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jude 2
04-12-04, 02:45 PM
lets hope it is a journey to success, :flower: ive been a member here for about three weeks now, and those that have read my threads and replys will have heard me say, probably every day ," right im going to start again," or "im going to have a fresh start"," like most people i think," were only human things do get in our way and trip us up. ive been trying to loose wieght for a long time now, ive tried every diet known to man, liquid diets ,supplement diets,tablets,ive even asked my G.P. for surgery,he just laughed at me, i came out in tears ive never been so humilliated in all my life, " the only way to loose wieght is to diet" he said to me."will power is what you need its the only way," well i suppose he was right, but i just carnt do it, ive been back to the docs. lots of times since then,at the moment im on a course of tablets ,we call them reductil i think thier known as meridia in the states, they are supposed to surpress my hunger, ive been told they can take a while to work, "well im waiting," but in the mean time ill carry on as normal, witch means over eating, i think im waiting for them to have some miracle effect and stop me eating without any effort,im going back tomorrow for a check up ,i have to have my blood pressure checked regularly, i shall be asking him to increase my dosage ,if he wont then im coming of them, theres no point in taking them at the dosage im on im eating more not less, when i get motivated i can do really well i know i can , its usually when i first join different diet clubs, for the first few weeks i do well then it seems to fade away and i put all back on , then i leave and put more on, ive been going to wieght watchers for years on and of infact when i very first joined in 1987 i wieghed only 157lb now im a wopping 280lb,and more ,i go back tomorrow to be wieghed, and i know ive put on again, coz ive just eat like a pig, but im going to count tomorrow as the first day of the rest of my life,and take 2morrows wieght as my first wiegh in and see how i go from there,its no good looking back and saying what could of been, or should have been ,like i normally do, ive got to move forward, i know i have, but doing it is harder then it sounds,im going away at the end of may for a holiday,and i love to go with a sence of achievement, even 10lb would be nice,then i can say i tried , instead of ,i wish id have tried,or if only, any way lets see what tomorrow brings,tomorrow is another day,its THE FIRST DAY OF THE REST OF MY LIFE, :spring:

Beth
04-12-04, 02:53 PM
HI Jude :wave:

First of all - here is a HUGE :hug: from me to you!!!!!!!

My friend many of us have been down the same path many times over as what you posted here.

The thing that I have to keep reminding myself of is this:

This is NOT a diet - it is NOT tempo ray - it is FOREVER - it is a LIFE STYLE change. If I don't stick to it - 1 yr from now I KNOW I will be even heavier, so I MUST stick to it - not sure if this helps you any or not - but its the speech I give myself sometimes a zillion times a day :)

we are here for you!

Beth :not:

maximum
04-12-04, 03:00 PM
:welcome: to Journals.

I hope you will find the support you need here... JUDE why don't you try journaling your food to really see what your eating... then eliminate from there... You can do this We all can do this.... Good Luck And I will be checking in on you....

ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE.... YOU ARE WORTH IT! :hug:

monicapink
04-12-04, 03:12 PM
Hi, :wave:

I just got thru finishing my entry in my own Journal and saw your post.

I want to share my story with you .... hopefully it will make you understand YOU CAN AND WILL SUCCEED ...

When I started my weight loss journey in 2000 I weighed a little over 307 pounds .... because I am a diabetic I was being seen by an endocrinologist ... this man is the first doctor I have ever had that SAT DOWN AND TALKED TO ME .... he told losing weight because of my diabetes WAS A NECESSITY .... if I didn't that I would die and die a very slow and miserable death .... now I have to tell you that scared me into reality :tomato: ... but the first words out of my mouth were I CAN'T LOSE 100 POUNDS ..... unless you help me with diet pills ... he was willing to prescribe them BUT MY INSURANCE COMPANY WOULDN'T PAY FOR THEM .... and the cost for a month's supply would be approx $150 .. because we were living on a very fixed income (my husband's pension and Social Security) ... I couldn't afford to pay monthly that amount ... so for almost a month I was in a deep depression ....

In the beginning of March my husband purchased a computer for us to use ... and on a Sunday March 16th (to be exact) I was reading a computer magazine in our Sunday newspaper .... and they showed weight loss sites ... I picked the first one I saw (Dietwatch) and on March 17th, 2000 I started my weight loss journey ...

I had to learn MANY NEW THINGS .... I had to learn to plan and prepare meals .... using less and less of processed (convenient) foods .... to drink water (which I did have to get used to making the beverage of my choice) ... I participated in several chats ... at first I was quiet and just listened because I ASSUMED NOONE HAS AS MUCH WEIGHT TO LOSE AS I DO .... I met a lot of people ... people who like myself were struggling to lose weight .... it was at this weight loss site I formed two special chats ... 100 Plus Chat and a Diabetes Chat ... the 100 Plus Chat started with 15 people ... but by the time I left Dietwatch we had an average of 40 to 45 people ... the site changed in the sense that it was now charging individuals for their services ... I came to Diettalk from that site ... and I also developed an existing 100 Plus Chat here at Diettalk ... but in truth I got burned out ... this year after reading Dr. Phil's book .... I decided to form a Support Group ... and we already have a growing support group ....

What I am trying to say Judy ... YOU CAN AND WILL SUCCEED ... IT STARTS WITH YOU TAKING IT ONE DAY AT A TIME ... ONE MEAL AT A TIME ... you need to BE PATIENT AND KIND TO YOURSELF ...

I am hoping you will be able to participate when our Support Group meets . if not every week WHEN YOU CAN ... believe me we're all walking the same road ... AND EACH DAY IS WHAT WE CHOOSE TO MAKE IT .. if you ever need me .... you can either private message me or leave a message for me in my Journal ... my hand is out there .... all you have to do is reach for it. Make it a great day and a great start on your journey to success. As always, Monica

Debbie1986
04-12-04, 03:15 PM
Hiya,
I can so see where you are coming from but you sound really determined to do it and I'm sure you will :up: - everyone here is so supportive as well try and draw on that!
take care and I'll check back tomorrow to see how you did at weigh in :hug:
Debs xxx
p.s. great to see someone else from England :)

jude 2
04-13-04, 08:52 AM
hi, everyone here is so beautiful, monica youve actually made me cry,(not in a bad way), i never knew people cared about strangers the way you all do,and for that i send a big thank you :cheers:
I went back to the doctors today,he has increased my dosage, but he said if these dont work by the time im due to go back again, then i have to come of them, which i agree with,were lucky here in the uk to have the national health service, i can try these tablets and even if they dont work they have hardley cost me anything, a fraction of what youd pay privately.
anyway he wieghed me,aaarrrhhh, i knew id put on coz ive been such a pig,im blameing these tablets, coz ive just sat back and waited for them to work, like they are a miracle cure, if they were we would all be on them ,i havnt even tried to be honest, his scales are different to wieght watchers as he wieghed in kilos, and me being thick had to wait till i got home to work it out, any way i think ive put about 4lb on, so i didnt go to wieght watchers this week, im sick of putting wieght on and have to hand over my money for the privelage, so i sat in the car while my sister in law went in , "yes " she lost wieght again another 1.5lbs (cow).lol.
so today im going to make a concious effort, this morning me and my daughter threw out all the chocolate that was in the fridge, " yes i actually put it in the bin", and we went out and bought lots of fruit, ive got to try and make these tablets work for me, no ,not just the pils though i carnt really rely on them, i didnt really mean that they are just back up, what i am going to do is start and change my life style,
i do drink plenty of water already, i buy the flavoured kind :water: , but im going to excercise more, i even go to the shop in the car and its only about 500yrds from my house, it probably takes me longer to turn the car around then it would to walk, anyway that stops here, :ex:
heres to a good day, first of many.................
thanks again everyone for your support. :spring:

maximum
04-13-04, 12:17 PM
A Good Attitude will take you far... :up: Your doing well already.... Your planning! Making changes... Making a effort. Good for you...

We can do this.... YOU can do this.....!

MelsaEstel
04-13-04, 01:45 PM
Congrats on the changes you are making! Cleaning out the fridge is a great start. Throw out all the junk, start fresh and healthy. You are going to do wonderfully! Keep up the positive attitude, and you will get there!

Beth
04-13-04, 03:28 PM
way to go on the new attitude !!!!!! I know this was/is rough for you and I am soooooooo proud of you :hug:

You are SO right - the pills will help you do what you need to do, but they won't do any of the work by themselves :)

You CAN do this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :up:

Beth :not:

jude 2
04-14-04, 10:26 AM
I had a really good day yesterday, im really proud of my self, :cheer:
im aloud 28pts on the wieght watchers plan,

didnt have time for breakfast; :flower:

midday snack; 1sml bannana;......1pt

dinner;..w/w meal......................5.5pts

afternoon snack ;pkt crisps.........1.5pts

tea; w/w meal...........................5.5pts

evening snacks;.2pks crisps.........3pts...
2eggs.2rounds of bread...............5pts...
small bunch of grapes.................2pts...
......................total.......23.5pts........

.....pts saved for another day...4.5pts...


I also drank 3litres of water, :water: and did 3 hrs gardening,(vigorous gardening believe me).
my mood has been completely different as well though, i think its because ive told myself not to wait around for theses tablets to work, eating as though i wasnt going to get another meal,
i have had good days before though and it is only one , so lets see what today brings, god im so negative, i will have a good day today, and tomorrow ,and the day after, :coach: E.T.C.
The garden is a right (Was) tip my partner is building an extension on the front of the house , he has had to pull down a small entrance porch, and concrete steps, anyway all the rubble he collectted was just thrown in a big pile in the centre of the garden, and i mean a big pile, we hired a skip yesterday and threw all the bricks and big lumps of concrete in it, it was a mamouth task, and hard on the back but we did it, not only was it good excercise but it kept me away from the fridge........haha ha lol :lift:

monicapink
04-14-04, 10:44 AM
Good Morning Jude,

As a general rule I try not to tell other people how to live their life .... because it's enough for me to live my own life .... but I want to suggest to you to make the time to eat your meals ... for the simple reason by skipping or skimping on meals we tend to OVEREAT on other meals ...

You did great .... and YOU HAVE THE POWER AND THE ABILITY TO MAKE EACH DAY WHAT YOU WANT IT TO BE .... you didn't gain the weight quickly SO YOU CAN AND WILL LOSE THE WEIGHT .... be patient and be kind to yourself. Make it a great day. As always, Monica

maximum
04-14-04, 12:33 PM
If staying busy is what it takes then stay busy..... Good job :up:

jude 2
04-14-04, 02:30 PM
were coming to the end of day two, its been another good one, yippee, im hoping to lose 7lb this week, no maybe 5lb thats a bit high, ive been out in the garden again today this time for 4 hrs, its all done now, well the rubbish has gone anyway, :mus:
I carnt wait to start my new job it will help take my mind of things, i used to do home care for the elderly, i loved it, but the company i worked for were crap, they were always getting my wage wrong, any way this place i used to go to the warden there was leaving, nice woman, i thought i can do your job, so i applied went for the interview and got it, i couldnt believe it, the boss told me that she had to send of for my referances and i had to pass a medical, they also had to send off for a criminal check,make sure id been a good girl. i knew they were going to be ok so i gave my notice in at work, thought i could be a lady of liesure for a week or so, that was about five weeks ago, how wrong could i have been. the references came back , the medical came and went, and then they sent of the check i carnt believe they sent that of last, anyhow, were still waiting for that to come back, the frustrating thing is my last employers sent one of just before i left (new law has just come out anyone who works with the public has to have one done ) it is only dated the 10th of march but they said they carnt use it they have to use thier own X-( ,so ill just sit and wait, anyway tats that and ill just have to put up with it, but it shouldnt be long now, its hard being at home all day ive forgotten what it was like,
any way todays food intake is;.....

breakfast;......2eggs...2 bread....................5pts

midday...........bannana.............................1pt

lunch..............w/w hotpot........................4.5pts
beetroot.................................................0pts
mushy peas.............................................2pts


tea;....................w/w meal......................5pts
w/w dessert............................................3pts


evening snack..................crisps................3pts
grapes....................................................1pt
2bannanas...............................................3pts


total pts...............................................26.5pts

pts left over for another day................1.5pts...... :ribbon:


ive also drank just over 3 litres of water :water:

jude 2
04-16-04, 02:53 PM
well, ive done three quite, stress quite, successful days, ive decided not to record all my food intake, as i think it quite boring,

yesterday was a good day right up until the end ,i really frustrate my self somtimes, it was about 9.30pm i should have gone to bed really but the telly was good,i ended up spoiling it, id had all my points for the day,but just had to have 2 pieces of toast with butter on, why? i wasnt hungry,
and then i had some crisps, i new id gone over but just couldnt stop X-( , it wasnt really a concious effort though it just happens,

It wont spoil my efforts to much (i hope) as id saved a couple of points for weekend to go out,its my sister in laws birthday and thiers a few of us going out, dont know where yet, but i know im going to be good im going to have white wine with soda to drink, were not going for a meal so im going to have a wieght watchers curry and rice when i get back in. and these are all going to pointed up, which is usualy my biggest mistake, when ive gone out in the past i just blow it and then struggle to get back on the plan, but not this time ive already got it worked out and its only friday,
mind you actually doing it is another story, if i was that good i wouldnt need to be here,
i always remember my brother saying to me once when i was talking about dieting and how hard i was finding it, he said :sb "why are you finding it so hard why dont you just eat less," " god why didnt i think of that"!!!!!!!

now ne needs to loose a few pounds himself........haha lol :peace:

anyway today so far has been better, im having lots of water about 3litres a day :water: not a great deal of excercise though unless you can count shopping, lol
im going to loose at least 15lb for my holidays at the end of may,
who thinks ill do it????? :caf:

monicapink
04-16-04, 03:03 PM
Jude I disagree with you .... I think by posting your food, water and exercise intake it gives you (as well as others) a better understanding of what is or isn't working. When I list my food intake, water and caloric intake ... I do it so that I can see if I am meeting my dietary and nutritional needs.

Don't look back to yesterday ... learn from yesterday's mistakes and MOVE FORWARD... our success happens ONE DAY AT A TIME ... ONE MEAL AT A TIME. As always, Monica

Beth
04-17-04, 05:59 PM
Jude - read eves journal - you did not mess up - you just had a hiccup - its really cute and helps put things back into the correct frame of mind when you think about it :)

Wishing you a great week my friend! :D

Beth :not:

Beth
04-17-04, 10:24 PM
A Special "Thank You" For Your Support To Me :rose:

It is deeply appreciated :)

Beth :not:

jude 2
04-19-04, 10:17 AM
YOUR MORE THAN WELCOME :hug: MY FRIEND beth,
id like to thank everybody who has took an interest in my journey so far,
well its been nearly a week now tomorrow is jugement day haha,
ive been really good and even my night out although it go as i planned i only went over my points by one, my partner went to the bar and when he came back he had a beer for me, i went mad at him but that was it then once i had the taste for beer , but at least i didnt go over the top,
monica i will record my food intake again this week, i didnt really see any point ,but i understand what you are saying, although i do a food tracker for wieght watchers i will put it on here for others to see , you never know i might even help someone.
just been to a funeral today, for an old lady i used to look after whilst i was doing home care, it was the first time id met most of here family, what nice people they are, they really made me feel apprieciated, but the trouble is they did a lovely soread of food for afterwards and they were quite insistant that i have something to eat, i manage to fob quite a lot off but when i was handed a fresh cream cake i just caved in, thats my trouble, carnt help it, who can resist them though.
that will have to be my dinner now ive got to pull these points back,
i reccon a fresh cream cake will be about 10pts.
ive had a lot of water this week, my bladder is bursting, ive tried to have at least 3 litres a day , thats 21 litres so far, crickey thats a lot :water:
so as from tomorrow i will journal my food, theres no point today,not with that big cream cake.oooohhhh it was nice though haha :cake:

monicapink
04-19-04, 01:19 PM
Jude,

What happened yesterday is PAST HISTORY .... what you do TODAY will make a start to the Future ... Hoping to see you tomorrow at our Support Group Meeting. SUCCESS CAN AND WILL BE ACCOMPLISHED ... ONE DAY AT A TIME ... ONE MEAL AT A TIME --- THIS IS SOMETHING YOU CAN AND WILL ACHIEVE ... BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. As always, Monica

Dj
04-19-04, 06:03 PM
Jude..... I know where you are coming from waiting for some pills to work for you. But something I've learned along my journey is that if I don't put in the work, I'm not going to get results. I know you can do this..... look at the successful days you've already had. And don't expect yourself to be perfect either.... there is NO SUCH THING AS A PERFECT DIETER! Remember this saying "progress not perfection". If you have something that you consider a screw up, let it go and move on. You make a choice each time you put something in your mouth and lots of times when we're just grabbing for things that taste good, it's out of habit. Unhealthy habits can be broken! I used to think I was doomed to be fat for the rest of my life and that made me really sad. I didn't go through my life heavy.... I just started gaining this weight late in 1996, but through those years I've managed to get over 100 pounds overweight! I would never have dreamed it possible, but that's what happens when you use food to avoid dealing with parts of life that might not be so pleasant. I "medicated" with food almost constantly. And my sugar intake was incredible.... trying to fill my life with love by eating sugar out my ears! When I look back on that I have such regrets that I wasted so much time taking my life back.

But...... on a more positive note..... I was able to take my life back. I am losing now and feeling better every day - not only physically, but emotionally I feel better about me. I guess because I don't feel helpless anymore.... and that's a real freeing feeling. I'm not doomed to be fat all the rest of my life. And this next statement was a real eye opener for me..... I DON'T HAVE TO BE FAT EVER AGAIN IF I DON'T WANT TO BE!!! I have the power to change that and I don't need pills or surgery either. I just need to be willing to spend a little extra time planning my food out and I need to be willing to exercise (even when I just don't want to.... exercise is not my favorite thing yet...lol)....I don't always do the right things and I don't have losses every week. But I know I'm making progress and I'm headed in the right direction on this journey of mine. I've had so many start overs that I'd thought about leaving diettalk because I was so embarrassed.... no, ashamed actually.... of myself. But I'm so glad I didn't because having the support of people who understand what you're going through is SO helpful and SO important.

Just take one day at a time..... I know that sounds trite, but it's so important! If you think about it in this way..... you can do anything for 1 day. Right? Just do what you need to do to be the healthiest you can be for 1 day. Don't think about what you did yesterday..... and don't think about tomorrow. Today only...... Each morning when you get up, deal with the day at hand. Be the healthiest you can be and repeat...... you'll be amazed at how quickly a couple of days turn into weeks and then months and pretty soon you are seeing a whole new person looking back at you in the mirror. You'll have more energy than you ever dreamed you could have and even better yet, you'll know that you are capable of so much.... that will give you a satisfaction that no cake, cookie or chocolate bar could ever give you.

I promise that we'll all be here to cheer you on..... you did a GREAT thing by throwing the chocolate in the bin. I have done that myself. This Easter my kids got me a basket with nothing but candy in it and I sent it all to people that can afford to eat that kind of stuff. I can't do that right now. That's not to say I won't ever have another piece of candy or a piece of cake or pie ever again. But for now, I choose not to. That's the difference between being successful or not being successful...... the choices YOU make. Every time you make a healthy choice, it brings you that much closer to your goal of being at a healthy weight. Isn't that exciting!! YOU have that power! I was so over joyed when I realized I had the power and the courage it takes to get back to a normal, healthy weight. It was a realization that changed my life forever! You can have that, too..... I know you can do this.

I've rambled on too much, so I'll go now.... I've not been to my own journal in a few days and it's time to fix dinner as well. Just remember that we're here for you whenever you need to vent or cheer because you had a great day! We'll be here with you.....

Take care and have a good week......!!

shellbell
04-20-04, 12:56 AM
:cheer: You are doing great and you sound so positive! This new attitude will get you to where you want to be. Don't let minor(or major) slip-ups get you down. You don't have to wait for tomorrow to "start over", you can start right from that moment.
Take care,
Shellie :flower:

jude 2
04-20-04, 09:46 AM
THANKS, everyone
all my hard work has really paid off, i carnt wait to write it down,ive been to wieght watchers today and ive lost........a whooping 4.5lbs yeaahhh :cheer: :dn go judy go judy go judy.
il
l edit this page later today with my food tracker,

Nearly the end of another day, and what a good day its been,
im really getting in to it now, please god make it last ive been down this road before,
im hoping that keep coming to this site will keep me motivated , with all the help and support ive been getting, :hug:

today ive had,...


breakfast......2 bannanas...........3pts

snack..........walkers quavers.......1.5pts

lunch.......uncle bens-beef and noodles in oyster sauce.....5pts

snack........sml. bunch of grapes.......2pts

tea............2eggs..1/2 tin of spaghetti hoops...3slices of bread......7pts

snack.........walkers wotsits.......1.5pts

more snack........w/w hotpot............4.5pts

even more snack.....2sml satsumas......1pear.......3pts


total 27.5pts..................leaving half a point for another day lol

ive drank nearly 3litres of flavoured water :water:

ive found that the water is actually curbing my appitiete,its also making me wee a lot lol....
still not doing much excercise yet, i just carnt motivate myself, ive always got an excuse, its to cold, its raining,im to tired, ive got an headache.

ah well carnt do everything i suppose

Dj
04-20-04, 09:54 AM
CONGRATULATIONS, JUDY!!!!!! That's awesome news! I knew you could do it! Way to go..... :up:

jude 2
04-20-04, 10:10 AM
thaks D.J, and thanks for your earlier message its fantastic to know everyone supports you, not only cheering you on but putting you straight about things you might be doing wrong ,its brilliant thanks everyone again, ive really found the will to do this, and ill be a member here for life, thanks again :balloons: :cheer:

Beth
04-20-04, 10:25 AM
I am sooooooooooooooo thrilled for you! Way to Loss! :cheer:

WONDERFUL :D

Beth :not:

kfoard
04-20-04, 11:28 AM
Hi Jude,
Congraulations on the 4.5 pounds loss. That's so wonderful. How are things going over in your part of the world. Things are going pretty well for me here. Last week when I weighed in, I thought that I had lost 1/2 a pound, but it turns out that I gained 1/2 a pound. Well I guess last week was a lesson for me.

have a great evening! Katherine

monicapink
04-20-04, 01:39 PM
CONGRATULATIONS JUDE ON YOUR :super: TERRIFIC FOUR AND ONE HALF POUNDS LOSS OF BLUBBER ...:cheer: . You have made a GIGANTIC STEP FORWARD :up: I will be pleased to announce your success at our Support Group meeting ....

Make it a great day...... and KEEP MOVING FORWARD .. ONE DAY AT A TIME .. ONE MEAL AT A TIME . As always, Monica

jude 2
04-21-04, 10:37 AM
Im a bit bored at the moment so i thought id come and pass some time, keep me away from the fridge,

kathrine ive just been to your web site, its really cool, :flower:

im made up today ive just noticed on my profile, ive been promoted to a junior diettalker :cheer: yeeaahh im no longer a newbie.........

been good up to now, its now 2.30pm infact not really thought about food
ive been to visit an eldery couple this morning that i used to look after when i was doing home care, they are both 98yrs old and still fairly well..... ;)


god to think of it ive only had fruit up to now, 2 bannanas for breakfast,
i hate having a breakfast, dont know about anyone else, i just carnt face it,
i dont mind mid morning , but then its nearly lunch time , so i wouldnt bother,
for lunch today ive only had a sml bunch of grapes,
im not skipping meals, today has gone quite quick, the kids are due home from school in a bit, so id better go,
ill be back later to do my diet diary,
_________________________________________________________

Debbie1986
04-21-04, 11:37 AM
Hey Jude,
great job on the 4.b loss - thats awesome. I'm a funny sort of breakfast person, i can eat it at say 9:00am but try getting me to eat it at 7:30am and you've got a problem I just don't enjoy food at that hour of the day so i force a slice of toast down to keep me going till later!
take care
debs

jude 2
04-21-04, 03:28 PM
Thats just what i do deb, only with me its a bannana or two, I know breakfast is supposed to be the most inportant meal of the day but no thanks, i heard a saying once,

EAt breakfast like a king
lunch like a queen,
dinner like a prince,
and supper like a pauper,

im afraid im the other way round, supper is my failing, kids in bed, jimjams on, feet up watching telly and a big feast at the side of me....l.o.l.
I know, not any more,.....some say not to eat after seven oclock but i carnt do that , im not doing to bad though now with my fruit and wieght watchers meals.... :D



Today ive eat..........
breakfast.......2 bannanas..........2pts

snack.......sml bunch of grapes.....1pt.
.........muller lite mouse............1.5pts

dinner.........w/w pasta and chicken......6pts
................instant mash.....................2pts

snack lge bunch of grapes................3pts

supper....w/w hotpot....................4pts
...........apple 2 satsumas.............2.5pts

TOTAL..................22PTS.........6 LEFT OVER

WOW didnt think i had 6 left think ill go and have somthing else l.o.l. :flower:
ive had about 2 litres of water so far,
not done any excercise, (again) :ex: haha that looks like me in my lycra jog pants hahaha

eva.sunshine
04-21-04, 08:51 PM
Hi Jude:

Thanks for visiting my site and the words of encouragement!! I used to keep cut up vegetables in my fridge, but have been out of the habit lately, I will start doing this again. I'm going to experiment with different recipes for low calorie dip and try to find one I really, really like.

Big congratulations on your 4.5 pound loss, way to go. Keep it up and remember "your success and happiness lies in you"

Eva

SierraDude
04-21-04, 09:55 PM
Hi Jude,

I wanted to stop in and see how you were doing, especially after reading the WW thread. Congrats again on the wonderful loss. :up:

It looks like you are making some great choices and it has shown with the four pound loss. Keep up the great work!

Dude

kfoard
04-21-04, 10:12 PM
Jude,
How's it going? Thank you for the PM message. yesterday I was the UK weight watcher board. I was chatting with some people.I really got a kick out it. Have you ever heard of Denise Austin? She always says that about meals, during her show.

I'm following the winning points program. I get a range of points to eat everyday 29-34 points. If I eat 30 points, then the other 4 points are banked, so I can use them later in the week. Is that what your program is like?

The newest version you have a target point, for example 32 points, and then you get 35 flex points to use during the week anytime you want.

have a great day tomorrow! Katherine

Beth
04-22-04, 12:52 AM
Your eating is very good my friend and WOW 6 points left over :)

Your doing :super:


Beth :not:

jude 2
04-22-04, 07:54 AM
hi kfoard, i forgot to get back to you , a while ago you ask me what my wieght watchers plan was like and called :o im sorry,
the one you are doing sounds really good, i could do with knowing more.
the one im on is calledtime to eat itsvery basic i have 28pts a day , obviously this goes down as you loose the wieght, but thats it if you want to save any for a special occasion you can save four a day, only for a week no longer, the way you describe yours sounds better. :flower:

thanks everyone for your words of incouragement they are truly apprieciated :cheers:

jude 2
04-23-04, 04:00 PM
Well,here we are again,
another day end drawing in,
i carnt believe how much motivation ive got, ive never been like this before :cheer: "
please god make it last"
i have got such a will this week im really shocking myself, i hope i dont sound big headed but at 280lbs, i want to shout out,
of course ive been good before and done well,but ive never had this will to succeed, im sure it has got something to do with coming on here,and letting the whole world know. :coach:
everything that i am eating i am writting on my tracker ,that i get at wieght watchers, and counting its points value, ive not let one thing slip away,
my excercise machine has arrived today, :lift:
ive been on it for about 10 mins. its really hard, the back of my legs are killing me,its called an elliptical strider, i think its going to work for me, ill start of with 5-10 mins every now and again and build up from there.
its so easy to stop doing it though when you are on your own, its not like going to a gym where people are watching,
anyway im going to do my best,
the weather here has picked up ,weve had glorious sunshine today, (it wont last it never does) so i might start a bit of walking.
i really am a lazy person though, i wont go anywhere unless im in the car,
but im trying,


TODAY IVE ATE

BREAKFAST:......2 bannanas.......2pts

SNACKS:.......none..............

LUNCH:.........uncle bens noodles with beef in oyster sauce.....5.5pts

SNACKS......strawberries.............2pts

TEA:..........chicken tortillas, cucumber and tomatoes..........7pts

SNACKS:.....satsumas...crisps...plums......5pts

SUPPER:.......w/w hotpot...................4.5pts


TOTAL:........26pts...........2pts saved..

IVE DRANK 2.5 LITRES OF WATER :water:

AND DONE 30mins altogether on the excerciser........................................

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kfoard
04-24-04, 03:39 PM
Jude,
I know just how you feel. I started on the weight watchers program a month ago, and for the first two weeks I did really great. then the last two weeks weren't so good, but yesterday I found my motivation again and I feel great. I think what's help keeping me on track is the fact that I have to workout today. I don't like to workout if I'm eating junk food. If I'm eating junk food for the day, I figure what's the points in working out. This way if i eat healty and stay on program then that will make me want to workout.

What kind of exercise machine did you get? Oh never mind I just read a few words ahead saw that you got an ellpitcal strider. What exactly is an ellipical strider. Are you standing up mostly or sitting down? starting off slow with any new kind of workout is really important.

Let me see if I understand you get 28 points to eat during the day. If you eat less then 28 points, then you can use the extra points later in the week is that right? That's similar to the program I'm on, except I get a point range 29 -34 points. I have to eat at least 29 points.

take care and have a great weekend! Katherine

jude 2
04-26-04, 10:57 AM
Hi kathrine,
i dont know what the word elliptical means im going to look it up in the dictionary i was going do it before i wrote back but i forgot!!!
it lokks like a bike but no seat and the pedals are bigger more like a platform that you stand on and push it round,can you picture itor am i hopeless at descriptions hahaha.
its really hard actually, i can only manage about 5 mins. on it at a time, my son did a mile in no time, but after 1/4 of a mile i had to lie down, hahaha,

Im glad to see you are back on track, its hard work,
its so easy to slip up but then impossible to get back on track,
it usually takes me till i go back to my next meeting to get back on it, and by then ive gained another 2lb,

Its my wiegh in tomorrow, im looking forward to it but im scared as well, ive been really good, but had a couple of slip ups at weekend, and i didnt even have any lager,
I had a couple of packets of crisps, over my points on sat.
and on sunday i went over about 5pts with fruit can you believe,
but its so unfair to have a really good week spoiled because of a few extra points, anyway well see,

Beth
04-26-04, 12:11 PM
Hi Jude :wave:

I want to Thank you for your on going support to me - I am back on track - thanks to wonderful people like you - My new journal is posted in my signature.

I don't know a lot about WW, but can't you take those 5 points and cut out 1 point a day for 5 days and be equal again? :shrug: Just a thought lol

Your doing great - it was only 5 points my friend! Think back to when it would have been much more :)

keep going - you inspire me!

Beth :not:

jude 2
04-27-04, 12:05 PM
You are right beth,
thats just what im going to do this week im going to cut my points back,
im thinking of about 3 a day, then if i do want a treat i can use them,
ive been to get wieghed today and im really disappointed to say the least,
ive lost 1/2 lb, i know its coming off and its going in the right direction ,
but i carnt help feeling gutted,
i was expecting to have lost 2 or 3 ,
heres my excuse now to make me feel better, im not due for a period so i carnt use that one,
but every week i always wear the same skirt, so i weigh right every week,
but this week i put my denim skirt on,
i bet if i weighed it it would wiegh 2 or 3lb, haha ha
is that a good one or what,
cheered me up lol

My sister in law who comes with me lost 2 1/2lb this week im really jellous of her she pees me off,
every week when i ask her how shes thinks shes done she says,
"oohh i dont think ive done that well "
yet i dont think she has put on once since we started,
im not really competative i dont mean it in a bad way,
im really pleased for her,
just wish it was me,
How could i have let myself get this big,
you know when i look down on myself i dont feel that big, yet when i catch sight of myself in a mirror its a real shocker,
I hate bying clothes for myself, they never fit right and are always old fashioned,
im 35 and have never worn a short skirt,
I hate myself, ive lost all my confidence since i was FAT,
i carnt talk to new people (unless ive had a few pints of lager,)
any way im going now before i get to depressed at least its off and not on for a change.................... :up:

monicapink
04-27-04, 12:40 PM
Dear Jude,

I read your post and I want to say that imo LOSING A HALF A POUND IS TERRIFIC AND IS SOMETHING TO BE HAPPY ABOUT :cheer: .... A LOSS IS A LOSS ...

EVERY WEEK THAT YOU ARE FOLLOWING YOUR WEIGHT LOSS PLAN MAKES YOU A HEALTHIER PERSON ...

YOU DIDN'T GAIN YOUR WEIGHT QUICKLY AND IF YOU ARE GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT IN A HEALTHY AND PERMANENT WAY IT WILL TAKE TIME ....

I am hoping you will be able to join us at our Support Group meeting this afternoon ... but if you can't ... please let me know your stats for the week and be sure to read the 100 Plus Chat Forum for the update on what we discussed .... and also look to see about the May Challenge . Make it a great day. As always, Monica

kfoard
04-28-04, 01:27 PM
[/b] JUDE,[/B]
The way you described your machine, I know exactly what your talking about. I’ve seen those machines at Sears. I’ve tried using them, but I’m so uncoordinated I can’t stay on for more then 10 seconds LOL. Since this is a new machine, just take it nice and slow. Take time to build up your distance and time. Believe me I know what you mean what comes to getting off track. Getting off track is no problem for me, but getting back on track that’s another story. I’m trying to stay on track today. Congraulations on your ½ a pound loss. I’m so proud of you. What are crisps? Are they like potoate chips?

jude 2
04-29-04, 04:10 PM
Well that machine was a waste of money, i carnt do it ,so ive give up,
Im not going to worry to much about what the scales say any more,
im eating better, and thats the important thing,
something came to my attention before,
i was wondering if anyone had any information regarding salt,
i think im having to much, i put it in my cooking and i cover my food when im eating it,
i belief this can make you gain wieght,is this true?
The past few days have not been to bad as regards to food,
im still going over a couple of points with fruit,
im sure i must be working them out wrong or something,
im on 28pts and its still not enough, :-&
i wanted to cut back a couple of points a day like beth suggested to me but ive not been able to yet,...lol
ive finally got a start date for my new job ,im really excited i start on the 10th of may.yahoo, :cheer:
i thought it was never going to arrive, im really looking forward to it.



kathrine; crisps are potatoe chips,

monica;your right, thats whats made me realize not to watch the scales,
(till tuesday when i get wieghed...lol)

monicapink
04-29-04, 04:55 PM
Jude,

I can only give you the info I received from my endocrinologist ... I have to limit my sodium (salt ) intake because it affects my blood pressure ... and can make you retain fluids (which can be problematic if you have heart problems ).... the normal allotment of salt for the average person is 500 - 3,200 milligrams a day ..... I am allowed to have 500 - 2,400 milligrams ......

If you have questions regarding your sodium intake you might ask the Personal Dietitian here at DT at her forum ... but imo foods contain enough salt without our adding to it ..... also you might want to speak to your doctor. As always, Monica

kfoard
05-02-04, 02:49 PM
Jude – I’m sorry to hear that the machine you got isn’t working out for you. LOL excuse the pun. Believe me I know where your coming from. It seems that everytime I see a good fitness product on TV, I just want to call and order it. I’ve learned from past experiences not to do that. One product that I really wanted to get was a machine for working the lower body. The claims on TV made it sounds so great. Once I read the reviews on the internet, I found out that it was a piece of junk.

Sorry I don’t have any information on salt. I add salt to everything too, I guess you can say that I’m a salt freak. Have you thought about using a light salt? I switched to a light salt with half the sodium. I cant’ really tell if it makes a difference, but I think it does.

Take care! Katherine

Beth
05-02-04, 11:08 PM
HI Jude :wave:

So sorry your new exercise machine is not what you were hoping it was.

Great about your new job - what is it?

Hey lady jean shirts DO weigh more then normal material - really they do ;)

Plus even if not 1/2 a lb at a time is better then a 0 loss or a gain - take er any way you can get er my friend :)

Beth :not:

jude 2
05-03-04, 04:03 PM
Well i dont think this is going to Judes journey to success at all,
ive been a right pig this weekend again.
what is it with weekends,
why do i have to eat so much,why carnt i just eat less,
you know i let myself down so many times i could scream, :tomato:

Sometimes when i think about what i eat, i think i dont eat that much
and i shouldnt be this fat,
thats what i am im FAT,
the sooner that sinks in the better,
when you see documentrys on the telly about really fat people and what they eat,
you see them eating full buckets of K.F.C., and three or four helpings of mcdonalds,
i dont eat that much ,no where near that much, so why why why am i so big,

I am looking for a miracle, does anyone know where i can get one,lol
I need to win the lottery then i could have it all cut off,

Its three weeks to my holiday, not even a miracle could help me now,
ive not lost anything like what id hoped, ive really let myself down again
(im good at that)
im going to go away looking like a beached whale again,
I know theres only me that can do it ,I know that,
but i just carnt find out how!!!!
for some people it just drops off,
a friend of mine has just lost 24lbs in about 3 months, she has found it really easy, she was offended by someone at work, and that was it, she was off,no stopping her,
yet for others (me), its so difficult,
i think im just to comftable in my life at the moment,even when im trying imnot really if you know whay i mean,
theres got to be a diet for me that works,
ive tryed a lot of them ,even tablets that work for others dont work for me,
ive tryed zenical, didnt work, i had to stop takeing them when i had a very embarresing accident.
these im on at the moment reductil,i think they are called merridia in the states, they are supposed to be really effective i know people who has lost loads, but hey, guess what ive managed to put on, hahaha,im laughing because im funny, yes im a big joke, haha :laugh:

There must be a diet i can really stick with, ive stuck with w/w this time coz my sister in law comes with me i think if it wasnt for her id a give up ages ago,
Night time is the worst time for me, i think with not smoking now i need a replacement, which is food,
i suppose im lucky in the way that ive not put to much on, but thats only because id lost 15lb before i give up, and im going of my start wieght,
which all things considered is the same now, as it was then,
i went up 4 more and then come back down, so im the same again,
and if you know what i mean i havnt lost anything,
confused, i am
i think i will have gained this week, but its not going to put me off ill still go to class, just incase god is on my side haha,

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BETH: my new job is working in a housing complex for the elderly, its not a care home, its where they live independantly in little flats, i am the warden there, i have to do three weeks training first, im really excited,
i think that is my problem at the moment ive been out of work for six weeks as i gave my notice in to soon at my last job, but i didnt think it would take so long, they have been waiting for my criminal check to come back,
and i think im a bit fed up,

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thanks everyone for the info. about salt, i think it is a problem im going to have to cut back on, i do use a lot,
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Dj
05-03-04, 04:28 PM
Oh, jude..... I feel for you! And I know exactly how you feel. I can't tell you how many times over the last 7 & 1/2 years that I have told myself that I'm going to lose weight and not go through a certain event FAT again. Only to find myself a year later at that same event even FATTER! It's so discouraging, but it's not impossible to turn yourself around. The miracle that you want is already in you.... you just have to find it. And even though that may take some effort, you are WORTH every ounce of effort you'll put into it.

Maybe trying to just take things a day at a time would help you a bit. I know I've been so discouraged looking ahead at the 100 pounds I needed to lose. So I started out by getting up in the morning and doing what I needed to do for that day to be as healthy as I could be.... I tried and still do try to stay in the present day. If you repeat that process day after day, you'll be on your way to your goal before you know it. The time goes by so fast! Make your commitment to being healthier and thinner your priority and be like your friend. You said she wouldn't let anything get in her way..... you can do that, too. You have the strength. You just have to learn to say NO to yourself. I do that so many times in a day. I'll have a thought run through my head that I want something to eat.... it could be the wrong time of day (late night for instance) or maybe the wrong food and I just tell myself with conviction... NO, NO, NO!!! I know it sounds silly, but it works for me.... so far it has.

You are NOT a joke.... you are a terrific person and need to remember to treat yourself kindly like you would someone else. I know you can do this!

I'm glad you vented, though........ it's great to get it off your chest and say what you are feeling. And I'll bet you find that you aren't alone in feeling like this. I know I have SO many times..... and I know that there are others, too. But I know that I can tell you and so can the others that there is ALWAYS hope...... I'm not going to kid you and tell you that it's always easy - it's not always easy. However, I am worth doing all that work for! And this time around, I'm glad to do the work that it's taking to get this fat off me once and for all.

Take some time and plan out a menu and some sort of eating program plan and then get DETERMINED that you aren't going to stray from it.... your plan may take some adjustments, but you'll figure that out as you go along!

Take care and know without a doubt that you are worth it..... you are NOT a joke and you definitely can turn things around! You have the POWER!

jude 2
05-04-04, 11:53 AM
Thanks D.J,
for all your kind words,
You wont believe this after all the moaning i did yesterday, ive lost a pound,
i carnt believe it,
ive had a really bad weekend as well ,
i had beer, kebabs, chocolate mouse, oh god all sorts,
yet the week before i was really good, and only lost 1/2lb,
carnt work it out,
anyway its put me back on track,
no more whinging and whineing,im going to do it,
you were right in a lot you said about the miracle being in me,
your dam right!!!!!!!!! im going to get that miracle, just watch me!!!

I am , going to take it one day at a time, i think that is one of my biggest down falls, for sure,
i want to rush things ,i want everything at once,
i also want big results from my wieght loss, because ive done it before ive lost as much as 10lb in one week before now,
i expect to do it again and it feels so dissappointing to only loose 1/2lb or 1lb,
im gready!!!! thats my problem in more ways than one hahahaha....
I think because im so big it should be dropping of me in bucket fulls,
well im going to be happier now with smaller cupfulls at a time.....

i already do plan my meals ahead, i have a lot of w/w ready meals at the moment as i thought they would help give me a boost,
but ill stick with them for the time being and see how it goes...

thanks again D.J...
and everyone who has supported me thanks to you all.......... :cheers:

TODAYS FOOD LIST

BREAKFAST:.....2 bannanas.....................3pts

LUNCH:..2ski yogherts...................3pts

SNACK::....grapes......w/w dessert........................4pts

DINNER:....Birds Eye Morrocan Chicken with Naan bread....8pts


SNACKS:.....wedge of melon,..2pks of quavers, cup of drinking chocolate......6pts

TOTAL POINTS:................24pts...............4pts left over

WATER DRANK:....3litres :water:
EXCERCISE DONE:.......10mins. on stepping machine... :ex: :

Dj
05-04-04, 10:36 PM
Oh, jude!! I'm so happy for you!! One pound is great......and it's a reprieve from all the damage you thought you might have done. So don't look back. Just forge on ahead!

I sure know what you mean about it being disappointing to lose only a pound or a half of pound, but one thing I've learned along the way is that your chances of it staying off are better when you lose it slower and your body has time to adjust to the changes you are making in it. Patience is a difficult thing for me, too..... I'd love to wake up tomorrow with it all gone, but the fat fairy went out of business a long time ago! lol Slow and steady wins the race...... keep telling yourself that. In the long run, you'll have an easier time of it if you make sure you are eating all you should be and that way you won't feel hungry. It might come off slowly, but you didn't gain it overnight either.

I'm really proud of you! You've done a really great turn around in your attitude and that will make all the difference in whether you stick with it or whether you throw in the towel! I know you're going to stick with it this time...... we both are!

Take care and have a good night!

jude 2
05-05-04, 02:31 PM
Today has been much better,
ive got my good mood back, and im really trying,
loosing that pound has really put me back on track, :cheer:

not got much to say today,

TODAYS FOOD LIST......

BREAKFAST:..Oats so simple.......................4pts

SNACK:.........w/w chocolate bar...wedge of melon....2.5pts

DINNER:.....rice..curry.........mini naan bread...........11.5pts

SNACK:........2quavers.........grapes....w/w ice cream....7pts...

TOTAL POINTS FOR TODAY.............25pts.....3pts left over

WATER DRANK.........3litres............... :water:

EXCERCISE DONE.....10mins on stepping machine........ :ex:


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Im really going to give this shot my all,
i really want to go on holiday and be able to say ive tryed my best,
i know ill put back on what ive lost so far but at least ill just be back where i am now and not an extra gain, if you know what i mean.
Then when i get back, im going to be working towards christmas,
and my little black dress for new year......l.o.l.
ive set a mini goal to loose 80lb by x-mas,
that works out at 2.3lb per week according to fitday.com,

eva.sunshine
05-06-04, 02:21 AM
Hi Jude:

Your mini goal of 80 pounds by Christmas sounds ambitious but do-able!! I'll be cheering you on over the next 8 months!! :cheer:

You can succeed and the only way you truly fail is if you give up all together!!

So, hang in there!!

Eva

jude 2
05-07-04, 08:57 AM
HI Eva,
i dont think its that difficult its like 10lb a month,
it just dosnt leave any room for misstakes, haha ha, :laugh:

thanks for cheering me on.
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ive had a good couple of days this week,
im really pleased with myself.
not doing much excercise though, but hey,
im really looking forward to starting my new job on monday,
i think it will give me an extra lift,
it will certainly lift my spirits,
the troubl is ive git to take a packed lunch for the next three weeks while im on training,
i wont be in my own little complex,
ill be up at the head office and places like that,
i dont really know what to take,
the first thing you think off when you say packed lunch is butties,
uurrggh boring!!!!!!!!!! I-)

if anyone has any ideas id be grateful..............
ive only ever worked part-time before so i was also home for lunch,
i know if i carnt think of any thing exciting ill end up taking butties which is too many points, or nothing at all,

yesterday was a good day i manage to save 4pts again,
really going for it............... :cheer: :cheer:

Beth
05-11-04, 11:55 PM
what is a butties lol :shrug:

Ok fresh fruit, and vegs with low fat/calorie dip

slim fast shakes

hmmmmmmm not over being sick yet so not much of a brain tonight - sorry.
Check out the WW recipe section and/or check with Monica - I bet she has a tom of ww easy luch ideas :)

Beth :not:

jude 2
05-19-04, 04:21 PM
Carnt believe ive not wrote here for nearly 2 weeks,
how time flies,
well ive not been good, not been good atall, :c(
ive not even been to my wieght watchers class,
ive also stopped taking the reducil tablets, because lets face it ,if ive lost wieght after eight weeks then there not working,
i carnt understand myself why carnt this be done, its not exactly rocket science now is it.....
i just wish it would click in to place,
ive decided that after my holidays which is a week today, that im going to try a low carb high protien diet, i fancy a change,
i have to go to a class though otherwise it just dosnt work for me i tend to cheat to much.....haha :o

not been anywhere near any scales, im really scared, im going to look a right mess by that pool on holiday, i know i am,
every year when i go away i say
" right thats it im not doing this again im going to slim down."... blah blah blah... you know the script!! :violin:
but this year now im at my biggest i carnt believe ive let it go this far, i feel really fat now though, where as before i didnt really notice to much,
now its disgustting, my breast sit on top of my belly, and my belly is at my knees, i must look a sight......
i knows there no need to cry over spilt milk, its all my fault,
im trying to work my self up to getting stuck in when i get back,
my new job is going brilliant, thats another reason why i have to get some off,
im sort of in the public eye a lot, with the visitors that come,
theres the residents relatives,
doctors , nurses
social workers,
home carers,
my bosses....e.t.c.
so you see theres a lot of people looking at me,
im really concious of it, infact im really worried about it, not of what there think or anything like that, i dont know what it is perhaps im daft, i just carnt explain it,
THIS IS ME........................
it was taken at a fancy dress party about amonth ago,
but its at the end of the night and im a bit worse for wear......haha

maximum
05-19-04, 04:40 PM
Hey JUDE..... :console:

Ok. NOW BUCK UP LITTLE CAMPER.... Food is the enemy, and we are at war... The Bad food is the bad guys and the good food is the good guys... (shaking head visoursly.. listening to my son play army guys to often)

JUDE... You know when your ready... and this will only happen if we choose for it to. I wonder why food has such a HOLD on us... How some can take it or leave it and we just HAVE TO HAVE IT... I was just at times just midlessly eating. I love cooking and eating and socializing.. But really its not worth it... getting into smaller pants feels better then the best desert...

I know If I workout first thing in the morning... I am more disaplined thourgh out the day..

Do whatever plan is right for you.... You can do this.... From looking at your picture you are a Beautifal gal, you deserve to feel good inside and out....

What is a Buttie?

For lunches, you could make a huge salad with sliced cold chicken all in a tupperware. Or wraps, or yogurt and fruit, Crackers and cheese - grapes. WW meals - left overs from dinner the night before.... Canned Salmon and crackers.... hmmmm

JUDE today is always a new day.... We can't quit or stop. there is no alternative right? You know what they say all things that go up must come down.....

:hug:

jude 2
06-05-04, 11:50 AM
Thanks maximum, your right i know, but i just carnt do it,
NO, carnt is the wrong word , at the moment im struggling,
im trying a different diet this time im going to join slimming world on thursday
it a low carb diet.

just got back of my hols. had a great time, weather was lovely, hotel great food good, plenty of beer all inclusive, haha
but i felt like a freak, i was the fattest there, every year ive been fat, but there was always someone worse than me, not this time.......
i tried not to let it bother me, but deep down my heart was aching..
i would sell my soul to lose wieght i really would...
but i still overeat !!!
im having a bad time with my emotions at the moment, i gave up smoking in jan. and i really wont one,
it is making my life a misery,
i am the most moody person you can meet, i dont think it is worth it, im making everybodys life hell,
i keep crying and im always snapping at my partner...
i think i would rather die young and happy than old and miserable..

anyway ive not been dieting at all and ive come off the pils, what a pile of crap they were, so i know i will have put loads on, and im really scared, but i have to go i know i carnt do it on my own i need a diet class for support,
so watch this space....................

jude 2
06-05-04, 11:52 AM
P.S a buttie is short for a sandwich :up:

Beth
06-05-04, 11:53 PM
Ok, gottchya on the buttie lol Thanks ;)

You have not failed - until you quit trying and your still trying, so you CAN reach your weight loss goals :D

Beth :not:

Dj
06-11-04, 02:26 PM
My husband loves his bacon butties..... Jude it's been awhile since you've been in here. Hope you are just busy and still not hurting. I can totally identify where you are emotionally. I looked at myself like you are for a long time. Now that I've changed my way of eating, I am looking at myself a little differently and that's truly a dream come true. I'm still hard on myself a lot, but not like I used to be AND I'm getting better. I can actually look in the mirror, NOT like what I see and tell myself "I'm losing and it won't be long till I won't look like that." It makes me want to do more and eat better....

Maybe if you don't think of it as dieting and think of it as making some healthy changes in your eating, you could feel differently about it and something would click for you. But Maxi's right.... if you aren't ready, nothing anyone can say to you will make a bit of difference. The true desire and the hard work has to come from you.

Your picture is beautiful.... you are a lovely lady and I'm so sorry you are so unhappy. Wish I had a magic wand...... I'd make us all at goal weight and rich as well! *grin*

Keep trying things...... keep investigating menus and exercise programs... do anything but give up!

You can do this..... I know you can because I am and if I can do it ANYONE can! I promise!

jude 2
06-13-04, 11:35 AM
Well here we go again guys,
my other new start...haha,
not doing w/w any more i needed a new fresh start, so here we are,
your looking at a new member of slimming world :cheer: ,
i joined on thursday, and had the shock of my life 289lbs,
but ive had my holiday, so i dont care the important thing now is if i can get it off....
slimming world has two differant eating days ,
one day you can eat all protien and only a little carbs,
the other is all carbs and only a little protien,
you can swop them about so long as you finish the day you started,
its sounds good for me,
ive tryed it before but never really took it seriously so im going to give it a go,
im not doing to well on the smoking front (beth), :violin:
i did really well for five months, but at the weekend(after my holiday;no duty frees how stupids that)i had one as i was really stressed with the kids (teenagers aaarrrggghhh....whod have them).
and since then ive smoked about forty, which in comparrison to what i used to smoke is not bad, i was on twenty a day easily before so fortya week is not bad,
thats my excuse and im sticking to it hahaha,
hows your smoking doing beth, are you still at it?

im setting my sites high for my first wiegh in im going for a loss of 5lb :dn :wn
ill let you know watch this space.........jude

Beth
06-16-04, 03:02 PM
Hi Jude ! so thrilled to see you back here :D

Quit is NOT happening for me right now either :(

However I did get Allen Carr book now I have to read it. Go figure lol

You CAN reach your weight loss goals!

Beth :not:

Dj
06-17-04, 08:45 AM
JUDE! So glad to hear that you are up and running again! That's great news..... I've never heard of Slimming World, but it sounds really interesting. Good luck with that. I think there are a lot of good programs out there, but sometimes just a change is all we need to get us started again.

You can do it! Remember just to take it one day at a time and drink LOTS of water! That will help you have more energy AND is a great natural appetite suppressant. Try drinking at least an 8 ounce glass (1 cup) before each meal and drink inbetween meals, too.

If you take the time to sit down and plan out a menu, make a grocery list.... shop for that menu from your list, it will really help you, too. It takes the guess work out of what you're going to eat for the day AND it saves money at the grocery, too. If I know there's something I love but know that I'll eat too much of it when it's here, I don't buy it. I used to really put off doing my menu's, but it really helps - especially on days when I'm really busy. I just look at the menu and grab whatever it says. No thought, no fuss.....

Take care and good luck to you! My performance season is done now and I hope to be back here often. We can go through this together! Have a GREAT Thursday!

jude 2
06-18-04, 04:35 PM
Hi guys ,
and its good to be back,
back on form,
got wieghed on thursday lost 3 1/2 lb :D
really chuffed,
im going for the same again this week
might only maintain though this week as were off to blackpool,
sunny blackpool.....haha not...
were on a family reunion for the weekend so theres bound to be plenty
of beer.....yyuumm
dont worry im in control, ive allowed for it,
im also not going to over eat,
i know what im doing this time.
and then the next time i see my brother(another year or so)
he might not reconise me...hahaha that would be fun,

still smoking im afraid,
not in control with that one............... :shrug:
aagghh well win some lose some,
carnt win them all........
see ya soon. thanks for replying :x

Beth
06-18-04, 11:13 PM
way to go on 3 1/2 lbs GONE!!!!!!!!!!! :cheer:

Beth :not:

jude 2
06-21-04, 03:02 PM
The trouble with this dieting lark,
im not loosing virgin pounds,
theve all been lost before,
i bet ive lost about 100lbs in all and not moved an inch,
its the classic, one step forward two steps back!!!!!!
i know weve all done it..........

ive had a bad weekend this week (again)
i went to blackpool(dont know if youve heard of it)
its a tourist place, big tower flashing lights you know the sort,
anyway it was a family get together, lots of booze lots of food,
then to day at work we had a trip to memory lane for the oldies,
a caberat singer and meat and potatoe pie for lunch................................................................................
followed by fresh cream cakes......and fattie here had to have two.........
aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh
not going to let it bother me though, ive been here to many times now its old news,
yes yes ill start again tomorrow....
youve heard to many times now!!!!!!!!!!
ive got till thursday to pull up my socks and get stuck in,
ill be happy to have maintianed,
well see,

still on the fags im afraid,
my chest has really started to wheeze again,
im going to have another go soon just giving myself a break,
i was really stressed trying to give up ,its not easy,
i was crying all the time and i was like a bear with a sore head,
growling at everybody.....
any way thanks for reading,,,, :flower:

Beth
06-26-04, 04:47 PM
Hi Jude :wave:

I hear ya - one forward, 2 back weight loss dance.........sigh :tomato:

BUT - we must keep trying - we are not failures until we quit trying - much like quiting smoking :shrug:

But thats a whole different subject huh lol :)

wishing you a great weekend!

Beth :not:

jude 2
06-27-04, 12:01 PM
W ell not as bad as i thought,
i got wieghed last thursday, i didnt want to go really ,
but im glad i did ive maintained,
which is good all ive had ,this weeks not much better,
but today has been quite good, fingers crossed :D

Dj
06-27-04, 02:21 PM
Hi Jude....... hope you're having a good Sunday! Sounds like you had a good time in Blackpool though. Good times are allowed you know.... lol But I'm glad you're not beating yourself up too much over it. You're wise not to... it's done and over with and onwards to the next day. As long as you keep trying and don't give up, there's always hope. I know you'll find something that will click for you and then LOOK out world! Here comes Jude!!

I have heard of Blackpool, but have never been there. My husband is welsh and his family used to take holidays there when he was young. I'd love to visit it at some point. Can't wait to get back across the pond again! I miss my inlaws and friends!

Good job on maintaining....... at least that's not a gain and that's something to be grateful for for sure! Take care of yourself and have a good week! I'll check back on you soon!

Dj
08-04-04, 05:45 PM
Oh jude..... where are you ? Missing you these days! Are you okay? I sure hope so!

jude 2
08-16-04, 02:34 PM
Dont worry im here!!!
not been far just carnt seem to get near the comp these days what with the school holidays, :(
i think school holidays should be made alleagal,(never could spell)

Hey D.J if you do come to wales be sure to let me know and perhaps we could meet up,that would be cool, :D

well if you want an update here goes.........not very exciting im afraid,
ive not been anywhere near a set a scales in about a month,
im currently wasting £42 a month in gym fees coz ive not been near, the first week i went every day, then not been once,(get that) :tomato:

my G.P has decided to recomend me for surgery, yeeaahh ,
i can either have the gastric bypass or the balloon thingy, it will take a few
months for my appointment with the surgeon then it can take up to a year for the surgery to happen, but at least its something to aim for if all else fails,
i dont know which one to have i suppose its up to the surgeon as well,
and thats that.
i have to be careful now that it doesnt go to my head and put loads of wieght on while im waiting


see ya soon.....................jude :)

Beth
08-22-04, 12:34 AM
yikes! a whole year of waiting - :tomato: That's a long time :(

Beth :not:

jude 2
04-09-05, 12:13 PM
hi to all my friends...
its been a long time,
not good news im afraid, ive still been dieting, all the time, but ive put 14lb on over the last year, i went to slimming world again on thursday and i could have cried when i saw how much i wieghed. I know its my own fault and im not going to wollow in it got to get on course.
slimming world is similar to the atkins where you eat lots of protien and veg
and also lots of fruit, and you have to limit your carbs.
or you can do it the other way round eat lots of carbs (not bread) and limit your protien. You have to stick to the day you started on, but you can alternate it on different days...
never managed to give up smoking either (Beth150) but i did manage 6mths witch is a good achievement for me, if i could manage 6 good mths dieting id be well on my way..haha
Ive really missed coming on here, id met lots of really nice friends :not:
my daughter has took over the computer, and its hard to get on,

We are going on our jolly hols in ten wks so i am really going to pull out all stops to get some off, i know i wont be doing any cat walks but at least i can feel better for my own achievements.
I remember writting last year that id been on my hols, and i was determind not go over wieght again, well here we are again waiting for another holiday and guess what ....EVEN BIGGER...
I am always making myself false promises. not anymore one day at a time..
as well as slimming world im listening to a c.d by Paul Mckenna the hypnotist
im hoping that will keep me going.
I decieded not to go for surgery ,as a friend of a friend of a friend, went to have it done ,she was huge, i couldnt even guess how much she had wieghed,
she went for it and never came back...dead.. i couldnt believe it, i didnt know her, but it really put me off, so i cancelled my appointment.
Nothing else has happened really,work is going well, im really enjoying it, thier is one old lady who has took it upon herself to thing she has the right to tell me to loose wieght, it really winds me up,she gets a lot of junk mail through the post and some of it is miracle wieght loss products like take these pills and instantly lose 10lbs , load of rubbish, but she always brings it to me and says "i thought you might wont to try this", it has been really annoying, we have a coffee morning on a friday, and if she catches me eating a cookie, she will sit there shaking her head at me. so i dont look at her any more..hahhah
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Beth
04-09-05, 09:35 PM
HI Jude :wave:

I am thrilled to see you back :D

Tell your daughter you NEED the computer a little each day and keep coming here for support :)

I hope to see you around DT

Beth :peace: