good morning all,i am attemping to get back on the track to health. i have made the mistake of putting other things before me.i have not been at the sight much in the past year.lots has been going on in my life.my eldest daughter has just finished her last scans to make sure is fine after having a carcinoid tumor removed from her appendex.she went thru a year of ab and bone scans every 3 months.she now has a clean bill of health and is off to her first year in college. shortly after diagnosis last fall i came down with a wicked case of viral menangitis. i didnt realize til it was over we almost me.come january marc got a serious concussion on the ski hill( he had his helmut on thank god) and to top off a super year my hub came down with diverticulitis and ended in the hospital for a week. we are now all fit as fiddles here non worse for the wear.thru this all i continued to exercise but my eating was haywire. my exercise was lacking more this summer than it has in 4 years.my is at 222 today when i started here my weight was 230.so while i aint back to it im damn close. so im down on myself and am going to way increase the exercise and gain control of my night eating. also am getting back to having a good breakfast. wish me luck lord knows i need it.i didnt write this out to get pity just to get myself moving and taking care of me again.

Hi Marg: Welcome back:wave: Sorry... I did nto respond to your PM but I did convey your message to Monica... You really have had a tough year:( I personally think you have done great not gaining all your weight back... Life is hard at time and deals us a bunch of lemons..You have done a good job making lemonaid with all you have had on your plate.....
Marg..It does no good for me to say don't get down on yourself..but maybe just start today and take it one day at a time..forget yesterday..It is gone..Ya can't get it back..or change anything that happened..so all you have is today...You will starting losing again.I know that...
I saw you in chat this morning all by your lonesome but I just don't go to chat much and I was going out to deliver some Avon orders before it got too hot here....Monica has a chat on Thursday night at 9 pm I plan on attending ...Made it last week and hope to keep going..I find her chats good...

Again welcome back Marg..Keep coming back and I will keep on supporting you in your new journal...

:hug:
Lulu

Hello Marg, :wn

I am so glad to see you have posted a Journal ... now I can visit you and KEEP UP WITH YOUR SUCCESS ....

I was on earlier and I did see your message in my Journal ... today has been a very hectic day for me .. I had to go and order the food platters for my youngest daughter's (Jessica) bridal shower which is this Saturday ..

I had meant to come and post in my Journal but we had a power outage that lasted from 12 p.m. until just a few minutes ago ...

Les and I have been wrapping her gifts ... some of which were the weirdest shapes but although Jessica didn't say she wanted us to wrap the gifts ... lol most of the fun is ripping thru the paper ...

I am so glad that you have started here ... AND I KNOW that the coming months YOU WILL ACHIEVE YOUR WEIGHT LOSS GOALS ... it takes time my friend ... look at me I have been at this for 5 years .. I've learned a great deal BUT I STILL HAVE MUCH TO LEARN.

Well I am going to go and post a brief message in my own Journal ..

And as Louise (Lulu) said I do host a chat here on Thursday evening at 9 p.m. EST I hope you will stop by .... we've just started it again last week ... and each person has selected the goals THEY ARE GOING TO ACHIEVE for this month .... each month we will select goals ... or keep the same goals ..

Have and make it a great evening. I am as always, Monica :hug:

thanks for the replies gals.i got the kids off then went to the y this moring.lifted for 30 min then walked on the tread for 15. a friend and i started our fall hike series called hike lake county il.its where you hike all the different forest perserves in the area. at the end you get a nifty tag for your walking stick.i did well eating yesterday.i weighed again this am ans am still 220.thats it i dont hop on that scale again til next tues!! i so appreciate your replies mon and lu.its gave me a real lift this morning.ty.p my new goial for this week is... eat breakfast with my kids before they leave instead of waiting til 11 and having my first food.drink up more water has been no issue!

Hello Marg!!!
I just found your Journal.
Thanks for visiting mine.
You had a really difficult year!
Happy to hear that everyone is ok now.
Good luck with your new plan!
We can encourage each other.

Hi Marg - you don't know me but I just saw your new journal and thought I'd drop in to say "hey". :wave:

Sorry to read about all the medical traumas your family has gone through recently. Wow. Here's wishing you guys nothing but good health in the year ahead! Best of luck to you with your eating and exercise plan. Just taking the first step by expressing your goals is :super:

well i did it breakfast at 6 30 in the morning.after the initial barf feeling passed i was proud of myself.i had yougurt and a banana. i then readied myself for my parent meeting tonight. i told myself my reward would be a good long hike with the pup.(sofie) any way when i finished i got up dresssed left the kitchen a mess and walked.itsd going to be around 75 in chicago today.i big change from 90s we have been having all summer.thank god a north wind finally blew in.so all in all the day is going super great. im drinking some green tea now and going to stick to health today!!

Hi Marg: :thumbs up: on the earlier Breakfast...I am sue you will find it a grat help...I never used to be a breakfast person do now..well it is the first thing I do after blood testing..

The fall hikes sound like fun...Enjoy them... It is hot and sticky here today in Montreal.....has been for Monday and Tuesday too..supposed to break on Friday..Thank goodness...Many people I hae spoken to have said they really did not enjoy this summer as it was just too darned hot...to really do any exercising or even sitting outside..

Have a good one Marg...Yo are doing great...
Lulu

thanks lulu!! its been a long hot hot summer here too.well i did get that breakfast in this am.a banana.and about a 1/2 cup of pasta.i know weird pasta in the morning....well my daughter had it so i just finished it off.not the best but not nothing either.i then headed off to the y to walk on the tread for 15 and lift weights for 45 min.on weight days(tu thur) i walk less. i personally dont like tread mills and perfer my out side on my off weight days.i have a pal i walk with at the y.i told her of my breakfast plan. i told her if i dont eat breakfast on a day i come there ill up the tread to 30 as my tourture! parent night went well at school last night.i did come home and have 3 cookies though...i need some willpower!! but alass 4 years ago that would have been about 8 to 10 cookies. so i plug on.................p ..........if anyone reads this how do you all do all those fancy graphics by your name and such?

Hi Marg. Good on starting the exercise.. I started this morning. Very slowly and easily but it is a start and sure made me feel how far I have to go.. Oh how stiff and 'unlimber' I think those are synonimus but anyhow I am both..lol
It was good to at least get a start on it. My friend came over yesterday and we decided to start walking. Will attempt it Saturday morning.
Look forward to your journal..

thanks for the encouragement wan.had a good weekend.ate well and walked a good hike sunday.i am waiting for thre rain to stop to get out there today.had breakfast.its starting to go down easier.i will weigh tomorrow....................p:)

wel here i am one pound lighter.it was a good weekend. dd was home from college.she is stressing me. she is not liking being away at school at all. she says it is very hard to make friends.she is shy so i feel for her.i tell its one semester at a time.she can come home if she purely hates it.my son was home sick today so i didnt walk.i just wanted to be with him cause i had to leave him home alone all pm while i worked.i almost forgot to weigh in this am.im not used to it again yet.im happy with one pound and look forward to more off. i have stuck with breakfast for one week today!!i need to get myself some wheat germ for those hurried mornings.219 and counting p

Great job,marg! :)

beautiful day here.marc is still homwe sick.poor guy.im off for a walk.im most proud of myself for getting thru parent nighs without a nibble of parent goodies. this weekend we are headed down to the state softball tournament.my dd is volenteer coaching a team and dang if they didnt make it to state.should be fun.my plan is to do some walking around il state univer.i can smell the corn already.well off to walk!!:D

monday morning....not a great weekend for me.we went to the tournament and it rained rained.my walking was kaput.the girls lost in their first game.my eating was not good.i ate a corn dog! i wonder what the cals are in one of those babies.i hadnt had one in like 10 years.i think ill wait another ten before i do it again!!it was not so good as it looked.sunday we were home and it was still a rotten rainy day but warm.i decided to do some gardening.i was at it about an hour when i pulled my back.ouch.i tried to walk it out and continued with trimming bushed at standing height.it is sore today but off for a slow walk after writing this. i had a yougurt foir breakfast this moring.only 100 cals. i am now going to increase that cal intake in the morning.hang in me!p

Marg, don't beat yoiurself up over a corn dog. You just do the best you can every day and do it one step at a time. We had a very busy weekend, teaching CranioSacral Therapy so didn't have much time to eat. Well, not true, they did bring lots of goodies but also lots of healthy food, fruit and veggies. I'm off for a walk now too. that will help keep us in shape.

wan ty!im starting a new thread for my journal today.i am happy to report 3 pounds off which now makes 4 since i started this tread!!patting self on back!

well im losing it.i am slow to learn this computer stuff, im trying to start a new tread but am noty seeing how to do it>i think when i started this jouranl it said start a new tread. now im not seeing it.si my new tread when i figure it out will be ahoy there im on board!!! 4 pounds down!im all feeling good.almost skipped on my walk.that makes me down 9 pounds since mid aug.yesterday winona judd was on oprah.i find her so honest and brave.she is inspiring to me.she said something i related to.....i may not be right where i wan to be with myself but im not where i was. gthat is so true for me.when starting this real life change in 2001 i was very different.i may have strayed here and there but im better happier and way more in control with food.good for me!! any help figuring out the computer would be most welcome!!!

Good going Marg, I like that quote.. We are only moving forward even if sometimes it doesn't feel like it. We are constantly learning.
Congrats on the wt loss. I haven't been around a scale for a long time. I know I gained 30 lbs during the winter and didn't lose it this summer like I thought I would. but making one step at a time and it will come off . Or I will at least get healthier. I'm feeling very good right now, albeit heavier than I want. But have made some really great attitude adjustments so really looking positive on most things.
hugs,

i am the same as you about the computer, good to see you back! thanks for stopping by my walking journal.

back on board here.have had no time to figure out the new threaD thing. no patience for it either i guess.had a good workout this am apples and pb for breakfast.thanks for stopping by wan and jud.you inspire to keep doinbg this journaling!i still cant beleive that scale yesterday.i almost hopped back on today and stopped myself.i must always remind myself the scale is a tool not my judge of self.something seems to clicking this time around.does anyone reading this remember fred.....hes used to annoy me at times but i find many of his thoughts still run thru my head.i wonder how the phat man is doing.i am not counting cals and am losing. lets face it i know how to eat and what to eat.i knopw all about portion control exercise water and loving myself.now its time to impliment it.the other day choclate covered macadamia nuts stood before waving almost.i said to svelt assistant you shall she i am not goint to eat one of those little buggers today i will begoin the task of mastering willpower.and i bragged i have period too which makes this a double challenge to me.guess what it was no challenge i really never thought of them the rest of the day.god that felt good.hang in there me and anyone who reads this!!p:D

stay strong with the will power, i too had to go back to WW, over the last few yrs several pounds had crept back on, it was hard to admit that, because i was still eating lowfat, no desserts/gravies/butter or oleo etc, but they still came back! but as the years advance it takes more work! my portions had gotten larger, but i never binged, unfortunately i come from genetics of people battling 30 pds, so it comes on very easy for me. One thing i do need to do is resistance traning to build some muscle tone, that would help my metabolism, i have just been doing walking for years. you sound strong Marg, keep it up!

ty jud. i sound strong at times lol.today im a bit down scale showed me at 219.thats 3 pounds up from last week.in reality im not surprised cause my last weigh in was 2 days after my p was over.thats no water time.so im down 1 in two weeks.alass i shall not give in.i went to the gym this am.lifted and tread milled it.sounds like we come from the same stock judil.always a fight.i figure im glad i got with it in my forties. it could be worse if i let it keep piling on.we had a great weekend.dinner at freinds sat boating all day sunday.relaxing.yesterday i called 911 for the first time in my life.a little girl in my class fell and broke her arm really bad.i feel so bad for her.im keeping on !!!!!p

Good morning Marg. I havent written in my journal for a while.. was glad to see you had posted in yours so it will get me back on track.
Will be leaving the mts to go home (altho I feel at home here also) but will be at my permanent home.. It will be good to get set in a routine again, (I think). you know there are always pros and cons to everything.. anyhow, keep up the exercise.. sounds like yoiu are on the right track.

always will to lend a hand wan.you always have inspired me as well!doing okay this morning. my 53 year old sister had angioplasty thius morning.she was feeling really yuck and when she went to work put herself on a moniter then went to er.she is an rn.we have the most wicked heatr history in our family.my dad and my uncles died at young ages.52 for my dad.i was 12.its now traveling to this generation. my 50 year old brother had a double bypass last year. lets just say i went for an extra long walk this am.most important.......... eat right......... exercise......... take things light.thats it for today p

thursday....doing goood this am. i think this journal is keeping me more on track.i miss the pub chat though........had a breakfast of banana and grape juice this am.i then headed off to the gym to lift. i also rode the bike for 15 min.rode 5.4 miles.i am taking the dog for a walk before i leave for school.i sure would like off this new blood pressure med.have been doing good upping the veggies.i maqde this zuke stew from my garden. just mixed up zukes peper garlic and stewed tomatos onions ans more italian spices.is mighty tastey if i do say so. i really am having difficulty in the night snack time....last night a fat free fudge cycle and a popcycle. how do you spell that??no time to care!lol

Great job, marg!

morning.....its 9 and i just woke up.went back to sleep after the kids left at 7.ah that felt good.i am waking to a cold day.its 35 out it was 85 wednesday.im waitin for it warn a bit before i hit the streets for a walk.had a late dinner last night.i try to eat before six.went to bed on a full stomach which is not so good.looking forward to a good weekend.im going hiking with a freind sat and out boating on sunday. anyone reading this have a great healthy weekend.p

hey marg love you always gs

Sounds like a fun plan! Wish I could go hiking too, sounds great!!

hey my hub left me a message. what a guy.thnaks for the reply bear.i havent been journaling because the sight wasnt letting me log on for some days.im doing preety good.my weight is at 217 right now.havent seen the teens of 2 for a while so im happy but still feeling fat.went for a 3.6 mile hike sat.wow we forgot to look at the hike map and didnt know how far we went til it was over.when i saw my car a again i thought it was a merage.im off to the doc to get blood work this am.my colesteral is up again with the meds im on.so we are trying to figure it out or change meds.im hanging in!! p

Good job, Marg! :)
I was just wondering about you.

Hello Marge. Looks like your doing a wonderful job keeping your diet and exersise on track. Keep up the good work, you're on a roll so don't stop now.
Hope your colesterol levels are better and hope your sister is doing well.
I'll be checking in on you again to see how you're doin.
You go girl!! :up: Mary

Marg, just wanted to stop by and wish you well and also to encourage you onward( get that exercise in) work on your food program. Just havent felt real talkative lately, had some life issues lately and i am working through them. Hasnt affected my exercise or food, so i am handling that fine, lost 1/2 pds this past week, i will take it, itis harder and harder to get off. whew! in a few yrs i will hit 60, i dont even want to know how difficult it will be then LOL stay strong Marg!

happy halloween.i have been busy lately.doing goood with food and exercise.it will be a challenge to keep up the walking in winter.lots going on here.my basketball star dd blew her knee.she is devistated.its so hard to see her hobbling about.she is scheduled fopr surgery the 22. i am calling the doc this moring to plead he do it sooner as 3 weeks is forever away in her sports mind.we will know after surgery if she is out for i month or 4 monthes.she is a junior in high school. she has been a varsity player since 9th grade.most sad is the girls she has played with for years are seniors now.on the bright side hercoach is letting her step into the postion on assistant coach. things have a way of working out. my older dd isfianlaly adjusting to college life.so much so im calling her to say are you alive? ds is going to be a poacher for halloween.he is wearing my big fake fur ,his camo clothes. a zebra hat.being a conservationist i tried to get him to be a cowboy or something anything else.then i remebered hes 13 so i should pick and choose my battles!............................now onto me....my doctor switched my med and we will check coles. in a month.on wednesday im biting the bullet and having a heart scan. i think its time to just what is happening in there.im scared to find out really. time will tell. i haVENT BEEN DOING TO GOOD KEEPING UP ON THIS JOURNAL.opps . it seems when i get on line college dd is on and we end up iming. iread alot of newspapers and in the last week stories keep jumping out at me about how journaling is so good for a person. i had to laugh and think of my journaling buds here. so here i am back at it! i bought smaller pants this weekend.went for a 20 to 18. i was 22 last winter so that felt grand indeedy. i didnt walk over tyhe weekend but i gardened up a storm and cleaned out and winterized the boat with dh.im on track and i intend to stay on in thru this choclatey day! trick or treat? ill take the trick!

Great job, marg! :hop:
Hope your daughter recovers soon!
Have a fun Halloween!

well well well...............halloween......did i not sound sure and excited about not eating treats yesterday?i was unable to stay clean so to speak.had brownies at school and choclate at night when marc returned.not as much as i wanted but alass not nothing like i had planned.now im not writing this to beat myself up more but just as a tool to help me understand.....what gives im confident one moment slipping the next.my own worst enemy it seems. i did a beautiful walk with the pup yesterday morning. we walked the new neighborhood across the way.then this morning i just didnt have it in me to go lift.up down up down.so i travel on saying new day.

Good Morning,

I read your post of this morning and your previous post ... my friend you and I both know we will continue to have these :up: and :down: moments in our weight loss journey ...

You asked for my opinion so I am going to tell you what I HAVE TO KEEP TELLING MYSELF ... THIS IS SOMETHING I CAN AND WILL DO ...

I WILL DO IT BY TAKING IT ONE DAY AT A TIME .. ONE MEAL AT A TIME ...

and I HAVE THE POWER AND THE ABILITY TO ACHIEVE WHATEVER GOALS I SET FOR MYSELF ..

Marg, yesterday is PAST ... today is HERE . . and there are many TOMORROW'S TO COME . I know and truly believe LOSING WEIGHT TAKES TIME AND PATIENCE .. and even though we CONTINUE TO MAKE POOR CHOICES (from time to time) .. WE LEARN FROM OUR MISTAKES ....

I keep remembering what my father told me when I was a little girl YOU CAN MAKE A MISTAKE ONCE ...
YOU CAN MAKE A MISTAKE TWICE ..
BUT IF YOU KEEP MAKING THE SAME MISTAKE OVER AND OVER AGAIN ...
IT'S NOT A MISTAKE ... IT'S THE CHOICE YOU HAVE MADE

By our writing our Journals and seeing in black and white the mistakes (choices) we've made WE CAN CORRECT THEM AND CONTINUE MOVING FORWARD.

I'm here for you Marg ... so KEEP FOCUSING ON YOUR GOAL ... KNOW THAT YOU CAN AND WILL ACHIEVE THAT GOAL ... AND ONLY LOOK BACK TO LEARN .. Have and make it a great day . I am as always, Monica

ah i love mon, always a kinds inspirational word!!i asked mon to read my post as i was really down yesterday.new day new day.i went for a heart scan this am.i decided to do this to know exsactly whats happening in there.now i wait for thr results......monica is right its a choice not a mistake.she realy motivates me.this sight is so good for me.im thinking this journaling is a good thing to.i will try to make a mon chat but its hard to get away at night.the kids are on line working at that time.im hanging in and off for a good walk now !!

ah ..........conferences are over.its a beautiful day here in north il.im checking in before going on forest perserve hike with my pup and friend.this week i missed weighing myself on tues.so i am not getting on til tis tues.i have this love hate relatiuonship with the scale.i thinko i have finally realized it it as tool not the judge of me.at my conferences i was meeting with parebts in the church entrace area ( my school rents space from a church) anyway i picked up this book called care of the soul. very interesting indeed.so over the last two days i have been reading it and find it inspiring.its not reallly a religious book persay. its writen by a christain theripist. i shall report morre about tis book and my impressions of it later.its something appealing to me right now cause i need big work on taking care of myself so i can be better for myself and those i love.looking forward to the weekend here!((())) to my pals here

Hi Marg Nice chatting with you at lunch time. Hope you had a great hike. See you again.

ty boblin!its tuesday and beleive it or not i forgot to weigh in again. i will do it wed am. im happy to say my heart scan showed nothing of any worry.thats a load off my mind.i noticed one of the risk factors to be less then 3 hours of exercise a week.well that i have covered and haver had for almost 5 years now.that felt good to know.its always good to keep track of time ver miles i think.i was back at the gym lifting this am.i took off my days lifting last week.didnt5 feel like it one day and had conferences the other.not good.i lift twice a week.i need to do some free weights on the days i dont make it there.no excuse.halloweeen is gone for this year and its time to positive talk myself into a healthy holiday season. im having a party this x mas.i like to feed people healthy without them knowing it lol.i shall report weight to myself here tomorrow!

Hello marg!
Wishing you a good day! :wave:

Hello Marg, i lost 2 pds this week. You sound like you are really working hard at staying healthy.

yep im working at it.life journey i guess. not i guess i know. i gained. back 3 pounds as of my last weigh in.have not weighed this week.my heart scan came back very good.no nothing in there blocking things.im well aware that i need to be healthy still.usually womens heart issues start after menopause.today i hit the y and walked the mill for 30 and lifted for thirty.winter is knocking at my door.we aHD A beautiful fall. chicago went from warm to 40 degree4s colder in a day.so no0w i mustr brave the cold and get used to it.i realy like winter its just a shock at first.my dds surgery is friday and hse is all in my thoughts at present.be strong me! make choices for me and my health!!

we survived surgery.its sunday oh my god we were not prepared for what they did to my baby.i can not beleive they did this in day surgery.i am over whelmed at the task before us.she is in pure agony.im tired as she has kept us up .just like anything in life i tell her it will get better with each passing minute.and on the happy side she let me hug on her and kiss her!!16 year olds dont usually take to kindly to that.always i bright side i say!well i finally weighed back in after the the 3 pound halloween choices i made.( see mon i do listen to you)those 3 pounds are gone! i walked 3 times last week and weight lifted twice.feeling good about that.and might i say im doing dang good not eating crap thru this stressful few days.no more eating for stress for me. that is one thing i certain i have a good control on.oh might i also say i have conquered the no food at work.with holidays coming up thats an important one.lots of parents give me treats.now all i have to work on is vacation munch downs and night eating..................not to mention ...............lol

Hi Marg,

LOL I had to laugh when you put in that note "SEE MON, I DO LISTEN TO YOU" ... I guess because if you change the "N" to "M" . it is something I USED to experience when my daughters were younger ...

Way to go on LOSING THREE GLORIOUS POUNDS OF BLUBBER :cheer: :cheer: :cheer: ... and CONGRATS on not feeding your face during A VERY STRESSFUL TIME ... for that you get in my humble opinion :dn :cheer: ...

I can only assume how difficult these next few weeks will be for you and for your daughter ... somehow imo as parents we feel it more so because (for myself) I WOULD RATHER BE IN PAIN than have my daughters or Les in pain .. not that lol I want to be a martyr just that it hurts TO FEEL SO TOTALLY HELPLESS where they are concerned.

Well Thanksgiving is almost here ... and this will be the first year where I am not DOING any of the cooking .. lol a new experience .. of course lol I HAVE NEVER EATEN AT my daughter Laurie's home ... and when she was younger SHE WASN'T INTERESTED IN LEARNING HOW TO COOK ... unlike Barrie (my middle daughter) who made sure she knew how to prepare different meals .. lol in fact she would copy recipes on my disks (print them out) ... I have to give credit where credit is due ... SHE SURPASSES me insofar as cooking ..

Take care my friend and let's move forward during these coming weeks. I am as always, Monica :hug:

hope each day is an improvement for your daughter and you! i am thinking of you both!

ah my pals thanks for the replies! cheers me to no end.kyle is doing much better and is off to school today.we have a long rode ahead but i know she can overcome this.had bigg dd home for the break.wow that girl is a walking tornado.i was so happy to see her is was worth all her stuff alll over the place.we had a good turkey day.stayed home and cooked and watched paradea and movies.it was very cold here 17 degrees.checked my weight this am still sitting at 215.no gain no loss.i didnt get in my exercise with kyle needing me so its back to it today.its raining now so i came here to check in hoping it will let up a bit.we have had two snows now.my new pup loved her first snowfall.we played and romped.later in the morning it had melted off and she was not understanding that.she seemed to be looking all over ofr the white stuff.well heres to me and anyone reading this.may we get thru the holidays unscathed by our choices!!p

happy monday.i just went back and read my first journal.i guess i am doing good my weight is at 215 with is 7 pounds down sinse climbing back on board.my journal is titled back on board i dont really think im ready for a new title but im on my way.this morning i went tot the y for a tread mill walk and bike ride.too dern cold to walk outside.4 degrres this am.we hada good snow fall and played outside for about 2 hours saturday night.sure is fun havinbg a puppy back in my life.i weigh in tomorrow.........

Good job, marg! :)

Way to go Marg on your PHENOMENAL SUCCESS ... :cheer: :cheer:

You are DEFINITELY BACK ON BOARD ... and you are proving that success is something YOU CAN AND WILL ACHIEVE. Have and make it a great day. I am as always, Monica

Good luck at weight in tomorrow. Was nice chatting with you at lunch. Take care.

grrrrrrr i just wrote this long post and lost it.grrr i have been really busy with school, kids and party throwing.i weighed in this morning andf the scale says 219.that a 4 pound gain in about two weeks. i also got my p this am and so im thinking it is water and at least a real 2 pound gain.my eating had been okay besides one toffee binge. the problem is no exercsie last week.one ride on the exercise bike thats it.so im mad but not going to beat on myself.....climbing back on board...............i only had one foot out of the boat i hope!!!no i know.today im going to take my son and his buds to the ski hill. i plan to read sip tea and take a walk around the grounds of the ski area.heres to all of us working on health!! may we love ourselves enough to be what we want ot be!!!! the4 support here rocks!!!!!

Good Morning Peg,

I just read your recent Journal entry and I wanted to say to you REMEMBER THIS WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY OF OURS TAKES TIME AND PATIENCE -- AND WE'RE SO WORTH THE TIME AND PATIENCE IT TAKES.

Even though WE BOTH KNOW these next two weeks will prove to offer many temptations IF WE AREN'T 2005% PERFECT that's okay :up: WE DON'T HAVE TO :whip: BEAT OURSELVES .... we just have to GET BACK ON OUR WEIGHT LOSS PLAN.

So my friend KEEP MOVING FORWARD .... and if you must look back KNOW THAT YOU HAVE LEARNED AND MOVE ON. A very Merry Christmas and you know that I am WISHING YOU ONLY ALL THE BEST FOR WHAT'S LEFT OF THIS YEAR and THAT THE YEAR 2006 bring YOU GOOD HEALTH AND HAPPINESS. I am as always, Monica

Hi,

It was great chatting with you this morning.

Those 4 pounds will be gone in no time. Take it one day at a time and you can do this.

Hang in there and have a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS.

thanks for stopping by, Merry Christmas to you and your family!

ah thanks for the posts gals.nice to see a new face here raye.we met for a good chat one day.alls well here.went for that walk at the hill.i must say 6 is a bit cold to walk outside i made it 20 min.i did read half a book and sip tea as planned.i haver been to the gym two days for lifting and riding the bike.looks like the weather will be fit walking out in the next days.goingt to be in the 30s and maybe even forty on xmas day.sis and i are going to take a hike after dinner.she lives in the city so that will be fun and different for me.we switch off who has christmas so its a city thime this year.she has just statred weight watchers so im excited for her.i hope my brother will join our walk as well.he has bypass in the spring so we will push his rump to join us.i hope all my pals here have a great holiday.i love you and this place very much!!p

oh no i did it again!!!!!!!!!!!!erased a long post.oh well.....................im doing goood walked and lifted tues and today.walked at the ski hill for a whole 20 min.i found 6 degrees a bit unbearable.we are off to the city to my sisters for christmas day.she brother and i plan a good city walk.the weather is breaking for the holiday.it may even hit 35.my sis just statred weight watchers so im excited for her.i hope every one here has a great holiday.i love you all here!!p

god help me i lose a post find it post twice......................will i ever get this? lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy new year..... ah 2006.all is well at our humble abode.the holiday have come and gone again.we had a great holiday with family friends aplenty.i am blessed with lots of love in my life.that includes this place of support and freindship.in the new year i will continue my quest for health.im hoping hub will statr walking with and eating healtier too.he is a beautiful man. but he eats pretty bad.he is now sporting high coles and is monitering his blood for two weeks.while he is a thin guy all those brown and serves, eggs and bacon are catching up with him.his only weight is the 40s gut issue.small gut at that.he has always supported me and loves me so much.so gently i shall try to lead him.our first thing to work on is his breakfasts.so lets keep gs in our thoughts!! i have been to the gym exactly 3 times in the last couple of weeks.i have been walking outside but need to getting lifting more.my back is whacked right now.pulled a muscle moving furniture. im looking forward to statring the idida walk. i need to get to the sight to see when it happens.here on jan 31 2005 my weight is at 218.i had gained a few and am now done a few.and lastly im thinking this journaling is not so bad keeps me on track and gives me a minute to get my head together!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEG :cheers: I know that YOU CAN AND WILL ACHIEVE YOUR GOALS ... just remember OUR JOURNEY TO ACHIEVE OUR GOALS TAKES TIME AND PATIENCE -- IT'S SOMETHING WE CAN AND WILL DO. Take it one day at a time ... one meal at a time. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF AND IN YOUR ABILITY TO SUCCEED I am here for you ... Thank you for coming back into my life ... good friends are (and have become) VERY IMPORTANT. Love you lots, I am as always, Monica :hug:

HAPPY NEW YEAR Marg.AND ALL THE VERY BEST FOR THE COMING YEAR :party: Sorry I have not been around much to support you..I promise to try to do better in thee New Year:)

LULU

good morning all,i am attemping to get back on the track to health. i have made the mistake of putting other things before me.i have not been at the sight much in the past year.lots has been going on in my life.my eldest daughter has just finished her last scans to make sure is fine after having a carcinoid tumor removed from her appendex.she went thru a year of ab and bone scans every 3 months.she now has a clean bill of health and is off to her first year in college. shortly after diagnosis last fall i came down with a wicked case of viral menangitis

Oh dear that sounds like a terrible year that you've been through! Marg you should never put other minor things ahead of you when your health is the one that you should be worried about but I'm glad you're getting back on the wagon:) Wow I'm glad everything is good in your eldest daughter's outcome God is so good:( That is wonderful that she has a Clean Bill of Health that is such a good ring to your ears. I'm glad that she is on her way to her first year of College but that is still alot to go through when you're so young But we need to keep God on our Radar because he will help you through your ups and downs Oh wow you're just hit with so many Mishaps Marg well Honey I know you will get through your battles

Taneisha

thanks fopr the replies tan lu ans monmom.yes looking back it was year..but yuo know it was ayear my family has come thru.i actually consider myself mighty lucky when looking at what others are faced with.today im here writing and my house is a wreck so im back to what counts. i walked this am and will get my rump to the gym thurs.my back is on the upswing.i will jump on the scale monday or tues next week.im working on cooking more. we ate lots to go over the holidays.while didnt over eat i really feel i need to stick with real food and keep the processed stuff out of my mouth.im still working on hub. he has cut the beer down and is eating a bit better.my breakfast this morning was a wheat germ in skim and a cup of cran juice.p

Good Morning Marg,

If you WANT OR NEED RECIPES be it for casseroles or crockpot let me know ... I will be thrilled to share them with you. LOL I still haven't cleared out recipes that I haven't used in ages .. AND I purchased some new cookbooks (and I am going to make one of the recipes tonight -- I will put the recipe in my Journal so if you're interested CHECK IT OUT ...

Take care of yourself and HAVE AND MAKE IT A GREAT DAY. I am as always, Monica :hug:

ty mon!!well its monday. my weight sits at 219.two pounds up two pounds down two pounds up.well i guess it beats 5 pounds on which is my usual holiday.i walked this am.walked to our beach. im taking full advantage of the nice north il weather.its about 30 out right now.the lake is all dark ice.very dangerous ice.i kept the pup on leash cause shes just dumb enough to go for a spin on and fall through.of course i would have to recue her.anyway........hub and walked last night.i just asked and he said ya lets go.i wil be happy if he just goes for a 15 min waLK. he is a mechanis and works fingers to bone so its hard for him to understand need for cardio in his life.my goal for this week is no nip the after cinner food.this is a big one for me.last nigh after dinner i had a hot pretzle no salt only to be chased by a small bowl of chips.its like i dont even care when im in this mode.so i shall write it here to be truthful with myself.......no night crap snacks !!!!!

Oh Marge, I understand about the night time snacks. That is my hard time too. I have to do NO food after 6 it seems. If I let up a little it's out the window. Good job on the walk. Right now my back is giving me problems so I just went for a short walk yesterday, and no gym for a week. drats, I hate when that happens.

Good Morning Peg,

DO ME A HUGE FAVOR .... please start writing what you eat at each meal in your Journal. Also the quantity (i.e. cup, ounces etc.) of what you eat.

Because MY THOUGHT is that perhaps like myself YOU NEED TO WORK ON PORTION control OR .... maybe YOU'RE NOT EATING ENOUGH AT YOUR MEALS; OR maybe YOU NEED TO EAT MORE FIBER. There's nothing wrong with snacks IN FACT I'm starting to TRY to add more snacks to my meals -- but instead of PRETZELS how about making a raw veggie bowl using PLAIN NONFAT YOGURT mixed with (dry) HIDDEN RANCH SALAD DRESSING (or using Good Seasons (dry) Italian Salad Dressing); or slicing a large apple into bite size chunks and using DANNON LIGHT 'N FIBER Strawberry Yogurt.

KEEP MOVING FORWARD ... and it's great that your husband IS NOT ONLY BEING YOUR MARITAL PARTNER BUT YOUR WALKING PARTNER. Take care my friend and have and make it a great day. I am as always, Monica

ty mon and wan! good to see you stop by wan!! mon i guess im not writing my food for a reason.i did that for a few years and i admit i lost.but i am now educated and i know about portion control what to eat when not to eat ect.i feel like tis a real life change happening for me.i spent some years loathing my body.i loved my life but i wasnt healthy.i have everything it seems but food will power.so in my quest for health i have gained and lost. its like an evolution.so for now i will concentrate on me and what i know to be true. that to lose and keep weight off it has to be for life.i will not dismiss going back to the calorie count but for now im on my own.geez i soound like fred.but ya know what that old jerk taught me a lot!! i lifted this morning.and i stayed out of the kitchen last night. hub said no to walk last night but i think i waited to long after dinner to ask him. on ward.......day two stay out of the kitchen at night.

wednesday.....walked with my neighbor this morning.that was nice.she may be up for walking more she says.once a week would be nice to have someone along.its hard to tell someone you perfer to walk alone.its like my quit sanity time. but we did have a good chat.thought i might lose her on the hills.tonight hub and i are atking our son and his buds to the ski hill.its a beautiful resort in lake genevas wis.so we will walk and have some dinner while the boys board.the sad thing is no snow here.it may even be canceled for to warm.he sure had fun on man made snow last week.he has a wed, pass.5 to 8 for4 6 weeks.90. not bad !anyway i carpool with others and i do like going and walking there.you can watch all the skiing and boarders.i cross country ski but have never been brave enough to ski.not my cup of tea.i did really well last night.no snacking!!iwill lift thurs!

happy b day to me.46.had a great weekend.went to a motel with hub and the kids.wem played in the pool.ky and i worked out.she taught me how to do squats on an exercise ball.felt very good on the back.we were going to walk on lake michigan but the wind was really kicking us.nothing lik,e a cold cold lake with with wind whipping off it!! i weighed yesterday.still at 218.my friend arrived this am so im not getting back on that that scale til next week.i have til months end to get losing or its the dreaded cal count for me.i told a friend my plan and she said said she might join me more for walking and she may even count cals.my eating was very under control this weekend.thats it here .im off for a walk.p

Happy Birthday Marg!!!

Sounds like you have had some fun, good for you!!!

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:bdaybanne MARG...I HOPE YOU HAVE AN AWESOME DAY..and a great year ahead.:rose::bd :balloons:

Lulu

Dear Peg,

:bdaybanne

I am wishing :cheers: you a very Happy Birthday. May this day (and every day) BE FILLED with only the best. Enjoy :cake: and celebrate :balloons: THIS YOUR SPECIAL DAY OF DAYS. I am as always, Monica

thanks gals. yuo are sweethearts.it was off to the gym this morning. l lifted and walked the tread for 15.usually i just lift on tues and thurs but when my pal is there ill walk with her for a bit.had a show at schol yesterday so i walked really early.it was cold and windy.i am doing well at not night snacking.i did have a slice of ic3e cream cake for my b day.my assistants took me out for lunch yesterday.we had a blt pizza.i rue to this of the cals in that thing.i started with salad so i wouldnt pig out on it.hub has a wicked cold so his walking is non.poor guy dragged off to work today.dd is back to college so im sleeping better.that half sleep til she gets home just doesnt do it for me.i have decided to count cals again starting monday.why wait til the end of the month i figure it must be done!!p

well it the first day of counting cals.i have not done this for a few years.i am taking mons advice and going back to it.after i finish up here im going back to check out fit day.i was going tot wait til the end of the month to do this but what im doing is not taking off weight.i was going to mnake a new topic but getting back on board seems to still fit.i walked this morning.chippy out there.about 29.my wieght this am was 219.on my calorie journal im adding a column for water need to up that.breakfast tgis am a banana. cup of oj and 3 apricots.im having a tossed salad with chicken and whole wheat croutons for lunch.cup of skim. dinner will be the cal challenge as i have no idea what im having.its just marc and i tonight.g and k are off to her first umpire meeting.we has a beautiful snow this weekend .12 inches of delight!!

Hi Marg. Great attitude on the new schedule. I've been in a bit of a slump myself. Hurt the back 3 wks ago. really put a crimp on the exercise..
Oh how I envy your snow.. it has been so dry here I'm beginning to cough up cotton balls. Suppsed to be 70 today, but no rain in sight. I worry about fires again this summer.
Hugs, W

always love to hear from you wan!! day 3 of the cal count.i do beleive i should stick with this for a while! yesterday i had yougurt and a banana for breakfast.i then went to lunch with my assistant and had a half a small blt pizza.as a guess i would say about 600 clas worth.when i got home from work no snack. then dinner a sloppy joe bun chips and cottage cheese.about an hour later a suger coookie. now this is how my warped food mind thinks......................after lunch i somewhat gave up on my self for the day.i say somewhat cause i would usually eat more after work and eat more at night. wellllll this morning i decided to count those cals from lunch on as i was in my right diet mind. a whopping 1800.but guess what i ate less and i will now count the good and the bad ,not giving in to educate myself. i m going to statr a new topic here today. check out www.idita-walk.com. it will be my fourth year doing this challenge.even if you dont sign up you can print out the sheet to do on your own.p:D

friday.doing well with the cal count.i have not been really planning but counting after.this i have decided will give me an idea of what i eat and what it costs me.i have been excellent at no between junk.ie work chit,after work chit and night chit.with out that i sit between 1300 and 1800 a day.this weather has been great for walking.chicago is experiening a remarkable warm winters. its a balmy 45 out there todaY. nice walk without popcicle legs.heres to a great weekend!!

sunday......doing good today. i walked the pup befroe we left to deliver dd back to college.she came home to do laundry and eat us out of house and home.how does that kid stay so skinny i dont know.i had a choclate binge sat night watching tv.might5 as well admit it.i did not count cals this weekend.back to it monday!!

tues...doing well today.its back to the count for the week.tomorrow ididta walk starts and im excited about that.i went to my gyno today.her scale said i weighed 222.so i guess that what i weigh at the end of the day full of water with my clothes on.its a number.yesterday when i did my weekly weigh in at home sans water and clothes i was at 217.keep on keeping on...............

had a good cal day yesterday. about 1500. idita walk starts today i have 30 min so far!

mon day monday...............gtdetting over flu i have had sinse friday.perk of teaching preschool.decided to walk inside with leslie sansone this am.weigh in tomorrow.

alright 215 today.thats 3 pounds off.idita walk has me exercise pumped.im not counting clas this week so we shall see if i can keep it up.i hate counting so it motivation to do well this week.the two weeks of counting opened my eyes no doubt.got be back into the stop and look what you are putting in ypour mouth!!

friday.....doing well this week.i am not counting this week.may be a cop out if i gain i go back.i really dont have much of an appitite this week.flu and cold have me down.keeping up with my idita walk.weigh in tues!!!!

monday.ah back to the grind.got my walking in this am.had a fair weekend with eating nothing to outragious.big valentine party at school today.no crap for me.need to really stay on target this week.i feel myself slipping more and more.but alass the big p arrived this morning which explains the mood.chin up.carry on!!

well here i am.tuesday.i just had a really bad food weekend.i dont know what got into me.no excuses...............just didnt give a rats ass for self.yes i will be down on me for a few minutes cause isnt this journaling about truth.at weigh in this am scales reads 219.up three since last week.i didnt exercsie over the weekend.it was below zero and i plain didnt feel like doing my walking tapes.we had monday off.i was tired of being tired.so i got my rump up off the couch and ripped my laundry room flooor out..took me about two hours of hard labor.i then took the kids to the y.dd and i lifted and walked then i did some laps and treading in the pool. i hadnt swam in while so it felt good.im awainting the day to get into the 30s before i walk.i do beleive cabin fever has set in for me.it must be delt with in other ways than food!!so here i am climbing once again back on board>.............

boy that last post was a bummer.butu thats what journaling is for i reckon.im still not doing great on food.its hard to put into words.........im doing really bad but im not eating right.i may be depressed. i did keep my walking going.so weight in tomorrow should be the same i guess.you can maintain with exercsie but by god if you dont close your mouth you wont lose.winter has been long.no snow to enjoy.i went out in 30 degrees and cleared a garden sunday.now if that isnt desperation i dont know what is.so heres to the fight for me... the one i deserve. may i be strong to overcome this food addiction i struggle with.

scale sat at 219 tues.i have done well this week. getting over myself. lol i have been walking and lifting.had grilled salmon and asperigus spears for lunch this week.i think its realy good to take time to cook lunch for myself before i head to work.its becoming like ritual to eat things i like that my family doesnt.they hate fish and asperigus.what a good pampering that is for self.. now im off to walk then soak in a nice bath before leaving for school.

did not hop on the scale this morning.im putting it off a day.my eating has been so so.craving sweets in a big way.hub and i worked on the laundry room all weekend.designing on a dime.my walking mins for ididta walk are at 840.i will have no problem completing them.i will reward myself with some new exercsie duds.maybe a good healthy out for dinner.my favorite out to eat place serves a most excellent boiled fish.i used to eat the fry but truly find i like the boil more now.if that aint a live change i dont know what it!lol

yipes my journaling is slipping.as of last post weight is at 218.gained a pound i think.i have been busy with cori home from school.i have a min to sit as im home with a cold today.ididta walk finished up sat.im 35 min short of time.im going to make it up when this cold gives me some respite.we have been working on the laundry room. only the floor left to go!!! my eating has been still so so.not over doing but not counting cals which is apparently the only way i lose.im the queeen of maintaining between 215 and 220.i will weigh in tues!

Hey, Marge, Glad to see you back posting. I let it slip for days too. I read others but don't post much. funny you posted at the exact time each day Keep up the good work. maintaining is better than gaining.

ah always good to hear from wan!!!(())weigh in this am 217.got my rump off the couch and went to the y today.lifted then came home3 and walked the pup. better late thaN never...idita walk complete.year 4 down!!i may struggle with food still but exercise is a life change i have grasped and embraced!its sanity.i figure i would weigh lots more if i didnt make this change 5 years ago.i was sick all weekend with a wicked cold and i thought i would gain but lose a pound go figure. anyway im still here and going to keep up journaling even if i dont get here everyday!!wan we should meet in chat or something.private me and maybe we could im each other!!!

friday.doing well on food......gee i think there is a direct corrolation between time of month and food.if i could stop it when its happening id be a millionair.wow botched that spell..sad news on the walking front.my pup needs knee sugery.it almost comical after the year we have had.the vet says she should stay over night..............hospital wouldnt let my daughter stay over after total acl reconstruction in nov. pup blew knee chasing the cat.we are off to minn to vivit winona state u with dd.i plan to do some walking there with hub.its right on the mississippi. will weigh in tues!heres to a great weekend...........

Hello marg, wishing you a great weekend! :)

Hey Marg.. That is comical about the pup vs your daughter.. Guess the dd is covered by insurance and the pup is coming out of your pockets? could that make a difference? Not sure just a question..
Am back on track.
Oh the walking along the Miss. is so fun. Only have done it once but we took a side trip up the Miss on the way to WI 3 yrs ago. stayed at little mom and pop motels and I even biked up the river on the E side for about 14 miles. dh stayed at the motel waiting for me..hehe
Have a great weekend.

ah the mississippi.............it was a good trip.dd loved winona state. we walked the campus and went op to the highest point around.what a veiw.im having a mighty fine spring break. i didnt weigh in this week decided to have a no think about weight this week.eating has been okay nothing to over board.i have pu tin about 120 hours og gardening. the whole yard is ready for spring.things are not really greeening up yet but some bulbs are poking thru.i gueess it will be back to the 50s next week.i wanted to journal to kkep track of it.takingh the week off has been nice but im not giving in.!!!!

well well well,my week of basking in no weight cares sent me back to 219 this morning.im down on myself big time at this moment.while i am beating myself for not walking last week and eating pretty much like crap. i spent time gardening traveling a bit. but mostly i sat on my rump sinking into laziness.its weird...laziness conentates to me messy house........dirty clothes.....general disaray.now my house is totally together, my yard ready to go but alass with out exercise i have sunk in the self esteem department.this is all about me.......my kids are doing wonderful. some of my problem seems to be i dont know how to enjoy relaxing without bad food.i wish yuo could quit food cold turkey.okay im feeling better the rain has subsided time to quit my pity part and get back to my walking.

Dear Peg,

You know that I don't believe in :whip: beating anyone up ... lol PRIMARILY BECAUSE EACH ONE OF US DOES SUCH A SUPERB job of doing that to ourselves ..

I will say to you this THIS IS SOMETHING YOU CAN AND WILL DO FOR YOURSELF .. YOU HAVE THE ABILITY TO ACHIEVE WHATEVER GOALS YOU SET FOR YOURSELF So my friend know that you WILL do this by taking it ONE DAY AT A TIME -- ONE MEAL AT A TIME Don't look back ... EXCEPT TO LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES -- KEEP FOCUSING ON YOUR GOAL. I am as always, Monica :hug:

ah mon thanks for the post.glad to see you checking in on me. im slipping here still.mondaY MORNING.DID GOOD ON EATING TIS WEEKEND opps....worked the yard.that time of month so i should have steeered clear of the scale.reads 224 this am.ouch that would be 5 pounds up from last week!went fo9r a long walk after that reading this morning.cleared my mind. good to come here and journal it out.feeling very down on self still. one day ata time one meral at a time....great advice!!

Dear Peg,

I was lurking :O and I came across your post ... I WANT YOU TO SAY TO YOURSELF OVER AND OVER AGAIN --

I BELIEVE IN MYSELF ... I BELIEVE IN MY ABILITY TO SUCCEED ... I WILL SUCCEED -- I WILL TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME ... ONE MEAL AT A TIME.

I REALIZE THIS JOURNEY IS NOT ABOUT LOSING WEIGHT JUST FOR A DAY .. A WEEK .. A MONTH OR A YEAR -- THIS JOURNEY IS FOR A HEALTHIER AND HAPPIER LIFETIME.

I am here for you .... :coach: DON'T YOU GIVE UP ON YOURSELF or :whip: BEAT YOURSELF UP .. I am as always, Monica :hug:

mon i luv you! yes i will say that to myself.i do make a great effort to not be self defeating.i would never want my girls to see that in me. i figure part of journaling is spitting out what im feeling. hense the big pity party.in myself i know positively this will do nothing but harm me its worse than weight.so yes i will take it one day one meal one choice at a time.as a matter of fact im having a wonderful veg lentil soup for lunch today.pms is a strong thing for me.........suger is craved as well as any other carbs.my assistant and i have been imbibing in wintergreen lifesavers.do you know one of those little suckers has 20 cals in it.we cut ourselves off cold turkey.im wondering if the suger in them was whacking me out for night? we were maybe eating 4 or 5 a day. also here and nowe i vow no biscuits at school.my kids are making little drop biscuits to bring home.baking.no biscuits shall cross these lips!!not ever next month when im craving that crap

Dear Peg,

You know today I am in the midst of preparing our Passover Meal ... and I am WRACKING my brain as to how to eat (especially the Potato Kugel WHICH I TOTALLY LOVE) sensibly ... imho NO MATTER WHERE WE ARE IN THIS JOURNEY temptations :lil: will always occur ... and to TURN A THUMBS DOWN :down: isn't always feasible .. SO if it's something you want to have HAVE IT ... just don't BEAT :whip: YOURSELF UP .. BUT if it's like POTATO CHIPS . where you can't eat just one .. THEN GIVE YOURSELF A PAT ON THE BACK if you decide not to bow to :lil: TEMPTATION ...

We're on this Journey for a lifetime .. lol AND IT'S GOING TO BE A HEALTHIER LIFETIME. Have and make it a great day. I am as always, Monica :hug:

easter monday.....very nice easter indeed. we had it at our house so i was in control of the meal.we had turkey breast, ham ,beans, broccli. i did have a small slice of apple pie.no candy!the weather has been really nice and we got the boat ouyt of storeage and took it out friday.nothing like being able to boat in chicago in april.im back on the scaLE TUES.hoping i dropped some water from last week that 224 freaked the hell outa me.so i shall see tomorrow.

Marg, glad you had a good Easter. The boating sounds fun also. That is really early for Ill isn't it? Altho we will probably hit 100 before the end of the month. Going to be a warm one..

hey there wan! yes it is an early boat for il.but not for us we are always first on the lake last off.i live in an area called chain of lakes. very pretty but gets all crowdes with city folks on the weekends.......weigh in today.219.down 5 from last week.5 seems like a alot to gain over p for me.but since i put on 3 and the 5 its was alot!!!!.i burned my finger really bad with hot glue( im not crafty) so im off the weights today.yesterday i had the day off so worked on deep digging my boarders for 2 hours. i shall go for a big walk after this post.i was reading this article about hypnossis for weight loss.sounds intriging to me.i could use something thats for sure. grasping at straws no doubt. its a struggle right now........

new plan here.mon something may be sinking in here......i have read my posts over the last few months.heres what i find... in the last few weeks ive been realy hard on me. here im truthful out in the world im really pretty positive i like to think. im proud of my hub my kids my family friends. i have so many very close to me.sisters i love ,at least 10 friends i talk to regularly.my pals here who are so dear to me<neighbors that watch out for us and us them, by beautiful home my gardens that i have planted from scratch and add to, my job is excelent i love it. i have drama working with many women but in all we love each other too. to look at my journal it seems im all about beating myself over food and weight!! self-pity is an excuse .so here is my new plan............in this journal i will report the the good the bad the ugly.it will concentrate on any stress im having that may contribute to my making the excuse to eat.... i will write and say to myself many times everyday you are lucky and you can handle anything after the life you have led to far!!!!I CAN DO IT I LOVE MYSELF.i m off for a walk.writing that hard but ive been thinking about it sinse on my walk yesterday.

You BETTER BELIEVE YOU CAN and YOU WILL . That's something I was taught and something I had TO REMEMBER ...

While you are alone say to yourself I HAVE THE POWER AND THE ABILITY TO ACHIEVE WHATEVER GOALS I SET FOR MYSELF My father used to tell me AS HUMAN BEINGS THERE IS NOTHING WE CANNOT ACHIEVE .. Peg, it's so strange because I taught that to my own daughters yet I had to RELEARN that; it's something I MUST REMIND MYSELF OF every single day. Have and MAKE it a great day Peg. I am as always, Monica :hug:

ah so true mon. yuor father was a wise man indeed.hey at least we have changed who our daughters are.......yep im telling myself positives all over the place.i have been singing my moms old favorite song...i am woman.i am strong i am invinsible..............lol.i gueesss while i was listening to led zeplin she was into helen and john denver.it is a good song to know and live.my mom was one strong woman in my eyes.dad died when i was 12 she had 5 kids at home still.anyways i ve been thinking of her a lot missing her but drawing from her strength. i am doing well off my own back.yes can and will will enter the self talk.i love myself and i can a nd will conquar the last fronteer me............... tues weigh in day went to the gym lifted then hopped on 218.spent the weekend spreading 21 bags of mulch and staining the deck.i did drink some beers in the process.nothing like a cold beer whist working the yard.i did tell hub its time for me to go back to wine and seltzer for the summer. keeps leaner and sober i might add.im not one to drink daly or anything but darn it if im having one beer im having three.oh and mon now i think of you when i sing the I SAY I LikE MYSELF SONG with my little guys at schoool. lol

Dear Peg,

It sounds like YOU TOO HAD A PARENT WHO TAUGHT YOU WELL ... think of how proud your mom would be TO SEE YOU MASTERING AND ACHIEVING the goals you have set for yourself. It sounds silly to say this but in my heart and in my mind I CAN SEE my father (and yes my grandparents whom I never met) GIVING ME A thumbs :up: and CHEERING :cheer: ME ON ... and although my parents are no longer here I still have the DESIRE to make them proud of me.

You can do this Peg .. KNOW IT .. BELIEVE IT Have and make it a great day my friend. I am as always, Monica

i am strong i am invinible......................doing good here.eagting is doing good. im off to a museum with my clsss this am then out to lunch with my assistants. i plan on finishing up the deck when i get home.if i have any back left ill get my walk in. i can i will.now ........ this attitude needs to stay with me during pms time.with spring here it should be bvetter for me.nothing like that last belt of winter in chicago to get you down.yesterday the high was 40 and windy.i lasted about 45 min at kyles game.its back to 60s today.chicago likes to do that give you a little reminder of winter in april and may.mon..... thanks so much for being here for me the last few weeks.you my friend are helping me more than you know!!!i can i will..........i say i like myself!!!! 46 is to be a good year!!! love me... weight off will follow.

doing good here.worked the yard again sat.took a whole day of relax sun.friday i went down town for a river tour for a staff day. chicago is a beautiful city.had lunch down there too.im about into pms time and am being very aware of it.had a few choc breakdowns last week.but no self beating.the interesting thing is just letting myself actually was more satisfing and easy to stop.so im sticking to my positive attidude.im off for a rain walk with the pup.......weigh in tues

decided not to weigh in tues as p was just ending.218 this morning.stayed positive thru the whole uglt week lol.have been busy busy.cori came home marc was sick for 5 days and kyle was released to play basketball after 7 months off. we had the boat out last weekend a bit chilly at 70 but a beautiful day.i have not been journaling getting ready for moms day at school and doing my 32 report cards.ah summer will be sweet!

i can i will.............. i can i will ................i will because i can!! doing ok here.scale reads 219 this week.too much mothers day..............have been walking and lifting more tis week.im about done with all my planting for the year. i got a new weed whacker for moms day.im all excited about that. i could never get the gas one started.im starting a bad habit of snacking after school.it stops today..........!!!! it stopsd today.im taking an apple to work with me so im not hungry on arival home.

wow long time no check in.....i m all good.took me a while after school got out to get in chill mode......summer is busy around here.may was spent getting used to the college lady back home. number 2 dd is back to basketball and playing lots of games.we were off to texas for a week in june and back home in time to host a fun freind 4th of july at our home.on the 8th some dear freinds got married and i was the wedding planner. very fun.simple elegant wedding outside.in between we have been been gardening and enjoying time on the boat.last i weighed waS few weeks ago in texas.215.that was down some pounds. my sister and i did three days of water arobics while was there.ive been a bit slacking on lifting but have gone to lift exsactly 4 time sinse june! hey it beats quitting!!! im walking. a few days a week.i will be taking more time the rest of the summer to walk more and get more lifting in. also need to get back on the water train.....i can i will .....as always be positive..............think of the future ..........looking forward to it!!!

Welcome back Peg :wn

Keep focusing on that GOAL ... know that your can and WILL whatever goals you set for yourself. Have and make it a great day. I am as always, Monica

im bbbbbaaaacccckkkkkk.this dang computer is always on the fritz.chaulk it up to kids bringing virus into it.im doing just okay. rweadinbg my last entry i see i did get into relax mode.spent the summer gardening.boatin. and spending time with the kids.it flew by. i was pretty lax on exercise except for tlots of swimming off the boat.lfted weights 4 time in june 4 in july and once in aug.walked a bit.now the kids are back at school and im back to the gym and walking daily.time to start hike lake county as well.my weight went up about 10 pounds. i have not jumped on the scale for a month and will weigh in tues.i will be intersted to see if my exercise has helped in getting it back off.all in all my eating is under control pretty well. beer is still a weakness.i only drink a couple times a week but when i do its 4 or 5.we are toyong witn the idea of getting as new pup so that should wake me up!!

doing ok here.have had a really busy fall.my neice megs got married.the texans stayed at the cas 5 days.lots of fun. i still have been somewhat lax on my exercise.never quit i say. we have one more hike to accomplish for our hiking tag.i have been to 6 different preserves and will do the last hopefully this weekend.dreadfully cold fall here.but my gardens are down and one more leaf mulch shoukld suffice. the boat is battened down in the sideyard.i made it to the gmy i think 4 times in sept and 6.i miss my pals when i blow it off so im back to it.my favorite work out pal has been subbibng most everyday and i miss seeing her.one of motivations is have a cup of coffee after i lift/i usually dont touch the stuff during the week.my kids are well.....busy worrisome at times but very well.my weight this am stands at 218.down 7 from aug.do we see a pattern here peg?? gain ten lose ten. queen of maintain.i am happy with my life very...mt weight is a brick an anattainable feet even.but im here and im admitting my it.i need to cut portions eat breakfast and hate beer.is life too short? i think not. im worth working on.

wow i havent written since megs wed.i enjoy looking back.i must say im way less down on myself. writing that must have been good for me.my weight is about 222 on this day.a gain of about 6 0r 7 pounds over the winter on.while i continued to lift my cardio has been lacking.it twas a cold butt winter.but mostly the gain is due to not doing my ididawalk this winter.i just plain blew it off this year. anyway as always i never give uop on myself. hub and i have been having some rough spots and are working on things. ah the joys of marriage.want to kill him one moment .....love him dearly the next. no sitting around feeling sorrry...find happiness in myself happiness with others to follow.making a conscience effort to eat healthy and lose some3 pounds before summer,here it is april 11 and there is a blizzard today!!!!!!!!!!!!

Boy Marge, it has been a long time, I had almost forgot about this place til your note wound up in my mailbox.. Guess I'll go back to the site and look around a bit..
I've been AWOl also..

Hi there,

I'm glad to see you back ... I returned a couple of weeks ago after a five week absence -- I came back to use the Journal because it just wasn't the same when I journaled at Fitday ... I hope to see you around. If you want to chat LET ME KNOW and we'll set up a day and time that's convenient for the both of us. HAVE AND MAKE IT A GREAT WEEKEND. I am as always, Monica