well here i go again. i have 150lbs to loose. i finally figured out a few things about me. number one is i need to do this for me.....i an this time. faced with the knowledge i will be 40 in august. i thought iam no spring chicken anymore. i do have diabetices hight blood presure-pain in the knees and my back. iam sure this should come as no big surprize too many. due to my weight.
i have the support of my family which is great. after the holidays and eating what ever i wanted i found i had gained back what little i had lost plus more...i also found my blood sugars were way to high.. i was not happy. i thought wow i need insilin and perhaps a gastric bypass....... i had to do some real soal searching.... whats my promblem when am i eatting all this stuff.. well my husband is a trucker and leaves most evening so iam alone at night. i realized as soon as he would leave i would eat not out of hunger just from being lonley i guess. i also would use food as a lets treat me thing.. i would also eat to much potatoes of cookies things like that.
i did my soal searching and decided enough was enough....i started back on my diet again i guess now its been 2 weeks..i was over 350 by the scale. now iam down too 344. a small step but it took work. i was walking around the block each morning. its so cold i knew it wouldnt last long. well i did something i never thought i would do.. i joined a athetletic club. now dont be shocked. i dont do the machines. i do however walk 1 mile and swim 45-60 4 times a week i have limited membership so its only mon-fri i can go. i feel that that should help me.when i swimming i feel free my joints dont hurt me at all. after iam done i relax in the hot tub it great...
i was afraid to do this. me in a swim suit with no cover. i thought i would die. well i didnt. i was always ashamed of my large arms, i was sure the room would break out in laughter as i entered the place. i still wonder when someone will say the word fat in my direction and hurt my pride.
my husband and i have been maried 17yrs july and he loves me. he says i am beautiful and he makes me fee3l as if iam. he is so good to me. i feel if anyone should be rude its there promblem iam sure it would hurt me but ive been hurt many times.
i wont get to many more chances to loose this weight. my body cant take to much more abuse. iam comming out to fight and win this time.
dizzy

Hi dizzy,

Good for you joining the gym, and I know how it feels to wonder what the "public" is thinking, but you know what I found? I had many people tell me "after the fact" that they admired what I was trying to do for myself, but didn't know how to express it without sounding like they were calling me fat. So all the time I spent wondering what "they" thought, "they" really were silently cheering me on.
So you go out there and swim and walk and remember that you're doing it for you! :)

Check you out later,

Donna

Hey Dizzy, you go girl! Congratulations on your courageous start. I know how you feel about fearing comments from the public - I have big arms too and have now decided to focus on looking forward to the day that i can wear short-sleeved tops without anxiety, rather than agonising about what other people might be thinking. If they don't like it they can just stop looking!~:D
You sound like you are really making progress with your attitude by joining the health club and going swimming. Keep up the fabulous work :flower:.
cheers,