My Weight Loss Journey

I'm glad I found the place for Journaling. I have just become a member of this community a few days ago and it has already helped me tremendously. It helped bring me out of my worst slump in SEVEN months. Thanks to all of you!
I have even lost 5 pounds in 2 days! Thanks for helping me to stop binging.
I am going to journal at least once a week. I will put my weight and epiphanies and whatever else I can think of that might help someone the way that I have found help.
I thank God for these message boards! I know I have found the best support system ever! I can come here instead of feeling embarrassed to let people know I need help...I'm "supposed to be the strong one." I've got a secret for you....I put up a good front of being strong, and having it all together and the great husband and kids and house....But inside, I feel like a real scared little kid who has been pushed into the adult world of finances and responsibility and all that ....and it is a little....okay, a lot scary....I am 37 years old, and haven't really really realized that I'm really a grown up....I'm not dumb, but it really blows my mind that I have a 16 year old, a 14 year old and a 10 year old...they seem fine and haven't figured out that I don't really know what I'm doing yet. I'm just dealing from the bottom of the deck at times.
My husband and I are staying afloat...barely, but we've decided to stay together and muddle through life together and just cut each other as much slack as possible and smile for the camera.
So anyways....I'll get my story in here and It will be a success story....I promise.

My Plan: I eat when I'm hungry and when I do eat, I try to make good, healthy, wise choices. If I really want something I can have it. I have the mind of Christ...So I'm too smart to eat things that will hurt me or my body.

My Philosophy: My body is the temple of the Holy Ghost and I want to be around a long time for Him to work through me. I want to enjoy my life. Jesus came so I could have and enjoy life and I do!

My Fitness::ex: Aerobic Activity @ least 60 min. per day @ least 5 days a week (preferably 6 days a week),
:lift: Weight Training 3X week with my trainer @ the gym.
:ghug: Play with the kids and husband as much as possible.


STATS:
*July 28, 2003 : Became a Member of this Forum weighing 210 pounds and feeling really bad. I started this cycle of dieting on January 2,2003. I weighed 211 lbs. I got down to 188 by April, then crawled back up to 210.

*** I quit smoking on February 25th, 2003...Props to me!***

*July 31, 2003 205 pounds.

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WELCOME TO JOURNALS.....

I beleive you will find all the support you need here. I look forward to getting to know you.

Its a long journey but we will be LOSERS........

Congratulations on quitting smoking? Lots of people gain when they quit right? - so no big deal about gaining the weight back, you know you can get it off again. Good Luck!

:D
Thank you for your interest in my journal and thank you for the support. I appreciate it and I never linked the not smoking to the weight gain, I just thought I was weak. Thank you for the "epiphany"...now I can quit thinking of myself as a "loser" and start thinking of myself as a "LOSER"!:D

Anyhow the eating when hungry thing seems to be the only thing that has ever worked for me, so I'm not going to keep a food journal cuz I don't want someone to look at it and tell me I'm doing it wrong...I have listened to too many people on my eating and it has really wreaked havok with my mind and my body...so I will keep my food to myself, but you all can comment on whatever else you want.
I just always try to do what people suggest and it is about time I listen to my own body and march to my own drum.
I love you and need your support in other ways.:rose:

:rose: I posted this somewhere else in response to someone else's comment, but I thought it would be good to put this in my journal, since this is a big part of where my weight came from and now will be instrumental in my getting the weight off and a tool to transition into VICTOR!
I am new to these boards but have read through a lot of posts and am amazed that you people have the same thoughts and fears as me!
My inner child was starving for attention and I was just feeding and feeding it to get it to be quiet.
Up until just a few months ago, I had no other feelings than just pure anger! God helped me through some emotional issues I had.
My mom didn't want another pregnancy...I was the 10 child produced in an already unhealthy and abusive marriage where both my parents were alcoholics and were abused in their child hoods and abusive toward us.
My mom left when I was 11 months old, and we had one abusive babysitter after another, I was so sick from not having my diaper changed and not being fed that my dad begged my mom to come back and she told him to let me die.
I was sexually abused by babysitters and their boyfriends and my brothers and sisters still want to vomit as they tell the horror stories of how I was abused.
My dad eventually remarried, but the goal was to get us grown up and out of the house and nothing more. When I turned 18 I was shown the door and had to learn to sink or swim. I was at that time a drug addict and an alcoholic and smoked about 3 packs a day.
My first husband was murdered leaving me and my son without...my second husband and I don't get along great and I have 2 daughters with him. He is quite a bit older than me, I am 37 he is 52. He didn't want more kids so I ended up having my tubes tied.
I haven't done drugs or alcohol for years and I quit smoking this year, but my point is that there comes a time to quit being a victim and learn to be the victor. I was mad at God and couldn't understand why He let all these awful things happen to me....I have been a Born Again Christian for 16 years and Now I was really learning to Trust God, but how could I when He had failed me before.
He showed me that He protected me and held me even in those times that I felt He was so far away. Even when I hated Him and everyone else...He never stopped loving me. Now I am learning to love myself, I have hated me for years...no one else thought I was worth anything and I even bailed on myself. But now I am learning to like myself and love myself and I have to tell myself that I am worth being good to.
I look at how much weight I have to lose and it looks impossible. But I know if I chip away day after day after day after day, I will make it and I will be proud of myself and I will be victorious!:rose:

Girl, you are beautiful and in my eyes you are all ready the victor. I can feel your faith pouring out through your posts and that is an incredibly powerful thing. You will overcome, you have done so much all ready. Forgiving yourself is the hardest part, I haven't managed to do that yet. I tell myself I have but I don't truly feel forgiven in my heart.

Anyway, I have good feelings about your journey and I know you will make it. Welcome and stop my my pity party, I mean journal anytime!

:x
Thank you Mohigan86 for the kind words of support. I appreciate it all. I am so glad I found this place! I have been praying for support and comfort and have found joy and laughter here, too. I have found a place to journey with others out there. I'm grateful.

Hi there,
wow you have been through so much and your faith has helped you through. compared to all that you have made it through losing weight should be relatively easy :)
your strength and determination shines through in your posts and i know you will succeed.
Your workouts look great too, i do an exercise challenge every month at the exercise forum. we make a goal at the start of the month and log our minutes.
would love to see you there!
look forward to watching your success.
hugs bell :)

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Thank you for your kindness...I was just going to post that I finally got out to take a walk...the stitches in the knee allowed me only to go so far, but hey, I'll take what I can get and please pass the advil! LOL:D
I'll be able to get them out in a week so, I'll be alright. To all of you who may be reading this and wonder what happened...I turned out the lights in the living room to come to bed and tripped over an ottoman and scraped up my whole leg and gashed my knee to almost the bone and ended up in the ER until about 3:30 am a couple nights ago. That was fun! Thought I broke it but the exrays revealed no cracks, chips or breaks, Thank God! It did require a few stitches, but it is not hurting to terribly bad. The other scrapes hurt worse I think. They are a little more surfacey...Is that a word? Anyhow, by the grace of God I will be fine. I also had to get a tetanus shot and my arm is swollen and really sore and itchy...but that should go away quickly...Never thought I'd say this, but I can't wait til I can exercise hard!
Never knew I loved it that much so I guess this is a real blessing. :ex: :spring:

Hi and welcome to DT and to the Journal Forum, :wave:

As you have already found ...... the DT community offers terrific support and encouragement.

Each one of us has selected a weight loss plan .... and giving ourselves time to LOSE WEIGHT IN A HEALTHY AND PERMANENT WAY.

If I can ever be of any assistance ... please let me know. Again welcome to DT and to YOUR SUCCESSFUL WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY. Always, Monica :wn

:hug: Thank You for the welcome. I appreciate it and a big hug to everyone here. I have been reading and posting and reading and posting...at least I haven't been too bored layed up like this. I figure I may as well, cuz once I can move, I won't want to stop. I'll make sure I make an appointment with myself and this group at least a few days a week. I'm so encouraged by all of you.
The funny thing is, is that sometimes I feel stupid for all these things I've been through and really embarrassed, but I thought, You guys don't know me and can't see me so I will be real. You have not made me feel stupid or embarrassed and I was just telling God that you guys thought I was strong and beautiful!
Sometimes I don't feel that way, but you know, if I read this about someone else I would be wowed! So I think that in itself is really an eye opener.
You know it's really easy to believe the bad stuff people say about you and take it as truth, but this is really the first time that I have been able to take the good stuff as truth and be so truly THANKFUL to God and you all. God Bless You all REAL GOOD!:rose:

Trying,

In the 21 months being a part of the DT family I have met the most supportive group of individuals .....

No one here judges anyone ..... if anything I have discovered my fears, trials are UNDERSTOOD .... none of us are ALONE. Our journey to success will have many twists and turns ..... and even a few detours -- but we will all HAVE REACHED JOURNEYS END .

We each have the power and ability to SUCCEED IN ACHIEVING OUR WEIGHT LOSS GOALS. It is important that you BELIEVE IN YOURSELF .... THAT YOU ARE PATIENT WITH YOURSELF .... AND MOST IMPORTANT OF ALL YOU TREAT YOURSELF WITH KINDNESS AND RESPECT.

You have made a TERRIFIC START :up: ON ACHIEVING YOUR GOALS. Make it a great day and have and make it a terrific weekend. As always, Monica :wn

AUGUST:
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Thanks Monica, I was thinking about all this last night, and this year has been a great start, but with all this support, I have so much more!
Now I see why people say that the support system one has while endeavoring to lose weight is one of the keys to success!
It has already helped me so much! I started here feeling sorry for myself and feeling bad because I had gained my weight back, not even attributing or thinking the stopping smoking had anything to do with it...but see someone here recognized that right away.
2 heads are better than one and in this case I feel like I have a whole group of experts on MY side and in MY corner rooting for me and giving me so much support! I really appreciate it and can only hope that I can do the same for others. I am so blessed by this group, I can only try to be a blessing back.:)

I have more good news!!!!!!

I lost another POUND!!!! Thanks guys! I really am encouraged to continue!

:D

:D I realized that this 1 POUND makes 6 POUNDS I have lost this week! WOW! Thanks Guys! You have made a real difference! We're going the right way now!:ghug: :dn

Oh my gosh! 6 lbs in one week! That's some fast weight-loss!

Good Job!
ashlenosu

:D That's of the 10 pounds I gained real fast on vacation! We went to Frontier City and the Omniplex in OKC and I gained 10 pounds in one week. At the time I thought, well that sucks, but then I realized what and how much I ate in the name of vacation and fun....and well...I guess it didn't just jump on me...But for cryin' out loud...It took me months to get that all off, then only 1 week to put it back on....thank God that this is coming off quick! I'll give Him the glory, but thanks to you all for the support and being instrumental of bringing me out of the funk that I was in! I REALLY am GLAD I found you guys!:rose:

Together we CAN do this :D

I sent you a PM ( private message ) I know you are new here so I hope you understand how to check your PMs.

Have a wonderful weekend!

Jade

:) I replied to your pm...thanks for sending it. You really made my day.

:) Am doing really good not eating when bored...this place has helped stave away boredom...but gosh will I be glad when I can be doing some more exercise. Doc says I get the stitches out on Thursday morning and then I am good to go!
Funny thing is, is today, it really doesn't hurt too much...my arm really hurts where they gave me the tetanus shot...but the doc says it's normal for it to be bumped up the size of a golf ball and to be red and itchy and hurt like I got hit with a baseball bat.
Boy, is that good to know...cuz I was really worried there for a minute...LOL...Best thing is, the pain in my arm really has taken the attention away from the leg.
Thank God today isn't a hungry day! I think the lack of exercise is affecting my appetite...I'm not hungry at all. Boy, will I be glad to move around a reaaallly lot! I want to feel the sweat dripping down my back! I'm so glad I found out that I love to exercise.
When you are doing it, sometimes it seems you do it cuz you have to...kind of nice to get to the point where we do it cuz we want to!
:D

Tryin2,
Welcome to DT. You will find a lot of support here and you are not judge because of your weight. This is the only site that I real go to any more. You will make it on your journey to success. You can do all things through Christ.
Wishing you the very best.

Alampkin

Hi Trying2,
I'm so happy I found your journal! Congrats on your weight loss so far!
You have been through so much in your 37 years and YET you are still STANDING. You have a very strong spirit. Do you know that?
Whatever you put your mind to do you will accomplish in God's name.

Keep that chin (and leg) up!

Mia

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Today I stepped on the scale and had dropped 2 more pounds! That's 8 Pounds Gone! Wow! Thanks to the best support around I now have "the I can accomplish all things through Christ Who strengthens me" attitude!!! Thanks Guys!:D
I have been staving off boredom (and boredom eating) by reading and posting, and reading and posting, and well, reading and posting here, ya'll are probably getting tired of my opinion, but hey...I'm enjoying this place and loving you all!
Also, I have been reading, doing crosswords and doing seek and finds and actually got out and drove yesterday.
The knee did fine. Arm still hurts a lot today, but I'm planning to be in the gym on MONDAY!!!!!!!!! I will just enjoy the weekend. We are actually getting some well needed rain, so that makes it kinda nice. I may sneak in a NAP today...and then go to Church tonight.
The kids have been trying to get me to watch tv or movies...but I don't get into that...which of course they can't understand...but Thank God they love me enough to be concerned. They've been cleaning and cooking and it's so nice to have great kids. My son is one of the best cooks in the world. When he grows up, he may be your chef!
Husband's cooking has kept several restaurants in supply for many years, but he has changed vocations, but still does most of the cooking around here. I'm really blessed. (NO WONDER I'M BORED!!!!) LOL!
Now don't get concerned about me, there is still schooling the kids, laundry, laundry, laundry............(ever notice that's a job that you'll always have? I thank God we have clothes though! We just have so many! Well He DID promise that we would have Way More than Enough...HUH? LOL).
There is ironing, but Thank God my son and daughter insist on ironing their own clothes! It has to be done just right...ya know...I'm glad I can't do it the way they want it done! No skin off my back.... Any how, you see I have a lot of help, and my 10 year old just likes to cuddle, hug me and give me lots of kisses.
That really does a lot for you. Sometimes, I think Jesus sent her just for that reason... a little of Himself in a package called "JAYME"...just as sweet as can be and content to just be a lovebug.
Thank you all for stopping by and encouraging me. I hope that I will be an encouragement to you as well.:rose:

:water:
I was just thinking about something...Here all year I've been working out and working out and following everyone's plan but my own...Lost some weight and gained it ALL back but one pound...I find this place, hurt myself, don't exercise much while I'm layed up...just not eating when I'm not hungry..."RELAXING"
and having a good time plugging away with you all and What to my surprise? Since I started here I have already lost 8 pounds!!!! Hmmmmm....work, work, work...worry, worry, worry....lose a little weight and gain it back.....

relax, enjoy life and have fun, eat only when hungry, don't eat when you are not...fit in some activity...And the BEST SUPPORT SYSTEM EVER!(i.e. YOU GUYS!!!:) )...I think we've found a key!

What do you think ?

Hmmm....I'd say we GOTTA GIVE GOD GLORY!
Praise You, Jesus!!!!!! Haaaaaaaaaa! I'm so happy, can ya hear me singin' and dancin' ooohhh owwww owww owww...to quote Richard Simmons. LOL:D

Hi Tryin2lose....I am glad you got some rain. We got just a little bit Saturday morning.I am looking at the radar on tv this morning and there is rain all around us but not any up in this N.E. corner of Oklahoma.It is nice to meet another Okie.

You sound so positive, it is a blessing to read your journal.:) I look forward to meeting you here in DT and checking out your journal.

toodle loo:D :wn

:rose: Thanks Old Mom for visiting my journal. I appreciate it and your support!
I am still at 202 this morning and actually it is a 101 1/2
so am really stoked. Yesterday, my husband cooked the meats on the grill for the month...He's good about that and it keeps me out of the kitchen, which is great for me! Gives me more time to exercise and do other stuff. So then we just pull out a piece of meat and throw it in the microwave and add some veggies, milk and maybe a bread and we are good to go. Topped off with fruit for desert and everyone can just eat when they are hungry and we have a sit down dinner once a week. (I hate sit down dinners and so does my family...we are all so used to eating when we are hungry, that a dinner all together seems forced, cuz it's hard for most of the family to eat when not really hungry...I've done them right)...At least the kids will never be obese! Thank God!
I was raised in the "clean your plate or else" generation...funny how we are adults and these things still affect us! OLD HABITS may look hard to break, but they are not...I will go through them one by one as if they were paper.
It only takes 30 days to make or break a habit...and if I need another 30 days to make it stick...Hmmm...I just may be running out of bad habits! Thank God there's always room for improvement or we'd really get bored! LOL!
I'm going to quote myself from another place I posted this morning...It's about being a blessing to others....
Today I'm going to bless my kids, I will take them to the movies, which will really be a blessing to my husband, because he can have a quiet house in which to relax while he puts in my new garbage disposal which will really bless me!
Do you think I'm really a blessing to others or just reaping the rewards of what I sow? Hmmm, or maybe I'm a tad selfish...LOL...
Motives?????? Actually, I do WANT to be a blessing...I do WANT to see this movie and I'm not sure it's the one the kids want to see, and I do WANT a new garbage disposal and I really DON'T WANT to be here when Hubby puts it in......for reasons most women already know...I don't want the children to pick up any foul language and I don't want to get stuck "helping" and getting yelled at....
Okay, okay, the votes are in: SELFISH!!!!!!!!!!!!

(But with good reason!) LOL :rose:

Hi trying2Looz
WOW what a journal, Losing all that weight. You are doing so well, It's other peoples enthusiam that helps me stay motivated.
I prefer to sit down with my family and eat together, but that is just my oppinion.
It is a pity that so much of the good times we had when we were younger are blotted out by bad memories, things that are best forgotten.
What I like about DT is that no-one seems to judge you for your weight or how much you earn, and there are so many helpful people here.
Good luck on your weightloss journey.
Take care
Ellie

I just posted this somewhere else, but it really needs to go in my journal. I want it here, since the journal is so personal and important to me. I know at some point I'm going to come back and read this and know that I've come a long way. Life happens and so do mistakes...and I want to learn from myself and all of you here at diettalk.com. I feel so blessed to have found this...today, I felt bad and I wasn't planning to come here, but I did and it pulled me out of my funk really quickly. I know this place is a blessing!
So here's the story:

I just binged at the movies...again...I don't know why we do this! I want to lose weight...I ate a whole bag (and at the movies they're bigger than at the store), of Reese's Pieces...and some popcorn...I don't care about the popcorn but no way should I have polished all those off by myself. I wanted to purge so bad...I have a little prob with that...but I didn't purge...but I still feel bad about the binge...One thing is that I used to continue the binge all day or feel like a complete failure...but now I kind of just say okay, I did it, I'll just go on.
I was in the bathroom debating the purge, when I just thought, okay, I can work this off instead of just getting rid of it. This may sound sick to some, but it is how some of us live...the only really bad thing it did was make me dizzy since I don't eat that much sugar anymore...But see I didn't blow the whole wad, and right now is a new moment and I don't have to feel bad about myself. I'm really learning from these experiences and pretty soon, the feeling bad about it later will help me to portion control my little "treats"... Treating is okay, bingeing is not.
I don't know why, but sometimes we over do the "treats", but most of the time I don't over do and can portion control myself, so at least I'm not where I was, I may not be where I want to be, but I praise God that I'm not where I was! Make sense?
One thing, I'm really glad that I'm not the only one and I'm glad I didn't have to deal with it on my own. I came here and read some posts and came across someone else's binging moment. Thank you for posting, even if it wasn't your greatest moment.
Sometimes we need these too, to realize that we are all human. I mean it's great for people to post that they didn't break any of their "rules and lost weight"...we certainly need those, but we need these, too. That is what support is...is looking to someone like you. I don't expect you to be perfect, but I do expect to be able to see that you did this, you acknowledged it, but more , "how did you handle it and get over it". That is what helps us to handle our mess ups and we all have them. Sometimes we admit not being perfect, sometimes we don't, but God bless you for writing this. It helped me a lot. '

Hello,

You sound so upbeat and i saw how your daughters name is jayme. my youngest(a boy) is Jamie.
I also strongly beleive in God and he is in my daily life andi too feel blessed with the simplist of things.

as far as binging we all have done it with thoughts of purging it out. for me if i really crave something especially candy i chew it then spit it out. just the taste i get but i dont swallow it. i know it sounds gross but it works when i cant resist it.

well your doing good so keep strong and take care.

Dear Texas,

I am so glad you didn't purge ..... AND YOU MADE A TERRIFIC CHOICE IN COMING AND POSTING IN YOUR JOURNAL. No one here at DT judges us for our mistakes .....

One day isn't the end of your journey ..... it is a DAY OF DISCOVERY ...... YOU LEARNED SOMETHING ABOUT YOURSELF AND TOMORROW WILL BE A NEW DAY WHERE YOU WILL PROVE THAT SUCCESS IN YOURS TO BE ACHIEVED.

Don't :whip: yourself up .... and don't punish yourself .... GOING OFF TRACK IS PART OF THE LEARNING PROCESS WE ALL HAVE TO GO THRU. Make it a great evening. Take care. As always, Monica

Thank You Minnie for visiting me and encouraging me when I am needing it the most.:)

Monica, thanks for entering your encouraging words as well. They really do mean alot. People sometimes think that words don't carry power. They certainly do for good or evil. I'm glad to see so many powerful words coming my way...Praise God!

Today as I was praying, I was feeling sorry for myself about always trying to work so hard to lose weight and end up falling down...when God showed me "Work Smarter, Not Harder."
I am going to ponder those words and keep them close to my heart as I learn exactly how to put that to use.
I'm going to learn to bloom where I'm planted and to be well balanced.
Just for records sake, I was going to keep this next information to myself, but I'm deciding to share my embarrassment with you all, in order to help myself. My binge yesterday showed up on the scale today. I'm glad I didn't purge, but it is dissapointing to see the evidence on the scale. I wish I didn't have to see the evidence of my binge at all...I just don't know if it's better to see it in the toilet bowl or on the scale. I know that sounds gross, but either way, my out of control behavior shows up.
The best way to fix out of control is to get it under control...New plan...don't have eating rules. Nothing is off limits to me. I can have what I want, in moderation. I don't have a need to overeat, because I now have food to eat every day. I will not starve if I don't have food...(In the weight range I'm in....I wouldn't starve if I didn't eat for six months straight....My body has enough fat on it to feed the Donner Party for months!) Okay, enough of the joking, but really, I won't starve and that is the point that I need to make for myself.
Of the "So much food, so little time" attitude...Go Away!
Of the meals I won't be eating....OH WELL, there are still plenty of times to eat...If a person ate once a day, that is 365 meals a year. 2X a day is 730 meals a year and if a person ate 6 small meals a day...that is 2190 meals a year....so I think that is an awful LOT of food. Get a grip and quit feeling deprived! Flesh, You are not going to order me around.
I can control my food!

Since I change my weight on my profile to reflect my losses, I'm changing it to reflect my GAIN>>>Yes People I gained...Yesterday I weighed 201.5, today I weighed 204.5 ... Now do I think Reese's Pieces were all that good for me or my body and so good that I had to eat a whole bag???? No. If I ever feel like binging...I will remember this experience and it will help me.
I have the mind of Christ, I'm too smart to binge. I won't sabotage myself. I won't sabotage myself. I won't sabotage myself. I'm worth being good to. I deserve to be thin and to look good and to feel good. I am not a bad person. I have done bad things and I have had bad things done to me, but I let go of what lies behind and press on to what lies ahead. In the mean time, I will enjoy my life and my family. I will play with my kids and I will think loving thoughts about myself.
I forgive all who have ever hurt me, including myself and God, I ask You to bless them and save them all and I thank You to bless me and I thank You that something good is going to happen to me today! In Jesus' Mighty Name...Amen and Amen.

(If ya hadn't noticed, my whole life is a prayer!...Thank God He listens!....And answers.):rose:

Well, here's a down beat to add to my journal...this I posted in the Christian part, but I need to learn to just really post my screwed up days and thoughts in my journal...that way less people are likely to know. Putting it here:
I'm feeling so bad today. I'm really trying hard not to. It's just that I can't seem to get my stuff together today. I know for a fact that I've posted at least 2 things that may offend someone and I'm not wanting to lash out, but I'm doing exactly that.
The people here are so wonderful and I feel like I poison other people sometimes by my attitude.
I feel so bad about the binge yesterday, and I know it wasn't even the worst thing...In my head I keep saying, it wasn't that bad, learn from it...at least you stopped the binge and you didn't purge, but then I feel like I'm just making light of what I did.
I know I am so hard on myself sometimes ...I know it in my head, but to get yourself to really know it in your heart is a litttle more difficult.
I'm really hurting here and I am crying as I type this. I don't care if you all think I'm a big woos or whatever...and I don't even care if you know that I'm not as strong as I'd like to be. I'd love to have it all together and I don't. A lot of times I feel like I'm just ripping apart at the seams. Sometimes I just wish I would. If it weren't for my kids, I really wouldn't care.
Some days, I feel like I can do anything, but then there are days like today, when I just wish I didn't know me. I wish I could escape me and be someone else for a while. I feel like I'm stuck in a body I hate and in a person I hate, all the while knowing I am not supposed to feel like this and I'm supposed to love myself and honor my temple. I started out this morning with a pretty good feeling about my temple...but as the day goes on I just feel worse and worse and just wish today was over.
I'm venting and I feel better and am cried out now, and If I offended anyone today, I'm really sorry. I'm trying to tell you people that I suck, but with God's help, maybe we can salvage some of this wreck and make it shine.

Tryin2lose ...you do not suck!!!! You are a wonderful, honest and sensitive person. You have been through a lot in your lifetime and you can come into your own journal and write your own feelings anytime. That is what it is for. Who cares what anybody else thinks. Like Monica said life is a journey and we learn from each mile we walk it. Sometimes we take a few steps backward. so what, don't beat yourself up over it. Have your cry and your venting and then try it again. I care about you and if you need to pm me or email me then anytime is ok. OK?:D :hug: :hug: :hug: Here are some hugs just for you

Hi Trying2looz
For most of the time I have been here, I have found so much positive things to look forward to in my own life, things that the people around me, the one who tell me they love me put me down for. I have found strength to try to change the things I don't like about my life and me. But Just lately I have found it hard going. So I know it is hard to be positive if you're not feeling that way. Anyone without your strength and courage wouldn't have made it this far. Don't feel bad for not eating as healthy as you planned, it least you have the courage to own up to that and want to make better choices. We are only human after all.
I hope tomorrows a brighter day for you.
Take care
Ellie

Dear Texas,

I know I told you that here at DT NO ONE JUDGES YOU . You will only receive positive support and encouragement ....

Now I am 60 years of age ... I started my weight loss journey when I was 57 ..... and I started it with all the negatives .... I had to learn (and I am still learning) to BELIEVE IN MY ABILITY TO SUCCEED. We are all intelligent individuals ..... we're not stupid but WE ALL MAKE BAD CHOICES

My father used to say to me (more times than I would like to admit) YOU CAN MAKE A MISTAKE ONCE ... YOU CAN MAKE A MISTAKE TWICE .. BUT IF YOU KEEP REPEATING THE SAME MISTAKE .... IT ISN'T A MISTAKE IT IS YOUR CHOICE TO DO SO.

Texas, you came here to DT to LOSE WEIGHT AND ACHIEVE THE GOALS YOU HAVE SET FOR YOURSELF. There will be times you become frustrated, depressed .... and the world you are a part of may bring you troubles ..... we all know what that is like. BUT WE ALL KEEP COMING BACK HERE .. BECAUSE OUR DESIRE TO SUCCEED IS GREATER THAN OUR FRUSTRATION, DEPRESSION OR THE TROUBLES THAT OCCUR.

It is SO APPARENT to me that YOU ARE LEARNING; you're posting your feelings, frustrations in your Journal .... THAT IS A PLUS :up: instead of feeding your face YOU ARE USING YOUR WORDS ..

Each day is a day you create .... YOU HAVE THE POWER AND ABILITY TO MAKE THIS DAY WHATEVER YOU WANT IT TO BE. So you have to keep coming back and posting in your Journal because what you might be feeling is something that needs to be said ..... YOU AREN'T ALONE IN YOUR JOURNEY.

We give you SUPPORT AND ENCOURAGEMENT .... :ghug:; none of us judge you .... PLEASE BE KIND TO YOURSELF .... TREAT YOURSELF WITH THE RESPECT AND LOVE YOU ARE DUE.

As always, Monica

:rose: Thanks guys...I went to the gym tonight and worked the upper body...I will be so glad when the stitches come out and the knee is healed up!!!!
Anyway, I was talking to my trainer and I told her that I just feel awful and out of control and mean and sad and mad, and she said when she doesn't get her aerobic exercise in each morning, she acts like that, too. I was wondering, does anyone else have a problem with depression that seems to really even out with exercise? I really think that is a lot of the problem...well that and self-condemnation.
I am feeling better and I thank You all for the much needed support in my crisis. Hopefully, we'll not have too many outbursts, but Thank God you guys were here for me....I really know I have the greatest support system ever~~~~! Love to all of you....:)

:) Stayed on track today...and thanks to the little bit of a workout...and all of you and thanks to God, My mood is so much better. I don't know what is wrong with me and why I get like that...but Thank God it didn't last ALL DAY!
After the gym, I read a book with my daughter and we played "Ants in the pants" and I didn't think about food, diet, exercise, problems... I really just thoroughly enjoyed her and the playtime! What a Blessing! It's wierd, cuz like I don't recognize when the knots start choking...Ya know? It just seems to happen out of the blue, but thanks to the journaling, I can see that it didn't...it started before the binge...with a little nerves about needing to get out of the house before husband went to work on sink...and I just didn't recognize the stress of the situation...and really it was just fear...so that's that and good night. Tomorrow is gonna ROCK!:D

:D
Today is a new day! Thank God! Anyways...we are now going in the right direction ... I lost a pound! But better yet, is that I was talking with my husband last night and since I tend to beat myself up on MONDAYS...This is what we came up with...
I will treat dieting like a job:
I will eat right and work out Monday thru Friday...
Saturday is laundry, play and Church day...
Sunday is sleep in late and have a nice meal (Sit down and relax meal) with the family, and then find something fun to do together, like the amusement park, or the zoo or swimming...etc...
Saturday will be my official weigh day...and Monday...I will not even look at the scale if husband has to put it in his car and lock it in the trunk and take it to work with him!


Hmmm...It really seems like this will relieve a lot of stress...Cuz really If I have the weekends off, I may not eat the "healthiest" but I know I probably won't "overeat"if I know its only a Monday thru Friday thing...so that will help.

Dr. Phil was talking about his sister going in the closet and turning off the light and eating oreos...Now I don't go to this extent...but I do have a problem with movie theaters...so I was wondering...Do any of you do this?
I don't think it's so others don't see you eat or what you look like and judge what you are eating and how much...alothough maybe a little, but I think it's more so I don't see what I'm eating or how much. (I even try on purpose to not add up the calories in my head or look at the packaging to see how many calories I consumed...at the time I really don't care, but afterwards I really care alot!) Maybe I just want to be free of caring what the heck I eat and how much!
Well, I'm rambling, thank God it's in MY JOURNAL and not everyone in the free world will see it...Like I just had to post my out burst somewhere else yesterday...and I wasn't expecting that much interest or attention, but see, I do this thing...I just realized it...
When I'm "BAD" (for lack of a better word) I call someone or tell someone what I did, then I guess I want them to kind of side with me and justify my behavior...and I tell them the reason I did what I did...so I can reason it out and see if it sounds good....but I think I don't tell the whole truth....I think I just try to figure out a way to justify my behavior to make it sound good...
You know what...this is gooooood...cuz when we were kids...my dad was a reasoner...he was also very abusive and mean....but if you could get him to listen to a good reason and he bought it...ya didn't get beat....
So me and my sisters would do something wrong...and it didn't even have to be a big thing, it really didn't have to be anything, if we just "Percieved" we were gonna be in trouble...we'd find a place to hide...I don't know, someones field or behind a building....whatever and we'd sit their and reason and reason and reason till we came up with something good, and then they'd send me....the little one...to dad to do it...and I'd practice and practice and practice till I believed it so he wouldn't see my eye twitch or any other things to be able to tell I was lying...cuz he could always tell....
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
That is so interesting....Thank God for journaling! Wow!
Problem is...Now that I know "why" I do this....What do I do with it? Pray for me, because I know it was God's timing to show me this and this just may free me up...Not only to I have my fears, but I think my brothers and sisters and parents fears have kind of intermingled with mine...I would be so much better off if I only had my own to deal with...LOL:D GREAT DAY NOW!!!
Any how...I will be doing weekly weigh ins, not daily and it will be on Saturday Mornings!!!!! Wow! I feel so much better now!

:D Guess what????!!! Husband started up an argument and it's the first time I didn't feel like eating! Whooooohhhooooooo!!!!
I am going to take my youngest out somewhere and my oldest is going to a friends, middle one is in a mood too, so I will leave her here with her dad and they can just be in a mood together! That is easy enough!
I just had to let you know that I have a VICTORY!!! And if I can just keep this up...I'll be thin in no time, cuz he's in a mood a very lot....sooooo anyhow...thanks for being here to turn to. I'm OUTIE!:D

:) Today is starting off good. I am doing very well. My daughter and I went to the movies last night and I DIDN'T BINGE!!! Didn't feel the need to. Funny though, as I was heading to use the bathroom, I triggered on purging...and it was so nice to tell myself there was absolutely no need!
Boy, God is good. This journaling and soul searching is really helpful....Funny...I always thought that eating too much was because food "tasted" good or whatever....Reading my journal and my other statements and your alls...I can definitely see that it has NOTHING TO DO WITH FOOD!!!
Anyway am doing The Lord's Table and still using my plan for normal days on the weekends and weighing just on Saturday, but the more of doing TLT...the less I care about the scale. And the less I care about food and just want to be well.
Life is good from this view. I hate it when it feels like I'm under it holding it all up and together...and trying not to drop it on myself.
I posted some jokes in the pub...in humor...hope you all get a chuckle...Remember, laughter does a heart good, like a medicine!
Have a great day!:sweety:

:( I think I may be misconstruing my relationship with my parents here...to a certain extent...I just want to make it clear that I am not parent bashing, nor do I hate my parents...I love them a lot and realize that they have been through a lot as well. I feel bad for them because they are very sorry for the way that they brought us up and sometimes my dad still cries at the way he doesn't know how else to deal with his anger.
His mom was a very abusive woman who was mentally ill and didn't get the help she needed...
My Grandfather was evasive and just drank a lot, so that is why my dad did things the way he did...I'm not making excuses for him...but the reason for MY journal is to learn to change MY behavior. I talk to my parents more than 1x a week and I thank God that they are still alive to talk to and I even witness to them about Jesus, my mom prayed the sinners prayer, my dad loves Jesus but just has some issues too, and hasn't invited Him to be Lord of his life "yet"...but God'll get him...I don't push...I'd hate it if some one pushed me...and I wouldn't do it, just for spite, you don't lure a fish by splashing around in the water.
So anyway, I just want you all to know that I may sound bitter, but my parents and I have gotten this repented of, but it is still affecting me in ways I don't understand. But with God's help...I will be an OVERCOMER and I already AM!:D

:lift: Today has been good, have started The Lord's Table Course
http://www.settingcaptivesfree.com/home/
and I'm on lesson 4. I'm enjoying this a lot. I feel hope, finally that I can actually get completely free from dieting and obesity...That sure feels good! Anyway, thought I'd just check in and say that the day is going good, I rested and did well. I'm off to the gym to lift some weights! Stitches come out tomorrow morning so am really glad! Take care guys and a big
:lift: :up: to me! Ha Ha...Love you guys and thanks for all the support, I appreciate it...will try to get to some of your journals, realized Jade hasn't been in for a while, hope she's not working toooooo hard.
I will enjoy being able to be more active tomorrow. I will make a trip in daily though. I am making this place a huge priority in my life.:)

:D Went and lifted weights, chatted with my trainer and went for a WALK!!!! I walked around at WalMart! I didn't window shop...I didn't need new windows!!!LOL:D

I got a few things, but mostly enjoyed the walk...counting down to morning when I can get the stitches out and hope Doc okays me for at least the elliptical but I'd like to do some step aerobics...I bought a new step...Now one of the girls can work out with me if they want, or I can do mine alone and they can work out together...WHATEVER! Boy, I sure do go on! Anyway, love ya guys...and I'm so glad I found TLT!

:D OH TASTE AND SEE THE LORD IS GOOD!!!!
I am so full of joy today! I have lost 3 pounds on the Lord's Table already, but I don't want to emphasize that ....Guess What?????
I ate RICE KRISPIES AND HAD JUICE for Breakfast!!!! I asked God to help me because I have freedom to eat now...and I chose RICE KRISPIES!!!! Not some High Fiber cereal that I have been eating a long time....And I had Juice, TOOOOOO!!!
And guess what? I was going to measure, well I did measure the rice krispies, but then God said "do you really want to measure?" I said, "no"...I then poured just a little more and put skim milk and splenda...but I thought about sugar, but chose to use splenda, but I ate and this is the first time I can even remember not feeling like I was doing something wrong when I ate! I actually "ON PURPOSE" said, I am doing something good for my body!!! Then as I was eating the rice krispies...I felt like a little kid and even did the "MMMMM" and the little wiggle we used to do when we got chocolate cake or something!
I felt so "Happy"...and another thing...I didn't over eat. When I was full, it was enough and I didn't even finish my juice but I had enough and it wasn't like "YOU PIG YOU HAVE HAD ENOUGH!"...It was gentle like "I'm satisfied"!!! Thank God for this freedom!:D

Trying2looz I am glad you are eating and making good choices, to eat without guilt over the portions or the choice is great.
good luck
Take care
Ellie

Hi trying2looz
I only have a walking journal, I never considered myself brave enough to bare all in a journal, I would probably bore anyone reading it...LOL
Take care

:) Thanks for stopping by guys...Yeah, I'm so glad I have found the answer to all the dieting questions...Wow...what a difference it has made and such a change already in less than a week on TLT...
I have lost 3 pounds there and a lot of stress and anger have flown out of me into this journal. I no longer feel frustration and confusion and have hope now! This is a real Freedom!!! I'm so thankful to Janey for mentioning this program...at first I thought...I just wanna do it by myself...You know like a 2 year old, then I looked at it and tried to find fault somewhere and couldn't, HONESTLY, I couldn't, and it was along the lines I already believe in so I stuck with it...So now am doing that and will stay with it and I am planning to do the 120 day mentor course after. So that is so cool and I'm just telling everyone about it!!!
My best friend is going to start it too! So I am so glad for her as well.
I'm glad to be over the whinies and grumpys and well downright meanness and frustratedness and the I've had its and nothings workings....Wow, was that a mouthful!!!LOL...Anyway, Love you guys!:cheer: :ghug: :bow:

:) Today, God showed me that I have always had the "Feast or Famine" mentality...it's all or nothing...and that about sums it up....especially in "dieting"...because I would get gung ho, lose weight, and then give up and gain it back...over and over the same dumb pounds!
I'm so glad that He helped me to see the only 1 time I was really successful with dropping sizes like they were nothing was when I had depended on Him and looked to Him and let Him help me....
But somehow, I got off track and gained it all back, that is why I'm so glad to have the daily teachings that keep me focused on Him and not on me! I am so glad to be free from the "diet"...and I thank God that He led me here to diettalk.com...thanks guys and a special thank you to Janey and Ciecie and Jade and GayeLynn....Thanks guys...and to all my fans...well...LOL JUST KIDDING....LOL:x

Hi trying2looz
I found going on and off diets was what led me to that awful weight gain weight loss roundabout, I now consider my eating patterns as a way of life, If I don't make good choices I gain weight, and I call it a bad day, For me as long as the healthy choices out weigh the not so healthy, I am still doing good. Could do better but If I want to lose weight and maintain a loss. This has to be a way of life. when you said you gave up and gained it back, don't give up.
Take care
Ellie

Thanks for stopping by my journal. It means alot to me. I understand what you mean by feast or famine. That's why I am trying not to think about this as dieting this time. I want this to be a lifestyle chage that effects my whole family. Heaven know it wouldn't hury dear Hubby to lose a pound or two too. 8-}

I am going to check out this progam you are using. thaks for posting it in your journal. I will let you know what happens. thaks again!

Brenda

The following was taken from the day 7 course of the Lord's Table....I hope that it will bless all of you.


You've been on "The Lord's Table Adventure" for about a week now, friend, and you may benefit from an advance warning of what may be waiting for you a little down the path.

Whenever we seek to walk out the Lord's desire for our holiness by stopping sinful habits, there may be an unexpected effect after a time. Many of us have used food to self-medicate or cover up some uncomfortable or downright painful heart issues. When we stop using the food to distract ourselves from what's going on in our hearts, these deep things can rise to the surface and make us wonder what's going on. Some students have discovered old fears resurfacing--fears of being vulnerable if their bodies are attractive again. Others have rediscovered the pain of long-buried disappointments, or abuse, or emotional starvation from many years before. Still others report feeling numb or depressed because they had been depending on food for comfort or encouragement or even entertainment, and suddenly it wasn't there anymore.

We want you to know this may happen, and if it does, don't fear this good thing. As you grow in intimacy with the Lord Jesus and feast on Him, He knows these deep things of the heart will surface, and He wants you to invite Him into those previously hidden places. He wants you to give Him your feelings, your fears, your disappointments and pain. Psalm 51 says, "I know that You desire truth in my inmost parts," and He deeply desires you to be honest with Him about what's going on inside. Friend, the Lord wants to shine His light into your darkness, and He wants to bring not only freedom from your bondage to food but healing to whatever caused you to be in bondage in the first place.

One student wrote, "As God has given me victory over overeating and my relationship with Christ became more intimate, other sin issues began to come to the surface also. For those who have been in bondage to overeating for a very long time and are becoming free, dealing with other sin issues and not being able to turn to food any longer may be quite overwhelming. To know that this may happen and be prepared for it when it occurs might be helpful."

So. . . heads up! Don't let discouragement rob you of the joy ahead! God is at work in you, doing a marvelous work of grace and glory. Let Him have His way with you!

Excellent advice, Sue, thank you! Along with that advice, let me show you a very well written email that just came through on the discussion group, which should provide further warning as to this same issue. This email is posted here with permission from the author of it:

"Hi everyone! Last night, the Lord ministered to me in a very special way, as I was having trouble dealing with my emotions, and I just wanted to share my experience with you in the hopes that some of you will be encouraged by it.

Last night, I got home from work, and for no particular reason, I just felt like crying. Maybe I was in a hormonal flux, who knows? But I was just troubled by this vague feeling of sadness and I didn't know where it was coming from. So my knee-jerk reaction was to immediately start thinking of what I could eat to get rid of this feeling. But I was immediately convicted and knew I needed to turn to the Lord for comfort instead. So I took my journal out on the balcony to pray, and not really knowing what to pray, I just told Him about my sadness, not understanding it but knowing that He did, and just asked Him to join me in it. I just wanted Him to share my sadness with me. Then I sensed His answer in my spirit was something like, 'Yes, not only will I share it with you, but I've already carried the full weight of it all the way to the cross.' And He brought me to Isaiah 53:4 'Surely He has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows.' So we just had an awesome time of fellowship together in the midst of my sorrow, and by the end of it, I was literally singing and praising God! Hallelujah that I don't need to be afraid of my emotions any more. I don't need to hide from them or use food to supress them. I can face them, knowing that God is greater than all of me."-Helena :rose:

Hello,

I just love reading your journal. I know many times in my life i have turned to God for many things and he has always answered me. I was wondering what plan is "the Lords table"?
I see your doing very well too so congrats on the 3 pound loss this week.

you are inspiring and i can feel your happiness and determination through your words.

take care.

The Lord's Table as close as I can describe it is the Lord's answer to dieting...It is complete freedom! For me, It is the answer to prayer...

It is a free 60 day ONLINE course, Bible based and very practical and they have an eating plan you can follow, or you can follow your own. You can do what God leads you to do. I have kind of been following their plan but made it to suit my needs better....
So anyway, it shows you why "diets" don't work and what does work...See obesity and over eating has nothing to do with food, only the way we "use food"...anyway, here is a link...

http://www.settingcaptivesfree.com/home/

After that, if you'd like you can take the course again, they kind of don't want you to do that...I just print out my daily lessons for future reference..or you can take another course to become a mentor and it is 120 days...so that may be an option to stay on course and learn how to help others, I plan to do that,.any how, they have message boards for support, I use this place...I love diettalk...I really don't go to their boards but Janey does...Janey is in here too, she is the one who told me about this program...her screenname is Janeypoo...and she follows her weight watchers eating plan while doing The Lord's Table...so you see there is a lot of freedom there...
Also they have a walking in the Lord thing you can do too, it is really freeing...and it has the same principal...when we eat, we ask the Lord to satisfy us..and we don't turn to food when we have something besides "hungry"...we turn to God to satisfy, and when we exercise we "walk with the Lord"...having a blast in Him, enjoying His creation! Having fun with the kids....
So you are not focused on just exercising to burn calories....YOU know drudgery...
You get set free from emotional baggage and that is where I am at if you read my journal, it's not really about food, it's about emotional baggage and getting rid of it...
I posted in the Christian Dieters that :
It is funny how our exterior looks like how our interior feels...and how we are so greatly blessed that Jesus is a carpenter and He will clean up and decorate the interior, then the exterior will look like the interior! Beautiful!

By the way, they have a ton of other free courses too! Like quitting smoking, lust, marriage( I'm going to take that one to learn to be a better partner)...Now that God is setting me free, I can see why I have some of the marriage situations I have...I thank God my husband is so caring and understanding...God made him just for me...cuz no one else could put up with it...LOL...j/k....:D and they have even more, but the Lord's Table is the tool that God is using for me right now.

:D Update since today was weigh in day at The Lord's Table...I have now lost 4 pounds!!! ON their program...made to suit my needs...LOL....I have lost 9 pounds since being at diettalk.com...I started fellowshipping here on July 28th, 03...so that is alot of typing in just a couple of weeks!!! Aren't you glad I'm not sitting next to you yakking in your ear...at least here, you have the option to "fast forward"...LOL...So anyway, just thought I'd keep ya'll posted!
Freedom of baggage makes me feel like I could soar like an eagle though!!!!
:spring: :curtsey: :spring:

:wave:

Just a quick pop in to see how you are doing - and WOW look at you 3 lbs gone!!!!!! :cheer: This is super! I am very proud of you.

ASAP I am going to go to the site you posted and check it out - sounds wonderful :)

Jade

Jade...I am so glad you came to see me! I have been missing you!!!:rose:

This is an e-mail I sent to my mentor at The Lord's Table today after I finished my first week's lesson. I thought it kind of sums things up and thought it might bless someone here.

Lynda,
It already seems strange that I will not get daily emails from you, but Lynda, Thank YOU! Thank you for praying for me...God really has and is continuing to change me...today as I was doing my lesson, I was looking up some Scriptures and God made me realize that I had been selfish and today I really made Jesus the LORD of my LIFE...I have been saved a long time...but you know, He gave me the "revelational knowledge" and Lynda, as I was bowed down worshiping Him and repenting for expecting Him to do what I want and telling Him that I am subject to Him and to help me to obey Him, He said " you are a joint heir" with Me...and I just continued to worship at His feet, then when I got up, He gave me a vision and invited ME to join HIM at His Table...to sit and eat with Him...I just stood off, kind of shy, and He invited me again...and the story of the dogs eating the scraps off the floor ran through my mind, and just as quick, the Lord erased the thought and image and I sat at His Table...then He gave me revelation about "Why" this program is called "The Lord's Table"....Amazing!!!!

Thank you for being my mentor! You know, when I first started this I was so miserable and really frustrated over "diets and exercise and all the addictions"....I was so sad and mad...then I came here and God completely set me free. Yes I lost weight this week, But now it's not just about that for me...I lost all the "weight I had been carrying around"...and I'm amazed at the story that was in this lesson about the Lord taking our hurts and things to the cross with Him...you know, you know that He took your sins and sickness and disease with Him, but I have been praying and trying to get Him to understand my pain and anguish and how I've been treated and even cried and was angry with Him wondering "where was He when I was being beaten and abused and hurt and told how rotten I was"...Where was He when people were doing things to me that hurt me?...Then when that lady said that He not only knows how she feels, but He "carried it"...I envisioned my pain being that cross He carried and now I'm free and light...You know it's amazing that our exterior is just a mirror image of what is going on in our interior! I thank God that He is setting me free, and that as a result of that I will have the burden of the excess physical weight taken off my body to represent the baggage that is being tossed aside and thrown into a heap, not to be seen again.
Thank You for praying for me!!!! Thank you so much for being here right now.
In HIM and eating and feasting on Him...Darla


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Just wanted to stop in and say I lost another pound, so that is 5 lbs. In one week of the Lord's Table and 10 since starting at diettalk. Thank God and thank you all for the support! I'm so glad that I found this place and good friends here, too!!!
I see a lot of you are doing well, too! Makes you really feel good, huh? I'll give God glory with YOU!
Anyway, so I have already met my September Goal, that's just like God, to give you way above what you could dare ask for or even dream!!!!!!
When I put the goals down for 2 pounds a week...I was sweatin'!!!! I just really didn't think it could be done. Now I know that in MY OWN power and trying "diets" it wouldn't have worked! But thank God, He turns us to Him and then He exceeds what we can even dare to hope for!!!!
He's so cool! B-)
Anyways, Have a good Sunday and I'll check in again tomorrow!!!!

By the way, that makes only 65 pounds until I reach that goal now!!! And it DOESN'T seem impossible! WITH GOD, all things are possible...I used to think that meant that God could do the impossible, which is true, but what He showed me, that when I'm in agreement with Him (with God), Nothing is impossible!:jn

Hello,

i went to the website and i joined The Lord's table. i will try it and hope it is what i need. Thanks so much for sending me the info.

glad to see your doing so well and still losing wt. i have hit a standstill and hope to lose this week.

take care.

Today the girls and I walked in the park for an hour and then I let them play. I really need to stay in balance with the exercise. Also, I'm breaking the addiction to the scale! I'm only going to weigh once a week for records sake...No more will I let the numbers on the scale determine my day!!!!
Now that IS freedom! I not only have freedom from food and diets and eating for wrong reasons, but I also am being set free from the scale and balance in exercise...WOW! God is so GOOD!

Hi 'Tryin',
A couple of years ago I started to keep a journal on Diettalk. For various reasons, I would forget to write in it for months at a time.
On Saturday I decided to look it up again and use it (until I forget again). :) I had some extra time which I used to peruse some of the other journals. Yours must have been close to mine that day because yours was one that caught my attention. Anyway, I want to thank you for mentioning the web page for The Lord's Table. I checked it out and joined. So far I am doing well. Thank you for your part and best wishes to you as you do the lessons too.

Hi Trying2looz
just popping in to see how you are doing, I am pleased to hear that enthusiam and contentment in your writing, It is so uplifting and inspirational. You are doing so well.
Take care
Ellie

Tryin',

Thanks so much for your visit to my journal.

Wow, I didn't realize how much you were doing already with The Lord's Table. You are doing just fantastic, I really have to get over there and check it out more.

You are really being a blessing here at DT. That is great. Keep it up.

:spring::ghug: :spring:
Wow, I have been blessed with so many visitors!!!! Thanks to all of you who have stopped in. I 'm so glad to hear that some of you are interested in The Lord's Table!!!! Janey and Ciecie, and GayeLynn and alot of others have visited the Christian Dieters Post called It's Time For Jesus To Shine!
I hope you all get a chance to get over there and say "hi" as well! I am so blessed!
Jetall, Thank you so much for stopping in and saying hello and giving me encouragement. It really means a lot to me!
Ellie, I hope you are doing well! Thank you sooo much for posting in my journal. It means a lot to me!
And Nancy, I really can't call you crazy, lol but yeah, I think you will find the freedom from dieting that The Lord's Table has to offer! It is such a blessing to me. When I first came here a couple of weeks ago, I was so depressed and frustrated and was about to give up on trying and trying and trying to lose weight, and following everyone's advice and not getting anywhere, and Janey posted a link for The Lord's Table and I've only been there a week, but OH THE DIFFERENCE IT HAS MADE IN MY LIFE!!! Wow! I pray that all of you will be blessed in Jesus' Name, Amen.
Thank you all for stopping in to say hello. You don't know how much you have really made me feel welcome here. I am so glad I found diet talk, all of you people are so great and supportive...This is the nicest bunch of people on the whole wide web!!!~o) :spring:

Hello,

Iwanted to say that ive been doing The Lord's Table too and it is wonderful. i wanted to ask you did you do that fast yet nd if so what is allowed on it? is it only liquid? im suppose to do that tommorow and just wondering. if you could let me know i would appreciate it.

anyways i lost a pound since yesterday and temptation is easier to resist. its amazing....

wanted to say hello and i added you to my buddy list and see we have some common ground. i am also married with 3 children and i like to read and amusement parks. going to one on the 23rd.

well hang in there and take care.

I am going to add some things to my journal that we have been discussing in "IT'S TIME FOR JESUS TO SHINE" in the Christian Dieters...Some of you may not read those posts and so I will post the good teaching here as well...Boy...double postings...I'll be a senior diettalker in no time...LOL


Today I want to remind us that in our own strength, we can do nothing...sometimes God will even hinder our efforts if we are trying to do something in our own strength.
We are not strong in ourselves, but He is our strength. "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me....And surely I am with you always" (Matt.28:18b.20b). We will receive the power of the Holy Ghost coming upon us. This, therefore, is the secret of effective service. You will ALWAYS feel your own lack of power; but as you go forth obedient to the orders of the Head, the Head will follow up your obedient steps and render effectual your service.
Christ NEVER sends His people on any ministry without equipping them, sustaining them AND rendering their work effectual. Your usefulness does not depend upon your natural gifts or conditions, but upon your CLOSENESS to your Head (Christ):rose:

I really don't think Janey will mind if I put hers in here, too....

Did God Say, "You shall not eat"?

Now the serpent was more subtle than any other wild creature that the Lord God had made. He said to the woman, "Did God say, "You shall not eat of any tree of the garden?" Genesis 3:1

Not many people worry about a personal Devil today, but something keeps bedeviling us just the same! One would put the matter like this:

The devil is voted out,
And, of course, he's gone;
But simple people would like to know
Who carries his business on!

Adam and Eve had not been in their slightly restricted Eden very long when that wicked old snake sidled up to them and sneered, "Oh, yeah! Did God really say that? If he did, he probably didn't really mean it. He was just throwing his weight around, wanting to keep you in your place. Go ahead! Just this once won't hurt."

If you got started on a diet and stayed with it three days, this would be about the time to expect a visit from that old devil "Snake-in-the-Grass." Remember what we said about your doctor's God-role? Something will say to you, "Should I really take this matter so seriously? After all, my father and mother were healthy right up to old age. I can start this diet again when I really have to do it. These doctors aren't always right."

Every now and then we hear about someone "going to the devil" Actually, you don't have to do that. The subtle old serpent of temptation will find you out and follow you. But you don't have to accept his advice. Remember that YOU---your wiser self---are in charge. If you make the decision today, it will be easier to stay with it tomorrow.


A verse telling you what the Lord want to do in regard to your old eating habits.....why memorize it?

"I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of ( the land of overeating) Egypt so that you would no longer be slaves to (your appetites) the Egyptians; I broke the bars of your (food addiction)yoke and enabled you to walk with heads held high ( in freedom)." (Leviticus 26:13)

The Spirit of Gluttony

The devil is a tyrant...first he tries to get you to do something wrong, then he beats you up with it and not only that he tries to get you to feel so bad about yourself, then as if that isn't enough, he runs and accuses us to God and says how weak we are!!! WHAT A BUM!
Now that IS LOW!!! NO WONDER God made that serpent crawl on his belly for all eternity for allowing satan to use him that way!
I hate the spirit of Gluttony and he really is a tyrant!
Tyranny is a VERY STRONG word, one that describes an actual "stronghold". It describes a process of thinking so oppressive and hopeless that those under its domain soon become depressed and dissillusioned. Those under tyranny are held captive beneath the heavy weight of constant failure, pressure, and accusation. Tyranny creates a bondage so far-reaching that its tentacles are felt in every area of life.
Webster's Dictionary defines a tyrant as "one with a tyrannical or compulsive influence."
A tyrant can never be pleased. No effort presented by his subjects is ever quite good enough. A tyrant will not grant any lasting approval to those in his vice grip, for tyranny gains its power through constant "dissaproval and abuse" of its subjects. Those under its power labor tirelessly under the false hope that one day they will please their master and be rewarded. THEN they will be whole, happy, free, and LOVED.
But this is a LIE! This taskmaster will not be pleased; he refuses to be. He is always manufacturing yet another image of perfection with which to taunt his subjects-one that is younger, stronger, thinner, and more beautiful. Though you know you can never match this image, you continually "strive for acceptance".
There is a way of escape. If you are imprisoned, YOU CAN BE FREE! If you know someone who is a prisoner, they too can escape. There is a path that leads to freedom. Perhaps you've tried and failed and tried and failed over and over and over again. Maybe you are discouraged and frustrated, or like me, YOU HAVE JUST HAD ENOUGH!!!! NOW is the time to walk away from it all and it is that easy!
I want to radically interrupt your torment! You can be free from eating disorders and addictions...You have heard me say before, or should I say, I've posted about how our outer body reflects our inner turmoil...but this captivity did not start on your outside...It began in secret, deep down within, and it has worked its destruction from the inside out. You have believed deep-seated lies when they were whispered into the inner recesses of your mind. At first you thought the voice was a friend, so you listened. .."you could look that good if you just lost ten pounds!","Exercise, and you'll look better!" Then the voice intensified it's attack:"DON'T EAT THAT; IT WILL MAKE YOU FAT!""SHE IS THINNER THAN YOU!" "LOOK YOUR STOMACH IS STICKING OUT YOU FAT PIG!" Then "You're Huge! You are so disgusting!"
At first it "seems" like helpful hints to keep you in check, then come the comparisons. Then the whispered accusations progress into a critical nagging obsession. Soon you are not only listening, you're "believing". Deception spreads from the realm of your thought life and spills out until it weaves itself into the very fibers of your physical body. It even distorts the visual perception of your eyes until all you see in the mirror is failure. It continues its constant conversation of correction and comparison in your mind and the voice harasses and accuses you daily. It's hold is so strong it's almost, no, it is, "spiritual". ....Then he'll prompt people close to you to make remarks to you and even strangers on the street will be whispered to and look at you funny and may even remark and the small child who says "Look, mommy, that person is soooo fat...Ha Ha!"

So what do we do about this? Is there hope? YES...Absolutely! The first thing to recognize is that Gluttony is a spirit...

Did you recognize this voice? How loud is it? Do you hear it even when others are talking? How often does it interrupt your thoughts: monthly, weekly, daily, hourly or more often? Are these the words and descriptions of a friend? Can you silence the voice?
This is not meant to frighten you, just to show you that it is not you, it is a real spirit that is bothering you...it has grown from a seed, a word, a disapproving glance, a rejection, a comparison. It was planted deep into the soil of a wound in your soul during a time or many times when rejection or acceptance of you as a person was based on your physical form...or perhaps your person was hurt in such a painful way that you decided to barricade your "self" physically from the world rather than endure that kind of pain again. Or perhaps you just bowed down under the weight of the constant barrage of negative, accusing messages sent by our cultural advertising and negligent entertainment media...
But you shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free!...

You can pray this prayer with me...
Father;
In the name of Jesus, I ask that Your truth would light the paths of my inner heart, that I might hear the still, small voice amid the din of any other influence or opinion. Lord, You have fashioned and formed me in the secret place of my mother's womb, not for bondage but for liberty. Though I cannot go back to the quiet stillness of the womb, I now ask You to fashion me once again, in the secret place of my heart. Create a place of refuge and peace where there has been turmoil and torment. It is safe to be honest with You, for You could never hurt me. You have already proven this by dying for me so I might live. With You, I will be honest, for I know You are the Truth that sets me free....Amen.

God wants you to receive His free gift of salvation. Jesus wants to save you and fill you with the Holy Spirit more than anything! If you have never invited Jesus, the Prince of Peace, to be your Lord and Savior, I invite you to pray with me now, and if you are really sincere about it, you will experience a new life in Christ!

Father;
You loved the world so much, You gave Your only begotten Son to die for our sins so that whoever believes in Him will not perish, but have eternal life.
Your Word says that we are saved by grace through faith as a gift from You. There is nothing we can do to earn salvation.
I believe and confess with my mouth that Jesus Christ is Your Son, the Savior of the world. I believe He died on the cross for me and bore all of my sins, paying the price for them. I believe in my heart that You raised Jesus from the dead.
I ask You to forgive my sins. I confess Jesus as my Lord. According to Your Word, I am saved and will spend eternity with You! Thank You, Father, I am so grateful! In Jesus' Name, amen.

That's it...You are saved and all the angels in heaven are rejoicing over YOU!!!! Wow...

Grow in the Lord now. Find a good Church that will teach the Bible and you can even read it on your own. Bless you !

Part of my teaching today is taken from a book called "You are Not What You Weigh"...escaping the lie and living the TRUTH...by Lisa Bevere.

I have been a Born Again Spirit filled Christian for many years....17 years...and let me tell you, God has done alot of work on me, delivering me from drugs, alcohol, cigarette smoking and even helped me through so many traumas, a child of divorce, physical and sexual abuse, and self abuse, and addiction after addiction, God even helped me through the tragedy of the murder of the love of my life and my son's father. I have been through a child being chronically ill with Addison's disease(We got a letter from my son's endocrinologist this year and I have kept it...It says really big ..."CURED" no need for future visits!!!God healed my son!) and 2 children with asthma and so much more...God has been faithful to give me victory after victory. I'm telling you all this and baring it all so to speak in my journal in this forum to let you all realize that I am a real person and that I have had victory in my life only by the grace of God....
I was so tired of "diets" and just tired of trying to figure out what to attach myself to next....I have been doing the emotional stuff for a while...but sometimes it is hard...I'm going to tell you from the bottom of my heart that God used the Lord's Table daily teachings to set me free from the bondage of diets and "using foods" for reasons other than hunger. I have had teaching along the lines of the Spirit of Gluttony, Eating when you are hungry and stopping when filled and turning to God instead of food when you are bored ....but The Lord's Table...Just brought it all together for me and really set me FREE! I'm not the same as when I first started here at diet talk and I know that it is only because of the Grace of God.
Darla

And here is the lesson I posted for today....One of these days I need to print out my journal and put it in an album to look back on and see how much God has changed me in just a short time...How good He is!



I just love the idea of a God Box!!!! That is the best idea!!! Well the cookie jar was too, but this is awesome, I am going to do this...I'm gonna make a big one for the whole family to use! It will help us all to learn that we need only ask God ONCE and then if the devil tries to get us into doubt or worry, that we need to THANK HIM THAT HE HAS ALREADY DONE WHAT WE HAVE ASKED!...And ask Him to help us be patient while we wait for the manifestation of it... Good One!!!!! I may even buy something special to do this with...Garden Ridge probably would have something we could put right in the living room!!!! Thanks Janey!

My contribution for today is from the lesson at the Lord's Table today.

I have spent money and time on things that don't satisfy me. I have eaten too much, I have drank too much. I have watched too much tv and I have tried to escape my humdrum life by escaping into dream land and fantasizing about a better life...Yesterday, God told me that as we seek Him and love on Him...and learn of His love for us...He will make OUR grasses greener...He will give US increase! Friends, He wants more than anything to bless you so you can bless others...as people see how happy you are, they will want what you have. What do you have that the world can't offer???? Jesus!
You have eternal life! Food and other substances are a "fake" source of security. God is the Real Source! He made your heart to love Him and to fellowship with Him...so your only true source of happiness and heart filling is when you are fellowshipping with God. Nothing else can fill you but Him.
Friends, I used to exhaust myself trying to "fix" myself and be happy. I really didn't realize I was doing it wrong...I thought it was the right way...I didn't know.
I have heard over and over how God gives you satisfaction and how there is a God size hole in each one of us that only He can fill...and I'm saved so I knew that I wasn't in the situation that I used to be...I mean I wasn't looking for Him anymore, but I didn't realize that I was using food for a god.
I didn't know that He continues to fill us and we have a continuing need to be fed. So he gave us physical stomachs as an example of a spiritual need. So just as our stomachs are hungry every day...so is our spirit hungry for God. So just as we feed our body everyday...because we need to...so the same is with our spirit...Just people forget we have one cuz we don't really "see" it...or we are blinded to the fact that we really need God. So, our spirit can't be satisfied with physical food...only with God. Only, you know how sometimes you still want more food and when you are sad you want a pint of ice cream? Yeah, well, see, those are areas only God can fill. Why? Because He made us that way...It is like this:
A car manufacturer makes a car...he gives it a gas tank to make it go. The instructions are to "ONLY PUT GAS HERE"...
So say... you don't really know that the manufacturer means it so you decide...hmmm...I like sugar more than gas so I'll fill my car's tank with sugar.
What happened? The car won't go? Then your husband comes home and reams ya....LOL
Just kidding but do you see what I am saying.
Not too many people would dispute that God created us..I know some do, but for all purposes...let's just say by the chance that I'm on target here...God created you.
He put an area in you that says "DAILY DOSES OF GOD GOES HERE"....You say I will try to fill that area with food, or tv or exercise or a few minutes of reading your Bible so you can say you did it...or even "hey, DAD...How ya doin'?" and running out the door and "I'll catch ya later, DAD...Oh, by the way, I need money to get my car fixed...yeah throw a blessing down here would ya?"
You know how I know this? I've done it too...Got a secret for ya....He knows too...but if you say you are sorry...He forgives ya and says climb up here and snuggle with me and let's chat a while...or enjoy some music together...."...
Anyhow...it is amazing, but if you will do this...you will find that you can live in balance and you can eat food and not have a problem...God gave us food for our use and even for our pleasure, but not in excess...Use balance...
God gave us tv...(I don't think a television should be called "HELLIVISION)...LOL...but in balance...everything in balance...The internet is not...The DEVIL or The ANTICHRIST....some websites may use it as a tool, but God uses it as a tool too...so there...In moderation.

End note: Friends, I have been addicted to many things...I think we have established that...the thing about them is this:
The first time...You get such a high and satisfaction and rush that you want that again. But each time you use it again, you can never quite achieve the same results which leaves you wanting more and more and more...it just doesn't satisfy and it is not lasting and really you just hope to achieve a certain "comfort level" not quite satisfied, but better than before...type feeling. But hey, it's better than nothing, right? and hopefully it will get you through and then you can end the day and go to sleep and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day and I'll be happy and satisfied. What keeps you hooked is knowing that "ONCE , ONE Time it worked...and if it worked once...Maybe just maybe...It will work again...You have hope...But it doesn't...that is why it's a lie...It's a Trap...sigh.
Tomorrow may be better, 2 lbs gone...Yeehah, enough to keep you tied up and then nothing for 3 weeks...,...feel hopeless yet? I know, bear with me...but BUT ...with Jesus, yes we have living water, but as you "feed on Him daily or two or three times a day like physical meals...reading the Word, which is LIVING WATER, and praising or just telling Him you hurt and are trusting Him to make you feel better and not "food"...well He will and you can Feed on Him and the more you do...the better it is...the next time is always "more satisfying"...so you see...as you quit using other gods and turn from everything else...Turn around and Face Him...and tell Him that You need Him and will worship Him and not food or your "self"...then you will fill yourself with the only thing that truly satisfies the empty place....Jesus!
Remember, YOU are not the ONLY person He created that way...so as you find out for yourself it's true...people will see that you have something the world cannot offer....Happiness and Joy IN HIM.

And He won't stop satisfying you either...In Him you can put your trust and He is not a man that He should lie.

Hello,

I wanted to thank you so much for sending me that very helpful PM about the fast. since i am not used to fasting on only liquid for 24 hrs i am going to aim to do skipping in between meal snacks, no hot tea(which i love and have every day) and to cut portions from my other meals in 1/2
i will work myself up gradually to a complete fast for in the future.

but i thank you for all your help.

take care,

Hello Tryin, Well I have not joined yet but I do plan to probley this weekend. I was wondering on the days you fast can you have slimfast? I love water but the slimfast helps to keep you from being hungry. Well I'm happy you are losing weight and getting your life together that is a great feeling!!! Your Friend, Ruthieb

P.S. Thanks for the gallbladder information that is what it sounds like the systoms anyway.

Okay, about fasting...fasting isn't about food, it is about taking time to acknowledge God.
I told Minnie, I remember when I couldn't do a fast...and as it loomed I ducked...I have only been on The Lord's Table a short time but am coming to my second fast tomorrow...

Let me tell you a little about fasting...You need to do what you can do...but don't look at it as just not eating...a fast is meant to take something from your flesh to let God know that you are denying yourself something in order to honor Him or spend time with Him...
Fasting suggestions for beginners: And these are just my ideas you can do whatever you want....
You could fast snacks, or pop, or maybe one meal...or if you are not to that point yet, maybe you could fast watching tv, or doing a hobby you like, you can fast things besides just food...It's like this...say you have 3 kids and you say I'm going to have a special time with each of you...(I do this with my kids so I'm using it...Hey, whatever works...LOL)
So Little Jimmy gets from 3:00-3:30
Little Sue gets from 3:30-4:00
& Stuart gets from 4:30-5:00

Okay, so you are setting aside time for each child to do what they want to do. You turn off the cell phone, the computer and the tv and you hang out in your room with your child...Until the time is up...No distractions...so you see you are letting that child know that they are so special that you want to spend time with them and are willing to set a time to meet with just them...You are fasting...and spending time with your child...so see it is the same with God...Just a little time to let Him know you love Him...See it isn't about the food or the thing you are "giving up"...that is not the point...it's about you and God.
See? And God wants you to love Him and spend time with Him, and He is gentle and kind...if the tummy is rumbling and you want something to eat...eat, maybe fast seconds or dessert or "tea"...lol

Love You Guys....Besides the meals and stuff, are you enjoying the teaching? Are you learning why we have it all wrong???? I hope you are drawing closer to the Lord. :rose:

Hello,

you made alot of sense about the fasting cuz right away i was focusing on what foods i cant have and i now know it isnt even about the food but getting closer to God. so tommorow i am going to try to skip breakfast, eat a small lunch and dinner and skip snacks. i am going to skip my hot tea too.

i will also dedicate some of the day to reading the bible and doing my scripture on the Lords table.

wish me luck as its my first fast.

:D Atta girl...You're getting it! You Go Girl!...You'll do fine...That is why I love the "teaching" at the Lord's Table! I use that as my special time to God, too. I am glad it lasts 60 days, because it will give us time to form good habits and keep us "feeding on Him" and "drinking the Living Water"...each day! It is a great program! I'm so glad they offer it without cost to anyone...today, they had a chance for me to give an offering, but I didn't. I may down the line, but I really didn't feel led to today.
I'm glad you joined...Keep me posted...I am so glad to know you!

:D Checking in to say "HI"!!!
This morning the girls and I walked in the park for an hour and knocked a tennis ball around for a while...What a BEAUTIFUL morning! And so cool out...my nose was actually cold and this is OKLAHOMA!!! I guess a cool rolling wind came across the plains....LOL....I have lived here for like 18 years and still want to break out in song at the mention of the name.....can you just hear me...OOOOKKKKKK lahoma...where the wind comes sweeping down the plains...LOL LOL:D
Anyway...I just feel so silly and giddy...I think it's called "not enough sleep"...School starts tomorrow and as a Home School mom that means a little busier...but not too bad...So I'm practicing...well trying to practice...a new schedule...which involves me getting up earlier and earlier....Just don't want to have to go to bed earlier...I'm shooting for 10:30 pm and that is about as early as I think I care to hit the hay...and I'm planning to get up at about 5:00am...That's a good 6 1/2 hours of sleep...and I think that will be sufficient with a couple of extra hours on the weekends...it's doable.
Today I need to set the school calendar...and let the computer do the rest...Ahh Thank God for Computer programs for basic school needs....I'm happy about this...I was a little nervous about the $$$$ spent to do the computer curriculum...but it was worth it!!!!! I can't believe how much time and energy it will save me! My son goes back to school, he is doing high school at the "actual school" and is 4.0!!!! Yeah!
Anyway, I want to get that done this morning and straighten the house then go to the gym so I can go swimming with the kids and husband tonight. So Happy Wednesday...This is the day the Lord has made! Rejoice and be glad in it!!!:D

HEllO :wave:

Sorry I haven't got back to you.. I did recieve your PM, but have been floating around. Now my head is on straight.. And here I am.

Nice to meet you, And thanks to I now have

~THIS IS THE DAY~~THIS IS THE DAY THAT THE LORD HAS MADE~~ THAT THE LORD HAS MADE~~~I WILL REJOICE~~I WILL REJOICE~~~AND BE GLAD IN IT~~~ AND BE GLAD IN IT~~~ THIS...

Oh sorrry.......

I am going to look up that Web site you posted.

Hi Trying,

Just wanted to write to you today and say I've enjoyed reading your journal (well, I didn't read ALL of it, there's a lot there!), and you've been doing just great. You have really overcome so much and I think it's just amazing.

:D Thanks guys for stopping by to visit! I appreciate that...Boy The Lord's Table Course just keeps getting better and better doesn't it???? Wow, What a Blessing to have found that place! I hope that all you that have found it are being blessed by it, I know I am!
Here is a link for anyone who is interested in being set free from diets :http://www.settingcaptivesfree.com/home/

Enjoy your day...School starts for us today, that means walking the trail in the park from 7:30am-8:30 am then having Bible and Prayer time...Then the Girls to start their lessons....My son will be at school to do his studies and scoping out the girls I'm sure! LOL
Evenings I still hope to be swimming with the husbands and kids well into October...weather permitting, of course..lol
Have a great day...Oh elevi...My daughter sings that song so much it has become a part of us...My older daughter is sometimes grouchy and we'll say "This is the day that the Lord has made...He didn't say to be grouchy and sad in it!"....LOL but True...Then I'll make her say it and perhaps sing it until she is laughing again....Life is too short to live it being grouchy and mad.
:D

Yeah that is a great song. I think I'll try singing it at home this week and see if it makes a difference. My family is usually pretty peaceful but everyone can use a lift from time to time - especially Mom!

:spring:Well, Praise God, tonight at supper (1/2 day for me), I was tempted to eat just one more bite, and I felt Jesus speak to my heart and say "Let me satisfy you"...and I didn't eat to try to satisfy my soul...I remembered that is Jesus' job and food "can't" satisfy anyway....Boy He is so cool! :spring: :up: For Jesus! Yee hah!!!

Hello Tryin, How are you doing? It is the first day of school here and my son came home with homework. I wanted to thank you for the information on fasting I'm think about doing it and praying about our church it is kind of in a mess right now. I think the preacher has lost his mind it is a long story so keep me in prayer and my church. Well got to go for now. Your Friend, Ruthieb

Ruthie, I will definitely be praying for you...I will continue to pray as long as the Lord leads me...I think that The Lord's Table is a wonderful tool that God has used to set me free...I have been giving so much credit to the program...but also want to remind that ONLY GOD GETS THE GLORY FOR THIS!
I love being there because the teaching is so good and it is long enough to really get some good habits formed...Remember...follow the Holy Spirit and then you won't fulfill the desires of the flesh...the Bible doesn't say "overcome the flesh so you can follow the Holy Spirit"...remember...God made everything for an example...our stomachs are an example of our spirit...God made us a spirit being as well as flesh...so he put this hole in us that can only be filled with Him....Salvation fills that to certain extent...first He saves you from hell, then He saves your mouth, and saves you from eating wrong....etc...
So anyway...Just as your stomach needs "food" about 2 or 3 times a day in order to satisfy your body...Your Spirit needs Spiritual Food and Living water which is the Word of God and the flesh of Jesus...And that "God sized hole" is filled...You see? Food is not the problem...Any addiction is You trying to fill God's hole with something else...and God won't allow anything to fill it but Him...God goes there, not food.
Easy...see why I say food is not the problem...and diets are not the answer...God is...Feed on Jesus and you will be surprised at how little food your body really needs and this will satisfy anything...like cigarettes...or drugs...You see...we try to numb the sadness...but you can be happy if you fill yourself up with the Lord...you'll be amazed.
God doesn't expect you to be perfect...there is a 100% chance that you will sin today. Thank God you can repent and go on and be happy. If you feel yourself backsliding...just get on your face before God and say "I can feel myself wanting to go back into slavery of food and I ask you to help me and to satisfy me...Help me to not sin and use food in your place...You belong there and help me to not sin in this area..."
Pray in Jesus' Name cuz He has already done it...2000 years ago,,,, Thank God it is already done and say with your mouth "I'm thin and fit and healthy, I eat right, I look right and I feel right, I eat good, I look good and I feel good. My metabolism is stable for me and I weigh ______lbs. Every part of my body works as it should and I am happy and full of God. I love myself, I like myself and I enjoy myself...Jesus came so I could have and enjoy life and I do!!!!!!
Remember this 1) BELIEVE
2) RECIEVE
3) BE RELIEVED!!!!
FRUSTRATION = WORKS OF THE FLESH....STOP IT...AND START BELIEVING, RECIEVING AND BEING RELIEVED!

Satan tries to steal your joy because the JOY OF THE LORD IS YOUR STRENGTH.... Wanna make the devil mad? Laugh and enjoy your life..."Jesus came so you could have and enjoy life!"
Amen and Amen...Wow! I pray in Jesus' Name that you will have and use wisdom in this situation with your Church...I pray for your pastor...I believe that He has the mind of Christ and I come against demonic activity in his mind and on the Church and the congregation...Lord, You have this in Your hands and I ask you to take care of the situation, and Lord, Bless the people of this congregation and give them wisdom and guide them as to whether they should stay or leave while you are changing the situation in Jesus' Name I pray...Amen...:rose:

Hello,

I am really enjoying the program and do feel closer to God too. today i did a semi fast and i had only 1 small meal and i felt so close to God i cant explain it but it feels so good.

your right there is freedom in this and that feels good too.

we are meant to be on this earth and live happily. only we can make ourselves happy with our choices and yes we do all sin but we can try to follow the right path.

take care and enjoy your friday!

:) Amen to that Minnie...I'm so glad you are drawing near to the Lord. Then He will draw close to you...It is amazing...I love my new relationship with the Lord...I have been a Christian for a lot of years...but this is the first time I really know what it means to really be ONE with Him!
Amazing Grace...Huh?:)

:spring: :bow: :spring:

I decided that I'm going to dare to dream with God...I changed my goal weight to what has been in my heart forever...I do not think it is vain, I'm only 5'2" and that is still on the bigger side...so I'm going to dare to dream...God is far able to do above and beyond what I dare ask or think or even dream! He is the God Who delights to do the impossible...for with God, all things are possible.

Hi Tryin',
Yes, with God everything is possible. I know God will grant you the desires of your heart.
You can check out what is a good weight range for you at weightwatchers.com.

Mia

Hello,

Nothing wrong with picking a goal weight your comfy with. for me i picked 120 to aim for but i would like to also see myself at 110 so once i hit 120 will see then.
i know my daughter is my height and 114 and looks great at that height and my middle girl is 5'2 and 114 also and she looks good too so dont know what will look best on me yet.

I am so glad i met you,. i am finding a huge comfort and strength in God. i am resiting food and it is so awesome.
have a lovely weekend and take care.

Minnie, I never noticed how similar our stats are...We both have about the same goal and as we give God glory...He will change our outers to match our inners...LOL:D

Hello,

I agree with you.

I am feeling so good and in control and getting my comfort from God instead of food.
I have God leading me and showing me the way. I put all my faith in him and I am doing well.

hope you enjoy your saturday and take care.

:D Well, Glory to God! I lost 2 lbs. this week Thanks to Feasting on the Lord! God is so good! Today was weigh day, and I stressed it a little, but God is faithful! As we seek to honor Him and glorify Him even in our eating and drinking...He will reward us. He is a rewarder!

:D I'm off to Church but wanted to stop in and let you know that God blessed my littlest girl with a new kitty. I wouldn't allow her to have one but since she hasn't been sick with asthma for a while I let her friend give her one...It's a siamese and gorgeous.
She is so happy and I am thankful to God because she has wanted one for years. Just thought I'd give a praise report on my daughter's answered prayer...
Ya think she'll try to smuggle it to Church??? I'd better watch for that, but somehow...I don't think our Pastor would mind.
I was wondering if any of you have ever seen my Pastor on TBN...His name is Eastman Curtis...He also fills in for Richard Roberts on Hour of Healing, and He is the Host of Fire by Night....He is so fun! He represents God so well...Many people think that God is mean and so serious...but see Jesus laughed...and He came so that we might have and "enjoy" life...One night before I went to sleep, I was thinking how nice it will be when we get to heaven and we can hear the laughter of our Lord, I awoke to His laughter...He blessed me with "hearing it" I wondered if it was a dream...but realized that it was an answer to my heart's prayer.
Jesus is so cool.....Love you guys....Darla:rose:

Hi Tryin'
As a mother of two asthmatic children I have one suggestion, don't let the cat sleep with your daughter. I know it's not an easy thing to explain to a little girl. I went through the same thing with my daughter but the asthma specialist told me to make their room "animal free" and boy I am so glad I did.
Anyhow, I've never heard of your pastor but I will keep an ear out for that name.

Have a great Monday!

Mia

Hello,

so glad your girl got a kitty to love. God does answer us in mysterious ways.
well today for me is liquids and 1 meal. i gotta hang strong today as i was weakend yesterday at the shower and led astray with all the foods. but today is a new day and i will follow my heart and the words of God.

take care and enjoy your day as well.

Thank you guys for visiting me! I'm so glad to have visitors! Wow! Minnie, today is liquids day for me too, I'm on day 16 today and was it ever good! It was about attacks of the enemy and it was a blessing! Wow! I switched my normal eating days to the weekend to make it easier on me and my family and then Mondays and Fridays are Liquids and Tuesday and Thursdays are 1/2's and Wednesday is my Fast day! I sure am loving it. My daughters are doing it with me to. One is 13 and the other is 10 and I will tailor the teaching and diet to suit their needs.

Today is a Blessed Day!!!!! I expect God to do Good things in my life today! And in yours!!! Amen:D

I love Eastman Curtis, he is on our local Christian radio station a lot. He sounds like a very practical guy and really relates well to younger people, which I like.

I noticed you go to church on Saturdays, can you tell me about that? I grew up in a very strict Seventh-Day-Adventist environment and have since left that church, but my DH and I still go to a nice Bible church on Saturday nights, since he works Sunday morning.

Oh, and I wanted to say I really like your new avatar!

Hi Darla,
wanted to thank you for your Pm wishing me a restful weekend, i appreciate your thoughts! :)
i loved what you posted today about why some are at goal and not others, i laughed to myself when you said that nobody arrives at perfection! you are so right, i have reached my weight goal but i have acheived a lot more than that emotionally which i continue to work on.
have a great week!
hugs bell :)

:D Thanks guys for visiting me...elivi...He is so fun! And really down to earth. His wife and kids are great , too.
I pm'd ya.

Bell, ;) :rose:
Love you guys!!! Hubby is doing dishes, so better go help him...( I really am blessed! LOL)

Thought I'd stick this in here for those of you who may come here to visit me and not visit my other thread in the Christian Dieters Section:

Found This in my Inbox

Just some food for thought here:
Thought this would bless you!

How does one acknowledge God's blessing?
Simple, "Just say, "'Thank you, Lord'."



If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof over head and a place to sleep .. you are richer than 75% of this world.

If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish someplace .. you are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy.

If you woke up this morning with more health than illness . . you are more blessed than the million who will not survive this week.

If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the pangs of starvation you are ahead of 500 million people in the world.

If you can attend a church meeting without fear of harassment, arrest, torture, or death ..you are more blessed than three billion people in the world.

If your parents are still alive and still married .. you are very rare.

If you hold up your head with a smile on your face and are truly thankful, you are blessed because the majority can, but most do not.

If you can hold someone's hand, hug them or even touch them on the shoulder.. you are blessed because you can offer healing touch.

If you can read this message, you just received a double blessing in that..someone was thinking of you, and furthermore, you are more blessed than over two billion people in the world that cannot read at all.

If you have accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, then there is no greater blessing!

:rose:

hello,

I just read that same thing from my e-mail and it had alot of meaning to me about how thankful i am to have what i have and not always wishing to have more.

i got a good book from the library yesterday. called chicken soup for the christian soul. it has 101 stories to open the heart and rekindle the spirit. i posted one in my journal today and will try to post a new one each day.

take care and may God bless you!

HI TRY :wave:

I just wanted to let you know I appreciated your post in MINNIEs journal about the New Testament. Phwew.... So Shrimp is ok. It was interesting to all of it anyhows.

Why were you sorry for posting that? I guess I am confused.... BUt none the less it is all good info........ Thanks........

tryin - that is just beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing it - I would like to print it out if thats ok with you please?

Jade

just popping in to see how you are? I have not seen you around in a bit - hope everything is OK :)

Jade

Hello,

I know you said you would be busy with school starting but wanted to pop in and say hello and hope all is well.
my kids go back to school tommorow:D
i am glad so i can work day hours again but its also a pain with all the homework and such but such is life...

take care.

things must not be OK as I don't see you around DT any more - if you read this and there is anything I can do, please let me know -

I do care!


Jade :)