View Full Version : Just Keep Telling Yourself You Can


MissRena30
01-24-03, 01:48 PM
Eventually, you'll believe it or you'll tell yourself to shut up. That's what has been getting me through this journey. And I have had bumps along the way. There were a few potholes and one or two craters that I fell into late in 2002 and didnt crawl out of until early this year.

I started back on my journey January 6th. Why did I pick that day? Well, I started back to school on the same day and I find that its easier for me to set up my eating and such around a somewhat normal schedule. The holidays are never a good time for me to start something. So the 6th. I've been searching around, trying to find something that works and finally I found something. I decided that since I couldnt live without chocolate and sweets that I would incorporate them on the days I needed them, so calorie counting was the best choice for me. I had the flexibility and the choices I needed. Then I went out and bought a book of calorie counts. (I'm trying to keep this really simple, so I havent started counting fat grams or what not, who knows though. Maybe someday I will) So I've been counting calories. I also found a set of Windsor Pilates videos at Walmart. I've seen the infomercials and decided to give that a shot. My apartment is tiny right now, so I cant do a lot of jumping around. I'll hurt myself! And forget about going outside. The cold weather and I have an agreement, I dont go out in it unless absolutely necessary and it doesnt freeze my face and legs off when I do. Its a good deal. So I'm apartment bound until March or April. Which works out well, the Windsor system thing came with a ten week program set out for various goals you may have. So I picked my program and off I went.

I'm into week three of it, and granted, I'm getting a little bored with it. But I decided right at the beginning of this that I wouldnt give up. I'm not feeling terribly motivated right now, so tonight when I get home from work I'm going to write in my journal. So far I've just been using it as a means of keeping myself motivated. The other thing I found that worked for me was to do my workout first thing in the morning. That way my brain is too foggy to come up with reasons not to exercise and I get it done and over with. So its been going well all in all.

The last thing that has kept me going is my stubborn streak. My boyfriend played right into it too. He told me that if I stuck with it, it would work, but I havent stuck with anything yet, so it probably wouldnt. I realize that this sounds harsh, but he knows which buttons to push to get my streak up, and that one did it. I'll prove him wrong if its the last thing I do.

Well, that should do for a first entry. I look forward to many more. I dont know when I'll have the time, but I might just have to make time! Take care everyone!:gflower:

LindaH
01-24-03, 02:35 PM
MissRena,,,,,That's the Spirit! Show that boyfriend of yours what you are made of!! A whole lot more then what he's giving you credit for, that's for sure!!!
I haven't been seeing you in diettalk journals, so this is my "Welcome Mat", to you!! Journaling here has been a lot of fun for me! Visiting other journals has caused me to meet friends that gives me the motivation and support that I always need. Keep on girlfriend, you are on the right track and don't let boyfriend blow it!!!!! Here's a few cheers sent toward your direction!!!


:cheers: :cheer: :cheer:

MissRena30
01-24-03, 02:39 PM
Thanks LindaH. He wont blow it, because he cant. Its hard to explain the way I work, but that is a form of encouragement for me. (I'm a sick, sick individual) He just extended a challenge and I intend to meet it. I'm one of those people who wont turn down a dare, so that's basically what he has done. I didnt mean for it to sound like he was taking my confidence and smashing it under his feet. I know what that's like, and I wont have it again!

Thanks for the cheers. I'm going to need them in the coming weeks when my motivation is low. I can already feel it dwindling. I need to give myself a quick shake and move on.

MissRena30
01-24-03, 09:35 PM
So here's my wrap up for this evening.

I've eaten my appropriate amount of calories (even with the chocolate croissant that I told myself I needed) and I did an hour worth of Pilates. I sat down after supper and did two hours worth of homework. I had to get up and do something because I was stiffening up something awful. I'm on my way to a hot shower and some more homework in front of a movie. Such an interesting life I lead. It'll be worse in September. I'm moving twenty hours away from my family, my boyfriend and my friends to go to university. There will be much homesickness I assure you. And I'm sure I'll be here more often. I guess it depends on how busy school keeps me. I'm looking forward to it, but I'm also scared out of my mind. And I have to find an apartment up there for eight months. Not an easy task really. But find one I will, and I will try to enjoy my time to myself. A new and improved MissRena will come home to move in with her boyfriend. We were supposed to do that once I graduated college, but this opportunity came up and I just cant pass on it.

And those are my thoughts for tonight, tune in tomorrow when I discuss the fine art of homework plowing through. :)

MissRena30
01-25-03, 03:42 PM
Okie, well my butt is numb. I've spent most of my day in front of the computer and on my couch doing homework, and once I'm done here I'll be doing more homework. And that is going to be terribly exciting (ohhh the sarcasm). But I did my scheduled workout this morning. And I'm not eating really well, but I havent gone overboard with my caloric intake yet. I might and I might not. There's a minor gnawing feeling in my stomach telling me that I should be eating, but I dont want to right now. I'm on a roll with the homework.

If only I could feel my butt.

All in all, not having a bad day. There was a time where I would just lose it on weekends. My schedule just got thrown off because of sleeping in and lack of routine. But its not happening this time. I wont let it. I might make tomorrow a non-count day. Somedays you just need a break. The only problem I have with that is that I have a hard time on Mondays. My body just gets wants food all day Monday if I allow a free day. Something for me to ponder while buried under my books.

Speaking of which, time to get back to them. Hope everyone is having a good weekend.:)

vickilyn2806
01-27-03, 11:23 PM
Oh MissRena,
I LOVE your sense of humor!!!!!!! I laughed til my sides hurt as I was reading your journal.
I have no doubt that you will be successful in this weight loss journey...........and will that boyfriend of yours ever be surprised!!!
Keep posting when you can. You made my day!!!!


Vickie:coach: :dn