well, I started this week with a different focus



Desire is def a great "D" for me to start with

I will focus on each Diettalk "D" through different stages


I need a new approach... I had fallen into a routine that was no longer working... I was no longer working


I let go of my own power


I let other things control my actions


I lost my desire...or smothered it in pain and frustration and fat



Never quite over the edge...but way too close for comfort



I hope to use this journal to celebrate life , interact with my dear friends here, and maybe meet some new ones to


I will move forward... hell, Minnie... I love tigger lol he might be a good role model now lol


you and the rest of my friends here sure are



I know how I would worry that minnie, or fleur, or chum, or willow, or cj, or mc, might never come back

I know how I still think of gogetter and Loma and hope they are going ok



we held it all together girls



people might question the usefullness of this site when we seem to go up and down so much... but truthfully.. I think we would be in worse shape with out the help we share here


no way I would of survived the heat and work I do now at 350 pounds



we drift... but we dont sink



and every now and then someone or something leads back to the path we desire to be on



I thank you and this site for that


the hard work is all up to me...but not as scary as I am not alone



I have been trying to set my desires...my true desires for losing weight



my desires for my life


and trying to take care of myself as I try and make my way



and also trying not to hate myself if I am not perfect.. I decided to redefine perfect hahahha


anyhow




I needed to log on and start


I need this connection to my soul, I need your love, I need your advice about dealing with weight issues




I know we can succeed together



through the good, the bad, and on to something wonderful




one day at a time





:hug:




Your buddy Peng

Hi Peng,

Succeed we will with the help of each other and ourselves. You're on the right track for both. You are here to help yourself and we are here to help you, and vice versa. So you are on a good track here.

Here's to one day at a time! :cheers:

Dear Claire,

YOU KNOW I AM HERE FOR YOU WHENEVER YOU NEED ME .... :hug:

YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE IN YOUR ABILITY TO SUCCEED .....

THERE IS NOTHING YOU CANNOT DO .....

SUCCESS CAN AND WILL BE ACHIEVED ONE DAY AT A TIME ..... :up:

Make it a great day. As always, Monica :hug: :wn

you're gonna do this Claire, one D at a time. I know I should be checkin' the D's out too! I am going to appreciate how you're working on each D. I could, and need to learn something! :)

I am so glad you are planning to post each day. That is something that really helps me keep this in focus. And when I look back at my posts I can see my ups and downs... which helps me, too. Last night we had no power here, as you know... I couldn't read or post (or cook anything healthy!). Anyway, I missed it SO MUCH I couldn't stand it. Writing in my journal each day is such a part of my routine!

I know you can do this Peng. You know what works for you & you know you can do it -- you've done it before! We are here with you (as long as we have electricity, lol), and we'll stand by while you figure those desires out. Good luck and :up:!!

Lisrey :x

Good job Claire, get all the desire centered on Edmonton before I get back!

Seriously though, it must be so stressful working in a kitchen in the heat of the summer.

You are so right, what you have taken off already is so important and gives you a new lease on life.

I was in the same boat as you this time last summer. I got impatient because the weight gain had stalled, and stopped being so vigalent. Result-instant weight gain of 15 pounds. So I've spend all winter trying to get back down to 160 where I was at the end of last summer. Lesson learned- treasure each pound lost and don't ever let them come back.
We'll all do this. I'm really focusing now on being down some more at Christmas.
Pat

so nice to seeya all !!

:hug:


and nice to meet you dude ! It is so nice to see new energy !


lisrey, I am going to try real hard to post each day too... not spend 2 hours on the puter...but post and keep focused


we all met here for a reason


i work from 11 to 8 today


so not sure when i can attak my yard.. but hopefully soon



i could lose my small dog there now hahahah



I have been having yogurt and cereal each morn for breakie...and taking a juicy peach or nectarine for the drive to work


having a good lunch and an orange


last nights dinner was too late



but... still ok as I only had dinner



I find it easy to isolate myself when feeling frustrated

I know by how I felt this morning reading your posts, that that is wrong



I have to change my stats again as I went up a few pounds..back into the 70's

i did good for a couple weeks then in one week WHAMMO


it has been droppin each day and i just have to start fresh each day


my first goal is 259, I am 273 today, august 15th


6 months till 40 hahahha



I want to make my 40's the best yet !!!!


have a wonderful day all, I better get breakie and get going to work



:hug:



Peng

Claire

Making each day your best day will ensure that your 40th will be AWESOME.

Fact is you are AWESOME.

Desire for greater health or a certain look is deep rooted in most dieters but desire without action is just a whimsy.

It is blazing hot here today and our yard looks pathetic but told Phil to wait till almost sunset when it's cooler to tackle only the front or back. Still in the 80s at 10pm.

Gotta scoot,

Donna

Hello,

I am so glad to come to your new "Home"!

I agree with everything you said. without each other we would be far worse. i wouldve quit along time ago without the love and pushing of my wonderful friends here.

you will get where you need to be on your journey and are never alone.
your like a sis to me Claire and i am forever here for you whenever you need me.

take care and enjoy the weekend and hang in there.

I lost my way a million times but found my way back each time.
I still dangle by a thread and a ray of hope but its that hope that keeps me afloat. i know i am not perfect and can never aim to be.
we are all human and make mistakes but then we learn from them sometimes it takes lots of learning and lots of mistakes to come out on top,

a hard journey and a long one but we will make it together...
always together buddy!

when we cant walk we can crawl but baby steps are great too as they lead to giant ones.

each day i struggle in the face of food and temptation. and some days i do bad but i focus on the days i do good. its all i can do.

I love you lots and think the world of you.

talk soon.

Claire
I still think of Gogetter a lot too. I was doing Vedral the other day and thought of her.
I know what you mean about questioning whether this site is useful since we bobble up and down so much. I can't figure out why weight loss is so hard. If effort a lone would get me to goal and desire a lone would get me to goal I would be there.

Part of it is that keeping the weight off is so hard. For some reason the scale sky rocketted this week. I feel like my weight is a beligerant child that if I take my eyes off for 5 minutes it is out of control. Changing for Good claims that for a person to succefully make a life change the person needs to feel like their life is getting better everyday. That the steps they are making are improving their life. I have a really hard time feeling this way because of my background. Sometimes I think it is hard to see if progress is happening or if it is worth it.

Peng,

WOW girl, you sure have a way with words. You sumed up how I feel about things quite nicely.

I love your new attitude.

You know, you mentioned we drift, but don't sink. I think if we drift long enough, we'll reach the shore. The great thing is, we're making a humain chain with all of us DTers reaching out to one another pulling us in a bit closer to that shore.

We will get there, one "D" at a time.:D

take care :hug:

Darlene :hippy:

Hi Peng,

Just checking in. I like your outlooks and the changes you have set for yourself. They look great and together you will achieve them.

Have a bright, positive day,

Dude

Peng, YOU are AWESOME:hug:

I can see many agree, but believe me you and many others here are influencing and encouraging others without ever knowing the impact on some of the quieter souls who find comfort in Diet talk.I have admired your dedication, upbeat spirit, and gentle concern for myself and others.

My personal experience with weight and (life) is like a roller coaster but coming here and checking in with you guys can certainly help even out a day, a week, my goal ( lifetime).


:cheers: For your accomplishments and hard work.

There is absolutely nothing better to wake up to than this support and comraderie !!

:jn


we kick ass !!!!


I feel more relaxed reading and feeling your support


:hug:


Thank god a few clouds blew in last night...I was fearing a 35 degree day outside as it means unbeleiveable heat inside our kitchen


guess god decided a break was in store too lol



My confidence is on the upswing...even more so after reading each of your posts


it is so easy to fall into old patterns of feeling like the only one with a huge hill to climb



much easier to break it down into perspective


I am meeting my sis for dim sum before work... I will eat lighter there and just fill up on the company and conversation instead



I better go find some clean laundry and get ready for my day



I slept well and am looking forward to today



I hope you all have a marvelous saturday



:flower:



Peng xo

Hey Pengii...I like your new thread and your great attitude. It is hard not to sweat the small stuff and to keep on track because sometimes there is just soooo much small stuff to deal with. Those times for me result in weight maintenance at best, but those times pass and there are times when it is easier to do the things that are good for my health. You have come a great way towards your goal, and you will continue to make progress. You rock!!

I realized that as I am 47 and my thyroid gland quit working when I was 23, I have been working to control my weight for 24 years...over half my life. I must be a stubborn person, because I am within 10 pounds of my goal weight after all this time. I could look at it that I have not succeeded because I am still not at my goal weight, but I look at what would surely happen if I didn't try (obesity), and most days I feel like I am accomplishing something. I will always have weight issues, it is just part of the package because I have a lousy metabolism and I want to eat when I feel stressed. I was reading a diary of a woman who lost over 100 pounds and kept it off, and she said, "There is no before and after, there is only during". I agree with that, and it is up to me to make the "during" as good as I can. Soo...I am off to the gym to do something healthy for myself.

Take care and have a great weekend, Pengii.

Just wanted to say a quick hello :wave:

I haven't much time tonight, but wanted you to know you are really rocken!

Keep it up babe.

Luv ya lots

Darlene :hippy:

Hello,

Hope you enjoyed your meal with sis.
is dim sum chinese or Japanese. i am leaning toward japanese as i love chinese and never heard of it but i could be wrong.

I like your new attitude. it is a hard road buddy but one foot in front of the other is all we can do and do our best each day and know we are human and may slip but to keep going and never lose hope. that ray of hope is what keeps us going.

have a super monday and take care.

Hey Pengii,

You look marvelous!!!!!!!!! You are feeling better, I can tell.

Maybe that darn hot kitchen all summer just zapped all your strength, but now you are on the upswing.

Hurray for Pengii.

Just one more hot day Pengii, this could be it for the summer.

Hi Claire,
Often I don't see my own progress and it depresses me. It's only when one of my distant friends see me and compliment something new do I know I did something right. We see your stats, we see your progress in your journal. You have come such a long way. Don't give up girlfriend, I love you and I know you are going to make it, as do the rest of your DT friends!!!
:)

I can't believe that I've been away so long that this is the first time I'm visiting your new journal!!! Bad Chum.

But I've been burned out too and hiding a bit from DT. I can totally relate to everything you wrote. In fact, reading your journal tonight has really inspired me to keep going, Penguinhead. I get so much out of my time here at DT, even though at times it can be addictive. I truly don't know what I'd do without the friends I've met here. It seems insane, but really I feel closer to many of you than I do to friends that I see frequently in the flesh.

Losing weight is so hard. It is easy to give up for awhile. But I think the hardest thing of all is to give up forever. I keep trying, hahaha. Truthfully, there seems to be something in many of us that keeps us "hanging on by a thread" (thanks, Minn). Maybe it is that we really don't want to die (sorry for the melodrama, but I think it is a real issue). That we really do not hate ourselves as much as we think we do. That we really believe that we can lose the weight, become (or stay) healthy, feel good about ourselves.

Hope can be such a fragile thing but it seems to me that in many of us, hope is very strong.

I'm really, really proud of you, little fish-eating, flightless bird.

Hello,

Hope your doing well and wanted to drop in to let you know im thinking of you and wanting you to know that i care about you so much.

take care.

Hey, Pengii... I thought you were gonna post every day? Get yourself here & just jot a few thoughts. It will help, I think. It really does for me. You don't have to say much, just do it to keep yourself focused. Take 5-10 minutes a day to make a record of how you've faced your diet demons.

We miss you! Have you seen the exercise chickie? We want to hear about your amazing attitude & your stunning progress!

Lisrey :coach:

Hey Peng,

How's it going? Haven't heard from you in some time. Hope all is well.

Hope to hear from you really really soon!!!

:hug:

Darlene :hippy:

Claire,
.


am missing you buddy.

Hope all is well for you and that nothing is wrong.

im getting worried....its the mother in me.

so please post something soon.

Hi Penguinhead.

I've been absent a bit too. I know how you feel, believe me.

Well, I just wanted to tell you just how much your friendship and support have meant to me. I would never have gotten this far without you. (Not that I've gotten all that far, but you know what I mean. hee hee)

I miss you, babelette!

been missing awhile only to come back and find out your MIA too :) hope all is well :)

Hello Claire,

I feel totally cheated here. I thought the "D" stood for determination, and now I find it must mean "D"eparted!!

Where are you lady? Making a new penquin suit? Gee, that's only two colors, so what's taking so long?

I just hope you are keeping safe and feeling well.
Come back when you can. :hug:

Pengaroo,

He finally worked up his courage and asked her. She said yes. So I'm coming to your town! This spring. Yay!

Now where are you?

sorry I have been mia !!!!!!


I just hooked up the net today with a cheap 10$ dial up hahahhah



my buddy I talk about, that has the dogs... broke her hip

her bones are brittle from cancer drugs...she is early 50's...scary


so..i got a call from hospital and here I is


i have been swamped with work then the long drive here each day

and no stinking puter !!!!!!



so I called the phone compnay and had it hooked up



i dont know how long i will be here...depends on when the hosp ets her out after suirgery


i dont mind looking after the dogs...but will draw the line at home care and dogs


my sis is still fresh in my memory...and these kinds of accidents are what bank accounts are for



anyhow



guess what I found in the basement today????? a gym ! hahahhahah

i guess it was her hubbies before he died lol



caring for 20 dogs is really time comsuming....but..we will see



i feel real funny about the whole thing...but there was no one else who could do it



i am gonna try and find homes for some of the dogs as trhere is no way she can maintain this


anywho

a quick note to say HI more than anything





i am well



I will write more after





:hug:


pengii in the country

Yay!! So happy you are back Peng! :) :) :)

You are such a great friend to do this. I wish you lived in my neighborhood! Did you bring your pooches there? So 23 dogs??

Enjoy that gym!

Lisrey :ex:

Hello,

Sorry about your friend. wow 20 dogs to care for. that would be so hard not to mention the expense.

take care of yourself and enjoy the gym.

yup, i imagine the expense is big minnie

I think people who raise dogs do it for the pleasure...def not $

sandielyne...what a hoot hahha the fifth D hahha

I truely felt so isolated here


my line at work is on the same one as the interac ($$$)machine...so I dont bother


but I was tempted


the basement here is kinda spooky... the whole house seems strange...but maybe as it is so big and I am alone in a strange place


the bed I picked is comfy though :)

and wow...it is so quiet

I am so used to the city...I am outside of leduc...about 75 km from my house

big acreages...there is a neighbor a half mile away...but no noise


the first night was so strange...dark...no traffic...so silent...strange place



I miss my old house and have a new appreciation for it


there isnt much here so food has been good hahahha


anyhow



I put the dogs in thier kennels so I better go to bed too...when they wake up...I wake up


I am off tomorrow then back to work



I hope you all have a great week


I hope I catch up soon



love always



Peng


:hug:

What a terrific friend you are to look after 20 dogs for your friend. I support your position to make sure there is a time limit on your efforts, though. It is astounding to me how people can expect you to take on their causes/interests when they become dependent. I hope your friend is realistic and makes the best plans she can for her four-legged friends because you are probably correct about her ability to look after things as they were. Tough choices ahead. Don't get too burned out, though. Is there any possibility of help through the SPCA?

ummm.. when you get a hance to check your messages.. please ignore the ones ya find from me that may in fact sound a little like anagging mother type individual looking for some misbegotten teenaged daughter.. :D
i was worried about ya girly..

Hi Claire;
Are you staying in Leduc and driving back and forth to work?
Did you bring your dogs with you?
Hope things settle back to your old routine soon. A big change like that helps you appreciate your normal situation. Hope you are back in your own place quick.
Pat

I am so glad to have a puter again !

mind you, it is nice being busy with other things too

in a funny way, this might be just what I needed to get out of my rut... too bad my buddy will be in worse shape


surgery was supposed to be today...putting a pin in...she broke her hip on the same side as she cracked her pelvis

there is absolutely no way she will recover here..but she is stubborn... but like you said artsy...time to be realistic


friends are going to try and convince her to go to a rehab center for a couple weeks for sure... she thinks she will be home in a few days

she needs a month at least... there are too many dogs here and without a heated outdoor run

lots of work


i spent yesterday putting up a fence and moving kennel linkage so there is room for them to run around outside and such... it takes about a half hour to place the unaltered males in sep kennels etc...already had a couple fights when i mixed up dogs... about 6 of them look like clones...except 4 have balls..ahem..i mean still intact haha


anyhow.... it is a big job.. I dont mind... it takes 50 mins to get to work

i just will do what i can to help till we see whats happening


if she is too stubborn to stay in a care facility for a bit... then she will need homecare... I absolutely cant do that again

a bit of pressure on me.,... but i know now i must make a good decision...and she has to prioritize too




in the meantime...I am sleeping well as I go to bed pooped, but stimulated... plus I have met some nice new people

other dog breeders etc

once i get to talk with my friend again...we can ciscuss finding homes for a few dogs.. there are many outlets through the kennel clubs etc


I think she can manage if she scales down...plus i8 feel so bad for some of the dogs...crated so much



they are adjusting to being outside...they follow me like a mother cat and kittens



i keep them crated when i work, then everyone goes out


so far so good


plus there is an old bouvier... he howls in the middle of the night...but getting better



I dont know if i am a good friend...or crazy

maybe a bit of both


but truthfully... the change is good right now



anyhow



i wanted to log on before bed...i sleep early as it takes me well over an hour to exercise everyone before work


I will log on each night



today i bought some yogurt and such...real food


I am determined to have a good week !!!!!



I hope you all had great day today


have a wonderful tomorrow


:hug:



Peng

Hello,

well you are a good friend. i dont know if i could handle watching 20 dogs. are they all just house pets or what????

i see you got it all under control and i knew you could do it.

also glad you are out of your rut. i knew it would come in time, it always does. i am out of a rut too. new job and new change. new atmoshere helps and i see its done it for you.

i dont blame you for not wanting to do homecare again. too many hard memories plus it is lots of hard work physically and emotionally.
alot to ask...

but your a sweet person Claire and glad to be your friend in this life....

life is a bit easier with some good friends to share it with.

i grew up in the city then lived in country now back in city. it is so quiet in country i admit.
but i dont even notice the traffic here and i guess its cuz i grew up here so am immune to it.

well take care and have a great diet week.

We will do this!!!!

no sandy, not just pets

they have been breeding the daschunds since they lived in germany a long time ago

so not a boarding kennel but a breeding kennel


but people do it for a love of the dogs i think


anyhow



i took some pics tonight and will try to post them on a page here


yes...it will be a rare look at the flightless pengii too


dont mind the harsh work hair K?


:hug:

Hello,

breeeding dogs is a good business but i agree they would have to love the dogs to do all the work involved.
years ago me and my ex had 2 purebred black labs and we breeded them once and they had adorable puppies we sold but then the mom dog died of an accident and that was it with the breeding.

i miss my dog Rusty that was put to sleep a few weeks ago. its so hard. i have lost pets before and so i dont want anymore for a long time cuz it hurts too much.

well have a super day and take care.

Claire

What kind of dogs are they?

Not shar pei?

Claire, you are a great friend and know the dogs will be glad for a loving heart.

Most hips that are pinnings recoup fairly well in about 4-6 weeks but total hips are easier to pop out of socket and take longer to rehab.

Hip pinnings can go home usually after being able to transfer and ambulate with a walker. If they have stairs to navigate it may take longer for they have to learn the technique for transferring on stairs.

Make sure she gets assistive devises like high portable potty chair that can be stuck over the commode, and a shower bench, walker before coming home.

I am sure this has an aura of taking care of Nova. But remember the bond between you and Nova and you and your friend are different. The circumstances are different. You are a woman of much love and generousity. But love yourself enough to do what is best for you.

Glad to see you back and running the race.

Donna

Hello,

Thanks for all your kind posts in my journal. it meant alot to me just like you do.

i did better at work today following a bad start and it still was a hectic day all around but i know i can handle this once i know it.
i think i will like it more too as i do like the job itself.

people dont realize to run a food place and do all thats needed there is not as easy as it looks. it is alot of work too.
just wish i got paid more for all i have to do each day.

i really admire you being a chef and all. i give you credit cuz im sure its no easy job.

well getting sleepy but wanted to say hello.

take care my friend!!!

Love Ya!

was a busy day again...except for while they installed new door... then it was hurry up and wait... so i cleaned in this house


the dogs are dashunds donna... i met this fr and her late hubby when i got my weiner years ago

thanks for the info on the hip stuff... I am not doing home care ... it would remind me of my sis and i dont think i could do it again


it is much easier looking after the dogs and house


I will make sure she gets a potty thing/// we are trying to convince her to go to a recovery unit till the incision and such heals at least... a couple weeks... then she will have a better chance at a good recovery


she tore muscles as well when she broke her hip...so wires and a pin


not condusive to dogs jumpin on ya


i am kinda getting a routine



had good food today it is much easier without stores close hahahah


and went for a nice walk with my old rotti...I think all the little dogs get on his nerves too



coyotes are howling up a storm tonight...so had to move everyone in... all the dogs decided to join in hahhaha


sandy...starting a new job sucks

it took me a good while to feel good where I am too


hang in there.... I KNOW you will do great

everything takes time



I dont work till 11 tomorrow...so lots of time to take care of dogs before work


it is the early shifts that will kill me lol



anyhow



10 bells so time for bed...it is easy to sleep early here as it is so dark and quiet



i did discover how to use the tv dish though...so will watch something in bed for a bit




I hope you all have a great day tomorrow




:hug:




Peng

glad to see you are back claire. taking care of all them dogs must be interesting to say the least.
if it was closer id bring hunter to give those dogs a run for thier money LOL. i betcha between his two little legs and thier fourty little legs theyd all be pooped by the end of the day LOL.
anyway, its really good to see you again. i was missing my friend
talk to you soon
Kendra

Phil thinks he would like a miniature dashund ---saw one at the park and couldn't take his eyes off it. I am not keen about another dog right now. The shar pei is a disaster. Very loyal to bud and me but terrible around anyone else no matter how much we take her out. She still doesn't like to be hugged or held or cuddled except upon awaking and at night when ready for bed. The dog is the worst dog I've ever seen. Not loving like people expect of a dog. So much more cat-like. Next pet will be something I research. Not just pick out based on cute wrinkly face. Never would have thought she would turn out like this. She was loved and doted on as a puppy. But got to a point that she would just jump off your lap if you picked her up.

Was told dashunds have fierce tempers and bite readily. I know every breed has an exception but can't deal with another Lindsey.

You are a good friend, Claire. I know you are doing your best for her. But her rehab won't be long if she is in good shape.

Donna

I dont know if there is a set for each breed.. it really depends on the owners


most weiners I know of...are loyal beyond thier size


only 2 of 20 bit because they had a totally new person caring for them 24/7



they are a good breed...funny because they dont act like they are under 10 pounds




you def have to resolve the sharpei issue first...every dog is cute as a pup... but need major socializing and work to be good companions


a big issue is that phil will leave home soon...and a mini lives on average 14yrs... they are a working dog by nature, but people forget thet when they see thier size... live with one for awhile and you see it...live with close to 20 and you respect the breed


maybe tell phil he shopuld wait till he is in his own place...try to love the sharpei till then...all dogs respond to love


the one here that wouldnt leave his crate for 3 days when i got here...now depends on me for his every move... very loving



good luck buddy !!!





I have now found 3 homes for dogs


this is good




***********************



last few nights I didnt sleep well...I did good at work and such...but my age shows on 2-3 hrs of sleep


maybe old memories coming to light




saw my friend at hosp[ital today



she is doing good but may be in another month



i dont mind as i like it here...and i needed a change

next 2 days off i am gonna rearrange stuff for when she comes back


then go see what i can do with the gym in basement

i might be here awhile


I enjoy nice walks...and find things to do

I dont have a scale...but my clothes are looser and everyone says i am looking good


i think just being out in the fresh air is really good


I am cooking on the george forman grill tonight lol


no sleep and a long day...so boiled corrn...marinated pork loin and grilled onions


I left the dogs outside in the new kennel i built yesterday...so they are in bed now at 8:15


I will be ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ by 10 hahhahahah


hey, did any of you guys enjoy gangs of new york? it is on the dish here and i would rent it...but a fr said it sucked...I was looking forward to seeing it


the hours is also there


tomorrow night i will rent a movie off the sattelite 3 bucks...i donty spend any $$ here so will do a movie



anyhow...off now for 2 days... lots to do,....and i am looking forward to it



I hope you all have a great monday


:hug:


Peng



ps...chummers...I miss you heaps


green acres is the place for me.................


:jn

Hello,

I saw Gangs of New York in the movies and I liked it but hubby hated it. its a long movie and set back in old times but cameron Diaz and Leonardo Dicaprio are in it. i enjoyed it anyways. everyone has different opinions of movies.

hope you enjoy your days off.

i am but am still so busy as usual.
take care.

Just got back from out of town Claire :) Have a great day

Look at you, building kennels, finding dog homes, and walking around outside all the time...no wonder your clothes are fitting better!

Take care pengii.

Claire

Phil loves this stupid shar pei but knows she will rebuff being hugged or laying next to him on the floor. He does it using command of sit and down, and forces her to endure being touched, lying next to him, but he feels her squirming and lets her up after a short while. And she loves him in her way. She loves to go with him when he rollerblades or ride in the car to the park. But she is lacking in the affection dept. to those that loved and raised her. She sleeps at my feet wherever I go in the house. Is underfoot whenever I cook, and will beg by licking my knee----but she doesn't want me to touch her either. She plays hide and seek with the Phil, and with her toys but you can't reach out to her and expect any affection. Though she is never far away from either of us. I sometimes thinks she sees us as her pet.

I know Phil wants a dog to curl up to and be loyal. Yet in his moody teenage way, I wonder if Lindsey, the shar pei really isn't better suited for him right now. But my sister has this lap dog that Phil loves, who curls up in the curve of your neck (teacup size) and is so devoted. Phil misses the thumping of a butt to get attention, Lindsey might lie close to him or touch her nose to his elbow but that is the extent of her seeking out Phil. She sometimes jumps up on Phil if she hasn't seen him for a long time but doesn't keep trying to get his attention.

Phil sees Angie's labs devotion and my sister's little lap dog and feels he got a cat. I'm calling her now and she doesn't come. Geeze. Came to me stretched and laid at my feet.

Maybe a dashund would be okay. I just wonder if we'll keep Lindsey. Oddly she loves my nephew and he doesn't really care for her. She whines when she sees him and thumps her tail against him and acts wild when he pets her. Phil and I don't understand this display. My nephew lived with us for a month last Oct. She was afraid of him mostly. He plays rough with her.

Geeze. I just don't know what to do. Phil loves this dog but know when he goes to college I really haven't bonded to her. I know her like you know a person, she hates rain and being cold, and loves to stretch her legs in a run.

Time will tell.

Claire, hope your friend rehab goes smoothly and know she is relieved to see you helping her. I am sure she would be so much more worried without someone she trust caring for the dogs/house/her interest.

Phil's trainer doesn't weigh but relies on how you look and clothes fit for results. He says it doesn't matter the number on a scale. He believes it is your own health and look and doing the proper things that are important. Phil has great respect for this guy. And hasn't said anything about his weight since working with him.

But the diet is monotonous and repetitive and made to build body muscles. Loads of meat, lean meat and no pork due to the sodium content. I just would like the variety. Even my yummy ummy roast doesn't taste special after 4 days straight. Then neither did steak grilled. The guy doesn't believe in salt at all. Holds water. Mrs Dash and garlic is all. No butter for vegetables----just steamed. It is a tasteless diet for someone who has always ate seasoned food. The trainer states food is fuel and you just shove it down with loads of water. He knows I am having a hard time not wanting variety and flavoring the meat. no marinades, nothing Geeze

Well, need to scoot.

I see Lindsey at my feet, like I said she let me pet her but she would not seek being stroked.

Next time you weigh I am sure you will be surprised at how you've done.

You are an AWESOME friend and without foccussing on you, have found a new way to move and lose.

Way to go.

Donna

Peng
I wish I was closer so I could help out a bit. Did you get everything built that needs to be done? Isn't there anyone else who can come in and give you a bit of a hand getting things organised? church people? anyone? Thats a lot to handle for one person. I am sure you are doing a great job.

If you do one thing. Bag the exercise and get 8 hours of consistant sleep somehow. I found the sleep is the biggest factor in everything in my life. If you decide to do one exercise do something that will help you unwind or put some music on and dance for a minute. Pump the weights up and down for a few minutes. Hey I have this book I will send to you. It is 8 minutes of exercise a day. sounds like you only have 8 minutes so it will be perfect. Now how the hell do I get this to you cheap? I was just going to give it to the library as I do my lifting to tapes.

I miss you and wish we were there to help a bit. what you are doing sounds like a dream vacation for us. We would love to get out where its green and play with weiner dogs. too bad school has started and I am broke.
Miss you
CJ

Hello swimmerbreath! I've missed you, silly flightless bird!

Wow. Have you been busy or what! While I know it is stressful, I really do agree with you that the change in location and in responsibilities can only do you good for awhile. You've been feeling restless for a long time now and it seems that there is NO time for boredom out there! haha

Btw, the mental picture I have of you zooming around with 20+ little yipping hotdogs following you everywhere is just too hilarious. You aren't putting little green sweaters on them are you?

I'm so delighted that you are eating better and moving so much! Isn't it nice when your clothes feel looser and people NOTICE the changes in you? I'm really happy to get back to DT and see that you sound so good, my friend.

You are one special bird, kiddo.

Hello,

quick hello before i go to bed. i am so tired and need shut eye as im falling asleep here typing but wanted to say hi and to keep on keeping on my friend. your doing great!!!

take care,

how ya all doing??


I am good

busy busy


I am going to take a look around this weekend and try to set up a little workout space


I dont think that gym has been used in many years... stuff is piled on it but i am sure it can be set up


what the hell..I will prob get a good workout just doing that hahhah


my energy has increased...now to plan better meal times and such


the day is gone pretty quick



damn coyotes keep waking me up...I guess I will get used to them like i got used to traffic in the city



I am hoping for an extra day off this weekend...that will be nice !!!!


lots to do



I hope you all have a great friday


I am gonna read a couple journals and hit the sheets


love ya


peng


xoxoxo

coyotes? wow, that's a scary thought. :c( Sorry I've been MIA, been working tooooo much :) But exercising though and thinking of you often :)

"Home on the Range" or what?? I have this picture of you sitting at a campfire, drinking bad perced coffee and listening to the coyotes wail and the campfire snap. It sounds pretty good now that I think about it!! One thing is different though...on the range "seldom is heard an encouraging word" but you left words of encouragement in my journal this week and I thank you for that. Take care.

hahahaha I love reading the posts in here.

And actually, I love the sound of coyotes. (As long as they aren't eating weenie dogs.) Of course, I've only heard it on TV, but who's asking? haha

How much longer are you going to be there? Is the rottie going mad with all the little yappers everywhere?? Or is he enjoying being outside with all the wild canines?

Did you fix up the dusty gym? Are you eating well? I guess you are eating cowboy beans and weenies out there in the WILDERNESS, huh? haha

Miss you so much, dear penguinhead.

well... cant sum up the last few days in a short post

hell, even a long post



in any event


I am at home today and gonna sleep in my very much missed bed tonight !!!!!


:caf:


hahahahhah



i came home this evening and scrubbed and refreshed my bedroom

had an awesome shower



and am going to sleep well



I will tell ya whats happening with m friend another time


i am just so damn glad to be in my house for tonight



the last few weeks have made me really appreciate all I have... deep down inside



thanks for always being here for me you guys



you make me feel so good deep inside too


:ghug:


have an ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS day tomorrow all





Peng



xoxoxo

Hello,

Nothing feels better than the comfort of our own homes and our own beds. i can vouch for that one.
after being away from my house for awhile and i come home it feels so releiving to me.

nothing like home sweet home.

enjoy your return and first night back in your home.

take care.

Hi Claire!! You are such a wonderful person helping your
friend out like that. I understand the wonderful feeling of being at home only too well!!! I just wanted to stop in and say hello and let you know I appreciate your thoughts and am sending
them your way as well. I hope you have a great weekend!!!

Take Care
Lee

Where are you Pengii?? Still off herding little doggies? Hope all is well. Miss you!

Lisrey :x

Got a present for ya.

I found this Super Penquin, and though of you right away, and thought you might want to use it for your avatar.

I will try to upload it, but no guarrantees. If it won't go, I'll have to e-mail it to ya and hope you can fix it so it will be acceptable.

Happy Losing!

Sandie;
That is so cute!!

Claire;
Where are ya?? back in Laduc? or froze in Edmonton?

Pat

Hey...I found you...

I have been to LV and back...set up my classroom...started back at work...and with my grad class...

I just got back from NY!...Well...on Sunday night...but I have been so super busy this week...now I am here...

What will I do?...I have been 3 weeks off of SBD...gaining 6 pounds back!...Must decide...I am totally sick...so it will have to wait until my decisions can be good ones!

Hope all is well...I found you!

Yayyyyyyyyyyyyy!

mcmarto

:hug: :-/ :not: :wn :mus:

well, a flu of some sorts has hit the ol peng real hard


my eating was getting crazy...so a week ago i laid off the **** and traded oranges for french fries etc

well... sicker than a dog now hahah


i doubt fries kept me healthy lol poor humor from someone very lightheaded


i am going back to bed..i hope i can work tomorrow...last 3 days i have not moved except to bathroom



thank god for buckleys hahahah least i can breathe



catch ya all soon




just wanted to let ya know i am still ok

kinda


lol



:hug:




Peng

Feel better soon, Peng! Miss you!!!

Lisrey :console:

Poor pengii...feeling sick...I hope you are better soon. Thanks for leaving an encouraging word in my journal. I had the flu a couple of weeks ago and my husband and daughter had it last week. The only good thing about it for me is that other teachers are getting sick and need to call in a substitute teacher once in awhile. Take care.

Try some ibuprofen for some ache relief.

Flu can make you so achey and drained.

Plenty of fluid and rest. Dear Friend.

Donna

Hello,


sorry to hear your sick. i have had a nasty cold for a week. it is finally clearing up some but i have been miserable with it. my head and nose all stuffed up and my nose is raw from blowing it, and coughing and so on. i took cold pills and its going away slowly.

i had to work with it and it sucked.

take care of yourself and feel better soon.

:x :console: :ghug:

Oh...hope you feel better soon!

I just got over a 5 day flu/cold!

My first one of the school year...and...hopefully the last!

mcmarto

good to seeya !!

and thanks for all the well wishes !! boy did I get hit hard

I am getting better each day... can damn near breathe hahahah



guess what??

something exciting has happened



I actually am feeling really normal

yes, normal..it has been a long time without bulltweet on my mind



something clicked in between bouts of flu and such haahha actually...a few days before the flu hit


I will give ya the details soon


I am smiling, feeling stronger each day...and in control of my destiny

controling what I can, making the best choices I can, and filing the rest


woohooooo




:jn




it is time



time to believe in me and quit the self doubt sabatoge




I hope you all have a good friday and I will catch up with ya all soon




xoxoxoxooxox


:hug:



Peng

Glad you're feeling better, Pengaroo. And that you're taking care of yourself!! Good decision.

Clare I hope that you get over the flu soon. That is the pits. Do take care of yourself. Just wanted to stop in and tell you I was thinking of you and hope things go a little easier for you for a while.

I know what you mean about the bullet to the head thing. I have found that things are getting easier for me to do as well. I have found tha the comfort of a routine has saved me in many ways. Sometimes it is just nice to have things settle down for awhile so we can focus on what is important to us with no major crisis.

Pengii,

Glad to see you are feeling so much better, hoping to get over the rest soon.

Looking forward to reading about what you have found, what clicked. We want to know too.

Take care. :hippy:

Yes...this is great news!

I too have made a realization too...I have to be the change I want to see........I am working on changing all the things I do not like...working on changing all the things I think I cannot change...and...dealing with the rest!

Hope you have a greeeeeeeeeeeeat weekend!

mcmarto

Claire,
I came back home to only find out you've been sick, get better soon buddy!
I've missed ya :)
Angi:rose:

well, i had another great day

but it was made even better when i got here and the first post i read was in angi's journal


152 pounds gone.... ANGI I AM SO PROUD OF YOU !!!!!



awesome !!!



I hope to have time soon to post more...i have been working lots catching up after being so sick

feeling much better



inside and out


I will tell ya what i am doing soon


it is working... i have lost the sludge i gained and am working my way down one day at a time


i am not totally sure what clicked


but I know I am working hard to make things happen




thanks for the messages !!!

peng is in mode too !!!


xoxoxooxoxoxo


have a great sunday




peng



xoxoox

Pengii, you sound great! I am glad you are feeling good again -- both from your flu and by being "in mode!" :laugh:

You are the best. Are you still helping out with the little doggies, or did they get another caretaker? It sounds like maybe you wore yourself out with them! Take care of YOU and don't be a stranger here -- you were missed!

Lisrey :hug:

yup, i am feeling much better and smiling !!
thanks !


I am losing pounds which is awesome


working hard for them, and it is paying off


I bought dr phils book when sick, as i figured it would be better reading than hours of tv


i am working to chnage my ways of thinking, the eating falls into place when eating for the right reasons


i was scared i would get back to 300 pounds... but not scared enough to quit eating crap


i would tell myself i was not bingeing so i was ok... but the choices were still crap a lot of the time


i was doing things i knew stalled me


why?



the reasons go back a long time



just dont want them to continue on and on




anyhow



wanted to post real quick after lunch then i am off to do some yard work


not a bad day outside



i hope you all have a great monday, I will too



:hug:




Peng

Yay for losing pounds! You know, I really think that our bodies need a rest after losing a lot -- an adjustment sort of thing. You lost quite a bit & you can blame your stall on mental things, but I'd be willing to bet your body was telling you to put the brakes on. It's time to weigh anchor and sail again, though -- and you're off and running! Good for you! :up:

Are you back to seeing the trainer chickie?

I'm glad you have nice weather. I can't believe they are saying we could see snow flurries Wednesday. I do not live on the Arctic Circle here! It is only going to be October 1! What is this??? :laugh:

Hope your afternoon was great!

Lisrey :D

well, my food seems to be leveling off good

the weird cravings are gone... some smells still get the urges going.. but bad habits take time

I just inhale deep and 'taste' the aroma lol


I finally found kashi cereal here that wasnt 8$ a box

so I am addicted to kashi go lean crunch

I have a cup each morning with yogurt and often a banana cut into it

I didnt like the puffed one at all the crunch one tastes good enough for dessert lol


i have sprinkled it on fruit and yogurt at night too...esp the first few days when my cravings were still rampant


I eat breakie, then lunch betwwen 12:30-1:30... usually a sandwich, orange, and sometimes soup


supper by 7 if I can... usually some kind of fish, chix, or protien...or a nice soup

I have been having grilled cheese lately too made with pam and ff cheddar

then fruit


I have some kind of snack in afternoon.. today I mixed chick peas with a bit of a garlic hummus



I enjoy that I am not focused on food... just trying for a balance



I have actually gotten to where I am full with much smaller portions... a meal I could of easily consumed a few weeks ago.. now gets half eaten


so portions are good



I actually feel full and feel when i am truly hungry



yippee !!



I find I get a bit restless in the evening, so I need to develope a new routine to keep busy... changing old patterns



one day at a time



I had to file the scale as I was weighing every day... that is not a good thing for me.. I like to see a pound or two gone..and that doesnt happen for a few days


so maybe i will try for twice a week... not sure... I dont feel any particular way when i weigh in.. I guess I just am reminding myself of my efforts




I will grab those jeans in a couple weeks and see what happens



my chest is still rattley but i am feeling better and better... time to get moving


trainer chickie is gonna kick my big ass when she sees me..I dread that... but I know she will just be happy to see me...esp since I am lighter and not fatter


gotta start somewhere



anyhow


I am going to have a great day tomorrow too



one day at a time



one hour at a time some days



:jn



Peng


xo

Hello,

love your attitude. it is one day at a time, for me one second at a time and yes old habits die slowly. for me night time is the worst. i cant seem to not snack at night which sometimes my snacking is a meal itself or a binge. not dwelling on it so much as before.

i am hoping to one day soon get my spirits back into this but until then just taking it a day at a time.

take care and glad to see your getting on track and doing well.

Yay, Peng! :dn

You sound wonderful! I am so happy for you getting your eating back on track. You must be tempted by a lot of wonderful things during your workday. I just can't imagine.

I LOVE the Kashi Crunch too! It's my favorite. I don't like any of the others except I do like the Strawberry Fields. It is more flaky, not the puffed stuff, and has these berries in it. Mmmmm... It doesn't fill me the way the Crunch does, but the Crunch has so much fiber it is hard to beat that way.

Glad you are still keeping the trainer in mind. You WILL be in those jeans soon -- and maybe I'll be in my blue dress! It's time for both of us!

Lisrey :hug:

Hi Claire, :wave:

I was sorry to read you haven't been feeling well ... BUT I AM SO GLAD TO HEAR THAT YOU ARE ON THE MEND.

Goals THAT ARE SLOWLY REACHED ARE PERMANENTLY ACHIEVED. Make it a great day. As always, Monica

Hey peng,

How you doing?

Sounds like your kicken some serious food ass. Is there a such thing? LOL you know what I mean.

Sounds like you have got a good handle on your food. It's not controling you, and when it calls, your doing a fine job of not listening. Good for you!!!

Hope to hear from you soon.

Darlene :D

so nice to seeya all !!


I did well today except some suicidal chips jumped into my mouth as I was making them

:(

I made 50 lbs of spuds into chips... yowsa

so cut fat and carbs rest of day

def one second at a time too min !

potato chips are a huge weakness, and i never buy them now...havnt in months and months ... the homemade ones are scary

they dont tempt me once they are cooked and stored thank god !!!


I think snacking on crap like that affects my mental state more than anything... it is like having that one smoke, drink, cookie, whatever that sends you over the edge when you are addicted


I love that crunch cereal ... man is it crunchy.. i like crunchy food


carrots are crunchy...i wonder why i never over indulge in them :shrug:


Dar, I am glad you is back baby !!

and thanks to all for making me feel stronger and stronger


I am gonna read some journals and them take the mutts for a toodle around the block



have a great thursday all


:hug:



Peng

Suicidal chips eh??? LOL they sure do have a mind of their own don't they? And what a way to go to:c(

I hope you had a nice walk.....last night!!

Yes, it's now Friday and we haven't heard from you. I'm having my Pengii withdrawls LOL

Well, I'm off to bed. I'm planing a nice workout tomorrow morning:D

Take care.

Hey, lets chat soon eh?

Dar

Hooray for my little flightless bird!!!

I've missed you penguinhead. I am so proud of you.

Are you sure the chips were suicidal and YOU weren't homicidal? Or would that be spudicidal???

spudicidal


too cute


I am feeling a bit off again... guess I wasnt totally recouped lol


then yesterday I stepped on a freaking rusty old nail twice !! stepped and felt something...stepped back and hit it again :shrug:

so today went and got my shot again...cant remeber the last tet shot so must mean time for another lol


I am just plain old barfy, but wanted to stop in and post


I did a fair bit of yard work yesterday... so maybe just pooped on top of barfy



maybe the shot


maybe i need a nap lol



least my appetite is gone with this lousy feeling


I hopefully will be back after to post and visit


I hope you are all doing great


:hug:



Peng


xo

OMG I can't believe you stepped on a nail TWICE.. Geeze peng you are going to be limping all week..
Claire you should read that SBD book. I am really digging this method of eating.. Its been the one plan that ebbs and flows with my life.

Wow thats a hell of a lot of potato chips you made.. Can't believe that..
I hope your week goes well. Take care..
I miss chatting
CJ

I miss chatting too !

I just cant get the chat here to work


I dont know if I have a pop up ad blocker either


I tried to check but i guess i didnt look in the right spot



anyhow

I hope i figure it out soon !!


any tips would be appreciated


xo

So that's where you've been hiding. LOL

I sure have missed ya.

Guess the e-mailing thing didn't pan out eh? I just never get around to doing it.

So sorry:c(

I just hate my dial up. I heard Dan on the phone to our internet provider, and he was asking about satalite internet. We can't get anything else around here... no DSL or cable.

Anyway, that's why my lazy ass hasn't been e-mailing you like I said I would.

Please forgive me.

Hugs, Dar

we planted the seed and I think that is a huge motivater


I had a simple chinese like soup for supper

helped to ease the queezies


i told myself a mcd's sundae would help too but passed hahahhah



it can be tough some days



but we will persevere


i sure like dr phils book


i wish i could use the chat here for monicas chat


:(


one of these days




have a great wednesday all


luv ya




:hug:

Hello,

yes we will perservere. you are so much like me Peng. i too can just dream of a MCD's sundae or something of that nature. i must get back on track but finding it so hard too.

dont know where my groove went but i lost it somewhere and having super hard time finding it again,

i am lost on this diet path and dont know how to find my way back, hoping i will soon.

but your always so kind to me and understanding and i thank you for brightening my days.

take care my friend and love you much!

Happy Thanksgiving, Peng!!

You must be busy at the ol' establishment today. Do Canadians do pumpkin pie on thanksgiviing? That's my favorite pie.

Nice to hear that you're still chugging along, making good choices.

Keep taking care of you. :cruise:

Hey Pengii!

Reading Dr. Phil's book?

I need an appointment with him...soon!

Hope all is well...I have been MIA...too busy with work...school...family...and just my depressed self!

Trying to get things going here...make a few changes...still fighting the bulge...and losing...but...hope to win soon!

How are the dogs?

mcmarto

as you can tell, ol peng is in flux again


four pounds down but many more on my shoulders


I havnt looked at my book for over 2 weeks


i am going to enjoy a sleep in tomorrow and a date with phil lol




I want to start a new journal... just because i guess


poor energy in me


so maybe a fresh page




one thing I have learned well here... we might slip... but few are back before where they began



and I think in tough times... it is important to realize this



might be the grip that lets us move forward once our feet are solid





I hope ya have a great sunday


I have 2 days off !!!



:hug:



Peng