Maybe if I kept my teeth gritted together, I'd not eat so much...

Anyway, here goes. I'm going to give this journal thing a try and will be brutally honest. I've NEVER been with the amount of food I eat or the (lack of) exercise I do daily.

Today I've been spring housecleaning, so I've moved, carried and tossed stuff from my whole house and garage.

I actually didn't eat as much as usual, and ate at regular times, only because I was so busy. I HAVE to get this house in order, for me, but also because I want to have a dinner party in a month. I so want to be able to open any drawer or closet or cupboard and see tidiness! I also want to lose about 20 pounds by then, but I'm a realist about my weight, if nothing else.

I'm sick of Honey Baked Ham as that's about all I've eaten today, except for some oatmeal this morning. I've had lots of water.

My dangerous time is late at night or in the middle of the night, since I'm an insomniac.

This will be interesting..............:D

Hi Jano,
Just wanted to stop in and say Good Luck. Sounds like you have had a busy day. Sometimes, keeping busy is the only way not to think of food.
I have every confidence that you can do this.......we all can. Keep going....I will check back in again.


Vickie:coach: :dn

Jano, a few things: first, welcome to Diettalk! This is a great place to come to post in your journal, get some ideas, motivation, etc.
Second, I think you're right, 20 pounds in 1 month may not be do-able safely!
Third, when you get finished cleaning your house, want to come do mine???? :D
:rose:

Thank you for your welcome messages! It is such a new feeling that I am not in this alone. I know I'm okay and a nice person despite my extra tonage, but I find little to no support from my (offline) friends.
I'm going to post in my journal daily and face the amount I eat.
I think I am now going to adjust my desired weight up a bit. I'm dreaming and I'm going to start being more realistic about my goal.
Yikes, julie! I HATE housework and spring cleaning. I have to keep telling myself I have to do this at least every three years to avoid clutter.

3 times a year??? Oh boy, am I in trouble! I didn't know you were supposed to clean THAT often!!! :D (LOL)
:rose:

Hi there!:wave: Good luck keeping your teeth gritted together :D that was cute. No worries on being honest in here.. we're all in the same boat or we have been and we can all relate. You won't feel any judgements or slights here.
Way to go on the housecleaning! I need to do some of that myself but I'm satisfied if I can get out and get in a good walk.. I'm no Martha Stewart and I'm ok with that.. if I do one thing towards my house a day that's great. I'm trying not to set too high of goals for myself so that if I don't reach them I feel like a failure. That is what I have done in the past. I wish you all the success in the world. :gflower: welcome!

Hi Jano, welcome to DT. If you stick with it I am sure that you will find tons of support and motivation here. I'm with you on the spring cleaning. I am slowly working my way through the house and I feel much more in control when the chaos has been tamed. i have been throwing so much junk out (all the "oh i can't get rid of that I might need it in 10 years"stuff!!) - it is incredibly liberating. A really good site to help with getting cleaned up and organised is www.flylady.net .
Good luck with your efforts :flower:

Here I am up in the middle of the night and I have not immediately gone to the fridge to drown myself in carbs for their ability to make me sleepy again. Okay, so I'll lose some beauty sleep (snort!) but I'm NOT going to eat in the night any more!!!
Pouncermom! Three TIMES a year?? Heavens! Every three years is pretty darned good for me to liberate myself (Thank you Marmalade! That is a good way of putting it)
BettyBoop, I salute you for losing those jean sizes! That is inspiring! A big Woo Hoo from me to you!
Funny you should mention Flylady.net, Marmalade, I like that site. It is funny how keeping your kitchen sink clean at all times
is also liberating.
I have to quit buying STUFF
I like "Choosing to Lose in 2003" I've been telling my husband my motto is "A New Me in 2003" Think I'll go add that to my signature line.
I've got to keep myself busy. I'm going to do this!:D

Ok ok I confess.. they are stretch jeans:D but confidence is confidence and I feel so much better now! ehhe.. I am walking daily and keeping track of my food intake and trying to keep from it in the evening as much as possible.. That is a good plan Jano.. definately. Well I hope that you aren't losing any sleep over this because that wont help.. I've been there and all it does is get me more upset about everything and less able to do anything about it and if there is one thing I have learned talking about doing something and actually doing something about it are two different things and one makes me feel worse and one better....So good luck on your journey I'm right there with ya.:snow:

Hi Jano :wave:

I am so glad you decided to to post a Journal ... as you see many others have visited and WILL BE HERE TO SUPPORT AND ENCOURAGE YOU IN ACHIEVING YOUR GOALS

We're like a family here at DT .... we have our ups and downs but in times of need .. WE ALL COME TOGETHER TO SUPPORT EACH OTHER.

I need to go over to my own Journal now ... but again welcome to the Journal forum .... KEEP MOVING FORWARD ... YOU WILL AND CAN DO THIS .... one meal at a time, one day at a time

As always, Monica

BettyBoop, you and your jeans, stretchy or not, are an inspiration! My major goal is to add a signature line that proclaims my downward size! I have also decided to quit talking about losing weight and DO IT. I shall confine my comments to my Diet Talk friends, as I can't relate to the ones I see every day. They have not been encouraging as a rule, and find my weight gain embarrassing. THEY'RE embarrassed?!
I'm am heartened by the support from you in these journals. :D

You know Jano, People who haven't been faced with the same problems can't relate to overweight. You know? I couldn't possibly relate to someone who had lost her parent to cancer because both of my parents are still alive; but I could feel compassion to them and I think that is one thing that is lacking in regards to weight issues. People see this as a preventable problem that we got ourselves into and don't take into affect medical issues, or biological genes, or depressions or pregnancies or just how life has a way of catching up to us.
I do think it has gotten better over the years probably because weight problems are much more prevalient with the lifestyle we lead as a nation but still if someone who is a normal weight tells us to "just lose weight" it isn't very helpful is it? I've also stopped trying to talk about it to my friends on the outside... it just brings me down. Here I can find solutions and get inspired and find support. Here we aren't alone and I'm rooting in your corner and saying We can do this! Together! If someone says I look good I say thanks.. I don't talk about weight unless they point blank ask me how much I've lost.. I'll answer questions because that feels good but offering up information on a platter only to get shot down is not my cup of tea and I've done it too many times in the past. Hopefully I have learned my lesson! Have a great day !:dn

BettyBoop, Truer words were never spoken! Please know that I will be rooting for you always.
It's weird. I'm feeling better about myself, since discovering such supportive friends in here, that I've felt in a long time. I was waaaaayyyyyyyy down there emotionally.
I'm also making better choices in whatever I stuff into my pie hole (sorry, I had to use that term. It is so stupid, I giggle everytime I hear or say it)
I live in Southern California where people tend to really judge you on looks, or at least the people I know. Bugs me...But I tell myself that I am a good and nice person and can always lose weight. They will be forever shallow.
Bye for now, Jano:D

Hi Juno;
Good luck with the spring cleaning. You should be up here in the deep freeze, we haven't even thought of spring yet!
I'm watching carbs too. I've never really liked fish, which is strange since I'm originally from the east coast. But today I had the greatest lunch: Bunch of salad greens from a big bag I got at Costco, then I threw in some green peppers and onion and celery, then put on Paul Newman's Oil & Vinegar dressing, then I opened a can of sockeye salmon and put some on top, and it was fantastic. So I'll pack the same for work tomorrow. I was getting sick of ham too.
Pat

Pat! I love the salad idea! I'm going to Costco tomorrow and purchase some of their salad greens. They're a great buy. I haven't tried Paul Newman's dressing, but will also check that out. I am always looking for new ideas for meals, epecially ones where I can get out of the kitchen FAST. Are you also keeping your fat level low? I find it's difficult to keep both carbs and fat low, though I think that's the healthiest way to eat.
As it is, I'm currently near Palm Springs (we move around a lot) where it's in the eighties. Where is Winter? Nearly alll the snow has melted from the mountain tops.
Yikes! I love hiding under my sweaters!
What sorts of things do you eat for breakfast? I usually eat an egg or two done in the microwave. Or just the egg whites and a bit of low fat cheese. Or I have a low carb, low fat shake.
Whenever my husband has a Subway sandwich, which he loves, I have one of their salads.
I also love sushi, but the carbs are a killer, as well as the salt.
Have a great Sunday, and thank you again for the salad idea!
I WISH I were in Alberta! So beautiful!
By the way, do you have Trader Joes up there? They now carry low carb bread. Haven't tried it yet...

Jano:D

hey Jano,
thank you for visiting my little ole journal. you've got a pretty good sense of humour there yourself:D . It's laugh or kill people I find and I'm not ready to be anyone's prison dolly just yet hehe.
I am having Pat's lunch today too! I have a big bunch of salad stuff left from last nite and I am going to dump a can of lemon pepper tuna on it and voila! I had egg for breakfast too (this is getting very spooky :ghost: ) - clearly great minds think alike.
I like you attitude about friends who don't understand - they will be forever shallow! I have a work colleague who, when she sees me eating something she doesn't approve of, rolls her eyes, sighs loudly and says "oh Kellie" - and I'm the b&*^%$ boss!!! Attitudes like that used to make me want to stay fat just to spite them :D , but hey, I was still losing in the end so I will also be gritting my teeth to get through this journey (so i don't go ballistic at anyone lol).
Hope you have a great Sunday.
Cheers,

Kellie, you make me giggle! It IS spooky that so many of us are about the same weight, too, though our heights differ a bit. Makes me feel that I am not only among friends, but spirits of the soul as well.
I have a particular "friend" who does the same: rolling her eyes. She also makes a point of mentioning diets, exercise and pointedly watching whatever I'm eating. I cannot STAND her.
You'd think I'd lose this lard just to spite her.....you'd think so anyway....
This has to be for myself, however, and my health, self-esteem, blah blah blah. I just have to do it.
I'm already eating better and these meal ideas are wonderful.

Jano:D

Okay, so I've put my puss on display. I don't look happy, and that's because I HATE having my picture taken. Blubber cheeks!
Butt, here's what I ate today, whilst moving LOTS around the house and garage doing spring housecleaning (which will probably take another two weeks to do a thorough job.:c(
Intake:
2 eggs scrambled with 1/2 oz low fat cheddar sprinkled delicately over the top.
Snack of low carb shake; orange
Chicken breast, brussels sprouts, small salad with cherry tomato, low carb dressing.
3 oz grilled salmon over Costco salad greens, NO CROUTONS-not even one bite!-low carb dressing; apple
KILLER low point in day: REAL COKE my husband brought back from golf game for me and I could not be impolite so I guzzled it right down.
will have another low carb shake later in evening if I really must!

Whew! This "purging" feels sort of good. I could never tell anyone else this stuff......

Jano, I saw one of your posts in another journal and I can really relate to your signature line. When I saw you'd started a journal I just wanted to come by and compliment you on it. I was unmotivated to lose weight for years and years. I wanted to lose it, but I just couldn't get inspired. One day somehow the lightbulb came on, and I realized I had just been making excuses the whole time. The only person who could change the situation was ME, so I decided to do it!

I've been working on this for nearly two years now. I'm slow but steady... and that's really the best way. The one piece of advice I have for you is this: stick with it. There will be elation when you lose, but there will be rough times too. Those will pass and become fewer and farther between if you look at the next day as a new opportunity, don't beat yourself up over mistakes, and keep plugging away. Little losses add up to big ones over time! I am living proof! :)

Welcome, and feel free to give me a holler if you need anything!

Lisrey :water:

Lisrey, Wow, you are a dear! Thank you so much for the encouraging words. Yes! you are living proof that steady goes it. I am SO impressed with, not only your terrific weight loss, but your wonderful attitude. I feel like printing out your message and carrying it around with me. I have been so down on myself for so long, I can only go up. I must look for the little changes in me that result from my new and improved eating plan and movement (I won't say the "E" word until I am actually doing some sort of regular "E", like walking, etc.
I will give you a holler again. Do you keep a journal?
I joined Diet Talk last March, then proceeded to gain a zillion more pounds while not so much as taking a peek into this web site. I was intimidated to tell you the truth. I didn't realize how caring the people are here. So glad I wised up this week and came back.
Have a good evening and hope to talk to you again soon.

Jano:D

Hi Jano...just stopping by to wish you success with your weight loss goals this year. I am a perennial dieter..."there is no before and after, there is only during". My thyroid gland quit when I was 23 and I have had a fight ever since then. Diettalk helps keep me focused and the online friends I have met help me stay motivated. They are kinder to me than I am to myself! I am doing the Atkins diet myself because it is the most successful for me and my hunger levels are lower than on traditional "balanced" diets. So far I have lost 5 pounds since Jan. 2...only 14 to go.

Take care...I will be here to cheer you on!

Hi Artsy! What are you doing up so late? Are you an insomniac like me?
I've spent so much time at Diet Talk today, but it's really helping me through these first few days.
Congratulations on your 5 pound loss!
I will be here to cheer YOU on, too.:D
Jano

hi jano, a belated welcome from another so californian..i have enjoyed reading your posts and getting to know you a bit..you are a most welcome addition to our little dt family...i can so relate to not talking about our journeys in the "real" world..i just consider what i do a delicious little secret that is for me to know and them to find out..only they wont...lol...for myself, i do low fat, exercise, and watch portions..im in this for the long haul..i just started a new goal of losing 10 pounds as my valentine's gift to myself...hopefully that will keep my eyes off those stacks of valentine candy we have to fight our way past in the stores!!!

Hi Fellow Southern Californian,
I love your idea about giving yourself a Valentines Gift of a 10 pound loss. too perfect!
Wonder if I can follow your lead...? A bit at a time is all we should expect from our selves as far as weight loss goes. 5-10 pound increments don't seem so daunting.
Of course, I'll just be happy if the scale doesn't go UP. (Snort!)
Have a good night and a Happy Monday. Hope to talk to you again soon.

Jano
:D

Hello,

I think i may give myself a challenge for Valentines day of if i lose 10 pounds by then, then i can buy myself something sexy to wear for that day.
i love challenges as they help keep me focused.

nice to meet you and have a good day.

Hi Minnie, Nice to meet you. I hope we all meet our Valentines Day Challenges. It's a great idea for a gift to ourselves.

Jano

sounds great you two..i have a thread about the valentines gift idea at the DDDD forum..stop by and add your names to the list!!

http://www.diettalk.com/forums/showthread.php?s=&threadid=28432

Hi Jano,
Stopping in to say hi. Thanks for the visit to my journal. Its nice to have support available.
My valentines day goal was to lose 11 lbs and I have lost 7 of those pounds so I have 4 more to go. Here I go...................


Vickie:coach: :dn

JANO.........................................
WHERE YA HIDING???????????
Hope things are going well with you. Come back and post soon!!!


Vickie:coach: :dn

I hope you are doing good over there and not down. If you are you don't have to stay a stranger..we all go through tough times. Ironically it's when we need help the most is when it seems we ask for it the least. I do it too. It does me no good either.

Well I hope you come back to us.. just wanted to stop in and see how things were going but I see you haven't been around in a long long time..am I wrong? Is this the wrong journal?

Well take care you are in my thoughts. :wn