There is going to be a new me in 2003

I do not know were to begin, but all I know is I feel like I am ready, I help and this time I am not going to be afraid to ask for it.

one thing is for sure if ever you guys want to talk to me I need the help
Please feel free to email me anytime
email is Alewicki@beaconfederal.com

Right now I am on my lunch hour
my computer at home is dead but I am looking to get a new one
but I am trying

Have a great weekend, I miss everyone

Anita

Hey Anita!

I had that same epiphany a few days ago also. I don't know whether I feel refreshed because its a new year or what, but I really do feel ready to get this stuff off of me! Glad to see you do also. Good luck!!

Take care.:hug:
Kelly

Well I am ready but I just do not know were to begin. I mean yea I do but I do not, last Monday I started to go to the gym. and I brought healthy food to work all week, and I would say that is a start. and you know I feel good about it...
The weekends are always the toughest.. so that is why I am only going to comit to doing the best I can

Hope everyone has a great weekend
See you soon

Hello Anita, Hope you have good luck with your food plan also hope you have a GREAT weekend. Ruthieb

Hello Anita,

so glad to see you back. i sure have missed you tons.

just take it one day at a time. i got off track for many weeks and didnt exercise and almost quit but i refused to go down in defeat and picked myself up, dusted myself off and got moving again. i will never quit this fight and i will reach goal this yr no matter what.
i have started exercsing again and following my plan and started losing again( ihad gained over the holidays)

you will do fine. if you need me you know where to find me and i will be checking in on you as well.

take care and enjoy the weekend.

Sandy You are truly a friend, and I am glad to see you are back with it. I mean I know that is one of the reasons why I got back to this web, I mean there are so much out there. and you determination along with others is a inspriation to me...
We will make it.
this year and I am going to admitt, but I do not want to sound like I am whinning. but I am going to be 40 next week, now I know I can not be 100 pounds lighter by then but at least I want to feel goo about my self. cuz right now I am having a hard time dealing with the fact but.. hey that is life.
Also next new years eve my brother inlaw is getting married, and my husband is best man. Now I am not going to be in the wedding party but I want to look so good for my husband. that is all I long for. but I long for to feel good and do this for my self too.
I guess one day at time right

Well thanks to all for the support. I will check in later
have a great day,it is snowy and cold here. and I am stuck inside cleaning.. (thank God there is not food in the house to binge on)

Well my weekend was not too bad, I did not binge that is a plus for me, but my dear Hubby had to make brownies to watch the foot ball game and of course I dove into them, I did not even want them, but that was yesterday and I am putting it behind me and I am going to move foward.

Tonight I am going to the gym... I am going to do my treadmill for 20 mins and x-traninger for 10 and the bike for 10,

getting back into it feels good

I do need help I just need diet program. and I got to find one fast. LA weight loss is good but I just can not afford it .
Weight Watchers is good, but I hate the points thing.
Ok I am whinning
:c(
but I am going to look hard
Oh to top everything off My AOL cut out on me. :c( but It will be back on next week, but if you want you can always aim me at crunchgirl6
Have a great day

Hi Anita, welcome back. Good job on the exercise and I look forward to reading more of you in your journal!

Hello Anita,

oh yes those choc brownies are simply irrisistible but now in the past.
you are doing well and not binging and i am proud of your efforts.

the exercise will help too.

i was going to suggest ww but you said you dont like the points. but you will find a plan thats right for you.

one day at a time is all it takes.

take care and talk to you soon.

I am so glad you all stopped in and gave me some words of encourgment. you truly do not know how that makes me feel. the weekend went good, I did not binge or anything I know that finding a plan will come but right now I have more on my plate then I want to eat.. I lost my job yesterday and I did not see it coming, I just do not know why I had to get fired, I will tell you all I am not embarrased at all, you see I work in a bank (mortgage departmen) and well my husband has an account there too. well they say they pull audits once and a while and they found out that I use my husbands debit card, and I signed some slips, I said yea I do when I go to the grocery store (my name is not on his account ) we never got around to get me on there.. well anyways I said he is my husband and he allowes me to do so. and they said that was fraud and if I do that what would I do at work, I told them I have been in banking for 12 years and not once would I ever steal or cheet, and or ever thought of it...
but they said that they could not keep me.
so that was that.
I am speachless right now, all I did all day was lay around the house I did not get in the shower till 1pm, went to the store cuz I had to get a shirt for my daughters concert tomorrow. and now it is 4 and I just want to get back on the couch. my hubby will be home soon, kids are home and I could care less what we eat for dinner, I do not even feel like eating.
Sorry for whinning
but you know, I am going to try.. I am going to keep plugging

I have to for the new me in 2003... I said that same thing in 1993 and there was a new me in 93 and I can do it in 2003..
Ok I better get going
Thanks everyone for your support

Anita,

I am so sorry you lost your job . I know how upset you must feel.
some rules are simply ridiculous since you are married.
when me and hubby were applying for medical benefits we needed to change doctors cuz the one we had was leaving the practice and we needed the name of the new doctor on the cards. well they made the change for me over the phone but wouldnt let me do my husbands. they wanted him to have a paper notorized and he finally called them and they still were giving him trouble so i got on the phone and started yelling and it was handeled but the whole point of being married is also the security to share things jointly including accounts and such.

Hope you find a new job soon. appparently your job and the bank wasnt deserving of you and somewhere else will be lucky to have you.
did you work at the same bank for 12 years? Just curious.

take care and you will be a new person in 2003 like you want to be.

I will be thinking of you and if you need me feel free to pM me or e-mail me at KandyKiss31@aol.com

Hello everyone, First Sandy no Thank God I only worked there 6 mos, but this bank has been around for years and I always knew of them, they use to be a credit union then changed over, I really thought working for a "small" company would be good. guess not..

Well good news.... :cheer: I did something good for my self to start this weight loss. you know when you get on the main page and you see those advertisments.??
Well I saw the one to download the Personal traniner one.. so I downloaded it. it has all this stuff that keeps track of what you ate and your excercises and all, gives you tips. and tells you how much cals you ate and burned.
I am really excided because it is a start.. and I would not of known about it if it was not for DT... Thanks DT

And a nother postive thing, I did not binge last night, I had pop corn as a snack, no butter, and today I am doing great so far..
well it is only 10:20am but so far so good

Well I am off, I told my Mom I would stop by.. Of course I have to hear the letcher she is going to give me.. 40 years old and I still get talke to... by mom 8-|

have a great day everyone..

Anita,
I am so sorry you lost your job! Wonder if it had been your card and your hubby used it if the results would have been the same. Sometimes I think rules are made for the convenience of the company and not for the population at large.

I know how tough it is to started on a program. Have a little trouble myself with the surgery and all the jazz. But just have to keep trying until you finally hit that point of no return. Then you will wonder why it was ever so hard.

My DH does a lot of junk eating and that makes it tough for me at times. Not like he has to have it just a habit of eating junk at work. Now this morning he told me he was starving!! His weight is perfect!! Sometimes spouses don't realize what they does has an effect on us whether we want it to or not!!

Well hang in there and remember we are all here to help out and listen when you need to vent. You are not whining!! I think we all have been where you are and some of us are still there. But hey we all work together and good things happen!!!!!!!

Love and hugs,
Lizzie

Hey guys. well another postive thing for me, I got the never up to step on the scale why I was at my Mom's now her scale is talking and elect. read out. well I stepped on and it said 240 I said NO. NO NO. batteries must be going. then i got back off and on and it said 276, I did that 3 times and each time it said that. but at least it did not say the 287 like I thought it was going to say, I was pleased about that...

I have been doing good kind of sort of on my food plan, I have the stomic bug and I am not eating food, just jello and broth, and going to the bathroom every two seconds. yesterday was worse then today. I was in bed at 8 with the chills and shakes and ohhhh :sick: it was bad
but I am feeling better right now...

This weekend is Birthday weekend, We are having Sarah's party tomorrow at chucky cheese she will be 4 on Wednesday, my step son will be 10 on Sunday and on Monday yours truly will be 25


Plus 15 :c( boo hoo
but i am not going to let it get to me... it is just a number like the one on the scale. right???/

Have a great weekend everyone

Hello and I must say the weekend went ok, I did not over eat. or anything, I feel kind of out of it not having a plan, I mean a food plan, so I did another positive thing, I joined E Diets. I do not know if most of you know what it is like but I love the fact that they have a food plan for you, Yea it is like ww. but this cost I could not pass up. I am really going to stick to it and keep coming here too for the support. I know they have support groups and stuff and messege boards but it looked too confussing for me right now, besides I love everyone here..
Well, I just wanted to pass that on.
I would like some input from you guys and let me know what you think of E diets..

Thanks

Hello Anita,

great job on finding a diet plan.

your headed in the right direction. you came back here knowing you want to keep fighting and then you found a plan and are doing so good.

i am so proud of you Anita for not giving up and hanging in there. sometimes its hard to do when were stressed but your doing great.

take care.

Hello everyone. well all the birthdays are over, My step sons, mine and my little girls, so no more cake in the house, I must say I did ok, I did have a piece of my little girls cake but that was it.
Today when I was making her lunch I wanted to pig out on the rest of the cake but I just keeped telling my self NO no no

The E diets food plan is really good, I am getting to know it and I am going to start to really follow it more and more. well I ahve been following it and it is going easy.
Also Good news. I am goiing to be going for my RealEstate Sales person Licences. and Coldwell Banker. has agreed to hire me on once I pass the test and go into there 4 week traning class, and then I will be a real estate sales person, I am so happy and so looking foward to it. the class is the first week in March, so between that time and Now I am going to be really focusing on getting my diet and personal self in order. I feel much better now
Well, I only had a sec to talk, I am at the Library cuz we are with out internet service cuz we signed up for Verison DSL and it will not be hooked up till Monday.
Well Hope everyone has a great weekend, I will chat with you all soon