Hey guys-

I love moving too. It's nice to have a new start. We found a great apartment and put in an application. Turns out the owner knows Wyatt, so hopefully that will help. He goes through a rental agency, so I don't know if they will approve our application or not. They run your credit history and mine is bad due to the bankruptcy/divorce, and Wyatt has never had a credit card. It was soooo great though so I hope it will go through. I really liked it. Anyway, Candela- I know how you feel. I can't imagine completely though, since I didn't stay with David after he cheated. Just remember, trust is a choice. You will have to choose to trust him again, and once you do, just stick with it. When you are lying awake and feeling angry or frustrated, just remember that you are a good person and you can get through this. I find that writing helps me a lot. Sometimes I too lie awake and think I can't believe he did that. I can't believe he was able to fool me. But deep down I know that I knew the whole time. I'm not sure how long it will take me to get over this, but I know that I will and you will too. Loves to you guys! Where's Kim?

SHAN

Hey girls

Shantelle.........well Im glad you found an apt and one you like too.I will keep you in my thoughts and wish you get it.

Candela.............I hope you feeling better.Unlike Shantelle I have layed where you are. During sex would be the worst because I would ask him "does she do that" and other things related to thier relationship. I dont know why I stayed........I wasnt married to him. I honestly couldnt tell you what I would do if my husband ever cheated. I cant live and be with someone I dont TRUST!!!
He is the only man that I have never had that "GUT" feeling about so I think I am all good......for now.
You say something about you cheating on him..............DONT DO IT. You know how it hurt you............. and you want to get even?
I truely believe people cheat, not to hurt the one they love, but to make themselves feel better. Does that make since? I will explain if I need too. I had a bf cheat on me and get a girl preganant when I was 19. What I couldnt understand is his x-wife did the same thing to him.............Got pregnant while cheating with a "white" man. So he knew how it felt and did it to me anyway. KINDA sucked at the time. But I learned and kept learning LOL
My sons father.............I guess he just had some good DICK or maybe he had me brianwashed I dont know why I put up with it. In the end everyone has to make their own mind up. I would never judge you if you stayed or left............Just as long as you are TRUELY happy. Ok how depressing is this?????????

Yea and where is KIM?

Hey-

It is a little depressing but important to talk about. As for me, I am in a pretty weird mood today. I had a random dream last night that I cheated on Wyatt. perhaps because of our conversation about Candela yesterday. It was really strange and I woke up feeling guilty. I was a total whore in my dream, not unlike my ex's whore... that's just not how I am. And Candela, that's not how you are either. You are a good person, just keep telling yourself that. Anyway, in the dream, Wyatt came home before anything happened, and we hurried and got dressed and pretended like he had just stopped by to say hi. I can't imagine how many close calls my ex must have had with me coming home early, or just stopping by his work. Weird dreams bug me when they are unhappy weird dreams.

Someday, the pain will lift and we will remember who we are
Today it feels like we are lost, caught beneath another version of ourselves
Someone hurt us so greatly, the armor felt so thin
We let the mask drop enough for someone to see inside
Betrayal forced us to build a new mask
Our faith in love dwindled
But we are not defined by who loves us
We are defined by the fact that we love at all.

Blah blah sorry to subject you all to my rampant musings.

Loves!

Hi ladies,

Where do I start. Shantelle - I started reading about you going to dinner with David and thought WHAT IS SHE DOING - STAY AWAY - DANGER - DANGER. And after what you did I am so proud of you. Really sounds like you got some closure there - good call - seems like you are over him.

Candela - I agree with Trisha when she says that people cheat because they are trying to make themselves feel better. It is totally selfish. They are not thinking about anything accept doing something that will give them a boost. At least most of the time. I wonder why you say you could do it. Doesn't sound like you have forgiven him. I know you think it important to try as hard as you can at marriage but can you see a time when you will trust him 100% and be 100% happy in yourself that this is who you are going to spend the rest of your life with. I know it will take time. I don't know if I could do it. Can you?

Finally got to the gym twice this week. The first time in about a month.

Hey girls! Well Kim it was so good to hear from you!!! Had to run in PE yesterday, 1.5 miles. It killed me. But today I look really skinny! Maybe am losing weight, will weigh myself tonight. Day before yesterday we lifted in PE class. I did calf extensions at 125 lbs, so my calves hurt soooo bad. I didn't stretch enough after I think. I had to run with them hurting like that. OUCH! Anyway, my time when I ran was pitiful. I really need to work more on my cardio-respiratory endurance. Argh. It's my least favorite thing. Oh well. Need to get in shape for swimsuit season. Now if only I knew what to do with these stretch marks? After I gained all the weight a couple years ago they showed up. They fade when I tan a bit, but they still show. I want to wear a bikini this year, (that's my goal) so I was wondering if you all know something to get rid of stretch marks? I see ads all the time for products but wonder if you guys have ever used any of them. Spoke to David today. He didn't pay that bill that went to collections. Typical. But I got him to give me his credit card number and I called and paid it. I am so relieved he had the money to do it. This week is going to be wonderful I just know it. We find out which apartment we are moving into, and I get paid, and I get to go start packing, and school is great, and I am paying my mom back, etc. It's super fun. I can't wait to move!!! It will be so nice to not live 40 miles away from work! I can even go home for lunch!!! WOOHOO!!! Wow I am way too excited... How are you guys? Is my happiness annoying you? It's annoying me I know that much. Loves!

Doesn't sound like you have forgiven him. I know you think it important to try as hard as you can at marriage but can you see a time when you will trust him 100% and be 100% happy in yourself that this is who you are going to spend the rest of your life with. I know it will take time. I don't know if I could do it. Can you?
I totally agree.........this is my first marriage and Im not sure if I would leave or stay In that situation ONE thing I do know is if Im not 100% happy Im OUT!! I have been in ****ty realtionships and I left all quick except for one........cause of my son. But my husband is not my sons father and if we do decide to have a child together I still think I would leave knowing now what I didnt (realize) know now. Good luck on the whole thing Candela.:hug:

Shantelle Im glad someone is looking skinny........I have done nothing but eat these last 3 weeks since my husband has been gone to the states......Not to mention I havent been to the gym once. Well its a nice break cause when he gets home I will be back at the gym and back on a SERIOUS diet. Back up to 162. OUCh:whip:

Kim Glad you got bak in here for a minute. You must be keeping really busy.

Its 4pm ladies I have more work to do before I can get out of here so Maybe tomarrow.................:wave:

Where is everyone????????? Its Thursday Im lonely LOL:D

I hope all of you are having a good week...

Hey Trish! Well, we got the apartment that we really wanted! It is soooo nice. Much nicer than any apartment that we've seen in that price range! Plus it has a dishwasher!!!! (Although I have my own dishwasher, his name is Wyatt LOL.) Things are going super well! Went to PE today and worked my hind end off! My teacher had us running and jumping and skipping like idiots, but it was fun! Then we played tag for a workout, the rule being we had to be jogging at all times! My heart rate was so high! (the workout may be why I am so hyper!!!) Anyway, my ex pays my alimony today, so that will be nice. I am looking forward to spending it! I had all but forgotten about it! WOOHOO! School is good. Psychology is going well. MY grade is like an A- now, so I am happy about that. Wish I had more time to write, but I need to get to work. Inventory day today. Loves to you all! Shan

alimony how nice is that!!?
Really I didnt know that still exsisted.....lol its a crazy thing but if you get it , its nice I guess.
I havent been to the Gym (gained 5lbs too) since my husband left April 29th he comes home tomarrow I cant wait.....except now I have to shave lol.
Im glad you got your apt and you like it. Your funny!!!! make that man do the dishes.
Candela must be busy (doing yoga) I feel like its just me in here now.............I hope I just didnt BUTT in.

Well ladies I have to get busy I will be back Monday.
Take Care

You didn't butt in sweetie! The more characters there are on a soap the more interesting it is, and when one diva needs the week off the story shifts to some other character! That's great that your husband is coming home! Hope he brought you a present! (He should getting to go home and you having to stay in Germany.) Today is a weird day. I woke up terrified that I'm pregnant. I haven't exaclty been keeping track of my cycle, (I've been off the pill since my insurance got cancelled and that's how I kept track before) seems like I'm late. But I took a test and it was negative. I'm always paranoid about being pregnant but never am. Usually when I take the test I start the next day or a few hours later. Must be the hormones! Anyway, I'm at work and everyone else is gone. Fridays are kind of like that. We went to see Shrek 2 last night, it was soooooooooooo funny! I laughed all night. Well, hope everyone has a good day!

Shantella..........................did you get it? I always was late with mine............January 1997 I was late really late and my friend told me to go get a test......"hell no" Im tired of spending my money and it always negative and then I start a few hours later or the next day................She bought me one and I was, My son will be 7 in Aug. You can try to use a calender to keep track of your dates ya know lol

I left work early on Thursday and Friday . Everyone was gone Thursday it was a German Holiday so I think people just took a four day weekend.

I picked up My Husband Saturday morning Saturday afternoon some calories were being burnt woooohoooo. He brought lots of clothes for him and my son ....he got me a nail drill so I can start doing my nails again........States full set is about $25.00 here in Germany a full set is 45 Euro which is close to $52.00 PLUS they dont look as good and they lift fast and bad. So I will do my own.

We are going to Lego land this weekend and then off to Stuttgart to look at bedroom funiture I cant wait I love "away" weekends. Im thinking we will stop in Munich and see shrek 2 we all want to see it .....
Take care

Oh look Im back down to 162 ok my cheat was bad but Im gonna B. O. K. headiong to the gym @5 with my man.

Hey-

Well I took the test and it was negative like always but I still haven't started. I started a new exercise program though and sometimes you can skip your period from that. Plus I am super stressed this month with moving and school and all. So maybe that's the problem. Anyway, I did get pregnant once when I was married (miscarried though) and I had taken a test and it was negative and then a week later took another one and it was positive. Hope that's not the case here, although it's hard to not kind of hope to be pregnant because the doctor's say it will be tough for me to conceive again. I know it would be bad cause Wyatt is sooo not ready and I am still in school and just escaped a life where I had no options, but my marriage ended just when I thought I was ready for a family and now it's hard to go back from that. Anyway, I hope I'm not cause man that would cause problems. Wyatt says he doesn't think I am, but what does he know? Anyway, looking forward to moving next week. Wyatt is part Japanese so we are thinking it would be cool to decorate our living room in that style. We both really like it and we found some fabulous art work to put up. I am so excited for my apartment!!!!! It's soooo nice!

Anyway, sorry to rant. Loves to you all!

P.S. I'm back to 160! That's so awesome! Trish sounds like we are both doing well with our weight in spite of our crazy lives. Wonder how everyone else is doing?

I hope whatever happens Shantelle .....You are happy. :D

Rant all you want because I know somedays I will be doing the same. Yesterday I had to call my Husbands mother because the man is on Vacation this week and My house is a MESS when I get home from work............ I have to pick up after him he is 30 yrs old damn it. LOL but its all good.

My old apt was Japanese Chinese before my best friends brother had spent alot of time in China so we had "gifts " from him and then I collect elephants and I also have a class bosai tree and some other cool stuff so it looked really nice GOOD luck on yours.

Yesterday for work we had an "off site" the only food we had in the morning was Pretzels with butter and some kind of cake.............I ate pretzels..........they are so good (remember Im in germany all pastries are good) I forgot to bring my shake for lunch I had salad and GREEK meat and for dinner I had pork chop and left over salad and Greek meat Right now I am working on my shake and I havent decided whats for lunch yet. or dinner. BAD PLANNING...... well I should do some work NO boss today and I am getting out of here early wooohooo its Friday.. LEGO LAND this weekend I cant wait to surprise my son .

WHere is everyone gone? :c( Im glad you are still here Shantelle :D

Btw


HAPPY BIRTHDAY CANDELA

:balloons: :gift:
:d

OOOOH YES HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! Well I am not pregnant. FINALLY started and now happy but miserable. I am not working till late today so it's nice to kind of hang out at home in the morning. The losers at the rental agency still haven't given us our keys yet, so I am nervous about them letting us move in a day early. Oh well I suppose I can move at night after work, I was just hoping to take advantage of having Monday off work for Memorial Day. Glad I am not pregnant and I am going to get a new birth control prescription today. Haven't worked out this week, :shrug: my neck was strained on Sunday so I haven't felt like it but it's all just one big excuse isn't it? We are decorating our bedroom Moroccan style, there is so much good stuff on Ebay! I bought this bedspread that's Moroccan last year so I kind of want to go with the theme. I love decorating!!! Well, I need to go shower and get ready for work. Loves!

WOw
Eveyone must be so busy............................ :c(
I hope you all had a great 3 day . We went to Lego land. It was ok Not as good as disneyland but it was nice to get away. I live in a "vacation town" so it was crazy here on Friday I am glad I didnt stay here all weekend.
Shantelle I hope your decorating is going well
talk again soon

Hey-

Well I started my no cheese challenge today. So far not so bad. I ordered a salad today that had cheese though, so I had to pick it off. That's tough for me. It looked so good! The workout was good in PE class today, but it wasn't long enough. Thinking maybe the moving this weekend gave me a good workout though. I have bruises all over my wrists, legs and arms. The ones one my wrist look like someone's been abusing me though! I bruise everytime I move furniture it's so weird. Anyway, the apartment is great. We've already had some friends over and they all seem to like it. I can tell we are going to be happy there. Today, after PE class I actually got to go home and take a bath and blow dry my hair before work! WOOHOO! Usually I shower in the locker room and go to work with wet hair. Man I hate that. Those locker room showers run hot but the spray is freezing! It's strange. Well, hope every one is well!

Trish- We were actually planning to go to Lego land as part of our Europe trip... My boyfriend would be so jealous if I told him you went. Was it the one with the big castle?

BIG CASTLE? There is a lego made Neushwanstein Castle its bigger than me but not to big. Go to my webshots link on my signature and look under lego land you will see it all.

http://community.webshots.com/album/147640951yQTBTV

Lego land is not to great I was expecting more like DISNEYLAND and I got less than a carnival. My son enjoyed it and everything in the park was cheap (food and toys).Oh it also in a town in the middle of NOWHERE...........Munich is about 2 hours south and STuttgart and hiedleberg are north about 2-3 hours.CHeck into it before you are dissappointed.

Im glad you got moved in ............feels nice huh? speaking of Bruises I have a couple I moved my office around yesterday my plant feel over on me and I got dirt everywhere GGRRRR.

I feel so fat today ( I am) blah I did good yesterday lets see if I can do it again today. :shrug: I can do it I an do it!!!

Ill talk to you again soon

Hey-

I know what you mean about feeling fat. Last night Wyatt was rubbing my shoulders for me and I didn't have a shirt on. I looked down at my stomach all poking out and was so disgusted with myself. Today I almost got out of bed and did Pilates, I even grabbed my clothes. But then I realized I was going to be late so I just left. Bummer. I talked to Wyatt about the legoland thing and he said the one he wanted to go to is in Denmark or somewhere. They have a life sized castle there you can walk around in. I guess it's like the headquarters or something. The apartment is coming along. We unpacked the rest of the living room and kitchen last night and then watched Return of the King. It was a nice relaxed evening. I went shopping and bought stuff to try out some new recipes. I have this nifty cookbook where every recipe is only four ingredients. Woohoo! It's sure nice to do shopping for them because a lot of the time you already have two or more of the ingredients in your house. Like tonight, I am making orange chicken. It called for 1. chicken breasts 2. frozen orange juice 3. green onions 4. rice Easy huh? I am excited. I also got this pie recipe. It's really neat. Cool whip, oreos, half and half and vanilla pudding. Whip it, chill it, eat it.

Anyway hope everyone is doing well!

YYYYYYUUUUUUUUUMMMMMMMM Oreo pie :c(
I dont think that is very low carb for me. lol I did really good yesterday I had atkins shake in the morning Ribeye for lunch and Taco salad for dinner NO SNACKS I did 30 minutes of weights and 30 minutes body fit class at the gym and the I did toning weights at home lastnight while watching FEAR FACTOR. During the O.C. I did crunches. I need to do it everyday. My tummy is really the only thing that bothers me but I am ready for change.
Man I wish I had some recipe ideas if any are low carb send them my way please trishwinfield@yahoo.com or just post them in here.
I am going to have to check out the lego land thing. That sounds cool. My husband told me yesterday the we are going to Amsterdam in July to go to Buches(spelling sucks) Gardens I hope its more adult. :D
I have alot of work (and I still find time.......Candela and Kim :c( ) so I have to get busy talk to you later.

Hey-

Actually you can do that recipe low carb. Cool whip is already low carb, and you can use sugar free instant pudding. You can hardly tell it's sugar free! Instead of cookies use peanuts or any other nut. You don't use a lot since you just crush it and put it on top. Then you can just use a pie tin instead of pie crust. There are a lot of low carb stores in the US now, you should look and see if you can order online or anything. You can also freeze coolwhip and it's a low carb ice cream. I ate it a lot when I was on Atkins. Anyway, I have some recipes including one for sugar free cheescake. I think it's really good. I will send it on. Shan

GGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRR I just totally wrote a book and then "X"ed out on accident instead of "Xing" out my smileys :c( ..........I will be back this afternoon I have to get busy working LOL.

Heehee I did the EXACT same thing yesterday! So pissed me off! HEHE. My boyfriend says I look really thin. Guess my work out yesterday was really effective. I think I look thinner too. That's the nice thing about lifting weights, you get results like immediately. It's kind of cool. Instant diet!!! WOOHOO! Anyway, today we are going to see the new Harry Potter. It's a good thing we got tickets weeks ago, cause they are all sold out. I am so excited! I didn't read the books for a long time after they came out, but once I did I really enjoyed them. Work is such a pain this week. Got payroll done but I have a lot of other things to do too. Better get to it! Shan

Good Monday,
How was Harry Potter? I was never into him But My son really likes him. Had a pretty relaxed weekend I did go to the gym Yesterday. Friday I went home ,flet sick so no gym and Saturday I cleaned and went to the commissarry so again no gym. I did really well this weekend I did have SF jello and 2 diet Dr Pepper but I am on my way.........

How was your weekend?

Hey-

Weekend was good. Spent a lot of time cooking and organizing the apartment. Still have one more room to do and I really don't want to do it. It's all my office equiptment plus all the miscellaneous stuff I don't know what to do with. I have a lot of crafts and stuff that I haven't had time to do and I just can't bring myself to get rid of them. Argh. Anyway, found out when my five year high school reunion is. I thought it would be in June but it's not until July so I still have some time to work out and get into better shape. I am really looking forward to it. Anyway, Harry Potter was good. It was a lot different than the other two HP movies though. Everyone kind of expected that with a new director though. Well, I should really get back to work! I will talk to you soon!

Im glad your weekend went well.
I would love to come and do your room :D I made my husband (Dion) help me with moving my funiture in our living room. It sucks cause really I only have 2 full walls and they are oppisite of each other. But I did a pretty good job fitting everything and liking it.
5 yr reunion? Wow we didnt have one of those. My 10 year was in Aug 2000.LOL Im a bit older than you. It was kinda cool to see what people were doing. I was more of a tom boy in school ( i did have a boyfriend though) but when I went to the reunion I was more like a princess LOL It was funny to see the same Hair styles on some of the girls that they had 10 years earlier. Married to their high school sweet heart (which could be nice) and never experienced anything else. ( I truely believe you need to test and test somemore before you settle for one man) It was a GREAT time. It lasted all weekend the first night was the best. The second night was the dinner and awards ( who has what) 2nd night was funny because everyone was like in high school again and sat in their little "clicks" WOW and then the 3rd day was a picnic and you got to bring your kids............My son was the cutest :D LOL
Im hope you have fun at yours. I cant wait til my 20 yr.
I need to work to It is so nice out I just want to play hookie.
Have a great day

I hate it when you don't have full walls! It makes it so hard to arrange furniture! Ugh today was going fabulously until I got to work. My fabulous co-worker had ordered some take out and it took so long they threw in some free cheescake which he gave to me! It was soooo creamy and perfect. But I couldn't eat more than half. After working out this morning and eating an ultra-healthy lunch I feel super guilty now. Argh. But I suppose I can just work out again tomorrow and I will feel better. Sheesh. I love cheesecake. It's evil. Sounds like your reunion was really great. I hope mine will be. It's at this great park nearby. It will be nice to see everyone again. I wish I had a year book to go through to re-familiarize myself with everyone. I can be terrible at names. For the most part I remember people, it just takes a second to connect the name to the face. Faces I am good at. Anyway, my boss is out of town so I have loads to do. Talk to you later.

Hey everyone-

Wow everybody kind of dropped off the planet huh? Well I still check to see if people have written so even if I don't write I am here a lot. Wyatt and I decided that he should move out. It's no big deal, I just kind of want the place to myself. It will be better for our relationship if we don't rush things that way. I feel pretty good about it because the alternative was ending it altogether. I really don't want that, but if things didn't change it was bound to happen. I think we just skipped a couple of steps and I didn't allow myself enough time to recover from my marriage. Instead I just kind of jumped right into another one. Argh. Anyway, how is everyone?

WOW that sounded so "grown-up". I think it is very smart to step back and look at things before it was/is too late. You need to be by yourself. Just date and take care of you.
I was here last Thursday wrote a book and them it got deleted Friday I was off (you gotta love Ronald Regan) and then Monday I was pretty busy did stop in though and Tuesday and yesterday I was out sick.
Not much going on.............. I tossed my scale in the garbage :tongue: . I think I was addicted. I am doing great ( except last 2 day NO EXERCISE) My clothes are loser. tummy flatter NOT flat just FLATTER. :o I will weigh in only on the 1st of each month. Maybe that will keep me on track.

I have lots of work to catch up on but I will talk to you tomarrow. ;)

Good call on the scale. It's too hard to weigh all the time. Especially when your weight fluctuates so much. The experts recommend once a month I think, so that should be good. Today was my last day running in PE. I think I will be getting an A grade afterall. Woohoo! I feel tough! :mus:

Way to go girl ON THE gym class........... I am so glad it is FRIDAY :D
I am not doing anything this weekend............Maybe a bike ride if the weather is nice. I bought these new pills LIPOREXIN anyway its 11:30am and I an not hungry and I have drank alot of water. I will have a salad tuna for lunch and hopefully these pills work they were only $12.95 on ebay but I hate gimmicks. SO far so good. Its probably all in my head and I am probably full on water DOH!!!
Where are the girls???????? :c(

Have a great weekend I will talk to you later ;)

HEY .................am I all alone????????????? :c( :c( :c( :c( :c(

I can't go offline for that long again!! It takes too long to catch up. At one point I thought I had missed a pregnancy - luckily it was just a scare.

I've only just gotten back to the gym this week. My shoulder really hurts, well I all really hurt but the pain in my shoulder is screaming louder than the rest. This is muscle hurt. I'll have to make sure I don't miss the gym for that long either.

I've put on weight because I've been working, sitting, no exercise and eating (still a substitute for smoking I think). I'll have to change my stats and start again.

I'm so glad you are here Trish - at least you didn't abandon Shantelle. Sorry guys.
It's school holidays, my throat is killing me, my head hurts, but I don't have a mountain of work to do. Might try to rest and get better, otherwise I will miss the gym and have to get fit all over again.

Speak to you soon!! Take care.

Kim its so nice to hear from you. I am sorry you are not feeling well :c( Your weight stats are still better than mine. :D
When did you stop smoking? I stopped in January (21st) but these last 2 months I have really craved them ............I am ok at home when my Dh is there but when he is gone (trip) I have had some. I hate the taste and then afterward I stink and that bugs me too...............so I dont know what my problem is with that? :shrug:

I have been doing good. Riding my bike yesterday I went to the gym. I weighed I wasnt suppose to until July 1st but I couldnt wait. I am addicted to scales. I tossed mine 3 weeks ago. I weighed myself at the gym on the 18th and yesterday I was down 4 an half pounds I was so happy. :dc But I dont have my scale so I dont know where I stand on how much I weigh now . I know what I weighed on the gym scale but my home scale was less , dont know by how much 7-8lbs I think so I dont have a real wieght I need to buy another scale and leave it down stairs in my storage room and only weigh once a month.

Went to a going away party Saturday..........it was at our community restuarant here on post. The guy that was leaving has a band so they were the entertainment. My Dh HATES this community so didnt want to go but went anyway. I planned on only being there a couple hours BUT I wanted to stay. Dh said "fine" but I could tell he wasnt fine with it cause he would have to pick up my son from babysitter and then I would have to be home at 11:30 so he could go out. It turned into a huge rediculious fight ( at home) i didnt stay he didnt go out. Everything was fine later that night /next morning. Stupid **** I swear. I am so laid back and care free he is so on a schedule. But I am anal about cleaning he is not. I am a people person he is NOT.
I wish you all lived here I have NO friends. All the ladies that live around here are officers wives (*****es) or are to young or married but no kids. No matches here for me. My closest friend is 18 THATS just sad. She is cool but I am 32 and we dont have much in com(mom). More like a mom big sister.

Well I did my Monday morning VENT.
I hope all of you are well. ;)

Hey girls! Sorry I haven't been on. I have really tried to stay consistent on here but I got laid off from work and I don't have internet at home yet, so there isn't much I can do. I have been going to the local job service office to use the internet to send out resumes and stuff but they won't let you do email or anything on there. Kim, my darling, it is good to hear from you. Sorry about all the pain you are in. Glad to hear the pregnancy thing was just a scare. I hate when that happens. Trish, I wish I lived there too. It would be so great to be your friend IRL. Be strong and know that I am here for you. Things here are good but stressful. I will try to write more later. loves! Shan

Just quick, doing some work. I'm still sniffing and coughing, but feeling a lot better, not sick or headache. Thanks for the kind words.

Sorry to hear about work Shantelle.

I gave up smoking about 7 years ago now (I'm 36). Don't crave at all. In fact can't imagine what I was thinking sucking that stuff into my lungs. I gave up over 6 months. Started with one hr between smokes, then went to 1 1/2 hours and so on until 24 hours and then gave up. The rule is you cannot go under the time, only over. If you have not had a smoke for 2 hours you cannot have 2 in the next hour to make up for it. If you fail then you get straight back to going 1 hr (or whatever your time limit is) from the time you had you last smoke. Once you can do your time easily you extend it.

Trish - Don't give up giving up!! I was at least a pack a day smoker, had been for 15 years. A lot of people were really surprised I gave up because I was such a bad smoker. Try not to give in to those cravings. I think the longer you stay off them totally the more they repulse you. But if you do lapse, just give up again. The less you smoke the less you will want to.

Kim thanks for the engouragement :D I 2 have been smoking for almost 15years. The smell makes me sick when I am around it but I have "triggers" and I still gave during those times. Ill be able to stop. My husband hates it.........so I dont want to keep a secret from him.
Shantelle you "sound" very happy even with all the stuff going on wrong in your life. I miss you though. Can u go to a library to get online?
I am having a ****ty time at work..............new boss new co worker and they SUCK but I will be fine. Its just that I have 3 times the work and I am the lowest paid. :c( I know take it and get over it!!!Atleast I am the one who knows everything so when I am on vacation in September they will see HAHAHA.

Its so nice today I wish I didnt work I would be at the beach. I am going to go on a long bike ride tonight. Tomarrow is PILTAES at the gym. Talk to you both soon :)

Hey Girlies :)
I hope you all had a great weekend. I took off Friday so that made 4days off for me.
Didnt do to Much...........Went to Czech shopping on Friday.....Saturday laid around the house and watched TV Sunday was pretty nice I took my son to the pool for a few hours,BBQed and went tanning. Yesterday was pretty much the same as Saturday except I cleaned and did my nails ....I am getting so good. My right hand is still hard to do since I am right handed but they look really nice. YEA ME.
I miss you guys...............talk to you soon

HI guys where THE HELL DID EVRYONE GO????????
I miss all of you............. :c(
This week ws really busy at work its now Friday and I am so ready for the weekend.
Didnt do much this week besides work RODE my bike as much as I could Got a FULL body massage and tomarrow we are going to see spiderman 2 and Shrek 2 in Munich I am so excited ita surprise for my son. I should have NEW pictures of me and Family and Germany on Monday so I will let you know.
I hope you all are doing GOOD
Talk to you soon
Trish

Hey guys!

Sorry but I am not allowed to use the internet at work and my internet at home is about 9kps. Sheesh. It takes about five minutes to load one page. I hate it!!!! Anyway, things are okay. I don't really like my job and am hoping to get a better one. I got a call from a lady yesterday and am meeting her on Wednesday. I think it's probably going to happen because she got my resume from someone within the company who was really impressed with me when I interviewed for a lower position. Let's just say it's a LOT more money. I could do so much if I got it. PRAY FOR ME! Trish let me know when you get the new pictures. Love you guys!

Hey.............No pictures DUE to the Rain and Snow in Germany!!!
Yes it snowed on the mountain.......so cold here this weekend. :shrug: whats up with that its JULY!!
I made it to the movies on Saturday my son was so happy.......spiderman2 was great shrek was ok I liked the first one better. I also made it to the soda candy and popcorn :c( It wasnt mine I just ate some of theres..SAMETHING huh? I topped it off with a poptart when I got home............OH well I will work harder and I think next time I go to the movies I am taking my own stuff LOL. Rode my bike Sunday to the gym and little after that. Have a big ride planned for tonight and HOPEFULLY it wont rain and I will have pictures.
Talk to you soon

Hey-

How was everyone's weekend? Mine was okay. Could barely drag myself out of bed this morning. I hate working at a job I don't like. I can't wait for Wednesday. I am trying not to get my hopes up about that other job though. We were supposed to go to the local amusement park yesterday but we didn't. We ended up picking up KFC (yuck) and going to Wyatt's dad's house. Ten o'clock last night I was almost crying because I didn't want it to be Monday. HELP!

I am feeling ya on the job situation.............BUT I love my job and what i do I just hate one of my co workers. He is about 54 and short and GROSS and even his voice makes me sick. We fight all the time I have tried 2 times BUT he keeps pissin me off. I usually confont him in the presents of our supervisor and when I do he acts so nice and innocent. WHATEVER. I am so glad I have my own office. The only thing is its a "team" office so I do have to work and talk to him. right now I am down to emails only. I will keep you in my prayers and hopefully Wednesday you will get good news GIRL.
Have a great day.

Hey! I am getting sooo excited about tomorrow! I wish it were tomorrow already! It has gotten so hot here I haven't been sleeping well at all. I hope that somehow I will be able to get some good sleep before my meeting tomorrow. Wyatt and I got in a stupid fight over groceries yesterday. He can be so immature. All I said was that I wanted him to help me plan some meals so that we could buy the groceries. He just kept saying "whatever babe, I don't care". I was so frustrated because he just wants me to cook everything for him and won't help me. I kept trying to tell him this and he just got all mad at me. Argh. I was pushing his buttons I'll admit it, but it pisses me off that I am buying all the food, planning it, cooking it. Everything! He is so lazy sometimes. So then he got mad and was like "I just feel like nothing I do is good enough! Like you are just going to leave me if I am not perfect." Sheesh. Anyway, better get back to work. Shan

VENT VENT VENT.............. I feel ya. My DH can be like that sometimes..............you dont help you dont eat is what I say. I am very ANAL about a clean house and he is sssoooooooNOT. So I am always *****in about his mess so the last 3 days he has been really good about putting dishes in the sink not just leaving them on the counter. ( 3 more steps to the sink)lazy lazy lazy. Maybe tonight I should tell him thank you for doing such a great job helping out this last week. LOL maybe he will feel needed and like the BIG MAN he is. I am so excited for you for tomarrow I am not a bIG prayer person but I wish you the best and will send up something so the man above helps you out.

Posted real quick just saw your on :D

I wish it was hot here.....................58 today I live in the ALPS what do I expect? Been doing great I will have some pictures tomarrow for all of you. I took them lastnight but My husband was changing motherboards on the computer so its down HOPEfully tonight he will get it up and running.
Its almost 5 so I am outta here GOOD LUCK Shan and I will be sure to be here tomarrow to see how it went.
BYE

Shan ..............
Its so much easier for you to email me BUT now our thread is going to DIE :c( and where are the other girls?????????

Talk to you soon

I know I just can't bear the thought of our thread dying! It's been going for nearly a year! I suppose we could just do both, but not write in here as often... I dunno. My interview went really well yesterday. I don't know which way it's going to go, but they only met with two other people and there are at least two positions available. When she read me the job description I nearly cried because it's so perfect for me. And I am perfect for it. I think I would be really good at the job too but it's possible that my age may work against me even though I have loads of experience. I hope they can see through to what I can bring to the company in spite of that though. I don't think just because some one is older than me they would do better at their job than I would. Sheesh. This stress is killing me. Plus things with Wyatt aren't going super well right now. We keep fighting. I just don't have the strength to fight anymore. If I get the job he may move out. If I don't get the job I am considering just teaching during the day (Substitute teaching) and taking my work study grant to work on campus during the day. Anyway, I have rambled so I will talk to you guys later!

Loves! Shan

2 postions available...........oh you will get one. I am so excited for you. Why do you say if you get the job Wyatt will probably move out? But if you dont? Girl he isnt helping anyway right? Ok I wont lecture....remember what I said?
I have pictures now FINAllY huh? They are not so good but the backgrounds are so nice.....its where I live.
http://community.webshots.com/scripts/editPhotos.fcgi?action=showMyPhoto&albumID=140792465&photoID=163474734&security=FVAakM
http://community.webshots.com/scripts/editPhotos.fcgi?action=showMyPhoto&albumID=140792465&photoID=163474970&security=IzbJPb
http://community.webshots.com/scripts/editPhotos.fcgi?action=showMyPhoto&albumID=140792465&photoID=163474864&security=SAsFhr

Here are a couple links BUT once you are in the webshots "my albums" you can look at all my pictures.
I have so many new readings to formatt and get translated before Monday so I will email you later. :)

When do you find out about the job?

Hey-

Wyatt and I had "the talk" last night. He kept asking me if I was okay. I hadn't decided to do anything about breaking up or whatever yet so I just told him I didn't want to talk about it. Of course he kept pressing me to say something, so I started talking and I didn't stop. I told him that eventually you reach a point where you get everything you can from a relationship and when you get there it's time to move on. We didn't break up but I basically indicated to him that we will. We sort of got interupted during everything by our friends who came over. After they left we were lying in bed and I was asleep when suddenly he turned to me and said "Don't leave me" and started bawling all over me. I feel terrible. I don't want to be someone who hurts the person they love. But I just don't think I can do this anymore. Thinking about being alone in that apartment is kind of comforting though. I can have my own space and that's something I am really looking forward to. Well, talk to you guys soon. Shan

HEY!!! I got the job!!! Sort of... They offered me the other one but it's almost as much money. I am sooooo excited. They are flying me out to Arizona for training next (not this coming but the next) Monday and I haven't ever been on a plane! I am so excited!!!! I just don't know how to contain myself. Although I still have to work here for a week and that's kind of depressing. But I am going to help train the new person. I am not good at the quitting thing. I hope they won't be too mad at me but this job just didn't pay enough and had like no prestige. I am soooo excited I just can't get anything done!!!!! Anyway, loves to you guys! Shan

p.s. Kim if you are reading this I have been on the phone with Aussies all week. Wouldn't it be funny if I called you by "mistake" LOL

Hey guys-

Well I am single again. It was not easy. He just kept arguing with me and trying to get me to give him another chance. I didn't want to hurt him, but he just kept looking at me like his life was over. This morning I went to get a much needed massage and when I came back he was gone. He didn't take anything with him so I am not sure what the deal is but I am sure I will have to talk to him sooner or later. Everyone is kind of relieved that I did it and I must say I feel really good considering the hell I've been through the last two days. I am glad that my life is starting to go in a good direction though. Anyway, I need to get a hold of my friend who was going to rent a room in my apartment from me. I don't think I want her to now so that I can have the place to myself. Not to mention the fact that she is Wyatt's best friend and it might be kind of weird. Oh well, I am sure it will all work out. Loves, Shan

WOOOOHOOO................Girl !!!
Take the place for yourself. I hate that I am so busy BUT I will find sometime soon to email or post.
Talk to ya soon
Trish

Hey-

Well Wyatt moved all his stuff out. I miss him so much. It's hard to sleep without him but I know I will get used to it eventually. I have now spent two nights alone at the apartment and it's not too bad. I have a LOT of homework to do for the next two weeks so I am making sure to spend a lot of time doing that. Although tonight I have to go get a dress for my brother's wedding on Saturday, I am pretty much just going home every night and doing homework. Last night Clint came over and I made some crab legs I bought for only $7.50 a lbs. Usually around here crab is like 13.00 a lb, so I was excited to buy some. I am sure he enjoyed that since he usually just goes home and eats pasta or something else. He likes to cook but doesn't have a lot of time or energy (he has a four year old). Anyway we played cards and laughed a lot then when he laughed I did a bit more homework. It was a good night. I still missed Wyatt though. But my new boyfriend slept with me. His name is Piston and he's my cat. LOL. Anyway, loves to you guys. Hope things are going okay. I think I will email Candela (Candice) and see what she's up to. Kind of weird that she hasn't checked in for so long. Shan

Hey guys-

I am pretty depressed today. It totally sucks. I just need to hang in there until Monday when I get to go to Arizona. I am so excited!!!! Anyway, I talked to Wyatt a little bit this morning. I really want him to come over and see me but I know that's a bad idea so it's not going to happen. I am going to go from work to my mom's to do laundry and homework. At least that way I will be a bit distracted. Anyway, talk to you later. Shan

Hi ladies,

Shantelle - DO NOT GET WYATT OVER!! I know it would make things easier, but it will just string things out.

Hi Trish.

Sorry I haven't written. Been very busy with work, but I have been taking to some friends who have been having trouble with guys lately. What is with these guys? They are stupid.

If you guys want to email you should, because I can always track you down on whatever board you are on here. I'll just talk to you there. I've seen you on the boards all over this site Trisha.

Sorry have been away so long. Will probably be away again for a while. Take care. See ya.

Hey
I am so sorry I have been so busy. Work is very busy I have formatted and printed with copyright.......17 readings since last Tuesday. You have no Idea what Iam talking about but its alot and I still have more coming. My boss doesnt know that I am done.....LOL so he thinks I dont have time yet for the others. I need a break.


I hope you are having /had a great time in Arizona. I know its hard to let someone you care about GO but he wasnt doing anything for you. I mean he wasnt making you happy. Just hang out you dont always have to have a boyfriend.....just date ( be a "ho") its so much more fun. Atleast until you are truely ready.

I had some of my own drama this past week. My 6yr old wrote "ass" on the board at his youth school and one of my husbands friends kids saw him do it and told their mom about it. NOW the probably I have with it is ass is not bad but a 6yr old shouldnt be writing it BUT for this ***** to go to my husband and not me and not know what my business is about. My Dh doesnt beat my son but he is very hard on him,for good though. She doesnt know what he was gonna do. Anyway I got mad at my dh cuz my son is still my baby and he was too hard on him and my son was sick. PLUS this ***** that said something is always talking to my DH ( shes married with 7 kids) and anything she says is like GOLD. I said something and my dh didnt agreee then not even a week later she said the same thing and POW now its like OK
So when he said her kids told her and she told my DH I was PISSED!!!
Anyway I went to her house acted stupid and after 3 days of lying my son then tells the truth about writing it on the board after I almost got divorced:c( . So now my son has NO tv,vcr,video games,toys and he is restricted to his room with school work and books only. UNTIL September when we go home. I think I have gained 5lbs and I started smoking again. Well not really but I have smoked 2 packs since last Wednesday. I am so stupid I am mad at him I should have made him eat & smoke!!!!! ( he doesnt smoke and he is to muscular to care about FAT)

So whats up?
Kim its great to see you in here.
I will talk to you soon.
Trish

Hey where ya at all? :D
I am still busy busy busy with work and all but I had a minute.
Talk to you soon

Hey-

Sorry, my new job we can only use internet on our breaks so I haven't had time. It's either eat or write! Anyway, I am here. That's insane about your son writing that. As for the girl who told your hubby, the last time some my husband listened to some other girl instead of me he was cheating with her. Not that your man is cheating, just that you may want to put him in check if he's acting that way. Be careful sweetie. I know it can be frustrating. As for me, I am super stressed out. I am trying to get done with school but I have reached a point where I need to decide what I am going to do and not take any more classes until I do. It's sooo hard because they don't have any classes at night anymore that I can take unless I change my major to business and I don't really want to do that. ARGH!!! Anyway, I am trying to decide whether I want to teach or not. It's hard because I need to work and it would take a MAJOR lifestyle change for me to not have to work. I always do this, I get a job, decide to go back to school, need money and then decide to get a job and start the whole thing again. What should I do? I am thinking I will save up a lot of money by working here then in a semester or two go back to school and live off of that money. What do you think?

Hey ladies-

How are things? I decided to just register for some fun classes until I decide about my major. I am taking: Spanish, Intro to Film, Weightlifting, and Forensics! Cool huh!

Shantelle

Hey guys-

Well things here are starting to calm down a bit. I have decided to start dating again. I am REALLY nervous about it. Last time it seemed like all the guys just wanted to sleep with me and I am not like that so it's frustrating. I spoke with Jefferey and he wants me to go down to Florida and visit him. It was my idea but he seems like he wants it to be more than a social visit if you know what I mean. I personally wouldn't mind a little booty call down in Florida as long as he pays for me to fly out there!!! J/K Anyway, I am thinking I will get a membership to the gym down the street so that I can meet some people. I have just been going down to the school to work out since it's free but they don't have a pool and they don't have all the free classes. This gym in 24 hours a day too so I can go late at night and swim (which usually puts me to sleep when I get home) or I can go early before work. Well, hope you guys are doing okay. Check in when you can! Shan

Hey girls-

Well I went on a date with an old friend from high school on Saturday. It was really fun! I also called this guy I used to chat with a lot and he and I seem to hit it off. I am not sure if we are going to go out or not though, there wasn't a lot of chemistry in the conversation although how much can you really tell by phone? We will see I guess. I started emailing people off of Yahoo personals and I have had a lot of responses! Talk to you guys later! Shan

Wow you "sound" really happy!!!! :D
Be careful of those online chats with men.....I did hook up with a couple nice guys though (back in the day) I still keep in touch with one of them. JUST be careful.
Thngs are going good again around here. Work is too damn busy though. I have so many readings to work on I hate these politcal people around here too. Oh well the pay is great!!!
ONE month and I will be home for 4 weeks. I cant wait. American shopping and eating YES!!!
I just wanted to check in Miss ya guys
Shan I will email you soon
Love ya
Trish

Hey-

That's so exciting that you are coming home soon! You are right I am happy. I went and met this one guy last night. He's in the army and just got home from Iraq. I went to the high school where his aunt teaches so I know he's cool. He was so cute! We are going to go out again this week or next. He was really polite and there was definite chemistry! He's totally my type too! Anyway, write to me later.

Wow I miss my single days......but I do enjoy being married too.
So if he just got home from Iraq is he stationed where you are or just visiting? JUST curious cause if he is leaving......... I meet my husband NOV 8th he told me later that he was getting stationed in Germany. I thought "cool' we can just hang out til he leaves. Guess what I am in Germany. LOL we got married Jan 4th. Yep 2 months later. its hard but I do love him. I never thought I would ever move away from home especially with a military man. I wish you lots of luck and happiness though....u deserve it!!

Hey-

Well I've been out with three different guys now. It's been so fun! But I kind of hate it. I just want to be married or in a relationship again! Dating is such a hassle. Anyway, school is almost over and I leave for Yellowstone tomorrow. It's going to be so fun! I only get to go for the night and then two nights next weekend, but it's better than nothing. There is another guy I am interested in and I am planning on talking to him next week a bit. Sterling (the army guy) will be back in town and we are going to go do something. He is really sweet. The other two guys I went out with both wanted to sleep with me right away and I am not sure how I feel about that. I have been feeling fat lately though so it's nice to be wanted in spite of that. I made it very clear before going out with them that I don't sleep around but they must not have heard me or something because it didn't stop them from trying! Argh... it makes me want to just find a good mormon boy so that I don't have to worry about it. Only problem with that is that I have to become a good mormon girl to match them! (Not so easy...) Anyway, love you guys! Shan

Hey SHAN
You sound like you are having a GREAT time though 3 guys at once.....OH I remember the days. Yea dont give in to sex so quickly,unless of course you want it. :o
Girlk stay single awhile and have fun..... I love my DH but I think its nice having "breaks" too. He left yesterday for New Orleans I will meet him in NC Sept 9th. I dont have to come back here til Oct 4th I am so stoked!!!!
Email me when you have time.....
Take Care
Trish

Whatever I'm insane... nevermind about the whole thing.

I couldnt find our thread............Im posting this hoping it works :tomato:

Ok so it worked WOOOOOHOOOO

So whats up with you girlie girl?
SO are you dating or back with????? damn whats his name?
How is school? Where is everyone else?

I just got back fro vacation and man did I shop...........oh and I ate. Im still upset cause I didnt make it to the olive garden OH well I will be back in the states in May.
Im not gonna write to much wanna see if you are still around......plus my (fake)nails are so long its difficult for me to type
Miss ya

Hey-

So yeah Wyatt and I are back together. It's actually going REALLY well. I am really happy. We are planning on getting married. I worked things out with my life so that I can be happy now and it feels really good. He bought me a ring, although he hasn't officially proposed yet. He is planning to in the next week I think. I have missed you tons! I have just been waiting for a response to post because I didn't want to just write to nobody. So how was your trip? Are you sad you have to go back? How long do you think he will be stationed in Germany anyway? Why are you coming back for May? things are pretty crazy here. School and work are pretty much killing me. I work at 6 in the morning until 11 Monday and Fridays and then go to school till 5. Then I work 6-4 on Tueday and all day Saturday and Sunday. It's so hard on me. But after we get married I will only have to work part time so that will be good. Well, I better get back to work. Talk to you soon! Shan

P.S. I always just subscribe to the thread and go through my user CP to find this.

Hey I missed you tons too..........
Im am so glad you and Wyatt are doing well. You "sound" very happy.
I am happy to be back in Germany BUT I do miss the states shopping and customer service. I think Germany will be better now cause I will get out alittle more and try to shop in Munich Its just so expensive. We will be in Germany until 2006 summer and then hopefully stay in Germany but to another post after that. I love it here MONEY is great and I feel so safe. The schools are excellent for my son.
Speaking of school in January I will start up some college classes. My first one is going to be basic Russian. I deal with it everyday at work so why not get credit for it, and have work pay for it .....Its a difficult language yuck.
Im going to Texas in May because my niece Graduates from high school. I will only be there 4 days BUT I will shop.
I hope you dont wear yourself out with work and school..........take it easy let that man help you out too :)
work really sucks right now The only good thing is the guy I hate is leaving after only being here 6 months LOL I guess he hates me alot. Stupid ass!!! Now my other co worker is gonna be gone too......that leaves me and my NON working boss ****............oh well Im a GS 6 and the other positions out grade me so they can do the work I have to do nothing more than whats on my job discription.....I will keep you updated on that.
My housing issue is getting nowhere..............NOT sure if I told you but the woman upstairs is a ***** and then acts innocent well I am trying to move JUST one stairwell over and they say I cant cause then everyone will want to move if they hjave a bad neighbor she is not a "bad" nieghbor the woman is crazy!!!!
I will have to call you sometime just to GET us updated on each other............I got my nails done in the states and they are way to long so its so hard to type LOL
I will tyalk to you soon
LOVE YA
Trish

I'M A TEN! I'M A TEN!!! I'M A FREAKING SIZE TEN! This is so huge. I have had these jeans for like three months and they fit!! I haven't been a ten for like 6 years and I am soooooo excited!!! Anyway, will write more later I have to get to class. Talk to you soon!
Shan

*note* By huge, I mean it's awesome and fabulous and important, not a huge size. For me, that's tiny.

Great job girlie girl!!!!!!
I wish I could say that !!!! me and my Jennifer Lopez ass! :c(
All my new jeans are 11/12's But always big on my waste so I must wear a belt so they dont look so dumb on me.

hey check out some of my pics when you have time
http://community.webshots.com/photo/193602744/193611037KFltYQ
http://community.webshots.com/photo/193602744/193611961YxbOsg
The rest are pretty ICKY!! But its me lol
I have so much work to do I have had no motivation to do any of it and its Thursday already so yesterday about 4pm I started to get busy so I will talk to you tomarrow!!!

Again good going on the 10..........oh and it is a HUGE deal good job :D

Hey-

Cute pictures! Did Deyton have so much fun? I got my ring last night. I am not allowed to wear it yet because he is planning an official proposal this week and we are going to do something special. I am not sure what he has planned, but I am excited. He is going to let me wear it today to a friend's dinner party, since they are all dying to see it, but then I have to give it back. Anyway, things are going pretty well. I did flowers for a wedding yesterday and the bride's mom was a total psycho *****. I dropped the flowers off the day before and told the groom's mom that I would be back two hours before the wedding to put ribbon on the flowers, since they were in water and I didn't want to ruin the ribbon. She neglected to tell this to the bride's mom, who called me at 8 the next morning saying there was an "emergency" and that they didn't have the corsage pins or and ribbon on the flowers. I didn't get the message until 11 am and when I called her back she told me she had hired another florist to redo all the boutonnieres and corsages! Because of pins and ribbon!!! She told me she had paid 150 dollars and asked me to refund her that amount. NO WAY! I was planning to come and put on the ribbon and it's not my fault if no one told her and she didn't bother to ask. Anyway so I went and did what I said I was going to do and the bride LOVED everything so that's what matters. I told the bride to make sure her mom knew that she liked her flowers so I don't have her calling me wanting her money back. What a cow. Well, I best get back to work!

Hey
Deyton had a blast...................see the pics of his birthday party?

WOW you got your ring HOW cool is that? I am so happy for you and glad things are going well.

Thats a ***** about the wedding flowers...........atleast the bride loved it and thats all that matters.

Did you have a good 3day? I just relaxed most of it I got in a couple bike rides BUT man its so cold. Cleaned my house and BBQed BUt thats about it.
I watched Fahrenheit 911 MAN I hate having to vote!!! BUT I wont go there HAve you seen it? If not you should. Alot of Bush supporters refuse to watch it BUT Look into it. My husband is army so the whole IRAQ thing Really worries me.
Its back to work today short week though so Im happy. 9 more working days and my ****ty co worker is out of here WWOOOOHHOOOO!!!

Loves
Trish

Hey-

No 3 day in the states except for post offices, government offices and banks. So you're lucky you're military! I got a call from the groom's dad from the wedding (my roomate's dad) and he apologized for the whole wedding fiasco. Anyway, so it all worked out. I am not a Bush supported. I'm a liberal but I'm conservative on a lot of issues. I don't believe in a lot of things people do, but I don't think the government should regulate it. There is a HUGE Michael Moore thing going on at my school. It's been all over the news lately. You should look it up. I go to UVSC, or Utah Valley State College. He's coming here to speak and there's a huge controversy. It's actually quite annoying. I'm so sick of it! I did have a good weekend though. I worked every day, but that's okay with me. Well, I best get back to not working. Talk to you soon!

Shan

Sorry to hear you didnt have 3 days off................I guess with work and school....BUT you need a break too :c(
So has Wyatt made it official YET? Is anyone gonna be there to take pictures? I want to see pictures LOL.
Im glad the wedding thing was set straight ......people can be such asses!!!
Its almost 9:30 and I can not wake up...........GGGRRRR I went to bed at 9pm and got up at 7am BUT I feel so tired. My office is going to ****!!! I just take alot of breaks I dont care anymore Trish has a ****ty attitude these days!!!!

Well I should go think of someone to visit LOL get out of here for while.
Take care
Trish

:c( where ya at girl?

Hey-

Sorry it's been a crazy week already. He proposed! It was the sweetest thing! I brought my camera with me and we had someone take a couple pictures of us. I will put them up once they get developed (No digital camera for this girl yet.) He is the sweetest guy ever!! I randomly mentioned that my mom had always promised to take me and my sister on this train that runs through the canyon. It's a historic railroad with a steam engine and everything. Well, we never went and they closed the railroad until recently when someone bought it and started running trips each day. I saw a sign on the freeway as we were driving like MONTHS ago and he remembered and booked a trip for us. It was an hour and a half ride through the mountains with a break at a park and then the return trip back to Heber, UT. When we got to the park, we were walking around the river and I spotted a nice bench with a pretty view so we went over and I started taking pictures. He asked me to sit down and he came around and got down on one knee! Even though I knew he was going to propose officially that day I got all choked up anyway, and of course I said yes. He surprised me and that's not something people do easily. After that I said I wanted to collect some leaves for my scrapbook to remind me of the day (yeah I know, it's so cheesy) so we had fun trying to catch the ones falling off of the trees. It was a great day! Well, I best get to work. Love ya! Shan

Thats so SWEET :D
And romantic. I am so glad that you both are doing so well.
The train ride sounds cool and relaxing. Collecting leaves is not cheesy. Over the weekend I put MORE wedding photos in our album...I swear I find them everywhere. I should scan a couple and let you see my dress. I sold it But I made aHUGE profit.
I want to see your pictures. Its nice you hyad your camera.
My friend and I took some crazy pictures over the weekend Ill show ya some and you can also go to my webshots to see more. Actually I think I sent them to you via email (yahoo) :shrug:
I really have to work today............I dont want to BUT since I have been back from vaykay I really havent done much.....I have BUT I really could be doing more.
I am going to take my assesment test today so I can get enrolled in the English and Russian courses. I am so excited. I will let you know how it goes.
Hope you had a GREAT weekend welcome to Monday LOL

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Hey just checking in to say hi............went to my counslor this morning to talk about my housing issue and she pretty much told me to GET OVER IT!!! well I walked out of her office. **** that!!! X-(
I feel better now...........I took my placement test for school. WOW I have been out of school 14yrs and I didnt realize how much stuff I remembered and FORGOT lol. BUT I did ok I am waiting to take a Russian class in Jan. Then I will take another class after that. Its all online so One class at a time for now. Hey anything is better than nothing.
I hope you are not to busy.............. If your not busy this weekend EMAIL me and maybe I can call you...... its so much better than typing.
I wanna know all the details of your engagement. :D
Talk to you soon
Trish

Hey! I PM'd you my phone number so give me a call. I will be home this evening and also Saturday morning so you can call me then. Here is a link to the dress I am thinking about buying: http://www.marysbridal.com/bridal/6163.htm

It's on ebay and I may get it for a couple of hundred dollars. I got your pictures in the email! They are sooo cute! It looks like you guys had fun. I like your hair darker it's very cute!!

P.S. That sucks about your counselor! what's up with that?

Hey,
First .....that dress is beautiful.........hope you get a deal on it.
Im sorry I didnt call you over the weekend, I can not access DT from home. I dont know my password LOL. I wrote it down somaybe I can call you thursday or on the weekend....let me know whats best for you.
I got my WELLBUTRIN in the mail Friday.... I started taking them on Sunday so I hope the hurry up and take affect. I havent noticed anything yet, except this morning my cig didnt taste so good :) yea thats what is suppose to happen. I guess they are for depression so maybe I will feel better too.
This weekend wasnt MUCH I did go for bike rides both Sat and Sun it was very warm here. Today looks like it will be nice again. I am off the gym tonight. I have to get back into it.
I was suppose to start getting up at 6am and doing richards simmons BUT my dh didnt wake me up again...................I got up at 6:40 GRRRR I have no time to do it that late. He said he thought I went to bed late lastnight so thats why he didnt wake me. So I will try again tomarrow.
Well I hope you had a nice weekend and have a great week. Take care and talk to you soon.
Trish

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You are lucky the weather has been nice. It's been raining her for a week straight. We need the water though since we have been in a drought for the last 6 years. Wyatt's all mad though because his car is leaking. He had a sunroof that came installed in his car but it was custom so they did a crappy job putting it in. I'm sick of the rain. Normally I like it but I get so tired of freezing when I leave at 5:30 in the morning. Right now I am trying to find a bridesmaid dress for my maid of honor. It's tough because she's like a size 20 so anything I find for her is either a tent or really expensive. And she doesn't look good or like the empire style waist, so she doesn't like any of the dresses you find for cheap. I want to save her some money though because I found dresses for everyone else on clearance at Dillards for 20 bucks!!! They are really cute but I don't think my friend Julie will fit in the size I got for her. It was the only one they had though so I bought it anyway just in case they ran out of them. I am not sure about the color though. Two more days and I find out if I won my dress! Then I can see if the color of the dresses matches well enough. Anyway, today at work is sooooo slow! Talk to you later. call me anytime, I should be home after 5 o'clock my time, which is Mountain Standard Time. I guess it's like 8 hours ahead of you. It's nine here your time, so I think it's Five pm where you are? Loves, Shan

Hey...................
I hope you get the DRESS I have my fingers crossed for you.
It rained!!! BUT its sunny again today. It seems like it only rains at night.
I am really busy at work BUT I am scanning a 94 page document so I thought while that was working I would check in. Got up again this morning and did my Richard Simmons.....This wellbutrin is not letting me sleep kinda sucks BUT atleast I am up at 5:30-5:45am. So far today I have had a banana and a diet coke I have an apple sitting here but I havent had time to eat it. I am going to do another wok out tape tonight skipping the gym DH is TDY so I am just gonna go home.I have a ton of laundry to put away PLUS the bachelor is on tonight.

Talk to ya soon
Trish

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I won my dress!!! WOOHOO! I got it for 182 dollars! It's like 700 brand new! I saved a ton of money and I get to look like a princess on my wedding day! I'm so excited. I am still having trouble finding a bridesmaid dress for Julie. Grrr. I may have to change my colors to find her something. Maybe I can find something. I called over to where I bought the dresses originally and they were supposed to call the other stores to see if they had more. Instead, they left me on hold for like 20 minutes. I was at work so I finally got fed up and hung up on them. Grrr. I guess I will have to call around myself.

YEA!!!! grats on the dress. Thats how I felt.Gottshalks was having a huge sale on wedding dresses. Mine was regular $999.00 and I got it for $110.00 it had a very very small tear in the lace so I got additional percentage off. It was similiar to yours BUT no sleeves it had all these little pearls an diamonds pink and white and also the scarf......I sold it for $250.00. could have got more but I still made a profit. Ill try to scan a picture for you. And you WILL feel like a princess for sure.
I hope you find a dress for JULIE that really sucks and I hate BAD customer service lol. What are your colors? ANd she is your maid of homor right? she can have a different color than the brides maids.........I only had a maid of honor no brides maids....my husband didnt have enough friends/ family in Washington to have grooms men :( My newphew was his best man......but it was still cool.
I am so tired DH was gone lastnight TDY and I couldnt sleep until 1am PLUS the last few nights I havent slept well cause of the damn WELLBUTRIN then I get up early to do my exercise....GGRR today I was late oh well its friday I can sleep tomarrow. OH Saturday can I call you? Whats a good time? I am 7hours ahead of you. Well talk to you soon.
Trish :)

Hey Kiddo! Sorry i didn't respond sooner! This weekend was a pretty busy one. We played poker on Friday night and it was SOOOOO fun! We all got crazy and laughed so hard! We were loud and obnoxious but had a good time. Anyway, work today was pretty crappy but I managed to survive. Julie isn't my maid of honor, but her dress FIT!!!! WOOHOO! So now I just have to find one for Jen, who is my maid of honor. I found a dress on ebay that looks a lot like the ones I got for everyone else but in the color I want Jen to wear. I'm going to watch it and see if we can get it for a good price. I'm excited since it looks so much like the others. The girls are wearing a taupe/gold color (it's not super flashy, more antique gold) and Jen is wearing Navy blue. So our colors are Ivory, Gold, Navy Blue and the pink/gold color on my dress. Wyatt and I got in a stupid fight and then another one today. I hate it when we fight and so does he but we seem to get into these stupid arguments. We both regret it after but in the heat of the moment it's like we have no control. I really hate that. He says he can't talk to me because I "always have to be right". I don't want him to feel that way, but I am pretty good at arguing my point so I can see why does. Oh well. I guess we will just have to work on it. Anyway, I'm up for another two hours so if you want to give me a call before you leave this morning I'll be here. I think it's like 6 am where you are? It's 10 pm here so call me if you get this! HAPPY HALLOWEEN! How was your Halloween? I guess since it's already tomorrow there it's not Halloween anymore.

Hey,
I just go to work ...............I so could have called you this morning BUT I dont check DT until I get to work. I got up this morning and did my RS workout...... Had a bad weekend CANDY...I am just a junk food junkie. BUT its a new day and a new month so I am gonna try again.....**** I have been at this since MARCH and I weigh more now than I did then???????????
BUT I havent smoked either so....FAT or cancer? lol

I thought Julie was your maid of honor I read wong Jen is......I hope you get the dress on ebay that would be nice. OH and I have been married for 2 yrs and we still get in STUPID little fights..Just got in ne this morning, BUT I think my DH just needs to get layed :o Swear its been like a month. Im tired he is tired or its TOM anyway maybe I will give him some tonight LOL..I just hate seeing myself naked so I dont want him to see it or FEEL it!!!
I have been watching Celebrity poker and it looks fun I cocktailed a long time in a casino and I still never understood it BUT I am learning.
Deyton had a good time trick or treating he made out pretty good.....it was all I could do this morning NOT to eat any. BUT I have to be good. New years eve is coming up QUICK!! Did I tell you we are gonna go somewhere................Spain or Greece. Now my DH is saying maybe Scotland. I guess they have a huge party there. All I know is I want to look good.
I did my friends nails on Saturday night they turned out so good. I was mad cause I cant do mine that good. But I am getting Better its just hard cause I am right handes so I cant do my right hand with my left.
Went to the gym yesterday and worked on the elliptical for 35 minutes then went tanning did some running around (shopping) and then it was time to trick or treat. The weekend went by FAST.
I will talk to you soon
Trish

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Yes the weekend went by way to fast. We didn't have school on Thursday or Friday but I had to work anyway so it wasn't really that different. This week I have a major test and a paper due. I got my big paper done I'm just scared now to get it back. I am sure that my teacher will put lots of red marks all over it. At least I'll have some things to work on. I hate feeling like I don't have enough time. It's so tiring. Registration for next semester has started so I am going to try to get a better schedule. Things aren't looking too promising right now. There are some classes I need that are only available on Tuesday and Thursday and I always try to keep things on M,W,F. Oh well. I have to decide this week whether to do History or English. I really don't like the history stuff I have to do, but I will have better job prospects if I do it instead of English. If only I spoke another language, then I could teach English in a foreign country. Do you speak German?

Hey
Sorry to hear you so troubled about classes. Everything will work out. And I am sure you will have done good on your paper. History is more interesting to me I hate PROPER speaking and english....maybe cause I am a little GHETTO :o I try though.lol
I dont speak German BUT I do understand alittle. I know some words BUT when I say them I know I am not saying them right so I dont speak it much. Did I tell you I am taking a Russian course in January? I cant wait. Most of the students here are Russian so it would be kinda cool to understand them Right now all I can say is HI and Thank you in Russian LOL
My best friends brother didnt speak chinese and he taught English in China for a year.....if its something you want to do CHECK more into it. I can also ask him what he had to do to be able to do it. How would Wyatt feel about going to another country? Oh I am dumb ...maybe you want to teach it to NON english speaking people in the States lol. I dont know anyway.
man I filled my nails last night and today i cant type whats up with that......back space back space lol
Have a great day

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Unfortunately I do a lot more writing in History than I ever did in English. And my teachers are PICKY about my spelling and grammar. Also, I had to learn a new way to format my papers that is ONLY used in the History department. Oye. My dress is shipped and on it's way here. I'm so excited!!! I'm going to take it to this store in the mall that sells bridal stuff so I can try it on with the veils and things they have there. We got our pictures back and they turned out great!!! I'm so excited to scrapbook them. First I will try to scan them so you can see them. I don't have my scanner hooked up right now so I will need to go out to my mom's to do it. She's in Vegas right now so I need to visit my dad anyway. He doesn't really eat a lot when she's away. He seems so helpless sometimes I swear! Well, I am going to get benefits at my job starting in December!!!!! I'm so excited!! I have all kinds of dental I need to do so I am going to get my wisdom teeth out, and get some fillings, and put braces on in the Spring after the wedding. My insurance doesn't cover braces, but I really want them. I'm tired of having these crooked teeth. My parents couldn't afford to send me to a dentist so I am DEFINITELY going to get it done. I'll just use some of my financial aid in the Spring. Anyway, things are looking up. I can't wait for my dress to get here!!! Also, I get a free gym membership again with this job so Wyatt and I are going to start swimming. He's tired of being overweight and I want him to be healthy and he REALLY likes to swim, so I know he will do it. Well, ciao darling!

I GOT MY DRESS! That's the good news. The bad news is we decided to postpone the wedding by two months. I am way stressed about money so I talked to him about it and we have decided to do it in March. It just doesn't make sense to make ourselves miserable for a wedding. My phone bill is like 2 months behind and he is really close to paying off his car so we are thinking we should get all that taken care of first. Also, the jeweler screwed up on our account so we have to come up with 700 dollars by December 28th. I really don't know how we are going to swing that. We cancelled the date at the place we were having the reception so I will get 300 dollars back for that. I can use that toward my ring or phone bill so it's a stress reliever. In January we are getting some financial aid that we were going to use in the wedding but in March we are getting even more, so if we get married then we will have a lot more money to play with. Anyway, so I am feeling much better. Well, two more hours of my shift left and I get to go home. I have a ton of homework to do tonight, so I'm not exactly thrilled to be going home. Oh well, talk to you later! Shan

So how does your dress look................on you? I know you have tried it on right? Every little girls dream lol. Its best to wait and not be streesed. I had to hurry mine along (moving to Germany) it was still nice BUT yes it is stressful. LOL I was so tired I dint even have sex on my wedding night:o BUT the next morning was a different story:D . Just take it slow and everything will work out perfectly. Since you already have your own place are you guys gonna register somewhere? Or do you guys just want money LOl a money tree is a great thing. We got over $500.00 just in money not to mention all the gifts and I didnt have alot of people at my wedding.

I oredered power90 yesterday. My friend has it and swears by it so ........I am gonna try ........:shrug: as I sit here and eat this German dish of ......kinda like mac and cheese with grilled onions BUT so much BETTER....
So glad its Friday I called out sick on Wednesday and then we had yesterday off so I shouldnt be complaining BUT my job is suck'en right now. OH and I didnt get the other position in my office (GS 6-7) BUT I am an alternate. The guy my boss wants to hire speaks Russian. GGGRRR I am glad in away to have a Russian speaking person in the office BUT I also wanted that position cause its what I do now and I dont want to have to train someone that makes more money than me8-| BUT I will live I should just be thankful to have my GS6 and be able to do what I do and get paid....especially with nothing but a HIGH SCHOOL diploma.BUT still:shrug:
Oh I got FUNGUS!!! on my nail. I have never had it! Its not to bad BUt now I am without nails. I bought fungus treatment stuff so hopefully I will be able to do my nails Sunday. I hate these stubby things LOL.
I have a hair appt tomarrow.....not sure what I am gonna do. The brown is ok BUT I also miss my Blonde....I think I am just gonna get CHUNKY highlights we will see.
Tonight my sons friend is staying the night so thats gonna be fun .....sigh........he is excited though.
I should get busy on my work....and I need a coke!!! BAD BAD girl.
Talk to ya soon
Trish

Hey! Yes, I tried on the dress. It looks really good. It wasn't breathtaking because I was just in my little room and it's not as grand as trying things on in the store. My maids and I are going to get together and take my dress into a bridal shop so I can try it on with veils and things. I met with this great wedding planner this week who says I can do some wedding flowers for her towards my wedding costs! I am thinking I am only going to use her for the decorations and the catering. We have pretty much decided on a menu. It will be kalhua pork, salad, vegetables and dip, bread, fresh fruit and sparkling cider. Sounds good huh? And it's only like 7.00 a person. That's like half what everyone else charges around here! We decided to change our date to February 26th. It's a little sad but also we will have more time and money to plan things. We did cancel the grand ballroom we had booked but after talking to the wedding planner last night it just makes so much sense to have it there. We wouldn't have to decorate hardly at all because the natural building is so beautiful! It's this old building that has been restored by the city and made into a library. It reminds me of the mansions you see in scary movies, it's not scary, just REALLY big. It would be the ideal place to have our "ball". Anyway, so I am actually thinking that we will just suck it up and do it there, even though it's like 4 times more money than anywhere else. My parents and his offered to put the price of the place on their credit cards and we can just pay it back, so it won't really cut into our budget at all! But, in the meantime, we have to pay 300 dollars for the deposit and I REALLY need the money. oh well. I am going to look at one other place today and if it's nice we may do it there instead. Grrr. So much stress. I am going to meet his mom in Michigan during Thanksgiving so that should be interesting. Sorry to hear about your fungus! that sucks. That's good you are GS-6! Around here it's hard to get anything over 4. My maid of honor is an army recruiter and I think she's only like a GS-3.

Hey girl! Where are you? This week has been interesting so far. I got a mass mailer worm on my student email (remember when I emailed you and said viruses use people's address books to steal addresses?). I kept getting 300 emails every two hours. Sheesh. It was interesting. But it's gone now. I am excited to go to Michigan on Tuesday!!! WOOHOO! It should be fun. I got some money stuff figured out so now I am much less stressed. I changed my major to Criminal Justice. I don't think I want to be a teacher and I do want to go to law school so I figured I may as well take something interesting in school. Well, I have a lot of studying to do so I will talk to you later!

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I got your email but I can't get to Yahoo from work so I am writing back here. How's it going? I am leaving for Michigan tomorrow and I am so excited!!!! I hope you have a happy Thanksgiving! I probably won't be online for a week until I get back. See you soon!

Okay so Michigan was boring. We didn't do anything. We didn't go anywhere. We did drive out to Hell, Michigan and I got a shotglass. That was fun, we used to joke about Hell Michigan when we were kids. Other than that, we did nothing. We played some Poker and I won a lot. We didn't have to spend any money cause we just used our winnings to pay for stuff. Other than that, it was boring. My mother in law is cool, although she and her husband smoke pot and I have serious issues with drug users. Oh well. His sisters are great though. They are so cute. Wyatt and I had our one year anniversary yesterday so that was cool. We had a nice dinner and watched TV and did homework. We have finals next week so we don't get to play a lot. I have a 12 page paper due on Monday so that should be fun. It's on the KGB and I don't speak Russian so it's tough to find good sources. I am so looking forward to next semester. My classes are going to be a lot more interesting. I am taking Criminal Justice. I am excited!! Well, I'm done talking to myself now! BYE!

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Sorry I missed you the other night. I got home at 4 o'clock and you had called at 3.
=( My dad got put in the hospital the other night for his heart. He's never had any problems before this. We were pretty freaked out. He's at home today though so we are really relieved. Tonight is my company party so I won't be home until about 11 o'clock but you can call me if you want. I'm excited, it's going to be a fun party tonight. We are having prime rib and there is going to be a hypnotist show. We have to dress up for it and stuff so that will be fun! I got a new outfit to wear. I've been gaining weight I think, I feel fatter. Trying on clothes at the mall the other day I was pretty depressed. But we are starting to swim everyday so that will help. Damn holidays. Oh well. Talk to you later kiddo!!!

Hey Girlie,
I hope your dadis doing better..that is really scary.
I am glad I checked in here cause I havent recieved any emails saying you posted..................... :c( Man I wish I would have called you back alittle later I was up late that night tooo!!!
We have graduation for the students (other country military) today so I got to "dress up" lol I am not going to my Xmas party....to stuffy!! I wish I worked somewhere COOL!! Oh well I sure hope you have/had fun.
I started POWER 90 on the 2nd December and Girl its only been a week BUT people notice :D I am back down to 162 I got up to 166 there for awhile OUCH!! I am feeling it though. Its fun But its a hard work out 6 days aweek BUT its only 30 minutes so its so worth it I spent more time then that at the gym now I DONT go to the gym I do it at home...and I like it. I wish I had a swimming pool.....there are tons of swimming pools around here BUT its like 6euro for acouple hours I will pay 6 Euro for all day. The euro RATE sucks right now too!!!
So how is the wedding plans coming along? Have you gone to the wedding store and tried it on with vails and stuff?
R u going to be home Saturday evening? If so I will call you then.
I have to get ready for this Graduation. I have been here 50minutes and havent done anything BUT emails LOL
Talk to ya soon
Trish

Hey!

I didn't get an email saying you had replied. The thingie must not be working right. I will be home tonight if you want to call. The later the better though cause I have a ton of homework. It's finals next week so I have a lot to do. That's so exciting about your new workout!!! I'm so proud of you! I still haven't went to get my rec center pass yet. I will soon though. I haven't went to try on veils yet either. I think I will do it later this week once school is out. I am so glad I have a couple of weeks off!! It's suck a relief. Things with school have been way too stressful. I haven't done any wedding planning. I need to get some money so I can book some people to work for me. Mostly I need it to be here!!! I'm tired of waiting. Wyatt got a new job but he hates it. I hate it too. I interviewed for a job in the same place and it totally sucks! So I am going to stay in the same job for a bit. Call me tonight if you have time!! Leave your number this time and I can probably call you back. Cheers, Shan

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Sorry I missed you last night. I got held up at work for an extra hour. It's so frustrated when that happens. All in all I worked 11 hours yesterday. Then as I was driving home, I saw the girl David had an affair with. So nonetheless, it wasn't a great day. Today is going much better though! It's like 60 degrees here and I cleaned my apartment up and and we had lunch outside. It was glorious! We also went grocery shopping and got some things with our last 20 bucks. We were major bargain shoppers!!! I get paid on Friday so we just have to survive until then. I think we can do it. We ran out of gas today, and this nice lady stopped and took us to a gas station. It amazes me when people do nice things like that. In Utah it's pretty typical. People are very trusting here. Anyway, I better get back to work. Ciao, Shan

Hey .............
WOW sorry you had a ****ty day.........BUT ya know it makes you think about stuff and you have to JUST deal. Oh and about the Girl that David sheated with .......just smile at her. Girl you are getting amrried to Wyatt.............who by the way sounded completely SWEET on the phone. LOL I was so nervous when he answered.. I dont know why. I wish you would have been there :c( BUT next time...I know you are busy. I had a jewelry Party on Saturday and out of about 15 people "Ill be there" 2 showed GGRRR and one of the 2 came after the lady was gone LOL Oh well bad timing I guess so I am gonna try it again after the holidays and I am gonna make it on a weekday.
All the studants from here graduated on Friday so I am pretty relaxed this MOnday morning.....I need to go copy some things BUT I am so lazy.
My Power90 is going well I didnt do it on Saturday... I went to a birthday party and then came home to clean then had my "party" lol Yesterday I did the curcuit and this morning my DH didnt wake me so I will do cardio tonight. I can tell the difference I cant wait to take pistures before/after.
Well I dont have much else going on so I will talk to you soon
Take care :deer:
Trish

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Jewlry party? COOL! I love those type of things. What kind of stuff do you have? Maybe I will buy some. I'm glad you thought Wyatt sounded sweet. He really is. I don't know why I can't get over the whole Dave thing. I mean it's not like I think about it all day long. It just pops up occasionally in my mind. I was a little depressed last night. I pulled out all the Dave-related stuff from my scrapbook and made it into a seperate one, so that sort of helped. It let me seperate myself from it, and now I can start scrapbooking my new pictures. We had some Christmas pictures taken the other day on my mom's digital camera, so she is email me those and I will send you some. They turned out really cute. Work is so slow this week. I am glad though because I have a final tomorrow. I took my test for geography yesterday and I am pretty sure I aced it. I'm so relieved! This other test I am taking tomorrow is going to be tough. But I don't need the class for graduation so I don't care if I fail. I know that sounds awful, but the teacher is such a beast. So we should get this time zone thing figured out so I can plan to be home exactly when you call. I'll be home tonight studying if you have time, and also tomorrow is my day off so you can call me in the morning, and you should be home from work by then right? If you call me at 6 pm your time, it will be 10 am my time, and I will be home for sure. That would be sweet. Friday is payday. I'm excited to go buy presents. I have them picked out for all the girls, because I am just getting these really cute chenille fuzzy socks for them. I need a generic gift for all the guys that will cost about the same. The socks are only like 3 bucks apiece. Any ideas?

Hey
Well I dont sell the Jewlery the lady that runs my tanning store sells it....................sorry
I cant wait to see your xmas pictures .......hurry and send LOL
I have some I took lastnight of Deytons school concert THEY are BAD!! But I will try to get them on my webshots soon.
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These are far from good BUT its us LOl My DH did not want to take a picture he has had midterms and is sick so he looks really BLAH!!
Dont fail your class:c( How do you get to graduate if you fail it? BEAST of a teacher huh? LOL I start my "college" in January I cant wait. Its all distance learning so I hope my teachers are ok.
Xmas shopping for you this weekend HOW fun.......I did all mine online in about 30 minutes LOL I dont buy for everyone just my son. Everyone is too much.Brothers then their kids then their wifes/girlfriends.....buy for one friend have to buy for another and another and I am tooo greedy to spend all that money LOL. Our friends here we usually have over for dinner and everyone in the states gets a card and a picture LOL. I just cant do it. BUT socks is a great idea..............for the guys I dont know..................ties? lol........video game RENTAL lol man its to hard.....I gave my DH permission to buy a $1400.00 cd/dvd player for the car LOl that was his gift. It came yesterday and he was so happy.
He ordered brakes for my car awhile ago and for got and ROTOR so he ordered that before his dvd/cd and I still havent gotten it.......ggggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrr my car sounds so bad!!! BUT as long as I can stop LOL I will be ok :tomato:
I went to Deytons xmas concert lastnight and tonight is the play...............I will try to call you BUT I am not sure. During the week I and so busy . By the time I get home cook. homework with Deyton and clean its BEDTIME lol.If I was to call on Saturday is there a good time? Man ......I will try tonight though.
Well I have to go get a RUSSIAN reading from the library and get busy working on that....wooohooo FUN!!!
Take care
Trish:deer:

ByTheWay.................Candela would be proud have you checked out how many times we have been viewed????????

12,640
I wonder if anyone has read it all like I did when I first checked you guys out LOL......lots of drama BUT so much fun :D

Hey-

I think it's cool that people read this. I wish they would respond. I wonder if it's anyone we know in real life? Like people who know we talk on here or something? A friend of mine has a similar site and we all keep in touch with him by reading his stuff. It's pretty cool. The video game rental thing is a good idea. I could do that. I want to get Wyatt a CD, it's not much, but he wants it. We don't have any money this year for anything major, so it will have to do. Saturday I don't get home until 4 my time, 1 am your time, so maybe it would be easier for you to call me on Sunday morning? You could call me at like 8 my time and it would be 4 pm your time? Would that work? Also, I wanted to ask about coming to visit. We REALLY want to go to Europe this summer so it would be cool to come stay with/near you guys, and Germany is so central to the other countries we want to go to. We are thinking we will get a Euro-rail pass and just take daytrips or something. You would be better to help me plan it than anyone, since you're there! I loved your pictures! I am going to bug my mom to get those emailed to me so I can put them up here. Talk to you later! Shan

Hey
The video game rental thing was a joke LOL Boys and their toys BUT yea you could do that.
I have thought several times about my DH reading these posts BUT he doesnt know really where I go I just say on diettalk BUT that could be anything to him LOL I dont think he could just add the .com and come "spy" on me.
Girl my jeans wont stay up today....................I have my belt on the same loop BUT they are low low low and I have to keep pulling them UP !!! YEA its working. I have been doing good on my eating still BUT I do not stresssss on what I am or am not eating.
That would be cool if you could come to Europe............BUT I have a very small 2 bedroom apt and I know my DH cant stay with us BUt I would be more than happy to hook you guys up on hotels and other stuff. I am going to carnivalle in Venice Feb 5-6 WOW $25 each I cant wait. I have been to Verona BUT have wanted to go to Venice FOREVER!!! Now I am going. Your right Germany is right in the middle of everything and the Trains I hear are great. I have a car though so many we can take a couple days and go SOMEWHERE.............we will have to see.
If you get home at 4 Saturday I will try to call around then. I am usually up late BUT I get tired and dont feel like talking on the phone ya know? or your right I could call you in your morning BUT I would feel bad if I woke you up. I would email you my number BUT with out a phone card it is very expensive . Last year my friend called me and talked for alittle over an hour.........I can talk and when she got her bill it was $373.00 wow thats half a ticket here.ssssssssssooooooooooooooooits cheaper for me to call you.
Its 9:30am I am at work and have done NOTHING yet today I should get busy
Talk to you soon
Trish
Ps get those pictures sent :D

Girl you won't wake me up! I get up at 5:30 every morning! Plus I would be too excited for you to call to sleep! I know you have told me this before but what does DH stand for? We can totally come stay near you guys! It would be so fun! I always wanted to ride the trains in Europe. We can for sure go all kinds of places with you guys too though! I'm so glad school is out. I finished my last two assignments yesterday and now I actually get three weeks off. I'm so happy! I am also starting to do more wedding planning. I still haven't tried on veils yet. It all seems so silly. I kind of feel like I shouldn't wear a veil for some reason. Not really sure why. Maybe because I was married already. I don't know. What do you think?

That's SOOOOO exciting about your weight! I am so proud of you. I feel like such a fattie. I am getting rid of a bunch of clothes and stuff today though, and it makes me feel better because a lot of it is too big. Hope to talk to you soon!

Hey-

It was sooo good to talk to you last night! Poker was fun. I won half the pot. I would have won the whole thing but my friend was being whiny so I let him buy out. We had the craziest hand pop up last night! I'm not sure how familiar you are with Texas Holdem but we each get two cards and then there are five community cards. The first three cards were 8's! And then another card came up, and then ANOTHER 8! It was insane. The odds of that happening are so slim! Anyway, so I looked up some plane tickets and it looks like around 600 dollars. That's not too bad actually. It would be really nice, but I think we may have to wait until the end of summer to go. I'm going to hope that we can go in June, but we will have to see. I love Wyatt but he isn't exactly Mr. Motivated when it comes to saving up money. We had a good talk today though, because I'm really worried I'm going to end up supporting him or something. He felt really bad and said he didn't want to lose me and he would try to show me how dedicated he can be. He said he just got caught up in the not having to go to school this week, but next week he will make an effort. My office offered him a job, so he can do that but he has to go to their office to fill out an application and go through the whole process anyway. Christmas should be interesting. Although last night after we talked I realized my great gift of wine glasses is sort of stupid considering both of my brothers are recovering alcoholics. Oye. We will see I guess.

Hey Girlie Girl.................sorry I havent been around I :c( X-( am getting a divorce ..................its so stupid I will have to call you soon maybe thursday? If it happens soon I wont be here BUT until April.....hope I can stay til June to get my son done with 1st grade.........I will call you just dont want ALL my business on here.

Take Care
Trish

CALL ME CALL ME CALL ME!!!! Here's my new schedule:

Home all day on Mondays
Home until 1 PM on Tuesdays
Work from 6 am to noon on Wednesdays, then class at 6 PM
Work from 6 am to noon on Thursdays, then class at 1 pm
Work from 6 am to noon on Fridays, then home all night
Work from 6 am to 4 pm on Saturdays
Work from 11 am to 9 pm on Sundays

Hey Girl sorry I didnt call :c( Wednesday he went TDY and I went out a day early to celebrate my 33year!! I dont drink BUT girl I did that night......oh and when I am drunk I can so understand German LOL. Thursday I didnt do much just cleaned and slept. Friday morning I left for Heidleberg/Mannheim and didnt get home until late Saturday. Yesterday I spent the day on the sofa.....watched mystic river and open water. OPEN WATER was the dumbest movie I think I have ever seen.
DH didnt even come home Saturday he came home Sunday at 6pm............tell me he isnt seeing someone 8-| then lastnight he called someone....I check its a cell from here BUT not his friends # so I have been calling it all day BUT its an answering machine with auto operator voice. SOOOO I will update that soon.
How R U? I am gonna have to call BUT I just have to do it. I am so tired of family and friends calling I dont wan tto talk to nooone. My SIL called lastnight and I told her to call my mom and tell her because I hate saying it over and over YA know?

Well I will talk to you soon
Take care

Hey-

Wow that really sucks. Why is he being such an *****hole? I hate men. X-( I seriously do! Except mine but you have to have faith in them until they give you a reason not to. Not that I think he will. We started swimming last week and it's going pretty good. I can already tell a difference. He moved his stuff in. It's nice to live together and not have to go back and forth all the time. School is going okay. I have a LOT of reading and stuff to do but it's okay cause the topics are interesting. I still need to buy my books though and they are like 400 dollars. Ouch! So without going over it just tell me are you coming home then? What's the deal? Want me to shoot him? Love you soo much! Talk to you later, Shan

I am applying for jobs EVERYWHERE cause yes I have to leave I cant stay here on HIS orders. Hopefully I get picked up before April. Thats the date we have set for me to go home.
I found out whos # that was............ :o my friends he must have called us Friday.....so he didnt use the phone Sunday when he took the phone in the room. I know he isnt calling her casue she went to Colorado to live and I have her cell phone MAN am I trippin?
$400.00 for Books good lord thats alot of money!!! I start my Russian class next week the book was $70.00 BUT my job is paying for everything soooooo.

Do they have an army post in Utah? Is it big? Maybe I can apply for jobs there LOL. I mostly did the south and the east coast. Dont want to go home.(Wa State) I want to start new ya know?

Well girl I am gonna get busy looking for more jobs.....it sucks BUT I have to do it. I will talk to you soon.......hopefully Saturday

love you much too
Trish
PS you cant shooy him LOL he is so not worth that X-(

Hey-

I didn't say I would shoot him myself. I have people for that! YOU SHOULD MOVE HERE! It is so beautiful. The only weird thing is the Mormon culture. It's weird but nice. We don't have lock our car doors and stuff. I do anyway, but it's out of habit. We do have army bases here, several in fact. I have no clue about the size. My best friend is an army recruiter though so I could ask her. Or you could look into it yourself since you probably have better resources than I do. Utah is a lot like Washington during parts of the year. During summer it's more deserty. It's pretty dry though. If you like skiing it's the place to be though! We have awesome colleges here too if you want to keep taking Russian or any other classes. I know they have a lot of military translator positions around here so if you get good you could do one of those. Anyway, there's my pitch for Utah. Work is boring today. My forensics class is cool. It's so nothing like CSI but I still like it. I will talk to you later! Shan

LOL my people should get with your people....lol no I dont want that. Lastnight I woke up to him all over me so of course I am gonna join in....its been3 weeks :o But after he was saying sorry that was a mistake he should have never done that WHATEVER I am grown and yea it sucks to have those feelings BUT I do still love him and we are married sooooooo8-| BUt after I wanted to hold him and he didnt think it was a good idea lol I need ed him and he didnt get that. Yesterday was the worst day so far and all I wanted was to hold him/or him hold me. Even though this is between us I feel like I need him. Not to stay its gonna be alright BUT to just hold me ya know? :c( I was up from 2am until 5am Crying.....he was crying.....BUT he cant keep living this way so he has to do what he has to do. You should see my EYES.........YUCK!!! I dont even want to go out of my office :( I have so much make up on BUT its not helping.
I applied for a job in Ogden dont know if I will get it BUT I will take anything. I am appyling for GS 4 5 6 even as a 4 I keep my 6 pay so thats not paid Maybe I should start looking for 3's LOL. My son ski's I dont BUT he loves the snow. I hate HOT....high 70's low 80's is good enough for me. But you sell Utah GREAT!!
Not like CSI huh.......thats too funny. I wanted to do that. its my favorite show lol.
I will try to call you Saturday......

Take Care

Hey kiddo-

Your DH is a bask-k plus retard-re. Get it? Dave pulled that same BS with me and it ended up hurting me so much more than I thought it could. I got the CSI Miami game for my computer and it's sooooooooooooooooo much fun! My computer is a little slow but what are you gonna do? I gotta play! So Ogden huh? That's only about 1.5 hours from here but we are probably going to move up that way in the next year and a half so that would be cool. It's cheaper to live down here I think and commute, but I'm not sure. If you need to know about cost of living and stuff I can tell you anything you want to know. Utah is pretty cool. I still want to try living somewhere else but I think I will end up back here when I have kids. So we decided to postpone the wedding for a bit. It got down to sending invitations and we got in this fight and I realized I am INSANE to be getting married right now. I still want to but I know he is not ready and I don't think he can be in the next month. So we are going to pay some stuff off and shoot for sometime this summer. If you are here then you can come!!!! Love you girl call me when you get a chance.

Ok I dont get the Bask k and retare re LOL???????

I love CSI......... I just got done watching the 4th season DVD all this week.
The cost of living in Ogden I think would be high But whereever I go I dont want to live right in the city anyway soooooo. BUT no referal back from there yet so I just have to sit and wait. So far I have referals from
Ft Sill Oklahoma
San Jose California
Winchester Virginia
St Louis Mo
Huntsville Alabama
Rock Island ILL
Huntsville is a GS6 the rest are 5's BUT the good thing is I keep my pay just down grade. That makes it hard to get my 7 if I am a 5. I hope someone calls or emails or does something soon.
I will be here now until May sometime...........lastnight he approached me witht he seperation agreement papers and I went off!!!! I ended up ripping them.OOOPPPPPSSS
Tonight I start Power 90 again. HMMMM he is gonna hate it when I leave and I am looking FAB U LUST :laugh: hahahaha
I will try to call soon............after I get homw I just want to relax and I am so tired of talking about this BUT its whats happening in my life I guess.X-(
How postponed is your wedding? Summertime?

Take care Sunshine:D
Trish

Hey-

Woohoo I can log in again! I emailed the guy and he fixed it! Okay so the whole bask-k retard-re. Take the word bask and subtract the k and you have bas.... then take retard and subtract the re and add them together and you have bas and then tard.... darn swear word filters. Anyhoo.... so yeah we are thinking summer some time. He needs to prove to me that he can be a grown up and have a job and all. Sometimes I wonder if it's meant to be or not...

Anyway I love him and he's good to me but he has some things to work on is all. So yeah your DH is a donkey. I can't believe he is doing this. I know I don't know all that much about it but it seems like there must be more to the story he isn't telling. Just like with Dave. Well I'm going to study my Forensics homework. I have a test on Wednesday. My health is kind of messed up right now. I'm pretty stressed so that could be it, but I can't sleep and I keep getting all these dizzy spells. Argh. Anyway talk to you soon!

Hey-

So I sold my dress on Ebay. If we do still end up getting married I won't want to wear that one anyway. I sold it to a girl in Holland and made a bit of money off of it. I am also selling the flowers and the invitations too. Seems like all of it is just sitting around. Last night was my birthday and we went to the karaoke bar. It was so fun! There were a bunch of Marines there and they all kept buying me drinks. I really had a good time. So how are things going for you? Is he talking to you at all? I will talk to you soon, Shan

Hey Girl:D

I am not sure if you check DT anymore BUT thought I would put something in for you.
I am still in Germany. We are still getting a divorce. BUT I am good. Better than I was.
I think for sure I am going to Texas. The lady at the Army corps of Eng. is trying hard to get me there I am just waiting. Its killing me not knowing when or if I am leaving.
I am gonna have to call you again soo.
So whats up with you? How is school
How is Wyatt?
I miss ya
Trish

Hey doll-

WOOHOO for Texas!! (Texan here) I FINALLY told those idiots at my job to shove it and am now doing the at-home bookkeeping thing. It's going well. Wyatt is great, he already got promoted at his new job! I am so proud of him. We are stressed about money right now since I quit, but we will be okay. Also, school finals are next week so we are dealing with that. It sucks. But one day at a time, you know? So you should give me a call when you can, I'm home all the time now except some evenings when we go play. Saturdays I'm home like all day! IT'S AWESOME!! TTYS!

Hey girlie,

I am so glad to hear thigs are "good". There is so many days I wish I could just quit my job X-( .BUT I cant. I love my job HATE my boss. I will give you a call soon and I will let you know about Texas as soon as i know. I have WORK ggggrrr todo BUT I will keep in touch.
I am posting pictures in PICS.

Love ya
Trish

I GOT IT!!!!!!! I got the job I really wanted in TEXAS. I will call you as soon as I can...........my brain is working in overtime lol

Hope all is well with you

HEY!! That's awesome!! You are going to be sooo much closer to me now! Woohoo! And you get to be near family, that's always nice! I'm excited for you! What does your boy think of moving? Is he excited? How goes the whole divorce thing? Is he getting away with much? Don't let him! I should have nailed my cheating ex to the wall and I was too nice. Love you, Shan

:wave: Here's a quick bio on my situation and my goals.

I'm 53, live in SoCal. I'm married with twin sons 22 years old who still live at home. In CA it is next to impossible for kids to move out cuz rent is so expensive. :down:

I am 5'9 1/2" with a normal weight of 155 and a current weight a staggering 276, top was 352. I call myself fat and have blubber or lard, so my buddy can't be too sensitive. :tease:

One battle is that we eat out a lot. Also there are health reasons I can't excercise at this time.

There are medications I take which increase appetite. :c(

I mainly want to stay focused and motivated and move forward inch by inch. I did find that was true tho, about losing inches...I had not lost in a long time and had dh remeasure me and I had lost as much as 3" in some areas. :cheer:

I don't care if my buddy is male or female. It would be nice if they were in CA, but not bad if they aren't. I would like for us to become comfortable enough that we can call on the phone and support each other :console: or at least e-mail.

That's it for now, BB ~o)

I am 5'9 1/2" with a normal weight of 155 and a current weight a staggering 276, top was 352. .........
One battle is that we eat out a lot. Also there are health reasons I can't excercise at this time. ........... I mainly want to stay focused and motivated and move forward inch by inch.BeachBuns,

a) Eating out is deadly, unless you 'brown bag' it. Such occasions have to be reserved as a major treat for say, twice a month only. There simply are no restaurants or even health food restaurants where you have enough control over the food and portions, never mind the atmosphere, that you are ever likely to lose weight that way. You could be a mountain climber 12 hours a day, and never catch up with all those restaurant food calories. IMHO.

b) You've supplied a large part of your solution in your remarks: "stay focussed", and, "move forward inch by inch". While I expect you're referring to your measurements in the latter remark, my theme is that 'upright time' is 'losing time', as in when you're on your feet, you are way more active than when you're reclining watching TV or using your PC or reading or whatever. However, standing around is a lot more tiring than simply strolling about.

And, like many of us overweight members out there, it's useful to get away from the kitchen (AND restaurants) for extended periods, so I strongly recommend that you very slowly but steadily work on a 'walking program'.

Can you walk? If you've not walked much, you may find walking even one block to be a challenge. But, once you get 'into it', I hope you'll find it relaxing and rewarding after building on progress over the weeks, to get to the point where you are stepping out your door for a one hour walk, two, three or even four times a day, and, enjoying it. :D

Good luck!

rD

ps. My 'homepage' is really an URL that shows how many calories you burn for a wide variety of activities, and makes it very, very easy to compare, for example, an hour's aerobic routine, versus, the difference between strolling around for four hours instead of sitting around for four hours. (Just enter those three different scenarios to get your own calorie burning levels, do a moment's simple arithmetic, and your solution will be staring you in the face.)

I'm confident you will find that a similar amount of calories are burnt for both activities (one hour's aerobic routine, vs, four hours' slow walking), so to burn more calories, there's absolutely no need to exercise vigourously (and dangerously), to get excellent results.

Hello!

My name is Shantelle and if you have read any of this thread you know I have been on here A LOT! But my buddy and I started talking on the phone and emailing instead so I haven't been on here. Lately we have been too busy to talk to each other and I am starting a new workout so I need some support. BB, I'm sorry I didn't respond to your post sooner. Did you find a buddy? How are things going? Are you making progress? I have about 15 lbs to go. My stats on here need to be updated. If you want to talk, post on here and maybe we can chat. I love to laugh and I try to be positive (but a little sarcastic at times) and work hard. I am getting married in 22 days and I really want to tone my arms for the big day, so that is my new motivation. I want to add some cardio in too, I just haven't decided what to do yet.

Hey girl,
I have missed you. I have been so busy. How is the married life for you? Guess what? Call me crazy BUT I am going to get married again:crazy: BUT Ya know what, this time I know it will be forever. I dont have free long distance anymore BUT I will get a calling card and try to call you this weekend. I want to hear and tell everything.

Miss ya girl:wave:

WOW this iste has changed in the last 7-8 months BUT Its nice

Hey Trish! I've been wondering about you!! I forgot to update my email address to know when someone posts on here! I will do that. Things are good, I'm just finishing up school for this semester and trying to start working out again. I feel so fat. Right before the wedding my thyroid went all out of whack and I gained like 20 lbs. It's so frustrating, especially because I'm so young to have a thyroid condition. I got a gym membership that I haven't used once yet. I am probably going to go today. So how is everything where you are? How was the move? The divorce? I can't believe you are getting married again already! I did the same thing! It was really soon after the divorce that Wyatt and I got engaged. Marriage is pretty good. I have some issues that I am trying to work through. He treats me really well 99% of the time but there is a side to him I have issues with. He's lazy. About everything including money and school. I knew all of this before, I just decided life was better with him than without him. I think sometimes I got married too fast after my divorce, but we will work through it. Anyway, CALL ME!!! Or email me with your number and I will call you! We can take turns on the long distance bill.

Hey Girl,
I am going to email you my number and then you call me. I have a calling card so I can call you right back. I am not busy right now in life, well yes I am BUT kinda on hold til next week (Ill explain when I call you) I get home everyday at 4:30 my time (Texas) and I dont go to bed until around 10pm. Call anytime.
Cant wait to talk to you
Trisha
PS your picture looks great on here!!

Welcome to DT Beachbuns!

I mainly want to stay focused and motivated and move forward inch by inch. I did find that was true tho, about losing inches...I had not lost in a long time and had dh remeasure me and I had lost as much as 3" in some areas.

I don't care if my buddy is male or female. It would be nice if they were in CA, but not bad if they aren't. I would like for us to become comfortable enough that we can call on the phone and support each other or at least e-mail

Hello BeachBuns

I'll be your DietBuddy I'm always looking for someone to be with kind of my Accountability partner in a sense. Oh I'm not n CA I'm in Tampa but I'd love to give you support because I'm always willing to help the people that need the most help. I understand you're 53 and you have Twin boys both 22 years of age and they still live with you.

BeachBuns have you every heard a thing called Tough Love you need to let them go out and let them experience what the world has to offer don't take this as an offense but you need to let them do their own things like my Mom is sort of Overprotective I'm not saying you are but she is. I mean she's been that way my whole life i know she wants to support me in all that i do but I need to cut the apron strings and do things for my own good. I learned that in my Psychology class the grade that I got a D in but at least I tried but why are they still living with you ? Well beachBuns they can split the rent I mean get some jobs and save up some money I can see that you're letting them stay at home until they on their feet.

Well BeachBuns here is my Email: www.ChristianSista45@aol.com email m anytime day or night I'll email you back the same day. Here is my S/N ChristianSista45

Good Luck on your Journey:D

Hello to everyone! Another newbie here. I am once more trying to lose the excess weight I have gained in my life. I lost 80 lbs twice before, with diet and exercise. Seems harder to maintain as I get older and everytime I move to a new regional area. Seems like maintaining focus on something like dieting gets more difficult with age. This seems like a good droup. People actually talk about dieting and it's difficulties, and motivating each other. Maybe that's what I need. Now, I'll see if I can make it a point to come in here everyday :)

Hey All,

My name is Celeste.

I am 21 years old, female, and looking to finally start doing something about these love handles that just keep getting bigger and bigger.

I have never been very small, but to this day, I am definately overweight. I could be labeled as one of those "big boned" or "thick" girls. Realistically, I don't think I could ever look good in a bikini.

Since I graduated high school (when I was at a very healthy 175lbs) the weight started creeping up on me. I am now 21 (22 next month) and am at 215.

I am at the point where I know I need to do something, and I dont want to make it any harder. I know what I need to do. I am actually very knowledgable on weightloss. I just need the movtivation to do it.

That is why I am here. (As I am sure most people are.) I am doing my research, and after the holidays, I am setting a goal, and sticking to it.

!

Hi to all!!

Celeste:)

Hello all,

I go by Jasmine130 and have just joined this group. I'm female, 45 years of age. I've been married for 25 years to an amazing man, and have 3 sons of whom we're very proud.

I have a successful career with a nationwide management job in the legal field; I find I'm talented in several arenas....but weight loss has stumped me.

At any rate, this morning I weighed myself at 306.6 pounds. The good news is, I'm very active: I do water aerobics 3x a week; I lift weights (in fact, I am a FitLinxx champion and since September I've lifted over 600,000 pounds); I bellydance, kickbox and ride my bike.

So...what I need to do is get my eating under control.

Today has been a successful day: I've eaten on plan; I've had lots of water to drink (I keep a large pitcher at my desk and drink at least one full pitcher while I'm at work). My exercise for tonight is: 45 mins of water aerobics.

So, what I need in order to stay on my eating plan is: motivation and support. Nothing unique, nothing special, just your help and encouragement.

And I promise I'll give you the same!

-Jasmine130 :hug:

Well hello, everyone!

My name is Sarah and I'm 17. I'm 5'4" and I weigh about 160lbs. My goal is 130lbs! Maybe if I meet that goal I'll go for 120, but I'm not sure if I want to weigh less than that.

I started doing yoga (about 40 minutes a day) every day and I'm becoming more aware of what I eat. I'm not following a planned diet, since I live with my parents and what I eat depends on what they want to eat. I think that this is the biggest struggle that I have, not being able to limit the food in the house only to things that are good for you. Hopefully I can overcome this!

I started exercising regularly with yoga December 27th. Anyone care to chat sometime? I love emails, hint hint! I would love to have someone to talk to who could help.

Hi everyone,
I am new here but would like to have support to try and lose this weight. I am a mother of 4 (8yr, 7yr, 3yr, and 6mo) and a fulltime student. I was wondering if anyone else out there was nursing and trying to lose...if so I would love to get to know you and some of your secrets. Hope to hear from someone soon.
Brandy

Hey!!! I am back and going to try this again..........this time I have much more to loose!!! :(
shan where ya at girl???? Did you get married?
im in NC now and have been for a little over a year. Trying to get back to Germany. Still working for the DOD. still Fat LMAO. Miss ya and think of you often girl.

Anyone else out thtere that needs a BUDDY!!!???