Hello everyone!

My name is "Hakyni". I am 25 years old and a mother of 3 - ages 5, 3 and almost 1.

I weight 201.3 pounds. The heaviest I have ever weighed.
I am aiming for my max "healthy weight" target which is 150lbs.
I am aiming for 1-2 pounds per week.
I am going to count calories and keep it between 1600 and 1800 calories per day.
I am eliminating sugary sodas from my home. I am only allowed a soda on occassion when we eat out.
I am going to drink water, diet or light drinks only.
I am going to walk a lot and hit the gym a couple of times per week.
I am going to start taking vitamins (calcium, folic acid and multi)

My first mini goal is 190lbs. I will reward myself with a pedicure at the spa.
My second mini goal is 180lbs. I will reward myself with a month unlimited tanning to fade away the stretch marks.

I plan on using this journal to record my food and exerice for the day, mostly. I will also use this journal as something to do other than eating. To share my frustrations and successes.

I will take a picture with each 20 pound loss and share it. I am going to be brave and share a "current" picture. This was taken summer of 2005 at 192lbs. So I am 10 pounds heavier. I will post a new picture at 180 pounds in the same bathing suit.

HERE GOES NOTHING!!!!!!!!

http://www.brandallynne.com/before190.jpg

Hi Hakyni!
I just wanted to say hello and wish you good luck! I also have 3 kids and I too LOVE sexy clothes, which I haven't been able to wear for quite some time!!! I also drank alot of soda,which I have switched to diet soda, but I really hate the after taste. So when I saw your post and you mentioned the light Hawaiin Punch fruit drinks, I was like "Oh yeah,thats a great idea" Thanks for the tip!Well once again "Good luck on your journey to healthy eating!!!"
shy

Day One

BREAKFAST: Blueberry Bagel with Cream Cheese and a LIGHT Hawaiian Punch.

It's 11:30 now and I think I am going to get myself dressed, get my kids bundled up and take a walk. I have to walk half a mile later too to go pick up my daughter from school. I am going to make an attempt to WALK to pick her up from school everyday. Not drop her off because at 8am it's just too cold to walk. :D

Okay. I'm going to walk today.

Welcome Hakyni!!

Congrats on getting to this point in your life. Walking is definatly a start. You will find loads of support here!

Good luck
Shannon

Confession: I didn't take my walk YET but I am going to when it's time to pick up my DD from school. We're taking a two mile detour home. At least the kids should be tired out and go to sleep easy tonight.

Goals: I do not know exactly what I weight but I am going to find out tomorrow. I already have a gym membership that I haven't used in many months. I'm not going to "work out" tomorrow but I am going to go to the gym to get a feel for it again. I plan on using the steam room, the jaccuzi and weigh in on the official scale. They have a kick ass daycare so it will be nice to have a little break. I will start USING the gym next week.

I am estimating that I weight between 190lbs and 195lbs. My FIRST goal is to lose eight pounds by March 1st. My second goal is to weight 155lbs by June 1st. My third goal is to weight 145lbs by the end of the year. If I feel I need to lose more, I will revise at that time.

I feel if I can lose eight pounds in a little over a month, I will feel more motivated to keep going. It will be my kickstart.

I want to weight approx. 155lbs by summer so I can feel DECENT in a bathing suit. Our friends are having a pool put in and it would be nice to go swimming over there and not be ashamed of my body. Not to mention our local mom's club is already planning some pool parties for the summer!!

I know I will be comfortable in my skin at 155lbs. Therefore my third goal is to aim for 140-145lbs by THE END OF THE YEAR.

I feel my goals are reasonable.

Plan of Action: I am going to walk four miles on Monday, Wednesday and Friday with friends (my moms group). I am going to the gym for 30 minutes of cardio and light weight training on Tuesday and Thursday. I may or may not walk two miles on Saturday and/or Sunday. I will play those day by ear and depending on if a friend, my mom or my husband want a walking buddy.

It is not realistic for me to say NO MORE soda at this time. I will say, NO MORE SODA IN THE HOUSE and a soda on occassion. I am switching to diet, although I hate the stuff and MOSTLY water.

I am going to make some adjustments to my breakfast, lunchs and snacks. I am going to make the adjustments slowly over the next few weeks. Such as, start with healthy breakfasts' first for a week. Then add in healthy lunches. Then finally healthy snacks.

Why didn't I mention dinner? After speaking to a friend today about her weight loss, she said, she eats GOOD for every meal but she does not change her dinner menu. For dinner, she cooks as she normallywould have and only takes a small portion. I never eat a lot at dinner anyway SO this sounded good to me. My biggest areas are day time snacking and eating.

So starting MONDAY I am going to work on eating healthy breakfast foods.

THIS DOES NOT MEAN I AM GOING TO BINGE or EAT ANYTHING ELSE for all my other meals. It just means my FOCUS on good foods will be on breakfast only next week.

I am going to chart my weight. I am going to print out my goal and put them in the kitchen so I am always reminded. I have several moms here that know of my goals and now I have people (and this forum) to be accountable to. This is going to work!!

Off to go get my daughter from school!

Day Two

I DON'T WANT TO GO!!!!

Now the time has come to stay committed. Dammit. I am suppose to meet a friend at 8:30 to walk two miles, where we will meet more friends and walk another two miles. FOUR FREAKIN' MILES. It's cold. I'm tired. I don't want to go. I don't want to do it.

I'm going to do it. I need to do it.

Just think of it it as, if i dont do it im gonna stay the same. I have the same problem with motivation to go walking, atleast you have children, which is a good excvuse to go out, i have no kids, no pets, and a bus pass paid for me by family, caus ei make about 6 big journeys a day. I try to go to the gym, once a week, but somtimes thats even difficult.
good luck,
just think thin, maybe try and have a look through a catalogue find pictures of clothes u want when u have lost a bit of weight....
i hjave to loose a similar weight as you, ill keep an eye on your journal :-)
grace xxxx

Hey girl~~

Did you do it?? Did you go for your walk?? Let us know

Shan

Hey girl~~

Did you do it?? Did you go for your walk?? Let us know

Shan

I did it! I did it!

I didn't end up making it at 8:30 but I met up with the group at 9. We walked 3 miles. That first mile was a killer too. I'm so out of shape. My legs were burning, my butt was cramping, but I DID IT. They are planning on seeing me Monday too so I have to go. :)

I'm so proud of myself.

RECAP DAY TWO

OMG. I weighed myself at the gym. :( :( I cannot believe it. I weigh 201lbs!! I have passed the 200 mark. Not happenin'. This lifestyle stops HERE!!!

I walked my three miles today. Go Hakyni! I ate scrambled eggs and toast for brunch. I was running late today for skipped breakfast but ate a little earlier than lunch. Not common for me but it was today.

I went to the gym but not to work out. I just wanted to go there to get a feel for it again. I went in the jacuzzi, then in the pool. I did some resistant training in the pool but more so for fun that a workout. That was it. It was just an hour for me to get away from the kids. It was motivating though.

Ate three slices of pizza for dinner and (OW!) had two drumstick ice cream cones. Why did DH have to buy those??? It's okay. I'm not officially starting the diet part until Monday and even then, it will be a gradual transition. My main focus is WATER and EXERCISE and PORTIONS.

I cannot believe how much I weight. I am shaking my head in shame, disappointment and shock.

Game Plan for Tomorrow

Walk 2-3 Miles.
Drink ONE Liter of Water.
Eat HEALTHY Breakfast.
No more than ONE can of soda.

Day Three: Today's Game Plan

At 11:00 a.m. I am turning off the computer until I have accomplished the following goals for the day:

1) Clean House
2) Laundry
3) Two Mile Walk

My House Cleaning Chore List:

-Family Room: Dust, Vacuum and Organize DVDs
-Kitchen: Unload and Reload Dishwasher, Wash Pots/Pans, Wipe Counter, Windex Appliances, Swiffer Floor, Wash Microwave, Clean Out Fridge/Freezer/Pantry for upcoming NEW GROCERIES.
-Playroom/Living Room: Pick up TOYS and Vacuum.
-Hallway: Pick up TOYS and Vacuum.
-Girl's Bedroom: Pick up TOYS and Vacuum.
-Laundry: Wash, Dry, Fold, Hang and Put Away

Once all my "chores" are done and I have taken my two mile walk, then I will be allowed back on the computer. :)

I haven't gone grocery shopping yet so I will have to make do with what I have here at home. I should go shopping tonight or tomorrow. Today's Menu consists of:

Breakfast: Scrambled Eggs on Toast with a LIGHT Hawaiian Punch
Lunch: Cesar Salad with Chicken and water
Dinner: Grilled Chicken Breasts, Mashed Potatos, Corn on the Cob, Stuffing and one can of Sprite.
Snacks: I have apples and oranges to make use of.

Today's Exercise Plan
-Two Mile Walk
-Dance While Cleaning
-Stretch After Walk

Okay. Two more hours until I start my day. :) I don't officially "wake up" until 11 so I am thinking realistically. I'm not doing much of anything until then. :)

I've thought of a couple rewards for my mini weight losses. I'll start with two and after I reach mini goal #2 I will add more. I have to think short term before I can think long term.

MINI GOAL ONE: @ 190 lbs I will go get a pedicure.

MINI GOAL TWO: @ 180 lbs I will go get an unlimited tanning membership for one month.

PEDICURE HERE I COME!!!

It has dawned on me that I have issues with food. I use it to comfort myself, to celebrate, to converse, to do something when there is nothing else to do. Obviously I need to replace activities in place of eating in order to succeed. Some ideas include:

-Writing in THIS journal
-Writing in my journal book
-Take the kids to the park
-Walk
-Read
-Clean

I would like to make a big list of things I can do instead of eating. Can anyone help me with some ideas?

It's almost 11:00 a.m. and my day will begin soon. See you all in the evening.

Breaskfast: Brown Sugar Oatmeal w/ Light Hawaiian Punch
Snack: Celery with 1TBS Peanut Butter
Lunch: Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich w/ Water
Snack: Orange Slices
Dinner:

Total Calories:
Total Fat:
Total Carbs:
Total Oz. of Water:

Miles Walked:
Other Exercise:

Hi :wave: & :welcome:

You are doing :super: !!!!!!!!

Okay. So I didn't get EVERYTHING accomplished but I had a kick ass day. I deep cleaned my house and got myself breathing because I danced inbetween jobs.

My house cleaning was number one priority because it's the weekend and it was in pretty bad shape. So, I did get THAT accomplished.

My laundry, well, most of it is washed and dried. Now I have to fold and put it away. I might do that tonight as I watch TV though.

My two mile walk didn't happen. Although I do have a good excuse for it. Not only was I busy cleaning, my oldest DD is not feeling good today. She couldn't walk two miles. She's been laying on the couch ALL DAY. So I really had no choice. It's okay though because I did "work out" by dancing and cleaning all day.

I did GREAT on my eating today. I stayed between my 1600-1800 calories range and ate good foods. I am having one can of sprite for dinner. I've been saving it all day and drinking water instead. Yay me!!

So I'm pretty happy with today. :)

- Walk 2 Miles
- Clean Bedroom
- Clean Bathroom
- Organize Closet
- Clean Playroom
- Finish Laundry
- Eat Good
- Drink Water
- Stay Positive :x

Is anyone even reading this?

hey hakyni!!
You are doing Great!!!!
Don't be hard on yourself if you don"t get that walk in, I am sure you get lots of exersize with three little ones to take care of!!! I remember how it was when mine were younger, 'specially my older girls (they are only 15 months apart) Don't know what i was thinking LOL my youngest is just 6 now and she can still be a handful!!
You are sooooo motivated!!! YAY!!! for you.
Keep up the good work!!
*thumbs up and a smile*
shy

I had a pretty good night sleep, for once in a very long time. I did a lot of positive self talk last night as I was falling asleep. I feel really good.

These light drinks are going to be a life saver to me. I am such a soda addict and I hate "diet" drinks. I hate the taste, the after taste... I could never aquire a taste for it not matter how long I forced myself to drink the stuff. THEN "light" drinks were introduced to me. Only 10 cals in one can and the stuff is actually GOOD and doesn't leave a nasty after taste.

I made good decisions this morning. I was going to make an egg sandwich but used only egg whites and one slice of bread (instead of two). It was a smaller portion but I substitute with adding three slices of a apple to my meal. I feel full and satisfied.

I have to make a menu plan for the week and go grocery shopping today. I told myself last night that I am going to try new foods and I am going to eat veggies. I "don't" like them. Well, that is what I tell myself all the time. "I hate them. I don't like them. I don't want them. Ew. No way." Well, like I tell my children... "how do you know you don't like it unless you try it?". Same applies to me. I've never given veggies a good chance. So instead of going into this with a "no way" attitude, I am going to give everything a chance, a couple of times, and make myself like it. :)

DD is still sick today, so I don't know if I will be able to make my walk. Depends on how she feels later OR if DH gets home from work earlier enough for me to go alone. If anything, I will be dancing and cleaning today so that should burn a few calories.

So my goals for today: clean playroom, bedroom, bathroom, organize closet, light straightening up in kitchen and living room, finish laundry and (hopefully) walk two miles. Oh yeah, plan my menu for the week and go grocery shopping.

shy: My two oldest daughters are only 19 months apart. They are definately a handfull. My three year old is the most work. Even more so than the 10 month old. :laugh:

I need some ideas. I am going to print a list of meal ideas that I can eat so when I get hungry and my mind goes blank... I don't fall back on habit. I can refer to my list and make something from the list. I only need help with breakfast, lunch and snacks. I plan my dinners a week in advance so my dinners are already pre-planned. Here is what I have so far. Please give me ideas. I am very picky (like a three year old) but willing to try new food.

Breakfast
Cereal (cheerios or special k) with low fat milk
Whole wheat english muffin with 1 TBS peanut butter
Scrambled eggs (eggbeaters) on whole wheat toast
Oatmeal

Lunch
Turkey sandwich on wheat bread w/ honey mustard & light mayo
Turkey Pita with lettuce, honey mustard and light mayo
Salad with grilled chicken breast (light dressings, gotta try some to find the right one)

Snacks
Pretzels
Jell-O with light whipped cream
Fat Free Pudding
Fruit (apples, oranges, grapes, strawberries)
Baby Carrots
Celery with Peanut Butter
Frozen Grapes
Baked Chips (are these okay??)

Wow - what a day!

Breakfast: I had scrambled egg whites on one slice of honey oat bread, a couple of apple slices and a light minute maid.
Snack: I had three hershey kisses (read story below)
Lunch: Chicken breast, 5 baby carrots, 2 TBS of ranch dip and a light minute maid.
Snack: Low fat spinach dip with reduced fat ritz crackers
Dinner: Low fat cheesy chicken enchiladas, non-fat refried beans and a sprite.

Exercise: Nothing

Water: 1 Liter

Day started off good and didn't end too bad. I was helping my DD with her math using "kisses". At the end I gave her one and I had three without even thinking. HABITS!!!! It was not until my third one that I forgot "I AM TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT" and I stopped or I would have kept going. I added up the calories and fat... only 3 little kisses cost me 77 calories. DAMN!!! The rest of my day went well. Probably ate a little too much at dinner. I can improve on my portions at dinner. I like having my one sprite at dinner time but once this box is out, no more at home. (DH bought me a box... what was he thinking!!)

I didn't get my housecleaning goals met today. Oh well. My kitchen is clean. I didn't get to walk either. Oh well. I'm going in the morning.

I'm feeling like snacking SO I am going to get my water, get my book, read and go to sleep before I pig out. :)

I just ate a healthly breakfast of 1 cup Special K cereal with 0.5 cup low fat milk and 6oz of OJ with calcium. :) I gotta get ready to go on my 3 mile walk at 9am. My usual partner, she walks at 8:30, cancelled and now I am going with a few FAST walkers at 9. OH MY, I am going to die. :laugh:

Goals for today:

- Walk 3 Miles
- Stretch
- Stay between 1600-1800 calories
- Drink 2 liters of water
- Clean Playroom
- Clean Bedroom
- Clean Bathroom
- Organize Closet

Check in with ya'll later. :D

Hey girl,

Its monday...how are things going today?? Sounds like you have things all planned out, now its just a matter of following through! I know that things get busy and all but try to stick with it. Follow through with your journalling and walks.

What to do instead of eating....I try to keep my hands busy. I find that if my mind is focused on soemthing else I dont eat. SOOO try things like knitting, scrapbooking, puzzle books, typing, reading, watching a good tv program. AND if you cant not eat get yourself lots and lots of heathy stuff. I have loads of baby carrots, celery, apples and such to snack on when its driving me nuts *S*

Good luck
shan

Hey girl,

Its monday...how are things going today?? Sounds like you have things all planned out, now its just a matter of following through! I know that things get busy and all but try to stick with it. Follow through with your journalling and walks.

What to do instead of eating....I try to keep my hands busy. I find that if my mind is focused on soemthing else I dont eat. SOOO try things like knitting, scrapbooking, puzzle books, typing, reading, watching a good tv program. AND if you cant not eat get yourself lots and lots of heathy stuff. I have loads of baby carrots, celery, apples and such to snack on when its driving me nuts *S*

Good luck
shan

Hi Shan,

I have to plan things out but not too far in advance. I have to think today and tomorrow only. I have to have a written plan to go through the day and check things off. It's the only way it will work for me.

I just got back from a FOUR MILE WALK!!! My heart rate is way up, my legs are swollen and MAN I actually feel energized and GOOD. I just ate some mini rice cakes to hold me over until lunch. Those things are gooooood. :)

Now off to rest a bit and then start my house cleaning. Check in later.

Way to go. I too, need things all written out for me. I find this site so valuable. I like being accountable and knowing if I am having a blah day my friends are here to kick me in the butt and keep me going *Smiles*

Glad to hear you walked today!
Shan

I love your goals and rewards system. We have similar stats. I am 185 and want to be 150. I have three kids also. I just joined today so that I can have somewhere and someone to talk to about this agonizing cycle of weight loss.

I love your goals and rewards system. We have similar stats. I am 185 and want to be 150. I have three kids also. I just joined today so that I can have somewhere and someone to talk to about this agonizing cycle of weight loss.

Hi boundbypound! Welcome to DT. I'm new too. :) Feel free to talk to me anytime. I also like to talk. Keeps me busy.

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So I just discovered a new love and it's healthy too!! Grilled chicken breast, chopped up in a low carb/fat wheat wrap tortilla with romaine lettuce, spinach leafs and 1 tsp of honey mustard. YUMMMMMMMMMY!!!!!!! I ate that with some grapes and a 5 calorie Minute Maid Lemonade. I feel satisfied.

I will be walking some more later when I go pick up DD from school AND when we walk to her dance class in the early evening. I wont have a car, so no cheating for me. :)

Hakyni!!!!
Hey You, great job on the walking!:up:
Keep up the Great work!!!
The grilled chicken breast thingy sounds really good, I'm gonna try it!!
I was thinking of trying that imatation crab meat with no fat Miricle Whip and adding a bunch of celery, onion, and spices and having it on a bed of lettuce with maybe some manderine oranges on the side.
I tried "Southwest Porkchops" last night and it was really good 185cals. for a chop.
I really like those mini rice cakes too.
Have a healthy day!!
shy(lynn):) :) :)

Hakyni!!!!
Hey You, great job on the walking!:up:
Keep up the Great work!!!
The grilled chicken breast thingy sounds really good, I'm gonna try it!!
I was thinking of trying that imatation crab meat with no fat Miricle Whip and adding a bunch of celery, onion, and spices and having it on a bed of lettuce with maybe some manderine oranges on the side.
I tried "Southwest Porkchops" last night and it was really good 185cals. for a chop.
I really like those mini rice cakes too.
Have a healthy day!!
shy(lynn):) :) :)

Thanks!! I clocked the milege with my car, it was actually 3.6 miles. I just got back from walking another 0.6 (to get dd from school) and will be walking another 0.6 to walk both DD's to their dance class tonight.

I'm not sure what to make for dinner tonight. I was suppose to do a crockpot meal but FORGOT and it's a little too late now. SO I think I will baked some chicken, squash, potatos and stuffing. DD's request ramen tonight for dinner so RAMEN it is for them. Leaves more chicken for me and my wraps for the week. LOL!!!

OT: A neighbor of mine walked to the school to pick up her son this afternoon and wore NO SHOES. She walked 0.6 miles on the sidewalk and across the asphalt wearing NO SHOES. Is it just me or is that totally DISGUSTING!!?? Not to mention, OW!!! We're in Arizona. We don't have grass. We have rocks and the rocks are all over the sidewalks. OW!!!! And yuck. This isn't the first time I've seen her do it too. Am I overreacting? Not my feet, I guess, but I was totally grossed out.

Okay, gotta feed my kids and start on my chicken. Then dress the little ballerina's and take them to dance class. See you all tonight!!

Going to bed so this will be a short recap of today... overall a GREAT day!!

Breakfast: Special K Cereal with Low Fat Milk and a light minute maid
Snack: Mini Rice Cakes
Lunch: Grilled Chicken, Spinach, Lettuce Wrap
Snack: Reduced Fat Ritz Crackers
Dinner: Chicken Breast, Mashed Potatos, Stuffing and Squash (all small portions)
Dessert: Berry Banana Smoothie (yum)

Water: 1 Liter

Total Calories: 1714
Total Fat: 33
Total Carbs: 287
Total Protein: 86

Exercise: Walked 4.8 Miles

Ya, your neighbor going shoeless does sound yuck! LOL
My first thought was "OMG its january." Then you mentioned Arizona, here in Ontario is snowing and freezing rain *lol*

Sounds like you had a fab day!

Shan

Yup, I'm in Arizona. Not a drop of rain all winter. We broke a record and it's now something like 104 days without rain. IT SUCKS. Although the weather has been beautiful. I would love to see some rain.

I got up late this morning and so I didn't get any breakfast before I left the house. I took DH to work in town, which is about a half an hour from home, near all the yummy fast food places WE don't have. I am also very bad about liking to eat while driving. So everything was against me this morning. I was hungry. I haven't had fast food in a long time. Fast food sorrounded me. I had a long drive. So...

I DID GOOD!!! Not even tempted. I thought for a split second, out of habit more so than anything, "I'll just drive through Mc Donalds for breakfast" but then I thought of all the calories... I drove back home and made myself a health nut english muffin with one tablespoon of peanut butter. :) Drinking my water too. I may make a smootie in a little bit if I am still hungry.

Todays Gameplan:

- Walk 2 Miles
- Clean Playroom
- Do Some Laundry
- Gym
- Skating Tonight w/ DD
- 2 Liters of Water

I think tonight's dinner will be subway. I really wont have time to cook anything today.

FOUR DAYS EATING LOW CALS!!

I just got back from walking two miles. Something interesting happened though. My legs are WEAK. They felt like they had nothing to give. At the end of my walk, one leg nearly gave out. I also felt slightly light headed. What am I doing wrong? I walk at MY pace. I drink water. I'm eating the right amount of calories.... or am I??? I'm drinking a smootie right now to fuel me up. I don't get it...???

I AM EXHAUSTED!! Feel asleep right after my last post and just woke up. Feeling pretty good now. I am not someone that usually takes naps either.

:cheer:

I weighed myself today and the scale said...drumroll please...194.3!!! SEVEN POUNDS DOWN. Okay. I do not believe I really lost seven pounds of fat in less than one week. I do believe I lost water weight AND my first weigh in included meals for the day and my shoes. Today I weighed myself nekkid (hehe) and before dinner. No matter, it's low 190's and I am HAP-HAP-HAPPY to be out of the 200's.

Recap for today:

Breakfast: Health Nut English Muffin with PB
Snack: Banana Berry Smoothie
Lunch: Nothing. I feel asleep during lunch.
Snack: Nothing, I was driving.
Dinner: 6" Club Sandwich from Subway with lettuce, spinach, light mayo and honey mustard. Light Minute Maid Lemonade and baked Lays chips.

Approx. 1350 calories for the day. Not very much BUT I did miss lunch due to a much needed nap, so that's why. It's okay right?

I walked 2 miles too. I did go to the gym but not to work out. WEIRD HUH? I went to get in the steam room and RELAX without my kids. LOL. Mostly, I am just trying to get my 10 month old use to the day care. He only last 25 minutes before they called me. I'm hoping after a few more visits, he'll be okay to last AT LEAST an hour.

I'm making my game plan for tomorrow, tonight, because I have to go to bed soon and get up early. *yawn*

Tomorrow's Game Plan:

- Playgroup @ 9am
- 4 mile walk @ 10:30 w/ friends
- 0.6 mile walk @ 3:10 to get DD from school
- 2+ liters of water
- Healthy breakfast, chicken wrap for lunch, chicken-something for dinner, fruit and smootie for snacks.

I cannot believe I am having NO CRAVINGS or URGES to eat junk. YAY ME!!

Way to go hakyni!!!!
:dc :dc :dc
Who cares if its 7 lbs of water!!! Its still 7Lbs and thats GREAT!!!!!!
Keep up the good work!!! Also great job of passing by good ole' Mickey D's!!!!
I know how hard that is!!! I was in a cranky mood and then when I came across your success it made me feel good! That is why I like this site sooo much, I actually feed off of the positive!! I know how good you feel right now!!!!!
*HUGS*
shy (lynn)

Well this sucks!!!! Why is it everytime you START to diet/exercise, you either 1) get sick or 2) start the TOM? Last night was horrible. I was up every hour in pain. My body ached, I was COLD but sweating, my throat hurt, I couldn't swallow and my head hurt. :( I still feel pretty awful. My throat hurts, my head hurts and my body aches.

So my gameplan for today...

I am not walking, I am not going to playgroup. I am going to be resting all day, eat chicken noodle soup and drink OJ.

:sigh:

So sorry you are not feeling well!Take care of yourself and feel better! It seems like everyone is catching this bug!
shy

Sorry to hear that you feel yucky today,,,,but perhaps that is the reason your legs were so weak yesterday?? You were coming down with something!
Congrats on the weight loss hun! A hint: try weighing yourself as soon as you get up in the am. I heard that that is when you are at your lowest weight....

woohoo to you!
Shan

Sorry to hear that you feel yucky today,,,,but perhaps that is the reason your legs were so weak yesterday?? You were coming down with something!
Congrats on the weight loss hun! A hint: try weighing yourself as soon as you get up in the am. I heard that that is when you are at your lowest weight....

woohoo to you!
Shan


Probably!! I was also very tired yesterday. I've been laying around all day. At least my heads and throat aren't as bad as they were this morning. I still feel weak, achy and TIRED. I hope I feel better by tomorrow. I hate to be out of walking for several days.

Whew! Feeling a bit better now! Hopefully I will be good enough to walk and go to the gym tomorrow. :)

I was just messing around with the calendar and seeing where I can be if I lost approx. two pounds per week.

By the end of March I can be in the 170's.
By my Birthday in mid-May I can be 165!!
By July 1st, when our friends will have their pool done, I will be 150!!

To be at goal by July... not too bad. I think I will reward myself with a big shopping spree (not in the plus size sections!!) for new skinny clothes when I hit 150.

Thats something to aim for!! And at only 2 pounds a week its obtainable!! I cant wait to be able to shop and NOT need plus sizes, hell, to be a size 18 again would be damned nice LOL

Shan

Still sick. I was feeling better last night and then it got bad again during the night and this morning. This really sucks!!! My throat hurts and my head hurts. My body was achy last night.

I am eager to be working out and I can't yet!! Depending on how I feel later, maybe I will do a short walk. I mean, short as in half mile or less. Just to get out and stay on routine. I am planning on going to the gym even if it's only to get in the pool and/or steam room. Maybe the steam room will help release some of these sick toxins? :)

I didn't eat bad yesterday but not good either. I stayed under my calorie limit but I didn't have enough protein or veggies. I am going to aim for 50% carbs, 25% protein today. :) AND drink lots of water!!

Check in later.

My body is fighting something. I am tired and exhausted. I just woke up from a nap and I am still yawning. I may go lay back down.

I ate some scrambled eggs (eggbeaters) and whole wheat toast for a late breakfast. I've had a lot of OJ because OJ makes you feel better when you're sick. LOL. I'm drinking water now. I guess I'm going to miss lunch since it's already 1:00 and I am not hungry yet.

Going back to the couch now. I hate being sick.

BIG SICK HUGS!!!!
i hope you get to feeling better today! We had the BIG BOSS LADY LOL from toronto in teh office today....so no diettalk for me *pout*

Now I have to run to a meeting, I'll getmore time to check up on you tomorrow....take care
Shan

hakyni!!!
Hope you start to feel better soon!:)
Try to at least drink lots of fluids!!! And there is nothing wrong with getting that extra sleep until you start to feel stronger!
*hugs* lynn

No longer weak but still sick. My left ear hurts, my throat hurts, I cannot swallow without pain. Last night (this is funny) I went to the sink to spit because it hurts so bad to swallow and told my mom "I rather spit than swallow" and she died laughing. LOL. Sick, I know, but it was funny. I've tried dayquil, cough drops, throat spray and NOTHING helps. Any suggestion to help this infection go away? Besides a doctor. We don't have health insurance yet. I may go in the steam room today, maybe that will break up some of the "crap" in me. I just took 4 IBprof's to help with the pain. This is awful. :( :( :(

So yesterday I ate good until the end of the day. We took the kids to Chucky Cheeses and I had one slice of pizza. Not even the whole slice, about 75% of it. I don't feel so bad about THAT but I do feel horrible about the soda. I said, only one, no refills. HAH. They only had diet coke and I cannot drink diet coke. So I ended up getting regular coke. It was a small cup, about 12-16 oz and I filled it with ice. Had two refills but didn't drink much of the second refill. Oh well. Today will be better. The COLD felt so good on my throat though.

Hey girl,

Dont sweat the small stuff....its one day and its not like you scraffed a whole pizza or two litre of Coke...baby steps will get you where you want to go!!!!

I am at work and i read the "spit swallow" quote and I snorted so loud...hehe I am sure people think I am nuts...hehe, what can I say, I have a dirty mind...lol

Shan

Ok. I am having the urge to drive thru Carls Jr and get something to eat. I am trying to determine what is making me want to do this. Mostly, I am sick and I don't feel like cooking anything. I'm lazy. I rather drive somewhere, pay someone to make me food and come home and sit on my comfy couch and eat it. Two, I guess I think it will make me feel better. COMFORT. Nothing else sounds good right now. Nothing. EXCEPT some fries dipped in ranch dressing. Well, first thing first... I am going to the gym RIGHT NOW to get in the steam room and weight myself. Then I have to pick DD up from school. THEN we have to go to the store for a couple of things. MAYBE by then, my craving will be gone. If not, I am going to get a kids meal. LOL. PORTIONS. I haven't had fast food in over a week!! And I am someone who use to eat it daily, sometimes twice daily. Hopefully I can stay strong.

Still.Hurts.To.Swallow.

Everything else is better. All better. Except that it hurts to swallow, oh, and my ear. Ugh.

So yesterday... I went to the gym and got in the steamroom. Felt great. I weighed myself prior to that and guess what!! I am down to 190.7!!! I've lost 10 pounds!!! I hope by the end of next week I can be officially in the 180's. :)

I had a "treat" yesterday. I had a craving and I gave it time to subside and it didn't go away. I figure it is okay to have a "not so good" meal once in a while and as long as I don't use it as an excuse to binge. So I went through Carl's Jr and got a meal. I didn't finish the sandwich, only ate a little over half of it because I got full. My main craving was for their fries with ranch. I also had a large soda. I told myself that IF I was going to do this I had to 1) drink two liters of water and 2) walk.

I don't regret it. For the rest of the evening I drank water and ate a cup of light popcorn. Oh and a cup of hot green tea with honey to help with my throat. :) I did drink my two liters yesterday. I also walked 1.5 miles with my kids. So it wasn't a fast walk but it was a walk nonetheless. Better than sitting at home watching TV right?

Back on track today. Not that I really went off track. I think. Well, whatever you want to call my one meal treat... I am back to eating good today. I went to the store yesterday and loaded up on my veggies and fruits. I also got some multi vits and b-complex vits. Lots of water!!! I found a new "diet" soda I like. It's a cherry 7-up that has 5 calories per can. I can handle that. I admit, at first drink I could tell it was "diet". Unlike the minute maid drinks, which taste awesome. After a couple of drinks though, I liked it. I finally may be able to break free from reg. soda for good. LOL. With the minute maid drinks I was lacking one much needed thing... the bubbles. Now I can have my bubbles and drink it too.

Game plan for today:

- Walk kids to the park and back (4 miles)
- Eat healthy
- Drink 2-3 liters of water
- Clean as much as I can!!
- Start Laundry

SOMETHING is so swollen in my throat that I cannot swallow. I cannot not swallow because it hurts, I just cannot swallow or I choke. The food gets stuck. I choked on my multi vits this morning. I couldn't even force it down. I tried to eat some chicken right now and it gets stuck. So, it looks like I am on a soft food only diet until further notice. *sigh*

hakyni!!!
Have you tried gargling with salt water?? I know how it is not to have health insurance,but it sounds like its time for you to see a Dr. You could have strepp! or an ear infection! or worse yet both!! I personally don't like to go to the Dr. I tend to follow my grandmothers old remedys!! My husband gets annoyed with me and tells me I am acting like some kind of witch Dr. LOL!!! But seriously you probally need antibiotics!
Sorry you're feeling so bad!!!
lynn

Hi there.. Welcome! You should likely see a doctor if your throat hurts THAT much. I hope you feel better soon!

Corinna

hakyni!!!
Have you tried gargling with salt water?? I know how it is not to have health insurance,but it sounds like its time for you to see a Dr. You could have strepp! or an ear infection! or worse yet both!! I personally don't like to go to the Dr. I tend to follow my grandmothers old remedys!! My husband gets annoyed with me and tells me I am acting like some kind of witch Dr. LOL!!! But seriously you probally need antibiotics!
Sorry you're feeling so bad!!!
lynn

I definately have strep throat and an ear infection. I did call the doctor yesterday to see if they would do payment arrangements. I could have paid half yesterday and half on Tuesday but they completely refused. They needed full payment before I would be seen and I just do not have the money. So I have to make it work.

I am on a mush-liquid only diet now until further notice!! I took a few bites of a chicken cesar salad today and I could not swallow the chicken. I walked four miles today and everytime I drank water, it killed me. When we stopped at the park to rest, I first started coughing up infected mucus and then blood. DD said "ewww, red spit". I know, not good. WHAT ELSE CAN I DO THOUGH!?!?

I just ate some soup and it felt good on my throat. Seems to have relieved some pain for now. I'm sure I will be drinking more green tea and hot cocoa later though. I may even *gasp* get some ice cream. Considering how LITTLE I am eating, I don't think I scoop of ice cream will sabotage my weight loss right now. With as much (er, little) I am eating, I am on the road to losing another 10 lbs next week. LOL. Hey, I wouldn't mind weighing 180 after only two weeks. It would be a nice JUMP AHEAD of my plan.

So today:

- I walked to the park and back (4 miles)
- Drank 1 liter of water but still sipping...
- Clean a little (I put my walk ahead of cleaning)
- Have not even started one load of laundry but I will...

I am going to gargle with salt in a minute and take another couple of IB prof to stay ahead of the pain!!

You think you're going to wake up after a long night's rest and feel all better... this **** just isn't going away!!!!!!!!!!!! My ear popped last night while blowing my nose, so I got some relief. My throat is still killing me. I had some oatmeal this morning and although it was sort of relieving as it went down, it hurt real bad when it past what the infected area was. OW!! Still, I forced myself to eat the whole bowl, hoping if I swallow enough times, it will start to feel better. :( I'm drinking hot cocoa now. I am planning on going and getting a frozen slushie and popsicles later. Anything to bring relief!! Because even 1000 mg of IB prof isn't doing it!!! Maybe if I NUMB IT!!!

The rest of me feels fine though. I have energy. I don't feel sick. I don't know that I will be walking today though... it looks like rain. WHICH IS GREAT since it's been, what, 110+ days since we've had rain!!! I wouldn't mind some rain.

Check in later.

How are you feeling today love???
Did you do what shy suggested and gargle with salt water. That really does work, that salt kills the infection. I have done it many times!!

I cannot even imagine not having health insurance. I live in Canada so we are completly covered. *sigh* I hate this world sometimes. I wish I could just jump on a private jet and wisk you up here and get you all better.

Have you had any fevers or anything with the pain???

BIG HUGS!!!

Shan

How are you feeling today love???
Did you do what shy suggested and gargle with salt water. That really does work, that salt kills the infection. I have done it many times!!

I cannot even imagine not having health insurance. I live in Canada so we are completly covered. *sigh* I hate this world sometimes. I wish I could just jump on a private jet and wisk you up here and get you all better.

Have you had any fevers or anything with the pain???

BIG HUGS!!!

Shan

I've been resting/napping a lot today. The pain isn't as intense as it was last night or earlier this morning. I am going to drink something warm and freeze some lemonade to make it slushy to snack on later. DH is going to have to do a DQ run later and get me a Cherry Mr. Misty Slush.

This is the first time we've been without insurance. DH can get it through his work but he doesn't make so much YET so we need all the money we can get. Once he starts making more, then we will get the insurance.

I had a fever last night but I am okay today.

Thanks for asking!!!

Sweetie. don't they have clinics for people with no health ins there? I have to go to one and it's only $30 for a visit. you NEED to go to a doctor. Call the health Dept or something. If you have strep and you don't treat it it can cause major damage to your heart. (the doc told me this when I waited too long once) He said it will weaken your heart and put you at risk for a heart attack.. Please.. find a way to get some treatment.

p.s. Good job on dealing with your craving. :)

I hope that you are finding some relief hun. I have had strep a billion times, I catch it alot in the daycares. I know what it feels like!!

Take care
Shan

After my last post, things got much worse.

I slept a lot. High fevers. The pain was INTENSE. By the time I got my Cherry Slush from DQ, it was PAINFUL to drink it. I did drink it. I tried to eat some chicken soup after that but it wasn't worth the pain. This would be the start of my starvation...

I went to sleep and hoped I would wake up and everything would be all better. Very much the opposite in fact. I woke up in intense pain. My mouth was swollen shut. My face and neck were swollen like a pumpkin. I could not talk, well, I could but no one could understand me. I couldn't eat. I couldn't even drink sips of water or anything. I got real sick, I think from not eating and thought I was going to throw up. I went in the bathroom and ended up passing out instead.

I ended up paying out of pocket and went to the doctor. The pain was much too intense and at this point, I think it would have continued to get worse and not better!!

Doctor confirmed it was strep and that my glades were swollen and CAKED in puss. EWWWW!!! He gave me antibotics and anti-inflamotory pills in sample packets to help save me money. I did buy one perscription for a mouth wash to help numb my mouth and throat.

I came home and took the meds... and let me tell you... IT WAS PAINFUL to swallow those pills. The mouthwash is nasty!!! I had a fever and ended up sleeping on the couch the rest of the afternoon. By last night I could finally drink sips of gatorade, still with pain, just not as bad. I attempted to take a bite of something because I was SO HUNGRY but still couldn't open my mouth or even chew it, so I ended up spitting it out. :(

I took my second dose of antibotics and anti-inflamotory this morning. I can drink now. It stings but it's tolerable. No more fever. The swelling has gone done a lot but I still cannot open my mouth or talk well. I still cannot eat. I am VERY HUNGRY but even oatmeal hurts too much to swallow. I hope by tonight I can eat... and I am sorry... but I am going to EAT whatever I want tonight!!! I'm going to Carl's Jr!! I AM SO HUNGRY!!!!!

Good news... when I went to the doctors and they weighed me, I dropped another 2 pounds!! LOL. I am now 188. 180's!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOT. Maybe I will drop a couple more pounds before I can start eating again. I am hoping tonight but I don't know... still swollen.

Ugh. I hope to get back on track soon.

Girl, dont even think about your weight loss right now. Taking care of you is what is important!! Relax, get better and rest. I am so glad that you got to the doctors....

Let us know how things go

Shan

Girl, dont even think about your weight loss right now. Taking care of you is what is important!! Relax, get better and rest. I am so glad that you got to the doctors....

Let us know how things go

Shan

I cannot help myself. Although not eating is the best weight loss diet ever!! 8-| I am resting though. I am not going to attempt walking or working out until I feel 100%. Right now, I just wish I could eat. I may attempt chicken noodle soup in a bit. (ugh) I really want a big fat bean and cheese burrito, a hamburger, large fries, chips and dip... LOL....

I was able to eat some chicken soup with rice and a bread roll. I had to tear off small peices of the bread to fit it in my mouth though, since my mouth will still not open all the way. Is that normal of strep???

I suppose it's just because you waited so long to go to the doctor.
I hope that you're feeling better today.

I am really happy to see you could finally go see a doctor.. I hope you feel better QUICKLY!

Corinna

Some improvement this morning. I have a bit more movement in my mouth and can swallow a little better. Still not 100%.

DH and I went to "eat" and to the movies last night. I ordered some fries and was able to eat abotu half. I had to take a drink with each bite to help the food move down. I couldn't swallow it by myself. It really sucks being at the movies and not being able to eat some popcorn!! Not because I wont but because I really couldn't. LOL. I could only drink about half my soda. I think eating the little bit of fries I did irritated my throat so by the end of the night, it was hurting and getting very hard to swallow. I took some pain pills before bed.

Today my goal is to just be able to eat a full meal and drink!! I am going to get my house clean, since I am feeling better physically (energy-wise) but don't want to push it with walking yet.

I am going to clean and I definately need to do laundry. My household FELL apart with my being sick, since I am the only one who cleans and does laundry. My poor kids haven't had a real dinner in a week. DH would make them ramen or mac n cheese or frozen pizza... 8-| and no veggies!! I always, no matter what I am feeding them, I always include one veggie, be it green beans, peas, corn or mixed veggies. Oh well. At least I know how important MY role is in this house.

Glad to see you up and at em Hakyni....
It is normal to not be able to open your mouth with strep, all your glands swell and make mobility more difficult...

What movie did you and dh go and see?? I saw Brokeback Mountain on the weekend...

See u soon
Shan

Glad to see you up and at em Hakyni....
It is normal to not be able to open your mouth with strep, all your glands swell and make mobility more difficult...

What movie did you and dh go and see?? I saw Brokeback Mountain on the weekend...

See u soon
Shan

I ate half of a breakfast jack and a few bites of a hashbrown this morning. I can drink so much better now. YAY. Hopefully by tomorrow I will be 99%. Friday I am BACK on track with eating right and walking. Although I will be starting slow paced and small distances until my body is full recovered. So maybe a nice 1.5 mile walk around my block at the three year old's speed. :)

Now, I need a nap. (See, my body is still recovering because I am dead tired). I cannot wait to BE BACK!!!

Great. I have 50 chocolate bars sitting in my home. Must.Sell.Them.All.Soon.

School fundraisers! 8-| Anyone wanna buy a chocolate bar? Only $1!!!

hakyni,
I'm glad you are feeling better!!!
Oh no, those dreaded chocolate bars!!! We just did that a few months back!!! Get rid of those things fast!!! They are DEADLY!! LOL The elementry school that my 2 younger ones go to has a bad habit of rewarding the kids with food (that drives me crazy) candy,cici's pizza, coupons from McDonalds, Dairy Mart ect....I really wish that I had the nerve to suggest that they shouldn't do that, but we are realitivly new here and I am afraid of insulting people.The school in Fla. had a strict rule that you were never allowed to send in non healthy foods! It was hard sometimes,(for instance if you had to send in a snack for the class) but I felt it was a good way to start the kids off.
Take it easy and don't over excert yourself, give your body time to heal!!
Have a great day! lynn

hakyni,
I'm glad you are feeling better!!!
Oh no, those dreaded chocolate bars!!! We just did that a few months back!!! Get rid of those things fast!!! They are DEADLY!! LOL The elementry school that my 2 younger ones go to has a bad habit of rewarding the kids with food (that drives me crazy) candy,cici's pizza, coupons from McDonalds, Dairy Mart ect....I really wish that I had the nerve to suggest that they shouldn't do that, but we are realitivly new here and I am afraid of insulting people.The school in Fla. had a strict rule that you were never allowed to send in non healthy foods! It was hard sometimes,(for instance if you had to send in a snack for the class) but I felt it was a good way to start the kids off.
Take it easy and don't over excert yourself, give your body time to heal!!
Have a great day! lynn

Thankfully, I had a peice of one and my taste is off right now from being sick, so it didn't taste good. Now I have no desire to eat any. They are selling though!!! They are giving away "toys" as prizes, thankfully, not food. I don't believe in rewarding children with food either. My three year old will always say... if I do this or that can I get a treat? I say no but we can go here or there or I can give you a quarter. :)

I think I am finally better. Today I am going to get some much needed house cleaning and laundry done. I need to go grocery shopping too. Starting tomorrow I am back on eating right and I may start walking in smaller increments over the next few days. Hopefully by Monday or Wednesday I can get back to 4 miles. I haven't been eating "good" food but I am not eating a lot. Like yesterday, I got a chicken sandwich from BK and ate half of it. Couldn't finish the sandwich or even eat one fry. No appetite. NOT COMPLAINING. Last night I was hungry so DH and I went through Carls. He ordered a $6 burger meal, large, plus onion rings... WOW. I order a large fry, ate half and he ate the rest of my fries!! Even in small amounts though, I don't like eating like this, so tomorrow, I am back to good food. :)

Check in later.

Glad to hear you are feeling better, we dont sell chocolate bars up here we sell Regal and COOKIE DOUGh....omg, cookies are my weakness. Do you know how long its been since I had a cookie *CAN YOU SEE THE DROOL?????*

ok, back on track., glad you feel better....start slow *S*

Shan

We only have four chocolate bars left!! And I didn't have to buy them all!! I only bought four and my 3 year old sneaked and ate them!!!

Ok. I am better now. ALL BETTER. Yay me. Now it's time to get back in the groove. Not today though. I am cleaning and then we're going out to dinner with some family we haven't seen in a while. So tomorrow. Yeah, tomorrow. I will walk and I will eat good. All the soda is gone so it's back to water or light soda.

So this morning I was feeling a bit emotional and wrote a poem to my dad. The short story is, my dad feel victim to Meth the year I got married and over the course of seven years he has changed into a person I do not know. I don't even know where he is at the moment. I haven't seen him in years. Prior to his addiction, I had a pretty decent dad. So here's my poem:

You will always be my daddy,
and I will always be your baby girl.
Even though we no longer know each other,
even though we're in different worlds.

I miss you every single day,
you're only now a memory,
as though you died years ago,
yet you are still living.

I know you want to be different,
I know you do not mean to hurt me,
I know you don't know how to do what is right anymore,
I know you long to live differently.

You make me angry,
and you bring me pain,
because of your life's choices...
I have to stay away.

I miss you deeply,
and I want my "daddy" back.
I only have memories...
but today a "relationship", I lack.

My children do not know you,
they ask me all the time...
"where is your daddy, mama"
I sit quietly and want to cry.

I wish you knew how,
to escape the world you live,
but I accept the situation
and what it has always been.

I know you do not mean to hurt me.
I know that deep inside your full of pain.
I know you regret your choices
but don't know how to escape the game.

I forgive you for hurting me.
For causing me so much grief.
I love you more than you realize.
I wish I could help bring you relief.

So with all that said,
I'm sorry to go.
I have to say good bye
because the pain is too much you know.

WOW, girl that poem is very very powerful!
My dad is my best friend, I honestly do not know what I would do if he was not who he is!! Keep strong!

Glad to hear you are feeling better
Shan

I'm sorry about your dad.. :console: Great poem. :)

Corinna

I relasped back to old habits of eating out, eating junk, drinking soda and not working out. I am so ashamed. I will weigh in tomorrow to see how much damage was done.

I am back on track today. I am going to walk four miles with my mom in about an hour. I ate scrambled eggs (egg beaters) and whole wheat toast for breakfast with some OJ. I am freezing my water now so it will be nice and slushy by time we go walk.

I have to do some mental exercise as well. I need to start self talking to myself about the purpose of food, why I want to lose weight and that I can do it. I am really bad with my thoughts. I will think "but food is so good, it makes me feel good, I need it, I am okay being overweight, weight shouldn't matter and I haven't succeeded in the past so I wont succeed now." NO MORE OF THESE THOUGHTS!! Instead I am going to think "food is fuel for my body to make me feel good and healthy, I want to be thin, I want to be sexy, I want to shop for skinny clothes, I can do it this time."

I can do it.

I am so glad to see you back! never mind the set back....you are back now and that is GREAT!
You can do it!!! Have a Good walk with your mom!!
lynn

We only walked two miles. My three old was having a hard time and so we cut the walk short. Hey, it's my first day back. It's something. I didn't want to go either. BY time it came to go and my mom was ready, I didn't want to go. If she didn't walk, I know I wouldn't have gone. So I'm glad we got out. I'm eating some fruit right now... oranges, grapes and strawberries. Yum. Half done with my 1 liter of water. Re-freezing it though because my water has to be ICE cold. I can't drink warm water.

See ya later.

Hey!!
Where are you?? I disappeared for a while too but am back! How are things going????? Are you walking and eating right?? Keep it up and let us know how things are goin

Shan

Would you believe I have strep throat AGAIN!!!

Yes, a few days ago it came back. Mouth completely swollen and all. I went to the Dr. yesterday and he hooked me up with the antibotics and anti-inflammatories. My throat is still sore but not so swollen today. Still can't eat much. THIS SUCKS.

Hakyni!!!!
I am sooo sorry you are sick again!! That so totally sucks!!! Well hopefully you caught it quicker this time and it won't be as bad as the last time!! Get Better Soon!
lynn

OMG....I am sending you big hugs
I am so sorry that you are going through all of this!!

Sending feel better vibes!
Shan

Better for now. I am doing really good about taking all my vitamins now, so hopefully it wont come back. I am so off track, it makes me mad. I am starting today though. Escept for the next week I am doing a fruit/veggie fast. I am only going to be eating fruits, veggies and water for ONE WEEK. Plus my vits and I am going to GNC today to get some detox stuff. I want to cleanse my body. :) So in addition to my "fast" I am going to try to hit the gym daily for a few minutes in the steam room and walk a min of 2 miles per day. I have to get in shape.

Why is it so hard to get going again? I am motivated right now but come this evening I'm going to be looking at the cookies... ugh. Self talk. I can do it. I can do it. I will do it. I want to do it. Think of the awesome body I can have by doing it. If I don't do it, I will stay fat. I'm sick of being embarassed in front of people. I want to go to California and see my family and have them go "wow!! you've lost weight!!"

I can do it.

I will weigh in today to see what the damage is and go from there. I would like to lose about 10 pounds in the next two weeks and I think with the fast, water and walking, I can do it.

hakyni!!!
great to see you back!!!So glad you are feeling better!!!You are so right.......
YOU CAN DO IT!!!!! just keep thinking of "The Little Engine That Could"
lynn {{{HUGS]]]:D