MC- You're so cute:)

Good for you going to demand your money back! ah, I mean working out :D

you go girl.

You mean huff in, huff out. LOL One day I'll breath :D

Darlene :hippy:

I hope your day with family goes ok..... I'm thinking about you.

:spring: :gflower: :spring:

How ya doing Darlene,

Have things gone well for you over the weekend? I sure hope so. And I hope you have a wonderful new week as well.

Just a quick pop in to say hello..........trying to get to everyone if I can.

Sandie

Well...I didn't quite make it to Curves...my car has been a little shaky when I first turn it on...and I needed to have an oil change and something done with the transmission???...So after work I had to head for the bank...then Jiffy Lube...I wasted over an hour there...I then went grocery shopping and came home and cooked...by the time I was done it was 7!

Hope you had a great day!

mcmarto

MAXI- thanks my friend. My day was very good. No problems today. What a nice relief. Dan is also back to work tonight. Now that is a biiiig relief LOL.

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SANDIE- So glad you got to pop in. The whole weekend went smooth, but again, I'm not fooled. If I don't change, things will happen again. I cant afford that. But, we seemed to have gotten along this weekend.
The kids had a ball.

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MC- I'm sorry about your car. I hope the oil change helps. I know what it's like to have car problems.....in a way. Dan's car, (I call the death trap) has to be started in neural, have to park in reverse and park with the emergency brake. I don't drive it. I had to once this week though, and I told Dan to write me out a manul.LOL
I have 210 mins in so far. Even if you can't get to curves, just walk. Walk everywhere and anywhere. Lets rack up the mins this month.

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WOW, did we get some work done today.
We cleaned out our shed and most of our garage. We tossed out lots of stuff and other stuff we put out to sell. Dan has lots of work left this week. Finish cleaning out the garage, organizing his tools (he has lots) Build shelves in the shed to store his tools.
Eventually we want the garage empty so we can convert it into a workout room. I can't wait to have that room and to have everything organized.

I'm so beat.

It's been a long day. On top of all that, I walked 30 mins, entertained my mom and her friend for lunch, and had a friend over tonight for coffee and a few games of sequence.

My bed is calling.


Tomorrow:

put boxes away under my stairs.
wash summer clothes
walk 30 mins
do my self esteem homework.
come here to see all my friends :D
Oh, did I almost forget....CLEAN MY HOUSE!

Well, I'm off to bed.

Hope you all have a great day.

Darlene :hippy:

Wow, a workout room! Is your garage heated? It would be nice to have a place like that to escape to when the weather is bad. Have you decided to stick with your house?

Have a great day today Fleur! Rack up some minutes for the challenge & don't forget to do something for yourself. Counting down the days until our get-together!

Lisrey :flower:

I'm so happy your weekend went well my dear! Sounds like a better week for you..... :up:

Darlene,

I had no idea you had such difficulties at home! You're always so supportive and upbeat in my journal. My first husband was just like yours. Very hard to live like that. You do need to build up your self-esteem. You are a great person, with a huge heart! Don't let him bully you. You have a lot of advice floating around, so I won't bombard you. You just need to find a way to deal with Dan and let him know that you are worth just as much, if not more, than him!!

Hang in there, Sweetie!

:hug:

May 20 2003

LISREY- Our garage isn't heated, but it is insulated. At least the walls are. It gets pretty cold/hot in there. We are going to get heaters in winter, and not to sure what in summer.
Dan decided we will continue with our plans to fix up this room and build the play house. If it sells, so be it. If not, that's ok too.
It's not looking to good for selling. 3 open houses and only 1 couple can through. Oh well. I rather like it here anyway. Money wise it would be great to pay off all our debt, but we dug the hole not we have to fill it back up one scoop at a time.

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MAXI- :D Hi there. I'm really hoping for a great week. So far so good.

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STACEY- Funny thing eh? I am an upbeat person. I have learned that the very thing that makes me a great person is the very thing that lets me get abused this way. Interesting.
I am working on changing things. One discovery at a time. I need to wake up and smell the coffee. I need to see what is really happening and why so I can fix it with in me.
And you are right, I am worth it :D

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Nothing else much new. I'm still learning about me. Still exercising.
Still eating well on Atkins. Still NOT loosing any more weight.
It will come.

I'm off for now.

have a great Tuesday.

Darlene :hippy:

Hi Darlene :wave:

You my friend are doing wonderful! :D

You are taking care of yourself and that is SOOOOOO important.

You are not sitting around going "oh poor me" . I know this situation has you feeling sad/hurt but your not giving into it. Your doing physical work and that is just so good for when times are tough, plus makes you feel so much better seeing everything you have done :)

I find when I am down - if I get off my rear I feel much better.

I am so proud of you for taking the ecourses and searching for inner peace!

PS: save your courses and emails on floppies - I still go back to mine when I am feeling down or facing a rough time.

Jade

Hi, Fleur:

I read your post in McMarto's journal where you said you have exercise equipment at home but don't use it... You are using your treadmill aren't you? What else do you have? Are all these things going into your workout room? And then are you going to use them more? I won't get to exercise tomorrow -- very full day. So get some minutes in and blitz by me in this challenge!

Your attitude about the weight coming off eventually is excellent. That's my approach, too. I don't know how long it will take me to get to my goal, but I know I will get there. No hurry. Progress is always nice to see though! :D You will be seeing some soon!

Lisrey :wave:

May 21 2003

JADE- Good idea about puting the courses on disk. I'd never thought of that. Thanks.

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LISREY- I've been mostly walking outside, but when the weather is bad, I use the mill. The past 2 days, I couldn't get to the mill if I tried. My basement is full of boxes.
I can't even use my workout videos.:c(
Dan and I have to move the gym out from where it is so we can put all the boxes away. Then he's building shelves in the shed to store all the junk in the garage. THEN we can move the gym out to there.
I sure do plan to use it more there. Nice and handy.
Just not sure how we are going to keep the place cool in the summer.

I hope you're right about seeing some weight loss soon. I started going very strict with the Atkins. I feel good about it too. I'm hoping by Monday to see something good happen.


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Well, things seem good around the house....for now.

My BIL should be moving out at the end of the month:D :D

As I mentioned, I'm going strict with the Atkins. I hope to shed some real weight.

Other than that, nothing else new.

Have a great night, and an even better Thursday.

Darlene :hippy:

Fleur, thanks for stopping by my journal to cheer me up. Your support really means a lot!!!

Good luck today!

stopping by to see how you are my friend :)

They make really strong fans now days at pretty decent prices - check out walmarts and see about getting one for your garage/exercise room.


Have a GREAT week !

Jade :peace:

AHHHH, Feel fresh in here..... You sound refreshed. I really need to concentrate on working out myself, IT was 100 degrees here the last few days. I don't really know why I told you that. Other then thinkig of working out and sweating my ***** off. OH, Hey. That would be nice! :D

May 22, 2003

Where is the time going??? The end of May is near.

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CHUM- What I said was true. Vent away and we'll listen. May not be able to fix anything, but listening I can do.
You always do the same for me whether you know it or not. For that, I thank YOU!:D

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JADE- Things are going well so far. Made a stand today. I wanted something he said no to, and I said YES and did it anyway. Felt good.
I'm going to have to look into the fan idea. I'm in no hurry since Dan is working 12 hour shifts. He won't be getting around to making the selves and cleaning the garage anytime soon:(

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MAXI- 100*????? Oh man!! I'm wearing a jacket and a wool coat today. Everybody else is in shorts, but I just can't warm up. Maybe I should go for a visit to CA? Think I'd be warm enough then? LOLOL.
So, if 100* isn't getting you sweating, time for a good old fasion workout. Even if you are sweating, it's still time for a good old fasion workout.:D

****************************************************Anybody else ever feel good after grocery shopping?
I love going. I feel so healthy when I come home. I know I have everything I need to make the best healthiest meals I can. Makes me feel really good.
Funny how food does that.

I left this AM and forgot to eat breakie. (not that I had much around) So I stopped in and bought an Atkins bar. YUMMMM. They are just like chocolate bars. I don't like to eat them to often though, but I felt sick so I knew I needed to eat. It hit the spot.

Been getting lots of exercise in. Walked another 30 mins this afternoon.

Also started drinking my water. I bought 2 bottles of flavored water. It sure makes it easier to drink.
I will go back to drinking the regular plain old water, but the flavored kind is a nice treat and it's helping to get me back into drinking it again.

Well, nothing else new.

Hope you all have a great day.

:hug:

Darlene :hippy:

Hey Fleur!

I will find out the extent of my car problems tomorrow!...Hope its not too expensive...I have some $$$ set aside...but it would be great if it costs less...then I can spend the extra money elsewhere!

The DH and I are starting to feel good...soon...in a few weeks...we will be saving...and not late with any of our bills...yahoo!...He has not complained about his job since Monday...actually yesterday he mentioned that he may stay at this place for a little while...Yahoo!

Well have a great weekend...and keep up the good work on the Atkins!

mcmarto

Fleur,

Glad to hear that things are good at home. I thought several times in the last while about how you just never know when a 'moment' will change everything.

Well, I am hoping the next 'long' while will be good for you and DH.

It is just beautiful out here in Alberta, will try to send some your way. We are actually supposed to be up around 28C tomorrow. Whoohoo!!! Think I will need to sit out in the sun a bit and read my new fitness magazine.:ex: Oh, I will fit a walk in there somewhere too. Hehehe


Take care. Thanks for dropping by my journal too, that was soooo nice.

May 24 2003

MC- I'm so glad things are finally looking up for you. I hope too that the car isn't as expencive as you think. Would be nice to have a break now and again.
:cheers: Here's to our men working!!:D

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NANCY- Oh you lucky dog!!! 28? Oh, how I envy you. It's only 7 AM, and it's only 9. Not going to be warm again today:( Not till Monday will it be back in the 20s. (low 20s at that)
Do me a favour? Will you catch some rays for me? We're getting nothing but rain today. Actually, the sun is out right now, but it's just to darn chilly to enjoy it.
I'll be out for my walk later too. I hope the rain will hold out.

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Well, Dan and I had another "talk" yesterday. Seems like this is the end of the line.
At first he told me he wanted to talk to be, and I could feel my heart race. My blood pressure must have spiked. I was scared. Then I though to myself, if I already expect him to say he wants a divorce, what the hell am I afraid of? I tried to calm myself, and to some great extent, it worked.
So he begins to tell me how he's fed up an how he's had enough. I let him have his say. At the same time, in my head, I was telling myself that I AM a good person, I AM NOT lazy etc.
I told him how I felt too. I really feel he ignored me. You know when someone is listening to you but you can see there really not? They're just waiting for you to stop talking so they can continue? That's what he did.
At any rate, I told him I am not fighting for equality, I'm fighting for my self esteem and my personal power. Something that's mine. He said he never took them away from me. I agreed, I gave them away, now, I'm building them up again.
I don't want to step on his toes. I don't want to turn from being passive, to agressive. I want what's in the middle- assertive. He should be too. We need to meet in the middle.

So, as it stands, this is our "last chance"

I will try to complete the tasks he wants. I will try to "keep him happy" but I will do it because I feel I WANT to, not because I have to.
He, in return will give nothing. He says he's changed enough and till he sees me change, he will not.

Well, that's fine and dandy, cause I am changing. I hope he's ready for it. I will find my self, my voice.

Should be fun.

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So, today is big cleaning day. Going to go clean this house from top to bottom and get rid of the layers of dust LOL

Erin will be going to a sleep over B-Day party. Reilly's little buddie will be coming over, and Bry-Anne will be out in the yard with the neighbor kids.

Tuesday is Erin's B-Day. We're getting her a corn snake. How lovely is that 8-|

Next Saturday, she's invited 12 kids for her party. 6 girls, and 6 boys!!! eeeeek. It's started!

Guess that's all my dirt for now.

Darlene :hippy:

Darlene,

I am so proud of you. Good for you at realizing that you are strong, you will be fine no matter what, and speaking your mind. I have a really hard time with that one sometimes.

Wow, busy with b-day party next weekend, very brave.

Have you ever checked out flylady.com? It is really good and teaches how to take care of our homes and ourselves by building routines into our lives. Just check out the site and see if you think it could be something for you. I am trying to incorporate it into my life and it is helping. Just very small babysteps for me so far.

Take care.

Dar!! Your sounding stronger and stronger. Good for you.
You do what you need to do!!! My thoughts and prayers are with you ! How's the Atkins going. I'm not doing too bad --- still enjoying it.

NANCY- I am a member of the fly lady's site. I haven't been there in quite a while. I should check it out again. Thanks for reminding me.

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LEE- Hey Long time no see. How you been girl?
I'm still enjoying Atkins, but my weigh has stopped. Not sure why, but I've been at this weight for quite a while now. I lost 5 lbs last month, but I really thought it would come off faster then it is. Just seems not to budge.
Thanks for your thoughts and prayers, I sure do need them right now.
:hug:

Darlene :hippy:

Darlene, Oh my friend - I am so proud of you and yet feel so bad that this is happening in your life :hug:

Hang in there!

Jade

You stay strong Fleur!...You are a wonderful...strong willed...woman!...

I hope all this extra stress does not mess with your plan...

Do you know back in January when I started on my plan...one of my biggest problems was dealing with my DH and all of his crap...I would talk myself out of eating to feel better all the time...I would ignore him...etc......and for once I worried mainly about myself...he didn't like it one bit.....kept telling me I was getting to thin...HELLO...I had only lost 18 pounds...1/4 of what I need to lose total!

Well...I am slowly getting back into it...telling myself that I am in control...no one controls me!

...............

Well...in regards to my car...lucky for me...it was not as expensive as I thought...actually only about 1/3 the amount of what I had set aside...so that is all good!

...I hope you have a great day!...

mcmarto

May 25 2003

MC- That's so cool that the car expence won't break you. Usually repairs are soooo much.
I'm just taking one day at a time with Dan. I'm doing my best and if my best isn't good enough for him.... notice I said FOR HIM...... that will be just to bad.
I know Dan won't like my changes, but I don't exactly care for his either. Oh well to bad buddy! .................LOL

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I'm having a pretty good day so far. Sorta relaxing, sorta cleaning and I did visit with my parents. They stopped by.

I stepped on the scale this AM and I'm down 3lbs. FINALY

I hope it's just the begning of more to come......off :D

Well, I'm outta here for now.

Darlene :hippy:

Wow!...Congrats...another 3 down!...Yahoo!

You go girl...you can do it!

I am actually going to be getting some exercise minutes in today...can you believe it?...The DH and I are going to Galter ... try out one of our visitors passes!

I ate so much yesterday (2 b-b-que's)...that I am 2 pounds heavier today...hmpft...I know it will be gone in a day or two...but still to see the # is shocking!...Eeek!

Look for my new journal!

mc

Yay for the three pounds!!! Do the happy dance & burn a few more calories, lol. :tongue:arty:

How are you doing on your exercise minutes? I got lots in yesterday with tons more weeding of my flower bed & a round of golf. One was more fun than the other -- can you guess? :o

Holiday for us today so I am off & have tons to do. Enjoy your Monday!

Lisrey :D

May 26 2003

MC- tisk tisk, I hope you enjoyed the BBQ at least. ;)

I hope all goes well with the passes and enjoy yourselves. Would be nice to be a member eh?

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LISREY- I'm shaking my bootie! :ex:

hmmmmm, that's a tough one. weeding.... or golf...hmm... ah, golf? LOL That's great that you could enjoy the day, (misrable as it was) and get exercise in too. So much easier when you enjoy it.

I have a total of 485 mins so far since May 9. I've been working my butt off. Even managed a few pounds off too. :D

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Well, today Dan and I went out shopping. LOL as it turns out he forgot his cheque at home so we shopped and asked them to hold it till tomorrow. I got lots of new stuff. I love it. My friend asked me why I was buying new clothes if I'm loosing weight. I told her I want to look and feel good about myself now. Besides, I've been trying to lose weight for years, and my clothes show it. I think it's been 6 years since i went and bought real clothes.
(by that I mean not just the odd t-shirt)

We went to look at a sterio for our garage. Something to crank up loud so we hear it outside in the yard. The one we want is on order.

We had lunch at Montana's. What a great place. Dan had chicken and ribs, I had the cob salad which had all kinds of veggies, meats and eggs. It was delish. I even bought some home.

So, guess we have to go shopping again tomorrow. Bummer :D
Dan wants me to get lacy underthings hehehe We'll see.

I have to pay that parking ticket tomorrow, settle up my taxes, pick up my clothes from the store, get Erin's snake as tomorrow is her b-day and get myself a new birth certificate. As you may recall, I had problems at the border becaue my mom had cut my BC to fit her wallet and they didn't want to let me across to see Bon Jovi. I did get across, but I don't want any hard times come July. I want to see my boys again.

Speaking of my boys, I'll be in a live chat with Jon Bon Jovi on Thurday. I can't wait. I'm sure I'll not actually get to chat with him as there will be thousands in that chat room LOL That's ok with me.....ahhhh.

Well, I'm off. I hope to be back later tonight to read some jounals.

Luv ya all.

Darlene :hippy:

Oh shopping...fun!

Hope all is well with you and your DH...hmmm...lacey under garments!...Hello!

The DH is annoying me...has been since last night...oh well...I will live!

Oh...say hi to Bon Jovi for me...heeheehee!

mcmarto

You sound great! I've had those "talks", I remember the feeling you get when they say "we have to talk", the terror that goes through you. I still feel it just thinking about it! You're absolutely doing the right thing by taking care of YOU.

Keep up the good work!

GREAT about buying yourself some new clothing!

and underpanties too :o

lol I finally bought myself 3 real nighties , size 3X........sigh

BUT truthfully I don't care, was so tired of sweating all night in my granny gowns lol

SUPER about your 3 lb. lose!!!!!!

Jade

FIRST OF ALL...... JON IS MY MAN X-( AND THEY ARE MY BOYS!!!!

But maybe I'll think of sharing :laugh:

I LOVE BON JOVI, Always have, always will....... WHOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOO YEAH!

You know you already sounding more confident. You hold your head CHIKLETTE..... And ol Dan the man, may be broiught down a notch with your confidence. ROAR WOMAN ROAR!!!!

May 28 2003

MC- How are ya girl?

I hope the DH isn't gettin on your nerves to bad LOL I sure know what that's like.
Believe me, if I ever get to actually talk to Jon, I'll be sure to tell him you say hi ;)

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STACEY- I have always hated those talks. I am really working on not letting the fear of the unknown or the imagined bother me.

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JADE- I have those granny gowns too, the old flanel ones. HEEHEE. I know the smaller I get the sexier I feel. I will be tossing those old victorian things......but not just yet.:D

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MAXI- So you're a long time fan too eh? Aren't they great? They are my favorite band. I have 6 of their albums. Well tape and CDs.
This will be my 3rd BJ concert. I can't wait to see them again. They'll be with the Goo Goo Dolls again and they will also be with Cheryl Crow this time too. The Goo were good.
This time, I'm bringing bonaculars and signs saying someting goofy like Windsor Loves Bon Jovi. (that's the nearest city to me, and it's just across the border from where they'll be in Detroit.)
If I do get to chat with Jon tomorrow, I'll be sure to tell him a special hello from you too ;)

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Well, found out tonight my BIL is def moving out. YIPPY!!!! He moves on the weekend. Back to serious aerobics.

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Yesterday was Erins's B-day. She is now a 12 year old. We got her a snow corn snake. She just loves it. I think our zoo is now complete. I mean, what else could we possibly get? I was in the pet store asking some questions today, and I nearly left missing a toe or two. I had a ferit who had a thing for them. That'll teach me for wearing sandles. LOL

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Well, it's library day, and I'm here to get to as many journals as I can, so I'm off..... bye.

Darlene :hippy:

I actually could chat with him too since I am part of the American XS. BAH HA... Just don't know If I can stay up so late. Although it would be well worth it Im sure. You'll have to let me know how it goes. You know whats funny, When I signed up for the fan club I naturally used BON JOVI LOVER.... But to shorten it up, not thinking of any other meaning I used BJLOVER! :rofl: I about died when I recvd a Bon Jovi News letter addressed to BJ Lover :bubbles:

Gosh I haven't been to a concert forever, The last time I saw them they were playing with Def Leppard. Oh the memories.... I would love to just hold his face....... :o

Oh Maxi, I'm so sad. I couldn't chat with him :c( The chat room wouldn't load. I wasn't surprised, just disappointed. I was going to ask him - Since BJ's first few albums had a keyboard sound, and Bounce has a heavy guitar sound, Where did he feel BJ's music was headed next? -- At least that was what i was GOING to ask.

The chat was at 11 AM your time. Do you work nights?

LOLOL BJ lover, that's cute. I too have a long name, but I didn't shorten it. IT's- Not Old, Just Older. LOL wonder why! NOJO????

OMG, Def Leppard! I saw them in 2001 with Eve 6, In Feb with the Goo and they'll be back with the Goo and Cheryl Crow. Can't wait till next time they come with a new album. Would have loved to see them back in the 80s, but my parents wouldn't let me. Now, I figure, I don't drink, I don't go out, so if I hit a concert once in a while, I'm doing ok. And BJ is the only one I'd go to.

What is your fav song on Bounce?

I sure wouldn't mind holding his face too. Man he's cute. I'll tell ya, I love to go after Tico with a razor though!!!!!!! LOL

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Well, had a good day today.

Going to show our house on Sat moring, before Erin's party. Hope that goes well.

WEll, I'm off. Have a good one.

Darlene :hippy:

May 31 2003

What a day.

First of all, we got up at the crack of dawn to clean the house so we could be ready for the couple coming to see it.

20 mins before they were due to show, we lost power. No lights to see and it's so gloomy!

10 mins before they are due to come, we get a call, they have to cancel. Not so bad I guess since there's no power.
They'll reschedual.

Erin was going to have her b-day party today. It's pouring rain. So, it's on for tomorrow. She's not happy, but what can I do. Having 15 kids, (3 of them my own) in one small room for 5 hours in not cool. Tomorrow it is.

Dan is in a mood again. To bad. Not going there any more :D

Lost another pound.

That's 34 lbs since Jan 1 and 9 lbs for our challenge.
It's so nice to be in the mid 250s again. I haven't been down this low in about 6 years.
Not sure if I mentioned, went I went shopping the other day, I bought all my clothes a size smaller then I was taking. And they fit.:D

Well, I'm off to read journals.

Have a great day.

Darlene :hippy:

Yay, Fleur!!! I am soooo happy for you about the pounds and the clothes size. How wonderful!! * *

I am really looking forward to our get-together in about a week. Can you believe it is coming up so soon? I tried on my swim suit the other night & it is a little baggy in the butt, but it'll work. This is exciting! :D

For the challenge, I have tons of exercise minutes, but I haven't lost much weight. I think the losing is the more important variable! I wonder how Mc wants to "score" us on that???

Lisrey :tomato:

Not sure Lisrey. I know I need all the bonus points in the exercise department. I stalled with the walking.
I'm hoping to pick it up again Monday, since my BIL will be moving out tomorrow. YIPPY!!!! I would start tomorrow, but after all that, Erin is having her party. So I guess it'll be out for another day.

I'm so glad my pounds are coming off. I need to lose them so bad, it makes me want to cry.:c(

Well, I'd best be off to bed. Going to be a big day tomorrow.

Darlene :hippy:

Hope your daughter's BD party goes well :)

GREAT 1 more lb GONE! :D

Jade

Hi Jade:wave:

I had to stop back in cause i have a little story to tell you.

Yesterday I was going into town to see if they have some of that wonderful flavored water I'm now addicted to, and I acutally had to stop to let a chicken cross the road!

Why did the chicken cross the road? To make me stop my van! hahaha. Ok, bed time. I'm oviously tired LOL

Night

Darlene :hippy:

34 pounds for good!...When Dan is mean...think..he is just resenting you ... since you are looking good!

Keep up the good work...and now that the BIL is gone...you can walk...walk...and walk some more!

Have a fun day!

mcmarto

June 2 2003

MC- Guess what? I am now yet another pound lighter. I'm at 255. I am feeling so good. It's nice when it comes off.

Bad news is, I'm sick. I can't swallow. My throat is killing me. I've been in bed all day. I'm just a for a few mins to post here.
I am eating small amounts cause I'm starving, but only small amounts cause it just hurts to damn much.

I am also drinking my water so if I do loose weight, I don't want it to be water loss. It hurts to drink too, but easier then eating.

Yet more bad news...... My BIL is still here. Yes, he has his place, but he has no money left for food or the essentials.
Also, the temp place hasn't been calling him. He worked one day last week and nothing looks good for the future.
I think tomorrow they are going to go out looking for restaurant work. He's done that for years. Pay isn't great, but it's somthing.

Well, I'm sore and tired, Maybe I'll pop back in later, who knows.

Take care.

Darlene :hippy:

EEEEK...no double EEEEK!

Brother - in - law still in the picture...and your throat!...Poor you!

I hope you feel better soon...sore throats are the worse!...Does it help to drink something warm?...

mcmarto

Great job on the 34 (35?) pounds! That's great. Isn't it exciting to see the losses? I like it. I hit 235 today and I was THRILLED!

Sorry to hear you're sick. Hope you feel better soon. What are the chances that Dan will take care of you? Bring you soup, maybe? Rub your feet? Hmmm.....

Get well soon!

Oh no! Don't get sick! I want to meet you in a week! :) :)

Hoping you are feeling better real quick & that your BIL finds his way out the door soon!

Congratulations on yet ANOTHER pound!!! *

Lisrey :water:

Hope you feel better soon Darlene! Many of my coworkers have had the sore throat bug recently - luckily in their experience it only last a couple of days. Hope the same holds true for you. Take care of yourself! :spring:

Fleur,

Oh no, what a terribly sore throat you have? Hope it is better soon. Maybe you should get to a doctor incase it is strep.

Hey, here's an idea, if BIL has a place but isn't going there, why don't you tell him you'll move there and he can stay with hubby?! LOL

Well, it was a good idea, just not practical I guess. Hehe!!!

Congrats on the weight losses lately, that is fantastic.

June 3 2003

Crazy- LOLOL I like that idea, but since I'm sick, I'll need DH to take care of me 8-|

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BADGER- I hope you're right. Today is day two and it's no better.
Dan has is now too, but he doesn't seem to be as bad as me.

Last night I got up at 2AM and tried to eat. Dan had cooked up some chicken breasts. (nothing smooth for this diet :( ) I was going to lay some cheese over it to melt, but I got so dizzy and my heart was going nuts, I had to sit down. After I got back up to try to finish, I found Erin's b-day cake in the microwave. It started again so I was going to eat the damn thing cold. To tired to take out the cake.
Ends up I had 3 mini bites and that's it.

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LISREY- I'm so glad we didn't meet yesterday! That was all I could think of during my waking moments. OH THANK GOD!
I'm sure (I had better be) better by Monday.

How did the meeting go?


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STACEY- Well, as I mentioned, chances aren't that great that he takes care of me. He did great yesterday, but today it seems he's got it too.
We are going to the doctors shortly.

Congrats on hitting 235!!! Way to go girl!

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MC- No, it does help to drink warm stuff. I tried tea, but it just hurt to much. I'm drinking tons of water though. It hurts, but I want to keep my fluids up. Also, if I lose any weight, I don't want it to be water weight.

By the way, I'm down 2 more lbs today. I hope they stay off and not just cause I'm sick.

FUNNY STORY-

I had my tonsils out when I was 10 years old. about 7 years ago, my thoat started hurting again. Didn't my tonsils grow back!!! So finaly I get my appointment to have them removed- AGAIN and I find out I'm pregnant. Ever since then, I have not been bothered by them.....till now.

Not sure if that was really funny, doesn't feel so funny now. HA.

Well, I'm off to get ready for the DR.

Have a great day.

Darlene :hippy:

DARLENE...... HEY MY FELLOW ROCKSTER!

Sorry I haven't got back to you, I really need to cut my time a little shorter on DT. I mean there are other things to do, (I THINK)
:bubbles:

I'm so sorry you couldnt get into the chat. How frustrating that must have been. I am also a huge DEF FAN.... There greatest hits cd is the BEST... EVERY SINGLE SONG....

You know I have to admit, I love every song on the BOUNCE CD...

I will try and respond to my PMs today! ;)

:hop: I am thrilled to hear of weight loss woman. You are going to be HOT HOT HOT!!!! LOOK OUT DAN THE MAN..... :freedom:

I'm so sorry you feel so bad! Sorry for you, but not so sorry for Dan! Isn't that horrible?? My bad....

Don't even worry about dieting right now, just get healthy!

Hang in there and get well soon!

What?...Your tonsils grew back?

Gosh...I hope you feel better soon...I have had strep throat 2 or 3 times in my lifetime...and it is terrible!...I fee for you!

mcmarto

June 4 2003

MC- Yep, they grew back. Can you imagine? Man it really sucks too. And I've known people who have had them removed as an adult, and it isn't pretty.

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More good news, I'm down another pound. I just hope these stats stay.
Food hasn't been great cause I haven't been eating much, but water is just fine.

Have a great day everyone.

:hug:

Darlene :hippy:

I never knew the tonsils could grow back! Like a lizard's tail, huh? Horrible. I have my tonsils, thank god. I hope I haven't grown more.

Fantastic job on the weight loss, Fleur. I am soooo impressed. Take good care of yourself when sick though. You've got to get in those fluids, y'know.

So, I'm gone from DT for a week and I find your BIL is STILL THERE????? hahahahaha I think he likes it there. Wasn't it the song "Hotel California" where you could stay but never leave?

Take care, honey, and feel much better....:nurse: :x

I am so sorry to hear you are :sick:

Poor woman!

Yes I have heard about them buggers growing back.....seems if the Docs. don't get all the "roots" the first time they are removed they can grow back again. :tomato:

GREAT about losing a nother pound! Good for you :)

Sure hope you get to feeling much better very soon!

Jade

OOGA BOOOGA on the Tonsils, Sorry Babe but that totally grosses me out! iiiggggiiii wiiiggggyy

That is knarly! Good lord!

Ok enough of THat


:dc 1 more pound of FAT GONE....GONE....GONE..... :dc

Oh cyber poop!!!

I lost my post have no time for another.

Lets just say I've been super busy and haven't had time to post.

My challenge report that was due Friday is 620 mins- not 640 I posted in the other post that got lost. I lost 8lbs for a total of 13 since the begining of the challenge.

Also wrote how tomorrow I'm finaly going to meet Lisrey. I'm really looking forward to it. I'm going to buy a disposable camera since mine doesn't work. I hope to take some pics of us and post them here.

Have a great Sunday

Darlene :hippy:

I'm psyched too! I have a digital camera. I'll try to remember to bring it... Would be fun to take some pics. The whole thing will be fun! :)

I forgot about the challenge report. Thanks for the reminder! You are doing so great with the losses! I have tons of minutes, but not the pounds lost. :( Here's my info:

This month's challenge minutes: 1644
Total challenge minutes: 2839

This month's pounds lost: 1
Total challenge pounds lost: 2

Keep up the wonderful progress -- I'm sure you are lookin' great, and I am gonna find out tomorrow!

Lisrey :spring:

Oh wow..you are meeting Lisrey...what fun!...Now don't make fun of me cause I am losing on this challenge...hahaha!

I have only 300 minutes...and I have lost only one pound since the challenge has started!

This third month has to be good to me!...eeek!

Have a great week!...Are you feeling better?

mcmarto

Lisrey,
Your mins are blowing me out of the water!!! Way to go. Don't forget, you are getting closer to goal now and the pounds will come off slower, but they will come.

MC,
Oh man, we in trouble girl! Lisrey is kickin our butts. I know I have to step it up. BIL is leaving on Friday!!! I can have my work out space back. Thank goodness.
The fourth of July!! Man that is coming fast.
My seconday goal is to lose another 10lbs before the Bon Jovi concert on July 19.


I'm sooooo excited. I just can't wait. I don't know how I'll sleep tonight. I know Lisrey and I will have a blast.

Well, I'm off to read journals.

Have a great week

Darlene :hippy:

Hi Darlene,

Boy, it looks like you have some work cut out for you, trying to catch up with Lisrey.........lol. Oh well, it's the fun of the challange that matters most, right?

Just thought I would stop in and say a quick hello. Glad to see you are still working at working it off. Keep it up lady!

Hey Fleur! Have fun meeting Lisrey! And CONGRATS on getting the BIL out of the house. I know you will be doing a little happy dance in your former workout space. hahaha

Hi, Fleur!

I just wanted to tell you again what a great time I had this afternoon! It was so nice to meet you in person -- you are beautiful inside and out! Don't let anybody tell you differently! :D Thanks too for lunch... didn't expect that at all. Hope you aren't feeling bad about the swimming. It would have been fun, but I really did have a great time without it. You know I like to walk! :laugh:

Anyway, I hope you had as much fun as I did. We will have to do it again. We are too close not to! Did you get the pictures I sent?

Have a wonderful week!

Lisrey :gflower:

June 9 2003

Oh what fun we had!!! I had such a good time meeting Lisrey. She is such a sweet lady, and very pretty, as CJ5 knows and Chum will very soon.
I love her laugh, its so cute. I'd say Lisrey is a free spirit.

We walked down the river front for a while checking out the gardens.
We then went to lunch and poor Lisrey's food was so spicy hot, that the tiny "shot glasses" we were given to drink from were not enough to put out the fire.
So after lunch we were going to go swim, but the place decided to change there times.
I was so mad. I try to have everything running smooth for us, and then, that happens.
So we went to my g-ma's and parked our cars, and went for another walk by the water front. This time, further down the river. Again we checked out the gardens. They had lots of funky plants I'd never seen before and others,I didn't know came in the colors I saw. Was beautiful.

LISREY- I'm so glad you came. I had such fun and I'd like to thank you for driving all this way.
I'm looking forward to seeing you again and I know we'll be a few pounds lighter.:)
I was just upset about not swimming cause I hate when a plan falls through. Not a biggie, but just me not being able to control things I guess. We had fun all the same, even if you did freeze a bit in the fountain mist :laugh:
Glad you made it home ok. I thought about you all the way home. Wondering if you found your way and if you got a hard time at the border.
I know you'd find your way ;)

Yes I got you pics. thanks. Now I can show the kids my friend that I've been talking about LOL

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CHUM- I'm doing a boogieoogie baby!!! Now he just has to actually LEAVE!!!!
I do believe it may be tomorrow. Keep your fingers crossed.

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SANDIE- No hope for me to catch Lisrey on mins. That was for last report. I can give it a go this month though. I should have my space back, and I think I found my motivation too. I just have to keep at it.
Lisrey's mins really rocked though didn't they?



Well, I'm off to bed. Been a long fun day.

Hope you all have a great day tomorrow.

Darlene :hippy:

Fleur...that was a terrific photo in Lisrey's journal! Your hair is so long and lovely. I am hugely jealous.

BTW, here are some tips on dancing with a sword (in case he takes awhile to leave, but you want to start your happy dance):

http://www.shira.net/tips2-sword.htm

Hey there Cheeka!

Gosh how fun to meet a fellow DTer....

So glad you two enjoyed eachother! :D

Hello Darlene,

glad you had fun and must have been so exciting to meet someone you talk to on here. we not only come here for support but we make friendships no matter where we live.

too bad about the swimming but sounds like you had fun anyways.
take care.

June 11 2003

LOL CHUM. I wish I could wear one of the outfits the girls in the link are wearing. That would be a sin.
At any rate, I will do the dance, but without the sword. LOL

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Hey MAXI- glad you stopped by. Meeting Lisrey was def fun.

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Minnie- long time no see :D
Even without swimming, we had a great time. I'm looking forward to doing it again.

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I'll be back later to post about my day.

Darlene :hippy:

June 14 2003

Howdie all.

Had a hard time getting on to DT last night. I missed you all.

I've been struggling to stay on track the past few days. Don't know why.

Seem like my whole routine is out of whack.

I'm hoping to get back into the swing of things soon.

In the mean time, I'm gonna keep hanging in there.

Darlene :hippy:

Is something bothering you, Darlene? That's usually when I go off track. Whatever it is, you will figure it out. We're all here to support you!

Thanks Stacey, that means alot.

You know, I started reading this book I bought yesterday. I seen this DR on Oprah and she recomended reading his book.
It deals with relationships and couples.
I have found everytime I start thinking, reading or working on myself I feel like this.
That must be it.
I also feel mentaly drained when I do this. I know it's my body's way of protecting me from what ever it is I need to find inside myself.
I just have to keep digging no matter how hard it gets.
Funny thing is, I haven't even started the real work yet. I'm still in the learning stage of the book.

One day at a time.

I know this is going to be tough.

You know, earlier I found some candy and I was just going to eat it without a thought. I didn't instead I wrote an e-mail and purged the feeling.
Thats what you guys do for me. Help me through the tough times.

Hugs, :hug:

Darlene :hippy:

Damn straight you are gonna hang in there !!!!!


no other options girly !!!

and a huge CONGRATS !!! for not eating those f***ing raisens...chocolate or not




have a fantastic sunday buddy



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Peng

:super: on not giving in to eating!!!!!!! VERY proud of you :D

when we make ourselves more aware of our true inner feelings and such darlene it can "unsettle" us for a little bit - My first few attempts to do this resulted in major over eating binges! sigh.......

However I now exercise to rid myself of feeling unsettled - or clean house or work in the garden or something like that and it really helps me to deal with these feelings :)


Jade

June 15 2003

Happy Fathers Day ladies :D and to all your men.

PENG- You are so right, what other choise do I have? I must say on program. But I must tell you, it was very hard for a few seconds. Those chocolates were calling to me and man, were they loud!
DT once again saved my from myself.

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JADE- I'm starting a new workout routine. I hope this helps me deal with the frightning feelings that come up.
I don't fear the digging and discovery, but my body/subconsious mind is fighting me.
Maybe the distaction is just what I need. Thanks for the idea.

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What a great day!!!

Got up at 8 this morning, and cleaned up a bit. Got a bit more laundry done.
Yesterday I cleaned out the laundry room now that Kevin is gone.
What a difference!
Any way, cleaned up for about 2 hours then headed outside to watch the kids swim. The water was only 70* but they wanted to swim!?! To cold for my liking.
We ate a nice BBQ steak and garden salad for lunch.
I pulled weeds in my garden. Where do they come from???)
Cut back my irises and did some dead heading.
Then we played catch for an hour or so. Was fun.
Somehow, I got roped into going into the water. By this time, it was 75* Still not to my liking, but what the hay.
Water was cold at first, but I got use to it quickly.
We played monkey in the middle for a coulpe of hours. Remember, it's only a kiddie pool at 3' deep. I'm so glad Dan bought the good ladder rather then that rickity thing it came with. I'd be so afraid to break it. This ladder is nice, big and sturdy.

We had lots of fun, and to show for it, I look X-( Now, that's not a mad face, but a burnt one LOL

Yes, I'm nice and crispy.

Tomorrow is another big day.
Erin is going to the community college to swim and to the roller rink to roller blade with her class.
I am going with Bry-Anne to Fort Malden which is one of the forts from the war of 1812. Lots of history in this area. Should be fun. last time I was there, they acted out a battle with the riffles and canons going off. Hope to see that again.
The area of Windsor ON and Detroit MI was won and lost by both sides many times over. I guess it's how it should be, with the river dividing the two nations.

Reilly and Erin were going to go to the University of Windsor for their track meet on Thursday, but it was canciled due to weather. Reilly went to Water World on Friday to swim. That's where Lisrey and I were going to swim last week, but couldn't because they changed their hours.
Tuesday is a day off from feild trips, but Wed, Bry-Anne is going to the local fire hall.
Thursday, Erin is off to yet another feild trip to a camp for the day. Don't know what they'll be doing there.
I've signed so many permission forms the past week, it's not funny. I had to write them on the calender to keep them all strait.

Ok, enough babbling. I'm off to read journals.

Night.

Darlene :hippy:

Hey girl...I am back!

My computer is still messed up...but I can get around a little!

WOW...I am looking at your stats and I am impressed!...Keep up the good work!...You are awesome!

mcmarto

Hey Crispy Girl!!

Trying to get all of your summer sun in one day??? :laugh:

Hope you aren't hurting too bad. Good luck keeping the field trips straight!

Talk to you later.

Hello, Senora Crisp. So, you are jumpstarting your exercise program? What will you do??? Hopefully not high-diving into the 3 foot pool. Hmmm. I am so proud of you for sticking with it on the eating front. It is sooooo hard sometimes. But the more you do it, the better you are at it, I think. And you are demonstrating that. Yahoo!!!

June 17 2003

RUN, MC'S BACK!!!!! AHHHHH!

MC- welcome back, we missed ya. :tomato: :D LOLOL
Hope that puter holds and you stay.

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STACEY- I think that's just what I did. I got way to much sun for being out for the first time. (well, I was out a few times, but didn't get to much sun) I need one good burn, then I tan all summer with only minimal burning.
I am lobster red!!! with racoon eyes, I was wearing sunglasses LOL.

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Hey CHUM- I plan to get my lazy butt up early, and do at least 30 min workout video. Sh!t shower shave, then after the kids get up (once schools out) take them all out for a walk. I also want to do more weight training, so i might do that at the time i do the workout.
That's the plan, now I just hve to start getting my butt in bed at a decent time. No more of this 1AM stuff.
LOL I once found the more I cheated, the better I got at that too. But, you're right, it seems to get easier. I do have my moments, but not like they use to be.

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Today my big problem is fatigue. I'm just so tired I can't keep my eyes open. I'm not even dressed. I was, but it hurt my shoulders to wear the clothes I was wearing. Now I'm wearining a loose fitting lounge suit.
I fell asleep on the couch earlier, and poor Bry-Anne had the tv to entertain her. Someting I hate.
Now they're playing outside, and I want to sleep again, but I will not while they are out there.

Ok, I got this beef, and I'd like your input. Am I over-reacting? or is this something others feel the same way about?

Here it is....

Behind us lives 2 little girls. They are about the same ages as my youngest two (5 and 8)
They come over here to play all the time. Their parents use us as sitters. Now, these girls are good girls, so it's not to bad. My kids enjoy them, and they are really no trouble at all. It just gets my goat that she just sends them out without asking to see if it's ok. (not the way i was raised)
The real problem is there is a little boy who is 5 who lives across from them. When the girls come, so does he. I don't know his parents, never met them, and he comes here daily.
Today, the two girls' mother isn't home. They have this boy's mom as a baby sitter. She is being paid to watch the girls.
Guess where they are? Guess who's watching them?

Now, I wish I could send my kids over to their house, but Dan would never allow that. He and the girls' father do not get along. He is not very nice to my kids either. So we tell out kids to stay here and play. Their dad doesn't like that his girls come here, but hasn't said anything.
So going there is out.
Going to the little boy's is out too, since i don't know them, and I just can't see sending a 5, 8 and 12 year old over to another 5 year old's house.
So my beef is why do I always have these kids here. They never ask to see if I mind. They never watch their own kids. I don't even know the one kid.
Am I over-reacting?
Be honest k?

I would love to hear your thoughts.

Darlene :hippy:

It's Simple, Stand tall, and when the little angels come over say

"GO HOME" :rofl:

You know I would just tell the children to play out front, and watch your girls and when your done tell your girls to come in,

Your not responsible for those kids.
Are they coming in your house? Cause I would not allow that.
I would just tell them No not today. Or are they hanging out, outside with no supervision from there parents? If they're doing something wrong, take a little walk over to the parents and say Uh-You might want to see what angel is doing?

You are not wrong in how you feel.

Maxi- They send their kids over here with no supervision. They really have no idea if I'm supervising then either. I guess they just don't care.
I won't let my 5 year old out without either my DH, myself or my 12 year old. I tell the 12 year old to keep an eye on our kids, and make sure the others don't cause trouble. If they do, she's to tell me and I'll send their butts home.
No, they don't come in. Dan sleeps cause he's no midnights, and like you said, I'm not responsible for them.
The kids are usually good, but they have their moments. My kids have been taught not to raise their hands to anyone unless in self defense with no other option. The two little girls are forever fist fighting each other. I'm always sending them home to have their mother referee. Not my job.
The little boy had found a snake the other day, so he's been bringing it over. He was scaring the other kids with it today and all I head was screaming. I told him to go home and bring back the snake. If he can't be nice with it, he can't bring it back.
Any way, I think I'm going to have a talk with my neighbor. I think it's just a bit crazy that her kids are here when they are being baby sat by someone else. Someone who doesn't even know me.

I'm just wondering if I'm being petty. I kinda feel like I am.
Also, the girl's mom and I have history. She is a nice woman when she doesn't drink, but a hoe when she is. She has now quit again. I hope she gives it up for good.
The other woman, even though I haven't met her, I have heard some very bad stories. I try not to judge, but I'm finding it hard.
So with all that sitting in the back of my mind, I'm just wondering if I'm looking for a problem. Am I being petty? Or do I have a legit beef?

Sorry to go on and on about this, just something that's been bothering me.

Darlene :hippy:

I don't think you are being petty. I think you should have a chat with BOTH moms. Introduce yourself to the other one. But then again I don't have kids, so perhaps I am a bad one to give advice.

Well lets see what are your options.

1. You can go to talk to your neighbor and let her know that her babysitter lets her kids come out unsupervised, and throw in as a joke, YOU SHOULD BE PAYING ME.

2. Don't let your kids out to play. Take them to a park.

3. Continue to allow supposed Babysitter, neighbor, mystery woman to take advantage of the situation, AND USE YOU.

I do not think it is petty. So I would opt for #1. If I was paying someone to watch my children, I would want to know if she wasn't.

And being as you don't now this other lady, who cares what she thinks.

Or like Chum said go over and meet her. But then again its not worth it, if you and DAN will tiff over it.

Hey Fleur,

It is crazy how people just let other people take care of their kids all the time.

You can try talking to the moms but don't be surprised if it doesn't get you very far.

I would just send them home once in a while. Tell them to phone and ask if they can come play or come knock on the door to ask.

And tell sonny boy with that snake that if he doesn't leave it at home he will LOSE IT!!!!!!

take care,

Thanks Chum and Maxi. You both have great ideas. As it turns out, I talked to the one mom about her kids coming over while being babysat. She wasn't impressed.
After school, the little boy came over again, but this time his mom called to see if it was ok to swim in our pool. He ran home to change, and came back with his mom. I finally met her and we all sat outside watching the kids.
I just don't want this to be a habbit, if you know what I mean.

Crazy, you slipped in there. I agree, even though I've talked to the moms, I double it'll go far. They just don't seem to type to care.
Once again, thanks for the great ideas.

Ok, I'm feeling that itch again. I think it's time to start a new journal. I have no idea why I need to start a new one, but I do so.... look for WHATCHA GONNA DO BOUT IT? Kind of a goofy title, but I have a reason for the title. I'll explain there.

Thanks for visiting and hope to see you in my new journal.

Darlene :hippy: