August 13, 2003
Good morning everyone! Well today is the day. Today I'm starting all over again. Today is the day I start kissing my fat good bye, so that I can give my new found thiness a GREAT BIG HUG HELLO!

Along with this new weight lose journey, comes a new journal. I figure a new beginning in my personal life deserves a new journal.

I'm taking things slow this time and I'm not going to except great results to soon. I know that this is going to be a lot of work. But I also know that I can do it.

Right now I'm working on a workout schedule. for the first 12 weeks I'm going to be doing cardio workouts 3 days a week. Then when the next 12 weeks comes around I'm going to add some more to my workouts.

I weighed in this morning and my official starting weight is 289 pounds. I wasn't surprised to see myself up that high. But I don't want to gain anymore weight. I'm scared that if I don't get serious about my weight now I never will.

From past experiences I know that this isn't going to be easy. I know that I give up way to quickly. I wish that I could say that this time was going to be different becuase I don't know how I'm going to be from day to day.

I'm just going to take this journey one day at a time, one meal at a time, and one moment at a time.


I called my journal Kfoard's Roller Weight Coaster because I look at weight lose as a roller coaster ride. sometimes a person is heading up hill, gaining weight. Sometimes a person is staying steady on the track maintaining their weight. Sometimes a person is going up and down the hills loosing and gaining weight. Sometimes a person is heading down the hill loosing weight.

Right now I'm at the very top of the hill, and I'm about to head on down towards the bottom. When I reach the bottom of the hill, I'll have reached my goal weight.

HANG ON EVERYBODY IT'S GONNEA BE A BUMBY RIDE!!!!

~ Katherine

Hello,

glad to see you started a new journal and are starting your plan again. Dieting is like a roller coaster ride. for me it has been a bumpy ride too but i keep on going.

i also take it a day at a time and a pound at a time. it takes awhile to change lifelong bad habits into good ones and to make a routine with exercise. i was someone who hated to exercise and now i love it. i feel so energized after and its a good way to rid stress.

You havent given up Katherine. when you say you give up easily i guess you do but then again you never quit altogether. you keep coming back so i know you really want to do this.

just go slow and know its a lifelong commitment and journey and im here if you need me.

take care!!!

Hi Katherine,

I think a roller coaster is a very good analogy. Keeping that frame of mind will help us maintain a positive attitude through the gains and plateaus. It also explains all the screaming. :D

Sometimes we all need to start over. Looks like this is your time!

haha, I like the screaming part, haha.

Glad you are giving yourself a fresh start kfoard. We all need that and it is exciting to have isn't it.

Well here is hoping your first downhill is a long one. Hang on tight!!!

August 14, 2003
Oh gosh what an evening I’m having tonight. I was in my room, a huge mess as usual, and I noticed a couple of ants crawling on the floor. Well I’m total ant-phobic. I see one ant and I think their’s like 5000 more crawling near by. I moved some stuff away and sure enough my room had piles of ants. I got the Raid and began to spray my rug. Then I started picking up all the garbage in my room. Gee I wonder what the ants were after? Every time I picked some stuff up, I would see more ants then I would have to spray some more.

About 15 minutes later I had everything piled on my bed, and my dirty clothes in two large green garbage bags. I didn’t want to take any changes that some more ants might be crawling in with my clothes. Tomorrow I’m washing all my clothes to be on the safe side.

Ok I’ve seemed to have gotten off of track. Oh yeah after my floor was complete clear I grapped the vacuum cleaner and I vacuumed my rug over and over and over again. I don’t think I’ve ever vacuumed my rug so good in all my life. Ants are no ants my rug was pretty dusty, so it was time for a good cleaning.

I spent the next half hour getting all my stuff straighted up. I placed everything away in it’s proper place. Being that it’ was so late at night, I didn’t brother getting myself organized. However I’m going to do that tomorrow after school.

When I was picking up my papers I was just tossing anything in the bag. After I was all finished in my room I had look through all the papers in the garbage bag to make sure that I didn’t toss anything out that I needed.

Well now my room is picked up and looks a lot better. Believe me I’ve learned a lesson tonight. From now on no more food wrappers or soda bottles in my room at all. My room is going to be vacummed at least once a week, and along with a good dusting.

That was the highlight of my day. This morning I went back on ww and today I did really good. Up until dinner tonight. I blew it by having KFC. I still have like 9 points left over for dinner but I’m sure I went over. Well I’m not going to beat myself up over it. I’m heading back down the roller coaster

Tonight my mom and I went over to Target. I got two boxes of cerel. Kashi go lean crunch and Kelloggs Special K red berries. I haven’t tried the red berries yet, but I hear it’s good.

Today I wrote out my exercise chart. For the next 12 weeks I’m doing carido workouts 3 days a week. Tomorrow is day 1 of my cardio workouts. Hey now that my floor is clean I guess I don’t’ have any excuses nto to workout.

Have a great day everyone! Katherine

Ewww!!! I'm freaked of bugs too. Your ant story really gave me the goose bumps!

**freaked out now**

Wow, what a shock, I guess you got a workout just doing the room too. lol

Take care, keep up the good work and ONLY eat in the kitchen, then you can't snack in your room.:D

[color=orange][b] August 16, 2003
Hi Everyone,
Today I spent about 6 hours washing clothes. I washed my clothes, my mom's clothes, and my grandma's clothes. In bewteen washing cycles I hung the clothes outside on the rack to dry. I was going to bring it inside, but then I figured it was such nice day outside why not dry them in the fresh air. I jsut wish we had a clothes line. Our rack is pretty small and doesn't hold to much. The clothes dried pretty fast outside, so I was ok with the rack.

I was suppose to workout today, but I just didn't have the time. I'm going to workout tomorrow instead. I promised myself that I wasn't going to skip any of my scheduled workouts. With today as an exception LOL

My mom wrote Katia a 9 page letter the other day. She told her exactly how she felt about the whole thing that happened last weekend.

Last night my mom received a phone call from Katia on her voice mail. She was really sorry about the whole thing and wanted to talk to my mom this weekend. However my mom isn't quite ready to talk. Then that afternoon my mom received from flowers from Katia and a card.

When my brother got home, he was hounding my mom to get her to tell her what was wrong. My mom didn't want to get my brother involoved because she's leaving for Peru in 9 days. My brother is pretty stubborn and won't back down. Finally my mom told him what happened. Well then after that World War III broke out at my house.

My brother was yelling and screaming at my mom defening Katia and trying to explain the situation. My mom was yelling back saying that he doesn't have any idea what happened because he wasn't there.

My mom and brother are a lot of like. They both hear only what they want to hear. The rest of what's said to them goes in one ear and right out the other.

Then my Grandma got into it yelling at my brother. My Grandma was defending my mom. My brother started yelling at my Grandma telling her to mind her own business because it doesn't concern her. But my Grandma is stubborn too.

I couldn't take all of the yelling, so I took my dinner and went to my room and ate. Half an hour later I came back out, no more dishes are going to be left in my room. My mom, brother, and Grandma had calmed down a bit. They weren't screaming at each other anymore, but you could tell by the looks on their faces their was still tension in the air.

My brother then explained why Katia did what she did. Katia lives up in San Francisco with her mom, dad and younger brother. Katia's family is from Peru, and they've been here for 7 years. Katia and her dad are the only two working in the family. her dad, who speaks limited English, works over at the San Francisco airport. Katia goes to college and is the Head Clerk at a food store. Katia's mom doesn't speak any English and stays at home. Her brother is 14, so he's to young to get a job.

Anyways they rent two rooms in this womens house. And I guess this women is really mean. She doesn't allow her father to park his car in front of the house. You can't just show up with out getting permissiion first. The women is always complaing about Roberto and saying all this crap about him. She says that he goes through her stuff when she's not their. Which just isn't true becuase Roberto is a good kid and he was raised by two great parents. It's so bad over at their house that her dad can't even park in front of the house. He has to park down the street a little bit. They want to try and find a place of their own; however rent is high out here and even higher up in the San Francisco area.

Well when Katia saw all the stuff that my mom and I brought up last Sunday she freaked out. It was't because she didnt' want the stuff. It was because of that lady. Katia knew that if that lady saw all of the stuff she might kick them out. Katia said that around her you have to walk very carefully on egg shells.

Up until yesterday it didn't even dawn on my mom or me about their living situation. We both had totally forgotten about it. Otherwise we never would of brought the stuff up their in the first place.

My mom mailed Katia a Thank you Card today for the follows and called her cell phone. She left her a message, becuase she was at work at the time.

I have a feeling that eventually everything is going to blow over. and my mom and Katia are going to be friends again. I mean my mom doesn't want my brother going half way around the world, to another country feeling this way.

I still feel the whole thing could of been handle better. Katia didn't have to blow up at my mom the way she did. She could of explained to my mom why she couldn't except all of the stuff. Then none of this would of happened.

My dad's 60th birthday is today. My sister and I called him to wish him a happy birthday. Our brother was a work, so he's going to see my dad on Wednesday when he comes over for dinner.

My dad wants lobster for dinner. My mom is going to get lobster from the Fish Market. My mom, grandma, and I are going to share the salmon meal. We shared it not to long ago from their and it was really good.

I'm also going to bake him a chocolate cake. I'm going to use applesause but not tell anybody. I want to see if people can tell a difference.

Well that's pretty much all the news i have for today.

I'l write again soon ~ Katherine

Hello,

First of all involving the ants i think you learned a lesson the hard way. I also hate bugs.

Only eat in the kitchen. then you dont have a mess in your room and it limits eating and snacking too.

I feel bad about the fight within your family. it will blow over. that is terrible they rent from such a mean person. gosh parking down the st from where you rent sounds really bad.
Katia shouldve handled it differently toward your mom and though your brother was defending Katria he shouldnt have yelled at your mom and grandma,

so hows the exercise going? remember one day at a time.

take care.

August 20, 2003
{{{GROUP HUG EVERYONE}}} Well here it is 10:12pm in the warm state of California. My mom is flipping through the channels seeing what’s on TV and I’m just sitting here trying to cool off.

My dad’s 60th birthday was on August 16th. We were going to have a little party for him tonight, but he couldn’t make it over. Their was a meeting that he had to go to at work. He’s coming over on Friday instead. Which is also nice because both my brother and sister will be home.

I’m baking him a cake for his birthday and speaking of cake. I have something to tell all of you that totally grosses me out. A few days a go I got the stuff for the cake, and one of my weakness if frosting. In a time of 3 days I have eaten nearly all of the frosting in the container. I had to get some more tonight. Am I sick or what? I mean how mean people actually eat a whole container of frosting, and I’m talking just the frosting nothing else. The container that I got today I haven’t opened yet and I’m going to really do my best to wait until Friday when I bake the cake. The frosting that I was eating this week I tossed out today. I didn’t want to gross myself out anymore.

I weighed in this morning and let’s just say that my weigh went exactly the way I thought it was going go. And that’s not in the right direction I gained another pound. Oh well their’s no use in crying over it what’s done is done. Now I just have to look back at this past week and see what I need to do, so that I will have a successful week this next week.

Well’s let’s see – I was suppose to workout 3 days. I did a workout tape 1 day, and I did have to walk to school a couple of days. So I guess my workout’s weren’t to bad this week.

Water – I was suppose to drink 2 liters of water a day. This is kind of hard one for me. I am drinking water everyday, but it’s hard for me to tell exactly how much. Most days were proberly under the 2 liters.

Points – my points range is 29 – 34 points. I didn’t stay within my points one day.

This past week I was climbing the roller coaster hill. This next week my goal is to ride the roller coaster downhill.

GOALS FOR THE WEEK OF AUGUST 21, 2003
1- drink 14 liters of water
2- do 3 cardio workouts using the 1 mile WATP videos
3- stay within my points 3 out of the 7 days.
4- To eat healthy even on days when I’m not counting points

I have a few more posts I need to write in and then I need to get my clothes ready for my workout in the morning. Right now I’m not looking forward to it, but I know that once I pop in that tape, turn up the music I’m going be so glad that I took the time to do my workout.

TTFN – Katherine

Hello,

Well Katherine you wont be the first person to ever eat a can of frosting or the last. whats done is done so its good your being honest with yourself as that is the only way to move forward.

i am having a hard week myself. it is TOM time too and not making it any easier.

I am trying to focus too so that next week will bring me a wt loss.

hang in there and stay away from the frosting!!! LOL

take care.

Katherine,
I have eaten whole cans of frosting by themselves. Let's see, I have also eaten whole jars of peanut butter by themselves. I have also eaten Jell-o (the powder, before you make it up) by itself. I could go on. But I won't.

The point is don't beat yourself up about it. Learn from it and move on. If you stress out you're actually making it worse because stress causes your body to release a hormone called Cortisol, and Cortisol encourages your body to store more fat. :(

So Minnie is right, forgive yourself, take notes, move on.

You can do it!

August 24, 2003
{{{GROUP HUG}}} Last Thursday I meant two girls from my class over at the school at 11:15am. They both took the bus over to school and we were going back to my house to study. When we got back to my house, Danielle and I helped Karla into the house. Karla’s in a wheelchair and can’t walk to much. Since we have a step into the house, Karla did bring her walker to use.

Karla has a motorized wheel chair that weighs about 300 pounds, so there was no way we were brining it into the house. We were able to keep an eye on the wheel chair from the dining room in the house.

We worked on a chapter of our homework for the next couple of hours. Somebody would read a question out loud and then we’d all go and find the answer in the book. Whoever found the answer first told the other two what page it was on. By 1:20pm we had answered all the questions on the chapter. The rest of the chapter we on resumes and cover letters. That work we have to do ourselves because it pertains to ourselves.

We left for school at 1:35pm and arrived at 1:45pm. A couple of girls from class we arrived at the same time. All 4 of us took the elevator up at the same time. The elevator at my school could be declared a national hazard. It doesn’t have the safety bumpers on the side. So that the doors open if somebody touches them. A couple of people have gotten stuck trying to get out of the doors. Everyone, except for Valerie, had gotten out of the elevator. By the time Valerie was getting out she got stuck in between the doors. She kept on trying to push the door open button but the doors weren’t opening. Finally after about a minute the doors popped open.

Last Thursday we got to have free pizza and soda. The soda’s were free right out of the machine. I just had two slices of pepperoni pizza. And one can of root beer. Half an hour later we were back in the classroom. Then we found out that the elevator was out of order. Our instructor told Karla not to worry and that they would find a way to get her back down the stairs.

Our classroom that we were in was really hot, so we moved across to the computer lap. The computers were off that day due to a virus in the system. For the rest of the time we just sat and worked on our homework and our instructor gave us a lecture. At 5:30pm we were told that we could go home. Our instructor, Danielle, and I stayed to make sure that Karla was down safe.

Ms. Frost, our instructor, went to go and talk to the president. While she was gone, the rest of us girls were just sitting around talking and laughing. I said one thing that really cracked Karla up but I can’t remember what it was.

Ms. Frost came back and said that either Dave, school’s president, could carry her down our they would have to call the fire department. Karla didn’t not even have to think about it she said call the fire department.

Six men arrived from the fire department. They put Karla in this one strap thing. Two of the men were down by her feet and two were up by her head. They carried Karla down the stairs and put her in the chair. Then it took all six of them to carry her wheel chair down the stair.

Danielle and I took Karla’s stuff down the stair. As we were about to go down, the man from the venting company came by. He had a dolly full of sodas. Danielle said to him “Bad day for the elevator to back down” and the man said “bad day for the school to give soda away”

The next day, Friday, we were downstairs. The elevator was working again, but they didn’t’ want to take any chances with Karla. The room we were in was really nice. The computers were at eye level which makes it really easy to seen the screens. The chairs are uncomfortable, but hey if I have to choose between a decent chair and a decent computer I’d take a computer anyday.

We were suppose to do our final on Friday and turn in the homework. But on Thursday Karla said that Ms. Frost wasn’t’ collecting the homework until Monday, so I wasn’t worried because mine wasn’t finished yet. Then Ms. Frost suggested that we wait and take the final on Monday.

So tonight I have just a couple hours worth of homework. Tonight I’m going to get my resume and cover letter in order. Then I plan to finish up my coding. I’m also going to review my test for half an hour. Tomorrow I have some computer work to do but that shouldn’t take me more then an hour. Then I’m going to study some more for my test. I’m just glad that I don’t start school until 2:00pm

Tonight Katia and her family came down for a barbeque. My brother and Katia leave for Peru tomorrow morning. Their both really excited about their trip. And at the same time a little nervous. I think Katia is nervous because she’s leaving her mom, dad, and younger brother for 3 weeks. But she does have family back in Peru that she hasn’t seen in 3 years. Plus all of her childhood friends are still back their. My brother is nervous because he’s going to a strange country and leaving all of his family for 3 weeks. Katia told my brother not to worry and that they were going to have the time of their lives their.

Katia and my mom made up. They had a long talk last weekend, so I’m glad that everything is back to normal again. Especially since of their vacation.

Well I have some papers to put in order before I work on my homework, so I better say goodnight for now.

~ Katherine

Hello,

Wow sounds like those elevators need to be fixed or replaced. you were a good friend to wait and help Karla.

Glad your mom and Katia made up too.

i started job tonight and i like it. i think once i know it all i will feel better. theres alot to learn but i am used to working in the food business and pick it up quick.

well take care.

August 25, 2003
Can you believe it’s 11:42pm and I’m sitting here at the computer waiting for my first load of laundry to be finished? I usually don’t wash clothes this late at night because my brother is home. For the next three weeks my brother is over in Peru with his girlfriend, Katia. As you all know by now she’s from Peru, so she went back their to see her family, friends and to attend her friends wedding on Friday.

Katia’s brother Roberto called us about 15 minutes ago. Apparently my brother tried calling the house but couldn’t get through. My mom did sign up for the International Calling, but for some reason were unable to receive calls. My mom was able to call out to Peru and talk to my brother for a minute. He said that the flight was long, but had a good time.

I was going to go to the airport with my mom this morning, but last night I decided that I’d better stay home because I had a lot of work to do. This morning my mom and brother headed for the airport at 6:10am. I was already up and got started. I finished almost all of my work except for a couple assessments. I figured they could be finished after the test.

I was in such a mad rush to get as much homework done as possible that I totally forgot about studying for my test. When I got to school I looked it over for about 45 minutes. I pretty much had it down last Friday but I needed to refreshed my memory. I’m not sure how I did on my final but I think I did pretty good.

After the test our instructor told us that we could go on break. I stayed in class to work on some work that had to be finished that day. By 5:00pm our instructor hadn’t’ checked off anybody’s work. I was beginning to wonder rather or not the work was going to be checked off today. At 5:45pm we were free to go and our work wasn’t checked off. Can you believe that all that time studying and trying to get my work completed on time and it wasn’t even checked off? Oh well at least I know that I have it completed for tomorrow.

The other day I came up with a great idea that’s really going to help me. A lot of times when I make something, even snacks, I never write up a recipe card and write down the points. For example when I make my meatloaf I have to figure out the points for it every single time. From now on when I make something I’m going to write down the recipe right away and get the points. Then I can just refer t the cards.

I haven’t gone back on weight watchers just yet. I know that I said I was going to but I just don’t feel quite ready yet. Slowly I’m trying to change my ways. I think the first step is to get back into working out again 3 days a week for a start.

I’m also still working on a web page. Right now I don’t have anything up I’m just putting everything on my computer. As soon as I’m ready I’ll transfer for it to a web page.

Well that’s all for tonight!

Take care, Katherine

That's a good idea about recording the points on the recipe card. And just "changing your ways" might be good enough - with an effective lifestyle change, you may find WW to be unnecessary!
:)

I agree on above post. i have been cutting back and trusting myself and the wt is still coming off.
i do add up points in my head cuz i memorized most of it but for you i think ww is good and writing down index cards are a good chocie and easy to use.

take care.

September 4, 2003
{{{GROUP HUG EVERYBODY}}} Sorry I haven’t written in about a week. Things are pretty much the same for me as far as my eating, exercising, and water goes. That is I really haven’t been doing any of these things. I know I need to get back on weight watchers again. Believe me I’m reminded of it everyday when I come to school. As your walking up to the front door the window shows your reflextion and I get so grossed out when I look at what I see.

Labor day weekend was a lot of fun. Roberto (my brother’s girlfriends little brother) spend the weekend with us. On Sunday my mom, sister, Roberto, and I went to the Aquarium. We all had a great time looking at the marine life they had. My mom said my sister and I had been their before when we were little, but I must have been real little because I don’t’ remember the Aquarium at all.

On Monday my mom barbarqued hotdogs and hamburgers. Roberto helped with the barbarque. I made brownies for desert and ranch deviled eggs. After making the brownies their was only 5 eggs left over so we each only got two deviled eggs.

At 7:00pm we headed back up to the city. Before taking Roberto home we spend sometime over at Pier 39. My mom took Roberto to a sports store and my sister and I went to go look around at other stores. I really enjoyed looking at the Christmas store. Totally made me feel like the holidays were closer then they actually are.

I’ve been reading about the new Flex program, and as interesting as this program seems I’m going to stick with the counting points program. It’s not that I’m not for progress it’s just that I feel that i need to give counting points program a fair shake. Thousands of people have had great success with the counting points program and I’m going to do.

Yesterday my teacher didn’t’ come to school. Her daughter is in elementary school and their was this guy their exposing himself. They had to close the school down, so my teacher stayed with her daughter. I don’t know all of the details, but I’m sure my teacher will fill us in today.

Well I better get to work, so i’m going to wrap up this entry.

~ Katherine

Hi Katherine,

Glad you stopped by to post and fill us in on how you are doing. I know your schooling takes up a lot of your time and energy. You have been doing really well, and I hope that when you finally finish your courses that you will very readily be able to find work soon, and with good pay too.

Take care now and be good to yourself. And don't let your reflection in a building window bother you either. They are never true reflections anyway, but greatly distorted.

:hug:

September 8, 2003
{{{GROUP HUG EVERYBODY}}} This morning I woke up with a smile on my face and a song in my heart. I wanted to keep my great mood by restarting on the weight watchers program. I’m crossing my fingers that this time it’s going to work for me. I’m going to set goals of 10% losses. Every mini goal that I make will help keep my motiaved in reaching my big goal.

A special thanks to Monica for the bacon cheddar cheese omelet. I made it this morning and it was really good. I was a little unsure about using the egg beater but after figuring out the points I was really glad that I did. With the egg beater the omelet was only 2 points. If I had used a regular egg then the points would have been 4, so I saved 2 points.

The hard part was trying to figure out the calories, fat grams, and fibers grams for the cheese. One serving size is 1 ounce and equal to 3 points. I only used 1 tablespoon in the recipe and I wasn’t about to count 1 tablespoon of cheese for 1 ounce. I figured out that 1 ounce of cheese is equal to 3.5 tablespoons. From their figuring out the points was really easy.

Tomorrow morning I’m going to workout. I’m only going to workout 3 days a week for the next 6 weeks. I don’t want to push myself to do to much too soon. Right now I’m on cloud nine about today and I plan on staying up their.

Sorry this entery is so short, but I have to put some things away in my room.

~ Katherine

September 9, 2003 ~ 2nd day on weight watchers
BREAKFAST - kashi go lean crunch cereal , ½ cup of milk, raspberries – 4.5 points
MORNING SNACK - peach, 6 reduced fat club crackers, 1-ounce cheddar cheese – 6.4 points
LUNCH - Easy mac in cheese w/ 1 tsp margarine, 1 TBL milk, 4 wafer cookies, Frozen strawberries – 10 points
DINNER - 3 inch turkey sandwich, baked chips = 5.5 points
SNACK - 94% - ff mini popcorn bag – 2 points
Daily points range 28 – 34 / POINTS EATEN 28.4

Hi Everyone, Well 2nd day on WW and I’m doing really good. I’m trying to keep a positive outlook on my journey. I know that in the past I’ve struggled quite a bit. Ok I’ve struggled more then the average person who’s trying to loose weight. Well at least that’s the way that I see it. I’m really working hard to beat this food addiction that I have. I sometimes feel that food is empowering me and I can’t do anything to control what I eat. Which I know is crazy because food has no feelings, food has no emotions, and food certainly doesn’t have any power over me. I make the choices to eat what I eat. So why do I have such a hard time making the right decisions when it comes to selection the food that I eat.

To be honest food is still very empowering to me. It’s 10:00pm and I’m trying so hard not to go into the kitchen the kitchen to get something to eat. I know that most people who start a lifestyle change proberly feel the same way that I do. A little overwhelmed and a little scared especially when your just a beginning your new way of life.

It’s been about two hours since I had my evening snack and I still feel like I could go into the kitchen and eat 10 granola bars. Which is totally unreal because I’m actually full and can’t really eat anything at all. So why do I feel like I can eat so much more food. It’s because food is overpowering to me.

Well I’m in charge now. I’m calling the shots, and I say NO MORE EATING TONIGHT!!! I’m not going to let these feeling wreck a perfect day of staying within my points range.

I know that having to start over on a food program is never easy, but I have to at least give it a fair shot. In the past I would give up after a few days and go back to my old eating habits. This time it’s going to be different. This time I’m going to succeed in reaching my goals.

Take care ~ Katherine

Hello,

I love your positve attitude. i too am struggling with food being overpowering. i can be full too and still wanna eat. its not us being hungry for food it is we are hungry for something else in our lives or eating to deal with our feelings whether they be stress or boredom and so on.

i am struggling for a yr now with this diet and still havent gotten to where i want to be. i hope one day to be able to eat normal and not be so obssessive with food.

i wish you great success on your new journey.

take care.

September 14, 2003
{{{GROUP HUG EVERYBODY}}} Sorry I haven’t written for a few days. This past week has been really good. Today is my last day of my 1st week. Here are my results for the week

Points – I stayed with in my points 5 out of the 7 days
Water – I didn’t really count my water intake this week. Next week I will
Exercise – I worked out 1 out of the 3 days

Tomorrow morning I weigh in. I think I’m going to show a lose for this week. Even though I didn’t do everything just right. I think sticking within my daily points 5 out of the 7 days is remarkably good.

This past weekend wasn’t the best for me. On Friday morning I found out that one of my favorite actors pasted away, John Ritter. I was in total shock over this. Even now as I’m writing this journal entry I still can’t believe that he’s gone I don’t want to believe it. The world was robbed of a great actor who will be sadly missed. Today Tvland is doing a tribute to Mr. Ritter, and on Tuesday Nick-At-Nite is going to do a Three’s Company mathron. I think it’s really nice when TV stations do special like this to remember the stars that we love.

Friday evening my Grandma started showing signs of another bladder infection. She was was warm and getting confused. She kept on forgetting her cane, and then she had trouble walking. I gave her a bladder pill. All Friday night my grandma kept on calling me to help her to the bathroom. Whenever my grandma gets a bladder infection she gets really confused, and has a terrible sense of falling. I had to help her into a chair, with rollers on it, and roll her into the bathroom. I didn’t fall asleep until 5:00 in the morning on Saturday.

I woke up at 7:00am, nature called. Then I want to check on my grandma. When I left her room two hours she was in the exact same postion as when I left her. I asked my grandma if she got any sleep on Friday night and she said that she never fell asleep. She then said that she was waiting for me to get up to help her to the bathroom. 48 hours after taking the first pill my grandma was showing great signs of improvement. She’s able to go the bathroom by her self now, and she’s not she’s not confused anymore.

Because I didn’t get any sleep on Friday I was cranky and in a real sour mood. I was taking my bad feelings out on everybody. Yelling, screaming and crying. My emotions were all over the place yesterday I didn’t know up from down or left from right. I did get 8 hours of sleep last night, but this morning I still wasn’t in the best of moods. I was better this afternoon, and this evening I’m doing pretty good.

Well my show is just starting, so I’m going to stay good night to you all!

~ Katherine

Kaherine,.

i am so proud of you. you did so well this week with your points. i cant wait to see your weigh in my friend. keep strong.

i know when i dont sleep much i am totally moody. as it is i dont sleep too much. my body is used to 6 hrs a night. any less and im miserable and more than 8 i am miserable from too much sleep.

i too was so upset over the death of John Ritter. he will be sadly missed., i watch threes co all the time and have since i was a kid.
he was so funny on that show.

well gotta run,

take care.

Good Morning Katherine .....

I looked thru the various threads until I found your thread .. hopefully it is the one you currently post .....

I wanted to wish you a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY . You have much to celebrate :cheers:; your having completed your classes and your start to a new adventure.

I wish you the very best :bd birthday ever ..... :balloons: Much love and :hug: As always, Monica

Hi Katherine,
Happy Birthday sweetie!!!!!!!!! Hope you are having a womderful day!!!!!!!

LOve and hugs,
Lizzie