I will start this journal with the hope that I can keep it up on a daily basis, and that I can teach myself that I do have a perfect life and that in order to maintain my perfect life, I will have pitfalls and plateaus and peaks.
I started here in diettalk just a couple of days ago. I am really depressed as I feel that I have been working hard, but my gut still seems to follow me around. It was quite evident when I went to try on smaller clothing sizes, and my evil gut would not allow it.X-( Already I have had a few people respond with some positive words that I hope I can start taking to heart. And since this is my journal, if I want to whine a little bit, or run off at the mouth, I can!:pass:
I will take this paragraph to give a little bit of a background. I am 38 years old, soon 39, aahh! I have been married to the most hard working, loving man a girl could ever ask for for almost 15 wonderful years. He is extremely supportive, but unfortunately does not know how to handle my various moods and lashing outs and castigatings of myself. But, even when I am at my worst looking and feeling, he still loves me!! We have 2 gorgeous daughters, the eldest is 9, going on 10 in Feb. She is such a young lady!! Very generous and loving, but hates challenges!! Excellent creativity skills!! Our youngest, just turned 4 on the 12th. Such a little ball of independence, stubborness and a can-do attitude, no matter what!! Loving as all get out, very creative and articulate. Hates to be told "no'!! Gonna be fun when she starts school!!
Have been overweight all my life. Sixteen years old, 260lbs. My parents offered to pay a boy to take me to the prom, he still did not accept. I have not stepped on a scale for 4 years, too frightened. Then I weighed 230. I want to get rid of my gut. It is oozy and yucky. I am riding a bike both indoors and out, and cutting down on my calories. I want to eat healthy, but stop feeling guilty for falling off the wagon occaionally. Maybe it will help me to put things down here, what I have had for meals, what I am feeling, etc. I sure hope so, my husband wants his "happy bear" back, he has not seen her in awhile.
Thanks for listening. Anybody got any recommends for a polite scale????8-|

Welcome to diet talk IBbear
You will find here a lot of us with the same problem. Some have reached goal but they know where we are coming from. As for the scale if your scared of it keep it hidden. Good luck.

Well, it is day 2 of writing in my journal. I have honey home today, I thought that might mean that he could take care of the kids and their needs, but that lasted all of 1/4 of the day. Now they are fighting, little one wants to play with her choo-choos and the eldest is arguing about it. Oh good, eldest just went to answer a phone call from a friend, now little one is coloring. Hubby is outside working on his car, I know he needs to, but it does not help when I am feeling selfish.
I figure that I should start writing down my eating habits. I figure when people are reading this, they are going to think that I am weird, or doing things all wrong, but hey, compared to what I was doing, I have improved. I am not into the whole calorie counting thing yet, but I am paying more attention and it is influencing my habits for the better, for me at least. I know I need to see my doctor, have not seen him for me in 4 years, in order to get my stats and overall health checked out, as well as stepping on the evil scale. I do have an appointment on the 13th., am trying not to chicken out of it. Maybe after that I will be able to address my fears and get other advice and support. I am still not ready to tell my family, ie my mom and sister that I am going, (they would be shocked) , sometimes I just feel that they try to offer me support, only because they feel they have to. Neither one of them has a weight problem.
Anyway, I ate breakfast at around 9:30-10:00. A bowl of cottage cheese with tuna mixed in, a snack size bag of Lay's, 1/2 can of Sprite 0, and a Yoplait chocolate yogurt.
1/3 of a cup of Craisins was a snack, and lunch at 2:00 of a bowl of salad and one piece of banana bread, fresh from the oven, no butter. Dinner is going to be shrimp with cauliflower, yum!! I am a bread-aholic, and also dairy. I do use lowfat milk products, trying to contemplate switching to skim. However, I no longer drink 2 glasses of milk with my dinner or during the day, so for me, that is an accomplishment. I also no longer drink 4 cans of mountain dew, in fact I no longer take in any caffeine, unless my chocolate yogurt has a little. Never have liked coffee. For me, Yay! Quite the progress. Also, I drink more water than I ever used to, enough to float me around, constantly in one place long enough to realize we need to remodel it!!:D
I also exercise lots more than I ever used to. I now ride 10-13 miles on my bike, indoor coupled with outdoor when weather allows. I have already done 6.1 miles today, but only burned 360 calories. Know I should do more cal burn, but I was playing Playstation at the same time, could not go as fast. Will do more tonight after kids go to bed, then I will watch tv and can go a little faster. I do like playing those games though, considering my lack of exercise for 30 plus years, they give me something to do!!
Thanks for listening, will try to write more tomorrow. :beam:

Sorry about chat tonight my niece stopped in thought she was here but a min. but stayed. longer.

Thank you for letting me know boblin.:)
Well, I am not having a good day today. It is a gloomy day and it is just affecting my mood. That coupled with other things, not fun. The eldest is at school, youngest is eating her lunch of two pieces of turkey, lowfat yogurt, piece of cheese, and a handful of goldfish. She is my little one who will not eat veggies, never has, ever since she was tiny. We have tried all the little tricks, don't know what else to do.
My eating has consisted of a big bowl of salad, one piece of banana bread, and a chocolate yogurt. I am now out of chocolate yogurt hope I can last until Friday when I go grocery shopping.
I did do more miles on the bike last night, burned another 300 cals. Probably doing it all wrong, but it is more than I ever used to. I definitely need to do some of the things other people are talking about, get myself weighed, and get control of my life rather than letting my depression control me. LIke right now, all I want to do is eat. I have had 48 oz. of water this am. Trying to debate whether to go out on the bike, or stay here with an exercise tape. Any suggestions how to learn the Richard Simmon's dance moves? I bought the Broadway tapes, am sort of frustrated because he does not explain how to do the moves, so not getting any exercise trying to keep up and learn.
Well, that is all for now, I will put more in another time. :beam:

Ib Bear
It doesn't matter how you move as long as your moving. The more you move, the more you lose. So go for it girl.

I just get so intimidated by those cute little choreographed moves!! I think I am a frustrated dancer!! I would love to take ballroom dancing, hubby says he will when the kids are old enouhg to be on their own for more than 1/2 an hour. My eldest at least can be left alone that long, my baby I don't think is ever going to be able to be left alone, too busy!!
My mood cleared up somewhat, went on my bike outside for 6 miles. We live out in the middle of nowhere, so we are 2 blocks from the highway, but it is 4 miles!! Very easy to go out with no traffic to worry about, very nice. I ate my usual sandwich for lunch, water, some flavored water and a snack size of chips. Dinner will be Chili with rice. I am still a bread-aholic, will try to be sensible......
Thanks to all! :beam:

Hi lbbear! I enjoyed our visit in the chat room yesterday. I know only too well how frustrating this weight loss can be. I'm trying desperately to be positive and look at it as a lifestyle change. A change that really will involve changing every aspect of my life......boy --- do i have work to do. lol.

Anyway just wanted to say how proud I am that you are doing so well with the exercise -- 6 miles --- wow. That gives me something to work into.

Have a great night!

Hi, lbbear, nice to meet you, and I wish you great success in your weight-loss efforts.

Regarding the Richard Simmons dance tapes, I sure know what you mean. When I first did them, I actually played the tape through before I tried to do the moves. This helped give me an idea of what I would be doing. Yes, the moves can be difficult, but the point of it is to get yourself moving with the music. Who cares if your mix up your left foot and your right foot -- you are still exercising.

I am a bread-aholic, too, so I sure know what you are talking about.

Just take it all a day at a time, and keep posting.

I will keep checking in the chats mitzy, maybe I will run into you again!! I think it is great to have all this support, makes my heart smile. Jo, it is nice to meet you also. I hope we will be able to keep chattin'!!

Ibbear,
You are doing great with the water and exercise (great job on that bike!). I need to start drinking water myself and cut out the diet soda.
The moves (on the tapes) will take some getting use to but you will eventually get the hang of it. Don’t get frustrated. Remember you are not in a race with anyone. Ok?
Hey, you know what? I love bread also, and cheese, and meat, and chocolate, oh darn it, I guess I love it all.

Have a great week!

Your doing great lb bear keep at it and you will see positive results. You will be a loser.

Thank you boblin! I will take the you will be a loser" in the most positive sense!! I am having a lazy day, will right more later!!:beam:

Well, definitely had a lazy, not really good for me day. I ate chips and 3 pieces of bananna bread, with a butter sub. Did drink lots of h2o though, and I walked 1/2 mile. Will still ride bike this evening. Dinner will be some broiled chicken with yummy barb sauce and corn on the cob. Tried on more clothes, good news, top one size to big, pants fit in my hips,grr., but loose in the waist, oh well! Shoes were also big, I really need to learn not to order shoes from a catalog.:crazy:
It is nice to be accountable in here. I am starting to be in the home stretch for seeing the doctor. Will be pretty nerve-racking, wish hubby could be with me to hold my hand, but he will be taking care of little one :c( !
Thanks for listening, will be back tomorrow. :beam:

Somehow we always fear seeing our doctor, probably because we are afraid of what he/she will have to say to us. Nevertheless, we do know that we should see that doctor every so often, whether we want to or not.

But the actual experience of a doctor's visit is never as nerve-racking as thinking about it beforehand.

Keep doing the best you can, day after day, and keep posting -

Lbbear the doctor will be so pleased that your trying to do something positive about your weight. Your worried for nothing unless there something wrong that your not sharing with us. Go in there with shoulders back, chest out. Straight up he will see the positive in you. Go girl. Your going to get there.

I know that my fear is irrational, the doctor has known me for years. I just feel bad and embarrased. It goes to that mirror image thing. I know that I am reasonably healthy, overweight yes, but not feeling like I am on my last legs. I am afraid of being diagnosed with diabetes, or high cholesterol. I do not want to end up on meds. Thanks boblin, I appreciate the support.
As far as the rest of my report, I have to tell myself I hate tortilla chips. What is it about this time of the month, I want just to eat! I could lie and say, I haeve been such a good girl, but it would not be right!! I ate my usual sand., and tortilla chips. Then for lunch, cottage cheese, tuna and tortilla chips!! Was really good though and did not have french fries for dinner with my chicken.:D also did 5 really sweaty miles on the bike inside.
Quiet day, a few grrs. though. Trying to communicate with my daughter's school, trying to communicate with CA. DMV for my mother, punching the wrong buttons on phones and losing calls, my youngest growing again and telling me she is hungry, every 3 minutes. Fun.
Will try to get more water down myself today, feeling bloated as it is, contemplating dinner of a diet freezer dinner, and looking forward to picking apples at my in-laws on Sat., but not the prep for it, so much to do! I have to pack, go grocery shopping, buy the eldest some more outfits because they are on sale, get my lab work done in prep for the Dr. appointment, clean more house and pack! All while still trying to get on the bike and stay away for the tortilla chips! Also, they had to show me a picture on tv last night of a snack pie brand I am particularly fond of, blackberry, umm. I will fight the craving!
Thanks for listening. :beam:

Me again!! Ok day diet wise. Ate my usual sandwich for breakfast, snack size chips and Sprite 0. Lunch was single serve of Corn Pops, surprised me that it was only 100 calories, with about 1/2 cup 2%milk, and a piece of wheat bread with 1/2 tsp. strawberry jam. Not as much water today, just not up to it, but I have been drinking it! Did 8 miles on the bike out of doors. Also did 5 more really sweaty miles last night on the indoor bike. Have to try to go to bed early tonight, busy day tomorrow. Dinner will probably be scrambled eggs and some bacon or sausage, whatever hubby brings home. Debating biscuits, it is that bread thing again!! Definitely NOT wanting to do dishes right now, haven't all day, too busy with other things!! Ughh!
Well, will try to post tomorrow night, then I am off to apple pick till Sunday!!
Thanks for listening! :beam:

By the way, did eat the diet dinner on 9/28, and really fought the after dinner munchies!! Did not yield to temptation!!!!! Yeah!!!!

Quick note!! Shopping all day, very bad. Whatever could go wrong did, starting with I went to get the prelim. lab work done, and I had not fasted, because it did not say on my lab slip that I had to fast, so now I have to go in again another day!!!X-( Stayed on track diet wise, usual sandwich for breakfast without tomatos though, and a sparling apple blackberry water 10 oz. Lost my appetite and only had 1/4 of a salad with chicken at a fast food place with water. Dinner is homemade pea souop with cheese biscuits and water. Had a little more blackberry water for a snack, but did not drink nearly as much as I should have today. Walked around too much with little one and a heavy shopping cart to even think about my bike.
Well, we are up early to go pick appples, hope everyone has a great weekend!!! :beam:

Picked apples, had a great time. Yucky habits, have to get back on track. Too many high calorie foods, not enough water, no bike, but I was bending stretching and throwing apples. Mother- in -Law did say I looked fabulous, so that was nice. Will definitely get back on track next week, 1 1/2 weeks till Doctor visit. Will try to go back to lab on Friday, they had a magazine there with some easy tummy exercises, will try to see if lab will photo copy them for me, they are all into health right?! :beam:

Weather is decent, will probably be able to get out for a bike ride. Have so much to do tody, do not know what I am going to do with little one, I either need a housekeeper to do all my work, or a nanny to keep little one entertained!! Will post later! :beam:

Hello! Rode the bike 8 miles, and stayed on track food wise. Ate 1 cup Raisin Bran with 1/2 cup 2% and a bananna for breakfast. My usual sandwich with tomatos for lunch, snack size chips and 1/2 can Sprite 0. Had to have some chocolate yogurt also. Figure that since I have the fat free Mayo on the sandwich, it is ok.
Trying to get through the housework, my bathroom looks a mess with all the laundy sorted in piles, I had run out of detergent, so everything kinda piled up. Will get more done! Also been drinking plenty of water, I think I have had about 48 oz. plus so far.
Thanks to everyone who views this!! :beam:

Your doing great lbbear. You will beat this. A little slip here and there are certainly expected. Keep it up. You will see more good days than bad and that's what we want.

Hey!
8 miles is great, esp in nice weather. I'd also like to say "wow" about eating just one small bag of chips. I could never do that. Chips are such my downfall. I just had to stop eating them completely.

Thank you! It was either get myself to snack size or nothing. But I do really fight not just having one more bag......
Ate kidney bean casserole with rice for dinner and water. A little high on the cals, I use white rice, but not the instant boxes. House work still piled, I think there is someone manufacturing the laundry as I clear a pile, they are procreating like bunnies. Well, you know what I will be doing tomorrow!! :beam:

Ok, enough about my laundry, but I am still doing it!!! X-(
Have had a pretty decent morning. Little one keeps me on my toes, wanted to play animal doctor all morning. I was trying to get phone work done, getting both daughters into some different educational programs, chatting with my mom, and letting hubby know we had computer probs., again.
Stayed on track food wise, usual sandwich with tomatos for breakfast, I know, it is boring, but I like it!! Snack size chips and half a can of Sprite 0. Lots of water. Did 5 sweaty miles on the indoor bike, weather is cold and windy to go outside. :tongue:
Lunch was 1 1/4 cups rice crispies with 1/2 cup 1% milk, and a fresh apple. Also water. We will be having chicken with wheat noodles, some sort of veg. probably string beans or zucchini, and a little roasted tomato sauce on the noodles.
Hopefully will be able to get back on the bike after kids go to bed. We are starting a new bedtime routine tonight and I am anxious to see how it goes. Kids are used to going to bed at nine, but now they have to be in bed by 8 in order to accomadate the new education program requirements. Shoul be interesting because it means that now I will have to feed the kids between 5 and 6, then either keep hubby's dinner warm or make up fresh when he gets home at 7. Fun.
Will talk later and thanks for listening!! :beam:

Forgive my spelling errors, was not paying attention to what I was typing!!

Forgot to add that I had my usual chocolate yogurt with breakfast too, I gotta be honest!! :D

Everything went pretty much as planned, kids did ok with new routine. Not sure I like the dinner thing though, yuch!! Big one had some upset at school today, hope things will change in the next couple of days, gnarly situation. I got them to bed at 8:00, yay!! Rode the indoor bike another 5, wet, miles. Dinner was good, and I ate a reasonable portion, but I think I am changing because now I feel overfed!! That is a good thing though, right?? :beam:

I am posting, with an extremely full stomach. Have to work on portioning myself better and to JUST SAY NO!!!! I made corned beef, biscuits, and salad. Believe me, I will not be eating anything more here tonight!!!!
I had a good day otherwise, usual sand and yogurt for breakfast and an apple for lunch. Lots of water and 1/2 mile walk roundtrip to the mailbox and 7 miles on the outdoor bike. Which I did have to fight myself to get on because lazy part of me was trying to wimp out and say it was to cold and windy. However, little one kept reminding me how it was cold and windy, how I should have put mittens on her, how I was going to fast and making her cold, etc., etc. But strong me won and perservered!! Will do 5 more sweaty miles on exercise bike tonight.
Got big one into a new classroom, hopefully will alieve her problems. Have an appointment with 2 different preschools for little one. I would like to get her into the one at the elementary school itself, but have to see if her wildness is enough of a concern to them that she could be classified as a risk. I have already had her evaluated for ADD, therapist did not seem to think there was a prob., but little one's doctor did seem to think there could be a concern. Time to get another professional opinion. I myself am not sure she is actually ADD, and I do not want her to be. She is high strung and independent, with a hard time focusing, but with enough teachers around the country ready to label higher maintenance children as ADD, I want to be able to have some firm ground to stand upon or if there is truly a problem, head it off at the pass before she truly is affected!!!
Will post tomorrow and thanks for listening!!:beam:

Just stopping in to say hello and tell you how much I like your journal. I'm glad you're happy at DT. It's a much nicer trip when you travel along with lots of friends.

Have fun and I'll see you again soon. :o

Hi Lbbear - just saw your new journal and thought I'd drop in to say "hey"! :wave: Sounds like we're around the same age and married for about the same amount of time. Your little ones must be keeping you quite busy!

Re: the Richard Simmons choreography, not sure about his stuff, but for learning basic low impact aerobics moves there's a video called Fat Burning For Dummies (please don't be insulted by the title!!!) which teaches you the 15 (?) basic moves that many aerobics routines are based around. Nice starting point. Just thought I'd throw that out there. :)

Anyway, keep up the good work, and have a fantastic Thursday! :)

Thanks Anne and SJ for the stop in!!! SJ, I agree, it is much better with friens, I am glad I found you guys. Anne, no I don't fee insulted, I need all the help I can get!! He does all all thes neat things to the beat of the music, and it helps that I really like the music, and I just feel the need to tap!! I will have to work on the moves during the snowed-in, or colded-in, or rained in or just plain yucky winter days!!!
Not much to report today, do not have much time!! Been A+ on food choices, and excercise an A. Been incredibly busy!! Little one started a one day a week preschool program, may move it to 3. Was evaluated by school, they are going to give me a call for some more testing/consultations. She definitely has some delayed social skills, however educational level is functioning at a 5-6yr. old level!! Big one is settling in new routine, happy with new class.
Expecting hubby for dinner and now have to see why little one is not coming out of my bathrooom......
Bye and thanks!! :beam:

By the way, I fasted for the lab thing this morning. I:c( cannot back out now, committed!! I kept looking in mirrors today, full legth, from the side, really bad idea. When will it leave!!! My top is looking really styli'n, leggs look good, the apple in my middle can leave!!! I am really nervous about the Dr. and scale next Thursday...........

Me again! Had a fairly quiet Saturday. Little one though decided she was going to have a brat attack during dinner though, not good. Of course when little one has the BAs, big one has to act all lovey-dovey, follow directions type thing as if to say, "see! I am the good one here, notice me, notice me!!"
It smells veerrrry nice in here. Hubby is making crabapple jelly, applesauce and a low sugar apple pie, yum!! I will try to have a small piece, left over for my family! 8-|
Did reasonably well today. Usual sandwich for breakfast, a bananna for lunch and small portions of a chinese food dinner. Walked 1/2 mile, danced in the kitchen to "Moody Blues, The Time Traveler CD" and will do at least 8 miles on the exercise bike tonight as the weather wsa not really good for outside, besides, I had too much housework to get through. Water consumption ok, will do a little more tonight.
Countdown till Thursday, really getting myself worked up over what the Dr. may or may not tell me. Also the scale. Hey though, check this out! Bought a new shrug sweater at the discount store. Had to buy a 12/14 because the 14-16 was to big! Not sure if they didn't design it that way though, but it gives me a little tiny thrill.
Take care and thanks for looking!! :beam:

Did 8.1 miles!! And, I only had a sliver of a piece of pie, much better than I usually do!! :cheer: I am learning!!!!!!!!

Yes !!!!!! Your doing :super:

:laugh: about kids ;)

Beth :dn

Thank you for stopping in Beth!! I appreciate all the :up: I can get!!
Today was busy. Cleaned up after hubby and his canning, only took me 2 hrs., in between trying to get the kids straightened out, not arguing dressed and that sort of thing. Then we unloaded the truck, which is being used as a shed right now because big one needed her own "space." Problem is, now I do not have a junk room!! Loaded the truck up with :-& garbage for my monthly trip to the dump. Drove to the dump after rinsing out garbage cans, and unloaded the 8ft. bed truck, with a camper shell. Lots of stuff!!! Drove home after getting dinner for us at the store. Came home and ate. Food has not been great today, but it is not too terrible. I had a big spinach salad for breakfast along with 2 slivers of pie :o, and water. Had a Sprite 0 for a snack, and dinner was a small portion of potato salad, 3 pieces fried chicken (without the skin) and 2 rolls, with 2 glasses water. Had an apple for dessert. Considering it is only 5:00 here, and I will not eat anything the rest of the evening, I did not fall toooo far from the cart.
Exercise was the dump run, those things are heavy, plus going back and forth into the truck. Walked from far into the parking lot into the store, and I will try to get in another 8 miles on the exercise bike, too windy outside. I like fall, but I know Winter is just around the corner, and I am not looking forward to that!! :tongue:
3 more days till Thursday, everybody get your shoulders (or your earplugs) ready, cos I am going to be whining!! :beam:

Boy, am I glad the apple pie is gone. Would you believe that the thing actually jumped out of the pan, opened my mouth and forced itself down my throat??? X-( That is my story, and I am sticking to it. :not:
Well today was not great, but not bad either, I seem to be having those lots lately. Had to load the "shed" back up again, clean up after hubby's canning, do homework with little one, laundry, and try to find the rest of the house. The last one I do not think I will ever succeed at!! Oh, and I also had to sort clothing out that the kids have outgrown. Some to my neice, some to my sister-in-law's niece, and some to trash, and some that she might wear next season. Fun hu?
Food was :shrug: today. I started with yogurt (chocolate, what else?) one roll, an apple and 3 pieces of sausage. Lunch was my usual sandwich, no tomatos, grrr., a pear and one serving (16) reduced fat Pringles, and that horridly obnoxious apple pie. Lots and lots of water, I am floating.
I did get 8 more miles on the indoor bike last night, walked about a half mile today, and will get back on bike after angels hit the sheets. I have been really sweating during my bike ride, I am finding that I can sustain almost 11.3 miles for longer times, cannot wait until it is consistently!!
Well, thanks for listening!! 2 more days till Thursday!!! :beam:

Housework, housework, housework. The bane of my existence. I still have more to do!!
Dinner was ok, I am on a definite carb kick again. I had a bowl of salad and two dinner rolls. Gotta get off them carbs tomorrow, not good. Will definitely get on the bike tonight, gotta get the carbs off, yuch!! I will :sweat: :whip:

However, I did not put butter on the rolls! :)

Ok, I have posted in this thing three times today, I am either anxious or going for a new record to beat. I am anxious though, no getting around it. I have got to stop ordering pants from the catalogs. I do lots of catalog shopping because the stores are an hour away, and I have one kid in school and one kid at home. I just do not have the time to or gas to hit lots of stores trying to find the perfect fit for pants. So, the catalogs. Looks good on paper, not on me! This is a horrible feeling! I ordered 4 pairs of pants. Decide I did not need two of them, so just did not open them, depression started you know. Tried on a pair that i had ordered previously in a size 20, thinking I had actually lost weight, they were too small in the hip area. Ok, I ordered them in the 22, now they are too large in the waist and hip area and I could button them under my breasts. Tried the other pair of pants on, in a different style, same sze 22, now these are too loose in the waist, but a little snug in the hips and thighs!! I am so frustrated!!!!!:c( Why, why, why!!! It is Winter coming up, I need pants, or maybe I should just freeze my hips off in a skirt, but that would look a little funny with my thermals hanging out. I thought I was loosing, I am going to the Dr. on Thursday, my mind sees my hips and thighs and gut non-existent, what more do I need to do???? I am really trying, I really am.

I'm sorry that you are so frustrated. I felt the same thing earlier this summer. I lost about 15 pounds but clothes would sort of fit the same. 20 pounds made a small difference. Now that I've passed 20 pounds though I can finally SEE changes. I recomend to just stick with it, keep some pants that are just a tad bit too tight (I'm not saying that they give you rolls, just that they could stand to be a bit more loose). I'm sure that you'll really start to feel more changes soon.

Good luck!

hi lbbear!
i found your journal and i subscribed to it so I can stop in often and help you stop motivated!
I hear you on the pants thing.. I need pants for winter and i dont wanna budge and get any because i'll be losing weight and there goes $$ down the drain if they dont last me a whole season. I am tired of shopping anyways because i get so angry at the sizes and cuts on them. Some stuff I put on and I wonder how the hell anyone who is chunky can wear them. low cut pants tick me off the most. I have a fat butt... i cant squeeze them into those low rise pants. frustrating.... keep workin at it girl. your doing fine!

Hi,
I read your post mirror image and had to check and see if you had a journal..i know how you feel about trying on pants..i've always hated it..it seems like nobody cuts there pants the same way..anyway..good luck..i look foward to reading more..

Vanessa

Hi guys, thanks for looking in zensmom and Vanessa! So sweet of you all. The pants thing, really frustrating, but will have to wait and see. Maybe I will just go into a store and the pants that fit will run down, find me in the aisles and jump into my shopping cart........ I appreciate the encouragement, and hope I can give some back to you also!!!
Today has just been kind of blah. Started out doing the same old things, laundry and the never ending quest to find the floor of the house. Little one was in a needy, notice me mood. Read her stories, played a reading activity game, put up a play tent in her room, and talked endlessly about taking her "pets" to the Dr. All with a nagging headache.
Food was ok, probably should have tried to do better. Ate breakfast at 5:30, yogurt and a Special K bar. Was starving by 10 am. Had my usual sandwich with no tomatos, grr., need tomatos, and a few more than serving size reduced fat chips, and an apple. Gave myself a wonderful case of heartburn, which is unusual because I usually do not have that prob. Snacked at about 2 on 1/2 cup pineapple and dinner wsa chicken with a little COM and COC soup sauce for moisture, corn on the cob and a salad. Think I ate a little much again though as I feel bloated. Lots and lots of water today.
I did get outside on the bike, did my 8 miles. Am contemplating visiting little girls room right now and thinking about another 5 miles on the exercise bike, got to wait till about 10:00 to go to bed for my dinner to work a little more through. Kids are already in bed, and I think asleep, which is really nice!! Hubby canning crabapple jelly, and boy, it is turning out well this year!!!!
1 more full day till Dr. appt., I am getting scared. I have known him for years, but he has not "seen" me in 4, and I have to have that wonderful thing done with the cold stirrups :tongue: Just wondering what my blood will say and what he will say about all my efforts. Got myself in a tizzy. Thanks for all the kind words, and thanks for listening. :beam:

Sorry for not being here but was gone on a five day trip. So today is the big day. I'm anxious for you to get over it. You are so worried about it. And probably for nothing. I hear you on the cold stirups why can't they warm them up some. LOL. What us women put up with. But you will be ok. The doctor will be thrilled about your efforts on losing weight. Take care. See you in chat.

Wow..great workout..:) ...keep it up..

Vanessa

Hey guys, thanks!! I did do the extra 5 sweaty miles that I was threatening, felt actually pretty good. Did have to dig in the aspirin jar for relief from that stupid headache.
Boblin, I wish it was over with, but it is on the 13th. I know, great date, but at least it is not Friday, that would be dangereous. I hope you had fun on your trip, where did you go??
Thanks for stopping in again Vanessa, you are giving me something to goal for, 40 and sizzling!!!!!
Will post again later, kid's show is almost over!!!

thanks for stopping in at my journal - wanted to say hey in yours!

it sounds like you are trying really hard and are headed in the right direction. good for you!

:)

Hi there, :wave:

I just wanted to subscribe to your Journal to keep up with your PROGRESS in achieving your weight loss goals. I hope some day to meet you in chat .. KNOW THAT YOU WILL SUCCEED ... keep focusing on your goal. Always, Monica

Hi Monica, thank you!! What is involved with "subscribing"? Does it allow you to get to people that you are particularly following with a certain link?? I must be missing it when I am surfing. I love the way you write!! You have done so fantastically by the looks of your stats!! Deserve lots of kudos!! Thanks for the encouragement!!
My day was not to bad today. Little one behaved herself, no major melt downs, that helps. Still had housework to do, darn dishes and laundry, you know the drill. Uh-oh, just remembered some thing else I need to put away, will have to do that when I am off here, might be waiting awhile......
Breakfast was a cup of Raisin-Bran, with some equal and 1/2 cup 1% milk and a bananna. Lunch with my usual sandwich, found some cut tomato at the back of fridge, still good, yay!! and a serving size of reduced fat chips. Topped off with a chocolate yogurt and a sparkling black cherry water. Water intake been pretty good today also. Dinner will either be 2 beer battered fish filets with steamed brocolli, or a frozen diet dinner with steamed brocolli have not figured out which will go down better yet. Dessert of a cup of 10 cal. jello.
Able to get outside for the bike ride again, did my 9 mile run. Am going to do an exercise video with the kids after they finish their dinner, then will probably do another 5 miles on the exercise bike. I am so nervous about tomorrow, I am trying to cram all the exercise in tonight so that maybe it will take off 50 more lbs. while I sleep!!!!!:laugh:
Well, thanks for listening. 8:45 am , think thin and happy thoughts!!!! I need them!!

it'll be fine...

my doc has oven mitts on her stirrups--they look silly but are effective. Ya think you'll get any odd looks if you bring yours with you?

Hi lbbear ...

Wanted to stop in and wish you luck tomorrow at the doctor's. Make sure your hurry home and let us all know how well it went. Your worries will prove to be for nothing. You'll see. You've got yourself upset because you let it go for so long. You're a young healthy woman in the prime of her life ... the doctor will say you're off to a good start eating better and starting to exercise.

Cannot wait until you're back to tell us all about it.

:o

Heyya! :wave: Wanted to thank you very much for the visit, and come and check out your journal for a bit! How old is your little ones? I have a 5 year old boy and a 10 month old girl myself. They are a handful!! lol But wouldn't change them for the world!! 9 mile run!?!?! OMGOSH!! Increadible! Wow, I can't even do one!! Way to go girl! Very motivated!! My daughter just slid a book under my sons door far enough where she can't get it, boy is she complaining!! lol

Jessica, :laugh: Fortunately the stirrups had socks on, and so did I!! Thanks for stopping in!!
Sweet Jean, you are right, my mind can build up all sorts of scenarios, usually worst case, because I have not kept up on myself. Quite honestly, did not think I was worth it. But finally realized that I am, if only just to be here for my husband and kids as long as I can. They are my world, and I could not bear it to hurt them for anything, especially if I could have taken steps to diminish the possibilities to the best of my abilities. They are worth 100% devotion, anything less is criminal.
Hi Kayzzee!! The mental image of your baby with the book, too funny!!! They are so cute at that age!! Big one is 10 in February, and little one turned 4 in Sept. They grow so quickly!! I hope I did not convey that it was a 9 mile run, using my feet!8-| I could not even get out of the driveway, too many parts to jiggle around!! I do bike ridng, less stress on the bod!!
Well, my stats have changed. First of all, let me say I loove my Dr.! He put me so at ease, and listened to my concerns. Like I said, we have known him for years and years, but he reaffirmed why we keep coming back to him. I am so ambiguous about what I am feeling though with regard to myself. The scale was horrible. It did not say what I had hoped it would, which was 200, it said 218.5. But my doctor did say it tends to run heavy, my question is, what, 1,2,3,10,50, what???:D He also gave me permission to stay off the scale at home!! So, no need to invest in one for me!! He was very encouraging about my progress, said I was doing everything correctly, and my cholesterol, BP are showing it. My thyroid is functioning normally also. In order to give my metabolism a little extra uumph, we are going to try a low dosage diet pill for a month to start and then 6 months after that. I have been doing this whole thing now since the beginning of last year, and really do not feel it is showing as much as I think it should, ie, that thing around my middle. For all I know, he could have given me a $30 placebo, but it will keep me motivated not to fall off my schedule, He said if I could at least lose a pound a month, he would consider that fine. I kind of implied that I want to lose more than that a week, but I know he is looking at the fact that if you lose it gradually, you are more likely to keep it off. He said a realistic weight for me is about 180, he does not like todays standards which even say that he is overweight. He said by those standard, I am considered morbidly obese right now, and even at 180 I woudl still be considered overweight, but to his way of thinking, as long as I continue with my lifestyle changes, I will be healthy. My blood levels are excellent, and they would not be that way if I was not working. So, I am kind of upset, but I am not as pessimistic as I was. I know there is no "miracle", but unfortunately that little part of me cannot accept it.
Exercise has been good these last couple of days, I did get in another 5 miles on the exercise bike on Wednesday, along with the exercise vid with the kids, so I am keeping my goals that I say I am!! I was able to get out for 5 miles on the outdoor bike yesterday and also do 5 miles on the indoor bike.
Food has been pretty good, my water intake dropped a little yesterday though. I did not end up on Wednesday with what I was speculating, ate cottage cheese and tuna, and 3 cheese with PB. Also ate a few more chips with hubby's homemade salsa, yum!! Dr. Also said it was ok for me to let my hair down occasionally.:o I did really well on food yesterday! Had a diet shake and half pear for breakfast, a turkey,swiss cheese,avacado,tomato wrap with Baked Lay snack package for lunch, and three pieces thin sliced deli ham (approx. 30 cals) chocolat yogur and 3 cheese and PB carackers for dinner. Around 300 cals. total for that meal.
Well, thank you guys so much for listening, I really appreciate it. I really am trying to obtain and keep "My Perfect Life", and you guys are helping to make it possible, and I hope I can give you guys boosts when you need them also. :ghug:

By the way, I will now be seeing my doc every month to keep track of my weight and BP to make sure that I am not having any adverse reactions to the drug.

sounds like great news all around!! keep the motivation up, your doing awesome

Hey Lbbear, glad things went well for you with the doctor. Sounds like you have a good rapport, and that's important! Will keep my fingers crossed that the pills give you the results you're looking for, with no adverse effects. How terrific that you're taking control of your health for the sake of your family... and your sake, too. :)

Have a great weekend!

Sounds like you have a wonderful dr! That's great! Congrats on the lower cholesterol and BP! :cheer: Yeah the jiggle effect is why I dont run either. lol I did have an exercise bike for a while, but I couldn't adjust anything and I joined curves so I gave it to my Mom. I have thought about possibly getting a higher end bike though. Well you keep up the good work!! Have a great day!

Kelly

Sorry lbbear I got the boot while we where chatted I huried back to find you gone. Next time.

I'm glad to hear things went so well with your doc! sounds like a huge relief!!

Hi lbbear ...

So glad your doctor's visit is done and over with! Seeing him every month will create "just enough" accountability for you. Sounds perfect. I'm so glad all the important things checked out in good order.

Thanks for visiting my journal. I'll be keeping my eye on you too. Have a great weekend. I think you're doing great.

:o

Nice Doctor report girl. See you were all worried for nothing. And it's great that you will see him once a month. That will keep you on your toes. You wouldn't want to see him with a gain. Nice talking with you in chat last night. Take care.

I love the support that I get in here, it is really comforting,Anne2,Jessicca,Kayzzee,SweetJean and Bobling, thank you so much!!:ghug:
I did ok yesterday, I am sure that it was nerves and not the pills, but I could not eat till like 12:30 or so. I was drinking water lots though, all day. My food intake has consisted of my usual sandwich, with tomato, hubby went to the grocery store, bought my tomatos, yay!! A serving size of reduced fat chips and my chocolate yogurt. I cannot remember what I had for a snack, but it definitely was not out of line, and dinner was 3 whole wheat tortillas with a little hamburger,fresh spinach, tomatos and a little cheese. Less than 2 tbls.of sour cream total, I made sure to keep it at less than serving size, I love sour cream!! It used to be a joke that I liked a little potato with my sour cream, no more! I do not want to go back to that!! I also had an apple.
Exercise was great, I did 8 miles on the outdoor bike, it was a pleasant enough day, and I did another 5 miles on the indoor bike. Today I cannot go out on the bike though, I would end up in Kansas, so windy!!! Time to crank out the vids and indoor bike.
Well, kids are bugging for their breakfast, and I have to start establishing aa morning routine to make sure I get this pill thing right. Thank you!!!

Hi there, :wave:

I wanted to stop by AND SAY THANK YOU for your support ... you know no matter how long one travels on this weight loss journey IT'S A WONDERFUL FEELING to be recognized for one's efforts .. I don't get too much of that ...

So when someone applauds my efforts :cheer: ... it gives ME THAT ADDED BOOST to keep going ...

I don't know if you'd be interested in trying these products but I have found by eating LA TORTILLA FACTORY LOW CARBOHYDRATE WHOLE WHEAT TORTILLAS I can make a variety of wrap (sandwiches) and not feel as though I am the same thing over and over again ... (a large tortilla is 80 calories ... 3 grams of fat ... 0 grams of saturated fat .... 0 milligrams cholesterol .... 19 grams carbohydrates ... 300 milligrams sodium ... 14 grams of fiber) ...

ALSO you might want to try DANNON LIGHT 'N FIT FIBER YOGURT (it comes in Apple, Strawberry and Peach) ... its 50 calories ... 0 grams of fat ... 0 grams of saturated fat .. 3 grams of fiber) ... I keep trying different things in order to make my food plans more inviting ..

If I can ever be of any assistance .. let me know ... there's no need imo TO EAT THE SAME THING DAY AFTER DAY .. it's like life SOMETIMES WE HAVE TO SHAKE THINGS UP TO MAKE IT INTERESTING. Have and make it a great day (and weekend). I am as always, Monica

I love the low carb wraps. They may taste a bit weird but they are like half the fiber you need in a day and very filling. I know that eating the same thing everyday keeps me honest. At one point this summer I was eating a low carb sandwhich every day for lunch and a healthy choice for dinner. I was however getting different dinners each time from healthy choice and putting different low cal veggies into my sandwhiches.

Try to find something you like and then go with it! It sounds like you are doing great so far

Hi Monica and Kelsey, nice of you to drop in!! You know what, I am a creature of habit, and laziness!!:o If it is simple, that is the way I take. I read everything that people are preparing, and it sounds good, and I would eat it if I had a 24/7 cook and grocery person!! :laugh: Maybe one of these days I will get some experimenting in......
Today was a decent day, I did housework all day though, hubby canning apples, smelled good in here all day!! I have a lousy cold though, sore throat, runny nose, sneezing, little cough. My food intake was really low, a diet pizza for breakfast and an apple (see, I can do different things sometimes!!) and a diet shake for lunch. Dinner was a few pieces of roast pork, witha little barbie sauce, and a big salad, and a piece of homemade bananna bread for dessert. Lots of water today, I stopped counting after the 3rd glass, I think I emptied 1/2 of our 3 gal. jug by myself!
Exercise was good, we could not go outside, too windy. I did 5 miles on the indoor bike, and a kids exercise video with the brats. It is really tough to do jumping jacks, but I can get through the 20 or so minutes without getting really out of breath!!
Well, thanks again, I really appreciate all the "extras." Maybe you guys could come over and show me how it is done, then help me grocery shop, and then do dishes........

Yucky cold, yuck, yuck, yuck.:tongue: My head feels like a balloon, my nose is a dam, and my throat is scratchy, which is an improvement from being on fire. I have not really done much today, laundry as usual and trying to pick up the house a little, also changed the sheets on kids beds. Hubby is canning, big one is helping him. Little one is just kind of bugging around.
Food wise, I think I have been way too low. I ate chocolate yogurt and bananna bread for breakfast (1 piece with just a little "I Can't Believe It's Not Butter) and an apple for a snack. Lunch was a roast beef sandwich, the deli style, still less than 60cal. with a serving size of reduced fat chips. Lots of water.
Exercise, none yet, except for opening and closing drawers, bending for the beds and into the laundry tub. I did do yet another 5 miles on my bike last night, and will probably try to get in 8 tonight after kids go to bed.
Just a yuck, blah day. I hate being ill!!
Thanks for listening.

Did do 10+ a little extra on the bike, this afternoon and evening. Dinner was a salad and a small piece of homemade apple pie. Hubby took special care to cut down on the amt. of sugar in it, 1/2 cup for the whole pie. Have not yet been to groce4ry to get splenda, will though on Friday. Lots of water still, throat dry and scratchy with this X-( cold.

Hope you are feeling better today..:) ..Way to go with your workout...10 miles is great..:) :) ..

Vanessa

OOOOOOO I am just getting over the cold! Terrible this year, I got some stupid sinus thing goin on too! :hug: Hang in there!! It goes away eventually! Splenda is a great, great thing! I love it! The only thing I found that I don't like it with, is I used to like to dip my strawberrys in sugar and eat them.....yeah I even had to make the fruit unhealthy to eat it. lol But one time I dipped strawberries in splenda, that tasted, well not very good. But I've cooked with it, put it in my coffee, you name it, and everything else is wonderful! I hope you get to feeling better soon. I know how rough it is!!

Kelly

Thanks Kayzzee and Vanessa. I think I have to feel worse before I feel better, and I am at the worst part of this thing. It is the first cold of the season, and I hope last!! The worst part right now is the nose and scratchy throat, I didn't know my head could hold so much stuff X-( . But, I will lick this, and I am trying to keep doing all the things I usually do.
Well, I am bummed today. Not only is this darn cold getting me down, but the whole diet thing has me bummed as well. I put on a new skirt, that I purchased on an auction site for $12 something with shipping. Really nice skirt, did fit me well, and I did look good, from the front. When I turned ot the side, well, it was horrid. I put on my girdle, and it slimmed it a little, but not enough in my estimation. I tell you, I cannot lose this weight fast enough, it is depressing me so much.
I did fairly well on food today, had my usual sandwich for breakfast, with tomatos and one serving of reduced fat chips. I had a diet shake for lunch, and a handful of carrots for a snack. Dinner, since I had seen myself in the skirt, get this, I actually weighed out 2oz. of spaghetti noodles. 3/4 cup of meat with a little sauce and some cauliflower with a tiny bit (less than a tsp.) of ICBINB. I wanted the apple pie, but the good thing about this cold, I cannot taste it, so what is the point??
I did ride 6 miles on the bike outside with the wind giving me resistance. I will try to do 5 more mile on indoor bike when I get babies into bed. Rough day with wanting attention little one and then big one demanding it when she got home from school. It is hard to pay attention to their needs when your head is stuffy. I love them dearly, and I hate not being my best for them.
Thanks for listening.

Hi Lisa, :wave:

Have you thought about gargling with salt water ... when I was a little girl (you know in the cave man days -- lol THAT'S WHAT it feels like) I used to gargle with salt water .... took away the scratchiness ....

Also if you have congestion in the evening YOU MIGHT TRY USING A VAPORIZER ... with Vicks VapoRub (I don't know if they still make Vicks VapoRub) the steam helps ease congestion.

Colds are the worse .... eat soft foods .... you can tell lol I am the motherly type -- I WORRY ABOUT THOSE KIND OF THINGS ... have and make it a great evening ... TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF . I am as always, Monica

Thank you Monica! You know it is funny, I will think to do those things for the kids, but never for myself. I apprciate the extra comfort.:sigh:
Hubby brought me some tissues with lotion for my poor abused nose, now I only look a little like Rudolph.
Decided to skip extra 5 miles tonight, I feel lousy:c(

I am just testing right now to see if my "ticker" shows up? If it does not, how do I get it to do it????

Close, but no bananna. How do I get it to display permanently? Thank you!!

Lots of rest and fluid is what you need Lbbear. Lots of vitamin C plus what Monica suggested should find you fine in a couple days. the common cold last 7 days. Take care. Take it easy. There will be time to get eveything else done when your feeling better.

Hi,
I think you did the right thing skipping those 5 extra miles..just take care of yourself..:)

Vanessa

Linda and Vanessa, you guys are right! I am feeling better this am, the cold is starting to move to my chest and feels a little blocky, but at least my head is clearing and nose is recovering more. I am not a good patient, I tend to whine a lot more than usual!(LOL) I can taste again!! So watch out stomach,here comes the apple pie!! :not:
We are out of water, I have to go to the store as soon as it opens, plus I will go to the laundry to do little ones bed comforter. She is still having probs with nighttime training. Food already this am, an apple and a piece of bananna bread with a little ICBINB. A small gulp of apple juice to take my pill and the last glass of water I could coax out of the jug. I am just kidding on the apple pie by the way, I had the bananna bread, that is enough for today. I was serious about the skirt hting though, I do hate these extra pounds, and I really should go purchase a new tape measure, maybe that will motivate me to see that I am losing inches. Will have to ask Dr. about muscle build up too, I need positives since the scale isn't nice to me!! I will grasp at anything. Logically, I know that I have changed from where I was a couple of years ago, I just wish that the emotional, self doubting part would catch up.
Thanks for listening guys and thanks for the support! You guys are great and I am really happy I joined DT!!!!

i pmed you your ticker.. i hope it works:)

I know what you mean about the emontional self doubt..sometimes i wonder if that part ever goes away..anyway..i'm glad your strting to feel better..i'm a whiner too when i get sick..:)

Vanessa

Good job on the bike ride! I think a tape measure is a great idea - you could very well be losing inches, which is a good thing.

I hear ya re: the self-doubt. Diettalk is a lifesaver, imo.

Hope you feel better soon. Tell that cold to take a hike!

Hey just peeking in your journal to see what you're up to since you post on mine. So you can taste again..yay! I hate when I can't taste...although I lose weight :laugh: that proves that I just eat for pleasure and not for nourisment 8-| :hug: Good luck

Becca, it is so much fun to eat though! But I know, all the fun stuff puts on the pounds. Moderation, moderation.
I am working on it Anne! Thank you!! I would love to go on a hike also, but the cold can definitely go in a different direction!!!
Thank you so much Zensmom, I got it to work!!
Just a quickie post tonight.
Eating has been ok, I had 2 whole wheat tortillas with a little lean ground beef, sm. amt. shredded cheese, less than a tsp. of sour cream, fresh spinach and tomatos. Got water at the store, have been trying to make up for lost time. Had a few carrots for snack and dinner will be skinless chicken breast, 1/2 - 3/4 cup rice with mushrooms and a salad with brocolli.
Went out on the bike, did 8 miles. Jury out about doing another 5 later, feeling guilty about not doing it last night. I am feeling better so really no excuse.
Thanks for listening!

Did have some flavored sparkling water with lunch.

Hi Lisa,
I'm Vickie....I have been on vacation and moving into a new house so I haven't been around much but I wanted to say hi! Glad you are feeling better. Just take care of yourself and get your rest.


:)


Vickie :spring:

Glad to hear that you are feeling better..i loved the flavored water too..hope you are having a nice day..:) :)

Vanessa

Hi Vicki, nice to meet you!! What fun to move into a new house, does new stuff go with it?? And I do hope it was a happy move.
Hi Vanessa! Yes, my head is at least cleared, but my taste buds are blinking in and out, and I have the horrendous cough and croaky voice. But, I am surviving !!
Today is so far ok diet wise. Had my usual sandwich for breakfast with one serving of reduced fat chips, back to grocery store on Friday, out of tomatos again! Lunch was a weight-loss shake, and dinner will be a small bowl of stew, and maybe some sort of green thing, maybe I will steam some spinach leaves with a little vinegar. Totally did not finish my dinner last night, I had a skinless chicken breast and I measured out 3/4 cup of rice. I left half the breast and 1/2 the rice, definitely weird for me!!! Did have some homemade "cough syrup", it was sweet sauce that hubby was making spiced apple rings with, and a little vodka. Really warm, it felt terrific going down my throat. :o
Exercise has been a mile walk with little one, she had tummy probs this am, but seems ok now. We are going to take a bike ride, but will wait for big one to get home as this is her early day, and if I go out, she will not know where I am!! I have been drinking lots of water too! Will also try to get back on bike this evening, I did ride it for another 5 miles last night also.
Thanks for listening!!

Hey there, Hi there, Ho there (From the Mickey Mouse Club March). I do not really know what to do with myself right now. It is 7:45 pm, both munchkins in bed, little one since 5:30(!) and big one just cos it was almost time to go to bed at 8. She was tired, had a bad day at school, then we had an argument, and then she fell off her bike!! Things are smoothed over now, and she was not hurt, just shaken, scraped and a little kinked. Little one I think was just exausted from all the fresh air, little cold trying to get her too, runny nose, little sore throat. Hubby is running late at work, should be home soon. Too quiet!!!
We did go out on the outdoor bike,5 miles, wind from the West, small resistance. Will try to get 5 more in after hubby gets home, don't know.
Dinner was like I said, small stew bowl and steamed spinach leaves with a little Raspberry Champagne Vinegar. I did have a small sliver of apple pie also, if you notice, I did not have chocolate yogurt today, fair trade in my mind, as I think our homemade has less calories than the yogurt, no way to really tell accurately though. But it sounds good in my mind. Lots of water still, but I will slow down now, so not want to be up all night.
I am trying to get my thoughts coordinated about this whole weight loss thing, so bear with me. I know I want to lose weight, I want to get this thing off my thighs, I want to look better in clothing and be able to shop in smaller sizes. I want to be able to give myself the best possible chance to be around for my children's graduations, weddings, etc. I want to be able to keep up with life, without panting. I want to be able to give hubby 100%. But, I am scared also. I have always been heavy. I have always had bad eating habits. I know now that I want to commit to changing, but am afraid if I ever reach goal weight and below, that I will slip back. I know, I shoud not worry, but when it is too quiet, I tend to get maudlin. I am just hoping that all of my effort, and for me to have changed some of my habits, it is an enormous effort, will penetrate my thick skull, and stay for life. I know I do not want to get too crazy with my dieting, but I want to stay sensible, forever!!!!

You are doing great with your workouts..keep it up..is your daughters tummy feeling any better..:)

Vanessa

I completely understand your post. I get that way, I have only been at this for a little over a week, and I am scared of so many things. Although I want to add one to your fears, the fear of failure. I don't know which one I am more scared of. Although, you have had so much success already, you are such an inspiration.

How are your kids today, I hope they are doing better.

Hey Lbbear - I do understand what you're saying re: the fear of sliding back after all the effort. Maintaining is a big challenge, a lifelong challenge for some! It scares me, too. Do you think that little voice you're hearing may also be a sneaky cop-out voice? Like, All this effort will probably be wasted anyway because I'll just gain it all back, so what the heck...

You're doing so well! Hope you were able to enjoy another bike ride. Hope the little one is feeling better, too. :)

Awww guys, thank you so much for the warm fuzzies:ghug: Wendy, Vanessa, Anne, you guys are the greatest!!!!
Vanessa, your stats are great!! You inspire me to keep going at this too!!
Wendy, you ae right. Failure is a huge fear. I think I have failed at so many things in my life, why not just add this too? But you and I are in this together, and we can keep giving each other pep talks, right??
Anne, yes, I think it is actually the "good tasting, fat promoting food devil." It is combined effort of all the companies whose food I am or have given up, trying to get me to come back because their stocks just plunged. They are telling me I will just gain it all back anyway, why not enjoy myself with all the wonderful tastes??
Yes, thank you. Little one seems ok acting, but tummy is still a little rocky. She did not want to miss her preschool class this am, if I had had to take that away, Wilma would have looked like a burp on the map.
I did get on the exercise bike after hubby came home, he got home not long after I posted. Did 5 more sweaty miles.
My day has been ok, still have a congested sounding cough, it is loose though and my head is definitely cleared. Not tripping me up like the last couple of days, and my voice is not rivaling Kermit's .
Food wise I did well, taste buds are back. Breakfast was 1 cup lowfat cottage cheese, with a little bit less than 2oz. of albacore tuna. 1 serving reduced fat chips. Lunch was a Healthy Choice, Chicken Margarhita and an apple. Dinner was a sandwich on a sourdough roll, one slice of cheese cut in half, 2 thin slice turkey and 2 thin slice roast beef, with fresh spinach leaves, and a chocolate yogurt. Lots of water today!! In fact that is all I had to drink.
Went 9 miles on the outside bike, and did another sweaty 5 on the indoor bike.
Tomorrow is shopping day, I have such a big list!! Kids need shoes, I need shoes, we need food and toiletries. Maybe couple of outfits for little one that are all her own. We saved all big sisters clothes and then she got some from a friend, she is set for the winter. But I feel that she needs some that are all her own!!! I will get all my exercise tomorrow walking, lifting, pushing, etc.
Thanks for listening!!

Right, we are in this together and will continue to give each other pep talks. I am glad the little one is feeling a bit better. Hope it stays that way. Enjoy your shopping and get lost of walking in.

Your workouts look great..you are certainly logging the miles..:) ..hope you had a good shopping trip and bought lots of good healthy food..have a nice weekend..:) :) ..

Vanessa

Thank you Vanessa and Raye!! I did definitely get lots of walking in, specifically parked well away from stores, except at one because I wanted the spot next to the shopping cart return, makes it a little easier at this one particular warehouse store!! I did get plenty of healthy food, and some treats for the kids. However. I feel that I can pretty much have anything, as long as I do not go hog wild, I pay lots more attention to the serving sizes. Will still get on the bike after the kids go to bed.
Was so proud of myself today!!! Went to one of my favorite quickie Mexican place up here, it is only local, not a chain :). Anyway, ordered the super chicken burrito, really yummy, but big! I only ate half of it!!!!! That is such an improvement for me! I had also packed myself an apple, filled in the little extra hole. Coupled with water, figured I did not go too bad!! I had the left over chicken and rice that I left at dinner the other night for breakfast and a chocolate yogurt for snack. Will probably just do a salad for dinner, and some french bread. I know it is a little high on the carbs today, but I figure I earned it just a little. Am trying to make up for not having much in the way of water today too.
Don't you hate though when you have gone to the store, spent a good chunk of change, and still forgot things???? X-(
Anyway, thanks for listening!!!

Did 10 miles on the indoor bike.

Great job today lbbear. Keep it up.

Funny story. Well, not so funny, but , eh, wahtever:

I always(used to) get my sweet, underweight, picky-eater kid something "cool" at the grocery store--fruit snacks, teddy grahams, pudding, cookies, p-butter cups... ya know.

So the last couple of weeks, life has been NUTS. And at the grocery store, I've been doing a sort of grocery triage(you know, milk, veggies, meat), and forgetting her special cool stuff. SO the other day (like...yesterday?) I'm sitting down to eat, and Abby goes, mom, can I have a yogurt to be my special cool treat? and I was like :O--I could not PAY her to eat yogurt when I had all the other special cool stuff around...so I said, wee-eeelll, if you eat all your regular food, sure!--and she was SO excited and ate all her yogurt. :O Crazy moment, for us, and made me think about what I'm buying and why I'm buying it. (just remembered this--the other day--her friend was over, play-dating..and they wanted an apple...3 apples later, I had to cut them off...it seems, when I don't OFFER my kid fruit, she *loves* it...)

and yes, I hate that I forget stuff, all the bleedin' time...

YOU'RE DOING GREAT--KEEP IT UP!!

LOL Jessica!! It is great that your habits are rubbing off on your daughter!! My kids "treats" are usually things like strawberry and chocolate milk, or yogurt with candy pieces to mix in. But you are right, if we offer the kids things, they do not want it, but with a friend........
Just kind of been hanging on to sanity these last couple of days. I am getting ready for a family trip to CA next weekend, we are having Christmas pictures taken with my mom, sister, brother-in-law and 16mos. old niece. Should be fun, but it is lots of work trying to get clothing coordinated! Specially when I am not really feeling very attractive in mine right now, still bothered by my size and the image I am presenting to people. Should not be, but what can I say I am vain. Hubby has been canning all weekend, so been having to clean that all up, and my mom is coming back up with us for a week so I have to make sure the house is tidy for her also! Aaacckk, I have so many piles of thing everywhere that have to be put away.
Food is doing well. Yesterday I had oatmeal with a little "Equal" and 1% milk for breakfast, the other half of my chicken burrito and an apple for lunch and dinner was a hamburger patty, 2 pieces of sourdoughbread (small) and fresh spinach and a couple of pickled tomatos. Snacked on purple grapes all day and had lots of water. Breakfast this am was a Special K bar, chocolate yogurt and a bananna. Lots of water and I am getting ready for lunch now, a sandwich with tomatos and spinach leaves, and some reduced fat chips. Dinner will be a salad or some sort of veg, 1 bratwurst and maybe a little more french bread (:o Lots of water!!
Exercise has been good. Did 9 miles on the outdoor bike yesterday, was kinda worn out from housekeeping to do anymore last night in the indoor, and today we as a family went on the bikes, that includes a run up what I call "Cardiac Hill." It is a steep, rocky, sandy hill at the end of our street. We went up and down that, throught the alkali ponds, up Elm, to 9th street, than home to our house for a total of aprox. 10 miles, maybe a little more. Maybe will do another 5 on the bike tonight, have to see.
Take care and thanks for listening!!

Great job on all of that biking!
special k bars, hmm.. are they good? I've seen them around and have been wanting to try one.

take care,
k

Hey Kelsey! Thanks for coming in and I appreciate your kind words!:sigh: The Special K bars are ok as a quickie type filler. They are a little on the sweet side, ut only 90 cals. The strawberry was good, but the apple/cranberry is really good! My kids even like them!
I did not have the dinner tonight that I planned. Turned out I was not hungry at all at dinnertime, I guess lunch really filled me up. Had some grapes, a diet shake and a slice of wheat bread with a 3/4 tsp. approx. of Peanut butter. Of course I had water with it.
Did some packing for this weekend, we look like we are moving into my families homes, aack.
Did 6 more sweaty miles on the indoor bike while playing "Centipede" on my Playstation.
Thanks for listening!!

OOOHHH..i LOVE those Special K Bars...they help me when i need a little snack..you are doing wonderful with your workouts...:) :) :) ..

Vanessa

I also love the Special K bars. The chocolate ones are pretty good also.
Great job on the biking. I can't wait until I can ride a real bike with my kids. Good thing I am going to wait until they are old enough to ride the bike themselves, maybe by that time I will be able to handle a regular seat.

Hi, Ibbear, thanks for visiting my journal.

Your eating and activity sounds great. Enjoy the visit with your mom. and I have found that nothing gets the house cleaner than the impending visit of a mother.

Keep smiling -

Hello lbbear!!

Keep up the great work girl!! WTG!

I have never had the special K bars, I usually opt for the Nutrigrain, but I'll keep those in mind when I'm shopping Thurs for groceries!

I hope you have a great trip this weekend!! Take care and be safe!!

Kelly

Hey guys!! Thanks for looking in on me!
Raye, you will get there! I have what I term "my big butt seat." It is 11x11 and very gel filled. Feels much better on the buns than a reg. seat!!
Jo, you are not kidding! I start cleaning things that I have not even thought about in a couple of years. My mom used to say that I should always clean as if the queen were coming. I drove her away with my bad habits years ago, so I just treat my mom as if she were the queen.
Kelli, I used to buy the nutrigrains for the kids, but I kinda thought they were to grainy tasting. Thanks for looking in!
I am just doing everything today! I have so many tasks, and my sitting at the computer is not helping.(lol) I got set back yesterday. Had to run into town with big one for a dental concern. $45 later plus gas, we find that she is ok, but I guess there is really not a price tag on piece of mind, plus I do not have to worry about whether I am a bad parent or not. I got her taken care of, turns out it was minor, rather than not taking care of it and finding it was major!! Got the oil changed in the car also since I had the extra trip to make, may as well kill a few other birds with the same stone. Today I am trying to keep little one from jumping on my last nerve, I get really edgy when I have lots to do. I still have packing to do, bathrooms to clean, floors to mop, laundry to finish and piles to clean up. Have to ride my bike still, can only really do indoor, weather is unsettled and I just do not feel like hauling the bike out again after hubby put it away for me this am because it was raining. I will just do 6 miles on the indoor bike this afternoon, and then another 5 or 6 tonight.
Food has been ok, water is better today than yesterday. Breakfast yesterday was some grapes and a cup of wheat ceraeal with a half cup 1% milk, small heel of sourdough bread. Lunch was a turkey sand with fresh spinach leaves and tomatos, 1 serving reduced fat chips and choc. yogurt. Dinner was 1 cup of 1% milk, 2 deli thin turkey slices, and two pieces of bananna nut bread with a little ICBINB. TOM is due in a week, I want all the carbs, and I have the moods to go with the period also.
Yesterday I did 8 miles on O.bike and 6 sweaty on I.bike.
Tody I have had my usual sand with fresh spianch leaves and tomato, chocolate yogurt for breakfast, and 1 cup wheat cereal with a little "equal" and 1/2 cup 1% milk, with a bananna. More water than yesterday.
Thanks for listening and take care!!

The cereal was for lunch!!

Hello again!
I just wanted to get dinner logged in here before I get busy with the rest of my day, and forget. Dinner was a couple of small slices meatloaf and a big helping of steamed zucchini with ICBINB. Did not have the french fries, yay!! Did not have any carbs, yay!!!!
Did 5 sweaty miles on indoor bike before dinner and 8 sweaty after dinner. I love my Playstation, keeps me going!!

Man, I would forget my head if it was not screwed on. I had a snack before dinner of dehydrated apples.
I just had breakfast of some water, chocolate yogurt and a Special K bar.
Today is a repeat performance of yesterday. I have tons to do. Have to get the packing organized, clean the master bath, get dishes washed, finish laundry, and mop the living room. As well as keep little one happy, read to, played with, etc.
Found out I have to make a side trip tomorrow on the way to CA. I had ordered blouses for the girls for pictures. Big one wears a 16. The package said 16, the invoice said 16, the blouse is a 14. So, I have to stop by the store that I purchased it from to exchange it! Had to get pushy with the store also, they did not want to hold the blouse till Thurs., but I told them the circumstances and the fact that I live an hour out of town, hard for me just to make a trip to the store at a moments notice, and they made an exception for me, thank goodness. After all, I was not the one that made the mistake, the vendor did!
Thank you for listening again, and take care!!

Well, it is traveling day! I got as much packed and done as I could yesterday, I only have little messes to clean up today, and a few more little things to pack. The weather should be ok, there is no snow predicted, but that does not mean anything. I may get rained on though, which will be ok as long as I am most of the way down the mountain.
Yesterday was an emotional roller coaster eating wise. I started out ok, but by 10am., could not get food out of my mind! So, I had a cup of wheat cereal with a little Equal and 1/2 cup of 1% milk. By 12:30, I was still not getting the food out of my head, so I had my usual sandwich with spinach leaves and tomatos, and a serving of reduced fat chips. I still was not getting the food out of my mind, and I snitched two more chips 2 hours later. This may not seem like a big deal, but for me, it is a real step back. Snitching and focusing only on food, especially when I am so busy, is not good. I so do not want my old life back!!! I know part of it is related to nerves, and TOM, I do get so munchy when that time happens. And, I am proud of myself for stopping at 2, and I am also proud that I do not want the Mountain Dew and CheesePuffs, but 2 chip snicks is still not acceptable. Dinner was broiled chicken breast with barbie sauce and about 6 spinach nuggets, serving is 4 at 190 cals., so not to bad over. I did keep water up, so that was good.
I could only do 5 miles on the indoor bike, I did get up a sweat. I was way to busy in and out to the trash and car and cleaning bathroom, dishes, finishing laundry and vacuuming and mopping to go outside. I am going to try to at least do another 5 miles today, but little one has a class and I need to finish getting ready. Lots of work!! I will not be posting for a couple of days. Will miss you all! Take care and thanks for listening!!

Take care, and have fun, and don't sweat the extra chips.

Bon voyage, Lbbear! Drive safely, and have a terrific trip!

P.S. What are spinach nuggets???

Hello! Quick pop in, I am soooooo busy!! I have my mom up for the week, and with trying to get unpacked and organized, it adds a lot to my day!!
We did have a good trip, very busy, but good. We are all family photoed and halloweened out. Kids had a blast, and I was able to resist the casual candies. The only things I was not able to resist were some chips at our most favorite in the whole wide world, non-chain Mexican food place, they were hot and fresh and to die for...... I also ate 5 bites of a birthday cake slice that my mom had made special for me, without telling me, wanted it to be a surprise because it used to be my favorite kind, and she knows that I do not make it for myself, but she did not realize how committed I am to not eating those things anymore. So, I shared a slice with hubby on my day, and the rest is for her and my sister.
Actually, I did fairly well in food for traveling, exercise was sporadic, but not impossible. We walked about 4-5 miles on Fri., I did not get on exercise bike Thurs. like I wanted, had to leave earlier than planned because of snow threat, and rode my exercise bike on Mon. for 10 miles, and have done a 4 mile walk up Cardiac hill today as well as 6 miles on the exercise bike. Water intake what not as good as it could have been though, but I did not drink any other bevs. either, just water with meals an sometimes some extra if I could.
Kids were thrilled for Halloween, I was dressed in the same costume as they were! Will try to post a pic, will see if it works!
Thanks for dropping in Anne, and the good wishes, spinach nuggets are actually pretty good! They are like chicken nuggets, they are breaded. But my little anti-veg daughter loved them!! I did not tell her what they were, I just told her they were "special." I get them at Costco.
Thanks Wendy, it is so hard not to sweat! I really do not want to go back, I just purchased some new clothing, smaller sizes for me!! I will go into the gorier details about that experience late, but it will be a whine session, I will warn in advance!
Take care everyone and I have lots of catching up on people to do!!! Many blessings to all!!!!

mm smaller clothes. Way to go on that cake (or lack of cake, I should say)

:ghost:

Figured it out! Hubby decreased pic size for me.
Also did another 5 miles on the exercise bike.
Take care everyone!!

Thanks Kelsey!!

cute pic!!!!!!
spinach nuggets..anything to kid the kids into eating veges is ok with me..i could do with some help getting extra veges in too though!
Good job on the exercise biking!
hugs bell :)

You all look awesome! I love the costumes. Glad to see you had a good time.

Hey, welcome back! Sounds like you had a great trip. :)

Love the Halloween picture. Those are cute kids, lemme tell ya. And you aren't so bad yourself... (uh-oh, did that sound creepy?) I love spinach, I love anything breaded... spinach nuggets sound divine! I think they'll be my new obsession. I'm all done with the pumpkin pie.

Can't wait to hear about the clothes shopping.

Not creepy, I appreciate the nicies!! We all need all we can get!! Oooooo, punkin' pie!!!! Don't get me started on that!!! Hubby is going to try a supposed "low cal" pie, will let everyone know!!!

Those costumes are terrific! Did someone make them for all of you? You look great, lbbear. You stay on the program you've outlined for yourself and you'll do just fine. It's a life change and it does take time to adjust.

I've been keeping up with your journal and I think you're doing just fine. Plus you found DT ... where you have FUN while you're shaping up! That's the big secret to life long weight loss.

Talk to you again soon.

:o

Thank you Sweet Jean! No, no one made them for us, actually purchased through a catalog. I was just shocked that I could fit into my daughter's costume without ripping it, I just had to have my own!!
I need to talk about clothes shopping, and fair warning, I am going to monolog and whine, so if you need to change threads, this is the final warning!!
It started out ok, I was with my mom and sister, a couple of hours without the kids, yay!! I really needed pants, which are impossible to find the right ones when you have kids "helping", and I really hate doing it anyway because of my size. I tried on so many pairs!!!! Bless my family, they fetched and carried and carted for me so many times. I hate the sizes!!!!! In one pair, I would be a size 20, another an 18, another a 16! Some would be too long, some I could not get up over the gut. I have always shopped mail order, and I think the place deliberately cuts their items small, so that you have to order larger, and they are definitely cut shapeless, because I have the pants showing and exploiting places that I have never had before. I feel somewhat like I have lost some inches, maybe pounds, I do not know for sure because all the numbers are so different! I know that I should not use the numbers, but they are just not low enough for my mind, and I am obsessed with them. I am also frightened to death of believing that I could be actually losing, something will go wrong, and it will be all just my imagination, or come back. The other fear is that I will actually start to believe, and the scale at my Dr.'s appointment next Tuesday the 8th., will disagree. Anyway. I finally ended up with some size 18's, and 1 size 16. But to my mind, I have alwaysbeen thos sizes, and since that other place cuts large, I just "thought" I was a 22-24. So, no loss! I know that logically, I have done something, how could I not? I have been biking extremely regularly, cutting down my calories very consistently, and being very aware. I should not believe that I am the only one in the workd that those things would not affect, but I do!!!!:c( Some of th jeans are just a little snugger than I would like them, but their next size up, were too big everywhere. I also have insult to injury. I spent a little over $100. I purchased 2 pairs of the same kind of jeans in the same size, and some other brans in other sizes. I put one of the 2 pairs on for the fist time on Sunday, took the tags off, and spent the day sitting at my hubby's grandmother's home, and driving 5 hours up from CA. Well, these jeans were designed to have a little stretch. They fit nice and snug in the morning. not to tight, not to loose, actually kind of stylin'! By the end of the day, they were practically around my ankles, they had stretched completely out of shape!! So now I have to deal with the store, I cannot wear them! Of course the store will think, ok, here we have a "big girl" trying to fit into sizes she has no business being in!! All her fault that they stretched out. :c( :c( :c( :c( :c(
Well, thank you for letting me whine. I need to start documenting my food intake and exercise again, so here we go. I am documenting things honestly, if I slip or skip, I will not "sugar" coat it, or not report it. I am telling the truth about all I am doing, or not doing.
Food intake was ok yeasterday. Breakfast was oatmeal, with a little less than a cup 1% milk and "Equal". Bananna for snack. Lunch was a little more than a serving of reduced fat chips, a very small half of a turkey, swiss cheese, tomato, avacado wrap, and chocolate yogurt. It is clost to TOM, and I just want to eat. But I am avoiding the junk. Dinner was a portion of Hamburger Hotdish, that is made up with whole wheat noodles, reduced fat cream of mushroom soup, cream of chicken soup, and 1 cup sour cream and onions. I also had corn on the cob and homemade applesauce. Water was my only beverage all day.
Exercise was 7 miles on the exercise bike in the afternoon, and 7 miles in the evening, very sweaty both of them.
Thanks for listening, and everyone take care, you guys are the best for me.

(((lbbear))) I hear ya on the clothes shopping. HATE it. However, even with the difference in clothing sizes, I think that you being able to buy size 18's and 16's when you were wearing 22-24, is AWESOME. Even with the difference in sizes, that is a huge difference in my book. I don't think that company would be quite that big of a difference. As for the stretch issue, I have that also. This morning I put on a pair of pants that I have had for a while, and they are tight. By tonight, they will be too loose. I love the stretch, but yes, that does happen. They are SO comfortable though, I don't think I have ever had them stretch so far that they are fallind down around my ankles though. that would have been interesting to see:laugh:.

You are doing great, keep up the good work, and you will be able to get even smaller pants next time. Oh, and don't worry about what the return department will think, we understand.

Hey Lbbear, sorry about those stretchy pants! I actually like it when my jeans stretch out a bit after sitting, makes me feel like I lost weight that hour. :laugh: But down to my ankles would be a bit much... hope the store manager is agreeable when you return them. I usually wash mine before wearing, to get the fabric tightened up a bit and also because I don't know who else had their paws on them at the factory and the store. Ick.

I do know what you mean about the fears re: thinking you lost weight and then not really having lost at all. It's hard to beat the anxiety, but I guess all we can do is keep being honest with ourselves - log our food, log our exercise, weigh regularly (same scale, same time of day), and take measurements. Measurements are even more objective than the scale, imo.

Hang in there, and have a thoroughly thumpin' Thursday!

Wendy!! Thanks for the encouragement. I like the stretch also, but in moderation. They weren't quite to my ankles yet, but I could pull them off without unbuttoning. Hubby thought that was an interesting feature though......:o
Anne,LOL!!! I hope so also. That is not something you can find out in the dressing room when you are trying them on!! Hubby thinks that if they say no, then I should say thank you, and comment that I will never return to that store. That is not really my style, but I will point out that I purchased several dollars worth of clothing that are not being returned. Even if they only give me a store credit, that would be acceptable, I do need new undies if my tush could be hanging out more!!!!LOL! I did purchase a cloth tape measure, maybe after my Dr.'s appointment on Tuesday, I will get brave enough to actually measure my circumference(?), depends on what the scale says.
Eating has been ok today, started out with my usual sandwich with tomatos and a serving of reduced fat chips. Chocolate yogurt for dessert. Handful of carrots for snack, and a diet shake for lunch. Dinner was a couple of chicken fajitas, boneless and skinless, marinated in OJ, with tomatos, avacado,and a little sour cream. Whole wheat tortillas. A 1/4 of a cup, give or take a little, of refried beans. Water all day for bev. except for the diet shake.
I did get on the exercise bike, just for sweaty 5.5 though, was doing too many things all day, getting a years worth of photographs and other stuff caught up on. Will try to do another 1/2 hr. at least before bed. Feeling bloated and crampy though, yuch.
Thanks for listening and many blessings to all!!!

By the way, new game! Lets guess how much my weight will be based on what my food intake and exercise!! I have my appointment on Tuesday, and am really hoping it will show some loss. I would love for it to be 50, but I think that is still a pipe dream. But maybe 5lbs.?? Is that too much to hope for???
Winner will get nothing, sorry, except for a good feeling that you helped me to have some fun!! (LOL)

Just did 5. miles in about 19 min. on the indoor bike.

I am going to guess...............oh............212.
Even if it is higher, you and I (and everyone else) know how great you are doing. Just keep it up, you will get it down in no time.

Well... I'm really bad at guessing. I'll go with 5 pounds?

Good job on the exercise!

Thanks guys! We will see what happens Tuesday!
Spent the morning shopping. Store took back jeans, new and used, without a hassle. That is a relief. I replaced them already for about $18 cheaper, no stretch this time, but they say they are "eased", I guess I can live with that. My mini-goal is for those jeans to fit without any snuggness. Not giving a time limit, just will be happy to reach it. Bought new undies too.
Eating was ok, had a couple of tablespoons cottage cheese, with a little less than 2 oz. tuna on top, and a serving of reduced fat chips for breakfast. Lunch was a serving of chicken salad and a few bites of veg. quiche at a restaurant. Ende up bringing the rest of the quiche and another serving of salad home, it was a huge sampler plate of 2 salads and this quiche. Also had a slice of cornbread. Not sure what I am going to eat for dinner, I am hungry, and nothing sounds good. Water not as good as it could have been, we were out all day.
Exercise was walking in heels through stores, will do some biking tonight, during "What Not To Wear." Did read a good article in a major magazine about people who are obese, being discriminated against for jobs and adopting children. One woman was even thrown off a plane! Very interesting read. I am not sure if I am allowed to mention the mags name, but if you really wish to read, pm me.
Thanks for listening guys, I am really starting to think about food now, I better go get someting before I raid the fridge of the bad stuff!
Take care!!!!

Had the rest of my lunch for dinner, with a hunk of cornbread, and a chocolate yogurt. Waited to long to eat I guess, but still not completely out of line?
Did 10 sweaty miles on the exercise bike.
Just waiting now for hubby to get home after being gone since Wednesday morning. He was in Los Angeles for a class. Fun, I have really missed him!!
Take care everyone!!

Hey Lbbear - excellent job on the 10 sweaty miles! Glad the store didn't give you a hassle over the returns - I'm sure those new pants will be fitting loose in no time. re: the obese people getting thrown off the plane, I'm afraid all my flying has given me zero tolerance for people who want to take my seat as well as theirs... they pay for ONE seat, they get ONE seat... if they need two, they should buy two, not park their flab in my lap and tell me I'm "intolerant" when I object to being smothered... grrr... uh-oh, :hijacked:
sorry! :o

Hope your honey had a safe trip back home from LA. Bet you're glad to see him home again! Have a great weekend. :)

re airlines: I'd like to see a combination of things, myself: 1. Can we get some seats with actual, normal human (read, comfortable) dimensions? Somewhere between the 1st class size and existing size would make me happy; and 2. Can people get realistic? Yeah, if you're in need of more space, yeah, pay for it. If you're bringing on more than one carry on, can you put it in your own damn space so I can have my kid's things above my kid?

(Ooops. More hijacking.)(sorry.)

You're looking rock-solid, lbbear--way to go!!

That is true Anne and Jessica, I can definitely see both your points. The way the article read though, the major airline that she was on has specific rules. The rules state the person must be able to fasten the seat belt and pull down the armrest of their seat. This woman was able to do both. According to the article, she was asked to leave because a ticket agent had "made a mistake." Obviously we are only hearing one side of the story, but the point of the article was to point out that there is a whole lot of undocumented, and "accepted" discrimination towards people who are overweight. Could lead to whole other cans of worms........
I have been kinda out of it today. Just been rather lazy. Took Halloween decorations down, doing some laundry, reaqding and playing with the kids, that sort of thing. Glad hubby is home, although we did sort of get into a little tiff. Always happens when my mother is visiting........ She will be going home tomorrow, I am driving her home for 4 hours, then returning here on the same day. Long day, but I think I am up to it.
I have been eating ok today, but I think it was a little more than I should have, but logically, I know it was not. Will be discussing with Dr. what I have been feeling this last month, I really feel full early in a meal, and bloated the rest of the time. I also have some dizziness when I stand up, suddenly or
not. Could be some side effects of this diet pill, because honestly, I really have not been eating a whole lot!! Breakfast this am was a serving of eggs, a serving of sausages, only 180 cals., and a 2 small chunks of cornbread. Lunch was a bowl of spinach salad with tomatos, kidney beans, cheese, a few croutons and some cooked chicken. Low fat balsalmic dressing and chocolate yogurt completed it. Snack was 1/4 cup dried pineapples. Dinner is going to be corned beef and cauliflower. A little piece of no sugar peach pie will complete. Lots of h20.
Exercise was a 9 mile bike ride with hubby and 1/2 mile walk roundtrip to the mailbox.
Everybody take care!!!

Hey llbear I am poking in to say hi :) Glad your hubby is home, sorry about the tiff though! :hug: Wow, 9 mile bike ride sounds great! Keep it up :)

Hi Becca! Thank you. Yes, I am afraid mom's visits can cause tension, and we can all be volatile.
Did about 12 hrs. worth of driving yesterday, I am pooped!! Mom is home safe though. Eating was ok, had a cup of cereal with a 1/2 cup 1% and some Equal, with a bananna. Lunch was a cheeseburger, light sauce and extra tomato with water, and dinner was a little indulgent. A smoked big rib, a bowl of spinach salad with garbonza beans, tomatos and croutons, with some kidneys and a little cheese, lite balsalmic dressing and 1 1/2 sourdough roll. Water to drink.
Breakfast this am was reluctant, 1 cup wheat chex cereal, Equal, 1/2 cup 1%, and 1/4 cup dried pineapple. Water to drink.
Did do 5 sweaty miles on the exercise bike. Have to change the pedals on it, I have worn out the bearings.
Well, tomorrow is my "weigh in" with the Dr. We will see if the scales are starting to slide down. I sure hope so, I will be seriously upset if there is no improvement. I know he would be happy with 1 pound a month lost, but I am not that patient. I want at least 5-10 gone. Will report back in later!
Take care everyone!!

Did the 5 miles last night on the bike. Was hoping to go out on bike this morning, weather is unsettled though. Have to see what it does.

Hey Lbbear - hope the weather clears up for your bike ride. But good job on the five sweaty miles on the exercise bike! Wow, 12 hours of driving? Yeesh. Glad your mom is home safe and sound. I always love my family most when their visits are over. :laugh: Have a great day!

Lbbear,

great job on the bike, keep it up. 12 hours is an awful lot of driving, glad you made it home safe. Can't wait to hear what the doc's scale says.

Good Luck,

Thank you Anne and Wendy. Yes, it was a long drive, but it really did not feel that long until today! (lol)
Kind of a bummy day. Went through all the rituals, laundry, dishes, that sort of thing. Played 2 games of "Pretty,Pretty Princess" with little one and talked on the phone and read her some books. Had an appointment with the school for her, she has been evaluated for the special education program. She is, shall we say "overactive." Smart as a whip, but really delayed in some of the skills that she will need for kindergarten next year. Based on her actions alone, they are accepting her to help calm her down and get her ready for a full time learning environment. So, as of Wednesday, I will be losing my baby to Pre-K of sorts :c( I do not know what I will do for 4 hrs. a day except Fri. all by myself, I suppose things will be a lot cleaner!! I know it is for the best, but, I still feel guilty that I am turning her over to others early, to help her and me cope with her transitioning.
Eating has been kinda sucky. It started reluctantly, then just kind of got worse. I had chocolate yogurt for a snack in the am, then a sourdough roll turkey sandwich with tomato and spinach and one piece of cheese, and reduced fat chips. Then I had a package of 100 cal. peanut butter crisps, jury is out. Then for snack I had 1/2 cup dried pineapple. Am having shrimp and angel hair pasta Lean Cuisine for dinner in an effort to put me back on track. Water fell off too. Only excuse is that I am upset about our daughter, and I am terrified of Dr. tomorrow.
I did ride the exercise bile for 5 sweaty again, will try to do more after kids go to bed. Weather just got worse, I really wanted to go out though. It is going to be like this for the next 6 months now, splotchy weather. I will try to get outside though when I can!!
Thanks for listening and I will tell you what happens tomorrow!!

Did have the pasta, with a small bowl of strawberries, no extra sweetening. Also did another 5.2 miles on bike. Was getting up to 13.0 miles an hour, consistently!! If I have not gotten rid of any weight, we are going to have some major issues.
Take care all. You guys are the greatest.

lbbear,

Good luck at the doc's today. I'm sure it will be just fine. Can't wait to hear.

It is so hard to let those little one's grow up. It is a little easier for me as mine are in daycare all day so I don't see them except in the evenings, but it is still hard. Just think how much time you will have to exercise then? JK

Hi lbbear ...

I cannot imagine that your weigh-in at the doctor's will be anything but good. You have been a faithful dieter all month and your persistence on the bike (inside and outside) was amazing. I am impressed. I cannot wait to hear your report.

I also read about your baby starting pre-K four days a week ... and I think this is a case of it being worse for Mommy than the baby! Your daughter is going to love her hours at school. Overactive children thrive in new environments because they already know everything there is to know about where they are ... now they want to see new places. And that is what pre-K will do for your little one. At school she will meet other children her age too and nothing compares to the real stimulation provided by little playmates. I am so happy she will be having this experience. NOW ... as for MOMMY ... well, we're going to have to take her under our wing and nurse her through this crisis! LOL. But she'll be fine too. You are certainly not "turning her over to others early" ... you are helping her advance in this world. She is quick, bright, and full of life ... she is ready for more ... let her have it. Wait until you see the change in her. She will be happier, more well-behaved, and she will even sleep better ... all because of this experience.

Whew! Can you tell I'm passionate on this subject? I believe in letting children "go and grow" ... and each child will let you know the pace they want to take. Your baby needs to go a little faster than you expected ... so, Mommy, you need to quicken your step! Your children will always set your pace for you ... and this little one of yours is saying, "Mommy, it's time to go." Don't feel any guilt ... it has nothing to do with you ... your little one is ready ... that's all.

I'll watch for a post from you tonight. Good luck ... I hope you have great news for us!

:o

Thank you Wendy!!That must be hard to only see them in the evenings, but you know that they are safe and well cared for and I am sure tha you look forward to getting them home!!
SweetJean, my dear. You just about made me cry. You hit the nail so on the head.Little one has been just going and going since conception, I would not doubt that she pushed her little self into the forefront even there! We as parents can only provide so much, they need so much more sometimes, and unfortunately, I just cannot produce some instant peers for her!!! She needs a strong, nurturing environment, apart from home in order for her to learn more "social" skills, so that she may avoid difficulties later on. Her pace is way too fast for me, I need a little help, I do not want her to be hindered, just channeled correctly. Thank you so much for the shoulder and I will be needing it lots!!
MY TICKER CHANGED!!!!!!! The scale was not evil, I weighed in 11lbs. lighter than last month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If I could do a handstand, I would be doing it!!! I am already typing faster than usualm making lots more mistakes that I have to correct also. Holie Molis though, I am so relieved! Now, I just need to keep up this program I have outlined for myself, I know that it is working. I also have to stop the little negative evilies that are trying to creep into my thinking, saying things like, the nurse did not weigh you correctly, the scale there is broken, that sort of thing. The only bummer about the visit was that my BP is up. It is not in the danger zone, but if it continues up, we may have to discontinue the medication, because as my weight goes down, the Bp is supposed to also. That was another worry, my BP was good at the last visit, this time it was high. So the worry is that the nurse took my BP wrong the first time, and I am really in more trouble than I know. But Dr. says as long as I am not having heart palpitations or chest pains, I am ok till next month's visit. I love my Dr., first thing he said was "you're looking good!"
Eating has been way too low today, nerves I guess. Had a sourdough roll with a little butter, some chocolate yogurt and a