well i'll try this and see how it goes. Usually with my journals and the my life as it has been, the logs are the same. I don't get up in the morning, i don't prepare my food, i come home and i'm tired, want to watch a movie or whatever or binge. Nights are the worse for me.

I'm 30 in 270 odd days, august 13th is my birthday. I'm really tired of this endless cycle. I can't seem to make my "wants" into "happened" . I love food. I love the flavor and i'm emotionally attached to it too. It takes me back to childhood memories and so forth. It is so strong. I want to learn to eat in moderation. Have a soothing one or two bites, really enjoy it...

I want to be back to my mountain biking capabilities. I miss the outdoors. I would love to say "i ran a marathon".

I would love to put on the size 8 clothes that are in my "other closet"

I also love bridget jones (books and movies), jane austen. I can read these books over and over. the point is... I might take to journaling like bridget. i love her words and the way she journals. This probably sounds a might bit weird, but it will give me form and something to think apon. Maybe a daily quote.

I will have to think more about my goals.

to wanting to changing and changing wanting to happened

:welcome:

Beth :not:

I have about 30 pounds to lose to be a size 8 and lots of hours to increase exercise so i can run a marathon and mountain bike. I completely binged tonight. uggghhhh so fulll ate so much crap today. I think i'm still under2000 calories but this : double tall two pump nf latte for breakfest. a bagel with light sour cream with a coffee, small, with half and half. then when i got home arghhh. 1 cup light eggnog, .5 cup light whipcream, i chocolate chip cookie home made. two slices buttermilk bread. two slices turkey lf bolgna, still 50 calories per slice. one slice meunster cheese. two tablespoons lf mayonnaise. all my calories at night. ughhh feel horrible. and no exercise.

Hi Infiniti!
i was happy to see you back posting at the exercise addicts thread..staying accountable at that thread and in my journal has been really beneficial to me!
The new Bridget Jones movie only came out here in Australia last week so i havent seen it yet, but i plan to..i LOVED the first one.
good luck on getting back into those size 8's!
hugs bell :)

Hello, Infiniti!!! :wave: You have a great list of "wants" and with your intelligent attitude, seems like achieving success is in the bag! :up:

I've been rereading Jane Austen for years and years ... especially Emma! :)

155.8 pounds this morning (ahhh, watch this number it doesn't tend to go anyewhere) 2000 calories (not bad but 75% sugar and sweets) water lets not go there

8:50 am typical morning...wanting to get up early and go to gym or pack lunch and make breakfest. Instead i roll out 45 minutes before work, barely enough time to take the dogs out, dress and do hair. I drive to starbuks on my way to work for my morning coffee nonf fat (nf) grande add shot (that would be three) two pump pepermint latee with a bit of whip creamm (200 calories).

I won't eat anything else until lunch 11:30 am.

Thanks athletea and bell for the notes.

I'm suppose to go to gym with this new friend i just met. v. interesting. . .she works at the coffee shop i go to and happens to live a couple condos down in the same complex. she is v. nice. we will see if works. it would be awesome to have a friend/workout buddy so close.

Love jane austen: have you read Mr. Darcy takes a wife, sequal to pride and prejudice. v. good but a little explicit.

:wave: Hi Infin, and WELCOME TO JOURNALS!

Hmmm I didn't think your food looked to bad the other day! No GUILT.. Its just habit changes.... You can do it....

Good Luck on your journey Down....!

thanks maximum.

I am quite hungry right now. 10:00 am but only one hour and a half to go. I know "its just habit changes". I know what i'm suppose to do, i just don't know how to do it. I can't break the habit. I am so addicted to my routine. My stepmom saw this movie about becoming addicted to your routines. Must find out the name. it had a bunch of physics stuff in it about how your brain gets addicted to the chemicals it sees everyday and that is why it is hard to break habits.

what works for everyone to break their bad habits?

Yo, Infiniti! :wave: You're doing great ... no, never heard of Mr. Darcy takes a wife. Will search for it. Thanks!!!

Re breaking my bad habits ... I never do! :) Just keep chippin' away at them ...

so, how do you chip? I have not even figured that one out. I heard it takes 8 weeks (of torture, he he) to break a habit and form a new one. 8 weeks, seems short and then when you try it seems forever.

Day to day..... For me it started with me Tellingmyself that I could No longer eat the crusts of my sons sandwiches. ( in mymind they were just crusts,, Big deal, it wouldnt make me fat)..So since my brain was so set on IT DOESNT MAKE ME FAT.. I changed it o, Ok well its just a BAD HABIT, like saying the F word all the time... Which I'm trying to clean up..

Anywhoos, Everyday I would look at his sanwich crusts and tell my self no not today and THROW IT IN THE TRASH DEEEEEP DEEEP DOWN IJN THE GROSS TRASH! 1 day down... Before I knew it Ih ad become so used to it that I forgot about doing it. Then I moved on to his left overs, and not picking while I was making dinner and not snacking here and there and not licking the spoon or knife after everything I made. Just a little here and there day to day....

Hey maxim, i have to say WAY TO GO on your weightloss! Thanks for the input. I think the first thing i will do is...Eat a balanced meal when i come hom first, before anything sweet. I'll try this for the rest of the week. How old is your son? Maybe I will have children in three years don't know.

Hey! Thanks for posting to my journal, I love visitors. I replied to all your questions in my journal, b4 noticing that you had a journal of your own! Sorry! But good luck with everything, I will be keeping an eye on you, and all of your obstacles. You can do this. Actually... you will do this. Keep in touch!!!

:cheer:

lunch was half a tuna sandwhich, with all the veggies on squaw bread, 1 cup of enchilada tortillia soup and a small coffee with half and half and nonfat milk. love going out to lunch. I spend way to much on dining out and coffee.

don't ask how much water i have had ohhhh, hmmmm, 0! too lazy to go to trunk of car and get 4c. bottle. stupid.

No workout , typical and v. bad. many reasons see addicts link, mostly found a bunch of excuses:
1. friend didn't call
2. hungry
3. husband home
4. tired
5. want to read

I did eat a meal and no sweets. if you can call a burger and fries a meal lol. i only at half the bacon cheeseburger from rubys. and 20 fries and 5 onion rings, oyyy ranch for dipping.

no sweets major accomplishment there.

115.8 lbs (no wonder have done nothing about it) caffeine units 2 1700 calories i think. . .(well good) exercise 0 bahhhh sleep 9 hours ( i sleep to much) Number of excuses not to exercise oh about 6

7:39 morning breakfast was 2 cookies (home made chocolate chip, due not getting my butt up early enough, not preparing anything, no menusss...) and i'm off to starbuks for my grande nf 2 pump peppermint latte. (this will come later . . .coffee does make you age fasters...)
off too work. . .Lovely days...

forgot to say what i was going to do tonight. . .he he. .. write down all of my bad habbits my wills and will nots...

oops error .... should be 155.8 lbs not 115.8 (yes 40 lbs in a day lol)

Infiniti,

Well you've already started with the Bridgette Jones style...I've read the books and you've very clearly got a similar tone here already...Just work to be more positive about yourself and your choices than she is, okay? ;)

8 Weeks? Nah. 21 days. 21 days to form a new habit. If you do anything for a full 21 days, it'll be an integral, normal part of your life. That's only 3 weeks...sounds much easier to accomplish, eh?

I'll keep watching here....keep up the good work!

Walk in bliss,

morgayne

sometimes i'm more positive and sometimes i'm not. I try to stay heavier on the positive side.

i had 9 hours of sleep and i'm exhasted right now. I don't think it could be that i'm dehydrated! well i know it is.

I find as the older you get the harder it is to make friends. I live in a condo, moved away from my family (only 40 miles) and its so hard to find people that like to do the same thing i do. cooking, movies, videogames (yes i paly final fantasy, my husband wants to design characters for videogames), run , go to 24 hour fitness, bike, go to farmers markets, bike,

I think part of the problem is i'm not a motivator. I will do about anything but someone has to invite me. I think i'm too intesne and too much of a realist too.

anyway back to work. . .

Infiniti:

Hey, can I ask as to where you guys are located in California? We're up in the north bay area - sounds like we have some hobbies in common :)

Not likely, but if we're close we could work together to motivate each other to exercise...


morgayne

I live in southern california near irvine, actually south of it. Always looking for buddies but most of the time they do not live near me. : ( or are too busy or don't like to do what i like to do.

Your in northern california? my husbands parents live in san jose. i go up there sometimes. thanks fro stopping by.

? lbs calories today hmmm, if i don't eat any sweets, which probably won't happen...1620. cups of water 2 caffeein units 2. exercise... well i should go run 2 miles, but i'm tired its cold. i think you should just call me the women of excuses.

so much more fun to read successful journals...argghhh
: ( wa suppose to go out to dinner with someone but i called her and go voicemail. then i decided to eat and asked if she wanted to go for walk /gym. she hasn't called. i think i scare people off... oh well.

on the light side, husbands store chain has a store manager position opening up by us in january, would be great if he got position. he's been thru " or your so wonderful,did everything right but... we are hiring someone else" too many times.

hope your hubby gets the managers position when it opens up!
wish you didnt live on the opposite side of the Earth..sounds like you and i like to do a lot of them same stuff!!!
Finding people with similar interests isnt always easy is it? i have some great friends but not many of them like to do outdoors type stuff or exercise..
hugs bell :)