THIS IS IT.

I am SO TIRED of thinking about how uncomfortable I am in my body, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.. I am SO SICK of not having any clothes that fit anymore, and dreading seeing my friends and family because I am ashamed of how I look. I AM TIRED OF HATING MYSELF.

I am sticking to this program (Body for Life) once and for all. Today is the first day of my new life.

I WILL NOT FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF ANYMORE.

I am setting new goals for myself and I WILL reach them no matter what. In the past I have always found some excuse for messing up, BUT NO MORE. NO MORE BINGEING BECAUSE I FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF.

That's all I have to say for now.

I did my cardio for today as well as my ab workout.

I will follow my eating plan TO THE LETTER. NO EXCUSES.

Becky

Saw your journal title and had to pop in to say hi...im in the middle of a 12 week BFL challenge..this one ends for me in a month or so. I follow more of a low fat plan..to suit my needs but the exercise is by the book. Its a very good intense program. I wish you the best as you start on your 12 week adventure. I believe in you and your ability to do it. I look forward to seeing your progress. :x

Hello and welcome,

You have a very positive attitude and that is whats needed even on the hardest days.
I use faith and hope to lead me to make the right choices and some days i do well and other days not so well but accepting i am human and will not always do perfect helps me to go forward when i make mistakes.

you will get there one day at a time. best wishes and take care.

Hi, Becky -

I have heard only good things about BFL, although I don't follow it myself.

Stick with it, keep your positive attitude, and enjoy life.

Thanks for all the words of encouragement!!

I am going to plan out my week here...

Tuesday: 6:30 AM - 20 mins HIIT cardio, ab bootcamp (done)

Wednesday: 6 AM - 45 mins upper body (chest, back, shoulders, triceps, biceps)

Thursday: 6:15 AM - 20 mins HIIT cardio, ab bootcamp

Friday: 6 PM - 35 mins lower body (quads, hamstrings, calves)
This friday workout is going to be hard to fit in because I'm going to my friend's cottage that night. I have to get to London by 8PM ( I don't think I'm going to make it!!). I get home from work at 5:40 pm so I won't make it to the gym til about 6, then a 35 minute workout... anyway we'll see. I MUST fit my workout in though. Stupid gym doesn't open until 12 on Fridays..... what's up with that?? X-(

Ok I'm changing my plan for Thursday and Friday.

Thursday: 6AM - 35 mins lower body
6:30PM - 10 mins cardio, ab bootcamp
8PM - baseball (double header!!!)

Friday: 6AM - 20 mins HIIT cardio (running ewwww).

So I'll get home at about 6:30 AM, jump in the shower, out by 6:45, then blow-dry my hair (takes 45 mins), eat breakfast and be out the door by 8:05. Theoretically it should work!!!

Stopping in to say "hi"...glad you are journaling here.
Darla:rose:

I need to find some more protein choices that are quick and easy........................

Alright.

So yesterday I was really good food and exercise wise. Unfortunately I now have a raging bladder infection. I couldn't go to the gym today because of this, and while I haven't eaten a lot, what I've eaten has not been balanced. To balance it out it looks like I'll have to eat protein only for the rest of the day.:(

WHY does it seem like everytime I get remotely motivated, something comes along to thwart my efforts?!?!? Whenever this happens it takes me FOREVER to get back into the right state of mind..... UGH.

Anyway tomorrow I will do my lower body workout in the morning, followed by 2 baseball games in the evening. Because of the power shortage, the games have been rescheduled for 6PM and 7:15 PM so I won't be able to get to the gym after work.

I WILL DO THIS.

Here is what I've eaten today:

Bowl of Special K Red Berries
1 yogurt (La Creme.... BAD - too fatty)
1/2 cup whole wheat pasta
2 cups popcorn - was ANGRY when I chose to eat this, angry at my body for betraying me and having a bladder infection.

chicken teryiaki sub on whole what (Subway)
louisianna chicken wrap, whole wheat (Mr. Sub)

I eat much better when I'm in a routine. I think I strayed so much today because I didn't go to work. Too much time on my hands!!

I didn't drink enough water and drank way too much diet coke.

I HAVE TO THINK POSTIVE.

Lower body workout tomorrow morning. Must get to the gym by LATEST 6:15.

Here is my meal plan for tomorrow:

7:45 AM: Breakfast burrito (scrambled egg whites inside small whole wheat wrap with salsa)
10:15 AM: banana, 2 slices ham
1:00 PM: chicken breast sandwich on whole wheat
3:30 PM: Fat-free yogurt, 2 slices chicken breast
5:45 PM: chicken wrap
9:00 PM: grilled salmon, 1/2 cup brown rice, salad

10 glasses water!! I always feel so much better when I drink all my water!!!! :D

Just got back from my lower body workout.

Had a hard time getting up this morning. When my alarm went off, I forced myself to sit up and think about how I would feel if I didn't go to the gym. That was enough to get me up and out the door!!!

:dn

I'm proud of myself! So I have baseball after work. I still need to get my ab workout in. I'll try to do that when I get home from baseball.

I forgot to say... I weighed myself this morning and I'm down to 152.75!! 0.75 lbs lost! :D

UGH I am NOT having a good day today....

I was really good yesterday, ate well and did my lower body workout, plus played in 2 softball games. We won one and lost one. In the one we won, we were down 7-0 and we rallied in the bottom of the 7th to beat them! It was great.

I went running this morning. I HATE running. I think it's the impact of it, I can't stand it. I only do it if I have NO other option at all.

Well today I am definitely not in the best of moods. I got my transfer credit assessment back for transfer to University of Toronto from University of Guelph and they are only giving me 8.0 transfer credits out of 9.5!!! X-( I am appealing it of course but its SUCH A HASSLE. I am so mad.

I'm going to my friend's cottage today. It's about a two hour drive, maybe I'll be able to relax and calm myself down a bit on the way there.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.:(

I know how you feel - I am in the midst of credit trans right now myself (some of them are from quite a long time ago) It seems like everytime I speak to someone at the school, the more classes I need to take to complete my degree.:(

OK so I haven't written in quite a while. I went to my friends cottage this weekend, it was SOOOO relaxing, just what I need after finishing work.

I made a major decision on Sunday night. I decided to reverse my decision to transfer to U of T and go back to University of Guelph. I have been thinking about this for a while, and finally acted on it! This means I have to find a place to live FAST. I am looking at a few places tomorrow morning.

Yesterday I had a fitness test done at my gym. It was very depressing :c( . The kinesiologist basically told me I have no muscle :( . I have 34.7% body fat. :( . He also basically said the only way I can get into the shape I want is with a personal trainer. I know he is trying to get more money out of me, but it still made me feel bad.... :( . So I am on a liquid fast today and tomorrow and will start my diet again on Thursday. The bad part is, I won't be able to work out until Monday Sept. 8th because I have to cancel my gym membership.

I know that when I live away from home I am way better diet and exercie-wise. SO hopefully this decision will be good both school-wise and health-wise!!!!

The only GOOD thing from my fitness test is I learned that I need to work on my tehcnique when lifting weights AND I found out I'm down to 152.0 lbs.

Anyway gotta get packing!