I read and understand your rebellion.I have never had a clue why we do such things..it's truly subconscious and you don't realise it until you've done it and it's over with.And then the guilt comes 100xs harder.

Forgive your mom and break through your wall of guilt..she only wants what's best for you. It'll set you free!

Your 80 lbs will come off... Focus on leading a healthy lifestyle one day at a time. You can do it!