I feel like a crack addict back from a month long drug frenzy...

But I AM back. That has to count for something!

Yesterday I went shopping with my daughter and could not find a thing to wear that didn't look like hell. I felt myself slipping into a depression..you know the type where you want to eat chocolate, sleep and feel sorry for yourself?

But I figured I had done enough of that and it hasn't helped so far ...just made me fatter. And it wasn't like I was in bliss eating all that food. I felt overfull, bloated, miserable...and after awhile I was just eating out of habit or addiction or something. I wasn't even really enjoying it. JUST like a drug addict that keeps chasing that high by increasing amounts.

So here I am. I made a food plan for today and have actual plans to EXERCISE! (imagine that)

Looking forward to getting back in the swing of things. I have no idea what I weigh but I promise to get back on the scale...after awhile.

It feels good to be back

Hey Suz welcome back. As you could see from my journal you weren't the only person to go astray over the holidays. At least that is behind us now [if your like me the food I ate really is behind me :D ]

X-country skiing is a lot of fun. If I can beat the snowmobilers out to the trails after a big snow I like snowshoeing even better. If you find somewhere around where you live to try it, give it a shot. You get outside, and you burn around 400 calories in an hour :)

Hang in there with your weight loss. We'll both get through this.

I know what you mean .. we've all been there before! To reduce that bloatedness, eat pineapple or drink chinese tea or eat less carbs. I know that feeling bloated gives you that 'FAT' feeling that ends up depressing you. So hang in there and eat right!

Thanks for the encouragement :) I do feel a lot better since I stopped eating all that crap. Amazing what we will do to our bodies.

todays menu:

Breakfast: bagel with jelly
orange juice

2 expresso fudge mocha melt candies (my weakness)

Lunch: Lean Cuisine Thai Chicken

Snack: Smart Pop Popcorn

Dinner: Lean Cuisine Beef Pot Roast
Mandarin oranges

Snack: Starbucks Fudge Mocha Bar

Points: 24 (my range is from 20-25)

Exercise night!!!!:c(

That's great that u stayed within your points! Good job on the eating! Did u do any exercises?

I left you along message about how good you are doing and that I'm proud of, and about how your supposed to be having fun with your exercising, but it got booted ???

Anyway all the above :)

amazingly enough...I HAVE exercised!

Feeling better, more in control. My eating wasn't perfect today, but when will it be? I am just excited to be "on my way"

Suzannah...I know how you feel after December...I gained 11 pounds in November and December. I felt bloated, enervated and completely without redeeming qualities, not to mention restricted to a minor portion of my wardrobe. I have been back on plan with the Atkins diet since January 2, and I have lost 4 pounds so far. I have also completed 5 workouts. I feel better physically and mentally I am a whole other person. You will feel so much better a week from now, just be consistent! You can do it!

Artsy is right...I DO feel 100% better when I am eating right and exercising. The last few days have been pretty good. Eating mostly healthy food...walking on the treadmill...doing stretching and yoga. The only down side was that today was my weigh in day and for my very first weigh in of the New year I gained a pound. I am not going to let it get me down though. It is a bad time of the month for me and I am feeling bloated. Plus, I just feel too good to dive into the M&M's and ruin it all now!!!

Plan for today:

Breakfast : 1.5 cups Corn Chex
1/2 cup skim organic milk
1/2 cup of calcium fortified orange juice
1 Prozac

Lunch: Chicken with Wild Rice soup
Clementine

Dinner: (at the Outback)
Salmon (1/2 portion)
1/2 baked potato
Salad...real dressing on the side

Snack: Java Fudge Ice Cream Bar


Here we go....

Hi Suzannah, u r doing great! Hey, I haven't lost any yet but we will keep on trying! Keep up that positive spirit.

My God Suz you've pulled it back together. I am very proud of you. I've been meaning to stop in, but the last few day it was all could just post my own Journal :( I really wanted to thank you for your support, I've really needed it.

By the way...see we told you :ex: was fun :D

Well..its been up and down.

For the most part I do pretty well.....yesterday I lost a battle with a bag of M&M's though!:(

My biggest enemy right now is exhaustion. My daughter is home from college until 1/20 and she wants to go everywhere and do everything in the time she has left. <LOL> I feel like I have to go to my second job (her) when I get home from my first. But in truth, I love it...we are having so much fun. It's just that I am so damn TIRED! Also she wants to go to the chocolate factory this weekend and of course out to all her favorite restaurants!

I know, I am sounding like an indulgent mom. I am. :) She goes to school in CA right now and I am living in OH so I hardly ever see her.

Last night we stayed up coloring mandalas and doing tarot readings...

I think it would all be fine if I didn't have to work <LOL> Which reminds me, I should go there. I just bought Lean Cuisine and Smart Pop popcorn . Going out for dinner tonight after group to a place known for its desserts. YIKES

Hi Suzannah, that's great that you are spending time with your daughter despite having to work 2 jobs. It must be hard on you. It's so nice to hear that you have a close relationship with your daughter.