Time has come to be accountable. Accountable to myself and in the long run for my children. I am 27 years old and vastly overweight. OBESE actually, I hate that word but it definatly applies to me. I am so in love with this site. I think that having a place to vent and cheer will do me good. It doesnt even matter if anyone reads it LOL Just getting it all out will mean so much!

I started gaining right after I had my son. For the first 2 years I fooled myself into thinking it was baby fat. Well, now he is almost 10 and its just plain mommyfat. The thing is, I never felt "fat" until the past year or so. All of a sudden its started to really really bum me out. I hate having to search out the plus size sections. I DESPISE shopping for clothes because it makes me that much more aware of what I can't wear and what I dont look like.

Its now crunch time. My body is telling me that it needs me to do better by it. I am now 272 lbs, down 5 lbs from Jan 1st. I hit rock bottom when I climbed on the scale and realize I was 23 lbs from being 300lbs. For me, my stomach siezed, my eyes watered I felt sick. Never, ever, ever did I think that I was THAT big. I have been 270lbs for about 2 years. I just comforted myself with saying "whaterver i eat I dont go over 270" why that was okay in my mind i have no idea. It bothers me. It hurts me, it scares me.

I have made the decision to talk to my dad tonight about my wieght and my goals. I need to become accountable to someone other then me. Someone to help motivate me. I have always needed to prove something to him and now I need to prove to him that I can be healthy, I can do this. I WILL!!!!!!!!!!!

My partner is fantastic. I have so much support but i also know I will be loved no matter what. My looks, my weight dont matter. Now i need them to matter to me. I want to be there when my kids have babies.

Now, i feel fat, my knees ache, my back aches, my tummy hangs, my chin wags. I feel fat.

Shannon, WHO WILL SUCCEED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HI Shannon :wave: & :welcome:

keep coming here and getting ideas, tips, advice and of course support :)

You can do this !

way to go on losing 5 lbs ! :cheer:

Thanks Beth,
I know its a long journey. I have it in my mind now so its just a matter of continuing with this! It will be done!!!!

well done for loosing 6lbs so fast :-)

Hi, Shannon Who Will Succeed! :cheer: Congratulations on the pounds down since January! You are on the march and indeed will succeed! Great work!

Thanks you two!!
I did my weigh in this morning and was down another lbs. I am proud of that, not thrilled but proud. I didn't gain, I lost and a pound is a pound!! You two made me teary LMAO I think that I just finally needed some support, a place where people know what I am feeling!!

Thanks again
Shannon

I talked to my father yesterday. I let him know my intentions and asked for his support. My whole like he has made what he thinks are "cute" little jokes about my size. They honestly never bothered me until recently. Things like "Your shrinking, you used to be a Sirloin steak, now your just a TBONE" or "you were a cargo van now your back to a mactruck" I know that those sound so horrible but they were definatly not meant to hurt my feelings. They were like private jokes. He is always supportive and has talked to me about my weight many times. I was just never ready to do anything. He has even approached me (2 years ago) and offered to pay me five dollars a pound for everything I lose after the first 10 lbs. I couldn't take the offer. He said the same thing this time, to give me extra motivation. But I won't do it. I can't let him know how much I weigh. While I want to be accountable to him I dont want to be THAT accountable LOL

Anyways, when I talked to him he got all teary and apologized. He said he didnt realize that his jokes had started to hurt my feelings. He said he will call me every week specifically to check on my progress. I am sure he'll do this with me, for me etc.

I did a weigh in today and am down 1 more pound. I know that that is good progress. But somehow I want more LOL I have to learn to be happy with the little steps or I will never hit the big one....

I started the 21 day challenge today with another thread of this site. I will drink 1.5-2 ltrs of water a day for 21 days. Hopefully by then it will be a habit.

so so far here are my goals

21 day challenge ----2 lts of water a day
mar 1---------------260 lbs (thats down 12 lbs in 6 weeks)
long term-----------down to 180...thats about hmmm 2 years away :)

Just posting here is making me feel happier and more secure!

Shannon whos off to find something "good" for breakfast

Wow, you are making great progress, Shannon! (Sorry for two posts in a morning, but I snuck back when I saw you'd posted)!!! You are down six pounds AND you have helped your father understand the best way to support you in your goals ... you've really freed up something mentally that had the potential to derail you ... seems that you have heard the "click" in the head that most people who are successful at losing weight and keeping it off hear when it's the right time, place, mindset, etc., etc., for success ... lasting success. Trek on!

thanks athletea!
Something did go off in my head this month. I am sick of being this person. On the inside I am so not what I am on the outside. Does that make sense?? I dont feel liek who I look like.

The thing with my dad had to happen. In my mind it was a needed step on my journey. I have a few others that I know I will accomplish in the next couple weeks to allow me to freely travel this road.

I don't mind u posting 20 times a morning LOL I love all the support. I am trying to provide it for everyone else here as well!

Shannon

Shannon,

I identified with so much that you said. I think it was very brave of you to go to your dad after the jokes that he has made. And it was very good of him to apologize, sometimes men just don't get how much their words can hurt. So bravo for you and your dad.

Yes it is hard to wait for the weight to come off in a healthy way isn't it, but you know, each year I would find myself exactly where I was the year before but now, even though it isn't as fast as 'we would prefer', we will be weighing less next year than we are now. That is something to celebrate!!!

Hi, Shannon:

Congratulations on your weight loss. You are doing great! Also congratulations on having a wonderful relationship with your father. He is wanting the best for you, really he is. And now he understands better.

I think that is what it is ultimatly all about. I know that I will never be happy with the weight I am at. I know that I am not "being me" and I know that its time for a change *S*
I don't care if next year this time I am only down 20lbs. If it takes me ten years to get to 180 then so be it. But atleast I am trying!!

My father and I have a fantastic relationship. We always have had one. I know that he didn't mean to hurt me. Its always said lovingly and with him hugging me etc but its now hitting a nerve. I knew he would react well to what I am saying and I knew he would be proud for me being at this spot. Now he'll be by my side *S*

Shannon

Hi, Shannon:

Congratulations on your weight loss. You are doing great! Also congratulations on having a wonderful relationship with your father. He is wanting the best for you, really he is. And now he understands better.


Thanks Jothrive!

He is fantastic and I love him to bits. He will stay on top of my progress and check in on me. I needed him to know I was serious this time!

Shannon

I am in the chat room if you want to come over

Hi Shannon! Welcome! :wave:

Congratulations on a terrific start!

Its been pretty uneventful.

We spent some time with my father and grandfather this weekend. It was nice and I avoided anything on my "bad list". I did have one big accomplishment this weekend! I had to go to a potluck for work on Sunday afternoon. The table with loaded with cookies, brownies, doughnuts and all these yummy things that are positively no good for me. I didn't cheat!! I didn't have not one bad thing. I am so thrilled with myself!

I have also managed to get my water intake for the past couple of days. I am definatly going to complete this 21 day challenge. I cheat a wee bit and put a package (single) of Crystal Light in my water. I almost gag on the plain water with no ice. Sad, lol, i know. This way its only 4 calories and I can down my water no problem. My 21 days ends on February 11th. I can do this!!

I checked my weight on my dads scale last night. On friday when i looked *out of curiosity to see the difference in my scale and his* I was 274 last night I was 271.5 *shrug* who knows LOL I wont actually count any weight loss til next sunday. Thats when I do it at home. My home scale currently says 271...

gotta get back to work...seems like a bleh day today!

Shan

Hi Shannon! Nice to meet you!

You are doing so well!! Remember when you think a one pound lose is a small step that there will be weeks when you lose nothing. Then one pound will seem huge! I love your motivation.

Good Luck! I'll try to check back in with you soon

hi shan...it was interesting reading your journal, and following your sucsess....you are doing perfect so far....and i m sure you ll get wonderful results so soon....

good luck to you...hope you find a wonderful surprise on weighing day.

Thank you Egyptrose and EllieFran

I must admit that I am fairly pleased with my progress. I am sticking with my eating regime and my water intake. I need to begin my exercise cycle but I have decided that getting into the habit of proper eating takes priority for right now.

My motivation is plain and simple, MY LIFE! Its just sad to me that its taken so long for me to realize what I have been doing to myself.

I am sure that I will appreciate a one lb lose later on *smiles* Right now though, i thought back to all the things I shouldn't have eatten (which wasnt much), the water I should have drank (which was alot) and the portions I should have eatten smaller (most of them) LOL

Thanks againS
Shannon

Hi Shannon!
I am new here, just starting my first week. You are doing really great, I wish I could get into drinking all that water, I know you really need to, but it is just soooooo hard!!!!Great Job!!!! I also have a hubby who loves me for who I am, which while I'm not complaining, he really has no interest in this dieting stuff. Don't get me wrong he is supportive, like right now he's at the store searching for Boca Burgers for me and he called me from his cell,being a real trooper but he's like "I've never heard of these things in all my life" He is one of these people who seems to eat what ever they want and always stays thin. *grumble, grumble* X-( We will been married 13 years (Jan. 26th) and the whole time we've been together he ranges between 150lbs-160lbs being his heaviest.Well, keep up the good work!
shy! (Lynn)

Hi shy,

Great to meet you! Its wonderful to have such support!! And congrats on the upcoming anniversary. Any special plans??

I have been with my partner for 5 years this march and have been married for 1 year on March 26th!

The water thing is a REAL downer for me. I add a small single package of Crystal Light to my water to give it a little pep. They are only 4 cals a serving and it helps me to get it down. I am currently doing a 21 day challenge of 2 lts a day for 21 days. I am now 2/2 *S*

Nice to meet you and jump right in. You will love it here!
Shannon

Today is just a day...I am kindda blahish today. The weather is dreary and I just have so much on my plate. I am so busy that I can't seem to find time to grab any "real"food. I squeezed a sandwich in earlier on the run but no fruit. Lots of water so thats always a plus *smile*

I have so much to do tonight I dont think I will get out for a walk or do any cycling. Thats always a downer.

Otherwise things are going well. I feel confident and am still sticking to all the things I want to accomplish!

Not much to say, other then its just a day lol!

shan:tongue:

Well, I have past the three week mark and I feel like I am doing really well. Its actually getting better everyday!! We were running really late last night so we swung by McDonalds to grab the kids some dinner. Everyone got something and I ordered a Bacon Ranch Salad. I took it home, added a TBSP of my own dressing and ate it. Got to the end and offered my son the little peices of bacon and cheese *S* So really, I only had the lettuce, tomatoes and grilled chicken. I topped this off with a cup of baby carrots and a lt of water!!

It wasnt even hard to resist. It didnt bother me at all. The kids had some left over fries and I didnt even consider nibbling, I turfed them! It is such a wonderful feeling NOT to feel like I have no control!

I will will will will go for a walk tonight. I dont care if I turn into a snowball doing it!! I can't wait until March because I will be joining Curves here. My schedule should be a little lighter so I will be able to actually use the membership now it would just be a waste of money. I wish I had a treadmill *LOL* I do have a bike but never seem to find time to ride it!

Ok, well, basically, I am good! Guess that is the best you can ask for right?? I wish it were Sunday, I so want to weigh in but I wont cheat. I know I would either get discouraged or something.

Chow
Shannon

Today is just one of those days where it would probably be best for me to bury my head in the sand and pretend the world has stopped moving.

Seems like no matter what I say or who I say it to I am just saying the wrong thing. I guess i can take solice in the fact that I dont just want to go eat everything in site because I am sad. *sigh*

Sometimes trying to juggle work, home life, the kids and all lifes responsibilites just get to be too much! I should take up boxing of something to get out my aggression....instead I sit here and type....

Hope everyone else is having a good day.

Shannon,
so sorrry you had one of those days yesterday, I hope today is better!!
maybe we should add a tantrum room thread on to this site!!!
i know i would get good use out of it LOL
Seriously, i hope you feel better!
*Big Hugs*
shy (lynn)

Thanks girl!

It was just one of those days. I like having the journals out there because it allows me to just vent and if someone reads it thats great! Thanks for your support. I definatly feel much better today *and yesterday* somedays life just kicks you in the butt *smiles*

How are things for you??
Shan

I never thought I would actually see progress. I have started *diets* so many times and never seen any real results. The first 5 lbs were a surprise, then another pound and now 6 more pounds. I am down 12 lbs and its only been around 3 weeks. I know now I will achieve my mini goal by march 1st of being at 260.

I have decided this week to slowly add exercise. Someone told me to wait until atleast the first month to start exercising when you start a new plan. So I will start encorporating more walks and biking.

We went to TO yesterday for a dog show. Of course all there was to eat was your typical arena food so everyone had fries and crap. I said NO WAY and went in search of something I could eat! I came across a greek merchant and got a side greek salad and a small chicken skewer. It was yummy and I didnt feel guilty. I even passed up my FAVORITE strawberry/banana smoothy.

I feel good and someone asked if I was losing weight because you can see it in my face! Hehe!!

:dc :dn :jn
Way to go Shannon!!!!!!Great Job!!!!Resisting all that fatty arena food is quite the achievment!
Just the smell of all that stuff would be adding pounds to me!X-( X-(
I am such a Fatty Food Junkie!!! (or should I say I was...*wink*) Good luck with adding exersize. If you have seen in my other posts, Hubby has bought me a stationary bike and a elliptical. I am not strong enough yet, but hopefully within the next week or two I can start a daily workout!
Stay Strong
*hugs*
shy

Thanks girl,

I havent gotten to read any other posts yet. I am working away at it. I am also trying to get a report written for work *lol* Diettalk is SOOOO addicting for me!
I bought myself an exercise bike last Christmas '04 and have used it maybe 10 times *hangs head in shame* LOL I want to start small and work up to larger work outs.

The arena food pissed me off more then anything else LOL I was like HELLO not all of us eat this **** *giggles* I was walking around ready to go outside and snack on snow or something LOL

Ok, off my tangent!!

Hope your well today!

Shan

I don't know about everyone else but I like Mondays...mind you today i rolled over and thought it was Sunday...i was so releaved that I got to go back to sleep then I realized it was Monday *lol*

I feel in a good space today. I can honestly say that "mentally" I have not been "here" in a very long long time. I am walking by the mirrors and actually checking myself out now! Before I turned away after ensuring there was no toothpaste on my shirt!

I have started to notice my face slimming down and my cheekbones sticking out. No more double chin. I can't wait to really start feeling a difference in my clothes!! YAY, perhaps I will enjoy shopping someday soon.

I have to wonder where "I" went for the past few years. I know I was hiding, hiding from the world, putting on my fake smile and pretending to be happy and satisfied with my life, my body, my soul. No I know I am. I have such conviction!! I mean come on, I turned down chocolate covered fruit for our fondue last night and only ate the fruit. My kids think I am nuts LOL

I feel good. I guess when it all boils down to it I feel good. i dont feel shame. I dont feel regret. I just plain feel good. Thats what its all about isnt it??

Shannon

Hi Shan

Thanks for supporting me in my journal!! I wanted to make sure I come to yours and do the same. Looks like you are doing GREAT so far. Good for you. I'm also a huge Dr. Phil fan. He's great!!

So, how's your day going today?

Thanks Shy,

I just got back into the office. My day is going well. I had a nice lunch but havent had any water yet. I have been on the go.

Thanks for popping in
I will get to write more later *S*

Shan

That wasn't me kiddo! That was our friend hakyni! You know you are a great inspiration for me *smiles*
Have A Healthy Day!!!!!
shy

HEHE
OOOPS,
I knew it was Haykni too!

How are you girls doing today??

Shan

I am in the office ALL day today and its a glorious day *phooey* The sun is shining, its cold but beautiful!

I packed a nice lunch but have no ambition to eat today.

I have felt semi frustrated over the past few days. I am all confused about protiens and calories but i really think that I need to just keep doing what I am doing. The past week doesnt lie, I dropped 6 lbs, I have to be doing something right, right???

I overidulged last night but not on anything blecky. We had lean ground turkey fajitas last night. I think I had like four LOL but they were mainly all veggie. The wraps were the only bad thing and they were like 105 calories each. The good thing is that I didnt eat anything after that for the whole night. I think the only thing that could do any damage with that meal was the grated cheese. The things are pretty puny, not the large ones. Oh well.

It was funny, I hadnt gotten my water intake in yesterday so before bed I sat there and drank a whole litre of water...lol...dont you know I was up all night p*ssing myself *giggles* Wont do that again!!!

*deep breathe* I need to find that gung ho motivation I had last week. I am going through the motions this week, eating well, drinking well, staying on track but I just feel "here" kwim???

Oh well, enough for now,
shan

Its February...i am 12 pounds lighter this month then last. From Jan 1-15th I slipped alot and didnt really pay much attention to what I was doing. From the 15th until the 31st I bust my butt to be diligent and keep trucking...in those two weeks I lost 7 lbs.

I have started to notice the little changes in myself. My pants are not as tight, the just fit nicer, my bra *grins* is starting to get a little looser, which isnt what i wanted LOL and my face is defiantly alot slimmer. PLUS i feel better.

The cravings are gone. I havent really craved anything ina while. Well, except a sidekick bar LOL I am dying for a sidekick bar!!! I told myself if I can go until March 1st AND meet my goal of being 260, I am currently 265 I will treat myself to something sweet. I dont know if ti will be a bar or icecream or what...but I figure two months and no sweets is great, so a wee treat wont be bad, right?? Plus I'll exercise my butt off....who knows, by then I may not want anything!

For lunch today I have packed:

A turkey kaiser, w/ lettuce, cheese and light mayo
1 cup of 1% cottage cheese w/ sliced strawberries
1 naval orange
and water....

We have our dart tournament tonight...that means lots nad lots of people around me eating greasy, fattening, YUMMY SMELLING food LOL I am going to make something healthy here first. The worst thing is that I cant even bring in anything to drink into the hall. They only sell pop and alcohol and if you want water its from the tap...YUCK!! I dont know how I will get through the night w/o my water bottle....

K, nuff said
Shan

Congratulations on the loss of 12 unwanted lbs.

Isn't it fun to have the clothes fitting better? That is one of the nicest things about losing weight. And it will be even more fun as you continue to drop the lbs.

Keep smiling -

Shan!!
Just an idea!! While you are at your dart tournament tonight, and you are surrounded by all that Yummy, Greasy, FATTENING food, Just picture your "fat lil' friend" from DT, drooling and getting BIGGER AND BIGGER AND BIGGER from the smell alone that isn't even counting what happens when she actually pigs out on the stuff!!!! "Look out she's gonna blow!!!!" *giggles*
I betcha that picture in your mind will keep you away from that evil stuff!!!!!
And when your tossing those darts, just picture that you are aiming for those dreaded "FAT CELLS" might get you a good score!!!
Try drinking club soda or seltzer with a lemon or lime slice!! Even if you don't like it that much at least its something to hold and sip while not doing too much damage!! HEY, does that stuff even have calories?
Its sooo great that you are feeling your loss in your clothes!!! I only dream of that moment!!!
I have loads of clothes that don't fit me even some new stuff that I bought and couldn't fit my fat butt into!!! When that time comes its going to be like Christmas for Mommy!!!!
Stay Healthy Buddy of Mine!!!!
My thoughts will be with you!!
*HUGS*
lynn

I so wish I had read that post before going out last night!! You Rock girl!

I didnt do too bad. We were running late because we got stuck in traffic so we HAD to eat there...if we didnt we would have starved or not been there on time and got disqualified. SO, I asked for a tuna sandwich, NO tuna, and chicken salad sandwich, NO CHICKEN SALAD, a garden salad, NO LETTUCE....by then i was SO ready to cry!!!!!!!!! I ended up getting a shaved turkey and tomatoe sandwich...it had to be on white...but oh well. It wasnt bad. It came with fries....i had 10 fries *hangs head* but through the other 40 or so away YAY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I snuck in my water bottle...LOL noone noticed and it got me through the night...The tournie lasted until 2 am....around 11 I was hungry so I had some crispers....baked not fried....not the best but they werent too bad. I avoided the chocolate bars and chips...plus I figure I was on my feet for 7 hours I deserved it *grins* For some reason though I still feel crappy about eatting that danged sandwich...

We ended up winning the tournament...woohoo, We have won it the past 3 years straight...*grins* It was a good night, however, I am exhausted today...

Jo-thanks for the loss congrats...tomorrow is weigh in day again, i dont think I lost anything this week, I need to watch my portions better and exercise more....

I love fitting into things nicer...there are no more red lines on my tummy from my underwear and pants!!

Shan

Shan - - I noticed that you were talking about Fajitas and wraps and calories. I don't know if this would temp your taste buds, but I have been making wraps...mexcan, tuna, etc. with these Mission Carb Balance Wheat Tortilla Wraps (might sound gross, but...) and they taste pretty good. They are healthier than flour, cost a little more, but they only have 80 calories per wrap. I think they may be pretty close to a Subway wrap or something. Just thought I would thow that your way. Hope it helps. Take care!!

They do sound good Kelly...not sure where I would find them here...the wraps I use are the only kind they sell in the grocery stores up here...are they a health food item??

Shan

No, I found mine in my grocery store...which down here is H.E.B. They were with the regular tortillas, hard taco shells, flour & corn torillas, etc. I just looked and saw some that said reduced fat, carb balance, wheat...yada, yada, yada...and read the nutritional facts on the back and threw 'em in the basket. The brand is MISSION. They are really great and you can do so much with them because they are not full of carbs, calories, etc. I really hope you find them. I haven't had a flour tortilla since. Also, they have some that are regular (not wheat) if you are not into the wheat thing. They have a little more calories, but still overall better than flour tortillas. GOOD LUCK!!

Thanks so much Kelly, I have to go to the shop tonight so get some more veggies so I will look for them...

How are you doing by the way?

shan

First of all, Congratulations on your Win!!!! 3 years in a row??? YAY for you!!! I am glad you had fun!!! If I was you I would of decked the person that you were trying to get your food from LOL It just figures! I could see that happening to me!! But hey, the turkey sandwhich was alright!!! Don't fret those fries, pat yourself on the back for throwing away most of them!!
I can't believe you snuck your water bottle in!!LOL "a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do" Good Luck on your weigh-in!!! I'll be rooting for ya!!!
*Big Hugs*
lynn

Thanks so much Lynn....

I did sneak in my water...it was just a necessity LOL

I dont get on here too much on the weekends...just dont have time! I did weigh in yesterday and had no loss...I am not sad that, well I was LOL, but now I'm not. Its almost "that" time of the month and I know I need to change some other things. I have to start eatting breakfast and exercising. I can list a number of things I shouldnt have eatten and am concerned that I am not eatting enough calories...SOOOO i just have to fix somethings...and it wasnt a gain so that is always good!!

We had such a busy day yesterady. We went ot the movies and then out with friends. I didnt eat the best and I snuck a chocolate bar LOL I didnt feel guilty...I worked it off today. I did make good choices, lots of salad but I had sausages yesterday, 2 of them and I felt like crap LOL Oh well!!

How have u been??
Shan

Ok, who am i fooling. I am bummed. I worked hard all week, no cheating and didnt lose a damn pound *pout* I am doing better today but yesterday I was pissed. We were out alot yesterday and I cheated. I had a chocolate bar and 2 sausages with dinner, the thin ones, like breakfast sausages.

I know that the 6 lbs from last week was water weight and I know that this is NOT going to be easy.

I have to set some rules here....I need to follow them, I need a kick in the ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EAT BREAKFAST
DRINK YOUR WATER EVERY DAY
EAT ENOUGH CALORIES
EXERCISE EVERYDAY!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, now that I am done ranting, I can do this. I WILL DO THIS. I still have the motivation now I just need to find the time. The time to exercise, the time to make myself lunch.

I am going to start documenting what i eat everyday. I need to be accountable with every bite i put in my mouth. I think now that the water weight is gone my body is like, uhmmm no way. You arent eatting enough. Even though I feel full, I think that its what I am eatting, mostly fruits and veggies not alot of protein.

Its a new hour, time to get going. I really really want to lose these 5 lbs and now I only have 23 days to do it......

Shannon, who could use a hug!

I'M SENDING YOU A HUGE HUG!! Sorry that you were bummed, but at least you are realizing your mistakes and setting some ground rules for yourself. You have said some things that I personally think are great ideas. Documenting what you eat is a great start. I do my calories on fitday.com and I find that it holds me very accountable for what I eat. I mean everything I put in my mouth is charted on there. It is very time consuming, but it all comes down to "HOW BAD DO YOU WANT IT?" For me it also helps with portion control and measurements. I have been doing really good since I started doing this about 2 wks. ago. And the calories, you do have to make sure you eat enough calories...whatever is right for your body. I have the same problem with not being hungry all the time, but I try my hardest to time my eating just right, so I will come as close to 1200 calories a day...and I know that it's hard because I hardly ever reach it, but I push it because I know that it is unhealthy to get less than 1200 calories a day. (at least that's what I read) Well, I just wanted to send you some encouragment and tell you to keep your head up...you're doing great...you're still coming back to DT, aren't you, so that there says you're going to be fine.

P.S. Everyone has those days...don't be so hard on yourself, but kick butt this week. Take care.

Hello, my fellow Ontarian... Congrats on the win. :) And that sandwich actually sounds better than the tuna or chicken salad.. both would have been soaked in mayo, so it's all good. :)

Corinna

Shannon, Shannon, Shannon!
Stop.... Take a deep breath......And regroup!!!You haven't done that bad and even if you had,so what...We ARE Human!! "Don't leave me little buddy" I know it sucks to work soooo hard and that stupid scale just refuses to budge!!! And its perfectly okay to be "Pissed" Let me share a little secret with you, this is how I live my life (not just refering to dieting) I make a plan and if that plan falls through (which it usually does) I pick myself up, pull myself together, and make another @#%&*#! plan!!! So stop pouting and bend over! *Big Kick*
followed by even *Bigger Hug*
Okay, with all those bad feelings behind you...Now you get to start fresh in the morning! You really are doing sooo good!! Hang in there sweety, its hard but "You CAN Do It!!!"(besides I really need you here to show me the way)
"Have a Healthy Day"
lynn

You sure do make me smile Shy!!!!!!! I really needed that to pick me up. I ended up slidin through Sunday. I drank my water and ate ok but mentally just wasnt there!

SOOOOO today is monday, my butt is a wee bit sore from your big kick but all is good!

I am having a ***** of a time eatting breakfast...it sucks so bad!! I had all intentions of it this mornign but I just simply cannot train my body to eat it. I grabbed a granola bar as I ran out the door. I have to do this!!

Kelly, thanks for the support. I tried fitday.com but cant seem to find all the things that I eat and it is so time consuming. It depresses me to not even get close on my calories. I do eat when hungry and I eat good meals but I just dont get close to the calories. The most I have gotten is around 800 so I just dont know. Any advice??

Corrina, thanks for checking in. In the end I didnt end up feeling too bad about the turkey sandwich, I just wont make the mistake again about not eatting until I get there....

I really needed those hugs guys....thanks so much! You guys are wonderful

Shan

No thanks necessary, anything we can do to help. We can all do this and we are all here for each other. I sure hate that fitday didn't work for you. You are right about it being time consuming...that is very true, but it works for me. Whatever you do, you have to eat more of breakfast and try to get your calories up there. When I was way low, someone (on here, as a matter of fact) told me to add some juices in because a couple glassesf will also boost up your calories. You may try that, but be careul because a lot of the juices were loaded with sugar. I think I ended up with some Light Pulp Health Wise Orange Juice...something like that. Weel, here's wishing you the best, have a great day.

Thanks Kelly, I never would have thought to add juices. All i really drink right now is water and one can of CocaCola Zero every few days, I LOVE THAT STUFF.
I am definatly going to do the juice thing. I think that fitday would work if I was getting closer in calories, right now it bums me out.

I think that I need to get up earlier to find time for me to eat before I get the kdis up. Once they are up I am running around doing hair, packing bags, feeding animals etc and I just dont have the energy to stop and eat. Sad, I know, i'll work on it i promise!! *smile*

I know that thanks isnt necessary but its wonderful to find support!

Shan

Yeah, there is some great support here. I know eating breakfast is easier said than done, especially with all your responsibilities. I live alone with a my little dog, so I have more time to prepare things for breakfast, etc. Even if you do manage to get just a granola bar on the way out the door, grab some juice, or try some of those healthy juice/yogurt smoothies to go along with your bar. If you are that low on calories, then you can afford to throw in something else with your granola bar...a healthy something else.

Thanks Kelly,

I am going to put up a HUGE sign on my fridge....

EAT YOUR BREAKFAST....

I think, too, I will get my kids to bug me until i eat. I know my son will help me out!!! I think the juice will be helpful.

What type of things do you eat?? For breakfast that is

Shan

I just tried fitday.com again, i didnt realize you can customize the food....YAY, I figured it out. I have eatten 502 calories already today...LOL Who knew I would be happy about that??

Thanks again!
Shan

What kind of trouble are you having with breakfast? a PB foldover on whole wheat with a banana makes for a good breakfast. :)

Corinna

This is generally what I have been eating for breakfast lately:

instant oatmeal (1 pkt) (regular flavor)
whole wheat bagels (have to be whole wheat or you'll have way 2 many cals)
boiled eggs (whites only) (usually 2)
poahed eggs (whites only)
Special K (the high Protein kind) (about 1.5 cups w/ Skim Milk)
turkey bacon
low sodium regular bacon
Raisin Bran (1.5 cups)
Whole wheat health wise bread (toasted) (I think Sara Lee)


Those are some examples. I might also have a cup of fruit...grapes (not too many) or strawberries cut in halves, half a banana, etc. My key has been to make sure I measure everything from sugar to margarine, cereal, etc. I account for every little calorie to make sure I get as close 1o 1200 as possible.

Of course coffee, regardless of what breakfast I have. I use sweet n low, but my creamer has calories, so I measure and count that also.

Thanks Kelly,

Definatly some things to keep in mind. I can use all the little hints

Corrina, my problem with breakfast is that I have not eatten it in over 10 years. I just stopped for some reason and I am having the HARDEST time getting back into the swing of it. I had every intention this morning of getting breakfast but then didnt....*sigh* its my hardest battle right now....

Shan

You are going to hate this one...

You just need to eat your breakfast anyway. No matter what. You don't have to eat gruel or anything. Make it tasty, but eat it. Just make yourself eat something decent so it does not seem like punishment or anything.

Not eating breakfast really sets you up for blood sugar dips and spikes all day long. It makes it much harder to stop eating later in the day when you do eat. For people like me, not eating breakfast can make me ravenous by dinner time, even if I eat a decent-sized lunch. I tend to binge when I get that hungry.

So...Just do it. Do it today. Give it a few weeks at least.

Losing weight for me has been a complete lifestyle change. I have had to change just about EVERYTHING about what, when, and how I eat. Give breakfast a try.

Fagan
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Thank you!
I know that I need to eat breakfast, its just hard for me. It will probably be the biggest change in my lifestyle. It actually makes me nauseous if I eat before 11ish.

I know that with everyones support I can do it though..check in on me and kick my butt if i dont *S*

Shan

I am so glad that you tried fitday again. I hope it works for you and congrats on the 502 calories.

Hi Shan,

Thanks for stopping by in my journal :)

Reading your's I can also relate to the stuff that your dad said as a joke! Men eh!! 8-|

Growing up I've always thought I was fat, even when I obviously wasn't as a kid. I'm not sure where that stems from. I've wondered if one reason I went onto become overweight as a teenager and adult is if it was abit of a self-fullfilling prophecy. You know, I always thought I was fat, so I became fat :-/

When I was little if I fell over playing outside my dad would say 'Oh, is the pavement alright?'. He did it to lighten things and make me laugh but obviously it was implying I was heavy and would damage the ground! Then as a teenager I can remember saying I was trying to diet and he said 'Oh a see-food diet?'. You know the sea food / see food (and eat it) pun. Anyway, it just made me cry! He didn't know but I told my mum once. She said he wouldn't want to hurt me for the world, but obviously it did. You get enough c*ap in the outside world without worrying what your own father thinks of you! I've never really spoken to him about it. He probably wouldn't even remember. Mindue, recently there was a big women on TV and he remarked 'Blimey, has she been on a diet?'. It's just a really stupid thing to say - what's the point! I said, 'What like I have been you mean?' so bring back his comment to myself. He didn't say anything. I'm making him sound like an idiot, but hey if the man will make those comments!!

Anyway, I'm glad you're feeling positive. Keep in touch,

Sally

(ps I'm 27 too)

Hey Buddy!!
Well by reading here I see you are having trouble with the breakfast dealio!! Up untill I started eating healthier, I didn't eat breakfast for years either!! Just get out of my way untill I have my coffee and then you can approach me!!!! *growling at anyone that gets too close*
I have managed to cold turkey the coffee "imagine that" I have one cup on Monday's when I go out to do billing. And I have chosen to eat oatmeal and drink "Healthy Heart (or healthy wise, whatever it's called) o.j. Because I read that it's good for your heart!!! Is it??? Guess it can't hurt??? Anyway... after I read your journal I scrolled down the forum to the recipes and there is some pretty good stuff there. What I suggest, because of your busy mornings is to prepare something the night before that you can just grab and take with you. Like maybe some kind of muffin and maybe some fruit or maybe have stuff ready in the fridge to throw in the blender for some kind of shake or even whisk together some eggs and put in tupperwear(or maybe egg beaters) and have whatever else you would like to throw together with them (peppers? onions?mushrooms ect.) ready the night before and throw it together in the morning and put it on a tortilla and have a breakfast burrito!! If you really can't imagine eating that early in the morning, is it possible that you could bring something and have it around 10 am? Or do you have to work right through to lunch?
"YOU CAN DO IT!!!!"
lynn

Hi,

If you aren't up for eating first thing then a shake maybe the answer. You could even blend that up the night before and keep it in the fridge so you'd just have to get it out the next morning. You could add losts of nice fruit, milk and some oats - that way you'd get a slow release of energy that would help to keep you going but without feeling you'd got to 'eat' first thing. I'm sure you'd find a good recipe either here or elsewhere online.

Sally

Ohhh I am off to a bad start today *lol* my kids are driving me BONKERS. They are on for an awfully low sale price....FREE *snort* Just kidding, I love em dearly but omgosh my daughter is MOODY!!!!! today....

Ok, Sally, I soooo know how you feel. That seafood diet is exactly the thing I have heard from my father a million times *sigh* Thankfully since I have talked to him he's been wonderful! He has even called to ask how I am doing, not that I have anything impressive to report to him mind you but oh well!!

Shy, glad to hear from you. I was beginning to think the bike ate you!! *grins* I know, I know only one day w/o hearing from you, sad eh???

Anyways, I wish I could find the motivation to whip something up the night before. The biggest part is that it literally makes my stomach turn to even THINNK about eatting this early. We are up and out of the house be 815...

The shake thing sounds good though? I will have to check out the recipes...

Sorry to cut this short, just realized the time!! Gotta run, I'll check in this afternoon, I am in meetings til 2....

BIG HUGS
Shan

Did you eat breakfast today? :)

Corinna

I'm guessing 'NO' Cori :D

Hey,

Here's a smoothie recipe you could try...

Energy boosting - Banana Smoothie

Serves 2 to 4
Ingredients

600ml (15fl oz) orange juice
3 small ripe bananas, peeled
2 ripe peaches, stoned & roughly chopped
2 tablespoons of oats

Preparation
1. Place the orange juice, bananas, peaches and oats in a large blender or food processor. Whizz until smooth.

2. Serve in long, milkshake style glasses over ice and grate over a touch of fresh nutmeg


It gives you the basic principle - you could use other fruit, but the oats are important to give you that slow energy release. You could make one up to take out the house with you maybe?

Sally

Hey hey now!! Be nice Sally...I DID eat it WOOHOOO Look at me shaking my bootie *snort* Ok, ok enough of that!

I did eat breakfast...and early too. I ate at 830am...it bugged my tummy a bit but i'll survive. As I was getting ready to leave I toasted an english muffin *whole wheat* and added a tsp of lowfat peanut butter. I ate it in the car driving the kids to school...

Yippeee....Thanks for checking in guys...and thanks for the smoothie recipe..i'm gonna try it out!

How is everyone else doing today?

shan

hi Shan,

I apologise for doubting you! maybe now you've managed to eat breakfast once (and lived to tell the tale!) you'll be able to make that a habit from now on. You could still try making a smoothie with milk, fruit and oats if you're struggling though or eating on the move. It might go down easier being in liquid form.

I've been fine today. Did 2.5 miles walk this morning and will do same again tonight. I'm hoping to join Nancy's Doing a 180 chat tonight but with me being in UK it's 2am here when it starts. I'm a night owl though, so if I'm up then I'll be sure to drop by. I've done 240 mins of exercise so far this week, so if I get another 30 mins this evening that will take me over 300 min mark for this week.

Glad you're still feeling positive.

Sally

Alright Shan!!! Another victory in the life of a dedicated dieter!!!!"Shake, shake, shake,
Shake, shake, shake, Shake your booty!!!!!:D :D :D You eat that breakfast girl!!
Ahhh, don't sweat dad's "fat jokes" I am sure he means no harm!!! At least he has a decent relationship with you!! I didn't mind my fathers fat jokes, i just gave it right back to him! What bothered me was I could see his embarrassment of me around other people at my fat times in life!!And when I was thin you could see he was so proud to say "This is my daughter"But that is neither here nor there!!!!
Now Shan, didn't you mean to say that you were afraid that I ate the bike???? LOL
NAH..... The bike and I just had a "sumo wrestling match" today!!! Okay I'll stop there and let you use your imagination with that scene!!!
"Lub ya!"
lynn

So there, PhD! :p

Good going, my buggy friend.

Corinna

:o

Good Morning my funny friends!!!

Sally, I knew you were kidding hun! I am just playing with you. I ate breakfast again today! Yay me, I had a cup of cereal (uhmm rice krispies I think) w/ some skim milk. It seemed like such a small bowl but I ate it and so far my tummy doesnt hurt.....
Did you make the chat last night?? My nights are so busy right now so I cant make them but hopefully I will soon.


Thanks for checking in Corinna, 2 days down, a life time more to go!!

Hehe, shy, you make me laugh so much I am sure the other people in the office wonder whats gotten into me!!!!!!!!!!!
I too, always gave teh smartass remarks back to my father, it wasnt until the past 6 months when I started getting sensitive about my weight that it started bothering me. My father is my best friend...he and I have always been close and I know he loves me dearly....

Well, I decided today that I am not weighing myself on Saturday...I will do it next saturday on the 18th. I am sure I gained with all my bad days and I know if I see the number I will get totally bummed...so hoepfully I stayed the same or lost a pound, but I wont look until next saturday. It gives me 12 days to get back on track....I dont want this to be all about the numbers....

Glad to hear that everyone is well. Its a glorious days here in Kingston, the sun is shining and it smells like spring. Too bad its so damned cold *smiles*

Does anyone know if there is a new biggest loser special on tonight???

Much love!
Shan

Congrats on the getting the breakfast in, Shan. I know what you mean by eating breakfast early. I generally have mine between 5:30 and 6:00 am. And yes, I do believe that there is a new Biggest Loser on tonight and I want to say that it is a 2 hrs. special?!? I could be wrong though. I think it is a couples thing...if I am remembering the previews right.

I did not know that breakfast made your stomach hurt. I also have a freaky stomach before about 10 AM. Anything too sugary, acidic, starchy, or fatty upsets my stomach after breakfast. This includes most sugary cereals, muffins, breakfast-type pastries, donuts, pizza, pop tarts, and acidic fruits (unless I eat it with some protein and a little bit of bread or something).

What can/do I eat? Whole grain cereals without too much sweetener are okay, as are grits or oatmeal. I can handle proteins like eggs, meat, and cottage cheese with no problem at all. I can handle bread, as long as I keep it under like 100 calories or so. That is about it, actually. I have to keep it pretty bland, or it upsets my stomach.

Sounds like you are right on track with your program. Good for you. Take care.

Fagan
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*yelling through bullhorn*........
"Shannon, Hey Shannon, SHAN...... "
*searching with binoculers*
Where are you???? I know, your fixing breakfast, right?? *big smile*
I need your help over here, I am going through a crisis!!!!
*waiting.....waiting....waiting.....*
"come over to my journal when you get here!"
*hugs*
lynn

Afternoon all,

I just love teh little hearts flying all over the screen *smiles*

Kelly, thanks for the support. Did you catch the biggesst loser??? I loved it...I was glad the red team won...made me go down and ride my butt off on my bike *S*

Fagan, thanks for some breakfast tips...i am now 3/3 on breakfast. I am doing ok and really really proud of myself *S*

Hey, Shy!! I am zooming over to your journal pronto...hope everything is alright girl!!!

Shan

I dont have too much time today so I just popped in, did a quick check up on the ladies and now its back to work. I wanted to update here to keep myself in check.

I did another ten minutes last night on the bike. Its been so long that its like starting over again, Sigh, my butt is burning today *S*
I am back on track as far as eatting goes. I am doing well, ate breakfast three days in a row now and packing good lunchs. I packed a yummy salad today but forgot dressing at home, what a bummer!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am majorly craving a McD's burger though. Its driving me nuts, I am on the road alot today and I keep passing them. I swear, there are SIX in my city...bleck...its so hard to just keep driving. I can do this, I can do this, I can do this!!

I sound like the little engine that could *lol* I think I can, I think I can...

*sigh* I really want to see a numbers drop and its bugging me, knowing I cant look/wont look until next saturday...it will be worth it.

Wee talked about it last night and when I get my taxes done I am signing up for Curves...YAY ME, I also want to purchase a tread mill but I think that will wait until the summer...

Otherwise things are ok today...I sort of feel in a rut but not a bad one, dont know if that makes sense or not...oh well....

Shan

Thanks for zooming to my rescue!!! You know your support means ALOT to me!!! You cheer me up and make me laugh and that is what keeps me going!!!! Great job on your bike!! A burning butt is good!!!!The inches are melting off!!!*smiles* Where I live they call it a city and it is the size of a small town, they have one main strip, which is not really that long and it consists of mainly all fast food and car dealerships!!They actually flattened one McDonalds to the ground and rebuilt it into a bigger one!!! I think to myself "Hello, does anyone have an imagination here??" Why doesn't someone build a fast food place that consists of fast healthy food, something that consists of healthy food that is interesting and appealing yet fast and convienient! I mean it is possible with a little imagination!!!
I know you want to see those numbers drop hon, they will just be patient damn it!!!LOL! Stay off that scale for the entire week!! I read that someone here weighs themselves every two weeks, I wish I could train myself to do that, imagine the nice drop she must see! That must be a real motivater!
And there will be NO slipping into any ruts around here!!! Come on, YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!
*BIG HUGS* lynn

Thanks lynn, I love your support. i am in a rut though *sigh* i cant seem to get out of it.
We live in a big city, about 200,000 ppl but it doesnt seem that big. Anywyas we have this street nicknamed Fast Food Ally, it has arbys, mcdonalds, wendys, KFC, timmies, A&W, swiss chalet, DQ plus 4 gas stations LOL I dont even go near it anymore...

Shan

Where has my motivation gone. I feel so out of wack this past week its not even funny. My mind is a constant battle against itself. I dont want to eat crappy stuff but I am, its like 2 good days then bam, i grabbed a flipping choclate bar *sigh* I am so frustrated with myself. Its always in my head and i honestly think I have a chocolate junkie on my shoulder....*sigh* I just want to get back to the place I was 2 weeks ago, I want to be okay again, and not fighting these urges and losing as often as I win *sigh*

Its a bad day....

but I did eat breakfast again today....

and someone at darts asked me last night if I was losing weight, apparently you can see it in my face....

People are noticing, huh? That feels good, I know. Good for you.

I'm sorry about your food problems. The only thing that I can think of are the standard things like:

1. Are you spacing your meals out too far (fluctuates blood sugar too much, making you want to binge when you DO eat).

2. You are not eating enough (1500-2000 calories, or there-abouts, depending on your plan?)

3. You are like me, and need to stay away from more than like 100 calories at-a-time of starches/white bread/rice/regular pasta/sugar/candy at a meal. These come back in higher amounts later for me when I get closer to goal weight. It is not a lifetime-type of thing.

4. It is purely emotional. It may be hard to tell if it is primarily this one, because emotions get stirred up by all of the above too. DT is great, but face-to-face support is also VERY important. People in the old days got emotional support from clergy and each other in small villages a lot more than we do now. I think the need is built into our biology. There are lots of free support groups out there if you don't want to pay a counselor or anything.

I'm sure there are more potential reasons, but those are the big ones that I have seen and lived through myself. Dropping one leg of those 4 wipes me out every time.

Hope you are feeling better. You know that you are looking better, via the comments while playing darts. Take Care.

Fagan
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I went out to lunch with my sweetie and just relaxed for a few hours. I am feeling SO MUCH better. I think that the stress of daily life had bummed me out too....I feel refreshed and ready to kick some fatcell butt *grins*

Thanks for the suggestions and support Fagan!!

Hope everyone is having a good day.....

Much love,
Shan

It is great to hear that you are feeling better. Sometimes we all just need to breath and relax. Life, itself, is stressful enough without trying to live a healthy lifestyle and cope with temptations. You are doing great. KEEP UP THE GREAT ATTITUDE!

Hi Shan,

Sorry you've not felt 100% lately.

I think if you're craving the chocolate it might be better to have a little to satisfy it - then move on. It's the 90/10 rule of 90% of time you eat well and it's all nutritionally sound, so 10% of the time you can relax and enjoy a 'treat'. If you're eating well each day, then have a bar of chocolate if you really feel you want to - it won't kill you! One some are better calorie wise that others. I'm not so up on American brands, but for an example, here in UK we have a bar called Crunchie that is honeycomb with chocloate on outside and on my WW plan it's only 3 points (I currently get 24 a day) - so it's really not a massive problem if I want one. If you had something that's solid choc it would be more, and a Snickers (regular size) is 7.5 points on WW plan. But it is possible to still enjoy the things you like - it's just about balancing it out - which is what slim people do! You see someone tiny munching on a chocolate bar or burger and things 'How can they stay so slim?' but they aren't eating that stuff all the time - they balance it out - so if they do want something high in calories sometime, then it's not a problem.

Hope you feel more inspired soon anyway and remember we're all here cheering you on :cheer: :ghug:

Sally

Hey Shan!!
I am soooo sorry you are feeling the way you are! I think you are feeling what I have experianced many times in the past and what i fear most in the present! You being the personality that I think you are (a very strong woman) has set high standards for your weight loss and if you slide a wee bit you get frustrated and beat yourself up....Am I right so far? You want to get back on track but I think you get disgusted with the whole thing just because you slid a little. Lets be realistic for a minute....You have accomplished a great weight loss in the past weeks, You have been really good!! You try new things, you are aware of what you are putting in your mouth, you have been journaling, you are exersizing ect. ect. ect. All these things are positive and truly GREAT feats esspecially for someone who deals with a family and work!!! You know how hard it is to find time for yourself with your busy lifestyle!! But Shan, you have accomplished it and you know you can continue!!!! "YOU CAN DO IT!!!"
Take a DEEP breath and dust yourself off!!!!! I know you can!!! Stop thinking of it as the nasty four letter word (diet) and get back to seeing it as a new beginning!!! As corny as it sounds repeat to yourself "This is the first day of the rest of my life" I don't care if you ate a whole stinkin' cheese cake or three or four!!!! It doesn't matter!!! WE ARE ALL HUMAN!!!And we all get cravings and its okay to satisfy them as long as you see it for what it is!! Its just a little glitch in the whole sphere of things and you are not going to let a little glitch control you!
Your motivation is still there, its just hiding for whatever reason right now!!! Consentrate on what you really want, and take one hour at a time, then two and so on if thats what it takes and say I have made it!!! Pat yourself on the back for your successes!!! You are strong my friend!!!! I know weekends are a little harder so why don't you allow yourself a certain amount of treats and work them in! Like if you are craving chocolate, How about some low carb Bryers Choclate Icecream or something like that!! If you want pizza try one of those WW frozen pizzas or experiment making your own healthier version! You want burgers? throw together some burgers with very lean meat (or ground turkey) and top with low fat cheese, lettuce , tomatoe ect. on a whole wheat bun. Betcha it will taste better than old Mickey D's!
Fries? Wedge some potatoes, season them with your choice of spices, spray well with cooking spray (PAM?) and roast them. Trust me they are good! Cake anyone??? Angel food cake topped with fruit??? anything sounding good here?? If you ever want recipes let me know I have some really good cook books for healthy eating! {{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}} lynn
P.S. Sorry for the long winded post *blushes*

Hi Lynn,

Great post :)

Sally

Thank you both SOOOO Much....Sally and Shy, you are exactly what I needed to start off my monday morning....
I couldnt do it, I had to get on the scale saturday morning *smiles* I maintained, I am still 265, not down nor up so I am defiantly not complaining, I did ok w/ my cravings.

You are sooo right Lynn, I simply have to do things all the way *sigh* I dont know why I am this way, i just always have been, little slips are just sooo hard on me. But I need to just forget about htem and move on *smiles*

Its snowing here today and I have sooo much work to do. I will be on the road alot so I have packed some healthy goodies.

You two are terrific, I honestly dont know how I would get by without such lovely friends!!

I am off to work but will check in with DT and your journals later....

MUCH LOVE!!!
Shan

Hi Shan,

Well done for getting past your slump and coming out fighting!

You know you're already over 10% of the way to your ultimate goal!!

Keep up the good work :)

Sally

Thanks Sally,
10% eh??? I never really thought of it that way *S*

I am off to do my taxes *sigh* I HATE TAXES LOL
I am crossing my fingers in hope that I dont have to pay this year...

Shan

Staying the same is great! Well, it's status quo.. MUCH better than a gain!

Corinna

Hey Buddy!
You don't realize how much you are missed over the weekend!!! So glad you are back!!! How was your weekend anyway???? You stayed the same for your weigh-in??? Good, then life is good and there are "NO WORRIES" Lets kick some fat cell butt this week! I hope you have a great Valentines Day tomorrow!! Take a trip to the store and pick out some sexy bedtime wear!! *wink! wink!* And pick up that bottle of perfume that you wouldn't normally get for yourself!! Tony and I have the morning up till 2:30 when my oldest gets home from school, to have some alone time!!! Whooo-hoooo!!!! I feel romance in the air!*giggle* He just went out shopping with my DD and I told him that if he was planning on getting me something, I wanted a new food scale (lets really splurge and go digital) LOL I must be getting crazy(getting, yeah right) Well, I happen to think him getting me a food scale for Valentines day is very romantic!!!!! Stay Strong my little friend!!!!!
Have a Healthy Day!!
lynn

Hey Shan!!!!!
You must have had some Valentines Day!!! You take my advise and get that sexy bedtime wear?????*wink, wink* Hurry back my friend....I'm missing you!!!!
lynn:)

Hey girl,
Its been psycho busy here at work and my comp is down at home. I can barely find time to log on this week. The big bosses are in town and on the prowl so its work work work
I am thinking about ya though....

I had a nice Vday, went to dinner and to the casino *grins* It was nice....now back to reality...

BIG HUGS
Shan

Hey Shan!!
I know you are one busy lady!!! Missing ya though! The last time our computer went down it cost us $160 to fix the darn thing!!! I was not a happy camper! You Have a Good Week!! Don't kill youself at work!!!! I want to here about your date at the casino!!!
lynn

Hey Shan,

Guessing you're still busy as?

Hope you've managed to relax a little over the weekend.

Sally :)

Well it has been a crazy week or so. I have missed logging on and i know that the support can only be helpful from here on out.
We had some really bad weather and it knocked out cable here for a few days, unfortunatly at home and work the cable is our internet link...so no diettalk.

I have been up and down lately with my eatting, not far off the wagon but just not as watchful. I know I havent been eatting enough calories. My water intake is down and I have not be exercising. I wish I could just get this all on track and tune out all the other garbage that comes flying my way. Now its my TOTM and i feel like crap...*sigh*

Anyways, I will get back into the swing of it, I know I will. I have noticed a marked difference in my cloths and my wrists, my watch is too big!!

I hope everyone else is doing well. I will check into everyones posts tomorrow...

Much love,
A tired shan...

I just finished doing a 1 ml walk to my Leslie Sansone tape...woohoo that felt excellent!! So it was 20 mins of exercise for today...yippee...I will either do that again tonight before bed or ride my bike....

I feel it, or atleast am starting to feel it!! Back on track!!

Bye bye big bootie!!! Hello sexy mama *snort* Ok, well not quite but I am BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shannon~~~ who has to keep it up....

Hey Sexy Mama!
thats much nicer than what the "herd" calls me (Mama Llama) I responded to your post over on General diet....Gosh, I've missed you Homer!!! Now lets get our Big Ol' Butts in gear so we can shake em with the best!!!! Lets set our goals for the tiniest bikinis that are still legal!!!How about some thigh high boots with an itty bitty mini!!! I'll let you ponder this for awhile!........Have a great night!!! How was that casino anyway?
lynn

Hi Shan,

Glad you're doing okay. I'm due to get weighed on Thu. I've moaned about waiting 3 weeks and now it's only 3 days away it seems too soon! I'm worried the scales will have only gone down 1lb or something (I'm hoping for 5lbs) and plus I've got my period due anytime too - so that's not going to help! Fingers crossed anyway...

Hope things calm down for you soon so you can have some quality time with yourself!

Sally

Oh, I've posted a pic of myself in gallery if you want to see!

I ate well yesterday....should drink a bit more water but did well. I did my mile workout again so that is another 20 minutes. I really enjoy it, I will do another mile tonight and try the two tomorrow.

Shy, MamaLlama, hehe that is cute....my kids just call me mom, well, my son calls me willnot *snort* dont ask, its a long story!!

Sally, hang in there, I am sure that your weight loss will be something to be proud of! You are working hard and even if you dont drop anything maintaining is just as important!!

BIG HUGS
Shan~~ who is off to work in a blizzard...

I look back to this time last month and I had such passion *grins* Oh well, it will come again.
I am doing well. Need to pick up my water intake more but that will come. It is frozen right now so its a little hard to drink *grins*
We had an awful blizzard here this morning. Alot of really bad accidents and yucky snow...now its gorgeous out and warm. *sigh* Who knows!!!
I am looking forward to getting home to do my exercise tape...never thought I would look forward to exercising.
I had a grilled cheese sandwich w/ light cheese for lunch and 2 oz of almonds. I need more ideas for food!!!

Setting up my appt to go and meet with teh ladies at curves next week. I am looking forward to that! I am sure I can make ti work...the website says they even have a diet program...gonna check into that....

I wish it were Saturday. i want to see if all this is paying off~

Shan

WeLL??


Can You??? Me head!!

Its screwed on right again *woohoo*

Ok, had to get that out of me. I feel fantastic...i feel like dancing. I feel like kicking some butt *grins*

hey, Shy!! Where the heck are ya when i wanna shake my groove thang???

*sigh* Dooped again *snort*

Anyways, I have spent all afternoon posting away on here and reading everyone elses posts and I get such inspiration....I love this site, I love my friends.....old and new!!

Thank you all so much for checking on me and actually caring if I am here or not....sorry to bail before but NO MORE...i am back to stay!!

I am almost headin ghome and gonna go and do atleast 1 mile and 10 minutes on the bike....lots of water and anice dinner...

Love to you all!
Shan

Whhhooooo-hooooo!!!! And the beetle is back!!!! Yeah Babe-bee!!!! Here's the Shannon we all know!!!!! Stronger than ever!!!!! *theme song from"Rocky"*....... Okay Sly, lets kick some butt!!!!! *shy slips on her cheerleading outfit and shakes her pom-poms* "hey, is that legal???" *giggles*
I get a phone call from the school yesterday while I was out (about a 1/2 hour from home) And daughter #1 is throwing up at school (migrain, not from my side of the family, all of hubbys family gets them) As the nurse (excuse me, they are not called nurses anymore, I'm not quite sure what they are called now) is talking on the phone, She says..."Oh Crap!!" (kid was throwing up again) "OH CRAP????" how professional is that??? Then when we get there the woman says she has only been there since October, (whats that have to do with the price of eggs???) And she was afraid she was going to get sick watching her!!! Hello??? you mean to tell me, my kid is the only child that has thrown up at school???? Where do these people come from??? even if you felt that way, Are you actually going to say it????
"Whoops was I ranting there???"
You keep up the great work girlfriend!!!! I'll be cheering for ya!!!!! We'll be shopping at"Victoria's Secrets" sooner than you think!!!!! *here comes Shannon, strutting down the catwalk* "YOU GO GIRL"
{{{HUGS}}}
lynn

ROFLMAO!!!
Hehe, I am shaking my groove thing....

Shhhhhh DONT make me laugh....theres a meeting going on in the office...i shouldnt be snorting shy

I would SOOOO flip out over the sticking NURSE *growl* I am so not good with being policially correct and not telling people off!!

How is your daughter feeling now???

I am doing fab today....still need to up my water but otherwise all is well! I have been exercising alot and eating well. I had a fab omelette *whites only* with mushrooms and tomatoes today....yummy yummy

I had missed being here...you brighten everything up Shy!! Everyone on DT does....this place is my saviour!!

HUGE UBER HUGS
Shan

Hey Shan,

Glad you've had a good day! You seem on fine form :)

Sally

You are doing soooo Great Shan!!!
But ya better quit *snorting* at work or the men in their *White Coats* are going to be sweeping you off to the *WACKO WARD* :laugh:
When you get a minute, go check out my journal.... I am sure you will find amusement in my latest escapade!!! At least I can depend on you to laugh at me and not *feel sorry* for my brainlessness!! (is that even a real word?) :o
I don't know if I ever told you, but I took your advise about adding a little *Crystal Light* to my water to help get it down. That is really working out well!! Thank you Homer!!!
Hubby helped me with the eleptical today, he stood by me to make sure I didn't lose my balance. (between you and me, I don't think he wanted to rent a crane to get me up if I fell):laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
Seriously though, that really felt good, wasn't the battle like I have with *evil bike*X-(
Of course I had it on the lowest tension, but it felt good to be able to stand and not have my back give out right away! My knees did hurt but I was able to tolerate it. Why do they bother me soooo much more on the bike?
Well you have a great day!!!
lynn
p.s. I am glad you enjoyed your omelette!!

Thanks for the support Sally and Lynn...I am feeling much better and keep going forward....I think its just around pms time that I mentally lose form...kwim??

BTW...sally, congrats on your five lbs...way to go girl!

Lynn, thats awesome about the eliptical...can I come over to your house and play on the exercise equipment *grins* You sure do have an awesome hubby...but if you keep wisecrackin about a crane I'm gonna insert my foot where the sun dont shine *Cackle*

The white coated men are always lurking behind me...I am just to quick for them...LOL I just feed em donuts...

Well...gotta go check in and hten head off to work. Gonna be a long day today *sigh* Plus its all windy here and that makes being on the road hard =(

Love yous!
Shan

Well its finally friday...i cannot wait for my day to be over and I havent even left for work yet!! Its going to be a busy one..hopefully I will find some time during the day to check in here!

Weekends are busy around our house so logging on is difficult....I'll have to sneak *grins* I am looking forward to the weekend. I intend to exercise more because I'll have more time. I am counting down the days now until weigh in!! Monday morning here I come.

I feel confident again. I know I need more water, I think I'll have to go back to adding crystal light in it again to keep me going!

I want to see some results again but I understand my body has to readjust...though I dont think I gained I know that I didnt do it any good reverting back to old ways....

Life is good otherwise...normal day to day struggles but who doesnt have those. Sometimes I just wonder when it will all get better...or change. Its all the same stuff over and over....I know I am not the only one who feels this way. *sigh* K, nuff complaining, I;m only ranting cause I just paid all my bills *LMAO*

Off to work...
Shan

"When will it get better? When will it change?"
I don't know, if you figure out the secret, be sure to let me know!!!!LOL
I always say we take 10 steps forward and 20 steps back!!! Now there is something going on with our plumbing!!! OH NO... NOT THAT!!!! anything but plumbing problems.....GEEEEEZ! I swear I have ghosts living in this house, not evil, just annoying!!!! I was watching "Law and Order, and all of a sudden I hear a crash in the kitchen! The dog stands up and just looks "STUPID" Tony jumps up an checks it out (Dog, still looks STUPID) Well, I have a china closet in the kitchen with all Christmas dishes!! A small saucer fell out into the dogs dish and broke(at least it was easy to clean up) Now don't ask me how this little saucer pushed open the glass doors and threw itself out, and of course it had to be from the only expensive set in there. Why would I even think it would possibly be from one of the cheap sets!!! 8-| 8-| 8-|
I swear we bought a haunted house!!:laugh: Come to think of it, remind me to tell you about the night a bat came out of no where and flew in circles in our living room!!:ghost: :ghost: :ghost: SPOOKY!!! LOL
lynn

LOL Sounds exciting!!

We have a spirit in our house...seriously! She is about 5 yo, little blonde hair girls...we're thinking early 1900's. Shes dressed in little house on the prairie style clothing. Now, I know you think I am nuts...but i am not joking. She doesnt do anything harmful, just plays around! Seriously!!

ANyways, the power is flickering..the snow is waying down the lines so Iam shutting down the comp.

Doing good, got lots of water in today and eating well. I already did a one mile walk, going to do two later today

We were supposed to go out with friends tonight but canceled. the whole city is shutting down cause of this danged snow..*sigh*

Hope everyone is well!
shan

Shan!
How cool is that!!! How old is your house? How long have you lived there? How did you realize that she was there??? How did you first see her?? Believe it or not I come from a long line of nuts*smiles* that have always talked to me about this kind of stuff!! 3 of my great aunts were into it and one of their daughters! They are all passed on now! Personally I have mixed feelings, even though I could tell of some strange happenings!! One side of me is really into it and another side of me is too logical! so I kind of sit in the middle of the fence! But I love hearing about strange happenings!
Tomorrow is my weigh-in!!! I hope I did alright! No more weighing myself in the middle of the week!! Bad!!!!
Hope you are alright! storm sounds really harsh!!! KEEP WARM!!!!
Great Job on your walking!!!Keep it up!!!
lynn

Its Sunday...tomorrow is weigh in day...i am excited and nervous *grins*

I wonder, does housework count as exercise?? Cause I didnt sit down yesterday LOL I kept busy...
The storm has past but left LOADS of shovelling to be done...does that count as exercise?? Its going to take me atleast an hour....

Shy...I too have always been very very logical...if you cant prove it to me then I just plain do not believe it. I'll give you a brief run down of the things that have happened in this house....(its only about 20 years old but before these subdivision was built it was all old farm land)
* about 6months after we first arrived here there were strange knocks at the bathroom door while ppl were in shower...noone there
* I was in the shower one morning and I knew I shut the bathroom window before I got in. It got really cold, I looked and the window was open. I shut it got back in, window opened back up
* Often put things in dryer...walk out of room, here noise go back and the contents are strewn all across the floor...(not like oh the dryer was lop sided and popped open, I mean like all the way to the door across the floor!)
* Baby sized hand prints showed up on the foggy bathroom mirror, I got freaked out and wiped them off, they immediatly came back, wiped them off again and poof, they came back. Put my own prints there, wiped them off they didnt come back!
* you can often "feel" someone there
* unexplained movies getting taken off the shelf and laid in the middle of the floor..always kid movies, in the middle of the night, sometimes when our kids havent been home
* kitchen cupboard doors left open...here a noise and we go in and all the cupboards are open

Even after all of this I didnt believe....THEN..................

One night I was going into the kitchen (our dining room, living room, kitchen & front hallway are kind of looped together in a circle) as I rounded the corner, THERE SHE WAS, she looked right at me, smiled and walked down the stairs.

I swear I am not kidding! I screamed, cried, all the hairs in my body stood on end, I almost vomitted. *sigh* So, shes here. I know that she doesnt mean to scare anyone, shes just playing. She is completly harmless....

So, that is my story...there is 1,000 percent no doubt in my mind that she is here...but she's friendly and by the way I see it she has every right to be here...

K, now that you all think I am mental *lol* I am off....gotta go shovel

Love,
shan

Ummm.. yeow! That would totally freak me out, I think. I'm happy you can happily coexist with her.. Did you ever look into the history of the land? Freaky, freaky!

What do your kids think of her?

Corinna

:ghost: :ghost: :ghost:
Well, You have really made my day! I am sooo fasinated by this! While I was reading your post I had chills running through me!! I know I could live with the strange things going on in the house, that wouldn't really bother me. But to actually see her....... I think that would totally freak me out!!! But you are obviously comfotable with her presense so it is not a bad thing! I most certainly don't think you are mental, like I said I come from a family of believers. After growing up with people who believe in such things, nothing shocks me! I have also experianced weird occurances but I just kind of take it in stride. ( I don't know Shan, maybe they'll send out the men in white coats for both of us!!!):D :D :D

Yes! I think housework counts as excersize! and snow removal really has to burn off calories.
Good Luck on your weigh-in!!!
You are awesome!
lynn

oh my gosh shannon. I stopped by to say hi its 3 am and I can not sleep. But now that i read your posts I have shivers running up and down me and I am afraid to go BACK to bed and afraid to STAy here!:laugh:

in my last house that was built on old farm land , in our master bedroom bathroom. I always had this HEAVY feeling come over me. Like I was depressed or it was just wierd. I didn't have that when we moved to our new house so I started to think maybe it was some kind of presence. It was always in middle of night in bathroom. Creepy huh?

A wee bit more about "the little blonde haired girl" (that is what we in the house call her)

Cori~~ The kids havent seen her and honestly we just explain away the wierd things that happen to them. I don't think they would know exactly how to deal with it. My youngest is just turning 8 and I don't want her to be freaked out by ghosts...kwim?? Even if she is gentle and non frightening I am not sure how to explain that to a child...

Lynn~~ I don't mind if the men in white coats come LOL Maybe I'll get some sleep! Glad to know someone else is fascinated by this. I would love to bring someone in the house to tell me more about her BUT i am afraid to frighten her. This is her "home" and for whatever reason she hasn't passed on yet. I cannot even explain how I felt the day I saw her. I honestly thought I was going to pass out. I cried and cried. It was horrible until I realized that she was smiling and she just wanted to say hi. Now I am her biggest supporter. I always talk to her and stuff. Silly I know. I truely believe that for some reason her spirit cannot/won't pass to the other side and she is stuck here.

I have been told I can go and research the land and find out what stood where my house is now. The city keeps the records...I am just afraid that something horrible happened here and I don't know if I want to know that kwim??

Lisa~~ I am so sorry. Did you end up getting some more sleep?? It doesnt frighten me anymore, its just a reality. I have told people about her and most people think I am full of you know what. LOL I am a totally literal, logical person so trust me, I am not making this up LOL Somedays I wish I were. I bet that what you were feeling in your last house was definatly a presence...someone just wanting you to know they were there!

We actually had a visitor yesterday ask about her. My mother-in-law had to be told that we were only joking when we told her about the little girl because she refused to stay in the house LOL

Off to work..
Shan

Around tuesday of last week I jumped on the scale and saw 269-270. I figured it was because of my TOM and water retention. I didnt want to beliebve that I gained possibly 5 lbs back. So I just ignored it *hangs head* and went about my week.

I had 2 awful awful weeks, no exercise, bad eatting and such. I am sure you all remember hearing me ***** LOL So I think that it took its toll but I didn't want to admit it last week.

Anyways, I weighed in this morning, completly NAKED *hehe* and I am 265-264 it hovers...I have one of those scales with the little arm and it didn't want to settle on one weight.

So, I am proud of that. I knew I had gained it back but didnt want to admit it, I gave excuses to it and now its gone again.

I will keep my stats at 265 since it hovered and keep trucking.

I don't know why I didn't post my gain last week. If I had then perhaps this would actually be a loss LOL Either way, i am back where I started. I knew those two weeks would haunt me *grins*

Oh well, its a new week!

Shan

Oh Shan!

You gave me goose bumps too and I'm reading this in the middle of the day right next to a big window with day-light coming through! Eehh! That sort of thing does freak me out! I'm not sure if I'm had any ghostly experiences. They'd probably just pass me by! I can be abit oblivious to things sometimes! One weird thing actually, that I have on a photograph, happened when I was about 12. I used to cycle alot (see I am naturally active, it's all about habits!) and I went and stopped in a cemetary with my friend. Don't ask me why! We were being respectful and looking at the headstones. It was a really bright sunny day, not a cloud in the sky, middle of summer. I was into taken photos at the time (random things that I thought were interesting) and I took my camera out to take one of some of these graves. Again, don't ask me why! So, when the photo came back (and I still have it somewhere) there's loads of smoke around the graves! But it was a really clear day. It could just be some weird thing that happened during developing the prints, but it doesn't look like that, it looks like it's coming from the graves! Oo-er Mrs! :(

I'll have to put it in the gallery if I get chance!

Glad you're well apart from the weird bumps in the night!

Tell little blonde girl 'hi' from us :D

Sally x

LMAO
HEHE, I will definatly pass on your hello!

I would definatly say you were not alone in the graveyard that day.

My Nan passed 2 years ago this may. The day before my sons birthday. The day of her funeral it was cloudy and dismal. When they lowered her body into the ground the sun shown SO BRIGHT. The birds started to sing and we warmed up. Everyone looked into the sky...it was surreal. I know in my heart she went to a better place in the second. It was an experience I will never ever forget.
I can still hear the birds singing if I listen really hard.

*sigh*

Memories....

Shan

What does kwim mean?

Corinna

Oh Shan! That is so neat! You and your ghost stories.....I don't know how I would deal with that.....but its a great conversation piece.

I think I would blame any weight gain on her.....she may be standing on the scale with you! heheheheh....you know I can make up tons of excuses!

Way to hang in there during and after a trying food time. It paid off. You are back on the downward trend.

I once had a friend that lived in a 200 year-old "haunted" house. Faucets and lights would come on in the middle of the night, she saw stuff like you did, and lots of creepy stuff going on. I thought it was bull at first, but became convinced after 5-6 overnight visits. That house was freaky.

Be good to yourself.
Fagan
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Kwim....means know what I mean

Sorry it kind of comes out...can you tell you used to be a computer junkie???

Glad to see you back Leslie...are you feel better??? I never thought to blame the excess weight on her *grins*

Thanks for the support Fagan, though I have to say I did my one weekly cheat today. I was out on the road, left my lunch at the office and did a BIG no-no...I swung in to Burger King, grabbed a burger and fry..*hangs head* LOL actually, I dont feel too bad...the way I figure it is I used to eat fast food like 3-4 times a week. Large sized everything and often had two burgers...so now having a little treat once in a while isnt a huge deal.

Let me tell you, though in the back of my mind i felt guilty, I sure was drooling LMAO...

I am feeling good though, phsycially and mentally. Honestly, its a nice place to be!
Thank you so much everyone for checking up on me *S*

Shan

is that friendships often pop out of nowhere and take you by surprise.

*smiles*

I am sitting here, freezing in my office, floating around Diettalk! Contemplating life and the people in my life!

I want to thank all of you for being who you are! Each of you are important to me and I know that the best thing I have done in years is join Diettalk. Without the support you offer me I don't think I could be doing this.

So thank you to all my wonderful friends!!!

:hug:
Awwwww!Gee Shan, you're so sweet!!!! We adore you too!!!! I agree with you, this is the best thing I have done in a long time too!!! To be able to share the hard parts as well as the triumphs with others who understand is so helpful !!! And to be able to peek into others lives and walk this journey with them is a great motivation for me! And of course to make such interesting new friends is definatley a plus!!!!:D
Let me tell you a cute, true story that happened right after my grandmother passed away!
My Gram died at home when she was 86 years old! she was not your typical old lady! Up until she died she was full of spunk and determination! She was still walking to town on a weekly basis.. a good trek for a woman her age! and she was still doing her own good sized vegatable and flower garden, hell, she was still shoveling snow for heavens sake!!! She was an expert seamstress and she still washed clothes by hand and hung them out on the line! (as you can guess, I adored her, she was my life!) I spent most of my life with her and my grand father. as a child I only went to school from my parents home, come weekends, summers and holidays. I was with my grandparents, then when I was around 16 I moved in with them full time, my Grandfather died when I was 19 and then it was just me and Gram! She died of a heart attack in the middle of the night, It was the worst night of my entire life! When I lost her my whole world caved in! She took a piece of me with her when she left! I managed to go to work and go through the motions of life, but inside I was so empty! One afternoon my best friends mom (who I was extremly close too, by they way she died 6 months later at only 50 years old, GEEEZ!) came to the house to try to get me motivated and back into life, I was moping around watching t.v. and not responding to her urging! The t.v. just shuts off by its self, I didn't think too much of it, just got up and turned it back on. This happened a couple of times and really I didn't think too much of it, just getting annoyed!! What freaked me out was a few minutes later we heard a thump in the laundry room, we look at one another and get up and go to see what it was, Just as we open the door the washing machine turned itself on and starts filling up with water!! We just stood there in shock!! Now I am sure there might be a logical explanation for these occurances, but it seemed to me that Gram was there telling me to get off my butt and get moving!!!! That was a long time ago and I still look back on that day and have to smile!
Well,after that little trip down memory lane I am off to bed!!
Have a Great Day Shan!!!!!:D
lynn

What an amazing story Lynn! Your gram sure sounds like a fantastic person. I miss my Nan dearly, we didnt get to spend loads of time together but she was a truely remarkable and courageous woman. She had more determination to live life and love it then I could ever muster. When I was about 10 years old she had to have her voice box removed. She was a heavy smoker and had gotten cancer. From then on I never heard her say a word. She refused to use one of those electric voice magnifiers and so we never heard her speak again. But we always knew what she was "saying"....

Gosh, i'm all emotional now *smiles*

Its wonderful how we all have people who touch us so deeply...

Have a great day!
Shan

Do you ever just wish you could stand in a wide open space and scream?? :)
Thats how I am feeling today...not because I am in a bad mood, cause I am fairly happy today...

I just wish I was outside, in the sunshine! I have all this pent up energy but I am stuck behind this danged desk....

Luckily its a ED day at my kids school sO i am outta here at 11...woohoo for me! I am going to relax, exercise, cook a fab meal and veg!! I can't believe that it is only tuesday....seems longer...

Anyways, I need to find some way to release this energy...i feel like a caged rat today LOL Wheres the cheese?????

Silly Shan:D

Hey Shan!
Hope you had a Fabulous day!!! So tell us... what did ya do to get rid of all that pent up energy???:D
lynn

HI :wave: I am not sure if I have stopped by your journal before - it sure is interesting :D

My daughter lives in a "visited" house - we say visitors and not ghosts lol

Harmless but at times annoying - "she" likes certain doors open or closed and certain lights left on or off - my daughter tells her "this is my house now" lol

Hope you get to enjoy some of the nice daylight air today.

LOL Nothing interesting let me tell you!
I went home, lectured my 7yo daughter for making faces at the teacher and telling her off! *grumble*
Made a wicked stir fry with my son *daughter was grounded in room*
Cleaned the house, painted a little bit and took a cat nap while watching Maury LOL

It was nice to have the half day off but now the office is falling down around me...*grumble*

Shan

Thanks for popping in Beth....my journal does seem to be enjoying the action.

I do talk to my visitor as well. Just to let her know that I know she's there and that I don't mind. I have also talked to her to ask her to leave my kids alone...sounds odd I know but I dont want her to freak them out....So far shes listened LOL

I must ask...I have noticed your signature..."I eat a frog everyday" What on earth does that mean LOL

Shan

Shan!
I have never tried stir fry.... I always wanted to get a wok and try it out. Tell me how you made this wicked stir fry, what do you use??? Hubby got me a new and improved food scale today!!! Digital!!! whoo-hooo can you imagine? I'm movin' up in the world!!! *giggles* time to throw the ancient one in the trash!!! Oh the antics of 7 year olds!!! My 6 year old, who was once my sweet lil' one, is now spreading her wings and becoming her own little person since she has started school!!! She is the only one I kept home with me as long as I could!! The oldest started in Montessori School when she was 3 (I loved that school but it was way too expensive, I struggled to send her, there was no way I could send the middle child also) But I did keep her there until she started Kindergarden. I wanted to keep her there through the 6th grade but it wouldn't have been fair to the other one. Then the middle child started pre-k at 4. I kept the lil' one home right up until this year.She started at 6 because of where her birthday falls. So this year was a start of a whole differant life for me.
Anyways... I am glad you got to enjoy a kick back kind of day!!!You deserve it!!!!
lynn

Thanks girl!
I dont use a WOK to do my stir fry...i just use my electric frying pan.

Basically, I mix together:

red & Green peppers
onions
carrots
celery
Lean sliced pork
bean sprouts
broccoli
califlower
mushrooms
crushed garlic

I through them in the pan with a little oil and mix them all together. I still like the veggies crunchie so I dont keep them in too long. I season the pork with garlic and onion salt *not too much* and through that in too.

I used some vegetarian oyster sauce to flavor the veggies and serve it over top of whole wheat rotini noodles...

YUMMY!!

Oh, wait til you here what my DD did yesterday. She had a good day in class THEN she decides her and some friends are going to SPIT all over the stairs in the scchool. Some poor kindergarten kid slipped int eh spit *SIGH*

What has happened to my little angel??? GROWL I dont know what the BLLEEPPP she was thinking LOL

Hugs
Shan

Is it because calling them a ghost might offend them?

I bet the teacher deserved the face.

Corinna

Ahhhh thats it!!! Oyster Sauce!!! I knew there was a secret ingrediant!!!This I will definatley try! Your lil' darlin' may be experiancing major peer pressure or possibly just thinks the spitting thing was cool! DD#3 showed me her spitting expertise one day after school! And when I reacted with shock and horror, she actually looked at me like I had 10 heads!!!"BUT Mommie, look at what I can DO!!!!" *arghhhhhh*
lynn

I love oyster sauce...the vegetarian option tastes better to me though!

Hehe, my DD is definatly a charmer...she honestly just figures that she can do whatever everyone else does with no repercussions of her own *lol* Oh, if only the adult world were like that!!

I am having a good day. I forgot my lunch at home though and am stuck in the office. I hoepfully, wont be affected too much by it.

Hope all is well!
Shan

Hi Shan,
I just wanted to stop in and you are doing great I read over several posts and you are on the right track for sure!:)

Hi Shan,

I don't have any little angels myself! I think they often do what we'd love to do as adults but can't get away with anymore! I was on bus one evening, everyone was finishing work and looked shattered, suddenly this kid's voice bellowed down the bus 'I'M TIRED!!!!' :laugh: I bet everyone on the bus would loved to have shouted the same thing, but of course we'd be locked up if we did!

Sally

Don't you just hate forgetting your lunch!! Before I started this diet I never ate lunch, now it is like my favorite meal of the day! I was never a breakfast person, I would still love to just have my extra, extra light and sweet coffee or coffee's and be done with it! And I used to like to have fast food or really fattening food for dinner, now it seems like alot of work on some days to fix dinner because I have turned into "Shy's Restaurant" (people putting in their orders) actually I shouldn't say that because it is gradually getting better, the kids are learning to like what mommie eats and that is definatley a plus!
Have a GREAT weekend!!!
lynn:D :D :D

Hey girls,

Thanks for checking in on me...luckily my daughter is doing much better. She is such a card!

I have had a good weekend, busy as usual. The weather has been amazing so we have been out and about all weekend.

I must say i am pretty frustrated...I maintained again this week. Which i guess is good. I know the things I am doing wrong I just need the willpower and force to stop them. I know I am not drinking enough water and not exercising enough. I havent been doing 100% on my breakfast and could eat better then I am.

I am frustrated *sigh* Oh well, its a new week. I WILL LOSE this week!!!!!

Shan

Hi PhD Girl,
I laughed out loud at your entry regarding getting locked up if we expressed ourselves like little kids do. I think that same thought ALL the time!!

What I most especially love watching is how little kids (I have two) will look( ok, stare) people right in the eyes. I think to myself that if I did that to someone they'd really freak out. We've lost that license now that we're socialized. Maybe the kids have something there! It's instinct I guess to just look at people without looking away. I really marvel at that!
Anyway, have a good day!

Hi Littlebeetle,
I've been starting to read your journal - it really touched my heart- - esp. the comments your Dad used to make to you. I'm glad to see, from what I've read so far, that he is sorry for those comments and now supports you. I hope that's continuing.

I started reading the beginning and then the end of your journal (it's a long one). I'll try to fill in the middle over time. That wok meal you described sound deliSH!! I love stirfrying, but do it in fits and starts. I think I'll be motivated now to use it tomorrow. Pork and mixed veggies is my favorite. I use a ginger/garlic sauce to flavor it. And now I don't eat white rice, but brown instead. 1 c at the most. If I feel virtuous I'll take only 1/2 c and load up on the meat and veggies.

Anyway, just wanted to say hi and keep up the worthwhile journey. You DESERVE it!!!!

Bye for now.

Yes Shan, YOU CAN DO IT!!! and YOU WILL DO IT!!!!
From what I see you are a very strong individual and you will WIN this battle!!!!:mus: :mus: :mus:
As a working mom I think you just need to put yourself 1st more often!! I know the job and the kids tend to take priority over ones own needs!!! Be SELFISH!!!! its okay to focus on your own needs!!!!