Okee dokee.

I figure the best way to make sure I stick to things is to make myself accountable for all aspects of my life/health.
Today is July 11 & I have joined weight watchers for the last time. I am going to make this work, I need to make this work!

I am going to dedicate this area to what my goals are, what my fears are and how much my life will be changing.

So, here it is for today. Since it is Day 1, I am feeling a tremendous amount of fear. I have tried diets before but I lose my motivation before I know it. This time, I know that I can pull through the rough spot and even continue through this journey.

Stay positive! That is going to have to be my goal I think for the first week at least. Changing what I eat how I eat can be overwhelming but I have to struggle on.

I read once that when you think something is such a struggle, consider it to be a daily renewal. There is a new person hidden inside of me that is waiting to get out -

Hi Tasha,
welcome to diettalk!
starting a journal is a great idea i know that having mine has kept me accountable and i have made loads of supportive friends.
staying positive is a great goal to have and i look forward to watching your success,
hugs bell :)

Ok, so not the best start for a first day. My lunch went great but when it came to dinner, we went out to eat. I know not smart but I hadn't cleaned out my house of "warning foods" yet. So I have a grilled chicken sandwhich with BBQ sauce. I didn't eat the entire thing so I suppose that was good. I also had a scoop of ice cream.

I know this is bad and my thought process is telling me that it is better than what I used to eat. I used to eat the big burger with fries, a soda, a big piece of cheesecake.

So I guess for the most part it was ok. I made better choices than what I have made in the past. It is going to be a new learning experience, right?

I did decide that this weekend I am going to clean out my fridge/freezer and cupboards. Then I am going to go on a good food shopping spree.

I am not good at the planning of meals a week or even days in advance but maybe this is another something that I need to learn how to do.

Wow! Do I have lots to learn!!!!

Tasha,

welcome here!!!!!! I think you will like it here.

Hey, give yourself some credit. You really did well. Like you said, look at the difference in what you ate with what you used to eat. Holy smokes!!!!!!!!!!! You made great choices, don't fool yourself.

Great idea also on getting rid of the bad food and putting in the good food. Makes it alot easier.

Keep coming to your journal and letting us know both the good and the bad.

You will be amazed at the great support you will get here.

Well,
Day 2 is almost complete. I just wasn't hungry until dinner time so I didn't eat until then. I am sure that I need to break that habit as well. It can't be good for me to not eat all day and then try to make healthy choices when I am starving. Actually, I didn't do too bad.

I had:

Deep fried halibut fillet - but I took off all the breading and took a napkin to the fish to soak up any extra oil. My boyfriend kinda laughed but was totally supportive.

About 1/4 c of coleslaw
2 slices of Wonder bread
A can of Diet Sierra Mist

I had a raspberry granola bar for my dessert. The texture was a little different but hopefully I can get used to it since it was only 2 pts.

A little later I am planning on having either popcorn or ff jello pudding cup. Depends on my mood.

Thanks to those who have dropped in to see what I am up too.

Tasha

Hello Tasha, :wave:

I too want to add my welcome to Diettalk and to the Journal Forum .....

You will find support and encouragement from your fellow DT family -- each one of us is using a weight loss plan to successfully reach our weight loss goals.

Again WELCOME TO DIETTALK .... I am looking forward to hearing about your successes. Always, Monica :wn

Hi Tasha,

Sounds like you're taking big steps in the right direction!

Have faith in yourself & you can do it!

Hi Tasha, welcome to the world of hmmm... change lol

Isnt that funny how we all 'ignore' the grease and sugar, but when we mention diet, it all stands out in neon lights? lol

Small committed changes add up at the end of the years..

I used to drink 8 cups of coffee each day, w/ 2 tsp sugar.
8x33=264
264x365=96,360
96,360 / 3500 = 26 pounds per year.

I am committed to that one! If I do nothing else, in a year I should see that weight loss at least lol

Same with my 6-8 pats of real butter a day LOL

You will like it here Tasha, everyone is very sweet!

Good work Tasha,

Hang in there, don't try to change all of those bad habits at once. Pick a couple and work on the m then pick another one or two to add on.

You can do this!

Hello end of the weekend!!!

Today I had an ok day with my food choices. Here is the day's worth of stuff -

ff jello pudding
2 Chipolte tacos - 1 chicken & 1 steak Both with no cheese but lettuce and corn salsa
About 10 of the taco chips and a little guacamole
2 slices of toast with a little butter and garlic

I have been drinking water all day so that is a plus!!

I don't have a ton of time to write more but I wanted to make sure I got my food count in here!

Off to enjoy a little tv with the honey!

Have a nice time, relaxing is important too.

See ya soon.

BTW, I lead the exercise chat on Tuesday nights. YOu are welcome to come check us out if you like. (8pm et)

Hi Tasha!
Your off to a great start, keep up the good work and you will see its going to pay off in the end. You have alot of wonderful and supportive people here to hold you by the hand while you work your journey. :D

Hello!

Today is officially Day 3 1/2 of the weight loss game! And I am actually feeling pretty good about it so far.
Since I am not going to be able to post tonight, I figured I would put in what I have eaten so far today.

1 1/2c of strawberries
2c chicken soup
10 saltines
yogurt

Of course it is only noon so who know what might needs to get added to this list by the end of the day.

I am really trying to push myself to do the water thing but I am having a hard time with it. Anyone have any suggestions on how to make the water drinking a little more tolerable?

I catch myself getting kinda giddy about the whole weight loss thing. Sometimes I can't believe that this time is the time that I really want it. And I really want it not for someone else or because a big event is coming up but because it is something that I think I need to do for myself. Woohooo for me!!! :)

I want to say a special thanks to all of you guys who have been checking up on me. I am trying to get to all your journals but there is soo much to read (and I want to) that it is taking me a little longer than planned.

Talk to all soon!!!

Well, it looks like I had time to write tonight afterall.

I did the big task of throwing away all the bad food and went to the grocery and spent $80 on good food. I can't believe how expensive it is to eat healthy. Fruit & vegies can break the bank alone!

For dinner I had a small pizza with a diet cola. I did have a few low fat potato chips but I didn't go crazy.

Oh, and I had a skinny cow.

Do you ever wonder how you got to the starting weight to begin with? I mean, what in my mind thought it was ok to let my body go like this? I am single and still want to have children but my weight could potentially hinder that down the road. When I think about it, I just don't understand how the brain works that gives the impression that being this overweight is ok. I just kept saying, oh it's not a big deal. I still have friends and I still do things. If I could listen to my body, I would hear it saying that yea, you can do things but your knees hurt or your back hurts. Why couldn't I notice these as warnings?? Hmmm....just a thought to ponder.

Taataaa...

Hello there dear journal!

Today is a little bit of a weird day. I am eating more healthy but I just am in a slump. I can feel myself getting more depressed in the last few weeks and I wonder if it is finally hitting the wall. My mom is becoming a weirdo, my sister lost her job & my friends are not talking to me like they used to. Maybe it is all in my head but I am feeling a little distant from the world lately.

Here is my food so far today:

1c. oatmeal
1 baked potato w/salsa on top
yogurt
94%ff popcorn

Dinner is still to come so this amount of food w/be changing. I could never survive on just that! :)

Ok, off to work some more -

Tasha,

You are doing just great. And I like your 'point to ponder' it really hit home with me too. What was I thinking? Maybe I just wasn't thinking and that was the problem.

I don't know why your family and friends are being the way they are. Have you talked to them about diettalk? I have found, and others here have mentioned it, that when I talked to people about diettalk, they just don't get it. Especially if they are not into computers, e-mail, message boarrds, that kind of stuff.

I have found that it is better just not to talk about it unless they seem to really want to know. Sad, but true I think.

So that is why we really try to support each other here and probably why it seems like such a neat place to be. Tons of support, usually, and everyone seems to understand each other.

Soooooo, keep up the good work. You can do it. We can do it.

ps, don't worry about reading someones 'whole' journal, just jump in where they are, they will be glad to have you. :D

I am a little late today - just so tired and unenergized!!

Here is my food - not the best options - work was nerve wracking

2 slices of whole grain toast w/jelly
1c carrots
baked potato w/sour cream (no butter)
ff Jello pudding cup
1/2 c applesauce
2 slices of white toast
Embers skillet
chocolate milk
banana w/1 tbsp of peanut butter

Well, now that I look at it. It seems like a lot of food but at the least the choices were good. I am still drinking my water. I am up to at least 6 glasses a day. I try to do 4 before noon and then sip the rest of the day because after lunch, I feel a little bloated if I continue to guzzle the water.

I think I really need to figure out a work out schedule. I just hate to exercise so much that I don't even know where to start. If anyone has any suggestions, that would be great!

My first weigh in is on Friday and I am a little worried. It is now the TOM and I am afraid I am not going to loose. I know that is going to be better than gaining but for the first week, I am hoping for some kind of motivation, ya know.

Okee dokeee,
Almost a complete week of watching what I eat and turning down things I love. I think for the most far I feel pretty good about myself. I haven't had a soda in about 5 days, which is amazing since that was all I used to drink. I am slowing chugging down the water, which at times tastes ok. That is if there is really a taste. :)

I am laughing today because I cleaned up my kitchen of bad for me foods over the weekend. Well, would you know, on Monday I saw a mouse. I am petrified of mice but I think that it's funny that he now is in my home when the good food is around. Maybe this mouse is on a diet too. :D

My food so far today is really good:

yogurt
Healthy Choice frozen spaghetti
ff pudding
Lays Baked potato chips
carrots

The one thing I am really proud of is that I haven't gone out to eat for lunch all week. I have gotten a baked potato in the cafeteria but I don't count that. I haven't gotten pizza or LeeAnn Chin's. Wooohooo!!! It is a small step but a big one I think in the scheme of things.

Hope everyone is doing good. Thanks to all for the encouragement, it really means a lot!

Toodles.....

Wow, girl, you're really tackling this thing! Way to go! ATTACK!!!! :D

:stop: TASHA WAIT BEFORE YOU GET ON THAT SCALE FRIDAY!!

You mentioned that you had started your period this week and if you get on the scale Friday AND if you do like most women and GAIN weight during that time please take that into consideration. When its my time of the month I usually gain 5-7 pounds.....thank God it's only temporary but if that happens to you it might be better for you to wait a couple of days after your period and you loose the period weight. Just a suggestion.

Hello,

I am on ww too. i think its a great plan.
i weigh on fridays too,. so good luck on yours.

for me water is not a problem and i guess im lucky that even before dieting i always drank it and loved it. just plain, very cold water. makes skin good too. but if you want try flavored water or add lemon or lime.

as for exercise. i use to dread it and if you do it, it becomes a routine and you will look forward too it beleive it or not. when i miss doing it i truly miss it.
i do the walking tapes by Leslie Sanstone and i ride an exercise bike and do AB crunches and light wts. where i am moving to has flat roads and sidwalks so me and the kids will be walking even more.

your doing well. great job on not ordering lunch out.

take care.

I was soo busy yesterday that I didn't have time to write in my journal.

Thanks to everyone on the suggestions about weighing in and TTOM. I chose to not let that stop me so I went and jumped on the scale yesterday and I lost a total of 4.2lbs. Woohooo!! I am soo excited that I can hardly stand it. I know a lot of it is just water weight but that is fine with me. I got done and called my boyfriend and my cousin. Both were super supportive. My cousin and I decided to aim for running a 5K next spring. We would like to maybe reach for running a marathon. Something to think about. Has anyone out there run a marathon?

Food from yesterday was:

2pt bar (on sale at the WW Mtg)
WW pizza
a few light potato chips
Arby's light turkey sandwich
diet coke

Then I went to a gathering of people who do scrapbooking and I didn't do that great but I knew I was going so I ate light through the day. But there I ate:

3 mini winnies
grapes
mms
chips & salsa dip

Hope everyone is planning on having a super fun weekend!
BF and I are thinking of going to see the local soccer team play & go out to get a bite of dinner.

Toodles!!

WOW! Holy crap, amazing loss! Congratulations!

I've never run a marathon and never really thought about it until recently. Ever since I started losing weight, however, I keep coming across stuff about running, marathoning, etc. Now I'm actually considering giving it a go!

I imagine marathon training is probably one of the best weight loss/fitness activities there is, but I'm sorta scared to try it.

I admire you for having the courage to actually TAKE AIM and PLAN FOR IT! You go, girl! :)

Hey there 108! From what I have read on your journal, it sounds like you are already on your way to training for a marathon. I think you just need to keep up the great workouts you have been having!! I completely understand the fear factor. My mind goes from you can totally do this to are you insane?? Today I think my mindset is at I can totally do this - yippee!! And trust me, if I can do it, you certainly can as well.

I didn't post at all yesterday, damn computer!

But I was able to get a little info on running and how to start if you are a beginner (which I totally am). I went to Barnes & Noble over the weekend and pick up a Running book for Dummies. My BF said that he will help me all he can. Maybe even start running with me. So it looks like I may end up with a little training buddy after all. :)

My breakfast & lunch are all planned out. Dinner, well that is another story. Here is the food planned so far for the day:

yogurt
carrots w/cottage cheese dip
applesauce
tuna lunch to go
Diet Dr Pepper
apple

Tonight after work, I am going to meet with a career counselor at the local college. I am thinking of going back to school and work on getting a degree in nursing. I am super worried about this. I mean, I haven't been to college in about 10 yrs and I know when I left my grades were horrible. I am not sure what I am going to need to do but the idea of doing it makes my tummy get full of butterflies. I am thinking of taking one class at a time to start, so it isn't too overwhelming. Not to mention I still need to work full time to support myself. Oh well, wish me luck!

Hope everyone else is doing ok. I am going to try to read a few journals while I am at work.

Toodles!!

Hello Tasha,

great to see you doing so well. sometimes when we go to functions we eat foods we wish we didnt but its the overall week that counts. for me i stick to plan all week and sat is my cheat day. hubby is dieting too but not on ww and he uses sat as a cheat day and we lose each week still as long as the other days we behave.

well keep strong and take care and congrats on the good loss.
:cheers:

Hi Minnie,
Thanks for stopping by. I have thought about having an all out cheat day but for me, I don't think it will work. I need to try and stay focused for as long as possible. I have done cheat days in the past and the day ends up being a week and then I go off program.
Do mind if I ask what kind of exercise you do? I am so unmotivated to get any done, that I need some ideas.


Well, it has been an interesting 24 hours.
I went and saw the career counselor & he said that if I can get into a beginner biology or chem, I can apply for the nursing program at the end of fall semester. I have that many credits & my GPA was a lot higher than what I thought it would be. Woohoo!! :D

I didn't really plan anything for dinner & I have been craving pizza like a crazy woman! So I ended up buying one of those frozen pizzas that is not WW and ate all 9in of it! Then after eating, the guilty feeling set in. So I tried one of those walk in your home videos. I walked for a mile and sweated like a big but felt better about the eating.

So far today:

1.5c of Corn Bran Cereal - snack on all am
Lean Pocket - cheeseburger
carrots & snap peas - raw
yogurt
ff Jello pudding


I have been doing a lot of thinking the last few days. I have decided that even if I don't lose this week (I know WI not until Friday but have to prepare), I have definately been making a lot better choices for my food. I love Mexican and I haven't had any in about 2 weeks, I haven't ordered any big desserts when I go out to eat and I am trying to be more realistic about the weight loss. It isn't going to all come off in one day, it took a lifetime to get on this body and it may take just as long to get off it!! But I think I am ok with that. :)

Hope everyone has a great day!
Tonight is volleyball, hopefully we will win!!

Hello,

well the exercise i do is simple. i do Leslie Sanstones tapes WATP, i ride an exercise bike, I do AB crunches and i use light 3 pound wts for toning arms. when i move i will be walking outside as there is sidewalks there and lots of sts to walk on.

i like the one cheat day but i dont go hog wild either. just dont count points but you do what works for you.

i see your doing well and dont sweat the pizza. for me pizza is a major downfall as i love it and go overboard with it. for me theres no such thing as 1 slice of it.

and you are being realistic. we didnt gain overnight and it takes time, effort and patience to lose it. some weeks i have maintained, others gained and others lost. i just keep on moving forward.

take care and keep strong.

you will get there.

good luck at the volleyball game too.

Wow do we ever suck at volleyball! We lost both games, but we have fun. That is the main thing, right??

Today food hasn't been the best but it hasn't been the worst either.
What I have had is:

1 banana
1c soup
10 saltines
1 nectarine
yogurt
fajita salad (lettuce, onion, little cheese & steak)
a dinner roll
a scoop of ice cream
a candy bar

I kinda slipped on the candy thing but I counted the points and I have to go on from there. I am still within range for the day so I am ok with it.

I am taking the day off from exercise. Then tomorrow I am back to walking. My knees are kinda bugging me so I need to chill for the night.

Thanks for the suggestions Minnie on exercise. I did try the Leslie walking tape earlier this week. I worked up a big sweat on the mile. The time really goes by fast & since I want to run a 5K in the spring, I think it is a good start.

Hope all is good with everyone else.

108 - I read your journal, congrats on the great weight loss! Keep it up, you are amazing!!

Ok, so I weighed in a day early because a gal from work goes today so I thought I would see if this meeting is a little more upbeat. And guess what?! I lost 1.6 lbs so that makes by total so far at 5.8lbs. Yippeee!!!!! The meeting was a good meeting that talked about the negative tone the word try is. Like trying to be on a diet, it almost instantly sets you back. Very interesting.

My food so far today:

no breakfast - too busy @ work
turkey subway
no mayo or dressing
baked lays
diet coke

BF and I are going out for Mexican tonight. I have been craving it all week so decided to go ahead and give in to the craving.

Hope everyone else is good.
I am on my way home so I gotta run.
TTFN....

Hello,

congrats on the loss Tasha :dc :jn :dn

what you said the other day about eating the candy bar but accounting for it. That is truly how ww works. you are not restricted of any foods, even junk food is allowed but must all be accounted for w/ points and what it does is aims you to eat lower pt foods to fill you up ,more but when i want higher pt foods i just account for them.

your doing super and i think the WATP tapes will help you get ready for the marathon.

i love those tapes and they work great.

take care and keep up the great job your doing.

Well, here I am again. I don't know what happens to my brain but everytime I lose a little bit of weight, I fall back into the same bad habits. I really think it has to do with fear. I think I am afraid of being thin. Is this normal? Has anyone really been this deceived by their own brain? Maybe if I list the reasons I want to lose weight on a regular basis, that will help me. So here we go:

I want to be a at a healthy weight so when I decide to have children, fertility won't be an issue.

I want to be able to shop at regular stores, they have much cuter clothes & they are a lot cheaper.

I want to be able to go to an amusement park & not worry if I can fit in the seat of the ride.

I want to be able to go visit my dad in DC & go to the beach and not be ashamed of what my body looks like.

I want to be able to have fun goofing around without my heart hurting or my knees aching.

I want to be healthy!!!


Maybe if I read these on a regular basis, it will help me get back on track. I can't let myself be the reason for my setback. I can't let myself be the one to talk me out of this!!

I did a mile walk with the WATP today. I hope to be able to do the 2 mile by next week. The weather is starting to get less humid so that way I will be able to enjoy being outside.

Off to read a couple more journals and check in. I have to get back to reading other people's inspiration!!

Toodles...

Good Morning Tasha,

Your reasonings for losing weight are all logical and sound ....

Your actions are no different than any of ours ....... we all go off track for so many different reasons ..... we are geniuses for rationalizing ...... I do it still ......

But now it is time to pick yourself up ..... say to yourself today IS ANOTHER DAY .. AND I WILL MAKE IT A GREAT DAY. Our successes are made one day at a time .... one meal at a time.

Tasha, there is NOTHING WE CANNOT ACHIEVE. Wishing and hoping for things .... DON'T MAKE THINGS HAPPEN. But our FOCUS AND COMMITMENT DO MAKE THINGS HAPPEN. Stop :whip: yourself ..... make your weight loss plan WORK.

And if you made a mistake and went off your plan ... YOU HAVEN'T COMMITTED A SIN ..... ONLY A SETBACK ... GET BACK ON TRACK ASAP. You're going to SUCCEED .... BELIEVE IN YOUR ABILITY TO SUCCEED . As always, Monica

Hello,

your list is normal and posting it is good to look at it.
I think we all get deceived by our brains and by being heavy we built a wall to hide behind. i too have self sabatoged myself more than once. it is weird cuz i want to lose weight and i do lose it then i panic and go into binge mode.

been doing well lately and hope it lasts.

hang in there.

take care.