ASTRORIDER
12-15-04, 05:08 PM
[FONT=Comic Sans MS] I have started my goal to a new better, slimmer, healthier me. I am shooting for 2 years to get there, 1 have 172 pounds to loose.
Today was an ok day for me. At work we had our holiday luncheon, so I at chicken and turtey, mashed taters and green beans. The caters cooked everything in BUTTER. The this morning my kids had thier holiday breakfast, so ate sausage and pastries with them.
I came to my bottom a few months ago. I'm getteting so tired of people looking at me, marking me as 'fat' before they acknowledge that i'm a person. I want to be accepted as a person not stared at and talked about. My son asked me to lose weight, and he's only 5 years old. That kinda hurt.
I've only been on the site for maybe and hour or more. I read the one person's letter to Food. I've done that, but i've actually haven't been tight with my restraint on not over eating. I do curves 3 times a week. It feels good. I do Leslie Sansome walk away the pounds 3 mile walk. But inspite of all my physical efforts i still pile the plate up high or 'graze' my what through the days. I have get on a tough track.
About 4 years ago i lost about 50lbs just cutting the fats, not eating junkfood and walking, walking, walking. I pray for that will power to return. So that i can get into shape, i felt so good loosing then. I need, i want to get that feeling back. I 'm not sure what's so different now that its so hard for me to commit myself. At the beginning of the summer iwas at 304 then jumped to 322 now im at 318 since i've started curves, but i know that i can do better if i can just cut the fat!
Today was an ok day for me. At work we had our holiday luncheon, so I at chicken and turtey, mashed taters and green beans. The caters cooked everything in BUTTER. The this morning my kids had thier holiday breakfast, so ate sausage and pastries with them.
I came to my bottom a few months ago. I'm getteting so tired of people looking at me, marking me as 'fat' before they acknowledge that i'm a person. I want to be accepted as a person not stared at and talked about. My son asked me to lose weight, and he's only 5 years old. That kinda hurt.
I've only been on the site for maybe and hour or more. I read the one person's letter to Food. I've done that, but i've actually haven't been tight with my restraint on not over eating. I do curves 3 times a week. It feels good. I do Leslie Sansome walk away the pounds 3 mile walk. But inspite of all my physical efforts i still pile the plate up high or 'graze' my what through the days. I have get on a tough track.
About 4 years ago i lost about 50lbs just cutting the fats, not eating junkfood and walking, walking, walking. I pray for that will power to return. So that i can get into shape, i felt so good loosing then. I need, i want to get that feeling back. I 'm not sure what's so different now that its so hard for me to commit myself. At the beginning of the summer iwas at 304 then jumped to 322 now im at 318 since i've started curves, but i know that i can do better if i can just cut the fat!