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Well, a new journal for the holidays !!
Thanks Pat for giving me the title hahah... there wasnt room for happiness is a little red raked tree hahahha
The little tree i lit up for my non food comfort thing last night does make me smile... i got home and the timer that was supposed to start after five...actually did
:jn
I had a good day after a rough start...work was nuts but that is normal
I did have a funny thing at work though... my one dishwasher who has missed 3 shifts had a note sent to me.. (she is hearing impared)
I laughed when i saw it.. it was a note from the university hospital dental clinic
it was proper form...except the phone number was scratched out...and you could see the writing didnt match the signatures, dates etc.. like a revamped bad laser copy
it was a form stating that my girl had been treated there on the first day she missed and needed to be off work for 4 days
i chuckled...i did a better job in the 4th grade forging notes from my mom
anyhow...giving her the benifit of the doubt..I called the university
the receptionist chuckled when i told her why i was phoning..she checked and nope, no record of her ever... she said it must of been quite a dental crisis to miss that much work lol
i thank her for bothering her and she couldnt believe someone would try that with thier forms
I might put it in my files..it is a keeper
i am surprised she thought i might buy it..i have helped her in this job...maybe she confused compassion with stupidity
my sign language is not too bad..it will be an interesting conversation when she shows up for work on friday hahaha
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the flu has hit some of the staff...my kitchen manager was green today and in the bathroom most of the time..i sent him home and will cover the next couple days for him
I sure hope I dont get this bad strain they are warning about
I even took a vitamin ths am with breakie hahahha
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I am happy with my food choices today.. my dietitian wanted me to stay within these guidlines daily up to 10 grains, 10 fruit & veggie, 4 dairy, 3 meat
today I had 6 grains (2 cereal portions, which she recommends each morn, 2 multigrain bread in my sammy, 2 rye toast supper)
9 veggie and fruit which I am so happy with(2 portion dried cranberries with breakie, veggie with sammy, 2 oranges, raw veg afternoon snack, 1 lettuce with supper , 2 in chili)
2 portions in yogurt, 2 milk portions ff cheddar
turkey in lunch sammy, and i counted 2 protien portions in chili with meat and beans
it is easier for me to figure the portions now that i am looking at what a real portion is.. it doesnt take much to make up what a portion is
I will use fitday to figure the rest
i need the structure right now...and the motivation from meeting the dietitan yesterday sure helps
I left work in my work shoes...my winter boots safely under my desk lol
so i will double my socks and wear sneakers for my walk tonight
i want all my exercise blocks filled too
little steps
*****
I did have a bit of scale withdrawl today... that will be hard but I am sure she knows better than me what I need right now
once a few weeks have gone by then a monthly weighing will be ok
I needed to break that scale habit anyhow... i expect to see it drop all the time...and i know I need time
I dont want to set myself up for failure again
I am rereading dr phil again... there are a couple steps I am finding very helpful
the attitude adjustment.... it is so easy to build bad habits
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I am going to visit my mom this weekend with my sis and BIL .. it will be a nice trip..I am in a holiday spirit this year
I had such a nice dream about my late sis last night..we laughed and laughed... woke up so happy
happier than i can remeber in a long time
maybe it is time for the grief to move on
anyhow
I better take my big dog for his walk
I have to be up at 6 tomorrow
it will be a great day
:x
Peng
Peng,
I am SO glad you are feeling good about the holidays. That's wonderful and special and you deserve it! :x
Nice new journal. Wish I could see your tree. (Hint: pictures!) You are right, attitude is all-important. I think you are in a groove right now. Take it & run with it! You are gonna do great!
Lisrey :dn
just posting that i did my walk... so dar doesnt kick me arse lol
it was lovely... only -2 .. a bright night sky...real fresh
my dog loves these late night walks too lol
if it is this mild tomorrow...the weiner dog can come too hahahah
so all my blocks filled in on my sheet today
:jn
have a great day tomorrow all
:x
mom2five 11-26-03, 09:04 AM Welcome to you new journal. Glad to hear the Dietitian is suiting you. So hard to find someone who has the right attitude and approach for you as an individual, You seemed to have found a match and that is terrific.
I can so relate to the scale thingy. I now only weigh once a week but sometimes it feels like a long week , but I do agree it is better not to obsess with the numbers.
fleureange 11-26-03, 03:11 PM Hey Peng,
The air feels fresh in here. Must be the holidays:D All that crisp fresh snow and all LOL
I'm so glad we got to chat last night. I thought about all we talked about and I really feel ready for some thinking changes.
It's a new area for me too. Kinda feel like the dietian is guiding you by the hand, and I'm following along by your other hand LOL
The thing is we're moving.
I think somebody's going to be in trouble!!!! I would love to see her face when you....just happen to mention.... the phone call tot he dental office LOL she may look a wee bit green herself LOL
Take care
Darlene
good to see ya all too
:x
guess what
I am being sent all my challenges right from the get go this time lol
I had a lovely chat with Dar last night (sweet sweet lady!)...really had me happy, perked, and inspired
got off the phone late...took my big dog for a walk..it was lovely... a long walk as the night was so nice
got home after midnight... was ready for a good sleep as my alarm was going off before 6
was changing in the bathroom...house felt cool but figured it was because i was so warm from the brisk walk
as i picked up my discarded laundry off the floor..i noticed the heat register was blowing cool air
crap
went downstairs and the furnace was out
it happened once before and relit easily
well not last night
tried and tried till almost 2 am to get it going... didnt know what to do
have a small heater and placed it near the main plumbing areas downstairs and cranked it all night and it is still going
so... woke up and it was 46 F in the house
double crap
so went to work as my mornign guy has the flu bad... no choice
the guys at work told me to call the gas company...they will come check it
so I did and the girl told me i should of called last night....they have 24 hr service..I had no idea
I just knew i could not afford a late night service call charge
she was real nce
so a guy is coming this afternoon
house is freezing
my boss offered to come look at it while i was at work this am... but he has never met my rottwieller... and not worth the chance of jagger actually being unhappy about a stranger in my house
it was so nice of a couple guys offering to help me out
so nice
so i am gonna freeze for the next few ours then hopefully it will be ok
the furnace is not old...they think it is a thermostat coupler or something... hopefully not too expensive...
thank god pay day is friday
thank god it happened now and not when i am gone for 4 days this wekeend
BRRRRRRRRR
and the scary lawyer from my sis estate called too... shesh
i am waiting for him to call me back now as i freeze hahahha
I will make it through this without eating to soothe myself
I WILL
I hope both things are not too bad
cross all you got for me guys
i will post after all is taken care of
love peng
ps...the house was so cold this am... my sunshine ceiling would not come on...hahahah too cold for the flourescents hahahah... just barely glowed hahahha
shesh
I dont need food... just a furnace repair guy and the lawyer not giving me bad news
8-|
I can feel heat coming in the house !!! lol
of course, the pilot lit no prob for the tech...he says it is like taking your car to the garage with a weird sound..as soon as the mechanic drives it...no sound lol
he tested everything and it was ok...he said if it is anything...it is the thermal coupler... he cleaned the pilot, mixers and such and said that might of been it too
so..i will go to home depot...buy the 8$ peice and replace it..just in case
he showed me how...he was so helpful..then he explained the shut offs...told me i need to replace a vent on my hot water heater and showed me how to do that for 5 bucks
he said my furnace was a good one
thank you lord
and the gas man lol
the lawyer called and it wasnt scarey..just padding his account probably
I have accepted the fact that they legally screwed my sisters estate over
i just want it over
and move on
great day food wise
i made a great turkey veg soup at work with homemade chive dumplings (like fluffy pasta) I brought some home for supper too
I will enter my food blocks after
I am bone weary after no sleep, no heat, and early work...but thats ok..I wont nap... I will do my walk tonight
one day at a time
together buddies
:hug:
Peng
Yay for heat!! :up: Whew!
It is simply wonderful hearing you so inspired. I hope some of it will rub off on me. I am feeling pretty down about my eating lately, and today I seem to have developed a cold. Nose was running all afternoon as I was helping people at the desk. Used so many tissues it is red now. :sigh:
But YOU are gung-ho and driving ahead and filling out your blocks and walking and eating great! YOU are a wonderful example and an inspiration and a shining star! YOU are fun to listen to -- makes me feel so light and happy to read your posts. Thanks! :*
Hope you & the doggies have a great night! Get some rest after your exercise!
Lisrey :D
BuckeyeSHS 11-26-03, 07:27 PM Hi Peng!
I just saw your new journal and I only made it through the first few posts this time around, but I wanted to post about the comment you made about the d/Deaf girl that works for you. I just graduated with my B.A. in Speech and Hearing Science (hence SHS in my name). I am quite impressed that you know Sign Language! :D I love Deaf culture and sign. I am going to graduate school for my doctorate of Audiology, but I did consider Deaf Education for a while. However, I have extremely passionate ideas on Deaf ED that would translate into a major bias making it unethical for me to give advice to parents! Anyway, I rambled there, sorry! I basically just wanted to say that I am impressed you know sign language.
Anyway, I think your montly weigh-ins are a good idea. It would be hard for me to adjust to that too. You just get so addicted to stepping on the scale. I used to weigh myself several times throughout the day...not a good idea.
Heat is definitely a good thing! So glad that you've got some!
-Lindsey
fleureange 11-26-03, 07:53 PM I'm so glad you have heat. Heat is such a nice thing to have:D LOL
I remember one year, we were living in this old 120 year old house. It was the coldest day of the year and it was snowing like mofo. I heard a huge bang from under the house. (funace was in the basement with only access being from outside) I call the gas company and they told me to shut my heat off right away!!! I thought I was going to feeze to death with 2 small children, at the time.
Turns out it was a delayed ignition. The gas was pooling then exploding in small explosions. Could have blown up the whole house.
I'm glad it wasn't that bad for you. $8 bucks isn't to bad, not when it comes to fixing a funace.
I still have to post my food for today. Was good up until dinner, where I got lazy and made instant mashed potatos. (not a normal thing in this house:o I aways have them just in case)
So, not only did I eat the taters, I had to much of it. Things could have been worse. I could have eaten them all right? I didn't. I also had fish with it, so that's a plus.
Any way, I'm so glad you have heat and very happy that you have some nice folks on your side willing to help out. We all need somebody now and again.
Take care, and get some well deserved rest.
Darlene
nice to seeya Lisrey & Lindsey !!
and ramble away...I love convo !!
good for you with your ED lindsey... so many options..
I learned sign in my 20's when i hired a mute fellow who was very skilled but shy because of his impairment
and I as well wanted to learn
i still mix up some sign..a lot hahah...i am only good at the basics...but you do get a rythym and communication is very easy when you are natural
he taught me a lot and i used it a lot travelling, believe it or not... when ya dont speak english...you can still talk lol
then i got rusty after not using it for years... then a couple years ago.. a placement councilor interviewed me...asked if i would be willing for special employees.. i told her i didnt thinking being hearing impared was "special"
a deaf lady came to work for me and she was great...we would talk and talk lol she would laugh at my crappy sign...and help me out
so in the deaf community... i think they share who they like to work for and why.. people seem to find my door.. it treat everyone as equals
one person i interviewed years ago tought me a good lesson... I had said"dont be nervous, I have worked with many hearing impaired" she responded "well dont you be nervous either, I have gotten used to hearing people too" with a smile lol
i always spend more time getting the hearing staff over obstacles..than i do the non hearing
and soon almost everyone gets into it
still get the ones who think yelling and waving there hands helps though hahahahha
I am just ok in it... but always learning
my girl called today ... so i asked her about the note...she said she remebered i wanted a doctors note for missed time.. so had it dropped off
i told her i didnt want forged documents from a university hospital who were upset she forged them
she hung up
lol... live and learn
now hows that for rambling hahahah thats what journals are for lol
i am having scale withdrawl guys..but want to try real hard to follow my dieitians plan
and i understand her logic
i have sabatoged myself many times when the scale doesnt drop 80 pounds in a month
:rolleyes:
I am so damn happy I have heat hahah
I have been sitting here warm, typing away hahahha
i can feel my fingers again hahahah
gonna go for my walk soon
then hot shower and sleep
have a great night all
seeya again !!!
sandielynne 11-26-03, 09:05 PM Hi Pengii,
Yes, it is a great night. You have your Rotty and your weiner, you have lots of good warm heat, a nice cozy home, and you are right with your world. I'm so glad to know that you are happy and feeling so good.
Don't stress over the scale too much. I did the same thing, but not because the Dietician told me to, I just decided I was depending on it too much. And I was only weighing once a week. Still too often. Then this morning, cleaning the bathroom, I just couldn't help it and stepped on the scale. The first time since November 1st. Guess what?................I lost 6 lbs.. What a wonderful surprise that was. So you see, staying away can be very beneficial. I think I will stick with this plan too.
As you see, I found your new journal. Thanks for letting me know about it and thank you for the wonderful conversation we had earlier this evening.
You take care and keep well.
Hugz,
Sandie
:wave: sandie
I loved our chat too .. kept me smiling
WAY TO GO !!! 6 POUNDS !!!
I am adjusting to no scale...and truthfully..it is good as i think about losing pounds less, and eating better more
and I know the weight will follow
I hope your evening was great with ruthie and fam
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I had a great sleep... feel wonderful
gonna have breakie and head to work
it WILL be a great day
seeya all later
:hug:
Peng
fleureange 11-27-03, 05:46 PM Hey buddy :wave:
How's your day going?
Mine is great. I bought this glade plug in thingy. The scented things...this one has a fan on it8-| Now my house smells like apple cinnimon.
My food has been great today. I am over doing it a bit on the soy nuts, so I'll just put them away!
I'm going to take another long hot bubble bath tonight. going to lite some candles and imagin/picture myself at my goal size. I'm going to try to visualize eating healthy, being fit and wearing the "cool" clothes LOL
I hear visualizing helps.
I'm also going to take a few mins to have a chat with myself. :tomato: No, I'm not crazy....well, not to crazy LOL
I'm going to say some nice things about myself out loud so I can hear it. (so long as I don't answer LOL)
So I guess that will be 2 nice non food comfort things ....the bath and the plug in.
What are you going to do today for your non food comfort treat?
Have a good one
Darlene
patricians2001 11-27-03, 09:16 PM I saw the tree!! Beautiful with red lights and a light sprinkle of snow.
One day I'll see Penq too, if our off times ever co-ordinate.
Pat
Pengii...sounds like you are on a great food plan and off to a great start. Think how exciting it will be to be weighed after following your plan for a month? You go girl!!
I like your new journal...good work! Way to go, Danno, busting the employee with the phony note. That young lady needs to have more respect for people who are giving her a break.
Take care.
crazy night here..get to that in a min
Hi Artsy !! been thinking of you a lot lately... gonna check in on ya right after this post
Pat !! :x she likes my tree :jn hahah
damn fine job with the rake huh? hahahhaha
you will see peng
maybe you can inspect my painting job one day over coffee and let the girls know too lol
hell.. maybe i will put a brush in your hand not holding coffee hahahha
I have a whole basement in need of finishing hahahha
it is a happy little tree isnt it
I hope to seeya next week !!!
dar buddy !!!
you are doing great woman
I am so darn proud of you
each night i am walking jagger as a non food comfort ... he likes a scheduled walk now..not just whenever
the 10 yr old rotti jumps like a puppy when i grab his leash
it makes me happy
tonight i will also pack some stuff for my mom and for my trip tomorrow
unless that freezing rain they are talking about stops us from driving tomorrow night..then we will go sat morn
now that we know our mom aint dead
what a scare
she is almost 70 and feeling rough..she gets back surgery next week
so i phone her to tell her we might delay a day if the weather hits
no answer
i call my sis to tell her i tried mom and will call her later
my sis says she called my mom many times YESTERDAY and she never answered or returned her messages
that never happens
so I said..what if she is dead
we said no way
then we got worried
called and called
was just going to call an aunt to go check on her when i tried again
the machine picked up right away
i said mom call me now..figuring maybe her machine was working now
she called back and said she was having phone probs and just had a new phone in
well christ
told her hang on and i will call you back...gotta phone bev and tell her you aint dead
shesh
can laugh now hahahhah
I realize how raw i am still inside from my sis and dad dying so close together
i guess i deny that pain a lot
so talked with mom...what a convo after that lol
told her to call bev
and then i will call bev
my last nerve is whacked this week lol
shesh
anyhow..all my blocks filled except my 2 exercise... so will do them soon
me and my dog
i am walking real fast...feels good.. jag is on a 20 foot extendalead so he can pee real quick then catch up hahahah
good for both of us
i told my dog he is not allowed to die for some time either
he licked my face
i think that is an 'OK' in dog speak
lol
god.... my nerves lol
we have a big group coming in for breakie tomorrow... the hockey teams alumni..early and private
so up early
then a quick packing for the trip
will post in morning before i go
will be back monday night
have a great evening all
catch ya later
:hug:
Peng
got my walk in
now a nice hot shower and fresh sheets
cant eat either hahahhah
so my non food comfort zone is expanding
I am proud of myself
:jn
Peng
fleureange 11-28-03, 06:44 AM I'm so darn proud of you too.
You're doing it! One Jagger walk at a time LOL
I can just imagin your little red tree glowing as a beacon welcoming you home after your walk.:D
So today's going to be a busy one for ya eh? Gonna have to try to stay sane during the whole thing. Remember, I'm thinking of ya. If things get rough, just picture me kicking you in the butt LOL... Anything for a friend :lil:
Have a great day Claire
Darlene
having coffee and just chatted w my sis to make plans for the day...and not yet 6 am hahha
woke up at 5... gonna get my day together
we decided if it is crappy tonight..we will still drop jagger off at farm who babysits and leave early tomorrow morning and drive to sask
i will take my sheets with me and tuck them away so i can keep going
with this plan.. i have any option i want... seeing me fill my blocks as i go will help keep me focused
i need that
i know if i miss a couple days...i might get that 'what the hell' feeling..start over 'monday'
old habits...and i need to stay focused on new habits.. it will feel like a routine after a month
anyhow..I hope you all have a wonderful weekend
I will seeya in a few days
:hug:
Peng
Claire
you are such an amazing capable woman. I loved how affirming your journal was to catch up on. You are trying to be positive with yourself and boy is it showing. I am all about faking it till we make it ( especially now!!!!)
BTW I have read that you can teach simple signs to your infant and the two of you can comunicate well before they can talk. I have to take a second language to graduate so I might take sign language as it seems the most useful.
My silly cat has a messed up ear again. Can you believe it??? Gosh those little animals are needy. How are you keeping the dogs warm and the house clean?? I imagine that winter makes it difficult with mud and snow.
Your walk sounds divine. I wish I were more brave to go walking at night like that. Is Alberta pretty safe?
Have a wonderful Thanskgiving
I love your attitude about making the new routine a habit and not letting the "start over Monday" thing happen. I need to do that, myself.
Hope you have a wonderful trip & a good visit with your Mom! Enjoy!
Lisrey :hug:
mcmarto 11-28-03, 10:58 AM Hey...nice new place here!
So...did that girl ever come back to work?
We learn so many new great things about you everyday!
You sound so happy and chipper!...Keep it up...its contagious...heeheehee!
So anything you learned from your DT you would like to share with us all???
Talk soon!
mcmarto
BuckeyeSHS 11-28-03, 11:27 AM Hello Again!
I don't mean to respond to CJ in your journal, Peng, but it is true that infants can understand language (even spoken) before they are able to reproduce it. And the infant will have the motor skills to reproduce sign language earlier than they get control of their vocal muscles, so it is true! :D
Whew! I am very glad to hear that your mother was just having phone problems. Even though most of my family is still fairly young, I always jump to conclusions if I can't get ahold of them over a couple of days.
Anyway, I just wanted to pop in and say hello! You are doing great with your walking! I hope you had a nice holiday!
-Lindsey
just logged on real quick as i try and calm down before the drive hahah
your messages did the trick xoxooxo
lindsey ! quite apologizing hahah :wave: I love reading posts... and all i can from others !! and i learned something new and real interesting today from you guys
:x
CJ... my preggers little buddy
alberta is darn safe when you are walking a rottweiller that weighs 100+ hahah.... anyone else walking crosses the street before we get close to them lol
McPrettio !! so good to seeya ..and i see your stats moving and moving too !!
I will share all i get from the DT !!
lisrey... thanks buddy
I am working real hard to build better habits
whew
calming down
nicely
have a great weekend all
i just luv ya guys
you help me feel so nice
inside and out
:hug:
peng
fleureange 11-28-03, 06:52 PM HAVE A SUPER TIME!
Just make it home in once peice K?
Luv ya
Dar
sandielynne 11-28-03, 11:03 PM Pengii,
Hi lady. Hope the trip went well and that the visit was super all around. Talk to you more after you return.
Hugz,
Sandie
Claire
Wow I would cross the road to. That rotty would do the trick.. Lol
I hope your drive home was safe and I didn't read if you were going to be with mom or not. If so then pm me and we can have a post thanksgiving vent and chat.
I really hope you survived the family.
I am proud of what you are trying to do. Just remember that in changing for good they point out that sometimes it takes us a few times to really get into the action stage. Don't beat yourself up for the past. Try to feel like each day your life is getting better, and most importantly keep pulling yourself back on the path you want.
I try to think of myself as a ship that is constantly checking my trajectory and making adjustments to my flight path because otherwise I would drift off the mark. These little adjustments over time have added up to lifelong habits so I know for a fact that it can be done and is worth it.
PS. I am putting up the tree today!!!!
mcmarto 11-29-03, 08:29 AM Have fun...can't wait to read all about it!
mc:o
Minnie mouse 11-30-03, 12:04 AM Hello,
wanted to say hello and i think your doing just great. im not doing so good on the dieting but i figure if i keep coming here i can get motivated. sooner or later....
but wanted to talk to my buddies ive been missing so much.
take care and remember I luv ya Peng!!!
just back from the trip to mom's with sis and BIL
AAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH
OMG
good thing i got ya guys to stablize me hahahha
anyone remeber the simpsons episode where homer gets hypnotized...and cant quit the screaming
AAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH
it will take years of therapy to recover
lol
oh my
I have lots to work on
*********************
anyhow... learned a lot about myself and roots of my familys issues
now to work through that...not eat through that
*********************
I am so happy to seeya all
:jn
sandy...I sure missed ya kid !! I knew you would find your way home
never a doubt in my mind
just glad it is sooner than later lol
I am rethinking my 'dieting' attitude too
we just have to set our feet each morning and just focus on today
I have to do some things
and will be back after
AAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH
oops
snuck up on me
hahahahahah
I missed ya guys
we will have a great week
together
:x
Peng
Hi Peng!
It's December 1st & I figure a great time for a fresh start! I have been struggling lately with a lot of stress & I am gonna jump on your little bandwagon & push hard to do well every day. I was thinking that your "blocks" are a lot like my spreadsheet that I fill in for myself. I am gonna focus on each day for the next three weeks. I wanna line myself up to start January where I started November! :laugh:
You are right with what you always say -- We can do it, together! Thanks for the inspiration! Oh -- and the holiday clothes challenge, too! :up:
Lisrey :hug:
fleureange 12-01-03, 09:20 PM Hey girl!
I missed ya!
Been doing some work on me as well. Didn't have quite the "in your face" approch though LOL Was it really that bad?
Well, at least it gives you a place to start.
Congrats for not eating through it! That's a major success.
WE WILL DO IT
TOGETHER
NEVER ALONE
Dar
I have lived it and I know exactly what you are talking about.
There is nothing like a trip home to make me feel 5 years old hiding in the covers. Usually it takes me three weeks to remember my name and what the hell I was trying accomplish before I got there
You take care of yourself and really baby claire this week.
Go over your stuff from the dietician and refocus yourself so that you can feel reenergized and good again.
Take care
yup, you nailed it CJ
and Dar, yes it could be hahahahah
lisrey... i saw first hand what not dealing with issues can do...at its worst
I am determined to deal with it and move on
healthier and happier
i am shakey from the weekend
post stress trauma
no bulltweet
gonna lay under the covers like cj said hahahah
last night i got the lunatic laughs in bed as it was all so unbelievable
such a feeling of helplessness
but..i can only control myself...and hopefully help the ones who want help ... when it is asked for
i have enough issues of my own right now..i see many ways in which i can improve my outlook... i know working on my issues is my only hope for freedom
and my only hope for loving 100%
*******
a good food day
i am getting used to not seeing my buddy, the scale
i feel smaller...clothes are loser after a week... my sis says she can tell a dif already
good for me (hahah i am supposed to work on my positive attitude ahahha)
i hope for 20 pounds gone by weigh day in january
but have to get over that too hahahah my dietitian doesnt want me relying on a number... she wants me to remove the pressure... the pressure which has always stopped me
she says it falls into place with good nutrition and a better lifestyle...no rules .. one day at a time
sandy, you would love this dietitian lol
anyhow... i will post how i reacted food and comfort wise to the stress... but no bingeing, no booze, no screaming
a few grays
and sadness for my family
but nothing we all cant work on
hopefully together
I still feel like homer though hahahahhahahhaha
AAAAAAAAGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
seeya tomorrow
hopefully i sleep well
:x
peng
Claire
I think you need to go rent almighty bruce or some really funny show and just sit in your pjs and have a good laugh. Laughter is always better than food. If you want to give me a call you know how to find me. We can laugh about our whack ass families together.
I have thought a lot about how difficult it is to change and I really believe that your dietician is right. It is so important to feel that our lives are getting better because we are being healthy. Sometimes that stupid scale really gets in the way of real health.
I remind myself that while losing weight is difficult I can do it and that it really is a simple formula of eating better and moving more. Ofcourse you will know that you are doing well when your pants fit loser and you have more energy.
don't get discouraged. Christmas is a difficult time for all of us. Find joy in every little thiing you can and please kick me in the ass so that I will do the same.
a good sleep and a positive attitude this morning
I am going to work through the emotions...not eat
dogs were happy to be in our happy little home again too
my big rottweiller ignored me on the drive home from the sitters hahahha... he stared out the window for the first 20 mins.... then decided he forgave me for leaving him and the affection switch was turned on
they are funny creatures...so receptive and sensitive..i think many people could learn lots from animals
i wish my mom could have a cat... would fill her life
maybe when she moves into a new place..but i can see why they dont allow pets in most seniors places...they still need care and cleaning up after.... i can imagine moving into a small apt that a cat has marked over and over
eeewwwwwwwww
anyhow...work will be a zoo first few days...have inventory to do and it will be hard as i need to remove the 2 orders i got on monday from lists... could just remove the $$ but would alter my tracking system
plus a weekly specials menu to create
find out who did what
I had a good sleep and am ready for it
I dont know if i would enjoy doing anything different really..I have managed since my early 20's
work is work...no matter what kind of biz
my mom gave me and my sis some holiday baking pans... i want to create some kind of cake like thing to fill the molds with...then decorate them for gifts for work
i know i am safe with that...if i managed my comfort eating this weekend..i know i can manage the holiday temptations
I did real well and it reminds me i AM capable
I thank dr phils key 4 for helping me along
I think looking at jan 15 th as my first assesment helps too
on the dec 15th, my DT and I are going to review the past weeks
she will ask me if i want to weigh..as she gave me that option..but i am getting used to relying on filling my nutrition blocks and sctivity blocks...I will wait till jan 15th
I can see her till april 15th.. i have already decided I am top priority..and will save the money to continue monthly visits
but that is way to far ahead to plan for..i just know i am feeling better each day
thanks to how i am working it
i missed the walks while visiting...did about a 15 min bit each afternoon..but was too chilly for the weiner dog..and the area was not safe for walking in evening without my big dog
me and jag are back at it now thta we are home
i will include 3 gym visits this week too
weights there...cardio at home
I hope to fit my bathing suit by xmas too... then i will try and add swimming on mondays
it is important for me not to deny myself things i enjoy because i am self concious about my size
so getting into the pool with the old farts will be fine...maybe my sis will want to do the pool class again
I would do that with her
can anyone figure out why they make higher cut swim suits and underwear in plus sizes???????
come on... show me a 4X person with a solid stomach..and i will do back flips
where the hell is your belly supposed to go
other thn drop out the frigging high cut leg holes
anyhow
my suit is ok... just too small right now
losing some inches will do the trick
I am making my good old hot cereal this morning
yes dar...bird barf hahaha
red river cereal
chilly morning so it will be yummy
will stop in china town for some fruits after work today...they always have great apples and oranges at the lucky 97 market
anyhow
wanted to tell ya all i had a great sleep
dealing with what i can control
giving the rest to the higher powers that be
I hope you all have a wonderful day today
seeya later
:jn
Peng
:x
Hahahaha, Peng, about the high cut undies! I need high cut because I am so short-waisted. Even when I was wearing 2X I bought high cut undies. The longer sides just go down my thighs & fit me all wrong! So I guess the answer is -- for short people! :D
You sound great today. Glad you are feeling so good & positive still about your dietician. I'll bet trainer chicky will be thrilled to see you, too. Have fun & keep it up with the dog walks! It feels great to have an animal companion to share with, I know. Wish I could walk with cats, but at least they hang out with me when I'm on the treadmill!
Lisrey :o
well it is good to know there is a reason lisrey hahahahha
thats why i love this site
:hug:
I havnt seen trainer chickie the last few times i have gone...she would have heart failure when she sees me..if she wasnt in such great shape lol
they are so encouraging...I know i will see her at some point..I think the early morn visits are before her shift
mondays will be later though
anyhow
work time
luv ya
fleureange 12-02-03, 12:10 PM Bird barf!!! Blah :-& LOL
Hope you enjoyed it :D
Darlene
I did !!!
lol..i love that stupid cereal hahah and nice on such a cold morning
good thing i had it too...worked a long one today
had my reg sammy, orange, and some veg for lunch
had bit chix and veg for snack
and turkey, cheese, veg for supper
real pooped and didnt get home till near 8
anyhow
have to go in eary tomorrow...still didnt finish logging inventory lol
the controller will kick my ass hahahah
food is falling into place...less cravings.. getting used to popping fruits and veggies in the mix
life is good
:flower:
anyhow...gonna go have a long relaxing shower
pamper myself a bit
have a great wednesday all
:x
Peng
sandielynne 12-03-03, 05:07 PM Hi there Pengii,
It looks like you have gotten right back into routine and seem to be doing quite well too.
Those walks you are taking, in the night, when it's so cold outside, are probably the best time for you to be doing that. The colder is it, the more calories you burn every step you take. That has to be a big boost in your efforts to lose inches as well as pounds. If my legs would allow it, I would love to do the same. Alas bad knees. None too conducive to walking much, I'm afraid. Another good reason to eliminate the excess now before you too have such damage.
I am fortunate in that where I live I can feel reasonably safe walking alone at any time of the day or night. By 8 pm there is nary a car on the road around here. Even if you drive into town, about 10 miles off, the common joke is that they roll up the sidewalks at 8 pm.........haha. Not quite, but almost.
Take care now and have a great week.
Sandie
patricians2001 12-03-03, 05:58 PM Hi Claire;
Glad you are back. I've been so busy I haven't been checking in.
If you want a real good laugh, go see ELF. It is such a funny movie, gets you in the holiday spirit. And with the price of treats at the theatre, you won't feel like eating anything.
Pat
fleureange 12-03-03, 07:07 PM :cheers: here's to Red River cereal LOL
So glad your feeling great. I'm feeling great myself.
Life really does seem to be falling into place. FINALLY LOL
You've been such a great support for me.
Hope to be able to chat with you tonight
Have a good one
Dar
Wow, Pengii...you sound so together and pumped up about your new program. It is great to hear that you feel smaller and better after a week on the program. So on December 15th...to weigh or not to weigh...that is the question. I would have a hard time passing up the opportunity for some feedback...you have more strength than I do if you can turn it down.
Take care and have another great week!!
having a coffee while the cereal cooks
gonna go in early today and later tomorrow
:wave: all !
hi artsy !! I am seeing how dependent my moods are on the scale ...when not getting on it so often... so gonna give this all I got
I wish was all real easy lol but i realize how tough it is to break bad habits...and i have develpoed a few
I wont weigh on the 15th of this month..I have seen my motivation change when taking a different outlook...so will wait till jan 15th
I still play mind games with myself...so realize i need to work through them
I was thinking...what if i wait to weigh till the jan date...and only lose a few pounds... I could of adjusted my eating now, and lose more
that attitude is prob why the DT said stay away from scale and focus on lifestyle changes
the total package
it would be dif if i had much less weight to lose , 2 months isnt long when i look at the big picture
I will be working on my non food comfort things for whe the motivation dips...I know I will cycle..it is staying strong during those times which will set me free
thats when reading here really really helps, journals of those at all levels... realizing i am not alone... realizing the little changes DO make a big difference
being able to allow myself things that would trigger a defeatist attitude before.... I can have bits of this and that... and not feel like i have 'blown' it all
Novemeber 24th I started with the DT.... had i been on the scale ..i would expect a huge loss...I dont realize it has been only a short time... but truthfully... each single day is a great accomplishment for me
I feel dif with TOM raging... my moods do fluctuate... I think it is less this month as sugars and processed foods are down
I know I will feel better and better as my body levels stabilize
patience ol pengii
patience and exercise
I think I have recouped from the visit home..my mom has back surgery today... I talked to her last night and she sounded good..she thanked me for a nice visit... I tried to be nice as I know she needed it
so, I feel good knowing I did all i could do... now to take care of me
I offered to do some volunteer work again... just a day a week or so...when they need me..at a local womens shelter
I volunteered with them years ago...and I know I would enjoy it again
non food comfort training lol
filling my life with rewarding things that are not edible
Pat.. I havnt seen a movie in toooooo long lol I love them..just havnt gone in so long I love a good laugh I still cant beleive the prices either yowsa lol
Sandie... :hug: you are so right...my body has carried the weight so well..I am approaching 40 fast...and know I cant expect no probs if I dont change my lifestyle now
your area is so pretty... it would be lovely to walk there.. I still remeber your pictures so well
Dar... the bird barf is almost ready hahahha
so time to get ready for work
I will make it the best day I can today
I hope you all have a great day too
:jn
Peng
:x
Pengii...I hope you are having a great day. I have to say that I am surprisingly unfreaked out about the scales. I am really in a bit of a funk and it would be nice to care enough to try. HOWEVER, I know this mood is only temporary and it will pass and I will be in the swing of things again. If the scale affects your mood by all means avoid it! The main thing is that you are in control, you are eating well and exercising and the momentum is going in a positive direction. You will get a pleasant surprise at the beginning of January when most people are wringing their hands in regret over their excesses. I am cheering for you!
You are so right about how much reading here helps... and I gotta tell you that your posts are helping me tremendously lately. Thanks! I feel so much more motivated and determined again... and I think it's coming from your positive energy vibes. I need a "shake up" now and then or I just stagnate and maintain on and on. A burst of refreshing Pengii energy is what I needed!
I love movies too... and it seems like I hardly ever watch any anymore. I spend too much time on exercise & on the Internet (not necessarily in that order). Need to make more time for that!
Hope you have a wonderful Friday!
Lisrey :ex:
:wave:
I am glad you are feeling good vibes buddy !! You have helped me out so much along the way...still do each day lol
I keep telling myself to adjust to slow and steady...one day at a time
find what i like and fits good into a good lifestyle...and try
instead of looking at all the thing i feel i need to improve on..i am trying to focus on the positive...and with that...the others will develope into good things too
just had my cereal... tired of dried cranberries in it though...so a big apple will be next into my belly lol
yesterday, when i checked the mail, there was a letter from my DT
was a nice reminder...she sent a note hoping i was doing well, and looking forward to us meeting again on dec 15th... and sent a booklet on the importance of breakfast and a breakdown of foods
a real nice pick me up
i have had feelings of flatness.. I am so used to sabatoge..and justifying it somehow.. so it really is one day at a time right now
to combat these feelings... I am adding an exercise block
I have to work this weekend... and will try to hit the gym after work on sat and sunday...and walk my boy in evenings
i might change my days off to mon tues, till after xmas
since my other weekend cook went back to hong kong... i can fill the spot and then be able to start yoga classes on tuesdays
i will just have to switch my work sched on tiesday to wednesday
it will work out and might be a good change
Artsy...I hope i get to the stage where i dont get freaked out.. I know time will help that
better habits are being built... I do have a good healthy breakfast and lunch each day... picking is way down..a few slips...but just old habits
I found myself tepted to pick last few days
I have realized it and stopped myself after my hand goes out
little steps
anyhow
wild wind last night... went and scooped some stuff that had been on my deck, out of the yard and garden lol
the big ol pine tree in my front yard didnt land on my roof.. i see my xmas lights on.. so something must of hit the timer
will fix that later
I better get ready for work
have a great friday all
:x
peng
fleureange 12-05-03, 05:38 PM Little steps ha!
Your working leaps and bounds!
You've made so much progess in such a short time.
I'm not talking pounds and inches, but mental fitness.
You're doing a fine job of "cleaning out your closet" and putting order to your life.
Congrats my friends.
Dar
working early today...so out the door pretty quick
will have breakie at work before it get nuts
an apple will fill my belly on way to work
i didnt fall asleep till late last night...always happens when i have to an evening shift then an am shift
oh well
will sleep good tonight
***
almost 2 weeks down... that feels good...a couple more and i am well into better habits
getting better each day
going to try on my challenge clothes this weekend...maybe sunday after work is done
i am off monday...maybe tuesday if i get everything done tomorrow
there are rumors flying that the restaurant will change hands
I guess you can never get too comfy in any job
maybe they are just rumors...who knows
one day at a time lol
I have some chicken to cook for freezer meals...just not enough time to do that last few days
maybe this weekend
I will make it the best day I can today
have a great weekend all
:jn
Peng
Minnie mouse 12-06-03, 02:26 PM Hello,
I am so proud of you for sticking to plan and making better habits for yourself.
I have missed you so much. and glad to see you doing so well too.
My job they have cut our hours down saying we are slow but were not. we are only 2 sometimes 3 girls on a shift and we have much to do. there so cheap when it comes to employees.
Tommorow going shopping with mom and sis and hubby is watching kids and my niece. hes such a sweetie to me. I am lucky.
i sent you a x-mas card the day before yesterday so you should have it soon. i wrote in it for ya too.
well gotta run.
take care and hang in there. together we will cling to that thread of hope, ya know my quote on the bottom is used often on here and i guess i should read it more.
anyways love ya lots and talk soon.
mcmarto 12-08-03, 02:13 PM WOW...2 weeks down...that is great...especially during this holiday season!
Food...and sweets...everywhere!
One dinner after the next...I do so much better during the week...I am at work...strict...then the weekend comes...watch out!
But...I try to plan ahead!
Have a great week!
Hope you don't have too much snow!
mcmarto
Let's hear it for pengii and being two weeks on plan!! I have been on plan for 2 days and I am feeling like I have something to celebrate...at the two week point I am going to be feeling super.
I love your idea of working out to handle the stress, pengii. By the way...what are your challenge clothes?
Take care and have another great week.
2 weeks under my belt
wooooohoooooo
:jn
if i keep this up...i will be wearing a belt lol
just a quick hello
I am heading out then back later
seeya soon
:x
Peng
YAYYYAYAYAYA
Claire I am so proud of you especially as Christmas is such a difficult time of year. This is a major accomplishment and I am so glad you feel this dietician can help you.
Have a great Day.
CJ
sandielynne 12-10-03, 08:17 PM Hi Claire,
Wow lady, you sure do sound pumped up and raring to go! It's so nice to hear your excitement in your posts. You are going to enter the new year as a new you! What a wonderful gift you are giving yourself.
Keep up the positive attitude Claire. It can take you anywhere you want to go.
Sandie
you guys are the best !!!
:ghug:
I am eating really good...so get obsessed with the exercise
little steps
it is hard to adjust to not feeling bad about something
but i dont have anything to really obsess about and that obsesses me hahahahhahaha
i can look at things and think they could be better...but i am supposed to look at things and see what is good
and there is much good
i want to exercise more..but taking the pressure off leaves me with freedom to choose
and i choose to live better
and to exercise more
too cold for my night walks last couple nights...but i made rounds shopping tonight
my younger sis bday tomorrow... i was thinking it was next week
man time flys
my clothes are fitting better
i know i have lost weight... and am not as concerned with the scale
this is good
not picking
splurged and bought a huge bag of apples in chinatown tonight lol ... yup you heard it right... yummy fuji apples and NOT a stop at the bakery there for pineapple custard buns
some days i surprise myself
taking the pressure off is the difference for me now
being too worried about each thing stalled me before i started
anyhow
one day at a time
I keep telling myself each day that i can keep marking my blocks till mid january... the little steps have added to over 2 weeks already
that it is not that far away... mid jan
i do want to increase my exercise blocks as just eating better alone is not the lifestyle goal i want
balance
i lost 3 guys at work last week..2 part timers and 1 that had more hours I fired 2 and the other returned overseas
so sched is up and down...but still time to workout
just gonna have to do it
i like that the body bloat is down... it makes me want to feel the muscles
anyhow
a hot shower then bed
gotta be up early
have a great day tomorrow guys
:hug:
Peng
fleureange 12-11-03, 06:28 AM You do sound pumped, and you should be. You're finally doing something for Claire, and she deservse it!
I can't wait till your next meeting with the DT. I love all the info she gives you and you give us LOL. Oh yeah, it's good for you too LOL.
You're right, baby steps,
One at a time
One day at a time.
Together buddy
This is a battle
To win the battle we need a stratagie and we have to believe in our cause.
The cause....it's us.
Time to believe in ourselves again.
And you're doing a great job of it.
We will make it.
2004 is going to rock!!!
Take care Claire
Darlene
You sound great! :jn
I'm sorry that it's too cold to walk. I'll bet your pooch is sorry too! He's coming to expect his walks again, isn't he? You are so right that the exercise is a choice. It's something that makes me feel better -- energy, strength, endurance, stamina -- and I choose to fit it in my days. Go visit your trainer chicky & stay warm while you work out. You will love it when you're done!
Those apples sound so good. I bought some small apples last week that are disappointing me. Not crunchy enough! I will have to go back to the store today & try to get lucky with my produce! :laugh:
Take care Pengii!
Lisrey :x
Ah, Fuji apples, I love them.
Nice to see you feeling so well Pengii.
Take care.
thanks guys
I am doing well, thanks
a bit stressed...but not eating through it
I feel my mood changing but i think not being too pumped with processed foods is helping keep it managable
I see the triggers and am working through them
finished my funky soup and made a big pot of chili last night lol
i need something quick and easy for after work so i dont fill up on empty cals
i dont mind eating the same thing over and over in evening as i mix it up at work for lunch
I have a big lunch and full breakie
3 food groups in morning (double fiber)
and 4 groups at lunch
I am concerned about work... I am so close to being on my feet again financially... 6 more months and i would see the light of day
rumors abound about the biz... if it was sold..I would prob be gone...most top managers are in a change in this industry
and the window of opportunity narrows as you get to the top
I just have to keep working, and keep positive... money woes are a way of life the last few years but i have worked very hard to stay afloat
and I am not complaining... it has been a good learning experience and i have discovered what really is important and how to manage my life better
my sis bday yest and i had to work late X-( SO NO CAKE !!!! hahah
I was looking forward to a treat hahahha
we will get together soon
she had a nice day though
well I better have breakie and get ready for work
long day today then mornings sat and sunday
off monday to see my DT and maybe off tuesday
I have a few days off at xmas so dont care what i work till then
it is coming fast hahaha
on monday i will go shopping and finish xmas stuff.. just little things... and be ready for the holidays
I am still trying to think of a concoction to fill my holiday moulds with for gifts at work
i hope you all have a marvelous day
:x
Peng
Claire
Wow you are doing so well I am sure that you are making progress. Holidays are a difficult time don't add to it with worrying about your job. You know as well as I do that you will find another one easily because you are so dang talented. I am sure you will be financially in a good situation in 6 months and that you will look at this time as a great time of growth in all areas.
The chilli sounds great. I hope you can get some more employees hired as I know it is difficult this time of year at times. Keep suckin in those abs and keep a smile on that pretty face.
Well, Peng, it sounds like we are both in the same boat about our jobs. My institution is being controlled by a bunch of crazy Board members who only care about making life tough for the staff. They probably aren't going to give raises for the 2nd year in a row, and our retention is already poor, as you know. I have 12 more months until I'm vested in the retirement plan, and if things haven't changed... but I may not be able to put up with it for that long. ANYWAY... didn't mean to rant in your journal -- my POINT was that there is nothing either of us can do but wait and see, tough though that may be! :x
I have been doing so much better handling the stress eating this past week... you have been inspiring me and it is working! I am excited for you to get to visit the dietician again. I'm sure she will be pleased with how you've absorbed her instructions & the payoff. You are fabulous!
Lisrey :hug:
mcmarto 12-14-03, 02:59 PM One day at a time!
Don't let stress or anything else get in the way!
Have a great week!
mcmarto
chumlette 12-15-03, 05:21 AM Think about you all the time.
Glad to see you still have your wits about you. hee
Miss you!
:wn
fleureange 12-15-03, 06:40 AM Hey chickie :wave:
I'm so proud of you. You've come so far in such a short time. The old you would be eating through all this work stress. I know it's hard work to stay focused, but you're doing a fantastic job of it.
I hope things turn out well for you in the work dept. You deserve a break for crying out loud. I guess it's time for a cliche. What ever don't kill ya will make you stronger. But they forgot to mention about the freakin pain!! LOL No, really, things will turn out. It's x-mas time, don't you worry about that stuff now. Enjoy your holidays and things will unfold in their own time.
Can't wait to hear about what's happening with your DT.
Have a good day off
Darlene
so nice to seeya !
I am up early as i have to drive in rush hour to my appt with DT lol
I decided to file the work thing, like you said... what happens happpens...stressing wont change anything
do my best ...and who knows
I could be there a while
:flower:
I am really proud of myself today
I had a good 3 weeks
have made great progress
mentally more than physically
mind you, i think my challemge skirt will fit nice
i will try it when home after
then pick something for my next month
I have my damn jeans for my feb goal hahahha
god..those poor pants hahahah been stretched over my butt so many times hahah
but i do still remember when they stopped at my knees and now they are just a few inches from doing up
:jn
I will see what the DT says this morning
my goal is to incorporate more :lift: this month, and to eat wisely over the holidays.. to fit xmas goodies into a good food plan
I can do this
I know I can
I will let you know what happened when I return later today
have a fantastic week all
:hug:
Peng
patricians2001 12-15-03, 04:58 PM Hi Claire;
Hope your appointment went well, can't wait to hear the update.
As for the job thing, I hope it works out but if it doesn't, Edmonton has such a variety of wonderful restaurants, I'm sure with your credentials you'll be snapped up.
I tried to send you two pms about a horrendous experience we had with a staff get together at a very pretentious downtown restaurant which has a connection with tools.
I wanted your take on it, but I typed out the long yarn twice, and each time it disappeared into cyperspace.
That pees me off, as I can't stand typing. May get myself together and try again later.
Pat
mcmarto 12-16-03, 09:51 PM You can do it!
You will do it!
mc
good to seeya all
:hug:
mc..i feel good... adjusting well
day by day
you are doing awesome too...luv the 'tude
hi Pat... sorry to hear about your bad experience.. I do want to hear what happened.. I cant believe any experience would be less than great there they are so top end
i wish there were tons of 'great' jobs..but not so... people stay when they get a good post and believe it or not.. I know many great cooks who earn 12-15 hr .. thats it !! certified out the wazooo the industry is very underpaid...I wouldnt last long at that wage hahah but you are right..I would find something..not gonna worry on it
the trip to DT was good..she is really anti scale, and i understand why I see another perspective and it makes sense like losing an addiction... the scale is great unless you have a habit like me
so as i change those habits and ideas..i will be back to reg weighings
we talked about fueling your body... eating at difs times.. if a meal is missed or late..those kinds of things
we talked a lot about body image... the changes a body goes through
my worklist for this month includes the food tracking again... that is permanent but more work on non food comfort
I HAVE to make my list.. i told her i thought of things but she wants them on paper and reinforced daily lol
one of my goals is to incorporate more activity...for the mental benifits more than the physical
she said my food was good..she was pleased
i was too
next appointment is jan 14th.. so that will be weigh day
once again...she doesnt want me focusing on that it is to track my changes and because i told her i really want to hahahha
so i think she is going to focus on my reactions... it is true...the eating follows my mind set and i dont need sabatoge
anyhow... I am getting a cold..i feel it coming on... body feels like it was hit by a truck
how come i never got sick eating french fries??? hahahahha
so a neo citron and ZZZZZZ soon
I hope everyone has a great day tomorrow
take care of yourself
peng
xoxoxooxox
:x
Yay! I'll bet the Dietician gave you a gold star for your great eating, eh? :D I am so glad you are liking her methods & that she is keeping you focused. That is awesome. I am doing my best to try to stay on track & so far so good!
Sorry you are getting sick. Yuck! I hate that feeling where you know it will be there the next morning when you wake up. It's major dread for me. I am not a good patient (because I am impatient, LOL). I don't like to stay home from work & I resist as much as I can... Keep yourself rested & hopefully you can chase it away quick.
Take care & have a good Wednesday!
Lisrey :up:
I have eluded the cold bug.. took tons of C and the neocitron has held it down
thank goodness
no time to be sick lol work is swamped..we are crazy at lunch and breakfast..evenings are regular as i thnk many shop and holiday party
it was attack of the holiday goodies yesterday !!!!
OMG
the lady at work brought xmas tins of baking in for everyone..with extra peanut brittle in mine..then a customer gave me a huge bag of lindt white choc truffles
well.. i started off ok.. 2 choc balls..made with coconut and such.. bit of brittle..but found myself having it in bits...2 truffles through the day
i didit worry about the cals as much but it did trigger me eating more carbs.. and something weird
i think i threw my sugar levels out of whack..slept weird... had rushes of adrenalin then sleepy
i guess my body much prefers regualr meals with fibre, protien , and not so much sugar
so today i vowed to stay away
that lasted 5 minutes...had an apple on way to work.. taboo for me to miss breakie !! had a bit if brittle and a coffee at work
a girl gave me another choc ball which i ate..( god forbid i put it down and not eat it) ... then a truffle... another small peice of brittle.. then about an hour after..i could of fell asleep standing
so.. i gave most of it away.. i can not trust myself with it unfortuneatly
the truffles have been given to everyone hahaha anyone who walked in the door got a truffle hahah
i set myself off last night and had way to much food... healthy or not
i had to add 7 !!!! blocks to my carb section and put 6 in my fats or extras section
I didnt hold tight today... but can still manage
am making a chicken soup for tonight with veggies
and will try to de sugar myself
wow
i am rereading a lot of the info i have... to reinstill the positive
i have not blown anything..i have to tell myself that so i do NOT sabatoge
it is a crazy time for me now and i so very badly want to be strong
i am full of emotions at holiday time and tend to isolate myself from people who wonder what I am doing... so many think it is them... why i stay away.. i wish i could explain my depression and mood swings to them... but I get so embarrased and feel like a failure
so i am going to try really hard to open up and not stifle emotions with food
i can see big warning flags right now and am going to work real hard to stay above water
emotionally
... everything else follows when i can do that
I wil make myself go walk
I will
I will write in my non food comfort paper
I am making my commitment
this might be difficult...but i am worth it
I knew i would face this...it just came so sudden..or I realized it so sudden
looking back now.. I can see certain things that should of warned me.. but when you dont want to see those things...your mind has a way of decieving itself
I admit that I am weak, I also know I have what it takes to work through this
I will try to post more and reach out rather than stifle things
I can do this
:jn
gonna be one hour at a time for a bit
thats ok
I hope you all have a great friday and are ready for the holidays
luv ya heaps
stay healthy
:x
peng
sandielynne 12-18-03, 08:30 PM Hello Pengii,
I know exactly what you are talking about. Isolating yourself and fighting to keep your head above water. But you are right. You can fight this and you will win. You do have control over it and you will continue to keep control over the situation.
I have total faith that we will both make it though this Xmas season and we will succeed in not swallowing our pain by eating.
Right now I am right there with you, and you with me. I'm holding on girlfriend. Hang in there with me and we will be just fine.
Love n hugs,:ghug:
Sandie
thank you so much sandie
your post means so much to me, so very much
:hug:
I dont want to try and manage alone... I am not very good at it really
I have made many mistakes in my life...I dont want to keep repeating them and losing people I love
thanks for being such a special friend to me
I feel much safer knowing you are right there with me too... hanging onto that thread
:console:
and I am always here for you too
one day at a time
:x
Peng
XOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOX !
OH Sweetie
We are so much alike. I always hide from my friends when I am down and I have a ridiculous failure complex as well.
You hang tough girl these holidays are really hard on all of us. I love you and I admire you so much for how succesful and talented you are. You are a real role model to me.
Take care and if someone gave me a truffle I would eat their hand trying to get it down beause those things are my weakness. I can keep from buying the stuff but holiday goodies just blow me away.
Hey, Pengii!
Good for you giving your goodies away! But also, I am glad you allowed yourself to enjoy a little of it. Just gotta avoid the tailspin! :up:
I am making more brittle tonight & I will take a big tin for the whole Library to share tomorrow. I think I posted before that the peanuts themselves are the part that I have the hardest time with. :tomato:
I'm sure your friends would love to see more of you at the holidays & I think it's a great big, brave step you are taking to open up to the idea. Enjoy yourself! You are terrific & I am still following your lead this month. Thanks!
Lisrey :x
I am just smiling
when i didnt think that possible today
thank you so much
I cant tell you how much your friendship means to me
you all are going into my non food comfort things book
i just love you all
Lisrey..each day when i am to repeat what I am proud of as I start my day " I am proud lisrey told me I inspired her" and I am
you all have given me the strength i need tonight
I will add " I am proud CJ feels my creativity and respects me" and I am
I will add " I am proud Sandie offers her heart and strength to help me through" and I am
I will write these down as I cuaght hell for not putting my things on paper lol
I am many things i should be proud of...I will share my list when it is done.....as so many have touched my heart and helped me be a better person
my sis called tonight..i told her how i reacted to the sweet and then ate late at night...something i am not in the habit of..but done anyways... melba toast & ff cheese just aint a bedtime food
then i got up out of bed and had a raisen bagel
thats why i made myself be honest and add all those blocks to my sheet
she just about cried... she gave me hell for not calling her...she told me if it happens again..to call her and she will help me through
another thing to feel proud about
I just dont reach out enough
should make that a past tense i guess
I am going to try harder
thanks guys
so much
you made me smile and feel great
you are the best
:x
Peng
xoxoxoox
hada good sleep and feeling really good this morning
:jn
thanks for busting me out before i really slumped
I am gonna have my breakie and prepare myself for a another busy day
should be better as i have an extra person today..I will be working till 8 pm though
no worries
and no sugar !! ahhaha I guess i never realized what an effect it has on me as I was not eating really balanced anyways... then hitting my poor system with an overload
the only way to avoid the swings is to just keep eating it
no way
not this time
the key is to keep my appetite under control...regular balanced meals
and maintain through this holiday
anyhow
I have monday off before xmas...gonna do some last minute things
then i have a 4 to 5 day break starting xmas day
woohooooooo
I cant wait
I hope you all have a great friday
catch ya later
:hug:
Peng
sandielynne 12-19-03, 09:09 PM :wn Hi Pengii,
Probably right now you are still at work, slaving over a hot stove, cooking up something really delicious to tease the palet of a Prince. Right?
Tell me, have you ever made Manhatten style Clam Chowder? If you have, send me the recipe, will you? Gosh I love that stuff, and I can't even find it on the grocery shelves except in the Campbell's watered down variety. I would LOVE a can of Chunky style, but since I can never find it, I'm going to have to make some for myself.
It sure is good to know you woke up with a smile on your face and more than ready to begin the new day. Every day brings us little surprises and beautiful things. We just have to be alert to them. So keep looking forward and not down at the ground, so you don't miss any of the beauty or the surprises.
Hand in hand, side by side, we'll walk this path right into 2004 and beyond.
:console: Sandie
I will send you recipes for both kinds..I love making soups..love eating them even more hahaha
and they are basic
I dont know about teasing palets...but we served a lot of food hahahah
it is so nce having support sandie
work went easier than yesterday as I had my right hand girl back today
we all are a good team...very effecient..and we make the crazy time fun
but guess what??????
MORE BAKING AND CHOCOLATES !!!!!
omg... i did much better today
thank god
our accountant makes awesome baking..I had so hoped she wouldnt bring it in till next week...then when i saw her round the corner this am i just groaned hahahah
she makes the best shortbread and squares
luckily..she cuts them in tiny squares...a very good idea..then you can sample them and not have too much
I got 3 boxes of chocolates that i will give to someone...not even opening them...even the lovely purdy's ones hahahah
the bosses wife even gave me a small box of baking
omg
i shared all of those with bar and wait staff with out even having one
I guess last year i wasnt caring...and never realized how much stuff is around
wow
ate my breakie (kashi crunch and yogurt) apple on way to work... a few little squares throughout
good lunch (chix breast on multigrain with bowl clear soup and orange)
snacked on some fresh chips i made... the pick monster figured it had free reign
then i had a grilled sirloin steak with 1 sm scoop spuds... and brocolli
am home now and no more goodies !!!
at least i know the worst is over
and i had strength today
i am so glad you all helped me yesterday...I was so weak
I was able to feel good today and that affected my day in a very positive way
:jn
anyhow
gonna do some things
long days ahead but a break at xmas will be great
I am looking forward to it
have a great weekend all
luv peng
:x
Hooray for the strong-willed Penguin! :dn
Glad to help -- thanks for supporting me, too!
Lisrey :hug:
I think you are handling things really well Peng. I think part of this dieting thing is knowing you can have a few things so we don't have to feel that we have to have everything. I have a hard time when people offer me treats because I don't want to offend them. Thats always tricky with me.
OH and treats for presents. UHHHHG that about gets me everytime. Good for you for looking at what you are having and choosing things that will be fullfiliing with out going for everything. Its tough but I think its worth it to not feel deprived.
Keep up the great work.
up and at em early
gettin ready for work
Hey CJ !! omg... so many gifts of baking, they just keep coming each day hahahah
there is one huge cookie that keeps giving me the eye
so i look at it each day...and so far it doesnt seem worth it ahhahah
I touch it, turn it around in my hand ... smells good hahahah
i guess it is my challenge cookie hahaha
feeling so much better is more fulfilling i guess now... just had that one really bad day of feeling unable to cope
unable to cope with more than baking...but it reared its head in food, as usual
I am off tomorrow and will wrap gifts and get my xmas eve outfit together..i work that morning and we are closed in the evening..so going to fam dinner
I know my skirt will look good lisrey...and no suicidal buttons !!
work clothes are loose
:jn
I am looking forward to picking out new challenge pants
:jn
and it is nice knowing i will be 100 pounds less than 2 years ago Jan 1st...
no 350
no 330
gonna be a good day
enjoy your sunday all
:hug:
Peng
mcmarto 12-21-03, 09:50 AM Those white chocolate truffles are too good!
Next time...drop it...accidentally step on it...and...all will be taken care of!...hahahahaha!
Everything in moderation girl!...I had way too many cookies this week...so...cookies are off my list for the next two weeks!...Seriously...I am just telling myself...NO!...Now today...well...cake...it is my birthday.......but...after today...NO to that too!
Hope you have a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!
Stay strong...stay warm...stay awesome!
mcmarto
patricians2001 12-21-03, 05:55 PM Hi Claire;
You are doing great. Maybe I should get the name of your DT?
OK, I'm going to take over your journal and give you the story of our "upper class" restaurant experience.
I work out of the BIG Blue building. Throughout the year we actually go to many restaurants in the downtown area.We work with many different groups of teachers, and so often the only time people have time for a meeting is over an evening meal.
Anyway, we have several times gone to the tool place for lunch, as none of us could afford dinner there. ( My maritime roots want me to say supper.)
The usual procedure for lunch is to have reservation for 11:30, but not everyone gets there till just before 11:45, as we are all coming from different schools on any given day, and get off and have to get back at different times. Whoever gets there first has a soft drink, coffee etc and orders are in by 12 and we are all out a little after 1. We have done this in many places , including this place with no problem.
Well, last Friday, we had a reservation for 11:30 for 12 people. The person who had made the reservation was not at her own desk when she made it, so she didn't have her credit card. When she called the day before they said it had been canceled because they didn't have her credit card #. So she gave it to them and they rebooked.
I got there first at 11:30 & they put me at a long table in front of the window. In ten minutes 6 people had got there and we ordered drinks. But because we are all going back to schools we don't order wine etc at lunch. I think this may be what the waiter took exception too????
At 11:45 he came back with the drinks and said you have to order now. We said we'd rather wait for the others who should be there any minute, but he said they were busy and there wasn't time. So the six of us ordered.
Then he said, "You have to move."I asked what he meant and he said we were at one big table and we'd have to move to two small tables. Then he whips out a box cutter and cuts the paper over the table cloth in two and separates the long table into two.
As he's doing this there is a tap on the window next to us, the other six people have been at the front desk for 10 minutes and have been told there was no reservation and they couldn't come in. As they were on the sidewalk trying to decide what to do, they saw is through the window and tapped on it. One person went out to get them, but they wouldn't let them in. We asked what about the table they had just seperated and they said it was no longer available, they were too late. By this time it's 11:50 and they had been standing at the reservation desk for more than ten minutes.
So the person who made the reservation said bring the cheque. Everyone went across to Throrton Court. But I stayed behind to see what happened with the cheque because I knew the other person was so angry she would pay it just to get out.
Sure enough, she was charged for the drinks, as I would expect plus the six meals that buddy hadn't even gotten to the kitchen to pass in because he was busy doing his thing with the box cutter.
Anyway we went across the street where we had no reservations. We had excellent food and excellent service and were still out in time to get to our afternoon appointments.
This week several people were got in touch with the owner, and she did refund the cost of the meals we never got.
But I still can't believe the whole thing. really makes us aware of the excellent service we've gotten in all the other places and took it for granted.
The person who got charged for the meals has a daughter who is a professor at the university. She said we obviously didn't meet the profile of the type of customer they are trying to attract, we were all middle aged women who were obviously not on expense accounts. However, it was pretty surprising when we started talking of the number of people we had connections with as a group. So it's a lot of people who went there, but won't again. But I guess it doesn't matter to them as they are full all the time.
So that's my long Edmonton Restaurant story. Actually not quite the end. When I got back from Thorton Court I had a parking ticket!
Pat
how terrible Pat
how unbelievable from them
WOW... cutting the cover like that... the rest of party waiting
AND charging you
wow... this city isnt big enough for that
thier training is supposed to be tops
our young servers can be dense as all get out... but if anyone is unhappy with anything... they are taken care of right away
we are a family place so clientele is way dif...but no matter where you go... that kind of experience you had is out of this world
sorry to hear that... I was really curious ... you dont ever hear anything negative from there
and please take over my journal anytime lol
I love reading messages
my sis made an appointment with my DT too
she figures I have lost a lot of weight...but more than anything... it is the style of plan... simple steps... it is just putting it together
and the DT helps there
so, I hope my sis enjoys meeting her too
:bd McPrettio !!!
you just sound so happy in all your posts i read... you just kinda snuck in there and fooled your body lol
I am so proud of the way you are working it... helps me keep trying too
we are all focused
I was telling my sis how little steps really has worked for me
when i was 350 jan 02... I found this place in feb... and quietly read posts as a guest...too embarassed to join
and started drinking water as it seemed something everyone did lots of...and figured i could do that
still binged and ate... could not control that then...as much as i wanted to
but i figured i could drink water
a little step
and then came the next one...and on and on
felt bad about stalling... now i realize i needed to change my perspective
take the pressure off... and go back to one little thing at a time
and get proffesional advice as to how to help my body be healthier
today my sis told me I should quit wearing my work pants lol I stopped after work to see her and she was shocked
she said they are way too baggy
i can pull them up to my armpits now hahahha
i guess the inches are going with the walking and increased activity
good incentive for me
it will get me through this holiday season
I even gave away my coveted cookie today hahahahhahah
I hope loretta never saw me licking it the last couple days hahahahah
kidding
she enjoyed it and i enjoyed her being happy eating it
it was a big cookie hahahhaha
anyhow
i am just pooped
off tomorrow but going to a friends to help them bake...why not... kinda like a present to her
told them i had to sleep in first though hahahhaha
so i will make some cheesecakes... and my holiday yule logs
she has a big family...they will be happy
non food comfort for me... making my friend & family smile and feel spoiled
little steps
oh ya
my sis gave me an awesome sweater today
I wanted a nice new shirt to wear when i wear my jeans next month
she didnt know that hahha... she pulled out this sweater and i was WOOOHOOOOO happy hahahah
life is good
well gonna go and relax
i hope you all have a great evening
:x
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Pengii, hope you have a great Christmas and don't have to work too much. Relax and enjoy your friends and family. Thanks for your friendship here.
patricians2001 12-22-03, 03:55 PM Your sis is right, you never feel as though you lost weight when you are still wearing the big baggy clothes.
Also great plan on going to friend's house to do the baking. That way you get the fun social part of it and are not left with the goodies to tempt you.
Further on our episode at the fancy restaurant. I expect that some big shots, possibly from the legislature called for a reservation later than we did and they wanted to get rid of someone to accommodate them. These were not "kid" wait staff, they were their usual skilled staff.
We'll have to get to your place soon, it's just a bit away from where we work.
Do you have any more time off over Christmas? Make sure to put your feet up, you deserve a rest.
Pat
sandielynne 12-24-03, 08:39 PM Hello my dear Claire,
Just a quick pop in to wish you a Wonderful Xmas!!
I hope we get a chance for another chat soon.
Hugs,
Sandie
mcmarto 12-26-03, 08:39 AM Life is good!
Cookies and cake are all gone...and hopefully the bloat of eating way too much food this past week will be gone too!
Back on plan...back to the health club...back to 198!...
Have a great weekend...Thanks for the birthday wishes...mc
Did you wear the skirt yesterday? Did you feel great in it & have a wonderful time? Hope so!
Lisrey :hug:
fleureange 12-26-03, 11:04 PM Hello my friend :wave:
Feels like forever since I've been here.
So glad you are well, happy and worken it!!:D
Merry Christmas even if I am a bit late.
Got plans for New Years?
Take care
Dar
Minnie mouse 12-29-03, 09:54 AM Hello Claire,
Hope you had an awesome holiday. for me its been all to much eating. i was depressed through it not fitting in my clothes and all so i am now back on ww and determined to lose again.
Today figuring out my menu i felt a control i havent felt in so long. it felt so good to take control of myself for once and to know i have the power to lose this weight.
It feels good to be back and i have surely missed you.
glad to know your doing well to and seeing a dietician. how is that working out? best wishes to you for a great New yr!
xoxoxo
sandielynne 12-29-03, 07:21 PM Hello Claire,
Have you gone away to visit friends and family, or are you just so busy you haven't had time to stop in. I sure hope that no news is good news. I miss you posting.
Anyway, I wanted to wish you the best for the New Year. I am building up my positive thinking and my determination to make 2004 one to be remembered fondly. I hope the same for you.
Hugs,
Sandie
good to see you all
I am glad everyone had a great holiday
:jn
I got into a bit of a funk (to put it mildly) over xmas... still adjusting I guess...but thats a whole dif journal lol
did ok... had one night where i actually got bundled up and went to my truck in garage and got a box of chocs i had left there so i didnt eat them
i ate them
and i am not even a big choc person
:(
but tried to not let the wheels totally fall off my wagon
just took each day as it came and tried to do my best
was back at work today and feel better...had a good rest
watched movies
nothing too exciting
I guess i was burnt out
xmas started on xmas eve...went real early to work (up at 4:30) so the day would go smooth and i could handle things... my sous chef thought he was having a heart attack and i had to call 911
we had been open for all of half an hour lol
so... tried to work around the paramedics and not freak out.. it is tough for me now in those situations...so many bad memories...esp at xmas
it is very hard for me now to see people i care about hooked up to machines and in trouble
anyhow... he is fine...a big anxiety attack
but he was carted off and gone
he was back today and things will be ok
he is only 36, but bad eating habits, smoker, overweight.... i told him god gave gim a little wake up call for xmas
he agreed and is thankful today
he hasnt smoked since and ate fruit and salad today...first time i ever saw that
no gravy...no fried food
I am glad he was ok
my next in command took over so i was not the next one in the ambulance lol
i sure have some great staff
anyhow
wanted to post quick so you know i am fine and still kickin
:jn
the wheels are back on... had to do a realignment ... not going to focus on the choc binge..just file it and tell myself i did good stopping there and not letting the day turn into days
fillin in my blocks... taking each event as it happens
one step at a time
I am working long tomorrow
then off NY day
will catch up with you all then
I hope you all have a fun and happy new years eve
luv peng
:x
Hi Pengii: Just popping in to wish you a Happy New Year...I am sure you will be glad to be off.....
Good idea not beat yourself up over the chocs...Just a one time deal...and you did not want them to freeze right...
Take care
Louise
sandielynne 12-30-03, 10:34 PM Hello Claire,
Should I spank you for not writing me and sharing? I thought we had made a "pact" about that. Well, it's over and done with, and you came through it. One day at a time my friend. We can't look a week ahead. Just one day at a time. Eventually all the days will add up to all the weeks, but it will still remain one day at a time for you and me and many others.
Have good New Years and a great 2004.
Hugs,
Sandie
fleureange 12-30-03, 11:08 PM Hey my friend :wave:
Glad things are back on track for you. I'm getting there myself. Time is drawing nearer. Jan 1 I begin again. Till then, I just hang on, and have a bit of fun too. Not that I'll never have fun again, but I'm just not focusing on food right now.... good or bad.
So glad your sous chef is ok. We could all learn a lesson from him.
Hope you have a fun, happy and healthy new year.
I'll be starting my new journal tomorrow some time. Not sure what to call it yet, but hope you can check it out.
Hey, soon you'll be going back to your DT right? I'll bet the news will be good. You have come so far in such a short time, even with the little funk.
I'm off to read more journals.
Have a great day tomorrow
Darlene
hi louise !! a very good point hahahah
thanks for the nice wishes
sandie :hug: crazy huh i have so many good support people around me and just shut down
I dont know what will flip the switch... i did better but have to get a hold on my feelings
i feel so stupid when i cant control my emotions
i guess i need to realize they dont need controlling... but to share them and put them to rest
little steps
:x
Dar buddy
:jn
the wheels are back on tight ... my goal is to increase my activity too
no matter what happens... i wont miss any appointments with my DT
whether i binge for the whole month between visits or not
that is the whole point i guess... no matter what...to learn from it and try to improve life
i have to check the calender but it is jan 14 or 15 my next appt
a wednesday..all i remember right now hahahah
anyhow
i did pretty good... and no more shortbread till next year thank god hahaha
hopefully i will learn how to share my feelings better this year... i def have trust issues
one of my goals for this coming year
i am off to work soon
a stop on the way first
had a good breakie
will watch the fireworks tonight i hope
brrrrrrrr wish it wasnt so cold
but..only a few short months of it left
i like january as i know we are half way through winter hahahah
I hope everyone enjoys a wonderful new years eve
WE WILL HAVE A GREAT NEW YEAR TOGETHER
HAVE A SAFE EVENING
:x
peng
xo
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Just wanted to wish you a Very Happy and Successful and Peaceful New Year!!!
Pengii, enjoy the fireworks, did you get my card in the mail?
Keep up the good work friend.
fleureange 12-31-03, 04:26 PM Claire,
Keep up the great spirit girl!
2004 is going to see the pounds fly off!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR
:party: :cheers:
Dar
sandielynne 12-31-03, 04:32 PM Hi Claire,
Since Rome wasn't built in a day, we can't realistically expect to have total control and understanding of emotional issues that we have carried around for a long time either. Just know that you are not alone.
It's great to hear the enthusiasm you have for the goals you are going to work for in the new year. If you ever feel stymied or stuck, just hollar for help. We all want to see your succeed and share in your joy.
Take care and I hope you have a super New Year in 2004
Hugs,
Sandie
Hi Claire! It must feel so great to see the weight loss! Congratulations you've done so well. I hope to be more consistent in my plan for 2004 and that includes checking in more
and having a positive attitude. All the best in 2004 to you and the dogs. From Lee and Mitzy!
patricians2001 01-01-04, 02:38 PM Hi Claire;
I was thinking of you as i begin my New Year for two reasons. One, my first aim is to get comfy in the pants that I was using for your May pant challenge. I obviously had a stall. The next thing is when spring really gets here we'll have to see if we can meet up
with Linda and have a real walk, maybe in the Jasper area.
So, two mini goals for me. I have to go to TO mid Jan, so I'd love to get into the snug pants by then.
What an Edmonton statement! Jan means winter is half over! Most places look at Jan as winter just gearing up.
Oh well, learning to cope in North America's most northern metropolis really makes us appreciate indoors.
Oh by the way, Safeway has boxes of the most incridible oranges from California. I was worried it was too many, but now I think I'll go get another box.
Pat
Pat! I was thinking the same thing! Here we don't really get much real snow until January. It's winter through the beginning of March for us. I'm dreading the next two months' weather, but if we can get through that it'll be my favorite time of year again! (That's everything but winter, LOL.)
Peng, I hope you had a wonderful New Year's Eve, Day, and here's to a fabulous 2004! :cheers:
Lisrey :D
Hey Pengii,
Did you get my Christmas card I sent in the snail mail? Hope so and hope it brought a smile to your face.
Am looking forward to another year on line with you and all of our friends.
mcmarto 01-03-04, 06:06 PM Happy New Year girl!
I am glad to read you are doing well!
I got a little sidetracked myself over the holidays...for 2 long weeks to be exact...but...in the second week I added in exercise...6 days (5 to the gym)...yahoo!
So...now back to work on Monday...and back on a better food plan...the exercise is already planned...so...this will be the year...I will lose the rest of this weight...150 here I come...140...just around the corner after that!...Yahoo!
mcmarto
a good day in pengi land
first though... I really thought i had pm'd you a thanks already with the others ... so sorry...I did get your lovely card nancy.. I was so surprised !!!! I had taken my stack of mail and put it on the island
was so nice to find a card amongst the bills when i went through them days later hahahah (two cards actually)
I think i might try to invent a card that covers all the major celebrations in a year to mail as i am terrible at posting things...just a bad habit i have had forever
thanks to all who sent such warm wishes
:hug:
today something incredible happened
two things really lol I should buy a lotto ticket today maybe hahaha
I decided to try on a pair of pants i have as I am supposed to go out tonight... but they are the same size as the jeans i have been dreaming of wearing for over a year...knew they wouldnt fit ...but
...I put them on as a reminder to me that I am changing each day...even if it doesnt feel like it much.. they get a wee bit closer each time
today the damn things buttoned.. i was in shock... the zipper was snug but zipped
I damn near fainted
they had many inches to go in Novemeber when I started seeing dietician (havnt been on scale since)
sooooooooooooooooo
decided to go downstairs and try on those damn jeans
knew they had to be close and was feeling estatic
WELL !!!!!
damned if i didnt wear them shopping this afternoon hahahahah
:caf: :caf: :caf:
they needed a bit of encouragement to zip my soft belly in... but WOW no laying down
hell... I would of needed major surgery, not laying down to wear them 7 weeks ago
I am amazed
and so happy
and very very proud of myself
I am so curious what i weigh , but i realize that was what my DT wanted... for me to take the pressure of the 'weigh in' off and for me to slowly work towards a better lifestyle
to feel better from the inside out and the rest will follow
"do not weigh your self esteem claire" my fav quote of hers
no matter what the scale says... I have made a huge change in my lifestyle and body and in doing so improved my attitude some
i still think and feel 300 pounds.. today when i went out I saw a different woman...one I have missed very much
I went to penningtons to try on some sweaters.... how dif i look in pants that are not falling off me
pants that have a shape
I looked in the mirror and damn near cried
I wanted to go and do this so i could ingrain in my brain that I have changed
and it is very positive
I weigh in next week...and will start a new journal then
i made it through the holidays and survived a nasty bout of depression
had some ups and downs...but held on
i took care of me in a real way
wow
i was losing hope the last year
proof positive that every tiny thing matters... and it is all good
learning to take 'cheat' 'bad' 'forbidden' out of my vocabulary and adding 'balance' is a big key
i am so glad i bought dr phils book.... key 4 helped me a ton
helped me make my appointment to see DT
helped me realize my attitude, not food , was where my problems are
wow
no matter how tough it seems... hang on to that last thread...
anyhow
terrible cold outside still.. we have a staff party tonight i really dont feel like going to...but might go for a bit
i need to be more social... another thing I am working on
so maybe for a bit later i will head out
i am glad you got a chuckle out of my winter outlook hahahha
since it was jan 1 I count jan as done hahahah
once january is over... it is all good from there on in...and since we are in it..we will make it hahahha
gotta have a good attitude in this part of the world
anyhow
maybe my jeans have cut off circulation to my brain...cant think of much other than i am really happy
that is a good thing
for our next pants challenge... these jeans i only dreamed of will be loose !!!!!!
and i found a pair of pants one size smaller for the challenge after that
wow
all i can say
wow
hahahahah
hope ya all have a great week ahead... and a lovely evening tonight
:x
luv ya heaps
Peng xo
Hi Claire; I don't visit you often but a a fellow Canadian somethings I peek at your journal...I am so happy you tried those pants on today and they fit...what a wonderful feeling...Your stats have gone down a lot have they not? Congrats you made me cry with joy ...I am so happy for you..There is hope for me still LOL
Happy New Year and I know you will reach your goal:rose:
Louise
I'm so happy for you, Pengii!
The jeans fit! Woot!
:dn :cheer:
Have fun at the staff party. What's a staff party without the boss there?
patricians2001 01-05-04, 09:04 PM Well you made Louise cry with joy, but you made me laugh! Because it's #$% cold out there for a month you have declared officially over!
Good news on the pant thing, I'm really looking forward to catching up on my May ones. I gave them up then because it got too warm to wear them.
As for the party, some of the best ones was when the boss didn't show up!
Have a great time,
Pat
Whooooo HOoooooooo!!!!! :dn :jn :dc
You are amazing, Peng! :*
Super proud of you & so happy. I can picture you glowing in the jeans. Your post gave me goosebumps!!
Congrats!!!
Lisrey :up:
thanks all of you
so very much
:hug:
your support here has helped me so much
i stressd and stressed about the party... finally started getting ready at 9 (party started at 7lol) got dressed and at 10... just didnt go
I should of at least made an appearance but figured it would be dif sober after they have had a few hours to warm up hahah mind you, each weekend is a party for the young ones lol...actually i just didnt feel secure enough
anyhow... maybe i wanted something to feel guilty about...so gonna just accept the fact i didnt feel comfy going and that that is ok
i did want to go though , funny huh like i want to do a few other things but dont... part of the self love thing the DT keeps on me about
i still have to learn to take those steps and just do it
there were many bosses there hahaha hope mine is not too pissed i didnt go
one little thing at a time
I am feeling so good about those pants ... by the time i go to see DT next week I should be able to breathe freely hahahha
my legs firm up good as i work on my feet solid...always moving
but def have jelly belly
i just keep telling myself better than having it fully extended
240 has been a mini goal of mine since i started here... now it seems kinda funny with not weighing
i will be happy when i do weigh as i will leave the pounds gone behind... I was pushing 280 hard and feared what came after that
try to adjust my mental picture to where i am at then... and spend each month after just focusing on filling in my little blocks and building new habits
i see now that when the wheels fall off... i just get someone to help me steady the wagon till it is ready to keep moving along
i have not looked at the literature on body image and non food comforts for awhile... I guess i better pull it out and start doing my exercises
as silly as they seem... not going to a party i wanted to... seems even sillier
so I accept i dont know what is best for me lol and will start doing the work again
anyhow...
so happy to have you all in my life
you really make me feel good
I WILL REACH MY GOALS
they were always pound wise... now i need to adjust them some
240 is one... but more and more each day it is just a number
having these jeans loose is one that i can already touch
fitting the next pants will be after
next ones after that....
i have the jeans i wore when i rode my harley here when i moved... i cant remeber what i weighed..but think low 200's
never imagined being able to use them as challenge pants
god, i was thinking tonight while i was trying to perk up that WWAAAAAAYYYYYYYY back i tried the pants on that i wore today... they didnt get past my knees imagine... i think i was 307 then...had felt good about losing over 40 pounds...then lost the wind in my sails when i tried those pants...still kept pluggin away.. but inside felt so hopeless
I havnt touched the last pair of jean i spoke of yet... i dont want to try them and feel bad
when it is time i will dust them off and get going
when i am mentally ready...and the rest will follow
speaking of mental... chummers will think i am for sure...guess what my new fav snack is??? ahahahahah
i found the yummiest dried seaweed
YES SEAWEED..YOU READ IT RIGHT
i used to buy a fresh seaweed for my japanese feasts...but it is very $$$$
so finally found a dried one that i rehydrate in sea salt water... and then mix lightly with fish sauce, bit of garlic chili paste, and rice wine vinegar
omg is it good dont think slimy green weeds.. the white seaweed is crunchy like a curly lettuce... the thin green threads are like tiny jullienned beans
when i was in fiji for a month i ate a lot of seaweeds there... havnt found that one yet tho... like tiny tiny clusters of grapes
they would take it and marinate it n coconut milk and chilis yummy
anyhow... least it aint beedy eyed poopers hahahhahah
i go in dif food kicks... breakie and lunch are big.. i like to keep dinner lighter
so doing alot of asian stuff... now i think i will sushi out for the next bit lol
will buy a nice peice of ahi tuna or maybe toro and be set lol
I am still experimenting with brown rice sushi..but havnt found a blend with enough tack yet
I WILL hahahah
till then i mark 1 block of grains off for each roll
well i am going to hit the hay soon
it was a good day
all in all..it was a good day
and i can hear all about the party on tuesday
and no hangover hahahah
have a wonderful day tomorrow all
luv peng
xoxooxoxo
Congrats on the pants Pengii, that is fantastic!!!
sandielynne 01-06-04, 04:16 PM Hello Claire,
I am almost speechless! I just don't know what to say, but...................CONGRATULATIONS PENGII!!!
I'm so very proud of you. I'm completely thrilled for you. What more to say? It's wonderful! You have really worked your own miracle this time lady! WOO HOO!!!!:up:
:hug: Sandie
Claire I just read about the jeans fitting and I was just thrilled I actually cheared out loud and Chet was wondering what the bruhahah was about. That is fantastic girl.
Going to this dietician was an outstanding idea. Sometimes we need to have someone who is skilled to give us some perspective. It really sounds like you have found a point of view to listen to and give you some structure. Hold on to that as I am absolutely positive you will reach goal with the effort you are putting in. Before you know it those jeans are going to be falling off of you. I love the pants challenge because it is the one diet goal that I can believe in. I think scales are liars.
thank you thank you thank you
wore the damn jeans shopping again today ahhahahah
tight on my belly but i really dont care hahahhaha i wore a long sweater and felt great
i think this surprise will help me along the next bit
i went to the big mall and walked my ass off...stopping here and there to browse
i stopped at the asian market there to buy some tobiko and tuna for sushi tonight...and omg
the had the biggest lobsters..had to be 6-8 pounds wow
and then on the shelf in front i saw a whole tray of things that almost made me weap
i am so funny that way
i know each culture is dif and respect that.. i eat beef, pork, fish... many living things so who am i to judge
but
*** deleted *** one depressed person is enough lol sry Mc***
well.. i had to wonder on.... bothered me to see them
we get so far away from the actual source when we buy our meats in neatly done little cuts in packages
anyhow... i know i will not be able to eat meat one day.. i feel it more and mre each year
fish i have never minded as they eat each other anyways
you use a little fish to catch a bigger fish
seems ok to me
weird
maybe i am pms'in hahahahha
so i cam home, fed my turtle a piece of scallop i had bought, and told him he was safe hahahahhah
anyhow...splurged and bought the new sheryl crow CD compilation that was on sale
so have some good music playing
will make some sushi...bought a nice avacado...some tobiko (salted fish roe), cucumber, scallop, tuna, and carrot
will make a few rolls and enjoy them...wrap some for dinner tomorrow
oh ya
i guess i was mentally ready today to try on those jeans.. i figured what the heck ..if they didnt get past my knees..they would some day
well they got past my ass and that was it
quite a ways off.. so i must of been just over 200 then
but still better than i thought and something to think about
i figured i will try them each month at the time of my DT appt
by march, they might be challenge pants for april
i will use these ones for this months challenge..and the black ones
and the next ones are the same style and brand as the black ones but one size smaller.. i will use them for feb
so I am going to go get the next pants challenge going girls
I will post it when it is done
thanks so much for all the love
and i want you to know i send it back each and every day
:jn
Peng
xoxooxoxoxo
mcmarto 01-06-04, 10:16 PM I am so happy for you Claire!
Hip Hip Hurray...the smaller pants are here to stay!!!
Keep up the great work...and thanks for depressing me with the turtle story...the only turtles I like are filled with caramel...pecans...and covered with chocolate!
hahaha!
Have a great week!
mcmarto
true..sry Mc
I just couldnt let go of the feeling either... prob as my pet turtle is same size
but now you have me thinking of turtle cheesecake lol... the choc kind lol
the pumpkin muffins i made taste real great... they seem to fill any craving i have for sweets
thank god
the next sweet treat will be end of month when i make my boy at work another cake... remember last year i made him the mermaid w big boobs lol
this year i think i will go elegant for a change lol..... not sure what yet... i will find out his absolute fav and then work with that
-20 again this morning the cold sure slows a person down
having breakie and coffee... then off to work
was supposed to go to gym this am but didnt...so now i have to go to it tonight when crowded
without walking each night i have to make the effort
it will get easier...just getting the routine back is the tough part
i think i have more motivation as i can see changes in my bod..and know the strength training will help tons
also i like the steam room when it is so cold hahahahha
made yummy sushi last night and have 2 rolls left for tonight
:jn
one week till my next appointment with DT
it sure has changed things looking at a month at a time
anyhow
better get my butt in gear
I hope you all have a great day
will seeya soon
:x
Peng
sandielynne 01-07-04, 05:06 PM Hi Pengii,
I have seen some of those sushi rolls at the Chinese Buffet where we go on occasion. Maybe I should give them a try. More than likely they are something very safe, or they wouldn't have them out like they do. I'm sure it isn't blowfish, or anything like that.........lol.
I can't wait till you see your DT. I just know she is going to be so proud of you because you have done really well for yourself. Will you be wearing your "new" jeans when you see her, so that she can see the full effect of your hard work? I sure hope you do.
Well, have a good one sweetie.
Sandie
fleureange 01-08-04, 05:15 PM Peng,
I've ready your last few posts and all I can say is....THANKYOU
You are truely an inspiration
Congrats on the pants. You are getting there girl, one day at a time, on block at a time LOL
Dar
Sounding great Pengii,
I was wondering what you have found as the best advice or suggestion from your DT?
Well, keep up the great work, you are amazing!!!
mcmarto 01-08-04, 10:23 PM Hey Pengii!
Sorry I had you thinking about cheesecake...but now I am thinking of.........ahhhhhhhh just kidding!
I am thinking of working out and eating right and in the end looking dy-no-mite!
Have a fun Friday...and a wild weekend!
mcmarto
so nice to see you !!
had breakie and having coffee before work
made an omellette that was ok lol I guess i will stick to cereals and muffins for breakie at home hahaha
will eat an apple while truck is warming up
still lots of time needed for that hahhaha
Nancy ... a good question.. I guess what sticks in my head is her "not weighing my self esteem" thing... plus making sure to hit my minimums in all food groups...she didnt worry about too much eating... just making sure i got my mins in veggies, fruits, carbs, etc
when you have the fruits and veggies..there isnt as much room for other things
also... to be easier on myself
i still seem to find the need to worry about something or feel bad that something isnt as i think it should be
i do think of her telling me that if I ate a donut, cookie, peice of pie one day... it is still better than eating a donut, cookie, peice of pie AND a peice of cheesecake
changing the way we view our lifestyle is a big part of her plan
she didnt tell me to do anything but fill in the blocks of my daily lifestyle tune up sheets... the food stage... she said there is lots of room to add extras
removing the pressure is a big thing
her one request of me... to be sure to each my orange each day
i like her hahahahah
it will be interesting when we meet wednesday... we will talk about my holiday blues and how i dealt with them I am sure
plus I didnt do all the things she suggested either.. i still havnt put my non food comfort list together
one thing i am fighting
i guess i still want an excuse
funny thing is...the more time that goes by... i realize she is right...excuses dont matter
it is my day to with as i want
so we will discuss that too prob lol
and i will ask for help on putting those things together
the scale is on my mind... so do want to weigh after almost 2 months
file it... and move on
I know i wont be high 70's anymore
will leave that behind and try to adjust my body image
Mc.. our body issues are like the turtles thing .... just because we dont mention it...doesnt mean it doesnt exist
your positive attitude will take you where you want to go... we do need to see it, live it, and make it real
all of it
I too am keeping the good energy on top...even if the negative rumbles every now and then lol
i think of things I am not doing...then try to focus on what I AM doing
only thing keeping me going
anyhow
food in my belly is waking me up
i work mornings rest of weekend...training new guy sat and sunday
see if he has anything
would have to cut one of my part timers to make room for him...but we will see what happens
I hope you all have a great friday too
break it down into one little thing at a time
and have fun !!!!!!
hope to see you all soon
:x
Peng
Peng, I can really relate to what you said about excuses. Realizing I was making excuses for years was what really woke me up and got me started on this weight loss effort. I am a big believer in trying to sweep them out. Sometimes they are hard to recognize, though. It's a great sign to me that you are seeing them for what they are. Big step there! :up: Now that they are exposed to you, you will be able to eliminate them.
I was also thinking about excuses in terms of my own bicycling goal this morning... I have said for the past 2 nights that it was "too late" in the evening to bike. This morning I have TOM cramps in my thighs and don't feel I can do it. Legitimate or excuses? Hard for me to decide. I try to scrutinize my thinking but sometimes I think I over-scrutinize, LOL. The cramps are def more legitimate than the late hour thing!! Hopefully some ibuprofen & some time today will put the cramps behind me and I won't have an excuse... Have fingers crossed!
Hope your trainee does well & that you have a great weekend! I too am training, training, training....
Lisrey :laugh:
Originally posted by pengii
changing the way we view our lifestyle is a big part of her plan
she didnt tell me to do anything but fill in the blocks of my daily lifestyle tune up sheets... the food stage... she said there is lots of room to add extras
Pengii, that sentence, that really hit me. I think that is a real key, for me anyways. Sounds so simple, just change the way you look at things, but is a real tricky one. Not something you can just start doing in a second, must think it through. But I can see how it would make a big difference.
Thanks so much, I will be working on that one.
Hope you had a good day, I will be around this evening hoping to chat, so come over if you can.
so nice to see you !!
it does sound simple doesnt it...and it is... IF, and it is a huge IF , we can actually free ourselves and live that philosophy... it is a tough change
and one it has taken me almost 2 months to feel somewhat comfy with
it takes time
so many factors play in...esp if we have that habit
lisrey...i hope the cramps subside... I too do the same thing...except the dif is now that i do see it more from a dif perspective
watching how you approach things has helped me so much...when deep down i was feeling despair... i watch and read how others approach things to try and gain insight
Nancy... having someone tell me that I am just plain old wrong in how I had been looking at things really helped
she almost scolded me for brushing off the fact that i went from 350 to 275 when i first saw her
she told me of how so many regain the weight within 2 years and i had kept that loss off and should be proud... not feelin bad that i have not lost in a year and bounced those few pounds back and forth so much
really realizing that sure helped me get my feet back under me
I am very hard on myself... but getting better
i eat something that i was conditioned to think was 'bad' and the guilt took over
another reason why i have always found such inspiration in lisreys approach
taking what you like...what fits YOUR personal lifestyle...and working with that
esp when i know it is not a 1 month thing or 1 year...but a whole dif approach to life style
it truly has been a godsend not having the scale determine how my day would be... now that is just me... it is dif for each one of us
there will be a point when i will monitor with the scale... but never like i used too
I simply cant... the habits i let deveople did nothing for me
telling myself i can have anything i want... that changes things.. of couse we know eating burgers and fries every day doesnt cut it... having someone explain portions and esp portions of certain foods... helped a lot
seeing a portion of peanuts fit VERY easily in a bakers tablespoon is an eye opener hahahah
helped me clear my mind of the DIET clutter
I am following the canada food guide... pure and simple
I might have a french fry or two.. i might have a bite of someones dessert.. i might have a whole peice with a nice cup of coffee
I know i will be able to maintain what ever loss happens as i have not starved
by any means... i know going too low or avoiding 'bad' things...will only have the inches come back when i have them again
my cals now range from 1500 up( my minimum amount of blocks on my food sheets) an average day is prob 1800 ish 500 breakie 800 lunch 500 dinner I count my fruits and such with those meals... i do have a little something between meals... steady food...
i dont count them... but how many blocks you mark off each day gives you an idea where you are at
i have had a few 3000 days too
we go over my sheets when we meet
i dont know how much weight i have lost but i have lost a fair little bit
i am thinking 25 pounds from how my body feels... but i really dont know
no matter what the scale says i am happy with the progress i have made
my clothes are loose... time for new bras too.. that tells me big changes hahahha
so she might decide to change my minimums if she feels it too much off... I dont know
i just know i trust her as a proffesional DT
she says that as long as i meet my minimums in all groups... my body is properly fueled and I have optimum nutrition
I cant say what tomorrow brings... so just one day at a time
each day is another with better habits
i want to increase my activity... but like how i approached my change in eating... i will take it day by day and release the pressure...and it will come
thanks for the encouragement all
it helps a lot
I had a good day
was so hungry though... i didnt eat enough last night and paid the price... i think my lunch was too big and i was not as hungry at night...so it was light yesterday night
i paid the price today in being more hungry so i filled up on good food
I had a huge fuji apple on way to work after my 3 eg omellette (shredded potato, minced my tiny peice of leftover steak in it, chives, tomato, ff cheese)
had an orange at work
picked some turkey...tasted a buddies teruayki wrap..realized i could eat anything not moving... i was hungry hahahha oh ya...had a small peice of blood rare prime rib (2 oz maybe) omg it adds up
so
had a monster sandwich( hoagie roll) of turkey and veg and another orange some veggies dipped in homus and tzatzki
had another orange after that hahahaha
tonight i am boiling a bird and making some soup ..will prob make a bit of fresh pasta to put in it for carbs
so pushing 2000 cals but my body must of needed it and it is fine
the cals dont matter... i just fill the blocks hahahha
I really realized today the being consistent is important
******
it is milder tonight so will have a nice walk tonight with the bigdog
anyhow
I like the weekend morning shifts... my weekend crew is fun to work with
me and my lady i work with on weekends kick ass early so we can take a half hour over a nice breakie each day before the restaurant opens
we have blueberry pancakes or omellettes or whatever...fruit... then burn it off hustling hahahha
tomorrow I will make us eggs benny... I just put a teaspoon of hollandaise on them... just a taste .. I often roast us hashbrowns
we always share a bowl of oranges... no matter what i make us
sometimes we have dry mutligrain toast w peanut butter and jam with coffee after our eggs
just depends
she is 130 and would like to be back at 105 (tiny lady) so she loves our healthy breakies hahhah
now to work in training a new guy hahahha
might have to dirupt our weekend ritual a bit hahahah
I am off to do some things...will be an early night as up early
I hope you all have a great weekend
:jn
Peng
Hi again!
From your post I want to say:
1. You sound awesome. I am sure I could not go so long without weighing, but I am so happy it & the DT have worked for you. I can't wait to hear the result of your weigh-in!!
2. Thank you for the compliments. I am working hard on this again... January does that to me. I hope I can follow your lead and have a good loss to start the year. I have been thinking that if I worked hard all year, I could probably reach my goal. But I know myself better than that, and I am not banking on that thought.
3. Consistency is a key, for sure! That's one of the things I am trying to follow now -- consistently eat within my calorie range, consistently conquer the snacks. I have the exercise down for the moment... except for the bike, LOL.
Sounds like you will have a nice morning tomorrow. Enjoy! You are terrific & you DO have tons to be proud of!
Lisrey :D
Hi Pengii: Thanks for visiting me...I love your attitude...it is so uplifting..and sounds like your Dietitian and you make a good team...that is great...to find one that works well with us....I am tempted to go to one...although I do not have insurance for a private one and the ones that are free I have to wait about four months for an appointment... That was important that she kind of caught you trying to discredit your self after having lost a fair amount of weight before even seeing her (75 lbs) is a lot of weight to have kept off...so bit by bit day by day you are reaching your goal...and the best part is you are not beating yourself up about it...
I hope you have a great weekend.....training a new guy...you seem to love your work environment...that is a major plus....
I do not weigh myself often either...it does me no good in fact it actually used to depress me....and we all know our weight fluctuates...from one day to the next depending on too much salt or something ....
Take care Claire...Have a wonderful weekend...and I look forward to hearing how you make out with your next visit with the DT..
:hug:
Louise
Pengii, thanks so much for that sharing, I really appreciated it.
It sure sounds like you are getting your oranges in anyways,, lol, are they Mandarins or Navels? or what do you like?
full belly...a bit late but i wanted a better start tomorrow than today lol
i had asked the DT about if i was late with a meal and she said to have something for sure..otherwise i might pick, binge, ro like today...be ravenous lol
so chix meat fr the soup and a pile of carrots and yams...oh ya... 2 toasts too
so mid range on my blocks for the day
nancy.. i like oranges thank god..and fuji apples.. bananas...but dont get them as much as they dont last
i get navel oranges in china town...always good ones there
so... making sure to have the fruit cuts down on french frys and picking hahaha
Louise ! so nice to see you too
I couldnt afford a DT either...so went on the list...someone cancelled and I only had to wait a few weeks... it was 5 or 6 i think
i was going through my breast cancer tests then and had to go by the DT area in one of the hospitals...so just asked my doc to see if i could get in if it was covered by alberta health care
i got to meet her then i have one visit a month for 6 months
so taking advantage of it
the canada food guide website has lots of good info too
I will be sure to let you all know how wednesday goes
Lisrey... :hug: we all do give each other such good energy when we feel safe enough to revel in it
I am so glad we all met
I didnt think i could go without weighing either..I guess she knew from the get go where a lot of my mind games came from
I would get so depressed too louise.. i would jump on the damn scale daily...expecting to see the pounds drop
i needed a new approach
better fitting clothes is so much better
speaking of which
i still need to think of a challenge title
i will do it this weekend for sure
off to bed soon
up early tomorrow
thanks for helping me feel like me again girls
you are the best !!!!
:jn
Peng
xo
mcmarto 01-10-04, 05:34 PM Hope you are having a great weekend!
Stay warm!
mc
OMG
almost an hour to drive home... I sure hope all my buddies affected by this freezing rain are ok
nancy you better check in !!!
wow... terrible terrible..
just layers and layers of ice everywhere..where did this rain come from
wow..it will be nasty on my drive to work in morn too
will be bad for days as it is too freeze
I am just shaking lol
accidents everywhere...shutting the highways down wow
so...staying home lol
I will bake muffins and listen to music
good thing i drive early in am as there is not much traffic..bad in that no traffic means worse roads
I will leave before 6 and hopefully get there ok
anyhow
weekend will be q u i e t
i will check in later
gonna try to unwind
:caf:
wow
hahahah
hope you all are doing better hahah
:x
peng
I know you will, but, do take it easy in the morning...Hopefully you won't lose your electricity....It is cold out this way...really cold....supposed to be a bit better tomorrow...then back into the deep freeze by Tuesday or Wednesday...
Hope your muffins are yummy...
Take care and stay safe and warm ...they might have salt down by morning if it is not too cold for the salt to be effective...
:hug:
Louise
Pengii,
So glad you made it home ok, wish you didn't have to drive tomorrow though. My hubby did the driving today but all of it just in town.
We don't have to go to church tomorrow until about 10:45 and that is right in town too so we should be ok.
Thanks for your concern, keep warm and safe!!!
oh, I love Fuji apples too, yummmm!!!
Be careful on the road tomorrow, Peng! We don't usually get the deep-freeze cold that we have right now -- our winters usually hover around the freezing point a LOT. Therefore, we have a lot of freezing rain, sleet & ice. A LOT. That's how I got in my big wreck last year... Eeeeek. I know how a drive like that can frazzle every nerve ending you have. I hope you find a way to relax and get a good rest. :hug:
Looking forward to that new challenge. Guess what? I wore my December challenge pants to work today -- no panty lines! :D
Lisrey :up:
Pengii!!
I was wondering how you were doing the roads there sounded terrible. This morning I woke up to thick fog and blowing snow, I guess highways here are not that great but nothing like there.
I have to head out on the road today 3 hour trip for work. Conference starts Monday. I'm hoping the roads get better as the day goes on.
sandielynne 01-11-04, 06:16 PM Hi Pengii,
Oh wow, I had no idea you had a big ice storm, and I do hope that they get the road cleared up quickly for you, and anyone that must drive. When the sun shines upon it, it sure is glorious, but I know just how dangerous it is to be driving on.
Since you are going to let us know what goes on Wednesday, is that the day you see your Dietician? I am guess that is so. Gee, I won't be hearing about what goes then, maybe, because Thursday morning I have to head out for my sister's house. I see my Rheumatologist that afternoon. I know you're going to get good news Pengii.
Take care and keep well
Hugs,
Sandie
ol peng is safe and sound thanks !!
nasty huh nancy?! glad you were fine too
today is a slushy mesh... was ok this am too... cold enough to be tacky but not frozen
still took my time lol
yippeeee lisrey !!! wtg on the pants !!
yes, wednesday is my appt all at 8:15
I will weigh here and then at dt to see how my scale measures up
in any event , I am much much healthier
:jn
you all will be the first to know how I did !!
then i go to monthly weigh ins to monitor... my pants will tell the real story though... they are what inspires me now and i dont get depressed when they take thier time changing...cause they do eventually change !!!
I am gonna visit and catch up with you all this evening
hoping to go visit a couple friends tomorrow
hope it is decent outside
I am looking forward to a couple days off
no big plans.... next sunday i get my hair done...first time in forever that i get some highlights and a dif cut.... not sure what yet...will let stylist figure that out
anyhow
thanks for visiting
i hope you ALL are enjoying a great sunday
:x
peng
xoxooxox
patricians2001 01-11-04, 07:11 PM Hi Claire;
i don't think I opened my front door once in the past two days without hearing sirens! We were lucky that it was the weekend with not so many people on the road.
Today was much better, but I still saw two accidents.
I have to head for the airport at 4 am so i hope it doesn't get all nasty again. I have to go to Toronto for a week.
hope it goes well for you on Wed. Good plan to check your scale like that.
Pat
Pat, I was sure hoping you didnt have to drive... I hoped you worked mon-fri
have a good trip to TO maybe once you get back it will return to normal january (frozen solid hhahaha)
I am heading towards airport too..my fr lives in country 20 miles further from there (other side of leduc..north) she got rear ended on highway yesterday..turning onto her road...good thing there was enough ice it just spun her around .. a little damage but not too bad
i saw that the roads are ok...not great but ok today...warm enough
highway will be good tho
I had a bagel w peanut butter and jam ...a yummy treat once and a while lol
will have some yogurt before going
I will make us something for supper...not sure what yet tho
I am going to wear my jeans again today hahahha i love doing that hahahha
I will try and take a pic with her digital camera if she is online still and email back to me so i can put it in pants challenge
i will scan a pic of me at 350 too one day for comparison
i weighed that much at my god baby's christening
:o
BUT NEVER AGAIN !!!! HAH
i hope you all have a fabulous monday all
travel safe Pat
:x
Peng
Claire you be CAREFUL. That sounds down right scary and freezing cold. My car was coated with salt when I got back from UT. I Bet your car won't be getting washed for two more months.
Can't wait to hear about your Appt. I am sure it will go well.
I can't wait to see that pic of you in the jeans!! I sure hope your friend can help you do it. It's SO much fun to wear those clothes you've been targeting. I am SO happy for you & your own happiness shines through your post. Thanks for the fuzzy warm feeling! :laugh:
Have fun!
Lisrey :up:
fleureange 01-12-04, 06:53 PM Go Claire, Go Claire,
I can't wait to see your pic of you in your jeans. Hope you can get it scaned.
Have a great night
Hope we get to chat soon
Dar
yes...it was not so great on side roads...so not going today
if we dont get more freezing rain...will go tomorrow..it is supposed to be above zero tomorrow
my friend said her area was still slick
anyhow
another good surprise today
put on my jeans and more changes since last week
:jn
buttoned and zipped with out probs
:caf:
too cool
I will try on the next smaller ones tonight maybe
to see if they are gonna be my challenge pants.. i think so though
as they are one size smaller...might take 2 challenges...but they will zip !!!
I am gonna go and just start the pants challenge...no great ideas for title so just gonna do it hahahha
will be back to post about it
:x
Wow Pengii, you are sure a changin'!!! So what size are these pants getting to be anyways????
Good luck with the next pants challenge, although it seems like you have the routine and don't need the luck.
Take care, glad you are being cautious and safe.
Minnie mouse 01-13-04, 05:04 PM Hello,
so proud you got in the pants. your doing well.
our roads were slick too.
keep up the good work,
im rooting for you buddy,
take care
mcmarto 01-13-04, 09:06 PM Good going with those pants!
Hope all that ice has melted...stay safe!
Cannot wait to hear how your weigh in goes...keep up the great work!
I love pb & J...I actually bought some all natural stuff the other day...and sugar free jelly.....gosh...I wish I were a kid again!...hahahaha!
mcmarto
so good to seeya !!!!
I have a routine but it is real easy to slip
still working on building the habit
finally got to my friends house and had a great visit
hadnt seen her since late october...or early nov...somewhere in there
she was so surprised at how i looked
she said I have a great shape happening lol
I was happy
nancy...the sizes all vary from cut to cloth 22 to 20 and 18 is the next pair of pants... they are a big 18 tho as I know i have others not anywhere near yet
these jeans are a 20.. but like i said...i have other 20's too tight
so... i just try em on...the sizes are so dif
omg
tomorrow is my appt
:jn
I need to be ready for whatever the scale says... 10, 20 whatever
i dont want to be disappointed
all I know is I am much better off than in november
it would be nice to shave a few pounds off each month...but will just do my routine
the days go into weeks into months.... just have to keep working along
anyhow
no pic today as it got late and she doesnt have email anymore
but next visit i will bring a disc and take the pic
my sleaker pengi shape hahahahha
I am going to bed early..want to leave lots of time to get to hosp in morning
might have more freezin rain in am
was a huge sloppy mess this afternoon
I will post in am after my weigh in
luv ya all and have a great wednseday
:x
peng
Can't wait to hear how the appointment goes & how much you've lost. Must be considerable since the jeans fit & your friend paid you the nice compliment! You should feel great about those two things regardless of the scale -- that's the whole point, right? You did it! :dn
Do you have questions for the dietician again? Are there things that you want to work harder on that she'll be able to help you with? Proud of you & delighted to see your success!
Lisrey :ex:
well I am down !!!
knew that, but now the kicker lol
my scale says 263
i looked at it
and looked at it
hahahaha
of course I expected 20 pounds.... not disappointed but surprised
I stood there and put things in a good frame of thought
my body has changed... I was close to 280
and made it though holidays
just different as I was this weight when jeans were too tight before...so must be inches change too... I do move much more with the increased energy
I guess that is why I should not put so much on scale
so I will see what DT's scale says and then change my stats
I had hoped to be in 50's so will have to be a block head, mark my squares, and def pick up the exercise to whittle away some more for next month
we will def be talking about the scale reaction lol
my DT will be happy as she wants slow and steady..of course I will adjust hahahah
and I know these pounds wont be jumping back on as I have had great food every day
so.... will start a new journal after I am home today
I am now adjusted I think ahhahah
scale is down
body is down
I am not as freaked as I would of been before for sure
had i weighed a month ago and seen only a few pounds down... like 5.. I know old claire would of felt like it was hopeless
strange at that sounds... that has stopped me many times before
I am a scale and pounds junkie
but in recovery lol
so... my goal for the next month...be faithful with my blocks
work the basics
and my body
and shave a few more off to be in the 50's
I AM DOING IT !!!!!!!
:jn
I will continue to work away
one pound at a time...no matter how long it takes to get them off !!!!
seeya this evening !!!
:x
Peng
Pengii,
Those pounds down are just great. You are absolutely doing 'something'. Believe me you don't go down that much without doing something, I will attest to that!!! LOL
Wow, and you were back in focus by the end of your posting, isn't it great how that happens, come a talk to your friends through your journal and things come back into focus. That is what it is all about I guess.
Hope to see you in chat tonight. Take care.
mcmarto 01-14-04, 04:51 PM I am so happy for you!
Can't wait to find out what your DT says!
Good for you girl!
mcmarto
Hooray...you are doing it...and you are at least 12 lbs down...well what more can you ask for my dear...anxiously waiting to hear what your DT ha to say about how great you are doing.
Louise
chumlette 01-14-04, 06:47 PM Hiya little flightless bird! I am so darned proud of you. You are shining!!!
had a good visit with DT
I had adjusted to the scale by the time i left the house
still felt weird though as I have weighed this not terribly long ago but was dif size... inches play a big role i guess
with the healthier eating I have more energy and move faster..just to move more often now
I am gonna go start a new journal and sum up my feelings there
getting on the scale renewed how i feel and I will be more disiplined in forming new habits
the big one is to track my food consistently by marking portions down on my blocks
I want to be a block head
see you all in new journal
:x
Peng
thanks again for all the great support and kind words !!!!
I started my new journal
and will finally unplug my happy little xmas tree too outside lol
my new journal is
"I WANT TO BE A BLOCKHEAD"
I hope to see you all there
:hug:
Peng
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