have a great weekend. Take care of yourself. As always, Monica

Hello Pengii ~

I guess I better let you in on a bit of a secret. You see, I'm having a few problems myself lately. Oh, my exercise is going great, and the water going down has improved immensly. It's the food part that's giving me a hard time. For some reason or other, I'm hungry as a horse and just can't seem to get enough of anything. Plus..................I am craving ice cream soooooo bad, it's driving me up a wall. I have no idea what is triggering this, or how I'm going to get it under control. But if I want to continue losing weight, I have to. And I DO WISH TO CONTINUE LOSING!

Like it or not, doing nothing is getting me absolutely NOWHERE! That means that I must take this bull by the horns and tell my cravings to SHUT UP and sit back! Time for the mind (that knows better) to speak up and take control.

Now Claire, if I can do it, so can you. Right? Time you dusted yourself off and got with the program kiddo. I want to see us all hit that finish line in one huge mass. I really believe we can do it. It's just going to take a little more effort and determination than I thought it would at first. But I also know that each and every one of us are able to face the challenge and win it.

Lets go lady.............
and keep smiling.................. :)
Sandie

Hi Pengii,

I had a margarita and toasted you on my little baja adventure this weekend. I'm so looking forward to clinking glasses with you in person!

So...what did you do this weekend?

Hope all is well........mcmarto

I did nothing today

nada zip nothing

Hell Homer would look like an athlete next to me

seeing your support is a good kick

if i spent half the energy I spend sabatoging any effort in actually making an effort....

this has got to stop

it is ridiculous

this isnt me


and not how I want to live


I am going to get up in the morning and try to listento the rational person inside instead of the lunatic who seems to be making my decisions


thanks for not giving up on me


I havnt given up either


just have my blinders on


why?



nothing could be as scary as living as I am now

so nothing to lose or fear


I know i have the strength in me


I know it



have a wonderful week you all


and Monica... I am so glad you never forget

I need you all



:hug:


Peng

Claire,

you have the will and desire to do this, now you need the motivation and determination back to where you were.
think back to how pumped you were. try to get that feeling back. that is what did it for me.
and then take a day at a time and just do the best you can.

this is so hard to do and each day i have to will myself to keep going, so i do. once i saw the scale going down again it gave me the motivation to keep going.

i know you have the strength to do this and i know you want too.

once you get a few days of routine in you should keep rolling.

i laways have faith in you and am here whenever you need ,me cuz we all know this isnt easy to do.

right with you buddy 100% of the way.

Luv ya and take care buddy :hug: :hug:

Sometimes its ok to do nothing!...We need rest and relaxation too!

But.........don't let it become the norm!

I know you will not!...You have it in you to get back on track and lose more weight this year!

You are headed to a new, healthy you!...Why take longer then you have to?

Get moving girl!

mcmarto

Dear Claire,

I will try to make it a point to come and visit your Journal every other day .... now please read and repeat it to yourself over and over again.

THERE IS NOTHING I CANNOT ACHIEVE .... I AM A RESPONSIBLE , SELF SUFFICIENT INDIVIDUAL .... I HAVE THE ABILITY TO SET MY OWN GOALS AND TO ACHIEVE THEM. LOSING WEIGHT IN A HEALTHY AND PERMANENT WAY IS MY CHOICE.

Claire, when you decided to make this commitment .... no one held a gun to your head ..... you have proven you can do this; we all have set backs .... we're human ...... but I remember something my father told me and I have to repeat it to myself many times still and I want to share it with you "YOU CAN MAKE A MISTAKE ONCE, YOU CAN MAKE A MISTAKE TWICE ... BUT IF YOU ARE MAKING THE SAME MISTAKE .... IT IS NOT A MISTAKE IT IS YOUR CHOICE." Claire let us choose not to make the same mistake .... MOVE FORWARD MY FRIEND. The road is a long one ... BUT WE CAN AND WILL SUCCEED. I will be back on Wednesday .... and I meant what I said I was promised payments .... and you are an honorable person who promised me those payments ..... YOU CAN DO THIS CLAIRE ..... YOU KNOW IT AND I KNOW IT. As always, Monica :hug:

Hi Claire;
Do you think that you are probably in the aftermath of exhaustion?
What did you do when you were handling your care giving and subsequent losses? You worked flat out, which we do as a way to avoid facing the deep grief. Now your body has had a chance to regroup, and is saying enough!!
So that's why you did nothing when you had the time off.
Also once we have lost a substantial amount of weight the body also gets used to that and adjusts. ( I can speak to that one, without the substantial part!). So this is all about peaks and valleys. Now you (and me) are at the low point of the valley; time to regroup and head up again. I think it's necessary to go right back to square one, the way we did when starting out, plan everything, journal everything, start out really simple again with the exercise and build up.
If we didn't have the valleys, we wouldn't be able to charge at the peaks.
Pat

Claire

Just sounds like too much work and not enough play and leaving you without the energy for creativity and self reward---taking time to exercise and get with your friends and finding a passion outside of work.

Oddly why can't we choose to be our own passion----do we appear greedy. But those we envy is often self absorbed, but it is not vain to focus on ourself and our healthy and making decisions that work toward making our day happy. Too often we beat ourselves over a poor decisions.

But the lesson keeps presentin

g itself till we learn that lesson. I know only too well that I don't handle stress or my time and eat over my failure frequently. Not that the popcorn last night gave me the energy I needed. Nothing would for only slept 3 hr after working 13. My nephew needed a ride to the airport-----the hospital is sending him to Cleveland to learn how to fix some laboratory equipment. So I got up and took him and then an hr later went to the last obedience training class. Lindsey is much better but still am wary about her and strangers.

So instead of going to bed and doing what normal noncompulsive people do I keep snacking to keep awake. Nonsensical. Just like buying towels yesterday when I have bags of them in the closet. Gosh, if you lived down the street I'd take you with me shopping so you "tu tu tu" every time you see me with another towel or down comforter or any of those other nonsensical buttons. I wasn't even in the towel section.

Gosh, Claire, my compulsions go so much farther than eating. You can be my Conscience and Mentor and Angel curving my impulses, and loving me thru my mistakes. And I will play big sis and hug you thru times you make the poor choices you beat yourself up over and tease you into seeing your other options.

Have missed you, my friend.

Gonna try and find my journal.

Donna



:)

Hi All !

Each post is so true...and not falling on deaf ears


the exact opposite really


I am listening very intently as you all see something I am obviously missing

and I thank you!

I am having a tough time and cant thank you enough for helping me

today was allright


and i finally got some good exercise

shovelled and shovelled


maybe gods way of getting my ass out the door


plus my weiner dog was up to his eyes in snow lol

after the first heart attack... I actually enjoyed it

enough to shovel the sidewalk in front of my house and the guys who live on each side

they always keep my sidewalk clear and it felt so nice ater i was out that i figured i could take the new snow off

we got close to a foot

i have a 45 foot walkway to my garage, deck, the wheel chair ramp that goes around it... then the front steps and walk...then the sidewalk

hell..if it keeps snowing i might actually have a payment in the pound jar Monica !

I started TOm so that might explain my weird cravings last few days...as I get older I find my body has sure changed dring this time...and I have been lacking the disipline and exercise to keep it in check

my back will prob kill me after...and my arms feel like spagetti..but in a good way


I WANT to start exercising again


I hired a new guy... and my girl says she can return to work at end of month after her car crash

so I am gonna try and sched myself for 10 to 7 each day in feb

will try... one girl goes away for a week but i know i can use that sched most of the time

if it doesnt work then i will just plan anther route


if i dont work till after 9, I cou;ld exerise in morning..I would love that
and not as busy as night


I have told a few people one of the reasons I have stalled exercising


same thing as last year before i started at the old gym

self consiouc of going this big

I went when over 300 pounds..so I KNOW I can go now

the scale sits on 275 too often now

up and down


and it feels terrible


I really felt good after the fresh air

anyhow


gonna get up and make bird seed tomorrow


one day at a time


thanks again for your support


I need it bad



:hug:

:hug:



Peng

Hey, Pengii!

Sounds like you got a good workout with the shoveling today! You know what you have to do... the motivation is the hard part. It's easy to put it off, and for awhile that's fine, but you can't let it stretch into a real lapse. You'll know when the time is right! Is it now? Are you feeling sheepish? (Do you need to add a sheepdog to your menagerie?) :laugh: Go out and treat yourself with some new fitness apparel, and head for that gym. It'll feel good! It'll be fun! You'll be so proud of yourself!

No matter what you decide, or when you decide to do it, I'm here for you. Pet the pooches for me!

Lisrey :up:

Hi there Pengii!:gflower: Thought I'd give you some flowers to brighten your day :D I'm new here to the journals but read about your shovelling adventure.. sounds like a major workout to me! Whew... if it helps I groaned for ya heheh well Good for you!:dn Give the snow a good kick from me cuz I haven't seen any this year ok? Have a great day tomorrow and I hope you aren't really sore. By the way I love your Penguin it's so cute!:flower:

Ouch! That shoveling is MUCH harder than going to leisure world and sitting on a stationary bike! When you start exercising, you REALLY START!!!!! Wow. Your neighbors are so lucky to live next to you. But then again, you are used to a lot of shovelling in your line of work! haha Another hilarious bit of humor from your old chum. Sigh. I shouldn't quit my day job, huh???

Hi Claire!!! Just wanted to stop in and say hello! I understand totally about the exercise thing -- it seems all i've been doing here too is shovelling snow by the time that's done I'm exhausted. I too have to get my butt in gear and really start exercising ... I was doing good til last week when I was sick.
I hope to get re-focused this week. PS -- I know exactly what you mean about being self conscious going to the gym. It's taken me a long time to come to this conclusion but I think it's a good one. (Sorry hurt my wrist patting myself on the back there. lol)
Anyhow here is my idea on that one. If the other people at the gym have nothing better to do than watch me exercise or judge my clothing attire at the gym Then I really feel sorry for them because evidently they don't have much of a life. If watching (and I'm speaking of myself here) If watching some fat chick exercise is that appealing to them --- their life must be pretty sad.

Just my thoughts on the subject. It helps me get into the gym and do what I need to do. I'm here for you Claire!!! You've done a remarkable job with your weightloss journey and I admire that. I want to join you -- we can do this. When we hit our goals watch out .... Two single women on the prowl. meow! lol!!!

Have a great day Claire!!!

Work stress, ever heard of it?

Chewed out at the nurses meeting and it really wasn't necessary, I hit her button on "witching about work" and she cut me off in mid sentence to jump on it. So she never heard till after she ranted and raved about attitude and having plenty of help and what else can she do, the rest of my comment. She was put out with me and BIG DEAL, she interrupted me to vent. When what I was saying was the 3-11 aids needed training on restraints. Her outburst created such stress. I hate to say I hung onto it all day. I HATE confrontation and esp when I wasn't being confrontational. Now the note I left her is another issue. Put my thoughts on that in my journal. So if you want to hear the saga. But get tire of nurses scheduled and not working but she has no idea that they aren't on the floor. Or maybe she does know and just doesn't want to deal with the issue.

I really don't believe the head nurse will address it. But at least I vented but after this morning outburst I doubt if she will look favorably on my note. Again BIG DEAL!

Doubt if your resturant had a waitress who was splitting her 12 hr shift----8 waiting tables and 4 hr helping with clean-up, would appreciate her working 8 hr on the floor and 4 hr counting her tips and brown nosing with the maitre d. But whose telling on her? In this case I tattled taled and yet if I want this practice to change I have to take it to person who has the authority to make a change.

When are your days off?

Kinda did the lump thing today after getting up at 5:30 am and going to the nsg mtg and bank and groceries and went to school to take Phillip to the orthodontist. Took him thru a drive thru for burgers----he had a great report card. His mouth hurt too much to take him for his favorite burger so we are saving the celebration till he feels better.

I fixed bbq turkey----leftover turkey breast simmered in bbq sauce. Will share it with the elderly neighbors. Not really keen on it but thought I had a taste for bbq.

Wish I could send some over to you. No snow here but cold. Hope to get some things done tomorrow---no running except to go get the old computer. Paid the computer guy at work $50 for transferring the music from the old computer to discs. Phillip had alot of song and took 3 large discs to hold them all. But at $15 -20 per cd, this was cheaper. There was over 300 songs. And it took forever to download these songs.

Better scoot.

Donna

You have to do it!

You can do it!

You will do it!

mcmarto

Wow, that's a lot of shovelling! What a way to kick-start your exercise program.

You did go to the gym at 300 and you said it wasn't nearly as bad as you had feared. I remember that. So it'll be the same this time. Go prove that to yourself, ok?

And you have snow now. Oooooo. This is good.

I bet your arms/back/legs are sore from all that shovelling, though. Oof.

ended up at work for 12 hrs today... one dork called to say his new job needed him to stay till 7:30 pm... after him saying his job here was priority

so told him if he wasnt in by 4 not to bother

this after one girl called in sick already

oh well


good thing though

I didnt pick one thing today...no grease no nothing

I hope i finish the day with nothing

having decaf tea now and hope that does it


my compulsive urge to grab food in stress lost out

I bought a box of sugar free gum as chewing it helped me realize when i was gonna put something else in my mouth

my habits have truely gotten that bad


so


am really happy I have had control today


really cold out

-30 something with the wind

the dogs pee and limp back to the house

I am so impressed with them though

today with driving time I was gone 13 hrs... and no puddles

I dont kennel them anymore and I dont feel to bad after the long days cause thier toys are allover and they run like hell when I am home

no walking even around the block tonight though.. I can bundle up but they cant

the weather is supposed to break by the weekend...even if I can get home before the sun sets we can walk

te next week will be all long work days


wish I could take a pic of the weiner for you all... he stands right against the little heater up here hahahah too cute


anyhow...gotta do some laundry and such


wanted to touch base


hope you all have an awesome day tomorrow


:hug:


Peng

Hi again Pengii!.. WOW that weather sounds miserable! UGH...poor you and your puppies:( well I hope it does clear up soon for you all. Way to go today though on curbing the munchies! Sounds like you had it all under control today even with the ups and downs. :up: You go girl .. you are doing great!:cheer:

Hi Claire,

Just want to remind you, you can do this.

Remember why you want this and how bad you want it.

We'll get there, one pound at a time.

Way to go on not having the grease and for having gum instead. That takes will power.

Bad habits can and will be broken. One at a time.

Ok, I'll stop preaching now :D

Have a wonderful healthy tomorrow.

Hope that weather warms up.

Darlene :hippy:

Hi Claire;
Glad the doggies are handling the cold. I'd take my cue from the weiner dog!!
When I got out from work the car wouldn't start. Thought I could get away without a block heater because I have indoor parking where I live. But old man winter said "no way!" Hope that you are right and it breaks by the weekend!
Pat

I hope so too pat !

I went and plugged my truck in even though it is in the garage... the news said it will get to -34 tonight

no point in taking a chance on it

so it is just after 11pm

bedtime


AND A GOOD DAY !

I am happy for a solid day

gonna try hard again tomorrow

one day at a time


:hug:

Peng

YES for a good solid day!! That's how it starts. I think our Pengii is BACK. :up:

Man, it is cold here, but nothing like that and I am complaining like crazy. Supposed to be -20 tomorrow with the wind chill and that's worse than it has been. I don't know how you guys do it. But then again, I am no penguin... :laugh:

Lisrey *

Hi Claire!

Isn't it amazing how just a little cheating can turn cravings on full power?

LOL! I can just imagine your lil weiner dog getting close to the heat. I don't blame him, it has been soooo cold! Chester keeps pushing his shoe box within inches of our gas log furnace and curls up in it. That makes me so nervous! When I touch him his fur is HOT. I move the box back, but the next time I'm in the room he has it back where he can cook.

Cheers!
Linda

Weatherman says you're sending Canadian air down this way and it's only 18 today.

Started my day with some oranges and a hot bath. Skimmed the newspaper and ready to tackle the dishes and fold some laundry. Playing tunes in the background for Lindsey doesn't want to spend time with me----rather crawled up in my bed. I am not important enough for her to want my company. Now Phillip is another matter.

Afraid if we were as cold as you are up there, Lindsey would be competing for the heater with that little weiner dog of yours----she hates being cold.

Better scoot. Daylight is burning.

Donna

Good Morning Claire :wave:

Would you believe I just got up a few minutes ago .... the house is so coooooooooollllllllllllddddddddd ...... lol listen to me complaining when you really had bbbbbbbbbrrrrrrrrrr weather. Les and I are going to go out for lunch and see the movie "The Pianist" (I am reading the book right now ..... ).

I have forgotten when your weigh in day is .... so you PM me and we will go from there. I got on the scale just a few minutes ago .... I stayed the same ..... which doesn't exactly thrill me but :( I am not going to :tomato: but like you continue to TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME .... ONE MEAL AT A TIME.

Our success isn't determined by how fast we lose our weight BUT THAT WE DO LOSE OUR WEIGHT. Make it a great day .... be VERY GOOD TO YOURSELF and enjoy this day. As always, Monica :hug:

:wave: Hi Peng... Long time no visit. Meaning its been long time since I visited. Just wanted to stop in and say hello.
Hope you warm up. I know those little dogs can help when there being cozy. The guy I work with has two Weenie dogs. One is Tootsie Roll and the other Teeny weenie.... And she is teeny. LOL silly huh.

hope your day is going great !

I am doing good here

little steps

made good ol bird seed for breakie
had turkey bagel and steamed veggies for lunch
am going to make a pot of chix veg soup so I have that in fridge when I am home at night
will have some oranges later too


didnt pick again today...hopefully can get that habit checked soon and replaced with a healthier one


teenie weenie... lol.. that is TOO cute maximum lol
so nice to see you !

all of you !!!!


you really have given me the strength to realize I CAN succeed

I pushed as far as I could... and you all still hung in even when I was getting further away

you all are the best !!!

Mondays are weigh days... last weeks I often jumped on when i was feeling low to feel even lower

this monday will be nice

even if not...I will get into my old routine which helped keep me focused

it might take a bit to wake up my metabolism again but with some will power I KNOW it can happen


I got 3 new jackets today and they are well filled lol... so even more motivation...dont want to look like a sausage when cookin


and chummers... big kenny is loose again broke out the big parka and snow boots I look like a dork but I am warm hahahah


anyhow


wanted to check in and let you know the little steps are still going in the right direction


thanks guys


:hug:



Peng

Hi Claire, Glad to see you eating that good old bird seed :D

Have a great day.

Darlene:hippy:

Claire --- I understand from talking with Env Can it got close to -40 in Edmonton last night. We hit -33 that was cold enough for me. I imagine everyone in edmonton looks like Kenny. lol

Stay warm my friend.

Hello Peng,

glad to see your happy and getting back into a routine.
we all knew you could. i have good days and days i slip but the important thing is to keep on going no matter how the day went.
tommorow is always a new day.

take care and hang in there my friend.

Hi Claire;
I was going to tell you that I can't believe some of the people in Edmonton! Then Lee said everyone must look like Kenny. When i was coming home from work it was "up" to -25. When I stopped at red lights I couldn't believe it, so many people had no hats or gloves on & jackets unzipped! When do people finally admit it's cold here? anyway, my car doesn't agree with the Edmonton weather. second day in a row it wouldn't start after school, so I took it and traded it for an Alberta car, with a block heater. So, if you look like Kenny ,good for you!
Pat

Hey Pen!

Glad you had a good day!

Keep it up!...Soon the scale will go down!

mcmarto

bedtime !

and a great day !!

except for the freezin cold

Pat, if I didnt plug in my old truck, it wouldnt start either

and so many accidents on the roads... you can hardly see with all the ice fog in am and pm

I stopped at superstore after work in my funky colored snow boots and parka hahhaha I was warm !! driving by bus stops and people are standing there BLUE in light clothes... thin sneakers

crazy


they will be lined up at the pharmacy soon, not us !

I am smiling , I feel like I have run a marathon.. thats how hard it has been to get a grip

I am holding on like crazy now !!!!

My mini goal is to wear my jeans in march (the day I joined here)

I know I can do it

I am a few pounds up over 270 but will be back there soon... just losing the bloat will do that

then a couple months to get into my jeans


gonna get to the gym once it warms up to -20 hahaha


I know I will

I feel it... I feel the urge more than i feel the fear.. and I have not been able to honestly say that for a very very long time


when I lose the parka... I would love to see a body taking shape


I CAN

and


I WILL


Sweet Dreams All


:hug:


Peng

You will make your goal now Claire. You have the desire back. I'm so glad for you. You've remembered anything is possible.

Darlene :hippy:

That's always been my problem Claire, when I lose the parka, I'm always shocked how much excess blubber it hides! Then I think, why didn't I get this under some imatation of control before April!
How this time will be different and I'll look forward to wearing lighter clothes.
Pat

Great...positive attitude!

I know you can...and...will do it!

We can all be lighter for Spring!

mcmarto

hope this post finds you all smiling !

I had a good day again... nice to peice a few of them together finally

feels like the old days almost lol

started with bird seed & yogurt again
I am having a toasted multi grain bagel every day for lunch with turkey, and veg in it... and steamed veggies

soup at nights as it is warm, filling, and loaded with veg

had 3 mandarin oranges too

will have a glass of skim at bedtime..

funny thing is.. I really LIKE this food

why the hell do I go to food I dont like as much and likes ME even less


silly


anyhow


cleaned for a couple hours.. I am sure the dogs went into hiding when the vacuum fired up...I use it so seldom hahaha

little steps

the first week is tough as I want to see instant results.. thankfully I have a few brain cells returning to working levels and I can realize what is not realistic


each day has me feeling stronger

I am taking the pressure off.. I am happy drinking my water and making better choices

by the time evening comes now...I really dont want to blow it.. I am tired of the old cycle I fell into... I made changes almost a year ago for good reasons


I dusted off the jeans again.. wont try them on till back to 260, where I was when I had my mini mid life crisis


would be nice to wear them on march 29th... my year anniversary here


one day at a time

together



:hug:



Peng

was reading today about Nell Carter dying

54 yrs old

overweight, diabetes, her ol ticker had had enough I guess

I always tell myself "you don't see many old fat people"
sounds harsh but it is reality

I dont know any fat old people either

but I do know of fat people who died before thier time


I don't want to be on that list


I really don't


I would rather wait till god is ready for me...

Hi Claire.

I too was very sad to hear about Nell Carter. I find it hard to believe.

Your words are so very true. There are so few fat old people. Some how I don't think they reach a magic age and lose it all. No, I think there lives are cut short.
Thanks for pointing this out to me. I really hadn't thought of it like that. You know, being young, you think you'll last forever. Not true. I don't want my life cut short.

I'm so glad you're string those days together now. Funny how we know these things are good for us, and we enjoy then, but we fight against them. Just doesn't make sence. Wish I could have that same resistence to chocolate LOL

This is something that I have started doing. You may want to try it too. I think of all those trouble foods, the ones I need to stay away from, and imagin them to be poison. I mean take a bite and die poison. Maybe my brain will catch on that it's not something I want. You know, kinda like teaching a baby the stove is hot.

Heres a peice of info for ya. Did you know that icecream (the cheap kind anyway) is made with anti-freeze? I kid you not.
I guess my poison theory isn't so far fetched eh?

Any who, I'm writing more in your journal then I did in my own LOL.

Got to go walk the treadmill

huggggs,

Darlene :hippy:

Antifreeze? Yuk.

You know, Penglette? I hadn't really thought of it that way either. You really do rarely see obese older people. I'm with you. I don't want to go before my time, just for a few Bagel Pizzas. That would be dumb. I'm lucky enough to have long-life genes in my family. Hell, my great uncle was 106 when he died! So, why would I want to mess things up for myself!

Thanks for enlightening me, yet again. You are a gem.

Have another wonderful day. You deserve a very long string of them.:x

Hi Claire, :wave:

Just stopping by to see how you are doing. I too read about Nell Carter passing .... that is something I as a diabetic am constantly aware of ..... how heart disease, liver disease and blindness can occur because of the diabetes. It is like playing Russian Roulette ... and quite honestly I am too old to be so dumb.

If it helps others realize by hearing of Ms. Carter's death that being overweight CAN KILL YOU ... then she didn't die in vain. Sometimes it takes a wake up call (like the one I received) to realize that food shouldn't take a precedence in life.

Make it a great day ..... KEEP MOVING FORWARD AND FOCUSING ON YOUR GOALS TO SUCCESS ... SUCCESS IS SOMETHING YOU CAN AND WILL ACHIEVE ..... one day at a time (one meal at a time). As always, Monica

I dont leave till after 11 today as I am working nights today and tomorrow

snowing like hell outside...and cold... roads are gonna be nasty... my truck is great but it is the drivers with bald tires and no brains that are the problem.. I leave space between me and the guy in front and some idiot cuts in front

:(

anyhow

slept later as I actually cleaned last night

what a concept

it WILL be a good day today too !

Nell Carter also had a nasty cocaine and alcohol habit earlier which must of tried her heart... and the obesity just added

I have longevity in the women of my fam too (sis died from complications of malpractice) but they were not obese


You just dont see obese old people
not ones without oxygen and a wheel chair any ways

but really.. my one grandma was in 80's when she passed and my other grandma is well into her 90's .. both have a few pounds but the kind that come that age... not fat


anyhow


so good to see you all


it will be a great day


stay warm



:hug:


Peng

Hey...you are doing great!

Keep up the good work!

Did you find your boys?...Olive hides too when she hears the vacuum...heeheehee!

mcmarto

Hey there! Sounds like you have been eating great! Way to go!... Hey no more of this morbid talk people! :tongue:rotest: We need to focus on the positive! We are making the changes that we need to make. Going for the healthier, focussing on the diet and excercise and how we are as human beings. Let's enjoy our lives and our journeys not think about when it's going to end! :lift: we can do this! One day at a time! :flower:

lol

true betty lol

I dont fear dying so I guess it doesnt seem too morbid, but you are right, and I DEF prefer to enjoy today than fear tomorrow

It did make me think though

My food has been great.. the little steps are close to being a weeks worth

got on scale and no fireworks though, I have to remeber it takes a bit to get moving and my eating was so bad my body just has that little adjustment stage... then it will start moving

maybe by then my city will be drivable again


boy was it nasty, still is

we sure needed the snow though... drought conditions are terrible !


I sure have been moody... I am working to keep the anger in check but really... what a b i t c h

still fighting change I guess

but making progress


stressed at work but popping gum in my mouth when i find myself automatically reaching for food... I can sometimes only realize I have popped something in my mouth when swallowing it

crazy

but

this week has been deep fry free !!


yippee


yesterday I felt really hungry and had a huge healthy lunch

my cals 2 days before that were only around 1200 hundred and that is too low for me

I remeber hitting my stall at over 300 pounds last time with too low of cals... so just adding a bit here and there


I KNOW I WILL START SHEDDING POUNDS AND INCHES


one day at a time



I am working late again today


I hope I am off tomorrow

should be ok


I will have good days off now that my energy has improved with better food choices

it really helps my mental attitude and I can get rid of more biotchiness getting some clutter cleared



anyhow



hope you all have a marvelous day !!!!




and lovely weekend



:hug:



Peng

Hello Pengii :wave:

It's so good to see you are doing so well again. Back on track and making progress. WTG lady!! :)

I have been struggling with myself for weeks now. Got the water going down real good. Doing great with my exercise. Just having a hard time getting the eating under control again. Not that all my choices are bad ones, but still too much, for sure. Talk about portion control.............I feel like I'm eating for two, and that's just imposible.

Oh well, maybe it will all come together for me next week. But you got it together already, and that's a beautiful thing.

Woo hoo Claire............good for you.

Keep smiling............... :)
Sandie

You are doing great Pengii!

****** or not...thin is always better!...hahahahaha!

mcmarto

I don't know, I've always found *****ing a good calorie burner!
pat

Wow, look at that, I've been censored by a machine! I actually spelled the b word out.
Pat

Hi Pengii!

Deep fry free week, good job!

Gum is a tried and true weight-loss mechanism, you know. Nothing wrong with it. You know all those people that use it to help stop smoking, too? Gum can be good stuff.

The fireworks will come, you've seen them before. I'm looking forward to seeing them, too!

Take care, chica.

You've got that great attitude back that I love. :up: Like your new signature line too... not sure how new it is but it's the first time I noticed it lol.

There was a little girl at the library today, maybe 3 years old, sitting with her Dad, who was using the Internet. He needed help with something so I was leaning over her chair doing that, and she looks up at me and opens her mouth huge and says "Gum!" I said, "Oh, you have gum! What flavor is it?" She replied "White!" I laughed and asked what did it taste like... and she said "Hot!" I don't know why, but that struck me as hillarious... Kids are so silly sometimes!

Have a great Sunday, Pengii!

Lisrey :x

Hey Pengii,

Hasn't the weather been terrible. You are right though that we need the snow and that is good.

Glad to hear that you are doing so great. I know you will be much happier. And that makes us happy too.

Nice to see you are doing good.
;)

So nice to see you snappy, oh ah I meen happy :D

hehehe, just kidding.

I'm so glad your back on track.

We can do it!

B!itchen or not, we'll do it.

have a good one

Darlene :hippy:

I hope you all know how wonderful you are !!

Realized it was saturday on way home and I am only one day short of a great week !!

WOOOHOOOOOO

It all felt so helpless and you all helped me get over it and move on

Me and my ticker thank you !!

was stupid busy 11 hrs for me today

ate my good breakie (all bran w bit of quaker harvest crunch & yogurt... some dried cranberries and couple almonds on top)

then no reg meal sfter that

ate a motuhful of beef... grabbed a few steamed veg

ate half of one chicken breast stuffed w spinach mousse I made

and a small bowl of the bread pudding w creme anglais I made

so cals will prob be around 1400 but higher fat.. thats ok cause I still adjusted

no picking tonight.... I dont have the urge, THANK GOD


I am drinking a diet coke

I have been the last few nights to break myself of munching... so week coming up I will lose the late night pop and be just on water

I realized this am that might be holding that big water weight up with all the sodium

no biggie as I really needed to get the munchies under control



I AM SO DAM GLAD TO IN MODE AGAIN


Pat, isnt it funny we cant say ****** but the osbournes and ANY media source is loaded with much more

oh well


I have to go feed my boys now

just got in a bit ago

wanted to let you all know ol Peng is on her way back


:hop:


:hug:


:hop:




Peng


xo

Good job Pengii!

You are on fire girl!...Keep up the good work!

To think...tomorrow will be one week!...One week closer to your goal!

Congratulations!

mcmarto

Hi claire
well I have missed you a lot. I am stickking my nose out from behind a kleenex and sending big hugs :hug: I am so proud of you for getting in the groove. I am going to get back into eating tomorrow and try to see how I feel next week and start sweating again.

I read about a lady on VF that lost 110 pounds ( started over 300 ) and went skiing for the first time in 7 years. It is stories like that !!!! I just love to read. You have a lot of things you want to do and so do I so lets try to keep together. I will try to pm more regularly now that I am out of the blues. Hopefully and out of this stupid flu.

Take care babe. I will be getting those weights out soon and getting going.

Love ya
CJ

http://www.nytimes.com/2003/01/26/nyregion/26FEAT.html

Something on gum for my little penglette...

I am so happy and delighted and ecstatic and relieved and giddy and insanely optimistic for you and for all your recent success!!!

Look in the mirror today and say, "Hey girl! You rock my world!"

Claire your doing so wonderful.

I am so glad you feel more in control.

we all have our good and bad days.

but we must keep pushing ahead no matter what,

i am so proud of you as always.

take care and have a great day! You deserve the best!

:cheer: GO PENGI GOOOOOOOO :cheer:

We are Here fo you! Your going to do this.!

had a great week

and weighed in this am

271

ok..was prob up more than I thought

I had hoped to see a loss that would have me smiling, but I guess I am happy I am not higher

kicked the scale across the bathroom and stomped off


that solved lots huh


so, will do the same again and I know the pounds will go... eventually

it is always tough when getting started again as I expect to see a loss when not eating crap... my bod is prob still sloughing off the crap I HAD consumed


anyhow

It was a good week, I didnt die from not having every craving satisfied and I enjoyed what I ate


add some exercise and I will be moving

I will remind myself that when my bod does kick in gear it will drop away... it has only been a week after all


that week seemed like a lifetime tough lol was pretty tough the first few days, but now that I have a few behind me, it is much better

exercise is greatly needed now... time to work it all together


chummers... that was gross lol doesnt anyone use a trash bin? solid gold gum display...only in NY :)

minnie... def pushing on !! we know the results when we work 100%

Maximum.. nice to see you too ! I would prob be looking at 280 if you all hadnt held me together

McPrettio... you getting moving too was awesome inspiration ! we will do this

CJ :hug: after booting the scale, I am using the clothes test too. I already went through the love/hate thing with my scale before and how clothes fit is a much better motivator

using DT to work on weight issues is why I joined and I am not giving an inch more to ignoring that

anyhow


have to go out and renew my vehicle registration and stuff today... not looking great outside but have to do it

thank god we are going into feb and only a couple months of this left

I WILL WEAR MY JEANS ON MARCH 29th... my one year anniversary since joining DT


I WILL


It is going to be a great week


I hope you all have an awesome one too !!!!


:hug:


Peng

I know you will Peng,

Oh, didn't you find some weights for a steel at a yard sale?????

:coach: Just me being pushy :D

You're doing great no matter what that scale says. I really am trying not to care to much what it says. I do what I need to do to be healthy, the rest will come.

I use to live by the scale god! Not no more. Up down, been all around. Don't care any more.

Have a good one.

Darlene :hippy:

yuppers Dar !

I got great hand weights and the only time I have picked them up is to move them from one spot to the next

used one to hammer once


I have no excuse except laziness



SO

with that said


my first week of conrolled eating has been accomplished

this week, I am going off the diet pop

I drank a 2 litre of diet vanilla coke each evening to break me of the picking thing

so... have one left and thats that

back to my monster mug full of ice and water

that is goal #1 for this week

goal #2 is to dust off the weights and my Vedryl book


I WILL DO THIS


one day at a time


together



:lift:



Peng

Dear Claire,

I had a couple of thoughts after reading your Journal entry ... and I would like you to think about it:

How about taking your measurements the first of every month ? ... the scale shows one set of #'s .... but more than likely you are losing inches .... AND THAT IS JUST AS IMPORTANT in your journey to success

If you are drinking Coca Cola (even Diet Coke) ... you are consuming sodium and caffeine ... that can have an effect because you will be retaining water -- you might want to try Crystal Light (I love their Peach or Raspberry Frost Ice Teas) .... it is 5 calories per 8 oz. glass ... and very little sodium.

In any event YOU HAVE NOTHING TO :whip: YOURSELF ABOUT; our success isn't determined in a day, week month etc.. OUR SUCCESS IS DETERMINED BY OUR COMMITMENT AND OUR FOCUS TO SUCCEED Make it a great day .... I will be back. As always, Monica

you are so very right Monica !

One thing I have learned the last yr is that the scale can not be the determining factor in my success

right now my clothes remind me of the dif between 259 and 271

I like doing measurements now and will do them feb 1 again

I know the pop was a killer for sodium.. but it is what helped me get over the first tough week of not eating at night

I have one bottle left and once it is gone...back to ICE WATER !!!!!!!

I cant say what got me to stop the terrible eating except the stronger desire to not binge

It felt hopeless again.. I just reminded myself that the feelings were the same as they were a year ago...only this time I was not going to give up


I remember encouraging Dar, Mc, and others to keep posting...even if binging or whatever

just not to give up


I was doing $hitty but could not give up.. I was sure close to it though


having this site made the dif..I know I have said that a thousand times... but it is the truth

having someone believe in you when you can't do it yourself is a huge thing


I was chatting with chummers today and going on about her just throwing the candy away before she could eat it

well, I have to get my weights out and just do it instead of letting them collect dust

just because I can't go to the gym right now...does not mean I can not exercise at all

I just have to do it !


I braved the roads today , got fuel for my truck and me.. I buy very little groceries as I eat at work... so bought a crab for 6 bucks and 5 oysters for $1.75

no junk


no diet pop


no temptation


I am just not strong enough to have it in house and not eat it yet


maybe I am but I dont need it

slurped the oysters

have brown rice cooking for dinner and am going to make a fried chinese cabbage to go with it

I use a tbsp olive oil, tons of choy, garlic, giner and onion


I went and vacuumed the laundry room and rug in basement and am getting out my weights and doing vedryl tonight


before dinner



PLEASE KICK MY ASS IF I DONT REPORT THAT I DID IT !!!!!!!



I KNOW I WILL HAVE A GOOD WEEK



I AM WORTH IT



:hug:


Peng



PS DARLENE LOST 4 POUNDS THIS WEEK !!!!!!!!

:hop: :dn :hop:

:D I bet you are walking on air today with your success!!!!!:cheers: How did you manage to lose 4 pounds in one week?? What's your secret! Spill the beans! and Keep at it YOU CAN DO IT!:sweety:

Hola, Pengii. I hope you broke that scale when you kicked it.

Oysters, mmmm. Slurp one for me, too, if you would.

I've got my foot poised for kicking. Don't make me use it!

I am going to do it today

hopefully it leads to another day


Bettyboop
I fiigured I better correct you quick lol

DARLENE LOST FOUR POUNDS !! AND I AM SO HAPPY FOR HER !!!!!!


but i did have a loss this week too I had been going up and down over 275 so I am down...just not sure


I am not as bloated. my rings are not cutting off my fingers this week lol



I am just so proud of darlene as she has had her share of $hit lately too and has managed to nt only grab on but get going !!

:flower:

INSPIRATION !!!!



have a great eve all


I will be back to log my exercise



xoxo

:o Oh Claire, how you do go on. LOL

I can't do it without you buddy. You, all of you keep me going. I come to your journals hearing of the good things your doing for yourselves and it gives me inspiration to do well too. And I read the trials and about the temptations, even failures, and that too helps me remember the pain. I don't want that pain so I must do all I can to hold on to what little I have. Does that make sense?

I'm so glad you're on the road to recovery. Yes, recovery, cause that's what it is isn't it? An addiction to food , lack of exercise and negative thinking?
Any way, (boy I can carry on, can't I LOL)

Hope to see you in chat SOON.

Darlene :hippy:

Water & weights. Those are excellent goals! I only drink water & have no trouble with that one, but I really couldn't get myself back on the weights thing, and I so wanted to be on it... So I joined Curves on Friday. Went tonight for my 2nd workout & really pushed it... feel good! You can do this, Pengii! It's what we need & we will leap this hurdle... even shorties like me can do it, lol! :o

Keep going -- we will get there!

Lisrey :up:

Pengii

Your quote on courage hit home. I live in this mindset of anxiety and worry over the what if's and not in the reality of what is.

Do I have the courage to walk the talk I give my son. It seems so odd to me that my son has had a significant weight loss for a 15 yr old and kept it off while I swing upward, unable to live the words of nutritional wisdom I gave my son.

So it is off to the gym tomorrow and made a food plan tonight. It is prioritizing my health. Some times when I'm tempted to eat I ask do you want to see your son grow up? For I want a quality to my life in my latter life. I fear this weight is going to limit my options even more as I age.

But what of quality am I leaving behind in changing my food selection and coping mechanisms for stress of life? What is the payoff? Yet there lies the crux, I use food to cope and procrastinate and comfort and etc, etc. But nothing of quality will be left behind and maybe the small child that hides inside will find the courage to voice her feelings or opinions when she feels slighted.

Courage, and breaking the habit of turning to food instead of feeling the emotions. Or creating other habits to cope with my stressors.

Pengii, as you catalog your day, take time to give yourself credit for the things you do get done. Often we focus on where we fall short and fail to hear the praise that others give us----discounting it as others being nice and not really meaning it. Seek improvement but acknowledge what you do get done.

How do you handle this cold. I have a down comforter on the sofa and while on the computer miss its warmth.

Was going to volunteer to work extra but right now have changed my mind. The extra money would be nice but I really do want to get some things done at home and really don't think this weekend thing will last that long.

Watching your successes.

Donna:wave:

Donna, I really think it is a matter of breaking things down into small, managable segments

the big picture is scarey

I have spent the last months worrying about the big picture, and gotten no where

breaking it down sure helped


SO... !!!!

I am so out of shape !!!!!!


I actually picked up the weights and used them for something other than home repair


forget the 8 pounders... I was rubber after the 3's and 5's

I only did 2 sets of ten on each upper body and back exercise


I could feel my muscles going "HEY....WHATS GOING ON!?!?!?"


I cant believe I actually did it

WOOHOOO for me !!


I will just keep adding up the small accomplishments !!!

food was awesome today !!



One day at a time


together



and no ones boot stuck up my ass


YAY !!!!! :cheer:

have a great tuesday all !!!!

WTG Pengii,

You deserve a BIG PAT on the back.. for dusting off your weights.. and getting out the book.. or video.. and doing the exercises.

I will be going back to the gym real soon.. as soon as I get everything packed and into storage.. which should be pretty soon. LOL but I keep procrastinating.. LOL but this too will end.. LOL I am on a deadline now.. LOL So that is what my exercise is consisting of..

Maybe next Sunday after my morning appointment, I will head out to the gym.. and.. do some swimming and if I get a chance during this week I will take 30 minutes and just DO IT..

I have been also pretty bad in drinking my water.. and I know better.. I keep the water pitcher in the refrig.. so it is always nice and cold.. I remember I was drinking lots and lots of water.. and I was losing alot faster. So.. thanks for bringing this to my attention.. :)

Well, thank you for.. dropping by my journal.. I apologize for not dropping in yours in a while.. but. I hopefully will get back in the groove real soon..

Take care.. and Plenty of Hugs.. coming your way.

Ducky

:o Oops bigtime! But hey you did lose weight and you broke out the weights.. way to go!!! Still plenty to celebrate!:dn Hey it's awesome to get over the bloatedness! That is a good feeling for sure! 5 pound weights are plenty I would think. That's what I worked out with last night and it was all I could do .. forget 8 pounders!:tomato: And food.. that is most important.. glad to hear you are in control! :hug: We're gonna make it! One day at a time, one step at a time... one meal...just never give up!:whip:

That's my Penglette. Lifting hammers would have been lighter, and lifting diet vanilla cokes would have been more fun, but my little Penglette, she lifted the BIG WEIGHTS, and thus, lifted my spirits and hers!!! Wahoo!!!! Yippee!!!!
:hop: :lift: :hop: :lift: :whip:
Atta girl!!!

Hey, btw. Stop talkin' 'bout my candy consumption in your journal. Pfffft.

Yeah baby!!!! :cheer:

you got to those weights. How great is that!

No boots in the bumm, that's a plus.

By the way, these boots were made for walkin, - the treadmill that is. LOL . Ok, not funny, to early in the morning for me I guess.

So proud of you Peng.

Darlene :hippy:

just a quick check in before work !

So nice to seeya all !

It is gonna be a good day !

Chummers... none of us got fat from eating carrots ... I will hunt out your candy and teddys !!!!!!!! THROW THEM AWAY !! lol :hug:


Maybe I could smash em with my dumbells ahahha


ok guys...pray I make it to work without an accident

nasty nasty roads !!!

on my list for today


WATER


no diet vanilla coke :(


using my weights for actual exercise again !


make it a good one guys!


:hug:


Peng

Yes...Yes...Yes!

You sound so great...go ahead...crush Chummers Teddy Grahams!

Hope you had a great day!

mcmarto

Ooh, those roads sound awful. Hope the idiots avoid you while you're out on the road.

Lifting weights -- good for you!

Awesome food -- good for you!

I've set my foot down.

A great day but work sucked

just how it goes huh

get one thing together and something else slams down

wont go into details... I will just pick up the pieces and move on

didnt eat over it

I am past that stage right now...today... in this moment

I realize the moment is all I really have...what I do in that moment does affect what comes next... but all I have is the moment

had cereal and yogurt for breakie..I am having a big lunch at work to keep cals up
had bowl of beef barley soup and a bagel sandwich w turkey and veg

was feeling low after work and just had a big salad with turkey and sprinkle of parm cheese


good enough

didnt feel like eating really

so am def in a dif swing of things


picked up my weights for just a short bit ...but did pick them up
is still cold so no walking but did shovel for half an hour


I want to work through th emotions with exercise...not food

food isnt working anymore...hasnt for a long time... just perpetuates the problem really

it is supposed to break soon (the $hitty weather) and I will be glad

was tough driving.. my 25 min drive takes close to an hour

the dogs are going nuts too

was only -20 today but wind was nasty

winter doesnt last that long though...and we needed the snow real bad


anyhow


I will wake up and smile,even if i dont feel like it


I will work through all the $hit and come out ok


I WILL



have a great wednesday all !!!!!!!

we can do anything we dream...together


:hug:



Peng

Hi Claire :wave:,

You are so right just when one aspect of our daily life goes wrong .... it upsets the whole day; I am so pleased :D that you didn't use food as a means to appease you.

You are proving that YOU HAVE LEARNED THAT FOOD IS NOT THE ANSWER OR SOLUTION. It must be so difficult not to exercise ... do you have exercise tapes that you can use inside. Bobbie (Jusducky) was nice enough to purchase a Leslie Sansone Walking tape for me .... and as a result I purchased her other tapes. They aren't as good as being out in the fresh air and enjoying a brisk walk .... but they do help.

KEEP MOVING FORWARD CLAIRE. You are going to achieve your goals .... make it a great day ... and take care of yourself. As always, Monica

The best thing for flowers to grow is the warmth of the sun, (heat from exercise) water, (water LOL) and $hit!

Makes the best flowers. The new variety this year is Pengii Roses. LOL

I hope that wasn't to dumb! LOL

Darlene :hippy:

Hey girl ... you are so right!

Don't eat cause you are feeling bad...or depressed!...

I doesn't work...only backfires and makes you feel worse!...

This is what I have been dealing with this...fighting off the thoughts that lead me to eat...dealing with them in another way!

and...its working!...

Keep up the good work!

mc

Hi there Pengii,

I see you are full of wisdom as usual. Life has a way of doing that to us. We'd be in a real sorry pickle if we didn't learn something along the way. So glad you are getting it this time around.

I'm on a new journey also. Relearning how to think positively so that I believe positively and therefore live positively. Make sense?

Take care lady. Spring is right around the bend, it's just a rather wide bend, that's all.........LOL

keep smiling .................. :)
Sandie

Pengii --- Your in the Zone!! Great words of Inspiration --- thanks for sharing here and in you PM. I'm taking things one at a time right now I'm working on a healthier diet and drinking my water.
Tonight I had Chicken Feta, something I use to pay big dollars for in a restaurant and started making at home. Of course it's not near as good as in the restaurant. My dog is just amazed that I'm actually cooking --- I love having a decent kitchen to work in.

Thanks again for the sage advice..... it helps a lot my friend.

Water pipes burst and what a mess. No, I didn't handle it well food wise and use it as an excuse NOT to go to the gym. $175 plumber bill and of course I am feeling anxious. The plumber somehow turned the cold water facet backward, I am not sure how he did this but hate having to complain over it. Just in the future if there is a problem, only this plumber has messed with this sink and facet---he installed it originally. The cold water facet was correctly installed until he got done with the repair today. My son pointed out that the water was backward ---to turn facet on you twist the handle as if you were turning it off.

No, confrontation isn't my thing but for the amt he charged it should have been done right.

Don't you have the freedom to do a new menu? Where are you feeling stifled?

You sum it up as work not great, but is there something that can be done to improve your creativity and maintain your skills.

A way to minimize your stress at work?

Free thinking your options, or maybe.

Are you thinking of looking for new position.

Watching your success,

Donna:wave:

yesterday is yesterday

Some days are just not as great as others...work or whatever

all in all I like where I am working... just the joys of working some days


had a great food day today

I actually am in my zone right now


cereal yogurt for breakie
salmon sandwich and steamed veggies for lunch
pork chop grilled, brown rice and a load of green beans

I am low in fruit..only had dried cranberries in cereal

veggies are great


so go