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notevenclose
09-18-05, 01:08 PM
Mood: Frustrated
Listening to: Michael Buble
Episode One
At this point my house is unfinished. Even though we’ve been living here for over three years, there is not one room in this house that is completed. Why you may ask? Well, I think my husband suffers from adult ADD. Every project he has started is yet to be completed. This is very frustrating.
Yes, we are struggling financially and cannot afford many things but in the same breath there are some supplies already bought in the basement for him to finish some of the projects he started. Must I constantly get on his back?
I don’t even like having friends over because I hate the way my house looks at this point.
I know with all the misery in the world, I should be happy that I even have a home but this is MY JOURNAL you know, and I do deserve to be able to write what ever is on my mind.
And right now, my unfinished house is on my mind.
Does this have anything to do with my weight? Yes, of course it does. When I am frustrated I tend to eat, when I eat I gain weight. Vicious cycle.
This weekend I spent it at home sick with a cold and eating ice-cream. I tried three new ice-cream flavors. Ben and Jerry’s Chunky Monkey was one of them. Pretty good I must say. I also tried a new lasagna recipe, which was ok, but not as good as I thought it would be. In case you are wondering... my diet starts tomorrow, hence all the eating.

joanne
09-18-05, 01:33 PM
Welcome to diettalk notevenclose...So sorry about all those unfinished projects.. I know what you mean.. Are there any you are able to do on your own..???
I'm almost tempted at times to complete the ones here but know I'll suffer in the end.
Good luck with the program you choose..

crazy2
09-18-05, 06:49 PM
Hi, welcome here.

As for your home, why don't you contact "In A Fix", they are a tv show that go and help people who have a house full of unfinished projects. They seem like really nice people and they do a very good job. Hey, you will even be able to go away while they keep hubby with them. It is on TLC here in Canada, but is an American show.

mugwump
09-18-05, 08:10 PM
Boy do I know where you're coming from!! We moved into our lovely condo a year and a half ago. It's huge, and the living/dining room is 20 x 28 feet. And about half of that is still full of boxes. I'm always on sweetie's back to try and unpack something ...even one box. But to be fair, it's not all his. A lot of it is good dishes, etc. which is waiting until I get a proper china cabinet, but at the moment, I don't have the room to bring one in! I need to make an action plan and get sweetie to work on it with me.

Would that work for you? Make a list of the projects, figure out what you have the supplies for and can finish without spending more, then put some dates in place. Offer hubby some special rewards for finishing a project. Or tell him if he finishes something you'll lose 10 pounds. Maybe that would help...

Also, I found that a little exercise really helped me get back on track. Nothing strenuous - just walking, for 15 minutes at a time. You get out of the house (which helps in itself) and you'll find after a couple of weeks that it starts to boost your mood and put you in a more positive frame of mind.

Hugs
Mugs

notevenclose
09-18-05, 11:06 PM
Mood: Relaxed
Listening to: Nothing Really Matters by Madonna

Joanne: I help out with mostly all the projects but I am not as handy as he is, so that is why he is in charge of certain things.
crazy2: I’ve never seen that show. Must check it out first.
Mugwump: Your entry made me smile. You sound extremely sweet. If you were here I think I would hug you even though I am usually not quite into that whole hugging thing.
About rewarding him...
Let me tell you, :secret: my husband’s idea of a special reward...well, on second thought, maybe I shouldn’t even go there right now.
I am not actually expecting Hubby to do any projects for a while because he is now working every weekend plus one night a week and going to school full time during the week. I do know how tough that is because I was working two jobs for a year and was extremely worn out. I quit my second job 5 months ago.


That whole first journal entry was just me venting. I am not terribly upset about the house. Actually right now I am no longer even thinking about the house. It’s all good.

I am thinking of rewarding my husband...

Just kidding. I am way too sick.

My husband, Mr. Delight, is home from work and is sitting four feet from me watching TV. He is giving me google eyes. Hey, stop it, I said I was sick Mr! Why can't they ever take a hint?
I have my headphones on with the music blasting. Mr. Delight has been my husband for 16 years. He really is a delight 97% of the time. I love him more than chocolate (which says a lot).


An optimist is a girl who regards a bulge as a curve.


As I was showering this evening, I felt lots of extra curves. Darn you Chunky Monkey!

Mel
09-18-05, 11:31 PM
You should know better by now - they NEVER take a hint! :laugh:

notevenclose
09-19-05, 10:07 AM
Mood: optimistic
Listening to: LL Cool J –Doin’ It

Is there such a thing as coincidence?
I woke up feeling worse this morning than yesterday so I took the day off work.
I just found out that my two closest friends from work also took the day off. Ms.Boyds called me this morning and told me that she was home and she also told me that she was told that Funny Guy had called off. I have to laugh. Everyone is going to assume we planned this.
Anyhow, I woke up this morning at 6:45 to drink my coffee and say goodbye to Mr. Delight and the kids. I am not sleepy so I am going lay here and watch all my favorite shows on Tivo.

Tivo
I love Tivo. Only my fellow Tivo users can possible understand my love. Once you have experience Tivo you could never go back.
I got some season passes yesterday to a few new shows:
Invasion (I think this show looks very interesting)
Criminal Minds (I know for a fact that I am going to be hooked to this show)
Out of Practice ( Henry Winkler and Stockard Channing, worth checking out)
Bones (not too sure)
Super Natural (I think this one will be more for Mr. Delight and my boys)
Three Wishes (oh well)
The best thing about Tivo is that you never have to miss any of your favorite shows and there is always something for you to watch when you have time to actually sit and take a breath.
Other Shows I have season passes to:
You Think You can Dance (I like this better than American Idol)
Starved (hence my journal title)
Boston Legal (James Spader, William Shatner? pure genius)
Desperate Housewives (what can I say?)
Grey’s Anatomy (refreshing alternative to E.R)
Medium (Mr. Delight got me into this one. Patricia Arquette, you rock!)
House (I haven’t seen it for a while but I might get into it this time)
Nip and Tuck (I missed last season, but thanks to Tivo, I’ll get to watch this season)
The Real World (Don’t ask)
Prison Break (hot guy)
The Apprentice (no comment)
Mind of Mencia (hilarious)
Dave Chappelle (hilarious)
Everyday Italian (my favorite chef! She has made my life easier)
I think that’s about it. I might have forgotten one or two other shows but now you more or less have an idea what I like.

notevenclose
09-19-05, 11:13 AM
Gotta laugh

notevenclose
09-19-05, 06:38 PM
Mood: at ease
Listening to: Black Eyed Peas

Please Pass the Bread

I watched the Martha show for the first time. She had the worse cooks in America.
Talk about clueless!

I had beef vegetable soup for lunch. I made it for dinner yesterday and it was so freaking good I had to have it again. I also had:
two slices of wheat bread
half a can of diet pepsi
diet ice tea

Mr. Delight and the kids got home from school and I quickly made them dinner. I know it’s a bit too early for dinner but hey Mr. Delight starts work at 5:00 pm today.
As for my dinner, I didn’t eat what I made them, instead I ate:
2 scrabbled eggs
2 slices of wheat bread
My snack:
2 slices of wheat bread (I’m eating lots of bread today it seems)
apricot preserves


About the little ones...

Fashion Guy is 15 and very into looking good and smelling good. He is so bright, yet so lazy. He’s like me-hardheaded. Because of this, I think I am the hardest on him. He is a great listener. Loves to talk. Always clowning. Likes to be the center of attention.

Dude is extremely bright. No commonsense whatsoever. Not very hip but very funny. Not great at sports but determine to try them anyway.

Miss Thing is 12 years old. She is a tough cookie. Strong, confident, funny (like you wouldn’t believe), pretty, can have an attitude at times (she better not even go there with ME), and can be very thoughtful at times.
My kids are good kids. I love them dearly and I do like to be around them 95% of the time. There are times though when they can be huge P.I.T.A’s (Pain In The ______).
But it’s all good.
I usually get even.



Those who think they know everything, annoy those of us that do.

notevenclose
09-19-05, 06:40 PM
funny

notevenclose
09-19-05, 09:50 PM
listening to: Michael Buble "Home" (I love this song!)

Attention Mr. Delight, Fashion Guy and Dude: Be afraid! Be very afraid!

Even though I ate early, I am not feeling hungry at all just very thirsty thanks to the cold. I am drinking lots of diet ice tea.
I want to lose 2 pounds by Saturday. If I am able to lose 2 lbs. this week (after stuffing my face with all that ice-cream this weekend) then I will be extremely happy.
I got my period today, which really sucks because I already feel crappy as is. The worse part is that Miss Thing and our dog, The Queen, also have their period. Can you believe that?
Oh well, getting back to my weight...I am really looking forward to posting my weight on Saturday. I know I am going to do well. I feel positive about that. You gotta come back and check out my progress. Don’t forget!

notevenclose
09-20-05, 09:03 AM
I manage to drag my butt into work this morning. Do feel a lot better. Ms. Boyds is in a cranky mood. She is all stressed out about work. I am surely not in the mood for attitude early in the freaking morning so I am just gonna give her space. I don't deal well with attitude.
I need another cup of coffee....

notevenclose
09-20-05, 02:17 PM
Coffee, please!

I am on my lunch break (which is only half an hour). For lunch I had:
1 cup of coffee (my third so far) with splenda and creamer
2 slices of wheat bread with a slice of low fat cheese

Ms. Boyds took her first Zoloft this morning (I don't even know how to spell it). I hope she gets better soon because she is really driving me nuts.
I think I should probably be taking Zoloft myself. Who knows.
Anyway, I do hope everyone is having a great day so far. Gotta get back to work.

notevenclose
09-20-05, 07:45 PM
The Menu

For dinner I had:
pasta with sausage
broccoli
corn
diet ice tea

I was a really good girl today. I resisted banana split flavored ice ream at work, and we all know that is a huge accomplishment for me.
I’m determined to get back on track. I WILL LOSE 2 POUNDS THIS WEEK!

My plan is to lose 5 pounds per month.
15 pounds by December 25th.
35 lbs. by the end of April.

notevenclose
09-21-05, 08:41 PM
Listening to: PINK

As I get older, I pay less attention to what men say. I just watch what they do.
-Andrew Carnegie


I have been waking up feeling lighter since I’ve quit eating late night meals. Today I woke up feeling good enough to wear my nicest outfit with my sexiest shoes to work.
When I dress up, I feel good, and the motivation to stay on track is there.
There are so many different styles of clothing that I would like to wear but my weight keeps me from buying them. I’m pretty sure that everyone that reads this knows what I mean. You all know my pain.

Anyhow, due to my very sexy shoes, I now have blisters on my feet. The things we do for beauty.

Today’s Menu was:

Breakfast: 2 cups coffee w/ cream and Splenda
Lunch: I didn’t have time to pack so I ordered chicken soup (didn’t even taste good).
Dinner: Homemade Spanish rice and beans w/ grilled chicken. 1 glass of Coke Zero.
Snack: Fruity Pebbles with low fat milk.

I am feeling ok. Not hungry at all. I will drink another glass of Coke Zero now and that will be all.

Sweet Jean
09-22-05, 12:40 AM
Hello ...

I must come back and make a proper visit ... but I'm stopping in even though it's so late just to tell you how much I love your journal. You are a character!

I love your personality ... your spirit ... your writing ... and your cartoons!

Now be good on your diet and your weight will drop off like water. You are in the prime of your life, you lucky girl. Enjoy every minute of it.

:o

notevenclose
09-22-05, 09:43 PM
Listening to: Michael Buble (again)

Sweet Jean
What a nice surprise to see your face on my journal. I just love your picture. I think you have such a lovely face. I truly mean it. You are LOVELY!
You were very sweet to write such kind things.
Thank you so much for stopping by.

The Challenge
To further motivate me to stay on track I have form a weight-loss challenge for my fellow co-workers and myself. The challenge is to stay on track for 12 weeks. The person that loses the most weight by the end of the 12 weeks wins a certain amount of money. How much? Well, Monday is our starting day, so that is when I’ll be able to tell you how much money is involve (I mean how much money I’ll be winning).

Can you Dance?
Did anyone watch So You think You Can Dance last night? It was really good. My favorite two dancers are Melody and Nick. I just love them. They really kicked ass this week. Can’t wait for next week!

The Gym
I am going to get dress right now and head for the gym. It has been a very long while since I’ve last visited the gym. Mr. Delight is going with me. I am feeling tired but I am also excited about exercising again. The first day is always hard.
Let's see how it goes. good night.....

notevenclose
09-22-05, 11:41 PM
Out of Shape

Just got back from the gym. I know I said goodnight and all, but I just had to stop in again and tell you how it went. Talk about out of shape!
I guess I must have overdone it because I’m actually freaking dizzy. Can you believe that?
There was a woman there that must have been over eighty, looked like she weighed 100 pounds wet, and was exercising like a fiend. Put me to shame, I tell you.
To keep myself entertain, I sat there on the exercise bike with Mr. Delight and looked at all the different asses in front of me. Big asses and small asses motivate me equally. The big, lumpy ones make me think about how mine will look in a few years (if I don’t continue to exercise) and the small, bubble ones make me so envious I want to exercise. Truth is, I don’t want to have a flat butt but rather a nice round firm one. Anyhow, Mr. Delight kept me laughing the entire time I was there. He really is a delight.

bell
09-23-05, 01:54 AM
not sure why it has taken me so long to find your journal..anyway welcome to the journals forum.. i love your writing style and your description of your kids made me laugh!!!!
too bad about the sexy shoes causing blisters...but thats typical isnt it..cant expect to be sexy and comfortable..that would be asking to much :)
i like seeing all the different shapes and sizes at the gym too..i remember thinking that i wouldnt fit in at the gym when i was heavier..they would all be skinny..i am glad thats not the case and kick myself for waiting so long to join up... i love the way you post what music you are listening to..i think the type of music people listen to says a lot about them..my musical tastes depend a lot on my mood at the time..when i am depressed i get out Coldplay...they make me feel worse..not sure why i do that :)
Thats awesome that Mr Delight goes with you to the gym!
hugs bell :)

notevenclose
09-23-05, 11:38 PM
Listening to: Alanis Morriset Univited (makes me wish I knew how to play an instrument)

Bell,
Like you, when I’m depress, I tend to listen to music that makes me feel worse. I don’t know why either.
Thank you for stopping by. You are indeed an inspiration to me. Congrats on your weight loss!


Let’s skip the handshake
In the beginning...
I loved working closely with Mrs. Boyds (my closest friend) and Funny Guy. They made coming to work a pure enjoyment. There was another person in our group that I loved dearly, Miss Anne (she moved out of town and had to quit). She was the youngest in our group. Mrs. Boyds and her always went out of their way to show me how much they appreciated me as a co-worker and as a friend.
After working together for a few years and having a few new additions come in and out of our group, our department was suddenly broken up. First to go was Miss Anne and Funny Guy. They both went to separate departments. Then Miss Anne moved and I was put in her department. Let me just say that it wasn’t as a replacement for her (we do completely different things). And let me just tell you that she had detested the co-workers from that department. DETESTED. How do you think I felt when I found out that I would be working with them? ****, I was ready to quit.
Fast Forward to now...
This is my thirteenth month working in my new department. I work with:
Miss A.C.
Very, very organized, goodhearted, very giving (gives too much at times). Hard worker. Always has a good story or gossip.
The It Guy
Likes to be needed. You need something done, he can do it. Does work hard and is great at his job.
Young Guy
New and kinda shy but is slowly warming up to us. He is a very nice person.
La Italiana
Loves to have fun. She is a trip in a half. Our sense of humors just mesh together. She is funny and very kind. Great mother. Hard worker.

Everyday people surprise me more and more.
Now, I mentioned before that things have been very tight financially at home. This month has been very tough.
Well, my co-workers, surprised me this morning with a gift, a card, and a gift card to my local supermarket. The card said Thank You for the work that I do for them. I was so touched that they did this. I mean that was very, very nice. I don’t feel I deserve it but I am very thankful to God for the gift and for them.
They even wanted to buy me lunch. I said no to this of course.

Today’s Menu
Breakfast
2 cups of coffee
Lunch
Chicken Lo Mein and pork fried rice
Dinner
Half a cup of Fat free cool whip with a can of Light peach slices.
Coke Zero

notevenclose
09-24-05, 12:59 PM
Listening to Diana Krall's Narrow Daylight

Weigh-In Day
My goal was to lose 2 pounds this week. Not a big number but a rather realistic number for me. I don’t want to set myself up for failure.
Well, I woke up feeling very good. I practically jumped off the bed. Yes, I was excited to step on the scale. The numbers on the scale read 151.5. I lost 2.5 pounds.
Today is Saturday, Cleaning Day. My kids hate Cleaning Day but to me it is as exciting as Valentine’s Day. I love having a clean house and nothing puts me in a more romantic mood than having everything cleaned and organized. What can I say? I know it’s weird.

Breakfast
4 oz. container of Breyers Light strawberry yogurt

notevenclose
09-24-05, 06:32 PM
Listening to: Los Juanes- A Dios Le Pido


Wishful Diet Tip #1
Things licked off knives and spoons have no calories if you are in the process of preparing something. Examples are peanut butter on a knife making a sandwich and ice cream on a spoon making a sundae.

Great Day for _______ (you fill in the blank)
Mr. Delight is home from work. The house is clean. Dinner is done and over with. I am doing laundry right now (why does it seem like I’m always doing laundry?).
I am thinking of going to the gym tonight but it all depends on whether or not I get done with the laundry early enough (the gym closes earlier than usual on the weekends). Lets see what happens.
The weather is perfect, finally cool enough to cover myself up with the comforter this morning. Too bad Mr. Delight had to leave for work at 5:30 this morning (he could have warmed me up).

Anyhow, here is the rest of today’s food list:

Lunch
Wheat bread with low fat turkey and fat free cheese

Dinner
Bow tie pasta tossed with peas and parmesan cheese
Fat free cool whip with pineapple chunks
Coke Zero

Planned Snack
1 banana with ½ c. milk, ice, Splenda, cinnamon (blended)

Sweet Jean
09-24-05, 11:59 PM
Good for you and your 2.5 lbs! :1stprize:

Now I'll tell you the truth ... you are the first person I've ever heard say that cleaning is "exciting." I've had my moments when I've felt satisfied by my results but I've never thought of cleaning as exciting ... your children must think you are strange (in a nice way, of course ... lol). I think your family is lucky to have you.

You don't say much in your profile and I'm wondering where you live ... I see that you're in the same time zone as I am ... and I live in NJ. Do you mind saying where you're from?

Again let me say that reading your journal is fun ... I'll be stopping in often to check on your progress. I love your comments!

:o

crazy2
09-25-05, 12:00 AM
Sounds like you are doing great, congrats on the 2.5 pounds, that is fantastic.

Hey, if Mr. Delight is such a delight, why can't he do laundry while you go to the gym. Surely he wants to support Mrs. Delight.

Keep up the good work!!!

notevenclose
09-25-05, 11:00 AM
Episode Two

Week Two of My Diet
Today I am going scrapbooking at a friend’s house. I love scrapbooking, have all the supplies, but usually have no time to do it. Today I hope to complete at least two pages.

Sweet Jean,
Maybe the word exciting wasn’t the proper word to say. I don’t really like the process of cleaning but rather the feeling I get when everything is finally clean.
Thank you for stopping in. I really appreciate your sweet words of encouragement.

Hi there, Crazy!
I see you’re a Life Coach. Sounds like a very interesting and fulfilling job. Have you ever watched the show Starting Over? I think the Life Coaches there are great.
Thanks for stopping in. Hope the following answers your question.

My Househusband
Mr. Delight worked for a company for 7 years and then suddenly the company packed up and moved to Japan. I convinced him to go back to school and take advantage of the fact that the company would have to pay for it. I knew things would be tight financially but in the long run it will be better for our family.
When I had two jobs (two jobs that I loved) and Mr. Delight starting his schooling, he did 98% of the cooking, 50% of the cleaning (kids have their own cleaning to do), 100% of the laundry, and he took care of the three kids (just as well as I do). He never complained but rather made sure that when I was home I would be able to spend quality time with him and the kids. People wondered how I was able to hold two jobs and still manage my home and family but they didn’t understand that he was the one doing it all at home.
I quit my second job and now he goes to school full time and works weekends from 6-2:30 pm. He also works Mondays after school.
If I need him to cook he would cook. If I need him to do the laundry he would but as I was typing in here last night debating whether or not I should go to the gym, he was fast asleep on the couch.
He couldn’t even keep his eyes open for his favorite show. How could I possibly wake him up to do laundry? I am not that cruel.


Gotta run now and shower. Hope everyone has a great Sunday.

notevenclose
09-25-05, 10:10 PM
The scrapbooking party was very productive. Even though I forgot my pictures at home (how stupid was that), I still I manage to complete all the embellishments on 6 pages. I just had to add all the pictures to the pages when I got home and now 6 pages are complete. Very happy about that.
My menu today included lots of different cheeses (I love cheese!), wine, crackers, grapes, olives stuffed with garlic, and a spoon size amount of cheesecake.
When I got home I had low fat turkey and cheese on wheat and a cup of coffee.
Got to go and watch the season premiere of Desperate Housewives.

Kelsey
09-25-05, 11:36 PM
Hey! congrats on the 2.5 pounds. I'm sure that you will be just as successful this week. I read through your entries and they really made me want cool whip.

~Kelsey

notevenclose
09-26-05, 09:12 PM
Listening to: George Michael’s Careless Whisper (so 80’s-I know, I have no excuse)

Hi Kelsey,
Thank you for stopping in. I love cool whip. Fat free, light, extra creamy, I don’t care what kind it is. I guess though that when it comes to diet, fat free Cool Whip rocks.

Show me the Money
Today is the official weigh-in day at my job for our weight-loss challenge. As of today, there is $225 in the pot. Not bad, huh? I am definitely going to try my best to win that money so that I can buy Christmas gifts for my co-workers/friends at work. Darn it, forget try, I AM GOING TO WIN!
Today, Miss A.C had a Longenburger show at work and she had all these really great treats to eat. I admit, I tried a few things but I didn’t overindulge on anything. I even managed to stay away from the cheesecake.

I am going to go to the gym with Mr. Delight at 9pm. I am watching a bit of Wife Swap on TV as I type this. Has anyone seen this crap? I can’t believe these parents. Animals do a better job raising their young. Totally disturbing.

lbbear
09-26-05, 09:24 PM
Hi! I still love the music from the 80's, anything else since then is not music!! I do not watch, but my Mom tells me all about it, see it sometimes when I go to her house. Have to wonder if these people exist! Very sad. I will keep my fingers crossed for the money pot, good luck!!

notevenclose
09-27-05, 11:10 PM
On my way
Stayed on track with my eating. I am following (on my own) the old Weight Watchers diet program. It’s something that has always worked for me and I like it. I can’t afford to go to the meetings but I do feel I am getting plenty of support here at DT.

Things I know must change:
Need to start drinking water.
Limit drinking diet soda to only once or twice a week.

Exercise Log
Mr. Delight and I went to the gym last night and we also manage to go tonight. I feel really good about that.

notevenclose
09-29-05, 09:27 PM
Feeling Fine
Didn't stop in yesterday because I just wasn't in the "computer" mood. There are some days that I don’t even want to go near a computer. Is it just me that experiences this?
Must tell you, though, I have been 100% on track with my eating. Still not there (where I should be) with the water, but that will soon change.
Good news, I have an interview tomorrow evening for a part-time job that I applied for two months ago. I gotta tell you, I hate interviews. I do think I am highly qualified for the job but I don’t think I interview well. Know what I mean? Anyhow, let’s see what happens.
Dance
Did anyone see So You Think You Can Dance last night? It was really good. I voted for both Melody and Nick. Boy, can they freaking dance! I love them both! I’ll be happy if either one wins. I can’t wait for the next show.

bell
09-30-05, 12:27 AM
Good luck with your interview..i am sure you will do great! What type of job is it for?
hugs bell :)

notevenclose
10-01-05, 09:13 AM
Listening to: Eminem's 8 Mile Road
The weekend has finally arrived!
Today is cleaning day, laundry day, dinner-with-my-sisters day, and get-your-freak-on-day with Mr. Delight (he doesn’t know this yet). I have been up since 5:00 this morning. Mr. Delight had to get up for work and I woke up to drink coffee with him. After he left I just sat in the family room and watched all my missed shows on TIVO.
Tonight I am having my sister Funny Lady and her husband Know-it-all for dinner, my other sister Naïve is also coming along. I’m not sure if Naïve is bringing a date yet.
She has on and off relationship with Psychoman. At this point I don’t know if they are on or off. If they are on, she will come alone. If they are off, she will bring a friend.
I love Naïve dearly but it is very frustrating to witness the constant drama in her life.
I tell her that she needs to move on but she is unable to do this. What can I do? I listen, give her advice and just pray that she will soon wake up and move on before he ends up killing her (yeah, it’s that bad).
Funny Lady is just plain FUNNY. She always makes me laugh. She is also very motherly (protective, caring). I admire the woman she has become.
Know-it-all has definitely improved over the years. He has become a wonderful husband to my sister, a good father and a hard worker. The only thing bad about him is that he thinks he knows everything. Annoys the crap out of me, because I’m the only one that knows everything. :D
The Scale
Anyway, the scale today read 150. I went down 1-½ pounds. I can deal with that.
I have been feeling very much in control, as far as my eating goes.
Today will be a very challenging day. Mainly because I will be cooking dishes that I love to eat and also some new dishes that I’ve never eaten. Let’s see what happens.

Bell,
The interview went well. I have to sit and wait now. I am applying for a photographer position. One thing that everyone should know about me is that I love photography.


Have an enjoyable weekend!

notevenclose
10-03-05, 09:03 PM
Listening to: Take me Back by The Anointed


Yesterday was such a miserable day for me. I had a HUGE hangover.
Drank way too much freaking wine on Saturday night.
I don’t think I was extremely bad with my eating on Saturday. I mean, I didn’t eat anything for breakfast or lunch, for dinner I had some of the Orzo salad I made, one bread stick and two slices of cake. I didn’t overeat and I didn’t have any of the pasta dishes I made. I did gulped down almost a whole bottle of wine. I also drank one glass of rum and coke. I think every time Know-It-All talked, I drank.
Funny Lady looked more beautiful than I have seen her look in years. Naïve looked good and was full of her usual drama. I realized with sadness today how distant Naïve and I have become. For the longest time she has been my favorite sister. Now we hardly talk and when we do talk she kind of disappoints me and I suddenly become this awful mother figure instead of the young, fun sister I should be. I hate that.
Yesterday I was so sick I couldn’t eat or drink anything until about 5 pm. That is when I finally had some chicken soup and later on I had ice tea. Never again!

Breakfast
1 c coffee
Lunch
1 cup roasted potatoes mixed with snap peas and bell peppers
Snack
2 mint chocolate chips hard candies by Baskin Robbins (heavenly!)
Dinner
a Lean Cuisine 5 point meal (forget which one it was)
spinach with cherry tomatoes, onions, fat free Italian dressing
1 light yogurt with fiber
6 oz . diet Pepsi
Snack
1 cup Captain Crunch
½ low fat milk
apple/caramel light popcorn

Sweet Jean
10-04-05, 12:55 AM
How I know hangovers! When I drank I had hangovers that were worthy of a freak show. My favorite cure was Classic Coke (warm and sipped slowly) ... Alka Seltzer was a winner too. Sorry you suffered. On the positive side of things, maybe you lost some weight!

I love the names you give to all your relatives. Do they know you do this? I only have one sister five years older than me but over the years we've had our differences. We've made peace on and off but our relationship has never been what I'd like it to be. Your best bet is to have great girlfriends ... those you can handpick to your complete liking.

Have a good week. Let us know how you're doing. I hope you get to the gym ... you seem to enjoy going.

:o

bell
10-04-05, 05:51 AM
Hey there my friend.
i am back after a weekend away for my cousins wedding..stopped in to see how your weekend was and i see we both had hangovers!!!! i dont drink much but i drank too much cheapish wine at my cousins wedding and paid for it the next day lol..
i too love the names you give everyone..i am glad to hear that the interview went well...i will keep everything crossed for you!
hugs bell :)

notevenclose
10-04-05, 07:26 PM
Listening to: Your body is a wonderland by John Mayer

Sweet Jean,
I will try to remember that hangover remedy-the warm Coke-next time I drink too much. My relatives do not know I give them these silly names. They would kill me! Even Mr. Delight doesn't know his secret identity. I think he would rather have a name like Mr. Big or Mr. Endurance.

Bell,
Thanks for stopping in to check on me. Glad the wedding went well. Haven't heard anything yet from the place I applied at. Hopefully I will hear something this week.

Work
Mrs. Boyds didn’t come to work today. She called off sick. I think she is close to having a meltdown. Funny Guy took off yesterday because his daughter was sick. He wants to divorce his wife, quit his job and travel the world (preferably with a 20 year old girlfriend). I doubt he will ever do this but this is what he dreams about at work.
Many at my job are under severe stress. I feel bad for the workers that are feeling stress. I think many are looking for work elsewhere and I truly don’t blame them.
My position is not very stressful so I have no qualms.


Why did you have to tell me that?
I found out that my 15-year-old niece is gay (or experimenting for now). I don’t know whether to tell her mom or not.
I know her mom, Funny Lady, is going to be very upset and her dad, Know-It-All (guess he doesn’t know everything after all), is going to have a fit.
Also, if I tell my sister, then my niece is going to know that it was my son who told me. And she will be very upset with him.
I feel bad for my niece because I know she must want to talk to her mom but is afraid to. I hardly see her so I can’t really sit down and have a talk with her. What can I do?

Darn it! Why can’t I just be left out of these things?

Eating was good today. Still on track. Still feeling optimistic.

notevenclose
10-04-05, 07:35 PM
Gotta laugh.

Corinna
10-04-05, 10:40 PM
Wow.. Is it too late to say welcome to DT? :o

What does Delight-man take in school? What do you do at the gym? Congrats on the loss.

Corinna

notevenclose
10-05-05, 07:15 PM
Corinna,
Thank you for stopping in and for the words of encouragement. Delight is going for his electrician license.
When I go to the gym I usually go on the bike, or on the elliptical machine for 20 minutes and then I either work on my upper or lower body.

Agua, Agua, Agua
Not much went on today.
Doing good with the food. I feel pretty satisfied with what I’m eating. Have no problems staying on track this week at work and at home. My number one problem is the fact that I am not drinking hardly any water at all. I know I need to change that. I can list all my excuses for you but the truth is I haven’t been trying with the water. Yes, it’s on my mind (as I type this) but I’m not really trying to do anything about it.

notevenclose
10-06-05, 10:49 PM
It's Finally Time
Decided that Saturday will be the day to start increasing my water intake from 1 cup to at least 8 cups. Better to do it on the weekend cause I know I am going to be running to the bathroom all day.
Mr. Delight told me that he would go to the gym at least five days next week. :lift: He really doesn't like going to the gym but he is trying his best to support and encourage me. Such a sweetheart!
I will also be taking my two boys along (separately) on certain days. Both boys are in wrestling and one needs to gain (muscle/strength) and the other needs to maintain and work on endurance.
They are surely growing up fast.:c(

Anyhow, gotta run.

-later

notevenclose
10-07-05, 10:55 PM
It’s been raining all day today but I don’t care because Friday is finally here! Gotta love Fridays!
Tomorrow I am going to a scrapbooking workshop for about 6 hours. Five of my co-workers will also be attending so you know there is going to be lots of work gossip and lots of venting (*****in). Not really in the mood for it but I already paid for the workshop and the money is not refundable. I am hoping to get 6 pages done. Let’s see what happens.