Hi :)
I'm 22 and for the past couple of years I've always been yoyoing aroung my magic number. It started with me trying to lose some pounds I gained on vacation and ended in a binging- losing- cycle I just can't seem to end. Right now I'm again trying to lose those arghhh 12 + pounds. Food never was I big deal when I was small but now that has become a big issue since I really only feeling comfortable when I'm at the right numbers and feeling ugly and bad when I'm not. Back I don't know when I was totally confident about myself. I thought I was intelligent and funny and just a great girl for anyone to be with. But when guys became an issue that has changed totally. I seemed every time I thought I was beeing funny and charming no guy ever did. Guys usually define me as cude or pretty but no guy I meet is really interested in the person I am and what I think or have to say. It is just like I only have a chance when I'm skinny and pretty (I really have gotten to obsessing about cloth and styling which I never did before). When I 've gained weight I feel like I don't have any chance at all. The result is that when I don't fit my jeans I just don't bother anymore going out because I feel so ugly and worthless. I really would like to feel confident but the only times I do is when I'm at my ideal weight, and even then I'm totally attracting the wrong kind of men, and apart from that I feel so empty. I just don't know how to stop and feel happy again no matter how I look.

Hi Kitty :) Welcome to DT.

Right now I'm again trying to lose those arghhh 12 + pounds. Food never was I big deal when I was small but now that has become a big issue since I really only feeling comfortable when I'm at the right numbers and feeling ugly and bad when I'm not. Back I don't know when I was totally confident about myself. I thought I was intelligent and funny and just a great girl for anyone to be with. But when guys became an issue that has changed totally. I seemed every time I thought I was beeing funny and charming no guy ever did. Guys usually define me as cude or pretty but no guy I meet is really interested in the person I am and what I think or have to say.

First, I want to say something. Your weight is just a number on a scale. It doesn't measure how much you're worth or how intelligent, funny, charming or anything else you are.

Okay, that said, I also want to say that any guy who chooses you based solely on your looks is a jackass and doesn't deserve your attention. YOU are the one that wont bother with HIM. :) I'd be willing to bet if 12 pounds is all you have to lose you are not ugly and you certainly are not worthless.

If you're here just because you want to lose the 12 lbs, we can help you through that :D

It is just like I only have a chance when I'm skinny and pretty (I really have gotten to obsessing about cloth and styling which I never did before).

and soon if your not careful you will become obessed with what you put in your mouth to...and that isnt a health thing..

I feel so ugly and worthless. I really would like to feel confident but the only times I do is when I'm at my ideal weight, and even then I'm totally attracting the wrong kind of men, and apart from that I feel so empty. I just don't know how to stop and feel happy again no matter how I look.[

You arent ugly or worthless...but by you saying that you believe it and if other people tell you that you arent you are NOT going to believe otherwise...you have to re-set the way you see yourself...it brings off negitive vibes which in turn brings butt hole of guys around ..that make you feel 10 times worest...

the first thing you have to do to stop and feel happy is...start eating right...excerising...do something that makes you feel good about yourself...whatever it is that you enjoy...drawing,painting...or make a goal for yourself here with the 12 pounds...you will get a natural high off of achieving your goals or at least starting... you will start feeling WOO HOO!
and once you feel good about your self the guys will start noticing that..you will get positive feedback and guys will be dropping over themselfs to get your number...BELIEVE me ...i know ..i been there...but you have to see yourself in a good light be4 any guy does..cuz it wont happen...you feel good about your self = positive feedback from guys...end of :-)

and welcome to diet talk

Thanks, that's been inspiring! I there are some helpful points there. I'm going to start jogging again which really always made me feel better and which won't be bad for my goal either :D
And I decided I will take some time out from all the dating stuff. Just being with friends, concentrating on my studies, doing things I used to like a lot- gaining some confidence. I wanna get to WOO HOO that sounds good!