Well here it is over a year later then when I first signed up and I have failed misserably. Today however is the day I change ALL of it. I am determined and I will come June 2005 lose 100+ pounds and make my trip/holiday back to the good ol' USA pleasent and something to remember. Today I have started again putting entries in a Fitday ... dunno what you would call it but a place that I can store all the stuff I eat, the exercise I do and even a place for a personal jounal. Today I will eat only what is put on my diet and no making short cuts. If I am having a hard time I will come here and read, I will write in my journal here and anywhere else, I will the get my lazy butt up.. take a piece of fruit and take a walk. If after all that I am still having a problem then I will resort to having a sweet or whatever it is I'm craving but go for the good side of them (ie. I will go for the whole wheat or other grained stuff, low sugar, low/no fat items) in the last effort to curve eating my refridgerator bare. To make sure I get out at least for a small walk EVERYDAY I have also decided that I will do food shopping for me and my hubby daily rather then keeping items in the house. So my fruit and sandwich items, whatever I have planned for dinner I will get out and get every day. I am determined to stick to my goals and suceed. I want to be healthy, I want to live longer, I want to have a LONG life with my husband, I want to get off all medications, I want to feel good about myself and most of all I want to have more energy for all the stuff I want to do but don't. Hugs all and I hope you have the same feelings.
TODAY STARTS THE BEGINNING OF THE REST OF MY LIFE
Missy9000

Goals:
- 340 pounds NOW *FAINT*
- To go down to a weight first where my scale will read it
- Every 10 pounds down from that point (remembering all the way that EVERY pound off counts toward my final goal and my health)
- 240 pounds (final goal for now and will make a new set of goals by then, but will also remember all the way that if that is hit that I MUST keep going and that someday I can/will be a normal and within range weight)

Hi Missy!
You havent failed miserably...failure is in staying down, but look at you getting back up and continuing to fight the battle!
I wish you much success on your weight loss journey, anytime you need an ear feel free to drop by my journal or PM me..i am always around here somewhere.
hugs bell :)

Thanks Bell. Your right. I shouldn't look at it as failuar... I should look at is as a set back yes but I am continuing to fight the fight and shall do so til the time comes that I can't :) thanks again
Missy9000

Missy,
Hi , Your entry made me cry. I too know the desperation to lose. I have been a yo- yo dieter for along time. But i have set my foot down and i have decided to do it. You can do it and the people here will be cheering you on. They are fantastic. Good luck and keep your chin up. Take Care. Veda

Well here it is a new day and I feel great. I feel like I can actually do it this time. I only hope that feeling lasts longer then it has in the past. I had a dream last night of showing up at my mother's door when I arrived and her making that gasping face and putting her hands over her mouth and crying. Although I don't want her crying I do want to make her surprised. I have been over weight for a good part of my life and I can even remember back far enough to the time that I wasn't really and was even swimming and such in school. I want to have that comfortable plane ride and I relized this morning that I also want top fit into whatever car they give me for a rental car (i choose this time around to go compact so it does determine on weight)... will continue to post everyday. I hope I'm doing this right. I guess what I worry is that there is a page somewhere in here that I'm passing up that is where I SHOULD be writting in a "journal" If I am passing this by somewhere.. .someone please tell me :) Thanks
Missy9000

Goals:
- 340 pounds NOW *FAINT*
- To go down to a weight first where my scale will read it
- Every 10 pounds down from that point (remembering all the way that EVERY pound off counts toward my final goal and my health)
- 240 pounds (final goal for now and will make a new set of goals by then, but will also remember all the way that if that is hit that I MUST keep going and that someday I can/will be a normal and within range weight)

Today seems to be starting out great... I'm still on track and have not slipped. Yesterday was a gorgous day out so I took advantage of it. I told myself that if you want a personal journal and you want something more then just an ordinary notebook that you have to WALK for it! So I did, I walked 1mile to get my book. Yea I know it isn't ALOT but this is only day 3 of my offical diet and that is pretty good in my book. That was 40mins walking at a good pace. It did pay off in the end with the purchuse of my personal journal. I am just in love with it. I also bought a pen, pencil and some stickers for it as well. My own little kit :)

I also got to see a good fresh veggie and fruit shop with just WONDERFUL strawberries and raspberries (yes girls and guys... move to belgium... we have them fairly cheap already!!) but no clue really what to do with them. Then it dawned on me. I've been craving ice cream all week. So on the way home I picked up some non-fat plain yogurt and while I made dinner I mixed the fruit and yogurt together and added a half cup Splenda. I feel in love on an instant and it wasn't even frozen yet! I will be trying it today. If it turned out good then I will post it in the reciepes :) hugs all

It's going on 10:30pm. An hour earlier I was feeling VERY VERY run down for some reason. I put it on 2 things. First being I was awake a bit after 7am this morning and 2 the diet being in the first stages. I so hope come a months time that my body at least settles down. The night time when I get tired if it isn't near bed time yet is when I have the hardest time concentrating and not munching. The fight between tiredness because I AM truely tired or because my body is trying to get me to give it more calories and such. So tonight I have grabs a couple snack sized popcorns (1 serving a bag I know but better then sweets and at least there is SOME nutrition in it), my bottle of water and my journal. It helped pass almost an hour and I'm now feeling a bit more awake as well. Not too awake though cause I know when my popcorn is done that I will shortly after brush my teeth, wash my face and head to bed.

I didn't do all the greatest on my foods today but I also have to remember I did put in a serving of nuts and I also had some rather fatty fish today. I didn't go off my diet or bringe but I could have made some better choices for my meals. Today I put in some smoked sandwich salmon on my sandwiches and some smoked halibt for dinner. That made for over 1300 calories and 40+ grams fat (15 total in the fish and 13 alone in the nuts) I will hope the question I posted on the Personal Dietitian form can be answered. I feel bad that I took in that much fat today but I keep thinking that I still did good because the 2 things that put it over was good food not sweets or over doing it or anything. Time for bed.... huggles all
Missy9000

Goals:
- 340 pounds NOW *FAINT*
- To go down to a weight first where my scale will read it
- Every 10 pounds down from that point (remembering all the way that EVERY pound off counts toward my final goal and my health)
- 240 pounds (final goal for now and will make a new set of goals by then, but will also remember all the way that if that is hit that I MUST keep going and that someday I can/will be a normal and within range weight)

Missy, your determination amazes me.......I have every confidence that you will do this and it wont be so long till you can do all those things you want to do.You should be so proud of walking that distance....take it one step at a time so as not to burn out in the early days...I will be thinking of you and I wish you all the luck in the world....

All my respect

Laoise
(leesha)

Thank you so much laoise. I don't know and can't explain it but something SOMEWHERE changed. I have always wanted to be slim but *shrug* just something snapped. I have dreams... mostly day dreams but sometimes dreams I got to bed with. I dream of the time I go on my trip next year and meeting up with old friends that have not seen me in a couple years and them being just completely amazed. All my old friends in the states all have known me over weight... I want it to be different next year... Thanks again... I really need the encouragement
Missy9000

Well I updated my earlier post from yesterday if anyone missed it and here is todays
It's the beginning of a new day... the sun is shinning full blast again and I can't WAIT to get out in it. It's weekend but that does not mean ANY slacking on my diet and exercise. It just means I have my hubby to go walking with. Today we have planned to go to the library and from there I'm going to force him to walk the 2miles to the Fnac bookstore to check if they have that Dr. Phil's book everyone has been talking about. I'll write more later... hubby done with shower and is now ready to go out.. huggles all
Missy9000

Goals:
- 340 pounds NOW *FAINT*
- To go down to a weight first where my scale will read it
- Every 10 pounds down from that point (remembering all the way that EVERY pound off counts toward my final goal and my health)
- 240 pounds (final goal for now and will make a new set of goals by then, but will also remember all the way that if that is hit that I MUST keep going and that someday I can/will be a normal and within range weight)

So today I'm a bit late on my journal entry but compared to the last couple of days weather wise it's no so good so I got out early and did a 2mile/1hour walk. It felt so good. I'm doing better on my calories today as well. I'm feeling rather good and even got ALL my piled up dishes done last night before bed. So not much to post in my journal today just that everything is going great today and I'm still feeling on track. I SOOOO hope this feeling lasts this time... I even have plans already to take more of a "hike" to another county here in belgium (gent to gentbrugge) which really isn't FAR FAR ... probally 5miles one way.... but the next really nice day that comes around and it's dry I'm going to pack my backpack with my personal journal, my portal mp3 player, my lunch/snack, my cross stitching, some extra battiers and a blanket and off to the park that is there for the afternoon... a walk there... a couple hours there and a walk back... I'm waiting :) It's not that I "can't" handle long walks or anything but right now it's trying to find something to make the walks fun and interessting. I just simply get bored with exercising... I need something mentally to be doing... So on my way to slowing figuring out what works best for me in the exercise department and in a few weeks (if not even tomorrow if the weather doesn't get better) I'll be adding weight training as well to try to co-inside(sp?) my weight lose and skin tone so I will hope in the end not have so much work to tone those "skin" parts I'm most worried about showing up after I lose. Huggles all
Missy9000

Goals:
- 340 pounds NOW *FAINT*
- To go down to a weight first where my scale will read it
- Every 10 pounds down from that point (remembering all the way that EVERY pound off counts toward my final goal and my health)
- 240 pounds (final goal for now and will make a new set of goals by then, but will also remember all the way that if that is hit that I MUST keep going and that someday I can/will be a normal and within range weight)

Hi Missy, great workout. You should sign up in the exercise forum! It's the middle of the month & I only did 220 mins. I pledged to do 800 mins at the begining of the month which means I need to put in another 580 mins within the next 2 weeks (can I make it?) Got to have some of your attitude! Keep up the good work!

Thanks China :) I'm feeling really good about this diet... I'm really in the end trying to just get over all those bad habbits (like those who get into smoking) and replace them (if needing replacing at all) with good ones. Instead of sitting here on the computer or in front ofthe tv or worse napping all day I'm TRYING to get my butt into gear and make sure it is a good habbit and not bad. I hope I'm one of those who get to the point that after a while it becomes a craving for exercise and not a choir :) Dunno why but I seem to be sleeping better at night the last couple of days as well. I read somewhere that if you can do you exercising in the late morning/early afternoon that you will tend to sleep better because after exercising your body is releasing those "stay awake" hormones and after 5-7hours they start to wear off and start releasing the "sleep" ones with the on set of the sun setting.... Who knows... might just be that I'm not napping through the day :) huggles
Missy9000

What I did in the begining was to think of all the 'can eat' food I like & start stocking them up so that when I have the urge to snack / hungry, I know that I'm eating something that doesn't have too many calories. Take baby steps & remember, you got to be patient w/ this weigh loss journey. I have to remind myself all the time (still doing it). All the best!

We should go into chat :) You seem to be posting replies faster then I can :) Yea... well I have a secret agent against the munching thing... I'm doing this shop as I need it thing because there is a grocery store not too far and to make SURE I get out everyday.... That way I only buy what I'm going to be eating that day. Yes I have things in the house but only those things that were good and left from before or that are just a bit too much to get rid of in one day (like a bag of salad mix) you know the "normal" stuff you see in say a batchlor's fridge ;) Huggles... This is my last post til a couple hours from now... It's time to get dinner going and there's lots of prep work to do with it tonight... I'm making Home made hashbrowns with red pepper, onion, salt/pepper to taste and adding some crab sticks to it and binding it together with some egg whites, a nice piece of Victoria Bass (fish), some peas and carrots for veggie and a salad on the said :) so LOTS of prep work with the fresh stuff. Hey while I'm thinking of it... Anyone that is readying this... I'm american but moved to belgium. Recently I have tried this fish I was talking about but in belgium it's called "Victoria Bass" Now this is NOT the name for it in english and I have no clue even to begin to know what it is... I know some fish is better then others but I still wish I knew what the name is so I can find some nutritional info on it or someone that knows nutitional info on stuff like bass fishes... if anyone knows anything please post :)... thanks
Missy9000

Hiyas Missy9000!

I hope you dont mind me reading through your journal. It really is full of energy! Thank you!

This "Victoria Bass", what does it look like? In the wild, is it a small fish? Like Perch, or Blue Gill?

Maybe larger like Trout, or Large Mouth Bass?

Those are my favorite "Game" fish.

I always love fishing for Salmon on the Feather River too. mmMMMmmm.

*hugs*

Talk at'cha later.

-=M=-

Welcome back to journalling. I look forward to sharing your successes with you. Keep up the great work! :)

Corinna

I don't mind you looking through at all but remember this is just the beginning. If I can keep the energy then great but I'm sure to have down days as well and they will be posted. But for now *bounce* I am full of spirit and full of energy. Yes I might be in the +100 to lose group but I'm not terribly out of shape that walk 2/3miles at a good pace is something I can't do but as posted earlier I just get bored with it.
The Victoria Bass... It is a bass... that much I know... My hubby thinks it might have to do something with the Victoria Lake area but I have no idea... As far as what it look likes in the wild I have no idea. We have fresh fish shops here and they prep everything like that for you.. bones, skin the works. Really nice :) Hubby and I don't eat anything mammel so we do eat poultry and fish quite a bit. I'm going to even start putting in some almost totally meatless dishes too. Tomorrow is going to be stir fry home made on wild rice with little salad shimps as the meat.... Hope it turns out :) Huggles
Missy9000

I love fish. And fish'n for that matter. ;)

My wife just does not DO fish tho. *sigh*

Well, I did smoke some Salmon once and she really liked that. But as far as camping, catching a stringer of trout and cooking it over an open fire with salt and lemon; no-way. Oh well, my boy is 3 and going to be daddies lil'fisher buddy soon. ;)

The reason I asked about the Perch or Sunfish/Blue Gill is because I have heard it called "pond bass" before. Now that is some good eating. Takes about 3 fish per person tho, they are sorta on the small size.

*poke*

-=M=-

*smile* nope defintally not that small becauce I've seen the fish guy weigh 1 piece of that fish before and it weigh almost 4 pounds just for a piece so :)
Missy9000

4lbs? Wow! Thats a nice size guppy!

Hmmm....

Now I'm thinking of picking up some fresh fish payday {Tuesday}.

So what, what the wife thinks :tongue: ...its been like over a year since we had some fresh fish.

I noticed on another post you spoek of a Split Pea soup. Do you boil the peas then blend them? I seen a recipe like that before and have been thinking about trying it. Yum, I like split pea soup. Maybe a small amount of ham or bacon in it for flavor. ;)

-=M=-

I am going to start posting recipes I use or have come up with soon in the recipes form... as far as blending... if you use like a cup of dry split peas to something like half gallon of water... bring it to a boil... then reduce that heat to a very low heat cover it and let it simmer. It takes a long time because of the peas being dry but I'd rather take the time for it to cook then soaking because then I get all the flavor in the water and don't waste the water. As far as seasonings go I put in stuff like fresh carrot and onion as well as salt/pepper for taste and herbs like bay leaves and parsley. Over here I have even found a boulin cube that has all the herbs in it that make it taste like my mom made it but just with a cube :) As far as the meat goes I tend to even put some turkey cubes in it... you know those small diced ones they make for salads and such. I never blend it but like every 15mins or so I stir it. After a while they become soft and part of the water by themselves.
As for your wife.... this is what YOU are doing for YOU not her. Yes there may be reasons but fish is great for you.... much better then beef and such... she should open her mind a bit more and try new food. I have missed SO many things when I was even just a few years younger just because I wouldn't try it. Boy am I glad I am trying things now :)

Missy9000

Goals:
- 340 pounds NOW *FAINT*
- To go down to a weight first where my scale will read it
- Every 10 pounds down from that point (remembering all the way that EVERY pound off counts toward my final goal and my health)
- 240 pounds (final goal for now and will make a new set of goals by then, but will also remember all the way that if that is hit that I MUST keep going and that someday I can/will be a normal and within range weight)

Missy,

None of us (irregardless of how many times) who are working towards achieving our goals ... are FAILURES. We all have setbacks .... imo what is most important THAT WE DON'T KEEP HAVING THE SAME SETBACKS OVER AND OVER AGAIN ....

When I was little (lol WHICH WAS EONS AGO), I would always say I MADE A MISTAKE.. and my father would constantly tell me YOU CAN MAKE A MISTAKE ONCE .. YOU CAN MAKE A MISTAKE TWICE ... BUT IF YOU KEEP ON MAKING THE SAME MISTAKE OVER AND OVER AGAIN IT ISN'T A MISTAKE -- IT'S YOUR CHOICE We have to learn from our mistakes ... and the fact that you are here means YOU AREN'T MAKING MISTAKES ... YOU HAVE MADE A CHOICE TO IMPROVE THE QUALITY OF YOUR LIFE AND HEALTH

Look back to the past to learn .... MOVE FORWARD IN THE PRESENT TO SECURE A POSITIVE AND PERMANENT FUTURE. Make it a great day .... and have and make it a fantastic weekend. Always, Monica

Thank you so much monica... now I just have to keep reminding myself of these things over and over when I think I'm doing something wrong :) BIG HUGS
Missy9000

I'm going to interrupt your conversation again.. I was going to reply in the other journal, but this one is yours..

Don't most Belgians speak French, too? I could come be your translator! :)

I agree with Missy, M should make fish for himself, but disagree that M's wife should have to eat it too.. Some people cannot stand the taste/smell of fish. People sometimes look like I have slapped their mother when I cook fish at work.

I'll butt out of your conversation now. ;)

Corinna

No by all means don't butt out Corinna... feel free to share. I have to admit I agree with that some people can't stand it and I also agree that she shouldn't have to eat it just because he does... it doesn't take much more to fry a piece of fish if you fry a burger for everyone else. I do it for me and hubby sometimes as well. OO OO i forgot to responde to that thing about speaking french.. half of belgium *the walloon area* speaks french and the other half *vlaanderen* area speak nederlands...
Missy9000

Hi Missy, I would like to suggest cod fish! It's sweet & soooo yummy! I like to grill it w/ teriyaki sauce! Taste so yummy w/ rice or a bed of shredded lettuce. That's the only fish I can cook for now.

Well it's another day. I'm feeling quite a bit less motivated today for some reason. Even slept in til 9:30am this morning which hasn't been me the last week. I so hope I don't slip into an old routine. I think it has to do more with the bad weather the last 24hours. This is belgium after all. It had been really nice out for almost a week but now I suspect that it'll be raining or at least over cast for a week now. I have been thinking of going in for weight training. I want to give myself some time to wake first though. It's only 11am so I have plenty of time yet. I know I felt great yesterday when I got an hour worth of walking in even though it was bad outside. The way I see it that there is no reason I shouldn't be able to get out for a walk everyday with exception of Sundays. The reason for sundays is because the gym is only open for like 3hours in the morning and if it's bad weather like it was later yesterday then I really don't have a place to walk. Figure though if that happens even a couple times a month I'll still be doing good if I can still get that walk every one of the other days.

For anyone that is reading this. Do you feel sluggish or even tired when the weather isn't bright and sunny. Perhaps a bit more munchy and a bit less motivated then if the sun is shinny or at least if it isn't raining??

Thanks for the suggestion on cod. Unfortantly I live in belgium. Their main fish is pollack... Cod is quite expensive but I have the advantage that I love seafood so finding a fish that I like isn't a problem. Just happens to be the one fish I DO really like I have no idea on nutritional info on ;)

Missy9000

Goals:
- 340 pounds NOW *FAINT*
- To go down to a weight first where my scale will read it
- Every 10 pounds down from that point (remembering all the way that EVERY pound off counts toward my final goal and my health)
- 240 pounds (final goal for now and will make a new set of goals by then, but will also remember all the way that if that is hit that I MUST keep going and that someday I can/will be a normal and within range weight)

Oh, Missy..... yes I DO feel sluggish and sometimes just not so motivated and lots of times that is do to gloomy, ugly weather. It's just part of being human, so don't be too hard on yourself. You sound so positive and upbeat in your other posts, but that doesn't mean you aren't going to be down sometimes. Maybe you slept in because your body just needed the extra sleep or maybe you are coming down with something? Sometimes when I am a bit down and can't explain it, I am coming down with something and my mood changes before the symptoms present themselves...... I hope you're not getting sick.

Just remember that when you have down days or days when you are sluggish and not so motivated, you can still eat well and take care of yourself. It may take a bit more effort, but you are SO worth the extra effort! And then when you are "sunshiny" inside once again, you won't have to look back with regrets..... regrets are the pits! lol

I think it's great that you go to the market daily and just get what you need. I used to do that when we lived in Wales and I so miss the fresh food markets and daily shopping. I used to walk up to the village and gather what I needed and walk back. The exercise was great, too, and walking kept me from buying more than I needed to. (most of the time..... *grin*) Fresh fish was lots more plentiful over there than here in Ohio and we ate a lot of salmon. I love it..... we marinate it and grill it on the barbeque grill. It's awesome! Have you ever had Tilapia fish? They are really good too and really easy to fix. They are thinner filets, so they are easy to pan fry in Pam.... you don't need the oil to fry them which is a bonus.

Take care and keep doing what you're doing..... just take things a day at a time and you'll definitely get to where you need to be! You're doing great!

Thanks for the words of encouragement DJ... it really helps :) and it is true I will have down days and this is one of those... not a BAD down day but having a bit of a headache and such... personally I think it's more hormones at the moment. I'm sure I'll find out in a few days... No getting sick though... I'm actually quite heathy as far as that goes but you are right... i'm due for a cold sometime :) it's been almost a year... I'm feeling good though... even though the weather wasn't the best I still made it to the gym for 30mins walking...350 calories gone *yippie*
Although there would be things food wise I would miss here I do miss the many many products the states have to offer. I miss pam.. I use olive oil in a special pump not arisol spray bottle... still acts as though it's arisol but no chemicals just air... but i miss all the fat free items as well. I'll have to stock up on some of those when I'm out next year :) Huggles
Missy9000

Wow, Missy..... I didn't think about being out of the country and not having Pam and things like that. I remember there were things in the UK that I couldn't get and one of them was an honest to goodness dill pickle! lol My daughter sent me some from the states. A gherkin just isn't the same thing. I would miss Pam a lot..... I use it even for grilled ff cheese and tomato sandwiches.

Where do you come into when you come to the states? Just being nosey.... lol

Take care and hope your headache goes away real soon! Those hormones can be pesky, can't they?

:) Yea... they can be.. As far as where I visit. Wisconsin. I'm orgianlly from a little county called Waukesha... it's about 30mins drive west of Milwaukee. Have to visit every so often... all my other family is there :)

Continued Journal
Made homemade stir fry today... turned out VERY good. I'll start posting recipes when I get it all down on paper :) I'm feeling better... not as tired and proud of my exercise calorie count for today. Will post them tomorrow when I know the day is done. Posted in "april calories" on the calorie counters form.
Missy9000

Well here I am with another post. I'm feeling a bit better after dinner and with a bit of sunlight that came out tonight. I'm rather proud of myself. I have been keeping track of all my activites that count as burned calories and today I have managed to burn over 800 calories between my exercise and activites. No wonder its night time and I'm tired already ;) I'll still post the results of today on the april calorie counters... Dinner tonight turned out GREAT... LOTS of veggies to make a stirfry homemade... I even only had 125grams long grain/wild rice and when I was still hungery I put some more of the stir fry on a bed of lettuce.... Hubby did that too and we both agreed next time I won't even make rice. Just the lettuce.
Missy9000

Great Job, Missy9000! :)

I made split pea soup today. ;)

2 cans of peas, 2 potatos cut small, 4 whole baby carrots. slow simmered it for 3 hours, came out GREAT!

=)

-=M=-

It's another day today... I'm still feeling very proud of myself for the calories/fat and exercise I got yesterday. I was going to take today off from walking 1 due to weather and 2 due to the fact that I am getting a sore spot just where my big toe meets my foot on the bottom part of the foot... but that was yesterday... today I feel better phyically and mood wise and once again Belgium weather has proved me wrong... it's another bright sunny day out rather then rain. I need/want bean sprouts but that store is a good mile to and from... so I'm going to take my walk anyhow.
I'm feeling MUCH better then I did yesterday. No more headache (god even the slightest of ones, if it is persistant, can REALLY drain you), no more tummy ache and I'm feeling rather alart again. Today is going to be a good day :)
Yesterday my hubby got the pictures he took of me especially for my diet printed out... I put them along with the measurements he took that same day in my personal journal. I'm so looking forward as time goes on to see 1 those numbers dropping and 2 the pictures changing.
Missy9000

Goals:
- 340 pounds NOW *FAINT*
- To go down to a weight first where my scale will read it
- Every 10 pounds down from that point (remembering all the way that EVERY pound off counts toward my final goal and my health)
- 240 pounds (final goal for now and will make a new set of goals by then, but will also remember all the way that if that is hit that I MUST keep going and that someday I can/will be a normal and within range weight)

Hi Missy, that's great that you managed to eat less carbs. It's hard for me too esp in Asia where most of our meals are carbs. Since I eat out most of the time, I usually ask for more veggie & less noodles/rice. And end up wasting the noodles/rice - quite an accomplishment to resist half the amount of noodles/rice served. Keep up the good work!

Well I'm not trying to stay away rom carbs but trying to stay away from the calories and also the "white" carbs... Trying to use long grain/wild/brown rices, grain products and very little refined sugars.... but carbs anyway do indeed count toward alot of calories and I was still hungery last night so I was glad I kept lettuce in the fridge :)
I'm also trying to listen more closely to what my body is trying to tell me... not only in the food department but as well as other things. I think yesterday my body was upset at me because I laid in bed longer then it needed... Have heard it can cause headaches to get more sleep then you need. Personally before the diet I had no problem getting 15hours of sleep through a 24hr period but now... I'm fueling my body rather then over fueling... it's using the energy right and properly and telling me even at 7am "hey you... *pokepoke* I've had enough sleep.... GET UP" I can't remember a time til this week that I was getting up early in the day (before 9am) without having to force myself :)
BTW for those reading... I mentioned that I was going to start posting recipes that I have found or which will happen more times ones that I have actually made myself... they are posted... 1 is in the desserts, 1 in the main meals and 1 in side dishes... There I'm sure will be more... I'm working on Potato hashbrowns this week... it's almost perfected :)

More to add to today....
I've gone for my walk but still took it easy... I've still got a sore spot on that ball area of my foot as well as a blister forming on my left foot. I love the walking I've been doing but today I'll make up for the walking with some extra food prep and cleaning... I'm feeling SOOOO much better then yesteday *bounce*
Missy9000

Good Morning,

You mentioned that you had a blister that is forming on one foot and a blister on the other foot ... I am not an expert but because of my diabetes I have had to learn the importance of wearing proper shoes that cushion the foot ...

Unfortunately in the past (pre-diabetes) when I wore tennis shoes they weren't quality shoes and I sometimes wore them without socks ... because I was always in a rush ... blisters in my particular case now can cause major problems ... if I may suggest you might want to check with your physician because you don't want a minor problem to become a MAJOR PROBLEM. Also check to make sure you are wearing shoes that cushion the ball and heel of your foot .... Just a suggestion. As always, Monica

thanks for the suggestions. I have less then a year ago had a full phyical and blood work done because of the diet i've been put on... 2 things most likely is one indeed perhaps the show needs a bit more support but i'm already wearing running shoes but 2 it could just be because i was walking faster and for longer then i'm use to yet :) have to break the caliuses (sp?) in too :)
Missy9000

Well another day has come and gone. I'm not feeling as chipper as yesterday but still feeling good. I slept a bit longer this morning but to the listening of my body that said stay in bed for a while. Didn't wake with a headache or anything. The weather isn't the best but it's not raining YET. I'm going to go do my shopping but today I will be replacing my normal walk with house cleaning. I have managed to get my first blister from walking and noticed it alot when hubby and I took another walk last night. It's not on the ball of my right foot like i thought was going to happen but rather on the instep of my left foot. It isn't broken open but it's there and hurts. I don't think it's due to the shoes though. I am wearing running shoes with socks when I walk. I think it more is the ill-fitting saidwalks of Belgium... 95% of the sidewalks are made of cobble stone and old no less so not the most even of surfaces. Cleaning will be good both for exercise and 2 means I'm getting the house a bit cleaner ;) Will post more later
Missy9000

Goals:
- 340 pounds NOW *FAINT*
- To go down to a weight first where my scale will read it
- Every 10 pounds down from that point (remembering all the way that EVERY pound off counts toward my final goal and my health)
- 240 pounds (final goal for now and will make a new set of goals by then, but will also remember all the way that if that is hit that I MUST keep going and that someday I can/will be a normal and within range weight)

Yesterday I ended up having a REALLLLLLY bad afternoon/evening. Had to tell hubby about a serious problem that got him upset and in turn made me VERY depressed. I eat a whole lot of chocolate and extra food yesterday and I'm not happy about it. This morning I slept in longer then I want to with my diet. I'm not doing the GREATEST with my food today but haven't gone way over board. Thing will be better as soon as my hubby and I get this problem taken care of. Hopefully in a week or 2. I'm getting into a frame of mind already. Trying to stay with the food diet at least but exercise today is kinda at a stand still. I'm going to do a bit of cooking tonight... gonna make that sauce tonight since I didn't get to last night (don't want the stuff to spoil), gonna make this sugar free moose mix my mother has sent with some gramcracker crust, and then I'm also gonna play around with a fresh pineapple. I got out for a small walk because I needed a couple things from the store. Perhaps I'll try to get out for a walk later tonight. Huggles
Missy9000

Goals:
- 340 pounds NOW *FAINT*
- To go down to a weight first where my scale will read it
- Every 10 pounds down from that point (remembering all the way that EVERY pound off counts toward my final goal and my health)
- 240 pounds (final goal for now and will make a new set of goals by then, but will also remember all the way that if that is hit that I MUST keep going and that someday I can/will be a normal and within range weight)

Missy, just a suggestion .....

Whatever the problem is IT WON'T BE SOLVED BY FEEDING YOUR FACE ... IF ANYTHING IT WILL ONLY ADD TO MORE PROBLEMS

IMO there will always be rough times we will have to face ... but if we face the problem and work to find a solution WITHOUT EATING in time things will smooth out ..

There is nothing YOU CANNOT ACHIEVE .... be kind to yourself and treat and respect yourself as you would others ... YOU ARE SO WORTHWHILE. A :hug: coming your way .... Make it a great day. As always, Monica

Thank you for the words of encouragement.... I have fallen off with some quite major problems and yes I know it doesn't help to eat rather then work with the feelings. The problems I have been facing the last few days are dealt with now and I'm on track I hope. I may not make my May 1st goal but at this point I think "so what... at least I'm getting back on the track" So here I am. Took a break, worked out the problems that happened and now am going back to the energy that I know I will get from a good diet and exercise not to mention the better sleep I will get. Huggles all
Missy9000

Goals:
- 340 pounds NOW *FAINT*
- To go down to a weight first where my scale will read it
- Every 10 pounds down from that point (remembering all the way that EVERY pound off counts toward my final goal and my health)
- 240 pounds (final goal for now and will make a new set of goals by then, but will also remember all the way that if that is hit that I MUST keep going and that someday I can/will be a normal and within range weight)

Hi Missy,
good for you on picking yourself back up and moving forward. i am an emotional eater and i know personally how easy it is to turn to food for that instant comfort instead of dealing with it more sensibly..but we can only learn though right?
Good for you on moving on!
hugs bell :)

God what a way for my body to yell at me to get back on track with my diet. I was doing okish til later in the afternoon a couple days ago although I did eat some chocolate but for some reason I felt I needed more then normal, then later (or earlier as some might look at it) I woke around 4am with a tummy ache. Now I have a problem with gassy tummy aches so I thought it was just that but usually those go away with a couple hours of sleep or just getting up and moving a bit then going back down. *sigh* but no... my worst fear came true... I got the tummy flu. What a way to get back on track... not to mention all the foods I should be eating to get back ON foods are the ones I shouldn't be eating (all the white stuff like crackers and rice) but oh well. My fever has broken last night, I got a shower (which took almost all my energy) and thought I'd post a little message to let people know what was up. I hope that after the weekend that I'll be back up and about and slowly working my body back onto whole wheat and grain products again. For now though I'll stick to the "B.R.A.T" diet. *B*ananas, *R*ice, *A*pple sauce, and *T*oast for those who aren't sure what that stood for. God, of all sicknesses I hate the most. I'd give this for a good hard cold any day.

Monica... seems my sister and you have found each other although I have NO clue what her name is :) Will have to look a bit more when I feel better... I also THINK it was you that mentioned when I didn't sleep properly or something that I might be coming down with something. Don't know if this has anything to do with it but well :)
Huggles everyone and keep it going!!
Missy9000

Goals:
- 340 pounds NOW *FAINT*
- To go down to a weight first where my scale will read it
- Every 10 pounds down from that point (remembering all the way that EVERY pound off counts toward my final goal and my health)
- 240 pounds (final goal for now and will make a new set of goals by then, but will also remember all the way that if that is hit that I MUST keep going and that someday I can/will be a normal and within range weight)