April 14

Day before tax returns!!!!!!! Another beautiful Indiana Day!!!!!!!! By Sunday going to be 80's but of course with storms! But that is fine we like the rain and the warmth for now anyway.

I had to delete my journal and start a new one. A very negative person made derogatory remarks in my journal and I thought well time to start again without the derogatory remarks.

The only reason I have a journal in the first place is to help me find my way back to my former healthier and fitter self. During this journey I am sure there will be many things I write in my journal that only pertain to me. However occasionally I post something and someone else learns from it or identifies with it and they are in turn helped. I am always happy when something like that happens.

Unfortunately that is not always the case. I guess I just don't understand why people are so mean to each other. DT is a place where we should be able to come and feel safe and secure with our thoughts and feelings. I have always felt that way and tried to present my self to others and treat others as I expect to be treated. Well I will continue to treat others as i want to be treated and ignore those who wish to say mean spirited things about me and my family.

I had considered leaving DT. Well unless I am ask to leave that is not an option. I intent to continue with the forums which I love to do and continue with all my activities here at DT.

This is not how I planned to start a new journal but I feel it is necessary. Now I have to take care of a couple other issues then I can plan my day! So hope everyone is having a great day!!

Lizzie

Hi Lizzie

So sorry that someone upset you. Just take it like an old dirty mop pail and dump it out. We are suppose to be here to help and support one another not step on one another. and when you say you will do the forums I sure hope you stop in and say Hi in chat now and again. I won't be able to be there that is chat for a few more days. I do volunteer work for the next 2 then it's weekend. so hope to speak to you soon. Take care.

Thanks for stopping by Linda. I always enjoy your visits! Wow what kind of volunteer work do you do? I use to volunteer for Special Olympics for years until my own health caused me to stop. I do miss the children though. Maybe I will check in agaion and see if they need a phone person or office help. Hey thanks for reminding me!

Have a super day!
Love and hugs,
lizzie

Hi Sweets!

Well Darn it.. I was to late. I wanted to print out your post On Love for my Daughter to read.. But some meanie ruined it for me... :rofl:

Darn

O well. I learned from it.. I think... Gosh Lizzie... Leaving DT your right is not a option... Whenever I leave I gain. And sorry for being so out of it, but is there a Weight Watchers Chat?

Hi max,
I will repost the "Love" post was one of my favorites. I will do it today.
Actually now is a good time!! Watch for it coming at you!!

Love and hugs,
lizzie

My hubby and I spent hours listening to Dr. Buscaglia speak!! What a dynamic speaker he was and a truly passionate man. We miss him!!

Lizzie





On June 12, 1998, Dr. Buscaglia died of a heart attack

at his home in Lake Tahoe, Nevada.

He will be dearly missed.


I had the privilege of being in his original "Love Class" upon which he based his first book, "Love". Leo spread messages of love and joy wherever he went. He encouraged everyone to live life to the fullest, love one another, and hug frequently. He touched my life in a very personal way, was my teacher and my friend. Over the last few years, I had been thinking about going to visit with him personally to say hello once more, and share fond memories of "Love Class"...
But it is now too late. Sometimes, when we put off the things we want to do until "some day", we unexpectedly lose the opportunity altogether. Below, I wish to share with you a story that I received via email from a close friend of mine, shortly after Leo's untimely death. It is very appropriate to this occasion, and the timing of its receipt is serendipitous, indeed...



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"A Story To Live By"


By: Ann Wells (Los Angeles Times)

My brother-in-law opened the bottom drawer of my sister's bureau and lifted out a tissue-wrapped package. "This," he said, "is not a slip. This is lingerie." He discarded the tissue and handed me the slip. It was exquisite; silk, handmade and trimmed with a cobweb of lace. The price tag with an astronomical figure on it was still attached.

"Jan bought this the first time we went to New York, at least 8 or 9 years ago. She never wore it. She was saving it for a special occasion. Well, I guess this is the occasion." He took the slip from me and put it on the bed with the other clothes we were taking to the mortician. His hands lingered on the soft material for a moment, then he slammed the drawer shut and turned to me. "Don't ever save anything for a special occasion. Every day you're alive is a special occasion."

I remembered those words through the funeral and the days that followed when I helped him and my niece attend to all the sad chores that follow an unexpected death. I thought about them on the plane returning to California from the Midwestern town where my sister's family lives. I thought about all the things that she hadn't seen or heard or done. I thought about the things that she had done without realizing that they were special.

I'm still thinking about his words, and they've changed my life. I'm reading more and dusting less. I'm sitting on the deck and admiring the view without fussing about the weeds in the garden. I'm spending more time with my family and friends and less time in committee meetings. Whenever possible, life should be a pattern of experience to savor, not endure. I'm trying to recognize these moments now and cherish them.

I'm not "saving" anything; we use our good china and crystal for every special event-such as losing a pound, getting the sink unstopped, the first camellia blossom.

I wear my good blazer to the market if I feel like it. My theory is if I look prosperous, I can shell out $28.49 for one small bag of groceries without wincing. I'm not saving my good perfume for special parties; clerks in hardware stores and tellers in banks have noses that function as well as my party-going friends'.

"Someday" and "one of these days" are losing their grip on my vocabulary. If it's worth seeing or hearing or doing, I want to see and hear and do it now. I'm not sure what my sister would have done had she known that she wouldn't be here for the tomorrow we all take for granted. I think she would have called family members and a few close friends. She might have called a few former friends to apologize and mend fences for past squabbles. I like to think she would have gone out for a Chinese dinner, her favorite food. I'm guessing-I'll never know.

It's those little things left undone that would make me angry if I knew that my hours were limited. Angry because I put off seeing good Friends whom I was going to get in touch with-someday. Angry because I hadn't written certain letters that I intended to write-one of these days. Angry and sorry that I didn't tell my husband and daughter often enough how much I truly love them. I'm trying very hard not to put off, hold back, or save anything that would add laughter and luster to our lives.

And every morning when I open my eyes, I tell myself that it is special.

Every day, every minute, every breath truly is...a gift from God.



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"Death is a challenge. It tells us not to waste time . . . It tell us to tell each other right now that we love each other"
~Leo Buscaglia

Perhaps the fact of life most conducive to living fully as a person is an honest awareness and acceptance of death. When we can embrace death as simply another aspect of the life cycle, we will give appreciation and value to each life encounter knowing that it will never occur again.
~Leo Buscaglia



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This is mounted on my desk, and is one of my favorite writings...

A Start by Dr. Leo Buscaglia

Each day, I promise myself not to try to solve all my life problems at once -- nor shall I expect you to do so;

Starting each day, I shall try to learn something new about me and about you and about the world I live in, so that I may continue to experience all things as if they had been newly born;

Starting each day, I shall remember to communicate my joy as well as my despair, so that we can know each other better;

Starting each day, I shall remind myself to really listen to you and to try to hear your point of view and to discover the least-threatening way of giving you mine, remembering that we are both growing and changing in a hundred different ways;

Starting each day, I shall remind myself that I am a human being and not demand perfection of you until I am perfect, so you're safe;

Starting each day, I shall try to be more aware of the beautiful things in our world -- I'll look at the flowers, I'll look at the birds, I'll look at the children, I'll feel the cool breezes, I'll eat good food -- and I'll share these things with you;

Starting each day, I shall remind myself to reach out and touch you, gently, with my words, my eyes and with my fingers, because I don't want to miss feeling you;

Starting each day, I shall dedicate myself again to the process of being a lover -- and then see what happens;

You know, I'm really convinced that if you were to define love, the only word big enough to engulf it all would be "Life" -- LOVE IS LIFE -- in all its aspects ... And if you miss love, you miss life !

Please don't !



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Quotes from "Born for Love", By Dr. Leo Buscaglia:

Separateness is an illusion.

Most of us remain strangers to ourselves, hiding who we are, and ask other strangers, hiding who they are, to love us.

Any action that inhibits is not love. Love is only love when it liberates.

The only lasting trauma is the one we suffer without positive change.

It is only when we have experienced love that we truly realize what would be lost by missing it.

Love is constant, it is we who are fickle. Love does guarantee, people betray. Love can always be trusted, people cannot.

All the things that "go without saying" or that are "understood" between two people in love can build up a mountain of miscommunication.

It is when we ask for love less and begin giving it more that the secret of human love is revealed to us.

The life and love we create is the life and love we live.

When it comes to giving love, the opportunities are unlimited, and we are all gifted.



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Risks

"To laugh is to risk appearing the fool,
To weep is to risk being called sentimental.
To reach out to another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk showing your true self.
To place your ideas and your dreams before the crowd
is to risk being called naive.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To hope is to risk despair,
To try is to risk failure.
But risks must be taken, because the greatest risk in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, is nothing, and becomes nothing.
He may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot
learn, feel, change, grow or love.
Chained by his certitude, he is a slave; he has forfeited his freedom.
Only the person who risks is truly free."

Leo often quoted this in his books and lectures, and for quite some time its author was listed as "anonymous". Several years ago, the author of this inspirational verse stepped forward.
She is ..... Janet Rand



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Other quotes by Leo Buscaglia:
Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.

"Love is spontaneous and craves expression through joy, through beauty, through truth, even through tears. Love lives the moment; it's neither lost in yesteryear nor does it crave for tomorrow. Love is NOW!" Leo Buscaglia

Love creates an "us", without destroying a "me".

Love is like a mirror. when you love another, you become his mirror and he becomes yours... And reflecting each other's love you see infinity.

We need others. We need others to love and we need to be loved by them. There is no doubt that without it, we too, like the infant left alone, would cease to grow, cease to develop, choose madness and even death.

Love and the self are one and the discovery of either is the realization of both.

Love can only be given, expressed freely. It can't be captured or held, for it is neither there to tie nor to hold.

Love is always open arms. If you close your arms about love you will find that you are left holding only yourself.

To learn to love is to be in constant change. The process is endless, for man's potential to love is infinite.

Man has no choice but to love. For when he does not, he finds his alternatives lie in loneliness, destruction, and despair.

Only when we give joyfully, without hesitation or thought of gain, can we truly know what love means.

I honor the place in you where the entire universe resides. I honor the place in you, where lies your love, your light, your truth and your beauty. I honor the place in you, where...if you are in that place in you... and I am in that place in me...then there is only one of us.

Approach everyone you meet as an individual with dignity and a life as complicated and mysterious as your own. Discard preconceptions and suspend, even for a moment, the idea that you "know this type". Do these things and perhaps you might learn the most important lesson that love can teach us: that each person is worthy of our love simply because they are human, and begin from there.

The essence of education is not to stuff you full of facts, but to help you discover your uniqueness, to teach you how to develop it, and then show you how to give it away.

Every time we put our hand out to someone, we run the risk of being slapped. But you also get a chance of somebody reaching out and touching you in love.

Value every moment as if it really is your last because it might very well be.



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The following is an excerpt from "Living, Loving, and Learning" by Leo Buscaglia (page 122). It is something Leo found in the Journal of Humanistic Psychology, and was written by an 85 year old man who learned he was dying:

"If I had my life to live over again, I'd try to make more mistakes next time. I wouldn't try to be so perfect. I would relax more. I'd limber up. I'd be sillier than I've been on this trip. In fact, I know very few things that I would take so seriously. I'd be crazier. I'd be less hygienic. I'd take more chances, I'd take more trips, I'd climb more mountains, I'd swim more rivers, I'd watch more sunsets, I'd go more places I've never been to. I'd eat more ice cream and fewer beans. I'd have more actual troubles and fewer imaginary ones. You see, I was one of those people who lived prophylactically and sensibly and sanely hour after hour and day after day. Oh, I've had my moments, and if I had it to do all over again, I'd have more of those moments. In fact, I'd try to have nothing but beautiful moments -- moment by moment by moment. I've been one of those people who never went anywhere without a hot water bottle, a gargle, a raincoat, and a parachute. If I had it to do all over again, I'd travel lighter next time. If I had it to do all over again, I'd start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall. I'd ride more merry-go-rounds, I'd watch more sunrises, and I'd play with more children, if I had my life to live over again. But you see, I don't"

:caf: OMG you ares to special THANKS SO MUCH....

Pushing PRINT RIGHT NOW

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Hi Lizzie, sorry someone had to come along and be rude to you, just know that we really do appreciate you very much and you are such a help to me :) I'm glad you decided to stick around and carry on take care :hug:
Debs xxx

Hi Debs,

Gosh it sure is good to see you again! I have missed you! How are you doing gf? How was your easter? Wonderful I hope!! Don't be a stranger come on back and visit.

Have a super day!!!!
Lizzie

Hey lizzie,
it has been along time, good easter thanks, I'm till on a break from college so I'm feeling very nice and relaxed. I've been working hard on my healthy eating and exercise of late and have turned in to a bit of a Firm addict lol but I can feel the effects, so glad I found your diary, I'll keep checking back :)
take care
Debs xx

Hey sunshine missed you. Thanks so much for posting your Journal again. I love hearing about your life. Your a true friend Lizzie. :x You are always posting in my journal and encouraging me along. You post what ever you want to in here this is your journal. We all have bad times and good times and should not be judged because of that. I have a lot of bad times but i try to make the best of them. Dont let em get you down , Your a wonderful lady. Take Care. Veda :hug:

Hi Lizzie all that stuff on love was beautiful. Now I know why I take life the way I do laid back and relaxed doing what I love doing. No one knows when your last day is here so I think we should live our life as if today was our last. Well maybe not then i would be in the ice cream and chocolate. so i'll live today the best I can so that my tomorrow can be better.
I did enjoy those posts they were good and so very true. But I can't be sillier they'll lock me up LOL. :tomato: Take care girl.

:hug: Hi lizzie, So happy you stayed with us. I know I need you and all the help I can get.
i loved the love story,thnaks for posting it. Happy to see you are doing good.
Have a GREAT WEEK!!! Will be thinking of you.

...............Your friend .Millie

Hey Lizzie,

Sorry you descided to start a new journal but I do understand. I just feel that you let the 'other' person off the hook by getting rid of it. They deserved to have everyone read what stupid things they wrote.

You are very important here at DT, glad you didn't leave.

HI Lizzie :wave:

I am happy I found your new journal.

I know this is not how you wanted to start a new journal, but being as I was one of the very few that did get to read the nasty post your are taking about, I can honestly say "I agree" with what you did.

It would have been quite tempting to "expose" this person by leaving their post up, but you are always thinking about what is best for DT, so you chose to remove the journal.

I am proud of you for staying here at DT my friend - you are so important to so many of us. :)

OK now on to you and your weight loss goals.

How have things been going since Easter? How are you sugars doing? I know you have a Doc. appt coming up soon when is that?

Lots of questions here lol

I hope the rest of the week goes well for you my friend :D

Beth :not:

Hey Lizzie!
Bitter people will always take their frustration out on those that least deserve it, dont let it get you down.
You are such an important person to DT and to me :)
hugs bell :)

Hi Lizzie,

I agree with Nancy in a way, but I understand what you did, and why. Since I am subscribed to your Journal, I received the "nasty" message in my e-mail first thing this morning. To be honest, I was truly stunned that again a person here at DT would speak to you that way.

So, a new day, a new Journal, a new beginning. Every day is a new beginning for me anyway. I like new beginnings. It makes everything surrounding it fresh and new again too.

Have a wonderful evening,
Sandie

Hi Everyone,
Thank you for all your kind words. I believe in each day being a new start and a new day filled with all the exciting things life has to offer. We all are blessed with just so much time on this earth and I chose to spend mine treating people the way I like to be treated.

I have given 3 years plus to DT and I will continue to be part of this amazing site as long as I feel I am a giver as well as a taker. You all are such a wonderful group of people and I find it incredible that we all found each other. I am so very happy that we did. Every once in a while we will find a weed amongst the flowers but the flowers always win out!! With all the flowers around I know the weed does not stand a chance. The flowers are strong and beautiful and weed just gets uglier each day and soon will go away. Now I will go and tend to my garden! Hope all you flowers have a wonderful night!!!!!!

Love and hugs,
Lizzie

Hi Lizzie

Just a quick hello. Have yourself a great day for me it just begins. I got up with a positive. So that's good.

:flower: :flower: :flower: :flower:

Well, should I now call you Lilly, dear flower?

You readily see what flower I relate to. I'm the Dandy lion!! LOL Some consider me a weed, but they sure have a time trying to be rid of me don't they? And not all that successful either, for the most part. That's what determination does for you.........LOL

Hope you had a lovely day. The sun shone here all day long, I went for my walk and nearly got blown over because the wind was horrid, but the fresh air did me good just the same. The dandelions aren't blooming yet, but it won't be long.

Hugs,
Sandie

Hi Sandy,

Let me think well I am a lily and you a dandelion. Wow those are two of the hardiest flowers around. I consider a dandelion a flower because it does have the big yellow bloom!! Some people eat the dandelion greens and I have heard they are pretty good. Daylilies grow wild in Indiana and so do dandelions. Oh no we are hardy and wild. Not bad for a couple of old ladies!!!

Yes the sun was out all day today and simply fabulous!! I have been enjoying watching the sun. My son came home from work all sunburned. Bet he remembers his lotions and stuff tomorrow.

I will be going for a walk shortly. I have to go before the sun is too bright or I will get burned very bad. So I go early evening with Cliff and only takes about 10 minutes. Then he goes walking for a couple hours later. One day I will walk with him!!

Hope you enjoyed your walk in the bight warming sun!!

Love and hugs,
Lizzie

April 16

I just read the neatest article on "triggers" food triggers, not the horse. I thought to myself all the triggers that apply to me are so few that I don't need to worry about them. Then as I rethought that goofy thought I remembered just how many triggers I really do have.

Thinking goes like this: I eat one potato chip then I need the whole bag and that leads to having a cheeseburger which leads to fries which leads to a glass of 7 up which then leads to something sweet like a cookie which then leads to cookie dough ice cream which leads to another bowl but this time with chocolate syrup on it. Then after an hour or more the cycle repeats itself. In fact my trigger is that one potato chip!!!!!!!! Just one of many scenarios which involve trigger food.

I have found, for me only, that I can not have the junk in the house. PERIOD!! If it is here I will eat it and I know it. No matter what I tell myself or how much control I have I eventually will eat the junk. Am I being selfish? No because no one else in my home needs to eat the junk either and they all agreed to that! If anyone wants ice cream or whatever they may go out and buy all they want but they must eat it before they get home.

Really is sort of weird that at times I can be around all that junk and I will not eat it but I never know when those safe times are so just to make sure I am safe we don't have the stuff in my house.

My hubby has realized that he has a trigger. When he watches the commercials with all the foods being advertised he gets hungry and has to eat. Now for me seeing the food on TV does not make me hungry. In fact when I see pictures of food or read a cookbook I feel like I have just eaten a meal!! Weird huh???

Right now I want to bake oatmeal cookies because i love to bake and my hubby loves to eat them. Thank goodness we are out of oatmeal. Because as much as I want to bake I also want to eat!! What I will do is broil some ground beef and fix a salad for dinner and just think about the other stuff. May read a cookbook tooooooo!!

Well that is my stream of consciousness thinking on triggers.

I do realize that recognizing triggers saves me from over eating and eating aimlessly!!

Now I am no longer hungry!!!!!!!!!!!

Lizzie

Lizzie will you be discussing this at your Tuesday WW/Nutrition chat ? Or will you be placing this information in greater detail .... I would like to read it ... because imo WE ALL HAVE "TRIGGERS" lol that make us eat like Trigger. As always, Monica

Hi Lizzie,

I have triggers too, and yet at times they don't bother me at all, just as you were saying. But I can't look at a cookbook and feel satisfied. It just stirs up my appetite. And smells affect me very strongly. Like candles all over will drive me nuts. I'm not allergic, but it gets so overwhelming that it does make me sick. On the other hand, smelling food in a store or whatever, really gets my juices flowing. I hate driving through a town and all you can smell is food cooking SOMEWHERE, but you don't know what direction to go in...........haha.

I'm a hopeless case Lizzie. They ought to just take me out back and shoot me instead..........hahahahahha

I'm so f_ing tired I'm giddy already. Last night was a nightmare. My legs were killing me, my hip wouldn't shut up, and neither would Lew...........hahahha He was sawing enough wood to keep the furnace going for the next 3 years. After waking for the 2nd time about 3 am I was not able to get back to sleep. I tried for over an hour, to no avial. I gave up, got up, and did some knitting for the next couple hours. Now I'm about to keel over from exhaustion and I really need to get some decent sleep tonight. Tomorrow is my big day visiting Chumlette.

I have to be up 4:30 am tomorrow morning to be in Honesdale to catch the bus at 6:45 am. And I won't be getting back home until about 10-11 pm Saturday night. I'm already getting a bit nervous about the 45 minute drive from Honesdale to here. But if I'm lucky, maybe I'll be able to catch some shut eye on the bus ride back. That's about 2 1/2 hours of riding. So I should be able to. Then I could be somewhat refreshed before driving back to the house. But right now my main concern is getting enough sleep tonight so that I don't up and pass out right in front of poor Chumlette..........hahaha. Wouldn't that be the height of rudeness?? I'll have to take some smelling salts to make sure that doesn't happen. Whadda think?? LOL

Look my friend, I hope you have a super wonderful weekend. I'll let you know all about our visit after I get back. I'm so excited!!! Maybe one day you and I can get together somehow, somewhere. Never say never!!

Hugs,
Sandie

Hi Lizzie,
my eating trigger is the same as yours..its like the straw that broke the camels back..one little cheat and then it starts a landslide! i too dont like to have junk in the house..if i want something that badly i go and buy a single portion but dont bring any extra home...
hope you have a great weekend sweetie!
hugs bell :)

Hi Lizzie

Trigger foods I bet most of us relate to what your talking about. Darn boys like to have there chips when watching a hockey game. Can't tell them not to come home with them. the only thing i tell them if you open a bag eat them otherwise i'm in trouble I won't eat them if there home because they'll say something like aren't you on a diet. It's when i'm alone the bag can be here as long as it's not opened I won't touch them. That's the same as that darn chocolate rooster if hubby would have left it alone it would still be intact in the freezer but he couldn't let well enough alone once opened and started i got into it to. Am i sorry not really I way what the heck i'm overweight but human also. so better luck today that's all. Take care Lizzie and watch those triggers We just have to bite the bullet LOL.

GREAT post Lizzie :D

I too am becoming more and more aware of my triggers since I quit smoking - of course right now AIR will trip my food hunger trigger lol ;)

But seriously I am realizing more and more I need to stay away from certain foods as they lead to other "no no" foods and so on and so forth.

Have a super week my friend :)

Beth :not:

Hiya Lizzie! I found your journal!! Woohoo! I can play! I am gonna try again to print the page on the triggers. I know mine and sometimes, like you said.....one little something sets me off and before I know what happened or HOW.....I've spent my food money on binge stuff! Like now, United has icecream on sale. I didn't need to see the sign. It's enough that they have my yogurt! Blue Bunny lite......with splenda and now the low carb one as well for .50 cents each.........I will spend my $5.00 on 10 yogurts! I really like it in the summer but quit eating it 'cuz of the high sugar content in regular and the aspartame in most lites. Then I found the BB with splenda and a nice variety of flavors......oh yum!
Have a fabulous evening my dear friend!! Take good care of you!
Love Bren

A Special "Thank You" For Your Support To Me :rose:

It is deeply appreciated :)

Beth :not:

April 19,2004

Time sure flys when I try to get anything done. Here t is already afternoon and I haven't accomplished very much. So when I finish here I am riding my bike for 30 minutes. Then later today maybe a walk!

I am making a braided run and was doing some work on it this morning. Decided to take a break and do some computer junk. In the meantime my son came home from work. Soon as he came in the front door I heard him talking and laughing with the dog, Sophie. The ask me who was watching the dog. I told him the dog doesn't need watching. Then he laughed and told me to come in the living room. There on the floor was a ton of my yarn that Sophie had been playing with. She had it wrapped around the dining room table legs and all over the living room. Yes little pup was having a good time with all my yarn!!

Not only does she like yarn she also likes some of the bulbs my son planted. She goes over to the pots and takes the bulbs out of the dirt and plays with the bulb. I guess she had pulled up about 10 bulbs so far!! Now we have to watch her constantly when she is outside.

Got the news last night that my scanner is cooked. The scanner has been uninstalled and reinstalled numerous times. My son worked on it for a while and said the scanner is cooked. I need a new scanner and need to decide what kind I want!

Ate some cole slaw yesterday and today my stomach feels like hmmmmm can not think of a word to describe how it feels. I do know it hurts! But today is a better day and I have lots to do so better get started. This afternoon I am getting all my milk glass out and clean it and put in the china cabinet!

Was in the 80's here yesterday and is 75 so far! Hopefully we will get some rain!! Anyway I am off to do something!!!!!!!!

Lizzie

:rofl: How funny about your poochie.... Mine kills me... No really he does!

Sorry to hear about your scanner....

My Grampa says, "Honey, the reason I can't quit smoking is this, In the morning I have my coffee, well with my coffee I like to have a smoke, then when I smoke I need a Beer and then of course with beer comes another Smoke." So I told him to switch to tea."

Emotions trigger me......

Hi Lizzie,

I've had similar problems with my dogs too. Every now and then, Lizette will get ahold of my yarn and take off with it. I have no idea why. It's not edible. Usually, it's an accident. She manages to get tangled in it while I'm working on a project. Now the cat, Rosie, is different. She deliberately tries to chew through it, and tries to pull it out of my hand when I'm knitting or crocheting something. She's much worse than the dogs.

I had a great time visiting with Chumlette Saturday. It was a gorgeous day, we did a lot of walking, and just had a super time together over all.

My daffodils are beginning to bloom, and I noticed my forsythia will be blooming any day now. They are ready to expode into color. I think by the end of this week, it will be a bit greener all over in this neck of the woods. The back yard already needs mowing....

Did laundry today and hung it out. What a beautiful wind is blowing. The first load was dry before the second load got out to be hung.......haha

Have a wonderful day dear friend.

Hugs,
Sandie

Lizzie,
I know just how you feel. Somedays know matter how how you try it's just a lot easy to sit around being lazy instead of getting things done. I haven't done hardly anything all day. Later on tonight I need to go the store, and then over to my school.

What kind of bike do you have? We have one of those recrumbent bikes. I can't use it right now because I'm over the maximum weight, but once I get down I'm going to start riding it.

LOL oh my gosh how cute. I can just see Sophie playing all that yawn. I bet she was having a great old time.

your guys are having great weather over their. It rainied here on the weekend off and on. it's not raining here today, but on the other hand the sky isn't exactly clear either.

Take care! Katherine

Stopping by to say "hi" my friend :wave: and to see how you are doing :)


sounds like you are busy busy busy - tomorrow is your Dr. appt right?

Please let me know how it goes.......

Beth :not:

Hiya Lizzie :wave:

Just dropping by to say hello. Your dog sounds great lol :D we aren't allowed dogs as dad doesn't like them so we have a crazy cat instead who spends half his time behind the sofa and the other half wondering the countryside for weeks on end.

hope you're well
take care
:hug:
Debs xx

Hi Lizzie,
hope all goes well with your docs appt :)
hugs bell :)

April 21

Well I did get past the butterflies and saw my doc. Don't know why I always get them but I do!! My doc is a real easy going doc and really treats with a great deal of respect. So why do I get butterflies????? Better yet WHO CARES??? I sure don't.

Doc had great news for me. First the kidney problem has been cured and now that is not a worry. The swelling in my legs was caused from something different than medication or kidney problem. That was good to know. However the reason for them swelling is not good. But on with the good news. My blood levels were exactly where they should be for someone with my Diabetes like I have. My A1C was 6 and the scale is (4.0 - 6.0). That is exactly where the doc wants it! All the rest of the blood work was great also!! Big changes from last visit!

Now I did talk to him about the low blood sugar levels when I tried different diets and he explained exactly what to do. So that should not be a problem. But I do have to monitor blood levels very carefully.

Now I have to revamp my menus and start again. Losing the weight will help the legs and the joints and should help the problem with the left leg. Because of how I carry my weight it is sooooo important to get the weight off.

The challenge to me is to lose a couple pounds a week. I do need to lose 50 lbs and now!!

Have to keep record of blood sugar levels, blood pressure and being light headed. Light headed should be easy I am always dizzy!!!!

The problem I have been having walking and with my back is the spinal stenosis rearing its ugly head. Wants me to continue to try to walk! Plus do other exercises.

Now you know more about me then you ever want to know. That is more than I want to know!!

Now I am going to go take a nap!!

Love and hugs,
Lizzie

Hi Lizzie,

I'm just so glad you finally got to see the Doc. So, maybe all the news wasn't great, but it wasn't all bad either. We work with what we can control, and let the Doc work with the rest, right? Good for you girl!!

Now, I'm hoping he knows that it would be near impossible to lose 50 lbs in 3 months, and it wouldn't be healthy either. And I know darn right well, he didn't give you orders to starve yourself either. So, did he give you any good ways of doing it? If he did, I'm sure we ALL want to know..........hahahahhahaha

Anyway, I'll be gone the next few days. Was hoping to have a little chat with you before I left, but I guess it wasn't meant to be. So you have a great weekend, take care, have fun and keep safe.

:hug:
Sandie

[color=deep pink] LIZZIE,
I know just what your saying. Doctor's freak me out. I use to be scared to death of having blood work done. But now that I no I can drink water during a fast, I'm much better.

I'm glad to hear that your appointment went well. Lizzie isn't 16 pounds an awful lot to loose during a month. Doing that wouldn't have to drasticly would your calories down, and since your diabetic isn't that dangerous. That's just my opinion, I know that your doctor has yoru best interest at heart.

hope you had a restful nap! Katherine

Hi Lizzie,
just do the best that you can on the weight front sweetie. 50 pounds in 3 months..i think hes asking an awful lot of you...take it at your pace..every pound is a bonus towards the 50 pound goal.
Great job on the bloodwork being so great..you have been working hard you deserve the results!
hugs bell :)

Lizzie,

Sounds like you are making progress. How long have you be a diabetic? I come from a long line of diabetics but so far I am okay. I tend to low blood sugar as does my youngest daughter and a grand daughter. They say that the low blood sugar can flip flop to diabetes so hope I can avoid that.

Thanks for the recipes.

Carol

Hi you Sweet Lady You!

Lizzie, you can lose this weight... You will lose this weight. When I was at my highest My legs hurts terrible, (I am very leg heavy) and I sit a lot for work, and just losing the weight that I have has helped tremendously. And that alone motivates me to think I can feel even better. We are lugging around this extra baggage and to be free of it and the problems that come with it is up to us. (hrmm strangely speaking to self too)

Feeling better is priceless. Looking better is the reward that comes with it. Weird, was this post for you or me... :eyes: Anywhoos, we CAN DO THIS LIZZIE, Its just food... We can still eat just better, and its just moving more...... Lizzie if there is anything I can do to help you get those leggys better just holler, I dunno what I can do, but if you thinks of anything let me know.... Recipes, Notes, motivations, DEMANDS, lol.... I'm here for you Lady loo........... :hug:

came to say hello and you havent been in since i posted yesterday...too busy spreading cheer around everyones else's journals..
thanks for being a wonderful friend to me too! :)
hugs bell :)

Lizzie,

First of all, thanks for the visit to my journal, nice to see your name there,

Congrats on getting to the doctor, now you make sure you get there when you are supposed to, doesn't solve anything staying away!!!!! :sb

Glad too that things seem to be good, especially with the kidneys and the other blood work.

Keep a close eye on the sugar levels, we want a happy and healthy Lizzie!!! :rose:

April 24

Wow I am so tired. I have not been this tired in a long long time. I was determined to get all those boxes and big containers (huge Tupperware storage boxes) emptied and sorted and put away, throw away or what ever. I did and now I am beat. Worked at it for 2 solid days. Note to collectors: Don't!!!! I have a ton of vinyls from the early 60's and up. When you move 500 albums twice in the same day that is a lot of records. Plus all the rest of the stuff I collect. But it is done!!. Now all I have to do in here is shampoo the carpet and clean the space by the bird cage. Oh yal also have to do the curtains yet! Then I am finished.

Been staying on program and decided the work moving and carrying boxes and stuff would be my exercise. I know tomorrow will be a day of rest!!

Responses:

Crazy,
Been watching the blood sugars and so far so good. Thanks for stopping by. I always enjoy your visits. Yes I should have been to the doc a month earlier but didn't. I intend to stay with my appointments if possible. Hope you are having a great night!!

Bell,
Good to see you always. You have been a tower of support when things have been dicey for me. You have helped me through some tough times and I will always appreciate it!!

Maxi,
Thank you for the words of encouragement. I needed to hear them! Just rattle my cage once in a while and make sure I am still behaving!!!! I tend to not attend to my own needs at times!

Carol,
I have been a diabetic for about 10 years plus. I also came from a long line of diabetics but guessed I would be one! Now I am hoping I don't pass it on to anyone in my family!

Hey carol I have looked and can not find a journal for you. So do you have one or am I not looking hard enough?? I always enjoy hearing form you and would like to post a note to you also!!

Hi Emi,
Thanks for the confidence booster! This is going to be a real trial trying to knock off those extra 50 but have to do it!! The doc got my attention this trip. I mean he always does but this trip he really got my attention. So I am working on those pounds!! YIKESSSSSSS

Hi Katherine,
Yes I am not fond of fasting either but since I only have to do it once every 2 months I should not complain! Yes I think 16 lbs is a lot to lose in one month and I won't be doing that! I will do my best and that is all there is to it!

I think the doc just wanted to make sure I was listening when he said 50 lbs in 3 months. I told him WW recommends 1 to 2 pounds a week. So I am thinking maybe 6 months to get 50 off. I am sure he will be pleased with 25 lbs. If not that is the way it goes.

The main thing is a consistent pattern of exercising and healthy foods. I can do that.

Hi Sandie,
No I don't have any plans to starve myself and of course the doc doesn't want me to either. I just have to lose and no way around it!! I have the beginning of a very serious problem and I have to nip it now or be in real trouble. With all my other health problems I don't need any new ones. Soo it is imperative that get the weight off and now not when I get around to it!!

Hope you are having a great time with sis and doc gives you great news. If the doc doesn't then smack him until he does!!

Well ladies thank you all for posting in my journal and most of all thank you all for your support and encouragement that I have enjoyed for a long time. I could not make this journey without all of you!! I am so blessed to have such great friends!! Love you all!!

Hopefully I will get back to journaling tomorrow. Just to tired tonight!!

Love and hugs,
lizzie

If I wanted to lose 50 lbs in 3 months, I could just get rid of my 5 year old. HEE!

That is an awful lot in a short amount of time.. Just do your best each day and no one can expect any better from you.. and if they do, tell them to go rub salt.

Corinna

Hi Corinna,

I think I will rub salt!! Sounds like fun!! ACtually al I can do is the best I can and if that is not enought wellllllll I do have the salt!! hahahah Have a great night!!

Love and hugs,
lizzie

Lizzie you so inspire me woman! No, really you do! :D

Your back on track in so many areas of your life and that inspires me to do the same my friend :)


I want to Thank you for your on going support to me - I am back on track - thanks to wonderful people like you - My new journal is posted in my signature.

PS: fred says "hi"

Beth :not:

:cheer: We can DO THIS........ WE WILL DO THIS!!!!! :cheer:

April 26

This has been a tough day today!! Nothing happened but me. I am frustrated over a couple things that are hardly worth mentioning and I can do nothing to change it so I must get over it and go on! So I have not dealt well with me today. I want to eat and I am not hungry by any means. Just so use to eating when I feel like this! Sure is an eye opener. No wonder I got so big!! Eating when I wasn't hungry instead of doing something like riding my bike!!!

I double checked with the doc today just because I began to wonder if he was serious about losing so much weight so fast. Plus I had to call him anyway. Of course I didn't hear him right and what he said was to lose 50 and we would see how I was "doing" next visit! Not BY next visit! Well I thought that was funny and so did he. Guess my ears could use a cleaning!! YIKES!!!! Anyway I still am going to lose this weight and I will not cave in on days like these!!

I passed up going out for ice cream, baking oatmeal cookies, fixing a huge cheese burger, making home made fries,baking a cherry pie, passed up making a banana and peanut butter sandwich which I don't even like. I also passed on making tomatoes and macaroni which I like cooked together but never fix. There is a whole long list of stuff I wanted to fix but DID NOT FIX!!!!

I may have to ride the bike sore knee and all!! That is about the only thing that saves me is riding the bike or going for a walk.

You will not believe what I did today!!! I received in the mail a sample of Olay Degree 7 moisture cream. Has all this junk in it to make you younger and all that hokey stuff!! Well I before I put it on to try it out I said to my son watch this turn my face bright red. I told him I use to try to use Oil Of Olay and I always had a red face from it!! So I wanted to try and see if this would cause skin problems. Instead of doing a patch test I put it all over my face and neck!! Well I got on line and forgot about it and wow my face started feeling hot. Well I thought it was from using Dial soap then I remembered I put that Olay stuff on. Went to look in the mirror and there it was a big bright red face!!! I couldn't believe I was that much of a Doofus!!!!!!! Had to wash that junk off!!!! I never learn !!!!

Anyway been a fun day and now I am going to watch some TV for a few minutes. Have a great night!

Beth,
You are always there for me to and I appreciate that so much too. Hope you are feeling better today!!

Hey Maxi,
Thank you for being so supportive!! I needed to read that post today!! Helped more than you know!!!!!!

Ok ladies have a great night!!

Love and hugs,
Lizzie

i am glad you clarified the weight thing with your doctor..telling someone to lose 50 pounds in 3 months did seem a bit extreme lol... :)
Ouch about the Olay skin cream...hope the poor face doesnt take too long to get back to normal... olay is one of the only skin creams that doesnt irritate my skin..
good for you on not fixing any of those yummy but fatty things you wanted to...learning to not let food be our master is all a continuing lesson isnt it?
But you are winning the fight Lizzie, keep it up!
hugs bell :)

LIZZIE,
How are you doing on this wonderful Wednesday morning? Wow 500 albums that sure is a lot of music? What kind of music do you listen to? I like to listen to music from the 80’s, country, and some pop. I also have songs from the 60’s and 70’s, and I like to listen to disco. I think my mom had me 10 years to late ~ LOL. Hey after moving all of those boxes and working so hard, I agree with you with that was quite a workout. Take care! Katherine

[FONT=Comic Sans MS] :D Hey Lissie:

I just wanted to say Hi, and to let you know how nice I thought it was for you to post in my journal. I started to read the first part of you journal. I am in complete agreement with you. Some time back I had posted something in my journal that I was having a hard time with. That was causing me "NOT" to do well on my diet. I got a PM from a "BUDDIE" stating I should make a big plate of food and rub my face in it. Along with some other nice little things.... I was going to wright her back and explain how one should talk to another. But I figured "why" anyone that smart, it would just be a waist of time. I am sure she knows everthing. I am sure with her attitude and winning ways she has already been told in many ways and by many people. So I just moved on. I have had enough BUddies like that in my life. I am ready for some real people. People who care and understand.

So here goes. I am here for you when you need me. I must tell you I am such a moody girl. Somedays I can whip the world. Somedays I can't whip a piss ant. Sometimes these mood swings happen in a instant. But I am still here. Gonna keep on keeping on.

As Always Your Bud K.

Hi Lizzie :wave:

OH MY Goodness! about face cream! :tomato: You must have very sensitive skin.

GREAT for you that passed up all those food temptations! :cheer:


Beth :not:

Just lost my post!!!!!! Rats!!!!!!!!!!

Lizzie I almost always type my posts out on word pad and then copy to DT lol so I don't lose them - or I al least copy my post before I hit send, so if it does get lost I can just paste it back in - hope this helps my friend :)

Beth :not:

:wave:

Miss lurking in your journal. ;)

Corinna

Hi Lizzie,

Thank you for the WW recipes. I have a loose leaf notebook that I am now going to organize with all the WW recipes and the DT recipes that I have copied. I even bought the dividers yesterday. I "save" all kinds of recipes. One time my DH got irritated and took all of the ones I had in a large drawer and gave me a file drawer in the file cabinet and he even filed them alphabetically for me. Some I haven't seen in years but I just can't make myself clean them out.

Carol

Hey Lizzie,

You lost your post, so you don't write anything? Now what do I respond to with that for a subject matter?

Oh well, I'm really sorry you lost your post dear friend. I hope the next time it goes better for you. You could, of course, write your post to wordpad, and copy/paste it. Then you wouldn't have to worry about losing it, but that is just so difficult. Right?

LOL
Have a great day,

5/12

Hey Everyone,

New day and starting all over! Had some good days and some not so good days. I had been doing a number on myself because I thought I might have gained some weight so imagine my surprise to find I had lost 3 more pounds. When I reach a certain level then I will post my weight but not until I am comfortabe with it! Just a mental block I am working through right now.

I came here yesterday with the intention of updating my journal. I had typed quite a bit when I accidently hit the wrong key(wish I knew which key that does that) and I lost everything. I sure was not in any mood to retype everything. In fact I had a hard time making myself do any typing yesterday! Must be finger fatigue!!

Not much has happened since I was here 10 days ago. Let's see I started doing back exercises to help strengthen my back and I think they migh be helping. My back feels better as I do them plus the muscle in my arms are starting to show up again. Of course the exercises would be so much easier if my dog Sophie would not try to sit on my head while I am on the floor. She thinks I am on the floor to play with her. So she comes over to be sits almost on my head and sticks her face against my cheek!! Then when I laugh she tries to get closer.

I finally got all my raspberry bushes in the ground and they are growing!! All nine bushes. Plus I planted 4 hills of rhubarb. My strawberries are all over the place and so are the blackberries. Now this weekend I will plant a couple tomato plants and couple other veggies. Cliff was so worried that the raspberry bushes would not grow WELL THEY ARE!!!!!!!!! MY black berries are loaded with blooms!!!!!!! My son has my flower boxes finished for the front porch and has the patio geraniums all in their pots for the front porch. He is planting the fron flower beds also. Thank goodness he wants to do all that for Mother's Day. Would take a month for me to plant all that!! No I would never get it done. My son is so sweet. He took two huge pots of flowers to his friend's mother (the one who passed away) on Mother's Day because he was concerned she would be upset on Mother's Day without her son Spence. It was a very tough day!!

We are suppose to have a couple of days of really muggy weather. I sure hate to see that happens. When it gets hot and humid outside I have a harder time breathing! So I have to stay inside and keep the AC cranked. The dogs have to stay in too!!! They are AC'd dogs!! Speaking of animals I got to clean my son's parrot cage!! I love that little bird but wow she is a mess!! He is away on business in California and I am watching the bird. She sits on the back of my chair when I am on the computer. She squawks, as I type, and throws kisses. Yes I am easily entertained!!!!!!

Ok be back in a litle while to finish.

Love and hus,
lizzieg

Lizzie - 3 lbs gone!!!!!!! How wonderful ! :cheer:

WOW Lady you sure are getting a lot done - hey come on over here and help me now lol ;)

Just teasing - I know you would if you could.

I am growing rhubarb for the first time this year - I love raw rhubarb - not in pies or anything, just raw :)

I have a little garden section where me and the GKs are going to grow cherry tomatoes and such too.

Have a wonderful week my friend........

Beth :not:

FIRST AND FORMOST :cheer: POUNDS GONE :cheer:

2nd. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMM you reminded me of my Mamaws Strawberry Rhubarb preserves........ wow, how exciting about all those bushes.... I wish I knew how to GARDEN.......

Animals are so funny,,, My dog like to put his nose on my leg while I am walking on my treadmill, BACK AND FORTH his head darts... Sit=ups, he lays right behind my head... Tere so funny like that....

Glad to see you around! :hug:

:hug:CONGRATULATIONS - 3 LBS GONE FOREVER:cheer:

I see you are getting fulling into the planting season. I gather you are ahead of us here. We usually begin our major planting Memorial Day weekend, but have been known to have heavy frosts even after that. But I have done a little planting, but not very much yet. I'm having a blast right now watching plants that I planted last spring, and never saw again, so believed them dead. Now they are surprising me and growing very nicely, thank you.

I wanted to let you know I won't be home for a couple days. But I'll be back on Monday. Jessica dances this weekend. Can't miss that.

I hope all is well with you. It's been a long time since we've had a chat, and I've missed you.

Hi Lizzie,

I like rhubarb but it doesn't grow down here, too hot. My step-mother used to make a wonderful rhubarb custard pie. I have a recipe for it tucked away somewhere and would like to make it sometime.

My husband was born in Indianapolis. All of his family are from just north of Indianapolis. He has been in Texas since he was 6 so he claims to be a Texan.

My plants have to work really hard since their growing season is 12 months. I need to replace some things that have been growing since last fall.

Glad you have lost more weight. I am on hold for now. I am really watching what I eat but I am down to that last 10 lbs and they are determined to stay put. I know
what I need to do but am not ready to cut the calories that much.

Hope you have a good week-end.

Carol

3 pounds....thats awesome my sweet friend...i am on my way to bed but wanted to stop in and say hi...
i love Rhubarb! my mum used to stew it and we would have it hot with custard when we were kids...YUM!
sounds like you are busy with all your planting..
have a great weekend.
hugs bell :)

Lizzie! CONGRATULATIONS on the 3 pounds! That's awesome especially considering how surprised you were! You are doing great!! I need to do some back strengthening exercises, too. What do you do? Tummy stuff? I heard that if your tummy muscles aren't strong then your back hurts. If you don't mind telling me what you do, I'd appreciate it.

That's so funny about your dog.... my Emme does the very same thing. Funny how they think the floor is a playground! And she's a licker..... so usually she's trying to lick my face if I'm on the floor.... yucko because you never know what she's been trying to eat out in the yard! LOL

What a nice thing for your son to do for you and for his friends mother. That was very considerate and thoughtful of him..... that must have been a really difficult day for her. I can't even imagine!

Your yard and garden sounds really wonderful. We are working to get this yard and garden into shape, too. I ordered strawberry plants, but they haven't come yet and they should be starting to come on by now. I need to phone Brecks and see what's happened.

Take care and have a good weekend...... someone here mentioned to me that they write their long posts in Word and then cut and paste because of the disappearing post thing. I did that a while back... aarrgghh.... so frustrating. I just copy what I'm doing every paragraph or so.

Have a good one!

May14,

I can sigh a breath of relief now my son finally made it home. He was gone on a business trip all week and didn't come home last night when he was suppose to. I stayed awake most of the night listening for him. He is not the kind of person not to call I figured something had happened. Well seems they could not fly into Chicago last night because of weather and it was after 2 in the morning before he finally was able to phone and then he didn't want to wake me so he figured he would be here before 8 am and decided not to call. He sure forgot what a worry wart his mother can be. But he spent the night in Dallas and flew home this am early. Luckily he made it home before the storms hit here or he would still be in limbo. I know he is an adult and has a responsible life and all that jazz but he is still my little boy. I can say that here but I would never let any of my three sons hear me call them my little boys. I always refer to them as men. During their lifetime they have been referred to by many names!! :tomato:

We have had one heavy rain after another today. I am sure the ground is more than saturated. Wow everything looks sooooo green and pretty. Temp dropped from 70' s to 51. Suppose to get even cooler tonight!! Hope not to much cooler!!

I can not believe how much my plants have grown. I was amazed to see them growing this fast!! Don't know if we will have raspberries this year but for sure next year. Going to tons of blackberries and strawberries this year! The strawberries are the ones I tried to pull up two years ago. I see we have twice as many this year. I had trouble bending down to pick berries and so did Cliff so we decided to get rid of them. I had like 200 plants. Now I have about 100 growing where they want. They are forever producing so we will have straw berries all summer long. Plus I will freeze them again! Well at least Cliff is able to pick them this year. He was still under the influence of chemo when I pulled the berries up.

Well the parrot Polly can not sit on the back of my chair when I type and more. She decided since I wasn't looking she could leave some dropping on the floor. Not a good thing to do to me!! So now when she is out of the cage I have to keep a close eye on her. Usually she is very good about not leaving messes but......

Trying to tweak my program a bit so I lose weight faster without getting into trouble. So far so good. Have only had low blood sugar one day so far this week. Rest of the week I make sure I eat something every 3 hours. Actually 3 meals and 3 snacks. I also had to cut back my amount of fruits and add more veggies. I love fruits and veggies but I could live on bananas. That is why you may find me hanging around in trees!!

Anyway I need to get some dinner now and get ready for grandson who will be here soon. Oops he is here now!!!!! What a character he is!!!!!!!!!

Sandie,
Yes and I have missed talking to you! I have been doing so much other stuff that I don't always check into yahoo any more. But I am going to start again. So when you get home from recital I will find you!

You know I tried using Word to post then do the cut and paste but I lost it there also. Don't even ask me how. I can lose anything on the computer. I just found some recipes I filed 2 years ago. But now at least I know where to look.

Hi Carol,
Good to see you again. I wish you had a journal so I could post. My sis lives in Texas and has for the last 35 years. She lives in Dallas or North Dallas. I haven't been to her house in 30 years. Seems we both were busy teaching school and with families and no time for visiting.

My hubby and I both came from families of many children. My DH is one of 8 children and I am one of 9 children. So we hardly had enough time to visit sibs with seeing parents and the fact my family lives all over the states. We never had enough time. Family reunions were an impossible task so after a few years of dismal failure we finally settled on just sent cards and phone calls. Hmmm maybe we could try that again! Most of the children are all adukts now. Yikes I thought it was a headache before!!

Hi bell,
How you doing my friend? I try to get over to your journal and see what you are up to. I have been doing so much other stuff and I have almost lost contact with so many wonderful people. That is my goal to see what my friends have been doing!! My grand son wants to travel to Australia when I do so I am saving money for him too. Of course he has to wait until he is 16 so his mother can not protest!! That is ok we can wait!!

My grandmother used to make a rhubard custard but I have no idea how. She also made strawberrie sand rhubard jam. I may do some of that myself. Of ourse I can not eat it but hubby will!! I hope!!!!!

Take care sweetie and have a great week end.

Hi Dj,
Good to see you too !!!! I will be glad to send you the exercises I do. They are really easy but very effective. I will gradually add some later for abs but right now back is priority. Yes I have to work on tummy muscles also.

I was proud of my youngest son for taking flowers to his friend's mom. Losing her son was devasting to her and all of us who knew him since a baby. Steve said she was totally crushed that her other son, the only other family she has, did not recognize Mother's Day or chose to celebrate. My son let him have it with both barrels for not even taking his mother a card. I heard that he did after my son talked to him.

Anyway have a great week end and I will email you the exercises.


Hi beth,
Thank you!! My goodness how do you eat rhubarb raw!! I use to as a kid but if I remember it was very sour. Yikes your mouth will be puckered for weeks!!!!!!lol

I am assuming that you are 100% and still taking it easy after being so ill!! Don't make me have to come over there!! Wouldn't Tim crap seeing a big burly blonde coming in the hose with a bag of rhubard.

Have a good weekend my friend!!


Hi maxi,
Hope you are feeling better also. You have been through it too with that darn tooth.

That is too funny about your cutie dog and putting his nose on your leg while you are on the treadmill!! I can just see that. Last night Sophie brought me a tennis ball and socks to play with that is after she tried to sit on my head again!! She often behaves as if she needs to go outside and my DH will get up from the recliner to put her out and she jumps in his seat!! She didn't want to out she wanted his chair. He always falls for it. Then I have Cleo who will wake me up in the night by putting her paw on my cheek to go out. I drag mysef out of bed to put her put and she will stop by the dog treats. She didn't have to go out at all she just wanted a treat. At 4 in the morning that is not too cute but I am a sucker for it everytime!!

Well ok I am ready to fix dinner. I suspect chicken again!! Think I saw a feather sprouting on my hubby the other day. We are eating a lot of chicken!!

Now I am really gone!!

LOve an dhugs,
Lizzie

Lizzie my friend - excuse me for 1 minute please - I need to go and dance a jig :dn

lol I am just so THRILLED to hear you doing so well that I just had to do a jig lol

I can not express how happy I am for you that your eating plan is coming together and working for you in all ways - you losing weight and feeling better and it shows :D

Oh I have a very sour taste bud lol so does "K" my 4 yr old granddaughter - she eat lemons just plain by them selves - yikes not me! lol She asks for pickles for breakfast lol so her taste buds are much more sour then mine.

Beth :not:

Hi Lizzie,

I wanted to come and find your journal and make sure you know how much I appreciate you giving me words of encouragement in mine. I read your whole journal, you ARE a benefit to us all. HOW RUDE of somebody to make derogatory remarks in your journal. Sorry that that happened to you. WW Tuesday night chat? What time is that at? Wouldn't mind checking that one out. I thought that Diettalk used to have a chat schedule, but can't seem to find it anymore.

Congrats on your 3 lb weight loss, you make a great role model for me and others.

Just wanted to say thanks and drop in. Now I need to go and find Crazy2's journal too. She has done quite a bit of posting in mine and want to thank her too.

Have a great day Lizzie! :)


Dana

Lizzie
I always tell my husband "your wife will never stress about you like your mother does. Theres a bond there that is incredibly strong" He goes camping with the little brother for a week and his mom has kittens the whole time they are gone. I go shopping. She worries all the time and calls them on the cell phone.

When I went to pick them up I was in the middle of something so I called her up and she ran practically drove her car into my front room to pick them up and mother them.

She took them home and made them any food they wanted. Gosh you would have though they went to antartica.. not just snow camping up the canyon.....lol

She is so excited for this baby that I am not sure if even we are that over the top. I have heard every story from Chets childhood she can remember probably 6 times.

You moms are so sweet worrying about your grown boys like that. Isn't it funny they don't really appreciate their moms until they are on their own and realise how hard life is and how nice it it so have someone worrying about them like that!!!!!

Your such a cutie. BTW since I live in AZ I am incredibly jelous over the bushes I love rasberries and they are soo darn expensive.

Hi Lizzie,

Sounds like you are doing great.

I will try to find the rhubarb custard recipe and send it to you.

Thank you for wishing I had a journal. I have thought about it but I am still working and don't think I could keep up with it. Sometime I have a lot of time and then other times I just have time to lurk.

You were talking about your grandchildren. One of the biggest thrills I had was last summer when a granddaughter called just to say hi from Rome. I have 6, 4 girls and 2 boys. I have always had a good time with them. The oldest is on my list now. She is going through the "this is me and if you don't like what I am doing and how I look that is your problem." Well, I am particular about the type of people I spend time with including family. She may change and she does need to grow up. Do you ever wonder why the ones that think they are so grown up and the ones that need growing up the most. lol

Your garden sounds wonderful. It is too hot down here to grow much in the summer. My best gardening time is from October till April. Winter gardens are big down here.

Have a good day.

Carol

Lizzie, I could just squeeze you really, I do hear you on the losing everything on the computer. I now use Word and I hit save every 3 sentences... Cause I would lose it there too.

Today I layed on the ground to do Chest presses, and had my eyes closed. Muttly decided to sneak up on me and I could feel his mouth whiskers on my lips, SCARED THE SPIRIT OUT OF ME......

Your animals sound as if they have you trained well.. LOL.... Thanks for sharing....

Hi Lizzie :wave:

Just popping in to see how you are doing :D

Beth :not:

May 22

This pretty much sums up right now for me. Hope you enjoy reading it.


Our Mirror

The good you find in others, is in you too.
The faults you find in others, are your faults as well.
After all, to recognize something you must know it.
The possibilities you see in others, are possible for you as well.
The beauty you see around you, is your beauty.
The world around you is a reflection,
a mirror showing you the person you are.
To change your world, you must change yourself.
To blame and complain will only make matters worse.
Whatever you care about, is your responsibility.
What you see in others, shows you yourself.
See the best in others, and you will be your best.
Give to others, and you give to yourself.
Appreciate beauty, and you will be beautiful.
Admire creativity, and you will be creative.
Love, and you will be loved.
Seek to understand, and you will be understood.
Listen, and your voice will be heard.
Teach, and you will learn.
Show your best face to the mirror,
and you'll be happy with the face
looking back at you.
Unknown
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

May 22

I have decided that Saturday and Sunday will be my days to visit journals. I seem to run out of time and I really do want to visit journals so I am changing how I am doing my tasks!!

I have developed an interest in computer graphics and have spent a lot of time reading and searching. Therefore I have spent hours reading when I thought I was spending just a few mintes. I was shocked to see 4 hours had passed while I was playing with the programs!

Soon as I spend 30 minutes on the bike I will be posting in journals!!

Love and hugs,
Lizzie

Hi Lizzie,

Thank you for sharing the lovely poem with us. I know you won't mind, but I copied it and e-mailed it to my favorite people. Now, don't be upset because I didn't send it to you, but that would have been foolish, now, wouldn't it? LOL

Just stopped in to say hello. I will be playing with computer graphics soon too. But not because it is something I wanted to do. I was almost ordered to do it by my son. He is coming to help Lew with the addition, so he sent me the link to a home design program and told me to get it, figure out the floor plans and e-mail them to him, so he can check it all out ahead of time and let us know what all we will need to have for him when he arrives. He will only have 5 days to build it, so he wants everything ready to go when he arrives. He's taking time off from his work in Georgia to do this for us. I think it will go well though. Lew has a bunch of friends that are coming over to work on this addition when it's ready to go up. It's going to look like an old fashioned barn raising here in mid-June. Ha ha ha

Take care now. :hug:

May 28

Okay who changed the calendar and didn't tell me??? I cold have sworn it was only May 4 or 5 instead it is May 28th!! Where has this month gone?? Well no use in worrying about it now!!

A beautiful day in Indiana and I am still in the house. Well there is a good reason for that. I walked into the desk and smacked my "lemon" knee very hard. Now it is still very sore. I tried to walk from the sofa to the computer and had trouble all the way! Right now I am resting my knee and back.

Well I finally started my new program using Dr. Phil, WW and ADA. I knew I had to do this but makes it a lot easier with several others joining in! I actually said out loud at home," I am sick and tired of being sick and tired!!"
Then heard on Dr. Phil when he told a guest "You are not requiring enough of yourself girl." Thought about that all day and then WHAMO let the whole sentence roll around in my head until I realized he could have been talking to me. The more I thought about it the more I understood what he was saying! SOOOOOOOO now I am requiring more of me . Will take time but I will get there and accomplish something every day!!

So now I am on a quest to get to goal and stay there. No more pampering and all that jazz!!!!! Now is the time to really get myself moving and I intend to.

I have plenty to say about many things but I think I am better off not saying them just now. But there is a day when I will.

Now I have things to do and still have to attempt my walk or work in the garden. Think the garden is going to win because I can stand for a while. Just have to see how I feel when I get outside.

Hope everyone is having a wonderful day and have a wonderful weekend!!!!!!!
Remember holidays are for family together and visit not EAT!@!!!!!

Love and hugs,
lizzie

yes - Lizzie you GOT it - yes! :D

do a little jig :dn

Beth :not:

Hi sweetie.
been a while since i stopped in to say hi... so here i am :)
sounds like you have that determination in your voice..i love hearing you sound so determined and positive. i love Dr Phil and his philosophy and get real attitude.
computer graphics? sounds all too complex for Bell...maybe i will get you to teach me the tricks of the trade lol..
hope you have a wonderful weekend!
hugs bell :)

My entertainment for the day!! Just have to share it!!
Lizzie




Why did the chicken cross the road?

GEORGE W BUSH We don't really care why the chicken crossed the road. We just want to know if the chicken is on our side of the road or not. The chicken is either against us or for us. There is no middle ground here.

COLIN POWELL Now to the left of the screen, you can clearly see the satellite image of the chicken crossing the road.

HANS BLIX We have reason to believe there is a chicken, but we have not yet been allowed to have access to the other side of the road.

JOHN KERRY Although I voted to let the chicken cross the road I am now against it!

RALPH NADER The chicken's habitat on the other side of the road had been polluted by unchecked industrial greed. The chicken did not reach the unspoiled habitat on the other side of the road because it was crushed by the wheels of a gas-guzzling SUV.

PAT BUCHANAN To steal the job of a decent, hardworking American.

RUSH LIMBAUGH I don't know why the chicken crossed the road, but I'll bet it was getting a government grant to cross the road, and I'll bet that somebody out there is already forming a support group to help chickens with crossing-the-road syndrome. Can you believe this? How much more of this can real Americans take? Chickens crossing the road paid for by their tax dollars. And when I say tax dollars, I'm talking about your money, money the government took from you to build a road for chickens to cross.

MARTHA STEWART No one called me to warn me which way that chicken was going. I had a standing order at the Farmer's Market to sell my eggs when the price dropped to a certain level. No little bird gave me any insider information.

DR SEUSS Did the chicken cross the road? Did he cross it with a toad? Yes, the chicken crossed the road, but why it crossed I've not been told.

ERNEST HEMINGWAY To die in the rain. Alone.

MARTIN LUTHER KING, JR I envision a world where all chickens will be free to cross roads without having their motives called into question.

GRANDPA In my day, we didn't ask why the chicken crossed the road. Somebody told us the chicken crossed the road, and that was good enough.

BARBARA WALTERS Isn't that interesting? In a few moments, we will be listening to the chicken tell, for the first time, the heartwarming story of how it experienced a serious case of molting, and went on to accomplish its life long dream of crossing the road.

JOHN LENNON Imagine all the chickens in the world crossing roads together - in peace.

ARISTOTLE It is the nature of chickens to cross the road

KARL MARX It was an historic inevitability.

RONALD REAGAN What chicken?

CAPTAIN KIRK To boldly go where no chicken has ever gone before.

SIGMUND FREUD The fact that you are at all concerned that the chicken crossed the road reveals your underlying sexual insecurity.

BILL GATES I have just witnessed eChicken2003, which will not only cross roads, but will lay eggs, file your important documents, and balance your checkbook, - and internet explorer is an integral part of eChicken.

ALBERT EINSTEIN Did the chicken really cross the road, or did the road move beneath the chicken?

BILL CLINTON I did not cross the road with THAT chicken. What is your definition of chicken?

AL GORE I invented the chicken!

THE BIBLE And God came down from heaven, and he said unto the chi cken THOU SHALT CROSS THE ROAD. And the chicken didst cross the road, and there was much rejoicing.

COLONEL SANDERS Did I miss one?

Lizzie Oh MY Gosh ! I about peed myself laughing :rofl:

Here is my favorite COLONEL SANDERS Did I miss one? lol lol oh gosh these are FUNNY! :D

Beth :not:

Hey Lizzie,

Have you forgotten where your Journal is? It would seem that way. I haven't been posting all that much of late myself, and I've been here more often than you have.

Ok lady, I think it's time you stick you nose in and let us all know what you've been up to. Enquiring minds want to know. Okay, so I'm just a bit nosey......... :tongue:

:hug:

:wave:

I agree - Lizzie get in here and let us know how your doing - pleaseeeeeeeeeeee :)

We miss you - you need to hang out here more lol ;)

Beth :not:

checking in to see how you are my friend?
hope all is well and you are having a nice weekend.
hugs bell :)

June 6

Would you look at the cobwebs!!! Well my friends I have been coming here for days and starting to post and then I hit that brick wall and just say forget it. But this morning I am tired of trying to not say anything that would upset people. I just need to say one thing and then I am finished with that topic forever. There is a person here at DT who continues to harass me but now through my friends. Her last comment was," It is my responsibility to expose lizzie as a liar and a fake." I have her on ignore and i will continue to keep her on ignore and from today forth I don't care what she says I will not respond in any manner shape or form.

Now on to brighter topics. Well maybe not that bright. My pc crashed on Friday morning. I thought I had lost everything. Well it took almost from 9 am to 10 pm to get the thing up and running. I have little knowledge of the pc and how they work but I had to give it a shot. So I did and with no D drive. Saturday I spent 7 hours waiting for this pc to defrag. I thought it would take for ever. Then I had trouble reinstalling my Norton AV program but finally at 9 last night I completed that task. Now this am I have another set of problems but I am asking my pc geek son to help with these.

I will tell you a secret. I installed Spyblaster on my pc a few weeks ago. After it was installed I saw this added benefit of being able to take a snapshot of your system and should anything happen due to a virus or whatever then you can restore your system by using the snapshot!
I only remembered that after hours of trying everything I could think of and reading everything a dozen times. Well it worked!!

What has been going on with me. Well I finally hit bottom about my weight. I started a thread in Dr. Phil's Forum and was amazed at the response. I just had use the last excuse and decided that this is my absolute last chance to get the weight off and keep it off. So I am rereading Dr. Phil's book and looking for a treadmill. They are both at the top of my list!!

I have started doing 30 push up a day 20 minutes on my bike and WATP tape starting over at 5 minutes and building up to 1 m then 2, then 3 miles. I already feel different. I also have been able to identify more foods that are forbidden for me. That was a shock but added then to my list anyway.

I need to be very strict with my food plans and remind myself everyday why I am on this journey!! What ever it takes I am doing!! I realized one day after watching Dr. Phil that when he made the statement to a guest."You are no requiring enough of yourself girl." He was talking to me.
What a thunderbolt! I have never required enough of myself.

Dr. Phil says that each person has a personal truth that no body else knows. We live up to that truth everyday! My own personal truth is I have never applied 100% of me toward anything. Not to any of my educational endeavors,
not to raising my children, my marriage, my lifestyle nothing!! For once in my life I will apply 100% to losing weight and changing my lifestyle. I am already requiring more of me in everything I do.

I could have waited around and asked my son to fix my computer but that was not requiring me to do anything but mope all day. So I rolled up my stomachs and dove in!!

Now you know where i have been and why I have not been in here. Been thinking and making choices and playing computer games. Also have been quite busy with my garden and flowers. I love flowers and like my mother I want them while I am alive not piled on the ground after I am gone.

I have also been spending time on the forums which I love to do! I have missed all you guys and missed posting in journals and reading to see what you are all up to these days. I do hope to catch up soon.

Right now I have work to do on my pc . I have letters so small you can barely read them and then letters so big they fill the page fast! I need to get to work.

In a nutshell I am doing great. Still struggling with the osteoarthritis and spinal stenosis. Still working through the pain to get stronger. Losing weight and gaining muscles.
I feel mentally better and stronger. I am finally through the depression that was keeping me down. Yeaaaaa me!!

The one really bright spot in my life is my sis is going to try and come to visit for a while. I am keeping my fingers crossed that she will get the doc's ok to travel. She loves blackberries and they should be ripe about the time she gets here. I am so looking forward to seeing her!!

Thanks to all of you for stopping in and visiting even thought I haven't made it back to your journals I am working on that also.

Now I am off to eat breakfast and watch the NASCAR Race !!!!!! Poor ole Smarty Jones didn't quite make it!! Yes I love sports except for football.

Have a great day !!!!!

Love and hugs,
Lizzie

Hi girlfriend,

I'm so glad to see you back and bringing us all up to date with what is going on in your life. About your PC crash. I can't tell you how PROUD of you I am. Knowing how you worry about making things worse, and yet you tried just the same, and you did it. That's wonderful Lizzie!!

I know what you mean about the dieting too. I know that above all else, I honestly do want to get this weight off of me, and yet I don't always put in 100% to making it happen either. I too don't always insist that I do the extra needed every day to reach my goal weight. And that is what has slowed me down and held me back. I too am struggling with this, reading Dr. Phil's book (the first time for me) and so hoping to get the direction and inspiration I need to really pull all the plugs and just go for it. I've done it in the past, more than once. I must be able to do it one more time.

As far as that annoying itch of a member here at DT that has made it her goal to leave hints and lying remarks in the forums, I'm glad you are putting it all behind you. That is where all negativity belongs. I'm here to walk forward into the future with you, and it will be success that greets us in the end.

:hug:

Hi Lizzie,

I think it's time that some of the rest of us fight for your right to not be harassed here. If you are such a crappy person, why would she waste SO much energy on you? That is just.. silly. I can't believe how long this has been going on..

I'll respond to the rest of your post later. I just want the person to know, if she can read this, that you aren't the one on a rampage. ;) IT IS ALL ME!

Corinna

Hi, I'm back.. I gotta tell you th e100% thing REALLY (really really really) spoke to me. Heh, I'll apologize if that makes you feel less alone in your "personal truth".. ;) But that is SO TOTALLY ME!!! Thank you for that "aha" moment.

You can do it! I'm gonna go read the thread in your forum that you said had great response now.. If you feel stalked, it's just me looking for more of your wisdom..

Corinna

Lizzie - I can not tell you how very proud I am of you for posting about this nasty and needless situation !!!!! You needed to let it be known for sometime now, and I know you were trying to "keep the peace" by saying nothing or very little.
Lizzie those of us here who are your friends will gather around you and support you :D

OK as you said "enough said about "that" - time to let it go"

I am so thrilled that you got your PC fixed!!!!!! TD without Lizzie - Oh my! :tomato:

Yet one more thrill is yet to come lol your really on track in your mind and in your spirit with your weight loss goals, and that is just wonderful Lizzie!!!!!!!

I too hope your sister can come for a visit with you soon :)

I owe so much of where I am at today to you and your always "after" me to figure things out and to follow through on it and to require more of myself and now my friend I will return the favor and vote myself into the position of being your personal coach - aka - nag lol

Hope to see you posting more updates about how you are doing !

Beth :not:

Lizzie: Although this is your journal I need to clarify something

It has happened many times that you have told me off in your journal...by using she or the DT member...why not just use my name...however this particular time you have it all wrong... I will use the name beth in here as she is the only one that I addressed something to last week regarding you...and as far as I knew and understood from her post in Moving my mind from fat to fit....
that it was going to remain between beth and I as she posted

Yes, CJ is right and I stand corrected on posting my post to lulu here and will remove it and as was suggested will handle this in a more mature way and send her a PM, and keep any disagreements private from now on :)

I say my apologies to DT members, and my prayers for Donna :rose:

Beth :not:

When I am wrong I do not mind being corrected...but I do mind continually being jumped on for no good reason and especially for something that I definitely did not say....this is harassing ME and I really don't have to tolerate it......

Lizzie you are doing great.....I have seen much difference in your thinking and the way you are approaching your weight loss journey...I truly am happy for you.....Maybe some where along the way you will see I am not so against you after all.....maybe I do not always word things well..no excuses...just maybe..

Louise

I guess this is proof that the ignore button doesn't work.

Lizzie - :ghug:

What makes you think this is about you lulu?