After what has been an extremely long absence I'm back. It's been an emotional couple of years, now I'm trying to pick up the pieces and move on. The biggest issue to overcome other than my grief, is the need to regain my focus.... spiritually, mentally and physically. In the last two years I've lost the two most important people in my life my sister and my mother. Mom just passed away Sept 13th. For the past two years they have been my focus, I put myself on hold while I tried to face the impact of Cancer and their loss. Now I'm trying to find my way back. Since I left my weight has skyrocketed -- I know I must be at least 300 pounds, my scale doesn't go that high but I feel it. I was a member here a couple of years ago and found it very inspirational.

Hello and WELCOME BACK HOME, :wave:

I am so sorry that you have had so much grief .. losing those we love is so very difficult.

The fact that you have returned to Diettalk means you are ready to FOCUS ON YOUR OWN NEEDS .... if I can ever be of any assistance, please let me know. The one thing I have found in being a part of this Diettalk family I NEVER HAVE TO FEEL ALONE.

Know that there is nothing in this world THAT YOU CANNOT ACHIEVE ... IT TAKES TIME AND PATIENCE .. AND YOU ARE WELL WORTH THE TIME AND PATIENCE IT TAKES.

Have and make it a great day. Always, Monica

Lee is back!!!!!!!!!!! Hurray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So glad you are back, but also so sorry about your losses. That must have been so hard.

But good for you for coming back and taking care of Lee now!!!!!!!!!

I will be here for you, don't worry about that.

I don't have a chat happening right now, trying to figure out when I can do it. Will let you know.

We have something in common. Today I am returning to diettalk after a lengthy absence, too! I am so sorry to hear of your losses and I hope that you can find the peace and support you seek here at dt. Welcome!

Hi, Lee!

I have really missed you & wondered how you were doing. I remember you finding out about the cancers... I am so sorry for your losses. I hope things are settling down for you now and that you will have some joy and peace again soon.

Do you still have the job that kept you running all over the place? Are you still living in the same area? I think I remember you had a dog? What kind of plan are you going to use for your weight loss? Enough questions? ;)

Take care, friend, and hurry back -- we will focus on the future and reaching our goals.

Lisrey :hug:

HI :wave: & :welcome: ( back ) :D

Beth :dn

Hi Lee... I'm so sorry to read of your losses.

Thanks for the wonderful welcome back. I can't begin to tell you how much I appreciate all the support and kind words.

I am trying to move on and went back to work today. Met with flowers, cards of condolences and a big welcome back -- it made me feel appreciated and needed. The day was challenging but I managed to get through it. I ate reasonably healthy but did not get as much water in as I had wanted but will work on that tonight.

I made arrangements for grief counselling this week -- I have a class every Thursday night so will miss chat that night.

I also found out that our company still has a workout agreement with Curves so will try and get back to that this week.

How does that saying go slow and steady wins the race just call me Turtle!

Hi, Lee -

I also want to welcome you back to DT, and I am sorry for your losses. And I am glad you are going to get grief counseling, that should be a help to you. Dealing with grief doesn't happen overnight, it takes time.

And it's great that you can get back to Curves. I have found for myself that exercising at Curves is the best stress-buster available. And grief causes all sorts of stress.

Peace -

I will try to help! Would love to keep chatting. I am so sorry to have read of your losses, that is really hard. Just do not let anyone ask you if you are over your grief yet, I found that was the worst part trying to get on with my life, you never stop grieving, you do have to allow yourself that. It is how you handle the time in between that makes the difference. :up:

Welcome Mitzy,
I am deeply sorry about your mom and sister. I can't even imagine your pain.
Hope to give you lots of support.

JO,LBBEAR AND NOTEVENCLOSE --- THANKS FOR YOUR SUPPORT.

I had a really rough day emotionally on the verge of tears all day.

I stopped at a local religous bookstore and picked up a phamplet on Rick Warrens a Purpose driven Life. It hit a few good points for me and helped. I should go back into work tonight but am too drained will have a hot bath and hit the bed.



:sigh: Eating left a lot to be desired but will do better tomorrow.

Hang Tough and know we are here for you :hug:

Beth :dn

Yes, we all have days like that. But keep plugging along, and keep coming here to Diettalk for support, encouragement, and love.

So sorry you had such a rough day. It is one day at a time, and you can make the next one better. Good luck & hang in there! :hug:

Lisrey :*

Hey Mitzy,

I am reading that book right now with my daughters. Several mornings a week we sit together and read a chapter or part of one. Let me know what you think of it.

You will probably go through phases over the next year. Grieving takes time, and you are also trying to make some changes in your life and your habits, that will also take time and affect how you feel. Hang in there!!! You can do this!!! Just be kind to yourself, allow yourself to grieve, it will help in the long run.

Hey, I made a decision on the chat. I will have a chat on Tuesday evenings at 7pm our time. I hope this works for you, most of the time anyways. LOL, then I will be done in lots of time to watch Biggest Loser.

Hang in there my friend. You deserve many good things!!!

Hi Girls!

Thanks for stopping by and the encouraging words. It definately helps,

I've been busy the last couple of nights getting my new computer operational

I had a better emotional day today --- as far as diet and exercise not so good but tomorrows another day

Take Care -- I'll check the journals tomorrow

Lee

hang tough Lee - you can do this ! :D

Beth :dn

Thanks Beth!

Well it's the start of a new month and the start of a new positive healthy lifestyle change. I know I will still have ups and downs
but will deal with them daily as they occur.

This weeks goals to take my vitamins daily, drink more water and start exercising.

I'm not expecting miracles here but will take it slow so that it truly does become a lifestyle change.

I know I can do this and I need to do this for me!

Terrific goals for the week Mitzy, and glad to see you are taking it a bit at a time. I think that brings the most success.

I felt really bloated last night, and the scale was way up, eek, I have TOPS weigh in tonight, so a little worried about that. But I am going to drink lots of water today too. Oh, and I start at the gym this afternoon, so that will help burn some cals too, lol.

Well, hope you have a successful day today!!!

What kind of exercise are you planning to do, Lee? Weren't you doing Curves for awhile before you left here? Keep us posted on how you do!

Lisrey :up:

Mitzy girl, where are you!?!?!?! Hope you are doing good. Are your kitchen cupboards in yet? Make sure you fill them with healthy choices now!!! LOL

stopping by to say "hi" :wave:

Hope you will come back soon !

Beth :dn

Hi girls!!!

I had a few rough days last week and then went to the lake for a few days to regenerate with nature.

I feel a little better now as a result.

Nancy -- The kitchen cupboards are finally done. Still have to get someone in to do the ceiling, the arborite and the floor. 8-| Will it ever end.........


Lisrey - I was doing Curves before and plan to go back. I had an appointment on Friday but got overwhelmed and couldn't leave the house. I'm going to try again this week.

Beth -- Thanks for stopping in and checking up on me.

I had a really rough week emotionally everything seemed to crash.

I made an appointment with my Doctor and decided to have them check my weight officially. 279.5 is what their scale said. :)

What a blessing I thought I was at least 300 -- that's how I felt at any rate. 8-|

I see now how negative thoughts and emotions can definately overtake you. I think that's close to what I was when I left here the last time.

Well I should run I have a million things to do around the house today -- especially since I did nothing here all week.

I'm trying to get it together......... For some reason it seems easier on the weekend that during the week. I think it's because there's
no pressure

I've been bad...stress eating. 8-| However tonight I threw out the chips and dip I had left and sat down with a drink of water. Tomorrow will refocus
my attention --- goal drink more water.

Water is a great first step goal, Lee. So is tossing out the chips and dip. You can do this! It's wonderful that your weight is lower than you thought for a new starting point. You've made progress already, see? :D

Did you get to Curves yet? I'll bet you could de-stress a lot with the exercise. Good luck!

Lisrey :hug: