Well, this is my first entry and I reall ylike the idea of other people being able to read my journal rather than hide it from others, seems much more productive eh?

Well yesterday was good until about 12am in the morning. I had eated well gone to the gym (only for a short time) and came to my boyfriends. I was getting hungry because it was so late and they were ordering pizza. So I ordered a small one with veggies. I ended up eating all of it and half of the dessert they got too. I felt awful afterwards. But the problem is, there is never anything healthy to eat here. So, I decided I am going to get a few things to leave here for when I am hungry. Maybe some oatmeal, or some healthy granola bars of some sort.

I think that is my biggest struggle. Because this wonderful and handsome man loves me I am so caught up in my my weight loss has taken the back burner. I don't have a lot of weight to lose, but if i lost 15 lbs I would be SO HAPPY! but if I lost 20 lbs i would feel hot! Anyways I have to end this entry now, but this has already helped. I feel a bit required to lose now :)

Holl

Good Morning Holly,

I am so delighted that you decided to RESTART YOUR JOURNEY TO SUCCESS here at the Journals Forum and I assure you that EVERY TIME YOU POST in your Journal I will read with interest about your progress ....

You know this journey to success has many twists and turns for all of us .. but what I have found IS WE LEARN ... we learn about ourselves from the mistakes as well as THE SUCCESSES from this journey ...

JUST REMEMBER you are going to ACHIEVE THE GOALS YOU HAVE SET FOR YOURSELF ... BY TAKING IT ONE DAY AT A TIME ... AND ONE MEAL AT A TIME ... if you go from famine to feast .. that teaches you the importance of PLANNING ... you will do okay ... BELIEVE IN YOUR ABILITY TO SUCCEED ...

KNOW THAT YOU HAVE THE POWER AND THE ABILITY TO ACHIEVE WHATEVER YOU WANT TO ACHIEVE FOR YOURSELF ..... it will take time .. it will take patience BUT YOU LIKE THE REST OF US ARE SO WELL WORTH THE TIME AND PATIENCE IT TAKES .... make it a great day. As always, Monica

Well, I have not posted because I have been too embarrased too... My eating is out of control. Changes have to happen, or I won't be losing anything... I took the first step and I am going off the pill. I have always loved food but I have never loved food as much as I did when I was on the pill.. So, I made that decision....

I have to work today, and I work at the mall, so with all the fast food places it is sooo tempting... so today I go up with no money to spend and a packed lunch. I bought weight watchers bread yesterday, 1 point for 2 slices. The more I think of it I think I should be on some diet plan. Maybe weight watchers? I am a meticulous person so maybe writing down points and such would be a good idea for me....

Well, off to work, and all those mirrors around my cash, really dont help when I see my rather rotund rear in it... oh well...

cheers
holl