Hello,

got up early and did the 1 mile walk tape, rode 5 miles on bike and did 30 AB crunches.

did call ex about my daughter with the dance and tried to change his mind in a nice way cuz he likes to be so controlling and that is why he was mad cuz she told him she was going and didnt ask. he said for her to call him by thursdsay so she can re-ask him with respect so i think she will be able to go. he is just a jerk all the way around but i told my girl you catch more flies with honey than with vinegar.

my middle girl doesnt want to go to her dads without her sister cuz its all boys there and i dont blame her but its a situation i cannot help her with.

well its almost 2 weeks without a binge. :D
i dont want to jinx myself so thats all i will say is doing good in that department and great with exercise as i have done it 10 days in a row.
will be skipping it on saturday.

i am compulsive with it as when i do it i tend to eat well and stick to plan better.

dont know what im having for dinner tonight yet. breakfast not sure and lunch will be a cup of soup of course.

tonight my boy has scouts too.

going for now to read some journals.

got a load of wash in and 1 washed, laundry folded and put away,beds made and kids off to school.
got to wash dishes yet and eat,get dressed.

have a great day. I like wed as it marks halfway to the week being almost over.

take care and thanks for all the support!!!!

Minnie

i really think you are doing well with the exercise!!! hoping here i can fit it in my schedule!!!! my days seem so hectic.. running here and there in the house.. phew! these little ones sure keep you on your toes, dont they?

as for the laundry... ermmm.. cannot even keep up with that!!! you must give some pointers!! you know the baby is always soooo clingy.. i hold her doing nearly everything! sooo laundry is super hard.. moving the things down the stairs and then in the wash.. the hardest part of the whole laundry ordeal is putting it all away cause my oldest two (ages 4 and 2) .. they like to try things on the ENTIRE time.. i have tried to make it a habit to put laundry away late at night whilst they are sleeping, but i am usually to tired to do it.. and i fall asleep with the baby..

anyway..

i hope you have a GREAT day!!

~Ambhi
who also LOVES wednesdays..

Thanks Amber for visitng with your busy schedule.

Yes little ones keep you on your toes and provide alot of exercise for us. mine are a little older than yours and still keep me on my toes too. my youngest is 9 1/2 and is a huge mess maker so gotta always be right behind him.
have a good day!!!!

I really love coming to your journal and seeing all of your exercise and healthy choices lately.

Keep up the wonderful work (because that is exactly what this is).

Have fun,

Kimmi

:up: Looking good Min!

10 days of exercise in a row! Fantastic! You're inspiring me to get away from this computer for a while and go for a walk. Even though it's yucky outside. Maybe it will clear my head.
Keep up the great work!

Minnie,

You are doing so very well. Right on and keep up the good work.

I am struggling a bit to keep the food under control and there have been the odd 'bad' thing that I have eaten. Trying to avoid that when possible.

Take care. So nice to see you doing so well.

Hey Minnie, my energetic queen!

Sounds like everything is going mock 4 and your following your exercising and eating plan! Good for you. Keep up the good work.

Have you figured out a way to bottle that energy yet? :D

Willow

Hey Minnie, I'm well impressed. 10 days of exercise is amazing. And the 2 weeks without a binge is good too (trying desperately not to jinx you either).

Look after yourself
Chuckles

Congrates on two weeks no binge and 10 days straight of exercising!!! That is great!!!

Hey Sandy,

It's good to be able to share a great inspiring name with someone. I am glad to know that you and I as helpers and as warriors we will conquer this battle. Beat all odds and all that type of jazz. I'll see you in your fuzzy bikini remeber I have hot pink

Take care have a great day

Sandie

Hello,

well another good day for me food wise.
I ended up eating breakfast for a change to beat this hungry feeling of emptiness in my tummy. for lucnh i had a few handfuls of honey mustard pretzels and for dinner Healthy choice chili dogs(2) and some cauliflower.
for snack aiming either for a smart ones fudgie or a slim fast, my calories have been too low andi havent added them but i can tell by how i feel with dizziness and tummy aches so increasing food just a little more so i dont feel so empty cuz i know too few calories wont help me to lose either. i guess this is a big learning process and im learning.

well my son has been being super bad for 2 days now. been being good for awhile so hope it will just pass. i am super stressed but the good thing is not using food too cope for once. dealing with stress straight on through exercise.
i am super proud of this accomplishemnt too.

this morning i felt a binge coming on and had visions in my head of going to MCDonalds for a mcchicken or 2 which are my favorite but i resisted and drove right by to work. so i am making good progress in the willpower dept. it is so hard not to binge when that has been my greatest joy up till now. now my greatest joy is feeling proud of myself,being able to zip my jeans and seeing the scale go down.
my hubby said to me he can see my belly gone down and arms are toning good. i felt really happy.

going for now to read some journals. have a great night too!!!!

One day at a time to a new me, one i can look in the mirror at and feel good and not ashamed, one i can love and not hate the sight of. i am also learning to do that day by day. day by day i am stronger and feel a good sense of pride in myself and just keep putting one foot in front of the other.
I have slipped many times and am sure i will one day again as no one is perfect but i am hoping over time to develop all new eating habits just like i had developed the bad ones and i hope to overcome this eating disorder. i may never get over it but if i can control it that is half the battle for me.


I love you all and love yourself. we are so worth it!!!!

Hey Minnie, I didn't want to say anything re the jinx but everyone else is so CONGRATULATIONS!!! And there is nothing to jinxes anyway. I am truly happy for you. I feel exactly the way you do about exercise. I just read an article about how food also releases endorphins - which is what exercise does but exercise does it so much better. The dang server where I got the link to the article is down but I will give it to you when I get it. Cheers!

edit: I didn't read your last post when I just wrote this. I am glad you overcame your temptations. I like the way you write :)

Hello and thanks so much. I like your avatar too!!!

well got up and did the 1 mile walk, then i worked out with the weights to tone arms and upper body but i must say i am feeling down. I dont weigh till tommorow and i peeked today anyway and i am maintaining so far since friday. I wanted to see a loss and i dont know what could be wrong. I have worked my butt off with exercise this week, i did really well over the weekend, been drinking water and not binging or eating at night and not overeating. Maybe i am not eating enough or all the working out is turning fat to muscle which i know weighs more than fat but regardless it is depressing to work so hard and do so well and not see the results i need to see to keep me motivated and to keep going.
I get in my head thinking why bother with all the effort if i dont see a loss??? but i know it is a long process and i must not think that way. I am feeling like i want to slip and binge. but i will fight hard not too.
i will see how i weigh in tommorow and hang in there for today. i just dont understand why it isnt coming off this week. Maybe cuz i lost 5 pounds last week. sometimes if i lose big one week the next week is small. with the weekend coming and plans to go out i am nervous cuz i like to have a loss before the weekend comes for my free day of eating on saturday.
well enough said cuz i am now whining and i want to keep positive.

Hubby is gone to work today and older girl to school. younger ones will be on the bus in about 20 minutes.
i got a load of whites in washer and a load of colors to wash next. i made beds and folded and put away clothes.
cleaned the puter screen,fed fish but got more to do.
Got easte candy orders of gertrude hawk from school last night so have to deliver orders to work today.
got my girls choc cd's and my son a cat and dog. plus some other stuff. gotta finish there baskets up this weekend.
im not overdoing the candy this year either.
got my niece those Jelly pops with easter characthers on them and a barbie tin thingie with candy jewelery in it. got my dad a box of gertrude hawk mini pt butter eggs, got my hubby a box of gertrude hawk pt butter thingies(they look like peanuts but filled with pt butter)
got him a easter bunny made out of reeses pt butter and a carrot shaped bag of reeses pieces. you can see my hubby loves reeses and pt butter it is his fav. mine too but i wont be eating much of any easter candy this yr i hope. everyone knows the love affair between me and choc or any candy that is so i am ending the affair this yr to save myself a candy binge. like i did for halloween.

got to get my mom and sis yet. usually i get them something like an easter decoration or flowers. my mom loves ceramics and decorations for holidays. thats what she usually gets me too. most of my ceramic decorations are from her.

we will be coloring easter eggs sometime over the weekend. probably friday nite cuz that weekend is alot going on.

well going for now. have a great day!!!!

I will focus and do well today. Pray for my weigh in tommorow. i have worked for it all week and need to see it to feel positive. I dont want to blow it.

take care.

Hi Minnie!

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow morning!!!! It's my weigh-in as well. Funny I was just writing the same thing in my journal that you're talking about.

Whether there is a loss or not - and for you it could be because you've gained more muscle etc, do NOT use that as an excuse to binge. I'm with you on this one and I've felt the same way so many times before... well if I can't see the results then why bother. You may not see the results of your hard work this week in tomorrow's weigh-in, but you will see the results whether it's next Friday or the Friday after.

You have been working so hard and weight-loss isn't the only thing to measure success by. How do you feel? How do your clothes feel? See what I mean... so don't get too down if it hasn't moved.

Take care and keep positive. :)

Willow

Minnie

You answered yourself in your own post. lol.. so not much to say here.. was going to say muscle weighs more than fat.. perhaps something to do next week is not focus on weight lifting.. and like you mentioned.. if you lost a big amount one week.. perhaps the next week you wont lose any... or you could be retaining some water.. who knows.

one thing you must do is remember how WELL you did with not binging, and you kept good with the exercise!!! this is a must for you to remember.. it is hard not to feel down about not seeing a loss... perhaps you can do measurements and see what is going on.. if you are bulking up in the areas that you are lifting weights... step back on the weights for a while.

I sometimes thing my scale is off you know.. for instance.. if a person weighs ovr 150, sometimes you have to add two pounds to it.. for it to be exact. maybe this is something going on as well?

Dont give up Minnie.. I know you can do it.. you seem to have enough willpower to stay ON ...

Take care!!!
and I hope the number tomorrow reads some loss.

~Amber

Sandy,

First of all, there is no way you can workout and change fat to muscle, fat will never change to muscle. BUT you are burning off fat AND building muscle. Now I know you know that but wanted to remind you. So if you burn of 3 pounds of fat but build 3 pounds of muscle there is no scale change. But now those new 3 pounds of muscle will help kick more fat in the butt and off your body. WhooHoo!!!!!

I can identify with the frustration of not seeing that scale go down though. Urgh!!!

But another thing, I am thrilled that you maintained the 5 pound loss. That is fantastic. You didn't come up at all, even with all of your muscle building, wow. I say, have a party, I sure would.

Take care. You are doing great!!!!!!!

Minnie

Here's a hug coming at you.

Measure and weigh on your weigh day. If you're losing inches but not pounds could be just firming up and converting fat to muscle won't show on the scale but should on the tape measure.

Can't stay on here long in case of the PHONE CALL for the INTERVIEW. The grocery store has a super store opening up soon.

Scooting with laundry in the washer.

Donna

:DHey Girl, don't you go getting depressed. When the scale don't show a loss this week. Just think what you are doing for you internal body. Your organs have got to be getting more nourishment than they've seen in a long time. With you moving like you are everything is getting a tune up. Think of it that way. What you are doing for yourself with the excises water and good food. Kid you body has got to be saying THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!

You keep up the good work! The lbs will come off, and you know they will. They may be stubborn sometime but they will give way to your perserverance. For wight now just think of the good you are doing for you. Mentally and physically.

You could be like me. Flaming red hair. YUCK! :c( :c(

K. aka Arizona RED

Minnie, I think that sometimes our bodies just show a re action slower then what we feel it should......... sigh

We feel it should show up right away and sometimes our bodies take a while longer to show it on the scales in numbers.

Your doing great - just hang tough my friend! :)

Jade

Hi Minnie,

Well first off I want to say that I had no idea you lost 5 lbs last week. 5 lbs is a HUGE, HUGE amount to loose in one week. Now, I don't know the background and all that but my first guess was that you may have been dehydrated or had an empty digestive system when you last weighed in so that the 5 lbs was actually only 3. Ofcourse, I don't know, but that was my first reaction. And also, yes, muscle gain.

But anyway, for me anyway, your success in keeping on with the excerise is far more important and something to be so very much more proud of that a pound here or a pound there. Because the wieght cannot remain off without a change in habits. Any you have very much succeeded in working toward that goal. Your muscles are getting stronger and I bet you are, at least subconciously, getting to like it and wanting to do it because that's what eventually happens.

Just my 2 cents Minnie :) It's been so long since I've been on a diet I forget all those frustrations, i'm not looking forward to them. But I think it would be a mistake to get stuck on this. And yes, perhaps you need to tweak your eating, I don't know. But the key here is that you are developing new habits and well, I am realy impressed.

ttyl Minnie

Hello,

Thanks so much for all the kind words and advice. I will not frown tommorrow if the scale doesnt budge. It did budge a pound when i peeked so lets see what tommorow brings. i am holding my breath and sucking in my gut. LOL

well today was a good day. i didnt do well water wise but food wise and exercise were good.
for breafast had a lean cusine, lunch was a lowfat granola bar
dinner was pierogies,spinach,broccoli and 1 slice cranberry sauce.
snack: slim fast drink

after work we ate then i went to leave and van wouldnt start. ended up needing new filter of some kind. hubby fixed it.
hes so good with mechanics. saves money too.
then me and the girls went to Gallery of sound and they got a new CD each. I got my son austin powers gummy candie and a gummy super hero to put in his easter basket.
then we headed to dollar general. i got so much there we were laughing.
I got light bulbs,paper towels, 2 glades, carpet fresh,windex,laundry basket,2 small baskets for girls to organize things in, batteries, candy for hubby and son,pillows,2 easter cards for niece and parents,girls got mascara,tablet and gel pens,blank tapes,coffee pot( i broke hubbys last night by accident),shave gel,shampoo,vinyl table cloth and 2 vinyl kitchen splice mats.
i spent only 54.00 on all that.
i also got nial polish remover too. i probably forgot something i got so much.
I like the vinyl table cloths cuz there easy to wipe clean,cheap and then i just replace them. the one i took off was all done in apples and so was the kitchen mats but now i did a spring theme. the tablecloth is pretty spring flowers and the one mat is, the other mat is a cute teddy bear plucking flower petals saying Loves me, Loves me not.
there so cute.

i did forget to get my sons shoelaces the main reason i went there too.

My girl called her dad and she is able to go to the dance so shes once again smiling. the other 2 are going to there dads for weekend and she is sleeping at her friends till sunday with another friend too.

me and my girls had a fun time shopping. when we got in car to leave the store i accidentally nudged the cart and it started rolling. good thing im in good shape that i had to dive out of the car to get the cart before it hit a car. the girls were hysterically laughing.
I wasnt though.

well going for now. have a good night and wish me luck tommorow morning. i will post how it goes and i do understand what you all mean about progress not just being weight loss but in changing habits and i am doing that so either way i am proud of how i am doing and changing for the better.

you are working it girl

and have earned every ounce


sounded like a nice day Sandy

I hope your weekend is wonderful


:hug: :hug: :hug:


Peng

Minnie

So productive and I'm here dying of cramps!

I played my part to the hilt with a nap and tylenol, need an old fashion hot water bottle but with my luck it would leak.

I resent this monthly menace. I had plans for today and really can't seem to shake the pain this time. I usually take it in stride and tylenol handles it to the point of tolerable but this time it's PAIN.

I may order pizza for supper tomorrow instead of having to deal with LIFE tomorrow if this pain persist. I am rather surprised by the amt of pain. And that is the really the crux of my focus today.

I hate those woman that whine over this and here I sit, MISS DRAMA QUEEN. Nauseating, isn't it.

Didn't get all I wanted done, done but hope tomorrow will bring me back to normalacy or as least as close I ever get.

Better scoot,

Donna

Ooo Minnie, tomorrow will be great. I'm proud of you no matter what!

Of course, I had to laugh. You are eating that jelly cranberry sauce? I LOVE THAT. hahaha

We are so similar, even though we are really different. ha

I also laughed when you forgot the shoelaces...you left with all that stuff and not the thing you originally intended to buy? I would do that.

You are a very funny girl.

Did you watch that Homeless to Harvard movie? Was it good?

Minnie:

I love getting good deals while shopping also. Love to come home with a ton of stuff that didn't cost me that much:) I took yesterday off work and will take today off also as I am not feeling so hot. Just achy all over so will take one more day to rest. I am sure it's because of the weather here lately. However today is suppose to be really nice and according to the weatherman :spring: has finally gotten here. We will see and I do have my fingers crossed he is right this time.
Glad to see your girl can go to her dance. It means so much to them at this age.
Have a great day.

Judy2:ex:

Hi Minnie

Good luck with your weigh in today! I hope you get a good result. Donna is right though - you should take measurements as well, perhaps every month. For example, my weight has gone up quite a bit, although on measuring myself I have lost a few inches, so exercise really does tone you up.

I think you are doing fantastically, whatever the scale says - you just keep plugging on.

You are doing so well Minnie!

Don't let the scale ruin your day...remember...you are losing inches too...did you measure yourself at the start of this?...When I was doing the inch pinchers challenge...I was amazed at the inches I was losing too...I lost 5 inches on my waist alone!

So get that measuring tape out....measure once a month!

mcmarto

Hello,

well i weighed this morning and i have maintained for the week. That dumb scale just wont go down this week but on the positive side it didnt go up either.
so hopefully next week will show a loss.

tonight is my girls dance at the school. she is super excited.

it is pouring rain here and is suppose to much of the day so my yeard is a soggy mess.

i didnt exercise today! I am skipping it as i have not missed a day in almost 2 weeks so i need a break.
i am nervous with the weekend coming and hubby already wondering where we are Eating!!!!

well i gotta go. have some things to do before work and friday is a busy day at work. gotta stop back at the general dollar for the shoelaces i forgot.

I dont know where my mind is at times.

my daughter just called to say she forgto her presentation cards for cultures class so on the way to work i got to drop those off at school too so i really gotta go.

have a super weekend and take care.

:D ARE ALL MEN ALIKE OR WHAT?

That is so what my DH would do. I keep telling myself . IF YOU DO GOOD THIS WEEKEND YOU WILL DROP. Which IS what happened. If you do go out, just make a game out of it, and really concentrate On how you can make the meal the healthiest it can be, without this and that, on the side, how its cooked. Might as well you have everything to lose :up:

You are doing GREAT..... :dn

Minnie

Quick note saying maintaining is lots better than in the past when we took increase in stride knowing we weren't living in any kind of healthy manner.

Headed to bathe and then fix supper for the bud.

Donna

PS Big interview coming at 4:30pm ---wonder if I can get that kiddo to shave for it. No joke, he needs to shave everyday and won't. I smile inside when I think of him dying to shave his scratchy little mustache at 12 and by 13 needing to. Now it's a full beard. And have to plead to get him to.

You are a good little bargain hunter Minnie, way to go.


And good for you, taking a day off exercise, after two weeks your body will be very happy.


Good work, you are just doing great. And congrats on the maintain.

Hey Minnie,

Congrats on maintaining and not gaining!!!!!!! That is half the battle as well! You'll log a loss soon, don't worry and don't let it get you down. You are doing too awesome to get down now!

Have a wonderful weekend!

Willow

Wow Minnie, no break in 2 weeks that's awesome. I don't think I've gone that long ever. I feel sure you are going to succeed with this Minnie. :)

Wow Minnie -- 2 weeks and no break... I would hardly be able to move. I went for my first workout at Curves at first I thought 1 1/2 or so on a machine isn't going to make much of a difference.. boy was I wrong. Did I ever feel the workout today!!
Rest and Recovery tonight.

Have a great weekend.

Good Morning~~~

If anyone remembers my other post about hubby having to put a fuel filter in van the other night, it wasnt the fuel filter.
Yesterday before work i ran errands like the gas station,bank and then went to my girls school to leave off her presentation cards she forgot. it was pouring so i pulled up front in the bus lane and when i went to leave the van would turn over but wouldnt start. i had to call hubby and he came and in the pouring rain was trying to get it started but with no luck so we had to have it towed home for 40 dollars.
well it is the feul injectors which are the problem and to have it fixed will be several hundred dollars and until its fixed i will have to take hubby to work and pick him up which is a big pain.
well he said he thinks he can fix it himself which will be great if he can cuz it will save massive money.
so will keep fingers crossed he can. he is pretty mechanical with the vehicles.

well i was under major stress yesterday. i had to leave hubby there to wait to be towed and i took his car to work. i did over eat yesterday but not overly bad but couldve been better.

went out to eat last night and had roast beef and gravy,mashed pot, pasta salad(didnt finish it) and soup of clam chowder.
but for lunch only had granola bar. i did have a reg coke with my dinner.

Today am going to finish up easter shopping and in the afternoon going with parents and sis to movies for my belated birthday outing. were going to see "anger management" comedy with Adam Sandler and Jack nicholson. its suppose to be really funny and i could use a few laughs. going to eat after to a richy type of place my parents treat. am excited to go.

well have a great saturday everyone and take care!!!!

P.S.

my house smells really good of cinnamon sticks. I am obsessed with good smelling candles and room freshners, I know i have weid compulsions.
i am vaccuming with carpet fresh cinnamon sticks and i got the freshener of the same scent.
last night i burned one of my candles of warm apple crisp. the house smells so yummy!!!!

going for now to vaccum.

Good morning Minnie! Don't you just love it when someone else pays for dinner?! That's the best! I love when my in laws come to visit because they always ask to try the nicer places, places we never would go on our own because they're too much moola! And best of all, the in laws are divorced so they come to visit separately. Gives us a chance to try many restaraunts! Terrible, aren't I? :D Have a fun day!

Hi Minnie, I am dying to see that movie, it looks so funny!!! I too am into great smells, LOL, this is rather recent, hehehe. I burn oil from an aeromatherapy store with tea candles and am continually in seach of the best plug in or gel type thingie. Have a great day Minnie :)

Hope you have fun this weekend!

Congrats on maintaining and not gaining!

I had to have my fuel injectors replaced in my car...cost me $400 for two from a really expensive mechanic...then my sister-in-laws brother changed the other 4 for another $500......eeeek!...We have 6 in our car!

Now remember...your place only smells good...carpeting and furniture are not edible!...Or are they?

mcmarto

minnie, it sounds a black monday for you & not a way to start the weekend - poor woman.

I hope you enjoy movie and a treated night out - you sure do deserve it!!!!!

Saying a prayer for you that hubby can fix the trouble and save you guys $$.

We put over 1,000 miles a week on our car! prayer is what gets it through :)

Jade

Hello,

well the weekend is going good.
Yesterday never made it shopping but will be going this morning after a shower.
Had subway for lunch yesterday but i did misbehave at the movie and had a few handfuls of popcorn from my sis which she had buttered, i had soda, candy fish and dots.
the movie i thought was really good and very funny. Then our dinner was wonderful. the place was so busy there was an hour wait before sitting down.
I had prime rib(not the huge thick kind) it was thin and had provlone and onions on it, i had mashed potatoes, broccoli and we all got a big sampler to share. so all in all i hate big time and the result was a massive stomach ache most of the night. :c(
i felt so full i was uncomfortable and dont miss feeling that way.
will be eating in full control today.

gotta call ex to see when i am picking up my 2 younger kids and gotta call my older girl at her friends to see what time i am picking her up. i called at her friends yesterday but her dad said they went to the movies. i didnt even know they were going so wonder what movie she saw.

hubby is still in bed of course he is smart to sleep in but i couldnt due to my tummy being so upset for me.
well going to read some journals then take a shower.

have a great sunday too!!!!

P.S. van isnt fixed yet so will be taking and picking hubby up from work till it is. it will be a huge pain in the butt.
not much i can do at the moment about it except deal with it so i am trying too.

Hey Minnie!

Sounds like a nice night out...minus the stomach ache!...This happened to my friend on Friday...she went to a dinner party...had some apps...then dinner...then dessert...and wine...one right after the other...she said her stomach hurt bad...like it was going to explode...when she got home she was sick!

Ouch!...Guess your stomach does get used to less food???

Have fun shopping!

mcmarto

Hope you are feeling better now sweety. Ugh I remember that feeling all too well.. and I don't envy you. I am getting better now finally! I've been cleaning house and counting my steps in my head! lol I know I'm a silly girl but I am just curious. I read that if you walk at least 2000 steps per day you will lose weight as long as you are eating right...... well so far I've done 1200 so my goal is to at least walk 2000. I know I'm getting some excercise though becuase I get to sweating.. had to sit down twice becuase of the sweating.. well my tomato soup is calling out to me to eat it so I better go before it get's cold.. just wanted to check in on ya and tell you I hope you get to feeling better and thanks for being there for me too. :coach: You take care of yourself!!! That's an order! hehe :D

Hey Minnie I am glad the movie was funny. That could be kindof a good sign about your tummy, though I am sorry ofcourse, but could be the stomach is shrinking and needs (and wants) less food!! bye for now, Cath

Hi Minnie
Your right! I believe medically speaking, that to form a new habit takes 21 days of consistancy but longer if you are not consistant. Any way that's great, you are working to change your habits, I am also. It's wonderful to have someone that understands. I hope you attain all that you hope for.

Have a great day :)

Hi Minnie ~

Thought I should stop by and say hey. It's been a while now.

Sorry to hear about the Van being out of comission. I can well imagine how annoying that must be with you working as well. That makes for a lot of running around, and time that could so well be spent otherwise is lost. I hope you can get the Van up and going soon.

Sounds like you had a great night out, minus the tummy ache of course. I used to do that every time Lew and I would go for Chinese. I found out that it just doesn't pay. I hate that too-full feeling and even worse the tummy ache later and usually I would get heartburn as well. Now I really try to make choices that don't fill me so much but have a good meal at the same time.

Glad you had a nice weekend lady. You deserve that. I know how hard you work, so I'm always happy to see you taking some time for yourself now and then.

Keep smiling ............. :)
Sandie

Minnie

Quick note. Sorry to hear about the car but the towing seemed very reasonable. Last time I needed to be towed just 1 mile was over hundred dollars.

Spent my birthday walking the dog at the park and feeding the ducks. Actually my son forgot it till my twin called to sing Happy Birthday on my answering machine. He came into my bedroom to kiss my cheek and tell me happy birthday after I fell asleep.

Went to pizza place and had salad and topped with topping off bbq chicken pizza----kinda like a bbq chicken salad. Was good.

But no cake and miss having something that says it's a birthday. Told Phil to get me a wire cutter for my silk flowers and some flowers for my flower beds, with the promise to help me plant them.

Phillip has decided I am too attached to him. What he doesn't realize is how much he really is attached to me and desires my approval. But because of me working the weekend I like to share our Sunday and he sometimes is resentful wanting him to go with me on Sunday. Tomorrow we are going to get rollerblades at the sporting store, with his birthday money.

Have a nursing meeting on Tues and lunch with Angie, my old friend from work, I adopted her as my little sister. We exchange Christmas gifts, birthday gifts and go to 4th of July celebration together.

So another birthday and oddly not one physical gift but this sense of well being and wealth----a sense of being loved and loving others.

Better get to bed, going on 2 a.m.

Donna

Hi Minnie!

I had that horrible feeling last weekend as I went out for a meal with my parents, but then when I got home I had some alka-seltzer because I thought that would make me feel better - it didn't, it made me about 100 times worse, so I do have some sympathy with the way you felt over the weekend. The trouble is, for me at any rate, I never learn! It will happen again and again, but not every weekend, and I think that's what you've got to focus on. Eating out and such like are part of life, so I think you have to allow yourself the luxury occasionally, otherwise you would end up cracking and binging from not eating what you want, and the stress of it all - if you know what I mean.

You are doing well, you have got your exercising into gear, so don't be too hard on yourself, particularly when you've worked so hard all week.

Hello,

well first offt off i forgot to mention i did exercise yesterday. i rode 5 miles on my bike.
this morning i also rode 5 miles on the bike but skipped the walking tape. will get up early and do that tommorow.

had to take hubby to work and then gotta pick him up. He was tryig to save us money and thought the vans problem might have been the fuel pump which costed us over 40 dollars but that isnt the problem and the pump cannot be returned so i ended up with a new fuel pump i dont need. for now really low on cash to get this fixed so his friend has a garage and gonna see if we can make payments or borrow from his mom. I cannot beleive at my age i am still no where near finacial security and need to borrow when something breaks but then again raising children is an expense all of its own.

yesterday finished shopping for kids easter baskets and hubby's too. so that is done. got the egg coloring kit and easter grass.
got my mom an easter tree decoration that you hang colored eggs on and i got myself a spring tree. the theme is spring/summer and the little ornaments you hang on are lady bugs,frogs, butterflies and so on. feels good to have osmething regarding good weather,
which today is sunny out.

gotta take my son to general dollar tonight cuz he has money to blow and i was gonna take him last night but it got to late.

so far this morning got all my laundry washed and clothes folded and put away, beds made and house straightened up.
got a bit more to do.

going for now to eat breakfast and relax a bit before work.

have a super day today!!!!

Minnie

Up late so gotta be brief.

Every Sunday night I have a hard time sleeping so am going to plan on a sleeping pill on Sunday. I try not to use them but resent finally going to sleep about 4 a.m. and then sleeping in late and losing my day like that.

Sounds like a fun time at your house on Easter. I hide eggs for my son. Seems silly but at 16 he still expects an Easter egg hunt.

Better get some coffee on and see if I can get my day started.

Donna

Busy...Busy...Busy!

Keep up the good work...you are doing so well Minnie!...Don't you feel great?...The weather helps out too!

Have a great week!

mcmarto

Hey Minnie,

So sorry our van is broken down and still costing you money to fix - after your hubby's repairs and all.

I have all my Easter stuff bought as well. There didn't seem to be as much stuff out this year. Or maybe it's just that I was late buying - I shopped today.

Well keep up the good work and congrats on having a nice night out (movie and supper).

Willow

Hello,

well today flew by. i behaved pretty well food wise except by dinner we had sandiwches and i over did it with the cheese and lunch meat.
doing super with the water but did have 1 bottle of pepsi today :(

well my hubby called his daughter last night to see if she is finally coming for easter weekend after all thats been going on with the missing CD's but she didnt call him back till tonight and said she didnt know if she was coming so he said she was.

he called her back later to talk to her to see how her doctor vist went cuz she was having a wart removed from her finger and her mom answered and told my hubby she wasnt coming this weekend cuz i said she was a damn little thief which i never did and he beleived me of course. so he told her he pays support and has rights to see her and his ex said well take me to court. needless to say my hubby is depressed and i am super angry that they get to ruin another family holiday in my household cuz they have done this for thanksgiving and so on. hubby and ex dont have papers so actually there is no custody but he does have legal rights and i told him to contact someone and have rights written up or she will always pull this and he will miss out on her growing up.
its not fair to him and i am so mad at his ex for adding fuel to the fire and setting a bad example to there girl and i am also mad at step daughter as she is 12 and knows right from wrong and doesnt care if shes hurting her dad. my own kids dad is a jerk alot and this kid got a dad who would do anything for her and she treats him awful. one day she will be sorry but the blame is being put on me by them but hubby is on my side and doesnt blame me but i feel bad cuz for easter he will be sad and it just isnt right. he told his ex he knows the kid took the cds and she still is saying the kid didnt take them. i dont know when or how we will resolve this matter,.
for her basket i told hubby i am keeping it here till she comes and she wont get it otherwise and if it gets too long with her not coming then eventually i will split the candy with my own kids.
ok enouh on that.

went to dollar general with my son tonight. he got a nickoldean string can where you spray the string.
i got more odds and ends. i am addicted to the great buys there.
then me and son went for groceries.
been stockpiling the slim fast as they have been on sale and got slim fast snack bars pt butter crunch that taste just like a butterfinger.
made strawberry shortcake for family for snack tonight and i didnt have any.
they really enjoyed it though.

well tommorow going to be good weather.
got more clothespins to hang wash outside.

going to color easter eggs thurs or friday nite.

well going to watch a movie now and put younger 2 to bed.
catch up to you all tommorow.
have a great nite.

Hey Minnie!

So sad to read you are still having troubles with your step daughter!...Hopefully it will all clear up soon!

I have had those slim-fast bars..and they do taste exactly like a Butterfinger!...I also had another one that was like a 100,000 Grand Bar...something like that!

Hope you have a good day!

mcmarto

Hi Minnie, I am so sorry you are still having problems over those dang cd's! Your hubby sounds likes a sweetie :) I am happy you are mangaging tho. It must be so hard to make stuff like strawberry shortcake and not have any!! You rock Minnie! (LOL, I am too old to be using the word "rock" but it really does seem to fit) Haha, which reminds me, I was in someone else's jounal, who know's knows I am so lost around here, but I got such a roar out of your comment re your backyard mud pit!!!!!! Haha, it gives me the giggles even now. Cheers.

Minnie

6:22 a.m. and have true grit in my eyes!

After years of working nights, I can't say I enjoy early morning pre-sunrise .

Only have a few minutes and looks like I lost my prescription med I bought for infection ----has to be in this house somewhere but where did I put it up at? Geeze.

Gotta scoot out the door for the early morning nsg meeting in about 3 minutes. Meeting Angie for Chinese today.

I hope to get to the gym later this afternoon---been extremely warm here for this time of year---was 80 yesterday.

Later,

Donna

WHAT? :eek: EASTER...IS THIS SUNDAY!!!

Minnie:

You are alwys on the go girl. But then again having 3 kids does that to a person.......lol Hopefully your Easter turns out to be great in spite of your hubby's ex. We will be coloring eggs here on Friday also. Cooking a huge Turkey dinner on Sunday but have warned the kids they are all helping.....lol
Have a wonderfull day.

Judy2:ex:

Hello,

well a nice warm day here for a change. work was so hot and busy with the good weather.
hubby is outside now still working on the van. he went and bought one injector to see if that is the problem cuz it also cannot be returned. was 100 dollars and so far is not the problem. i am so depressed over the expense of all of this.
hope he finds the problem soon cuz every morning i got to take him to work then pick him up after i get off work. it is a huge inconvience but i dont have a choice.

did the 1 mile walk today. food was not too good but water was. i am so stressed.
but still no excuse.

going to go back on my slim fast tommorow.

my 11 yr old has a dentist appt before i go to work tommorow to have sealants put on her molars and i got to go to post office to mail out some bills so will be busy in the morning and wont be on here.

i just washed a load of laundry and hung outside on line and have a load of towels in now to hang out so i dont have to rush with it in the morning. swept outside porches and on thursday and friday i am off cuz kids are home with easter vacation so i will be spring cleaning. i did some already but gotta finish.

well going for now to clean more( i am in the cleaning mood) and then will check out journals tonight.

talk to you later.

Hey Minnie ~

Busy little bee- as usual I see.

We sure did have beautiful weather today, didn't we? I hung out another load of laundry this morning too, then Lew and I went grocery shopping. It was a beautiful day for it, and a nice ride too.

Hope you are having a great week kiddo.

Sandie

Hello,

well I have been busy cleaning tonight. wanted to get a head start on spring cleaning before my day off on thursday so i will have less to do then.
I did the living room tonight. I windexed all the pictures on the wall and they now sparkle. i dusted which needed it badly and i washed valances( i like better than curtains so have alot of valances and only a few curtains) and i have mini blinds and not shades. i hate shades.
anways also washed curtain from hallway window and from our bedroom. going to wash kitchen curtains tommorow and ones from sons room and girls room and bathroom too.
on thursday will be cleaning from top to bottom and organizing kitchen which is the worst room in the house to do.
i also will be doing my room and sons and the girls are doing theres that day too. will do bathroom thurs if time allows and if not on friday plus while im off going to pack away my winter clothes and get my summer clothes out and hubbys too. already did the kids.
so i plan to keep busy.

well hubby and i had a heart to heart tonight as he seems really down about his girls behavior. he is upset and mad at her.
i am too, to say the least on it but i gave him advice on if she still wont come by next time then to go see a lawyer for free consultation on his rights and to have legal visitation rights put on paper.
at 12 she doesnt have the choice cuz hes a good dad and she doesnt call the shots and get away with hurting him. i have also done so much for her. hubby is so mad at what she did to my girl cuz him and my oldest Stacy are very close and he feels bad she had to suffer the loss of the cds. i told hubby for x-mas the girls always get like 3 new cds and his girl will be short 3 gifts this yr and stacy will get 3 extra cds that would be hers and i will let her know this.
hope it teaches her a lesson cuz as of now she has no remorse at all. she did a terrible thing to my girl. my girl had helped her with turoring in 5th grade when she almost failed wc class and my girl taught her how to style her hair and wear makeup and in return she steals from her and the mother is worst of all to blame for allowing this behavior and defending her.

ok enough on that.

going for now to read more journals.
P.S. I told hubby she doesnt get her easter basket till she decides to get over here to see us. it will not be delivered to her. and my mom gives the kids money for easter and i told mom if shes not with us not to give money for her either. she either comes with us as a family or she wont get the money and basket. plain and simple. i am easy with the kids on most issues but this has me fit to be tied.

Hey Minnie...busy cleaning...burning up those calories!

How are the eats coming along?

Hope you have a great Wednesday!

mcmarto

Good Morning,

well only got a few minutes to spare then gotta take my girl to dentist.
rode 3 miles on bike this morning. it was all i had time for but better than none.
im drinking a slim fast now for breakfast. eating hasnt been too good for a few days so trying today to get that in line but exercise and water have been good.

another sunny warm day here. :tomato:

my older girl has a bit of a tummy virus but so far she was good this morning so she went to school cuz there off the next 2 days.

got my curtains hung back up but got more to do. no time today so will be cleaning tommorow more.
washed a load of clothes this morning and made beds, washed dishes, swept floor, fed fish, took hubby to workand put a load of folded clothes away.

tonight taking younger 2 roller skating with the school.

well gotta run.

have a good day!

Same here Minnie!

I have been working out so well since Friday...but...I have gone over my calories 3 days out of 5!...So today...I vow to be good!

I am off to eat some fruit...then head over to Curves!

Have a fun time today!

mcmarto

Why do I always giggle when you mention that you feed the fish? I must be easy to amuse. haha

Mc and I were talking about the fact that so many of us get the exercise right OR the water right OR the eating right, but rarely get ALL THREE right in the same day. haha Well, one or two out of three is still a big success.

I am always amazed and impressed when you get on the bike and exercise even when you have 780 loads of laundry, 12 sick children, a whining DH, 23 hours of work, and fish to feed. You rock, girl.

Going full throttle, Minnie

Got the dog out and pick up some strawberries for the bud. Got a frozen pizza for supper.

I got some spring cleaning to do but have to de-clutter first.

No big news, Phil went to the mall with my nephew and the two were too backward to get help finding the rollerblades he wanted. No, they don't carry a size 12 or 13 on the display. I could have shot both of them. My nephew didn't want my steak, kinda hurt my feelings. I find it so funny that he would eat it if I bring it over but not at my house. I'm not worried about it. Sirloin steak will get eaten here. I was just trying to treat him and fixed him the biggest steak I bought yesterday----bought 5 of them. But Wade, my nephew is 6'4" and could handle the 12 oz steak. Guess Phil can have it tonight instead.

I just don't get it.

So now I have still to go over to Louisville, where I rarely drive if I can help it if I want to get those skates.

Wish they would have called me from the store, I'd have gotten them a sales person. I am not shy when it comes to getting service. What do you think a nurse is but a health care waitress.

Gotta scoot.

Donna

Busy Minnie!

Glad you have time to breathe and feed the fish.

You even found time to exercise?

Wow.

Have a great day :D

- Kim

Hi Minnie, I am glad exercise is still on track. Personally I am placing my primary forcus on one thing at a time, my poor lttle brain, but seriously, that 21 days to form a habit thing is really stuck in my head. Though yes, food is very important too.

Minnie you do such a huge amount of laundy, lol. I consider it good if I do mine once every 2 weeks! I still hold out hope of getting married and having a family, perhaps adopting, but, wow, you remind me of how much work it will be!

Minnie you are doing great on the spring cleaning! Just look at you go girl ;)

You will be so happy when it is all done - when mine is I just want to sit at home and look at it lol


Step daughter situation - been there and done this sooooooo many times.......sigh
I feel very bad for everyone at your home.


GREAT on making time for getting in those 3 miles :D

Jade

Sandy,

sorry I haven't been here for a bit, but not surprising to see you still working away, busy with family and good work on the exercise.

I also have some good days and some not so good with food. But we will be ok. And we will be slimmer by summer. Hurray!!!!

:hop: :hop: :hop:



:hug:

Hiya Minn! How did it go yesterday? Was it beautiful weather? It was very warm here. I can't wait to hear about the multitudinous tasks you have lined up for yourself today...

Hello,

sorry i havent been here but been so busy.
well today was my day off if you want to call it that. my son had a dentist appt for 9 am. he had his teeth cleaned, then we headed to the store to get some things and ingredients for my girl to make fudge for Easter to take to my parents. she loves impressing them with her baking skills.
then went to the bank and came home.

Hubby came home early cuz it rained here and today was cold. 30 degress less than yesterday. i wish it would just stay warm.

well i have put a big dent in my spring cleaning and will finish up tommorow.
for today i cleaned my whole bathroom up and down and washed the bathroom rugs, cleaned the whole kitchen except the microwave which i will do tommorow and i washed the kitchen curtains too. i organized and threw out tons of papers from school and so on. hubby had alot to burn. i made the kids Jello eggs flavors of sour apple and watermelon. i have the egg molds and every year i do that. they love them.
then i washed dishes 3 times today and made beds, girls vaccumed and they cleaned there bedroom and son cleaned his(he did his without me asking, i almost died from shock LOL)
I went through old coats of the kids to see what fit and what didnt.
cleaned kitchen stove,freezer,refigerator,blinds in kitchen and yes i had time to feed the fish. LOL
tommorow i have alot on to do list. the kids will be coloring Easter eggs(that should keep them buys for a bit) i am boiling the eggs now.
i am also having a small easter egg hunt inside for them tommorow. i am filling the eggs(got 24 of them) with loose change and some with 1 dollar bills.
got to wash kids bedroom curtains,wash windows and mirrors in house, finish laundry and clean my own bedroom plus organize and put away winter clothes and take out summer clothes for me and hubby.

well that about covers my exercise for today and i think i burned quite a bit.
as far as food i didnt do well. i am skipping weigh in cuz i know scale is up and i dont want it to ruin my spirits so i will weigh again soon.
had meatloaf for dinner with homeade mashed potatoes and cream corn.
it was so good too.
for lunch had 2 hot pockets :(
what was i thinking of???? I dont know.

Since tommorow is friday i am going to try to rent Jesus of Nazareth for kids to see.

sat will be busy day too. at night kids are going to there paternal grandparents renewel of vows and to there party and me and hubby will be going to sis' since its close to my kids grandparents so we dont got to drive back and forth plus i can visit sis.
on sunday dinner is at my moms. i am making deviled eggs and my girl is making fudge. sis is making mashed potatoes and mom is making ham, homeade chicken soup, chicken Muentster, and were having a veg tray and a cheesecake too.

well i am going for now. have a great nite. i am winding down and getting tired now from a long day but house is sparkling from what i did get done and like Jade said once its done its great to look at but i never have time to do all this except 2 times a yr and boy does the junk pile up.

take care,
i also had a dark choc candy bar too :c(

god, i am exhausted just reading


you are my little :super: mouse for a very good reason !!!!



when you get that van fixed, you should point it in sandie lynnes direction lol she has so much room, while the kids are lost with ponies...you could have a break lol



I wish we were closer


:hug:


but I am happy I at least can share with you here


have a wonderful weekend



Happy Easter



my dearest friend


xoxoxooxoxooxo


Peng


:hug:

Gosh...reading your posts helps me burn calories!...hahaha!

Hope you have a great weekend and a wonderful Easter!

mcmarto

Have a very Happy Easter and a nice weekend Minnie!!

Super duper Minnie

You should go into your own house cleaning business. Most those ladies charge at least $10 an hr and you could set your own hours.
Makes me feel like all my efforts yesterday were minimal next to your marathon. Got winter clothes put away and the vacuum actually graced my bedroom and the attachment thingie went over the blinds.

Have clean linen on the bed and did uniforms, went to the gym and did 9 miles and weights and then to the mall over in Louisville to get Phil his rollerblades, made dinner and did up dishes. Drove over to my nephew's and checked on him.

Vegged with some TV after all the running around. Got a few groceries.

Have a great Easter. Filled some eggs for an indoor egg hunt for the bud. Such a big kid.

Work the weekend so will check back on Mon.

Donna

Would you take a BREAK already! You know habits are hard to break. When we want to eat but not have to prepare anything its always easier to nuke a Hot pocket real quick when we are so busy. And you eat two cause lets face it. THERE SMALL. and not very filling. I do this all the time. Don't be so hard on yourself. Your just busy... All in all in your doing great!

Hello,

well busy again today too but i did managge to sleep in, i was so tired from yesterday.
well today i got me and hubbys summer clothes out and cleaned my bedroom. kids had easter egg hunt inside and made quite a few bucks. i filled all the eggs with quarters, dimes and several dollar bills. we will be coloring eggs soon,.
hung one set of kitche curtains back up and washed the bathroom curtain.
my son is outside playing with the grandsons from next door so i have been able to do some things. i filled the kids and hubbys baskets and hid them in my bedroom under a big robe and locked my door.
all i need to put in them is peeps and that will be the last minute cuz then they get all hard and stale.
i washed dishes, made bed, swept floor, put clothes away and windexed mirrors in house, and washed a load of laundry and of course fed fish and got the mail.
i am still running around in a t-shirt and sweats.

tonight dinner will be corn dogs and mac and cheese. i know not too good but its fast and i want to go rent that Jesus of nazareth movie when hubby gets home.

well have a great Easter everyone and take care.

Hi Minnie

You certainly seem to be being very busy. Very very busy. Very very very busy. Very very very very busy. You get the picture. How on earth do you manage to get so much stuff done all in one day???? I hope the kids appreciate all the work you've put into making their easter special. I certainly would.

Look after yourself.
Chuckles

Minnie:


Here is the recipe for Lemon Loaf. To make it an Orange loaf just subsitute an orange for the lemon.

Lemon Loaf


1/2 cup butter, at room temperature
Grated peel of one lemon
1 cup sugar
2 eggs, at room temperature
2 cups flour
2 tsp baking powder
2/3 cup milk, at room temperature


Squeeze the juice outta the lemon and set aside a cup and add to it 1/4 cup sugar.

Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. Grease a 9-inch loaf pan.

Cream butter, lemon rind, and sugar until fluffy. Beat in eggs, one at
a time.

Sift together flour and baking powder. Add to creamed mixture
alternately with milk.

Pour batter into prepared pan. Bake 50 to 60 minutes, until center is
set.

As soon as you take it out of the oven spoon over the juice and sugar you have set aside.


Cool 10 minutes in pan; turn onto a wire rack.

Judy2:ex:

Hello,

Judy thanks so much for the recipe. sounds so yummy!!!!

well today went good. got kids all showered and dressed nice and brought them to my ex in laws to go to church for there grandparents vow renewal.
then me, sis and niece headed to dinner. had a big dinner and a reeses sundae to boot. yes i am eating so badly but tommorow is easter so not getting upset. monday am exercising again and will be going back on food plan.

i know ive done this many times and keep chasing my own tail. i lose then i gain and its a never ending cycle but i also never give up and hope one day to get it right.

helped my niece to dye eggs and then sis took me to pick kids up.

came home and put them to bed and hid there easter baskets too.

gotta make deviled eggs in the morning to take to moms. painted my nails lavender with silver glitter. they look so holiday like too.

girls also painted there nails. it was a girl nail polish and makeup day!!!! the girls looked so pretty for the party and my son looked handsome. of course for him it was shower, dressed and in the car so he didnt have time to get dirty before the party cuz he cant stay clean longer than 10 minutes.

didnt do alot of housework today but did do one small load of clothes, washed dishes, made beds, showered kids and myself, swept floor countless times and fed fish(of course)
hubby went out and had a few drinks with his friend and was home long before me.

well i am heading to bed as morning will come soon and got alot to do in the morning.

HAPPY EASTER TO ALL MY FRIENDS
HOPE OUR FRIENDSHIPS NEVER END
WE SOMETIMES LOSE AND SOMETIMES GAIN
BUT ALL IN ALL WE TRY AGAIN
IN THE END WE WILL SUCCEED
CUZ THE LOVE OF FRIENDSHIP IS ALL WE NEED
WHEN THE DAY SEEMS TO LONG
OUR FRIENDS WILL CARRY US ON
AND WHEN I KNOW I WANT TO GIVE IN
I THINK OF HOW BAD I WANT TO BE THIN
I KNOW SOME DAYS I WILL SLIP AND FALL
BUT I WILL GET BACK UP AND STAND UP TALL
I CAN NEVER LOSE AS LONG AS I TRY
AND I HAVE ONE THING MONEY CANT BUY
THE LOVE OF A FRIEND, FAMILY AND KIDS
THE TOUCH OF A HAND AND A SWEET WORD TO GIVE
WITH GOD BY MY SIDE THERES NO WAY I CANT WIN
AND THERE WILL COME A DAY WE ALL WILL BE THIN.

take care and Love ya all!!!!!

Deviled eggs mmmmmmmm


:)


I love those too hahah



your day sounded simply wonderful Sandy!!



fun times with the kids



everyone smiling (and clean haha)



a nice day




we might be chasing our tails buddy...but we are still chasing


i wore a pair of last years pants today and they are way too loose


:jn


so chasing that proverbial tail is not the worst thing we could be doing


never ever trying would be




enjoy easter with your family , and we will wear off some inches together after that




:hug:



we got summer jeans to be wearing soon buddy!!!!!!!




:lift:




Peng


:hug:

HAPPY EASTER MINNIE



I made 2 of the lemon loafs yesterday to take to a friends. So today will make a couple of them for the kids. Hope you have a wonderfull day.


Judy2:ex:

Happy Easter Minnie

Your day sounded lovely, and hopefully today will be just as good, if not better!!

All my love, Chuckles

Happy Easter, Sandy

Great poem Sandy, very nice, have a great day.

HAPPY EASTER :hop: :hop: :hop:

Hope your holiday is going good.
kids got up and found there baskets and dived right in.

got my deviled eggs made and a load of clothes washed and one load in washer. washed the dishes and kids are watching there new DVD's.

going to be a nice warm day and im looking forward to sharing it with my family today.
kids dad called to wish them a happy easter and sun is shining outside.
and i am smiling!!!

hope you all are too and enjoy the day and count our many blessings.
My blessings are:

My children
My husband
My family
My friends
Our health
the sun shining outside today
the smiling faces on my kids faces this morning
the weight i already lost
and the new day tommorow to begin a new
dietalk
God in my heart
a smile on my face
a home to live in
food in the refrigerator
clothes on my back
my dog
my fish
and all else that makes my life complete

Love Ya!!!!

Beautiful poems Minnie!

Enjoy your day!...Tomorrow its back on plan...mcmarto

I hope you and the fam had a great Easter Minnie!!!!!!

I hope you and the fam had a great Easter Minnie!!!!!!

Happy Easter Minnie, that is a beautiful poem, did you write that?
Here are some Easter flowers for you: :spring::spring::spring:

Happy Easter, Minnie!

- Kimmi

{{{{SANDY}}}} HAPPY EASTER!!! did everyone in your family have a nice Easter? My mom, Grandma, sister and I were going to go out for a drive today, and then out to dinner. However we got a late start today, so were just staying at home and just relaxing.

That was a great poem. I really enjoyed reading everything that you have to be thankful for.

take care! Katherine

You do have a very blessed life! And the simplicity of your blessings has made me realize how blessed my life is too. Thank you! :spring:

Hi Minnie
Sorry I havent been here in awhile, but things are really busy with the warmer weather that I so wanted and now its time for all the work that comes with it.
Hope all is good with you and your family.
Loved the poem.:)

Have a great week

Little

Good morning~~

well i hope everyones Easter was wonderful. we had a great day.
the sun was out and kids played most of the day on neighbors trampoline(my parents neighbors) it had net all around so no one could fall off of it. it really kept them so busy. id love to get one but it cost 400.00 and not in my budget at the moment.
van is down the st at garage awaiting repair so God only knows what that is going to set us back.

well my mom got me a ceramic bunny and the top part comes off and in the bottom is a big vanilla candle. smells so good and she knows i love candles.

I have a cold too! trying to get rid of it before it turns into something but this weather always changing is what i think did it.
one day im wearing long sleeves and the next shorts.

my younger 2 get out of school early today. i have 1 parent/teacher conference tonight for my son.

tommorow i am off too. my older girl has eye appt and its about 40 min away so she may miss school too. were going to stop at cemetary thats right by her appt to see my aunts grave in particular with her new headstone i havent seen yet but i know her picture is on it. she is the one who died last may of Leukimia.

my sis has her appt today to have the lump in her breast further examined so i pray its nothing.

well i am a bit down as i got on scale and it is way up again. i just cant seem to stay on track and am getting very frustrated and discouraged. when i gain its not a pound or 2 its 5 and up and i feel like for every step i make forward and lots of effort that it takes no effort to take 5 steps back again so to me what is the point in always obsessing with this and all the work just to keep gaining it back.
and i gain it back super fast which is terrible for me to get re-motiviated.
i beleive i was actually less stressed and happier when i didnt obsess about my weight. yes i was heavier but every day wasnt a huge struggle with food either. a yr later i am no further than the first few months of losing. i feel like i am kidding myself to think i will ever get all this weight off and should accept myself as is. but the other part of me does want to be healthier and more in shape.
its gone way past wanting to just look good but i want to be healthy too.
i dont know if i will ever see the day i am in full control where i will stay in control. i slip so easily and am so weak.
when i am on track there is no stopping me and i exercise up a storm andi eat good but when i slip there is also no stopping me from eating what i want and not exercising for days at a time.
this cycle is truly depressing as i feel i am always chasing my tail and never catching it.

all i do know is i am a bigne eater, and an emotional and compulsive eater. i do know this is a disorder and dont know how to escape it.
i do love to eat and the taste of food. i am not a picky eater and my life revolves around food in one way or another.
when im on plan i think of food all the time even though i dont eat it and when im not on plan im thinking of what food i can eat.
i am stocked up on slim fast and good snacks and all i think of is the leftover ham in fridge or the candy lying around. the gertrude hawk fudge egg my hubby gave me and i know what i need to do but seeing that scale has only made me feel more hopless than ever.
going forward for me means nothing if i keep going backward too.
all the hard work and efforts and rushing in the morning to fit exercise in only to regain the same pounds over and over.
what is the point?????
what keeps me going and not quitting is DT and all my friendships and support here or i would have quit long ago, im sure of it.
I have alot to work out with myself on what i want and need to be happy.
i need to soul search again and see why i cannot just do what i know i need to do. and why i cannot be stronger and stay on plan.

thanks fo all your support and sorry to be negative but it is how i am feeling right now.
How many times must i come on here to say the same things and look so pathetic too all of you,. well going for now.

have a great day and thanks for listening to my whining!!!!

Hi Minnie

Sounds like you have a lot to think about at the moment. This is another time when I wish I could wave my magic wand and make it all better. But I can't. So what I will do is say that I'm always here to listen, and hopefully to make the odd sensible suggestion too. I don't think you need to apologise to us for being negative, if that's truly how you're feeling at the moment. You might want to apologise to yourself, but thats a different matter.

I hope its good news for your sister.

Look after yourself, all my love, Chuckles

Again. And again. And again and again and again and again.

But the important thing is we still keep trying. We still keep hoping we can do it. We still keep getting up one morning and getting some exercise and eating a little bit better. And at least if we lose some and gain it back faster (ain't that always the way?) then we've LOST SOME and aren't just GAINING. Pffft.

It is so damn depressing, I agree, Ms. Mouse. I woke up this morning a whopping 234 again. AGAIN. I ate all weekend long and only b/c I am depressed about eating. It sucks.

But here.

Grab my hand. Then we can grab other peoples' hands and somehow pull ourselves up. Today we can exercise and eat better. Let's try not to worry about tomorrow til tonight. ha

You rock, Minnie Mouse. And since you are my friend, I guess I must rock, too.
:jn

(((((Minnie))))))


all the hard work and efforts and rushing in the morning to fit exercise in only to regain the same pounds over and over.

In my humble opinion, the point is you are developing new habits and subconciously getting to like it whether you know it or not. Regardless of what the scale says, this is an integral part of the overall weight loss plan. If the weight loss is not happening, at least you can continue strenghtening this element.

when im on plan i think of food all the time even though i dont eat it and when im not on plan im thinking of what food i can eat.

This EXACT thing has happened to me so many times in the past although it's not happening now and I'm not sure why. One thing could be that the body/brain, biochemically, is requiring or screaming out for certian things. That is why I am trying to really listen to my body and giving it protien, carbs and also a bit of fat. Also, I have suspicions that sweets are addictive, just like cigarettes and it just takes time to break the addiction. I have been eating a lot of fruit salad. Again though, I have REALLY experienced what you are saying in the past and I don't know why its not happening now but those are my guesses.


and dont know how to escape it.

Perhaps try to think about what what the source of those emotions are and try to let them out some other way such as talking or writing about it. I myself have been thinking of why I do this. Each person is different. I'm not sure yet, but I think for me it is a feeling that I am unloveable which comes out when I feel like I am failing. Perhaps for you it has something to do with your sister's doctor visit- just a shot in the dark. I have seen some really cool talk going around the journals this week on exactly the same thing.


Hang in there ((((((((((((Minnie)))))))))))))

Hi Minnie,

I am sorry you are feeling down about your diet. :(
I really wish I could help. I wish I could come over and chat you up and motivate you but I know you just want people to listen. hehe :o

I think you can do this, super Minnie. In fact, I know you know you can do this. LOL. ONE DAY AT A TIME. ONE MEAL AT A TIME.

- Kimmi

Hi Minnie!

I've been reading back through your journal, and this is one of those times I wish I could see you face to face. Your journal shows that you have a tremendous amount of courage and determination. Sometimes you just have to put one foot in front of the other and slog it through, until you come out the other side. Hang in there, gal!

Sending good prayers and clean eating wishes to you!

* * *

I had to edit this to say that I really like your journal name, since I'm from Kansas! Just call me Toto!

Hi Minnie,

I'm so sorry about you feeling down, but don't feel alone. I gained 4 lbs again this week. I know it was the ham I had for dinner Sunday, but..........................

That's just the way it goes when we have large amounts of weight to lose. It's a long journey frought with many obstacles in our paths. But with practice and determination, we will reach our goals.

Hang in there Minnie, and one of these days we will all be celebrating our victory together.

Sandie

Hi Minnie! Just wanted to pop in and say "hi" and see how you are doing. Sorry to hear you are going through a rough time but you took the words out my very own mouth. I feel the same way most the time but you have come so far and you CAN DO THIS! Hang in there and know that we are all here for you!

:) Take care!

Minnie

Can you go back, just stop trying? Can you say heck with it? I read once that even skinny people go overboard on occasion. But they don't use food to cope with emotions and life.

So eating Easter dinner and being offtrack is probably normal, but just like you obscess over food, you beat yourself up over food selection and see it as a reflection of who you are. Do you remember your list of blessings? Don't they reflect on the person you are, more than the food you've ingested?

Minnie, most of us do what makes each of us happy. But we are so hooked on instant gratification-----and want instant reward, we have to find a new focus, a new sense of reward. We have to grow up and know that we can get that sense of well being from other things than food events.

Minnie, you delay so many things, saving for special purchases, saving for school supplies, etc. You prioritize your day to give your family a clean home, clean clothes, so prioritize yourself time to do what needs to get done to reach your goals.

Can you go back to 2X, can you skip nutrition and setting a good example for your daughter? Are you ready to garage sale your work-out tape and bike?

Choices are yours. Eating appropritately is just a choice away, and like any new habit we have to practice and make corrections before we find what works for us.

Glad your Easter was great, filled with blessings and family and love.

Donna

Hi Minnie

I'm sorry you're having a rough time at the moment. I think we are very similar - holidays such as Christmas and Easter are excuses to eat a bit more than usual. I can tell you I've just eaten badly for the past four days, but the time has come for us to take control back and get back with out plans.

I'm the same as you as well in that I obsess about food all of the time. I think about my next meal, what I'm having, what time I'm going to have it, then what I will have later. I get extremely stressed if I don't know what I'm having or I'm with somebody who is not hungry - that makes me feel greedy. So I do know how you feel and how hard it is to get back on plan.

The way that I resolved things is that I don't deny myself anything. I found that was the worst thing I could do. When we deny ourselves things that we want, we want them more, and I for one tend to go around the houses a bit before I get what I want (ie I will binge on anything, if I want cheese I will start with biscuits, then go on to peanuts, chocolate and finally cheese - perhaps if I had started with the cheese that would have been an end to it?).

Take a deep breath Minnie, you can do this.

Hey Minnie,

Guess you and I are both feeling crappy for our wonderful Easter holiday! Yup, I over indulged as well. We have to keep going though, right! We have to keep trudging ahead and forgive ourselves for what we did this weekend, or we'll never get past this weekend. Hang in there Minnie, you'll be fine.

Willow

Hi Minnie, just checking up on you again. I hope I didn't sound like I was lecturing & I hope you are ok. I was also thinking that you have a huge amount of temptation with all the candy etc around, I mean, willpower does had it's limits and I also think lots of others had a bad weekend- seems very quite around here. Bye for now, Cath

Hiya sweetie! Just wanted to check in on you today!!! Let you know I am thinking about you.

Hi Minnie
I'm another one who's thinking about you!
Hope you're alright
All my love, Chuckles

my little :super: mouse


:hug:


i went back to my first journal the other day...as i was feeling as uninspired as you are now

so many posts from all of us


I read yours and how we were feeling then, i think we came to the conclusion that we didnt feel less stress when we were not worrying about what we ate... but that we just masked it with what we ate


a viscious circle


and one that we have changed...even if it doesnt feel like it every day


I see the old posts from so many that HAVE quit


gone

poof


I am sure they didnt quit posting as they reached thier goal and are now living happily after

a nice thought


but...


i still feel your words from when we both started

i wish i was 100 pounds lighter too now


but it is important that we have not quit


we have not regained every damn pound...although we have played with a few


I think you could last a little bit down in the dumps


but not for long


the last year has changed you


for the better


:hug:



remember when you thought you were gonna have a heart attack running after your daughter in that storm?????

that was a long time ago and MANY miles of bike riding have shaped up your ticker now


I know you could haul some serious ass now !!!!!!



you have shaped up...and you will continue to shape up


and your emotional growth will continue too


thats just the kind of woman you are


a wonderful one

loved by all


and most of all respected


for being you


just as you are



:hug:



feeling better about ourselves and shedding a few more pounds is a bonus along the way



WE WILL DO THIS !!!!!!




TOGETHER !!!!!!




we were all meant to get together here for a reason




we are not quitters



no way




:flower:



luv ya buddy


always







Peng

xo

Hello,

well i just posted here and as i went to submit it my connection to the interenet was lost. i was so mad.
but here i go again.
I want to thank all of you for posting and be supportive and caring. it means so much to me.

yesterday i layed around watching movies till younger 2 got out of school early, then i cleaned. at night had my sons conference at school and he is improving and doing well. i was so glad to finally get good news about him.
he knows he has to do good to play football and he really wants to plus he wants a video game system for summer and i said yes but if he doesnt behave i will unplug it for awhile so that should help in him behaving.
but he has been doing good at home and now in school. he will go to 4th grade so things are good there.
getting van back on friday. it needed a major tuneup. that was the problem. so we wasted 200 unneccesary dollars which we dont have to spare. also come to find out my middle girl is suppose to go on trip with scouts to philidelphia this weekend coming. i found out thurs and my girl has missed meetings and i didnt get any info on it. the paper i get today says anyone who doesnt go owes 37 dollars to the troop for the tickets. i am upset. my girl is spending her easter(belated) with her dad and family this coming weekend so i guess i owe money on a trip she wont be going on. plus shes only 11 and i dont want her in Phili without me.
my older girl who wears glasses/contacts had her appt today and prescription changed so had to get her new glasses. of course insurance only covers so much so i had to pay the rest. were picking the glasses up on thurs nite.
so money wise i am broke and my cold is still here but a toothache too boot with no money to see a dentist, cant find a denstist to take payments(still looking) andi dont have dental insurance so i will just suffer through it.
i cannot beleive in this day and age with all the technology we got that people got suffer unhumanely due to not having alot of cash. it makes me mad. we can spend a ton re building iraq and feeding them but people here are hungry and could use medical and dental and so on. i see where our countries priorities are...

diet wise dont know where i am. i can only say i will try. hubby says he loves me as is and i am very sexy and attractive. i told him how i feel and he was super understanding to me.

today me and my older girl had a mom/daughter day. we went to her eye appt, went to cemetary to see aunts grave, paid bills,bank,post office, pharamcy, groceries, lunch of chinese and visited my mom.

had a full day.

well im going for now. wanted you to know i am still here.
thanks for caring. take care. missed you all so much!!!

Oh gosh...I think we are twins...seperated at birth!

I am having the similar stressors lately!...I don't know if you rememer me mentioning how every year I do well until about Easter...then I go back to my old habits...and gain back what I worked so hard to lose!...Well...I am on that road now...fighting it...fighting it!

I have had similar problems with my dentist...having to cancel several appt's because I cannot afford the co-pay I owe!...It is terrible...I am having car trouble too...praying my tax check comes in soon so I can have it fixed...without the car I am in big trouble since I am the only one working right now and I would have no way to get to work!

Stress, anxiety, money...etc...etc...all can take such a toll on our good intentions!

I was thinking the same thing the other day...about just loving me the way I am and stop being addicted to food...calories...the scale...etc...but...I too want to be healthy...and this is 60 pounds away!...Boohoo!

Hope you have a great Wednesday!

We can do this Minnie...we really ... really can!...You sexy gal you!

mcmarto

Glad to see you back Minnie! :D

Hi Minnie

I'm so glad to see you're back, and so sorry to hear about all your stresses. Everything always seems to come at once really.

All my love :hug:
Chuckles

what a yuck week our poor minnie is having!

I so agree about the whole insurance thing.........:(

Being self employed, Tim & I need to buy our own and the cheapest "deal" I can find will run us over 350.00 a month! That is way too costly for us! I am still looking online.

I sure hope your week gets better my friend and remember we are here for you :)

Jade :peace:
My New Journal Is Posted Here. (http://diettalk.com/forums/showthread.php?s=&postid=292780#post292780)

Minnie

As each of us journey thru life we have more to our lifes than diet and food. It is evident in every sentence you type that your family holds your heart. Your diet and your exercise isn't your life but habits you are learning to create to make a better lifestyle for yourself----not centered around food.

But it isn't rocket science or life or death decisions. And each time you choose food appropriately, watch your quanitity, and the time when you eat it, you are building habits that will sustain you over the long haul. It is only in our compulsive personality and culture that we feel we should get it NOW, and we want it perfect or we don't want it.

News flash. Instant weight loss or perfect weight loss won't happen. But we do change, you have changed. That is why I asked can you go back to those old habits. Yes, I know how easy it is to spurge and see the weight jump on. But can you enjoy gorging yourself at a buffet till you feel nauseated? Is there a joy in binging. Even not eating appropriately but better improves you, and gives you a sense of control.

No, without real commitment and re-evaluation will you ever get to your goal. But allow for holiday maintenance and don't tear yourself up due some numbers on a scale. Weight flucuation of 3-4 lb for your period is normal and not to be despaired over.

This sense of failure I feel coming across is a combination of failures, not just your weight. It is the failure of the van to function properly, it is the failure to have dental insurance, it is the failure of impulse control. Would you condemn anyone other than yourself for these faults?

Minnie, be gentle with yourself and acknowledge those blessings and accomplishments. Knowing you are more than numbers on a scale. Some of those failures are outside of your control. Learning to accept the things we cannot change is part of growing. Acknowledging where we falter from our goal, and correcting the mistake is all any of us can do. A constant re-evaluation and honest but loving appraisal to keep us focus toward our goal.

Gotta scoot, am procrastinating.

Donna

Hey Min...
I just read your 4/21 post. I though you jumped in my head and described ME. I take so much effort to lose a measley pound, then finally get 5 off and one day of Porkin and I'm up 6 pounds. GOSH DARN.....

It makes me KOO KOO 8-} O'well :( We cant give up. Must keep keepin on!

Minnie - sorry to hear about your week. I hope everything
turns around for the positive for you soon.

Minnie:

Sending a big :hug: your way. Your right we should never have to worry about money or being able to afford dentists and eye care in this day and age. Something is really wrong with a system when you can't afford the basic needs for your family.
I sure hope your week ends better for you.

Judy2:ex:

Hello Minnie,

You are starting to remind me of that song that says "if it weren't for bad luck, I'd have no luck at all."

I agree with you kiddo. It's deplorable that we are spending so many billions on Iraq and yet our own people starve, go homeless, jobless, and suffer needlessly for lack of funds to pay a dentist, doctor, lawyer or whatever their need may be. We have lost our way when everyone else has precedence over our own.

I am so very sorry about all the mishaps that you have been forced to deal with, but I do know that things will improve for you. Don't ever give up kiddo. Some times the struggle seems not worth the effort, but a healthier you will pay off big not just for you, but for your hubby and children too in the years ahead.

Take care Minnie,
:hug::hug:
Sandie

Hello and once again thanks for all the posts. i am sorry i havent been posting in journals but i just dont feel up to it at the moment. i barely feel up to posting in my own.

well i am trying to not obsess about food or the scale and am going a day at a time. some days food is really bad and no exercise and other days are better.
i feel lost and dont know what direction i am going in right now.

my cold is lifting some and toothache is gone. i think my tooth hurt due to the head cold and i had an earache so hope it dont return soon.

i have been busy and am getting van back tommorow but have had to run hubby to work and pick him up after.
tonight got to go to get my girls glasses and its a 40 min drive to the vision center where we go so after work will rush to cook something fast and head to the vision place.

i am heading out early this morning to go to the bank. got clothes folded and put away, a load washed and whites in washer now, beds made, fish fed, hubby off to work and kids off to school but i got a few more things to do.

take care, enjoy your day and i will catch up to you all soon and thanks for being here for me!!!

Sending lots of good thoughts and encouragement for a great day for ya! You sound like "the little engine that could"!

One day at a time is the way to go. We only have one life to live, and as Monica says we must live it to its fullest....

:gflower:

{{{{{SANDY}}}}} I am so sorry that I haven't posted in your journal for a while. I hope that everything is going well for you. I did read in a couple of your posts that you've been having a hard time. How are you doing now? Is everything going well for you? If you ever need to chat, I'm always here for you.

I'm slowly getting back on track again, I set up a 10 day challenge for myself. During the 10 days I'm challenging myself to drink a certain about of water, workout a certain number of days, and stay within my points for a certain number of days.

So far I've done well with the water and my working out. Now I really need to start working on my points. the next few days I'm going to really work on my points. I think once I actually start counting points everyday and get myself into a routine it will help me to stay on track.

have a great day! Katherine

Hey Minnie!

Sorry to hear your feeling down in the dumps! It's great you'll be getting back your van soon though.

Don't obsess over the food thing - take your time and get better.

Willow

Hi Minnie, just checking up on you. I so much agree with what mdonna612 wrote. And please don't feel you need to visit my journal, you are so busy, you are always so busy, I have no idea how you do it. Be nice & gentle to yourself sweetie :) bye for now, Catherine

You go, Minnie, girl. No one should ever want for health care, dental care, food...none of the necessities. It is shameful that you should have to forgo treatment b/c you have no dental insurance (I do the same thing, unfortunately). But then again, you know how I feel about such things. This guy needs to get his behind on outta the White House. The whole economy has tanked since he took charge. Pffft.

I'm so in your head right now with the weight loss stressors. I've been sick with a horrible cold, too (are we always sick this year at the same time??) and have been eating horrible, junky foods. I wish I knew the answer for you, Minn...and for me. But as someone reminded me (over in my journal), it is an excellent sign that we keep coming here, keep holding ourselves accountable, keep on pluggin' away at it. Obviously, we think well enough of ourselves to try and try and try again.

What can I do to help you outta this slump, my friend???

Hello and once again thanks to everyone for all your support.

well work was totally hectic yesterday and sure i burned calories from all the running around and today being friday we will be even busier im sure. we are so shorthanded and with warmer weather business has picked back up but now were doing triple the work.

well food is still not good or exercise but water is good and i keep coming here so i havent given up all hope.
im still hanging on.....

well went to see the guy at the garage about the van and he said the coil went which in turn ruined the modulator(dont know what the heck that is) but it has to do with fuel getting in the line.
anyways i hope to have it back soon. possibly tonight but it ended up costing 244.00 plus the 200 we put in for towing and parts we didnt need so i am a bit upset over all this.

went and picked up my girls glasses last night. they look so good one her. she didnt really like the contacts so its back to glasses for her.
while there ran into mom, sis and niece.
i looked a wreck from work, i mean hair was flat and i just looked so bad and i prayed i didnt see anyone i knew but of course you always do when you dont want to be seen.

kids are going to there dads tonight so hubby and i will have some much needed alone time. i am not stressing over food for the weekend and will aim to be on plan on sunday or mon the latest and will not weigh for a week or 2 cuz i dont want to see how much damage i may have done cuz it will only discourage me further.

well hope you all have a wonderful weekend and talk to you soon!!! Take care.

Poor Min, you've had a run of bad luck just lately. I hope this is the last of it and that you get some good luck thrown your way soon!

I'm sure your mum, sis and neice wouldn't batt and eyelid about the way you looked - I'm sure you probably felt you looked worse than you did anyway!

I hope you do manage to have a wonderful, relaxing weekend!

Hope you get a chance to make the most of your time alone. You deserve it. :hug:

Minnie:

I hope you and your hubby have a fabulous weekend. You deserve a rest and peace and quiet. ENJOY


Judy2:ex:

Boy, Minn, if ANYone deserves some R&R time, it's YOU!!!!! Enjoy it. We can get back to the rigors of life on Monday.

Hi Minnie, I am glad you are taking it easy this weekend. So sorry about the van, I hate when that happens- I feel so helpless having no choice to pay but so little money and it's so unexpected. Glad you are coming back, I think its a great idea not to look at the scale for awhile- bravo :)

Hello,

well the weekend is going well.
me and hubby have enjoyed some great R&R and alone time.
yesterday rained all day but we still had fun and today i went for groeceries and have cleaned and doing laundry.
gotta pcik the kids up soon.
they celebrated Easter with there dad this weekend.
when i called they were doing an Easter egg hunt.

i feel so tired today. need a nap but no time for one.
well hubbys girl hasnt called yet and he hasnt seen her now in 5 weeks so he said if she refuses to come next weekend then he is going to see a lawyer for visitation rights in writing.

well we finally got our van back yesterday and i am so glad.
now hubby can drive to work himself and more time for me without rushing so bad in the morning.

my cold is still hanging on but going away. i feel alot better and sore throat is gone for now.

tommorow am going back on slim fast plan and going to finally exercise. i promised myself to do good all week this week and am taking it a day at a time. still not looking at scale. im not going to till next friday that way i can get some of this added weight off and feel good.

also instead of too much pressure on myself to do so much exercise in the morning i am going to do it like i used too.
one day will be the walk away tapes with crunches and the opposite day the bike and weights and keep alternating instead of doing it all every day cuz its too much for me with trying to clean house and go to work in morning.

well im going for now.
have a wonderful sunday and take care.

glad you got your wheels back !!!


and that you had some 'you' time



we got a foot of snow here overnight...and it is still snowing

nasty stuff


so changed my plans


after laying around half the day, i called the new gym to see whn they are opening... they will have a smallers womens area and such in it...and i HAVE to get out and get moving again


I dont want to be 300 pounds again



they open in a month but have a small area in a side building for working out now...and she says it is not too busy as people are going to the other locations till new building is finished


so, i am bundling my fat ass up and going to join right now



we will do this buddy


i dont want to let you down, or me down






WE WILL DO THIS !!!!


we will sandy


i will help you all I can... one way is by working with you

hopefully it will ease my stress too


40 bucks a month is worth it even though i am pretty broke.. it is that or a breakdown i think



so...enjoy today , my little :super: mouse



i will be pedalling along with you too





:hug:


Peng

Hey Minnie - glad you're feeling better! Your new plan sounds great too. Afterall, these changes we're making are supposed to be things we can LIVE with, not things that kill us :laugh:!
I'm rededicating myself to the gym tomorrow morning too. I went and bought new running shoes so that I can attack the silly dreadmill. Oops, treadmill! :)

Hi Minnie-

Glad to hear your feeling some better. Good for you for getting back to the exercising. I took a 3 week fiesta and the scales showed it and the hardest part is starting it back up but when you get going it will all come flooding back. Good luck to you and have a great week!

Hi again Minnie, sorry its been a little while since I last posted here, but everything's been so hectic. I'm really glad you're feeling a bit better, so I take it the R & R weekend worked.

The exercise thing sounds like a good idea, you're more likely to do it (I reckon) if it doesn't take so much time out of your day when you'd rather be doing other stuff.

Look after yourself

Chuckles

Hey Min!

Good luck with the new plan. I think you perhaps just needed to gather yourself together and remember how you did so well before, and will do so well again. I always think with the longer days and warmer weather, things start to improve.

Sandy,

Hi, do you remember me? It has been so long and I am very sorry.

Glad to hear that you have the van back again. I just love my van.

I like your variety with your exercising, that sounds like a great plan.

We are still in this together and I will be back checking on you more often now. See ya soon. :ex:

Hello,

sorry i havent been posting in all your journals but i have been very busy and i will get to them soon as i can.
trying not to over stress myself.
food is really bad and i am so disgusted. i havent exercised either except my mouth,. the only good thing is i am drinking all my water.
but on another note i am happy and in a good mood without this diet cloud hanging over me. i havent weighed in awhile and dont plan to for awhile.
i need to get this eating in order.
i do get up each day with the best of intentions but then i eat what i want.
sunday me and the kids watched hollow man and decided to make sundaes.
of course we had hot fudge, caramel, choc syrup, cherries, whipped cream and reeses stuff too to go on top of choc marshamllow ice cream. i made another one for breakfast on monday.
i have been being so bad and cannot seem to get control here and personally it is wearing me down trying. how many times do i try just to gain it back and to me it is becoming pointless. i am either going to do it and lose the weight or i need to learn to be happy with who i am.
my kids love me as is and hubby loves me the same way too.
so why do i stress so much over what i weigh. it doesnt make me any different as a person or any less sexy as a woman. my hubby is attracted to me and always tells and shows me so why am i so hard on myself. cant i just love the person i am.

yesterday at work before it was time to punch in me and my friend were approached by a indepenent beauty consultant for mary kay products and she wanted to use me(brunette) and my friend(blonde) as models for a makeover and take our before and after photos. first we said yes but changed our minds.
but it was nice to be offered such a thing.

i am getting my son a playstation from a store that buys and sells used in great shape but for cheaper and my friend is giving me a small tv so i will put it in his room to use. he is excited as this is what he wants for summer and his behavior has improved alot and in school too so i told him keep it up and if he doesnt than i remove the video games until he behaves.
we will be going to get it next week.

well i got to get ready for work.

take care.

Minnie

I think at night you need to keep a handwritten journal of your accomplishments and blessings. Something simple. I did this at one time and found that I felt an abundance of wealth. I use to be afraid to give materialistically in case it left me short. I might assess a situation and determine what was the maximum I needed to spend to give a respectable gift----now I don't see it like that. Rather I think of what I would like to get if I were you. I no longer think of my giving as taking away from myself. But it took time.

I use to think of all the things I don't have like my friends and neighbors and compare. But now, after journalling, I found I feel I live in an abundance of love and in too much clutter. But I am blessing others with my excess, and freeing myself of the clutter ---probably too slowly. But it is hard to let go of the excess, much like letting go of the excess weight.

I think I down play anything I do, not giving me credit for the things I get done. So it's a suggestion. Try buying a school notebook and date it and just list your activities or antedotes of what happened that acknowledged your acomplishments.

Include the comments like "mom, this is really good" when it comes to your dinner at home, or thanks, mom for getting this for me.

You will be surprised how often some friend or family member acknowledges your presence and value.

Life isn't just a number on the scale. But the number on the scale reflects your acting on the reality of food and emotions. Or at least for me. I know I am not being honest with myself if I think I can have a free day-----maybe a day with greater freedom but still have to acknowledge the need for moderation. My son went to the buffet eating somewhat overboard---but not gross. He had small piece of fish and hamburger a

Hi Minnie, just popping in to say hi. I read your post. Am rushing off to work etc. I am glad you are still posting in your journal. I have stopped but will start again on thursday. bye for now, Cath.

:hug: You want to be thinner because YOU want to be Thinner..... YOU..know you can be better... YOU know you'll feel better, YOU want to be Healthy and fit,, YOU feel bad when you eat Sundaes....

YOU want to be smaller so you can quit worrying about being bigger. WE all want to be! Personally I'm not worried about staying the weight I am, I'm worried I will get BIGGER.

Tomorrow is a new day my dear. SO WHAT you ate Ice Cream. Don't feel guilty! MOVE ON........ (lesson to self)

Hello,

well thanks for all of you for being here and yes Maxi i do want to be thinner. i am scared of getting bigger and bigger. i dont like to feel fat or bloated and i am so disgusted right now but inside of me i know i need to get back on plan. that is when i did feel good about me.
I am not making goals right now or weighing either but i will try again.
i am going to drink my slim fast and also am going back to doing ww points which is how i lost the weight to begin with. i know i can do this. i have allowed myself too much free eating and am having a hard time getting back on track with it and when i eat bad or binge then i dont exercise either. for me its all or none.
i got to find a happy in between.

I came here to start with to lose weight and i did and i also came here to make it to goal and i will. i will not give up.
no more excuses or pity parties or anything. i need to do this and got to get tough.
i miss you guys so much and that is why i keep coming back.
thanks for making such a difference to me.
i will make myself proud and you too.

Love ya and have a good night.

I also forgot to say what a nice day it was today. sun was out and hung clothes on line outside. kids were jump roping and playing outside and it was 7:30 pm and still light out.
my blessings for today were:

watching my kids play jump rope and not fighting
my hubby hugging me after a long day
the cool shower i took and felt so cool and clean and relaxed after
the nice dinner i had with my children'
my cold is going away
no bills in the mail
van is running good
got a job
kids and hubby are healthy
and tommorow is a new day to try again and lose weight
and lets not forget my great friends here at DT
God in my life and love in my heart
my eyes that see, ears that hear, a mouth that can talk. legs that walk, running water, the flowe my boy gave me for mothers day uin a pot(early gift) the 2 tests my son passed in school, my 13 yr old hugging me and my 11 yr old telling me she loves me,
a computer that works,. my dog who barks, food in the fridge, a home, my comfy warm bed, my tropical fish, my parents sis and niece and i can go on and on for the simple things are what make me happy.
the way my hubby holds my hand and squeezes it, the way he looks in my eyes and snuggles with me as we sleep, the way my kids kiss me good night and tell me they love me, the way they look like angels as they sleep, all these things make me whole.
the way i know i am loved and needed and that is all i truly need.
now i need to work on myself and get healthy so i can be here for a long time to enjoy these things in life God has blessed me with.
enjoy the things in your life too.
the simplest things are the best things!!!

Minnie

You sound so bless.

And wealthy. No not in money like things, though your life doesn't show some obvious deficit. Rather I see an abundance of love and loving.

You are well loved, by that family of yours with the ever mounting laundry and by people here on DT.

Wish you were in the neighborhood and I would come on down with my garage stuff and see if you want to trade JUNK or old treasures as I work on my garage. Actually would love to meet you.

Minnie, the question is after this entry did you feel your wealth?

Watching your success.

Donna

PS. My note to you got cut off but am glad to see you fill a whole page of blessings.

Hey Minnie!

Sorry I have not been here in so long!

Sounds like we are both in a slump!...I hate this...for the past 6 or maybe 7 weeks I have been off plan...trying a bunch of times to start over...but never succeeding!...I have put back on at least 8 of the 18 I have lost!

I feel bloated and icky too........I am really ashamed of myself!

I know I need to get over this...and start again..........but its so hard!

Hope you are having better luck!

mcmarto

Hello,

Donna, i do know i am blessed and am greatful for that.

MC, i am in a slump too and feel bloated and icky too but each day i start out with good intentions but dont stick to it.
i am disgusted and mad with myself.

well kids are gone to school and hubby to work.
he finished my aunts yard last night for now so will be home after work tonight. i miss seeing him these last 2 nights cuz he was so tired and right to bed.

my older girl is helping my son with a project for science fair and will be doing more tonight plus a project of her own so i cant hardly get to the computer at night right now.

work is busy and vey hot there but i do run around all day so i hope i am burning some calories cuz i havent been exercising here.
got up this morning and planned to ride the bike and sat with hubby while he had his coffee and then lost the desire to ride the bike.
i dont know how to get out of this slump.
i refuse to get on the scale. my jeans are snug so i know i have gained but dont want to face the scale or any numbers.
i better get my act together soon.

not only have i been eating the wrong foods but binging as well.
i fear i will never get this under control. i control it for awhile but it always comes back to haunt me.
some days i just think i was better before i started all this and i felt more free and didnt stress and now when i gain i gain rapidly which is more depressing, some days i want to quit!
then other days i know i need to lose this and keep on trying but i feel like a failure and am so ashamed of myself but i must admit this is way harder than i thought. i never thought i had such a love affair with food or realized how much i turn to food for comfort to relieve stress or if im bored.

i have clothes in washer and beds made and going for now.
hope you all have a wonderful day and i hope one day soon i can report a good day but for now all i can do is keep coming here and being honest with myself and all of you.

Take care.

Coming here and being honest with yourself and with us is a fantastic first step.

I, too, have gained a lot back and haven't done well in the healthy behaviors department.

But today is a new day and all we can do is keep trying. I know that when I stop trying (like I have the past few weeks), that I don't feel any better either. So, might as well make the attempt, Minnie.

I'm here for ya!

Minnie, keep your head up. You are awesome and don't forget it!

Minnie is awesome! :D

- Kimmi

Hi Minnie

I'm sorry I haven't posted here for a while, I've been busy (I still am, but am taking a break).

Its so hard getting out of a slump, but like chum says coming and being honest with us and with you is a good first step.

Even if half way through the day you realise you've not stuck to your intentions, you can still decide to stick to them for the rest of the day.

Look after yourself
Chuckles

Minnie, I too have the "yuckies" not sure why - weather is nice and spring cleaning is all done, but I still have the yucks - I think with me a part of it is I am peed off at myself! I wanted to weight a LOT less by this time of the year and i don't........sigh

But what ever the reason is that we are feeling yuck - we still are hanging on as you say - maybe by a thread - but hanging on none the less :)

It's when we let go of that thread we are in trouble my friend :D

Jade

Hi Minnie
Long time no see...Spring is here and so is the outside work on top of everything else..

Glad to see your head back up and you deserve this for you, if this is really something you want. Remember to put you on the top of the list with everything else..
Your doing great and to keep coming here shows us you DO care and we love to have ya..You can do it my friend,don't give up! ok?

Have a great weekend and enjoy..
Laura

Good morning,

well today is friday, the end of another bad eating week for Minnie but the good news is i can start new anytime.
hoping i get my groove back soon.
Last night confessed to hubby about how badly im doing and of course i cried and cried over this and he comforted me and of course is here for me whatever i choose to do.
I love him so much for that and for never judging me and for just loving me for who i am.
regardless of weight or size. that is the true love thing i know.

well my step girl is coming tonight for the weekend. first time in 6 weeks now so hope it goes smooth. my older girl will not talk to her she said unless she fully apoplogizes and admits that she stole the cds.
so i am letting the girls work it out themselves as they need to learn how to settle differences without parental interfrences.

my older girl is going to a school dance. they get free admission for the magazine sale they had and after she is going to the local college for a lock in and will play volleyball. of course she springs this on me last night at 10pm and i was a bit mad.
she knew but didnt want to tell me till the last minute cuz she was going to wait till today and she is lucky she didnt or she wasnt going. she will be sleeping at her friends till tommorow.
my middle girl has an eye check up tommorow and was suppose to sleep over her cousins from her dads side but last night on the phone her cousin was being mean to her for no reason so now she doesnt want to go.
hubby is taking my son in the morning to Home Depot with cub scouts to make a birdhouse and a rain gauge. his girl will problably go with them.

as for me today will be busy at work like usual on a friday.

i gotta get going for now. have a great weekend.

Ha! I love reading about your kids' trials and tribulations. It makes me glad I am 39 instead of 13.

Well, now, Ms. Minnie Mouse. Enough of all this pooting all over yourself in everybody's journals. You are a terrific person and have done some amazing things with weight loss over the last year that I have known you. You have every right to give wonderful advice. And you will indeed follow your own advice when you are darned good and ready to do so.

But Minn, here's the truth, girlfriend. You and me, we are very similar in many ways, you know. And I can see all the signs of you waiting for the Magic Moment when you will start eating healthfully and exercising regularly. Maybe when the stress subsides. Maybe when the kids behave. Maybe when...Well, Minnie, the Magic Moment doesn't always come. That doesn't mean you are a bad person, no it doesn't. It just means that you try the best you can to eat well every hour, from hour to hour. One hour of eating a Whopper with Cheese does not negate 12 hours of eating salads and fruit and grilled chicken. Same thing with exercise. Just get on the bike and promise yourself you will do 3 minutes. That's it, just 3. Then you can get off the bike and pat yourself on the back for starting a good habit. Keep doing that until you feel like doing 5 minutes. It will increase without you thinking too much about it. That's all I'm doing. And I made it through the first day ok. I want you to make it too. No big goals, no lightning strikes, just a few easy, small things and a lot of self-praise. We all think you are great. Your DH thinks you are great. Now YOU must try to think you are great. Or at least fake it until you believe it (that's what I'm doing right now).

Love you my friend. I'll be thinking of you!

Minnie,

I looked back and I love your list of blessings, you did really good and are obviously aware of all those things. I would have missed alot of it. You really did great.

You will get 'back in the groove', you always do. I think you just need some down time, you are always so busy you don't have much time to think of Sandy.

Maybe you and hubby need to go away for a night, or even just you, so you can't do laundry, cleaning etc, you just relax, think, don't think, etc.

You take care of yourself. We love ya!!!

Hi Minnie,

You are headed towards a busy weekend once again. Just make sure you get some time by yourself soon. :D

Chum gave you some great advice. But you know this. Just take small steps. Little minnie steps. hehehe.

Have a great weekend!

- Kimmi

Minnie

Wasn't size 22 the size you wore year before last? Did you throw those out or save them, in case of going balistic.

Binging is a cancer that eats at your self esteem.

Your "pooting" around is fine for we have all been there. But seeing this pain, and knowing the only one to fix it is you. Just like letting the girls duke it out----you have to slay your own demons. Each of us do.

The issue isn't what others think or feel about your size----it is how you feel about your size. If you love yourself the size you are or if size 22 made you smile, then aim for that goal. No joke. You said why do I bother when everyone else loves me regardless.

But do you love yourself when you are out of control. Be very honest with yourself. No, no more tears. Let's just think this one out common sense wise. It is your body and your health and you looking in the mirror that I am concerned about. So fess up.

Minnie, you are a super person, with lots of people who love you. But it is hard to feel that love if you don't love and respect your own actions. That is the simple truth. And it is hard to feel love unless it is fed to you daily when you don't have a foundation of self love.

So get those honey buns back on that bike.

Donna

Hey Minnie!

My DH is the same way...says he loves me the way I am ...etc...etc...but I am not happy with the way I am...I need to lose a minimum of 60 pounds...that would put me at 152...Which is at the high end for my height!...

Right now I would be happy to just get under 200 and eventually fit into a 14!...hmpft!

Well...hope you have a nice weekend...you are always so busy!

mcmarto

Hello,

well a busy day once again for Sandy!!!!
It seems i never get a break but thats how it is when your a mommy. i must hear my name called 2 billion times a day and some days it is a blessing to know i have my children who love and depend on me and will grow up all too fast.

work was busy. hubby made sausage for dinner as i didnt even want to look at my stove since i am in a kitchen all day.

took my girl to her friends for the dance.
step girl came too and i took her to the dance.
my sis came over with my niece to visit, she is very stressed with her job so we talked awhile and watched tv.
my hubby and son went to bed.
my middle girl and step girl are watching threes company on nick at nite.
and here i am.

after the dance i went with my sis and picked up my step girl. i saw my older girl before she left. her and her friend are going to the college for a lock in. they do it once a yr for junior high and high school. they stay at the college all night and swim and play sports and board games and have pizza. it was 7.00
then she will go to her friends and get some sleep from being up all night. lots of kids went and it is chaperoned.

i got good news today, my older girl who is 13 and in 7th grade got papers that she is a candadite to become a member of the junior national honor society which is a great honor. her grades are all above the cumilitve average and she has gotten first honors all yr. if she makes it there is a ceremony end of may and picture will be taken for newspaper. i am so very proud.
this really made my day and hers too.

well i am going to take the bull buy the horns and weigh myself. dont know if i will write it down but i do need to know where im starting from.
yes i am starting over.
i need to get serious now and take action.
i do not like the woman i see in the mirror and try not to look. hubby thinks im silly as he says he sees me as a beautiful girl.
yes a girl!!! i am 9 yrs younger than him so i guess i am a girl to him. LOL
He gets mad when i put myself down too.
i got a good man but yes i need to love myself too.
for a few weeks my heart has been breaking over the food ive eaten and the exercise i skipped. but time to move on and dust myself off and lose this weight!!!!

It's time!!!! Time to let go of it.
i dont want it and i am stronger than this. i know i can do this.
the other day i put on a pair of strechies cuz jeans are tight and i quickly took them off and put the snug jeans on. i refuse to wear those strechies and will suffer in these jeans till they get loose.

you all are so wonderful here. your support means so much and i am so blessed to have you all as my friends.
much love to you and have a great night too.

tommorow gotta take my girl to eye appt and then dont know what were doing. gotta pcik my older girl up in the afternoon and sis may come over again. if its not raining i wanna take the kids to the playground.
so depends on weather but there calling for rain. i wish it would be nice for the weekend since i have 4 kids i this house and its easier if they can play outside but it never happens when you want it too.

take care and talk to you soon.

Hi Minnie

It does sound like you've had a busy few days (and a few more to come I shouldn't wonder!).

I say good for you for starting afresh, and if you need any support you can count on me (and countless others!). You can do this Min, stay calm and focussed. You and I have both been eating badly lately, and it doesn't do our self-esteem much good, so let's make ourselves feel better by treating our bodies (and our minds) like they should be treated - with good food, exercise, and lots of nice kind thoughts about ourselves.

Hello,

well i took Donna's advice and faced my demons this morning and got on the scale and to my surprise it wasnt as bad as i thought.
first let me say about 2 weeks ago i weighed and i had gained and was 198 and 2 weeks later with no exercise and eating horrible i am now 196 so 2 pounds down from 2 weeks ago but i still am up 6.5 from before so working on it. my biggest fear was seeing 200 again and i am glad it isnt so i rode 2 miles on bike(small steps) and am drinking a slim fast for breakfast and am going to do my best today to behave and make good choices.
any good improvements are better than what i have been doing so one step at a time.

my hubby is gone with my son to home depot for scouts and me and girls are leaving soon to go for daughters eye exam and shopping.
sun is out but it is cold.
hope it warms up some.

well going for now.

have a great day!

I did also forget to say that i decided that before i was putting to much stress on myself with all of this so now i am going to not obsess to the point of causing stress.
i will try each day to make good choices and i will exercise(doesnt mean i have to kill myself doing tons of exercise either)
i will drink the water and try hard not to binge and to handle problems without the use of food.
i will look in the mirror each day and find one good thing i like about myself.
today is was my hair.
i also will think of one quality i like about myself too and todays is that i dont quit.
so small steps and that will lead to bigger ones.
one day at a time and weigh once a week or every 2 but not every day. ok thats it for now.

Minnie --- that's wonderful!!! I'm glad your getting back on track you can Pengii and I in the gym. We kick each others bbu$$$
if we're not moving. lol. It helps for inspiration for me. I'd hate to let her now --- she needs something to kick and I need to get my bu$$ movin. lol.

Take care Minnie

YAHOO MINNIE!!!!

I am so darned proud of you. I really am. You keep on getting up, just like me. ha! We are like Weebles. We wobble, but we don't fall down.

Hooray!!!!!! :jn :jn

Now, let's try to stick with that no pressure stuff for awhile. I'll bet we will do much better this way.

Thanks for being such a great friend, Minn. You really help me!

Minnie:

Glad to see your back on track:) And your right putting stress on yourself does not do you any good. My god woman we have enough stress from kids and our jobs without adding more to ourselves. Take care and have a awesome week.

Judy2:ex:

Glad to read you are on fire!

Like you said...take each day individually...don't worry about the past...only look forward to the future!

Hope you have a nice day today!

mcmarto

Hi Minnie

Well done on getting back on track. And I'm really glad that the scale was so much better than you were worried it would be. That's great.

Phew, you sound so busy, I'm glad I'm not a mum. Although you do get the chance to be so proud of your daughter when she gets first honours all the time (I'm not quite sure what that means but it sure sounds good, so well done to both of you).

Take care
Chuckles

Little super duper Minnie

It is with loving concern I write for you to just be honest with yourself and acknowledge the wrong and at that moment decide your next food choice will be appropriate. Don't say BLEW IT TODAY SO MIGHT AS WELL ENJOY THIS CAN OF FROSTING WHILE VEGGING IN FRONT OF THE TV. When you realize you have made a bad choice, a toaster pop-tart for breakfast, then decide to count that as part of your breads for lunch and make the adjustment and better choices. Don't lose the day, instead acknowledge and make better choices for the next meal. Got to stop the stinking thinking.

This is self love and your health. Not your sister or doctor or DH or kids can change how you see yourself.

Accomplishments are something you achieve. And I'm in your cheering section, yelling GO SANDY!

Glad you found your way back to that bike. Had a very stressful weekend on the floor. Made brownies on Saturday to thank everyone for their help on Fri night. Never ate one----but don't care for chocolate. So don't applaud me. I usually take brownies for a treat for that reason.

I ache and have major PMS, cramps and very emotional. I keep getting worst as I get older and it's upsetting for someone who never experience PMS till mid 30s and only started feeling teary in mid 40s. I just don't get it. But my son not vacuuming had me teary as if he didn't love me enough to do this small task. Yet, he got up on the roof and cleaned out gutters for about an hr while it sprinkled rain. I offered to pay him and he won't take my money. I feel guilty for telling him how we have to watch pennies till after November, when I have one of the cars paid off. He backed off what he will take for mowing the lawn and won't let me pay him for helping me with bigger projects. I don't give an allowance but have always paid for help around the house. Not every bump and grind gets a dollar. He lives there and is expected to do some things as part of the family.

Now I fear he thinks I can't afford to give him a just amount for his help. I didn't mean this. But making 2 car payments each month when one is rather high, makes me careful on how frequent we eat out or go to major entertainment events that cost big bucks.

I better scoot.

You rule, Sandy. I know there will come a time when you will get in a zone----having worked your program long enough that you automatically choose a side salad over fries, and small ice cream cone instead of sundae. It is just a matter of choice and appropriate emotions.

Later, gator.

Donna

Hello,

well had a nice weekend. Sis came over with my niece and we took all the kids to the playground. the sun was out and really nice. my 11 yr old needs glasses to but hers are for reading,tv, computer and homework where my other girls is for all day, her glasses are ordered and will be picking them up on thursday nite.
we ordered out hoagies and yesterday had a few people over and cooked sausage and hot dogs on grill.
we played horseshoes which im not really good at but let me say it is good exercise for the arm. my left arm is so sore today but we had fun.

going to have a slim fast for breakfast and going to ride a little on bike cuz im in a hurry this morning. my son has a dentist appt at 9 am then i have work. tonight gotta run and get some groceries.

i appreciate all the kind words and i am going to take it a meal at a time and see how i do,. not so much pressure and stress im sure will help me right now.

hope you all have a good day and will catch up to your journals soon.
have a great day!

Yahoo, Minnie! See? You can do some good for yourself and still have some food fun with your family. It IS possible. I am really proud of you for getting back on the horse (so to speak). You are a great person, never forget that!!!

Hi Sandy,
Just wanted to stop and say hello and let you know I have been thinking about you. Thank you for the kind words when my mother passed away. That was an event I wish none of us had to experience but life what can you do!!

I am back home finally and enjoying my pets and parrot!! Of course family in there too!!

I will catch up on reading your journal soon! Take care.

Love and big hugs,
Lizzie

Hey girl. Glad to see you are feeling good today. Just popping in to say hi!

- Kimmi

Hello Minnie.

The best thing is that we can re-dedicate ourselves whenever we are ready! We will get there my fellow Domestic Godess... We will get there.. :up:

Hi Minnie!!!Sounds as if you were knocked down for a while, but now you are back up and have dusted yourself off! Good for you! I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS!!!! You have come so far from when we first joined DT over a year ago. You have overcome many obstacles and taken on even more responsibility while still managing to stay unde 200 lbs.!! That is awesome! You really sound like you are geting back in control. The key is to acknowledge every thing you put inyour mouth and account for it. You CAN ea anything you want as long as you count it. You did awesome on weight watchers in the past, so you know all about keeping track of what you eat. Heck, if anyone can do it YOU can! You worked evryday in a fast food restaurant and STILL lostover 40 pounds!!! You are an inspiration tome! I do know how hard it is when you feel like you have lost control though. Like you said, take small steps! Instead of One Day at a time, take one meal or one hour at a time! Focus on how great you have done & know YOU CAN DO THIS!!
Stay Strong!

Hi Minnie

I'm really pleased that you are getting your stride back. You are awesome.

Have a great day.

Oh my! I love Max's Domestic Goddess thing she's got going on.

How did you do yesterday? Still taking it a little step at a time?

Denise pointed out something I always forget...you lost all that weight while working at BURGER KING. I would gain 5 lbs every day if I worked there. This is just further evidence of just how strong you really are, my friend. Denise is right!

Yay, Minnie!!!!!!!!! Have a fantastic day, girlfriend!

Yeah Minnie :cheer: Your back on track!

Slim fast shakes are a life saver for me lol I grab them on sell all the time - have you tried the off brand? I have not, but have been thinking about it.

Sounds like a GREAT weekend and you sure deserve it :)

Hope your week is going well.

Jade

Hello,

well i have been really busy. on monday my son had a dentist appt in the morning then i had errands to run before work.
on tuesday after school my little guy had an upset tummy and was throwing up and he couldnt make it to the bathroom so it was all over my carpeted steps and he kept apologizing and i told him we all get sick and have accidents. he napped for awhile and so did hubby and me and girls went for groceries.
Last night was my sons school roller skating party and we didnt get home till 9.
he liked this cute little girl named Alex and he was skating with her and it was so cute but this other girl from his class Samantha likes him and was chasing him around while he was chasing the other girl around. it was quite comical and cute.

work has been a high stress nightmare. i went last nite and applied to subway and the manager called while i was gone skating so i called her when i got in and she doesnt need anyone for nights in summer so she told me if i still want the job to come and see her in mid august for when kids go back to school she will need someone to work dayshift. i would get more hours than i do now and they give frequent raises. i would keep my job at BK for summers at nite till kids get older and i can get a better, higher paying job.

i have been riding my bike for exercise and drinking the water and food has been bad. not as bad as it has been but nothing to boast about. but at least im now trying again and not just sitting here not caring.

tonight i will get to be home after work and need to spend time with hubby as ive been busy all week and have things to do tommorow night.
this weekend kids are going to there dads and we need to call him tonight to make our usual meeting time.

maybe will call him tommorow night. dont know yet. hate to call him at all but i have too.

well have a great day!!!!!

Minnie

Thanks for the words of encouragement and yet I know you cannot feed me self esteem. I have to find this sense of fulfillment myself. Oddly I don't feel a failure in most areas of my life except this weight and my compulsive behavior. I know how irrational I act at times and it is hard to reconcile this emotional acting out my feelings----using food or buying to fill in my voids.

I am anxious to hear of you leaping tall buildings in a single bound.

Donna

Morning, sweet little mouselette!

Hey, MINNIE. Eating better than before IS SOMETHING TO BOAST ABOUT!!! And getting on the bike is SOMETHING TO BOAST ABOUT. If you aren't going to boast, I WILL BOAST FOR YOU!

MINNIE IS EATING BETTER THAN BEFORE!!

MINNIE IS EXERCISING AGAIN!!!

MINNIE CARES ABOUT HER HEALTH!!!

Great news about the Subway. Hopefully, they will treat you much better there. You deserve it, you know. And it will be easier to avoid temptation at a Subway, too.

I am imagining your boy being chased around by a girl already! I'm sure you were laughing. When he's 17 and they are doing it, though, you won't be laughing anymore. hahahaha He must be a real lady-killer, even at his young age! I'm glad he got better fast enough to go skating...I used to be too sick for school, but well enough to watch TV. Used to drive my mom crazy.

Have a fun night with your sweetie...

Hey Min-ners!

Yeah for for riding the bike, and drinking your water. See I am not drinking my water or treadmilling. And I am eating really good with added this and thats to just set me off the losing weight streak. But thats ok, cause I am going to do this someday.... Just got to keep on keepin on.

Hope your son feels better. He must of ate something yucky ay?

You and ex should have s designated area and time so you wouldn't have to call... Ever!

Hi Minnie

First of all a big well done for riding your bike. And a big well done for drinking the water. And well done for improving your eating. And well done for reminding yourself that you're worth it all.

Would you mind reminding me how old your son is again? I can't remember for the life of me....

That sounds pretty good about subway.

All my love

Chuckles

Hello,

well first off my son is over 9 1/2 yrs old. will be 10 beginning of sept.
not having a good day. came home to a letter from his teacher that he is missing homework and yelling out answers and so on. so he will not be getting his playstation tommorow and i told him he will not get one till he improves and once he gets one it can be easily unplugged.
he was doing so well and his teacher left to have her baby and now he has a sub and is doing bad AGAIN!!!!
so i am mad and upset.


hubby has been in a grouchy mood for 2 days now so i didnt spend time with him tonight cuz i dont need more stress or bad moods so hes in bed sleeping alone!

as far as the subway job i dont have it yet. she said she may need me when school starts up.

my 13 yr old wants to take dance so i priced around a few places and there is one locally that teaches tap and jazz. she wants to learn jazz, the modern hip hop. prices werent too outrageous though they were at once place i called.
it runs from sept to june and is once a week. both my girls are quitting girl scouts./ they have been in it since brownies and are getting bored with it and have too much going on.
my older girl whose 13 is in band, chorus,german club and scouts so next yr she is dropping german club cuz she cant be in it as her main language she will be studying will be spanish but she wants to join the newspaper and student council plus dance,band and chorus.
papers for her candidancy have to be turned in for approval for honor society on friday. i pray she gets in.

my 11 yr old is in scouts which shes quitting and chorus and plays basketball and wants to play an instrument next yr and my son is in scouts and will be playing football so as you can see there is alot going on here and i feel like cab driver and a bank!

all i here is Mom i need money for dorney park and i need money for a field trip and i need money for this and that.
i feel like the bank of America.

well anyways food was bad. not drastic but needs major improvement. exercise was basically work and running around here and water was bad.

i found the 12 steps for OA and i am posting it here:

12 STEPS OF OVEREATERS ANONYMOUS


1. WE ADMITTED THAT WE WERE POWERLESS OVER FOOD THAT OUR LIVES BECAME UNMANAGEABLE

2. WE CAME TO BELEIVE THAT A POWER GREATER THAN OURSELVES COULD RESTORE US TO SANITY

3. WE MADE A DECISION TO TURN OUR WILL AND OVER TO THE CARE OF GOD,AS WE UNDERSTOOD HIM

4. WE MADE A SEARCHING AND FEARLESS MORAL INVENTORY OF OURSELVES

5. WE ADMITTED TO GOD, TO OURSELVES, AND TO ANOTHER HUMAN BEING THE EXACT NATURE OF OUR WRONGS

6. WE WERE ENTIRELY READY TO HAVE GOD REMOVE ALL THESE DEFECTS OF CHARACTER

7. WE HUMBLY ASKED HIM TO REMOVE OUR SHORTCOMINGS

8. WE MADE A LIST OF ALL THE PERSONS WE HAD HARMED AND BECAME WILLING TO MAKE AMMENDS WITH THEM

9. WE MADE POSSIBLE AMMENDS TO SUCH PEOPLE WHEREVER POSSIBLE EXCEPT WHEN TO DO SO WOULD INJURE OTHERS.

10. WE CONTINUED TO TAKE PERSONAL INVENTORY WHEN WE WERE WRONG PROMPTLY ADMITTED IT

11. WE SOUGHT THROUGH PRAYER AND MEDITATION TO IMPROVE OUR CONSCIOUS CONTACT WITH GOD AS WE UNDERSTOOD HIM PRAYING ONLY FOR KNOWLEDGE HIS WILL FOR US AND THE POWER TO CARRY THAT OUT.

12. HAVING HAD A SPIRITUAL AWAKENING AS A RESULT OF THESE STEPS WE TRIED TO CARRY THIS MESSAGE TO COMPULSIVE OVEREATERS AND TO PRACTICE THESE PRINCIPLES IN ALL OUR AFFAIRS.


I am doing some research on myself and know thati binge and that i am an overeater and compulsive overeater. other disturbing findings is binging and being obese can kill me.
it scares me but hasnt stopped me yet from a binge.
i dont know if i ever will completely stop but i will try,.
as chum says we are troopers and still here fighting the fight.

good night and take care.
Love to you all!!!

haven taken the sleeping pills and feeling groggy

this will be short.

fell asleep for less than an hr and grabbed the nacrotic script for those sleeper.

I was received with loving welcome and she wasn't as young as I first thought----I thought she was 32 but that is you, but am tickled about her weight success story

The clothes are going to unless she losses and tones up some more. She looked a dollbaby in the new black hat. We were just lucky that her seat folds down and the the 6 bowes fit int that car.

Didn't give the jewelry boxes away and I know I would have memories that go with thm but I don't feel it----someone gave them to me.

scooting off to bed, pills have kicked my butt and and am truly sleepy

Donna

Hey Minnie!

Busy as usual...hey...I tried to use my debit card here...but no money came out!...hahaha!

When do your kids get out of school?

My last day is not until June 24th...but...because I am going to have grad school...and I am in a wedding...my last day is the 19th!

Hope you have a great Thursday!

mcmarto

Hello,

Last day of school here is june 6th or 7th.

well called the school to speak to sons teacher the one filling in for his regular teacher and come to find out hes doing well and the report was based on past notes of his other teacher.
i was quite mad as i had yelled at my kid and told him he wasnt getting the playstation tonight and he cried. why would a teacher give a report on old news? anyways i told her to tell him he will get it tonight so hes not upset all day and when he gets home i will need to apologize cuz this teacher made a mistake.

well i called the dance studio and rates are reasonable. high but i can swing it, i think???? now my 11 yr old wants to take dance too. they both want to learn Jazz(hip hop) so i told my 11 yr old she will have to drop basketball so when dance starts she is going to try it out for a few weeks and if she dont like it then quit and join basketball.
its 1/2 hr once a week. from sept till june.

well hubby still in a mood but not as bad. i had a talk with him this morning about it. he is stressed. well i told him who isnt???? but dont take it out on everyone.

my friend at work is giving me the tv today for my sons room for the playstation. i will be so busy after work. gotta go from work and cash check, get something simple at store for dinner, go get my girls glasses, the playstation, head to sons boy scout bridging ceremony and too have a paper signed for my girl for honor society.

hope you all have a good day!!!take care

by the way anyone know where Julie(jukie) has gone or Ruthie B. just wonderiing as i used to talk to them and they seemed to have gone AWOL.

Minnie

Didn't talk to either. Actually there is only three people I talk to on a regular basis -----I can lose too much time on DT being the social butterfly and not getting to stuff here at home. Not self discipline like you. I need to get a morning routine but just not there. I work on laundry daily and meals since Phil has such an early meal time, wanting to eat when he gets home. Today I plan to go to the gym before eating----only been once this week. He mowed on MONDAY, and gym on Tues. Yesterday we had a vet appt and ate at a neighbor and skipped the gym. So today, no excuses. To the gym and then home to grill out burgers.

Got to get moving this morning. Am hungover from sleeping pills but did sleep 6 hr. You would think I could sleep longer than 6 hr on 3 sleeping pills. But feel better than when it's 4 hr or less.

Keep focussed and remember those size 14 jeans

Donna

Hi girley girl. Why am I always tired after I read your journal??? I think you need to take a vacation to NYC and relax on the ole Chum's couch and watch Lifetime for a few years. Whew! I wonder if there is a way to tally all the calories you burn in just one day of plain old life?

Bank of America. Ha! That's a good one. I'll bet my parents thought that too, when I was a kid. I certainly heard the cab driver one before! hee

We are troopers, yes we are. Every day is a fresh one. Every day is a new chance to do something nice for ourselves. Ms. Mouse, you are ALWAYS thinking of nice things to do for your family, why not also think of nice things to do for yourself? And perhaps eating well and exercising a bit is one of those nice Minnie things? I know, I know. It is easier said than done. But I'm behind ya, sweetie. One hundred percent.

Hey Chicklette....

Lesson to you always check up on the teachers. My daughter came home the other day with a print out of her grade for one of her classes, it was a C-. I about had a fit and os did my daughter. She got a f on some project. My daughter said no way and went back to the teacher and tunred out the Teacher made a mistake..... PFFFFFF

Hello,

well i did get things straightened out with his teacher. she wrote me a letter of apology for causing me to get so upset.

well last night went and got my son his playstation which he is playing now. he is so excited.
got my one girl e new cd and headphones and the other girl got new headphones and a pack with a rapper of a key chain and magnet.
for the playstation started him out with 3 games. i told him for x-mas and birthdays and so on we can add to his collection. the place i went to has used but in great shapes video systems, games, cds,tapes, dvds and so on. there is 30 day warranty on the stuff and they do money trades in store. like give you in store credit. i have 16 super nintendo tapes that the guy is going to give me in store credit for but he wasnt there yesterday so i got to go back to do that. gotta get my son a memory card too, to save the games on and a stand for the tv and system.
right now hes playing it on the tv in the living room.
gotta get a multi plug in strip over the weekend to hook this in his room so we can watch tv. got his tv in his room now.
i am so glad to see him so excited but gave him rules with it to follow.

well after we got that we went to wallmart and got my girl her glasses and saw my mom, sis and niece so we went to MCdonalds with them and kids ate and i had a burger.

well kids are going to there dads tonight so gotta pack there weekend clothes.

hubby was moody last night AGAIN! I had enough so i left with the kids and didnt return till 8:30 then i ignored him. i am not kissing his *****. i told him how i felt with these mood swings and i am not dealing with it so this morning he was better but i told him i meant what i said that if hes in a bad mood then go sulk in bed but were all not listening to it.
i have enough of my own stresses and i told him its one thing to be in a bad mood here and there and its another things to act like a *itch and then when hes in a good mood i should just rejoice cuz it aint happening.
so i hope he will think of what i said.

he is really stressed with his job right now but its still no excuse to take it out on us.

well gotta get butt in gear and clean up house and wash clothes.

have a great day and weekend too!!!!

Chum~~ thinking of taking you up on the offer of coming to NYC and vegging on your couch . i would love that but back home my house would fall apart and of course id have to take the kiddies and after awhile you would be ready to choke us all. LOL

but seriously i do need a vacation if i ever will get one is another story.

take care!!!

Minnie

Watch out how much time your son spends on the game thingie. My 16 yr old has to have limits ----he gets so wrapped up in it.

I gotta run but wanted to check in on you. Doesn't your husband have his own landscaping company? Self employment is very stressful and yes, I know, we all have stress but he may feel he's failing you by not making good decisions business wise now.

I would give him space, and show support. It sound from your past entries that he gives you alot of support re: your weight. That he is supportive of the kids and involved. Maybe he needs to talk about it or maybe he just needs to think it thru. But often men feel that business success equates to manly success. It is a matter of pride and it may be a matter of survival in being self employed.

I apologized if I'm off the mark. My brother is a landscaper and often he has sleepless nights for being behind in one job and having people wanting to know when he is going to get to them. Or for bidding too low and knowing its way over budget.

Enjoy your weekend and have a great Mother's Day on Sunday.

Donna

hahaha Who said you could bring the kids? The POINT is a vacation for YOU, not for THEM. Hell, everyday is a vacation for THEM. Pffft.

I hope you have a great weekend!!! Are you doing something special for mother's day?

your son prob perked up a ton after the scare lol


nice that the teacher wrote you an apology...too bad it happened in the first place

Sandy, i hope you know why you are my little :super: mouse


you just keep going !!!



a relationship is always give and take.... i always like hearing how you and hubby work things out


that is love


you guys do have that connection..it is in all your words... he will come around...you give him a reason too



:hug:



I hope you have a fun weekend


I am working tons, but better than when i was crying about not having a job



life will level out


it always does, if we keep the faith



luv ya tons sandy



:hug:



always thinkin of you



Peng

Hi Minnie

I just dropped by to say buy for a little while (well, a week!). I hope that things settle down in the next week and when I next log on you will be the very picture of calmness and serenity and your kids will be doing all the housework(!).

Take care, I will miss you!

Happy your sons teacher FINALLY got it right - but so sorry you and your son had to go through this experience. I would have wanted to knock her block off! as I am sure you too wanted to do ;)

"funny" my hubby has been acting all *itchy too this week and I pretty much told him the same thing as you did.

I asked him what was wrong several times and he said ( with a HUGE sigh ) oh nothing......

Finally i told him ( quite loudly lol ) to get over "nothing" or to spit out what was wrong - but either way I was DONE.

He still kept at it for a few days - and then I finally really got pis*ed!

I told him to pull his head of his rear end on his own or I would do it for him - but I was not going to use any novcain lol

He is now all better and in a MUCH better mood lol

Did you see my ? a few pages back where I asked if you have tried the no name brand of slim fast and what you thought of them? I know you have been super stressed, so you may have forgotten my ?, so I am re posting it :)

Jade

Happy Mothers Day, Minnie dear!!! Hope you enjoy your day (and NOT by doing laundry)!!!
:gflower:

There is no love, like a mother's love,
no stronger bond on earth...
like the precious bond that comes from God,
to a mother, when she gives birth.

A mother's love is forever strong,
never changing for all time...
and when her children need her most,
a mother's love will shine.

God bless these special mothers,
God bless them every one...
for all the tears and heartache,
and for the special work they've done.

When her days on earth are over,
a mother's love lives on...
through many generations,
with God's blessings on each one.

Be thankful for our mothers,
for they love with a higher love...
from the power God has given,
and the strength from up above.


HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY


Judy2

Happy Mother's Day!

- Kimmi

minnie, happy mommy's day!!! you remember me, I hope??!! I'm sending you wishes for a wonderful day!!!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!!

well first to answer Jades question. I never tried the no name slim fast but my co worker has and my sister-in- law and her daughter and they like it.

yes Buji i remember you and glad to hear from you.

Glad also to hear from the rest of you too Donna, Peng, Chum,MickeyJade, and Judy what a great poem. and Kimmi. hope i didnt miss anyone, if so i apologize.

well friday nite me and hubby went for a few drinks(he drank and i had soda and water) we ate at the bar/ grill and the food sucked.
it used to be good but they got a new cook and it was bad. i wont ever eat there again.
me and hubby talked over dinner and he said he is sorry and of course we came home and made up.

Oh Donna he doesnt own his own business, he works as a landscaper for a company.

then on sat. we went to hallmark and got my mom a gift for mothers day. got her a small glass picture with a nice poem on it and a suncatcher that says mom i love you.
my sis got her perfume and roses and we took her to lunch at the lonestar where i had a steak sandwich and a sweet pot and we shared chicken quesadillas.
then we went to 2 different malls. i bought myself 3 pairs of earring(75% off) and 2 shirts on sale and i got my girls really cute name brand underwear.
my mom bought me and my sis slippers(they feel like im walking on a pillow) and she bought us colored cups and bowls that are alot like tupperware. then we met my dad hubby and niece back at the house. they had went to the Red Barons game. in sept my dad and hubby are taking my son to a ballgame. they did get him a red barons baseball.

then we all went out to an italian place and had pizza.

i was so tired. got up today and me and hubby went for breakfast and then to the dollar store and for groceries.
then we came home and put it all away and went to his sisters to visit, then to wallmart then to get the kids.
i bought the movie "catch me if you can" and it was good.
my daughter gave me a beanie bear with hearts on it and my birth month, my other girl gave me a card with cut out flowers on it with chores listed for herself to do and my son gave me a card with sunflowers in it for me to plant. it had a poem in it that made me cry. I am going to share it with you from what my 9 yr old son gave me today it says:

Seeds of Love Poem

These seeds are here for me and you,
and Mommy, heres what we can do:
Together we'll look till we've found
a spot to plant them in the ground,
with rain and sunshine, dont you know
our flowers,like our love, will grow.
A precious reminder our flowers will be
That I love my mommy and she loves me!

I was so touched i was crying.
i had a great day today.

Kids are being so good and hubby is loving once again too.

the sky is black out. they had issued a tornado watch earlier but its now changed ot severe storms.
i hate thunder and lightening.

My son and girl are playing the video games. Donna we owned video games in the past and i do know how addicting they are so he is limited just like he was on the old system we had. Its good you limit your son too. otherwise they get so obsessed they dont do anything else.

well hubby says i must get off here due to the storm brewing so will talk to you all tommorow. have a great nite.

Minnie

Happy Mother's Day.

Sounds like you had a nice one. Glad you and DH are close again. Your enteries make you two sound like best friends and thats
the best kind of man to have.

Got to head to bed. Was physically wearing and emotionally roller coaster for me. It's all in my journal. The misunderstanding and then the clearing the air.

Beyond the description of tire. Made some taco chicken and going to see if the neighbors want to share another meal or I'll be eating it all week. Turned out good but rather spicy.

Hope the week goes smooth.

Donna

Hey Minnie!

Sounds like you had a nice Mother's Day!

Hope you have a great week!

mcmarto

Hi Minn! Sounds like a wonderful weekend. I'm glad DH is being a sweetie again!!! I presume men get mood swings just like we do (but they have less reason for it, in my opinion! haha)...

So how does your week look? Are you going to try to eat pretty well and move your body a little bit???

Sounds just wonderful Sandy, and Happy Moms day to you.

Many blessings on you and your precious family too.

Hello,

well i have been busy. washed a ton of clothes today. weather is cool and windy not to mention on and off showers. is it ever going to get warm with some sun??? I wonder....

well went to library after dinner then took a shower. helped my 4th grader with a school project. my 7th grader has her band/chorus concert tommorow night.

my 11 yr old has orthodonist appt on wed and at night son has science fair at school not to mention i am off friday as kids have half day of school.

my eating isnt too good but i did resist cherry cake at work today.
water is good and exercise is non existent except for nomal daily work.
which is alot of exercise in my opinion.

tommorow and wed also gotta help my son study and he has an extra credit project on new mexico due friday so i am busy to say the least this week.

well going for now. just wanted to check in. going to spend time with my man. and yes Donna he is not only my hubby but my best friend, soul mate and lover. dont know what id do without my other half.
we do argue but who doesnt but we always make up and thats the best part and he is good to me. he is supportive, loving and always compliments me and is caring too. i cant ask for more. i can depend on him and he is my strengths where i am weak and i am for him. we support each other and are very compatible too.
i am a lucky lady.

have a great nite.

Minnie:

Oh my dear please forgive me as I had every intention of stopping in here and wishing you a Happy Mother's Day. So here I am a day late :( but hoping you had an excellent day.


There is no love, like a mother's love,
no stronger bond on earth...
like the precious bond that comes from God,
to a mother, when she gives birth.

A mother's love is forever strong,
never changing for all time...
and when her children need her most,
a mother's love will shine.

God bless these special mothers,
God bless them every one...
for all the tears and heartache,
and for the special work they've done.

When her days on earth are over,
a mother's love lives on...
through many generations,
with God's blessings on each one.

Be thankful for our mothers,
for they love with a higher love...
from the power God has given,
and the strength from up above.


HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY


Judy2:ex:

Minnie

It is evidence by your enteries how close you two are. You are very fortunate to have found that person that compliments you so completely.

My son took me out to eat for Mother's Day today and we had a good time.

Gotta scoot,

Want to get up early,

Donna

Ooo Minnie! What did you get at the library???

I think what you wrote about your DH is so sweet. It made me smile. I'm glad he is behaving himself. He is probably stressed out too, but doesn't have your miraculous ability to hide it!

I'm not sure I could resist cherry cake. Cherry flavor is the BEST. I am so proud of you for resisting!!!! Hooray!!!
:dc

Hey Min:wave:

Don't you love all these school projects. My daughter had to do a photo montage of the Holocaust, then a music video right after.

Sometimes its fun, but when you have lots of kids, it gets expensive and timely.....

Good for you for resisting the cake ;)

Hello Sandy,

Just wanted to stop by and give a :hug: and hope you had the best weekend ever.

This summer we just MUST find a way to meet. The suspense is killing me..........LOL.

Take care now. Have a great week.

Sandie

Hi Minnie! Just wanted to stop in and see how you aredoing. Sounds like you are BUSY BUSY BUSY!!! Of course you are ALWAYS busy!!! I go nuts with my 2 children who are both underthe age of 4, I can't imagine how you do it with 4 childrn all in schol and extra activities. I give you a ton of credit! Motherhood is HARD work!! So happy you had a nice Mother's Day my friend. I get on the bike everyday at the gym & think about you! You were a biking maniac! Have you been getting on it at all? Start slow, one or 2 days, but you really should get back on, you were my inspiration to get moving on the bike!

Yoo hoo!!! Where are you?

I'm sure you are just lounging around, eating bonbons, being fanned with big peacock feathers by DH. Maybe watching TV while the kids are cleaning the house and doing the laundry.
:laugh:

Hi Minnie ! Just wanted to stop in and say hello. I hope Chum is right and that's whats happening. If it is I wouldn't rush back!!lol.

Hope everything is ok Minnie - miss you :)

Jade

Oh wow...you are busy...barely here!...hahaha!

Hope you are eating right...and trying to fit in some exercise!

I am back on plan...always on plan...just fall off sometimes...but...so far sooooo good...gotta just live life and deal with the food later...hahaha...Sometimes I feel like its just passing me by and all I worry about is food...but...things will get better!...

mcmarto

Hello I am here.

Lets pu it this way, it is 11:30 pm and this is my minute of free time. this week has been a nightmare as far as i have been so busy i am dizzy.
Last night went to my girls chorus/band concert and they did such a great show but my son was driving me nuts there. then i took the kids to Mcdonalds as we always do after the shows.
i ate badly.
but i couldnt resist those nuggets with bbq sauce.

not alot i do resist these days but trying to slowly get back in shape.
im off to a slow start. LOL

but any start is good.

then this morning my girl had her orthodontist appt. needs top braces but insurance may not cover it cuz its not a major problem just a small gap between 2 top front teeth. will cost over 2,000 if insurance dont cover it so i am praying it does cuz even with a paying plan i cant afford it at the moment.
as far as ex helping i will ask but wont hold my breath and the dental office said he isnt liable since i brought her to the appt that only if he calls there office and wants to pay. i was thinking wow that is stupid. i dont want to pay either but it all falls on my shoulders as usual.
but on better news i felt lucky yesterday and bought a few scratch off tickets and i wont $47.00 then today i bought 1 more and won $30.00 and i got in the mail my appt for HUD(for section 8) i have been waiting cuz with our family size and income it will help pay rent(some of it) and i want to move anyways so me and hubby will have a interview and then if we get approved which we will then we got to look to move in 90 days or your name goes back on bottom of list and i already been waiting for 10 months.

so good news on all that. kids are excited. i hope i find someplace in the area cux up here its hard to find a 3 bedroom i can afford but the kids said if they had to switch schools there ok with it so if i cant find anywhere here then i am looking to move closer to parents and sis. right now were 1/2 hr apart .

tonight went to sons science fair and he was bold. running all around. i am totally stressed. hubby is tired and quiet and me i am just trying not to eat too much which i am doing anyways and not exercising except my every day marathon.
it is almost midnight and i have clothes in washer, dishes in sink and i am tired so going to bed.

take care and i will try to get to your journals when i can. i miss you all but am so busy.
i am off on friday so will get to you all then and sorry for not writing to you all but as you can see i dont have much time right now with all thats going on.

talk soon

Love YA!!!! xoxoxoxo

Minnie

I am blessed. I took Phil to the gym after fixing corn on the cob. Then ran thru ARBY's for roast beef sandwiches for dinner. Got home and planted the plants I had shopped for earlier in the day. I did up most of the dishes of the day----weren't many to do. But had a late salad since I only ate one roast sandwich and water for dinner.

Well, will be running next week with a nsg meeting and going to Prosser school to checkout for the aviation class he's taking next fall. I am anxious over the whole thing, and sent in the stuff for him to get his driver's permit. Geeze, growing up too fast.

Remember eating is just a choice. Make a plan. At least this way you are more aware when you deviates.

Donna

Hi Minnie

Wow, you make me feel tired just talking about what you have to do, and I thought I was busy.

Hope you get approved for HUD (not sure what that is, some kind of housing benefit????)

Hope you slept well, and that the hecticness calms down a bit soon.

Look after yourself.
Chuckles

Minnie - many moons ago I had help from HUD and it was a huge blessing!

Not only do they help pay a portion of your rent and some times even utilities, but they also make landlords keep the house in good shape.

I will say a prayer you get accepted into this program.

If you do be sure and ask them for a current list of their landlords.
Around here it is not a public known thing, but they have a list of landlords that accept HUD ( no one is forced to ) and that is a great place to start with making phone calls asking if they have any openings - being as you have to move in a specific time period.

Also later down the road if you were a good renter HUD will help you get a low cost loan to buy a house through the home buyers program.
My hubby sister got a brand new 4 bedroom home built through HUD and her mortage is like 252.00 a month - so lots of good things about HUD.

Good Luck :)

Jade

Wow, LOTS of good things about HUD, alright! I hope you qualify, too!

I am sad for you that you are not lounging but are doing your usual whirlwind of household craziness!!!!! AAAAH!! (That's a howl of exhaustion, just for you! hee)

Hi Minnie, I wanted to drop in say hi miss ya and hope you get approved by HUD girlfriend. Ruthieb

OK Minnie,

sounds like a quiet(relatively speaking), weekend is in order for you.

Ship the kids out to relatives and you and hubby take it easy, have some fun, and don't do too much house work.

Check out fly lady and just do babysteps.

Take care.

Good morning,

well finally spent the night at home last night. had fight with hubby and then made up. i swear that is the best part and i think its also why we argue sometimes just so we can make up cuz we fight over the silliest things sometimes.

kids have half day of school today and my older girl is going on her friends bus to sleep over and there going rollerskating tonight and doing the cancer walk tommorow.
hubby or me will be picking step girl up for weekend.

the weather is cold and rainy here but there calling for warmer weather this week coming.
i pray i do get HUD and i have had housing before but it was public housing but the section 8 isnt. but i agree its a big help and Jade thanks for the info on low coast house buying cuz id be interested in that too one day.

this is a blessing for us as this house we rent the landlord doesnt do anything in lines of any repairs of problems. it is up to us and we have lived here for almost 5 yrs and i have had enough of it.

well today going to relax and watch some tv and clean and maybe nap before kids get home cuz the weekends where we have all the kids i run the marathon and get really worn out.

going to clean through toys kids dont play with and donate them.
there is alot of stuff to go through here so i am starting in advance so its not so hard later when we move.
kids are very excited about moving too.

well going for now and hope you all have a great weekend.
I am still hanging on and trying to get my desire back to lose weight. dont know why i am having so much trouble getting on track. lately its not even stayig on track, its just getting on at all.
i wont give up hope though and one day will find my way.

take care,

Minnie

When you are going thru things, better hold onto those size 22 you had last summer. No joke. Get a pair out and put them where you can see them.

You get your honey buns on that bike and count your blessings tonight. You know that one of those blessings will be ?

----That you no longer wearing those size 22

You will be crying in your soda, telling us about not liking yourself for being fat. I wonder if you will be needing me to send you some clothes to fit.

Sounds harsh----this is reality. Mine and yours. It doesn't take too long to gain what you've lost. It is a matter of choice.

Not sugar coated. Not unloving. It is reality. Do you really want to regain the weight you fought to get off. It is a lifestyle change, you cannot go back to eating your old way and expect that weight to stay off. Don't lie to yourself.

You don't want to do it cause it's HARD. It's hard to cope with life and not cushion it with food. Facing the problem with honesty.

I have to scoot. I procrastinate online too long already.

It isn't from success but from knowing the pain of overeating/binging/self-sabotage that I say MOVE it. Don't tell me you don't know why you have stopped. Question is how much do you have to hurt till you get your butt in gear again. Do you have to get over 200lb, do you have to be where you have to put on the next size?

It's summer, change your exercise routine with your daughter, take up tennis or swimming or line dancing ----go to the YMCA with your daughter and son. Bike on the bike routes, enroll in swing dancing lessons with DH, but move it! Window shop the mall, but Sandy you are so worth the effort.

Does it matter why you aren't interested? The results are the same. You will regain the weight, and be back in size 22. Only you can make the appropriate choices. No one can love you into loving yourself enough to do this. So it doesn't matter who dirtied the dishes, you still do them, just like the laundry. Do you FEEL like it---do you want to do these house chores all the time? Just like you do dishes, you watch what you eat. Not because you want to or feel like it but because it needs to be done. So enough whining over about getting on track, just do it.

Yes, I said whine. Cause I whine all the time, over my slow metabolism and my shortness and how much I have to lose. I grump and groan and procrastinate and then try to make a food plan, try to get in some exercise, and try to journal and try to read others journal----looking for inspiration and recognizing myself in many enteries.

I journal my successes, frustrations and expectations.

Got to scoot,

Donna

Don't forget about YOU..... Its so easy to get caught up in your family Issues. Cause well lets face it, WE ARE THE QUEEN :queen: In our KINGDOM the king just gets fed grapes. We must run the country..... but the QUEEN MUST COME FIRST...


GET OUT YOUR PENCIL AND PAPER....... DIdn't you say in my journal how this helped you the most.... WELL!!!!! Write it down even if you aren't eating right, Take a look at what you are eating. Have a good weekend. I hope it turns out to be a fun one.

IMHO... To run around a lot more when all the kids are here, and I use to feel a heaviness come on me when the time would come, (more cleaning, arguing,dishes, attitudes) but I told myself, this is my family and we will have fun and enjoy eachother. I try to involve them in everything.... ITs the quality.... STOP CLEANING AND SPEND TIME...........

Hi Minnie, I'm back. Nice too see you still posting. That making up with hubby sure sounds nice **ahhh.....*, hehe. Have a nice weekend
Cath

Hiya Minnie! Did you get to relax a bit, according to plan? I swear I believe you that you and DH fight only so you can make up. Now, girley, you have to figure out how to jump right over the fighting and go straight to the making up! haha

I read in Peng's journal that you think your pants are too tight. Well, I've had one helluva couple of days eating like crazy. So, girlfriend, let's try to get back on the bandwagon, you and me. OK???

Hey Minnie,

You still making up, or having fun some other way? Just wanted to remind you that I'm still here. hee hee

I hope you are making the most of your weekend. It sure would be a shame to let it all go by without take a little time out for the fun stuff.

Sandie

Hello,

thanks for everyone's posts. it means alot.
well i got a book out of the library called"such a pretty face" and its about being overweight. i started reading it last night.
it does say that losing and regaining constantly is worse than just staying one size. i do beleive that cuz my stomach feels sick alot do to so much jumping back and forth with how i eat.
so i either have to make a commitment and change how i eat or just accpet myself the way i am.
my pants are tight but the 16's still do zip and button but not alot of breathing room.
i dont need a scale to tell me i gained cuz i can feel it and i hate to feel bloated and so heavy. i think the best plan of all that worked for me was ww cuz it allowed me to eat what i wanted as long as i didnt exceed points.
i know i need to write down what i eat and keep track or i go overboard.
so i am aiming to dig out the ww books and start from square 1 again.

well on friday my parents came up to visit and brought 2 boxes of doughnuts and i had subway and a piece of pizza. :c(

sat. was an ok day. i cleaned alot and threw out a ton of junk for when we move i just want to pack and not have all this junk to go thorugh.
then we had cheesesteak hoagies for dinner and doritos. :c(

my sis is coming up in awhile and were taking the girls for lunch and they chose wendys. hubby is gone fishing with my son.

gonna grill tonight i think hamburgers and hot dogs.

well i gotta go now. have a good day!

Hey Minnie!

Why is it so hard to get back on track?...Cause you have all these other equally important things going on in your life!...Being on plan takes a lot of planning...you already plan for your kids...hubbie...your home...your job...your futures!...

You will get it all together when the time is right...the way I see it...we just take small breaks...we are never off plan as long as its on our minds and we think about it!

Good luck with the interview!

mcmarto

{{{{{SANDY}}}}
That books sounds really interesting. I'm going to see if they have it at the library. Do you know who the author is? Wow what you said about your stomach hurting because of jumping around with the way you eat that's exactly how I feel to. The past couple of days I've really pigged out, and afterwards I felt sick to my stomach. I don't know if it was because I ate so much or because I felt guilty for what I ate. Proberly a little bit of both.

I'm so happy to hear that you and I both are starting over again from square 1. I agree with you about writing everything down and keeping track of what you eat.

I'm the exact same way with the scale. I know that I've gained weight during the past couple of months because of the way I've been eating. I wasn't stepping on the scale because it didn't matter to me. I finally did step on the scale and I did gain quite a bit of weight.

I'm starting over again tomorrow, so in the morning I'm going to step on the scale and get my official weighin.

I wish I read your journal this morning I would gone across county to joing you guys for the grilling. YUMMY~~~ how was it? BBQ hotdogs are one of my favorites.

take care ~ Katherine

Hi Minnie. Why don't you try three things today, like me? I will try if you will.

Drink some water.

Move your body a little. Five minutes is even good.

Don't eat any donuts or chips.

You can do anything else you want. Just focus on those three small steps today. Just an idea. It can work. I'm gonna do it today.

You can do it today, too!

Hello,

chum i am going to join you on that today. i can drink some water and move my body a bit.

well didnt bbq yesterday. i ended up making a casserole in a roating pan a recipe my mom does but mine is a little different. its chicken pieces( i used upper thigh and drumsticks) and i add sliced and peeled potatoes and carrots and stewed tomatoes and bake. it was so good. hubby ate so much of it and took more for work for lunch today.

the thing about all this is i gain so fast and sometimes it doesnt seem worth all the effort and so on just to gain it back and then some.
unless we decide to totally commit the weight will keep coming back and more so.
i know i cannot keep bouncing back and forth so i must deicide to stay commited or accept myself as is which frankly im not that enourmous but not where id like to be.

yesterday me and sis took the girls to wendys and i had a chicken sandwich, baked pot w/ broccoli cheese and a small chili
then we went for soft ice cream and i had a small twist.
i am not obsessing. for when i do then i go out of control. the potato was better than fries even if it had broccoli cheese on it and the chicken was better than a burger and my small ice cream was better than a large or a sundae.
so not the best but not the worst.

well i have alot to do this morning so have a great day.

P.S. hubby and son had good time fishing. got 6 perch. hubby cleaned them yesterday and put in freezer.

well clothes in washer, beds made, kids off to school, hubby off to work and fish are fed.
got more to do so i am scooting as Donna would say.
and Donna please dont send me bigger clothes of yours as i will not need them. i refuse to go past size 16 so if i dont have bigger clothes here than i wont have anything else to wear if these dont fit. that will make me at least stay in the size 16.
but nice of you to offer.

talk later.

Hi Minnie

I know I've said it before, but we really are very similar. When we are good we are very very good, but when we are bad we are terrible!

I've had a bad few weeks really, possibly even running into a month or so, and I'm not motivated to diet much at the moment either. I agree that unless we are in the correct mindset it is very difficult to do and depressing, but I think we have to give this a go. I sometimes think I panic when I've put weight on and will try anything to get it off, you know, faddy diets, exercising until I'm exhausted, anything, but the truth is we have to eat right and exercise in moderation. That's when I do my best, when I have that in my head and my heart - sometimes the message gets a little off centre though (like of late).

I think we have to keep trying Minnie, perhaps we can stem the weight gain and maintain for a while? Wouldn't that be better than having more to lose? Doing what you did yesterday was a great move - you should be proud of yourself, really proud!

Have a great day today.

Hey Minnie...good idea...don't obsess...try and do what you can!

mcmarto

Hi Sandy, I'm glad you're doing well. That ww idea of yours sounds really good. Re total commitment - umm, well I think total anything is a little impossible and I think commitment varies depending on what else is going on- sure the ideal is to make something the top priority all the time- but really, how possible is that? To me, it's the big, long term picture that counts I think. Like the stock market- the price rises and falls each day or week, but over time- months and years, hopefully it will grow. Not a very good analogy. OK, take me- I quit drinking June 1999 and was "totally" committed (lol, not to a looney bin!). But I had 4 small slips and went back to sleep many times... my commitment wained- but it comes back, and with time it has grown and I hope it will continue to grow- I hope it will never stop growing. And I think yours has too- I read here you used to be a 22 and now you're a 16. That's a net increase in committment! OK- that's it for me :)

cu later :)

Minnie

It has rained 17 out of 20 days here and my back yard is a swamp. I
am sick of this rain and I use it to rationale why I don't feel energetic. Plan to go to the gym tomorrow. Nsg meeting was long and then stopped at the store to get my son some boxers, and there pair they had on clearance size my nephew's wears for just a $1 for 2 of boxers, I couldn't get over it. Spent $4 for my nephew 7 pair of undies/briefs and boxers----and $17 for my son 8 pair, they were on clearance and on sale but nothing like the bigger size.

So took them over to him, and got home late.

Headed for bed.

Donna

Hello,

cant really type to much here today. hubby has to fix computer desk. the drawer the keyboard goes on a screw came out and the drawer fell out and the keyboard is now on top of the desk which is very hard to type on.

well briefly i did ok yesterday and i know this cannot be a top priority because my top priorities are my kids and hubby and all the other things i have going on but i also know i do need to make myself a priority too but sometimes it isnt possible.
i also know i cannot and will not keep bouncing back and forth with this weight issue and dieting cuz it is making me more unhealthy to lose and gain over and over. it does more damage to the body than to stay a consistent weight even if that weight is heavier and i have been reading and doing research.
my whole family i grew up with is all big eaters and we always revovled happiness around food and it stuck with me and then in an unhappy marriage i turned to food for comfort and it stayed with me and my hubby now loves to eat which makes it hard when you see someone eating pizza or something good and you want it too.
i remember last yr i had eaten all my ww points for the day and hubby was having a hoagie and i sat and ate a banana. it was torture.
i didnt want the dumb banana i wanted the hoagie but i didnt have it and yes i lost weight but at what price i ask? all the efforts of getting up early and working out and all the foods i had to say no too just to regain it and start all over.
between 1500 and 1900 Reuben the artist only painted pictures of heavy women and back then heavy was erotic and beautiful. not till the 1900's did thin become in and the fad of "twiggy"
fat people are treated different but i think because i am heavy i have some other great qualitites like my personality, the way i care for people and i am kind to others.
why cant i be happy in my own skin and why do i judge myself so harshly from the shell of my body which is only a shell. the real me is inside this shell and that is what counts. i am not saying i am quitting dieting right now, i really dont know what the heck im doing except going day to day and trying to do better but i do know that ever since i started all this food is on my mind more than ever and i am always thinking about the next meal and so on.
I dont know where i stand right now but i do know i hate to feel fat but worse than that i hate to feel deprived and watching everything i put in my mouth or for feeling guilty if i overeat or if i have a candy bar cuz when im dieting i dont feel free. i feel if i eat bad food than i am bad. i know it sounds crazy but its true.

i found a good poem in this book im reading and i want to share it

actually its not a poem but a story



"kill me, oh kill me!" said the poor creature and bowing his head towards the water he awaited his death. But what did he se reflected in the transparent water?
He saw below him his own image but he was no longer a clumsy dark gray bird, ugly and ungainly, he was himself a swan!...
He felt quite shy and hid his head under his wing; he did not know what to think; he was so happy but not at all proud; a good heart never becomes proud.
He thought of how he had been pursued and scorned and now he heard them all say he was the most beautiful off all beautiful birds. The lilacs bent their boughs right down into the water before him, and the bright sun was warm and cheering. He rustled his feathers and raised his slender neck aloft, saying with exultation in his heart, "I never dreamt of so much happiness when i was an ugly duckling"!

--Hans Christian Andersen

i enjoyed that little tale.

I know my first step is to love myself fat and all. then the next step is to love myself enough to be healthier. i may never hit goal weight but as long as i hit a healthy weight that i am comfortable in my own skin.
in society we are so judged by how we look and it is a shame that people dont see deeper into ones heart and soul.
i know i feel self consious if i eat in public or if i order to much.
i have spent many nights crying with defeat with my face hung in my choc ice cream and i have felt the pain of being fat and not fitting into nice clothes i want and i have suffered with doing so much exercise only to regain.
i also have felt the way it has felt to lose weight and feel a sense of self worth.
i have struggled and sweated on my bike and strained to do just 10 extra ab crunches. i have prayed to God for help and i have cried to my hubby and anyone who would listen.
my hubby had weighed 213 pounds in the start of winter and then he lost weight and was 198 and now he is 212.
but he doesnt stress or obsess.
and he doesnt let weight rule his life. if he wants to eat something he does and he doesnt count calories and so on and to me he seems free as a bird cuz in his own heart he is happy with who he is as a human being.
i admire him and envy that cuz for me its always being critical of myself.
everday of my life i give. i give to my family,friends and co workers and giving makes me happy.
i feel pride there and no scale needs to tell me what kind of woman i am. my hubby loves me and finds me sexy and i need to learn to also.
this is a long journey and for so many years i lived this way and when i first started i thought it would be easy and i would be at goal in a yr time but in reality i t may take a lifetime if at all and i must learn to live with reality and not a fantasy.
i have known so many people to lose the weight only to gain it back and more.
my dad is one of them. he had lost 60 pounds and gained it back plus and he his happy with his self. my mom a few yrs back lost 25 and regained and my sis years ago did ww and lost alot and she was thin and then gained and a few yrs ago she lost some again and regained and now she is the biggest i ever saw her cuz when you regain you gain double back.
so you see for me i am taking my time in deciding what i will be doing.
but i have to make a decision i will stick to cuz i dont want to lose and regain and be heavier than i was to start with.

i gotta go for now and finish up cleaning and laundry before work.
have a great day.

i hope my journal isnt bringing anyone down and im not discouraging dieting in any way i am just writing this all down for myself and how i feel. i need to get this out and i need to soul search and find what is best for me.
i am here for all of you. i know i havent been doing alot of positng around here but i have been so busy the last few weeks and also i have limited my time here so im not obsessing so much. but i think of you all every day and love you all too.

take care and enjoy the day!!!

Love yourself above all else cuz we really are all swans!!!

:hug:

Minnie, your post is very very insiteful, and I can "feel" your fears, concerns, your doubts and your frustrations.

Please know I am here for you. :)

As you know I have been here at DT for over 2 years now....with NO weight loss to report. BUT I still desire it and am not ready to throw in the towel - as long as I have the desire to lose the weight, I will hang in here.



You and ONLY you can decide if you still desire it enough to stay with your plan.

Have you thought about switching eating plans? Example - calorie counting would allow you some "no no" foods with out the guilt.


No matter what you decide we are here for you :hug:

Jade

Minnie:

I so agree with you when you said you need to make yourself a priority also. We as women get so caught up with making our children and husband come first that we tend to forget about ourselves. I am the same in that way. Everyone else's needs before mine. However I do take the time now for me also. I just found a time of day that works for me. Find sometime for yourself Minnie. You need it so much in order to feel important to yourself as well as your family.
Whatever you decide Minnie know that I will back you all the way. :)

Judy2:ex:

thank you so much.

well i went to the library tonight after dinner and i found a great book that i believe may be exactly what i need and i am going to try it starting tommorow morning.
it is a diet for carbohydrate addicts which after reading i know i am one and now alot of my eating and what i eat makes sense to me and why.
i think that book was there waiting for me.
i know i want to lose weight or i wouldnt have been lurking in the diet book section of the library.
it is an interesting way of eating that i hope will work for me but right now i am willing to at least try anything. it is not a fad and is used for permanent weight loss and maintence. i am so excited to have something to aim for and have hope once again.

this diet from what it says you wont feel hungry or deprived and wont even feel like your on a diet at all and still lose weight during holidays and so on.
Please dont say anything negative about this cuz i am so down now and desperate and at least now i feel hopeful a bit. i need to do this and want to and this may be the plan i need.

first of all i took a test and fit into the category of a moderate carb addict. the foods i eat and crave are high in carbs and sweets too. it says those foods actually make us more hungry and thats where binging and eating out of control come in to play.
so the plan is to eat 2 low carb meals a day. no sugar in those meals and i can have anything except a few things on the list and no sugar or fillers.
then i can drink all the water i can and diet soda, tea too. but no sugar.
for my reward meal i can have anything i want and as much of it but i have to eat it in 60 minutes.
there is no limit with the food for that meal. no snacking in between and 1 low carb snack out of the day.
theres alot more too it but i cant write it all but i am ready to begin....

I am suppose to weigh each day andwrite it down then average it for the week to see what i lose cuz it says we fluctuate so much that weighing once a week only wont always be the right reading if its not averaged.
this is similar to Atkins but not the exact same.

there is plan a,b,c,d and it tells me how i knoiw what one to follow each week and there is food lists of what i cant have during the low carb meals and what i can but the reward meal is all i want in that hour. and the hour cannot be broken up into 2 halfs.
also it explains that carb addicts release insulin abnormally and this is what causes the cravings for high carbs and sweets and eating it and not being satisfied.

well i will try it and see.
it cant hurt to try it since where i am now is rock bottom and the only way to go is up.

hope you all had a good day and i am going for now.

night-night!!!!

Minnie

Whatever you decide won't change the woman I see and care about. I know the pain of not liking the image of the "shell" but even more I find myself full of self contempt over what I have binged and find myself lying to myself----full of excuses that allows me to do nothing.
I am tired of the self contempt and filling unworthy or the subject of scorn when out and about. So I keep working on me.

This life is my journey. And every journey is just a series of steps. I don't care what your husband thinks of you, but what you think of you. What you feel, what you want. Your husband's weight isn't the issue and comparing it to yours won't change your reality. I care about you being happy and feeling good about yourself. So if your goal has changed or you are happy where you are, then by all means redefine your goals and congradulations on the self acceptance.

Sandy, your daughter and son will learn self love from your example. I know you are more than a number on a scale but fear you fail to believe that in your heart.

Friendship isn't based on your efforts or mine, but our common-ness.

Donna

Wow Minnie.... first off I really love your post from 2 posts ago, about loving oneself etc..... I think I need to do an entry on weight vs self exteme in my journal some day very soon. And double wow on the sugar addiction- I have posted a bit on the sweets subject in the food for thought section on the same subject. Also, I have suspisions about slimfast- though I admit I never tried it. I really like your journal for some reason!
bye for now,
Cath

Hi Minnie!

I sometimes think we are two peas from the same pod! My life is so similar to yours (obviously with the exception of the kids), but I feel I have a carb addiction too - I love bread and pasta and stuff like that, icecream, cakes - you name it, and tend to overdose on sugary foods and the like. I've tried sugarbusters and stuff like that, but it doesn't work for me, I miss my breads and pizza too much, it doesn't matter what else I'm eating unfortunately that's the stuff I want!

I hope that you are successful on your new diet. Don't be disappointed if it's not as easy as it sounds in the book though, it will be hard to give up on all those foods you love so much.

I feel like I might be saying the wrong thing here - I just want you to realise that at the end of the day, if you want to lose weight you will, and you will do it your way, not through plans and faddy diets because that's not something you can live with. If this low carb diet is going to work then it is something that you have to live with for the rest of your life because the minute you go back to your old ways the weight will come back on. That's why people are unsuccessful when dieting and put the weight back on, they go back to eating as they did before the 'diet' - we have to change are bad habits and unhealthy lifestyles for healthy habits and lifestyles.

I sincerely hope that this diet is for you. It sounds interesting and I'm glad you have made the decision to go for it!

Have a great day.

Hello,

well i have done alot of reading on this and i am giving it a try and if it doesnt suit me i will keep searching till i find what does but where im at now is the lowest i have felt in a long time and i need to try something.
i wont have to live without pizza or breads and such on this diet but i can only eat it during the daily reward meal and the meal must be eaten in 60 minutes tops and it is not to be used as a binge meal but a feast of balanced foods but i can have as much as i want too.
i need to do something here cuz i have gained and i keep binging and i cant seem to get under control and it is so depressing for all the hard work i did only to see it return.

hope you all have a good day and take care.
will let you know how im doing on this.

Today is day 1 and back to square 1

wish me luck!!!

Good luck Minnie!

So, what does your menu look like today? I'd be interested to see what sort of foods you will be eating.

I know you can do this!