Five freaking pounds!!!!! No matter what I do, they just will not go away. I've re-started phase 1 of South Beach. Today is day 3. I did cheat yesterday, and I'm sure I'll cheat again. But, I'm keeping the cheats in check, not crazy binging and not going completely off plan just because I'm not being perfect. I feel good, I always feel better when I'm eating well. I think I'm really begining to look at this as a way of life, not just a diet. I still want those last 5 pounds gone X-(

I did get back to the gym on Saturday. I'm thinking that incorporating exercise back into my daily life is going to be key to reaching my goal. Aside from losing some pounds I need to tone up my belly. It still has baby flab. I have to start with pilates again. There's a class I'm planning on Thursday morning.

Along with the weight/diet issues I'm trying to clear clutter in my house. I started by cleaning out my closet and getting rid of clothes that I don't wear anymore. I still have to do something with them. Most of them will get donated, but some of the nicer things will go to ebay--I just need to get my act together.

OK, I guess technically I'm doing phase 2 of South Beach because I do go off plan - mostly at night for a treat, but then I am right back on. I guess I'm just looking to make this new eating principles that I can live with.

Today I weighed 134.5 I know it's just water weight, but I'm happy to see any number less than 135. I do weigh almost everyday I just can't help it.

Not much exercise yesterday, just hauling the trash and recycle stuff out in the sweltering heat.

I still weigh 134.5 I am glad that I seem to be maintaining, but...

Am going to the beach for the week on Saturday. I need to go bathing suit shopping, so I get to do that on Thursday. I'm also getting my hair cut on Thursday -- so a good and bad day :laugh:

Maybe you should try to only weight your self once a week or once every two weeks, you may be setting yourself up for failure by obsessing what that scale reads. Good Luck on the last 5 lbs!

Hi Mommybuddy,

Thanks for dropping in at my journal.

I have to tell you, I'm not sure how I do it with 2 toddlers either, I just do. Last night I was sooooo tired, and so hot, and both the boys were stinky stink. I was thinking what if I just put them to bed? Then I thought, "What the he^&! What's wrong with you?" The fact that I had that thought of putting them to bed like that just scares me. How could I even think that?

So what it boils down to is that I have to get this weight off so that I can have more energy for my not so little babies. I wanted my husband to take care of those little stinky butts, but that is not an option with us. So since it has to be me ALL the time I have to lose the weight so I'm able to keep up with the demand.

I will say though that I WILL get the clutter out of this house so that I can call a cleaning service. I have no intentions of trying to keep up with the mess my 3 men are going to leave me with.

Let me know how that EBAY thing is working out for you. I hate to just throw things out. It's so painful.

If I don't get back in here before the weekend, have a great time at the beach, hope you love your new do & the new bathing suit too! Take lots of pics to share.

Nandi :rose:

We're back :)

Hi Vulgarian20, you're right, I shouldn't weigh myself as much as I do, but I can't seem to help it, I'm an addict. I only weigh myself first thing in the morning. I used to weigh myself all during the day and night, so I'm improving?

Nandi - it's so good to hear from you. Being a mommy is very demanding. It's definately the hardest thing I've ever had to do, but also the most amazing and rewarding. My baby is my motivation to stay healthy too, I want to be able to be a fun, active parent for her.

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We had a great time at the beach. Brynn loved the ocean. She would squeal at the waves. I have some pics of us on the beach. I'll probably only leave them up for a day or two. I'm paranoid about putting pics online, anyway, here they are...
http://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y292/nicolelc/BEACH009.jpg
This is the only pic I have of Brynn and I on the beach
http://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y292/nicolelc/BEACH004.jpg
Playing on her blanket

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Last night I spent about a half hour on yoga downstairs. No video, just going thru som poses on my own. It felt really good, and I felt good afterward. I'm going to try to do that more often.

My diet is not anything right now. I'm just trying to be balanced, and get plenty of water.

Did yoga again last night, small victories. I was upstairs in the living room though, and I know dh was laughing at me--whatever 8-|

Good Morning Niki!

Gggiiirrrlll, You look great! You can lose those last few lbs if ya wanna, but if you don't, no biggy! You look happy, healthy and beautifully in love with that precious little girl. How cute is she! Looks like you had a good time at the beach.

Now I'm curious, is that a candid picture of dd, or did she pose? Neither of mine will just let you take a candid shot, as soon as they see a camera they start posing & clowning. It's really frustrating, but always too cute to get mad at.

As to the diet being "not anything" right now. I don't think that's entirely true. You are still watching what you eat, eating healthy as much as you can, drinking your water, and let's not forget about the yoga. Seems to me that you are doing very well actually. Just because you are not following a formal program does not mean that it's not working for you. Keep doing what you are doing and you will lose the weight. You're doing a good job at watching your weight, don't kid yourself.

You tell dh that he should try getting his butt down there on the floor and try some of those yoga positions. Then we will see who's laughing :laugh: Don't let him discourage you. You will be looking all fine, turning heads.

Have a great week!

Nandi :rose:

Thanks Nandi for the compliments, and the encouragement. You're right about my diet, I'm not on any kind of formal plan right now, but I am always conscious about what and how much I'm eating, which is better than the mindless eating I used to do. I am trying to work on not being so hard on myself and try to keep reminding myself that things do not have to be perfect to be good -- in all aspects, diet, exercise, cleaning my house, etc.

RE, the picture of dd, when I snap a picture of her I have to do it right away because as soon as she sees the camera she will start crawling toward me to try and play with it. I have so many close-up pics of her face staring right into the lens :laugh: It's cute that the boys will ham it up for the camera.

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No yoga last night, but I did practice on Wednesday night, so that's 3 nights so far this week. I am doing "playful practice" set from a book that I have. Next week I will probably move on to some different poses. I've been practicing at night after dd goes to sleep, it's a nice way to relax and end the day.

Hey Nikic

Those pounds will come off - sounds like you are on a good road to get where you want to go.

Cute pics!!

Take care!

Hi Rabbit, yeah I think the pounds will come off eventully, but I am impatient and want them off yesterday :laugh:

Had a nice relaxing weekend. DH and I got to go out on a date Friday night, it was fun. Got a bit tipsy from a couple glasses of wine.

I've been thinking about dd's birthday party. I want to have a big bash for her first b-day. DH doesn't want a big party with lots of people in the house. He doesn't understand why we should have a party at all since she's too young to know what's going on. I told him the party is really for me--I'm celebrating making it through the first year. He suggested we have the bash at a local restaurant, which would be nice and tons easier, but I'm afraid it would be lots more $$$. I guess I'll check into it, I've got time.

Would like to get back into the yoga groove tonight, I haven't been there for the past few days.

No yoga last night, but I did get to bed early, I'm still sooooo tired today. It must be the weather, so dreary. I won't complain about it, at least we're not getting hit by the hurricane. I can't imagine having my home washed away :( There were so many sad stories on the news this morning.

I've been getting lots of water in lately, that's the best thing about my diet right now.

I seem to be happier lately. I'm not sure why, nothing much has changed. My mood in general just seems better than it's been for awhile. Just wanted to write that down, I hope it remains that way.

I think I finally got dh to agree to a party for dd's first birthday at our house. I'm so excited, I can't wait to start all of the planning. I think we'll do an open house type thing, that way people can come and go as they please. Now I just have to start saving up so that I can go crazy with decorations.

No change on diet and exercise. I've been having some wicked junk food cravings, all TOM related.

Hi Niki,

Glad you are feeling better, that's always a plus. Soon you won't even have time to think about how you feel. Once they can walk and assert their independence look out! :help:

So what's the deal with the 1st Birthday party? Why did you need to talk dh into that? It's the first, you gotta do something. Keep in mind that you have a little one that could really care less about the decorations though. So don't go too crazy spending on them. Make sure to have some colorful balloons if she likes them. All the rest is really about Mommy.

My best advice for the 1st BD party is to make sure you plan it precisely around dd's nap time. Is she on a schedule? You will have a much better time if she does not get cranky.

Nandi :rose:

He suggested we have the bash at a local restaurant, which would be nice and tons easier, but I'm afraid it would be lots more $$$. I guess I'll check into it, I've got time.

OK, so if I would have read everything before I responded I would have known this ... Duh! :o

So, with regard to time, you have roughly 60 days. You are out of time already, better get started. :laugh:

Nandi :rose:

:laugh: 60 days is not nearly enough time, I should have started planning in May. Thanks for the nap time hint. I'll try to plan the party for after her morning nap, hopefully it will be winding down in time for her afternoon nap.


The weather is perfect today, too bad I'm stuck inside at work. I think dd and I will take a walk when I get home.

Nothing much is new, still drinking my water.

Still plugging along diet and exercise-wise.

Got to spend a little alone time with dh yesterday afternoon, it was really nice.

I think we are def going to have dd's party out somewhere. Now I just have to get the guest list together to see how much $$$ we're talking.

Got to spend a little alone time with dh yesterday afternoon, it was really nice.

Alone time with dh? What's that? :( Glad you had a chance to be together.

Actually, we have plans to go to dinner and Octoberfest on the 17th. With my luck the sitter will get sick.

Nandi :rose:

Nandi - if I weren't on the other side of the country I would come sit for you. I hope that you do get to go out as planned, even a few hours can make a huge difference.

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Things are still going for me, just making an effort to have nutritious meals and get in plenty of water.

Nandi - if I weren't on the other side of the country I would come sit for you. I hope that you do get to go out as planned, even a few hours can make a huge difference.

How sweet, I believe you would. However, I think the TT's have hit this week. My sweet little angels were suddenly transformed into lil devils :lil: :lil: Testing everything they could. When you would tell one that he couldn't do something the other would come right behind him and do it anyway. Oh, it's been a really special week.

How's the party planning going? Have you decided on a theme?

Nandi :rose:

I can't wait for the terrible two's to hit, yeah right. Your two angels must be keeping you very busy.

Oh, the party, sigh, I think I'm going to ditch the whole big party idea. My extended family is being difficult. My grandmother wants everyone invited (both my dad and mom come from families of 6 kids - I have 19 cousins on just one side!!!) It is getting out of control, it is def an all or nothing situation, so now I'm leaning toward just having a little celebration at home with just immediate, immediate family, I think it will be more special that way, after all, dd won't remember it anyhow.

TOM was here all weekend, so feeling generally bloated and yucky. I need to concentrate more on getting in good foods, veggies and fruits. I think I'll go back to a phase II of South beach, which is really just good carbs, and lean meats, how I should be eating anyhow.

I finally decided for dd's party we are just having a small gathering at home. Will still be about 20 people, but all people she knows. Now I'm having fun making the invitations.

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My throat hurts, blach. Fall just began and already a cold. Not good for the diet, don't feel like making an effort with my eating

Cold seems to have passed pretty quickly. Going grocery shopping tonight. I will try to pick up lots of fruits and good things. Since I've already gotten sick and it's only September I want to make an extra effort to stay healthy this winter. I hope dd stays healthy too. I hate when she's not feeling well.

I feel fatter lately, I don't know why. Maybe it's just bloat. I really haven't been doing anything differently. I really want to restart South Beach, but I think I will wait until after dd turns 1 and I stop breastfeeding. I have been good about taking my vitamins lately.

Went out last night with a couple of friends--girls night out. We went to the Olive Garden. I was so excited for their salad and breadsticks. It was good, but not as good as I remembered it being. I also had a lovely glass of red wine, mmmmmmm.

No big plans for this weekend, but next weekend my mom and I are going to Rehoboth. DH is staying home with baby. I can't wait!

Beach was nice, we did so much shopping. I've put myself on a detox diet starting today. I'm planning a trip to the health food store this afternoon to pick up some things.

I'm concerned about dd's diet. She'll be switching over to regular milk soon, but she still doesn't eat much else. Lately she's been refusing veggies. She'll eat applesauce, cheerios and cheese. I'm scared that she won't be getting any nutrients at all once the nursing stops.

Detox diet is going pretty good so far. My menu is pretty limited, fruits, veggies, rice, herbal tea and nuts, and of course lots and lots of water.

Yesterday I had an apple and grapes in the morning, salad with oil/vinegar for lunch, a vegetarian chili over rice for dinner, strawberries and herbal tea with honey for dessert. Today is only day 2 and I can tell I've lost bloat and water weight. Work will be hard, they're providing pizza and chips and soda for lunch and a cake for one of my coworkers. I must be strong. I brought leftover chili and rice to eat.

This detox is supposed to go on for 2 weeks, but I think after the first week I may start to add back some meat--at least some chicken. 1 week of beans and nuts for protein will be ok, but I'm not so sure about 2.

I did add some meat and cheeses back into my diet. Taking it easy on the grains. This morning I was 134.5, only 4.5 pounds to goal. I am scared that once I hit my goal weight I'm still going to be disapointed. I'm so much flabbier in the middle after baby. I really have to get into the exercise swing of things again. It's just so hard to make time with baby, work, and house to take care of.

Working on weaning dd right now, I wonder how that is going to affect my weight and appetite. I was just going to stop cold turkey, but this am my bbs were huge and I was scared I would leak at work, how embarassing would that be.